#as you can see i am totally normal about this scene and the amount of bellamy growth i got in it

[lingeringscars]

thinking forever about bellamy saying his sister is his weakness

[felix-krain]

An analysis of Resh's design

Based on what we have so far from Two Embers.

By me, a very sane and normal person that likes Resh a normal amount /j

Okay so: I want to start from the very basic stuff. Namely their design as Alef. In the beta concepts Alef had a full star mask (like Resh) but from what we've seen so far they appear to look like a regular kid. Well yes, but also no

I really like this tiny detail they left on their mask. It may not be a full star mask but they did leave those little spikes to make it recognizable. Also Alef seems to be a normal ancestor kid without the little light on the chest that characterizes skykids (I know they DO have it in one of the trailers but that trailer is very old and you can clearly see that their design was altered ever since, none of the new trailers show it) but we don't really know their origin yet. That said let's get to the main point

THIS FUCKER

Unlike popular opinion I don't believe Resh to be bald. Mainly because we can see the folds in what appears to be fabric covering their head during this shot here. Overall their design seems to be a simplified version of their beta one.

One interesting thing to notice is the fact that we never fully see their mask so we cannot confirm it to have four points (especially considering their child one only has three)

They also appear to have their entire body covered up. The head is covered by the hood and the mask, they wear a long sleeved vest and gloves. All of this covered additionally by their cape. We don't really see even an inch of their skin, which is quite interesting...

If we look back at the corrupted King theory we could assume this total coverage of the body could be to hide the rocks growing on their skin

As we have previously seen other characters from Two Embers suffering with this corruption/disease

So... maybe?

They appear to be wearing a robe like other ancestors, an especially long one for that matter. Yet the peculiar thing is that (at least from this shot) they almost appear to not be wearing shoes. I would guess they would be wearing sandals, even though, if we take the previous "all skin covered" fact, it would be pretty odd to leave the feet uncovered but idk, this scene doesn't give a clear enough image for me to speculate

From this information here we can kinda understand their entire design (even if they are never fully shown from the front) but I guess only new trailers (or the series itself) will confirm or deny anything

That said, I am very normal about the fact that we have ACTUAL 3D content of them after SO LONG and I absolutely DID NOT explode yesterday when the trailers came out (/j I did.)

[sungjinhos]

i think we married in vegas - teaser

✷ You and Jeonghan have always been friends, and friends go on a trip together, right? And somehow friends always end up marrying in Las Vegas right? And somehow friends become roommates as well right? That all seems very normal when Yoon Jeonghan has a weird addiction to doing the dumbest things ever just for shock value.

✷ genre: comedy (?), angst (?), smut, a weird amount of pining (!)

✷ word count teaser: 499

✷ word count fic: more than 13k - projection: around 20k?/25k?

✷ Thea note: hi y'all, as you guys may know I'm doing nanowimo, and somehow, I got addicted to this story and I'm making it bigger day by day. I still have a very big chunk to go (around 6/7 scenes but it can be more who knows not me since I don't plan when I am writting!). Anyhow I am pretty sure it gonna take a while till the whole thing sees the light of day but I wanted to share a tiny bit with you because I am actually super hyped about and I suck at keeping secrets <3 Hope you guys like it, and get as excited as me (or at least half, actually I can take a third!! or even an ounce!!). I do not do the whole tag list thing but if anyone wants to get tagged just let me know somehow <3

You turn your hand and it finally hits you.

It is a ring.

With a big rock.

In your ring finger.

A big damn rock on your ring finger.

“Yoon Jeonghan” you scream in horror.

On the other side of that door, Jeonghan just hears you scream. He picks himself up in record time and room towards the bathroom, oh shit did you just fall and hit your head? Did you break the glass of the fancy hotel shower? Are you dying? So without thinking much Jeonghan opens the bathroom door and he just finds you - completely naked and seemly okay, just staring at your own hand.

“What happened?” He asks trying to catch his breath, maybe he does need to start working out man, he didn’t feel this horrible when he was hitting the gym after shifts, but also he didn’t feel that great either the whole gym rat thing was not his ordeal.

“What did we do?” You ask still in complete horror, not even thinking about how this is the first time Yoon Jeonghan, your friend is seeing you completely naked. 10/10 would not recommend this experience. Not even to Laurel, your own Satan-spit roommate.

“What? Are you going crazy? I thought you fell and opened your skull or something,”

You just look at Jeonghan, dead in his eyes, like the reality is worse than falling in the bathroom, opening your skull, and calling the paramedics naked. You just turn your hand to him - like it is enough to make him understand what a dire situation it is. And you swear to god you can almost see the little flakes of light on the bathroom floor, the rock is big enough to shine across the room.

“Did you call me to show me your ring? Couldn’t you wait until you put your clothes on?” Jeonghan asks leaning into the doorway.

“Jeonghan did we-” you say but you feel your own throat closing around itself, it can’t be, right?

“Hm?” he asks without a blink of an eye.

“Oh we did, we totally did”

“No, you are not that crazy,” he claimed. What that was supposed to mean? He was crazy enough for it but you the two goody shoes wasn’t?

“Jeonghan check your bank receipt,” you demanded, trying to connect the dots in a way, trying to have proof, maybe you just bought a way too expensive ring for yourself, or maybe it was just impulse buying.

Before you can move Jeonghan almost runs towards the room, you try your best to keep up with him but you are a little behind because, for the first time, you actually are aware of how naked you are. You pick up the fluffy bathroom robe - yeah the fancy hotel had its perks.“Oh fuck” you can hear Jeonghan before you can see him, his phone it’s on his lap, his head is on his head - he is a man defeated. Oh no. You guys actually did it.

[weaselle]

my mother, bless her soul, is a genuinely good person who has literally saved many lives, but she does not understand what internalized bigotry is.

like she'll say "i'm so glad you kids didn't turn out to be racist" and I'll try to explain why that's wrong (i am racist, actually, and worse, i am racist in ways i don't recognize because i was so smothered in racism by my culture that there are parts of me that are racist but don't register as racist to myself when i think those thoughts or do those things, and the MOST important part of changing that about myself is knowing that it's true) but she just doesn't get it

so i'll have conversations like that one i just had, where she's like "i don't mind gay people" (which is true, right, she is totally good with gay people when they are a human person in front of her existing as a human who is gay) "BUT i don't like how all the TV shows i watch are turning into shows that are basically all gay people now".

smh. Like, c'mon ma, i know you're better than this. Be better than this.

and i was like "okay name a show" and she named a law enforcement show (whole other problem) and i was like "how many main characters are there" and she was like "about twelve" and i was all "okay probably about half of them are men?" and she was all "yeah" and i'm like "okay the, whatever, chief character, that's probably a man right, is he straight or gay" and she was like "straight" and i was like "alright and there's probably a tough guy character is he straight or gay" and he was straight and we established that it was half straight guys and half gay guys

so then she's like "but i don't like how in my face it is there's all these sex scenes" and i was like "okay so the sex senes are all gay sex?" and she's like "no but there's so much sex now and these shows used to be about the who done it and the action" and i'm like "okay so your issue is there's just, too much sex in the show" and she's like "yeah!" and i was all "okay so that's not a gay issue that's a sexual content issue, you should probably not conflate those two things" and she was like "but there's so much gay stuff" ...

(please keep in mind this is a woman who would take in a gay runaway cousin without a second thought, votes for candidates that support gay rights, etc, she really is a mostly good person, she's just a product of her generation and doesn't understand things like intersectionalism and internalization or see how problematic this point of view she's having is)

anyway we go round and round like this and she's getting more and more agitated because she wants to say she's bothered by gay lifestyles being featured on TV shows she likes, but she doesn't want to admit that this is a homophobic reaction, and since it's impossible to say those two contradictory positions are simultaneously true i'm easily making it impossible for her to justify.

Finally when i can tell she's had enough and will take any out offered, i tell her "i'm just saying, it can be easy to feel like a normal amount of gay representation is an unreasonable amount when what you are used to is none." and walked out the door. Hopefully that gets through to her.

