#artist sleeping scedule...

[vvitchynerd]

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The Mourning Hours.

It was now 7:22am, Mattie didnt get any sleep. Just a few hour long periods in the dark, eyes shut...some relaxation but mainly quiet mania.

Get up and paint? No no. Any time they sat at the easel they felt the canvas was already finished, it was crisp, white and grainy. Perfect in its bleached state.

The colors from months ago gleamed and matted on the pallets on the side table next the easel. They too looked beautiful. Proof of the work now hanging in the gallery six streets down. Two sold. Seven hang.

Mattie walked to the kitchen stepping slowly. She felt a little tired now of course and they were half tempted to forget boiling tea and just sleep.

They reluctantly grabbed the kettle form atop the gas stove and placed it under the old faucet. Water slowly churned out and filled the kettle. Why hadn’t sleep came as easily as these simple daily activities?

Working as an artist...this should be the dream. Things were finally coming together. This lack of routine was weighing on them however. Every time she would sleep it would be for twelve hour periods filled with vivid dreams. Dreams of trains, of sewing needles...dreams of deserts, and oddly a dream where she had a British accent.

Mattie wondered about other creative passions. Perhaps actors kept better schedules. This painting and writing stuff...no one holds you accountable but yourself.

The kettle steamed behind her as she sat on the windowsill looking out on the people walking. Some to work. Some were enjoying a morning jog, their jobs permitting them the freedom of an open morning scedule. Shouldn’t Mattie feel free too? She thought.

The tea hissed ‘Fffffff.....tttttttttttttttt’ a scream of an scared chicken.

........tbc

[peggyannmourot]

Interview

Some weeks ago i was interviewed, in French. Here is an English version.

Thanks to Tom & Kevin for the translation.

When did you start creating and what pushed you to do it ?

As for the when, well, I can't give a simple answer to that question. If we're talking about the visual art I'm doing nowadays, I started about a year ago. In June 2016. However, I have the feeling I have always been creative... in less visible ways than today's, for sure, but through the way I've lived. Yes, I know, it sounds a little crazy said like that but it is quite a strong feeling.

As for the what, I can't give a simple answer to that question either, haha ! There was no sudden urge. No. I didn't even think "One day, I'll do this". I had never even given it a second thought. In fact, I don't work like that - I do the things I wish to do when I want to, within realistic bounds of course. What I mean is that when I need a coffee, I go make myself a coffee. Or I tell myself "nah, that's too late, enough with the coffee" and I drink a beer. But pondering for hours something like "Oh my god ! I would have enjoyed so much drinking another coffee ! But it's too late ! What a downer ! Am I going to not enjoy my beer because of that ?" is not my thing. See what I mean ? It sounds ridiculous with a coffee of course but it applies to anything in life - either you have another coffee and you don't sleep, or you forget about it and have a beer, but you don't bloody annoy the world around you (nor especially yourself) with some sterile shit because all the while the clock is ticking, and if you keep this up you're going to be drinking nothing and that will be it, happy now ? (laughs)

However, all of this (ink drawing, painting, etc) happened at a difficult time in my life. I was unhinged and ready to blow up. I wasn't fully aware of it yet but I was mutating. Instinctively I started isolating myself, not unlike a wounded animal. That's part of my character as well. I had to understand what was going on, what was I actually feeling. More or less the only person I was talking with was Gabriel [Delmas]. He played a major part in what I am today. I owe him quite a lot, both personaly and artistictly. He would comment "Not at all", but that cannot be denied. He's someone who means a lot to me. Anyway. I can't remember his exact words, but he said something like "Buy a paintbrush". Then he talked about ink, spots, walls, dancing. So I listened. Ideas kept spawning. And so I started and never stopped. At the beginning, I don't think I questioned that much. It just kept coming. And before I had the time to think it over I had the feeling this was what I had always been doing, while everyday discovering new stuff about me, about everything. It seems quite weird now when I think about it, but I don't think that much about it - I don't have that kind of time.

Generally monochrome, your paintings are abstracts and often very dark. Is that a deliberate choice or did it come naturally ?

Monochrome ? As of now, maybe, but I have no idea if it's going to stay that way, I don't really care, I don't want to impose anything on myself,

Dark... well yes... I've been told that many times. Well, I understand,. But that's not what I think of my work... This is neither a choice nor by nature - it's just the way I am. So I guess the right answer would be... naturally ? (laughs)

What emotions are you trying to communicate through your creations ?

So ... well that's awkward. I don't mean to communicate any emotion. I only show things. I merely say "Look !". I merely say "Be !". I can see into the darkness and I want to share what I see. I know that not everybody has that visual acuity, or rather that not everybody takes the time to look within oneself and let their eyes get used to the darkness. I am merely a pathfinder and not a messenger.

Younger, you were very inspired by experimental bands like Skinny Puppy or Current 93 ... Do you think that taste for dark experimental music played a part in your creative process ?

It's strange that you're talking about these bands... and it's not completely accurate (if I may say so). Music is and has always been a part of my life. I have been listening to music all the time since forever. Playing music is one of the first things I do when I wake up (along with drinking some coffee) and one of the last things I turn off with the light before sleeping. My mother used to play when I was a kid and the man I love is a musician, it's my natural habitat, it is vital to me.

