#apologizing in advanced because I'm tagging so many characters

[apolaskiart]

iasuw au doodle-ohs for my soul-io

[seraphinitegames]

Hey, Mishka!!!

I've been replaying TWC over the last couple of months, and must say, it's been an entirely rejuvenating experience for me. Like, I was reading it the first time, although I've replayed the series quite too many (worrying number) of times already. And it still manages to amaze me, EVERY SINGLE TIME.

I've repeated this in the past, and I'll repeat it again. The Wayhaven Chronicles is a blessing for me and I'm sincerely thankful to have come across it when I did. And I'm grateful to you for making this lovely world a reality (and of course, the four beautiful vamps)! Really eager for Book 4 and have already player the demo; can say it's gonna be worth the wait. It every time is.

Replaying the series in the last few months, I had a certain uncontrollable urge to drop and ask a few questions to you. Apologize in advance for the long ask and message, but it had been bottling up inside of me for SOOOOOO LONG.

1. In Book 1, when we're to lead the investigation in one of the three directions, is there any way to get success in any direction without Bobby making a big joke out of our investigation in the newspaper?

2. In Book 2, when Nicole and Max Salinas come to report their incident, can Tina actually find out anything unusual? If so, what is actually needed to explain that?

3. In Book 3, I noticed if we choose to go the final mission alone, depending on the route chosen, Boddy/Doug will end up tagging along as well, jeopardizing everything. Is there still a way to complete the mission successfully and rescuing everyone like it happens when we go along with Rebecca?

4. Less of a question, but more of a plea. Please tell me we can get a pet anytime in the series. I was just curious if we can get one.

5. How powerful is the big baddie in Book 4 compared to Unit Bravo? You don't need to answer if this verges on spoiler-y territory.

Really sorry to overwhelm you with this, but it's just months and months of joy, happiness, and sheer ecstasy making me blabber on about this world like this. Thanks once again, for making this truly beautiful story, world, and the vampires a reality.

Have a good day!!!! Lots of love from India!!

You can never play a game you love too many times (I keep telling myself that as I gradually burn a hole into my poor old console playing Dragon Age over and over, lol!)! If it brings you happiness, then that's what is important! :D

Ok, let's see about the questions...it's been a whole since I've gone through the older games without being in editing mode, hehe!

I don't think so...Bobby is, well, Bobby. And that scene was there very much to establish their character and show the player what type of person they are.

I don't think so, again. If there's anything unusual or odd, then I usually like to let the MC find that instead of it happening 'off-screen' so it's more impactful for the player—unless it's Verda discovering stuff, because that needs to happen for…reasons.

Iirc, in the Bobby/Doug routes, you get the auction scene, so a lot of that branch involves focusing on saving yourself! But the other team that joins Unit Bravo will help in saving a lot of the captives in that version.

I would love that being a massive animal companion fan myself, hehe! But likely not, just because the MC is away a lot from home, and that's unfair on the pet, even a fictional one, lol. I was tempted to give the MC a supernatural pet that hung around at the facility—that was definitely a strong idea at one point just so I could write a pet in the series for those that wanted it (me, I was the one who wanted it, hehe!) :D

**BOOK FOUR DEMO SPOILERS AHEAD** It's not just that Book Four's villain is terrifyingly powerful (or will be. They are, thankfully for the MC and UB, in a weakened state for a while due to what's happened to them and what happened in Chapter Two) but it's a lot to do with the fact that their power specifically counteracts and weakens Unit Bravo's. So that's a double whammy!

Thank you SO incredibly much for the amazing message! It means more than you can know <3

[alchely]

My Top Gallavich fics

So, under the advice of the lovely @iangallagherisadeadman I've decided to compile a favorites Gallavich fic list along with a brief rec of each, this won't be a strict top 10 cause I'm not gonna torture myself into excluding some of these stories on some made-up self imposed arbitrary rules.

A bunch of disclaimers: most of these fics are long fics, going from 30k words up, I'm not purposefully excluding shorter fics, I have read plenty of them, but they do have a harder time sticking in my head months after reading.

Most of these fics will be explicit, just read the tags on the fic itself if you want to find out more.

Some of these fics don't have links because the authors chose to lock them and as such make them unlinkable, in order to read them you will need to go through the author's page while you're logged in your AO3 account.

This ended up ballooning out of control and is A LOT longer than ten fics, I apologize in advance :p.

YOU'LL NEVER SEE US AGAIN – spoonfulstar - 231k words

Mickey and Ian have been students at Marceline boarding school their whole lives, as their time at the institute draws toward the end they will start to discover many things, about themselves, about each other and about the world they live in.

THIS FIC! I CRIED! The number of fanfiction that are able to make me cry can be counted on a singular hand, the emotional stakes get higher and higher as the story goes on, leading to a beautiful and bittersweet climax.

This story will make you think and feel deeply about topics you'd never think a shameless fic would delve into.

I am obsessed with Mickey in this fic, he and Ian grow up in an environment that could not be more removed from South Side Chicago and yet his personality is still so recognizably and distinctly Mickey.

The story goes very dark at times, and the fic itself could be considered lengthy, but I assure you the author has made sure to not make you feel it. Those 200k words flowed so well the story did not feel long at all.

HELP ME (TEAR DOWN MY REASON) – wehangout - 34k words

Mickey is a detective and Ian becomes a suspect in an investigation except Mickey already knows him because he's his favorite dancer.

This fic falls under the umbrella of fics where “Mickey is so in love with Ian he does something unbelievably crazy”.

Oooh boy, this fic, it's written in second person (yes you've read that right), tbh out of all fics I've read from this author I think this one was the easiest to adjust mentally to the change in perspective.

I loved Mickey’s “love” in this, just… This raw connection to Ian, the perfect cocktail of feelings, I could read that all day long.

IN ANOTHER WORLD – Roryonic - 249k words

Mickey does not get sent to prison at the end of S5, what happens after and how his presence influences future events (mostly Ian, but also every other Gallagher as well as his own family).

As far as I'm concerned this fic is the closest to a perfect S6 and beyond fix-it. The dialogue writing in this story is so close to canon Shameless that I could picture entire scenes in my head with the actors playing the characters, with their body and personality quirks.

Sometimes I find myself describing this fic like it's the actual show's deleted scenes, “Look, Mickey has his own storyline! And Mandy is here! And the existence of Yevgeni does not become a plot hole!”

There are some Mickey lines in this fic that to me are as canon as if they'd been in the show. Absolutely iconic writing.

I love this author so here's a rec of some of their other longfics, however I highly suggest a lot of their other much shorter stuff as well:

BATTLESHIPS AND LOVE BOATS: Ian and Mickey start their “no strings attached” kind of sex relationship a little later than canon but their attraction and love is just as strong. This is a sort of High School AU that turns into a Prison AU that turns into something else and every shift is just as lovely as the next.

YOU SMELL LIKE LOVE: Ian and Mickey are childhood friends, to the point that the rest of the Gallaghers might as well consider Mickey a seventh brother, mmmh, I sure wonder how things will start to change. Look, I never thought I'd love a childhood friends AU for Gallavich yet here I am, if it's good it's good.

ME AND THE DEVIL: Mickey unconsciously calls for a vengeance demon and Ian Gallagher shows up at his door, because Mickey is a stubborn dumbass they fall in love instead. This story has a lot of twists and turns and the premise is only the very beginning of the story. I LOVED it!

THE INCREASINGLY POOR DECISIONS OF IAN GALLAGHER – Shamelessquestions - 309k words

Ian is a dancer in a club, he accidentally gets involved in the affair of a dangerous mafia don, but the true danger is the attraction he and the mafioso’s right hand Mickey feel for each other as soon as they meet.

What. A. Classic. Truly, an unforgettable story, and I don't mean this in hyperbole, I read this story around… 2016/2017 during my second round in the Shameless fandom, then I read countless other fics in a lot of other fandom and yet this story was the only one that my mind retained from back then, to the point that I could still remember some of the finer details as well as the final plot twists when I came back to reread it.

The plot is constructed beautifully and the original characters (part of the Shamelessquestions fanfiction universe, as they come back time and time again in every one of their AU to fulfill their role in the story) are just as vibrant.

What a story, truly.

Favorite original character in this AU: Sal, his downfall is so satisfying and yet so pitiful to read.

TEENAGERS SCARE THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME – Mellow_Yellow - 221k words

Ian finds something scary and calls Mickey for help, even though they had only reconnected that very day after two years of not seeing each other. Together, they get sucked into a situation they weren't at all prepared for. Can they even admit that they're in over their head?

The very beginning of this fic is SO cinematic it grabbed my interest from the very first scene and didn't let go until the end, DO NOT search for spoilers.

The only warning I'll give is that it does deal with a bit of gore and what I'm personally gonna define as slight psychological horror. That's it. Enjoy!

BROKE STRAIGHT BOYS – dancermk - 66k words

Mickey becomes a porn actor for a site where he has to pretend he's straight and not enjoying the copious amount of gay sex he's having on camera, enter Ian, another actor under the same agency and their off the chart physical chemistry.

This story has, needless to say, some really, really good smut. I especially loved their first time together, but every sex scene in this story is seared in my mind.

ETHERIZED AGAINST THE SKY – Snarfle - 213k words

So, I debated whether I should add this fic or not, but I think if there is one fic that will stay in my mind long after this Shameless binge of the past couple of months it's this one, and it should absolutely become one of those fic that everyone in the fandom should read.

After Mickey gets shot by Kash his life takes a completely different direction and he ends up in a group home where, through many difficult times, he turns his life around.

So many iconic moments in this fic, some funny as fuck, some sad, some so absurd that I'm surprised they weren't lifted straight from Shameless, one so gruesome in the very first chapter that I was surprised to have such a visceral feeling from just words on a screen. Yeah, this story will stay with me for a long time.

OLD RULES FOR NEW SIDE PIECES – Shamelessquestions - 217k words

Ian is a Fed and he spots Mickey looking suspicious in an art museum, the mutual attraction is overwhelming, Mickey is not what he seems and Ian is already with someone else, but that's not gonna stop him from pursuing what he and Mickey have.

Putting it as bluntly as I can, this fic made me face the realization that I love cheating fics (if the cheating happens to someone else to bring together the endgame couple). I have already reread this fic twice and I could probably go for another one and not get tired of it, it's that good, and out of all this author's fics it's probably my favorite.