But it's frustrating how many fundamentally good people there are who are still part of the problem because they've spent so long equating bigotry to pure evil that they can't contemplate the possibility that they, a good person, have bigoted thoughts and reactions to things.

And it's difficult to keep having these conversations (which i feel are necessary to have if we are to change as a society) when every time you try to explain it they react like you are calling them literally Evil Bad People.

but you gotta. you just gotta

[cannibal-walleye]

RAHHHHH CANNIBAL WALLEYE WALLEYE CANNIBAL YOU NEVER MISSSSS JUMPING OFF THE WALLLSSSS

Just got the chance to finish chapter 9 and i will cryyyyyy. Impulse :( Skizz caring about Impulse :( they're all so stupid :( I can't wait till I have time to draw RAHHH

I have a feeling this is going to be one of the chapters that really stick with me. Aside from the WONDERFUL writing, and the AMAZING portrayal of emotions, I can, unfortunately, really connect and sympathize with Impulse this chapter lol

Obviously not to go too into detail or start venting or anything, today has been A LOT. had to get up earlier than i can properly function, go to physical therapy, just got back from a saline infusion,

(Trigger warning: needles, and slight medical errors. feel free to skip lol Tylically the place i go to for infusions are quick and easy, but today they didnt fail once, but TWICE. blew two veins, and when they finally got everything said and done, the needle hurt like HELL going in, when usually i can't feel it)

and I STILL have another appointment I need to go to later today. On top of all that I also have to fit in schoolwork. Definitely feels like stuff that doesn't normally bother me is building up, and FAST, I can only imagine what Impulse is feeling. Actually, not true, I can READ it lol. (And it will never fail to make me Feel™ what they are Feeling™)

Once again, everything is so very wonderfully written it's insane. Despite being similar to what I'm currently feeling, it still felt like an escape rather than adding to the stress, yknow? Which, personally, as someone who struggles with writing in general. Is just plain insane to me.

Also the shower scene. Beautifully written. You can practically feel the tension melting off of Impulse before his thoughts start getting a bit too much. Very relatable. Very cozy with the perfect amount of oomph. I want Skizz to hug him and tell him it's going to be okay so bad I could rival the sun in intensity. Like. Cannibal. Cannibal please. Let them be happy. (Make it last. I want to see them suffer.) I want to draw them being happy together (i want to draw them being sad together. They should be miserable a bit longer. As a treat.)

Don't want this to go on for too long, because I feel like it's already longer than it probably should be, even if I could ramble for hours. But I just wanted to say that this chapter made me especially happy :] (also im surprised Skizz didn't know he was a demon. Hmm. The thoughts are brewing lol.)

Last but not least, do you mind being called just "cannibal?" Because personally, I find it very silly, but if it bothers you at all I can just. Not, lol. <3 (Also feel free not to answer this if its too long or makes you uncomfortable in any way, I definitely rambled about my day way more than I intended. Whoops.)

hehehe I know >:3 (I'm gonna answer this with a paragraph for each of ur paragraphs btw)

Cry. Do it. I dare you to. They ARE so silly and sad and also so so caring for each other <3 <3 ((also if u drew something i would love u forever haha))

I'm so pleased to hear that you think it's going to stick with you! That's actually such an honor, you're making me blush ^///^ But yeah, I think we're all relating to Impulse this chapter, which is honestly rather unfortunate. But hey! At least I'm hitting home 🙃

I don't mind venting!! Vent away <3 Also I feel that, getting up earlier than it feels you can function. Had that last semester, fortunately I have no 8 ams this time around.

I'm so sorry to hear that D: I hope you're all recovered by the time I answer this <3 I had a similar thing years ago, where I injured myself and they had to draw blood and just couldn't get the needle right. I think they tried 5 times on both arms. Somehow, I'm not afraid of needles after that, but I totally get what you're experiencing and wish you all the best *throws infinite hearts at you*

It really is just an endless cycle sometimes, huh? The little things can pile up quickly if you're not careful about noticing and taking care of yourself. I hope you got to take a warm shower, or do something comforting to you afterwards. My go-to is a mug of hot chocolate :] (and speaking of, I actually just had one lol)

Thank you thank you thank you!!! I'm glad it felt like an escape. I find it difficult to read works that are bleak or overly miserable, so I'm happy to hear that it wasn't just sad for you, that it helped with your own experiences. Something something comfort in solidarity and shared suffering

Yeah the shower scene :))) Fun fact: I came up with the idea while in the shower. It's so distracting at first when there's something to do, what with washing up n such. And then, there's that period where it's so comfortable, but purposeless, and that's where the thoughts get you. At least for me, and thus Impulse. But mostly, a very very safe space where things don't feel quite so oppressive. And the Skizz hugs, I'm sure they're coming one day ;) ((also the "I want to see them suffer" is far too true for me lmao. make it ANGSTY)) Again, if you draw, I will give u a real life kiss and make you a cinnamon roll. You deserve to draw them, as a treat. ((YES DRAW THEM SAD >:D the misery makes the relief all the sweeter at the end))

I don't mind long asks! And I ESPECIALLY don't mind rambling about my story. I live off that stuff, yes please. Genuinely makes my day, reading comments and seeing these extra reactions :)))) If you want to ramble, always feel free to send in an ask, or even message me directly! I won't bite you (I only bite Skizz), and I'm always happy to have someone to ramble about skizzpulse with (So, if you have thoughts brewing about Skizz not knowing he was a demon, you're invited to send them my way)

You can call me Walleye! Cannibal just describes my feelings on Imp and Skizz, you know? And yeah, Cannibal does feel like a silly name, so hopefully Walleye feels a little less silly

Thank you so so sosoSOOSOSOSOSO much for the ask, I can't even begin to explain how happy this makes me. Hopy you're feeling better! Drink water, get some rest, take care of yourself!! <3

Walleye out o7

[sunnychuuya]

okay so I just started sally face and im gonna play for a bit tonight and just type out my thoughts in one long post instead of spamming the tag

-Mr Addison is sus as hell

-Can pEOPLE STOP INSULTING US JESUS 😭

-why r cops here I don't like that

-charley is.. weird.

-curious about room 201 there's weird noises but no one answered the door

-IS LISAS SON LARRY I HOPE SO HE SEEMS SILLY. LETS FUCKING GO IT IS

-dude on the fifth floor seems totally normal!

Wait wtf he dissapeared

Ik gheres ghosts is he a ghost

-guys guys guys I hate scary games litterally just the music is scaring me so bad

-"what the hell was that" (seeing the thing is 1bs kitchen) YEA SAL ID LIKE TO KNOW TOO WTF

-I love this game sm Larry seems like a cool dude yeee

-"the killer is still in fhe building" HUH?!?!,!?!

-charley is weird from what I've seen BUT IS THE ROOM WITH SAW NOISES COMING FROM IT NOT MORE SUSPICIOUE ?

-oh wow murder great what the fuck

-MR ADDISON IS SUSSSSS

-WHY R THEY SO SILLY (referring to sal and larry)

-why r we already doing crime larry

-oh WHAT THE FUCK I FORGOT BLOOD IS SO RED (have been playing excessive amounts of danganronpa lately)

-OTS THE FUCKIN PONY THINGS THAT CHARLEY HAS

-"at least hes trying now. Not drowning himself in booze, not totally giving up on life.. on me" thats so sad wth I'm sorry sal u deserve a better dad

-bro am I not sposed to use the quarter for the vending machine for snacks 4 Charley am I actually dumb wth

-I feel like the fact we can't drink the Addison tea definitely means there's smth up with it

-so thats what the quarters for!

-YOO MEGAN IVE SEEN FANSRT OF HER BUT WHY IS THE WAY SHE LIKE RISES OUT OF THE GROUND SO CREEPY

-WHY ARE WE COMMINITING CRIMEA

-i mean ig crime okay bc charley is a murderer

-LARRY FACE !!

