#asmr diet

[fluffybellyhog99]

New ASMR Out:

To Video

[redrayvenrr]

Y'all are sleeping on Sweets headcanons, so I am here to pick up the slack (which ended up becoming a long rant, and I'm not sorry)

-Sweets' bitch from another ditch Gael is a tattoo artist, y'all know Sweets is Gael's test dummy

Sweets is probably covered head to toe in the randomists tattoos. They got at least one full sleeve, 7 of them are incomplete, and maybe like 3-5 of them are actually ones Sweets wanted

But I offer you Nat coloring Sweets' tattoos to the point where Sweets buys her temporary tattoo markers for her birthday

-Essence Eaters live longer than the average person, right? So Sweets could easily be twice Law's age but is still making fun of him and calling him an old man despite him being in his 20's (imagine Sweets being born in the 70's-80's and Law 90's-early 2000's XD Sweets is very happy that ripped jeans are back in style)

I also imagine Sweets with longer hair because at some point they decided that going to get a hair cut every month or so is too much of a hassle for how long their life span is (and I offer you Sweets eventually needing to dye their hair grey to match Law's so they still look like a couple to non-attuned (I'm not sorry))

Also, remember that in the "getting patched up-" video Law says that "this doesn't look like one of the little scuffles you do for fun at the circle"???? Hello??? Street fighter Sweets??? Go kick ass Sweets you got this baby

-And scars?? I'd imagine they'd obviously have the few you get from childhood, and if we're going with street fighter Sweets, then they probably have a bit more than normal. Like on their knuckles and maybe one on their cheek/forehead/lip/ankles or something. But ya know, it's just for fun, and every once in a while, they're not addicted to fighting or anything

But then the fight with Joel? Joel was out for blood, and Sweets practically died. There are definitely scars, one of which I imagine being a scratch over their eye cause I'm edgy like that (plus it makes sense that Joel would use everything in his arsenal to take down the all powerful Sweets which means nails and playing dirty).

But there is definitely a bite scar since he drained Sweets' lifeforce, which is why they were so concerned about Law getting scarred after the train incident. They don't want him living through that pain they feel every time they see their own bite scar (and ya know they can't live with the idea of hurting Law so "please at least don't let my mistakes scar")

-And speaking of the train incident Law stated that Sweets is strong as all hell and I'm here for it and I need them to crush a watermelon and Law looses his shit (buff Sweets for the wiiiin)

-Sweets' heartbeat was already a comfort for Law, but after Joel, you'll often find Law pressed against their heart. Cuddling on Sweets' chest is a must. When Law has a bad day, Sweets immediately presses him against their chest. Hugs often are one of Law's arms wrapped around them and his other hand press against their chest. Law sitting in between Sweets' legs so he can lean his back or shoulder against their heart

-I think it would be funny if Sweets also had an accent (like Bitish or Scottish or some shit) and everyone enjoys watching Nat struggle with her own accent because she'd have the weirdest mix of her father's southern, her mother's average american, and Sweets' (maybe a bit of uncle desdes)

(And while we're talking about Nat, when are we getting her dog!??! Please, I need the household to just become Spy X Family)

-Can we talk about how good Sweets is with kids? Where did you pick that up? Cause I just always imagined them as an orphaned only child? Like I physically can't see them with a family before Law and Nat, but maybe that's just me

(Maybe they grew up in foster homes and were always the older sibling of the group? Idk)

-One order of Sweets being good at the guitar and singing, strumming their guitar while Law plays the piano and singing Nat to sleep please

Sweets being in a band as a teen in the 80's/90's sounds like good blackmail for Gage to abuse (especially the hair) (but like imagine them doing a killer rift then proceeding to sing Def Leppard)

-I think their job would be like a metal worker or glass blowing, and I don't have an explanation as to why

-Sweets honestly feels like the most responsible and mature person out of all the characters they're just shit at taking care of themself and, say it with me: ✨️traumatized✨️

-I also imagine Sweets as a male, but that's my own problem

But imagine Nat finally calling them dad, and they just combust

Plus Sweets feels like one of those dads who drops a piece of lore then never speaks of it again (whereas Law is the hands on hips, legs apart dad pose (you know the one I'm talking about))

The idea of Sweets being "one of the guys" with Law's coworkers gives me life (because yes Love/Newbie is also a male cause if Desmond isn't just a pure gay man then you're wrong (honestly like 90% the listeners are male in my head)idk)

[ricecake-eaterr]

111 things to do instead of eating

go on a walk

drink water

clean your room

reorganize your bookshelf

learn to draw/draw something new

learn to knit/crochet

apply for jobs

do yoga

paint your nails

do laundry

do your makeup

take a nap

design a new phone layout

change your bedsheets

skincare

wash the dishes

read a book

deep dive into a niche topic

go to the mall

online window shopping

clean out your closet

meditate

do online quizzes

play coolmathgames

empty your email inbox

make a bullet journal

scrapbook

plan a fake vacation

look at expensive houses on zillow

do your duolingo lesson

make a mood board

sing karaoke

learn an instrument

burn a cd

make hyper specific playlists

bake things to give away

go swimming

make a funny powerpoint presentation

watch movies

start a new tv show

listen to a podcast

hang out with friends

paint something

make decorations for your room

make stickers

write a book

learn to sew

upcycle clothes

make a bucket list

write a diary

look at thinspo

start a youtube channel

start a podcast

do a puzzle

plan out outfits

make a collage

scroll tumblr

learn a new sport

make a new friend

study

do your homework

watch a video essay

do pilates

take a bubble bath

create a website

create an aesthetic ed journal

watch diet vlogs

watch mukbangs

make a style book

make a tiktok

learn origami

learn morse code

learn scratch coding

write media analysis

play geoguesser

plan your meals

dust everything

learn a dance

do a coloring book

update your resume

clean your car

find a pen pal

clean your makeup brushes

try new makeup styles

make a tier list

write love letters

make slime

call a relative

start a free course

critique old philosophy

plan your dream house

learn how to invest

go grocery shopping

make an amazon wishlist

scroll twitter

brush your teeth

write a poem

stretch

listen to asmr

do some manifesting

go to the library

play just dance

play random free steam games

make some tea

play with your pet

go people watching

start a garden

go for a drive

do some volunteering

play a board game

have a photo shoot

[tojisth3rdwife]

JJK men as content creators

Toji: very unserious fitness vlogger/foodie

Toji was no stranger to exploitation for financial gain. Nor did he have any shame over it. The idea to start making content stemmed from people approaching him in the gym for advice after seeing his impressive physique.

He wasn't much of a talker, although his dry sense of humor became his trademark along with his abs, so the majority of Toji’s content consisted of workout and nutrition advice. None of it he recommended anyone do since he wasn't a professional, stating that if it didn't work for you, don't go blaming him for it. One of his most popular segments was when he went to different restaurants in the area for food reviews on his cheat days. When owners noticed how a position review from him brought in a lot of business, they stopped charging him meals if he ever returned. And we all know how much Toji loved that.

