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THE POET AND THE ROSE

Content : kissing, deaths, injuries, stitching, descriptions of battle, stabbing, fluff.

A/N : 7.1k words damn I can’t get enough of these two and it’s only chapter 5 💀. Anyway y’all are thirsty asf for this fic so here’s chapter 5 that I sprinkled with some ✨DRAMA✨ to sent y’all into orbit. MAMA IS FEEDING YOU TODAY !!!

꧁ Chapter 5 : The Enemy Hides in Lies ꧂

From the Lays of General Anakin Skywalker, XIII century

The dawn breaks soft on battered lands,

A fleeting peace in trembling hands.

Yet love, like spring, begins to grow,

A fragile bloom through frost and woe.

The great hall was a theater of shadows, the flickering torchlight casting distorted shapes along the walls as nobles gathered around the grand oak table. The air was heavy with the scent of wax and wine, but beneath the surface, an invisible current of tension rippled through the room. Anakin stood at the head of the table, his posture commanding, his eyes sharp. Every face he looked upon was a puzzle to be solved—a potential piece in a game of betrayal he was only beginning to decipher.

Count Aulbry was the first to speak, as Anakin expected. The man always seized the moment, his voice a blend of false concern and barely veiled condescension. "My lord, your victories on the northern front are, of course, commendable. Few could have led our armies with such skill against Wallace and his men."

There was a pause, artfully calculated.

"But it does leave me wondering… Has our focus on the Scots left the kingdom vulnerable to other threats? A prolonged absence of leadership often invites… instability."

Anakin’s expression remained stony, though his grip tightened ever so slightly on the armrest of his chair. "Instability arises when men forget where their loyalties lie, Count," he said, his voice low but cutting. "Is there something specific you fear, or are these merely idle musings?"

Aulbry smiled, but it did not reach his eyes. "Idle musings, perhaps. One cannot help but notice certain… tensions in the southern provinces. Grain shipments have been delayed, and a few towns have reported unrest. A minor matter, I’m sure, but in times of peace, even minor matters deserve attention."

The mention of the grain shipments was not new to Anakin—he had already received reports from his stewards—but hearing it from Aulbry made the matter feel calculated, as if the Count was laying a trap with his words. Anakin’s gaze swept the room, noting the subtle shifts in posture among the other nobles. Whispers had begun to circulate in court—whispers that spoke of dissatisfaction, of plots brewing in the shadows.

"Minor matters, indeed," Anakin replied, his voice measured. "Rest assured, I have already taken steps to address them. The people will not starve under my watch."

"And yet," Aulbry pressed, "it is curious that such disruptions would occur now, so soon after your triumphant return. It almost seems as if—"

"Almost seems as if what, Count?" Anakin interrupted, his tone cold and final.

Aulbry hesitated, his smile faltering for the briefest moment. "Only that perhaps certain… elements may be testing the limits of this fragile peace. We must all remain vigilant, my lord. Especially you."

The words hung in the air like smoke. Anakin held Aulbry’s gaze, his silence more oppressive than any retort. When he finally spoke, his words were deliberate. "Vigilance is a duty I take seriously, Count. Perhaps you should do the same."

Aulbry bowed his head slightly, but Anakin saw the flicker of frustration in his eyes. The Count was testing boundaries, pushing at the edges of loyalty and decorum. And he was not alone.

The meeting concluded with the scrape of chairs and murmured pleasantries as the nobles filtered out. Anakin remained seated, his eyes following each man and woman as they departed. Only Aulbry lingered, his steps slow and deliberate as he approached the head of the table.

"My lord," the Count said, his tone dripping with false sincerity. "I hope you do not take my concerns as criticism. I only wish to see the kingdom prosper under your leadership."

"Prosperity does not grow from doubt, Count," Anakin replied, standing to his full height. "If you truly wish to see the kingdom flourish, you might begin by trusting the men who fight to protect it."

Aulbry’s lips twitched into a tight smile. "Wise words, my lord. I shall take them to heart."

Anakin watched as the Count left, the tension in the room finally breaking with his departure. But the unease in Anakin’s chest did not fade.

Later that night, Anakin stood on the battlements, the cold wind tugging at his cloak. Below, the village was a patchwork of flickering lights, its quiet hum a stark contrast to the silent storm raging in his mind. He could feel it—an undercurrent of unrest threading its way through the kingdom, subtle but insistent. The signs were everywhere: delays in supplies, vague reports of unrest, the growing boldness of men like Aulbry.

War had taught him to trust his instincts, and they were screaming now. He did not yet have proof, but he knew—knew—that something was amiss.

The crown weighed heavier on him with each passing day. He had fought for peace, had bled for it, but peace was proving to be a battlefield of its own. The enemy was not an army but a shadow, shifting and elusive. And shadows, he knew, could only be banished by light.

He rested a hand on the hilt of his sword, its familiar weight grounding him. He would find the truth, and when he did, there would be no room for mercy. For now, he would play their game, but he would play to win.

The castle felt colder tonight, the stone walls seeming to echo every hesitant footstep you took. A fire crackled in the hearth of your chambers, but its warmth did little to ease the chill that had settled deep within you. You sat at your desk, a blank sheet of parchment before you, the quill in your hand trembling as you contemplated what you were about to do.

How much could you tell him? How much should you tell him?

The betrayal weighed heavily on your chest, a burden you could no longer ignore. Your father’s plans had become clearer with each passing day, his letters to Count Aulbry a chilling reminder that you were nothing more than a pawn in a game of power. And yet, to expose him would mean condemning your family—your blood.

But Anakin...

Anakin, with his unyielding strength and sharp mind, had become more than just a reluctant husband. He was your partner, your protector, your anchor in a world that seemed to shift beneath your feet. The thought of betraying him, even through silence, filled you with a guilt so fierce it was almost unbearable.

You dipped the quill into the ink and began to write, the words flowing out in a code you hoped he would understand.

"Beware the hand that offers peace but hides a dagger. Trust not the smile that does not reach the eyes. The enemy within wears the guise of a friend."

You hesitated, then folded the parchment carefully, sealing it with wax. The message was cryptic enough to avoid suspicion should it fall into the wrong hands, but you prayed Anakin’s sharp mind would unravel its meaning.

The castle’s long corridors seemed quieter than ever that morning, the weight of your secrets pressing down on every step you took. You carried a tray of tea in your hands, the porcelain rattling faintly against the silver as your fingers trembled.

Anakin had returned just days ago, his presence both a comfort and a torment. He was closer now than ever before, yet the chasm between your love and the truths you withheld felt insurmountable. Every glance, every touch, every whispered word only deepened the ache inside you.

You paused outside his study, steadying yourself before entering. The door creaked softly as you pushed it open, revealing him hunched over the table, his broad shoulders tense as he studied the maps and reports before him. Sunlight filtered through the tall windows, casting golden highlights in his dark hair.

When he looked up, the weariness in his expression softened instantly, replaced by something warmer. Something reserved for you.

“You shouldn’t carry such things yourself,” he said, standing quickly to meet you. His voice was firm, but the faint curve of a smile betrayed his gratitude.

“And yet I wished to,” you replied with a small smile of your own.

You crossed the room to set the tray on the table, your movements deliberate, though your heart raced with the anticipation of what you were about to do. As you placed the tea before him, your fingers brushed his—just a fleeting touch, but one that sent warmth spiraling through you.

“You spoil me,” he said, his tone quiet but tinged with humor.

“You deserve spoiling,” you replied, your words light but sincere.

His gaze lingered on you for a moment longer than necessary, and you could feel the weight of his attention. Your breath hitched as you stepped back, sliding the folded note beneath one of the maps. Your hand hovered for a moment, but then you turned, ready to leave before your courage faltered.

But Anakin’s hand caught yours, his grip firm yet tender, halting you in your tracks.

“Stay,” he said, his voice low, but with a quiet insistence that left no room for refusal.

You hesitated only a moment before nodding, allowing him to guide you to a seat beside him. The distance between you closed, and suddenly the room felt smaller, the world beyond the study’s walls forgotten.

For a time, there was only silence between you, save for the soft crackle of the fire in the hearth. You could feel his presence beside you, solid and grounding, yet there was an unspoken tension in the air—a weight neither of you could name.

Finally, he broke the quiet.

“I’ve missed you,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper, as though confessing a forbidden truth. “More than I realized I could.”

The words struck something deep within you, and you turned to face him fully, searching his face for any trace of doubt. There was none—only sincerity, tinged with a vulnerability you had rarely seen in him.

“I missed you too,” you admitted, your voice trembling. It was the truth, but it felt inadequate to capture the depth of your longing.

Anakin reached out then, his hand brushing against your cheek, his touch achingly gentle. The callouses on his fingers spoke of battles and hardships, yet his touch was softer than anything you had ever known. You leaned into his hand, your eyes fluttering closed as you allowed yourself a moment of reprieve.

When his lips met yours, it was slow, almost hesitant, as though testing the fragile bond that had formed between you. The kiss deepened, carrying with it an unspoken promise—a vow neither of you could yet put into words.

When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, his breath mingling with yours in the quiet intimacy of the moment.

“There’s so much I don’t say,” he murmured, his voice raw with emotion. “But you have to know—”

“I do,” you interrupted, placing a hand on his chest. Beneath your palm, you felt the steady beat of his heart—a reminder of his strength, his humanity. “I know.”

For a long moment, the two of you simply sat there, the world outside the study forgotten. You wanted to tell him everything, to unburden yourself of the secrets that threatened to consume you. But fear held you back—fear of what your revelations might do to the fragile trust you had built.

Later, as he returned to his work, his attention fell on the maps and reports scattered across the table. His sharp eyes caught the folded parchment tucked beneath the edges of the papers, and his brow furrowed as he reached for it.

From the doorway, you watched as he unfolded the note, his gaze scanning the words you had written. His expression darkened slightly, his fingers tightening around the parchment.

He looked up then, his eyes meeting yours across the room. There was no accusation in his gaze, only a quiet question—a plea for understanding.

You offered him a faint smile before slipping away, your heart heavy with the weight of what you had done. You prayed he would understand the warning you had left for him.

And you prayed, too, that the love you had begun to share would be strong enough to weather the storms that lay ahead.

The midday sun cast golden light through the stained-glass windows of your chamber as you sat by the desk, attempting to focus on a new canvas. But the brush in your hand felt heavier than usual, and the colors blurred together, your thoughts elsewhere.

Anakin had left at dawn for a hunt, his absence stretching like a shadow over the castle. You found yourself restless, unsettled by a creeping sense of unease that had lingered since his departure.

A sharp knock at the door interrupted your thoughts. One of the castle’s attendants entered, carrying a folded piece of parchment sealed with no crest. The lack of identification immediately caught your attention.

“This arrived for you, my lady,” the attendant said, bowing as they set the letter on your desk.

“Who delivered it?” you asked, but the attendant only shook their head.

“It was left with the guards at the gate, my lady. No messenger lingered.”

Your fingers trembled as you reached for the parchment, the faint scent of ash and wax clinging to it. Unfolding the letter, you read the hurried scrawl within:

“Beware the serpent that coils close to the lion. Tonight, blades will be drawn in shadows, and blood will stain the throne. Protect him, or all will be lost.”

Your breath caught. The words were cryptic yet chillingly clear—a warning of betrayal, danger aimed at Anakin, and treachery from someone within the castle walls.

The sound of boots echoed in the corridor outside, and you quickly folded the letter, tucking it beneath the edge of your desk. A moment later, Obi-Wan Kenobi stepped into the room.

He had returned to the castle only days before, bringing with him reports of the Scots' retreat. His presence had initially been a comfort, his calm demeanor reassuring amid the chaos of court politics. But as Anakin’s trusted right-hand man, his arrival had also coincided with a strange tension.

“My lady,” Obi-Wan said, inclining his head. “I trust the day finds you well?”

“Well enough,” you replied, though your voice betrayed the unease tightening your chest.

He stepped closer, his hands clasped behind his back, his gaze steady but unreadable. “Anakin will return soon, I presume?”

You nodded, forcing a smile. “He should be back before nightfall.”

