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We usually have a saying that "broken dishes are for good luck", but you can hardly call shrapnel cuts on your leg and dripping blood "good luck".
Although, I was very lucky that the shards didn't get stuck in my skin, so the luck did come 🙃 I'm a lucky bastard, ayoo
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December 31, 2014: Looking back, 10 years later... I think he did just that! ❤️🥠
#dan#daniel howell#danisnotonfire#y:2014#via:instagram#10yearsofdnp#ok technically he posted this at 1am uk time but i'm in america so the caption says 2014 OH WELL#anyway i think this is a really nice sentiment for the new year#and it's wild to think of all the ways he actually accomplished this#thank you for sticking with me for these past few weeks btw!!#i cannot WAIT to celebrate all of 2015's anniversaries with y'all#it's gonna be my 10th anniversary as a phannie too which is INSANE#who knows - maybe dnp will even acknowledge this blog?#i'm completely fine with them finding it now that all the 2009 stuff is far behind us#i know they're never on here but maybe they'll see the twitter account at least!
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losing my mind this was such a strug to make my silhouette machine HATES ME TT
#i will print more of the new ones later but at least i got a test batch in#also i listened to the women in f1 podcast and it was like... fine -__- but i hate the journalistic inability to address underlying#causes of social inequity head-on... like the idea that girls are inherently scared of math / that women all unerringly require#accommodation for raising a family (Lol Ok) which creates increased pressure on the recruitment pipeline#in the end i got a whole bunch of like “so we're not really doing all that much but i'm sure our optimism will get us there eventually”
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I would say that, considering his history, he's not that wrong, but even I have doubts as to whether that would be right. But at the end of the day, this is just a joke that's been in my head for a while, sooooo…eh.
Oh hey, an attempt at a comic? Made by me? That I didn't give up during the process or lost all motivation? What was my only attempt at this, 2019? Damn, it's been a long time.
I thought about leaving this here without editing or any colors, just the natural ones from the paper and pencil. But something in my head said "HAHAHA, no" so I went back to work. I had to put this idea down on paper this time (literally). If another year passes without me being able to execute this idea, I would lose my mind.
This scenario was inspired by this video by Jehtt, inspired by the original meme by Windii. Credits to both of them.
For a long time I wanted to joke - especially on the anniversary - that I wanted Sammy to only have less than 5 seconds in the next game (or in other words, take his screen time in DR, and shorten it even more). You know, just for the funnies (unless..?) But,thanks to the news released at the beginning of January this year about The Cage, I legally can't do this joke anymore…this year. Don't worry, after that comes out (and finally gives Sam the screen time he wants,hopefully) and we start to crawl into the Bendy 3 production era, I'll make this joke when I can.
Anyway, happy birthday Sammy Lawrence. You may not be my favorite character in this franchise, but there are some things I can actually appreciate about you. Plus, you made me laugh a few moments before (you know what I'm talking about) so there's that.
And happy 7 years to Chapter 2, and by extension, Susie, Norman, Alice, the Searchers, (Johnny????), and Beta Ink Bendy. (I would mention Jack too, but he was only introduced with the release of CH4, so technically it's not his birthday yet, but I'll consider him here).
And now? May I be able to do something for CH4's anniversary. Wish me luck,cus I'll need it.