"Alright, listen up. You want results? It’s not about fancy machines or trendy diets. It’s about putting in the work and pushing your limits. No shortcuts. Just grit and grind. Today, we’re hitting those weights hard and showing those excuses the door. Let’s get it."

Nanami : cooking/ASMR

Upon first impressions, one would think Kento wasn't the type of person who uses social media. He had Facebook like most millennials and has an Instagram but barely uses it. He wasn't the type to share his life with the world in that way and found the concept too invasive and troublesome for him to be bothered with. “What the point of telling strangers what I'm doing? I have no interest in what anyone else does.” he’d say.

But one day after allowing one of the teachers at Jujutsu High to try one of his homemade baked creations, it was suggested that he had his cooking show. Noting that he has the wholesome ‘husband/boyfriend’ aesthetic going for him, as well as a voice that sounded like a hug from behind after a long day at work. Kento started his channel slowly walking viewers through his favorite recipes , as well as some new ones he’d been meaning to try, while speaking gently into a highly sensitive mic that added an ASMR element to every video.

He doesn't show his face, feeling the anonymity made him most comfortable to be himself, but the way his audience swooned over the fixed view of him in his button-up and apron with the sleeves rolled up his veiny forearms, or his deft hands/fingers as he used a knife or kneaded dough.

Kento earned himself a whopping 400k subscribers in less than a year.

"Welcome back, everyone. Today, we're going to create something simple yet satisfying. Just listen to the gentle sound of the flour as it sifts through my fingers... The perfect blend of precision and comfort. Let’s start our journey into baking together, one soft whisper at a time."

Geto - podcast bro , the toxic kind

We all know with the global pandemic came the need for creative streams of income. Especially via social media. With somewhat of a platform of his own, being a cult leader and all, Suguru was approached by his daughters with the idea to reach more people by starting a podcast. Skeptical at first, Geto wasn't very enthusiastic about the idea of getting in front of a camera just to talk for an hour.

But with his dashing good looks, easygoing personality, and controversial views, it was no surprise that he amassed such a fanbase overnight. His show consisted of him tackling hard subjects, discussing world news, and hot topics, reading fan mail, and offering his candor, as well as having the occasional guest that may or may not know what they got themselves into.

"Welcome back to the show, everyone. Today, we’re diving deep into the topics no one wants to touch..the uncomfortable truths and the gray areas that challenge our perceptions. Let’s be real: society loves to paint everything in black and white, but the reality is far more complex. So, buckle up as we unpack some hard-hitting ideas that might just make you rethink everything. And remember, if you can’t handle the heat, youre probably a monkey."

Gojo- vlogger, travel, fashion, aesthetic, hauls.

Being someone who comes from money, old money at that, Satoru has access to more cash than he knows what to do with. So it's no surprise that outside of work( and sometimes for work), he spends his days traveling and shopping.

Vlogging came easily for him since he enjoyed talking about himself so much anyway, and with an audience so invested in his daily life, Satoru recorded everything. Him waking up. His skin/hair routine. What he ate in a day. Going on missions. Comedic skits with some of the first years who would participate. Travel vlogs and clothing hauls. There was a little bit of something for everyone on his page.

“Whats good my faves, its ya boy Satoru..back at again with another clothing haul. Im fresh off the plane from when I was Paris for fashion week, link to that vlog in the top right hand corner, and man am I jet lagged. But I wanted to show you all what I brought back while I have the time..”

Megumi- gamer/streamer on twitch.

After a talk with Gojo about him needing to find things to do outside of trying to advance as a sorcerer, Megumi picked up video games as a hobby. He was gifted a gaming PC and a PS5 by his mentor and began playing to blow off some steam after training. When he was injured after a mission, Megumi had not much else to do. Yuji was the one who suggested he stream on Twitch after watching him beat an entire game that took most people days in one night, praising him on his skills and suggesting letting others watch him play too.

After a while, his obsessive need to be good at everything he tries turned into him becoming one of the top-watched gamers. His dry personality and snide comments made for entertaining dialogue during game play and he often would give his critique on the game once he’d beaten them. He’d even get chances to be a beta player for unreleased game demos.

“The graphics were ok. Combat mode is a little glitchy but overall it’s a decent game. If this is just the demo, I’m interested in what they’ll do for the full game release. Otherwise I gave it a 7 out of 10.”

Sukuna- reactions

This started as a joke when his nephew wanted him to react to some viral trend and while the king of curses was rarely impressed, his archaic way of expressing himself was what made people most interested in his opinions.

Sukuna began a series of reactions where he sat upon his throne, gazing at the camera with all four eyes blazing with contempt and boredom as he watched viewer recommendations. Those ‘try not to laugh’ challenges were his most viewed.

If something managed to make him smirk or even chuckle, he gave it 4 thumbs up and would congratulate the OP for their talents in entertainment. Majority of his audience was comprised of women between the ages of 25 and 40. He acts like he has no clue why.

"This is, without a doubt, the most extravagant display of foolishness I've ever witnessed in my life. Yet, I recognize that many humans find cats charming and entertaining, so I suppose this video could be seen that way. Regardless, it's utterly pathetic. On to the next video..."

[starlight-incarnate]

House of Feänor as Aesthetics:

Fëanor  —  loud voice, commanding presence, analytical, natural leader, piercing eyes, foggy hillsides, black boots, tipping their head back to breathe the air, mirrored lakes and everything below the surface, tearing leaves from trees, blunt sarcasm, long dark hair, deep sleeper, rotting tree stumps, black leather jacket, songs that makes you want to create a storm, rebellious, ambition, unstoppable passion, fast trains, polaroids, empty castles.

Maedhros — walking silently, stronger due to all the stuff meant to kill them, ignoring their mental health issues, fiery red hair, crumbling marble, oversized hoodies, raw voice, lingering touches, faint music in the distance, calming down from a panic attack, long heavy cloaks, cold hands, disillusioned with the world, insomnia, unhealthy habits, sighs made visible by cold night air, strong hugs, never sleeps, loud music, freckles, dark under-eyes.

Maglor — hypnotising smiles, a broken mind, melancholy, driving through mountains and the woods, iced coffee, the faint feeling of raindrops on your cheeks, ripped jeans, tight hugs, whispered compliments, deep conversations, late night texts, nimble hands, thin blades, white lilies, vertigo, unkept journals, lightning and thunder, rhythms so raw the heartbreak is showing, shattered glass, walking alone on a cold night, silver necklaces, regret.

Celegorm — bright eyes, climbing rock formations, cold-hearted, hard breathing after running, wood cabins, gladiator arenas, wicked smiles, twisted branches, wild hair, growing more and more dangerous, night drives, adrenaline rushes, bruises, bloody cloaks, running from society, breathless laughing, that animalistic unpredictability, silver and leather bracelets, strong coffee after a sleepless night, city lights from a high rise, addiction, barking dogs, hurricanes.