Favorite original characters in this AU: It's a three way tie between Dre, Ivan and Carrie, they're all very captivating in this story.

Other fic from this author I'd recommend cause I really love their style:

LOST IN TRANSLATION: Ian meets a very attractive man while he's in Ukraine who doesn't speak English, a mere language barrier won't stop him from flirting for hours. (adorable)

YOU MAKE ME FEEL HUMAN – Dragona - 66k words

Ian is an assassin, he meets Mickey and thus begins a very sick love story.

To say I'm obsessed with this fic is an understatement, I suggest to everyone to just go read the original author’s own description of the fic, it sets the tone of the story magnificently.

This is an Ian Gallagher that almost resembles Jerome (also played by Cameron in Gotham) but like… a slightly more subdued and saner S1/S2 version of him. I love the layers that get peeled right in front of my eyes, the madness that creeps in a bit more every chapter. I LOVE this story.

DRIED INK - 87k words

This fic combines my two favorite Gallavich-specific tropes, one being ‘Mickey comes back from prison after s6, Ian is with someone else’ and ‘Ian cheats on that someone else for Mickey’

I love the Gallaghers in this and how unsurprised they are at Ian going back to Mickey right away. It's a little jewel of a fic.

Mickey tries SO hard to stop himself and Ian in this but their love is too magnetic, they're irresistible to each other.

THE QUESTION OF NORMAL – blue_newman - 92k words

Ian is a prison counselor, Mickey is in prison, they fall in love and it's beautiful and Ian is incredibly devoted to Mickey in this fic and I fell in love with them both in this.

KINDA RAW – catgrassplantdad - 6k

Quite simply this is my favorite short pwp fic.

Illustrating those “five times” in one night that Mickey references in 11x01.

This fic is so hot, I love it <3

QUATERVOIS – DodgerBear - 51k words

Soldier Mickey gets stationed in the middle of nowhere and meets a farmer called Ian who makes him question everything.

Falling under the same umbrella of “Mickey does something crazy for Ian” fics and this is why it stuck in my mind even if it's been a while since I've read it.

I LOVE this story, their dialogues and everything that happens in it. The setting is lovely and you will fall in love with the description of Ian’s farm.

Other fic by the same author that I also loved:

BURDEN OF PROOF: Cop Mickey gets caught in a legal battle between the two oldest Gallagher brothers, something doesn't feel right though…

THE WORDS HE DOESN'T SAY: Mickey is released before Ian in s10 and has to meet a court-mandated therapist. The story is from the therapist POV and goes AU from the beginning of s10 in that Mickey gets involved back into Yev and Svetlana’s life, the dialogue is, quite obviously, the main attraction of the story and it's really well done. (Also, written in first person).

THE MENAGERIE – CrossMyDNA - 147k words

Ian decides to re-explore his bdsm preferences at The Menagerie where he meets sub extraordinaire Mickey on his very first visit.

Shameless is undoubtedly the fandom that opened my eyes to what bdsm could be back in… approx 2016? When that other popular bdsm fic was still around *ahem*.

So it definitely feels like a sign that coming back into the fandom this fic now exists and is SO GOOD.

Obviously it's very explicit, the smut in this fic is one of the best I've ever read.

The chemistry between Ian and Mickey sizzles off the screen and can absolutely be felt even in moments not of the nsfw variety, absolutely recommended!

MICKEY MILKOVICH’S GUIDE TO FLIRTING – whatwouldmickeydo - 40k words

An s2 “missing moments” between Gallavich, completely canon compliant, all under the pretense that Mickey is following a step by step guide to flirting.

I wish this fic was describing canon moments, not kidding a single bit, I wish I could somehow magically manifest these scenes into existence they're that good and fit that well into canon.

M8TE – gallawitch - 53k words

Omegaverse fic where Ian and Mickey both start using an app and end up matching with each other, even though a connection is made almost instinctively, coming to terms with it with a sound mind will take a bit longer…

Hey,had to have at least one of these on here lol

I love omegaverse and this was everything I wanted from it, couldn't have asked for anything better really <3.

SHACKLED – MyRelapse - 19k words

Ian has a change of heart and he decides that Mickey IS the one he wants, even if he's still in prison, so he keeps in contact and goes through every hoop imaginable to have him back as soon as possible.

Reading this made me so happy like I could burst, love it.

WAITING ON MY OWN TOO LONG – Ride4812 - 266k words

This rec more than any other on this list is what I'm gonna consider self indulgent because it covers the trope I always craved to read in such a satisfying way: Canon AU where Mickey comes back from prison after 8 years, Ian has found someone else but the moment the two meet again they fall back into each other right away.

The series is made up of 4 smaller fics:

One more night

Something more this time

No more lonely nights

Ain't this life so sweet

(I will point out here and nowhere else that the last installment of this series has some segment that probably needed to be re-read a couple more times, but by that point I was too invested, and the quality fluctuates a lot only in certain parts)

The writing style is very direct and to the point, which I love, the smut is very present and written beautifully and most importantly never boring.

Ian is a MESS in this fic and had me Stressed™, mostly cause for some reason I can't handle too much casual depiction of drug abuse and addiction (I know, ironic considering the fandom).

Conflicts and resolutions are never clean cut, they don't necessarily resolve quickly or definitely or the way you probably imagine they should and I find this level of realism very satisfying.

Taking a bit of space here at the end to also rec a couple other Ride4812 fics that I also loved:

COUP DE FOUDRE - A model/photographer AU where Ian and Mickey fall in love the instant they meet and do some crazy things because of that.

HOPE HE MIGHT - A lawyer AU where Ian and Mickey are on opposing sides for the same client, an interesting murder mystery steeped in a religious cult.

Generally I feel like this author is really good at depicting just how unapproachable Mickey can be to anyone that isn't called Ian Gallagher and I eat it up every time.

WHAT THE NIGHT DOES TO THE DAY – andchaos - 9k words

A Gallavich childhood friends AU with a quite original arrangement for the story and the various segments of their lives. Very satisfying read.

RANSOM – BeckyHarvey29 - 112k words

Terry sends his sons to kidnap a Gallagher child to force Frank into paying back the money he owes, unfortunately for him Mickey and his brothers kidnap Ian, and a whole other kind of story unfolds.

Mickey and Ian falling in love in this fic is such a good read. I don't wanna spoil anything of how that or the kidnapping plot goes, since the two are so intertwined. Just know that it will be worth it.

UNDER LOCK AND KEY – Suzy_Queue - 106k words

Ian is assigned the night shift at his new job where he provides spare keys to his fellow college students stuck outside their dorm rooms. To make matters worse his shift coworker is the oh so infamous Mickey Milkovich.

I am magnetized by the way this author writes their pining for each other, their attraction and obsession, how it blooms and unfolds. This fic in particular had me develop a very bad case of tunnel vision, couldn't really turn away until I finished reading it all.

I still haven't read everything this author has to offer, but so far I also loved:

INHUMAN: A mysterious force starts attacking people close to Mickey and it all seems to lead to a mysterious redhead Mickey is oh so coincidentally obsessed with. Very cool paranormal story.

THESE FOOLISH GAMES: Mickey takes over as the boss of the local branch of a trampoline park, where Ian is one of the employees, they annoy each other to no end but what they don't know is that they're secretly texting each other.

IS THERE SOMEWHERE – andchaos - 48k words

Mickey is born with no words on his skin, convinced he's going to live a life of misery cause no one will ever say the words he's destined to hear, he's not a very happy guy. Here comes mute boy Ian who crashes into his life and won't let go.

A classic Soulmate AU, I love that like in a lot of other Gallavich fics their physical connection and compatibility usually comes before their emotional one, it is one aspect that I feel distinguishes their relationship to many other fandom’s ships.

LAST NIGHT AT THE VERONA GRAND HOTEL – the_rat_wins - 27k words

Mickey starts working at an ancient hotel who's supposedly haunted. Mickey doesn't believe in ghost stories, he is much more interested in this one guest he meets at night during his shift.

What a cinematic experience this fic is! Absolutely recommended, the length of it makes it so you can read it in the same time it would take to watch the same story in movie format.

Other fics by the same authors that have impressed me:

FADE THIS ONE TO BLACK: Ian dies of overdose in a pile of snow outside the club, when Mickey finds him there he vows to do anything to get him back.

I don't know why but this fic in particular gives off the vibes of being a pilot for a ya urban fantasy TV series, except we gotta imagine everything that comes after the first episode lol

NO LIE: Ian and Mickey are Soulmates and as such they can't lie to each other. This series is short and sweet and full of feelings, perfect

PARAGRAPHS – pink_ink - 100k words

Ian becomes a reading tutor for ex-convicts, Mickey is among them and Ian starts paying him more and more attention.

This is a story where they meet under very different circumstances and where they've lived slightly different lives compared to canon and yet they're still able to find each other in the end.

Also, sign me up for every fic where Ian has to work just as hard to help Mickey and care for him as the opposite, where Ian's brand of stubbornness is the only way to get through to Mickey.

I'm also adding a couple of ongoing fics, just two to not overwhelm too much.

NONE THE WISER – Loftec - ~218k words

Ian starts visiting Mickey’s diner, it takes a while and yet no time at all to warm up to each other.

I'm captivated by the author's writing style. I love Ian's and Mickey’s relationship. I love how they sort of take their time and yet pine helplessly for each other.

I'm obsessed with the fact that the whole point of the fic doesn't appear until two thirds of the way in cause the diner scenes were just too good to pass up on lol (and I 100% agree with them).

INTRO TO QUANTUM DATING – spoonfulstar - ~563k words

Canon Mickey and Ian meet in University. A college slice of life but drenched in the casual (and not so casual) darkness of canon shameless.

The dark humor in this is fenomenal and left me gasping laughing so many times.

Unexpectedly Ian in this fic is pursuing a linguistics oriented degree, which was what I studied when I tried university, the topics are explained in such an accurate way I have to assume the author studied them themselves and that this story is somewhat a reimagining of their own college experience because if not this would be an absurd amount of accurate research to make.

Reading this fic feels like living through the American college experience from the comfort of my home lol.

As I said before, this author's way of writing does not weight you down even with its length, the story flows perfectly from one scene to the next and before you realize it you've reached the end and you have to accept that 500k words weren't even enough.

Let's end this list with some quick recommendations

WHILE WE'RE MAKING OTHER (PEOPLE'S) PLANS - kyasticlikestea

Mickey is volunteered to organize someone's else's wedding after he managed to salvage his own so well, he'll do it, but his own Southside way.

