#army evan buck buckley

[schrijverr]

First Lieutenant Buckley

Buck and Eddie knew each other in the army, because Buck was Eddie’s CO. They meet each other again in the 118 where Buck pretends he never was in the army, while behind the backs of the team, the two bond about it. The truth comes out when Eddie gets in his own head and the best way to pull him out is for Buck to pull out his commanding voice.

On AO3.

Ships: none

Warnings: PTSD and mentions of war

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Buck turns around to see who the others are talking about, already a little annoyed at their comments to rile him up. That annoyance turns into apprehension when he spots someone he already knows: Eddie, who definitely knows who Buck is too.

He watches Eddie pull on a shirt, mind running a mile a minute to come up with something to not have to do this. It’s not that he’s ashamed of his time in the army, not at all, he just doesn’t like talking about it. Ever.

The person he was there isn’t someone he wants to be now. He likes who he has become with the team and he doesn’t feel like having that implode, because New Guy McGee over there does something.

So, he decides to preemptive deny everything. If he does it right, he can play it off as a case of mistaken identity should Eddie do something to reveal that part of himself.

“Who the hell is that?” he thus asks.

He lets Bobby explain who Eddie is as if he has no clue, playing up his annoyance so he can lag behind, as the others make their way over to Eddie to be introduced.

As expected Eddie looks over, then also catches Buck’s eye over their shoulder. Buck can see the spark of recognition in them and he starts to snap to attention. Before he can complete the action Buck shakes his head at him as he makes chop it off motion behind the 118’s backs.

Eddie frowns in confusion, but before there can be more silent communication between them, Hen is already greeting him alongside Bobby and Chim.

Buck hurries over there before Eddie can say something, holding out his own hand as he greets: “Eddie Diaz, right? People call me Buck.”

The confusion does not let up and Eddie’s eyes flick from Buck to the rest of the team, then back to Buck. “Yes, I’m Eddie Diaz,” he finally greets back with a voice that says, you know this, why are you asking. “It’s nice to see you-”

“Uh-huh,” Buck interrupts, squeezing Eddie’s hand before he can add the ‘again’.

Before anyone can comment on the weird tension between them or the situation can develop, the alarms go off. Now, Buck will never be glad someone is in trouble, however, he is slightly grateful about that intervention.

He and Eddie are stilted and cold throughout the call. Eddie obviously has no idea how to interact with Buck outside their previous professional conduct, while Buck doesn’t want to trigger an unwanted reaction by opening up a line of communication between them.

The others take notice. Of course they do. Buck is always friendly with everyone, making connections with everyone on every call, to have him suddenly not click with someone at all, is unusual, thus noteworthy.

However, Buck ignores their stares and Eddie follows his lead. He seemingly gets along with everyone else just fine and Buck knows they’ll work well together, if they get a second of privacy to straighten this out. But that is hard to come by in the 118.

Not to mention how nosy and pushy the others can be. He loves his family, but sometimes he curses their shared desire to fix everything and save everyone.

Bobby obviously thinks there is something to be fixed or patched up and frustratingly, he has picked up on the fact that Buck is the cause here. Forcing him to work with Eddie all day. Bobby doesn’t know that they can’t fix it until they can talk without him there, so his hovering isn’t working.

It’s not until the two of them are pulling a bomb out of a man’s leg that they’re alone enough to talk about it. Eddie says: “Why do you do that, sir?”

“Do what?” Buck asks, playing dumb.

“Pretending you don’t know me, let me take the lead on this because it has military stuff, as if you don’t know about that either,” Eddie answers without hesitation, not letting Buck get away with his bullshit.

It’s hard to dispute that, since he has seamlessly fit himself alongside Eddie to work on a familiar wound. “They don’t know I served,” he sighs after a second.

“What? Why not?” Eddie exclaims, sheepishly adding a: “Sir.”

“Stop it with the sir stuff. You don’t do it to Bobby and it’s not like we’re still in the military,” Buck rolls his eyes. “I just didn’t want to talk about it. They think I’m a stupid kid, who is a little reckless from time to time.”

“Well, can’t argue with the reckless,” Eddie grins.

“Suppose not,” Buck grins back, meeting his gaze for a second before returning to the wound and his explanation: “You know what we saw out there. When I joined the academy, the last thing I wanted to do was talk about it. So I didn’t mention it. I got better, but by then I was already this person they knew and I don’t want to take that away from them.”

“With all due respect, sir, that’s kind of stupid.”

“What did I just say about the sir stuff.”

“Okay, same rank here, right?” Eddie asks and Buck nods. “I think you’re being stupid. I have only been running with you guys for a day, but it’s clear how much they care. You aren’t sparing them by not telling them. They’ll get it. They want you here, man.”

“I wasn’t a very good person there,” Buck responds without replying. “I can be innocent here.”

“You were one of the best out there, Buck,” Eddie says kindly, testing out his name.

“What?” Buck sends him a look.