Caranthir — ironic smirks, bitten nails painted black, lightning in summer, empty threats, sunglasses hiding dead eyes, thick chain jewellery, temperamental, goes to car races just to watch the crashes, deep glares, tongue/lip piercings, midnight walks, lightbulbs burning out, diamonds, crushed ice, a glint of cat eyes in the dark, gold coins in storm drains, cold hands, storm clouds rolling in, theatres, suppressed emotions, wrought iron gates, motorcycles. 

Curufin — cherries and Diet Coke, white marble, a studio apartment on the 67th floor, tattoos, neon lights, sweetened coffee, smudged makeup, too-loud music, cursive notes written in red ink, veiny forearms, sharp canines, fresh snowfall, high rise buildings, white light, sheer robes with nothing underneath, fog, stained glass windows, colourful hair, slow heartbeats, long-forgotten love, cold mountaintops, eternal silence.

Amrod — burnished copper, feverish eyes, hues of orange and gold, stars and spades, brewing tea, freckles, hardwood floors, poisonous flowers, listens to Hozier, messy hair, fake circle glasses, bullet point notes on a restaurant napkin, comfortable silence, broken wings on insects, old hungers, the whispering of trees, kicking stones on deserted paths, forgotten places, origami stars, old overgrown stone castles, morning mist, horse riding.

Amras  —  misplaced keys, wandering aimlessly, selectively mute, deep lakes hiding secrets, pine trees, restless nights, misunderstood, reliving the same day over and over again, graphic tees, dead moths, visual mind, muffled screams into a pillow, listens to asmr, doc martens, profanity, burned cigarettes, zoning out often, heart fluttering nervously, confusing satellites for stars, comic filled bookshelves, radios, old jeeps, glowing keyboards.

Celebrimbor — ravens, white-hot metal, the darkest shade of black, glittering skin, low waist pants, stars falling, the heat lingering in the evening, petals falling off dead flowers, trusting the wrong people, blue veins, cobblestone paths, linoleum tiles, bruises/scars easily, the heat lingering in the evening, cities awake late, card games, overanalysing everything, shiny fabrics, the slamming of a shot glass, the sting of betrayal.

[genshin-obsessed]

Hii! Hope you're having an amazing day! Can I request scaramouche, baizhu and dottore with a reader that can't sleep at night because of nightmares? They can only sleep 2-3 hours max before waking up because of another nightmare. I've been having night terrors recently out of blue so maybe some comfort might help with the issue ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

✧ Hiya! Super cute, thanks for the request! I believe this is my first time writing for Baizhu which is suprising bc he's one of my faves. Sorry this took so long btw! ✧ Also, I genuinely feel for anyone who suffers with night terrors, I couldn't imagine what that would be like.

✧ Characters: Baizhu, Dottore, Scaramouche

✧ Baizhu

Being a doctor, he did have some experience with night terrors before. He is wary of medication, as he knows that’s not a permanent solution.

Not only that, but night terrors have underlying conditions, which are easier to treat than the terrors, themselves. So, he'll try to work with that.

Of course, he's beside you every single night when you sleep. So, if you're thrashing or screaming, he can calm you and bring you back to reality. 2-3 hours a night isn’t enough sleep, so he’ll usually ease your stress and help you rest some more.

Getting better is going to take a long time, that's something you'll need to come to terms with but it is possible. One thing is for sure, Baizhu will never give up.

✧ Dottore

He’s certainly seen cases before. Both mild night terrors and severe ones. He does have a few ideas to help them.

The last resort is medication for him, since it’s not the best thing to use to treat night terrors. The lack of sleep is the most worrisome for him, 2-3 is detrimental to the body.

Night terrors are frightening for both parties to deal with, so he takes it extremely seriously. It’s pretty much top priority for him. As mentioned earlier, he works on your sleeping the most. You need to sleep at least 7 hours a night.

You can expect him to be beside you every single night when you try to sleep. He’ll bring his research with him or a book, or even if he’s sleeping with you. He’ll hold your hand and even talk to you until you fall asleep. Dottore asmr.

✧ Scaramouche

He understands as he probably has a minor case himself. Unfortunately, he’s no doctor so he doesn’t actually know how to treat it. But that doesn’t mean he won’t look for ways.

He knows doctors and so he’s quick to try and get any of them to help. When you had your visit, he paid attention to every single word spoken by the doctor.

Scaramouche takes it extremely seriously. Not only that, he understands how detrimental it could be both psychologically and physically. He tries his best to find ways to soothe you back into sleeping.

Scara will try to make sure you get at least 7-8 hours of sleep in a day. It’s ok if it’s not in one night. As long as you rest. He keeps a close eye on your diet as well to make sure you have enough energy and sugars in a day and not go overboard.

[arsenic-catnep]

Thinking about Lawrence, he's my baby gorl fr fr

He listens to a lot of indie and goth bands/artists like This Mortal Coil, The Tear Garden, Fiona Apple, The Smiths, Radiohead etc.

Classical music is a given, because 1: it's calming and 2: it's good for plants

Listens to nature ASMR too

Does laundry like once a month and has to do it at the laundromat (I've been there and it sucks)

Washes his sheets maybe every three months, but he does have an extra set just in case.

Showers at most 3 times a week, he's got a physical labor job so he sweats a lot and might take 4 if he's feeling spunky (the thoughts I have on this are insane)

His diet in canon is... Awful to say the least. He can't cook to save his life and also doesn't care what he puts into his body.

Lawrence has eaten mold on accident, and a few times on purpose.

He's definitely not poor by any means, he gets by and could afford a better apartment and food and honestly better clothes but he hates change.

Lawrence has lived in that apartment since he was 19 and moved out of his parents house. It was the best that he could afford at the time.

He just hates change and the idea of packing his stuff and moving makes him want to curl up and die.

Spends a lot of money on plant care, and things off the dark web like drugs and illegal/invasive plants.

Lawrence has such a low sex drive, and the oddest things get him going.

Definitely on the asexual spectrum, he'll have sex but it takes a while for him to want it.

Has only ever had sex once, and it was embarrassing and awkward for both him and the girl he was with.

Bites his nails and lips, picks his skin and when he's extra anxious he'll chew on his hair.

Prefers getting high over getting drunk.

Is a decent enough artist, and enjoys making charcoal art.

[mr-laveau]

real shit, some people thought TMZ was entertaining, however that did not make them a net positive for society and I feel like the same thing can be said for the activity that's been going on with the audio/asmr rp confession blogs going around rn.

You can be entertained by this shit, that however does not mean it's good for anyone. Like, I promise yall, giving people anonymity and a space to say shit no one asked to hear is not in fact healthy for anyone. You have simply invited ignorance and abhorrent behaviour and I fully believe that this is going to blow up in someone's face.

