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minhosimthings · 9 months ago

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IT'S HIS FAULT

"Can you be good for me, baby?"

"Hmm, you're not very patient, are you?"

“Your shirt got a little dirty, how about we take it off doll?”

"Arch your back for me, that's a good girl."

"Shut up and take it like the good slut you are."

"Swallow it. All of it."

"Such a good little pup, aren't you?"

#mona's sessions #moots!#🍇 - Rin!#user: diorsyun #as you can see i hate myself #I HATE HIM TOO WHEN IS HIS DICK GONNA BE IN ME #jake come home the kids miss you #I've cheated on him so many times i forgot how much i loved him #(evidently i need to be in an asylum)

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aerequets · 4 months ago

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(part 1)

(short comic) (you can otherwise search 'spy x pta' on my profile)

MY GOODNESS. it's been a hot minute since i posted the first part and i guess i just couldn't SHUT UP because this is FOURTEEN PAGES LONG. FOURTEEN. you can even see some pages where the linework is slightly different because i drew it like 6-ish weeks ago, that's how long this has been cooking. drawing in general has been hard lately because of time constraints, BUT i am so happy i finished this. this is like my fav project even tho it isnt as popular, but who cares!!!!! POPULAR IN MY HEART

#also another six of crows reference because Obviously #loid “i must mold myself to please everyone” forger meets yor “as long as my family accepts me im happy” forger #mrs delaire you can choke on a rock #i hate her (i literally wrote her)#im so happy with so many parts of this comic but its so freaking long LMAO so i wont list all the parts i like #to the people who r enjoying this thank you for the love :')#its nice to see when people like smth that i have put time into :D #spy x family #my art #loid forger #sxf #yor forger #twiyor #spy x pta

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umblrspectrum · 4 months ago

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tessa, being the edgy little freak she is, obviously took the original darkxwolf username

#synemy is like a fun fic go read that #inspired by some chatter in the archives where tessas username was discussed and i suggested “darkxwolf16”#synemy drone tessa is quite the enigma. i dont draw other peoples oc designs often so it took a bit to get the hair a way i like #you can see it changing inbetween panels if you care hard enough #i think im getting better with like poses or stuff #im not hating myself nearly as much when i draw hands so thats gotta be a positive #putting tessa in a drone body so uzi can strangle her for taking the name #otherwise she would've found a way to strangle her own bits of code. hell hath no fury like a doorman scorned #art #murder drones #murder drones uzi #murder drones tessa #drone!tessa #synemy #never thought i'd use tags like these but well here we are #hi kalpeavaris if you somehow stumble your way onto this

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adhdandcomics · 5 months ago

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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:

does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies

#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked #has been just so. mean about it #not even intentionally #not always at least #but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things #that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person #ever had #this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame #idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it #see it as a personal choice to be late #and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t #you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general #and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices #it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for #bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing #and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves #and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else #there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month

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shinehalley · 2 months ago

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"We need more complex female characters"

Well, what a odd thing to say when you are not even prepared to deal with Crystal Palace. Like, she's complex as hell, but her arcs are pretty easy to understand, and yet I still see people villainizing her. You want complex female characters, but you're not ready for them, especially if there's an m/m couple, canon or not, in the mix.

#I don't usually get into this kind of discussion #but I ended up reading some shit and couldn't help myself #I love Crystal and the construction of her character in the first season #and my biggest disappointment about the cancellation was precisely about not seeing her development in the series #and I love Paineland with my heart but not at the expense of purposefully interpreting Crystal's arc wrong to have some reason to hate her #you can not like the kind of character she is or the kind of arc they're giving her #but if you have paneland in your justification for not liking her then you're talking shit #sorry i needed to get this out #dead boy detectives #crystal palace surname von hoverkraft #crystal palace

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hellspawnmotel · 3 months ago

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I’m not gonna be posting for a lil while! there’s a lot of stressful things going on in my life right now so I’m forcing myself into a leave of absence for at least the next month, possibly longer depending. I’ll probably still be lurking on a sideblog cuz I like it here and there’s a lot of art I wanna look at, but I’m not gonna be posting my own art, answering messages, or looking at my notifications until then. stay frosty 👍