(it might be really late now, but it's still the 18th where I live, so it's still his birthday, so I still won)
#bendy and the ink machine#batim#bendy and the dark revival#batdr#sammy lawrence#porter batdr#batdr porter#crookedsmileart#another fun fact: I thought of this comic with Wally in mind instead of Porter#Problem is I don't have any designs at the moment of Wally as his ink counterpart;and I didn't want to have to think of a design for him no#So I switched to Porter;I think it still fits#my relationship with Sammy is complicated#Sammy; as the human director of the music department? He is ok. He's not my favorite of the human cast; but I don't dislike him. He's fine#Sammy; the prophet? Eehhh. I prefer the human.#Like there are things I can actually appreciate about him.#Certain details that I find interesting. And his appearance in CH2; for what it is; it's not bad at all.#But in general? I'm not very interested in this guy (at least;this version of him) And his post-CH2 appearances don't really help his cause#I still believe they had no plan to bring Sammy back later in the story#but because of his popularity they decided “yep;let's bring him back”; problem is: I don't think they knew what to do with him after CH2#and one might argue that they still don't know#Hopefully;The Cage will finally give Sammy the screen time he so desperately needs.#and maybe; then; I can finally start to like him a little more (okay; let's not go that far now)#Maybe his deaths in the franchise aren't his happiest moments; but they were definitely mine#HAHAHAHAAHHA (/j.....unless)
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#sorrrry pity party part 1323 incoming#i am finally feeling slightly better - still no appetite and not like myself but i want to get up and showered and dressed and stuff#and can actually walk around#and mr sportsthoughts has just come upstairs and looks like death and it sounds like he is now coming down with what i've had#we thought he already had it but it never progressed past a cold so i think it was something different & now he's caught the plague from me#i just want to cry. and go to sleep until 2025 so this year can be over#we have cancelled SO MUCH this week and are going to literally miss every single friends and family christmas occasion at this point#and hahahaahaa at least we'll be fine by jan when we have to go and fly and see his parents which is the one thing we both don't want to do#and its fine we are ok we're together we're fortunate to be in a dry warm house etc#i'm just really letting my feelings get the better of me because i have put so much emphasis on christmas this year - even more than usual#because it's been such a rotten year and christmas was just this wonderful few weeks where he'd be home and we had all these special plans#and it was the one thing keeping me going and now it's here and well. we aren't exactly on tip top festive form#womp womp. nothing can be done! at least i'm alive and on the mend
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#okay so#background: my family lives like 500 km from me#a few weeks ago my mom said she'll come up for my birthday party which at first i wasn't too thrilled about#but mostly bc i always stress myself and i feel like i have to take care of them#today my sister called and said she is changing work places so she unexpectedly has a few vacation days#and she wants to come too so i was like yea cool#and my parents are always like “ugh your mom/dad doesn't want to go on vacation with me anyway”#and my mom and my sister technically invited themselves#so i was like ok i dont want my dad to feel left out even though he could also like initiate it and say yo my daughter is turning 30#and i've actually haven't seen her apartment#or have visited her in 6 years#and he can be a lil socially awkward so i was like ok I'll invite him#or at least tell him he's welcome#so i did that and he was like 'yea thanks but I'm not coming :)'#which is. obviously fine i guess but yeah#makes me feel real loved#also i specifically called him and after that one minute conversation#he was like 'yea ur moms here too i'll give her to you bye'#thanks i guess#lenis life
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I'm reading poetry at 1 am and spiraling over like 45 emotions at once, which is how poetry was meant to be enjoyed, I think
#hella off topic in tags again lol#current list of favorites:#The Kiss by Stephen Dunn#Connubial by Stephen Dunn#Rain by Raymond Carver#the lesson of the moth by Don Marquis#May to December by Megan Fernandes (I need to buy her book at some point)#The Woman Who Turned Down a Date with a Cherry Farmer by Aimee Nezhukumatathil#and I Like My Body When It Is With Your by E.E. Cummings.#I do not CAREEEEEEEEE if any of this is low-brow poetry. I do not know what high-brow high-quality poetry even is and I'm fine with that.#all I care about is if it makes me feel things and if I personally like it ❤️. I do this for fun and not to rip it apart because it's 'bad'#i've spent too much time around pretentious literary people and that shit seems exhausting! ngl!!!#I have no interest in it. even if what I love is garbage then at least I love it#and I am not just pretending to love it because it makes me look smarter or whatever.#it's one thing if you're autopsying poems out of love for literary analysis and criticism or for a degree#but nothing gets me more than people who ruin others' enjoyment of simple things just to feel above them.#like oh? you like better poetry than me? you care more about feeling smart than enjoying things? should we throw a party? should I call CNN#sorry 😭 this got so salty but pretentious people really tick me off. I've met far too many of them#and I am PERFECTLY HAPPY with my trash interests! I am a raccoon! I love trashy things! thank you very much!#ok i'm going to sleep now though because in true 1 am fashion I am not staying on topic lol.#I tryyyyy to keep complaining/negativity to a minimum here but whatever. I am allowed to have this lol#I like my maybe-bad-poetry-but-i-wouldn't-know. I like bad 90s music. I like campy-ass batshit 2009 FFN fics. I like taco bell. amen.