HOLY SHIT THE CORPSEE SCARED ME SO BAD I JUMPED DEAR LROD WURJWKDK

oop nervermind Charley's not a murderer sorry dude

WDYM SAL AND LARRU DONT STAY FRIENDS FOREBERR :((((

Yeee music [super serious scene happening rn but music slays (the scene where sals like :you might be the only one who thinks im not a murderer)]

oh no trauma

Sal DO NOT PWT THE DOGGY

chat I kinda hate this wtf is happening (like in a good way)

GUYS MAYBE I DONT WANNA PLAY THIS GAME ANYMORE WHY AM I PLAYING ST MIDNIGHT

Wbat the fuck I hat thsi

Yo wtf ep 2 already ? That was very quick

68% completed tho

0Okay goodnight I'm not gonna be able to sleep

@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow

[by-glass-and-waves]

I think I need to use a computer screen instead of my phone to read this cursed 3.4k word fic because I can't keep track of it

I removed one section of "Euthermia" and added onto/revised a few others??? What am I doing???? This is supposed to be finished a week ago???

I don't consider this quality on par with Courtshit or "Only Success or Failure" but fluff/slice of life/more positive subjects don't seem to be my strong suit. New vs old version of one scene below:

Revised version:

"You should purchase something warmer from the Ashiga Clan," ND-5 suggested one day. "The Queen was gracious enough to give you a discount." "These clothes are fine, ND. I can make it work." Kay Vess was not making it work. She was still shivering under her coat, and he could see how often she shoved her hands into her pockets. Whenever she returned, he observed the reduced blood flow through her extremities, suggesting that her gloves and boots also offered little insulation. Her lack of head covering added to her discomfort. The droid tapped his fingers on the armrest of his chair. Kay's purchases, though an improvement, weren't sufficient against the cold. If she spent an extended amount of time in the cold — a possibility, considering their plan to break Ank out of the factory — then he might need to purchase medical equipment to return her temperature to normal levels. And he was not keen on going to such lengths when the solution was much simpler. With that rationale, ND-5 pulled up a list of Ashiga Clan-affiliated tailors. If she was on friendlier terms with the Ashiga, then he would take advantage of them. She clearly wasn't going to.

Old version (let's point and laugh at how short it is):

Despite his doubts, Kay Vess was granted an audience with the Queen as well as her good graces. ND-5 tapped his fingers on his chair, thinking. Kay's purchases still weren't sufficient against the cold, especially at night. If she was on friendlier terms with the Ashiga, then perhaps he could take advantage of it. ND-5 pulled up a list of Ashiga Clan-affiliated tailors.

Notes: tl;dr it's just ND-5 totally justifying to himself why he's buying something for Kay.

More detailed notes: I felt the old version just wasn't... Enough? In the revision, you get to see ND-5 convince himself (in detail) that it's a better idea to do something for her sooner than later because the alternative would be such an inconvenience to him and the mission. I want to think that between the lines, he's looking for an excuse because he doesn't want to appear too soft on her. Yes, they're still at the beginning of their partnership, but no one likes seeing someone else suffering in shitty weather. At least I hope so?

Or I'm just looking for excuses. My biggest concern with this fic is that this could be OOC for ND-5 because this is when they're first working together. I know he starts sounding less irritated with Kay after the first recruitment mission, but would this still be too early? I don't know. I'm thinking too much about this. Why can't I just accept this is fluff and it doesn't matter that much

[fairymascot]

hello, here are my rambly thoughts about the yellowjackets s2 finale, because i watched it a few hours ago and i'm just barely beginning to process it. cut for mega huge spoilers, obviously.

so the first thing i did upon finishing s2 was of course googling when s3 was due. and it was then i saw the show was planned for five seasons. this flabbergasted me, as i had totally assumed s3 would be the last. i mean, SO MUCH stuff had already happened. how much more stuff could possibly go down.

but once i had time to really take it into consideration, it... totally reconfigured my perception of the show so far. i suddenly realized that the first two seasons were little more than an interlude. an exposition. think about it: we saw each character in their own separate lives, dealing with their own separate dramas. only periodically, partially intersecting. and all their dramas, the budding conspiracies, the attempts to tie it all together -- ultimately, it all fell through. shauna's lover really was just a random nobody with no ill intent. the shady reporter was just an agent taissa hired to snoop around a bit. taissa's son is probably perfectly normal, and the only issue was her. travis really did just kill himself. they are all just sad, fucked up people, who were mostly fucking up their own lives.

this is because none of this was the real plot of yellowjackets. the real story in the present timeline begins in the last couple episodes of season 2, when they are all finally fully reunited. actually, to be more specific, it begins in that scene in the last episode where they embrace the darkness anew, and begin the chase.

this darkness, this thing that came from the wilderness with them -- whether it originated from within them or without, it is clear it is so much bigger than them. and that is the heart of the story, not cheating or blackmail or murder investigations: how these adult women will handle the darkness that almost wholly consumed them as teens. will they succumb to it? or will they rise up against it? that's what we're just barely beginning to see as of s2.

now, regarding natalie's death. the fact i am devastated aside-- i see numerous fans complaining, calling it bad or even malicious writing to kill her when she was the only character beginning to grow in an actually positive manner. and while i understand that it's frustrating and upsetting, it's also exactly what needed to happen. BECAUSE natalie was healing, she could not remain. BECAUSE she was beginning to build a life for herself and put the past, the wilderness, behind.

in fact, her death itself was an act of defiance: she broke their fucked up hunting game by sacrificing herself to protect someone outside their circle. yes, in a way, she did what the wilderness wanted. but in a way, she was also telling the wilderness 'fuck you'. she was resigning as queen. she was resigning as hunter. she chose humanity. she was ending the game. if the remaining seasons are indeed about those women stepping up to face the darkness head on, then natalie's refusal to participate, and her prioritizing a (healthy, untainted) connection to an outsider, meant she had to be removed.

i have no idea what the show holds in store. the thought that we're not even halfway through is dizzying. but i can say one thing with a fair amount of confidence: i do not for one second believe this is a show about healing.

sorry, natalie. you were doomed the second you started getting better.

[locke-esque-monster]

Some final thoughts on Jessica Jones season 1:

Love that the strongest bond in the show is between Trish & Jessica. We need more superhero shows with strong female friendships.

It feels very progressive for 2015 the whole Jeri/Wendy/Pam mess. The show is very casually gay in a way that I wouldn't have expected, especially from Marvel when the MCU is all "we'll have a man miss his male partner who was snapped" or "one of the Eternals has a husband for 2 minutes".

The Netflix shows really decided "Well - we can't have special effects budget - let's incorporate as much sex and violence as we can reasonably get away with they'd never put in the MCU. Daredevil gets most of the violence, Jessica Jones gets most of the sex."

The Netflix Marvel shows also have no problem killing off people like crazy. I left both Daredevil (which I watched immediately prior to JJ) and Jessica Jones astounded at the amount of minor characters they killed off in 13 episodes of their first seasons. Also, there's apparently nothing that will kill you faster than the trope of being close to retirement in this universe. Poor Ben Urich and Detective Clemons.

They really brought in all that blue pill/red pill nonsense on a show with Trinity. I can't decide if I'd love or hate her to be in a scene where they discuss that in front of her.

I feel like I've heard something about Trish being a villain/going off the deep end in later seasons. I hope I'm wrong, but Jessica's monologue at the end of season 1 about being a hero/villain makes me suspect I'm not.

Is Malcolm going to be Jessica's secretary? Probably good. She needs a nearby companion to balance her out who isn't Trish.

Bless whoever put David Tennant in the dad sweaters for the episode at Jessica's house. Both for the implication this is his vague understanding what normal people wear at home (it's still very posh). And my headcanon there's definitely nosy neighbor women on the block are eyeing the hot British dude giving off dad-vibes who just moved in.

I'm seriously questioning whoever does casting on The Boys watched this show. Because both Annie and Ashley from The Boys popped up here playing versions of characters they play later. Ashley, as a total nightmare of a human who has glimpses of humanity to ground her, and is in way over her head with supes. And Annie, sweet-faced from the Midwest, sexually assaulted by a supe and traumatized, and in fear, and trying to be brave and fight in the face of that. That and the elements of Homelander's backstory I see in Kilgrave, I've got some questions for Eric Kripke and his team on The Boys (to be fair - when don't I have questions I'd like Kripke to answer/answer for). I'm also waiting for the hat trick of a 3rd actor from The Boys to pop up.