#posting this so I can hold myself to it cuz I hate going back in my word lol #love u all i’ll see you soon

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months ago

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#tumblr polls #polls #Sorry if the wording is weird. I thought ''be considered X where I live'' would make the most sense since 'tallness' or etc. is sort of #subjective to the people around you or your specific culture/area/etc. And if I just said ''I'm tall'' or ''I'm short'' then #the response might be 'well how do I define whether I'm tall or not?'' or etc. But then most people could probably look #at the people around them in daily life they interact with and compare based on that to get a more literal idea or something #..ANYWAY.. lol.. as usual just thought of some random thing and was like.. hrmm... i wonder what the most common #feeling about that would be.#personally I'm not even short but I just want to be really really tall... like... 7 feet tall or something. In a fantasy world type of way #of course. so like a super tall elf creature. More realistically I suppose you get health problems past a certain point #so maybe I'd be happy with 6'2“ or so.#Absolutely no hate towards people with this preference but I've always had trouble understanding the idea of wanting to be shorter #so you're Small And Cute or this and that. or whatever the base reason is. I suppose I would understand it from a surivval prespective #maybe you want to be able to hide in your environment easier and blend into a crowd. I personally would like people to be inspired to run #away from me when they see me though gjhbj #In an average grocery store or something just a normal day but then some 8 foot tall wizard man walks in and so everyone #kind of backs away slowly = yaaay I get the aisle all to myself and can shop for my produce in peace.#(except for the fact that there's a subsection of people who would intepret it as spectacle and would run towards instead of away #and pull out their dumbass phones to film Weird Thing Happening. in which case. spell of 'phone melts into molten plastic in your hands #stop filming strangers in public without their consent' be cast upon ye. )

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uncanny-tranny · 2 years ago

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Your fears that you don't have a body that will transition "well" are, sure, understandable, but there isn't truly such thing as a body that's unworthy of transition. Perhaps your changing body won't suit everybody's taste, but would you rather live for yourself or for the whims of random people who don't care about your happiness as long as they're attracted to what they see?

Transition is for anybody who wants it. It's okay to be fearful. It's okay to be uncertain. But it isn't the end of the world. You are in control, and if you choose to transition to any capacity, it should be at your behest. You and your body are worthy of transition. I hope you are able to seize transition and do what you truly want for yourself.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #have been seeing a small resurgence in some trans spaces that there is such thing as an 'untransitional' body #there are people out there who cannot transition for medical/financial/social reasons but that isn't what people often mean #kill the person in your head that says you need to adhere to cishet standards. it's okay to be trans and *look* it if you want #transition because it makes you feel happy or fulfilled. transition because it is something *you* want #while yes it's complex because appearing trans can be dangerous i ultimately want people to have the freedom to make decisions solely...#...on what *they* want y'know?#i have seen this idea that some people just aren't 'able' to transition because they won't 'appear cis' for years now and it's heartbreaking #like i used the whole 'i don't look cis' against myself because it's impossible for me *to be* cis...#...i will never be non-trans. i will never not be a transsexual and i used to hate that about myself...#...because i was taught that being trans is bad. i was taught that looking trans is a curse that nobody should EVER inflict upon themselves #and that the goal was to essentially distance yourself as far away from transness as you can #and it's okay for people to not want to 'look' visibly trans. it's neutral. what was harmful was the idea that TRANS was bad #there's a huge difference between 'i don't want to be visibly trans' and 'i think being trans and looking it is bad'

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crossbackpoke-check · 7 days ago

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"Bees" [remixed, abridged], Claudia Emerson // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed. abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "Letter to my Great, Great Grandchild" [remixed, abridged], J.P. Grasser | Len Redkole, Nina Weiss, Brian Babineau, Christian Peterson, Mitchell Leff, Dave Isaac, Megan DeRuchie