"some people have grievances and need to air things out without backlash" I think you meant some people don't say shit with their chest and would not say shit if they couldn't hide behind a wall and that's fair, HOWEVER that is a them issue. It really is I fear.

"this gives people a space to say things the fandom would go after them for" that's called consequences, fairly common thing that happens. You say shit and people have shit to say about that, this is how online posting does work, it's why you have a comment section and why we have brains that tell us that maybe we should keep a thought as just a thought or write it down somewhere. Going to a confession blog to air out how much you don't like a specific thing about x, y and z is not therapeutic, that's what incels on 4chan do.

Am I saying that you're a bad person for engaging with these kinds of blogs? No. Be so for real. Do what you want. I am however saying that we should all have the understanding that those kinds of blogs are not healthy nor important to the ecosystem of fandom and pretending they are is wild. Eat junk food, but don't call that shit a balanced diet.

[justwannabesk1nnylol]

TIPS FOR RESTRICTING

*brush your teeth (toothpaste obv) to avoid eating

*pinch your fat when your hungry

*workout when hungry

*look at th1nspöö when hungry

*take a rubber band and snap it against your wrist when your hungry, pain=food

*measure yourself when hungry and think about your dream measurements

*chug water to stop hunger

*eat gum to stop hunger, your brain tricks you into thinking gum is food

*buy clothes you like in the smallest size, when your hungry look at the clothes

*if your parents/guardians force you to eat, eat it in a different room and throw it away/flush it

*don’t tell people about your wl

*use forms of pain (hitting NOT $H) to stop yourself from eating

*pray to whoever you believe in to stop the hunger and stop you from eating*If you're eating with your family wear big socks so that you can stuff food in them.

*when you go out don't take more that $5 so that you don't buy food.

*while eating just your food into smaller pieces, that way people will think that your eating the same amount of food as them.

*It's better to exercise in the morning before you eat, that way you're body will burn stored fat and not the food you ate

*whenever you start a new diet make sure you write down your goals on a piece of paper that way you'd be motivated to keep going

*Write down your current weight on one side of your hand the you're goal weight on the other that way you can see how much more you need to lose

*When eating, eat with your right hand, it'll help you eat slower

*Put a water bottle anywhere you'll see it at least every hour. When you see it sip some water it's good for weight loss

*when going to any event (especially parties) take a bag or purse with you, it should hold 1 diet coke and some rice cakes (no more then 75 calories) that way you don't binge on food too much

*If you feel like binging on cake for any reason eat little by little it takes the brain 20 minutes to realize it's full.

*look at thinspo (bonespo) for motivation

*Try to practice with make-up to distract yourself from food or watch those shein review videos

* being hungry is only temporary it's will go away after 25 minutes or a nap

*munchbak will make you less hungry

*starving will make you feel good

*If there's fast food that your forced to eat just eat the fries, biscuit, nuggets, or the brisk tea (diet coke)

*being skinny comes with benefits such as going out on your own, no school days, in patients, and more

*eating from bowls that are like dark blue or black will make you feel fuller

*if there's any food in the house that you might binge on get rid of it

*walk more , exercise more,eat less

*ASMR for help falling asleep

*ANYTHING BUT HIGH CALORIE FOODS

*measure yourself

*if your binging throw the food in the toilet immediately, the toilet works better then the trash

*eat in the same place everyday (not your room)

*Never eat while watching TV, if you do that you'll most likely binge

*press your stomach when it grumbles

*paint your nails when they start getting discolored

*go out in the kitchen and pretend your looking for food. Cook something or warm something up, so your parents can hear you cook and they'll smell it too, Take it to your room and throw it out. Leave some crumbs on the plate so it looks like you ate.

*make sure to keep asking for pads so that your parents don't get suspicious

*Get rid of the fear of wasting food. The sooner you change yourself the better. Leave a bite at first and soon you'll throw it away without thoughts.

*Get used to fasting, it's not a punishment it's actually a reward for future you

*To avoid Binging, spray perfume on your food, it’ll get rid of your appetite

[barzfrommarz]

c!wilbur headcanons for @dynamitedarlingg

-during a breakdown in pogtopia, he went to go burn the original lmanburg flag but stopped himself. Opted for burning pieces of paper with the lmanburg flag drawn on instead

-(aroace c!wil propaganda incoming) after revival he tried to force himself to feel romantic/sexual attraction because he wanted to feel like a normal human again and that is how everything with c!quackity started. He only snapped out of it when they got drunk and hooked up and woke up in his bed like “wait a minute…”

-Favorite snack is goldfish crackers (i’m eating some while writing this)

-Has a tic where he throws his head back and brings his arms into like a “rawrrrr” position like he’s trying to scare someone. Think during the dance scene in the wendnesday show where wednesday is dancing and looks up to the ceiling and her arms are moving side to side kinda in that position. Everyone thinks he’s either joking or making a piss poor attempt to scare them and it’s really embarrassing for Wilbur

-Had a major goth phase as a teen to rebel against phil. He doesn’t dress the part but he still considers himself a goth and the Lmanburg uniform was somewhat inspired by gothic aesthetics 

-Used to hate halloween but it’s now his favorite after revival because he doesn’t have to try as hard to look presentable to others 

-Pretends to hate asmr but actually loves it. Sometimes if he exhausts all his other options to try and fall asleep he will use asmr and it always works

-Hates his crow wings because he feels like they make him look like his father. Purposely got them clipped some point during lmanburg and excused it by saying it would make him less of a target in war

-He can somewhat shapeshift. Mostly stays human/a crow but sometimes will give himself fox ears and a tail because he secretly wishes he was one instead of a crow. Could also explain why c!fundy is a fox 

-He explores all art mediums. Drawing has always been a way for him to visualize his emotions since he sometimes has a hard time identifying them

-Ashamed of his scars and stitches. tries to use foundation to cover them up but it never works and everyone can tell he’s wearing it

-Was a huge theater and band kid in middle-high school. Wished he went for a career in acting or music first instead of the president of a random country on a random secluded island in the middle of the ocean

-Burned all the music he wrote and recorded during his days on the smp on cds. He plans to one day release some of them in an ep but he’s saving it for when he truly feels he has healed enough to handle it

-He struggles with pain seeking stims. He picks at his skin, bites his hands and fingers and pulls out hair 

-He never cries infront of others. He only did once infront of Tommy and Quackity when he was told people use his name as a way to imply someone is being crazy/irrational. (this was inspired by a comic I saw basically doing that I forgot who drew it) ((he also swears up and down it doesn’t upset him after the fact)) (((Idk I just think something like that would really get to him esp since he tries so hard not to be like how he was in pogtopia)))

-I like to think c!wilbur is an empathetic person but he struggles with showing it especially after he was revived. He thinks it makes him look weak or vulnerable so he keeps it to himself and this makes him look more like a major asshole than he already does 

-When no one is around, he will do childish activities like hop scotch or watching cartoons because it strangely helps him calm down and unwind 