“I mean, certainly not innocent, but no one is out there,” Eddie shrugs. “But you were the best to have above you. You actually cared. About all of us. We felt that. I don’t know who you are now, but First Lieutenant Buckley is someone I happily served under. I don’t mind having to work with firefighter Buck, if he’s half the man I knew out there.”

Buck can’t help the touched smile that appears on his face at that, ducking his head to hide the small flush. He has disliked who he was in the army for so long that to hear something positive about it, makes him bashful. “I’ll think about it.”

“Good. I’ll back your play until you’re ready,” Eddie promises and Buck can feel that this is the start of a great friendship.

“Thanks,” Buck says, before his gaze falls onto the grenade and he notices the cap, which puts another end to their conversation.

However, he was right that they cleared the air the second they had a bit of privacy – in as far having a bleeding out patient is private – they cleared the air and they’re good now. This is further cemented by the two digging out the live grenade together.

After that, they’re as close as can be, much to everyone’s relief. The two make a good team and their work together balances out the A shift.

None of them seem to notice that their familiarity is not as new as they think. They don’t notice that Buck’s voice is more authoritative than normal and that Eddie follows his lead almost as, if not more, easily than Bobby’s.

They grow out of their former relation of CO and solider into an equal team pretty soon, but traces of it will always linger. Neither mind though. It’s nice to have security of someone who knows what they’re doing, someone you can count on.

Time passes and the 118 is less glad about their newfound friendship when there is a dangerous rescue that Buck attempts and Eddie backs him up on without question. All the others are yelling at him about it, but Eddie follows his lead.

When they get back, Buck gets an earful about not being careful, which ends with Bobby involving Eddie as well. “And you, Eddie. What were you thinking going after him like that? I have come to expect this idiot here to be reckless, but you? I expected better.”

Bobby is pulling out his disappointed dad voice, but Eddie doesn’t even blink as he answers: “I was thinking that we had a secure line and plenty of room to create slack and push off to get out of the way should anything happen. Those kids were about to fall. We didn’t have time to come up with anything else. It was safer than some of the other rescues we’ve done. From my perspective Buck had a solid plan, nothing idiotic.”

The team blinks at Eddie while Buck grins. Hen breaks the silence by groaning: “Oh god, there’s two of them now.”

“Do no let it happen again,” Bobby warns, thrown off by the fact that his lecture didn’t land as intended.

Buck slings an arm around Eddie and smirks: “Glad to have someone here who sees it my way, Diaz.”

“Don’t call me Diaz,” Eddie scowls, but he does nothing to dislodge Buck or argue with anything else. At least, not until he has cajoled Buck into coming over for a beer, then he says: “You know, the others might not give you as much shit if they knew you know what you’re doing. That you’ve done more idiotically heroic stuff and lived.”

“I know,” Buck groans, slumping over the table as he nurses his beer. “I just don’t know how to bring it up, you know. I’m Buck who can’t lie and suddenly I’ve been lying for the past two years, because Buck 1.0 was actually already Buck 2.0 and I sucked as a person.”

“You didn’t suck as a person,” Eddie rolls his eyes, kicking his shin lightly under the table. “You just-”

“Killed people instead of saving them?” Buck cuts him off to fill in the blank.

“You just had a different job,” Eddie glares as he finishes the sentence how he wanted to in the first place. “And one you were good at. You saved my ass more than once.”

“Well, if you didn’t keep getting into trouble, I wouldn’t have to.”

“Oh like you’re one to talk, I still remember pulling all that shrapnel out off your ass.”

“A memory I’d prefer we could both forget,” Buck wrinkles his nose.

“Whatever, man. All I’m saying is that you’re making a mountain out of a mole hill,” Eddie tells him. “Everyone’s family. They’re not going be mad about keeping secrets about things like this. They weren’t mad at Bobby either, right?”

“How do you know about Bobby?”

“Chim told me.”

“Ah, that’s someone who can actually not keep a secret,” Buck grins, before it drops as he considers Eddie’s words. He drains his beer, then says: “Maybe if the opportunity presents, like another rescue or something. Feels weird to make it announcement.”

“Good first step,” Eddie claps him on the back. “Another beer?”

“Yes, please.”

The moment presents itself a week or so later and not in the way Buck had expected or would have preferred. They had a driver, who hit a crowd at a festival causing a grandstand to collapse, trapping multiple people.

They’re pulling people out and tending to their wounds when there’s a sudden flash and bang behind them. The timed firework show is starting, not having been stopped in the chaos of it all.

Buck can feel himself flinch and he has to take multiple deep breaths, before he can concentrate on his job again. However, one glance at Eddie tells him that the other has frozen completely.

Quickly he observes him standing there, under an unstable part of the grandstand. He had been assigned to place support beams, but he is too frozen to do so. If he doesn’t move soon, he’s going to get buried and the person on top will get more injured in the fall.

No one else seems to notice, seems to do something. Fear grips his heart and he starts to walk Eddie’s way, screaming: “Eddie. Eddie!”

Nothing. Eddie doesn’t move. All Buck gets is the stares of others on the scene, who now also notice Eddie’s predicament. None of them are close enough as the grandstand creaks and moves a little further.

