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sirisuorionblack · 4 years ago

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Hello 👋 I was wondering if you could write about Remus Lupin bitting one of Harry’s friends, and they’re relatively alright with it but lovely Remus hates himself for it- a bit of angst but with happy ending?

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Remus Lupin x Sirius Black

Summary - The marauders are back at Hogwarts at the age of 34 for yet another adventurous night after years but this time it didn't end rather well but Remus had his family.

A/N Okie so this was a wonderful idea and I just had to write it and I might have tweaked my request status a bit. But, anyway, a few things before you start, everybody is alive, no voldy, no nothing. And since you didn’t specify which one of Harry’s friends, I naturally went for Ron to add in the drama. Also, this happens in their third year and Remus and Sirius are well, married, sorry if it isn't a pairing you are comfortable with. And this may be a bit rushed, idk but I loved it tbh.

Remus ran his fingers over the scars on his knuckles. Remus was gifted with such a beautiful life, his friends and family so close to him, leading a life filled with love and happiness, the sound of innocent laughter always echoing in his ears no matter what.

Over the years, he and his best friends had grown from adventurous teens to adventurous adults, still spending every full moon like a tightly-knit pack, running into the woods and barking in their animal forms. They had never grown out of it and Remus was more than grateful for it. It was truly a wonder, regardless of how much they had grown, married and having kids of their own, never spared a thought if any other was in need of help.

Thirty-four. It was bewildering how he managed to pass twenty-seven years tuning into a full-on beast with insane thoughts and no memory of his human self, only noticing the stag, dog and the rat that managed to keep him accompanied no matter what. He pitied the wolf at times, he would never have the chance to know what love is, never understand how people care about others and would protect their loved ones.

Remus knew what love is, Sirius taught him that like his life depended on it. Remus shivered every time he thought about this. They were no longer the playful and traumatized teens, they were adults with responsibilities now and it was terrifying. But Remus found comfort in the very aspect of it, teaching and just as his friends insisted he did become the Defence Against Dark Arts professor and he more than just loved it.

And now after years, they were back in the shrieking shack for the next full moon, this time, honestly dreading it. Remus suspected that Harry and his friends were rather curious about their shenanigans in the shrieking shack. Harry, of course, knew that Remus was a werewolf he had known it ever since he was realised, his father, Moony, Padfoot and Wormtail would go missing for hours and then his mother would be with Uncle Moony, treating all the new scars that Harry was told is a sign of bravery from a young age by his godfather.

For some odd reason, Dumbledore had requested that Harry must not know was that it was his very own Uncle Moony spending his night away in the shrieking shack for which Sirius had reasoned was solely for the drama it ensued.

“Moony, stop fretting,” James said, patting him on the shoulder and pulling him away from the window sill he was standing before, “It is Harry we are talking about, I think he would be rather cautious,”

“That’s the stupidest things you have ever told in your whole life, Prongs,” Sirius commented, smirking and looking out of the window, to see when the full moon rises.

“Hey!” James glared at him, “I mean, yes, he could be a curious little shit but he is…good,”

“This is not about if he is good or not, James,” Remus snapped. He took a deep breath and sat on a chair that had been placed near the wall, away from the three of them.

“Right, sorry,” James said, looking at him apologetically and remained silent giving Remus an opportunity to continue, “Just like you said, he is a curious child and his friends almost give him a run for his money and there is so little chance to no chance that they would not be coming here to “find out“ what’s going on! And like what if I accidentally hurt someone!?”

Remus shuddered as he said those words. Contrasting how he was speaking moments ago, he looked up to see Peter, James and Sirius looking at him and he fixed his eyes to Sirius’ and he whispered, “They could die or even worse become a monster like me,”

“Moony, enough,” Sirius said, calmly, drawing the attention to himself rather than Remus, “The full moon will be in minutes, there is nothing we can do,”

“Remus,” Peter sighed, emerging from the corner he stood in, “First of all - you are not a monster. Second of all - we are here, nothing wrong is gonna happen,”

”What if something does?” Remus argued. He didn’t have to see to know that Sirius closed his eyes to calm himself down.

“Sirius, do you hear yourself!?” Remus stood up abruptly, “Your words drip with irresponsibility!”

“It’s not irresponsibility, Moony,” he said, motioning Peter to take over as he walked towards Remus, “it’s the reality. What do you think we should do, then?”

For once, Remus Lupin was out of ideas. He didn’t know what to say but he knew Sirius was right, there was almost nothing they could do other than control the wolf and every full moon they deal with would be a unique tale of itself, never certain of what could happen. It was woven with time.

“It’s time,” Peter said, grimly. Remus took a shuddering breath and fell into Sirius’ arms, who was still in his human form, unlike the stag and rat, watching their moves carefully.

Remus was right. In the Gryffindor boys’ dormitory, Harry Potter laid wide awake, staring at the ceiling, the noises in the shrieking shack and the tales about it resonating in his mind. He was confused about what might be there and curious to find out when nobody would tell him the truth although they seemed to know. And today, they would unveil it.

James was rather happy that the full moon would end in a couple of minutes but he was not allowed to stay that way when he saw the wolf stop dead in tracks, sniffing the air. They all behaved rather weirdly, sometimes hilarious, in these forms but this time, it seemed different, like the wolf had encountered something out of order.

The stag and the dog stood cautiously, ready to pounce any moment while the rat, discreetly moved in the direction of the wolf’s sight and to a bush. They could hear whispers and murmurs as the animals and humans stood still on both sides, afraid of what might show and for the first time they all saw the wolf stand so extremely still.

And then slowly, a mess of unruly, jet black hair emerged from behind the bush. The wolf took deep, rapid, breaths that almost sounded like growling, bared its fangs.

The black hair further raised until they could see the bright green eyes, behind the round glasses and the wolf noticing the presence of the human, pounced.

The dog was rather quick to act and jumped on the wolf, redirecting its path but a stag and a dog wasn’t enough for the wolf to be distracted from its meal. Hunger in the pit of the wolf’s stomach derived its senses insane.

Harry stood up to his full height, wide eyes watching the wolf push a familiar black dog away from itself and leapt forward, fangs sinking into the flesh before it blacked out, falling to the ground.

He is going to get an earful from his father.

“Careful, Mr Lupin,” Madam Pomfrey rushed to him as Remus tried to sit up and take a look around. She gently pushed him back to a sleeping position on the hospital bed. Through half-lidded eyes, he frantically murmured Sirius’ name over and over again.

“Hey, hey, calm down, love,” Sirius was at his side, holding his scarred hand. Remus held onto it tightly and asked, “What happened?”

He could see Sirius hesitating to tell him and the vague memories remaining in his head from the night was not doing him any better.

“Sirus, please tell me what happened!?” He asked, anxiety rising in the bit of his stomach, the nasty churning feeling retuning. Sirius gently pushed the strands of hair from his forehead and leaned up, pressing his lips to Remus’ forehead.

“Th-the kids-” Sirius started just for him to be interrupted as Remus sat up, abruptly. He didn’t have time to sort out his chaotically, messy feelings and the one thing in his mind was what happened to the kids.

“Moony, Moony,” Sirius hurried to calm him down that, if anything, just made Remus panic even more in his hazy state of mind. Sirius placed his hands against Remus’ shoulder, pushing him gently to sit on the edge of the bed when he tried to stand up.

“Nobody is hurt, Remus,” he said, crouching a bit to look at Remus in the eyes but sighed with a pang in his chest when he saw Remus’ eyes unfocused and roaming above his head, at the various hospital beds.

Remus gasped and his heart sunk to the bottom when he saw the bed surrounded by kids and adults. It was Ron Weasley. His teeth had sunk into the boy’s shoulder blades where he could clearly see the bandages wrapped tightly around. He couldn’t imagine the pain the poor boy would have felt.

Remus Lupin felt like a terrible monster.

Why him? Why is it always him!? Just when he thought everything would be alright when he began to let himself wallow in the joy of being back at Hogwarts. And because of him the boy, merely thirteen, would have to become a monster every month.

“You are awake,” James, who seemed to have been outside the hospital wing, rushed to him, "Oh, thank gods-”

”I told you this would happen,” Remus whispered, hoarsely, staring at the foot of the empty bed before him. His mind was racing with unwanted thoughts. He felt mad at himself, at his friends, at the kids but was immediately engulfed in a pang of even bigger guilt.

A dry sob involuntarily escaped from his lips. He couldn’t understand how Greyback did that to the kids when here he was dying with guilt. He didn’t dare think of that one terrible evening when he was just seven.

Remus struggled to take a deep breath. “Moony, look at me, please,” Sirius said and these words in Remus’ head felt like a command. He slowly raised his head to look into those mesmerising grey eyes, sparkling like they always did in the sunlight. Those grey eyes were the only ones that had the ability to calm him down in seconds yet he found it difficult at the moment to regain his normal breathing pace.

“Hey, it's alright. I am here. We all are right here,” Sirius pushed the strands of hair out of his face as Remus tugged at his own shirt, as though it would help him breathe properly.

Sirius looked at James who immediately moved to the nearest window, pushing it open. The gush of fresh, cold breeze for some reason warmed his shattered heart. Remus, although still shaking, managed to take deep breaths.

“Listen to me, alright?” Sirius said, cautiously and slowly, “Nothing is wrong, everybody is doing good - I said you to just listen, Lupin. Ron did get a few injuries but, thankfully, since it was time for you to transform back, the bite was equivalent to that of a domestic dog or something,”

Remus didn't have the ability to comprehend what he was saying and just gawked, opening and closing his mouth like a fish.

Sirius smiled gently, looking at Remus’ wide, confused eyes. “Ron will not transform every month. You didn’t “ruin“ his life, which I am sure at this point you have confirmed. And Madam Pomfrey had down all the necessities so he would be alright in a couple of days,”

“Oh,” Remus breathed, chuckling lightly but happily. Ron was alright. He was alright! He wouldn't turn into a monster every month, he wouldn't have all those hideous scars, he wouldn't be weak every other day, he wouldn't seem to look way older than he actually was. He would be able to lead a peaceful childhood.

James sat next to him while Peter sat on the bed before him, “Now you might be wondering why is Molly crying buckets when her son would be alright,”

“No, I’m not James,” Remus rolled his eyes, pushing James away and shaking his head with a light smile. He discreetly wiped the tears forming in the edge of his eyes.

“Uncle Moony!” Harry yelled, and ran to his uncle. Remus tried to stand up as his nephew rushed into his arms, the boy holding onto him so tightly. Remus slowly wrapped his arms around the boy and felt Sirius stand up behind him, providing support to his weak frame.

“But you should ‘cause I have prepared an answer for it. If you are not asking me why then Padfoot go ahead,” James said and watched with a smirk as Sirius cleared his throat, and asked, “Why?”

”Thank you very much for your certainly not forced question - it is because she is a mother!” James said going jazz hands just for him to be hit with three pillows.

“I’m sorry, Uncle Moony,” Harry whispered into his uncle’s chest, feeling guilty as ever. He heard the man sigh and the arms wrapped around him grew tighter. Remus took off Harry’s askew glasses and whispered, “It’s okay to me, Haz but your mum,”

Harry giggled, burying his face into Remus’ chest, “I love you, Uncle Moony,”

“I love you too, Haz” Remus ruffled the boy’s already messy hair.

"Wait!" Peter said, jumping up and stood beside Harry, smirking, "Can we, I dunno, take points from him?"

"No! that's stupid!" James complained, shaking his head, "Gryffindor needs to win the house cup. We can ground him or something but not take away points,"

"Yes! Can I ground him, please?" Sirius asked.

"No,, absolutely not," Remus said, holding the boy closer to him, "Nobody is gonna ground the poor boy. Leave him alone,"

"Gah! You're no fun, Moony," Peter said, shaking his head in disapproval.

James, after controlling his laughter said, “Also, Harry, your mum told me to yell at you as a favour for her and she would do her job when you come home for break,”

"Uncle W," Harry said, making Peter chuckle at the nickname the boy insisted in calling him saying it was too weird calling his uncle "Wormtail", "I will steal your cheese sticks,"

"No," Peter groaned, dramatically, "Cheese sticks, my weakness,"

“But you won’t yell at me, dad,” Harry said, pulling away from Remus and putting his glasses on.

“I will,” James said, seriously.

“It is not that you won’t, Prongs,” Sirius said, from behind Remus, “It is that you cant,”

“Oh shut up,” James said, rolling his eyes.

Remus couldn’t help but allow his eyes to skip towards Ron every often and harry, of course, noticed it. “Ron is alright, Uncle Moony. He was actually saying it doesn’t hurt much anymore and he was rather bewildered why his mother was crying too. Oh! he also says you guys were so cool yesterday,”

“We know, prongslet, we are the coolest people ever to exist,” Sirius flipped his hair, dramatically. Harry laughed.

Remus took a deep breath. He would never forgive himself for what had happened, but he had his family with him and they sure would make him forget it. These wonderful people were his family.

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perdidosbucky-yyo · 4 months ago

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This might be my fav chapter yet!!!! ��🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

Bucky traded lazy kisses with you as your tears slowed, and you had no idea if it was his mouth that had your heart pounding and the crushing weight of everything that surrounded him.

Tingles, tingles everywhere 🥴😩 I just love their hold and pull dynamic it's addicting

“You’re putting a wall up,” he said, frowning as you grabbed your phone charger before he could. “Don’t shut me out, please.”

What does he expect?!! (I still felt a pang in my heart when he said this)

“This has been a lot, all of it, but we can’t go back and change it, and you know I can’t let you go because we’re meant to be together,” he said, his eyes searching yours. “You feel it. I know you do.”

How many times would he say that until you agreed? “Just because you think fate stepped in-”

How does he manage to sound unhinged and reasonable at the same time? 😭 I'm honestly starting to see his point

Bucky was hot on your heel and you didn't make it two steps out the door before he had a hand on you. “You’re upset with me. Putting up more of that wall.”

that wall 😩 he clearly despises the wall she puts up, he's had a tiny taste of her kind and vulnerable side and can't stand the thought of going back, he wants her vulnerable, raw, exposed, all to himself :')

“And you can push all you want, but I’ll just pull you closer,” he smiled, making you huff when he actually did so. “I’m not afraid to let you burn me.”

THIS MAN 💀 we're gonna die in his arms aren't we?

“Because even arguing with you makes me happy,” he sincerely stated. “And now all I want to do is find a way to put a smile back on your face.”

Ok but why does this make me so happy???

“You’re infuriating,” you whispered when he touched the corner of your mouth and made it twitch in a small smile. “Impossible.”

“I know,” he whispered back, running a hand through his hair. “Listen, you’re tired and you’re overwhelmed, which is completely my fault. Am I right?”

HOW DID HE DO THAT???? RUNNING A HAND THROUGH HIS HAIR??? His hand on the corner of her lips??? I'M SAT. I was literally just as mad as reader and he really managed to calm me down too 🤯 excellent writing bestie

This was nothing like the slow, languid kisses from minutes ago. This was dominant, claiming, threatening to rob you of the air in your lungs, like he wanted you to feed your own breath into him. He either forgot Ray was there, or he simply didn’t care.

I- 🥴 this man doesn't care if she hates him or not does he? He's like a predator playing with his food, but at the same time he's so soft and wants nothing but to make her happy🥺.... My toxic trait is that I love him 🫡

“You're certainly keeping him on his toes,” Ray said, not driving off until he made sure Bucky was in his vehicle, too.

I could say the same thing about you Navy😩😂😂

I'm so scared of what comes next with Clark, he gives me the creeps jsjsjs more than Bucky tbh😂

But wow reader is learning to tame her beast and I'm so excited to see how that goes 😏

Hold You Tight: Part 16

Pairing: Club Owner!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader

Fic Summary: The owner of The 107th wants you to be his girl whether you like it or not.

Part 15 | Series Masterlist | Part 17

Chapter Word Count: Over 5.4k

Chapter Summary: Bucky tries to pull you closer when you want to pull away, and someone else in your life my not take no for an answer.

Chapter Warnings: DARK AU, arguing, tension, slight harassment, kissing, reference to stalking, inner turmoil, manipulation, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?), more warnings to come.

A/N: More Hold You Tight! Thank you for sticking with me! Bucky edit by the beautiful @nixakimbo ❤️ Beta read by the lovely @whisperlullaby but any and all mistakes are my own. Divider by the talented @firefly-graphics. Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!

Bucky traded lazy kisses with you as your tears slowed, and you had no idea if it was his mouth that had your heart pounding and the crushing weight of everything that surrounded him. It was so much to unpack. Every encounter with him seemed to be that way. Something blindsided you or suffocated you, but you hadn't been at all prepared for what he just shared. And how could you? He didn't keep photos of his mother around, and you hadn't gone poking around online.

Would you have found out the truth if you had?

He followed your lips when you pulled away. “It’s okay,” he whispered, pulling you back in.

It wasn’t okay. Nothing was okay. Though it partially made sense now why he was moving so fast. He believed if he met you then that you would've fallen in love and been together to this day. Because he didn't seek you out then and lost so much time, he was packing everything into a rushed time span. Dating, meeting his friends, getting you into his place. He was moving things along at an accelerated speed, and you were barely keeping up with the ride.

“No.” The muffled word against his lips somehow rang out loud and clear enough for him to stop, but you put a hand on his chest in case he tried to lean in again. “Why are you punishing me?”

His eyes rounded. “You think I’m punishing you? Jesus, why would you think that?”

“Because of how you went about all of this. I know you were desperate, and I get the drive behind some of your actions now,” you said, which you refused to excuse. You got it but couldn’t excuse it. “Your response of ‘where’s the fun in that?’ when I said you couldn’t just ask me out like a normal person? You almost seemed to delight in intimidating me. Why?”

If you saved his mom, why do this?

“I didn’t delight in that. I played it wrong,” he admitted in a quiet voice, surprising you. “I approached it like…”

“Like everything else in your life where you have everyone under your thumb through fear. You did the same thing to me.” You laughed just a little. “In a way, it worked because I’m officially afraid to try to leave you.”

Had things blossomed between you two organically, you’d like to believe that things would’ve been better. Healthy. There was always the chance that a relationship might’ve come to an end because life was like that. But if he frightened you enough to stay forever, he’d never have to worry. The stars would still align as far as he was concerned.

“I don’t want you to fear me or what we have,” he whispered, reaching for you as you scooted back.

“What we have? Tell me, do you think your mom would be proud of your actions to obtain me or ashamed?” You couldn’t believe that was the kind of man she raised, to put fear into the heart of the person he supposedly loved.

He flinched. Actually flinched. You might as well have raised a hand to him. “She…” He swallowed. “She would’ve wanted us together.”

“Like this? By you not giving me a choice?” you asked, pushing yourself up. “I need to go home.” There would be no getting through to him and this revelation was doing your head in. One cup of coffee wasn't enough either.

He got up to follow you. “Why are you rushing off?”

“I have a shift today, and I have to go home and shower,” you said, grabbing some of your things. “Don’t worry about dropping me off. I’ll get a cab.”

“What? No, you-”

“You put money in my account, so it’s not like I have to worry about paying for it. And it’s not like I’ll be alone either since you’ll have me followed whether I want it or not,” you said as a matter of fact.

“You’re putting a wall up,” he said, frowning as you grabbed your phone charger before he could. “Don’t shut me out, please.”

“I’m not shutting you out. I’m trying to process the gigantic bombshell you dropped on me,” you said, stopping to look at him when he grabbed your arm. “Bucky-”

How many times would he say that until you agreed? “Just because you think fate stepped in-”

“Fate brought you into my club, but I gave it a much-needed push to bring us together after leaving things to chance for so long,” he said, tugging you closer and putting his other hand on your cheek. “You can’t tell me you don’t care about me in some capacity. You’re just afraid to admit it because it isn’t conventional in your eyes, but you don’t have to be afraid of how you feel.”

How could you truly fall in love with him when he orchestrated everything from the start? “Feelings or not you’re still going to force me to move in with you soon, and that scares me,” you said. Your wings would forever be clipped.

“We should’ve been living together and married by now,” he argued, keeping a tight hold on you. “I know I’m making you move in sooner than you want, but beyond safety it’ll give us a chance to really know each other before we get married.”

Talk of marriage had your heart thudding. The man would probably force you to marry him sooner than you wanted. “You said you already know everything about me,” you said. At least he thought he knew you. The vision of you he built up in his mind scared you, too. He couldn’t keep you on that pedestal.

“But you don’t fully know me yet, and I don’t know what it’s like to live with you. The experience will bring us closer together.” His smile was full of hope. “We can read together, do movie nights, dance in the kitchen.”

“Bucky-”

“We can exercise together, in and out of bed,” he continued, your breath hitching as he rubbed his nose against yours. “Don’t you already feel closer to me now that you know we're meant to be?”

A quick knock on the door followed by a long one saved you from answering. “It isn't check-out time, is it?”

“No. That would be Ray,” Bucky headed to the door and kept you back a small distance before he answered. The man really was protective, wasn't he?

“I’m sorry to intrude,” Ray said, giving you a polite nod before he leaned in and whispered something to Bucky. Whatever was said to him made his face harden. The entire change in his demeanor worried you.