-His diet after revival consists of. Mac and cheese, instant mashed potatoes, all meat besides ham or bacon with a stupid amount of seasoning, plain white rice (sometimes with soy sauce), whatever fast food he serves (but only as a treat). Mostly just simple things because he can’t be arsed to make himself a good meal like phil did for him when he lived with him before starting the burger van

-He sleeps in the burger van on the floor with one pillow and a scratchy blanket. No one knew this until he forgot his coat at last nevadas and Quackity saw him like that when he went to bring it back to him. He ended up offering Wilbur a hotel room to sleep in for the night because he felt bad. Wilbur declined because he felt like he was being mocked 

-If the game WEBFISHING existed in the dsmp universe, you would not see Wilbur for days because all he wants to do is fish and forget about life

-Actively goes out of his way to cook and eat every salmon he catches. It makes him feel empowered 

-Either rides a bike to get around or drives a motorcycle. He doesn’t wear a helmet when riding either 

YIPPEE THATS IT KEEP THE ASKS COMING PEOPLE (but give me a bit to get back in my thinking chamber)

[actuallyadhd]

Hello, I know you haven't posted in a while so I understand if you don't reply to this, but I could definitely use some advice.

I haven't gotten round to getting tested for ADHD, but I have a lot of the symptoms. I really struggle to sit still, I often blurt things out and interrupt people, I can't seem to remember basically anything, I get way too emotional over small things, and more.

The thing is, these symptoms seem to be getting progressively worse. I will hear something and then completely forget what I heard minutes after, forget what I'm talking about mid conversation, haven't gone to sleep on time because I've been pacing in my room and throwing a bouncy ball and eventually scrolling on my phone in bed because I can't get to sleep, I'm late a lot more than usual (I have to go out tomorrow and I'm hoping I'll get up on time, alarms don't work).

But the biggest thing is this: I keep stopping and starting things. I have loads of sideblogs I haven't posted on for days because I started them with huge passion and then either got bored or forgot about them (or both.) I've been thinking about starting a new ask blog, but at the same time I know I won't come back to it.

Do you have any advice for how to manage this?

Sent August 1, 2024

It sounds like things are cascading, which can be super overwhelming.

I always start with what I call The Big Four: diet, exercise, sleep, and stress. If any one of these is out of whack, everything gets harder. This is true for non-ADHDers as well, but for us it’s more important because of how our brains work.

So, first, think about how you’ve been eating lately. Are you getting enough protein? Brains run on glucose, so carbs are also necessary, but aiming for whole grains and the like is better for long-term functioning. Are you eating *enough*? As in, do you forget to eat meals? Do you snack a lot, and if you do, are you going for quick sugar hits?

Next up is exercise. Regular movement is important. Taking active breaks when you get distracted can help to reset your brain so you can focus again when you come back. Exercise also adds endorphins, which boost your mood and can help increase energy and focus for longer. These effects build up over time, so you won’t see results right away, but if you can make it happen there will be benefits!

As for sleep, you’ve noted that you’re struggling to fall asleep. That’s a really common thing for ADHDers, and we have loads of suggestions here to help. Some of the best ideas I’ve seen include listening to podcasts or watching ASMR videos, white noise machines or a fan, reading a book (not an e-book unless your e-reader doesn’t use blue light), or doing some kind of a puzzle book in bed.

Stress can be really hard to manage, especially if anything else is off since that adds to your stress. The best way to handle this is to have a set time each day where you do something fun and relaxing.

You may find that this doesn’t quite hit the spot. So I have a couple more things to look into.

First, it’s pretty normal for us to run into problems when our responsibilities increase. More responsibility means more load on our executive functions, so things start falling apart a bit as we struggle to find a way to make everything happen. Change is hard!

Second, our age and hormones can have an impact on things. If you menstruate, estrogen levels have a huge impact on functioning. It is a very important part of the brain’s glucose delivery system, so when estrogen is low so is glucose. (There are other ways glucose gets to the brain, estrogen is just the most efficient.)

As for age, when you hit certain ages (early childhood and puberty are best known) your brain makes a ton of new connections, and that can make a lot of things harder that weren’t before. This is because your brain is dedicating itself to other things, and often those “lost” skills return once it’s done with the stage.

So think about all of these things and consider whether one or more might be affecting you. Once you know what’s going on, it will be easier to figure out how to deal with it.

Followers, do you have any ideas for managing these issues? Please share!

-J

[h1spuppet]

blah blah im nora call me puppet i belong to @ghost419

one of the weirdest girls on the planet keep scrolling hard kinks n soft pastel goth aes only- this is my 4th blog 💛

kinks / blog content : cnc , free use , petplay / primal play , bdsm ( rope + device bondage / torture + predicament / sensory deprivation ) , claustrophilia / imprisonment , aquaphilia , dendrophilia , dacryphilia , degradation + humiliation + objectification , misogyny / patriarchy ( maybe some misandry too ) , domestic service , ageplay , ddlg / size + age difference , dormaphilia , pissplay + omorashi , edging / humping / orgasm control / orgasm denial / chastity , anal / oral only , spit + mucus + cum - messy messy pls pls pls , kidnapping , cock / foot / ass worship , fighting / wrestling , hypnosis / brainwashing / corruption , dumbification / bimbofication / dollification , body modification ( tattoos , piercings , corsetry , diet restriction ) , roleplay , breeding / pregnancy , blood + gore  🐇 ..··˚ ༘₊· ͟͟͞͞꒰➳ biting ,  impact play + weapons ( guns esp metal revolvers n shotguns n rifles + knives , but any weaponry tbh ) , garment fetish ( homeovestism ( girls clothing , ruffles , socks , canvas + saddle shoes , mary janes , hosiery / nylon / latex , straightjackets + pigtails ) ) , medfet ( dentistry , asylum obsession + electroshock , latex gloves , intox , ( asphyxiation / suffocation / waterboarding ) ) , exhibitionism + voyeurism , audio / asmr ( metal / chains , voice kink , melolagnia , moaning + girl cries / throatfuckingggg / screams c: ) , weather ( brontophilia , actirasty , chionophilia + temperature play + cannibalism tehe | food play + cum & piss food / drink ) , robot fetishism , sophophilia ( where i get my teachers pet fixation from omg) , erotica + fetish comics + agalmatophilia & hentaiii , balloons + balloon popping... basically i like a lot n im weird

[luckyratty]

Sigh thinking about Charlie and how hes literally Diet Coke by TV Girl sigh.... explanation below the cut....

I imagine that this is Charlie while at his worse trying to comfort himself with fond memories of a childhood with the first person hes ever loved. The song can be taken literally but its also a big giant symbol for charlie and caspers relations #crazy

Day 857 of thinking about Charlie like its my 9-5 job and i love him so much it makes me ill to my STOMACH....