Killing Kilgrave had to be done, but I am going to miss the hell out of David Tennant.

[queenofadarkworld]

𝕂𝕚𝕤𝕖𝕜𝕚: 𝔻𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕥𝕠 𝕞𝕖 - 𝔼𝕡𝕚𝕤𝕠𝕕𝕖 𝟛

Uh.. I mean.. Well.. It just.. It happened! 🤯

First things first: Episode 3 showed me EXACTLY why I'm never ever coming out of this rabbit hole ever again. That's it guys. I'm done. From now on I'm going to live right here with my little blond bunny right beside me. Anyone else want to move in? Yes? No? Maybe? Well no matter what you decide at the end - let us sit down first and talk about what just happened to us shall we? 😏

To be honest I was actually a bit surprised about the "amount" of flashbacks/daydreaming scenes. Seeing the fact that this was only episode 3 with 26 minutes screen time [after episode 1 with 26 minutes and episode 2 with 25 minutes] I don't think it was already necessary but it's ok for me cause it probably should've helped build up some emotions. Even though I would've picked the Bai Zong Yi and Fa Zherui thunder scene from episode 2 for it cause that was beyond sweet. 🥹

But I definitely won't complain cause episode 3 still delivered a lot of good stuff. After episode 2 already showed us that my little blond bunny sure knows how to torture people they seemingly wanted to top that. What can I say? Hell yeah they top it! 😳

Nothing weird to see here, everyone. Only a little blond bunny going a bit - uhm - crazy. Just a normal monday in the life of a gangster I assume. The way Chen Yi looked at him in total disbelief once he realized what he's about to do though had me laughing quite hard. I mean come on, Chen Yi. You wanted him by your side didn't you? Learn what your boy is willing to do for not just you but the whole gang.

Well and then out of a sudden that happened. 🥵

Oh.. My.. God..! WHO DO I HAVE TO THANK FOR THIS? I asked for more of my little blond bunny and I freaking got more bunny. Much much more bunny than I ever expected at this point. And as if him running around half naked [by the way: I NEED his bathrobe!] wouldn't already be enough to get a heart attack we also see a very good reason to like and follow Chen Yi. Well technically two reasons. I mean.. the tattoo on his spine? He has a freaking lion tattoo on his spine!! Lion father, lion son. Please! How cute and amazing at the same time is this? I totally get why my little blond bunny fell for him in the first place. He's in every single way beautiful. Oh! Talking about lions. Shout-out to Chen Yi's father who without a doubt had one of the best and funniest unexpected appearances I've ever seen. 🤣

Two scenes coming right up for you. Both scenes are simply incredible in their very own ways. Firstly we learn about bunny's class clown side and how easy it really is to provoke Chen Yi. Bunny sure knows which buttons he has to push doesn't he? 😏

Secondly we have Chen Yi and Bunny picking up Fa Zherui. Apparently his so called vacation at Bai Zong Yi's place has come to an end already. Why am I so annoyed because of that? Right at this moment when Fa Zherui realizes his true feelings towards Bai Zong Yi he just freaking leaves? Yeah so.. thanks for nothing brother. Definitely going with bunny's middle finger reaction here. 😮‍💨

Coming to the last scene of my own crazy perspective for episode 3. Well what can I say guys. This scene kinda broke my heart. Our cute Bai Zong Yi happily came home after he bought some strawberry cake for Fa Zherui to enjoy just to find his apartment empty. And then there's Fa Zherui's note saying: "Don't be too touched." DON'T BE TOO TOUCHED? Are you freaking kidding me? After everything including the kiss from episode 2 you really tell him to not be too touched about you just leaving him out of nowhere? Gosh you're such an idiot Fa Zherui. If you ask me, you just should've stayed in Bai Zong Yi's apartment and started a happy life with him. The situation couldn't have been any better for him though. No one knew exactly where Fa Zherui was hiding after the attack in episode 1 and the only contact he still had ongoing was with my little blond bunny. I'm pretty sure he would've understood the situation and kept his mouth shut for as long as possible. But you made a decision didn't you? 💔

And that's it everyone. My thoughts and feelings for episode 3. Holy darkness. There still happened quite a lot in this episode huh? We definitely got some little emotional ups and downs along the way which makes me want to have episode 4 like now. Right now! Heaven help me. Well.. I'm just going to stay here in my comfortable rabbit hole and watch the bathhouse scene over and over again until the new episode is out. Sounds like a good plan right? 🫣

What are your thoughts about episode 3 though? Any favorite scenes? What's your favorite character so far? I would like to know whatever you're willing to tell me. Please be my dear guest inside the rabbit hole. 🫶🏻❣️

[cumulonimbuns]

hi, yesterday i stumbled across the knights self-destruction and got so hooked i stayed up until it was three in the morning and my head hurt and i physically couldnt keep reading, and now ive caught all the way up. i am so obsessed with everything, im always a slut for angst and thats what i initially clicked for but my GOSH i am so digging the relationships between zelda and link and sidon and yona and yona and link especially. i am so so so overjoyed to see link and zeldas relationship portrayed in such a queerplatonic-feeling way, being in a qpr myself. this fic may have had a hand in making me realize me being some flavor of poly so thanks for that. i adore the zora worldbuilding youve done with the distinction between heart and treasure and how both of these are so deeply committed and emotional ways of feeling towards one another. and GOSH the angsty scenes were delicious. yona is a riot, and i am so in love with her portrayal. much like link i fucking need zelda to see this.

and just when i thought more bliss wasnt possible i find your blog and see your wonderful art of this story.

also the scene with link breaking down in yonas arms and him wresting with the gang have my heart even though my all time favorite is the sages reactions to links breakdown and his reaction to them seeing him. also link telling zelda about what clouds feel like. god im just HGN. i am never getting my brain back to normal from this. have a nice day.

I MEANT TO RESPOND TO THIS AGES AGO BUT GOT BUSY. SO SORRY BOUT THAT!

First of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! This made me very happy to read <3

I too am a slut for angst. I love to be hurt, but also need me that comfort. Which is why you all can take the solace in the fact that no story of mine will have an unhappy ending. SAD ENDINGS ARE FINE, I JUST CAN’T DO IT. I am not strong enough. I inflict much hurt but in the end it will be taken care of.

I’m glad the QPR vibes came across how I wanted them too!! I’ve always viewed/treated qpr’s with the same importance as romantic relationships bc they are!! So each pairing is as committed to one another as they would be to a romantic partner. It’s just how they express that love and some of the vibes are different. Another thing I’m so happy about is that you totally get where my brain was coming from with the ‘some flavor of poly’ bc in a way that’s exactly what’s happening. Like I said, qpr’s are just as valid and important as a romantic relationship, so there are some poly negotiations that goes down with all that. Making sure everyone is on the same page, comfortable, and agreeing.

It’s a bit hilarious how obsessed I’ve become with Yona. Nintendo barely gave us anything for this woman so I decided to run wild. Now I am completely insane with the amount of love I have for her, and it literally all stems from the fact I’ve turned her into my own character with all the random hc i threw on her at this point lmao. And I too need Zelda and Yona to meet.

And thank you so much for stopping by my blog to say hi and compliment my writing/art! It’s rlly made me smile. (And don’t worry, my brain is never returning to normalcy after this lmao, TOTK fan fiction/art has changed me as a person)

Here’s a lil doodle for you to show my appreciation (and a sorry for taking so long to respond fdhfhf, i know you probably don’t care, but I do)

<3<3<3<3 HOPE YOU HAVE A LOVELY DAY OR NIGHT!!! <3<3<3<3

[marvel-ousmondays]

The Incredible Hulk (2008)

So, it's no secret that Edward Norton got dropped and swapped for Mark Ruffalo in the MCU. That said, there is a small scene at the end of the movie that does connect, as well as some more recent references back to both the Abomination and Samuel Sterns, making it still a necessary part of this insane quest.

Plus, Edward Norton is a good actor and I enjoyed the movie the first time, so might as well.

