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IT'S HIS FAULT
"Can you be good for me, baby?"
"Hmm, you're not very patient, are you?"
“Your shirt got a little dirty, how about we take it off doll?”
"Arch your back for me, that's a good girl."
"Shut up and take it like the good slut you are."
"Swallow it. All of it."
"Such a good little pup, aren't you?"
#mona's sessions#moots!#🍇 - Rin!#user: diorsyun#as you can see i hate myself#I HATE HIM TOO WHEN IS HIS DICK GONNA BE IN ME#jake come home the kids miss you#I've cheated on him so many times i forgot how much i loved him#(evidently i need to be in an asylum)
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(part 1)
(short comic) (you can otherwise search 'spy x pta' on my profile)
MY GOODNESS. it's been a hot minute since i posted the first part and i guess i just couldn't SHUT UP because this is FOURTEEN PAGES LONG. FOURTEEN. you can even see some pages where the linework is slightly different because i drew it like 6-ish weeks ago, that's how long this has been cooking. drawing in general has been hard lately because of time constraints, BUT i am so happy i finished this. this is like my fav project even tho it isnt as popular, but who cares!!!!! POPULAR IN MY HEART
#also another six of crows reference because Obviously#loid “i must mold myself to please everyone” forger meets yor “as long as my family accepts me im happy” forger#mrs delaire you can choke on a rock#i hate her (i literally wrote her)#im so happy with so many parts of this comic but its so freaking long LMAO so i wont list all the parts i like#to the people who r enjoying this thank you for the love :')#its nice to see when people like smth that i have put time into :D#spy x family#my art#loid forger#sxf#yor forger#twiyor#spy x pta
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tessa, being the edgy little freak she is, obviously took the original darkxwolf username
#synemy is like a fun fic go read that#inspired by some chatter in the archives where tessas username was discussed and i suggested “darkxwolf16”#synemy drone tessa is quite the enigma. i dont draw other peoples oc designs often so it took a bit to get the hair a way i like#you can see it changing inbetween panels if you care hard enough#i think im getting better with like poses or stuff#im not hating myself nearly as much when i draw hands so thats gotta be a positive#putting tessa in a drone body so uzi can strangle her for taking the name#otherwise she would've found a way to strangle her own bits of code. hell hath no fury like a doorman scorned#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#murder drones tessa#drone!tessa#synemy#never thought i'd use tags like these but well here we are#hi kalpeavaris if you somehow stumble your way onto this
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#tumblr polls#polls#Sorry if the wording is weird. I thought ''be considered X where I live'' would make the most sense since 'tallness' or etc. is sort of#subjective to the people around you or your specific culture/area/etc. And if I just said ''I'm tall'' or ''I'm short'' then#the response might be 'well how do I define whether I'm tall or not?'' or etc. But then most people could probably look#at the people around them in daily life they interact with and compare based on that to get a more literal idea or something#..ANYWAY.. lol.. as usual just thought of some random thing and was like.. hrmm... i wonder what the most common#feeling about that would be.#personally I'm not even short but I just want to be really really tall... like... 7 feet tall or something. In a fantasy world type of way#of course. so like a super tall elf creature. More realistically I suppose you get health problems past a certain point#so maybe I'd be happy with 6'2“ or so.#Absolutely no hate towards people with this preference but I've always had trouble understanding the idea of wanting to be shorter#so you're Small And Cute or this and that. or whatever the base reason is. I suppose I would understand it from a surivval prespective#maybe you want to be able to hide in your environment easier and blend into a crowd. I personally would like people to be inspired to run#away from me when they see me though gjhbj#In an average grocery store or something just a normal day but then some 8 foot tall wizard man walks in and so everyone#kind of backs away slowly = yaaay I get the aisle all to myself and can shop for my produce in peace.#(except for the fact that there's a subsection of people who would intepret it as spectacle and would run towards instead of away#and pull out their dumbass phones to film Weird Thing Happening. in which case. spell of 'phone melts into molten plastic in your hands#stop filming strangers in public without their consent' be cast upon ye. )
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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Your fears that you don't have a body that will transition "well" are, sure, understandable, but there isn't truly such thing as a body that's unworthy of transition. Perhaps your changing body won't suit everybody's taste, but would you rather live for yourself or for the whims of random people who don't care about your happiness as long as they're attracted to what they see?