Guys is it lame to cry over an ASMR Roleplay character because i feel like a loser rn

Out on the porch so quiet

Nothing on the tv tonight

Nowhere in the world to go

We went to see the midnight show

Charlie and Casper grew up in a small town with literally nothing for teenagers to do, especially after dark. Movie theaters were a place of refuge for the two, neither had to be home and they could gorge on snacks and soak up each others presence.

Sticky floors and torn-up seats

In the lobby you got something to eat

Lights go down, the screen starts to glow

You came back with a diet coke

Casper told Charlie to go ahead and that "they wouldn't take long" a symbol of how they left each other behind. Charlie is alone in the gross and badly kept movie theater just waiting for Casper to come back. JUST LIKE HOW HE WAITED IN TOWN UGHHHH i cant live like this. And how Casper comes back into his life with a simple pizza.

You missed the entire first scene

By the credits we were both asleep

I was lying next to you in a dream

The lights came on and someone told us to leave

"You missed the entire first scene" aka "you missed the worst part of my life." And by the time theyre together again its like their flowing so perfectly together that its almost like theyre asleep in a perfect dream but thats being disturbed by someone or SOMETHING *SHATTERING* their peace. Day one of kinda understanding the lore.

Your house was as dark as the room

Not a single word was spoke

Charlie and Casper had constant sleepover. Casper would go to bed wordlessly, and Charlie would stay awake long past midnight just thinking about them.

3am and I'm all alone

Just a memory and a diet coke

Charlie waking up from his own memories and realizing that hes in the now. Alone. In a shitty gang with no friends and all he can comfort himself with is the memory of Casper and their favorite food- because as silly as at mah sound- Charlie finds solace in whatever reminds him of Casper.

[doodervialle]

Things you might now know is because of cal restriction - and how to fix them/ deal with them

Some things you probably already know...

Irritation

• when the body doesn't get enough fuel, you mood is affected and you become more irritable. Even lashing out at loved ones. Sometimes you might judge people in your head for things you wouldn't normally judge people for. To combat this make sure you take your vitamins, a multivitamin can help restore some of the nutrients you are lacking in your diet and can help regulate your mood. you can also try; mindfulness exercises, yoga, journaling, breathing exercises, slow paced walks in nature.

Hairloss

• This one SUCKS, but there are things you can do to prevent it. Getting enough protein in your diet can prevent hairloss, as hair is protein. Try eating more high protein meals, you can always use protein powder. Get omega-3 supplements, those help with hair and nail health. Minoxodil is also something you can buy, though expensive, it is a very good hairloss treatment to put on the area affected twice a day. It has helped me and i am no linger going bald YIPPE

Heart palpitations

• these sometimes keep me awake at night I swear. For me using iron supplements have helped, and they are basically none exsistent. Try eating more natural foods instead of processed stuff so you get the maximum of nutrients on top of your vitamins as possible while still being in a low cal diet.

Fainting

Of fatuige in general is again caused by lack of nutrients. Eat nutrient rich meals (natural foods/high protein options) and try to make sure you take you take at least a multivitamin. To make it fun you can always get the gummybear ones

Paranoia

• your senses will be on high alert as your body is in a very vulnerable state when not eating enough. You might find yourself double checking no ones in your room or apartment, or maybe looking behind your back on walks way more frequently. Try to make sure you always feel extra safe (which is never a bad idea) take self-defence items with you on walks and have them in your pocket, could be a taser, pepperspray or just a sharp object. Practice mindfulness exercises to try and combat the intrusive thoughts. It's hard, and it won't go completly away, but you can minimise it. (Vitamins arr also important for this one)

Insomnia

• i literally can never sleep i swear. If you're waking up multiple times a night and have a hard time falling asleep you need more iron. You should try to minimize screentime before bed, not drink caffeine (tea also has caffeine in it, so choose none caffinated tea options) melatonin is a good medicine for sleep, but don't overuse it as you may start to be dependent on it to fall asleep.

Nightmares

• vivid nightmares about binging or just nightmares in general is very normal. You have nightmares because your body is on high alert and weakened, your mind is also suffering from exhaustion and has a hard time regulating your thoughts. Binging nightmares are typical, and is your bldy trying to get you to eat, to make you hungry and crave food as a survival attempt. Try minimising watching distressing content if you deal with nightmares. No screentime right before bed, and find some relaxing music/asmr or noise to listen to. A good tip is to listen to ambience of other people talking in another room, tricking your asleep brain into thinking you are not alone will ease it as we are social beings !

Loss of interest

• basically, the loss of interest in things you once liked, people, relationships, family, events.. etc. Your brain is running on low energy, and you will feel irritated and annoyed, sometimes your brain just shuts things out and becomes depressed. I wish I knew how to fix this fully, but it is really hard. Remember that you are valid, no matter how you ed shows, and that there is a whole community of people here to talk to and share these things with. Try not to give up on the things you love, and if the ed is getting too much in the way, it is ALWAYS okay to take a break. You are a living breathing being, treat yourself that way.

Low/no libido

• don't have too much to say on this one. Your sex drive is decreased because your body isn't getting enough fuel. If this is a problem try foods with natural aphrodisiacs and see if that helps.

Breakdowns

• everyone with an ed is emotionally unstable at points, it's just the way it is. Your brain is fogged and running on low, your body is fighting to get you to eat and to stay upright. You're tired, exhausted and obsessing over small things. You will have times where you might just break down cryibg, and that's okay. You need to let yourself catch a break, go out in nature, have a selfcare day, let yourself buy something you've wanted for a long time without it being because you hit a goal. Treat yourself sometimes, it's okay ♡

Bad memory/memory loss

• not eating enough causes the brain to be on low function to preserve as much energy as possible. It just can't be bothered remembering things clearly. Combat this with journaling, multivitamins, suplements like iron and mindfullness.

I hope this was a help to someone!! Sorry it's not very detailed it's 3 am AAAA

Remember to take care ♡

[sol-consort]

Do you think Hanar would find audio CDs of underwater activity comforting? Like those ASMR videos to help someone sleep.

The sounds of undercurrents, the breaking of glacial ice, or the echos of sperm whales. Although considering sperm whale's diets that last bit would be terrifying, imagine alien sperm whales?

I like to think Hanar would enjoy the sounds of underwater heat vents akin to the geysers in Yellowstone.

You're right it would sound comforting to them, as relaxing as forest ambience sounds to us. Nature soothes us, slows our heartbeat, the noises of a calm breezy forest calms the mind.

So for the hanar, it would require to be set in the empty bare ocean as well, otherwise if it's too close to the hanar's structures, all that you'll hear is the whirl of machinery underwater.

In fact, since they communicate with bioluminescent lights and only adapted vocal communication for our sake, the visuals of the ocean might calm them more, acting as both the sound and image.

It's funny. A lot of the sounds we associate with the Earth's oceans won't be present in the Hanar ocean asmr.

No land means no birds, no seagull sounds as they soar above the water.

No ocean waves crashing onto the shore and seeping into the sand.

No moon means no high/low tides, the ocean remaining eerily calm.

No fresh water species either.