Making an executive decision, Buck puts on his military voice and bellows: “Staff Sargent Diaz! Move your sorry ass, soldier! Now! You’re not leaving here in a meat wagon.”

The commanding tone fits with the mindset Eddie is in and his head snaps up, then back to his hands, as if he is only now learning what he was doing. “Sir, yes, sir,” Eddie shouts, mechanically starting to do what he’s meant to.

Buck is already running his way, glad that Eddie is moving to make his unsafe situation safer, but knowing that he won’t be right in the head. He needs to get there, before he can spiral or hurt himself.

Indeed, when he gets there, Eddie is looking dazed as he looks around, breath quick and eyes skittish. He’s looking around for a threat or something familiar. He finds something familiar first, they land on Buck and he snaps into a salute: “First Lieutenant Buckley, sir.”

“At ease, Sargent,” Buck says, trying to slowly ease Eddie out of wherever he’s gone. “Report. Do you know where you are?”

Eddie falls into a rest pose, arms clasped behind his back. He goes to answer, then furrows his brows. “The- the festival, sir.”

“Good. Do you know why you’re at the festival?” Buck encourages gently, dropping a lot of the authority he had before.

It takes a second before Eddie puts all the pieces together, Buck can see it in his eyes how he comes back to them. “To help with the car crash,” he reports softly, looking at Buck with wide scared eyes. “What happened?” he asks.

“Firework show,” Buck answers sympathetically. “You feeling better now?”

“Ugh,” Eddie groans, rubbing his eyes with one hand. “Yeah, I’m good now.”

“If Eddie’s feeling better, do we get to ask questions now?” Chimney speaks up, startling both men as they realize the entire 118 is right behind them, having run over as well to help out Eddie when Buck pulled their attention to it.

“No,” Buck speaks first and quickly. “There’s still a woman up there. Let’s move.”

He starts the process of rescuing her, while Chimney follows quickly saying: “I’m just saying we can talk and rescue at the same time.”

“You’re not going to shut up, are you?” Eddie asks as he follows as well, sounding fond.

“Have you met him?” Hen comments.

“Oh like you’re not just as bad as I am,” Chimney complains.

Thankfully Buck has reached the woman on top and Chimney has to focus on checking her over, before the two of them plus Eddie get her on a backboard and the 118 has to figure out the logistics of getting her down properly.

She is not doing well, so Buck is given a reprieve from the questions – a reprieve he’d rather not have if that means the woman is okay – but he takes it now that he has it.

Thankfully, she makes it to the hospital alive. Chim and Hen tell everyone that when they arrive at the fire house again, interrupting the silence that had been hanging over everyone.

Eddie is still coming down from the adrenaline spike, though doing much better, and Buck has been silently waiting for the other shoe to drop, preferring to keep Eddie grounded in lieu of interacting with Bobby, who has been graciously allowing them the space, knowing answers will come with Chim and Hen’s return to the house.

Indeed, Chim drops onto the couch next to Buck and Eddie and demands: “So, what was all that First Lieutenant Buckley shit about?”

“Yeah, and since when are you so authoritative?” Hen adds, directing her question at Buck.

Buck and Eddie exchange a look. Eddie raises his brow, Buck pouts, then gives him a nod, before Eddie cocks his head and Buck gives an annoyed eyeroll, before widening his eyes slightly. Then Eddie says: “Well, I called him that, because that’s his rank. He was my CO.”

“That was an unnecessary detail,” Buck huffs.

“CO?” Chim repeats, confused.

“Commanding Officer,” Bobby surprisingly clarifies.

“Wait,” Hen says. “You,” she points at Buck, “were his,” she points at Eddie, “commanding officer? As in orders him around all day?”

“Yeah, basically,” Buck grins. “Eddie here was one of my little minions.”

“Oh fuck off,” Eddie shoves him lightly. “I wasn’t one of your little minions. I was one of your soldiers and I kept you alive through most of your idiocy, might I add.”

“You know, you used to be a lot more respectful.”

“That was when you were actually still above me and far enough up the chain that I didn’t see your stupidity every day, just whenever you were badly injured enough about it.”

“I still can’t believe you used to be army, Buck,” Hen says, shaking her head.

“Yes, me neither. You told me you washed out of SEAL training,” Bobby adds.

“And I did,” Buck replies. “I just washed out after serving in the army for five years, because I realized that if I signed that contract that would be my life for a long time and I didn’t want to do that, didn’t want to become that person. More than I already was.”

He trails off at the end, voice becoming sad. The 118 frowns and Hen gently asks: “What do you mean by that, Buck?”

Buck looks up at her, startled like a deer in headlights. He clears his throat then looks away, purposefully not meeting their eyes as he answers: “I wasn’t always me. I was good at my job, I mean, you don’t get promoted like I did for nothing. But being good at being a solider, well, it means not being a very good person.”

“He’s exaggerating,” Eddie pipes up. “He has this whole I was a terrible person thing going on, but he was one of the best Lieutenants we had out there. He cared a whole lot more than he gives himself credit for.”

“Eddie,” Buck both sighs and warns.