I'm not going to be able to stop myself from comparing Norton's Hulk to Ruffalo's, so I'm just going to be direct about it. Both have a sadness but Norton's is more desperate and striving, where Ruffalo's is more depressed and resigned. While I like Norton's acting, I actually am glad in this case they switched to Ruffalo (all the drama notwithstanding- I'll actually say it sounds like Norton may have gotten a raw deal from the studios) because I think Mark fits better with the team. Mark Ruffalo's strength is he CAN blend into the background and NOT be forgotten. He can be part of a team, not the star, and yet you still care about him, still WANT to know what happens to him.

Norton can't. His acting demands attention from the audience and I mean that in an absolutely positive way. When Edward Norton is on screen, you CANNOT pay attention to anything or anyone not directly interacting with him. For someone normally so softspoken, his presence is commanding and I cannot see how that would have jived with the rest of the Avengers' cast.

All right, on to the movie.

I've got to start off discussing the grittiness again. That's the word that just stands out to me on these re-watches: the first movies are gritty. They're dark. The banter is there but there is an undercurrent of living in a rotten world . I'm watching for when this changes and shifts, because I know it does. I didn't have that feeling when I went to The Marvels or when I've been watching Loki- Season 2. (Yes, I am also watching new stuff because I live in the real world and want to discuss that stuff with friends and could never complete my ENTIRE MCU GOD DANG IT challenge in a timely fashion.)

Thinking about it, these first two movies feel like they fit in the Venom universe more than the actual MCU. Hmm.

On a more comic note, I joked with a friend that the title of this film should be changed to "The Incredible Running Man." The amount of shots just of people running, especially at the beginning, is crazy.

Tim Roth as Emil Blonsky/the Abomination is really compelling. I found this doubly interesting as I noted how much smaller (stature wise) he is than many of the other soldier actors. His fire as a fighter stands out even though he's NOT the epitome of brawn.

The writers depictions of women in this movie frustrated me this round. First of all, I count 3 females TOTAL. We have Liv Tyler as Betty Ross, we have the 1 female soldier (that's it- we get one people) and she's outright called a bitch by Blonsky's character, and we get Marianna, the ONE (again- really- there were no other female actors?) female at the factory. I'm sure there will be some excuse about this making Betty stand out or whatever (never mind that that doesn't stop them from having plenty of male actors in movies where the female hero is the focus). But what doubly frustrates me is that Betty is supposed to be this super scientist and yet she does really dumb stuff. The big one for me on this was when they pawned the necklace to be able to travel to Sterns (because they only had $40) and she BUYS A DIGITAL CAMERA. Guys, this was 2008- digital cameras weren't cheap. Phone cameras SUCKED at that time, if you even had one. Why would she EVER have spent that money? Because the director wanted to have her look at a photo later, that's why. (I want just 1 single mom on a budget in every writer's room to say things like "They wouldn't do that, you morons.")

I liked the use of the smartwatch with the pulse tracker both when I first watched it and now. That is a factor I kind of wish they would have kept in some way- though I know they went more with the "I'm always angry" method.

Time for a sidebar- there's a LOT of internet discussion about what it means to be worthy in terms of wielding Thor's hammer. I haven't stumbled as much into discussions about anger and Hulk's "powers." The closest was the discussions about the scene in She-Hulk (which I haven't seen at all, except for that clip where he's trying to teach her how to control it and is frustrated at how easily she manages). I think anger is an emotion that doesn't get dissected enough. It's usually labeled as bad and thrown in the bin. But anger can be good- it can propel someone to make changes or stand up for what's right. This movie does a great job of showing that a LOT of Hulk's anger only really rears up when Betty is in danger. It's a protective impulse, not a destructive one. Obviously, unchecked, it's terrible and terrifying but within proper contexts, anger can be its own superpower.

This one overall did feel a bit slower on the re-watch, but I do think the fact that I now know it doesn't connect as much to the others made me impatient. It's still a solid film and worthy to see if you haven't.

Note for me:

Directed by: Louis Leterrier

[whitherwordswither]

6:14AM. This morning I seemed to wake up naturally. I don't feel quite as groggy as I usually do. Which I suppose it a good thing but the fact that it typically doesn't happen that way somehow ends up striking me as odd. As if the simple fact that it felt like a natural transition, something that is rare enough, makes it feels more… unreal?

Do you ever… not feel… real? I often times have my doubts. I'll hold up my hand and just… stare at it. Wave it back and forth, trying to discern some hidden secret of existence. Part of me finds this silly. But the other part believes it very well could be.

It should be said that these excursions in to the other world aren't in any particular sequential order. Sometimes a scene will repeat, with or without variances. I do find myself revisiting some scenes over and over again if I find them comforting.

I turn on my bedroom light and use the small remote to change the bulb color to blue and dim it down. It has a nice ambience. I yawn and stack a couple pillows behind me with Rex on top and lean back against them, switching on the two nebula lights in the corners of the room. It kind of makes it feel like I'm under a deep blue crystalline sea. Watching the oscillation of the light across the ceiling is soothing.

I let my mind wander off…

I find myself meandering along a riverbank, every so often crouching down to poke at pebbles and stones. And every so often I find one of the 'good ones' and pluck it up, stuffing it in to my pocket. And yeah, sometimes it may just look like any other normal rock but I have standards and let me just say. It's totally not. Some rocks just have that feel to them. And I need to collect them. I may not have any idea what I will end up doing with them, but I want them.

"We're looking for rivermoss, not shiny pebbles you know." A voice calls, ahead of me.

I look up with a grin on my face. "I can do both. Two birds with many stones or whatever." And to help illustrate that, I hop forward, spying a larger rock half in the water. There's a dark green pelt growing along one side. I carefully peel the verdant slab off and hold it up. "See?"

Arbor rolls her eyes and continues her own hunt for the moss. She is the town alchemist, a short and snarky salamander. Not that these two things are mutually exclusive, but in my experience they always seem to go hand in hand. Not that I have any experiential evidence to back that up, but I do think the level of one's snark is often times increased by a significant amount if one's stature is below a certain point. Case in point; myself. Anyway. I found Arbor to be rather charming in her own way. And cute. Her exterior reminded me of a pacific northwest variety rough-skinned newt. Her ventral half was a soft and vibrant orange; dorsally, a deep mud color with streaks of obsidian. The kind I was obsessed with as a kid. I guess I still am? I just want to hold them all! Though I'm pretty sure if I tried to pick Arbor up and hold her she might have some choice words and a fist or two to say about it. Or maybe she might enjoy it. It was hard to tell with her.

Not finding any more moss in the immediate vicinity I pick up the woven basket nearby and join Arbor. "So, what do you primarily use the rivermoss for?" I ask, curious. Sebestha had introduced us and said if I wanted to learn about the local flora, Arbor was a walking tome of knowledge. Maybe not in those exact words. But sometimes I imagine him in a fancy little top hat and a monocle, complete with twirly mustache and posh British accent. Don't ask why. I couldn't tell you.

"Primarily?" She looked to me, blinking her pale yellow eyes. "Ground up and mixed with other herbs, it's a good topical for wounds. Helps keep them clean. Good binding. The moss is also a natural filter for toxins. It's fairly versatile and typically what I run out of the quickest."

One thing I learned about Arbor shortly after meeting her is that she genuinely enjoyed answering questions about alchemy, herbs, poultices, concoctions, tinctures, plants and anything relative to those topics. Her favorite color was, unsurprisingly, green. In the summer season she loved spending time in the forest picking sunberries, which reminded me of a sweeter salmonberry. And she enjoyed romance novels with darker twists to them. When she found out I liked to read she had given me a list of her favorite books. I liked her. She was honest, brutally blunt and down to earth.

She stared at me, half bent over, unblinking, as if waiting for a follow up question, hand hovering motionless above a rock. I stared back without asking anything else right away. I wanted to see how long it could last. Which wasn't for very long because I could feel my lips moving and spreading in to a smile before I ended up giggling.

"What's so amusing?" She blinked finally, tail swaying languidly from side to side.