Definitely more underwater vents and volcanos. I wonder if it's as magnetic to the hanar as lava is to us. With no fire to invent underwater, they've had to use those thermal vents and magma hollows to power their machinery.

God do humans adore the sound and visuals of a small fire. Be it a campfire or a fireplace, something about the mesmerising view of the flames dancing around, the low rumbling of the fire, the occasional snap that fizzles out quickly. It's primal beauty.

Thermal vents and magma must hold a similary fond place in the hanar's primal memory.

The biggest difference would be our contrasting views of the ocean storms. To the hanar, it poses no danger since they can simply go under the water. Even if they surface, What danger is there? They can't drown.

To the hanar, the entirety of the Odyssey is someone taking a game of "the floor is lava" very seriously.

The most terrifying thunder crackling storms would be as soothing as a lullaby to them.

Not that I think about it. The most alien sounding noise to a hanar must he the chirping of a bird. Do they enjoy the cooing of the Citadel pigeons? Is it magical or unnerving?

I don't think any kind of whales or dolphins would exist in the hanar planet since it's fully covered in water, and those animals are mammals. They evolved back into aquatic, eventually, yeah, but there had to be a surface first for them to adapt to.

So maybe a whale equivalent that never evolved to walk on land for a short while? which... just might be more terrifying. The idea alone of whatever the hell the hanar consider to be their apex predetor is terrifying.

Most animals don't hunt humans naturally.

"Naturally" is the keyword here. They'll hunt humans under special conditions, like starvation or human settlements expanding into their territory. Even then, it's more of "let's kill this bitch" than "oh man I'm craving some human nuggets rn"

In a normal stable ecosystem, we're not on the menu.

Because most animals don't see humans as viable prey. Sure, they'll defend themselves if we cross to their territory, or if we're standing in front of something they want, but in general, they don't do the whole stalking prey dance and song with us. We're simply not worth it, even to sharks.

Maybe it's a similar thing to the hanar? Keep in mind that they're much larger than Earth's jellyfish and that they do have a skeleton, unlike our jellyfish. They have a skull, at least. For their tentacles, they're probably closer to that of an octopus than a jellyfish.

They can withstand immense pressure, they can move extremely fast underwater, and they use their tentacles to choke prey. Most aquatic predators lurch forward, an abrupt movement that snatches their prey, otherwise moving relatively slow. While the hanar seem to have the ability to zoom around underwater 24/7 extremely slippery and deadly.

What animal would see them as prey? What's their equivalent of a starving animal that will settle for anything, even those boney sour tasting humans?

The deep sea ones.

Cold temperatures as the sun fails to penetrate the water? check.

Low oxygen? Check.

Scarce food? Check.

Crushing depth? Check.

Overwhelming darkness? Check.

It has a lot in common with freezing hell that are Earth's poles.

Certian animals there eat once a year, mostly on gaint whalefalls. When a corpse sinks down, not a single part of it remains. Even the bones are eaten by animals that adapted them into their diet.

To them, a hanar must seem like a feast, skull included.

But, any evolved society must cross the barrier of the natural order to be able to expand into civilisation. Much like the animals that possess the biggest threat on humans today aren't those deadly tigers or larger than life killer whales but mosquitoes.

And look at us now, making plushies of said tigers and whales.

Once upon a time, sure, the hanar must have resembled the side dish in some species' 6 course meal (cough protheans cough) But as it currently stands? Even bare without weapons underwater, they seem immensely capable of winning in a fight against a sperm whale equivalent.

But nurture plays a big role here. This isn't the ancient times when we roamed around in the jungle with a spear and a lioncloth. A human can win in a fight against a cat very easily, yet most humans today would just run away if a cat hisses at them or gives a nasty scratch.

We've escaped the natural order, fight or flight is a thing of the past that most humans won't experience more than once or twice in their life, unless they're into fighting sports, I guess.

And those are the same animal loving hanar who just abhor the idea of any harming coming to any non-sentient creature. Zero of them would want to sqaure up with a sperm whale... for the sperm whale's sake.

[silveryclear]

STNAF Coraline AU ch. 4

MDNI ALL CONTENT REGARDING STNAF IS 18+ AND SO IS THIS BLOG

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Chapter 6 Chapter 7

CW: Torture, Kidnapping, Obsessive Behavior, Dark Themes

Chapter 4

"Have you been eating anything besides alcohol and junk food?" Carter's concerned voice sounds through your phone.

"Wha- of course I have! Why, I'm doing some grocery shopping right now!" You say with a huff as you push your shopping cart through the isles of the supermarket.

This morning, as soon as you came to, you ran over to Friend without a moment to lose. You jump out of the other room and surprise Friend as the words tumble out of you, worried that a phone call could interrupt you any second now. "Friend! This evening. Dinner. Here. You and me. you in?" Smooth.

His eyes return to normal as the initial surprise of your sudden appearance fades away. He chuckles in amusement. "Well, how could I say no to my favorite Neanderthal~?" After saying those words, his phone rings and he heads off to work. However, not before kissing your forehead and smiling with excitement at you. "Can't wait to see what you've got in store~"

Afterwards, you head to the supermarket and on your way, you call Carter and tell him about everything that has transpired since your last phone call; including your strange reocurring dreams.

Now you're more than halfway through your shopping as you enter the alcohol isle, browsing through the store's selection.

"Only because it's part of your plan." Carter says and you roll your eyes. "I'm just saying, your diet these days could be the reason why you're having those wacky ass dreams. And your obsession with procrastinating your confession definitely doesn't help."

"I'm doing something about it now, aren't I?" You say as you look at the wine prices and wince. "Besides, the dreams weren't all that bad. They gave me the idea for this plan!"

He sighs. You could sense something underlying in his tone, but choose not to comment on it. "True. I guess it isn't all that bad as long you stay in this reality and don't actually fall in love with a figment of your imagination." He ends with a laugh.

"I'm not in love with him!" You say through the phone pointedly. "And what about your fictional game characters?" You raise your eyebrow.

Carter is quiet for a few seconds before bashfully murmurs, "...that's different."

You snort. "Yeah? How so?"

"I wasn't the one who created them."

You scoff. "Tecnicality! Fictional is fictional!"

Carter groans through the phone. "Fine, whatever. But reality sucks, can you blame me?"

"Not at all. Reality definitely sucks." You pick up a bottle of wine and almost shed a tear. "I mean, look at these wine prices! Seriously, I'm willing to look up a tutorial just to avoid paying this much."

"I'd say skip the wine all together. You've had enough alcohol these past few days."

You narrow your eyes and grumble while placing the bottle back on the shelf. "I'd argue, but my wallet is begging for mercy, so I'll let it slide."

You can hear Carter's smooth laugh through the phone and you laugh along. He's more on the reserved side, so the chances that you got to hear him laugh while getting to know him were slim to none. But now that you've known each other for a long time, its safe to say that it's one of your favorite sounds in the world. It makes you feel incredibly lucky to have met him and grateful that such an amazing person is your friend.