THIS IS THE ROAD TO RUIN - bricoleur10

Ian and Mickey never go to rob Ned, the story unfolds differently from there. A fix-it with a lot of Gallavich longing , very good smut and some really good dialogue.

HEY, HONEY MINE (I WAS THERE ALL THE TIME) - serveteas

Mickey talks about his crush with Iggy and accidentally pronoun-slips. Short, to the point, funny af and I just really love it. Takes place after their fight at Kash’n Grab in s2.

AGAINST GLASS - AllThatMatters

Ian gets traded from one club to another as a dancer (and more) and ends up in the Milkovich family's club. This is a Mafia!Mickey story with some pretty tight sub-plots, I love his brothers in this.

ONE OF A KIND - fckyeahgallavich

Mickey breaks his finger and it has to be set in the hospital, chaos - of the homophobic kind - ensues. Protective!Ian, I wanna hug Mickey in this.

IAN THE FRIENDLY GHOST - Ravenheart

Ian is haunting an apartment and Mickey starts living in it, Ian is maybe starting to have a crush on him. This isn't angsty!

BLOOD IN, BLEED OUT - brewrosemilk, Whatsastory

Historical AU. Perfectly innocent bystander Ian Gallagher is thrown into the affairs of the Ukrainian Mafia back in 1954, his relationship with Mickey will span decades and he won't remain innocent for long, the mafia can corrupt anyone.

TEENAGE RUNAWAY - sadwhales

Ian comes to live and finish high school with his half siblings on the South Side, he's immediately captivated by a boy sitting under the bleachers, maybe his North Side naivety will catch his attention too.

GARDEN SONG - melwrtiesthings

A glimpse into their lives in their West Side apartment, a lot of initial angst due to a manic episode and then a lot of recovery and healing and learning more about themselves.

[chaos-interwoven]

PLEASE tell me about the riding au pls pls pls

shfksjfkskdksk it makes me soooo happy that someone else is intrigued by this idea because when i say it won't leave me alone, i really mean it. sorry for not immediately responding lol. believe me, i wanted to but i had to practice discipline and go to bed cause i had work in the morning 💔 and then i was working on it last night and had too much to say and needed to continue in the morning. so here's a warning and apology in advance for how long this is going to be, very sorry but i apparently have many many thoughts!!

if i end up writing something for this au (which is looking more and more likely) it would maybe be a series rewrite type thing where the only thing that changes is the sport. but obviously, them riding would change so much.

logistics - how them riding for the school would work

in this au, they are all english riders. this is mostly because english is my style and i will admit, i am biased, but also because for team riding (especially for a school) i think english makes more sense. i also just think that the competitive world for english riding has a lot more possibilities and longer events than the western world (but i could be wrong because i honestly don't know too much about it). so the way it works is that universities have riding teams and each rider competes individually for their scores at competitions. i have decided that they compete in the eventing world because i think its the most fun and like having the different disciplines to be able to make the characters have one that they favor. for those who don't know, eventing is competition with three parts: dressage (fancy horse dancing type shit), show jumping (jumps inside a ring), and cross-country (jumps outside a ring usually across a long, varied terrain). their individual scores are combined with everyone from their school's team and then those decide which school wins but they also get individually ranked too which is cool. the ravens obsess over winning team scores and winning individually of course.

the only issue with this is that the existing teams inside aftg have a wide variety of how many people are on a team and that doesn't translate well math-wise for team score calculation. i am thinking that each team can have a certain number of people competing (maybe 9 for obvious reasons) and the bigger teams specially select their 9 depending on who is hosting. like maybe dressage judges at are known to really like this one style at a certain school so they tailor to that or the cross country course at this other school is notoriously difficult so they adjust their roster with that in mind. the foxes wouldn't be able to adjust who competes like that which is widely considered a disadvantage, as well as the fact that if one of their horses goes lame, they're kinda screwed. for fiction reasons, we'll say they get lucky on that front.

also, and this is unrealistic to how eventing works in the real world but again its fiction so i'm saying whatever, each team can have three (? idk i just picked a random number) alternate/sub riders who can tag in for one event. again, the foxes have a disadvantage with their small numbers. so when neil joins the team, he doesn't get one of the nine roster slots. instead, he begins by sub riding for his teammates. particularly, he was supposed to be a sub rider for seth for dressage and seth gets pissed off about neil’s lack of experience. maybe he is allowed to sub in for multiple different teammates? idk, i haven't really decided the made up rules here

logistics - incorporation with the yakuza

the moriyamas own belmont park in new york (the site of the belmont stakes which is a huge race in the US for those who don't know. look it up lol). they have a office somewhere in the city for like business things maybe but they use horse races, especially the belmont stakes, to bring in clientele both from across the US and from abroad. this is similar to how they use the ravens' court and the towers in canon. it’s also a great way to move a lot of money and hide the unsavory part of their business. but beyond racing, they don't care about horses or the riding world. they know and care enough to be competent, successful owners of belmont but that's about it. so riko is all convinced that he's gonna be the best eventer out there and then the main branch and his dad will care about him but he's dead wrong.

nathan still has that widespread range business man thing going on that he does in canon but he is connected to pimlico (which is the racetrack in baltimore where the preakness stakes is held). the preakness stakes and the belmont stakes, along with the kentucky derby, make up the famous three race series called the triple crown. personally, i think this detail makes this au make even more sense because the moriyamas and the wesninskis can both have connections to prestigious af racetracks in their canonical cities. and with baltimore being a port city, lots of drugs are smuggled into the harbor so maybe nathan uses races to move and sell drugs as well as dealing with money and bodies. and i'm thinking that nathan doesn't own pimlico though and is just a serious investor or co-owner (or something) who owns a lot of race horses that operate out of pimlico, mostly because he needs to be a step down from the moriyamas but who knows. maybe he does own pimlico. would love opinions/thoughts.

nathan being involved with pimlico provides a reason for neil to grow up around horses. he was at pimlico a lot growing up. nathan and mary would often leave him with stable hands while they had business to attend to so neil basically grew up with the animals, learning to groom them, how to take care of them, etc. it sparked his interest in horses and when he was old enough, he started to ride (not racing but english style). and this would follow much of the same idea as canon where mary would take him outside of baltimore where people didn't know what his name meant and would let him take lessons. and how eventually, neil was supposed to go to tetsuji if he passed the test/was good enough at riding and the moriyamas would have bought neil a horse but mary ran away before the second day of the test.

the foxes and co. - their background with riding, their horses, and their specialties

(naming things is like the hardest part for me so none of their horses have names. please drop name suggestions if you want lol, i would love help naming their critters. also, if literally anyone is interested, i can do some searching and find reference pictures for how i think their horses look but rn it's all vague concepts in my head.)

allison: allison grew up rich so her being into riding wouldn't be surprising and makes sense imo. she begged her parents for a pony when she was little and after months and months, they finally got her one. they weren't expecting it to go anywhere, figuring that their fashion obsessed six year old would drop this horse thing after a few months max after seeing how messy and gross (their opinion) it can be. they put the pony up at a local barn where all the other rich kids had theirs and chalked allison's interest up to wanting to do what her classmates were doing. and it was obviously a fancy place with grooms and whatnot so allison really didn't have to do much hands on besides the actual riding. but still, animals are animals and her parents took one look at the smell and mud, which is only so avoidable even if you're rich, and didn't expect allison to stick with it. so imagine their surprise when she took to it like a moth to a flame and stuck with it religiously since she was six. they entertained it and funded it as she got older under the condition that she was putting the family business first. she went along with it until college where she chose losing them and their money so that she could ride for a school and keep her horse.

her current horse would be the one her parents bought her in highschool. maybe a ten year old? its her third horse. she had a pony as a kid who eventually got sold to another little kid when she grew too much for it. then was her starter horse for eventing who wasn't really bred for eventing but mostly bought because it would be her first horse. this one got sold when she was in high school so she could buy a horse better suited for eventing. this horse would be a very gorgeous warmblood who was bred specifically for eventing and she would be bay. (if you don't know horse coat colors, im sorry but look them up 😭 this is already too long so i can't explain them all) geldings (sterile males) are more popular in professional equestrian sports from racing to eventing but you can't tell me allison wouldn't say fuck that and get a mare (female) instead.

allison would be best at dressage and really enjoy the beauty of it. she and kevin refuse to acknowledge their mutual love for and sucess at dressage out of their canon-typical childish spite towards each other 🙄 but while dressage her favorite, i can also see her being killer in the jumper ring.

renee: renee started riding only once she was with stephanie walker. i don't know the canonical timeline of when she got adopted but we're going to image that it was early enough for her to become good enough at riding to get scouted. its fiction, we can bend the rules. but anyway, stephanie owns a little farm with chickens, a few sheep, two horses, and a single cow. she insisted that renee learned how to take care of the animals as part of getting back in touch with kindness and thought that along with religion, caring for the animals would help her figure out how to heal and become the person she wanted to be. one of stephanie's two horses (both rescues of course) was too injured to be ridden and just kept to have a happy, safe retirement and provide company for the other. the second horse is the one stephanie actually rode and she mainly rode on trails around their property and casual schooling (the horse word for training i suppose) and jumping. it was after maybe six months of living with her that renee first asked to learn how to ride and stephanie supported the idea wholeheartedly. eventually, they rescue a horse for renee as she joined her school's team which is her current horse. the routine of riding and bonding with her mom's horse and then her own really helped her.

like most rescues, her horse is not fully one breed but he's mostly american saddlebred. he's also a roan because the idea of renee having a roan just makes so much sense to me in my heart of hearts.

renee is best at show jumping. i think she would like the feeling of jumping successfully over high jumps and i love the imagery of her excelling at what is basically the riding equivalent of flying.

dan: okay honestly, i am struggling a bit with dan's backstory in this au for the same reason i am having holes with neil's - horseback riding is expensive and add owning a horse to that?? its insane. and we know that dan didn't grow up with money. the easy answer here is that her first job was being a stable hand after school at a barn around her. she got this job at maybe 12 because it's mostly chores and manual labor and the barn paid in cash so it was under the table and her being under 14 wasn't a problem. after idk a year? two years? though, one of the trainers started to notice her interest in the horses beyond them being her job and the way that she would watch the lessons. this trainer eventually offered to let dan into the lessons for a docked pay. dan would ride the school horses at this barn from then until she graduates. the docked pay would also force her to take up another job which would allow her to strip like in canon. seems like an insane schedule to me cause riding takes more time than exy would but i suppose we're suspending disbelief again.