"N-nothing." I coughed, and shook my head. "I was uh. I thought it would be funny to see how long we could stare at each other. But then I thought. What if we just kept staring at each other for a really really long time and… y'know. It uh… it was funny."

She chuckled. "You're a weird one."

"You like it." I gave an exaggerated wink and started to move further ahead to locate more moss. And pebbles.

This made her roll her eyes again, though her mouth curved with a smirk. "A few more clumps and we should be good." Arbor knelt and rolled a sizeable stone away from two others and scraped off some sneaky moss that was trying to hide between. "Estha will still be at the watchtower tonight, yeah? Did you��� want to hang around after we're done, maybe stay for dinner? The company is kind of nice today."

Company was nice. In a lot of ways, we were similar. We didn't always like being around others but we had our moments when that was really all we wanted. I glanced back at her and nodded. "Yeah! I think I would. It's either that or sit at home by myself and I don't really think I'd like to do that…"

"Great." She made a pleased sound and I found three more pebbles that begged for me to stuff them in my pockets. So I did. Arbor laughed. "What are you even going to do with all those?"

"I have no idea." I replied with a shrug of my shoulders. "They just call to me, 'take me with you!'" I picked up another. "And, like, I have to. Y'know. And I don't want them to be lonely."

"They're rocks. They're all the same." She was next to me then, picking up a stone and holding it up next to mine.

"No two rocks are the same. Yours is rough around the edges, like it has just broken off from a larger piece. Adventuring out on its own for the first time." I held mine closer. "And mine, see? It's smooth. It's been on a journey, weathered over time. Now it's looking for a new place to rest for a while."

She was staring at me again. I stared back and very slowly slipped the stone in to my pocket. Then all of a sudden reached out, grabbed the pebble she had and then threw it in to the river. "It screams to be set free!" And then I darted forward, stumbling and almost falling but managing to catch myself as I made my way to a bend in the river and worked another chunk of moss from a reddish rock.

The salamander kept staring for a few moments before shaking her head, smiling to herself as she crept over to another crop of larger stones. "Are all humans as uniquely touched?"

I made a snerking sound, placing more moss in to my basket. "Only the really fun ones."

"Noted."

We wandered along the riverbank a bit further, not finding too much more moss. It was harder to tell what time it was with it being overcast but it felt around midday. Then again, I was a terrible judge of time. Finally, Arbor stopped, setting her basket down for a moment as she stretched, her eyes following the river in to the distance. "Alright… I think we've got a decent amount for now. Lets head back."

"Alrighty~" I turned, pausing next to her and followed her gaze out. And for a while we just stood there, staring in to the hazy gray and blue of far off mountains in silence. Then she picked up her basket and we headed back toward the town, side by side.

8:26AM.

I yawn and stretch. It's daylight now and I can see the trees out the window swaying in the chill autumn breeze. Sitting up, I swing my legs over the edge of the bed and rub my eyes, grumbling. Breakfast needed to happen. But I wasn't sure what I was in the mood for. So it was time to head downstairs and stare in to the abyss of the fridge. Close the doors, then open them again and hope something that wasn't there before appeared and begged me to devour it for its sweet, tender nutrients.

Mm. Nourishment.

[hufflepoofing]

So I think about the stardust crusaders a [HEALTHY AND NORMAL AMOUNT]. And I like analyzing media so let’s talk about stands and tarot cards! If there are any inaccuracies in my interpretation of the cards let me know, I’m not a tarot expert!!

Jotaro, The Star

Upright, the star arcana represents trust, belief, and rebirth. The journey to Egypt forces Jotaro to put a lot of trust into others that he wouldn’t have otherwise (for example the Lovers arc, the Terence D’Arby fight). He also learns to trust Star Platinum over the trip, going from seeing it as an evil spirit following him to a useful tool. Reversed, the star can represent despair and depression which could allude to the underlying worry over Holly’s condition. Tbh I wish I had more to say about Star platinum like I do the others but I don’t . I like his loincloth

Kakyoin, The Hierophant

Hierophant Green shows a lot of character, I feel, so I have a lot to say (totally not because I am biased towards kakyoin nooooo what makes you think that silly). The main stands in part 3 have a distinct kind of style to them. Human, plant (?), robot, anthropomorphi, and alien. Hierophant green’s alien appearance (as I see it) can be taken as an allusion to Kakyoin’s alienation as a child. That and Hierophant green has a mouth under its muzzle (?). In Heritage for the Future, when fighting Alessi and using Hierophant Green, the stand doesn’t have a mask. What does this mean Araki. It implies that a stands appearance can change over time without artificial means (using the arrow, using spin) or being evolved in acts. Is it trauma related? Who knows!!! I will say Hierophant greens painted face in HFTF is really cute to me :)

Tarot time! The upright hierophant represents morality, ethics, and tradition. In many situations, Kakyoin’s shown to have a strong sense of morals and often intervenes when Jotaro goes to just beat the everloving shit out of people. When compared to Jotaro, he’s also the more traditional highschool student compared to Jotaro’s delinquency. The jobros often serve a specific literary role and for Kakyoin, he acts as Jotaro’s foil, hence why I referenced Jotaro so much in this section lol. Reversed, the Hierophant represents rebellion and subversion. Kakyoin’s character arc centers around him rebelling against DIO. He revels against DIO for what he did to him and takes back his identity, and that arc begins when Kakyoin subverts the audience’s expectations and joins the crusade to Egypt despite being introduced as an enemy. Kakyoin my skrungly

Polnareff, The Chariot

Polnareff. :). Upright, the chariot represents willpower and direction. Despite being a wet dog of a man, Polnareff embodies these two concepts really well. Avdol, Kakyoin, and Polnareff’s encounters with DIO are really great character developing scenes. DIO is established to be a horrifying beautiful man who knows how to get what he wants from his targets. To get Polnareff to join him, DIO tempts him by offering to help him get revenge for Sherry. Polnareff wants to find his sister’s murderer, giving him a real and tangible goal that he has pursued for who knows how long. He’s so determined to find who killed his sister that he’s willing to team up with DIO who’s shown to intimidate everyone he meets. Reversed, the chariot is hostile, reckless, and indisciplined. I shouldn’t have to explain this but I love talking so I WILL!!!! Polnareff is reckless, often endangering others despite meaning no malice. Hanged man arc, that one time he fucking wrecked a car. In the Death 13 arc, he shows a lack of discipline within Mannish Boy’s dreamscape by accepting it as is and eating ice cream. In particular, his relationship with Avdol shows the dichotomy of his admirable determination and his harmful recklessness. He pushes Avdol to the side and makes rash decisions when confronted with J. Giel. Because of his recklessness, Avdol is injured to the point where it almost seems fatal. In the fight with Vanilla Ice, he overcomes this recklessness of his, I feel, after the sacrifice of Avdol and Iggy. In part 5, he shows a newfound sense of maturity.

Avdol, The Magician

Wine upright magician represents willpower and spirituality. When meeting DIO, Advol did not succumb to his charms and offers like Polnareff and Kakyoin did. Sure, he heard about how dangerous DIO was before from Joseph, but he also had the willpower to run away. Avdol is likely the most spiritual of all of the Crusaders. He’s a fortune teller and believes in fate (ex: when he let Jotaro draw the tarot card for his stand name). The concept of stands is introduced with Jotaro, but it’s not until Avdol appears that stands are actually explained. He acts as a mentor with spirituality within part 3. Reversed, the magician represents manipulation and trickery. He faked his own death idk what to tell you if that ain’t trickery then what is

Joseph, The Hermit

Out of all the stands, I feel like hermit purple embodies the tarot card the best. The upright hermit represents several things, one of them being a truth seeking nature. Hermit purple’s main power plays into that thought through spirit photography. The card also represents guidance and of Avdol is the mentor, Joseph is the tour guide. He’s not this part’s jojo, but he’s the one to initiate the journey to Egypt and is the one to really help everyone to get to Egypt. He’s almost a de facto leader of the group. Jotaro might be the muscles, but Joseph is the drive. Reversed means isolation and seclusion, and this is a bit harder to pin point. In a lot of Joseph centric parts, he’s kind of isolated? Like with the empress, first part of Bastet, and part of the Dio fight. It’s a bit hard to pinpoint this aspect of his character tbh. Maybe it means he misses his wife and daughter idk babes

Iggy, The Fool

I will be entirely honest and say The Fool is probably my favorite stand design in part 3. I just love it a lot idk what to tell you.