Carter goes on to tell you about his day while you finish your grocery shopping. His deep voice is comforting just like ASMR and you can’t help but let your thoughts wander. You think back to when you two met in college and how, during your time together, you became really close friends. You were sure if you didn’t have a big crush on Friend, your friendship with Carter would have progressed into something more.

You shake your head and continue to converse with Carter as you went on with your day. However, by the time the preparations were all set and done, Friend was nowhere to be seen.

You look at yourself in the mirror, all nice and dressed up for your date. What should be an exciting and slightly nervous occasion, felt more like a wave of anxiety and disappointment over your body.

You try to give yourself a smile and whisper in the mirror, “It’s okay, he’s probably running late. That’s just how he is…” Yet, the words felt like sandpaper as they left your lips.

Minutes turn into hours, the evening turns into night. You stay seated at the table, staring blankly at the empty seat before you, your homemade food cold and long forgotten. You look down at your phone, staring at the unread text messages you sent Friend. You try to call him for the fifteenth time, only to be greeted once again by his voicemail.

Tears slowly begin to fall as you come to the harsh realization that Friend isn’t coming. Although there could be a perfectly logical explanation for his lack of appearance, your mind could not think of any as it fell further into a spiral hurt and rejection. Embarrassment also began to seep in as you realize how much work you not only put into the food and decor, but also yourself. You feel humiliated as you look at yourself in the mirror once again and you could only run straight to your room and crawl into the bed as you sob, clutching the bunny plushie that always gave you a semblance comfort.

In the middle of your crying session, you pick up your phone and dial the number of the person you know that will provide you comfort.

“Carterrrrr…” you sniffle and sob through your phone.

“Hey, what’s wrong? Why are you crying? Aren’t you supposed to be on your date with Friend?” Carter’s smooth voice sounded concerned.

”He… he didn’t come. He’s not answering my texts or calls…”

”What?! I’m going to kill him…”

”Carter, I can’t be here right now… I can’t face him after this…”

”Just.. hang on for now, alright? I’m going to pick you up.”

You see the door you thought was only part of your dream open by itself, a soft glow beckoning you to go through it as you did your first night.

”Carter…?”

”Yeah?” You can hear his car engine in the background and his out of breath voice.

”The door… it opened…”

"What? What door?”

”…It’s all real.” You whisper to yourself, however Carter caught it as well.

“Hey! Hey, don’t you go anywhere!” Carter yells through the phone, trying to bring you back from whatever trance you are stuck in. Whatever this was, he knew you weren’t in your five senses at the moment so he was justifiably worried and concerned. “I’m on my way! Do you hear me? Stay right there.” Carter calls out your name over and over again, but all just sounds like a blur.

“I have to go…” is all you say before you hang up and let your phone clatter on the ground.

“Hello? Hello?! Dammit!” Carter curses out loud. He dials your number a few times while driving, doing his best to get to you as fast as possible. His heart sinks when you don’t answer and he can feel his concealed rage welling up to the surface. He dials another number and hopes for their own sake that they pick up.

“Yes?”

“Listen here you pompous bastard. You better hope I don’t ever see your face if you want to keep it intact.” Carter snarls into the speaker, his eyes on the open road as he speeds like a maniac. “After what you did, you’re lucky I’m only letting you off with a warning. For years, I’ve had to watch from the sidelines how your oblivious ass trampled over the heart of the sweetest and most caring person I know. That ends tonight, do you hear me?”

“Loud and clear~” A giggle could be heard through the phone and Carter reels back, eyebrows furrowed with confusion and shock. “You don’t have to worry about Sweetheart anymore… I’ll be taking good care of them~”

Carter recovers from the initial shock and listens to the voice that sounds eerily similar to Friend’s. Knots form in Carter’s stomach when dots begin to connect in his mind. His blood runs cold and he grips the cellphone tightly in his hand, breathing heavily. “You’re not Friend…”

The line cuts immediately and Carter is left alone with the piercing silence inside his car. Not even the engine can be heard through the sounds of his thrumming heart beating in his ears. Carter immediately thinks of you as he frantically tries to get ahold of himself, doing his best to keep himself together long enough to get to you. He has to. Whoever answered the phone, was not Friend. And he couldn’t brush away the feeling that you were in danger.

On the other side, Other Friend grins sinisterly as he shatters the phone with his bare hands, the crushed fragments falling onto Friend’s battered and tear-stained face. Friend shut his eyes tightly, whimpering as the pieces of glass make small cuts on his face.

Other Friend can’t help but laugh at Friend’s helpless state— his hands and feet bound, duck tape covering his mouth and muffling his pathetic whimpers. Nothing gave him more joy than to see his rival trembling on the floor, bruised and bloody from the torture he had inflicted. Nothing except the thought of having you finally in his grasp… of finally making you his. Other Friend shudders in delight at the thought.

“It seems like Sweetheart has been talking me up to their other friends. How cute~” Other Friend giggles, the sound malicious as it vibrates in his throat. He places his boot on Friend’s leg and presses down on it, making Friend writhe and cry out in agony. “Yet, they didn’t tell you. How curious. It’s almost as if they don’t trust you anymore~”

At the mention of your term of endearment, Friend’s pained expression turns into one of rage as he struggles against his binds.

“Oooh, did that rile you up?” Other Friend mocks as he presses down harder on his already wounded leg, a strained whine coming from Friend and halting his squirming. Other Friend chuckles and leans down, his face hovering above Friend’s. “I’m guessing you won’t like what I’m planning to do with them next~”

Friend glares at Other Friend and curses them out, however, it comes out as muffled sounds of rage. Other Friend laughs sadistically and stands up straight. He begins to walk away from the pathetic worm writhing on this floor before looking back at him for one last time, grinning maniacally.

“Do me a favor and do keep it down? I have to go comfort Sweetheart after their date was a no show. And I’d hate for them to be more distraught than they already are~” And with that, Other Friend closes the door and locks it. He stands at the end of the hallway with a sadistic smile on his face. He whistles a tune as he walks away from the door.

Other Friend feels something fluffy brush along his lower leg. He looks down and stares at one of his cats with a serious expression.

“Did you find it?”

The cat gives him a sorrowful meow, bowing its head.

“I don’t need your apologies, I need that vermin found!” He hisses. “Don’t come back unless it is with its corpse, do you understand? I can’t have it ruining everything I’ve worked hard for.”

The cat gives him one last meow and bow before scampering away.

Other Friend sighs in frustration and pinches the bridge of his nose. He quickly picks up his head, button eyes brightening as he senses your presence crawling through the bridge that connects your world to his. His whole demeanor transforms into a lovesick expression.

“Do not fret, my love. No one’s going to ever hurt you again… I’ll make sure of it.” He whispers to himself with a hint of obsession as he makes his way to the bedroom.

Next chapter will include smut :)

Chapter 5