Transition is for anybody who wants it. It's okay to be fearful. It's okay to be uncertain. But it isn't the end of the world. You are in control, and if you choose to transition to any capacity, it should be at your behest. You and your body are worthy of transition. I hope you are able to seize transition and do what you truly want for yourself.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#have been seeing a small resurgence in some trans spaces that there is such thing as an 'untransitional' body#there are people out there who cannot transition for medical/financial/social reasons but that isn't what people often mean#kill the person in your head that says you need to adhere to cishet standards. it's okay to be trans and *look* it if you want#transition because it makes you feel happy or fulfilled. transition because it is something *you* want#while yes it's complex because appearing trans can be dangerous i ultimately want people to have the freedom to make decisions solely...#...on what *they* want y'know?#i have seen this idea that some people just aren't 'able' to transition because they won't 'appear cis' for years now and it's heartbreaking#like i used the whole 'i don't look cis' against myself because it's impossible for me *to be* cis...#...i will never be non-trans. i will never not be a transsexual and i used to hate that about myself...#...because i was taught that being trans is bad. i was taught that looking trans is a curse that nobody should EVER inflict upon themselves#and that the goal was to essentially distance yourself as far away from transness as you can#and it's okay for people to not want to 'look' visibly trans. it's neutral. what was harmful was the idea that TRANS was bad#there's a huge difference between 'i don't want to be visibly trans' and 'i think being trans and looking it is bad'
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are you mourning the alternate timeline where fox wasnt comprised of a bunch of testicle munchers and we got more cherik scenes or are you normal
#xmen#xmen first class#cherik#snap chats#I HATE THIS WHY WOULD THEY SHARE THIS#ignorance is bliss this is true cause wdym we couldve had even more#pleaaasssee i need more scenes where you can practically see the love in eriks eyes as he talks with charles#burying myself in a coffin as i cope and seethe brb
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Can you just imagine him using those stupidly attractive necklaces of his to gag you so you could stay quiet as he fucks his cum into you backstage after a concert? Can you imagine biting down onto the cold metal of the necklaces as his fingers trace shapes onto your hips, trying not to make you scream as his thick cock pushes into your pussy, making it painfully fit in? Can you imagine him forcing his dick into you so harshly that at this point he's not fucking you, he's absolutely pounding into you, with the strong, lusty sinews of his muscles handling your body with ease, maneuvering and practically molding your pussy to fit the puzzle piece of his dick as your body burns with fire? Can you imagine his cocky grin as you scream loud enough for the entire arena to hear, when your body come crashing down on his, as your plentiful liquids mix together to form his favourite concoction?
Cause yeah I imagine that a lot
#mona's sessions#yes i am very much insane thank you for noticing#i hate him (i need him to give me babies)#CAN HE JUST GIVE ME ONE CHANCE PLEASE#see this is why i hate myself#heeseung smut#heeseung hard hours#heeseung hard thoughts#enhypen hard thoughts#enhypen hard hours#heeseung × reader#lee heeseung hard thoughts#lee heeseung hard hours#lee heeseung smut#enha hard hours#enha hard thoughts#enhypen × reader
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1x04 - What We | The Ones Who Live
#i am utterly feral#like i cannot be introduced into society or an indoor environment rn#Rick Grimes#towl spoilers#The Ones Who Live#*#rg#HOW DOES HE KEEP GETTING MORE HANDSOME STOP IT#F U Z Z I E S#CHEST FUZZIES DO YOU SEE THEM#NECK FUZZIES#SCARS#THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS#I AM WINNING#even his adams apple is nice#i hate myself#the slope of his shoulders 🗣#if i could just rest my face on his chest for a few i think it could solve a lot of problems i have tbh#put me in traction#until i walk like i'm about to duel at the OK Corral#[redacted] inside me#hello welcome to the tour#on your left you will see A MAN™#i have a very hectic week ahead i need to go to bed#would give a kidney to draw idle patterns in his chest hair#*rabid whale noises*#i don't think whales can get rabies but if they could that's what i sound like rn#that man would look like an ancient capri sun pouch when i was done#go to bed lacey
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This looks so lame in a photo, but this is my favorite spot in the world. Its so beautiful, it makes me feel like I could paint galleries full of just this.