The fool represents a free spirit and new beginnings. Iggy is a free spirit to an outrageous degree. It’s the very first thing established about him. He’s a dog he doesn’t care for the others and does whatever the fuck he pleases. Good for him tbh. Even after he spends time with the crusaders, Iggy remains an independent member of the group. He’s forever a free spirit, even until the very end. He sacrifices himself not because he had to but because he wanted to. In the ultimate act of freedom, he chose to save Polnareff instead of himself. When he’s introduced, it’s at the beginning of the Egypt arc. It’s a “new beginning” for the story as well as for Iggy. Because he’s been ripped out from his home to help a bunch of weird guys in the desert. Up until the end where he saved Polnareff, he embodied the essence of the reversed fool. Inconsiderate, hasty, and reckless. As Araki said Personality; Terrible. I do love iggy tho

DIO, The World

DIO. For starters, the fact that The World and Star Platinum are essentially the same stand goes to show how intertwined the lives of the Joestars and DIO are.

Upright, the world represents fulfillment, wholeness, and completion. In the eyes of his followers, DIO is whole. He is the perfect stand user. The reversed world is a more accurate depiction of DIO. His followers see the World upright, but it is reversed. He is incomplete and inadequate. He sports a stolen body that had rejected his head. His body is not his. DIO is an incomplete god. As long as the Joestars live, he will be incomplete. He seeks completion by wiping them out.

The TLDR is that I have a lot of thoughts on jojo but have no one to discuss them with so I’ll scream into the void that is my blog

[p0orbaby]

hi i had a Natasha x Adoptive!Daughter request idea :)

r would be like around peters age and going to school w him. they’d have a day where they get awards for like idk, best reading or best at physics idk and r would come home and tell nat that she got one too! natasha would get excited but then everyone would laugh after hearing she got a warning paper (which she calls an award) for missing a certain class most lmao! after nat asks her why she’s missing that class she says “well the teacher said ‘if u aren’t going to listen then get out and stay out of my class’ so i did and never attended again :)” lmaooo it’d be so funny bc nat would kind of be annoyed but also amused like the rest of the Team.

First teenage!daughter fic. This was so fun to write!

Authors note - this is probably my fav one to write so far. So thank you for requesting this!

Warnings - Language

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I Can Explain

You hated days like this. You honestly didn’t see the point. Everyone in your year at school huddled into a room and given pieces of paper praising them for opening a book or two. It was ridiculous.

Thankfully it only lasted an hour. Being surrounded by a bunch of brown noses was not your idea of a good time. In all honesty, being in school in general was something less than ideal in your opinion.

The only thing that made being in this hell hole worth it was Peter. Yeah he was a pain in the ass and actually did the work he was asked to do but he was pretty cool to say the least. He was part of the Avengers after all, so you were a little biased to put it mildly.

“I see you got an award. Again” you hollered at Peter as you met up in the crowd of people leaving the main hall. “What was it this time?”

“Highest consecutive amount of A grades for physics papers” he read out loud with pride.

“Of course it was” you rolled your eyes at him in response.

“Yeah well if you actually did the work Y/N, then maybe you’ll get one next time”

“And now why would I do that when you can do the heavy lifting and I can take the credit?”

“Why am I even friends with you?”

“Because no one else will give you the time of day Peter!” you shouted over the hordes of people as you made your way to your next class.

-

If your day wasn’t already bad enough, you realised it was about to get worse. Your last lesson of the day was maths. Something you thought was totally pointless. Why did you need to learn how to do these long equations when a calculator could do them in a fraction of the time? The teacher didn’t like it when you told her that though.

“But Miss, is all of this really necessary?” You asked in one of your first maths lessons of the year. “Do we really need to know about Pythagoras theory? In what universe does one need to work out the lengths of the sides of triangles, by using squares of all things?”

You hadn’t stepped foot in her classroom since.

-

You spent most of your self proclaimed free periods in the library. The only place where you could get some piece and quiet in this god forsaken school. At least you could learn things that would actually be useful.

The topic of todays agenda was Martial Arts. Something you had suggested to your gym teacher but was shot down immediately. You learnt that the earliest depiction of what we now know is a fighting scene, dates back 3400 BC. Yet the western interest of East Asian martial arts only dates back to the 19th century. See, way better than maths.

Just as you were about to get to the juicy stuff with techniques and combinations of moves, you heard the crackle of the tannoy sound through the library.

“Miss Y/N Romanoff please make your way to the heads office. I repeat, Miss Romanoff to the heads office. Thank you.”

If you were being completely honest, you saw this coming. You didn’t think it would take them nearly a whole term to summon you but you saw it coming nonetheless.

-

The end of the day finally came and you couldn’t be happier. Waiting for Peter in your normal spot so you could walk back to the tower together, you started to fold the piece of paper you’d received from your meeting with the head.

“Hey y/n, you ready-“ you heard Peter say as he approached you. “Oh cool you finally got one”.

“Finally got wha-“ he was a looking at the paper in your hand with a smile on his face. “Oh uh yeah, yeah I did. They forgot to give it in the assembly so the head gave it to me after”. Technically you were never the one to say it was an award, so you weren’t actually lying.

“Ah that’s why they called you to the office last period. Well done Y/N, I’m proud of you”.

“Right enough of this fluffy friend stuff, last one back has to do the other ones homework for a month” you said as you raced off down the street.

“Y/N wait that’s not fair, I already do yours!” Peter tried to shout back, but it was no use, you were already gone.

-

“Good day at school?” The sound of your mums voice sounded across the kitchen as the pair of you walked in.

“Same old I guess, what’s for dinner?” You asked taking in the smell of whatever was on the stove.

“Not sure, Bruce decided he wanted to try something new. Hey Peter”

“Hey Miss Romanoff, how’re things?” Peter asked, always the gentleman.

“Better now my baby is home” your mum said as she came over to you and kissed you on the forehead. Earning her an embarrassed frown from you.

Thankfully there was no time for her to embarrass you further as a few of the team stormed into the room.

“Well if it isn’t the next generation back from a hard days work at school” Bruce mocked as he went to the stove and stirred his concoction.

“School’s for losers, just stay here and I’ll teach you all the fun stuff” Tony then piped up.

“See, someone who speaks my language” you high-fived Tony on your way to the fridge.

“Don’t give her any ideas Stark, she’s a pain to get to school on the best of days” Natasha piped up.

“Hey Kid what’s that peice of paper you’ve got there” Clint asked Peter from his position on the sofa.

Peter obviously happy someone had noticed it was more than willing to share. “It was awards day at school so this is the certificate I got” he said as he handed it over to Tony.

“Not bad, not bad, could have been A pluses though”. Tony loved to get Peter riled up. Their relationship was more akin that of a father and son than co-workers.

“Y/n got one this year too!“. You froze at the mention of your name. Damn you Peter, why couldn’t you just keep your bloody mouth shut? Turning around to face the others, smiling as if you weren’t about to get a grilling.

“Honey, why didn’t you say!” Natasha exclaimed from next to Bruce by the stove. “Come on hand it over I want to see”

“Ugh no do we have to do this here?” You desperately tried to shut the conversation down. It was bad enough getting told off by your mum, let alone in front of everyone else. But before you knew it Tony was rummaging in your bag looking for said award.

“Got it!” He pulled his hand out of the bag clutching the folded piece of paper. “Let’s see here. Miss Y/N Romanoff has been awarded-, Oh”

“What? what is it?” Natasha interjected.

“This is gold, absolute gold. I am so glad I’m here for this” the billionaire was giddy with joy.

“Looks as though she got the award for skipping the most classes last term” bruce read aloud as he peered over Tony’s shoulder, the food forgotten.

All you could do was close your eyes and brace yourself for a scolding.