“Kotyonok, let’s get your bag and get you back to your place so you can get ready for work,” he suggested, his smile tight.

“What’s the matter?” you asked.

“I’ll tell you later,” he answered, kissing your forehead. “And before we go, I know you suggested taking a cab, but please let Ray take you back to your place. It would make me feel better.”

The hint of a plea in his voice and the look in Ray’s eyes kept you from protesting. “Fine, Ray can take me home. Just give me a second to change out of these pajamas,” you said, a bit surprised that Bucky wasn’t offering to take you home himself. “But you are going to tell me later what’s going on, right?” you asked.

“I will, but I need some answers myself first. Get changed. I’ll get your bag,” he said, gently guiding you to the bathroom so you could change and officially ending that conversation.

Ray was still by the entry door once you came out, looking a bit stiffer than usual, too. You stole a glance at Bucky as the three of you headed to the elevator, catching the anger etched in his features as he gripped your bag handle tight enough that you thought it would rip. They were leaving you in the dark about something. You weren’t sure if you could take any other bombshells.

“Ray may need to pick you up from work instead of me, but I’ll message you if that’s the case,” Bucky said, fixing his hair in the elevator reflection. “And… we may need to talk about your girls’ day out.”

“What about it?” you asked, already knowing where he was going with this.

“If you can cancel or reschedule it,” he replied.

You stared hard at him. Where was that coming from? “No, it's tomorrow, and I’m not cancelling or rescheduling. And don’t you dare use Zemo as an excuse to get your way,” you snapped. Even if it was a valid reason, you didn’t want to hear it.

His jaw clenched, but he looked sad as he glanced at you. “I just don’t know if it’s a good idea.”

“We talked about this. If it’s a safety issue, Ray agreed that someone could watch out for me. That should keep me safe,” you reminded him. You’d be fine. “Right, Ray?”

The blonde stared straight ahead. “That isn’t my decision,” he said apologetically.

Your shoulders slumped. For a short time, you thought he could be on your side or at least help give you some slack. “Right. Because you don't get to make decisions, and neither do I. You’re a bodyguard, I’m just a doll,” you said, looking straight ahead, too, and pulling your hand back when Bucky tried to take it. “Please, don’t.”

“Kotyonok…” Bucky sighed as the door opened. You marched out, not waiting for either of them. “Wait.”

You headed straight for the desk, feeling sadder when you didn’t see Natasha. “Checking out, please,” you said, sliding the room card over to the woman standing there.

“Of course. I hope you enjoyed your stay.” She looked behind you likely at Bucky before giving you a smile. “Ms. Romanoff also wanted to remind you that you have a place here if you need one.”

“I’m sure I’ll take her up on that soon,” you said, turning your head to glare at Bucky. While his expression was stoic, his eyes told you he didn’t want you to be upset with him. “And make sure she adds an inconvenience fee to the damaged wall bill. She’ll know what I mean.”

“I’ll be sure to do that,” she smiled. “Take care.”

Bucky was hot on your heel and you didn't make it two steps out the door before he had a hand on you. “You’re upset with me. Putting up more of that wall.”

You didn't speak until Ray walked past you to get his car. “You’re trying to get me to cancel my day out with my friends, after you went through the whole charade of buying me a new dress for it and everything. And after what you told me about your mom.” You took a breath to try to calm down. “Yeah, I’m upset, and yeah, you’re supplying me with the very bricks to build that wall.”

“I said we may need to talk about it, I didn’t flat out say you weren’t going,” he corrected you. He might as well have. “I know it means a lot to you, but-”

You held a hand up. “No. There are no ‘buts’ in this. For all you keep taking from me, I don’t ask for much. I really don't,” you stated. In fact, you’ve shown lots of restraint. “Who knows how many moments I’ll get like this with my friends once you move me in.” He wasn’t about to take this small thing from you after everything.

He titled his head. “You think I’ll keep you from them?”

“Part of me thinks you will, yes. Because as soon as I think that there’s hope, the second I think that we could be closer together while you loosen the reins, you say or do something that puts me back in your full control,” you said. He had to see that. “And every time you do that, like you are right now, it makes me want to push you away.”

“And you can push all you want, but I’ll just pull you closer,” he smiled, making you huff when he actually did so. “I’m not afraid to let you burn me.”

“You keep saying that. Give me a match or a lighter and we’ll test that theory,” you said. He burst out laughing, the sound loud in the morning air as your eyes widened. “Why are you laughing?” you asked incredulously. How could he laugh when you were still worked up?

“Because even arguing with you makes me happy,” he sincerely stated. “And now all I want to do is find a way to put a smile back on your face.”

You exhaled. He was so in love with the idea of a relationship with you that arguments appealed to him? Anyone else would've walked away by now.

“You’re infuriating,” you whispered when he touched the corner of your mouth and made it twitch in a small smile. “Impossible.”

“I know,” he whispered back, running a hand through his hair. “Listen, you’re tired and you’re overwhelmed, which is completely my fault. Am I right?”

“Yes,” you sighed. He hit it right on the nose.

“And maybe I was rash in suggesting that you cancel your plans, but I need to take care of a couple things before we discuss that more,” he said, leading you to Ray's car before you could protest. “You just have a good shift, okay?”

He was placating you now, and it was sadly working. “Fine,” you said, touching his hand, the metal one. “I don’t think I said so earlier, but thank you for finally telling me the truth,” you said, calmer than you were moments before. He should've told you from the start, but it couldn't have been easy reopening old wounds regarding his dad.

His gaze softened. “Thank you for letting me.”

“And whatever Ray told you or whatever’s going on, just breathe, okay?” you begged.

He took a deep breath. “I’ll just think of you and it’ll help,” he said, adding in a low voice as he pulled you against him. “And this.”

By the time Bucky stopped kissing you and helped you into the car, you didn’t want to look either of them in the eye.

“I love you,” he whispered, kissing your temple and shutting the door as your heart flip flopped. God, he was insufferable. Confusing. Obsessed.

“You're certainly keeping him on his toes,” Ray said, not driving off until he made sure Bucky was in his vehicle, too.

“Someone has to,” you said, staring out the window. “I’m going with my friends tomorrow. I don't care if he makes you drag me back,” you said. Unless your life was in some sort of immediate danger, there was no reason for you to skip out on meeting up with the girls.

“So you’re aware, the suggestion of you moving your day out has nothing to do with wanting to control you. He’s upset because of the news I delivered and he wants to keep you close,” Ray explained, making you feel a little bad.

“So, that news was the reason why you both changed your tune, and you can't tell me what that news is,” you guessed. If you were in some sort of danger though, surely Bucky would’ve said so. “He told me about his mom. How I saved her.”

Silence filled the vehicle. “So, you know the truth,” he said after a minute, his voice neutral. “Are you okay?”

“I’m trying to be,” you answered carefully. You really were.

“That’s all you can do,” he said before adding under his breath, “No good deed goes unpunished.”

You snorted. “I guess I'm living breathing proof of that.” It was ironic how an act of kindness put you on this path. “And as much as I don't like to wish pain upon people, I hope Bucky's dad got whatever he deserved.”

Winnie, from the short time you knew her, was nothing but wonderful. Bucky said the dahlia painting in his office served as a reminder that he would never do to you what his dad did to his mom. He would never set you up to take the fall for anyone else, wouldn’t let someone else hurt you if he could help it. He would forever stand by you.

Was pushing him away doing you any good?

“He did,” Ray promised you. “And I say with complete sincerity that I hope today is very uneventful for you after the time you've had.”

Your nose scrunched as you laughed. “So do I, Ray. So do I.”

Ray was kind enough to wait outside of your place as you showered and got ready for work, and didn't push you to talk more before he dropped you off at the shop. He was even kind enough to stop so you could get another cup of coffee. It helped improve your mood.

“There she is!” Kate smiled when you walked in. “Little miss not-so-single anymore.”

“Hey,” you giggled before you paused. “I didn't know you were working today. Did you switch shifts with someone?”

“God, the schedule’s all messed up. Mrs. Crandle called out for some business thing-”

“Business thing?” you asked, your brows pinched. She hardly ever took time off for things like vacation let alone a business thing without informing her staff.

“Yeah, I’m not really sure about all the details, but Lorraine ended up switching the whole schedule around. Mya’s coming in later, and I had to come in early, and your shift’s ending early.”

“What?” you frowned, checking the schedule to make sure. She was right. Your shift today was almost cut in half. “Would’ve been nice to get a text or something.”

The assistant manager wasn't bad to work with, but she could be a little forgetful with things like that. If Bucky hadn't just put money in your account, you may have been more upset over having half a shift cut. After the night and morning you had though, maybe an afternoon off wouldn't be so bad.

“She probably forgot since you were coming in at your normal time. Who knows?” Kate shrugged. “You know, I half expected Clark to be here waiting for you. Seemed really eager to see you yesterday.”

“Yeah, about that.” You looked toward the door, your body tense in anticipation even though he wasn't there. “Why did you tell him I was working today?”

“He’s kind of a regular, and I didn't really think about it. Then Mrs. Crandle brought up your boyfriend and…” Her face fell as she stopped cutting stems, which made you feel bad when she glanced your way. “Crap, I did something wrong, didn't I?”

You weren’t about to go into specifics regarding your personal situation. “I just don’t want customers to know when my shifts are unless I’m specifically working on an order or event for them, okay?” you said, hoping she understood that it was a general request.

Bucky was not getting in your head about your safety.

“Okay, as long as you aren’t mad,” she said. You gave her a smile to assure her that you were okay. “So, tell me about your new boyfriend.”

You filled her in as much as you could to make it sound believable, just like you had with Addison. Like her and Mrs. Crandle, Kate was excited for you. And they would never know the full truth.

As your shift went on, you were surprised you hadn't heard much from Bucky. It was for the best though. He was clearly dealing with something. As much as you didn't want to defend him in your mind, it had taken a lot for him to talk about his parents. To show you some of the damage done to his body. It was a vulnerable moment. Did you owe it to him to be vulnerable, too?

Wait, why did you owe him anything?

“Heading out?” Kate asked once your shift was up.

“Yeah,” you replied, glancing at your phone. You wondered if you should text Bucky before you decided against it. You'd let him know once you got to your place that you wouldn't need a ride. “Just call me if you need me to come back in.”

“Don’t worry about that. Enjoy the rest of your day!” she smiled.

Satisfied when you didn't see Bucky or Ray’s car waiting for you either, you decided to take a walk. It was a nice day, and you needed the fresh air. You hoped the weather was nice for the winery. You’d have to take photos to look back on what was going to be a fun time.

“Hey!” you heard someone shout after a few minutes of walking.

You stopped when you spotted Clark waving at you from the other side of the street. You barely waved back before he joined you. “Hey. What are you doing here?”

“Oh, I was just in the neighborhood,” he smiled, pushing his glasses up. “You done working already?”

“Yep,” you said, adjusting your bag. “And I should really-”

“Could we talk for a minute?” he asked.

You hesitated before nodding. “Sure,” you said, falling in step beside him.

“You know, I actually went to the shop to buy you flowers yesterday. I was going to buy you some roses,” he smiled.

Oh, God. “You were?”

“Yeah, but you weren’t there and… It doesn’t matter,” he smiled, shoving his hands in his pockets. “But I was thinking… Maybe we could grab a coffee sometime? My treat.”

The hopeful look in his eyes made a pit form in your stomach. “Clark, I’m seeing someone,” you said, his blue eyes dimming. Hadn’t Kate said that Mrs. Crandle brought up that you were in a relationship? “It’s fairly new, and I don’t want to mess things up,” you explained, though he wasn’t owed an explanation.

“I didn’t want to believe it,” he mumbled, kicking a small rock on the sidewalk. “Well, if it’s fairly new, I'm sure you can get coffee with other people.”

“Get coffee with people? Yes. But this kind of sounds like a date, and I don’t think that’s a good idea. I’m sorry,” you said. That would feel like cheating even if you didn't consider it a date, and you weren't that kind of person.

“Then we won’t call it a date,” he grinned.

Maybe you were feeling paranoid, but there was something weird behind his smile. “You just got out of a relationship, and I don’t want to send mixed signals by agreeing to go with you.”

His smile shook a bit. “It's just a coffee.”

“Is it?” The longer he stared, the more odd things felt, and you didn’t like it. “Listen, when you find someone else to give flowers to I’d be happy to pick some out for you.”

“I don't understand.” He laughed, but it sounded bitter. “You’ve always been nice to me.”

“Well, yeah. You’ve always been kind, too, when you come into the shop.”

“Too nice for someone like Bucky Barnes,” he muttered, his smile disappearing completely.

You gaped at him, almost faltering in your step. “What did you just say?”

“I said you’re too nice for someone like Bucky Barnes,” he said louder, his ire clear as day. “You think I don’t know about his reputation? He’s dangerous, and you’re too good for him.”

“How do you know I’m dating him?” you asked. And what did he know about his reputation?

He was quiet for a moment. “Mrs. Crandle said his name, and she has no idea what kind of man he is,” he said, making you feel uneasy. “I don’t think you do either.”

Oh, you knew plenty. “I appreciate your concern, really, but it’s nothing for you to worry about.”

“Well, I do. And I just don’t see why we can’t have one cup of coffee together,” he said, flashing a smile again. “It’ll be fun.”

“Because you know I’m seeing someone,” you said. He knew it before he bumped into you, but was still pushing for you to go with him. “And I also kind of make it a rule not to date customers,” you added, stopping when you got to your building. You walked faster than you thought.

“Well, rules should have exceptions, right? And if Bucky cared so much, where is he? Why wasn’t he waiting to pick you up and take you home?” he pressed, his eyes narrowing when you dug into your purse. “Maybe he doesn’t care about you as much as you think.”

Your next breath came out shaky. He hadn’t raised his voice at you, but you didn’t appreciate the third degree, or the implication that Bucky didn’t care. “Because he’s a busy man who sometimes works both days and nights. I don’t expect him to drop everything just to take me home.”

“If you took a chance on me, you’d never have to worry about things like that.”

You were starting to feel nauseous. “Well, sometimes I like the quiet after the bustle of the shop, so walking helps me decompress. And I can't take a chance on you when I’m seeing someone else.” Why was he being so pushy?

He took a small step closer. “You know, it’s dangerous to walk home alone.”

You took a step back, your keys between your fingers. “You’re right about that,” you agreed. The only reason you did so today was to take back a little control, which didn’t seem so smart now.

“I can start walking you home if you want,” he smiled, towering over you. Was he always so imposing? “When’s your next shift?”

You managed a smile in return, but it was extremely forced. “Clark, that’s really not necessary, but thank you for the offer. Enjoy the rest of your day.”

He gently took your arm when you turned toward the door, worry crawling up your spine when his hand tightened a fraction. You suddenly wish you had Bucky or Ray around. “I really don’t mind.”

“My boyfriend will mind, and I’m sure you can understand that. So it’s a no on the coffee and the walks home,” you said gently but firmly, pulling your arm back and rubbing the spot where Clark grabbed you. He wasn’t listening. It somehow felt worse than Bucky and you couldn’t pinpoint why. Was it because Clark tried to act nice? “It’s been a long few days, and I’m going to get some rest. Have a nice day, okay?”

His eyes narrowed again, but it was his chilling smile that unnerved you. “I’m sure I'll see you again soon. We’ll have to get that coffee,” he said, walking off before you could say another word.

You rushed into the building once he was out of sight, your hands shaking. It may have been from the confrontation or the combination of everything. Maybe Clark was just lonely and latched on a bit because you were nice. Hadn't Bucky done something similar?

But if Clark wanted to see you, why hadn't he just gone into the shop if he knew you were working?

Double checking your locks once you were in your apartment, you took a breath and stared at your phone once you sat down. You had to talk to Bucky. He answered within a few seconds of you calling.

“Kotyonok, is everything okay?” he asked, sounding both happy and concerned to hear from you.

“Yeah, why wouldn’t it be?” you asked, hearing a few other men speaking in the background.

“Because you’re calling me and not texting. And you sound a little off. What’s wrong?”

“Everything’s fine,” you lied. How did he recognize that you felt off? “I just wanted you to know that the assistant manager changed my shift, so I went home early.”

“Wait, you’re already home?” he asked. The background noise suddenly stopped. “Did you get a cab? Please tell me you didn’t walk back to your place.”

“…Fine, I won’t tell you that.”

Bucky let out an impressive string of curse words as you pulled the phone away from your ear. “That’s not safe. You know it isn’t,” he hissed, but you knew he wasn’t actually angry with you. Just the situation. And bumping into Clark today and Zemo the day before, he had a bit of a point. “You did that on purpose, didn’t you? Because I said it may not be a good idea to go out with your friends.”

You closed your eyes. He was not going to make you feel bad. “I just needed a breather, okay? And I made it home just fine.”

“But did you? How do I know someone didn’t follow you?” he asked. Clark’s face flashed in your mind when you stayed quiet. “…Kotyonok, did someone follow you?”

“No one followed me that I know of,” you said. You really didn't have any idea. “But… I did bump into Clark. He was in the neighborhood.”

“Clark? That guy from the shop who tried to give you flowers just happened to be in your neighborhood when I wasn't around?” he asked, fury seeping into his tone as you winced.

“I… I’m sure it was a coincidence,” you said. Placating him in this wasn’t going to work, but you had to try.

“That isn’t a fucking coincidence and we both know it. Did he say anything? Try anything?”

You shut your eyes. It would be like ripping off a band-aid. “He asked me to go get a cup of coffee with him, but I told him I was seeing someone.”

He chuckled humorlessly. “He asked you out?” he asked, making you shift in your seat. “Why the fuck do I not have a file on him yet?!” he snapped at someone in the background.

“I’m working on it, boss!” you heard someone promise. “Should I call-”

“No. I’ll call him myself,” Bucky growled.

Who was he talking about? “Bucky, it’s okay. The guy asked me out and I said no,” you assured him. You weren't going to go out with Clark. “I’m sure women throw themselves at you every day and you turn them down.”

“They don't ‘bump’ into me in my neighborhood. And had you told me you were leaving early, I could’ve made sure this guy didn’t go anywhere near you. I don’t even want him near your shop until I know more about him,” he said, his anger not lessening. “If he tries anything, I will tear him apart piece by fucking piece,” he promised you, the intensity in his tone making your throat go dry.

“That isn’t necessary,” you whispered.

He sighed. “Why would you deliberately put yourself in a spot like this just to prove a point? Be pissed at me, I can take that, but do not risk your safety,” he said, adding in a quieter voice, “I couldn’t take it if something happened to you.”

You bit the inside of your cheek, hating how guilty you felt, how worried he sounded on your behalf. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to worry you,” you said. It was stubborn and dumb on your part, and now you were afraid that Bucky really would try to cancel your day out tomorrow. You couldn’t let him. “I’ll make it up to you, okay?”

“Make it up to me?” he asked. That seemed to get his attention. “How are you going to do that?”

“I’ll…” you began, steadying yourself. Natasha said you had power, and maybe you’d have to test that sooner than you expected. “Stay at your place tonight.”

You could hear a pin drop from the quiet. “You’ll stay the night?” he asked, his voice moving like lava through your veins.

“Yes,” you whispered, hammering the nail in the coffin.

“Give me two hours and I'll come get you,” he said, his voice strained, eager. “Be ready.”

“I will be.”

God, you hoped you knew what you were doing.

Oh, Clark. He's a problem now, isn't he? What do we think Ray told Bucky? And what's going to happen when you spend the night? Love and thanks for reading! ❤️

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tigerkirby215 · 4 years ago

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Building Hank before Consternation (Madness Combat build errata)

(Artwork by OctoCryptik on Newgrounds.)

My initial build for Hank, while effective at capturing all of Hank’s abilities (and a good build in its own right imo) is... quite messy, admittedly. There’s a very big shift in Hank’s abilities after his death in Madness 7 and revival in Madness 9 and while I tried to capture the pre-revival Hank as much as possible in my build there’s no way to take the Armorer subclass without immediately buying into the flavor.

Truthfully if I were to play Hank in a campaign with as much accuracy and representation as possible I’d consider Madness 7 Hank and Madness 9 Hank as two different characters (same name different build) with the revival machine essentially being a way to bring back an old character after their death and swap their build. (Hell you could even play Deimos until reviving Hank.)

I think that if you want to play a post-Madness 9 Hank then the original build I made is quite good but to play a pre-Madness 7 Hank I’d give him wildly different abilities. So here’s another build that won’t be made as detailed as my usual ones but will still give a level by level analysis of how to build Hank... again!

GOALS

I still basically want a build that can use all weapons and is really good at using them. I also still want some stealth abilities.

RACE

Still a Variant Human, with +1 in DEX and CON. Take whatever language you want and the Medicine skill to patch yourself up.

For your feat talk to your DM about getting a Repeating Hand Crossbow or otherwise being able to ignore the loading property on a Hand Crossbow. If they’re willing to give you a handgun (or let you ignore the Loading property via the Gunner feat) grab the Gunner feat for obvious reasons. However if they’re not willing to let you use a Hand Crossbow without having to reload it I’d suggest the Sharpshooter feat instead.