“What? It’s true, you think we didn’t miss you when we quit? We did,” Eddie shoots back. “You always ran back in to get our asses, even if it got your own ass hurt. Not many will do that.”

“Ugh, don’t bring that up again.”

“I will. I earned that right when I had to patch you up after that stunt.”

“I’m sensing there’s a story there,” Chimney interjects, always looking for new embarrassing stories about the others.

Eddie gets an evil glint in his eyes, but Buck moves faster, slapping a hand over his mouth as he points a finger at Eddie and threatens: “Not a word, Sargent.”

Since Buck prevents him from speaking, Eddie does a salute and Buck lowers his hand with a wary look. Eddie gives Chimney an apologetic look: “Sorry, man. Orders are orders.”

“You truly were his superior,” Hen says, looking a little shocked as she leans back, as if she still can’t quite wrap her head around it.

Buck blushes at that, ducking his head and turning into himself slightly. “It’s not that big a deal. I wasn’t that high up.”

“44 people were under your command, Buck. That’s not nothing,” Eddie points out, causing Buck to glare at him. He doesn’t need Eddie brag about him. However, Eddie just meets his gaze head on with defiance. A part of Buck is grateful that Eddie is his friend now not his subordinate, however, another part of him misses when Eddie was a little cowed by him.

Hen whistles and Chimney gives him an impressed look. Bobby studies him for a second, then he says: “There is more to you than meets the eye, it seems. Why didn’t you ever mention it?”

Buck scratches his nose and says: “When I first got here, I didn’t wanna talk about it. Most veterans don’t. By the time Eddie came around, it was already second nature to not say anything. I didn’t want to upset you all by telling you I’d been lying all this time.”

“I would have preferred to know, but it’s your life, Buck. You can chose what to share. I, of all people, understand that,” Bobby replies kindly, lifting a weight off of Buck’s shoulders that he hadn’t realized was there.

“So you were just being a good little soldier by not saying anything either, I guess,” Chimney nudges Eddie teasingly, as the other glares, though it’s more a pout.

“Oh yeah, this totally explains the weird vibes between you two that first shift,” Hen adds.

“And why Eddie backs Buck’s stupid plans,” Chimney nods.

“Hey, my plans are not stupid,” Buck exclaims, faux-offended at the comment.

Everyone turns to Eddie, waiting to see which side he picks. “I mean, I wouldn’t always call them the smartest, but he has the skills to back it up. There’s always a reasoning behind it. It’s not impulsive. Just seems so to anyone who is not Buck.”

“I’ll take it,” Buck decides after a second, grinning widely and slinging an arm around Eddie to pull him closer.

“This doesn’t mean I’ll let you do whatever out there,” Bobby warns. “I might back your plays a bit more, but we do things by the book and as safe as possible.”

“Aye, aye, Cap,” Buck replies with a salute. It’s obviously meant to be a lazy one, however, years of serving means that it’s instinctively quite proper.

Then everyone continues to prod them for more details about how they’ve known each other and stories about one another. Eddie is grateful for the camaraderie that keeps him there and Buck for the acceptance of everyone. It’s a nice family moment that he relishes in.

When Eddie first came here, he was quite annoyed about it all. Back then the team’s comments were riling him up and Eddie’s presence only aggravated him more. He didn’t want them to know who he was.

Now, he watches Eddie recall their antics at the base and smiles fondly. He was never ashamed of his time in the army, just didn’t like talking about it, or remember what he’d been like. However, this? This is kind of nice.

[between-two-fandoms]

I need more fics abt the 217 and harbor crew(s) hazing/bullying (affectionately) Tough Army Pilot Tommy Kinard about being so smitten and flustered by his new boyfriend.

[willmiwi]

watching Buck Bothered and Bewildered rn and i just got. slapped in the face by something buck said to Eddie and i need a minute. He said, and i quote "Im not surprised you had a great time in Las Vegas. You and Tommy have a lot of things in common. Both in the army, both like watching half naked men pummel eachother"

. Excuse me ?

[sammurphy3]

I had to do it

[sad-boy-mono]

Ok now I need a cutesy Buck and Tommy date where they're both nervous but Tommy's nerves causes him to speak without thinking so he just says everything he thinks of and 99% of what comes to mind is how hot/cute/attractive Buck is so he just flirts with Buck and complements him the whole time.

Meanwhile Buck's nervousness causes him to get flustered and stumble over his words 10 time more than usual and that combined with him not being used to being flirted with by a hot guy just leaves him a giggly dork the whole time.

Just let them have a cute first date where they're both so into eachother in such an innocent wholesome way. Please I think it would fix me 🙏🙏🙏

[skarkkk]

First. Finally this thing with the councilwoman is over, I hated that woman. Like, you lost a son, I understand, but then you're going to punish a child and people who have nothing to do with it for a choice HE made?

Second. Gerrard, I never hated you (lie).

Third. I was right, I knew that this exchange of Bobby coming home and Gerrard as a consultant for the show was going to happen.

Fourth. Now that Brad won't be appearing anymore (I liked him), does that mean we're going to get more of Ravi? Because I want at least one episode begin with him.