“Give me that”, you didn’t even need to open your eyes to know your mum had snatched the slip out of Tony’s hand.

“For the love of god Y/N?! Why are you not going to your lessons?”

“I am going to my lessons, just not that particular one” you opened one eye slightly to gage the situation. The look on your mothers face was certainly not one of delight.

“You know full well what I mean”. Oh shit, she was angry.

“On that note, I think it’s time we had a look at that thing in the lab Tony” Bruce insisted.

“What-, oh yeah that really important thing. Clint, Peter, I think you two would also both benefit from joining us in the lab” he nodded towards the door with wide eyes.

They all scurried out in a hurry, leaving you alone with your mother to deal with the consequences.

-

Natasha had made an appointment to go to the school the next day. She was adamant that you, her and the head needed to talk about your absence from class.

It was mortifying. Watching everyone stare at Natasha as she walked down the corridor beside you on the way to the office. Yeah the Black Widow was your mum, why couldn’t people just get over it?

The head was waiting for you both as you rounded the corner of the staff corridor. He didn’t look happy either.

“Natasha, nice to finally meet you” he said, hand outstretched offering a handshake.

“Likewise” your mother said, accepting his hand.

“Right this way, please”

-

“How aware were you that Y/N has missing maths Miss Romanoff?” The head said after you had all settled into the office chairs.

“Not aware at all, from what I gathered she was doing well in that class”

“Strangely enough, she is. We don’t know how but she’s still getting the grades to pass. So Y/N, if you’re doing well why do you not bother attending the lessons”

“I was told not to go”

“Come on Y/N stop messing about, this isn’t a game” your mum was sounding frustrated with you.

“I’m not! The teacher said if I’m not going to listen then I should just leave. So I did. I’m not the one in the wrong here, I was just doing as I was told”

Natasha just stared at you. But you knew she was hiding back a smirk.

“Your teacher said this?”You nodded in response to his question. “Right, well that’s not something I was told. I’m not saying you’re not in trouble but I’ll need to hear her side of the story as well” he stood up then. “Sorry to waste your time Miss Romanoff, I’ll be in touch shortly” and with that the two of you left the office.

-

The walk back to the car was silent. Neither one of you not knowing what to say to the other.

Both of you got into the car and sat for a while until you hear your mum laughing from beside you in the drivers seat.

“What’s so funny?” You asked, slightly confused.

“You. You are. Your confidence blows me away Y/N. You’re too smart for your own good, you know that right?”

“Yeah well, I learnt from the best”. You couldn’t help but laugh.

“This isn’t funny, stop laughing”

“It is a bit”

You both burst out into belly aching giggles, forgiveness present in the air.

-

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What's interesting to me is that in the cases like the French Captain, the "choose your next words, wisely, dog" scene, & the Hornigold scene is we're seeing real emotional intelligence & restraint from Ed where he recognizes he's getting angry & gives clear warning he's reaching his limits. Beyond those limits, his self-control snaps & he lashes out violently. To throw another example into the mix look at when Ed shoots Izzy. Ed transformed himself, at Izzy's insistence, into the epitome of toxic masculinity, & has made abundantly clear what he expects of Izzy in exchange; total loyalty - the kind Izzy CLAIMED he had when justifying all the rank shit he did to push Ed to this point - demonstrated by carrying out Ed's orders unquestioningly. Like a dog with a bone, Izzy can't stop questioning. "What am I to you?" "Maybe we can talk it through?" That's Ed's threshold - Izzy insisted on Ed performing this monstrosity & then has the temerity to invoke the ethos he demanded Ed abandon? Fine. Ed will show him what the Izzy version of "talking it through" looks like. Maybe once he sees what a shit show it is he'll back down & toe the line (forgive the pun). But Izzy keeps pushing & tries to lay the blame for Ed's behavior at Stede's feet instead of actually accepting his role. So Ed lashes out & shoots him. It's a really sympathetic portrayal of reactive violence - showing Ed takes an enormous amount of care to hold himself back when someone is working is very last nerve & tries to give them a chance to back off before the dam breaks. Because in the hyper-violent world in which he exists, the consequences of losing face really are life-&-death, so he WILL do what's necessary to command the respect he's not being afforded. Obviously, it's pirates & fiction, so it's hyperbolic, but whomst among us hasn't gotten to our wits end & reacted in ways that we otherwise would normally restrain ourselves from doing? For this reason, I'm not sure smashing the chair is this kind of reaction. Ed pauses to make sure he clearly understands what Annie means when she says Stede left his wife "again", delicately wipes his mouth with his napkin, excuses himself & THEN smashes the chair. That's not a "I've reached my limits" reaction to me - it reads a lot more like a non-verbal "don't push me." I think maybe this is why Ed is such a dirty fighter when it comes to his arguments with Stede, where Stede keeps trying to get him to talk when he is not in a place where he can do that without losing his cool, & he lashes out not with physical violence, but with things that are EMOTIONALLY hurtful & that he doesn't necessarily mean, like "I'm glad it hurt. That's the point of headbutts." The deliberative violence we see with Ed's father & the toe scene are, coming at it from a different angle; rather than reacting in the heat of anger, we're seeing Ed's tactician mind. Ed's father is an abuser & if allowed to keep on, he's going to kill Ed's mom. Izzy is a dog that needs to be brought to heel. Swift, proportional violence, meted out when the target's defenses are down, is the means by which these goals can be accomplished. I think that if we look at the other example of (attempted) murder, it gives insight into what that process looks like. Just like when Ed has to Kraken up to take Izzy's toe, we also see him trying to psyche himself up to kill Stede - withdrawing from comfort & company & playing 5-finger-fillet while mumbing to himself about how he's a killer. It looks like Ed is trying to push himself to the emotional threshold where he can enact the violence he needs to do, but is reflexively disinclined to do. One can easily imagine Baby Ed having to work himself up to the point where he can take on his dad, too. And that's where I think the horror of force-feeding someone a crab for stealing food comes from (the body-horror of witnessing that aside). Because Hornigold doesn't NEED to work himself up to it the way Ed does. He just does it, and he's not sorry. Because Hornigold actually IS a monster. Ed just plays one on tv.

When Ed kills his dad, it seems to be a fairly deliberate action. He doesn’t say, jump up when his dad is throwing plates and hitting his mom and attack in order to defend her, it’s not an in the moment reaction. Rather he waits until later when his dad is drunk by the docks and sneaks up behind him to strangle him with a rope. This seems to be a choice that he made with some degree of planning involved. (Which is not to say that’s worse or meant as a point against Ed’s character; sometimes murder is your only option, in which case yeah, be smart about it, catch that abusive fucker unaware.)

By contrast, on most of the other occasions where we see Ed use violence — discounting what he does as part of his job of being a pirate and that one failed attempt at flirting with Stede — it is that heat of the moment emotional reaction, usually out of anger. In 1x5 when that racist captain calls him a donkey and Ed orders him skinned alive, in 1x10 when Izzy repeatedly goads and threatens Ed until Ed snaps and chokes him, in 2x3 where Hornigold is repeatedly a dick to Ed and attacks his vulnerable spots until Ed attacks him, etc. Granted, there are some nuances across all the various examples, but broadly speaking violence is an immediate emotional reaction, not a deliberate choice.

Which makes me wonder if that might not possibly be another rule Ed had for himself, akin to the not killing anyone directly rule. He presumably had to find a way to be okay with reacting with violence if someone pushed him too far if he ever wanted to survive as a pirate (and also had to be willing to accept the “friendly” violence like Jack engaged in), but he would not do any deliberate violence like that again. It’s okay to snap and throw a chair against the wall when you find out your boyfriend ghosted you to go back to his wife and it’s okay to whip someone in the balls for a laugh, but it’s not okay to feed the cabin boy a live crab when you find out he’s been stealing rations. You get me?

And, if true, that does imply some deliciously angsty things about the one other time we do see him engage in very deliberate violence. At the end of s1 when he resigns himself that he is a monster, he is the Kraken, and he makes the deliberate choice to sneak into Izzy’s room and cut off his toe and feed it to him.