Why aren’t we taking Crossbow Expert? Well you won’t be able to use the Bonus Action much for reasons that will be illustrated in the build. Other than that you don’t need the ability to shoot in melee range (you’ll have weapons and your fists) which means the only ability of value you’d get from Crossbow Expert is the ability to ignore the Loading property, which isn’t worth losing a potential ASI. Better to grab Sharpshooter early and use something other than a Hand Crossbow.

ABILITY SCORES

Hello Standard Array my old friend! Since this build isn’t nearly as MAD (ironic) you can afford to go for Standard Array! But of course feel free to roll for stats if you so desire or use point buy.

15; DEXTERITY - You’re still going to be focusing on guns, and you’ll be able to use your DEX for a lot more weapons in this build.

14; WISDOM - Still used for Perception and Survival, and is far more useful for this build than the other one.

13; CONSTITUTION - It’s good to not die and you don’t need the other stats as much.

12; STRENGTH - In case you grab a Strength weapon you aren’t proficient in.

10; INTELLIGENCE - Strength felt more important than Intelligence.

8; CHARISMA - You’re still a psychopathic mass-murderer.

BACKGROUND

Same background as last time: Criminal with Intimidation, Slight of Hand, and Land Vehicle proficiency.

Apparently if you don’t have Thieves’ Tools proficiency (from Artificer lol) you get it from the Criminal background? That works really well for us too.

(Artwork by DonCroco on Newgrounds.)

THE BUILD

LEVEL 1 - MONK 1

Starting off as a Monk so you can actually throw a punch and dodge attacks while actually unarmored. Take proficiency with Acrobatics and Stealth (why the hell do Monks get Stealth proficiency?) and Smith’s Tools, under the context that they’re gunsmith tools.

The fun thing about Monk is that simple weapons honestly cover most of Hank's weapons (club, quarterstaff, hand axe, etc) so you can use most of them with DEX thanks to Martial Arts.

LEVEL 2 - MONK 2

Second level Monks get second level Monks stuff. Told you this build would be a lot more basic than usual. Dedicated Weapon from Tasha’s will let you add more weapons to your repertoire, along with your subclass.

LEVEL 3 - MONK 3

Go Kensei because that’s the weapon Monk. Take either tool that you want (doesn’t really matter), a Battleaxe (reflavored as the stop sign Hank used to kill Tricky in Madness Combat 3), and either a Hand Crossbow (reflavored Pistol) or an actual pistol if your DM allows it.

LEVEL 4 - MONK 4

4th level Monks get an ASI: increase your DEX by 2 as that's your main stat.

LEVEL 5 - MONK 5

5th level Monks get an Extra Attack. Also Stunning Strike and stuff, but we’re here for Extra Attack. Remember that you can’t attack twice with a Hand Crossbow without Crossbow Expert, because it’s a crossbow.

LEVEL 6 - MONK 6

6th level Monks get Ki-Empowered Strikes and One with the Blade to bypass Magic Resistance mainly. Deft Strikes also lets you aim for the head.

You can also get another Kensei weapon: grab the Longbow (finally) which will be reflavored as all your rifles... unless you can actually grab a gun.

LEVEL 7 - RANGER 1

Hope you didn’t think this would be straight Monk. Grab Perception proficiency from multiclassing and Acrobatics Expertise from Deft Explorer, along with two languages. Also grab Favored Foe to aim for the head, because Favored Enemy is meh (can’t choose more than two types of humanoids which is basically all you fight) and you can actually afford to concentrate on Favored Foe... Even if the damage is bad.

LEVEL 8 - RANGER 2

Second level Rangers get their Fighting Style: yeah go for Archery because that fits the best. Dueling also works if you opt to play with gun and sword (or more realistically gun and knife.)

You also get Spellcasting: yeah take Hunter’s Mark lol Favored Foe is bad. Other than that? I dunno take Cure Wounds to bandage yourself up in a pinch?

LEVEL 9 - RANGER 3

Third level Rangers get to choose their archetype and it’s me ya boii Gloom Stalker. Same stuff as last time: be better at hiding, get darkvision, get ambushing powers, get Disguise Self as an innate spell.

Also go for Primal Awareness because Primeval Awareness is still bad and Speak with Animals is genuinely more useful. You also get another spell: take like Jump idk all I really want is Hunter’s Mark.

LEVEL 10 - RANGER 4

4th level Rangers get another Ability Score Improvement: time to cap that Dexterity!

LEVEL 11 - MONK 7

So like, every level after this is Monk lol. 7th level Monks can dodge rockets with Evasion.

LEVEL 12 - MONK 8

More ASIs: go for Wisdom now because your Dexterity is maxed out, and Wisdom boosts your skills as well as your AC.

LEVEL 13 - MONK 9

Use the improbability drive to walk on walls and water!

LEVEL 14 - MONK 10

Become immune to disease! Probably a bit late for that but still cool!

LEVEL 15 - MONK 11

You can use Sharpen the Blade to turn your weapon into a +1, +2 or +3 weapon by spending Ki now which is pretty nuts. You can also pick another Kensei Weapon like a Longsword (as seen in Madness Combat 5.)

LEVEL 16 - MONK 12

Wisdom.

LEVEL 17 - MONK 13

Lol like you’re going to be the one talking with your 8 in Charisma.

LEVEL 18 - MONK 14

Here’s the big one: enjoy proficiency in all Saving Throws!

LEVEL 19 - MONK 15

You can’t age, much like Newgrounds. Everything there is fresh to this day, just waiting to be revived.

LEVEL 20 - MONK 16

Just cap your Wisdom as your capstone.

You’re probably wondering why I didn’t take Tavern Brawler: the only improvised weapons Hank really uses are a metal pipe (Madness 4, 6, and 7) and a dude’s head once in Madness Combat 6. Truthfully I’d consider a pipe a glorified Quarterstaff and you’re not going to be ripping people’s heads off in D&D combat. Yes one could argue that the stop sign is technically an Improvised Weapon but both you and Tricky have used it so much it’s essentially become a proper martial weapon for both of you.

Ultimately improvised weapons come up so rarely in 5e combat it’s not worth taking a feat for it. We took it in the original build mainly to get Unarmed strike damage, and being able to beat a man with another man’s head was an added bonus.

FINAL BUILD

PROS

This build is far more focused than the original one, with far fewer dud levels. It lets you become a slaughterhouse fast and is honestly far more proficient with weapons than the original build. You also get 20 AC and +10 to initiative thanks to Gloomstalker, which is cool.

CONS

You don’t get god tier stats like with Artificer, but Artificer kinda cheats tbf. You also don’t have as much spellcasting, and while Hunter’s Mark will carry you far you won’t be able to use it all the time. By far the biggest problem is the limited resources of this build however: limited Ki, limited ammo for your ranged weapons (assuming you don’t get a Repeating Weapon), and notably you can only attack once with a Hand Crossbow if you choose to use one. This build would be really good with an Artificer ally to give you a Repeating Hand Crossbow, or a cool DM who lets you ignore the Loading property for the sake of aesthetic. But I mean you can also use a boomerang or darts or something tbh.

So thank you for joining me for this simultaneously detailed and simplified errata. I hope you can navigate the Monk class without me detailing everything to you!

(Artwork by Neentandoo on Newgrounds.)

#dnd #dnd 5e #dnd build #dnd guide #errata #Madness Combat #Madness Combat Hank #madness hank #Hank J. Wimbleton #dnd monk #dnd ranger #Newgrounds #tiky

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twilightofthe · 4 years ago

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so what animes have you seen already?

Oh boy! Not many tbh, I only really started watching it last winter when my roommate asked if I wanted to give it a try! I haven’t watched anything from any studio that did Visions (yet), but I wanna soon!

Animes I HAVE seen, in order:

Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood — Aight so when roomie suggested we watch an anime, a friend who had seen a lot of them recommended this one to watch first as it was a good “starter anime”, and y’all idk if it’s just because it’s the first one I watched but I’ve still gotta call it my favorite one because y’all it’s SO FUCKING GOOD. Like that’s understatement of the century but I don’t have time to write an essay on why it’s so good lol just trust me it’s GOOD. 11/10s on EVERYTHING about it. Plot, characters, setting, everything. My one sadness is that I would not be good at writing fic for it lol.

Demon Slayer — YouTube AMVs and seeing it pop up on Netflix had us start this one next and y’all it’s probably the prettiest anime I’ve seen like ever, like the art style is chef’s kiss. Amazing story and AWESOME characters too, very good, 10/10 would recommend. I think I could write a decent fic for it if a plot ever came to me.

The Great Pretender — The only non-action/fight anime on the list, roomie and I tried it out because we figured we should see something different? It was on Netflix so we looked. It was good, clever writing, good characters got a little bit weird in the second season, particularly at the end, but overall it’s a decent watch. I could write fic for the shipping aspect but again, no plot ideas because the plot is fuckin weird.

Akame Ga Kill — Roommate had seen this before, recommended it to me. The characters were decent, setting was interesting! Pretty art style too, but I was like, verrrrry critical of the plot throughout the entire singular season lol, so take that as you will. Actually no yeah plot was kinda wack. My fave character deserved better tho.

Castlevania — Okay okay I know I know not an anime, but it’s a similar artstyle. (Also I think the game it’s based off of is a Japanese game?) Actually watched the first two seasons a while ago, but then watched the third and fourth with roommate. Y’all it’s REALLY good, literally everyone in the damn show is fucking hot and I’m jealous, I ship the throuple HARD hard. I think I could maybe write a decent fic for it if, again, I had any plot motivation lol

Trese — Again, cheating because not anime, but this one is still non-Western (Filipino) media and it’s glorious. I’ve never seen an episode of Supernatural but I feel that this show is like, what Supernatural wishes it could be. Another gorgeous artstyle and I’m so gay for the MC and the first season left me with so many questions so I really hope it gets another one! I gotta get around to reading the webcomic

D.Gray-Man — Okay this one is entirely the fault of @jasontoddiefor who got back into it and promptly dragged everyone he knew down with him, and I am so very glad he did because this is a fantastic— and I’d argue relatively underrated —series. Artstyle is gorgeous (certain characters be very hot), the character arcs are brilliant, I love all the characters, and the worldbuilding is so friggin creative, like I’d put it up there as another one of my faves. I actually did write a fic for this, but publishing a fic in an unfamiliar fandom is terrifying and bad for my anxiety and it’s gonna take me like five more years to work up the courage to do it again lol.

Sword Art Online — Currently watching right now with roommate. I heard some not very good things about it, but my roommate wanted to give it a try so I sat down and watched with them. Sure enough it’s been a case of half the time I’m flailing over the nice animation and how creative the worldbuilding is and the charm and potential all the characters have……………….. and then the other half of the time I’m banging my head against the wall repeatedly because it pulled some seriously stinky bullshit lol. So yeah watch it’s promising but also Suffer in not the good way.

Fire Force — Also currently watching! On my own this time, roommate already watched and recommended. This one is VERY good, like I am super into the plot and the setting and everything to do with the universe. Still getting into the characters and it’s taking a bit more time? So the watch is going slower than usual, but that’s alright! The entire premise makes up for it.

So that’s all the anime I’ve seen! I’ve also seen 2.5 Studio Ghibli movies and they are all JUST as good as people say they are (Kiki’s Delivery Service, Howl’s Moving Castle, and bits and pieces of Princess Mononoke) 1000/10 recommend.

You didn’t ask about the manga I’ve read but I’ll list them anyway! For the record I’m not a huge manga reader because my eyes find it hard to see the illustrations when everything is in different shades of black and white, it makes action scenes in particular really difficult to read, which is a problem when you usually like action plots

Demon Slayer — The anime isn’t complete yet and after the movie I wanted to know MORE so I hunted down the manga and binged it all. Y’ALL GOTTA READ IT IT’S STILL SO FUCKIN GOOD AND I’D DIE FOR SO MANY CHARACTERS I’M IN LOVE WITH SO MANY

D.Gray-Man — Same thing as Demon Slayer, the anime isn’t complete yet and neither is the manga BUT so I read the rest of what’s been written. Hoo hoo HOO I hope they animate more of it because the plots coming up are brilliant and I want it

My Hero Academia — Look, EVERYONE is yelling about this one and it trends like once a week and like five irl friends love it so I figured there was too much anime out but I had to know so I’d just skim the manga just to figure out what the fuck the hype was. It’s good, lol, I totally get the hype now, the strength is in the worldbuilding and a whole handful of extremely interesting yet surprisingly simple character types that work to drive the plot forward. There is so much potential here and I could definitely write fic for this but I am not touching that fandom with a ten foot pole and that’s coming from a Star Wars fan 😂

Yona of the Dawn — Currently reading this!!!! Ok so there’s a season of an anime out for this, I walked in to see my other roommate watching what was probably one of the horniest scenes in it. I was immediately like “👀👀👀👀 shit fuck that’s hot do these heteros have rights????” I was about to plop my ass down and start watching but roommate was like “oh there’s only one season and it’s unfinished and I know you don’t like unfinished stuff�� so I promptly got my ass up and googled the manga so I could see more. Y’all it is GOOD, if you love the dramatic romances from Star Wars this is RIGHT up your alley and dare I say better, the plot is lovely, the characters are great, and I am SO MAD there’s only one anime season. I’d absolutely write fic for this if I was more confident, I have so many polyship ideas!!!!!!

#SORRY FOR RAMBLING Y’ALL #next anime i wanna watch is jujutsu kaisen i’ve heard so many good things about it!!!!!!#or maybe promare cuz i wanna support the visions studios!#so yeah i’m an anime newb y’all can judge me on my tastes if you agree or not or give recs!#morai musings #not star wars #long post

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tvdversefanfiction · 4 years ago

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The Originals 30 Day Challenge, Done in 1 day.

I love all of these 30 day challenge pics/posts/quests but I never have the patience to do it over 30 whole days, so instead I do them in one sitting, one go.

MY TVD 30 DAY CHALLENGE HERE

Feel free to comment your own opinions about The Vampire Diaries spin-off The Originals, whether it’s your favorite show within the TVDverse like myself or whether you just love it as much as I also love the other two shows TVD and Legacies, Legacies will have its own 30 day challenge soon enough too...

Feel free to answer these too, copy, paste it, like I have and do it for yourself...

1 - If you follow this post, or read any of my TO fanfiction it will come as no surprise to anyone that I’m in love with and very obssesed with Klaus Mikaelson, he will always be my king.

2 - Rebekah Mikaelson, she’s so badass yet has this softness that makes her so compelling at the same time, I worship this queen and often wonder what this show would have looked like if she remained a main star for all of its five season run.

3 - Making me choose between the love of my life Klaus, and the icon that is Rebekah is hard...so hard but I have to go with Rebekah on the grounds that when he hurts Rebekah in any way I’m always mad like no, not my Rebekah, whereas when its the other way around I’m normally like yeah he deserved that from her...Rebekah is the fictional bestfriend of my life and Klaus is the husband, and friends always come before men - side not this very answer will later be used on record when I find myself in an asylum one day lol

4 - I’d have to go with either Marcellus or Inadu, although Marcel is beyond irritating to me throughout most of his run I can’t argue his reasons for being annoying are somewhat justifiable especially after Davina’s death in season 3 :( so I’d say I hated Inadu the most, purely because the character in itself was so wasted, so stale, and a dud to be honest...I was hoping for more with the hollow arc but I’ll get to that later on no doubt.

5 - Season 1 Episode 16, Farewell to Storyville, Season 1 in general was one of the strongest debut seasons for any shows I’ve ever watched, if not the strongest! I loved Rebekah and Klaus’ bond most out of the siblings and although Klaus spends most of the episode trying to kill her and it involves Rebekah leaving as a main character...this has got to be the juiciest exploration of their relationship - also side note young Elijah should have left young Rebekah kill Mikael, just saying...

6 - I could put the entirety of Season 5 in here, minus all the epicness of all the Klaroline scenes and Hayley’s badass death...but to pick one episode out it would have to be the finale “When the saints go marching in” because it just felt like they had spent that season killing off characters who were least likely to appear in Legacies (which pissed me off), also I wanted Klaroline to be endgame and Julie Plec’s response to not doing that because of Steroline, a ship that always felt like Caroline was second place and that queen should be always be 1st.

I did not like that Klaus and Elijah died, which reminded me visually of that Avengers scene, which made no sense as we have seen originals die before and not once did it go down like that!

And even if I could forgive them for that I was rather pissed we saw no after life, even a Elijah and Hayley dance in the afterlife would have been appreciated...

I’m also always a little bittersweet when folk from the pilot don’t show up in the last episode, would have loved to seen more of Davina in general over seasons 4 and 5. (Rant over)

7 - Try not to pick a Klaroline scene...never mind, when Caroline first appears, pinning Klaus up against the wall and saying something along the lines of try picking on someone your own size, or the swoony moment in Mystic Falls where she tells him he was never the villain in his story, or again the swoony moment when their road tripping and trying to find Hope... but non Klaroline scenes which were epic, Davina going up against Klaus with the harvest power inside of her, Lucien going upgraded original and taking them all on, Dahlia’s entire arc, the finales of 1,2, 3, and 4 and last but definitely not least kid Hope’s entire arc, what a magnificent actress Summer Fontana is, a star in the making *

8 - “ We are the strongest creatures in the world, and yet we're damaged beyond repair. We lived without hope, but we will never die. We are the definition of cursed, always and forever.” said by Rebekah Mikaelson, all of the Mikaelson’s had epic quotes, this show, and it’s predecessor TVD have so many amazing quotes <3

9 - Klaus handing baby Hope over to Rebekah, trusting her above all others, and any scenes where Klaus, Hayley, Rebekah, Elijah and Kol have with baby Hope as well as kid hope - broody moments lol

10 - Josh’s death, I had feared his death every goddamn season especially knowing Julie Plec wanted him killed in the very first season :( however after being made a regular in the finale season I had hopes for him making it out alive and perhaps showing up in Legacies in a more prominent role as a teacher for the vamp kids or something...but no that woman just had to finish off her hit...nothing breaks me more than his death! Although, reuniting with Aiden in the afterlife gives me small comfort, Aiden’s was another’s death that was so sad!

11 - Kid Hope putting people in their place like Marcel, and even Davina (who I worship), I just loved this little badass kid going about like a little queen from the get go...Danielle Rose Russell had and still has very big shoes to fill IMO

12 - Freya and Elijah condemning Davina to the ancestors, or Elijah who was supposed to love Marcel like a son ripping out Marcel’s heart. A lot of season 4 Elijah annoyed me tbh, 50% of Hayley scenes ticked me off too and Marcel was a solid 90% throughout the entire run.

13 - Hmmm....Klaus meeting his real father then killing him in order to protect Hope as he just could not risk trusting his father :( that broke me, other shocking moments when Gia died, Hayley’s first and second death...

14 - Friendship as in friends but not family? friendship within family would be Rebekah and Klaus always, friendship outside of family bonds I would definitely say either Davina and Josh or Rebekah and Hayley.

15 - Klaroline, although I put myself out here considering they only kissed once in this show...I never shipped Haylijah but never hated it, I despised Camille and the Klamille ship and always will, I enjoyed Elijah and Gia but doubt it run its course well I think, I always thought Rebekah deserved more than Marcel and still do...so I’m going with Kolvina, even though Kol killed Davina, thanks to those damn ancestors, their romance was super sweet, I loved how Kol loved her and their marriage, though briefly seen, was everything! We should have got a flashback of their wedding god damn it! But I’ll settle for them being two of the few who got happy endings...and could appear in Legacies ;) fingers crossed!

16 - I loved Marcel singing How You Like Me Now, I wish Charles Michael Davis had a few more musical numbers within this show, he’s a really talented actor, singer, director...

17 - Joseph Morgan hands down, loved him from his first scene in TVD and loved his other work in Hex and Brave New World, to name a few...

18 - Claire Holt, she’s just wonderful as Rebekah and the actress herself, she seems like such a genuine sweetheart in real life and you can really see her love for the character of Rebekah too, I also liked her other work in A Violent Separation, 47 Meters Down and no I’ve never seen H20...yet

19 - The Originals hands down, although so far TVD is in second place, with Legacies in third place but with Legacies still going I have high hopes for that climbing...all are fabulous shows in their own rights <3

20 - Okay I wouldn’t be me if I did not answer this future episode question without a link to a fanfic season 6 of mines... Origins of Magic and my alternative season 5 Bad Blood

21 - Off the top of my head? Davina and Kol teaching at Salvatore Boarding School, giving Hope some family connections that she severely lacks in Legacies and how awesome would they be as teachers? I’d also like to see a cousin whether it be Freya and Keelin’s son Nik or Rebekah and Marcel adopt a child (creature) that also ends up in Legacies. Side note - may put this in my possible fanfic ideas board...

22 - I don’t think I could claim to be most like any one individual, I’d say I was definitely a little dorky like Josh but nowhere near as adorable, I have a lot of hurt inside of me like Davina and protect my friends as much as I can, I’ve definitely got a bit of paranoia like Klaus from being screwed over many times like him and also like them it was mostly by family members, I’m definitely as curious and of a quiz like nature as Camille, love a little too easy like Rebekah and get my hear broken too often like her too, can be a little bit twistedly playful like Kol although I’ve not killed half as many people ; I’d love to one day be as elegant as Elijah, or as brave as Hayley and who would not want to be a Tribrid like Hope?