Fifth. "Your son almost died and you weren't there." Tsunami? The surgeries he missed? (I think he missed them, I don't remember if those 3 he mentions in season two happen after he goes with Eddie, but I think it was before). The earthquake? And in the opposite direction, that Eddie almost died so many times and if that had happened he wouldn't be there for his own son. I loved that he admitted his guilt (and the mention of his mustache in that scene with Bobby, even though I like his mustache) and I hope so much to see more scenes with Chris, who has every right to walk away but I hate not seeing them as a happy family.

Sixth. I don't care if the endgame is Tommy with Buck, because I actually like him, but I'm still going to wait for Buddie until the end, ABC has already made one of our dreams come true, they can make another one.

Seventh. I also loved the comedy in this episode, Chim shooting, "and he touches me" + "no, not like that" and that Mara finally got back to her family (I miss Nia).

Eighth. I loved that there were mentions of Eddie's time in the army, even if they were minimal, and I need more. Maybe a situation where he is forced to literally fight for his life or someone else's (maybe Buck's? Here comes Buddie), or maybe he gets hurt and Chris only finds out after he leaves the hospital because Eddie's parents didn't say anything (I know these two are adding fuel to the fire for Chris's separation from Eddie, I just know) and decides he wants to get back together even though everything isn't resolved yet.

Ninth. I'm dying for that episode whose title references the mask. I don't remember exactly.

I love doing these "episode studies" even if no one gives a damn.

Now I need to find the new Doctor Odyssey EP to watch it too.

[beyourownanchor6]

army!eddie/babysitter/buck au has arrived y’all!! this is my baby, my absolute pride and joy, and i’m so happy to finally share with y’all 🥹 hope you enjoy <33

rated: e | chapter 1/10 | words: 5.7k | read on ao3

summary:

“Does this story have a point?” Eddie questioned, Lena narrowing her eyes at him; it would’ve felt threatening had he not known she was more bark than bite.

“This guy, my sort of friend—what if he could watch Chris for you?”

Eddie furrowed his brows together. “You want me to leave my kid who’s halfway across the country with some—stranger?” Was she out of her damn mind?

“It beats having him sent home to your parents, right?”

Well, she had a point there.

Eddie shook his head, overwhelmed with his thoughts.

“Look, I appreciate it Bosko, but I just—I don’t know. This is my kid we’re talking about.”

“I know that, and I know how much you love him. Hell, you’ve sent me ten plus emails when I was watching him for you.”

Eddie looked to where there was a line coming out of the office, his other teammates no doubt having several emergency questions of their own. He turned to Lena, giving his full attention.

“Alright, tell me about this friend of yours.”

—or—

The one where Eddie’s in the army, Shannon gives up her rights to Chris, and Eddie needs a babysitter. Good thing Lena knows Buck, the guy having nothing better to do than help babysit until Eddie gets back. Eddie would come home, and he would leave; it wasn’t like they were going to build some lifetime friendship or anything.

**if you wanna be tagged in chapter updates lmk, otherwise i’ll just tag everyone again once it’s finished posting <33**

tagging squad below, lmk if you wanna be added or removed <3

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[meowdy-all]

You know how we do the whole 'Buck has a secret past as a Navy SEAL, but doesn't like talking about it' in fanfiction? What if we did the same thing for Eddie? I know his past in the army is well known, but at the same time, he doesn't like talking about what happened, so it makes sense for them to not know what fully happened. Him being a medic on a Black Ops Army Ranger tesam, which is basically the army equivalent of a SEAL, is a wonderful idea for an au. Maybe one where an old enemy takes the 118 hostage and Buck and Eddie use their SEAL and Ranger experience to take the guy down, and the 118 is just like 'what... just happened'

Buck: i was a seal so... but idk how eddie did all that

Eddie: Yeah, i was on an army ranger black ops team :] nbd

Just an idea i had

[sweedish-blue-shark]

this fandom doesn’t have close to enough actual alternate universe fanfiction and i’m just in the right slightly bad place in my life to start fixing that problem myself

no offense to canon divergent the fanfiction in this fandom is some of the best i’ve ever read truly no disrespect but i want coffee shop au. i want tattoo artist au. i want them to be in silly predicaments. i want teacher au. i want college au. i want things that have never been mentioned in canon. put those mfs in situations!!!!!!!

i’m gonna play w them like dolls.

[air--so--sweet]

This edit has broken my heart and yet I cannot stop watching it. It's so fucking perfect.

[lonelychicago]

seven sentence sunday! 📲🎖️

tagged by the lovelies @prince-buck-diaz @devirnis @honestlydarkprincess @barbiediaz @transbuck @alyxmastershipper @spotsandsocks @wildlife4life @hippolotamus @panbuckley <333

okay so while i was making a cover for @buddierights i got inspired and wrote a little bit for my army buddies au where buck was in that helicopter crash with eddie and he's one of the army friends in s5 eddie calls when he's in therapy pre breakdown <33

(here's a moodboard)

and here's the snippet:

"Talk about your pain with someone who shares it. Think about that first trauma and then talk to someone who can understand exactly what you've been through." It's what his therapist has said.