“And yet, you seem troubled,” Obi-Wan observed, his tone casual but sharp. “Is there something amiss?”

You hesitated, your mind racing. Could Obi-Wan be the serpent the letter warned of? Or was this paranoia taking root, fed by the growing web of deceit surrounding you?

“I have much on my mind,” you said carefully. “The court’s whispers, the growing unrest. Surely you’ve noticed it too.”

Obi-Wan’s expression softened, and he took a step closer, his voice lowering. “The court is always restless. But if there is something specific troubling you, you need only say the word. Anakin would want me to protect you in his absence.”

The sincerity in his voice sent a pang of guilt through you, but the memory of the letter’s warning gnawed at your resolve.

“I’ll manage,” you said, your tone firmer. “Thank you, Sir Kenobi.”

Obi-Wan hesitated for a moment, as though weighing your words, before nodding and stepping back. “As you wish, my lady. But do not hesitate to summon me if you need anything.”

With that, he left the room, the door closing softly behind him.

You had just resolved to wait for Anakin’s return when a knock at the door startled you. It was one of the chambermaids, her face pale and her hands wringing nervously.

“My lady,” she said, “I thought you should know... Sir Kenobi and Count Aulbry were seen riding out together just now. They seemed... urgent.”

The words sent a chill through you. “Did they say where they were going?”

The maid shook her head. “No, my lady. But they rode toward the northern woods.”

Toward the royal hunting grounds.

Panic gripped you. Anakin had ridden there with the king this morning, and now his supposed ally and his most vocal opponent had followed, shrouded in secrecy.

You clenched your hands into fists, your mind racing. The letter’s warning, Obi-Wan’s strange behavior, Aulbry’s open hostility—it all aligned too perfectly. If they meant to harm Anakin, you couldn’t sit idly by.

The stable smelled of hay and cold earth as you approached, your breath visible in the crisp air. The stable master startled at the sight of you, his eyes wide with alarm as you strode toward the nearest horse.

“My lady, what are you—”

“Prepare her,” you interrupted, your voice steady despite the chaos inside you. “The mare, now.”

He hesitated, hands trembling as he fumbled with the tack. “It isn’t safe, my lady. You can’t ride alone.”

“Safe?” The word cracked from your lips, harsh and bitter. “Safe is a word I can no longer afford. Saddle her, or I’ll do it myself.”

His protests faltered as he moved quickly, his fear of disobedience outweighing his confusion. The mare was readied within minutes, her dark eyes reflecting your own urgency.

Your skirts snagged as you mounted, but you paid it no mind, gripping the reins and spurring the horse forward before the stable master could voice another word.

The wind sliced through you as the mare thundered over the frost-covered earth. Each hoofbeat echoed like the drum of war, steady and relentless, driving you closer to the woods. The trees loomed ahead, their bare branches clawing at the sky, and with them came the weight of your growing dread.

Anakin. His name was a heartbeat in your mind, a mantra that propelled you forward. You could see him in your mind’s eye—strong, resolute, his brow furrowed in thought as he stood apart from the world, carrying its burdens alone.

Would he believe you?

The question clawed at you as you rode, your fingers trembling against the reins. Would he see your desperation as weakness? Would he blame you for suspecting Obi-Wan, the man who had fought beside him in countless battles?

Or worse—what if you were wrong?

The thought was unbearable, but the image of the letter was sharper still. Its words were a call to action, and inaction felt like betrayal.

You pushed the mare harder, her breaths coming in sharp bursts as you entered the woods. The hunting party’s distant voices reached your ears, their tones hushed but unmistakable.

“Almost there,” you whispered, your words carried away by the wind.

The mare slowed as you approached the clearing, and you dismounted swiftly, your boots crunching against the frosted ground. The shadows of men and horses flickered through the trees, their forms half-obscured by the fading light.

You hesitated, your pulse quickening as you moved closer, the forest around you suddenly heavy with silence.

The words from the letter echoed in your mind, louder than ever. “Blades will be drawn in shadows...”

You glanced over your shoulder at the mare, now tethered to a low-hanging branch, and took a deep breath. The weight of what you had to do pressed against your chest like armor.

Somewhere in this forest, Anakin was unaware of the knife poised at his back. And you would move heaven and earth to ensure it never reached him.

From the Lays of General Anakin Skywalker, XIII century

The foe you see is not the hand,

That strikes unseen, or makes its stand.

Deceit is woven through their guise,

The truest battle hides in lies.

The early morning fog clung to the trees like a damp veil, shrouding the forest in an eerie stillness. Anakin’s boots sank into the earth with each step of his horse, the rhythmic clip-clop of hooves resonating beneath the thick canopy. His mind wasn’t on the hunt, not really. He had ridden out on the king’s orders, ostensibly to track game through the thick woods, but every instinct in his body told him something was wrong. A nagging feeling of unease gnawed at the edge of his thoughts.

The cold air cut through his cloak, yet the discomfort of the chill was nothing compared to the unease stirring deep within him. He had tried to ignore it—after all, he had faced far worse than a simple hunting expedition. But it was there, a persistent presence, an itch under the skin that he couldn’t shake.

"Stay alert, Anakin," he muttered to himself, his breath misting in the cold morning air. His instincts had never been wrong before.

Suddenly, there was a rustling in the underbrush. Anakin’s hand immediately went to the hilt of his sword, his gaze scanning the surroundings. The forest was quiet again, unnervingly so. He heard the faintest snap of a twig, too far to his left to be a deer. His eyes narrowed, and his breath held as he dismounted silently, glancing at the trees above for any sign of movement.

The shadows were his enemies now. He couldn’t risk being ambushed.

He was barely aware of the first movement—a swift motion to his right, a shadow crossing his line of vision—before he heard the unmistakable sound of steel scraping against leather. A flash of cold metal, a blur of movement, and then—nothing.

It all happened so fast. He had learned long ago that the most dangerous threats were often the ones you couldn’t see until it was too late.

From the corner of his eye, he saw the blur of a figure darting toward him, and without hesitation, Anakin spun around, drawing his sword in one fluid motion. A man lunged at him from the trees, the assassin’s blade aimed at his side, but Anakin deflected it with a practiced swing, their swords clashing with a ringing sound that reverberated through the dense woods.

But then, as if from every direction, more figures emerged—six, no, eight men surrounding him. They were silent, fast, moving with the precision of a well-coordinated attack. His heart pounded in his chest, the adrenaline surging as the battle instincts kicked in. Anakin’s eyes scanned the men, calculating, assessing, his hand moving as if it had a life of its own. His sword met the blade of another attacker, their weapons locked in a deadly struggle.

The noise of the fight was deafening—the clash of steel, the grunts of exertion, the sharp cries of men falling as they tried to overcome him. But there was something different about this attack. The men didn’t move like mercenaries; they moved with the fluidity of soldiers trained in the art of war, and they seemed to have been waiting for him. The very ground beneath him seemed to tremble with their numbers.

His breath came ragged, his eyes darting between enemies, trying to predict the next move. He didn’t have much time. The trees provided little cover, and every swing of his sword was an invitation for another blow. He gritted his teeth and blocked another strike, parrying to the side before slashing his blade through the chest of one man. His breath was heavy now, the sweat dripping down his brow despite the cold.

But then the realization hit him, cold as ice.

They weren’t after the hunt.

They were after him.

The words echoed in his mind, but he didn’t have time to process them. A sword sliced across his chest, just missing his vital organs. He staggered back, breath stolen for a moment, his blood staining his tunic. The rush of pain barely registered as his instincts kicked in, his grip tightening on the hilt of his sword as he batted another attack aside.

One man dropped to the ground with a grunt, but that didn’t matter. There were still too many, and they were closing in, pushing him toward the dense underbrush. A few were already injured, but not enough to halt their assault.

The moon hung high in the sky, barely visible through the dense canopy of trees as the darkness swallowed Anakin whole. He had been fighting for hours now—bloodied, exhausted, but resolute. The twelve men who had attacked him had already taken down several of his own, and the forest felt like a battleground in hell. The night air was thick with the smell of blood and smoke. The forest echoed with the sound of sword clashing, of desperate men shouting orders.

But it was still quiet. Too quiet.

Anakin felt the familiar presence of danger creeping closer, but it wasn’t just the attackers that gnawed at him. His heart was pounding in his chest as he thought of you. His thoughts were filled with the images of your face, your soft voice calling his name, and he feared for you. He had never been afraid in a fight, not in all the battles he had seen—but this was different. He feared for your safety.

Where are you?

He couldn’t shake the thought. He tried to push it away, tried to concentrate on the men surrounding him, but it wasn’t easy. His body was aching, blood flowing freely from the multiple cuts across his torso. He had barely managed to keep the attackers at bay, and now, with each passing second, they grew closer. They had surrounded him.

With a burst of adrenaline, Anakin swung his sword again, cutting through another man, but his vision was starting to blur. His grip on his sword was weakening, but he could feel his determination growing stronger. I must survive, for her.

That’s when he heard it.

The sound of hooves, distant at first, but growing louder, faster. The unmistakable sound of a rider galloping in the woods.

No, not you. His heart raced even faster. He could feel your presence getting closer, but he had no way of stopping you.

He couldn’t keep fighting and get to you in time. But you were so close now, he couldn’t wait.

Meanwhile, you had galloped through the woods, panic clawing at your chest with every thundering beat of the horse’s hooves beneath you. You could hear the faint echoes of battle in the distance—the clash of swords, the guttural cries of men. Your blood ran cold. You urged the horse onward, desperate to reach him, to stop whatever this madness was before it consumed him.

The woods were a maze of shadow and mist. You couldn’t see through the trees, couldn’t hear over the thundering of the horse’s hooves beneath you. It felt like you were racing against time, but what was worse was the gnawing, suffocating fear in your chest.

Please, Anakin, please be safe.

As the sounds of the battle grew louder, you felt your heartbeat in your throat. You could hear the shouts of soldiers. Then, without warning, a shadow leapt out from the trees.

Before you could react, a man grabbed your reins, yanking your horse’s head sharply to the side. He lunged at you, sword raised high.

Your heart froze. You reached up instinctively, fingers fumbling for the tiny dagger you had tucked in your hair for moments like this. The cold metal of the dagger was a comfort in your hand, but it was nothing compared to the weight of the situation. The man’s face was twisted in anger as he raised the sword, preparing to strike.

Fear clawed at you, but you refused to let it control you. You slashed the dagger across the man’s arm, but he hardly flinched. The blow wasn’t enough to stop him, and the sword came down at you again, too fast for you to dodge.

But before the blade could reach you, a roar split the air.

“DON’T TOUCH MY WIFE!” Anakin’s voice thundered through the trees, furious and primal.

You barely had time to register his words before his form appeared in front of you, bloodied and furious. His sword cut through the air in a flash, knocking the would-be attacker aside with a force that left no room for mercy.

You didn’t have time to breathe, didn’t have time to think. Anakin’s eyes were locked on you, fierce and protective, but his face was pale, his breath coming in ragged gasps. His chest was covered in blood, and yet his gaze never left you.

He turned back to face the remaining attackers, his anger and pain mingling in a way that made your heart ache. You reached out, desperate to touch him, but as your hand brushed against his, he pushed you back.

“I said stay back!” His voice was hoarse, but filled with a raw, desperate need to protect you. “It’s not over.”

You watched helplessly as Anakin stepped forward, meeting the four men who had remained hidden in the shadows. Each strike was met with a new burst of agony, a struggle against the men who relentlessly attacked him. His movements were slower now, each swing of his sword weaker than the last. But even as his body betrayed him, his will never faltered.

The battle felt like it went on for an eternity, each second stretched thin by the raw tension and fear that swelled inside of you. You couldn’t watch any longer. It felt like you were suffocating under the weight of the moment. But even then, you saw him—he was still fighting.

And then, the final blow came.

One of the men drew his bow and released an arrow with deadly accuracy. You saw it happen in slow motion. The arrow soared through the air, and for a brief, horrified second, you knew what was about to happen.

It struck Anakin in the chest.

The sound that escaped his mouth was one of pure agony as the arrow buried deep into his lung. He staggered back, his sword faltering in his hand as he fought for balance.