#liv in the replies #if i were insane there would be an appendix to this called telling the bees however i finished this at 3am yesterday its nearly midnight &#my cutoff is when my ahl asg stream cuts. GOD by now i should know when i save a poem like hmm. not applicable but god it'd be perfect #THAT'S A CURSE. DON'T PUT IT IN THE DOCUMENT. DON'T SAVE IT. FORGET YOU READ IT. IT'S A CURSE!! <- things i should've told myself when i #went to read bees was already like 👀 &then the first line was FUCKING CLAUDE!!!!! anyway. sorry also this is like. insanely long but ALSO #regarding mf claude. the first picture is a leftover from the claude edit i made years ago so that feels GREAT and BEAUTIFUL & also for me #as ever y'all will be getting a full breakdown. starting with what i regularly have a breakdown about every time i see it which is joelle's #james 1:12 tattoo which if u use the king james version (gay) is blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test he #will receive the crown of life the lord has promised to those who love him. which i always go blessed is he who perseveres // for those who #love him. and that's joel. ignoring him getting it then getting sent down on his birthday IGNORING IT. also we know the frosty/maple leafs #hahaha fuck the flyers lore right? good. that's morgan and his dad also bc i love a baby picture & it was perfect. also the dave isaac pic #next was in an article talking about morgan 'stung' by draft camp. shut UP. i have an alt for tells him with claude and ALSO hate the #elephant w/phil bc myesie u fuckin leaf-eater (giraffe) but i love the composition of that jake shot & had to use it (it was also almost #tells him) with thylacine jakey frog nolan also raff the extinct whale bc i needed him here. if my editing on incapable of joy is bad no on #tell me i did some SHENANIGANS to put morgan in there & color-pick/alter his jersey. new skill. i think euphoria is one of my favorite for #the sake of pride night but ALSO that polaroid kills me very time &they're so stoners contemplate the universe but ALSO i love transcendenc #so that whole three photo string i think is my favorite. and i was in looking at these like listen okay it's okay there are only so many #photos in the world. you can repeat from others you've seen before. except ALSO there's so many of these freaks together do you separate #and every time i was like there can't be more there was more. don't ask the number of back-ups for the sweetest blossom/pinch/ruffle sets #okay also the ready to be stung one was a surprise favorite fit for me because i love that line but wasn't sure how to convey it? so it's o #i think with how morgan's face is and the almost of it all. yes joel hardest trier is in there purely for me i do have an alt but. how coul #u doubt him. insert sasha's tweet abt how much joel loves philly but all his quotes have been abt being excited for morgan to have a fresh #start. AND NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES IN CALGARY AND YOU'RE STILL INSEPARABLE god i literally googled frost farabee calgary to find the last #blessed [because. heard but not seen you know of everyone traded but you went together. not seen. (which ties into the terrible appendix)]#and IT DIDN'T EVEN TAKE ME TWO MINUTES TO FIND THAT!!! WHAT DO YOU MEANNN anyway. sorry again it's so long & also i will be vanishing a wee #& a half after posting [redacted] is kicking my ass & im doing [redacted fun things WAIT ACTUALLY U CAN KNOW ONE i'm seeing hippo campus]#morgan frost #joel farabee #philadelphia flyers #calgary flames

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meatballlady · 2 days ago

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Every single fic after s1: "and then they went to Crowley's flat, and they confessed their eternal love, and they stared deeply into each other's eyes..."

Me, not realizing how bad it could be: "yeah, okay, love it, but some variety would be nice - "

Every fic after s2: "And then Aziraphale got to Heaven and immediately realized that he was a fucking idiot and wanted to turn around and grovel on his knees before Crowley but he couldn't because it was all a trap. Meanwhile, on earth, Crowley has been drinking for 84 years ... "

Me: *incoherent screaming*

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daisybell-on-a-carousel · 4 months ago

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Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man

#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should #suicide mention #ask to tag #while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like #going into that building with shelia? yeah #now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth #but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah #his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is #ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that #he puts A BOMB in his HELMET #suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself #the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end #anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization #because theyre not killing him right #AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out #think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like #weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them #again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about #and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself #jason todd analysis #anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him #WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe #anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..

