#rambumbles

[headslikekites]

always confuses me greatly when people say "don't be inspired by my works". like how do you enforce that. and why.

sorry buddy I know it's a beautiful sunset but the owner of the sky said we can't create in its image anymore

[celestial-blight]

My partner and I have been dating for 4 years. Zero arguments. We've had disagreements, but we never fight with each other because we're both committed to communicating! It's not hard to be open and effective when communicating with the people around you, you just need to foster a non-judgemental and safe environment within your circles.

are you ever like damn why is literally everyone else scared of openly communicating and being direct and truthful and honest

[nordberger-blog]

The senseless ramblings of a known rambumbler.

A friend once told me I rambumble. To rambumble is to ramble and mumble, or ramble into a mumble. Essentially, I am known to ramble on to such an extent that, seemingly, even I lose interest and start to mumble, until the ramble drifts into nothingness. "You're mumbling. What did you say?" Unfortunately, I have no idea. You see, I stopped listening before you did.  It's a problem — or it isn't. It's a solution? Interest lost. gg.

I'm not working tomorrow. It's a pleasant surprise. I was sure I was, but I hadn't really checked my schedule. I got Monday off this week, which was great. It's a much needed reprieve after the four day closing stretch that is my closing weekend. Monday is my sixth day, before the Tuesday I get off every week. I'm pretty useless on those Mondays. Anyway, I'm off tomorrow, hence my writing some self-indulging bullshit at 2 AM on a Thursday. Whiskey, music, and writing. There was a time that this was the biggest part of my life — sort of, I don't think I drank whiskey then. I'm not sure what I drank. Alcohol.

I really like writing in a stream of consciousness sort of way. We're on to a new thing, by the way. The problem is: I'm also constantly aware of grammatical errors. I'm not expert on grammar. I'm not sure if a colon was the right choice in that last sentence. What I do know, I immediately see when I've made an error. It doesn't fit much with a fluid stream of consciousness. I've misspelled consciousness twice. Good thing I have spell check. That second 'c' is an elusive son of a bitch. Where was I? Oh yeah, grammatical accuracy and a stream of consciousness don't play well together. They don't play well together, for me at least. I don't have the confidence I'd like to have when it comes to writing. What do I do when I have two prepositions in a row like that? Does each preposition get a comma?

I try to play repeat when I drink. It's not just alcohol. It's a decrease in inhibitions — a lowering of the guard. If I hadn't drank a drop, but was overly tired, I get to the same place. Maybe it's natural. I wasn't happier then. I was actually pretty unhappy on a grand scale. I think I was able to enjoy little happinesses better when I was generally unhappy.

I'm not involved enough with this. My brain is even more sporadic than usual. I suppose ending here works well enough. It's a horrible place to end. I haven't introduced myself. I haven't made a point. This seems about right. I'm sorry, friend. It's best you understand now. I wouldn't want you to get your hopes up.

[headslikekites]

I've never played nor ever held any interest in baldur or their gate but judging from osmosis I think that astarion is the same type of character as that white motherfucker from mrs. spider's sunnypatch friends

[headslikekites]

"remember it's ok to be a little socially awkward sometimes and that people will probably forget about it!"

ok but what if they kill me. what if I do it wrong and they kill me with hammers

[headslikekites]

oh yeah well watch what I can do

[has a headache]

[headslikekites]

trying to find free beginner-level programs feels like that one xkcd comic about experts overestimaing the knowledge of those outside their field

[headslikekites]

autism creature but in a deer-in-the-headlights type way

[headslikekites]

how morally apprehensible is it to fight a 12 year-old

[headslikekites]

ranting about corporations turning to AI shit to save money and not pay people and my mom just says "oh you sound bitter" and. yeah a bit ??

[headslikekites]

allieviating gender dysphoria by reminding myself that I have smaller boobs than nagito komaeda

[headslikekites]

delirious in dungeon

[headslikekites]

tornado knocked out the power in my house on tuesday and we've had no progress since feeling BAD

[headslikekites]

how am I only 2 hours into my shift I an going to die badly

[headslikekites]

coworker told me yesterday that I seem like the type of person to have seen/enjoyed murder drones. is that good or bad. I know nothing about it

[headslikekites]

there's something so Something about spending several years confident in thinking "I probably don't have [this thing]" and then at somepoint pondering a little too long on certain aspects of yourself and having the realization of your wrongness hit you likea ton of wet bricks