#apoptose

[deinheilpraktiker]

Welchen Einfluss hat SARS-CoV-2 auf die HIV-1-Infektiosität?

In einer kürzlich veröffentlichten Studie Forschungsplatz* Preprint-Server: Forscher untersuchten die Wirkung des schweren akuten respiratorischen Syndroms Coronavirus 2 (SARS-CoV-2) und der SARS-CoV-Hüllproteine ​​(E) auf die Infektiosität des humanen Immundefizienzvirus Typ 1 (HIV-1). Studie: Die Hüllproteine ​​von SARS-CoV-2 und SARS-CoV reduzieren wirksam die Infektiosität des Humanen…

[ampd]

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[themetalwanderlust]

The Metal Wanderlust 2022 Favorites: Obsolete Dreadnought

The Metal Wanderlust 2022 Favorites: Obsolete Dreadnought

The following list is not presented in any particular order, for the exception of Satyricon & Munch, which is my album of the year. Enjoy! 1. Satyricon – Satyricon & Munch Read my review HERE. 2. Khold – Sbartsyn 3. Iku Turso – Into Dawnless Realms 4. Deathspell Omega – The Long Defeat 5. Ultha – All That Has Never Been True 6. Mourir – Disgrâce 7. The Nest – Her True Nature 8. White…

[apoptoses]

It is #Molloy Monday and I am here to remind you that Daniel is featured most from 1975-1985 aka the Sluttiest Era of Modern Male Fashion.

Coming in HOT we have the cut off short shorts and cropped t-shirt or mostly unbuttoned button down combo. Daniel visited some warm climates during the chase years so I invite you to picture him in the tiniest ripped jean shorts sweating over whether or not that auburn haired lady down the street is actually Armand!!

Or going into the 80s sometimes the tops were REALLY cropped and exposed midrift and back!! Like just picture Daniel fucking around on Night Island in this, wow wow!!

But even when the pants were long the t-shirts were TIGHT, maximum pec definition through the shirt was a must.

If he didn't wanna show that much skin? That was fine because turtlenecks where IN baby!! These are basically vampire lingerie imo, covering up the most succulent part of the neck but still leaving a hint exposed below the jaw?? Armand had to have been dying of thirst!!!

(Also when it says Armand came to pick Daniel up from jail in a lawyer's tweed suit? He wasn't wearing no modern cut, he'd have been rocking the big lapels because this was the 70s tyvm)

Also important to note was that the 70s were the era of glam rock and androgyny, so picking a silky button down that looks like a women's blouse? Totally okay for men, very in style so long as you leave the top buttons undone to expose maximum chest.

Btw velour? Was IN. This is the 1979 equivalent of a juicy couture tracksuit which Armand could have snuggled right into while they were living in London.

And while the 80s sees the rise of a looser fit, that doesn't mean the crop top died or that people weren't still rocking a more form fitted jean when they were feeling casual.

This photo is from NYC in 1983 and shows that tight t-shirts and short shorts were still very much alive, just styled a bit differently! A tight top and looser straight leg jeans, or short bottom and a flowy open top took the place of all fitted looks.

Or that the mostly unbuttoned button down went away- if anything in the 80s the buttons went even LOWER and more revealing. Paired with a boxy linen suit this is essential 80s Miami aka Night Island looks.

and yeah that's spader, leave me alone, he's peak 80s here

This sweater is loose but it's got the deep V neck and a sheer knit, perfect for the beach!!

And yeah this is Sapder AGAIN but note the half open shirt, leather jacket, and jeans that get tighter near the ankle!! Classic 80s, baggy but still sexy, A+.

I SWEAR this is the last time I'm gonna use and abuse him but peep the muscle tank with the DIY cut edges on the arm holes! V neck! 80s!!!

Basically the takeaway here is that if you're putting them in the 80s and having them rock something baggy and double denim, the look still featured a tight waistline and rolled sleeves or rolled ankles to tighten the jeans. It wasn't just baggy all over!!

Here's some random images from the entire era to finish off:

So next time you're working on fic or art instead of just tossing Daniel into a regular old t-shirt and jeans consider doing some slutty 70s and 80s looks instead 😌

[monstersinthecosmos]

A cat bit me outside Anne Rice's old house 🫢

[i-want-my-iwtv]

Summary: It's the holiday season but Armand has no holiday spirit, doesn't want it, and is trying his best to avoid becoming a victim of Lestat's Mistletoe hitlist. He's also pining for Daniel, but communication is hard when you're accustomed to reading minds!