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it's like I can't enjoy anything at all. I can't care about anything because it's always going to go bad. I'm always going to have to choose between having a relationship with God, or the things that I enjoy, and it's so frustrating.
#I know He's not MAD at me but then if in this moment I'm NOT disobeying Him why can't I feel Him the way I normally do when I pray#it makes no sense and I just wish that I had never seen that shupid t shirt on hot topic#because I was fine before that. dying inside? OK whatever I just won't read it. the couple of songs that are weird about God?#whatever I won't listen to those ones#the ioh tarot cards imagery? whatever not only is that from years ago it's also not really reflected in the lyrics#I was fine with it until I saw that stupid. t shirt with the planchette design or whatever and it all came crashing down#why didn't any of that bother me enough before if this is such a big issue? if I was disobeying or not listening to God at that point#why didn't I feel any differently in my prayers?? hot topic merch should be the LEAST of my concerns so like why this and why now#maybe it is PMS. idk. maybe it's God asking me to step back but not fully away? but I don't see how that can work#I need RULES I need hard black and white rules to function. what am I allowed to do. what am I NOT allowed to do. etc
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The week has already started and I already wish it was over😔
#negative#Had a not very pleasant experience on the train today#men are the worst sometimes#I'm ok! It was just very uncomfortable#I was hoping I'd be fine but I guess I'm more shaken up about it than I thought I would be#Y'know it's bad when my mother was like “Are you sick or something? Tired?” because I seemed so out of it and unresponsive#And I still got some important assignments to work on but I'm struggling to focus...#Augh! At least I don't have class tomorrow- I don't have to go out#Oh to just lay in Snow's arms. No kissing bc I'm too icked by that rn but just chill there#Or cuddle with my gf Melia...I don't really wanna think of men (other than Snow) rn
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gotta be about the worst theme anybody ever made but it's mine :)
#do people still look at desktop themes lol.....i know i do!!#anyway. i have 0 coding knowledge and i'm not just saying this it's a fact. so this was dskbfj...a process.#there's a lot i want to improve and change and i really need to figure out how to properly center the container & background...#because it may look fine now but it didn't work how it was supposed to and that can't be good lol#in my wildest dreams the site would be responsive but bkjsbfkjbsk at this rate i think not. and also no one cares. i know this :)#what bothers me tho are the source and via permalinks but i couldn't quiteeee figure them out. even w/tutorials 😭#so that's gonna stay on ice for now#oh and i need a better description to put on the sidebar there. this is just redundant with the links below#but at least it's functional rn (??) and in MY computer and browser it looks ok :')
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real life sickness stuff in tags bc i need to vent and try to calm myself lmao
#my husband has the flu 🫠#literally hit him like a truck last night at like 8pm and hes been suffering ever since#and normally i would be v into this whole scene lol but honestly im just ✨worried✨#about him but also about our 4yr old who has been home with us for 12 days#and also for me LMAO#bc of course i tried laying with him last night to comfort him and he feverishly coughed right in my face 😀 great 😀#my daughter got her flu shot but we havent gotten ours yet so im like hopefully at least she'll be spared???#but its so weird bc ive never ever ever had health anxiety...ever#the opposite really most of my life#but this time ive been like spiraling into a panic attack all night last night and all day lol#and i dont want to hover over him and be like are you ok are you ok are you ok lol but like...is he ok haha#anywayyyy I'm just scared bc weve literally NEVER had the flu. ever.#and its much more intense in real life than in fics not gonna lie!!!!#im sure itll be fine. everything is fine 😅#off to take a bath in lysol ttyl 🫡
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https://www.instagram.com/reel/DCfU26AyVaM/?igsh=cDlzNXVrdDBvd281
Ja’Marr’s bag 😂😂😂
oh nooooo i hate it
#oh wow not a fan of ja'marr's look at all i'm so so sorry to say#like ok. the top half is fine. love that gaudy nola chain.#HATE the pants HATE whatever the fuck this bag is oh my god lmao#but hey. at least he's being adventurous. good for him.#(do i have any overlapping taskmaster/football fans)#(because emma JUST brought in a jeans bag like two weeks ago for her prize task lmao)
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Wow, i couldn't believe that the Grand National Assembly of Sordland are a bunch of racists bigots. I mean how dare they shut down the bill and doesn't give the bill a chance and being voted to the assembly. They are clearly blinded by sollism and patriotism. What a crying shame to this assembly. What's the plan now since most of the Grand National Assembly immediately shut down the bill? Retry and such?