“No!” you cried, rushing toward him despite the danger. But as you approached, you saw him fall to his knees, blood pouring from the wound. His face was pale, his lips already tinged with the blue of a wound too deep to ignore.

But even then, he didn’t give in.

“Anakin…” you whispered, dropping to your knees beside him. Your hands shook as you pressed against his chest, trying desperately to stop the bleeding.

He looked up at you, eyes filled with pain but a fierce determination still burning behind them.

“I’m not dying,” he whispered between labored breaths, the words strained and weak. “I won’t leave you.”

Tears welled in your eyes as you tore at the hem of your dress, ripping it to pieces to use as a makeshift bandage. Your hands were trembling, but you pressed the fabric to his chest, trying to staunch the flow of blood.

“I won’t let you die,” you said through clenched teeth, your voice trembling.

He took your hand then, squeezing it gently despite the agony that wracked his body.

“You’re all that matters,” he whispered, his voice barely audible. “I’ll live… because of you.”

His words, though weak, fueled your resolve. You kept applying pressure to his chest, watching as his color slowly returned, watching as he breathed deeply again, fighting the weariness in his limbs.

It was then that he finally stirred, groaning as he attempted to rise. He pushed himself to his feet with your help, his body shaking with the effort. Despite the pain, despite everything, he managed to stand tall.

“We need to get back to the king,” he said, his voice hoarse but filled with purpose. His gaze locked onto you, and for a moment, you could see nothing but the depth of his devotion in his eyes.

The two of you walked—no, staggered—back toward the camp, where the king’s men were gathered in stunned silence. As Anakin limped toward the center of the camp, still holding your hand, he confronted Count Aulbry. The nobleman, who had been so sly and quiet up until now, stood with a calm demeanor, though his eyes betrayed a flicker of doubt.

Anakin’s voice rang out, cutting through the air like steel.

“Did you think you could hide your treachery?” he demanded. “Did you think this would break me? You were wrong.”

Count Aulbry’s face remained impassive, but his jaw tightened as he denied any involvement. Yet the doubt lingered in his eyes, a dangerous sign that made Anakin even more resolute.

“I will uncover the truth,” Anakin declared, blood still soaking his chest as he glared at Aulbry with unyielding determination.

The confrontation had only just begun, and Anakin was more resolved than ever to expose the traitor for what he truly was.

The dim glow of the campfire flickered through the canvas of the tent, casting soft shadows that danced against the fabric walls. You sat next to Anakin, the firelight tracing the contours of his tired face, his features drawn with pain yet softened by the intimate stillness that surrounded you both. His chest heaved with each breath, though you could see the slow but steady recovery beginning as you gently unwound the bandage around his chest.

His wound, though grave, had been patched up. The bleeding had stopped, but the pain in his eyes lingered. You had tried to banish the worst of it by offering whatever comfort you could, but you knew that a part of him—one that he would never fully reveal—was still at war within.

"You’re relentless," you whispered softly, carefully peeling back the fabric of his shirt. “These arrows... They always manage to find your most vital points.”

Anakin looked down at the wound, his gaze thoughtful but distant. He gave a half-hearted chuckle, though it was edged with a touch of bitterness. "It's almost as if they know where to strike, isn't it?" His voice was rough, with a quiet humor trying to mask the ache that still lingered in him. His hand gripped the edge of the cot, and you could see the tension in his posture, a mixture of exhaustion and frustration.

“Or maybe it’s that you’re too quick to put yourself in harm’s way," you said with a teasing smile, the movement of your hands steady and sure as you replaced his bloodied bandage with fresh linen.

He chuckled softly, but his expression grew more serious as he leaned back against the pillows, his gaze never leaving yours. There was a weight to the silence that hung between you now, a heaviness that pulled at the edges of his soul. And you could feel it too—the depth of everything unspoken, the fragile trust between you now intertwined with something far deeper.

“You know, I’ve always thought I could protect myself,” Anakin began, his voice quiet, the words coming with a painful honesty that you hadn’t heard from him before. “But now… Now, I can’t help but wonder if I’ve been so focused on fighting everyone else that I’ve missed something closer to home.”

Your hands stilled as you finished tying off the bandage. You looked up at him, meeting his gaze. He looked vulnerable, even though he would never fully allow anyone to see it. The man who had always been a soldier, a leader, was now confiding in you—not just as a lover but as someone he trusted more than anyone else.

“What do you mean?” you asked, your voice soft, inviting him to share the heavy burden he was carrying.

His lips pressed together for a moment, and when he spoke again, it was with the weight of his suspicions, the quiet recognition that something was wrong—something much bigger than the battle they had fought.

“I think Count Aulbry... I think he’s behind all of this. I can feel it. Something about him doesn’t sit right with me.” His voice was low, almost hesitant, as though sharing this part of himself made him more vulnerable than any of the cuts that marred his skin.

Your heart ached for him. You could see the conflict in his eyes—the sharp intelligence that had always served him so well in battle was now clouded with doubt. It wasn’t just the wound that pained him. It was the fear that he was no longer in control, no longer able to protect those he loved, especially you.

“Anakin,” you whispered, placing a gentle hand on his shoulder. “You don’t always have to carry the weight alone.”

He looked at you, his dark eyes searching yours as if looking for something—something that he needed but wasn’t sure how to ask for. His lips parted, but before he could speak, the silence between you was filled with the quiet rustle of the forest, the distant cry of a bird in the dark, the pounding of his own pulse in his ears.

“I’ve seen too many men lose themselves,” Anakin began, his voice distant. “Too many battles where it wasn’t the enemy I was fighting—it was what I had to give up to win.” He hesitated, as if weighing the significance of his words, before adding, “I’m beginning to wonder if the price of victory is too high.”

His words hung in the air between you like an unspoken truth, an ache that neither of you could escape. You knew what he meant. You understood the weight of his soul, the endless struggle of a man who had given everything—too much—and still couldn’t find peace.

“The price... is never too high,” you said softly, your voice thick with emotion. You leaned closer, your fingers brushing against his as you steadied his hand. “As long as we face it together.”

He swallowed hard, his gaze never leaving yours. It was as though, in that moment, he finally allowed himself to breathe, to let the walls around him fall just a little. His eyes softened, a rawness there that hadn’t been present before, and it struck you like a physical blow. The tenderness in him, buried beneath so many layers of strength and duty, was finally being revealed.

Without a word, his hand slid to your cheek, the touch tender and intimate. The contact was slow, deliberate, as if he were memorizing the feel of your skin against his. He leaned in, and for a moment, you were suspended in the space between you, where the world seemed to hold its breath.

And in that moment, with the weight of the world hanging over them, the kiss came—gentle at first, as if testing the waters, as if seeking permission to finally release all that had been held in for so long. His lips brushed against yours, soft and tentative, the tenderness of it shocking in its simplicity. But that kiss was enough to set your heart on fire.

You responded without hesitation, pulling him closer, letting your lips meet his with a desperate kind of sweetness, as if you were both trying to breathe life back into one another. His hand slid to the back of your neck, gently urging you closer, the firelight dancing across his face as you kissed him deeply.

The world around you fell away as his warmth enveloped you. His lips were insistent, demanding now, as if every kiss was a promise, every touch a vow that he would never let go of you. Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging him closer as if to reassure yourself that this moment, this love, was real.

You broke away for a moment, both of you breathless, gazing at each other with an intensity that made your heart ache. His forehead rested against yours, his breath mingling with yours as the world outside ceased to matter.

“I never wanted to pull you into this,” Anakin murmured, his voice hoarse, a quiet confession. “This war... it’s not something I can protect you from. Although, I would fight in a dozen wars to shield you, my rose. In a dozen liftetimes… if I ever fail to protect you…I… I could not live with it. If you fall I fall, I swear it on my honor, on my blood and on the gods.”

You smiled softly, running your hand through his hair, feeling the dampness of sweat and blood still clinging to his skin. “You don’t have to protect me, Anakin,” you whispered, your voice thick with a tenderness that threatened to break you. “We protect each other. That’s what this is.”

His eyes searched yours, his lips parting as if to speak, but he hesitated. Instead, he pulled you closer, holding you tight against him, and for a long moment, neither of you spoke. It was as though the world had stopped moving, leaving only the two of you in this space—this fragile, intimate moment where everything else faded into the background.

“I don’t deserve you,” he murmured, his voice barely audible.

You closed your eyes, resting your head against his chest. “You deserve everything, Anakin. Everything I can give.”

And in that moment, something shifted between you both. It wasn’t just love—it was trust. A promise that no matter how dark the days ahead might get, you would face them together. There was no fear, no hesitation now. Just the two of you, bound in this shared understanding.

You kissed him again, this time with the weight of everything you both held. The world outside could burn, and it wouldn’t matter. All that mattered was this—this connection, this bond that neither of you could name, but both of you knew would endure.

As you pulled away, Anakin’s eyes softened, a small but meaningful smile pulling at his lips. “I’ll face whatever comes, for you.” he whispered, his voice steady, yet filled with a quiet certainty.

And with that promise, you knew that no matter what storm might come, you would stand together, unwavering, your love a flame that could never be extinguished.

From the Lays of General Anakin Skywalker, XIII century

In the silence, my heart stopped to bleed,

For her breath was the air that I’d need.

If she fell, the world would cease its song,

For in her death, my life would be gone.

#hayden christensen #anakin skywalker #anakin skywalker x female reader #anakin skywalker x you #anakin x reader #anakin skywalker x reader #evie writes

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russellsppttemplates · 11 months ago

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hey înes so i think my family forgot about my birthday which is today (just a rushed store bought cake) so can you write something about the grid surprising the reader who is a driver to whichever team you choose 🥹

Note: happy birthday, dear! ✨️I hope you had a lovely day 🥳

"Do you think she'll like it? I got the prettiest cake they had in there", Charles said as he set the box on top of the table.

"Really? That was the nicest one there?", Lewis asked as he looked at the baked good from all angles.

"I could've baked something that looked a little bit better", Pierre offered.

"Could you?", Carlos slapped the French man's back.

"I wouldn't eat anything baked by any of you", Lando chirped in, "where's Oscar? He walked here with me! I've lost him already", he muttered.

"Oscar is the one in charge of bringing Y/N here - Mick said it would be too suspicious if I walked with her", Max offered.

"I also got her the present we agreed on", Lance set the bag next to the cake.

"I'm sure someone did, but just in case - do we have candles?", George butted in.

The groans leaving everyone's mouth was enough to let him know no one did.

"Candles are overrated, anyway", Daniel tried to keep the humour.

"Oscar and Y/N are on their way here - they just stopped to talk to Toto", Mick said as he got inside.

When you walked up with Oscar into the meeting room, you were expecting the stewards to be mad at you, "I think we're late, Oscar!", but you were met instead with cheers and balloons thrown at your face.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Y/N!", they all cheered as you looked at all your friends gathered in the same room.

"We still wanted to make something special between us without the team recording and all of that", your teammate Max said as he showed you the cake, "it's not homemade and we're not sure how good it is, but it's the thought that counts?", he squinted.

"This is amazing, guys, truly", you cooed, "I bet it tastes amazing - even if those colours are not natural on the slightest", you took some of the bright red filling with your finger and licked it.

(Thank you for sending this in ✨️)

#inês writes blurbs #f1 blurb #f1 x reader #charles leclerc blurb #max verstappen blurb #daniel ricciardo blurb #lewis hamilton blurb #carlos sainz blurb #mick schumacher blurb #pierre gasly blurb #george russell blurb #lando norris blurb #oscar piastri blurb #lance stroll blurb

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unserenedreaming · 9 months ago

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on the "Sansa being the true loner of the Starks"

I just saw a post saying that Sansa is the 'odd one out' amongst the Starks because she's surrounded by her brothers and a tomboyish sister (Arya). It is true that she is surrounded by brothers and a sister who rejects the patriarchal roles of a woman (Arya) but she is by no means a loner.

