#ask to tag cw

[cruel-hiraeth]

childe is the worst—not simply in the sense that he’s a sadomasochistic freak with no hard limits and a scary amount of stamina (which he is). but he’s also the worst because he will edge you for hours on end, and when he finally decides to gift you a taste of the release that he has teased you with for far too long, he will overstimulate you until you pass out.

[prettyboykatsuki]

kaiser with a kind motherly manager who says "you did great!" or "good job!" after a successful interview/press appearance and it sounds like she's praising a dog who just learned a new trick. kind of baby talking him just a little without realizing and he gets so bricked up and immediately bothered by it that he like. speed walks out of the room.

its so bad for him KSDHFJ

its like. the important part of this is that he really kind of rejects the relationship at first i think. kaiser is such a huge pain to deal with and his agency has bounced him through like several diff managers and they've all been driven completely insane by him - men and women. and so they take a different approach and instead of giving someone more professional, they have u step up to the plate

and you're like. an impenetrable wall. you have some experience with kids (maybe your own, maybe just childcare) and it's enough that it makes you this like source of complete Calm. its so easy for people to get annoyed with kaiser

its on purpose too. he knows exactly what buttons to push to make people angry and it's rare someone can get under his skin very sincerely. he figures you'll be just like the rest of them and give up on trying to be his friend or reason with him eventually. they all do.

but. But. you're Maternal in a way that makes kaiser feel like a kid throwing a tantrum any time he does or says things. no matter what kind of insults or berating he does you're just Firm. basically gentle parenting him. AND you're persistent about him.

one time, very much joking, kaiser does something you ask the first time and you practically Beam at him. and maybe just as a reaction, you sort of ruffle his hair and smile with your eyes crinkled and go "see? wouldn't it be nice if you could be a good boy like this all the time?"

instant hard-on. fuck fuck fuck fuck his life fuck everything. thankfully you dont notice but he does and he thinks about ending it all.

and then. subconsciously. he does get just the SLIGHTEST bit more agreeable. just a little tiny bit. and everytime he acts half decent you do the thing again. you really are very Motherly. you're an older woman so he guesses it makes sense but sometimes the way you tell him you'll treat him to dinner after a good match makes him feel the full extent of it. its very mother and her troubled son and he is Less Against that then he should be. the lines are sooooo blurry.

he wants to fight it so bad and he tries so hard but he has a wet dream about you in a way that makes him feel like he's regressed. if he was normal he could pass it off as a crush but the dream is of you letting him suck your tits while you give him a handjob and he stops being able to deny what it is and it plagues and ruins his life.

i think he comes onto you eventually. and it is genuinely in an attempt to push you away and make you disappointed. but then you flip it on him and give him a sexual favor and pull his pants back up for him afterwards and pat his thigh and he's so panicky and Oh No

its so bad JKDFHFSJKD. its so so bad you ruined him and he also becomes possesive over you in a distinct way. it's so misplaced like he's proving freud very right because you're not his mom. you're not.

but the kind of entitlement and the way you are the object of his sexual desire can only be attributed to some weird mother son shit. mind you not a mommy kink. there's not really a roleplay to it for him. he just kind of blatantly wants you to mother him. and it's so so so bad. he's such a freak

[chirlanim]

consider this: deal maker charlie

Charlie who harbors the downtrodden dead, has beens in a literal sense, in exchange for their souls she shields them. all she really asks in exchange is for their participation in her new project - redemption. & Whatever lengths she's willing to go through to 'fix you'.

[markershub]

[ I work late tomorrow and I also work Saturday and then I'm doing things Saturday night. Bear with me.]

[.... I also am like. Really starting to dislike this one racist ass coworker who's constantly complaining about everything so that's fun :^) she's the kind of person who's like 'ugh people are too sensitive and pc these days' and then uhhh says slurs. Bad.]

[schemedplans]

i started looking up v4lveplug to learn what other ppl do with tf posing issues.

i wanna draw smth raunchy but brain says the robot parts wont bend that way.

maybe i just gotta. pop out the limbs. sorry megs if ur legs wont play along they Gotta Go. otherwise i gotta find a reference SOMEWHERE and ughhghh so much for THAT.

[musesfromthefifthdimension-a]

"I let myself in. I hope you don't mind?" (henry b!)

@houseflyy

"Well, of course I mind! I enjoy your company very much, Melody!" Bemis explained in a half-exclamation, pouting slightly. She ought not insult herself like that; a visit from a companion was always welcome. "You see, it's just— just that—"

He trailed off. Then he smiled shyly and laughed nervously.

"Well, what I was going to say was, 'it's just that you should make absolutely sure that no one else sees you', but that's precisely it: there's no one around to see you, no one at all except me."

Not any wife or bank president or customers or company to entertain or anybody else, just him, and her.

"To tell the truth, it's been getting awfully lonely. Why, I— I wonder if I'll ever find another human alive at all, or if I'm doomed to become part of this smashed landscape and rubble caused by that... that horrible weapon, that bomb."

[orangerosebush]

Recently I've really been reflecting on the subject of self-harm and why we engage in it -- I no longer struggle with self-harming behaviors like I did in high school (please do not worry), but I think that that legacy of my shame turning me into a weapon against myself is something that I need to grapple with if I'm ever to live a life that isn't controlled by the emotion of shame in general.

As a result of this rumination, I found an interesting article entitled "The Hand With Two Sides: Self-Mutilation and the Constructed Feminine" by Erin Martin published in the 1988-2013 University of Colorado Boulder's digital journal archive Genders. I don't agree with all the points made (particularly in terms of how Martin articulates some points on her views on psychiatry sensu lato), but I thought I'd attach under a read-more some sections that articulate parts of that very experience of having had a past of self-harming.

