had one of those I guess I'm in the right field experiences this morning:
as I was experiencing an extremely surreal dream possibly tangentially related to the TV show deadloch? some of the surreal imagery went from surreal photoreal imagery to surreal stained glass imagery, and the first thought I had was that's a pretty good solution to blending a cartoon and a photographic style - nice choice.
I'm not even working right now, I've been off work for 2 weeks with this arm thing. this is simply my destiny I guess.
✨ masterpost for all of my 2021 film journal posters !!! ✨(i re-edited a bunch bc i switched from working traditionally to strictly digital nearly halfway through~) hope you like them!
alex garland's civil war is one of those movies where my experience watching it seems so different from everyone else's (even the writer-director's!), it's one of those alienating experiences... It sucks because I would love to talk more about it, because I think it's a very meaningful and intriguing work, but no review seems particularly insightful.
Another annoying point is that none of the things that, for better or for worse, truly bothered me about that movie seem to have bothered anyone else... For example, it's over a month since I watched it and I'm still in shock with that long, slow shot of a black man catching fire. It's such a strong, disturbing scene, I could not watch it, had to close my eyes and i was and still am so offended, and I never see anyone discussing what it means in the narrative, either as a meaningful artistic choice or as aggressive, cheap, potentially racist provocation (two things that coexist, of course)
you know i had a fun little vp idea i wanted to do for the cyberpunk anniversary but i haven't had the energy to even touch it recently so i'll just settle with saying that this game impacted me in ways i never thought it would when i first picked it up 3 years ago. i knew i would enjoy it, i had been looking forward to it for a long time, and despite a ~controversial~ launch, i had a fucking blast from day 1 (on ps4 no less). regardless of bugs and memes and public dunking, the story grabbed me like nothing else could at the time, and it reignited so much of my passion and motivation for art that i had lost in the clutches of mental illness and i'll always be grateful for that. it introduced me to so many wonderful people (some whom i carry very close to my heart), and maybe most personally surprising, it gave me an outlet to understand parts of myself that i had been too afraid to acknowledge for a long time, the courage to accept and embrace myself as non-binary, and allow myself to just BE without trying to convince myself i'm crazy. that's not what i expected from the get-go but it's been a really fun journey to be on ngl
'If I like my cage...' "Freedom and fatherlessness have split the heroine into two disconnected halves — a partly factitious determination to be her own master, and a dark fascination with images of dominance and submission"
About Henry James & Jane Campion, The Portrait of a Lady
“What Isabel wants is to be initiated: even if it means being attracted to darkness.”
“According to Jane Campion, the key to the film and to the novel lies in Isabel’s psychology rather than in purely technical feats. She considers Alfred Habegger’s study as one of the best keys to Isabel, especially when he writes:
“Freedom and fatherlessness have split the heroine into two disconnected halves — a partly factitious determination to be her own master, and a dark fascination with images of dominance and submission.”
(Sophie Menoux: “We are all Isabel Archers” A “Bonne Femme” Conversation with Jane Campion and Laura Jones)
“You were the last person I expected to see caught.”
“I don’t know why you call it caught.”
“Because you’re going to be put into a cage.”
“If I like my cage, that needn’t trouble you,” she answered.”
… “You must have changed immensely. A year ago you valued your liberty beyond everything. You wanted only to see life.”
“I’ve seen it,” said Isabel. “It doesn’t look to me now, I admit, such an inviting expanse.”
“I don’t pretend it is; only I had an idea that you took a genial view of it and wanted to survey the whole field.”
“I’ve seen that one can’t do anything so general. One must choose a corner and cultivate that.”
“That’s what I think. And one must choose as good a corner as possible.”
nothing is more humbling then a 8-years-old telling me i don't know how to draw and then demands of me to draw power puff girls for her all afternoon long!