The two other named young noblewomen in Winterfell are Jeyne Poole and Beth Cassel. Jeyne is the closest thing to a best friend for Sansa, while Beth is described more as a hanger-on than an actual friend. Jeyne strived to make Sansa happy, often at Arya's expense: Jeyne would often whinny like a horse or call Arya Horseface when Arya would walk by. When Mycah is unjustly killed by the Hound, Jeyne taunts Arya by telling her the Hound cut Mycah into so many little pieces that his own father assumed it was a bag of meat to eat. Jeyne Poole was the daughter of Winterfell's steward. Arya was the daughter of Lord Eddard Stark, Lord of Winterfell and Warden of the North. In my opinion, it is only by her close friendship with the other daughter of Lord Stark that Jeyne feels emboldened enough to make such a comment.

And then let's talk about Catelyn. There is no denying that Catelyn Stark loved each and every one of her children with the fury of a thousand suns. In fact, the older I get, the more I understand her (excluding her treatment of Jon which deserves an essay all on its own) She saw Sansa as the perfect daughter:

"Sansa was a lady at 3, always so courteous and eager to please. She will grow into a woman far more beautiful than I ever was, you can see that." These are words from Catelyn Stark about her elder daughter.

"Arya was a trial, it must be said. Half a boy and half a wolf pup. Forbid her anything and it became her heart’s desire. She had Ned’s long face, and brown hair that always looked as though a bird had been nesting in it. I despaired of ever making a lady of her. She collected scabs as other girls collected dolls, and would say anything that came into her head." These thoughts from Catelyn Stark about her younger daughter.

Sansa fit into the traditional patriarchal view of what a noble woman was supposed to be, which made her easier to manage for Catelyn. Arya does not.

The only person that Arya truly, honestly and deeply feels akin to is Jon. This is not me saying that the only person who loved Arya was Jon. Her family loved her deeply. But I am examining the POV of Arya and Sansa.

Arya loves and gets along with her siblings, but she is an outsider compared to them: they all have the red hair and blue eyes of the Tully's. Only Jon shares the looks of the Starks. This to me has always been the most obvious divide; the physical differences between Robb, Sansa, Bran, & Rickon and Jon & Arya. Jon and Arya have always relied on each other more than anyone else, pre-canon or into ADWD.

To wrap this rambling post up, I disagree that Sansa was considered an outsider/the odd one out in the Stark family. In truth, that position doesn't even belong to Arya, though she is the odd one out amongst the trueborn Starks. It belongs to Jon and Theon. Both are boys who desperately want to be Stark children but can never be, and their subsequent actions, both positive (Jon) and negative (Theon) are direct results of that desire and lack of result.

AND AGAIN, THIS IS NOT AN ATTACK ON SANSA. This is a response to a comment I saw from a (presumed by me) Stansa. Sansa absolutely deals with isolation in the series as the books goes on as a captive in Kings Landing. All the Starlkings do as they are separated across the continent and eventually Essos (Arya).

Anyways, hope this wasn't too much of a pain to read, I'm buzzed right now. Love Y'all.

#asoaif #arya stark #sansa stark #house stark #jon snow #theon greyjoy #starkling suffering

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Love and Duty - Chapter 3

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OVERALL FIC WARNINGS: cisfem!Reader; canon adjacent (i.e., loosely-based); 18+ (Minors and ageless blogs DNI!); NSFW in future chapters; violence in future chapters (not against MC); deceit/lying; fake relationship (one-sided); pining; angst with a happy ending.

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You gave Diavolo your answer and you stayed for dessert. At the end of the evening, Barbatos escorted you out of the castle. You couldn’t hide the disappointment in your eyes as he bowed and kissed the back of your hand to bid you good night. No doubt you’d been hoping for a more personal good night kiss before stepping out into the evening air, but Barbatos couldn’t bring himself to do it. He already had to pretend earlier this evening, and not just with a kiss.

Your question had taken him by surprise and he’d been forced to answer in a way that wouldn’t ruin everything. He was grateful that you’d phrased the question in such a way that allowed him to find a bit of truth to coat his silver tongue.

Do I have you?

You did have him, he reassured himself. You had his friendship, his trust, his support.

He didn’t want you to fail; and not just for the sake of peace, but for your own well-being. After all, even though he did not reciprocate the strength of your affections, that did not mean that he didn’t care at all.

The House of Lords’ treatment of you was unfair; anyone could see it. And yet you chose to meet their prejudice with determination, grace, and stubbornness. How could Barbatos not respect such strength? But strength didn’t make you unbreakable. So how could he not take notice of the way your duties weighed on your shoulders and suppressed your smile? How could he see your suffering and not want to help alleviate it?

Regardless of the nature of your relationship together, Barbatos would be there to support you and offer guidance. He would have done so anyway, had the two of you remained friends, and he saw no reason to not do so now, despite the new circumstances.

And maybe, secretly for him, helping you through this could serve as his own penance for the wrong he was committing; a silent apology for a betrayal that you would hopefully remain forever unaware of.

How badly he wished things were different... how badly he wished he’d had more time to make his choice. How badly he wished he could have glimpsed into the future for guidance before risking not only his friendship with you, but the young prince’s future.

But he knew doing so would prove more or less fruitless. His abilities, while seemingly limitless, had their own restrictions, particularly when it came to himself. Barbatos suspected that it had something to do with being able to exist separate from the timelines; but no matter how many times he tried to look at himself in the timelines, it was always blank, like a blind spot in his mind. It was akin to how one could easily see the faces of others but could not see their own without a mirror. If he had been able to foresee his own future, his past self wouldn’t have made the mistakes he made, and he wouldn’t be here now, trying to correct them.

The more decisions Barbatos acted on, the blurrier the future around him became. And the more he involved himself, the more individuals directly impacted by those decisions became blurred themselves. What resulted was a tapestry of time, of infinite pasts and futures, littered with dark holes. It was as if he were a moth, eating his way through the fabric, weakening its strength.

It was the very reason why Barbatos kept himself as a supporting role to the others. And it was the very reason why he only involved himself in major affairs if Diavolo ordered it. Yes, he tutored the young prince and kept him in line, as any royal butler and steward was expected to do; but any and all decisions regarding the future of the Devildom were conducted by Diavolo alone.

Barbatos had lived long enough to grow accustomed to his limitations. He learned how to look for the blind spots within the different futures and use them as clues. It never told him directly what choices to make, but it did give him an idea of where he was meant to be. He learned to live in the safe spaces, occupying the dark pockets of timelines that maintained their bright, clear futures. It was how he’d found his place at Diavolo’s side, the reason he’d let the young prince lure him into the castle with the promise of rare tea so many millennia ago.

But this... he had no memory of this, despite how he had cross-checked the timelines repeatedly for Diavolo before the prince made his long-term plans. Was it because you’d had your own adventures with being yanked across multiple timelines and places? Were you touched too many times by his ability, moved from thread to thread, that now your own path was blurring like his own? Or was it something else entirely?

Either way, for the first time in thousands of years, Barbatos felt the irritation of his own restrictions. If he’d been able to see this coming, he could have prepared for it. But he didn’t, and now here he was, trapped in a lie that he didn’t want to have any part in.

He had a plan, of course... a way to navigate out of these choppy, unchartered waters with minimal damage. It would have to be carried out prudently, succinctly, like carrying a porcelain teacup filled to the brim without spilling. Fortunately, his mind was as careful as his hands. If conducted properly, not only would the future of peace remain secure, but he will not have to sacrifice your friendship.

...Hopefully.

But hope was a fleeting thing, short-lived on wishes and easily breakable by the harsh reality of words.

And no words cut through Barbatos’s fortress of a mind like the young master’s upon his return.

“Barbatos, I believe we should talk.”

Barbatos’s face remained schooled in neutrality, but he paused for the briefest moment. It was enough to make the prince furrow his brow ever so slightly, the minuscule crack in the butler’s façade enough to confirm Diavolo’s rising suspicions. Barbatos took it in stride as he calmly entered Diavolo’s drawing room. After all, he was his loyal servant and oldest confidant. There were no secrets between them, their trust in each other absolute.

“Where would you like me to begin, my lord?”

Diavolo motioned for Barbatos to take a seat. The butler acquiesced, his back straight and knees drawn closed with his fingers folded formally in his lap.

“How about from the beginning?” Diavolo replied. “Start with the night of the ball.”

Barbatos’s mouth quirked into a small smile. “You suspected even then?”

“There were signs, but I wanted to wait until tonight to be sure.”

“It pleases me to see that your powers of observation remain so keen.”

“I have had an excellent tutor,” Diavolo smirked. “I don’t think anyone else noticed the subtleties that night except for myself. But tonight was more obvious, particularly with her. I would like to understand the situation as it stands now.”

“I thought you wanted to hear the story from the beginning,” Barbatos replied with a tilt of his head. “Would you like me to discuss the past or the present?”

Diavolo narrowed his eyes. “Now is not the time for games, Barbatos.”

“You know as well as I that I do not play games, young master. This is a teaching moment, as every moment is. How you opt to question me will impact the type of information you receive, which will in turn influence your understanding and your opinion.”

However, this was more than just a teaching moment, too; it was a test. Not just for how Diavolo chose to interrogate, but for seeing how willing he was to dirty his own hands, to bear the mantel of responsibility no matter how tarnished. Ask about tonight’s dinner only, and Barbatos could play it off as a budding romance, a temporary fling, with the implication that he will handle the situation without the prince’s involvement. That would allow the prince to play to ignorance should the situation derail in the future. But ask about the night of the ball, and the whole truth will be laid bare, a burden that would be shared between the two of them moving forward.

Fortunately, Barbatos raised him well.

Diavolo sighed and pressed his thumb and forefinger to the bridge of his nose. “Very well. From the beginning, then.”

Barbatos nodded. “As you wish, young master.”

He then began to recount the events of that first night in the piano room.

Barbatos kept the information to only the most relevant facts. He omitted the song you played on the piano, he omitted the details of your frustrations with the brothers, and he omitted exactly how he romanced you. He provided only the fact that you had been at your limit with your responsibilities and that the incident with Mammon and Asmodeus had pushed you beyond those limits. He emphasized your desire to abandon your many positions and run back to the human realm. It was in this delicate, fragile state that you had confessed your feelings for him, which forced him into making a very important decision.

As Barbatos spoke, Diavolo’s eyes narrowed, his voice grunted, his head nodded. He listened silently, his fingers steepled and pressed against his lips.

When Barbatos ended with the farewell earlier in the evening, Diavolo remained silent for a long moment.

“I see...” he finally muttered. “I understand the decision; it might not have been the one I would have made, but I understand it nonetheless.”

Barbatos nodded in understanding. He expected as much from the young prince; he always did have a dislike for lies thanks to his unique ability to see through them. It made the awareness of the wounds they caused all the more intimate.

Avoid answers, yes. Give noncommittal or enigmatic responses, acceptable. Omitting information, necessary. But lies...

Lies were messy.

“Ah, how I wish I didn’t ask...” the prince muttered. His golden eyes lifted to meet Barbatos’s placid green. “I’m sure you’re also aware of the risks this presents us. Not just if she finds out that you – we’re – lying, but if anyone of note happens to see the two of you together...”

“Of course, young master. I will proceed with the utmost caution.”

“Is there any value in using your abilities for guidance?”

Barbatos fell silent for a moment, his mouth pressing into a thin line. He lowered his head the slightest fraction. “I don’t think so. I’ve explained to you before how I am unable to see my own future. By proxy, I will be unable to see hers as well now that our paths are so intertwined.”

“I know you won’t be able to see her clearly anymore, but what about the realms themselves? What about the Devildom?”

“The various potential futures remain the same, young master. That much is unchanged, as it’s already been seen. But that gives us little to work with, as there are multiple possible outcomes, some less desirable than others. The deciding factor of what happens in this timeline will depend primarily on her influence. If I cannot observe her, then I cannot anticipate the proper course.”

“Like knowing where the finish line is, but not knowing the route to get there.”

“Precisely. The chances of her getting ‘lost’ are now much greater than before. Although, she may have already been veering off course prior to my influence...”

“How so?”

Barbatos was silent for a moment as he reflected back, his gaze distant. “The way she was that night. I’d never seen her so...”

“Tired?”