And listen, therapy is... a lot. It's intense and it's draining and it's like pulling at his teeth every session he has. It leaves Eddie with an uncomfortable buzzing under his skin and with the urge to scream and yell and punch a wall.

But.

It's working. Slowly and almost imperceptibly, but Eddie is noticing the little changes— the way his shoulders don't feel quite like he's carrying the weight of the world on them anymore or the way it's the tiniest bit easier to laugh with his colleagues or his son.

And he has to admit, Frank isn't that bad as a therapist. He makes pretty good points most of the time.

And Eddie... he's been thinking about them a lot. About the friends he made in the army and the people who have been right beside him in his nightmares for months.

He thinks about Anita, Blake and Miller...

He thinks about Buck, too. A lot. More than he'd like to admit. More than it's probably healthy.

He thinks about the private jokes the both of them shared and how the team would always tease them about it, how they would always complain that Buck and Eddie were basically a separate unit, just the two of them.

God, Anita would always laugh and call them lovebirds during drills.

"C'mon, Diaz! Are you coming or are you staying to make out with Buckley?"

Eddie looks down at the phone being held in his shaky hands. The screen displaying a name that's been chasing Eddie for almost four years now.

Please pick up, please pick up. He chants in his head as his heart hammers inside his chest, beating painfully against his ribs and almost making it impossible to breathe.

Pick up, pick up.

"Hello?" Someone picks up the call just a few seconds before it goes to voicemail. The voice is raspy and hesitant but it breathes a new life into Eddie as soon as he hears it, the relief so overwhelming he could fall to his knees. "Eddie?"

"Hey, Buck."

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[bi-buckrights]

Pick a Star on the Dark Horizon (Follow the Light)

rated: E | buddie | 57k | complete | ao3

Summary:

Buck and Eddie had been luckier than most enlisted soldiers - after meeting at basic training, they were stationed at the same base, and had been in the same unit ever since. Buck had been there through everything; from their first deployment to Eddie's divorce, supporting him in war zones or at home with Christopher. Most friends in the military didn't get so much time together before getting shipped off somewhere new, so it was bound to happen sooner or later. When Eddie learns that he's getting stationed on the other side of the country, he's faced with a reality where Buck isn't a part of his daily life. Neither of them are prepared for a life without the other. Their solution? To get married.

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For my beloved @monsterrae1, and beautiful cover by @loserdiaz

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Time for a wild unhinged theory post from me - I'm connecting dots!!

OK here me out!!!

What if the person who Buck injured on the basketball court is in fact Connor???

So this picture below could potentially be a scene where they are arriving for a shift - when Eddie sees Buck with the bruises on his face - and Eddie is asking Buck how he got beat up etc and reassuring him etc

it takes place after the scene with Maddie - where Buck thinks he's the one who caused the injury intentionally - if Buck is freshly injured and Maddie is nursing him - he went to her for some tlc etc as he does and it plays into the Maddie talking care of Bucks various injuries throughout his entire life (which I am very much here for)

Buck chooses to go to work., annnnd heres the explanation for the weird non Buck shirt he's wearing - Its actually one of Connors. Connor has pretty much exclusively worn check pattern shirts not dissimilar to this one in his previous onscreen appearances (check out my meta posts for the eps he's in if you want to see 6x04 6x07 6x12 and 6x18 - I don't have access to my stills library atm to include the pictures here)

Connor feeling bad and like he went too far - giving Buck a shirt becasue his is too bloody to wear after whatever goes down would explain why.

My thinking is that maybe Connor is still flaking out on Kameron (and the Baby) and Buck calls him out on it in some way which is the trigger for whatever ends up happening - Connor hits Buck (perhaps with a basket ball) in anger leading to the black eyes and the cuts across his nose and on his forehead as can be seen in this gif below (the more I stare at it the more I'm convinced its bruising not soot!) which is a scene that takes place after the still of Buck and Eddie in the locker room.

I'm still sus about Connor because that dude was sending so many red flags and in a season full of red flags and red flag allegory, I'm not convinced we saw the end of that story arc! The other reason for my thinking this, which connects into the red flags, is that that check Shirt Buck is wearing is similar to Philip Buckleys shirts - and I've had a theory since I rewatched s6 over hiatus - that the show was playing on the similarities between Philip and Connor - that there was a big red flag that Buck wasn't seeing - that this baby he has helped create is fated to suffer the same kind of upbringing as Buck - having an absent father because Connor won't be there much as Philip wasn't there for Buck and that is why they put them in similar style shirts!

anyway thats my theory - have I added two plus two and come up with 10 - we shall see next month - until then I can be found in the clown car!!

thanks @copyninjabuckley for being my sounding board and helping me connect the dots - its always fun theorising and being unhinged with you 😎

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Update!

In this chapter, Buck overthinks about the other night - whether Eddie wanted to punch him or kiss him. Buck and Eddie have an ugly fight. Christopher makes two adults cry and it's not good. The 118 responds to an apartment fire under a lightning storm. Buck goes up the ladder.