i really really don't know how dan acquires a horse to have at palmetto because college athletes need their own horse. my best answer (that is really not all that good) is that psu gives wymack a fund to help some of his riders buy horses. the only way this swings is because wymack keeps as small of a team as he can so psu already doesn't have to fund the equestrian program as much as they could; that wymack isn't fully funding the horse, only partially; and that dan has money from a combination of saving up, her "sisters," and her aunt giving her some money as an apology for being shit which dan only accepts because she needs it for the budget her and wymack worked out and not because she is accepting the cheap apology that comes with it. dan's savings were meant to just go to her attending a local community university because she didn't think she could ride for a college at all until wymack saw her school ride against renee's and then scouted her. she is at psu on scholarship so she was able to use her savings towards a horse instead. her horse would be a rescue that she got upon arriving at psu a month early. her and wymack rescued him and that extra month dan spent bonding with the horse and learning it's fears/issues/quirks before the rest of the team arrived to start summer training. the foxes having so many rescue horses on the team is perfect imo because it's so so them.

dan's horse would be some thoroughbred, maybe some quarter horse just because of their prevalence in rescues and would be chestnut with four white stockings/socks. as captain, i feel like dan has a very strong foundation in all three of the disciplines. but i think that she likes cross country best and enjoys the part of the course that's a long space to just run.

matt: matt's story would go similar to his canonical story. where after his mom finds out that his father introduced him to partying and drugs and he got too far into it, she tries to get him to rehabilitate from it. she teaches him boxing to channel his anger and uses his dad's money to get him into riding. she doesn't know much about it but she knows horses are supposed to be therapeutic so she feels that she is covering the whole emotion spectrum in terms of support. as matt takes to the sport, she encourages it and eventually they buy him a horse that he takes to psu with him. while learning, he had ridden school horses at the barn and then eventually had leased one before getting his own.

his horse would be an OTTB (off the track thoroughbreds, so a horse who used to race and retired from it around 3-4 years old, usually bc they aren't great at it lol, and then get adopted and retrained to do something else), one of the tallest horses on the psu team, and a nice medium bay color. i feel like matt would also favor cross country but because he enjoys all the crazy looking jumps (seriously, look them up bc they're very silly and cool)

seth: being from alabama, it only makes sense to make him a farm boy lol. plus he is from a big family so i feel like the odds of that actually being canon are pretty high. unlike stephanie walker, the gordon farm is large and has many many animals. they own chickens, a few cows for milk, some pigs, and have a barn where they keep their horses (they have maybe 3-5?) and they board the rest of the stalls out to other people so they have about 10 horses on their property. seth grew up doing chores around the farm, driving tractors way too young, and caring for horses as soon as he was old enough. like allison, he has been riding since he was in elementary school although in a very different sense. where allison grew up riding all prim and proper, seth grew up riding around the farm, taking one of the family horses out bareback to just run and run and run. he and his brothers would race sometimes and would jump over anything and everything they could find, even building jumps sometimes out of random things from the local scrapyard. when he got older, he started to ride some of the border's horses for them as a job. he was always the best with horses out of all of his family. they just always got along with him. so while he grew up riding unconventionally, once he started riding other people's horses for them, he learned proper techniques and skills in order to do a good job and therefore, keep the job. his parents made all of their kids be involved in some sort of club (as a way to slack off more from their parenting duties) and while they all stuck to 4H, his freshman year of high school, seth switched and joined the school's riding team. it was then that he got his own horse at last. i also feel like seth has some skill with caring for horse injuries. like knowing what is wrong with them and treating some of them. i imagine that it comes with the territory of growing up on a farm.

his horse would be a rescue and has to be a thoroughbred. its truly the only breed that would match his ingrained desire to run. and seth is the only one on the psu team to own a black horse.

his early years and habits make him a beast at cross country while his job of schooling the border's horses gave him the foundational skills to do show jumping and dressage, but he finds the latter stuffy. others at psu may favor cross-country or be best at it of the three disciplines, but seth is unrivaled at it. the way he grew up means that he and his horse are fearless on the course because they have most definitely jumped crazier. he gets some of the best times and practically never has any faults for it which drives kevin up the wall because he finds seth insufferable but there is no getting over how good he is at cross country.

kevin: grew up riding with his mom until the accident and he went to tetsuji. i'm choosing to say that he grew up partially in ireland, maybe kayleigh spent half the year there or something, who knows. but because of that, some of his foundational riding skills he learned in ireland. this doesn't mean anything besides the fact that i want him to feel yanked from his heritage when he goes to the nest, you'll see why in a second. kayleigh was an eventer best at show jumping and she was encouraging kevin to be the same but joining the nest messed with that. when kevin entered the nest, tetsuji sold his horse and riko's and made them get matching but not related warmblood horses instead. in the nest, kevin learned to prioritize and excel at dressage first and foremost and his love for show jumping became secondary. (jean joined and got the horse of a graduating raven who wanted to buy a new one to ride professionally with). when kevin and riko were 16, riko wanted new horses for them so tetsuji sold their old ones (and hey maybe instead jean should get kevin's old horse for maximum jean angst...). but this time, their horses weren't matching warmbloods. riko got a warmblood again but kevin insisted on getting an irish sport horse. he grew up riding them, kayleigh had owned one, and kevin just wants to feel more connected to his heritage. that and history are the only two things he got to be different with.

so kevin has an irish sport horse. he keeps his horse when he transfers to psu. and its a grey which caused so so much uproar with riko and tetsuji. because greys are born black and they lighten to white with age. but the rate of this is not identical from horse to horse. so when kevin gets his ISH, riko gets a grey warmblood but they are never as identical as riko wants them to be which he punishes kevin (and jean) for all the time. but kevin feels that it is worth it, that anything is worth it, because not only did kayleigh have an ISH, she had a grey ISH.

as established, kevin is best at dressage. canonically, his playing style is all accuracy and statistics and precision so it matches up very well with that and with the ravens being dressage heavy. but he is very very good at it all because he's kevin day. maybe over the course of being at psu he rediscovers his love for show jumping but the kevin we see in canon tends to drink instead of confronting his pain and working towards healing. so there's a chance that he is too afraid of his grief to focus on and excel at the discipline he associates with kayleigh until long after graduating. maybe wymack eventually helps with that.

nicky: okay i’m actually not too sure how nicky starts playing exy in canon. for most of these, i’ve been modifying their storyline using how they get introduced to exy but im kinda at a loss with nicky. i mean he did grow up in south carolina so like getting into riding doesn’t seem too absurd but i’m having a hard time reconciling horses with his parents…….. so uhhhh help?? 😭 (mostly joking but if anyone knows how he started playing exy and when that was, i would love to know)

when he joins psu, he rescues a horse. he would be another that would use wymack’s school approved fund to get a horse. it’s that, some of his savings, and a bit of tilda’s life insurance. i feel like nicky’s horse would be mostly thoroughbred with some quarter horse like dan’s but he would be bay. he definitely would have a blaze (a type of facial marking) and a cute little pink nose.

nicky is best at dressage and struggles with cross country. he and his horse just tend to get spooked by some of the super funky looking jumps as is common with rescues. and i think the methodical aspect of dressage would be easiest for him to understand and work towards.

andrew: andrew getting into riding goes pretty much how him getting into exy does. he’s at a juvie center in california that focuses on sports to rehabilitate and the kids with extra good behavior get to partake in this therapeutic rehabilitation program involving horses (equine therapy is actually a very real and very cool thing). the program starts by having the kids work on grooming their assigned horse. kids would go in shifts during the day, some in the morning and some at night. so there were two per horse. and the whole program emphasizes getting in touch with your emotions and how you communicate them to the world around you because horses pick up on people’s emotions very well and respond to and/or mirror them. but andrew didn’t care about all of that - it was just the best, biggest cage out of all of the offered sports. but eventually, if you behaved long enough, you got to start riding your horse and andrew really is a natural and has talent. then early parole happens and tilda takes him in and he discovers aaron’s abuse. and suddenly he has all this life insurance money. nicky comes over and is raising them and then after he is hate crimed, andrew has his hearing. part of his deal is that he has to resume equine therapy, his lawyer claiming it as the reason andrew got early parole and therefore proven to be really effective for him. the state funds this so andrew gets reconnected with horses but with his meds, things are very very different. while riding for his school, he gets scouted by riko and kevin, turns them down, and then gets scouted by wymack and accepted with nicky and aaron with him.

and so, before their freshman year starts, andrew goes to an OTTB specific rescue and uses the life insurance money to get two chestnut half sibling horses. a mare for him and a gelding for aaron. they’re practically identical which he does on purpose. he doesn’t tell aaron he’s doing this or really involve him in the process. he just gets the horses. on the psu team, only allison and andrew have mares. everyone else has geldings. this is partially just because i think it makes sense for them to have mares and partially because i enjoy the idea of them having a grudging understanding/bond that's not really a bond with each other because of it lol.

i think andrew is freakishly good at show jumping. in show jumping, you need to clear all the jumps, in the correct order, and within the allotted time. i think andrew is uncannily able to ride within that optimum time and has a knack for knowing which turns to cut, when to push, when to hold steady, etc. but he hardly ever puts in the effort to do exceedingly well before neil comes along and starts asking.

aaron: also unclear with how he starts exy in canon. do him and nicky just not play until they get to psu? that would be insane….. but would explain kevin’s frustration with them…. but still it’s insane. i have no idea if thats the case or not. again if anyone knows, please tell me lol. but regardless, i think he would secretly enjoy the emotional bond between horse and human that the sport forms. but he would rather die than have anyone know that. (kaitlyn knows. kaitlyn loves how much aaron secretly cares for his horse. and you can't have cheerleading for horses bc they get scared of loud noisy things pretty easily so idk what the cheerleaders become instead.)

aaron doesn’t appreciate andrew’s gift horse because of how andrew went without him to the rescue but he is in no position to decline so he ends up accepting him. and he eventually really likes his horse. i feel like aaron would be best at dressage and enjoy it the most. this is mostly just vibes though based in how he's studying science and science is numbers and exact methods and whatnot.