“Hopeless.”

Diavolo let out a low, dissatisfied hum, his chin in his fingers as his eyes glazed over in pensive thought. “I had been noticing a shift in her as of late, but I had hoped it wasn’t so serious. You said yourself that humans are often emotional. Wasn’t there a chance that she was lost in the moment and would recover given time?”

“Yes,” Barbatos replied. “And I was willing to let it play out as such, despite my concerns. However, any possibility for that to happen was eliminated as soon as she confessed her feelings for me. Had I refused her my lord, I truly do think she would have abandoned everything. Being exhausted by one’s duties is one thing. But having one’s heart broken in a moment of vulnerability is another entirely.”

Diavolo hummed and leaned back into his seat, his arms crossed over his chest and his eyes to the ceiling. “I see, I see... and now here we are. Are you sure your ability won’t work? Is there really nothing that can be done? You know I dislike leaving these things to chance, Barbatos.”

The risk of the prince’s disapproval was a cut to Barbatos’s pride; disappointing him was something Barbatos took great personal offense to. He released a resigned sigh.

“I will check if you’d like me to, young master. Although I am certain the results will not be very fruitful.”

“Please do. Even if nothing comes of it, I must exhaust all avenues of potential knowledge before we determine how to proceed.”

Barbatos stood and bowed. “Very well. I will return promptly.”

Diavolo watched as the space behind Barbatos opened up into black smoky tendrils. They wrapped around him like a cloak and then he was gone. Once the room was empty, Diavolo braced his forehead against his interlaced fingers, his thumbs at his temples.

“Please let him find something...” he muttered to himself.

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The black was endless. For anyone else, it would have been entirely unnerving if not panic-inducing. For Barbatos however, it felt familiar, in the way one’s homeland felt familiar after not setting foot on its soil for so long. Beneath his feet he felt hard surface, and from it he could sense how it led off to infinite walkways. And yet, it was a space filled with contradiction as there was no up or down, or side to side. There was only the Here and the There, the Now and the Not Now. Barbatos’s feet began to walk slowly, carefully. It wasn’t so much a risk of falling, but that simply he had to remain focused on where he came from and where he wanted to go. As he walked, the air hummed with power, and he stretched out his hands, fingers splayed, as if caressing invisible grass in an invisible field.

He could feel them.... the multitude of threads belonging to countless souls, stretching infinite. They hummed with life, twisting together with one another and then parting outward as innumerable individuals were born together, lived together, died together. In and out the threads weaved, creating infinite ropes of fate, making up the Tapestry of Time upon which Barbatos navigated. They were taut, vibrating like music notes that couldn’t be heard, in a symphony that played for no one.

No one but himself.

He felt the distinct snap of a timeline being cut, reaching its end. It wasn’t unusual... not all timelines led to happy endings, the worlds within collapsing on themselves. Still, it left a dull ache in him, as if some part of him had been lost, gone forever like a boat cut from its mooring.

His footsteps finally slowed to a halt, and he stared in front of him into the blackness. He’d gone back just far enough to revisit the beginning, where he was forced to make his decision a few nights prior. His hands came up in front of him and he parted the air with open palms and long, slender fingers. It was as if he’d taken the rope of time and unraveled it, individually laid out the threads that made it so that he may seek out your thread, the one kissed with golden light and thrumming with power. The space before him began to ripple and shimmer, light being borne from nothing but simply his will to See.

Light faded to colors and shapes, countless images entering his mind simultaneously, and yet he understood all of them as if he’d watched them individually. Not that it mattered one way or another; time had no meaning here. He could linger as long as he needed to and then return to the When and Where he had left.

Barbatos’s eyes narrowed as he watched.

He saw the moment of where the demonus had spilled all over you, watched as you left the ballroom. But the waters muddied after that, no doubt due to his own influence. Your golden thread had gone dark, overshadowed by his own. The only sign of its presence was the steady hum of power that your soul emanated.

He tried to follow the dark strands, to see where they led, waiting for them to clear. Some cleared quickly, his influence in your life vanishing, and he suspected that those were the timelines where he had been honest with you. He looked closer, drank in their stories to confirm you back in the human world, alone and heartbroken. And the Devildom? Barbatos pulled the threads back together, zooming out to see beyond your human life. A multitude of futures lay ahead, but as he suspected, most of them were bad; the failure of the exchange program, the three worlds returning to their isolation and prejudice...

He returned to the beginning, and followed the threads that remained dark, shrouded in mystery. They were invisible roads that bore no street signs or streetlamps, dark pathways that left him blind.

On and on they all went, branching, breaking into more and more infinite possibilities. In some of them that familiar warm hum of your thread was cut short, leaving empty cold in its wake. In those moments, he knew your life had ended, and yet he couldn’t learn why, his influence too great, his life too entangled with yours. It left a heavy sense of unease, a fear of the unknown that he didn’t often experience.

Farther and farther he searched. Now the threads of life started to split, with some continuing out into that never-ending darkness with their secrets wrapped tight by decisions he had yet to make, and others finally becoming visible. With relief, he pulled them close, searched their depths.

You were there, alive but alone. And you weren’t in the Devildom anymore. You were back in the human realm, with a heavy sadness in your eyes.

And the realms...?

Once again locked in stagnation.

Barbatos’s jaw clenched.

He returned to the other threads, the ones that were still shrouded, and yet they went on and on, cloaked in darkness. How long did he remain entangled with you? What happened in those threads that kept him by your side so intricately for so long?

They were questions that would never receive answers, not until he lived them and learned it in those moments.

Again, he widened his view, took in the bigger picture of the futures that were possible. They were hazy, but they were there, and it was the reassurance he needed. There was hope in them, some of them ending in success while others did not. But there was no way to know for certain which future the present would lead to, the power of his presence hiding far too much for far too long.

For a cold, lonely, tense moment, Barbatos froze, dumbfounded.

Was this it? Were these his only options now? Either a future of failure or a future of ambiguity?

No, there had to be more. If need be, there was still the original paths, the ones he’d traced out millennia ago when the prince was first laying out his plans.

He returned to the beginning again and searched.

And searched.

There were countless variations of how that night’s events transpired. In some of them you were left alone, and you eventually went home to nurse your wounded spirit. In others, one of the brothers found you, each having their own variations of how they approached you in the privacy of that piano room. Even Simeon went to you in some of the timelines, and Solomon...

But what surprised Barbatos the most was how so many of the variations faded into that oh-so-familiar darkness. Barbatos himself must have been the one to find you the most, and it was a curiosity he found himself lingering on. From a practical standpoint, it made sense as he knew the castle better than anyone else.

But there was also a small sense of... warmth. After all, you didn’t venture out to the royal gardens, or walk the quiet late-night streets of the Devildom, or return to the House of Lamentation. Instead, you went to the piano room, where the memory of your time with him brought you comfort.

It was his growing friendship with you that allowed him to find you so many times in the first place.

The faintest hint of selfish pride flared within him, and Barbatos froze for a moment.

It wasn’t often that his Sins presented themselves so noticeably. In fact, he’d learned long ago to keep such imperfections under tight control. To have them stir now of all times...

Strange.

But it vanished as quickly as it came, so he returned his attention to the threads before him.

All at once, he watched, learned, understood.

In most instances, at least the ones he could see that were free of his influence, you stayed in the Devildom. The emotional turmoil you suffered that evening waned by morning and was later quelled by the brothers’ sincere apologies and kind gestures.

It was just as Diavolo had said. Barbatos took comfort in knowing that the prince knew your spirit so well.

Barbatos scanned the infinite spiderweb of visible futures, futures where he played his role as he was intended to, minimal and from the sidelines, small pockets of dark that blurred the edges around the others, Diavolo especially. And you were there too, the light to Barbatos’s shadow, twining with everyone else’s threads, strengthening the bonds.

His eyes narrowed the further he looked.

You stayed, but in far too many of the timelines you suffered, alone and overwhelmed. In some of them, you even buckled, and so did the exchange program.

Barbatos couldn’t help but wonder about you in this timeline, emotionally drained and mentally fragile. Was that to be your future? Would you break under the heavy weight of prejudice and politics?

Barbatos’s gaze went even further, following the various branches, and warm relief washed over him.

There was still hope. Not all the futures ended in loneliness and failure. In many of them, you succeeded. It was often ones where you found love in another, where the support of a partner, or even partners, helped to ease your burden.

They were still here... the futures he’d seen so long ago when assisting the young master in plotting out his path for peace, bright and untarnished. It worried Barbatos that it took him so long to locate them, but he was relieved to see them still intact, still a possibility within the great web.

The relief was short-lived as he pondered their significance.

Should this situation with you fail and take the young master’s vision with it, then Barbatos knew he would have to choose one of these timelines, something safe where his influence didn’t taint the grand plan. That route would become the Primary, the one that everyone would walk moving forward. It would remain the present, but it would be borne from a different past where different decisions were made.

In that sense, the you of this thread and everyone else would cease to exist.

The souls would remain the same, as souls were infinite by nature and occupied all timelines simultaneously during their lifespan. But deletion of a pathway was the deletion of memories, memories made beyond the point of junction where the severing would occur. Everyone’s spirit would remain the same, but their minds would forget, replaced with the experiences of a different path filled with different decisions.

Everyone would forget... except for Barbatos. He would remain untouched, remember all of it. He alone would hold the memories of a past that no longer existed; moments of joy, times of sadness, periods of growth. He’d remember his failures, too; the decisions he made that were the catalyst to losing yet another pathway.

That old, familiar empty ache crept into his chest, settling between his ribs. It was a sadness that never really left him, a burden he had to bear for being who and what he was. He acknowledged its presence and then promptly pushed it back to its resting place within himself, cataloguing it with all of the other countless times he had, in some way, lost those he cared for.

It couldn’t be helped. Duty first. If the prince ordered it, he would obey.

He stared at the stories of past, present and future a moment longer. Then he slowly, gently swiped his fingers across the space in front of him. The timelines rippled, the images faded back into blackness. There was nothing left to gain here.

---

Barbatos was only gone a moment before he reappeared. Diavolo looked up at him from his seat with curious golden eyes.

“Well? Did you find anything?”

“As I suspected, young master. The future you desire remains intact; however, I’m unable to see a clear path to it.”

“Hmm. I see...” Diavolo replied pensively, his gaze distant. Barbatos’s lingering silence hovered, making the air thick between them, and Diavolo looked back up at him. “....what is it?”

Barbatos’s brow creased. “The future you desire remains... however, there are a great many opportunities for the current path to go astray.”

“And, because of your involvement, you’re unable to tell which actions you will need to take to get us to the right finish line.”

“That is correct.”

“Well,” he sighed, “that is quite a conundrum.”

Barbatos’s face fell into melancholy. “I sincerely apologize, my lord. Had I known—”

Diavolo held up his hand and shook his head. “There was no way to know, Barbatos.”

“If I had not volunteered to find her—”

“Then I would have sent you anyway. Besides, I granted you permission. If anyone is to blame for this, let it be me. Were you able to see what would have happened if you refused her?”

“Not initially. But in some timelines our threads parted shortly after that night, which I suspect was the result of such a decision. Once I was no longer present, I was able to observe. She returned to the human realm.”

“Permanently?”

“Yes, although she maintained relations with the celestial realm thereafter, and the brothers opted to visit her from time to time.”

“And the exchange program?”

Barbatos’s only response was a heavy silence and the most subtle shake of his head. Diavolo hummed.

“I see. Well, at least you can take comfort in knowing that you made the correct decision given the situation.”

“Yes, young master.”

“You don’t sound very relieved.”

Barbatos finally returned to his seat on the sofa, the weight of his guilt too great. This time, he allowed his professional poise to fall away, allowing himself a quiet moment of vulnerability in the prince’s presence in the form of downcast eyes and heavy shoulders.

“The knowledge, while helpful, does not solve our current predicament. It seems that in many cases, her and I remain closely tied after her confession. It makes much of the future... unpredictable.”

“Which will make it nearly impossible to navigate.”

“That is correct.”

Diavolo went quiet for a moment, his chin in his fingers. His golden eyes went from pensive to troubled. “Can it be undone? If we end up on the wrong path, can it be replaced?”