23 - How is this any different to 4? Although I’ll just answer Inadu purely because of the waste of potential and how not one single time did I give a damn about her, although I despised that vampire bitch who killed Hayley!!!

24 - I definitely relate to Klaus, Rebekah, Josh and Davina the most which is why they are my favorites no doubt.

25 - Klaus Mikaelson, any day, any time, anywhere, unless of course him and Caroline make it work I love their love more than I love my love for Klaus so I’d be happy just watching them being happy as a stalker lurking in the bushes within the back garden of their marital home - side not another statement that could be put on record for my eventful visit to the asylum..

26 - The family bonds, I love how it’s not all about romances like it is in TVD and so far Legacies, but still has romances at the same time. I love the complicated bonds between Klaus and his siblings Rebekah, Elijah, and Kol (in that order) and I love the little homemade family of Marcel with Davina and Josh (also in that order) and Marcel’s complicated father/son relationship with Klaus.

I also love how we watch Hope from being in Hayley’s womb, to a baby, toddler, child and then teenager and the powers she shows even from as young as being a baby and stopping the car she was in with Cami (even if that did save Cami’s life for a little longer) sorry not sorry we all got to hate on somebody and I did compliment her in 22 sort of lol

27 - The fact that its finale season served more like a prequel to Legacies than a fitting ending to a show I had been invested in since before it even began airing, as most fans were, we have loved these characters since their inception in TVD and it did kind of feel like Julie kind of started the finale season with a hit list in mind killing off anyone she’d think would not cameo in Legacies at some stage which I guess is why there is so much ill will from TO fans for Legacies, which I did feel for a while.

I mean I still blame Hope for Klaus and Hayley’s deaths, also Elijah for Hayley’s death and Marcel for Josh’s but I do not blame the characters have as much as I blame Plec.

28 - Season 5 lol, Season 4 although at the time I did not want it to be its end, would have served as a better ending for TO and they could have still made Legacies work without any ill will of making TO’s finale season pitch Legacies.

29 - The Hollow turning out to be Henrik, or the original witch, or anything other than what is was, also the werewolf origins should’ve have been a bit more epic like the vampires origins were.

30 - I do love Joseph Morgan and Daniel Gillies in interviews, Daniel Gillies is one of the funniest actors behind the scenes and has great bromances with Joseph, Paul Wesley and many others within the TVD verse. I also love Claire Holt’s and Phoebe Tonkin’s friendship and how that’s been a thing since they starred in H20 together (which I want to watch purely because of those two)

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movedkagen · 4 years ago

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NATSUO TODOROKI STUDY / MASTERPOST .

This is also mostly ripped from discord so if it’s choppy that’s why ---

TRIGGER WARNINGS : DOMESTIC ABUSE, CHILD ABUSE, LOSS OF A SIBLING, ANGER ISSUES, BODY PERCEPTION ISSUES.

Natsuo is loyal. Literally he loves his family so much. like between natsuo and fuyumi, fuyumi has the stronger quirk 100%. Natsuo HAS an ice quirk but he can only freeze things that fit into the palm of his hand...so all he does is make the cola nice and cold before his siblings drink it.

So Natsuo wants to be a family practice doctor and he wants to do outreach work. Pretty much his coping mechanism with being ignored and hating being home is he threw himself really hard into studies, and just did his HW all night in his room. To tune out the yelling anf the negligence. He got good enough grades where he got into University of Tokyo which is good but like basically he almost didn't go bc like.

his relationship w enji is nonexistent. He was an immediate failure in his eyes, he literally SAID enji didn't look him in the eye ever until recently....he never rly saw him or hung around him. and then like. by the time touya was starting to rly get shit / by the time he was "dead" and shouto got burned and rei got sent away natsuo was only five or so. So to Natsuo? enji was just the guy who lived in his house and ruined his life basically. he hated him. he didn't love him at all. He’s hated him since he was a small child. NATSUO WILL NEVER FORGIVE ENJI AND HAS NO DESIRE TO.

Me and Inad have discussed it but because fuyumi is the only girl, Natsuo is the true middle child. The one who was never looked at or spoken to by Enji. And FUCK ENDEAVOR STANS for saying otherwise, but natsuo ISN’T “the only child who wasn’t abused” or the one who “should be the least angry”. Negligence IS child abuse.

As a kid, Natsuo had a stutter. He acted like a baby for a long time. He was also chubby as a kid -- ate a lot to cope. He was always bigger than Touya, and it continues into adulthood --- Natsuo is now. thick / buff. He was a chubby kid growing up, but now he works out and has muscle however he still also stress eats bc premed is hard and gains like 15 pounds during the school year, then loses it during breaks. it's just the way his body is. This is relevant because Natsuo does have extremely low self esteem -- he thinks he’s very plain looking, that his body is big and awkward and ugly (I have him as growing to be 6′6″ at his full height, taller than Enji), and it all stems from Enji’s negligence. At his core, because of his father, Natsuo believes there is absolutely nothing special about him and that physically and personally he is a worthless person.

Natsuo has anger issues unfortunately (as we’ve seen) but does judo to let it out. tbh he storms out of the house a lot because he doesn’t want fuyumi to see him fucking lose it.

me and inad discussed this but but natsuo HAS put a hole in the wall before and Like he was maybe 15 when that happened. it scared the shit out of fuyumi and he felt so upset he literally like. ran away for two days and when he came back he cried rly hard and promised she would never see him lose his temper like that again, so he storms out so she doesn't see him angry. It was the summer before he started high school and as soon as he got into high school he started getting into judo and joined the club for it and that's been his outlet ever since. And whenever he storms out of the house it’s to go do that. He's ashamed of reminding her of endeavor somehow. he knows he’s got enji’s hairstyle and body type, and that contributes to why he hates his appearance so much.

The reason he never brings his S/O around his house is honestly that... he doesn’t like himself when he’s home. ppl love 2 say natsuo has the least right to be mad because enji didn't "abuse him" but don't realize negligence is abuse. it's literally classified as abuse. he was literally born thinking his dad felt he was a disappointment to the point where he didn't talk to him or let him talk to his youngest brother and it HAS an effect on him. natsuo has a lot of self perception issues, he thinks he's ugly and he panics if he doesn't do things perfectly in school and just. is very easily made to feel inferior and puts himself down. he doesn't consider himself special at all. He believes he lacks intrinsic worth as a human being.

Natsuo only went to college after his sister told him to go and do what he wanted to do…I promise you he was going to not go at all and was going to stay home with her until she told him she wanted him to go. BECAUSE natsuo doesn't rly consider enji a member of the family at all, natsuo has this goofy lil quirk where he thinks he's the "man of the house" even tho he asks fuyumi for help with basic things!!! most of the time it's funny but it's honestly just him being protective of her. And natsuo does cope with some perceptions of toxic masculinity --- he’s NOT abusive at all himself, but he’s goofy in the sense that he thinks he has to be the New man of the house, has to take care of his sister, has to never cry or show weakness, all because he’s male.

ENJI TAKES NO PART IN PAYING FOR NATSUO’S TUITION. He doesn’t even agree to go until Fuyumi insists she will use her own money to pay for it, and Natsuo works and studies because he wants to pay her back for every cent someday. Endeavor DOES NOT EVEN KNOW natsuo’s current address or which exact school he attends. natsuo wants it that way, but it’s also important to note that Enji never bothered asking.

Honestly Natsuo and Fuyumi probably argue a lot about endeavor, But that’s okay because they still love each other. Natsuo knows fuyumi puts everyone above herself and rly wants her to be happy, which is why.......frankly.....he’s glad kenta barreled into their lives. Because he’s like this is something Just For Her and I hope she likes him and it works out.

continuing on natsuo hates heroes and he hates his dad and frankly if he had a strong enough quirk he would have probably become like dabi. he really would have and he truly hates endeavor that much.

sb: so u agree with stain? natsuo: idk i just want someone to kill my dad.

Natsuo doesn't forgive endeavor, doesn't fuck with him, and blames him for everything that went wrong in his family. He honestly wants him to die! and he HATES the hero industry bc a literal monster like his father is praised and rewarded and they HELPED COVER UP TOUYA'S DEATH!!!!

and like with natsuo + touya.... time for pain. “Touya told me everything” / “I still hear his voice constantly” ... i think about those quotes always every time i think of natsuo. natsuo was the closest with touya and I truly believe that. He loved him more than anything . He really loved touya so much and he never got over losing him.

kinda like inad hcs fuyumi saw shouto in the kitchen, i think natsuo saw touya last bc the way he describes touya telling him.... natsuo is shaking when he says it like. That shit traumatized him. And he’s just so angry. He did not leave touya. They had to PRY NATSUO OFF OF HIM. Because natsuo is loyal.

like me and inad hc that fuyumi wouldn’t tell Natsuo where rei was for years because she knew even at 9 years old, he would have snuck on a bus to see her. Natsuo is so loyal to his family he loves them so much. He would have done anything for them. He wouldn’t have left Touya. He wouldn't have let touya go without him there. Not anywhere he couldn’t follow. Not even as a child.

and natsuo would NEVER be able to juxtapose that dabi isn't touya. I think the first time he saw Touya he would know but it wouldn’t be like. An instant look. He’s probably seen clips of some of the shit he’s done on tape and it’s always given him this unsettling feeling. But then he looks in his eyes...and he knows his eyes.

I always picture it like Natsuo forgetting however dangerous the surrounding is and chasing after him, he doesn’t even know why he’s running; he knows he wouldn’t stand a chance against him. But he sounds like a child again when he says “Touya?”. He sounds like the annoying, chubby little brother that followed him everywhere. And yeah, he would simply need that confirmation that Touya is alive to take his side because he knows more than fuyumi did. Simply seeing him alive again, and I think he’d know EXACTLY what Dabi wanted to do with Enji.

Dabi trying to scare Natsuo and Natsuo just “Touya cut it out talk to me” / “Touya I’m on your side” and it’s because Natsuo could never EVER see Dabi as a monster once he knows it’s Touya. I don’t think he could ever feel fear based simply on the fact that he loved him that much. Touya was his favorite sibling he followed him around like a puppy and copied everything he did.

Touya is the sibling he was closest to and i think the same in reverse since Natsuo is the one Touya vented to. I think fuyumi was probably really shocked when they were kids and Natsuo would suddenly say he hated enji. that he wished he was dead. She’d gasp and be like "Natsuo!"

But he’s HATED HIS GUTS since he was a little kid. He didn’t grow to resent him either. He basically didn’t care about him/was afraid of him when he was super super young, but the moment touya’s quirk didn’t work out and he was like what, 7-10? I’d say like 7 or 8 when shit started just Not Working. Natsuo was probably 4 or 5 when his own quirk manifested and was weak. Had this initial “why doesn’t dad like me” phase, but Touya just told him once something endeavor did to him or why his skin is starting to scar, and Natsuo instantly went from fear to hate. There was no build he simply hated him from that moment on. That’s how loyal he is!

He said he hated endeavor for the first time when he was five, but anyway i think a lot abt how natsuo like.... has the least ties w them all. That's why I say he’s a true middle child because he doesn’t have anything he’s good at that binds him to the family or makes him especially important to anyone. Like...he CARES about and loves shouto of course but i think if fuyumi weren't there natsuo wouldnt be in the picture at all. He just wouldn’t talk to them. Especially before he started talking to shouto? Absolutely. After now that he talks to him he would definitely stay to hang around him but before?

unfortunately because enji KEPT SHOUTO AWAY FROM THEM i think about how natsuo probably had what inasa felt where he saw shouto's eyes and saw endeavor and like. kept up that distance because of the trauma (tm) and i think when shouto got some friends and got out the house he tried talking to natsuo and natsuo was like "wait...me? you're...talking to me?" and like as soon as shouto started trying to talk to him he was rly receptive and was like shit i have 15 yrs of info to catch up on.

but i rly think that's their relationship bc he literally didn't even know what kinda food shouto liked until now?? but he loves himand has become instantly very protective of him and once again things that because he’s the big brother he HAS to teach him things and be his “positive figure” and frankly I think shouto feels a little thrill whenever natsuo openly shittalks their father because out of all of them natsuo IS the one who hates him the most openly.

#* HOWL » saved.#OK THIS IS THE OTHER ONE.

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batfam-big-bang · 5 years ago

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Mod Zara: what vibes do the other mods have?

VIBECHECK TIME

I spent two?? whole days on this I hope you like it (here’s a tip, you better)

(also Mod Zara sounds so formal call me zara or z please)

Lucy: Lawful evil || chaotic neutral. Smol chaos child, acts older than you when it pleases her, evil gremlin child when it pleases her, is an actual babey, always acts high (don’t fight w me on this you know i’m right), may rip your heart out if she’s in the mood, never give this child coffee she already bounces off walls enough, seems nice and quiet at first sight but once you get closer she will spam you in the middle of the night with fucking puns (i s2s loons), an Asshole but we love her for it, steals all our brain cells, probably the lovechild of Satan and God, my better half (but like isn’t everyone), has the best insults so do not mess with her, may go on a murder spree occasionally, great for if you want to trashtalk someone she has good listening skills, v anxious but don’t let that fool you, Cryptidness Is Life, will never admit it but she’s adorable, especially when she’s worried, oh yeah she gets worried a lot (mostly for me), has the second-most dirty mind after me, has the second-most dark mind after me (wow i’m finally good at things), will fuck you up if you insult/hurt any of her friends, will help you hide a dead body no questions asked

Overall vibe: chaotic af, will make friends with you no matter what, that is a threat.

Jay: True neutral || lawful evil. The teenager who seems great at first sight but look closely and you’ll see that they actually have no idea how to life. best at socializing out of all of us (either that or we’re just anxious little shits), the annoying elder sibling who you always fight with but would give up your life for, Lively with a capital L, does the dumbest things for the best reasons, somehow still alive, will argue with you over anything if she feels like it (yes this is true no i’m not removing it), says she’s a Horrible Role Model but actually has really great life advice (i can’t believe I actually complimented you without you prompting me to do so), practically Satan except dumber, has zero (0) brain cells but still smarter than all of us combined except for Shelby and sometimes Mel, lovable asshole, would die for you if she liked you enough, sometimes blocks me if i irritate her (yes i will die mad about that), Intimidating af, but once you know her you’ll see that she basically runs on caffeine and is (mostly) harmless, may hiss at you tho, will eat popcorn while you hide the body

Overall vibe: A cinnamon roll but could and probably would murder you if you get on her bad side, Not To Be Messed With, still Part Himbo.

Shelby: Neutral good || lawful neutral. silent and brooding type but probably gives like the best hugs, Responsible Adult™, actually just very tired of all shit, doesn’t bat an eye at the weird shenanigans we get up to, Calmness 3000, it’s probably all a front tbh (i know your secrets Shelbs), secretive but not on purpose, may be a secret agent or something who knows (mission impossible blasts in the background), loves us all very much, i think, once again they’re very secretive, seems sketchy at first, but like a huge sweetie, somehow always online??? (do you ever sleep wtf), above all basic human functions and needs, most Productive, like literally, jay and them do all the work while us gremlins cheer in the background. they’re like that eldest child who’s best at everything and hogs all the attention from the parents, except here they sort of are the parent, 10/10 parenting tho, would def recommend. shelby is probably the nicest out of all of us, i have never ever sworn at them and that’s saying something.only one who has a separate brain cell, still shares it with all of us, probably tired of all our shit, should have been the eldest (mel take notes). probably tired of all our shit, counters all the waves of chaos with the Shield of Peace, Sword Of Patience and an aspirin before bed. will keep you safe in their house while the cops look for you

Overall vibe: chill 24/7, always there in the background (we practically know all your spotify playlists by now), takes no shit in the nicest way possible

Mel: Neutral good || lawful evil. has no common sense at all. a life? what is that?. is somehow the eldest idek who made her that, in my opinion she should be youngest she’s adorable and a sweetie, she will ofc deny that, maybe swear at you a little. the very epitome of anxious shy ready to cry but will try and fail to whoop your ass (you know you’ll fail you’re literally 5′5 5′6), vibes with you the most, acts sane but hoo boy it’s all a lie, Boomer To An Extreme, cannot technology, calls everyone babe (not really anything to do with vibe but i love it), thinks she’s not chaotic (*camera pans to all the times she’s spammed the gc in the middle of the fucking night bouncing fic ideas off of jay and shelbs*). survives mainly on pbj sandwiches, caffeine, and validation. she’s like that disaster aunt who’s trying to get her life together and faling miserably but we won’t focus on that, said aunt is the same one who lets you have a sip of alcohol at dinner, occasionally has midlife crises even though she’s like twenty (but who am i to say that), will protect you with her life, will blush when you compliment her no matter what (it’s fun to see her flustered), no brain head empty but 24/7/365, will never do anything illegal but will support you no matter what, oh yeah she’s the most supportive too (”hey tia i killed a man” “great! have a biscuit”), tired college student who just wants to make it through life with stability of any sort, majorly pissed off with cishet white male authors and will go in an unpromted rant about them, may fight god if you ask her to, No Communication Skills but she tries her best y’all, great at pep talks and raising morale. Would lie to the police about your whereabouts in order to keep you safe.

Overall vibe: basically a cat except shows more love, must protecc at all costs, Incompetent Adult yet still the parent somehow

This was fun.

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unproduciblesmackdown · 6 years ago

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How about some crisp headcanons/scenarios for Kleinphy?

mmmMMMMMMM…

okay FIRST OF ALL right off the bat, this is like, the hill i will live and fight and die on—ppl will generally say that like, in any au where connor and jared are interacting more regularly, that they would be fighting all the time like, bickering and arguing that would escalate into insults and stuff and like. no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i refute this!!!!!!!! okay, in their one canon interaction, just connor turning around to give jared A Look is enough to offput jared. and then as soon as connor starts to escalate the situation, jared just leaves. he is a little baby. or at least wholly uninterested in pushing back or Actually trying to insult connor and etc. because jared!! is the least confrontational person in the cast!!! he doesn’t express himself directly and there’s plenty more examples of smaller, less hostile conflicts where he just backs down every time. e.g. sincerely me when he lets evan make all the final decisions and swat him on the head lol…and disappear, when he’s automatically given the less important role in tcp, and when evan cuts him off and literally pushes him back when they’re at the murphys……like he’s clearly not thrilled with any of this, but he absolutely just goes along with it. i will say to anyone’s face that jared is worse at standing up for himself than evan is!!! and anyone else in the cast!! it’s not that his being so avoidant of any real confrontation/conflict is a good thing, because like, right there, he risks being walked over and just other situations where he’s unhappy w something but won’t/can’t/doesn’t stand up for himself, even on minor points. it’s not necessarily a good thing at all!!! so like, anything with connor that looked like it was gonna be ramping up into a Real Conflict would be over in 8 seconds tops because jared would so so quickly get to the point of only wanting to bail and definitely not wanting to do anything to exacerbate the situation

also, between their One Interaction and how jared brings up the printer incident ten years later, i do have the idea that jared is kind of intimidated by connor just like, inherently. not necessarily outright afraid, but a little on edge.

