#apple just leave me alone

[zishu-arts]

3 years ago today (2 days ago), i was banished (forced to update my phone).

i lost it all (IOS 17).

i want it back (photos app layout).

i want my honor (old photos app layout).

my throne (photos app before IOS 18).

i want my father (Apple) not to think i’m worthless (keep changing the layout of perfectly good apps).

[drenched-in-sunlight]

saying this as respectfully as possible but. Do not put fandom content creators on a pedestal. We are also just fans contributing to a community just as you are. We have boundary on our own work and that’s it. What I say is not and should not be considered sth the whole fandom should listen to. I’m just a normal ass person ranting about things on my blog. If it does not have a fandom tag for others to engage in, do not make it out to be me trying to start fights or addressing the whole community. Because it’s not.

I’ve said it before and I will say it again, my art, my lore talk, is biased. I’ve never tried to hide that I view Marika a certain way and will always develop my theory following that base assumption.

Aside from translation stuffs and pointing out in-game items, everything else I say you can look at it, agree or disagree, and move on to form your own opinions. Just because I draw stuffs doesn’t mean you get to saddle me with responsibilities about managing fandom expectations. What the hell? I’m a fan artist, I’m the last person who you should look at for “leaderism” (?) WHAT?

I can and will be a hater in my own space, like I know sometimes other artists will just post their stuffs and not engage too heavily with fandom, and for a while I did try to do that here (because I’m already a dramatic ass on twitter), that’s just not me though.

You will get art and you will get my opinions as well.

[linoguy]

fellas

[twistedappletree]

i’m crying I just thought of an Alice in Wonderland AU with the junior trio where Jin Ling is Alice, Lan Sizhui is the white rabbit, Lan Jingyi is the Cheshire cat, Lan Wangji is the caterpillar, Wei Wuxian is the mad hatter and Jiang Cheng is the Red Queen

except Wonderland’s creatures and environment are all based on Chinese mythology, flora/fauna, ancient architecture, etc.

like the absolute chaos of this situation, i’m gonna s c r e a m

[marymycete]

spent all afternoon making an edit instead of doing anything productive hi hello

[boogiewoogieweeb]

it's all fun and games typing up a silly, rickety little au idea in the tags of someone else's post and then suddenly you find yourself expanding on the world-building and plotting out interconnected stories for characters you swore would only make background appearances and your brain is On Fire with the need to write even when you know you can't commit to yet another doomed wip

[dogearedheart]

8i've been thinking about the last asks i got today. and i think it's better for me to take a step back from this account. i know the anon didn't mean anything by it, but i still feel like i am being a negative presence on here and weirding people out with who i am is nothing i want. so, i am not deleting or anything. i am just gonna be less present with sharing personal things or leaving tags. I'll probably be more active on my second account where i don't have that many followers :)

[isekyaaa]

Maybe being a clone doesn't scare me because I had to recreate myself at one point in my life. When I was going through major depression (not like lol depression, but it was very bad), I reached a point where I could not differentiate myself from the depression. Depression seeped into every fiber of my being that I essentially lost everything that made me me. Changing for the better meant scrapping everything I knew. I had to start from scratch and build myself back up piece by piece. It was terrifying. Depression, as bad as it was, became a crutch I could always rely on. It was steady and consistent. It was everything I knew. To let it go meant venturing out into a world that I had no clue what was what anymore. I had to go on blind faith that I would make it through.

I've done it once I probably can do it again.

[the-official-apple]

i um um

why do you guys keep coming after me because of my pinned post like i said i SUPPORT everybodys equal rights what do you want me to do find a gif where its every single lgbtq+ flag ( dont come after me. )

[laylanatorseventeen]

God, its insane how autistic people are supposed to be the ones unable to pick up on social cues.

I, autistic, when someone is not displaying active interest in what I'm saying: oh my fucking God they don't care. They hate me. I am a burden to society. Luckily I never talk about something I am truly invested about to people outside my family.

And yet at every job I've ever had at LEAST one coworker, usually female, has decided that I am the perfect sounding board for every problem they have, both at work and at home. They will bitch and bitch and bitch at me and the entire time I'm standing there in silence like

And it apparently NEVER occurs to them that my silence and expression of total indifference means that I don't care and don't want to hear. Like!!! Bruh!!!! If I TOLD you I don't care then you'd go around telling everyone what a mean bitch I am, but all these precious Social Cues I'm supposed to be unable to recognize are FAILING TO PENETRATE YOUR SKULL. and the worst is when they seem irritated that I'm not UPSET ALONG WITH THEM. like girl I do not know how to tell you that I don't care that you dropped your apple watch and it broke. Its not my watch. Sorry that it's just not that deep to me. Ok, like five years ago they took away your key to the gate and told you that you were lucky you still had a job. Ok. Sorry, but I'm just like not that fucking invested idk what the hell you want me to do.

That's another thing that sucks about being back in the garden center is that I'm back to being The Bitching Post. Like girl I DO NOT CARE. We are not friends. We are coworkers.

[aces-to-apples]

So. Haven't played Witcher 2 in over two years. Last time was only the second or third playthrough. Apparently, my dumb ass never realized that there was more map beyond the mist into the Kaedweni side than the battlefield and camp followers. Literally it never occurred to me that there was more to explore. Fucking embarrassing.

[metagalacticx]

okay i might get sniped for this but whatever sjahbsh Some of you have a lot of energy for tyler posey for literally no valid reason besides what i’ve seen a hundred times referred to as "attention-seeking behaviour" in the past which. wtf does that even mean every time one of us posts anything it’s to seek attention or validation that’s literally the point who cares. and also apparently he said some mean things about a ship once?? again… go outside. but i see very little about the wHite man who has two very public (and one very questionable) instances of black/brown face in the past???

[theamazingannie]

I’m a sucker for musical parallels and referencing an old song in a new song but I feel like this TTPD lead up is not just a “this is how I used to feel and now I’m using those themes to show how I feel now” and more of a “those feelings were never real and actually those love songs that were so beautiful before are actually about a bad relationship and full of red flags” cuz it’s honestly ruining my feelings on those old songs. Like Taylor’s whole thing is letting us interrupt the songs and apply them to our own lives and now it’s like even she is encouraging us to only see them through the lens of her most recent breakup and it really sucks tbh

[twistedappletree]

i really wanted to like longlegs but this has gotta be one of the shittiest movies i’ve ever seen in my life 😭

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

[unearthlydream]

I have a little crab apple tree outside of my apartment window and at this time of year the wasps and bees love eating them (especially ones that get cracked open by car tires in the parking lot. I have a theory that they work with other critters to place them strategically)

ANYWAY there’s a maintenance person outside my window sweeping up the fallen apples and throwing them away. Not even the ones in the parking lot, the ones in the garden under the tree that are bothering no one!! Someone probably complained about the wasps and bees. But it makes me so sad.

Why do we always have to control nature?? Just go around the tree if you’re walking a dog. Just don’t park next to the tree if you don’t want to be around the insects. It’s not that big of a deal and it only happens once a year for like 3 weeks.

When I leave I’m gonna squish some apples and put them under the tree for the bugs. They need to live too.