For a lot of what I've highlighted, I feel Martin writes about the subject such that it seems that I have always felt that is the truth of my experiences, and that it was a matter of being unable to speak until someone else described it back to me, for me, first. A lot of the issue with therapy was that the process of being treated just left me feeling more ashamed about my struggles, as though I was going in to ask to be forgiven at a sort of religious confession, as opposed to seeking counsel from a professional. And this sense of being implicitly shamed for having dysfunctional coping mechanisms (that I'd come in to address) felt unique to when I was trying to share experiences of self-harm! This, of course, meant that that sense of my struggles being unacceptable to articulate even to a therapist led me to retreat into myself (and Martin talks about how the "ritualistic privacy" of self-harming behaviors are part of what makes them so hard to break).

[expvrgction]

❥ Has someone ever ruined an FC or character for you?

I'd forgotten most details about what ruined a fictional character to me by now, but I vividly remember Dirk Strider from Homestuck being one example.

And surprisingly enough, the majority of the blame wasn't from the community itself, because those in charge with Homestuck ^2 are responsible for the whole mess in the first place. Then again, his role as the Prince of Heart involves the destruction of soul, or destruction through soul. Now correct me if I'm wrong because I cannot remember much of the series' lore itself, but in SBURB/SGRUB, Prince players (and couple that with Bards and particularly evil Lord players *cough Caliborn cough*) are pretty much high risks of all players and need to be looked after to prevent a whole game session from going awry.

It perplexes me why he has become corrupt just one comic away. I've read some pages and I couldn't stand the amount of what, to myself personally (I know some people still like this and I have no reason to judge them too hard either), is terrible writing. Not only was Dirk ruined for me, though-- Some other characters I like in the long-standing webcomic got such poor treatment, too.

A lot of things made me lose interest in Homestuck now, but as the original webcomic? It was one hell of a ride and I actually enjoyed it even for the flaws it had during its run. I still don't get the massive, if not detrimental changes to it had happened.

Of course, I’d still say to people to not let my take on this deter anyone from interest towards a thing they might want to look at.

[thumperking]

psychology + mental health deep dive !

general mental health related trigger warnings apply. feel free to include more or exclude those facts / test results that take too much time or don’t apply, you can check out this list for more personality-related quizzes to include!

QUICK FACTS ,

diagnoses: ocd & depression

triggers: physical abuse ( and sometimes verbal abuse )

positive coping skills: what are thooooseee ? he doesn’t have many positive coping skills, if any at all.

negative coping skills: shutting down 100% of the time. abandoning / abandonment.

attachment style : Dismissive / Avoidant

love language: acts of service , physical touch.

myers briggs / mbti : INTJ-T - the architect

HISTORY EXPLORATION ,

are their diagnoses formal ( via a doctor, therapist, etc. ) or informal : both are fairly informal , the ocd was recognized at an early age but due to how his father was he was never put into any form of therapy or medicated. after the death of his mother, at age 10 - he became very angry and often depressed & reclusive.

have they ever been treated / medicated? self medicated with weed / drugs but never by a medical professional.

have they ever been hospitalized or treated on an inpatient basis? No.

how old were they when they first started experiencing / realizing symptoms? as stated above his ocd was recognized fairly young ( around 6/7 )

do they have a family history of mental illness? depression, alcoholism, s*icude.

how was mental health handled / discussed in the family? it simply wasn’t something anyone on his father’s side spoke of ://

what are their thoughts on mental health / their diagnosis? thumper doesn’t really openly talk about his ocd or depression, he realizes as he gets older / has gotten older that there’s nothing to he shamed about especially if he needed medication or therapy ( or both ) but he’s not an open book, so it’s tough.

in what ways has their diagnosis shaped their life or experiences? It makes hard for him to form relationships, long lasting ones - in most cases there are lots of trial & error, fights & him pushing people away, so very negatively. he’s considered controlling, uptight and .. a dick. when the walls are broken down you’ll see he’s got a good heart he’s just very picky on who gets to see it.

SYMPTOMS: note that all of the below are, on their own, normative and typical aspects of human functioning. they become “symptoms” when they last longer than “normal” or when they pose a significant impact on someone’s life / functioning.

BOLD all that are present, ITALICIZE those that are resolved or in the history.

depression. anxiety. panic attacks. dissociation. derealization. depersonalization. suicidal ideation. self harm. homicidal ideation. psychosis. auditory hallucinations. visual hallucinations. delusions. mania. hypomania. racing thoughts. hyperactivity. attention difficulty. flashbacks. nightmares. hyperarousal. hypoarousal. hypersexuality. hyposexuality. psychopathy. risky behavior. catatonia. somatic / bodily concerns. mutism. phobia. agoraphobia. hoarding. obsessions. compulsions. body dysmorphia. hair picking. skin picking. amnesia. illness anxiety / hypochondria. sensory loss. speech difficulty. comprehension difficulty. communication difficulty. tics. defiant behavior. irritable mood. vindictiveness. aggression. pyromania. kleptomania. paranoia. attention seeking. narcissism. avoidance. dependency. pica. rumination. food restriction. food binging. purging. soiling the bed. insomnia. fatigue. sexual dysfunction. delirium. developmental delays.

explanations / elaborations on any of the above symptoms:

he’s agitated or irritable very quickly , his mood can change within a snap, depending on the situation. he shuts down if he cannot process how he’s feeling vs communicating how he’s feeling.