“Of course, young master. Whatever you desire.”

Diavolo nodded. “Good. That is good. We could select a timeline where someone else retrieved her that night instead of you. Then this whole situation may be avoided.”

Barbatos knew his young master would come to such a conclusion, and yet hearing the words from his mouth made his skin tingle, a chill running down his spine. He loathed the subconscious resistance that pushed against the locked door of his mind, and he forced it back with a subtle, inhaled breath through his nose.

He had to remain impartial. He was devoted to the prince entirely, and so he must not withhold any knowledge that can impact success.

“On the contrary, my lord,” he said slowly, “the chances of success from that point were adequate, but not as reliable as they once were. In many of them she remained isolated, and I can’t help but wonder if it may have been due to her unspoken feelings for me. If you want to properly secure the future you seek, then it may be best to replace it with a timeline that branches off even earlier.”

Diavolo’s throat rumbled low, his gaze dark, and Barbatos knew he did not enjoy where this was going any more than Barbatos did.

“How early would you recommend?” he finally asked.

“To before she developed feelings for me in the first place. Granted, we have no way of knowing for sure when that was. But her and I had begun to spend more time together over the past six months. So I believe selecting a timeline that breaks off to prior that would be sufficient.”

Diavolo’s eyes snapped up to Barbatos’s, his eyebrows raised. “Six months??” his expression neutralized as his gaze dropped and grew distant. “That is quite a difference indeed.”

A heavy silence followed, neither demon wanting to move forward with such a permanent decision, and yet the threat of failure loomed like a storm on the distant horizon.

Diavolo let out a long sigh and returned his eyes to Barbatos. “Tell me... What would you like to do?”

Barbatos stared at him, noting the subtle softness in his expression. His features lost some of their sharpness, his eyebrows upturned at the corners in silent worry.

His familial love for Barbatos was impacting his reasoning, shifting him from responsible ruler to soft-hearted youth.

Barbatos would have none of it. He refused to let his young master jeopardize everything for the sake of him.

Even so, the next words he spoke were far more difficult to say than he had anticipated.

“If we are to err on the side of caution, then I would recommend replacing this timeline with a safer option.”

Diavolo’s strong jaw set in a stubborn jut, his gaze piercing. “I did not ask for your recommendation, Barbatos. I asked for what you wanted.”

Barbatos frowned. “Young master, what I want or don’t want is irrelevant. Not with so much at stake.”

“I am perfectly aware of what is at stake. However, I don’t think this situation requires such drastic measures just yet. You yourself stated the future is still possible, even if we may not know exactly how to get there. And how this would impact you is very much relevant, at least to me.”

“You are letting sentiment cloud your judgment.”

“Perhaps...” Diavolo admitted. “But unlike you, I don’t see it as a bad thing. The happiness of my citizens is my responsibility, and that includes you as well, Barbatos.”

“Your success is all the happiness I need, young master.”

Diavolo gave a wear sigh and broke his eye contact to stare down at his intertwined fingers.

“You say that, and yet... I know what this will cost you. It’s a loss that no one else will suffer once the changes are made, not even myself. That hardly seems fair. And since you are the only one who will pay that price, I think that what you want is a valid question. So I ask you again, Barbatos. What would you like to do?”

Diavolo knew everything there was to know about Barbatos’s abilities; he had to in order to be able to utilize the butler’s unique skills to their maximum potential. It was a knowledge that Barbatos had shared willingly, once he knew the prince was ready for such responsibility.

Never before had Barbatos regretted sharing the details of his powers... until now.

Because Prince Diavolo was right. Barbatos had gone through this many times, and yet the pain of each remained. And, he supposed, in some ways it wasn’t fair. But fairness was not something he sought for himself; not after the wrongs he’d done across so many lifetimes.

The prince’s love for him felt undeserved, and yet he cherished it just the same.

Barbatos was silent for a long moment. “You are far too soft, young master.”

“As you always tell me,” Diavolo smiled.

Barbatos couldn’t help but wonder what made the young prince so stubborn, his moral compass so resolute. But for the first time in a long time, Barbatos allowed himself to reflect on his own desires, lured by the promise that what he wanted and what his prince wanted could be one and the same.

Barbatos sighed. “Very well. I would like to keep along this path and try to salvage the current situation.”

Diavolo’s smile went from wry amusement to beaming joy. “Great! Then it’s settled-”

“Not quite,” Barbatos interrupted, his eyes narrowed. “We must discuss what will happen if I should fail.”

Diavolo gave a roll of his eyes. “I believe that goes without saying, but very well. If you do fail, then rest assured, we will remedy the situation by replacing this path with a different one. There. Does that help to ease your worries?”

Barbatos allowed himself a small smile. “It does.”

“Splendid. Because I don’t think you’ll fail anyway.”

“It flatters me that you hold me in such high regard, young master.”

“You are always the one with a plan, are you not?” Diavolo teased with a raise of his eyebrow. Then his amusement faded briefly to reveal the worry beneath. “You... do have a plan, yes?”

Now Barbatos did smile. “Of course. As I said before, there are many branches ahead of us where my thread remains intertwined with hers for longer than expected. However, this can mean many things. It can mean that this false relationship goes on for some time, possibly even years. Or, it could mean that we come to an end amicably, after which I remain heavily involved in her life on a platonic level until such a time that I can naturally fade myself back. That would be the ideal outcome.”

Diavolo hummed. “End amicably... and how do you plan to do that?”

“Time, young master.”

“Time?”

Barbatos nodded. “Yes. You know better than anyone how many responsibilities I carry. It leaves very little room for much else. Add in the pressures of secrecy, and I’m certain she will grow weary of me soon enough once this initial phase of excitement ends.”

Diavolo’s golden eyes glittered. “I see. So you plan to run out the clock, so to speak, rather than putting an end to it directly.”

Barbatos nodded again in affirmation. “The only way for this to end with minimal damage is if she is the one to end it. It must be her idea. It’s the best way to ensure her ability to move on and find someone more suited for her in the future.”

“Are you sure that will work? You know how stubborn she can be...”

“Yes... she can be quite patient, and persistent to boot. However, humans’ lives are short. I’m certain that at some point, she will recognize that her years are being wasted in a secret relationship that can never fully develop. Not to any fault of our own, but to the cruelness of circumstance.”

The worry returned to Diavolo’s eyes as he stared at Barbatos. “And if this plan of yours does take years? Or, worse, what if she never gives up? What then?”

“Then I will remain with her, whether it be a year or a human lifetime. You may consider it my penance for my error. However, I don’t anticipate that it will last that long.”

“What makes you so sure?”

There was a quiet pause as Barbatos gathered his words carefully. “I do not take joy in this deceit, young master. In fact, I find it quite troubling. I may not be able to return her feelings with the same ferocity, but I do value her and respect her.”

Something flashed in Diavolo’s eyes, but it was brief, gone in an instant. “You care for her.”

Barbatos found the look discomforting and averted his eyes to the fireplace where the flames danced. “On a platonic level, yes. As such, I will not take advantage of her. And I suspect she will only wait for so long before the lack of intimacy between us becomes a problem too big to ignore.”

Diavolo joined Barbatos in staring at the fire. “I see. And you will use the excuse of your busy schedule and the danger of prying eyes as a way to avoid such situations.”

“Precisely.”

Diavolo gave a tired, drawn-out groan and slouched back into his chair, his eyes closed. “It all sounds very complicated. It makes me exhausted just hearing about it.” His eyes opened and fresh mirth danced in them. “I feel it would have almost been easier if you actually did have feelings for her. Then we’d only have to worry about keeping the relationship private from others, rather than lying to her as well.”

Barbatos’s expression soured. “Do not joke of such things, young master.”

Diavolo barked a laugh. “You speak as if falling in love would be a bad thing!”

Barbatos could barely suppress the urge to roll his eyes. “Political complications aside, such a thing would be more burden than blessing. It would distract from my duties and require time that I do not have.”

“Perhaps some distraction would be good for you,” the prince winked.

Barbatos’s smile turned icy. “If this is your way of trying to get out of doing your paperwork, then it is a poor attempt indeed. I assure you, young master. My loyalty and focus lies entirely with you.”

“Yes, I was afraid you’d say that...” Diavolo threw his arms up dramatically. “Very well, have it your way then. Keep yourself isolated and lonely forever.”

A bit of an exaggeration, considering how often Barbatos found himself in the company of others. A small, dry smile curled the corners of his lips, never reaching his eyes.

“Thank you, my lord. Now, the hour is late. I do believe it is time for me to prepare your bath.”

“Yes, please.”

Barbatos left the drawing room to begin preparations. As soon as he was out of earshot of Diavolo, he let out a deep sigh as the weight of dread eased slightly from his chest, no longer suffocating. The knowledge that he would not have to replace this timeline just yet brought a sense of relief so strong that it unconsciously pulled his lips into a smile as he began to run the bathwater.

His prince was trusting him, giving him a chance to repair what he’d broken. The gesture touched him deeply.

He only hoped he could deliver.

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Fandom : Lord of the Rings

Starring: Boromir + the Rohan Squad

Tropes: character study, prequel, love letter to the canon, adventure

Rating: T+

Chapter Length: 13k+

Author's Note: Took me over a year to complete this story. A labor of love.

✦ Chapter 3 ✦

… in which Boromir wonders whether the Golden Hall has lost its shine and sets off in search of hope.

[AO3] [masterpost]

[previous chapter]

Firienholt, Rohan, 16th of Cermië 2018 TA

Boromir decided to part with his escort after breakfast.

The highway leading north from Minas Tirith had become so perilous lately, that no lone man could traverse the land safely. Derufin had volunteered to be part of his host, as well as one of the Steward's knights, Negenor of Emyn Arnen, and two trusted men from the Guard of the Citadel, Hrodulf and Celeg. They had spent the first night in a roadside inn past Amon Din. This close to the city, ordinary commerce yet thrived, but the signs of the brewing war were already present and obvious. Most of the patrons were either members of the fleeing merchant caravans, or farmers and fishermen of North Anorien seeking to reach a refuge in western fiefdoms.

The inn had been the last civilized establishment before they had to brave the wilds. Past Amon Din, the highway forked; one branch led north towards Cair Andros, the other had taken Boromir and his party west, to Rohan. On the second day they had passed the Druadan Forest. The Wild Men rarely wandered into the vicinity of the King's Highway, but the woods gave shelter to all kinds of strangers, and this was where Boromir had been the most grateful for the presence of his companions. They had spent the night in the camp of the Rangers of Anorien, near the hill of Nardol - no safer and better provisioned haven they could have wished for. The rangers, who answered to the Steward in the absence of the King, but heeded their own codices and followed their own customs, were always ready to shelter those traveling in good faith. Boromir knew personally many Rangers of both Anorien and Ithilien, and they knew him in turn.

The way led steadily west from there. The party had had to spend the next two nights under the stars, with only themselves for company, taking turns keeping watch. Their last night together they had camped in the Firien Woods, known in Gondor as Eryn Fuir. For Boromir, the Whispering Wood had always held an aura of hallowed grounds, perhaps for the proximity of Halifirnen, the legendary resting place of King Elendil. Boromir remembered a pilgrimage to the memorial mound with the Lord Steward, that they had made upon Boromir’s coming of age, shortly after his knighting. He was now tempted to abandon the Highway, hike up the Amon Anwar, stand in the ages-old silence and seek Elendil's blessing for his journey. Alas, he knew it would delay him greatly and that going off the tract meant inviting trouble. His father would not approve of it, anyway.

Their camp had been set on the western edge of the woods, past Glanhir. The gently rolling hills clad in dry grasses, that stretched before them, were telling Boromir that he was on the cusp of entering the demesne of Theoden King. This land enjoyed frequent patrols of the Rohirrim march riders. No danger could befall him on the King's own tract. The Men of Rohan saw to their affairs conscientiously and would suffer no highwaymen bullying any traveler, much less the Captain of the White Tower. He knew a small guesthouse on the way, where he could stop for a warm luncheon, and, Valar permitting, he should reach Aldburg by evening, and Edoras on the next day.