so like the thing i think about jared and connor’s interactions is that they’d really be Fraught in the earliest stage of things, because connor has a tendency to interpret unknown/ambiguous motivations as “this person is deliberately antagonizing me” and jared has a tendency to tease and be sarcastic and use this kind of humor allllll theeee tiiiiiime to communicate b/c he doesn’t really want to draw on anything too obviously Real and make himself vulnerable b/c, like the rest of them, he’s scared of everybody else………like obviously this could = conflict, just like it does in canon. and i’m not trying to say it in a “and that’s why they can never connect” way, because really, any of them would have conflicts like this that have the potential to just throw it all off course (i mean canon has them all end up being Not Friends and/or dead so. yknow) and this is about NOT that

see like if they were focused on how NOT to fuck up with each other, connor would very specifically have to not lose his temper suddenly into some mostly-self-propelled blowup, because of all of them jared is least equipped to handle that. but also because connor can’t be doing that shit to Anybody—out of all of them he obviously has the most significant and urgent shit he needs to learn how to deal with. like he can’t be out there being violent in any way or threatening. that’s just some shit that applies no matter what you’re talking about re: any sort of Connor Lives situation. and then yknow, jared would have to figure out that connor doesn’t take that kind of tongue in cheek ribbing very well and it’s all going to come across as insults and provocation, and maybe like…just don’t try to use that usual brand of humor with him b/c it’s not going to have the effect you want. and, like how connor needs to learn to Not blow up at people for anyone’s sake and also his own, jared also learning how to not lean so much on that one style of communication is gonna be good for his interactions with absolutely anybody, and also gonna be good for himself. like, these things they’d really need to work on right off and very consciously re: getting along with the other would just like, really help them in major ways and affect their whole general lives positively UGH

okay that’s just that constant disclaimer / premise. now hopefully about some potential ideas and scenarios and stuff huh? though admittedly i don’t have as many as for kleinsen because a) jared and connor only interact the one time whereas jared is in love with evan for the entire musical and b) connor dies technically and c) anything asking me to be creative and original for five seconds means i just cough up blood and pass out for a while. but still!!!!!! i do like to think about connor and jared being Good Friends because i think they could be and In Love because i mean, why not think about that? and imo it’s Intriguing and I Like It

i think like, the most Difficult start they could have is if they had that first semi-inadvertent conflict that stems primarily from misunderstanding / misunderstanding / miscommunication in general, and like…..if connor was to react Particularly badly for whatever reason and be upset enough to like, really really blow up at jared, i think that with jared being as sensitive to that as he is, it would sort of like. be like no okay this has to be put on pause until and unless you can like, never do that again. like, jared just going right into “only wanting to avoid connor entirely and never engage” mode, and like, there’s this very small window where he could be convinced to not just only run away forever now if he could believe that like, there was a chance it might NOT happen again, aka connor would be trying to avoid that kind of situation from being repeated too. and it might still be real tense for a while, like there’d be times they just hit a brick wall because connor is getting mad at jared and it’s really difficult for him to kind of, recognize in himself what’s Justified Anger vs what isn’t, but if he could at least figure out ways to rein in the immediate reaction itself to where like, even things like leaving the room or just signalling that they need to both Not Say Words to each other for a while, or that sort of thing, to just make sure that he doesn’t like. go the fuck off on jared again and scare him off forever cuz it would definitely be a “fool me twice, strike three” scenario where there’s like. absolutely no room to repeat the incident cuz like, its not that anyone would expect an overnight change and for things to go perfectly just because they both want it hard enough, but it’d still be like, i need you to have learned how not to let this thing happen again. it can still be messy and not ideal and not exactly Prime Communication yet, but like, basically doing what needs to be done so that they can avoid that kind of explosive conflict again, and everything else is secondary priority. it would be really slow going and jared would be really cautious and more on guard but like, being able to see connor’s efforts would count for a lot and it would Really count for a lot to see that connor considered it worth it to really make sure that there was no repeat of that mess

it’s also possible that they do kind of have like, small interactions where they both quickly repel each other cuz jared says some shit and connor thinks he’s only trying to engage with him to be a dick, so they both just like. yknow deflect off each other and don’t really try to accomplish anything more. cuz, really, jared bails thrice in canon, and so does connor (except okay i guess The Final Bail sigh) which also counts for a lot cuz it happens in like, five minutes lol……so in a way that could work for them because they’d both rather Walk Away than deal with the other’s shit today…….like even if they’re not exactly having any particularly communicative or emotionally interactions this way, they’d still maybe slowly be getting used to each other and connor might eventually catch on that jared’s a total loser with no real leverage over him anyways and just says shit like that all the time because he’s a dumbass and thus is Likely Not A Threat…..i mean, seeing as how connor does seem to have real issues with paranoia, this isn’t exactly enough for him to suddenly decide to be pals, but like, it could at least be a slow path to letting them both settle down a bit re: each other and thus be in a better place for it if they Were to get the chance to like, actually talk about something real for ten seconds

this would all be easier if all four of the seniors were friends b/c tbh i think alana could vouch for connor to jared and evan could vouch for jared to connor…..saying some shit in terms of like “chill out, he’s not trying to ruin your life, he’s just a dumbass” etc and like, and just sort of letting them get to know each other within the four-person-group before having to do anything one-on-one and such. so that could speed things up a little and also really help in case jared and connor have any Big Misunderstandings where they then get real on edge about each other again……just to like have these third parties to not only help them settle down a bit but also potentially mediate and figure out where the problem may have initially developed lol since it’s a bit tricky do that kind of somewhat detached, not-freaked-out / defensive analysis on your own while you’re very not detached and are freaked out and defensive. it would help things along for sure in terms of smoothing out the course of the early development of their relationship and kind of letting it develop a bit faster.

but!!! even with that!! i do think that even in terms of being friends, things would develop very slowly and cautiously, especially at first. b/c they both need to develop this trust re: each other, first of all. like connor needs to be able to see jared as a friend and not someone who might turn on him, and jared is on the verge of being worried about interacting with connor and needs to be able to feel like connor isn’t going to try to hurt or threaten him or any of that kind of shit or just hate him for no reason, cuz connor’s internal leaps of reasoning about “here’s why this shit jared just said means i’m Pissed Off Now” wouldn’t necessarily make any sense to jared and he wouldn’t even necessarily know connor is going through that mental process. like in his mind he says something innocuous or something that’s basically the same as shit he’s already said forty times that connor wasn’t bothered by. ANYWAYS the point i think that The Most Likely thing would be a very deliberate, tentative slow burn into being friends, and then a whole other (but slightly less fragile and nervous) slow burn into like, ~^*`-~more than friends…-*`_~-

Having Said That lemme contradict it entirely!!! i know sometimes ppl have the hc that their relationship could stem from a friends with benefits situation, and like, i think that’s sorta plausible in terms of them both being able to construct these parameters where they know neither of them have to worry about like, how they feel about each other or whatever or about the interactions ever being relevant outside said parameters. plus the mutual insecurity that like, they don’t even HAVE to be insecure around each other because they are just That Certain that he doesn’t have emotions about this and it doesn’t even matter if he’s attracted to you b/c you just know he’s not, we’re being practical about this okay. while it’d probably overlap with the coping methods they already aren’t so great at, i don’t think it would exactly be a We’re-Only-Ever-Venting thing where they’re always dealing with each other while one or both of them is frustrated. like it’s probably sort of chill actually. like, we’ve been partnered for this project and eventually i invite you over One Time so we can finish it up, and then we both lose focus and motivation after a while and end up making out instead, and a few weeks later its like hey wanna hang out again, and it’s just a periodic and sporadic thing that happens and they’re just Whatever and Casual and then a slow understanding of each other creeps up on them, cuz they’ve got their guard down

which leads me to saying that like, i think the fact it seems so difficult for jared and connor to connect could kind of be a silver lining to really helping them connect. cuz of that letting their guard down thing. i am pretty sure neither of them would expect at all to become friends with the other. they would really really REALLY not expect to like, want to be boyfriends. i don’t exactly think it would necessarily be a sort of like, all at once out of nowhere Epiphany Moment Omg I’m In Love scenario for either of them, but like…..to even consider the concept for a second would be pretty bewildering the first time…….to start to Suspect you’re interested in this fuckin guy would be like. oh. okay then. very calm internal scream. anyways!!!

and then, see, the fact that they would be so caught off guard would be helpful. the less they use their usual On Guard modes around each other, the better. the development of their relationship would sort of seem to happen in the background to them until suddenly some newer understanding sneaks up and it’s like…………well. maybe. i guess. idk. hgghfh

like, the other day i was imagining this scenario where like, it’s 9pm on a weeknight and jared’s sitting in his room and sort of halfassing some homework while intermittently pausing to continue this slow, ongoing back and forth with connor via text. and like its not any particular meaningful conversation, they’re mostly telling each other to fuck off and telling tongue and cheek jokes and stuff and like. jared keeps rolling his eyes mostly but finally he like. sits there and looks at his phone for a minute and just thinks about the fact that he and connor are like, just texting each other for the hell of it, it’s not a “alana was asking about ___ and do you know anything about that shit” “uh..no” “ok thanks for nothing” type exchanges where it can be explained as something one of them begrudgingly has to do…..and also jared isn’t totally hating it………and he’s just like………oh my god are we like, friends???

upon reflection he realizes they may have been Actual Friends for like, months now, possibly

jared actually like, wants to ask so he can know for sure. as in like hey, so, are we friends?

except the thing is that jared cannot bring himself to directly ask connor this out of the blue, and surprisingly there’s never really a moment in any casual conversations in which it seems like it would be a natural thing to ask. so actually what he ends up doing is finding a moment in casual conversation in which he can, in passing, refer to connor as his friend.

connor doesn’t really react when this happens, and jared is actually just kind of relieved and just keeps on talking nbd. but despite connor’s lack of external reaction he is actually reacting internally and it’s sort of a huge deal for him and he didn’t really expect to care that much if jared considered him an actual friend or not but apparently he does

also i know sometimes ppl will do like past-kleinphy-connor-still-dies ideas. even though tbh i feel like these scenarios are like, aren’t canon compliant and gotta be an au b/c like, with the way it is in canon no way did jared have an at-all personal relationship with connor at any point. not even if you think “well what if he’s really good at hiding it.” but it’s definitely still kind of wild and Interesting to think of these like, possible moments in their past where they had some secret private Affair of being…something to each other, even if only for this one occasion. like, surprise, he and *i* were the secret gay high school lovers.

kind of along those lines i also had this implausible, vaguely fleshed-out au idea in my head along those lines where like…….i always think about jared doing drama dept tech / backstage shit partly for the sake of feeling like he has friends while he’s there. and i severely doubt connor ever did that kind of stuff but maybe the dept was shorthanded one time and connor was Having Some Difficulties in terms of getting in trouble w the school and sort of was assigned to join the dept for the production and help build sets or some crap as like, community service type deal instead of being suspended again or whatever, idk, connor is there. and it’s getting closer to the production so there’s some Late Evenings In The Theater and idk, you know ppl are occasionally hanging out for impromptu Truth Or Dare or Never Have I Ever or Spin The Piece Of PVC Pipe. connor happens to be involved in one such circle only because he happens to be sitting nearby fucking around on his phone and he’s having an okay day so he’s not actually involved but he’s fine with staying there while ppl do their shit and just flipping everyone off if they jokingly suggest he participates, and jared happens to wander in en route to wherever and is like yeah sure i’ll drop in for a second just to Feel Included And Accepted. let’s say they’re playing spin the pvc pipe, ironically lol, but still following the rules so what does it matter. and jared is sort of trying not to act like he’s nervous even though he’s maybe been kissed like, once or twice or maybe never and he’s pretty sure nobody wants to kiss him even ironically, and he’s not entirely sure he can handle this situation but he’s going to try. nobody’s spin lands on him but a couple times there are Same Gender kisses and jared is kind of like…….what if that happens to me……….and every time it’s a guy’s turn his heart kind of picks up and he’s not sure if this is good nervous or bad nervous but he knows the thought of it happening to him is kind of giving him a bit of a thrill. and finally it gets to him and he’s like, dying nervous inside, but he’s also telling himself he’s got to get it together enough to take his spin one damn time, and lo and behold it stops between two people in the circle but still pointed at fuckin connor murphy over there a few feet away. and everybody notices this exact fact and are like “connnnnorrrrr” and connor looks up at this and figures out the situation and he and jared make eye contact and jared is blushing like hell and frozen up but he’s also trying hard to get himself to not be a fuckin baby and like, move forward and get up and go over there and kiss him for 1.2 seconds. but then connor just deadpans like “yeah hilarious” and gets up to go hang out in the greenroom instead. and jared is sort of like. really embarrassed and actually disappointed and sort of feeling like that was an example of nobody wanting to kiss him even ironically. but he tries to play it all casual despite feeling really awkward and kind of wanting to leave now. and so then he hangs around for the next few ppl’s turns but then he kinda just leaves and it’s not like anybody tries to stop him. and he goes off and does whatever work he was gonna do, alone in some room down the hall or smthing. maybe an hour later he goes to whatever tucked-away place serves as the Vault of costumes and props and materials and etc, lo and behold again, connor murphy’s there too actually looking for something. kind of gives jared a heart attack, and then jared feels awkward again, because that’s sort of how you feel all the time when it’s just you and connor but now he’s feeling it even more so. but connor is just sort of not taking any note of him. but, because he’s been replaying the moment in his head slightly several dozen times and trying to imagine what everyone might’ve been thinking of him b/c eternal insecurity, it’s occurred to him that not only does connor possibly find him too repulsive to kiss even ironically, but maybe connor saw him Not Moving At All and thinks he was refusing to kiss connor even ironically, and he is aware that connor is also not exactly romantically successful as far as he knows and thus like. maybe insulted. and since he’s probably gonna be around connor most every day for at least a few weeks more, he sort of doesn’t want to risk giving connor a reason to have a grudge specifically against him. just in case, and stuff. and so after half a minute he sort of not-so-convincingly-casually is all “oh btw uh back earlier i didn’t like, want to not kiss you.” and connor is like “what” and jared is interally like fuck, and out loud he is like “i mean i wasnt trying not to kiss you” and connor is like “what??” and jared is dying a bit like “i mean i was gonna kiss you before you left” and connor turns and looks at him and jared looks at him back once again having a deer-in-the-headlights type response to his stress and connor’s like “okay why are you telling me this” and jared shrugs and connor’s like “did you Want to kiss me or something?” and jared is like “i kind of wanted to kiss like, fuckin somebody. i wasn’t trying to blow you off or whatever. unless i guess you didn’t want to have to kiss me.” and connor looks at him again but gives a tiny bit of a “looking you over” glance too and then shrugs and then jared is suddenly awash in gay feelings again like Oh God. and then they’re making sustained eye contact again and connor is very hard to read but also he doesn’t seem mad or disgusted and jared is having a hard time thinking of some reason this moment is happening besides that they’re both considering kissing each other right now and also he’s having a hard time thinking in general but now he’s trying to think of what ways this situation could go wrong if he tried to kiss connor rn. and after a Moment he’s like “…………..did you not want to kiss me?” and connor is all …shrug. still watching him. and jared’s like “………………….Do you wanna?” and connor shrugs, still watching him, and then connor’s all “well, do You?” and jared is sort of freaking out inside and can’t make his voice or anything work for a second but finally he manages to nod and sort of shrug and go “yeah.” and connor turns towards him and jared manages to also take a step forward and then its a bit of a blur and then they’re kissing and jared is like. very much enjoying kissing a guy. actually starting to shake a little and then connor puts a hand on the back of his head and jared is sort of having that heart attack again. and it lasts maybe ten seconds but when they pull back jared is wildly obviously extremely flustered and looking at connor like he’s waiting to see if connor might go for another kiss and that fact convinces connor to for another kiss and he retreats with him even further into the Unexplored Distant Realms of the room where they make out for a little while and, That Sure Happens

i think that one goes beyond the boundaries of “tell me your hcs” but oh well. i would never have the stamina to make it into a proper fic but i can write a wall of text, sorry about that

anyways back to the notions of kleinphy in general, speaking of proper fics, them easing towards A Dating Type Relationship would yeah be like, very slow and cautious, small steps, carefully observing each other along the way as they get more used to each other. a slowburn of slowburns that i could probably never properly write b/c what’s pacing? but yeah

and between that and how they’d have to figure out how not to freak each other out, they’d basically both learn that the other is really sensitive and hugely insecure. what i’m saying is that by the time they feel comfortable enough and trust each other enough to Be Together, they are both very aware of this, and thus are like. really gentle with each other actually. to the point of caution.

jared is already sort of used to being close to someone who might have these Incapacitating Problems and breakdowns and etc in that he’s sort of had to learn like, the lore on evan’s official and unofficial coping mechanisms and strategies so he can Be Helpful if he needs to and like. he’s nervous to just up and ask connor all about this kind of stuff but he tries really hard to pick up on anything he can and also try to apply what he already knows wrt evan’s brand of anxiety. usually when he thinks he needs to he kind of just asks “what do you need me to do rn” because he honestly like. can’t think of what else he should do or say and really doesn’t want to get it wrong b/c he knows that with evan, sometimes instinctive would-be comforting measures are actually fully counterproductive so like. he just asks. but it’s different than it is with evan and tbh connor’s gonna be struggling with Acting Out more than evan does and like, that’s new to jared, so it takes some calibration from both of them to figure out how to like, do the best they can by each other, and sometimes it’s definitely a challenge and they have to figure out how to make sure they’re on the same page. like maybe there’s some point where they’re hanging out together but like, suddenly Something Gets To Connor and his mood shifts and jared’s seeing it happen and being like, what would help, do you wanna talk about it rn, should i hold you or not, and connor’s trying to figure it out and is like actually i think i should be alone for a while. and jared’s like……oh, like, should i go…? and connor’s like yeah i think maybe b/c yeah anything else is probably gonna be too much and i don’t want to like, get mad. and jared’s like no yeah okay yeah. and he does like, understand, but he also sort of feels bad. and he’s still feeling bad / self-conscious the next day and connor notices b/c he’s already paying attention to see if he made jared feel bad. and he’s asking about that and jared’s saying like, no seriously i do get it i know you don’t hate me but like, okay, yeah, i kind of felt a little bad. and they kind of figure out how maybe to avoid that like, ok so next time what if we have a phone call later? and jared’s like yeah, that kind of thing would be nice, but jsyk like…………..i could stay with you whenever you want someone to be with you, even if you’re having a really shit time. like even if you need to do something weird to calm down cuz i’m not gonna care if its weird. like if you need me to leave its cool. but if i can stay and help i’d be cool with that. but yeah a phone call lol

((searching for my Restraint…))

like jared doesn’t love feeling like he can’t be like, beneficial to connor. and he knows connor’s kinda obviously private and stuff and there’s a lot of shit he doesn’t show to everybody and jared like…wants to know and see and be there for these things and he wants to feel like he can be important enough and liked enough for that. connor isn’t quite jumping at the chance all the time cuz he doesn’t want jared to be disappointed or decide he’s not worth the effort and etc

they’re Secretly Dating also like…..connor doesn’t want to deal w the rest of his family knowing and honestly jared doesn’t want to deal with them either and is fine with his own parents not knowing, thanks. also jared doesn’t tell evan for ages b/c he doesn’t know how tf to bring it up

also in any connor lives au i only want all four seniors getting to be friends and in any au jared and alana deserve to be friends and really like, connor would’ve made friends with alana more easily than he would w anyone else and felt comfortable around her sooner. and back before getting together, while connor was really playing it safe and trying to give utterly zero indication of Developing Feelings, jared thought he was getting the world’s most-impossibly-unrequited crush and becoming increasingly distressed over how to deal with this and worried that maybe connor doesn’t like him all that much as friends anyways, he might’ve checked in once or twice with alana to see if connor had mentioned being bothered by him at lunch today or the like. she’s like “he hasn’t mentioned you today” and jared’s like :) (’:

slowburn amidst slowburn, it takes a long long time before they kiss. connor initiates it, like, some not-at-all-romantic-or-remarkable situation like idk they’re in the damn school one evening as everyone’s shown up in support of an extracurricular event of alana’s and it’s been a pretty decent and chill time and jared and connor were having some casual conversation and jared’s all okay but i super have to pee and so connor just followed him along to the bathroom and waited outside but when jared showed up again connor was like hey cmere a minute and leads him into the nearest classroom and jared is thoroughly nonplussed and then connor is quiet for a moment and jared kind of gets the idea that he should just be quiet too and wait for whatever this is, and what it is is that connor turns to stand right in front of him and jared heroically does not reflexively move away and connor puts a hand on jared’s face and jared only short circuits a bit and connor asks if he can kiss him and jared is like Yeah. and so connor does, and it’s real soft and simple and like six seconds in duration, and then jared is like hang on i have to sit down at one of these desks for a second, b/c it’s not like he had zero warning but this was still A Lot and he is sort of literally lightheaded. connor sits down at an adjacent desk and they talk a little and then kiss again and jared holds on to connor’s arms above the elbow and connor tells jared his glasses are cute and jared kind of wants to cry

speaking of, after they’ve started dating there’s just some accidental occasion where they’re hanging out and jared’s just sort of feeling bad that day for no especial reason and connor makes some passing deadpan comment about something he does and it’s not like the way he says it is exactly pointed or frustrated but it just so happens to hit jared right in the Deeply Insecure b/c maybe it’s not even something he was aware of about himself, but now that the observation’s been made he’s like, oh my god, and kinda feels like shit real fast and totally starts crying like a super cool and chill guy. and connor’s like, oh my god. and jared’s like no, fuck, i’m not even that upset, i’m just like, stupid today, don’t panic i’m just like yeah, give me like two minutes here and it won’t even be a problem hang on. and he does kind of get it together fairly quickly because it really is mostly Spilling Over Stress and connor tries to be nice and it’s really actually okay but the next chance he gets connor talks to evan just to gain some insider knowledge on stuff that jared likes because he really wants to do something extra nice for him cuz like. well even if i didn’t actually deal an awful emotional blow to you, if you were having a crap day i’d like to know how to help you feel better anyways so