neil: neil’s introduction to the horse world is largely established already. on the run though, mary wouldn’t let him near horses at all similarly to how she forbade him from the exy world. they kept to a lot of cities so this usually wasn't a problem but mary wouldn't let him watch races on TV or anything. all contact with horses was cut off. and then she died and neil ended up in millport. it is canonically established to be a small town so i am imagining a more rural version of millport where neil ends up working as a stable hand at someone's barn to make money for food. it's a small, dying town so the idea of there not being any open jobs isn't farfetched and maybe there's this old couple who can't care for their horses as thoroughly as they would like anymore. and so when there's a new kid in town, they get him to help out at the barn. and neil willingly takes the job even though he could probably get away with not having one and just use his stolen funds, but he wants to be around horses again.

and then maybe the coach of the high school's riding team hears about neil being good with horses. this relies on the canon established narrative of everyone knowing each other in millport. so word somehow gets from the old couple to coach hernandez and next thing neil knows, the coach is asking him to join the riding team. he was going to try to join anyway because again, he misses horses and riding, but this works out perfectly and he can frame the narrative of being new to the sport better. its not a stretch since it has been so long but he still has those instincts and a solid foundational base. and on the high school team neil either just rides a school horse from the school's affiliate barn or the old couple let him ride one of their horses. neil getting recruited by wymack would go pretty much the same. hernandez sends wymack video of neil riding and it shows how neil instinctually handles the horse freaking out and doing really well. so wymack, kevin, and andrew fly out to millport and watch the last show of the season and then corner neil.

again, how neil ends up owning a horse at psu is a bit unclear. because there is no way he would be comfortable buying one at that point in his character development even though he has the funds. so maybe he is another fox who rescues a horse partially funded by wymack's approved budget? or maybe we can say that the elderly couple he was working for let him take one of their horses because they had seen how neil and the horse had bonded and liked neil's riding and knew they couldn't provide the horse with the life it wanted. some animals like to have a job. maybe that was the case with this horse and the couple couldn't physically give him what he wanted. who knows

however it happens, neil would have an anglo arabian (a breed that's a thoroughbred and arabian mix). neil having a horse that's part arabian feels so so true to me because neil is canonically a runner. arabians are known for having crazy endurance and instincts that drive them to run. all arabians i have known have this innate drive to just go go go and i feel like that lines up with neil really well. and i am picturing a bay with pretty red undertones, like its less brown then some of the other bays on the team.

neil is best at cross country. again, no one quite matches seth's fearless mastery of all cross country courses but neil is able to instinctually adapt to the varied terrain and anticipate his horse's needs and responses in a way that makes him have really successful rides. he's good at picking which option of jump will put him at a time advantage and set him up for the best terrain (in cross country, some of the jump obstacles have options which the rider can choose from) without backing away from the challenge. i also just think that millport would be more likely to focus on cross country over dressage.

he is still relatively new to eventing though which annoys seth. like i said earlier, neil joined the team to be an alternate for seth for dressage (largely just to mimick how he joins as a striker and is supposed to be a sub but seth is like no fucking way, he is a newbie). so neil not having the years to back up his riding is something that gives seth a lot of frustration. in neil's childhood, mary prioritized him learning dressage and chose lessons and trainers that would give him a very solid foundation in the discipline because she knew he would be tested to become a raven and knew how they favored dressage. so this history is still with him but neil only started doing advanced dressage tests during high school so he's nowhere close to kevin's level. him having a horse that is part arabian works with him though because arabians are very smart, can learn new skills quickly, and have a natural flowiness to their strides. so even though neil isn't where seth thinks he should be, he still performs with a beauty and well enough that seth accepts him as a sub even as he still voices his complaints. i feel like neil would also sub in for nicky for cross country at some shows. that is until seth is killed and neil joins the roster.

wymack: most schools have at least three coaches, one for each component of eventing. that way they have someone who specializes in each discipline to coach their team. the foxes do not. they just have wymack. this is something that other schools and the media give him shit for/make fun of the foxes for. its just another way they do things differently. further, i believe in indigenous wymack becuase i really like that headcanon. i will readily admit my lack of knowledge here but i do know that there are ties between indigenous riding and the western style of riding. that plus how he lives in south carolina, i am imagining that wymack primarily rode western growing up and didn't really compete in eventing, if at all. this would provide yet another thing that other schools and the media pick at the foxes about. but wymack knows how to ride english too and while he hasn't competed for it, he deeply studied eventing with kayleigh and learned to master it because of her.

i do think wymack owns a horse or maybe two of his own in this au. ones a chestnut quarter horse because its a classic and the other is an appaloosa for no other reason then that i was obsessed with them as a kid. they’re so so gorgeous and i can’t make any of the foxes own one so here we go.

abby: i'm thinking that she is a vet in this au instead of a team nurse..... i just feel like most injuries that the foxes would have would be horse injuries instead of people injuries. and having a team vet makes sense so that there is someone on standby for any problems and so that there is someone constantly monitoring how the horses are doing. but i think she has a basic knowledge of first aid because injuries of her riders would still not be good. and because foxes are foxes, her riders tend to get into fights with each other so she learns even more through learning how to patch them up.

bee: her role really wouldn't change much lol. but i like to think that she's a bit afraid of horses so she will come to local shows but like... keep her space or just be a bit hesitant cause horses intimidate her lol. i just think it would be funny. and it would give another thing for neil and aaron (and jean) to be exasperated with her about.

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the ravens really emphasize dressage. this makes a world of sense to me because of their canonical obsession which synchroneity. we know about their weird way of dressing and walking and behaving all in perfect synch and see it at banquets and whatnot. dressage is a specialty that is rooted in perfection and discipline and obedience. even without knowing much about it, those three words should say enough about why the ravens would flock to it (pun intended). they obsessively train to master dressage routines and to be perfect in every single aspect of it. this also makes sense to me because dressage is the first of the three parts of eventing. you get scored in dressage first and the way scoring works, the lower score you have, the better. to do well on a dressage test means to be as close to perfect in every movement of horse and rider as you can be because that means, less penalties and a lower score. an emphasis in dressage would mean the ravens tend to lead score wise from the very beginning. of course they train for the other two parts but having a good dressage score is a huge advantage even if you're just looking at the psychological factor on you and your opponent of being in the lead from the start. and we know the ravens love their mind games.

while it is unfortunately very likely that the ravens would abuse their horses, i really fucking cannot stand animal abuse so i'm saying no to that. the most i will allow is that their horses are fearful and don't have great bonds with their riders because of the amount of negative emotions, particularly anger, that the ravens hold. even if they are not taking it out on the animals, the horses can sense them. that combined with the ravens never personally taking care of their own horses (like grooming them, tacking, bathing, etc.), it is easy to imagine them not having the best bonds.

instead of matching cars (or maybe in addition too them lol) all the ravens have to get a new horse when they join the team. so that they are all close-to-matching bay warmbloods. the markings on their legs and faces are allowed to have slight variation but that is it. kevin is the only exception to this with his grey ISH and riko too with although he only has the different color, not breed. riko plays off their greys as a superiority choice but he is very very annoyed at kevin messing with their synchroneity.

at the nest over christmas, neil isn't allowed to bring his horse. riko forces him to ride a bay warmblood instead. and riko is trying to force neil back into the dressage first mindset over all else.

it is also common for teams to have grooms for their horses who take over some of the duties of their riders. in the tsc world, we see the three waterkids for the trojans. in this au, they become grooms instead. they help out with cleaning tack, making sure everyone has their equipment and ensuring it is where it needs to be for traveling, and maybe do stable hand duties like feeding and letting out as well. i think that some schools have their grooms actually groom and tack up the horses for their riders (like the ravens) but the trojans understand the importance of having a rider do that with their own horse to maintain that bond between horse and rider. that and they genuinely enjoy caring for their horses. so the role of their grooms is less than at some other universities.

the foxes have no grooms at all. i think that they could have the funding for it but wymack worked out his fund to buy horses instead and i think this goes along with wymack's canonical wish of not having any outsiders interact with his foxes. allison had the biggest adjustment to this when she came to psu but she does it happily because she is pursuing the future she actually wants. similarly, the foxes don't hire anyone to drive their trailers either, they do it themselves.

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Hi! Spent the entire morning playing your game and I really enjoy it. I’m so intrigued about MCs past and what’s going on with their twin, and there’s so many good characters I’m having a hard time to decide between the ROs. I have a question though, scrolling through your blog I see several asks about story I just have missed. The demo is up until Norman confronting MC but all the other readers seem to have inside information haha. Does it depend on which routes you take, is there some extra content or is it just information via your patreon? if it’s information that’s come forward via asks, which tags should I check out? Because I love this world and I’m ready to deep dive in it and the characters. Thanks in advance, and thank you for the very good story, take care!

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The demo is up until Norman confronting MC

What you've encountered is a bug that occurred due to my oversight if you didn't choose any of the ROs' scenes in Chapter 3 Pt. 1 [solo route, if you selected the "thinking about your sister" option].

I've fixed it, updated the file, and tested it: the story should now progress after Norma(n) visits the MC's office as intended [important note: you will need to clear your cache; otherwise, the bug will likely persist].

which tags should I check out?

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Apologies in advance as I have NO DOUBT that I missed including some very talented individuals and their works in this list. (This is by no means comprehensive.)

I haven't been here all that long, but wow--since day one I've been blown away by the talent in this fandom and the dedication of all the creators.

So, thank you lovely souls for sharing your beautiful art (in all its many forms) for us to enjoy--and thank you RC community as a whole for being so lovely and welcoming this past year! I am truly grateful to be screaming/crying/rewriting canon with you 💖

Give Up the Ghost by @frostbitepandaaaaa

I mean...what can I say? I love all of Frost's writing, but this was the first work I ever read of hers and it is devastating and gorgeous and will make you lose your mind. I remember the first time I read it just...lingering on certain sentences because I was in awe of how beautiful they were. Just read it. Trust me. (And then check out her WIP 12 Days afterwards!)

threshold by @astromechs

Another writer whose works I love. (Okay, that's pretty much everyone on this list--the RC fandom is so frickin talented). But for me, this fic in particular stands out as one that gives incredible insight into Cassian's character--and an adorable story overall. Heartfelt and beautiful.

built on hope by @luciechat

I am particularly obsessed with chapter 3 of this collection of prompt-writes Getting Back Together (in the Cold). Lucie paints the picture so clearly and the tension throughout is delicious. Highly recommend reading this RC Hoth fic--and Lucie's other amazing works!

we were never going to make it by @fulcrumstardust

Okay off the bat: be mindful of the tags! This was a whumptober fic and it is BIG SAD. But it is also so, so beautiful. The emotion woven throughout cuts to the bone and as painful as it was, the premise of the story was very well executed. (And if you're looking for a lighter read--maybe a spicy one--Moria's one-shot SOLAR STORM has such an incredible setup. The sexual tension is so well done.)