He could hardly wait to meet with Theodred. A long time had passed since they had last seen each other. A bad friend I have been, he thought, but so has Theodred. Letters can travel both ways!

"Are you so eager to return to your post, that you are willing to depart without any breakfast, Celeg?" asked Derufin with barely concealed mirth, snapping Boromir out of his musings. Celeg had recently taken a sweet young wife and so the cause for his impatience to return to Minas Tirith wasn't a mystery so hard to unravel.

"Merely thinking to be ready for departure in time after the meal, Lord Derufin," said Celeg, his cheeks and ears reddening not entirely from the morning chill in the air.

"Leave the lad be, Derufin,” said Boromir. We were all young once, he thought.

Together, they ate a breakfast of dry rations. Though their talk was merry, the ambiance remained heavy with the unsaid. Boromir could see past Derufin's veneer of humorous jabs. After breakfast, Boromir would set out to paths untraveled and fates unknown - their imminent parting saddened them both. Damn you, Derufin, son of Duinhir, but I shall miss you something awful, Boromir thought.

The dreaded time of goodbye came, implacable. Boromir related to Derufin his last orders for the Army, that he had orphaned for the duration of his quest.

"You only think you are irreplaceable,” said Derufin, “but rest assured - Faramir and I shall do very well in your absence. Certainly none shall miss your brooding." The salty streak upon Derufin’s cheek somewhat belied the irreverence of his words. Boromir was nevertheless grateful for the jest, as it helped him compose himself in turn. They shared a heartfelt embrace. The Gondorians mounted their steeds and drew their swords, giving the last salute to their general, and just like that they were off - Boromir’s last link to home on his quest for the legendary elvish domain disappeared on the woodland path.

Boromir cast a heavy glance up and to the south, towards the unlit beacon of Halifirnen's white marble glinting in the distance between the tangle of leaves and branches, towards the hidden tomb of the great Elendil. He stood and, with only the trees of Whispering Wood and his best war horse, Bathor, for silent witnesses, unsheathed his sword. He raised it high in a pathetic salute of his own.

“Hail, o' Great King Elendil of Old! Boromir, your servant, salutes you, ready to lay his life in your name, in search of Isildur's Bane," he declared.

He sheathed his blade and silently mounted Bathor. Isildur’s ancient law forbade disturbing the silence in Eryn Fuir, but as soon as Boromir came out into the open fields, he blew the Horn of Gondor in memory of Elendil's bloodline and to signify his departure from Anorien. He felt some kinship with the heroes of old through it, and thusly fortified he took to the road.

Yet, even having left Anorien behind, his thoughts lingered on Gondor and his kin. Derufin's parting words made him think of Faramir. Ever since he had left Minas Tirith, whenever he recalled his brother, Boromir could not escape nor forestall the heavy, sinking feeling in his stomach. He was never one to dwell on past choices, having plowed through most of life's challenges with no regrets up until now. He had chosen to go in Faramir’s stead to spare his brother, to protect him, and to please his father. So why did it feel an awful lot like a betrayal?

It had been on that fateful day in Osgiliath, that Faramir had first mentioned this new strange vision of his, both chilling and full of hope. The fall of the Osgiliath Bridge had shaken Minas Tirith - left the brothers weakened in both body and spirit. Only after days of recovery could Faramir report the dream in full, first to Boromir, and then to their Lord the Steward. Lord Denethor had listened to Faramir’s recount of the vision in silence. Later, he had secluded himself in the chamber atop the Tower of Ecthelion, and remained there for several days, leaving Boromir to deal with the aftermath of Osgiliath alone.

The dreams had not stopped, either. They had returned to Faramir on subsequent nights, always featuring the same rhymed riddle, prophesying the return of Isildur's Bane. It had become an obsession for Faramir. He had taken to spending his time in the library, frantically searching for any records on what the Bane might have been. To his astonishment, he had found the relevant scriptures missing! That had worried Boromir - the whole affair had been looking more and more dire. He would curse Isildur’s Bane for dwelling on the minds and hearts of both his brother and his father. He had striven to console his brother as best as he could, to little effect.

And then something even worse had happened, that had Boromir tremble even now, weeks later. The dream of Isildur's Bane had come to him, leaving him heaving, covered in sweat in his bedchamber, wiping his eyes. A voice in his head would chant the strange riddle again and again in his head, driving him to distraction. Try as he had, he couldn't escape it. He had found himself knocking to his father's study that very morning.

"My Lord!" he had said to the closed door at the top of the Tower. "Sire! Hear me! Sire, I come to you with a dream." That had been what made the Steward open the door and let Boromir in, at last. Rare was it for anyone to set foot in the Steward's private study, even for his sons.

"Your brother has been begging me to grant him leave to pursue this strange lead," the Steward had told him.

"You cannot be thinking to let him go!" Borormir had exclaimed. "'Tis a fevered vision of smoke and mirrors! A fool's errand! Worse! A fool's last errand, likely." A strange glint had appeared in Lord Denethor’s eye, then.

"And yet, one of you must see it to the end," he had declared.

"Then let me go in his stead," Boromir had pleaded. Fear for his brother’s life had overcome him, made him offer his own neck readily. Poor, kind-hearted Faramir. A man in his own right; and yet at times it seemed to Boromir his brother had never outgrown the fanciful nature of his boyhood. Boromir would hate to see it shattered, but he also knew the cost of living in fantasy - he, who had had to abandon the tender dreams of childhood in his tenth year, when the Lady Finduilas had departed.

The Steward had ever been a strategist, first and foremost.

"Your brother's visions have truth to them, though they are wasted on a weak man like himself,” he had said. “The land of Imladris exists somewhere in Middle Earth, even though no map that we possess can show us a sure path. The cause is too great to abandon it.” Here the Steward had regarded Boromir solemnly, leaving no place for any doubts. “The power of which the riddle speaks shall become Gondor’s salvation, or our unraveling - in either case we ought not to let the Enemy have it. You will go, Boromir, you will take Isildur's Bane and bring it to me."

"Aye, Lord," Boromir had said, as he ever would.

"Swear it," Denethor had demanded.

Unknown dread had seized Boromir, then. Never in his life had he truly hesitated to answer the Steward's command. Yet this time, something deep inside him had called out to him pitifully not to take the oath. But why? Had his father ever stumbled? Had his father ever erred? He hadn’t. And so it followed that Boromir couldn’t either.

Frightened and discouraged, he had knelt and he had taken the oath, unheeding of his personal doubts.

"I beg of you Boromir, do not go!" Faramir had said, later. "I am overcome with the strangest foreboding that something dreadful shall happen, should you go!" Boromir's heart had broken, then. He had taken Faramir's dream from him, he had done it behind his back, too. And yet Faramir's concern had been first for Boromir's own safety.

Still, Boromir could not heed his brother's warning, for he had been already sworn to carry out their father’s orders towards the end, whatever it might be. That evening, he had assembled the host. On the morrow, only two people had been present at the stables to see the party off. Boromir’s own squire, Huor, his face red and eyes tear-rimmed, had come to attend to his Lord one last time. And the Lord Steward himself, who had descended to the Sixth Level's stables to bestow upon Boromir a proper blessing and impart the final advice.

“Seek out the Wizard Saruman on your way to the West,” had been the Steward’s last charge. “He alone among our allies can point for you the path to Imladris. Otherwise, you shall err and roam the Valar-forsaken desolation of Arnor in vain, and lose both your life, and our only hope.”

Faramir had been notably absent when Boromir’s small host had departed. Even now, after five days, the thought was almost too painful to bear.

Such were his somber musings as he advanced on the West Road. He reached the guest house where he had used to always stop for a meal during his journeys to Edoras in the years past. Their bokenade had a special place in his heart (and hopefully soon also in his stomach) and he had been looking forward to a more substantial repast ever since his party had left the Rangers’ Camp in Druadan. However, to his surprise, he found The Grasshopper closed for business, with the quaint wooden building’s doors and windows barred and nailed shut. Further investigation revealed no signs of recent traffic. That cannot be good, he thought. He had a nagging suspicion that The Grasshopper’s closing down had something to do with the ongoing evacuation of the Gondor’s populace, that it might mean that the people of Rohan had also experienced the unrest of the brewing war. He resolved to content himself with a quick meal of dry rations and to not tarry on his journey any longer; the importance of his mission only grew in his mind.

Alas, as he continued west throughout the afternoon, a sight appeared that gave him an even further pause. Behind the road's turn, that encircled one of the rocky hills of Eastfold, a grey pillar of smoke billowed towards the sky ahead.

He had not known any settlement nor a camp to have ever existed in that location. He could only conceive of one cause for which a Rohirrim patrol could start this sort of fire in the wilds - a funeral pyre. But such a thing, here, in broad daylight? Could it be the Enemy? he wondered. After all, orcish warbands weren’t exactly known for environmental conservationism. But that would belie his so far unshaken faith in the Eored, that would allow no enemy encampment in the King’s Fold. In addition, from his dealings with the orcs in Ithilien, Boromir knew that the creatures remained dormant during the day and only became active during the night, sometimes into the morning hours. He was too far west for it to be the Haradrim and too far east to stumble upon a Dunlending tribe, under ordinary circumstances. No place for highwaymen to hide for miles ahead, either. Upon consideration, he deemed it his duty as a friend of Rohan to discover the source of the smoke, and report about the suspect activity once he reached Aldburg.

Resorting to stealth seemed to be the wisest approach, as Boromir was only one man and the nature of the threat - an unknown. He knew that Bathor, as a fine steed bred and raised among the Horse Lords, a gift from Theoden King himself, would wait for him patiently without revealing himself. Having left his horse in the safety of the nearby bushes, Boromir commenced his trek uphill, meaning to take a measure of the source of the smoke from the top, hoping to remain unnoticed. He approached the rocky outcropping at the hill’s crown and peeked out from behind it.

A view of the Eastfold’s rolling meadows stretched from his vantage point, and right under the hill he spotted what he'd been looking for. An orc encampment, after all! Unexpectedly bustling with activity during the day, even though Boromir knew that all goblins hated sunlight - these goblins however seemed unaffected by the day’s brightness, and, more worryingly still, appeared to be readying for something. The smoke was coming from a huge cauldron in which a foul concoction boiled and bubbled. How can it be, that a fully furnished goblin camp has been set up here in the Eastfold, right by the West Road, not half a day’s ride from Aldburg, and that the Marshal of the Mark would suffer it? Boromir thought in amazement.

He dutifully noted the commando's numbers and their armaments. The orcs were about a dozen warriors, attired in mismatched and incomplete armor, that nevertheless served to cover their vital parts well. Savage they may be, but the orcs know their warcraft, he thought, admiring the heavy, vicious weapons that the goblins seemed to be able to lug and wield without much effort. They had no mounts; instead, several crudely constructed carts, that must have housed their equipment, served as makeshift walls of their camp - a rudimentary cover in case of an attack.

Having satisfied his curiosity and his sense of duty, Boromir thought to retreat, reunite with Bathor and pass around through the thicket on the other side of the hill, to give the encampment a wider berth. Just as he was about to turn around to descend the knoll, he heard a slight rustle behind his back.

The years of training availed him, then; he drew his blade just in time to parry a heavy, ugly orcish club aimed straight for his head. Alas, he hadn’t enough time nor wit about him to account for the second orc, who seized Boromir from behind his back and caught him in a lock. Boromir tried to hold on to his sword for dear life, but it had gotten stuck in the first orc’s wooden club when he had parried the blow. With Boromir overpowered, the first orc yanked the sword from his grasp with frightening ease.

The orcs uttered a throaty gurgling laughter and traded a few grunted words in Black Speech. After years of battling the enemy forces on the banks of Anduin, Boromir had learned a few Dark Tongue phrases. He caught two familiar words: one, "alive", that sparked a small hope in his heart, and another, "food", that swiftly extinguished it. What a dullard I have been to turn my party back to Minas Tirith, before having reached even the first major stop on my journey! A foolhardy, puerile mistake, that will now cost me my life, and worse still, my oath, he thought bitterly. Had his situation not been so dire, he would have laughed at himself and his own half-witted hubris. He had thought himself more practical, more down to earth than Faramir, and so more suited for the quest! Yet he had already, not a week into his journey, acted in a way that had made a mockery of his noble intentions.