Notes: This is a tiny gift for the enchanting @apoptoses 💖✨ who requested Armand/Daniel, Armand/Lestat, Armand/Daniel/Lestat/Louis at Trinity Gate and that fluff, smut, light angst are all good; Christmas-y/holiday time/winter themes! I really enjoyed writing it and I hope my giftee enjoys reading it I am so sorry for the delay! 💋

Rating: General Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Category: M/M Fandom: Vampire Chronicles Series - Anne Rice Relationship: Armand/Daniel Molloy Characters: Armand (Vampire Chronicles), Daniel Molloy, Lestat de Lioncourt, Pandora (Vampire Chronicles), Marius de Romanus, Louis de Pointe du Lac Additional Tags: Fluff, Fluff and Angst, Holidays, Christmas, If you're not a big fan of Marius and/or Pandora don't worry they're only there in cameo!, Mistletoe Language: English Words: 2,191 Chapters: 1/1

[mothmage]

🦇 fic rec time! link me to one of your favorite vc fics + tell me why you enjoyed it!

oh my god this is so hard!!! i havent been in the fandom that long AND there are a ton of fics I want to read but havent yet either for time or bc i havent gotten that far in the series (ive only read through TVA rn bc i just dont have any time 🤧). and picking just ONE is crazy and i can’t do it 😭 that said, here are some of my favorites!!

Physical (You’re So) by @butchybats is one of those fics I can’t look directly in the eye bc it’s just so hnnnngggg

Handspun Strings by @aunteat is one I’ve been thinking about nonstop since I read it, such a good dive into Armand and Nicki’s relationship

Swipe Right by @desertfangs is probably my favorite modern AU, the characters feel so true to themselves and the dynamics are just as weird as they should be ❤️

idolatry in ivory by @lovevamp is another that makes me feral. i love a monstrous vampire and i think pandora should be allowed to eat pussy and break some bones, what can i say

The Language of Flowers by @hekateinhell rewrote my brain i think. daniel/armand/lestat is such a good dynamic here!! why arent we all tattooing and piercing lestat 😐🤧

[zoeflake]

Apoptose - Hexenring

[rainbowcarousels]

Do you ever think about how Armand - who has a personal attendance love language for so many people and spent literally years caring for Daniel as a mortal from shaving him to caring for the day to day when things got bad - probably struggles so much with the fact that when Daniel was at his worst, he wasn't there to take care of him?

It's not about fault, he was going through life and death levels of trauma and given their parting, likely didn't even even know Daniel wasn't doing well till long after the fact. I was just thinking of how hard it has to be for someone who sees taking care of someone as an act of love to deal with not being the one doing that for his first born. He wasn't able to give him something he needed and it's Armand, it feels like that would dig under his skin and take root with an unpleasant sense of disconnection between them.

They were each others safe space and it wasn't there when either of them needed that. It's so heartbreaking.

[hekateinhell]

DA here and 😠 let me just say that the fact that dacryphillia isn't winning by a fucking landslide is a disgrace lmao jk I love y'all and I'm always open to expanding my kink horizons/range of understanding re: all things vc and its underlying sexual complexities but like... that should've been a given imo!!! babyboy LOVES a good crying session in the throes of passion, loves weeping as he's getting fucked and sucked, he starts sobbing and then stops then starts again and at the end of it he has mascara and blood running down his face and it's a sight to behold and I will not hear otherwise.

DA YOU ALWAYS SPEAK TO MY SOUL 🤧

And did you somehow peek in my WIP notes and see that I'm gonna have rockstar AU Lestat with snot, tears, ruined eyeliner and mascara on his cheeks as he gets dped? You know too much 🫶🏼 <- Lestat's hole when I get this done js

But honestly, aside from it being hot to me like through the lens of 'I want to see how X character does in Y environment under Z circumstances', I really love that Anne didn't shy away from showing Lestat exhibiting his emotions — they're out there and he doesn't care! He literally says he loves the release that comes with crying! That kind of emotional display isn't very common in male characters, but especially so back then. And even more incredible to me is that Anne said she did that intentionally to make her male characters more relatable to a female audience.

I miss her a lot tbh, I would've loved to ask her more about this.

