#rambumbles

[headslikekites]

unrestrained convention fun

[celestial-blight]

My partner and I have been dating for 4 years. Zero arguments. We've had disagreements, but we never fight with each other because we're both committed to communicating! It's not hard to be open and effective when communicating with the people around you, you just need to foster a non-judgemental and safe environment within your circles.

are you ever like damn why is literally everyone else scared of openly communicating and being direct and truthful and honest

[nordberger-blog]

The senseless ramblings of a known rambumbler.

A friend once told me I rambumble. To rambumble is to ramble and mumble, or ramble into a mumble. Essentially, I am known to ramble on to such an extent that, seemingly, even I lose interest and start to mumble, until the ramble drifts into nothingness. "You're mumbling. What did you say?" Unfortunately, I have no idea. You see, I stopped listening before you did.  It's a problem — or it isn't. It's a solution? Interest lost. gg.

I'm not working tomorrow. It's a pleasant surprise. I was sure I was, but I hadn't really checked my schedule. I got Monday off this week, which was great. It's a much needed reprieve after the four day closing stretch that is my closing weekend. Monday is my sixth day, before the Tuesday I get off every week. I'm pretty useless on those Mondays. Anyway, I'm off tomorrow, hence my writing some self-indulging bullshit at 2 AM on a Thursday. Whiskey, music, and writing. There was a time that this was the biggest part of my life — sort of, I don't think I drank whiskey then. I'm not sure what I drank. Alcohol.

I really like writing in a stream of consciousness sort of way. We're on to a new thing, by the way. The problem is: I'm also constantly aware of grammatical errors. I'm not expert on grammar. I'm not sure if a colon was the right choice in that last sentence. What I do know, I immediately see when I've made an error. It doesn't fit much with a fluid stream of consciousness. I've misspelled consciousness twice. Good thing I have spell check. That second 'c' is an elusive son of a bitch. Where was I? Oh yeah, grammatical accuracy and a stream of consciousness don't play well together. They don't play well together, for me at least. I don't have the confidence I'd like to have when it comes to writing. What do I do when I have two prepositions in a row like that? Does each preposition get a comma?

I try to play repeat when I drink. It's not just alcohol. It's a decrease in inhibitions — a lowering of the guard. If I hadn't drank a drop, but was overly tired, I get to the same place. Maybe it's natural. I wasn't happier then. I was actually pretty unhappy on a grand scale. I think I was able to enjoy little happinesses better when I was generally unhappy.

I'm not involved enough with this. My brain is even more sporadic than usual. I suppose ending here works well enough. It's a horrible place to end. I haven't introduced myself. I haven't made a point. This seems about right. I'm sorry, friend. It's best you understand now. I wouldn't want you to get your hopes up.

[headslikekites]

that fucking organ that I hate

[headslikekites]

being scheduled to go into work at 9:30pm is a new special kind of hell I'm realizing

[headslikekites]

I think if I ever get to make a cartoon I would make a secret account so I could make amvs. of my cartoon

[headslikekites]

fuck it 12am mothposting

old oc (name of iris) sketches from uhh a couple years ago? pre-bsd era which I think is funny.

she got a small revival in 2023(?) for artfight but then I got. distracted. right after (bsd era).

80% of her character I think was me wanting to make yuri of her with a fire-based character who she was opposition to for the 'moth-to-a-flame' pun.

I probably have more even older sketches from like highschool but I am Not digging through my closet for those sketchbooks tonight

a couple years ago I also briefly played with the idea of mothsona. these are the only sketches I could find of that

I did also try mothsona again recently before pivoting ever-so-slightly over to Slug.

ok mothposting over goodnight

[headslikekites]

does anyone want to send things for me to draw tomorrow. my brain hasn't been able to rest enough to have ideas yet

[headslikekites]

always confuses me greatly when people say "don't be inspired by my works". like how do you enforce that. and why.

sorry buddy I know it's a beautiful sunset but the owner of the sky said we can't create in its image anymore

[headslikekites]

I've never played nor ever held any interest in baldur or their gate but judging from osmosis I think that astarion is the same type of character as that white motherfucker from mrs. spider's sunnypatch friends

[headslikekites]

is the desktop site broken as fuck for anyone else

[headslikekites]

"remember it's ok to be a little socially awkward sometimes and that people will probably forget about it!"

ok but what if they kill me. what if I do it wrong and they kill me with hammers

[headslikekites]

oh yeah well watch what I can do

[has a headache]

[headslikekites]

last night I was making a joke to my coworker about having to watch for hawks every time I go outside (because I am 5'2)

and he. didn't realize I was joking.

[headslikekites]

actually would anyone get mad at me if I just dumped a bunch of old (from like 2-4 years ago) genshin sketches/doodles/edits I never finished or posted anywhere

[headslikekites]

trying to find free beginner-level programs feels like that one xkcd comic about experts overestimaing the knowledge of those outside their field