#like ahh#i cannot stress enough how nothing this spot is irl tho#its literally just like a cliffside on a road#if you looked over that lil barrier youd see the sandy river#and its not a spot you can stop either#but every time i pass this view its like looking at the moon#theres just this pure unbridled sense of wonder and awe#its such nonsense#but i see it and i wish i could capture it forever#but its briefness in my life is probs what makes it so beautiful#makes me wanna be a poet#makes me wanna completely disvow any other art ive ever made and dedicate myself to making landscapes#and i fuckin hate landscapes
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more Duvet brain rot! Gotta have a lie at the ready when you time travel to take care of your literal inner child 🐇
and a bonus
#carpetbug art#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#ml#miraculous fanart#bunny!chloe#chloe bourgeois#chloe#duvet#duvet: what I do in my burrow is my business and no one elses#ladybug: ITS A LITERAL FUCKING TIME MACHINE WHY WOULD THAT NOT BE OUR BUSINESS#you can really see i gave up on the last two panels <3 i love and hate drawing this shit is both awesome and so dumb at the same time#anyways baby chloe is hard to draw and so is crying WHEN ITS ALL SIMPLE AND TINY#ignore me i just make myself do things the hardest possible way every time#i know the burrow is the same for all rabbit holders but idk. Duvets burrow is all disorganized and chaotic to me
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Jiang cheng antis are so annoying. Just saw some neanderthal say they’re upset jc never apologized to wwx 💀 wtf is he apologizing for like be so fr “hey so you spiraled out of control and accidentally caused the death of my last remaining family member and your hubris inadvertently caused my entire sect to be massacred but Im soooo sorry” like ok lmfao. Now if we’re talking about apologies sure he could apologize for blaming him for what happened with the wens killing his clan because even if wen chao was especially foul because of wwx the wens would’ve came regardless but anything aside from that is really up in the air. Hunting DC is a rumor that has never been confirmed (some of yall are illiterate so I’ll give you grace for missing that and the entire message about rumors in the book) and even if the rumor did have validity DC is not a good thing and DCs are not good people 💀. If we’re talking about defecting, it was staged and wwx made the choice of his own volition to defect because they both (wwx & jc) knew that JC didn’t have the power (politically and physically) to defend wwx for protecting the wen remnants. For the golden core, JC never asked him to give him his core, if anything he literally lost his core trying to protect wwx. It was a parallel symbolizing the extent that both would go for each other and sacrificing themselves to help the person they love. (And even then JC didn’t distract the wen patrol with the thought that he would lose his core, in his head the price of protecting wwx would be his life if he were to get caught. the one time JC chose love over duty) “jc should have apologized to wwx” I think there’s a lot of things unsaid between them both, whether that be apologies or whatever else, but don’t be fucking delusional and put all the blame on JC 💀 if you’re gonna make half-baked excuses on why you dislike him then you might as well wear a big glaring red sign that says remedial and illiterate xoxo
#yunmeng shuangjie#jiang cheng#yunmeng siblings#honestly I wish mxtx wote them actually talking their shit out just so I wouldn’t have to keep seeing your dumb ass takes#mxtx give us canon yunmeng bro reconciliation and my life is yours!!!#leave the past in the past is not a satisfying conversation at all actually! it was lazy and unfulfilling#the most arguably nuanced relationship in the book and all we got was leave the past behind??? what if I shit myself mxtx#yunmeng bros deserve healing too#are we really reading the same novel?? how can you say jiang cheng hated wei wuxian#jiang wanyin#jiang fengmian fuck you die like the dog you are you shitty little man#jiang fengmian caught a stray just because#I do not like that man yall
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I'm at the brink of a suicidal breakdown. I've been waiting to get my paycheck from an illustration job I've done last October 2023, I did ask them about it and said that I would get paid on the 27th. It's the 28th and I still don't see any updates on my end. I've gotten my hopes up for so long, every month since and I've burnt the fuck out from waiting.
I've been refraining myself from eating and buy myself stuff like food and toiletries and I've completely ran out of money to survive. I wish i could accept commissions but I haven't been doing great mental and physical wise and I don't have the means to draw other than a few sketches to cheer myself up. I'm completely burnt out.