And so, to answer your question, well, no. It's even exactly the opposite. It's because I am who I am that I listen to certain types of music, music neither defines me nor my creations. The music has an influence on me because it makes me happy, but so does coffee, beer, eyes, arms or the warm words of those I love.

As for labels, I've always been annoyed to see the use of the words "romantic" for literature or poetry, or "goth" or "nihilist" or whatever, while for music it all falls under the term "dark". Fuck that. Well, I say this and actually use the term as well, but you get the idea. Death, pain and horror are a part of our life wether we want it or not. Denying that fact is completely obsolete behaviour inherited from a white ageing Judaeo-Christian culture which likes contradictions because it upholds its reign. Poor bitter old white men.

So yeah, I listen to what can be called "industrial music" (the one from the 70s and 80s), but also neo-folk, punk rock (but not the kind that the Crass t-shirt buyers with green mohawks listen to), noise, oldschool black metal, you get the idea - a bunch of uplifting stuff.

Any upcoming artistic projects ?

Yes. Living ! More seriously though, taking over the world with my drawings.

Also, publications are on their way in collective projects sceduled for the third quarter or the end of the year. Plus an exhibition project (but it's waiting for confirmation, sorry, it's summer, everybody's in slow-motion)... But especially, self-publication. I can't tell you too much about it as of now, but there will be a notebook gathering together a selection of the ink paintings I do when I travel, and a secret insane project.

Interviewed by Marc Bastide on august 2017

Thanks to Tom & Kevin for the translation

http://cuicuidaltendencies.over-blog.com/2017/08/peggy-ann-mourot-the-dark-side-of-the-mood.html

[mamabearssims]

I’m a loser so I wasn’t tagged by anyone to do this but wanted to do it anyway so yeah...

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you’d like to know better.

Star sign: Capricorn Height: 5′7″ Time right now: 10:23 AM Last thing googled: "Target schedule” because I was looking up my work scedule. Favourite music artist: I like a lot of different music/artists but a few of my favorites are Evanescence, Maroon 5, Panic! At the Disco, Fall Out Boy, Train, and Bruno Mars. Last TV show watched: Burn Notice (I’ve been binge watching it from the beginning on Netflix) What I’m wearing right now: A black Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter t-shirt and gray shorts. When did I create my blog: I created it in January 2010 but it’s only been a Simblr since April 2014 What kind of stuff do I post about: Mostly Sims 4 stuff Do I have any other blogs: I have a secondary blog that is strictly for checking themes before I change my main blog. Do I get asks regularly: No, not really.  I think the two I’ve received today are the most I’ve ever had. Why did I choose my url: I go by mamabear(last name) everywhere so I added sims to my tumblr name because I wanted that association. Gender:  Female Pokemon team: I’m not into Pokemon so I have no idea Favourite colour(s): Purple Average hours of sleep: My sleep schedule is so jacked so I would say my average is about 5 hours. Favourite character(s): Michael Westen from Burn Notice, Jack from This is Us, Nick Wilde from Zootopia, and Diana from Identity Thief Dream job: I would LOVE to work on the development team for a game like The Sims.  Or run some type of business where I could earn money from home to be with my kiddos.

A lot of people have already done this but if YOU didn’t and want to do it, consider yourself tagged!

[kimvtae]

tag game

tagged by @wonhopes and @flakandforay for the get to know me meme!

Rules: TAG 20 FOLLOWERS YOU’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER

Nickname: i don’t really have any nicknames but my boss calls me ‘slippery’ bc he says i’m always up to something

Gender: female

Zodiac Sign: capricorn

Hogwarts House:  i’ve never taken an actual house test so i want to say slytherin but i’d probably be ravenclaw

Favorite Color: purple, red, black, yellow

Time Right Now: 1:17pm i slept a full 9 hours for the first time in years so i’m a little disoriented 

Average Hours of Sleep: 6-8 hours nightly i’m good about being on a scedule

Lucky Number: 7? it was my volleyball number so

Last Thing I Googled: i looked up how to spell slytherin LMAO

Favorite Bands: Kpop wise; bts, f(x), shinee, monsta x, seventeen, fuck i need to get into more groups non kpop: my chemical romance, fall out boy, patd, disturbed, avenged sevenfold. i listen to more broadway soundtracks than regular bands oops

Favorite Solo Artists: bruno mars, ariana grande, agust d, hello 911 i need to listen to more solo artists lmao

Dream Trip: i really want to go to france and visit the catacombs there. i also really want to go to norway to see where my ancestors come from and to poland do see the old concentration camps. my sister went to china and i’m jealous i want to visit eastern asia honestly i just want to go everywhere

Wearing: grey joggers and a dark pink astrological tanktop i just made pancakes lmao. i have to get up and dress for work though

Age Of Blog: i made it like last july but deserted it bc i didn’t think i’d be into kpop. i officially started using it for bts/kpop/my writing in september 2016

Following: 232 oops

Posts: 3,672

What I Post About: bts and salt over immature fans and also how much i wish i could be jung soojung’s best friend

When Did My Blog Reach it’s Peak: uuuum well it spiked after i posted my Fall For You series but honestly i hope there isn’t a peak i can reach and i’ll keep improving in my writing and making friends and such