i can't believe the bunch of legislators i had to wine, dine, bribe, and fight tooth and nail with to get them to go with my 'let's help the people that need it' reforms shot down my bill to keep helping the people that need it! who could have seen that coming! obviously not me!!!!
well, my first plan was to abolish democracy and bring the bill back from the dead, but nia is not gonna like that, and that's a line i'm not going to cross. i know she's disappointed as well, cause she really felt this cause was important, but she would never stoop so low as to remove the rightful will of the people. i wonder how she's taking this...
[SOMEWHERE IN THE GRAND NATIONAL ASSEMBLY - POV: YOU'RE A USP MEMBER THAT VOTED NAY ON THE AUTONOMOUS ZONE BILL]
#juli answers#suzerain#LET NIA HIT PEOPLE WITH A GIANT HAMMER. THE CONSTITUTION SAYS NOTHING ABOUT HITTING PEOPLE WITH A GIANT HAMMER.#well ok maybe the criminal code does. IT'S A RUBBER HAMMER IT'S FINE DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT.#ah man i am Still mad. but it's fine. yeah i'll probably retry some other time.#i'm going to go back a few turns and ally with frens because...idk maybe that gets me enough votes? but i can see part of the usp getting#pissed at that so idk it might be really ANTover for us here#well guys at least we got articles 6 and 7. small victories.#juli doodles#jules plays suzerain
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how morally apprehensible is it to fight a 12 year-old
#rambumbles#my sister lost one of my earrings. she said she didn't but she is lying.#it was one of the earrings that they used to first pierce my ears. at first I was like ok. it's fine. I am more upset that she is lying.#but then. I go to see if I can get a new set so that my ears do not close up because they do so quickly.#forty dollars. FORTY. dollars.#for plain stainless steel earrings.#I'm fighting my sister#like at least fess up. come on.#urghhhhhhh#I was having a good day and now I'm just Upset
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Replaying Turnabout Tr*mp for the second time ever since 2019 and thinking to myself that it's actually a decent case and that i've given it an unnecessary amount of flack over the years..... and then Phoenix admits to presenting forged evidence.
#listen. i am down with the idea of Beanix. having a flawless run as a lawyer until he got screwed over and turned into whatever the fuck#i'm also down with his shift in character although not at all convincing. he's had a rough 7 years and went from anxiety guy to cool dude#fine. whatever. hate to see it happen but interesting development for a previous protagonist. the fall of his career changed him. ok#but changing his values? Mia Fey's disciple presenting forged evidence? no thank you <3#honestly as annoying and uninteresting as Apollo is i'd have punched Phoenix too in that moment#i still want to keep an open mind and give the game a fair shot but holy fuck is it bathing in its own blasphemy. seriously#ace attorney#apollo justice#and you know what's even worse? desecrating a character just to then cowardly backpedal one game later#no. fuck the backlash. you've made a mess so at least remain consistent with it. that's why AJ > DD easily
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Me when Biblical Allusion in Ninjago



#forever and always obsessed with it jesus fucking christ 😭😭😭😭#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAJDJEJAKSMDJSDHFKDMASKDKD#ninjago#garmadon man I just. I love him. I love him so much.#listen the only reason I'm an FSM hater is because I project my religious and parental trauma onto Garmadon ok??#like the guy himself is. fine ig. he's fascinating at least and he's a very necessary character with all his flaws#but dammit let a traumatized exmo have his fun
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