Chapters: 9/21 (outline grew wings and one more chapter!) Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) [Slow Burn - Angst with a Happy Ending - Post Season 5] Rating: M | Words: 71k right now.

Chapter Snippet:

“No. But I’m your best friend. And I’m worried about you, man.” “Worried about what?” Eddie says dismissively, as if Buck is saying something ridiculous. “That I’ll take a baseball bat to my life again? Been there before, I usually only make these type of mistakes once.” Buck wants to say it’s not funny. Buck wants to say when he received that call from Christopher… the only other time Buck had heard that desperation in his voice was during the tsunami and Buck had gotten tickets for speeding and cutting red lights from that night. He wants to say for two seconds there after he’d breached into Eddie’s room, he didn’t see or hear Eddie and he thought the worst. He wants to say he knew then he loved Eddie unconditionally, but didn’t know he was in love with him, and now it seemed so obvious, because those two seconds were hell. Those seconds after the shooting, when Buck was frozen and Eddie was bleeding, were hell. Those seconds not long ago, when Buck heard a gunshot and thought the escaped prisoner had aimed it at Eddie, were hell. Those minutes after the well collapsed were hell. Buck wants to say that multiple times now, he had to live in a world without Eddie, and even if it only lasted a few moments, they had burned away something vital inside him. And he had no idea how far his love went because thinking about it scared him too much. But Buck doesn’t say any of that.

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I do think this might be one of the best chapters I've ever written, and for sure 10k words I am extremely proud of. Buddie angst is just 🤌🤌🤌🤌. They love each other so muchhh and it terrifies them both for different reasons!!!!!

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First, Brad Torrence.

He's a more complex character than he seems. The news of him being a father and having distanced himself from his son to try to pursue this pilot thing is in a way like Eddie. Who ran away to the army. The scene of the guy wanting to kill himself and him having that conversation and in the end actually managing to save him, compared to the conversation he had with Eddie also shows that he's more sensitive about his own importance than he acts with that superiority (like in that scene with the attendant).

Second, Eddie Diaz.

(I won't go into as much detail as I want because I plan on making another post, it's too much trauma for just one).

Starting with his relationship with Chris and how it's going downhill, his distance and how he probably doesn't want to become like his own parents, leaving his son to raise himself alone, hating his father (which is fair, but come home, honey). I read about Ryan's possible exit and although this thing about him moving to Texas to create the perfect exit doesn't make sense either. Since the second season he has been a main character, and him leaving the series would mean sending him to Texas and ignoring anything involving what will happen there in his relationship with his parents and also with Chris. I would love to see him go to El Paso and return with his son, to their house, to their Buck. I would love him going to El Paso and being recognized as "Hotshot's #1 hot nurse" and it also serving as an opening for some guy (maybe a blue-eyed blond) to flirt with him and Eddie having an Oh.

Third, let's talk about the couch teory and kitchen.

The look on Buck's face when he sat down on the couch and truly realized what was about to happen, it wasn't him helping his best friend pick out a new house, it was him helping his partner pick out a new house in another state. And that he would never go back to that couch - his safe place - or to that house after Eddie leaves and that he will never truly see his best friend again after this, nor his son (because that's what Chris is). We have, for the first time, two scenes of them together on that couch, technically one, but considering. Post-breakup Buck + finding happiness again Eddie, Post-breakup relapse Buck + going after happiness (son) Eddie. Buck, abandonment issues in bold capital letters and underlined on his forehead, picking out a house where his best friend is going to try to reconnect with the son they both lost. Do you think he blames Eddie for a moment? I lost what I considered a son and now I'm going to lose you because of it. He went and you're going to follow and they're going to leave me here. About the kitchen, it's basically how important it is. We talked about how Buck feels comfortable showing up at his house out of nowhere, walking in and going straight to the kitchen and the cabinets. We talked about "your own privacy, but not with me", and how the signs are there.

"Do you wanna go for the title?"

"It's Eddie's house, I'm not really a guest"

"Do you remember anything about the shooting?"

"Eddie, who's Kim?"

"Aren't these homes out of your budget in LA?".

Their kiss itself has to be there, or on the couch.

Fourth, if Buddie doesn't happen, it will either be because the producers are afraid or because the characters are afraid.

Something along the lines of "I can't be his first because then I won't be his last." Tommy left and Eddie leaves for completely different reasons, but this is Buck. And "why do I feel worse about you leaving than I do about my boyfriend?" and we know it will be like that. He liked Tommy, of course, and they were a couple, but 6 months of dating and dating is nothing compared to the years of mutual trust and family development that Eddie and Buck have had, it's a slow burn in which they built this (non)platonic partnership of theirs, in which they both feel so comfortable in each other's homes. And I don't doubt for a second that it's entirely possible for a scene like that to happen, if the show goes down a path for Buddie, in true 911 style that will either be super emotional and traumatic or comedic and cute. If you go down the path where both have feelings but don't become a couple because of fear, it would be for that reason for Buck + "I can't lose my best friend" and for Eddie the baggage of Catholic guilt he has plus the repressed homosexuality boiling in Texas

Fifth, Graham Keye and Athena Grant.