The RebelCaptain Romance Collection by @agentjackdaniels

I couldn't choose just one from this collection! Luce writes the softest, sweetest, fluffiest stories for RC that you will ever read. (Which makes perfect sense if you're lucky enough to get to know her because Luce is such a genuine, sweet soul.) These fics are like a warm-hug for the soul--just what you need after watching Rouge One.

the things you said by @gaygingersnaps

Again: I am not usually one for Modern AUs but I think the RC fandom is changing me and the first I ever read was Eli's amazing fic. I am obsessed with how Eli writes Jyn's internal dialogue. It's so in character and sharp and will make you smile and shake your head and go "Oh, Jyn!" This collection of stories is idiots-in-love like nothing else and you will fall in love with the world Eli has so thoughtfully crafted for a modern-day RC.

objection, your honor by @andorerso

I'm not usually one for modern AUs, but this fic is just so much fun. The banter between Cass and Jyn is so in character and so sharp and witty and the whole time I was reading I had a grin on my face. (These two idiots.) I love all the little details Sissi considers in this AU (Chewie being the dog for example), but that's no surprise! She is the queen of AUs!

Tethered (to the Story We Must Tell) by @dilf-din

I just absolutely loved the setup for this fic. Jess manages to fit these characters into a magical world so seamlessly by embedding the most incredible details from the Star Wars universe. (I was obsessed with the "stormtroopers".) Jess's writing is so smooth and rich and will immediately grab your attention.

Coping Mechanisms by @mosylufanfic

I think this was the first fic I ever read of mosylu's! I love the way she writes Jyn--always perfectly in character, strong and sassy. But in this fic in particular, I love the softness she brings to Jyn in how she cares for Cassian. I found it to be a very beautiful, healing read. (But if you're looking for something a bit longer or more upbeat! I mean, take your pick. Mosylu is another author who is amazing at AUs and her works are always such fun reads.)

RC Proposal by @ninsletamain

I could have put any of nins' pieces down as a rec. (Like seriously go scroll her feed she's insanely talented and her work blows my mind everytime without fail). But I chose this one because it is just so rich and full of detail, I love the story it tells, and you cannot help but smile whenever you look at it.

Claw Machine by @winterdruid

Definitely an all-time favorite for me. I remember making a joke about claw-machine as a first date when I was doing a RO rewatch with some friends and then this masterpiece showed up on my feed and my jaw dropped?! It's so fun and cute and well-done and I reblog it every time I see it soooo.

Seashore (for RC Fluffbruary) by @adeptnenyim

I love the scenery, their poses, their expressions, the quote?! Ahhh all of it! Nen's art is so soft and special and gives me all the feels and this one is no exception.

BTS of RO Inspired by @art-question-mark

I have always loved the picture this piece is based off of. In my head, it is happy Jyn and Cass. In my head, it is canon. Natalie's style is so beautiful and I love some of the quotes Natalie pulls from the Rogue One novel to go with the art!

Pretty Cute by @muguathepapaya

This piece is super cute and exactly what they deserved. I'm obsessed. Gives me all the warm and fuzzies. Sunshine on a rainy day, so gorgeous.

Time to Wake Up by @eegnm

Okay are you noticing the theme yet? I love seeing these two happy, and this scene in particular is just so...warm. I love the cuddly vibes, their expressions, all of it. You can feel the love in it.

losers by @necr0mancers

I am obsessed with the look they are exchanging. Very conspiratorial and so true to them. I also just love the style of this artists' works and the sense of humor woven through many of their pieces.

Elevator Scene by @satmolly

Nope I actually do not have words for this one. I think it says enough. (This happened, and it happened just like this and it is so very beautiful).

Favorite Scene (beach) by @dramaticmusicplaying

Another one that leaves me speechless. (Okay, they ALL do I feel like I am not doing these artists justice I'M SORRY). I just think this piece captures the beach perfectly and I love the style and all the colors and I kinda need to cry after looking at it okay?!

Jyn/Cassian Smooch by @barrikae

I am totally obsessed with this artist's style and this image in particular is just: ahhhhh! You know? Like look at themmmmm. Thank you for this barrikae.

Space Travel by @freebooter4ever

Your honor, they are holding hands and they are so very sleepy and I am so very in love with this piece. I love the artist's style and again, amazing scene set. Lives rent free in my mind.

Tagging creators for this one vs specific sets (cause you CANNOT make me choose honestly) and linking this post I wrote awhile back about how incredible I think you all are! (As in: I specifically had RC creators in mind when I wrote that post.)

*This is the list I am most nervous about cause I am almost certain I am forgetting people so if you see this and you make gifs for RC please know I love you and your work <3

@bartowskis

@staticwaffles

@jyndor

@andorerso

@jemmasimmons

@sydneyadmu

@garethsedwards

@gizkalord

@kalikoris

@dailyrebelcaptain

@therebelcaptainnetwork

[hellaverseconfessions1369420]

Long confession ahead, apologies in advance.

Look, I don't get heated about shipping. I like what I like, and I look at things I like. If I don't like whatever someone is posting, I'll filter the tags, and if they aren't using the tags appropriately, I will block them. It's fairly easy for me to avoid ships I personally dislike most of the time. I do all of the things I'm supposed to, and yet I'm still having this problem.

There is one singular ship on God's green earth that kills all of my enjoyment for both of the characters involved, and it is radioapple. I have never felt such strong emotions about any other ship before in any of the fandoms I'm part of. It's fucking everywhere. I genuinely cannot use this website if I want to see Lucifer or Alastor fanart/fanfic, and I'm not moving sites.

But God. I'm so fucking sick and tired of seeing "this post contains filtered content: #radioapple." When S1 first came out, I counted 37 blocked posts in a row on top of #Alastor on one given day. I had to scroll through 37 blocked fucking posts before I found ONE that wasn't about fucking radioapple. And that isn't counting all the OTHER Alastor ships, because of course that's all anyone gives a shit about anymore.

I'm on mobile, so I can't use browser extensions to make Tumblr's filtering system actually do what I want it to (delete every radioapple post, forever). I also don't feel like buying a laptop for fucking Tumblr. I've been getting back into HH after falling out of it for a while for related reasons, and I forgot how much angrier and more unhappy I am coming out of #Alastor or (to a lesser extent) #Lucifer than when I went in. Which is super awesome considering they're my two faves.

I wish I was kidding when I say I have actually cried real tears more than once over this. I'm aroace, and I thought maybe for once I'd get to feel at least a little bit included and represented in fandom as a whole. I thought having a canon aroace character would be that for me, at least one tag I could semi-comfortably browse and feel like I'm actually part of shit and not a spectator for once, but obviously not. I don't even get to look at fanart of a character I enjoy without being constantly reminded of how different and alone I am, even when that character is different in exactly the same way as me. Even characters like Alastor that are written to be like me aren't written for me. Because why would anyone create anything for someone like me to enjoy when they could instead jam a little more sex and romance in there?

I once scrolled through #Alastor blocking all the radioapple posters for so long that I reached the bottom of the page. Tumblr would not show me any more posts and I had to reload it. I blocked 209 different blogs, and it barely made a dent. 209. I can't curate my way out of this. I genuinely think I just don't get to like those characters anymore, and it fucking sucks. I want my deer man back.

TL;DR: I cannot enjoy these characters I deeply relate to with how prevalent and fucking inescapable this one ship is, and I'm not sure how to fix it. Frankly I'm not sure it's fixable, but I would love it if this wasn't something else I just don't get to have like everyone else. Someone tell me what to do about this. I want to have fun too.

I understand why you would think that. I’m probably aroaceflux and I can see some alastor in me (aroacewise, not serial killer wise) and why you wouldn’t want to see the ships you don’t like. Unfortunately that’s how many fandoms work, they’ll just keep shipping.

to be honest, I don’t know what to say, but thanks for the confession and I hope things get better for you

[arminthada]

someone asks me abt cfans reaction to ep. 4 and boi is it JUST as polarising as the international fans reaction.

of course, on the one hand you have a handful of "oh ming is not scummy enough for 188 scum ml" or "there's not enough conflict and tension because the scene is so short" or "they should have kept him meaner like the novel"

on the other hand, you also have many cfans praising up and poom for their performances in this ep and how this scene was adapted well so that it's so much more mild but still gets the message across.

the biggest difference you definitely won't see opinions like "ming is such a terrible character i hope he doesn't get together with joe"

but was it easy to read through the backhanded compliments for the writing while also shading up poompat's visual ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ (eg: "it's easy to see that the series had to modify yan ming xiu character bc the actor's appearance is not good enough to make him less a scumbag. after all, if ymx is ugly and scumbag, it is impossible to understand why zhou xiang can tolerate him again and again. i feel that after the adaptation, ymx is no longer so mean, and the character has been beautified a lot.")

... so not at all easy... so i apologize in advance for the anon who sent me the ask abt cfans reaction to ep.4 (if you come across this in the msi tag) bc my blood is boiling from reading all the backhanded compliments about up's acting vs his visual like gahhhhhhhhh. i will get to this ask eventually (because there's A LOT of praises for ep.4) but for now i think i should lay off reading ppl's opinions about ep.4 bc just the slightest mean comment abt an actor's appearance can make my mood down for the entire day.

up poompat is insanely handsome and is the perfect MING (not yan ming xiu) to ME. and all other opinions is invalid (i'm simply blind, do not @ me).

[geode-crystal]

Intro Post

Hello everyone! Call me Crystal (she/her or they/them, no huge preferences here). I've been a Whump and Hurt/Comfort enjoyer forever, but only recently discovered the whump community. Finally decided to throw my hat in the ring!

Made this little blog as a treasure trove to hoard all my favorite whump, angst, and hurt/comfort posts and art like a dragon. I plan to put my own whump thoughts/concepts up here as well (and maybe I'll be tempted into original writing if I see a really good prompt or something 🥰) because I love seeing my characters beat up until they crack open like geodes.

I am An Adult (TM) so there might be a couple NSFW things up here, but they will all be tagged appropriately.