APPRECIATE YOU DROPPING IN TO FURTHER THE GOOD WORD ♥️

[deinheilpraktiker]

Studie könnte ein Rätsel rund um Morbus Crohn gelöst haben Eine neue Studie könnte ein Rätsel rund um Morbus Crohn gelöst haben, eine Art entzündlicher Darmerkrankung, bei der die Immunabwehr eindringende Mikroben angreifen soll, anstatt fälschlicherweise den körpereigenen Verdauungstrakt anzugreifen. Das Norovirus, eine häufige Infektion, die Erbrechen und Durchfall verursacht, ist eines von mehreren Viren und Bakterien, von denen angenommen wird, dass sie bei Menschen mit Morbus Crohn den Krankheitsausbruch auslösen. Der Grun... #Apoptose #Autoimmunerkrankung #B_Zelle #Bakterien #Biochemie #chronisch #Durchfall #EIWEISS #Entzündliche_Darmerkrankung #Erbrechen #Forschung #Genetisch #Immunsystem #Krebs #Medizin #Medizinschule #Mikrobiologie #Mikrobiom #Molekül #Morbus_Crohn #Mutation #Norovirus #Pharmakologie #Therapeutika #Zelle

[desertfangs]

For the wip word game: kiss

(yeah I’m transparent and out for one thing and one thing only 🤧)

Send me a word, if it’s in my wip document I’ll answer your ask with the sentence that it appears in

Lestat kissed him more fiercely, his fingernail digging harder into Daniel’s flesh. The pain shot down his arm, deliciously sharp compared to the softness of his mouth, even as Lestat worked his tongue with vigor. 

(I appreciate transparency so I gave you two lines. I have a note to make sure all the kissing in this is good on my next editing pass, LMAO.)

[ncface]

let me have a sip of thinking juice , here . (@lasttremaine)

"e meus mojitos são sempre as pobres vítimas. tudo bem, tudo bem. eu só aceitei por acidente, mesmo."

@lasttremaine

[apoptoses]

🚨 what do you think is the best and worst thing Armand ever did?

Oh anon strap in, this is gonna get heavy.

Disclaimer: this is my personal read, my own meta, everyone else is entitled to their own takes etc etc

We're gonna start with the worst: everything he did with Louis in iwtv.

Let me explain.

Something that is very common for survivors of trauma that was more psychological in nature and required betraying oneself in order to stay safe is to enter the fawn response. Aka people pleasing. Someone who has learned that they have to pretend to be someone else in order to keep others around them happy and keep themselves safe doesn't just shake that when the threat has ended. They then go on to feel as if they must do that in all future relationships in order to be loved and cared for, and if this goes unchecked then it can manifest into some really damaging behavior.

Things like lying about personal beliefs in order to tell the desired companion what the traumatized person thinks they want to hear, trying to control outcomes of certain situations in order for things to happen that they think will keep the desired companion with them. Someone who is people pleasing ends up saying "Yes I love the thing that you love" to one person, while saying deep down (or to another person) "I actually hate this thing so much".

And while it's understandable why someone who is people pleasing believes they have to act that way, it leads to their companion feeling manipulated when they find out that all the things that were said and done to 'please' them were untrue or done simply to control the situation and keep them around.

(And if it gets really out of control, subconscious behavior can become conscious acts of manipulation)

So with Louis we meet an Armand who says that he cares nothing for god, that if he met a mortal who inspired a lust for life in him once again he would turn that mortal immediately, that he would have turned Madeline himself. As readers we find out this isn't true later, that Armand struggles with his faith, that Armand would rather suffer anything than turn someone else into a vampire. But if we look at his words from a perspective of someone in a fawn response, he's saying those things because he believes that's what Louis needs to hear in order to accept his love and love him back.

And in more overt ways he forces Louis' hand with Madeline by using his influence, because Armand has decided it would be 'good' for Louis to turn her, that this will help him accept the loss of Claudia and come be with him. It's an act of controlling the situation to try to control for Armand's desired outcome (Louis loves me and will leave Claudia behind for me) but he's doing it under the people pleasing lie of 'this is what Louis needs, this is what will make him happy' when really it's about what will make Armand happy and safe. In that act subconscious fawning has become conscious manipulation.

While Armand's emotional detachment and lack of reaction to the burning of the theater and death of Denis is in many ways related to his self-admitted inability to feel anything at that time, there's also an aspect of fawning there: in order to people please one cannot offer their real feelings for fear of upsetting the companion. So really it just leads this situation where Louis doesn't know how Armand really feels about anything. He never shows Louis a moment of hurt or anger or outage, which we readers know he is capable of, because in order to feel safe and continue to 'please' he cannot let himself feel anything at all except that which his companion feels.