The Concept of connor wearing one of jared’s layers…………….always good but with their difference in fashion sense here it’s especially good

the thing is that as they get closer and more familiar and comfortable with each other and secure in their relationship, they kind of both ease back into like, this softer and playful version of the shit they originally had to back off from… like jared can tease connor, he likes to do it in a chill and/or flirty way now though, and connor can sort of Put On an act of being annoyed / unimpressed by jared. and they both know that not only is it not gonna push the other away but they’ll actually enjoy it now

jared sometimes goofs around and Gets Silly cuz he likes to make connor laugh (despite himself)

like he really really likes it when he can get connor to laugh. which sometimes means just a grudging smile that jared fully understands is the equivalent of a laugh. loves it

they get even more comfortable with each other and the loving insults come out. it mostly happens when they’re around other ppl and thus gonna refer to each other in third person, like “this fuckin dipshit” and “like the dumb bastard supreme he is” and “connor’s whole haunted sentient dishtowel vibe” and etc and it’s absolute affection at this point

screeching halt to backtrack and mention prior-to-canon-kleinphy au’s in which connor still dies…..where they sort of had *something* at some point but sort of very unspoken and fleeting and hard to pin down and by senior year it’s definitely firmly in their past but…..oofeth

god where are we right now. this is so long. i’ve got less solid ideas than ever for these two and said ideas are really all over the place and just whatever and augh

oh this is just an idea for any connor lives au in general but like let connor’s not-coping ass get some form of treatment that helps him and evan can vouch for therapy/medication and in doing so kind of inadvertently feel better about it by Validating Himself and just like, really they could all use some damn therapy, but god knows connor especially, help him out some eh? b/c even if he’s got more motivation and additional positive relationships and crap it’s still gonna be wildly difficult for him and it’d be nice if he had some professional assistance

connor likes when jared spoons him. he’ll read like that while jared takes a freakin nap

i’ve said so much but i feel like i’m missing so much

connor actually does like things that are like, kinda bright and fun actually. he’s got fairly varied tastes and interests. he’s just also being edgy. what i’m saying is he likes Experiencing any of jared’s many playlists which definitely always include bops

there’s some Antics occasion where they slip up and say they both fall asleep in jared’s bed and nobody wakes up twenty minutes later and instead they wake up in the actual morning and it was a school night and like, both jared’s parents are home, who still don’t know jared’s dating anyone at all, and they can’t wait as long as they need before trying to sneak connor out, so they sort of have to just wing it and connor only puts on socks and carries his shoes and jared keeps going ahead of him to scope it out and they make it to jared’s car and it’s fine actually but jared was super miserably stressed the whole time and connor wasn’t having the time of his life either

connor likes to draw but he’s not like, especially good at it. he just likes to doodle and jared likes to keep them

one day jared has this roll of stickers he got from somewhere like all “great job!” and “100%!” type ones and he gives them to connor for whatever minor reason he can think of, but he likes to do it kind of unpredictably so it’ll still be a bit of a surprise. like it’s lunchtime and connor lets jared have one of his chicken tenders and eight minutes later jared digs around in his backpack and leans over and puts “super star!” on connor’s shirt under his hoodie

for a long time jared’s worried that it’ll turn out he doesn’t have it in him to handle connor’s worst kinds of days and for a good while connor just keeps Requesting Solitude at such times and jared practices telling himself that this doesn’t mean connor doesn’t like him enough and can helpfully have this supported by the fact that connor still talks to him via calls or texts as soon as he’s in a conversational sort of place again. but eventually jared Is there on a very bad day and he actually finds that like…….he’s way far away from the place he used to be when his main association with connor was “im still freaked out about that printer”…..like idk he just finds him a lot easier to Get and Read now and really feels this motivation to support him and connor’s trying on his own end too and it’s all really not that dramatic and jared getting to be there with him isn’t some transformative thing but after a few hours connor’s telling him thank you i’m glad you’re here and jared’s like don’t even mention it but he’s really glad and it’s a nice confidence boost to know he’s like, not useless or pathetic or [insult he levels at himself sometimes]

jared will elaborately go in to kiss connor on the cheek with the sole intent of connor pushing him away via a hand against his face

jared has his own pillow in connor’s closet cuz he likes using two so that gets broken out whenever he’s sleeping over which is rarely because it’s a lot easier to get the kleinman house to yourself, but connor keeps it on hand just in case

jared and connor both come to learn that jared’s pretty fond of giving hugs. and that connor really likes to hold hands. the latter will happen kind of sporadically though. jared lets connor initiate it every time and what’ll happen is connor will lightly and wordlessly touch jared’s forearm and jared will take his hand w/o missing a beat

just thought of for some reason, halloween. who knows how it happens to him but connor knows at least a few days ahead of time that he’s gonna be an angel and it sucks he can’t like, have pyrotechnics or whatever, is what he tells jared. and jared’s like oh connor the couples costume potential is just so potent…..and they still haven’t even told anyone they’re dating but connor’s like what are you gonna be dressed as yourself and rightfully assume ppl will think you’re the devil and jared’s like wow is that the best you can do then, ok. but jared does a nametag costume wherein he is jacob

speaking of-ish, their First Time is directly thanks to jared jokingly trying to seduce connor and connor for once playing along with just as little seriousness but like 18 seconds later it was like oh, hmm. this is real now. babe

speaking of humorous seduction @merry-the-cookie ’s art of jared leaning in with his foot way up on a wall beside connor’s waist all “fancy seeing you here” is now forever a kleinphy hc

i’ve said so much yet i feel like i’ve actually offered so little

oh well it’s not like this is my definitive and comprehensive post on the matter, just a very long one. god knows please continue to @ me about kleinphy at any time

#i can't actually be creative and original!!!!! oh well. i can brainstorm off other ppls ideas tho obviously #long post #kleinphy #deh #Anonymous #in all of this i've never offered up any fun ''they deliberately or accidentally inform ppl they're together'' ideas....see my first tag #it'd take me like half an hour alone to think up something rl general #i mean i have ideas but so vague it's hardly worth pretending it's an idea

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ladyculebras · 6 years ago

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8x06 spoilers

1. Dany truly deserved better. I am and have always been on board for villian protag Dany (and I mean, I called that shit in ACOK), and ngl, villain Dany is the only way I can even like her--if they played her straight as a hero, she's a gross white savior of a trope and I can't DEAL with that, I didn't engage with Dany as a character for years because of that.

But she was barely even in this ep and I feel like we lost her pov and instead we were looking at her from everyone's else perspective...I love villian Dany and I can see Dany deciding to conquer other places as well, like, that's all she's rly good at at the end of the day but I just...didn't really like this. I wish we got like at least a whole season to let full dark, no stars Dany really breathe.

i wanted them to linger more on the tragedy of Dany, finally getting her goal but over a thousand corpses and at the cost of her own morals. This is the goal she's fought for since the start of the series. I think we deserved more than what we got. Dany's story is a tragedy but it needs to be tragic from her perspective too. Maybe this is just what I want and not what's necessary the best narrative choice but I really wanted a moment of Dany legit either sadness or remorse before deciding this is what she's going to do and this is what she's going to be from now on. Some mourning for the person she thought she wanted to be.

ASOIAF is supposed to be about morally gray people making morally gray decisions, people who aren't really bad, making terrible decisions and being at a cross purpose. I think ideally I wanted was for Dany to try ruling for a bit before realizing this isn't actually what she really wants, and/or then try to execute Sansa for treason and that's why Jon kills her. I rather have Jon torn between his sister-cousin and his aunt-lover for legit reasons rather than just trying to rush Dany through her villian arc.

I don't think the writers hate Dany though....I think they did rly poorly by her and by Emilia Clarke but this was a product of them speeding through to the end of the show. I think D&D just rly rly wanted to make their star wars movie and rushed everything here even though they were offered more episodes and money and seasons, so they can just be done with this ten year project. Everyone's characterizations really suffered this season, though I would argue the writing has been bad for YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAARS and people just noticed when they were not getting the ending they wanted, but whatever whatever

2. man I rly hate how half this ep is just ~~~~reasonable men talking about what to do with Dany. Even if Dany does deserve to die for what she's done, just.the optics. ugh.

Jon killing Dany is so...thanks, I hate it! I mean any time a dude has to kill a lady and the focus is on how sad he is for having to kill her I just. I'm tired. I don't care!

3. that said, I've loved Jon for a long time and I can't help but be glad he's North of the wall once again. Tbh this is my ideal ending for Jon, because I never wanted him to be part of Southern politics, he never wanted that and lbr he's not built for that, and him with all the widlings at the end legit made me weepy.

4. Also, wow I really really relate to Jon's conflict avoidance

5. Man, Jon fully expected Drogon to kill him and was gonna let him do it, he was rly willing to die there next to Dany for what he did and I don't...understand why Dorgon didn't kill him. HE KILLED YOUR MOM! MURDER HIM! Is Drogon smart enough to realize the iron throne killed Dany and is the cause all these problems, not Jon. WHAT. I don't understand!

6. I am fully on board with king bran tbh, LONG MAY HE TROLL. There's gonna be several future meetings where Bran just wargs in the middle of it because he's bored.

7. I can't believe Tyrion survived this whole mess.

8. I can't believe BRONN survive, AND NOW HE'S LORD OF HIGHGARDEN, the cockroach of Westeros, truly. Olenna is spinning in her grave.

9. I am truly fucking happy that at least one person of color survived this whole mess. what a low fucking bar. Go to naath and retire, grey worm, you've earned it.

10. SANSA IS QUEEN OF THE NORTH. God when I was in this fandom years ago, everyone kept saying it over and over and it was just a thing we said, I never actually THOUGHT I'D LIVE TO SEE IT. LONG MAY SHE REIGN. I have endured so much shit being a Sansa stan and HERE WE ARE WINNING. I'm so so so happy.

11. Is the Red Keep ALREADY rebuilt? Where is the council meeting at the end?

12. Man, we are really never going to see Meera again, are we?

13. JON/TORMUND IS ENDGAME I CALLED IT WEEKS AGO

idk.half this ep felt like a JOKE. I can't actually take anything seriously enough to be mad about it. I haven't taken this show seriously in years. I do like the ending and how open ended it is--like its kinda perf for all kinds of fanfic. Arya can always go home again! Sansa can visit Jon and visa versa. The shenanigans at King's Landing continue. You can even argue Dany isn't even dead, Drogon flew her away and dropped her in the Lazarus pit. It's just kinda nice for me, as a fanfic reader and writer, because there's so much room for more now after the fact, instead of any kind of finality of ending.

#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #got spoilers #game of thrones spoilers #game of thrones #idk i dont rly wanna be in the main tags I just #have thoughts

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ramblingshit · 6 years ago

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Fright Night - 2011 - 2/5

we start , very, very high. its ominous to begin, the dreamworks opening dark and spooky and slow. scrawled font glides across dark stormy clouds and we're over a small square, isolated suburb. a house is on sale. that's the Charmed font.

oh my god what is that david tennant what the fuck was not expecting that.okay so this is a modern Fright Night. and david tennant sis peter vincent. okay what a jump scare just happened the dog is scared, and this girl is dead and he's covered in blood and holy shit its the senator. wow the bed was bloody where his dad was scrambling for the gun hidden beneath the mattress that the boy finds. oh his dads body is sliding away and what the fuck is that im scared what the hell holy shit. ohh cool title card. nice symmetry in the birds eye. just a happy, normal small neighbourhood, everyone is diverse and happy and the kids are playing outside. holy shit its that dead guy poor ol mate.oh its hereditary mum. they got a chill equal relationship just chatting like friends more than parent adn child. and the mum's intelligent and assertive and smart and a real estate agent. this is very very different from the original fright night. is it really the same movie? is it oh its the girl from 28 weeks later nice she's hot and eyy pumped up kicks is playing damn. I'm pretty sure they're both like 25 and playing as oh holy shit its like zac efron's brother. trumping all over stereotype. what the hell its the weird super bad creepy guy comedian dude 'Brewster' it's the weird cackling kid. they've got relationship issues they're both geeks but brewster got hot and with the hot girl and rose through the 'social ranks' and they had to stop being friends. weird kid is threatening to show all his new friends embarrassing stuff from the past. oh my fucking god oh my god colin farrell. holy shit. oh my god. and damn she is Amy I'm forgetting everything cause its so different. he's charming and fucking hot and buff with like a paled face.being all charming and neighbourly. wife beater and silver necklace and damn the way he bit that apple. what are they doing here crawling through the doggy door who's adam. outta nowhere weird kid tells him jerry's a vampire, like a 'by the way' situation where are they going why does he have a cross and stake? they just added a stock door opening noise. they're telling the realisations of hm being a vampire without actually showing any of it and the weirdo kid is the one interested and telling brewster that jerrys a vampire like what first he's not even met him he hasn't been involved or around him at all and now he's adamantly trying to argue that he is a vampire?? in the original brewster was obsessed and found out quick to the start all by himself and half the trouble was trying to convince everyone else too. now one of his friends is trying to convince him?? what?? and they're mentioning Twilight and weird kid is saying how he's not broody or whatever like show us what his personality is like why are you saying this it's like this long ass dialogue chunk in the middle of a completely irrelevant situation, all about Jerry. fucking weird man what the fuck. we've seen the guy once. he's got evidence? why are they in this house? why is this happening? this was the Charley show - his journey from fear to sorting Jerry out and his tension with the guy the weird kid was basically comedic effect now he's premature exposition guy? and he's the one who thought of peter vincent cause it showed him watching him all the time but now its the weird kid convincing him and now they're having relationship problems and brewster fkn pushed him damn son use your words wow he's a fucking asshole like die dude the fuck. oh damn what the fuck the bully just grabbed him off his bike fr riding down his street like its his turf what the hell there's like four streets in this suburb and now they're fighting who wrote this why bother calling it fright night its a whole nother (fkn messy shit) story he's literally chasing him over the fence like he wants to kill him damn this isn't bullying fuck. what is this movie? oooooh jerry is hottttt i love me a murdererous manly man. weird kid is in big trouble. oh my god. oh my god did they get him to play fake grindelwald because of his role in this. damn he's turning weird kid and the cross falls dramatically from his hand. ohh he's a fuckin dick to his friend and now he's feelin all guilty and worried and reminiscing about the time he wasn't an asshole to his friend. wow we're not even half an hour in and half the original movie is gone and replaced by whatever high school drama movie this is.he walked into weird kid's room and didn't turn the light on? yeah alright. what the fuck. why is peter vincent fkn that 'sexy' emo magician man who was popular -Chris Angel Mindfreak. he found a laptop with evidence that jerry's a vampire videos on it. and here's Jerry and what's happening ahaha he's not gonna invite him in and its physically uncomfortable standing at the door he's literally stuck at the door and it's really really obvious. damn that was cool though passing the beer through the doorway and the communication in their eyes and now he's perving on his mum is this acting intentional? like he looked really unsure what to do with himself was that in character or?? he's looking around all paranoid he's perving on all the girls he's threatening him really obviously i can't tell if i like it more than the smooth suave chilling conversation that was driving charley mad at the start of the other one. jerry telling him to 'manage' the women in his life cause its his job to keep them safe. now they're doing the distracted disinterested in Amy play and she's the one coming onto him strong and what are we gonna see this. this is literally worse acting than the screaming kid in the first one it's like halfhearted. now the movie's settling in for like a spookier, much darker version of the nah nevermind its like a padded retelling. there's no billy in this one, just Jerry - who's gonna cover him during the day? original was a squad effort movie - bunch of kids and an old man going up against a vampire. not anymore its just this obviously mid 20s guy sneaking around in a dark house to quiet, eerie music. wait he's in Jerry's house? oh cause Jerry drove off. ooh Jerry's got awesome creepy office with spooky drawings on the walls why is this place so dark goddamn turn on the lightswitch. he's got costumes for hunting damn that's cool. and here he returns uh oh run charley run. try escape the vampire now that you're in his lair. a secret door to like a jail block in the wall? what he's letting himself be close in? what is he doing how did Jerry whip this up?jumpscare lol lame it's Doris. you telling me he's gonna lockpick the lock okay he's never done it before but okay. god he's hot. the swooning blond in the arms of a vampire. it's like hella horrific oh my god she just shushed Charley where he hid in the other room. drinks from her all orgasmic and tosses her back in the room. damn he looks good with a bloodstained mouth lickinn his lips and shit. good luck picking with a bobby pin you're hilarious holy fuck she's tiny, like a limp ragdoll. ew why is he watching skanky girls on TV. tryna tell me he's watching the TV so loud that he can't hear they panting and crying. yeah he can he's outta the chair - there's no reflection and he's like crying damn this is tense. such a nice house. strutting around, drinking beer, vaguely amused at everything. he just caught an apple. it's like he knows something amusing no one else does. but does he actually kno-- oh my god yeah he does that's awesome. oh holy fucking shit holy shit holy fucking shit she was a vampire she fucking exploded in the sunlight. his jumper s covered in her ash that's messed, Jerry stood inside listening and laughing to himself as he bit into the apple. now he's out here being the one looking up peter vincent - that entire start was completely pointless they should've cut out all of the weird kid stuff. now he's snubbing his girlfriend too this is how it should have all begun here comes david tennant. what the hell he's pulling a secret swipe identity thing to try get in to see vincent and vincent is a gross slimeball of a david tennant why are all these men slimy he's pretending to be a reporter she's walking around in a bra, vincent is an expert on vampires and the lot - not just using what he learned from doing his show and now she's using 'little girl' as a derogatory term for vincent. okay not the most attractive bod and i hate tattoos tbh at this point its true. god this whole thing is so edgy and wow okay here we go his hair is so much betterokay damn holy shit. it was the hair the hair was fucking me up okay holy damn all his facial hair is fake. and thank god his eyebrow piercing - wait nevermind all that 'expert' stuff was bulll? or is he mucking around? okay no its bull he isn't an expert. i can't believe how much hair affects someone. oh and his tattoo are right as well. damn he sounds schizo and vincent is fkn cold and that is some bad cgi and trying to be so dramatic its just a filter over the shot. oh and here's zac efrons brother and eternal grunge guy. ohh he's got creepy long nails and oh damn eating them and there's the blood oh fuck why is that hot im so disturbed. he's shaving stakes and its mum who confronts him and he's awwkard about it and now they've referenced 'Dark Shadows' as well as Twilight. these highschoolers are so serious and mature tryna talk to each other and here's Jerry at the door.this is a game to him but she's sticking up for her son and Jerry thinks its awesome or is it just oh damn he's coming back with a shovel and a power saw?? what's he doing??? where's he going oh my god what's he doing the girls are slowly realising that he might be right what is he digging up.flinging huge chunks of earth around. oh uh oh oh FUCK THAT:s GAS HOLY SHIT are you serious Jerry no holy daaaaaaamn he's blowing up their house I love it ahahaha 'dont need an invitation if there's no house' that is hilarious oh my god as if they're going to get out with what really he's gonna oh wait he''s gonna take the dirt bike what the fuck he just threw the bike at them what is happening is this Michael bay. and now he's ramming them fuck he really wants them dead damn oh ahahah they have a tank of a car driving getting hit by a bike, smashing through a vampire and his big ass car. is he-- he's under the car that's amazing yeah okay like they survived that too oh he just lifted up the car oh what the fuck he looks like that shark guy from batman oh no why does he look like that who made him look like a shark he's eating that guy blood squirting, he's very animalistic like twitchy and shit too black eyes eats a guy, morphs into something evil blood stained mouth cars all fucked up and he turns around 'hey' he greeted jovially, the girls run away - the mum just leaves her son to face off a vampire? yeah, okay. - and he calls 'catch you later!' damn some of this is gold and other bits are trash but so far they're evening each other out. he's oh damn he grabbed the cross and it lit on fire and he's got charley and was gonna stake him but mum popped up and shanked him through the shoulder with one of her real estate signs that's so lame, but he's screeching and flinging himself around making growling noises and now mum's fainted and hit her head and jerry's twitching out with a oh okay he hit him with his car again. jerry's all kinds of fucked but he heals up fine soon enough. vincent isn't charming; there's too much sex and money and cynical and assholey and its grotesque compared to the teenageriness of the original. and now mum's out for the count at the hospital lol what's happening. he's shitting on the idea to call the police that's hilarious he wouldn't stop calling them in the first. i dunno i keep comparing them because these are the bits i 100% liked better in the other one. now he's talking about weird kid who disappeared ages ago. he's a loser - she likes him cause he's different; she's the popular girl who didn't want an ass bully to date. vincent's a drunk on top of everything. but he does know his stuff about vampires. there's different species different breeds - Jerry's a tribal snacker who keeps his victims alive for days and oh damn its weird kid he's a black eyed vampire and he's mad Jerry got him Vincents in his panic room the bra girl is dead weird kids arms off and now Jerry's coming and weird kid's twitching out and he looks like a wolf shark and they're being vulgar again he's hunting them down this is a serious relationship drama issue. if they're strong enough to like bend metal how did grabbing him hard around the neck not immediately crush it. they're fighting - like what; charley just took a deep clawing across the chest they're blocking and slashing and every ones smashing stuff and he just got weird kid at the neck and uh oh she's in trouble but she's got a gun but he's barely flinching oh what. how did she know that was holy water the cup was up too high for her to see there was even any water in it. dude they're strong when its plot convenient - how do these guys know how to fight with weapons he's just so chill with that slash across the chest. ahaha what the fuck she's like urging him to kill him aha he stabbed him all drama and she's in survivor mode like fuck outta the way everyone oh good he's pretty again. i'm disappointed no jerry/amy stuff though tbh she's spicy, he thinks this is a great time. he's just hunting them and its nightclub time are they gonna do the jerry amy thing no he grabbed her by the throat oh damn oh okay no that was pretty hot he's got a slash on his chest and the bouncers just grabbing it and he doesn't react fuck sake 0 that was pretty cool if not exactly what i wanted - he properly vampired her: blood on his lips he kissed her and it drugged her enough to take her neck in the middle of the club. and now a vampire killed vincent's parents and that's why he's a drunk but how'd he become a magician what's that got to do with anything. damn highschooler dropping moral truthbombs that immediately make adults change their mind immediately and wanna help him. how does that car still drive. this is so gay like he is overreacting he's dressed to go to war - i forgot he burned their house down he's got a fucking crossbow and he's dressed in like military shit and he's swinging the crossbow around like he's in the military, did they tell him to take this serious or like he shoulda been an awkward stumbling kid oh what the damn they'res a secret like basement damn he just broke a hip how is all of this under his house didn't just move in???he switched on the first light in the whole movie and it barely lit anything up so lame. so extra oh damn that tiddy damn nice just dodged an arrow oh fo real really is he the vampire who killed vincent's parents are you serious that's so lame. and now Amy's what the fuck why is there like an entire institution beneath this house what is this. oh its the tribe?? they live in the dirt whoop her eyes are black but vincent's got a dramatic black leather jacket and a stake gun that just fucked up and he's just gonna stake her straight up they barely gave her time for her scary wide face he just stabbed her and ran and now she's eating her own blood and whoop vincent's being eatenoh really how did he know there was sunlight up there aren't we in the base meant isn't this place made of cement. damn he's hot with his shirt open. he just hissed at the beam of sunlight. even his fingernail burns oh that's cool he's in teh shadow and charleys in the sun beams as he taunts him about Amy and vincent's turning ahaha and they're gonna wait til the sun goes down and in the meantime he's gonna like fuck amy in front of charley ahaha nice drinking bloods like sex. oh yeah okay what he's gonna what he's expecting to go up in flames what the fuck he'd oh no okay what the fuck as if. as the fuck if. first of all, charley is human and a crazed vampire is not and are you joking me that charley could survive being thrown around plus he's fucking on fire that should have destroyed him by now fucking burned to a crisp oh im so disappointed and okay yea being a vampire was just dark spirits? and now everyones free to die of their wounds aha jesus. his clothes would have seared into his skin, his goggles would have melted but no, completely unscathed. so lame. oh that was such a slow awkward dialogue. weird like one liner jokes throughout are we in vegas? oh nice they're fucking i really don't care i don't wanna see these 25 year olds why do we care what happens now Jerry's dead. jesus that was bad. please im so upset. oh well sometimes 1980s camp horror is better than cheap rushed or at least badly edited modern ones. disappointing man.