Apologies in advance to all the whump blogs I'm about to spam reblog from lol

Likes/squicks under the cut, as well as the start of a masterlist!

Likes

Unbroken Vigil (my favorite trope ever)

Magic Whump

Sooo many other things related to Magic Whump

Nonhuman whumpee (merfolk, winged beings, any of the fun nonhuman beings you can play as in DnD...)

Bound and gagged

Kidnap and Rescue

Used as Bait (and Forced to Watch)

Caretaker x Whumpee (because I am a hopeless romantic)

Recovery Whump

Heroic Last Stand

Dislikes

Major Character Death (I need my happy endings)

Severe body modification (anything huge and unrecoverable)

Noncon

Masterlist!

Darius and Mianu stories

Used as Bait Part 1

Used as Bait Part 2

"Don't touch him" (ask response)

Control (song lyric prompt)

The Weight of the Crown (a response to a whump prompt)

Magic With a Price (for Magic Whump Week)

Cursed (for Magic Whump Week)

Collapse (for Magic Whump Week)

"Collapse" but from Darius' POV (ask response)

Random Darius and Mianu info stuff

Torture Ask Game response

Oc Ask Game 1

"Bold What Applies" tag game

Gail Carson Levine's Character Profile (tag game response)

"Find the Word" tag game

"Random Headcanon Generator" tag game

Darius and Mianu Picrew

Mianu Picrew

Two OC's in 15 (fun dialogue tag game, both bois)

OC Ask Game 2 (tag game, just Mianu this time)

Mianu's Scars (tag game response)

Characters and their room (tag game response)

Ask Game "for the cute boys"

More of that same ask game

And another one from that same ask game (you're all so nice!)

Darius and Mianu Smoochin' (picrew)

Unrelated Drabbles

Resurrection (for Magic Whump Week)

Shocking Grasp (for Magic Whump Week)

[ask-lance-crown]

Introduction

My name is Lance. I'm a 2nd year student at Easton Academy and a Divine Visionary. I have an annoying roommate named Dot. Anna and Lemon prompted me to go on the internet and make a 'blog' to document daily life because I need new hobbies. There are not many interesting aspects of my life besides Anna (which is now a banned topic), but if you have questions or comments about other things, I can perhaps to respond to them.

See below for additional information.

Hobbies

Reading (primarily non-fiction)

Cleaning

Cooking/baking

Tea

Spending time with my sister

Navigation

Lance posts / chronological order (note that not all things on the blog are tagged "Lance posts" and might be missing from there)

[Admin notes: for any OOC messages]

[Lore compilation: list of fun bits of info included in previous posts / summary of plot up to present]

Admin Info ------------------------

Gen

There will be some underlying continuous plot.

I won't respond to every ask, or responses may be very delayed. It depends on if the asks are appropriate, the volume received, my availability, where it was put in the queue (as this blog runs almost entirely on a queue), and what is in line with the plot I'm building at the time. Some messages might be saved for later.

In-character responses to asks might be rude, cold, or dismissive. Lance is a jackass. But I love yall, I prommy.

I'm an adult but the character is still a teen. No NSFW, but some suggestive is ok.

This is a sideblog run by @farlynthordens, so I can't follow from this blog.

Art

Most posts and replies will be text based.

Art will be infrequent and likely on the lazy side (sketchy/not fully colored) but use your imaginations here.

RPing

I will not do private RPs.

If there's other mashle ask blogs out there and you want to have our characters interact, DM me with info/ideas so we can set up something.

I apologize in advance if this blog ends up dying in the not so distant future. i have a tendency to start projects and be obsessed with them for a few months before forgetting they exist. oops

[quzen]

Howdy! Welcome to my little corner of the internet ੈ✩‧₊˚ I go by Quinn or Zen ੈ✩‧₊˚ He/They/Xe/Fae/Eel ੈ✩‧₊˚ Nonbinary Poly Lesbian >:3c ੈ✩‧₊˚ 19

Notes!! ੈ✩‧₊˚ I reblog a lot, i apologize in advance ੈ✩‧₊˚ My Ask box is usually always open, feel free to ramble in there or ask me things :D Just be decent and ill answer it ੈ✩‧₊˚ If you want our ocs to interact you are always free to ask! ੈ✩‧₊˚ While currently primarily TWST, I am multifandom ੈ✩‧₊˚ VERY IMPORTANT: I am not capable of donating, but i am capable of reblogging. With that said, id love to direct you to this post, which has links to places far more helpful than me ੈ✩‧₊˚ I play both EN and JP TWST | I'm NOT spoiler free, but i do try my best to tag spoilers ☽｡⋆ EN (Main): YTx6nTFf (Name: Quzen) ☽｡⋆ EN (Jamidia Alt): msXdKb12 (Name: Jamidia) ☽｡⋆ JP: YAHxMS74 (Name: Quzen) ੈ✩‧₊˚ I say hun and dear to everyone, something i picked up from my mom. If it does make you uncomfortable please let me know.

Links, Alt Acc & Hashtags ੈ✩‧₊˚ #quzenocs - Pretty much any of my ocs can be found here, tho its currently mostly TWST ੈ✩‧₊˚ #astrostaros - Currently has nothing but if you are ever curious about personal ocs that's where they'll be found ੈ✩‧₊˚ ALL of my twst ocs have their own tag, far too many to list here so if you need a specific one it can probably be found by searching their name ੈ✩‧₊˚ @midnightcornerstop - My Sideblog (THIS IS AN 18+ BLOG SO ONLY FOLLOW IT IF YOU ARE OKAY THANKS-) ੈ✩‧₊˚ Toyhouse ੈ✩‧₊˚ Strawpage ੈ✩‧₊˚ TWST OC Post (Somewhat outdated currently) ੈ✩‧₊˚ Saiyuu Intro Post ੈ✩‧₊˚ Mozie Intro Post ੈ✩‧₊˚ Everturrim Dorm Members 1 & 2 ੈ✩‧₊˚ The Fankids | Masterlist ੈ✩‧₊˚ A Masterpost for ocs will be made eventually i promise

Hey Listen! ੈ✩‧₊˚ Absolutely DO NOT interact with me if you are homophobic or transphobic, Im very openly queer and pretty much every media i interact with has some level of it too. I will not argue with anyone on this because we both know its a waste of fuckin time right? Its better for the both of us to simply move on or block.

Other Interests + Faves ੈ✩‧₊˚ BSD [Poe ✰ Ranpo ✰ Sigma] ੈ✩‧₊˚ FFXIV [Erenville ✰ Wuk Lamat ✰ Yotsuyu] ੈ✩‧₊˚ Obey Me [ Barbatos ✰ Leviathan ✰ Beel] ੈ✩‧₊˚ R1999 [ Anjo Nala ✰ Zima ✰ Horrorpedia] ੈ✩‧₊˚ KH [Riku ✰ Vanitas ✰ Aqua] ੈ✩‧₊˚ I'd Add more but it'd be so long T uT

More detailed info under cut

☽｡⋆ I play EN and JP TWST, which means i get info for both. I also headcanon a shit ton so if that's not your thing, im probably not the person to follow. ☽｡⋆ When i draw characters, theyll look somewhat different from canon ☽｡⋆ As stated before, this blog ISN'T spoiler free. I do my best to tag things as spoilers for JP but occasionally it slips my mind so. EN related things wont really ever be tagged as spoilers other than Book 7

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☽｡⋆ I do draw OC x Canon, alongside Canon x Canon ☽｡⋆ I share? ig? i dont really know how it works but i dont mind interacting with those that ship with the same character, in fact i think its very cool that we appreciate these characters similarly! ☽｡⋆ I like a lot of ships and have quite a few ocxcanon ships so if you dont like that or are non-sharing, this may not be the place for you dear

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☽｡⋆ Im 19! Which means im an adult. Regardless of that, this blog will not have NSFW past dumb jokes a highschooler would make ☽｡⋆ Things that DO fall under that but not even to be NSFW will be tagged

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☽｡⋆ Tagging me in things is fine, as long as we are moots ☽｡⋆ You are always free to ask me to be moots, unless something really throws me off on your blog, i'll usually say yes ☽｡⋆ With that said, if your account frequently shows heavy gore or spiders, please do not ask me. Nothing against you but i absolutely am terrified of both, thank you for understanding ):D ☽｡⋆ If you do not respect this one request, I will block you so fuckin fast.

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☽｡⋆ Credits for layout

[shichidikai]

tagged by the wonderful @strawhattery to answer 20 questions for fic writers! tysm bree!! 💕

how many works do you have on ao3?

5 😌 (i swear more are on the way)

what's your total ao3 word count?

74,650

what are your top five fics by kudos?

help i only have 5 lmao, well:

good in red (op, zosan)

till all the seas run dry (op, zolu)

so(u)l (op, zoro/zolu)

creation, and joy, and god, maybe (op, zoro/zolu)

act 4, scene 5 (op, buggy with a hint of shuggy)

(this is so funny because i only have one published zosan but they're out here dominating 95% of my current wips ksjhlkshlh)

what fandoms do you write for?

currently a one piece writing machine* 🫡

*efficiency not guaranteed

do you respond to comments? why or why not?

yes! i love love love hearing people's thoughts about my stories, and am so appreciative every time that someone takes a moment out of their day not only to read, but to let me know that they enjoyed what i wrote, and being able to chat with them about the elements that spoke to them, the characters, etc. is a part of fandom that i value a lot!

what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

act 4, scene 5 (sad clown noises)

what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

hmm.... good in red is happy feelsgood, but till all the seas is like... a super sappy idealized wrap-up, so i'll give it the edge

do you get hate on fics?

thankfully no (not yet? 😰 knocking on many wooden things)

do you write smut?

for someone with basically zero experience writing it in my early days, i somehow decided that it was a great idea to lean 200% into it as soon as i picked writing back up, so... yes, yes i do.

do you write crossovers?

(shoving ff.net under the rug) no never haha! ha

have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope, not that i'm aware of at least

have you ever had a fic translated?

nope (but if anyone's interested...)

have you ever cowritten a fic before?

not yet, but i do think it could be a super interesting thing to try! (with about five thousand apologies in advance to my cowriter skjhlkjsh)

what's your all time favourite ship?