And that's why their relationship crumbles, because Louis is right: they cannot offer each other real love because Louis is mired in grief and Armand is incapable of being fully honest. He can't cultivate a true sense of self and show Louis that self because he's too swept in fawning for him and 'pleasing' him. Even when he and Louis break up he doesn't show his hurt, doesn't articulate having felt neglected. He just walks away, holds it all in, and fawns away his own feelings.

So that's why I think the best thing he did was that moment of sincerity with Daniel right before he turned him: admitting that he felt like a coward, and that he loved Daniel far too much to let him die.

In his explorations with Daniel Armand stops pleasing and swings to far other end of the spectrum for a time: he is so utterly absorbed in exploring the world and figuring out who he is and how he fits in that at times he doesn't consider Daniel's feelings much at all. But by the end of things when the running begins, he doesn't chase Daniel until Daniel calls for him. He becomes honest about his feelings and desires, despite the layers of shame he's heaped upon them. He stops detaching and fawning and gets real.

Which in the end is the key to him re-uniting with Louis and building a healthier relationship, creating his own home, opening the door to future reconciliation with Marius and having Daniel move back in with him. Armand had to learn to be himself fearlessly so that he would have genuine love to give.

[uncivilcivilservice]

So it's half 5 in the morning, I've had about 3 hours sleep and I'm still wrecked over chapter 4 of Blood Sanation by @apoptoses, so have some Armand/Daniel breakup/reconciliation era music recs

Lacrymosa - Evanescence

"Out on your own, cold and alone again/Can this be what you really wanted baby?

Now that you're gone, feel like myself again/Grieving the things I can't repair and willing

To let you blame it on me and set your guilt free/Don't wanna hold you back now love"

The Death of Peace of Mind - Bad Omens

"I miss the way you say my name/The way you bend, the way you break/Your makeup running down your face/The way you touch, the way you taste

You come and go in waves/Leaving me in your wake/You come and go in waves/Swallowing everything"

Lost On You - LP

"Wishin' I could see the machinations/Understand the toil of expectations in your mind

Hold me like you never lost your patience/Tell me that you love me more than hate me all the time/And you're still mine

Just that you could cut me loose/After everything I've lost on you/Is that lost on you?"

[dueroses]

🩸 devil's minion || fic recommendations;

since twitter died in brasil, here's a compilation of all the armandaniel fics i saved on twt to my fellow brazilians who lost everything 🕊️

please read the tags before reading the fics!! there may be some heavy topics in some of them, so be careful! 🩸

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🎞️ are you trembling with fear and excitement? by w_wowe_ed || [16k]

🎞️ a tale of everlasting love by beingmadissad || [49k]

🎞️ lend me your ears, your eyes, your mind (and your heart) by andrealyn || [13k]

🎞️ daylight savings won't fix this mess by cannibalenthusiast || [25k]

🎞️ die, my darling by slylyaddictedtostories || [38k]

🎞️ a haunting just for company by valkyrisms || [27k]

🎞️ give me a sign, i want to believe by myrmeraki || [16k]

🎞️ how memory makes monsters into myth by blueskiddoo || [44k]

🎞️ unzipped by sleepdeprivedsurgeon || [7k]

🎞️ like a butterfly, i will colect you and capture you by oxmox || [12k]

🎞️ with love, we sleep by Iknowthebattle || [3k]

🎞️ grace of aging by Dantes_Minion || [1k]

🎞️ we're not in the right state of mind. by destielonfire || [3k]

🎞️ still loving you by Killergrame (Th3Ant1chr1st) || [4k]

🎞️ i'm the devil's minion and he grants my every wish by OracleOfTheSea || [26k]

🎞️ kiss from a rose by liliyee || [23k]

🎞️ red, violet red by apoptoses || [9k]

🎞️ honeysuckle sips from your rolling hips by ultraviolet_glow || [1k]

🎞️ the two honeymoons by takku_kissa || [6k]

🎞️ i know a place we can go by luminoussbeings || [3k]

🎞️ turn off the sun; pull the stars from the sky. the more i give to you, the more i die by AtlasShrugged || [3k]

🎞️ honey and pineapple by duri || [3k]

🎞️ it was not repulsive by WendigoDreaming || [7k]

🎞️ i love it when it bleeds by biter78 || [2k]

🎞️ safe and stranded by grumpsy || [7k]

🎞️ any kind of touch i think is better than none. by Iknowthebattle || [4k]

🎞️ of discipline and devotion by serviteur_du_diable || [5k]

🎞️ tender creatures by glasslilies || [3k]

🎞️ the fall of eternity by bralesscommie || [9k]

🎞️ the way people love evil by fypical || [51k]