#anton yelchin #imogen poots #colin farrell #horror #comedy #horror-comedy #rambles #rambingshit #shit #movies #fright night #2011 #commentary #review

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cassatine · 6 years ago

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well that’s done. yesterday’s drunken game of thrones ramblings under cut. i had a lot of feels actually.

book talk and where-was-the-magical-plot and problematique aspects aside -- it’s pacing and execution i have issues with. that and internal consistency; like i wouldn’t mind the whole distances-are-meaningless aspect if it’d been assumed from the first season, but it wasn’t so it’s just annoying.

and everything could have gone better with more development. eve, just stretching seasons 7 & 8 to ten episodes would have been enough with better writing, but as it is season 7 already really felt like we were hitting fast forward(who am i kidding it started before that, and this season is even worse -- and this is another thing that would have worked if it’d been like that from the start, but it wasn’t. the show’s just sprinting to the end with barely any groundwork laid out, all to preserve The Twists

theon dying was pretty standard as far as redemption arcs go really -- tbh i expected more deaths during the battle for the dawn like jorah mormont dying was Sad but not that surprising i thought he was done for as soon as he relinquished longclaw because there wasn’t really anything left for him to do beyond die gloriously after that -- and lyanna mormont was lovely and all but she was like a tertiary character not even secondary and too cool to live perfect for an impactful but meaningless as far as plot goes kinda death -- and dolorous edd he was like jorah mormont a hanger-on, worst he was jon’s friend, and jon and dany’s friend must either die or leave (oh tormund) or break (oh grey worm) because they are too much too big too mythical they must be lonely they can’t share their burdens so edd dies and jorah dies and tormund leaves and grey worm breaks and there’s only the starks, hard as winter, and they care not for dragons and oh this could be so very heartbreaking, love and family and duty and destiny.

jon not killing the night king and arya doing it instead could have done with more foreshadowing but it’s not like he wasn’t instrumental to the resistance against teh undead, and i can’t get behind all the but-what-about-his-lineage talk; as far as i’m concerned the whole point is it matters shit all, jon snow wouldn't care he wasn’t the one to kill the night king u guys, just let him disappear north of the wall let him be with ghost let him take a long long nap and heal, and don’t put his ass on the IT, if we gonna have fire and blood then burn the ugly chair along with king’s landing and the last tyrant, burn the corrupted old world let the new one be born from the ashes. daenery’s last child is the revolution and the terror all wrapped in one. the streets ran red with blood, only one more bloody birthing bed, one more dead mother.

missandei -- well for better but mostly for worst the essosi characters were never destined to be more than the background of dany’s arc and/or canon fodder and that sucks but there it is, missandei too was expendable, and too close to daenerys, too much of a tie to humanity. she had to go so dany could lose it because missandei was an anchor missandei was love missandei remembered when no one in westeros does, in westeros dany’s the daughter of the mad king not the breaker of chains, even though she sacrificed so much, she only led her people and her children to death in a strange strange land that doesn’t want her and how that must hurt how that must burn. missandei died so dany could lose it, so that everything would have turned to ashes in her mouth already, so that it would be oh so much easier to burn down.

everything jonerys is greek tragedy level bar the execution, or maybe it’s really emulating aristophanes idk, i mean let it be fear i almost have goosebumps. almost, cause i get it’s all about shock effect nowadays but daenerys’ fall could have done with a lot more character development (among a fuckload of other things). neither the scourging of the shire/war heroes too damaged to enjoy the fruits of their labor or the ‘hero too far gone’ motifs are anything new, and after all daenerys suffered, going all fire and blood is fucking understandable. but people can argue all they want about how it was foreshadowed, it still wasn’t developed. in season seven she went from breaking the wheel to mah birthright but it just. happened. and so did her fall, and any amount of ominous music and villainous framing doesn’t make up for actual character development gdi. it all deserved a lot more time. varys’ loss of faith in her deserved more time too, i mean dude was fine serving under aerys and *now* he gets the poison out? why varys why. his rejection of dany’s is westeros’ rejection of her, but it’s westeros’ refusal to let go of the game of thrones too. varys had to burn, because varys is the old world, for all his Good Ruler shtick he’s all about the game -- he is the game, the player who can’t stop playing. and so he burns.

and tyrion, well tyrion’s like jon really, torn between family and duty and what he wants, the human heart in conflict and all that jazz. and the tables have turned, once he was the one in a dungeon and jaime helped him flee and now he wants to return the favour (it’s like poetry it rhymes). he even wants to save his sister the things we do for love, and tyrion’s ready to do what his golden, kingslayer of a brother did too, put thousands of innocents before his own life, before his ruler, and this is the stuff of tragedy. he wants to believe in his leviathan, the last leviathan, but he’s also got to face one of the oldest questions in the world. the one about ends and means.

jaime -- well jaime shoulda stayed with brienne, chillin’ in winterfell, but the show never really committed to him letting go of cersei, it’s just weird it all came down to a ceiling, but if i close my eyes and look sideways i can see it, for all her flaws he loves cersei and brienne, brienne’s everything he doesn’t deserve and she’s life, and jaime lannister has had a death wish for a while now. he saw redemption and he gave it the finger, and that’s a very jaime thing to do.

and cersei basically won the pr battle. unfuckinbelievable. she should have gone laughing about it. sandor got to kill ungregor with fire because fuck you, that’s why. euron i have nothing good to say about, i’m trying there’s just nothing he’s too much of a downgrade from the books and that’s the tea.

and arya -- arya deathkiller, arya dawnbringer, arya was everything this season. not today she said to death, and not today she said to vengeance, and that -- arya turning her back on vengeance could have been such a strong moment. one beautiful, shiny statement in the midst of so much bleakness. not today syrio forel told her long ago, and not today sandor tells her now, and this is it, she’s come full circle after clawing her way out of the dark, she’s arya stark and she’s going home. let me dream. only nymeria’s missing (let them find each other again).

tl;dr. the bones were good enough, but the execution was bleh, which is nothing new. also, some a+ dragon fire in ep 5. the pyromaniac in me appreciated.

#got #spoilers #here be word vomit #in which i take what i want to take from the show and no more i guess

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urwarriorangel · 7 years ago

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subconscious mistakes (sweet pea au)

plot: sweet pea’s gone from childhood best friend to stranger. the only times you see him are when you have to patch him up. this session is particularly long and overdue.

w: angsty as fuckkkkk, language, slight fluff, slight smutty mentions but not really (!!!no gifs are mine!!!)

a/n: hi hi hi! i’ve only just met sweet pea (as i’m now catching up on riverdale) but tbh i’m already head over heels for his dumbass. he’s so damn cute. and also everyone who writes for him is so talented like??? wow bitch i’m thirsting and i haven’t gotten to know him that well. anywayyyyy pls enjoy this and lmk what you think!

When you were younger, Sweet Pea would come to you to play. Nowadays, he’d come when he needing patching up. Just that. Your friendship stretched thin, as you were putting yourself through school and Sweet Pea was fighting to keep the Serpents afloat.

He’d come to you every few nights, cuts and bruises adorning his arms, legs, face, all along him. Every time you’d try to talk to him about it, he’d shut you out. Last time he was here, he all but yelled at you. You cried after he left: for him, for yourself, for your lost friendship. Unbeknownst to you, he heard you. He heard your insecurities, your sobs, your worries. He hated himself for speaking to you the way he did, for coming to you with no answers and still expecting your help. He told himself he’d stop coming by, he couldn’t hurt you again. So why is he standing at your door nearly three weeks later, worse than before and more desperate than ever to see you, to feel your nimble fingers work over his wounds.

You’re getting ready to head out, unable to lock yourself up any longer and kill yourself with worry. You just want to grab a bottle of wine so you can come back and drink by yourself, but even the few minutes to the grocery store will calm your mind. What you don’t expect to see when you open your door is Sweet Pea, barely standing upright on the other side. Your eyes widen and words get caught in your throat.

“Sweet Pea?” You whisper, fighting to keep your breath slow so as not to overwhelm him. He looks horrible. He’s got cuts and bruises on every bit of open skin and the clothed sections have blood seeping through fabric.

“Y/N?” Sweet croaks out, eyes barely open as he leans against your doorway. “I’m sorry. I told myself I wouldn’t come back here.”

“Wh-what? Why would you say that?” You whisper, biting your lip as you move forward to grab ahold of Sweet Pea.

“N-no,” he shakes his head and coughs, blood drips out of his mouth all along your doorframe. “I don’t deserve you.”

“Sweetie, please,” you reach over and wrap one of his arms over your shoulder, ignoring his disapproval. You pull him inside, quickly locking the door before walking him to your bathroom.

“I don’t deserve you. I’m serious,” he’s now even more out of it, his head foggy and eyes barely taking in your blurry figure. “I’m sorry I’ve been an ass to you. I don’t want you to think I hate you.”

“I don’t think you--”

“I heard you,” his voice takes on a painful tone, tears gathering in his eyes as he feels himself beginning to pass out. “I-I heard you last week. Crying,” he grunts, fighting to keep himself awake for one more sentence. “I just want to say sorry. If anything-if I don’t wake up,” he whispers, and you shake your head, willing him to shut up. “No, I need to say this… pl-please,” you look up at him, terrified and unable to keep your emotions at bay. “You’re one of the most important people in my life, angel. I’m so-I’m so sorry I didn’t show you,” he places his bloody lips over your forehead, going limp seconds after.

“Sweet! Not on my fucking watch! No!” You shake your head, quickly sitting him down in the tub and checking his pulse.

“Okay, so you’re alive, and…” you stick a finger under his nose and sigh. “And you’re breathing. Thank god,” you wipe the tears you didn’t realize made their way down your face and make quick work of cutting off his clothes. You soak a towel in cold water and gently rub his face with it, doing your best to wake him up. That doesn’t quite work, so you fill a bucket with cold water and bring it next to you.

“Sweets, come on,” you wipe your wet nose on the sleeve of your sweater, focusing solely on waking up your former best friend. “Please wake up. Please please please,” you splash his face with the icy water one, twice, three times. “Sweet Pea, PLEASE!” Fourth time’s the charm.

Sweet Pea sits up, gasping. He grabs your arm tightly, not aware of where he is for a few seconds. He breathes loudly, grunting in pain and eyes wide as it slowly hits him where he is.

“Sweets, it’s me. It’s me. You’re okay, you’re-oh my god, you’re okay,” you laugh softly, tears somehow once again making their way down your face as you manage to ignore the throbbing pain in your arm from Sweet Pea’s death grip.

“Y/N?” He looks at you, eyes blinking slowly and you’re scared he’s going to pass out again.

“It’s me. Can you do me two favours, Sweet Pea? Hm?” You smile at him and he just watches you, still unsure of his surroundings.

“It’s Y/N. I’m going to need you to first let go of my arm. I’m going to need both hands to help you out, okay?” He nods and immediately lets go of your arm. You can’t quite feel your arm for a few seconds after and it scares you, but you try not to show it.

“Can you also stay awake for me? I’m going to fix you up a bit, but you have to stay awake for that part, alright?” You shake your arm around a bit, slowly regaining feeling in it as you try to get an answer from a very worn out Sweet Pea. You turn around and grab some medical tools and supplies, gathering everything you need to fix him up. “Darling you have a concussion and I need you to stay awake. Okay?”

“Where did my clothes go?” Sweet lets out a low cough, hoping to hide his pain.

“I cut them off because I need to stitch you up. I just need you to stay up for now, okay? You’re going to be okay, but please stay awake for a bit. I can’t give you any pain medication for the time being, but I’ll give you something to bite down on, okay?” You don’t hear any sort of response so you finally turn around, only to find Sweet Pea glaring at you. “What-what’s wrong?”

“Leave me, look after yourself,” he scoffs, shaking his head and looking straight ahead.

“What are you talking about?” You furrow your brows, setting everything on the floor and sitting on the ledge next to the grumpy.

“You have blood on your forehead, princess. What the hell happened to you?”

“What?” You think for a second and remember that the blood is there from Sweet Pea kissing you. But if he doesn’t remember, then maybe you won’t tell him. “Oh, it’s not mine. I’ll worry about it after I’m done with you.”

Sweet Pea rolls his eyes, anger flooding his system at the fact that even in a slightly unconscious state, his mind brought him here.

“You can be mad at whatever you want, I don’t care. Just bite down on this and stay awake,” you whisper and hand him a folded piece of fabric, enough for him to bite down on and then some.

You wait for him to bite down before cleaning him up. Once you start, however, Pea is in an even worse mood than before. He curses and yells and slams his fist against the wall. Each stitch was a mission, each alcohol pad just as annoying for you as it was painful to him. When you’re finally done, Pea is a sweaty mess. He’s got bandages everywhere and as much as you want him to bathe, you figure it’s best that he wait.

“Stand up, please,” you wipe your forehead with the back of your hand, slightly smearing the blood from earlier.

“Seriously, what the hell happened to your forehead?” Sweet Pea grunts out and slowly stands, wanting to get this over with as fast as possible.

“You kissed my forehead earlier. You thought you were going to die,” you wet another towel and hold it up between you and Sweets, not wanting to get into it right now. “I’m going to give you a towel bath really quickly. You can take an actual shower sometime within the next couple of days.”

“What-I can. I can do it myself, that’s okay,” he holds his hand out and you roll your eyes, growing tired of his act.

“Listen to me. I don’t care what you think you can or can’t do. I don’t care that you secretly don’t hate me or whatever. All I care about right now is fixing you up. Okay? You can argue with me or yell at me or whatever afterwards. Got it?” You raise a brow and Sweet Pea visibly gulps.

“Yes ma’am.”

“Good,” you gently run the towel across his front before wetting another one and cleaning his back. You know that he’s hurt, that he’s angry, but holy fuck is Sweet Pea an incredibly beautiful man: those broad shoulders, those pouty lips, the absolute size of him. It’s so hard to maintain your composure in his presence. So you hold off on cleaning his lower half for as long as you can.

“Would you like to sit down now or do you want to remain standing?” You look up at Sweet Pea, a soft look in his eyes as he watches you clean him up.

“I’ll sit down,” he clears his throat, eyes quickly going back to stone cold.

You nod, letting him get situated as you spend more time than necessary grabbing a new towel. You take a deep breath and turn around, slowly leaning over to run a towel over Sweet’s massive thighs. You’re careful not to cross any lines, keeping your touch light and respectful. Little do you know, that’s killing Sweet Pea more than he’d ever admit. He’s watching you just barely touch him, just barely out of reach.

“I think that’s enough,” Sweet growls out and you nod, eyes wide as you stand up and take a step away.

“Here. Finish up. I’ll be back in no more than five minutes with a change of clothes for you. I’m keeping you awake for another hour and then you can sleep. Okay?”

He nods, fighting to keep his emotions, his lust at bay. You give him a nod in return before cleaning up your supplies and heading out the door.

“Y/N, wait,” you turn around, quickly checking to see if he was okay.

“Is everything alright?”

“Yeah,” he wets his hand a bit and reaches it towards your forehead, wiping the blood off with a swipe of his large hand. “You just missed a bit of my blood.”

“Thanks, Pea,” you smile softly and turn around, heading to your bedroom. You change as fast as you can, leaving behind your booger sweater in exchange for a pair of shorts and a large t-shirt.

Sweet Pea would always come to you with dirty, ripped clothes, so you figured you’d buy a few extra sets of men’s pajamas and shirts (asides from your own collection) just in case he ever needed some. And here you are. You grab him a pair of pajama pants and a t-shirt you hoped would fit him and make your way to the bathroom.

“Ready or not, here I come,” you walk into the bathroom and are met with a relaxed, naked Sweet Pea. “Sweet!” Your eyes go wide and you hold the clothes in front him as you fight to keep your eyes on his face, his massive dick obviously distracting the fuck out of you. God damn. You try to catch your breath before speaking out again. “What is-why are you naked, Sweet Pea?”

“I cleaned myself up and my briefs were dirty,” he shrugs casually, remaining unaffected.

“Alright, well. I have some extra clothes but no extra briefs or boxers, but here,” you hand him the clothes and turn around, facing away from him. “Hurry up and change.”

You and Sweet were inseparable all throughout childhood, everyone (including you) thought you two would end up together. But as you got older, that fantasy faded away and while everyone was upset about it, no one quite new how you felt about it. He’d always have your heart, through the pain, the anger, the--

“Changed,” you hear a grunt and turn around, holy hell is Sweet Pea a sight for sore eyes. Bruised, cut, bloodied, and still looking incredibly scrumptious. “Yeah, I’m not much of a shirt guy, and besides, I can’t quite get it over my head.”

“It’s, it’s okay,” you shake your head and look down, unable to meet Sweet’s eyes.

He watches you, unable to look away. You walk over to him and wrap one of his arms over your shoulder, still avoiding his piercing gaze.

“Come on, big guy. You need some sleep,” you walk him over to your bedroom and tuck him into your bed. “I’m going to grab a bottle of water and some Tylenol for you, okay? I’ll be right back.”

Sweet Pea lays down, fighting off sleep as he waits for you.

“Here,” you sit at the edge of your bed and hand him a couple pills and a bottle of water. “Take this.”

He does as you ask, wincing as he swallows it all down.

“What happened? Is there something in your throat?” You sit up, pushing his hair out of his face as you look at him worriedly.

“No,” he smiles softly at your reaction. “My throat just hurts a bit.”

“You’ve been stabbed, punched, and sliced, and you’re here wincing over a sore throat?” You give him a smile and sigh softly, your fingers still resting against his forehead. “Well, um, now that you’ve taken your medicine, it’s time to rest. You can sleep, but I’ll be waking you up every few hours just to y’know, make sure you’re still alive and all.”

“Thanks, won’t you, uh, won’t you be sleeping?” He gives you a worried look and you shrug, avoiding Sweet Pea.

“I’ll sleep later. You need to get some rest for now. I’ll be right,” you get off the bed and pull a chair, placing it on the bedside. “Right here.”

“Gonna watch me sleep, huh?” He raises a brow at you, a small smirk on his face as your cheeks grow red.

“Don’t flatter yourself, Sweetie. I’ve got better things to do,” you wink at him and pull out a book, letting the bit of light streaming through the open door help you out.

“Your glasses are crooked,” Pea smiles at you, growing more sleepy by the second. He watches you straighten out your round glasses, balancing them perfectly on your nose. He watches the way the light hits you at just the right angle, creating a halo around you as though you’re the most beautiful angel sent down just for him. He watches the way you cross your legs over one another, bottom lip between your teeth while your eyes skim across the pages of your book. There’s so many things he wants to say, but he settles on the following: “You look like a sexy librarian. I’d hit it.”

“Sweet Pea, what--?” You look up to respond to him properly, only for him to be passed out. You shake your head, begging your heart to calm down. He’s out of it, that all. He’s not actually into you.

Throughout the night, you check up on him. You wake up a very grumpy Sweet Pea every three hours, making sure he’s alive. About an hour before the third time, you realize there’s no way you can stay awake without some caffeine. So you leave Sweet’s bedside to make yourself an extra strong pot of coffee.