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minhosimthings · 9 months ago

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Can you just imagine him using those stupidly attractive necklaces of his to gag you so you could stay quiet as he fucks his cum into you backstage after a concert? Can you imagine biting down onto the cold metal of the necklaces as his fingers trace shapes onto your hips, trying not to make you scream as his thick cock pushes into your pussy, making it painfully fit in? Can you imagine him forcing his dick into you so harshly that at this point he's not fucking you, he's absolutely pounding into you, with the strong, lusty sinews of his muscles handling your body with ease, maneuvering and practically molding your pussy to fit the puzzle piece of his dick as your body burns with fire? Can you imagine his cocky grin as you scream loud enough for the entire arena to hear, when your body come crashing down on his, as your plentiful liquids mix together to form his favourite concoction?

Cause yeah I imagine that a lot

#mona's sessions #yes i am very much insane thank you for noticing #i hate him (i need him to give me babies)#CAN HE JUST GIVE ME ONE CHANCE PLEASE #see this is why i hate myself #heeseung smut #heeseung hard hours #heeseung hard thoughts #enhypen hard thoughts #enhypen hard hours #heeseung × reader #lee heeseung hard thoughts #lee heeseung hard hours #lee heeseung smut #enha hard hours #enha hard thoughts #enhypen × reader

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xxplastic-cubexx · 5 months ago

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are you mourning the alternate timeline where fox wasnt comprised of a bunch of testicle munchers and we got more cherik scenes or are you normal

#xmen #xmen first class #cherik #snap chats #I HATE THIS WHY WOULD THEY SHARE THIS #ignorance is bliss this is true cause wdym we couldve had even more #pleaaasssee i need more scenes where you can practically see the love in eriks eyes as he talks with charles #burying myself in a coffin as i cope and seethe brb

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andy-clutterbuck · 11 months ago

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1x04 - What We | The Ones Who Live

#i am utterly feral #like i cannot be introduced into society or an indoor environment rn #Rick Grimes #towl spoilers #The Ones Who Live #*#rg #HOW DOES HE KEEP GETTING MORE HANDSOME STOP IT #F U Z Z I E S #CHEST FUZZIES DO YOU SEE THEM #NECK FUZZIES #SCARS #THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS #I AM WINNING #even his adams apple is nice #i hate myself #the slope of his shoulders 🗣#if i could just rest my face on his chest for a few i think it could solve a lot of problems i have tbh #put me in traction #until i walk like i'm about to duel at the OK Corral #[redacted] inside me #hello welcome to the tour #on your left you will see A MAN™#i have a very hectic week ahead i need to go to bed #would give a kidney to draw idle patterns in his chest hair #*rabid whale noises*#i don't think whales can get rabies but if they could that's what i sound like rn #that man would look like an ancient capri sun pouch when i was done #go to bed lacey

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uwumoth · 2 months ago

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Baberoe swing dancing!! (I think)

This was a request and honestly it was really fun I liked drawing this

#band of brothers #eugene roe #doc roe #babe heffron #baberoe #swing dancing #FUN!!!#i love the colors so much #click on it if you wanna see it clearly ig fuck i hate image sizes i jsut wanna kill myself i can never understand it GAHHHHH RRRRRR

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spookberry · 4 months ago

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This looks so lame in a photo, but this is my favorite spot in the world. Its so beautiful, it makes me feel like I could paint galleries full of just this.

#like ahh #i cannot stress enough how nothing this spot is irl tho #its literally just like a cliffside on a road #if you looked over that lil barrier youd see the sandy river #and its not a spot you can stop either #but every time i pass this view its like looking at the moon #theres just this pure unbridled sense of wonder and awe #its such nonsense #but i see it and i wish i could capture it forever #but its briefness in my life is probs what makes it so beautiful #makes me wanna be a poet #makes me wanna completely disvow any other art ive ever made and dedicate myself to making landscapes #and i fuckin hate landscapes

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