OH... MAN. this is legit really hard to say definitively, but vashwood, zosan, orufrey, and kagehina are all up there at the top

what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

ngl the elisabeth das musical zosan au might end up this way? but as long as i'm still writing, there's always hope!

what are your writing strengths?

i'd like to think that my dialogue is engaging, my pacing is decent, i have good comedic timing, and that my overall plots (while maybe nothing groundbreaking) are fun and entertaining 🥺

what are your writing weaknesses?

OVERPLANNING, overwriting, and overthinking in general. needing to write in order and being a terminal edit-as-i-go person, which makes it difficult to continue, then getting upset that i'm not progressing akjhskjhs. i fear i'm always walking the fine line between "girl who just likes to yap and wants you to see this as clearly as she does" and writing in circles with purple prose, and i tend to latch onto both my outlines and specific lines/portions that i write far too strongly and have a really hard time letting them go, even when it becomes apparent that they're a big part of what's holding me back (actively working on a lot of this though, and i do think i'm getting a bit better!)

thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i'm most comfortable incorporating other languages as single words or phrases, but if it served the purpose of the fic to have full dialogue, i'd also just want to have a native speaker to check with or i'd be terrified to royally mess it up lmao

first fandom you wrote for?

gundam wing... (creaks in my rocking chair) you see, little ones... back then, we wrote 1x2x1... lemons... limes....

favourite fic you've ever written?

stylistically it's good in red, but till all the seas will always have my heart for the sheer number of cheeky canon references i managed to cram into it and the fact that i simply had SO much fun while writing it!

tagging @okayprairie, @ghost-maya, @incalamity, @kakuriyo, and @summerofspock if any of you haven't done it already and would like to!

[lovckett]

I've been really enjoying your fanfic fractured continuity and because I'm a nosey af guy (and because I'm a weirdo who likes asking these things of fanfic authors whose stories I like) what's your writing process? Even though the whole thing in your fic is that things are repeating, each chapter still feels fresh and new.

hi hi hello !!! and im glad to know you've been enjoying my work (: my apologies in advance for the long rant !

for my writing process : to provide context , i use one document in google docs and have a multitude of seperate tabs !!!

each tab is a different fic i'm currently working on — the tabs labeled " NOTES " are where i put my messy drafts and ideas , which is what i do before writing the actual story !! for these , i usually just word spam and i do not put much care into making it intricate ; my main goal is to get the idea across .

i start each chapter by writing the " core " plot of that specific chapter first ...

and then i surround those " core plots " with more detail after i manage to haphazardly get my idea down !!

my goal for each chapter i write is around 7k words — i do not strictly stay in my drafts before writing the official thing . after i get a giant chunk of things jotted down , i switch over to my official story tab , and i rinse and repeat until i reach my goal !!!

and i am aware my story is tagged as not-beta-read — this is because i'm usually too tired to reread the story AGAIN , so i usually just make minor edits to already existing chapters on ao3 when i feel like it and when i have the time to (: . sometimes , while i edit , i will add more details that i did not add before [ like with the comm-messages in the beginning ] !!!

for how each chapter is fresh and new : before i started writing this , i actually thought about how i would go about the concept of writing repeated-time-loops for a while without it being boring to read and tedious to write .

my first choice was just to write orion going through a multitude of repeated time loops as short excerpts before something happens where orion realizes fully what's going on , and then the main " plot " being orion and his friends going through silly loops like the fic i was inspired from !!! but the idea of doing that felt a little boring and unoriginal to me , because it would eventually just devolve into a bunch of short multi-one-shot-amalgamation .

so i decided , what if i actually wrote out orion's first experiences with time loops in full detail ? and , cue the fanfare , fractured continuity has been born !!!

for repeated time loop fics , i do not think the concept of how a character would feel during those first few loops is very well-explored , which is probably partially why each of my chapters feel so new — i make an active effort to explore those hypothetical feelings , which is especially fun with a character like orion pax !!!

the actual main reason for the lack of repetitiveness is because uhm . well . this feels a little silly to say but i get bored easily and i tend to find ways to sidestep or shortcut through as many things as i can that i have already written about ( this is why in his second loop , orion Awoke directly before meeting alpha trion instead of all the way in the beginning !!! i excuse this as that sometimes Awakening times can differentiate and do not happen at the same time constantly . )

NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT : and i apologize for my messiness and ranting again , i am walking home while typing this out ( do not copy me ) ( this is an unsafe practice ) — the flexibility that the Infinite Time Loops Concept gives me is probably another factor toward this !!! i can give perfectly reasonable explanations for plotholes ive accidentally created and they will make legitimate sense without making it feel as though i am slapping tape over it all !!!

i do not think i have anything further to say . i hope my explanation is at least somewhat tangible !!

[scumashling]

Welcome newcomers! You can call me Ash (any pronouns).

About this account

•i made this account after realizing I've been into whump for years without knowing it and discovering that I'm not alone in finding comfort in fiction about characters being put through emotional and or physical hell. I've often struggled with intense shame related to my interest in whump, especially as it's tied to my own trauma, so learning about this community has felt like a huge weight off my chest.

Fan Of: defiant whumpee, intimate whumper, female whump, living weapon, non con body modification, drugged Whumpee, revenge whump, dehumanization, fantasy whump, Bastard whumpee, religious whump, Whumpee turned Whumper, Bad Caretaker and nsfwhump

Squicked by: severe infantilization, by extension a lot of pet whump, mpreg, Taken style kidnapped and trafficking whump. Not big on yanderes/stalking portrayed as romantic

Triggers: most of my triggers in fiction are circumstantial but let it be known: if you post qanon conspiracy shit about trafficking I will immediately block you.

•I'm fairly new to tumblr and am still trying to get a feel for how things work around here, both in terms of the people and the site itself, so I apologize in advance for any possible future faux pas. I'm also a novice writer and still building my confidence in it, but I do I intend to post some of my own fiction, art, and memes.

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[ryomku]

thank you satoru - gojo satoru

synopsis: Thanks for looking at the cherry blossoms with me Satoru.

character: Gojo Satoru

tags: gojo satoru x reader, gn! reader, one sided crush, angst, no happy ending, use of y/n, no curses au!

a/n: apologies in advance for any mistakes, english is not my first language, curse you gege this is all your fault, not proofread it's like 1 am y'all I'm just sad and stressed lmao

a/n 2: took some inspo from the song: 8 Letters by Why Don't We.

You are the one who knows me best and the one who hurts me most, yet here we are seeing each other.

“Why do I pull you close but then ask you for space?”

“Am I just hurting myself?”

“Why is it so difficult to tell you that I love you?”

Isn't it amazing?

Like every day we meet without missing a beat, days where we love and hate each other.

“Are we going to change it?”

We don't know yet.

“Can I touch your heart?”

“How can I get closer to you?”

Surely I won't be able to, knowing how you are like with a heart that's as hard as stone and cold as ice. Yet, you made mine fragile like glass I am at my limit and anything can easily break it.

“Will the day that I deserve you come by?”

Let me be your love.

It's always you, you're always the one who hurts me, you make an impact in my life.

“Why can't I make an impact in your life?”

I know that if I curse at you it won't hurt, I know that if I yell at you it won't matter and I know that if I leave you won't miss me.

I know you don't love me and I still want to keep trying to win you over even if it's in vain.

“Could you do me a favor, Satoru?” Although I wanted to look into your eyes at that moment, mine only focused on the cherry blossoms and the soft pink petals that fall softly and delicately touch the ground.

I know he doesn't care about me but I still want him to do one last thing for me, I know I've bothered him too much but this is the last thing I ask of you my friend.

“What do you want me to do idiot?”

“Could you take me outside to see the cherry blossoms?”

I know I'm asking a lot of you, but please just do this for me. I fell for you many years ago and I want to be in your arms this time once and for all.

“Sure, I'll take you right now if that's okay.”

“Perfect.”

Every look, every touch makes me want to give you all of me, but I can't and I never will be able to, I know, I know that I don't deserve you and that I'm not enough for you, but at least my dream will come true.

You took me by the hand to the backyard of my house, helped me go down the stairs and stopped every time I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I'm sorry to give you so much work for this last favor.

We walked to the other side of the garden and sat under the cherry tree, as always sitting next to each other. I didn't like it but since this is the last favor I ask of you, I might as well change things. With some effort I got up from my place and let myself fall gently between your legs sensing that you were startled by how sudden everything was, I took your arms and put them around my shoulders so that you could give me a hug.

“Sometimes I wonder, what would happen if I found a soul like mine?”

“What do you mean dumbass?” Those ways you call me don't hurt me anymore Gojo, nothing hurts me anymore.

“I would like to find someone who loves me like I love that person, I want someone who loves me for who I am and not for what I do or what I can give them, I want someone who understands me and is there for me when needed, I would have loved to meet someone like that.”

“You and your love things.”

I know you don't understand them because you don't feel it the way I feel it for you Satoru, I know you don't feel it and you won't.

The sky was painted in dark colors and the clouds looked even more beautiful than before. I adore sunsets and even more so if it's with someone I love, even if that someone doesn't love me like I love them.

I wanted to tell you what I felt at that moment but I know that if I do you will live with that guilt that you did nothing to love me more and I don't like when you feel guilty, I wanted us to have a future in which we continued playing and being side by side like we've done since we were children but Satoru I can't do it anymore.

If I could be half of what you think of me, I could learn to do anything and maybe then you could love me for who I am.

I always thought I was bad but look at you, you are the best, how much I adore you and how much I love you.

Thank you for all these years my faithful friend, my confidant and my love, I will never be able to thank you for everything you have done for me, but at least I enjoyed all these years by your side my beloved, but it is time to go, maybe it hurts you that I'm leaving or maybe not, but I want to think that I am special to you and that at least in some way you love me, even if it's just as a friend.

Thank you for letting yourself be loved without knowing it.

“Thank you for seeing the cherry blossoms with me Satoru, thank you.”

“No problem, I don't mind doing this with you Y/N.”

You very rarely called me by my name, thank you for doing it in the end Satoru

“Satoru, I adore you.”

For the last time I felt my face get wet from the hot tears that I shed for the last time and for the last time I was able to see the cherry blossoms.

Closing my eyes along with the last beats of this sick heart.

Thank you Gojo Satoru, I love you.

The white haired boy felt his friend's body go limp in his arms, tightening the hug on the other body to feel its warmth.

“Did you fall asleep Y/N?”

His friend was finally in eternal slumber, it's a shame that the blue eyed boy didn't notice and slept next to his already dead friend.