You rub your eyes, yawning as you enter the kitchen. All your senses are off, so you don’t hear Sweet Pea waking up seconds after you leave him. You don’t hear him following you into the kitchen.

So when you start brewing the coffee and you feel someone standing behind you, you’re caught off guard. You grab the closest weapon you can find (a knife) and turn around to fight off a potential attacker.

“Whoa, it’s just me,” Sweet Pea’s tired eyes widen a bit as he notices the knife you’ve got so close to his throat. “It’s me.”

“Shit, Sweets,” you shake your head, setting the knife down on the counter next to you. “You scared the crap out of me.”

“Clearly,” he chuckles softly, his voice husky as he rubs his eyes, adjusting to the bit of light seeping through the windows.

“I was just tired, I didn’t think I’d make it for another few hours, so I’m making coffee. How are you feeling?” You lift a hand and press it against his forehead, Sweet’s heart warms at the action and his defenses flare up.

“I’m feeling a lot better, thanks to you. I’ll be out of your hair now,” he takes a step back and you grab his arm, stopping any further moment.

“Oh Sweets you’ve got another thing coming for you if you think I’m letting you out of my sight for another 36 hours,” he raises a brow at you and you mirror his actions. “Do you want me to list off all the things wrong with you at the moment?”

“Do you want me to list all the things wrong with you? Was last time not enough for you?” He smirks, face hardening as his self-hatred comes out yet again.

“Give me your worst. You’re getting out of this house over my dead body,” you glare at him, your eyes hardening as he thinks of his next move. “So unless you kill me, you’re stuck here.”

“Y/N,” he grits out, a hand quickly moving up and tightening around your throat. “Don’t tempt me.”

“Sweets,” you give him a smirk, the grip around your throat doing nothing but arousing you. “Don’t start something you can’t finish.”

His eyes darken as he realizes the effect he has on you, grip tightening around your neck and your eyes soon matching his, half-lidded and angry.

“You’re hurt, try again when it’s a fair fight,” you whisper gruffly, smirk still on your lips as Sweet Pea can’t get his eyes off of you. “Now if you’re not going to actually go through and kill me, I’d suggest removing your hand from around my throat. You’ve already given me one bruise.”

“What?” His hand immediately moves, eyes widening at your stone cold gaze.

“Here,” you raise your right arm, one clear purple handprint along your forearm.

“When the hell did that happen?” Sweet’s brows are furrowed fingers in fists as he looks at you. “After you woke up in my bathtub. You didn’t know what was happening.”

“Fucking hell,” he looks like the bruise is eating at his insides, so you just shrug and do your best to downplay it.

“It looks worse than it is, don’t worry.”

An alarm goes off behind you and you let out a breath of relief.

“Coffee’s ready, which means I will be, too,” you turn your back to Sweet Pea, expecting him to keep arguing but you hear nothing. “Sweets?” You turn around and see him with a sullen look on your face. “What is it now?”

“I hurt you. I physically hurt you,” he shakes his head, moving to punch the wall, but you stand in front of him, catching his fist in both your hands. “What the hell are you thinking?”

“Making my job easier. One less piece of you to bandage,” you give him a playful smile and hold his fist as he looks at you incredulously.

“I could have hurt you. Again.”

“Don’t beat yourself up over this,” you shrug a bit and look at him. “It doesn’t hurt that bad.”

“Really?” He grabs your bruised arm with his free hand and you hold your breath, not willing to give him the satisfaction.

“It’s fine.”

“How bad does it hurt? I’m barely holding it,” now he’s really worried.

“It doesn’t hurt too bad. You just, you just have a strong grip,” you gulp as he tightens his hold on you just a tad, not enough to squeeze you just enough to study your arm.

“Your arm is swollen. You might need to go to the doctor, Y/N.”

“Not happening, Sweets,” you shake your head, eyes wide as soon as the suggestion leaves his mouth. “I’ll take care of it myself.”

“Fuck, I did this,” he whispers to himself, twisting your arm a bit before you let out a quiet scream. “What? What is it?”

“I lied. It hurts.”

His eyes widen as he notices the unshed tears in yours. You don’t notice them until he curses under his breath and tries to take a step back, but you’ve still got a hold on his fist.

“You’re not leaving, we’ve gone over this.”

“Damn it, Y/N you’ve got this hero complex and I’m tired of you fulfilling it with me. You’ve got this odd fascination with fixing me and using that to boost your damn ego,” Sweet Pea pulls his hand out of your touch, words filled with venom and eyes filled with pain and you’ve had enough of it.

“Look, dumbass. I’m tired of you using me as your punching bag,” you grit out, walking forward and pushing him back. “I’m tired of you yelling at me every time I try to take care of you, every time I ask for a small inkling of whatever friendship we used to have. You used to be my best fucking friend. You meant everything to me. Everything, Sweet Pea. And then one day you just stopped coming in. You stopped smiling. You stopped checking in to see if I was okay. You didn’t come to my parents’ funeral. You didn’t come to see me after the Ghoulies jumped me. It’s like I was dead to you,” you glare at him, full on sobbing at this point. “You didn’t care about me until I could be of use to you. You didn’t care about me until you thought you were dying. You scare the crap out of me every time you’re here. I’m scared I’m gonna lose the person that once meant everything to me. I’m scared I’m going to lose you. Even now, I’m scared of losing you. I know you hate me. I get it. But I’m not letting you fucking go. So go ahead. Say any horrible thing about me you can think of. Tell me you wish I was dead, whatever. Torture the fuck out of me. I don’t care. You’re not fucking leaving.”

You wipe your tears with the backs of your hands, growing tired and out of breath.

“Just… you can leave in 36 hours. I’m keeping an eye on you until your concussion hours are over and then it’s up to you what you want to do.

And so 36 hours pass without a word between the two of you, each too tired and too hurt to find the words. Once his time is up, Sweet Pea is ready to walk out that door. He swears he is. He swears he’s never coming back. But he’s tired of the mistakes. He’s tired of the pain. He’s tired of his own lies. So he shuts the door just as quickly as he opens it and runs to your room, panting as he stops a few feet away from you.

“What is it?” You sniffle, thinking this might be the last time you get to see him.

“Y/N, I,” Sweet Pea whispers, taking in your tired face and soft voice, hating himself for putting you through this and not helping you through this. He shakes his head a bit, slow tears gathering in his eyes as he tries to get some words out. He bites his lip, kneeling on the floor right in front of you with his head down and shoulders shaking. “I’m so sorry, Y/N. So so sorry.”

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calliecat93 · 6 years ago

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RWBY V6 CH6 Review: Alone in the Woods

Have you ever felt terrified of an episode? Well, that’s a silly question! We’re watching RWBY! Of course we have! But man this may be the most worried about what’s going to happen that I’ve been for a long while. I could say that about the whole volume so far tbf, but MAN have been concerned. So after the outright uncomfortable atmosphere that the last episode presented, what does this one have in store for us? Lets find out.

Overview

Night has come, and our heroes aren't doing great. WBY looks outright ready to pass out as they sit infront of the fire as Ruby checks in on Qrow, whose mood is no better. The good news is that the storm is clearing up and all should be clear by morning. Ruby however is more concerned about if Qrow is doing okay, especially since she sees that he's found a bottle of alcohol. But Qrow shrugs it off, telling her to get everyone to sleep and that he'll wake them up in the morning. During this, Maria is reading the owners journals and as with all the other places, the Brunswick Farm owners were people trying to make a life for themselves, but they didn't make it. Everyone goes to bed... well except Maria who refuses to follow Qrow's orders. Maria is such a blessing.

Morning soon arrives, Ruby being awakened when she hears a bottle that Qrow had shatter. She realizes that they overslept and goes to get up her uncle... who now has a couple more bottles than eh previously had. She isn't happy about this. She looks outright... frustrated tbh. She can't shake him awake so, clearly mad, she simply tosses a bottle at the wall and that wakes Qrow up. It's... an interesting reaction. IDK any alcoholics or had family or friends who became alcoholics, an Thank God for it. But this felt... real. Lie this is how it is when someone you care about is too deep in their alcoholism. Ruby's clearly seen this before, as V5 also hinted. Only this time instead of being annoyed,s he's frustrated and tired of it. But as Qrow comes to, she calms down and hugs him, telling him that he can talk to her or Yang if anything is wrong. Qrow again just brushes it off, wanting to get out of the place. It's such a small, but impactful scene that really amps up the concern for Qrow.

The group gets ready to connect the wagon (I know there's a name for those things but I can't thin of it) to Yang's bike and get out, though all of them are clearly tired. It's not made any better when Qrow's bad luck hits and causes a flat tire. This seems to be the last straw for him as he goes off in a huff. Ruby seems to be the only one not delirious aside form Maria, saying that they can find a spare. But Yang isn't keen on it, pointing out their bad luck. Crashes, storms, monsters, it just looks like something doesn't want them to get to Atlas. It feels like no matter what, they always have to fight in order to pull through. When Ruby says that this is what they signed up for, Oscar makes a very strong point. They signed up to save the world, not to delay the inevitable.

Weiss brings back up the point that she brought up last time, why are they even going to Atlas? Ruby is again shocked that this is even a consideration, but Yang and Blake agree. The Relics may be in vaults currently, so why not just leave the lamp where they are? It could take her who knows how long ti find it if they just drop it down the well. I'd argue that since the Grimm re attracted to them, it wouldn't be too long, but then again she hasn't found the Beacon Relic, so... and even then,t hat's not the point. It's pretty clear that all that the others want to do is just give up on this whole thing and be done with it. Their eyes are lifeless. Their talk is in complete monotone. They look outright lifeless as they tell Ruby to just drop the Relic, all of them tired...

Throughout this, Ruby just looks outright horrified at what she's hearing... but soon she starts to think about this. She walks towards the well, also admitting that she herself is also tired. She takes off the Relic, holding it above the well with trembling hands. Her eyes too look lifeless and her expression emotionless... before she lets out a sigh. She slowly pulls back her hand, seeming to decide that no matter how tired she is, she can't just abandon the Relic until it's safe in Atlas. Unfortunately, she gets startled by a pair of glowing red eyes and that is enough to snap her out of her tired state... but also drop the Relic. She panics, even as the others say that it's fine and that her exhaustion is making her see things. Qrow starts to have Oscar work to fix the tire, but Ruby finally realizes that something is wrong and puts her foot down. She angrily refuses to go anywhere without the Relic. The girls, while still emotionless, agree to go down with her as Qrow angrily goes back into the house, ordering Oscar to fix the tire.

As the girls go through the caverns below, Maria continues to read through the journals. As she reads on, there is clear tension as the girls turn off their Scroll lights to find the lamp glow. Ruby outright even gets Crescent Rose out. SH finally finds the glow of the lamp and runs to grab it... as Maria stumbles upon a page titled The Apathy. One that clearly startles her. Why? Well when Ruby gets the Relic, she also finds the source of the glowing eyes... a horde of Grimm. But not like an that we've seen before. These look humanoid, kinda like the rider part of the Nuckalavee, and... it is creepy. Really, REALLY creepy. Ruby screams as she runs out, which snaps the other three out of their trances. Thy get ready to fight... but their weapons suddenly feel heavy and they once again start feeling tired.

Maria appears, telling them that they have to run. They do so, The Apathy giving chase. They are slow, heck it feels a LOT like a zombie horde. Considering their skeleton-like designs, I imagine that it was intentional. It doesn't help that throughout, all the girls keep feeling the same exhausted feeling. They finally make it into the same cellar that was locked before, but the feeling finally get the better of them. Only Ruby and Maria seem to have any kind of will left and worst, Blake is the farthest back and seems to resign herself to being killed as the Grimm close in. Ruby tries to crawl over to her, and the scene is just... creepy. In her state, Blake already looks lie she's dead. Motionless, wide but empty eyed, her weapon discarded as the horde start to close in on her. Poor Ruby can't get over to her and the others are in no state to help, so all that she can do is scream out Blake's name... and that is enough to activate her eyes for a brief moment. It kills a couple of the Grimm and again breaks everyone out of their daze. Ruby gets Blake and all that they have to do now is get out.

Unfortunately if you recall, the cellar is locked. Yang gets ready to go and break it open... but The Apathy still has plenty of numbers as they again cast their spell. Everyone but Maria goes down, Yang outright panicking ad she screams no while just steps away from the door. But Maria seems to realize something as she crawls over to Ruby. She asks her what her eye color is, to which Ruby replies silver. This makes Maria outright happy as she asks Ruby if she has a family and loved ones. Why? She tells her to focus on the way that they make her feel To focus those feelings as she speaks of how life is a beautiful thing. How life is precious. And how it must be protected. With all of that in mind, Ruby regains her resolve, her eyes flashing. She gets back up and this time, without and provicaiton from trauma or fear, unleashes her Silver Eyes power.

The eyes kill the Grimm, allowing everyone to regain their will. Yang breaks open the door and they all find themselves in the bar where Qrow unsurprisingly is. He's clearly drunken himself into a stupor however, grouchy and seeming detached form everything going on. The objective now is to get out of there as Maria, Yang, ad Blake run outside to where Oscar has fixed the tire. But Weiss isn't ready to go yet. She grabs several alcohol bottles and shatter them at the cellar door. The Apathy start to emerge... and Weiss sets everything ablaze. She and Ruby drag Qrow out, who argues and fights back... until he finally sees the burning Grimm. He's shocked into silence seeming to realize how badly he let himself go, as everyone loads up. Yang drives them all away form the Farm, which continues to burn...

Maria reveals what caused the farms downfall. They came upon financial hardships so hoping to save costs on hiring a Huntsman, the owner went and captured two of The Apathy. He locked them into the cellar, hoping that their influence would keep everyone calm and therefore the negative emotions wouldn't draw any further Grimm in. No Grimm, no Huntsmen needed. But unfortunately, the rest of the horde seeked out their own and their presence soon sucked out all of the residents wills to live. Maria just seems sad as she realizes all of this, throwing the book into the snow. Weiss and Yang apologize for how they acted, resolving to not give up until the Relic is safe in Atlas. Maria feels guilty for not realizing what was happening sooner having never seen a settlement die like Brunswick did.

Ruby however has her own questions. She realizes that Maria knows quite a lot about the Grimm an asks how. But that's not all. She remembers how Maria knew exactly what to do in order to get Ruby to release her eyes power. That's right guys, Ruby is finally asking about the Silver Eyes. She ass how Maria knew about this. Maria answers her question, and he gives the answer that we had all been waiting for since this volume began. Yes my friends, our assumptions have finally been confirmed. Maria was indeed a Silver Eyed Warrior.

Review

Damn man, just... DAMN. Okay, we have quite a bit to talk about. So lets keep the scary part out of the way, and then we'll get to the part I REALLY want to talk about.

This episode didn't go the route that I was expecting. I thought that it was going to be some kind of dream Grimm or a Headless Horseman Grimm. I did NOT expect Zombie Horde Grimm. I also thought that this would be some kind of nightmare episode, but nope! And I'm not complaining, in hindsight that would require a LOOOT of time. Having the cast give into apathy and slowly lose their resolve to continue the fight And even the will to live? That is more horrifying then any nightmare could be, especially since none of them even seed aware of it until Ruby snapped out of it. The Apathy may very well be the most terrifying Grimm in the show, They aren't as vicious as say a Beowulf or Ursa, or even as powerful. But they kill you by simply draining your will power, and as this episode demonstrated, that is more lethal than any Grimm attack so far could ever be.

Because of the apathy, the darkest thoughts of the cast really come out. Qrow becomes more drunk than usual and as I already said, it's pretty uncomfortable and realistic. Especially at the end where he's just full out angry and detached, getting angry at Weiss when she breaks the bottles. The look of horror on his face when he finally sees the Grimm and realizes just how badly he let himself slip is... it's shocking. Yang wants to outright quit after all their bad luck and the recent revelations. Weiss gets the idea in everyone's heads after thinking about it last chapter, and this time doesn't snap out of it. Oscar points out that all that they are doing is delaying their inevitable demise since Salem can't die. Everyone is questioning why they should continue the fight at this rate. Even Ruby even if just briefly, gives in and nearly discards the Relic, showing that even she has her limits.

The entire episode is very creepy and outright depressing. The girls emotionless eyes did NOT help. There was no life int hem, or even in their voices. There was just... nothing. They all almost died because of the Grimm making them not care anymore. And all of this happened because one guy wanted to save money. IDK if he did it out of desperation, greed or both but because of it, everyone died. It's a pitiful situation regardless of the motive. I felt like Maria did, just exasperated. It really further demonstrates how hopeless it seems to be for those outside the Kingdoms. Like what we saw with the girls? Imagine that with a small group of people. Imagine that with a whole city. It's a terrifying. Apathy can be a very dangerous thing, for both those who receive it and those who feel it. IDK if I can ever watch RvB, a show that has tons of it, the same way again... God probably none of them would survive The Apathy... well maybe Caboose would. Grif would be a goner though, although maybe already being apathetic would make him immune or... and I'm getting off track XD Sorry!

So yeah creepy as Hell. The atmosphere and acing were just right. It still had some light moments, like Maria refusing to go to bed and both Blake and Oscar being too tired to make food despite wanting it. That is such a mood. But overall the atmosphere was an uncomfortable as last week, only with plenty of fear for our heroes lives sprinkled in. Very, very well done.

But lets get to the real star of this episode: Ruby. In the past, I expressed how I felt that she got the shaft VERY badly in V5. Clearly, CRWBY is fixing that. Throughout these past six chapters, Ruby has been such an amazing character. Still optimistic and good-intention but she's showing much more of her development and growth. She's stepped up as a leader and is keeping alert. She's questioning things and thinking for herself, but still doing her best to take care of her team. She's frustrated at Qrow and upset about the revelations about Ozpin, but she's not letting them control her. She's outright trying her best to get Qrow to open up infact. She's the only one who gave a damn about Oscar and tried to comfort him, even if Qrow shot her efforts down. And in this episode? Despite The Apathy's effects on her, she refuses to give up. Even as she holds the Relic over the well, her hands are trembling in doubt. She was pulling it away from the well, deciding to keep fighting and go to Atlas because it is the right thing to do. But she also put her foot down, showing frustration with Qrow and REFUSING to leave without the Relic despite everyone around her not caring.

Then we have the climax. First, her attempt to save Blake. Weiss and Yang seem to just give up and even Blake resigns herself to death. But Ruby, despite being weighed down, still tries her damnest to save her teammate. And then when she herself is finally brought down, Maria is able to give her the exact encouragement that she needed. Maria got her to think about the happiness and love that her family and friends give her. That life is a precious, beautiful thing. She signed up for this to save lives and make the world better in any way that she can. That is what motivates her. That is why she is where she is. And it is what gave her the strength to break free and use her powers of her own will. And finally at the end, she FINALLY asks about the eyes. Sure it's not to Ozpin, but it IS to someone who clearly knows and can give her at least some kind of answer.

Maria s exactly the kind of character that Ruby NEEDS to help her along. Maria is a sassy old lady, but also wise, knowledgeable, and also seems to care about saving other lives. She seemed just sad when reading about what happened to the farm. Infact that was where her focus was, finding out what happened that cost so many their lives. It seems like, to me, the Silver Eye powers are fulled by the desire to protect and live. It is fulled by positive emotions, which make sense since the Grimm are fueled by negative emotion. It's hwy Maria got on the girls in Chapter for spewing negativity, It's why she's been so far overall very positive, even though clearly SOMETHING happened that cost her her eyes. She is the wise, but kindly person that Ruby currently needs. Ozpin's shadiness and current broken state can't do that right now. Maria is such a welcome addition to the cast, and so far her inclusion has been so good and looks to be leading to even greater things. I frekain' love her.

Going back to Ruby though.. this is what I have been wanting form her since Volume 3. It feels like the multiple timelines and other characters needing the focus is why Ruby got shafted so badly. There was clearly so much going on that something had to be put on pause, and Ruby ended up being the one to get it. This has everything that I have been wanting to see from her. Her growth as a leader, her encouraging nature in spite of all the bad luck, her questioning things and showing some semblance of frustration and anger, her learning about the Silver Eyes. This is the Ruby Rose that I have been waiting for. I've been incredibly patient with CRWBY getting to this, and it is FINALLY paying off. You guys have no idea how happy I was when Ruby willingly used the eyes. How she refused to give up despite everything and everyone around her trying to provoke her. How she is still resolved to do good no matter what. I'm still hoping for her to open up more about her more negative feelings and have a breakdown so that she can move forward, but right now? This is very much the right direction for her, and I could not be happier about my favorite character right now.

Final Thoughts

This volume continues to give. This chapter was creepy and unsettling, but also tense and impactful. It had an awesome if horrifying Grimm concept that is going to haunt my nightmares. It had one Hell of an end and let us see the true dark feelings of most of the characters. It did wonders for Maria as well. Ut this chapter was especially great because of Ruby. She is truly showing the inspiring figure that she is meant to be as she continues to step up as a leader and try to do what's right. I feel like the missteps with her in V5 have now been amended, and hopefully we'll see things continue to go uphill as we reach the halfway mark. Awesome chapter and I loved every single second of it! Well done CRWBY!

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