I thought their scenes were so cute. Graham seemed like a bit of a pain in the ass with the little cars, on the one hand it's okay to demand things be done the right way, on the other hand people just want to go home after a purchase. Leaving aside the plot of the culprit being Ira (or whatever his real name is), we see the difference between Athena's treatment of Sparks and him. Her calling him a baby in the hospital scene cured mommy issues all over the world, because his family doesn't even know he's in the hospital and almost died, because she was honest about him not being able to be a cop and that she presented him with an opportunity, something that probably (due to the person he is, and the context of the story presented) shouldn't have happened before. The culprit not being that big guy in plaid was pretty satisfying because it would be so obvious and boring if it were, so they go there and put the old man who Graham was trying to kind of help in his own way

Sixth, 118 and Hotshot's.

Chimney as a doctor was hot as hell, but thinking about it now, what would Maddie's reaction be? Considering that her abusive ex-husband was a doctor, but Chim is the cutest and perfect man for her. Eddie and Buck as nurses and their uniforms match perfectly, Buck's uniform showing off his muscles, Eddie clumsy on the set, Henrietta being a queen as always, and Brad going by what she said. Because I love that they did this "this wouldn't happen in real life" thing and I keep thinking, the things you guys do probably wouldn't happen in real life either. The scene at the beginning, them watching the show and giving their opinions and how Eddie automatically brought Buck into it with the F word and Buck's super expressive reaction to it, plus Hen and Chim being passive

"I liked the song"

"It's a good show"

(I don't remember Chim's line )

Seventh, Buddie again.

How Buck realized so quickly that Eddie was hiding the tablet and going on an ordeal that seems so flirtatious, and how Eddie can't lie to him. Even if 911 doesn't bring it up that often, Eddie was trained in the army, he enlisted twice and came back alive both times. From what I know about the US military (basically just from the series), he should be able to lie even under torture and yet he opens his mouth whenever Buck asks him to.

Eighth, the next episode.

According to the plot, we have a serial killer who will go after Maddie. And she is pregnant, and this will probably generate more trauma depending on whether she knew the person because "she could have hurt our child and it would be my fault", and she probably does. You can see in a scene from the preview that the person who took Maddie is a woman, who knows where she lives and who managed to get into her house. A woman with medium-long brown hair. We will know if she shows up earlier and why in the next episode, but still. Is it because of Chim? Because of the son? A random choice? I want to see the reaction, especially from her husband and her brother. Mainly from the brother actually, because Chim is her husband and they have a daughter but he was in the hospital recovering the first time this happened (not disregarding what he felt during Maddie's kidnapping by Doug, but he had been stabbed and probably slept most of it). Buck had to deal with going after her and worrying about Chim, and Doug, and everything that happened. And now it's happening again and it's maybe worse, because it's a serial killer, someone who doesn't just want Maddie for himself but wants murder and has experience in that. And I want a comfort scene with Buck and Chim, them bonding even more and a recreation of the hospital scene when Eddie comes to talk to Buck after Athena puts him in "hospital jail" for trying to unlock Chim's phone. I want Maddie to be okay, as well as the baby, and I want to see how they're going to deal with Jee.

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rated: e | words: 90.4k | chapters: 10 | read on ao3

summary:

“Does this story have a point?” Eddie questioned, Lena narrowing her eyes at him; it would’ve felt threatening had he not known she was more bark than bite.

“This guy, my sort of friend—what if he could watch Chris for you?”

Eddie furrowed his brows together. “You want me to leave my kid who’s halfway across the country with some—stranger?” Was she out of her damn mind?

“It beats having him sent home to your parents, right?”

Well, she had a point there.

Eddie shook his head, overwhelmed with his thoughts.

“Look, I appreciate it Bosko, but I just—I don’t know. This is my kid we’re talking about.”

“I know that, and I know how much you love him. Hell, you’ve sent me ten plus emails when I was watching him for you.”

Eddie looked to where there was a line coming out of the office, his other teammates no doubt having several emergency questions of their own. He turned to Lena, giving his full attention.

“Alright, tell me about this friend of yours.”

—or—

The one where Eddie’s in the army, Shannon gives up her rights to Chris, and Eddie needs a babysitter. Good thing Lena knows Buck, the guy having nothing better to do than help babysit until Eddie gets back. Eddie would come home, and he would leave; it wasn’t like they were going to build some lifetime friendship or anything.

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this fic is complete. all chapters up and posted! <333

chapter 1: everything on our own (we don't need anyone or anything)

chapter 2: would you lie with me?

chapter 3: somehow, we mixed up goodbye and goodnight

chapter 4: backdraft

chapter 5: fall in love with a single touch (fall apart when it hurts too much)

chapter 6: miles from where you are ( i pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms)

chapter 7: i wanna feel your pulse on mine

chapter 8: look into my eyes and say you want me (like i want you)

chapter 9: i'm feeling love (i'll never love another one)

chapter 10: wait for me to come home

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