If you could help spread this around I would appreciate it, every bit helps at least to cover my necessities for a while until I hope to eventually get paid
I'm sorry for asking for donations so frequently I just can't hold on for much longer in this state
Donations and reblogs are appreciated, thank you
#personal#i hate asking for help but the other option rn for my depressed ass is to kill myself and no one wants that#i just dont understand why its taking so long. i already was told ill be paid at the 22nd but then after waiting through the whole weekend#they tell me its supposed to be on the 27th. it was a typo#now its the 28th and i dont even see it#am i really gonna get paid. this is souring my experience working here. i do have a project to work on but all i can think of is dying#my sister helped me out a bit but she cant even do much bc she got out of surgery a few weeks ago and doesnt earn much#she also has rent and gas to cover for her new job#mads if youre reading this thank you for helping me at that low point when she got into the hospital. i owe you so much already#i feel indebted
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favorite frank is. frank with kids. this guy was meant to be a dad
#marvel#frank castle#the punisher#hes doing his best#im not even a big fan of kids myself. cant imagine having any i dont think id be any good at it#franks great though. clearly having kids is something he still really wishes he could have but cant due to. yk. the punisher thing#im tired of hornyposting he makes me sad#fuck whats that one ph comments meme. i dont even want to jerk off anymore i just want to be loved#oooh i think about it. i think about his smile the smile you can only see in old pictures he keeps#and sometimes the ghost of it when hes trying his best with kids#its beautiful how he loves them. and very sad how he hates himself#theres also something to be said about the times kids are scared of him and how he accepts it as part of what he 'needs' to do#surely thats not a part of the way he constantly tries to punish himself for 'failing' his family. surely
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If any of the Batsiblings ever end up in serious medical trouble, to the point they've been forced onto bedrest or put into a medically-induced coma, their siblings will rotate in shifts (and require physical force to be removed sometimes) or hover at windowsills and talk at the patient and meddle so much that Leslie keeps having to smack their hands away from IV lines or wrestle back her stethoscope. But the second said sibling wakes up it converts spontaneously to around the clock taunting, shoulder punches that nearly send them and their crutches into the floor, silent help during PT, and someone coming by to coerce pain meds onto you with bedside manner so bad that you forget all about almost dying and start planning homicide.
#You guys... I have the scariest amount of deja vu about this one#ISTG i have made this post before.#But I myself cannot find it#In any case I assume renditions of it have been made over and over this is not a novel concept#which gets us thinking about what a novel concept even is and the fact that those poor baby AIs (I hate em) are just doing their best to#mimic the way our fleshy brain soup pours everything together and blends it into something new#but they're shitty at it so you can see the hard edges of the words they ripped out of a newspaper to make their collage#devastating truly#batman#dc comics#batfamily#personal#shitpost#batpost
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I’ll keep the king when you are gone away. I’ll keep him safe from the dark things that wait. — King by The Amazing Devil
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Some details for archaeology nerds (Here we go again AHAHAHA)
First of all the costume Alfred wears in this pic is BY NO MEANS historical accurate, but if we really want to be 100% accurate then to my knowledge there’s a high chance that Alfred wouldn’t be wearing dresses gowns at all (whoever decided to make Alfred wear those pretty cough dresses cough in the show I wish your family to prosper for all eternity YOU’RE A HERO), so instead I just chose to design whatever clothes I want and add some Anglo-Saxon elements in it :)
1. Alfred’s earrings
Took inspiration from the 7th century Anglo-Saxon/Frankish crystal ball, now in Ashmolean Museum, Oxford. Here’s the thing, I know English men (and the monarchs) don’t wear earrings until the 16th century and earrings weren’t even popular during the Anglo-Saxon period, but once I saw Charles I wearing pearl earrings in his portrait I just can’t help but put something pretty on Alfred’s ears as well lol…Sadly I can’t find the exact size of this one but the official site says that it was used as a pendant/an amulet! Probably for pagan practices though, but it’s pretty, isn’t it? :D
2. Patterns on Alfred’s gown
Taken from the patterns on the Bewcastle Cross in Cumbria (which used to belong to Northumbria, built in around the 7th to early 8th century, aka the period Bede lived in.
3. The woven band
The pattern is taken from the Laceby band found in Laceby, Lincolnshire, dated to early 7th century. It seems both Scandinavians and Anglo-Saxons enjoy wearing tablet-woven bands? Saw this kind of things a lot in viking clothes reconstruction as well.
4. …Whatever this is
From fol. 34r in Book of Kells, the famous Celtic gospel book completed in Ireland circa 800 AD. As you can see I got lazy during drawing this lol but the illustrations in the original manuscripts are really impressive!
Now I don’t know if this is a good news or not but I’ve still got like…six wips for alhtred in hand…Good god of arts DELIVER ME
#posting it before i start wanting to kill myself#this was supposed to be a doodle but in the end i spent 30 hours on it and it still looks like shit#urghhhh#sometimes i hate doing arts lol#ok sorry for artist’s rants#SO about the drawing itself#this is completely a self indulgent piece LOL#at the end of the day i just want to make alfred wear pretty things :3#and see him being bridal carried#that’s all lol#BTW can we just ignore for a second how strong uhtred would need to be in order to carry alfred like that by one single hand#we call it ✨creative freedom✨#p.s. I’m thinking the when ‘you’ are gone away quote is Uhtred referring to the christian god lol#the last kingdom#tlk alfred#alfred x uhtred#uhtred x alfred#king alfred#alfred the great#alhtred#uhtred#hikaruchen#hikaru tlk
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