One of the orcs bound his hands behind his back with a length of coarse rope; the other pulled a dirty burlap sack over his head and torso and then tied it. Boromir was then swiftly thrown over the back of one of his captors, who carried him down the hill towards the camp. What shortsightedness, he thought, to not realize that the vantage point on the hill would be guarded. The foul smell of whatever had been carried in the sack earlier overpowered him and almost made him retch.

After a bumpy ride on the orc’s back, still tied in the sack, Boromir had been thrown face down onto the dirt, and kicked on the back for good measure. From the smell of smoke and the heat emanating from nearby, he surmised he was now in the middle of the camp, near the fire pit with the huge cauldron. He was truly going to end up as an orc supper, unless he managed to break free!

The first step was surely to regain his vision and free his limbs. However, if he began to struggle overtly, the orcs would only bind him tighter and kick him even more, to prevent his escape. Boromir wriggled slightly to dislodge a hunting dagger he had sheathed under his belt, that the orcs, careless and impulsive as they were, had forgotten to take from him. To them, a small dagger might appear no more dangerous than a toothpick, Boromir thought, as he moved carefully, causing the dagger’s crossguard to catch on a small rock jutting out from the ground. The dagger slid out of its sheath; it was now lying under Boromir inside the sack. After some effort, careful not to raise any suspicion on the outside, Boromir maneuvered the dagger towards his head. He listened and made sure that no orcs were walking directly near him and all of them sounded occupied with… well, with whatever it was that they were doing, then got ahold of the dagger’s grip with his teeth. He jerked his head, managing to pierce the sack through and drive the blade into the ground. They say to always keep one’s blades sharp and they are right, he thought triumphantly. He might have also chipped one of his teeth in the process. Better to walk out of this with a chipped tooth than to become orc dinner with a perfect smile. The orcs had tied his hands, but not his feet, evidently having assumed that he couldn't run if he couldn't see - that had been their mistake, as it gave him more options. Having made an opening in the sack, Boromir tried to guess how much time he had until the orcs decided to chop him and throw the pieces into the cauldron.

He had to rely on his hearing, but soon another of his senses took the lead. Something had gotten the orcs on high alert. They stopped their bustling near the cauldron, where Boromir lay, and all of them gathered on the western edge of the camp, close to one of their carts. Before Boromir could think of the root of this disturbance, he felt with his whole body a sensation that caused a burst of hope in his chest: a deep, reverberating through the earth, unmistakable vibration of hoof beats.

Boromir let go of the dagger’s grip and yanked his body, which, with the dagger still stuck in the ground, caused the sack to rip open. He peeked through the tear: the orcs were crowded on the other side of the camp, bracing for a fight, preparing to use two of their carts lined up as a barricade. He couldn’t see past the carts, but he could feel the vibrations grow stronger; they were now accompanied by the sound of hoof beats that seemed to resonate with Boromir’s very heart. It poured new vigor into his veins. He sat up abruptly, which caused the sack to rip even further, and emerged from the torn canvas, fully regaining his vision. He crawled towards the cauldron, and twisting his neck forcefully, he held his tied hands out close to the fire behind his back. His flesh sang with agony - muscles taut, tendons overstretched; his skin burned when the flames licked his leather gauntlets, but he achieved his goal: the rope that bound his wrists caught fire. He tugged at it forcefully and it gave way, knots coming unraveled momentarily by the flames. He bit his cheek to stifle a cry of pain, but was not afforded any time to examine his singed armor nor the burns underneath it, for the Riders of the Mark descended upon the orcish camp in that moment like an angry tornado, and it was all Boromir could do to scramble from under their hoofs to avoid getting trampled.

The orcs started shouting in Dark Tongue and hacking blindly at the Men with their crude weapons - vicious giant scimitars and heavy war hammers. Boromir used the commotion to stand up and disentangle from the remains of the sack and the ropes. He wasn’t much help in the fight without his sword, that could not be located among the wild tangle of orc, horse and man. He prayed to the Valar that none of the goblins would remember him and think to strike him down before he could make an escape, but the orcs, who evidently held a vendetta against the Rohirrim and were eager to meet them in battle, paid him little heed. Avoiding errant blows, he picked up his dagger from the ground and looked around in search of any other weapon he might claim for himself.

The battle was in full blow. The Eored counted about a score of warriors, and as many horses. The Lords of the Mark evidently had had some practice with raiding similar orcish camps, as they were making short work of this one. The carts had only served to slow them, but had not prevented the riders from invading the encampment, and the space around the fire pit was crowded with Rohirrim on their horses trying to skewer orcs on their long pikes from above. The orcs in turn would either try to knock the riders down, or they would attack the animals directly - a bad move on their part, for one would be hard pressed to find braver and more formidable opponents than the steeds of Rohan. Any goblin that tried to come at one of the chargers would inevitably end up with a horseshoe in their skull.

Suddenly, a loud thud to the right alarmed Boromir. He spun and saw one of the riders fall to the ground. The young warrior's plate got cleaved in two by one of the orc’s ugly hatchets, rivulets of blood sprouting from the wound in his chest. The goblin that had attacked him now raised the hatchet and readied for the final blow that would have finished the effort - but for Boromir, who readily jumped the monster from behind, with a knife to its neck. He felt the warm juice flow through his fingers and pushed the blade in deeper. The orc tried to shake Boromir off his back, but he was too late - already he was gurgling and gasping for his last breath, and swaying on his knock-kneed legs. Together with Boromir, the two of them toppled to the ground, right beside the wounded rider. The goblin uttered his last, blood-curdling shrieks, as Boromir was trying to disentangle his limbs and rise from the ground.

Unfortunately, another goblin, mayhaps the fallen one’s companion, rushed to Boromir to deliver swift retaliation, with his giant club raised and ready to strike. Boromir, whose right arm was pinned to the ground by three hundred pounds of dead orc, had nowhere to run and no way to shield himself. He was tempted to close his eyes, but he resisted, wanting to meet his death bravely, without flinching. Here ends my quest, he thought, as the world around him slowed down. He saw his attacker swing the club overhead; the mismatched plate that covered the orc’s torso rode up revealing the rippling, cording muscles of the orcish underbelly, as the warrior prepared to drive the club into Boromir with all the might in his robust grey body…

… at once, a blurry mass of hooves and plate slammed into the orc from the flank. He was knocked down and trampled, yelling and swinging the club blindly, until a well measured kick to the head silenced him for good.

“Bathor!” cried Boromir, feeling a wave of relief wash over him. Bathor stood proudly over his goblin victim and neighed at Boromir with self-satisfaction.

That was entirely too close, Boromir thought. Around them, the sounds of skirmish were slowly dying down, signifying that the Horse Lords had conquered the camp.

"Up you go," said a voice over Boromir’s head, and he felt the weight that was pinning him down lift. An outstretched hand appeared above him; Boromir took it and hauled himself upright.

“Hail Boromir of the White Tower,” said the rider who had helped him up. Boromir recognized his pointed helmet with horsehair crest as the sign of the Marshal of the Mark, but even without it, his voice was familiar and gladdened Boromir’s heart.

“Hail Eomer, son of Eomund!”, he said.

“Ever are the Lords of Gondor welcome in the King’s Folde, and Boromir first among them,” said Eomer, who seemed to be in high spirits, still in battle frenzy. “Even when he appears mid-fight, out of thin air, no less. We heard someone blow a mighty war horn in the morning, and we rode out, ready to aid whoever be in need. Yet, none of us expected we’d find you. Now I must know, whatever were you doing in this orcish camp, alone and unarmed?”

“Preparing for dinner,” said Boromir tersely. He was glad that he’d decided to blow the Horn of Gondor when crossing into the Eastmarch. “‘Tis true what they say, then, that when the Horn of Gondor sounds, her friends and allies listen,” he remarked. “I was on my way to Edoras, when I chanced upon this camp; you’ll hear all about it. But first - one of your men is gravely wounded,” Boromir turned and pointed to the unfortunate dying soldier. The young man was lying on the ground, bloodied and unconscious, and already the other riders were by him, wiping and tying his wounds. Eomer knelt down by the man and beheld his pale face. His brow grew heavy.

“Reinmar son of Reinhold. You fought bravely,” said Eomer. “Bema guide you,” he invoked reverently. “I fear he is past hope,” he added once he stood up. “Eorlingas! Build a pyre! We cleanse this place and then we take our fallen brother back home!” he bellowed. The riders of the Eored were already busying themselves with piling up the dead goblins and all the filthy remains of the encampment in one place. Eomer once again turned to Boromir.

“Your horse fought well too,” said Eomer. “Valiant Bathor, Rohan welcomes you back,” he addressed the horse, who wouldn’t leave Boromir’s side ever since the skirmish had ended. Boromir couldn’t help but smile, despite the loss of the young rider’s life still weighing on him. That Eomer remembered the name of every horse that had ever come out of Theoden King’s stables, and could greet each of them as an old friend, never failed to astound him.

“Aye, that he did,” he agreed readily. “I’d be orcish marmalade by now if not for him. Best boy in all of the Western Kingdoms,” Boromir patted Bathor’s head.

“I’d say he deserves a good night’s rest in Aldburg’s cozy stables, and a sack full of Rohan’s best oats,” said Eomer. “And we deserve some mead.”

***

The Eored did not talk much on their way back to Aldburg, and they reached their destination just as the sky began to blush. Even in the best of years, compared to Minas Tirith, or even to Edoras, the town of Aldburg wasn’t much to behold - two dozens of wooden houses and several shops crowded around a few cobbled streets. The settlement served as a commercial center and the lonely guard to the farm fields that stretched far and wide around the fortifications. Now the town seemed to Boromir even more empty and quiet than he remembered. The main street led to the Hold, where Boromir headed with Eomer’s men, while Eomer himself went to return the body of the fallen rider to his kin. The castle consisted of a walled courtyard with two watchtowers and the well maintained stone Keep. Boromir beheld the old fortress that had once served as the seat of Eorl the Young. Out in the courtyard, the Men of Rohan busied themselves with their chores - mighty warriors in their prime, tending to their horses and their weapons, just as it had likely been in the times of the First King. Boromir left Bathor with the stable hands and followed Eomer’s lieutenant Eothain into the Keep, to clean himself and have some refreshments.

No sooner had Boromir finished the supper of bread, sop and cold cuts, that the Lord of Aldburg returned to the Keep. Boromir had known Eomer since the latter had been a lad with a loose tooth and scraped knees, barely able to lift a shield. In fact, Boromir distinctly remembered several occasions on which he, along with Theodred and Grimbold, had tutored young Eomer on footwork and proper defensive stances, during Eomer’s years as a squire.

"I see you have been fortifying Aldburg," Boromir said, when Eomer approached him in the hall of the Keep. "Though ancient, the Keep holds strong. The masonry is in excellent condition."

"Aye. We spared no expense," said Eomer proudly.

Boromir also remembered that the House of Eomund had a daughter, a wispy yet fierce young thing, that would follow Eomer everywhere and try to fight men twice her height with swords thrice her weight. The people of Rohan valued bravery and battle prowess, and took great pride in warcraft. Boromir knew that, in the ages past, some of the Ladies from the House of Eorl would choose to train as shield-maidens. He had often wondered if little Eowyn would follow in their steps one day. Only, she is likely not so little anymore, he thought. After all these years that I’ve been absent, she will now be a woman in her prime.

"Is the Lady of the castle present?" he asked.

"My sister dwells in Meduseld nowadays,” said Eomer calmly, even though his face tensed up. When Boromir said nothing, Eomer clarified. “She bears great love for Theoden King. Our uncle requires care in his old age."

"Old age?” Now Boromir could not halt himself and spoke out in surprise. “Mine own father has nigh to a score of years over the King, yet he would allow none to dote on him!”

“Aye, that might be true that the Steward has weathered more winters, but his must have been kinder than my uncle’s. He has been infirm of late, and very jealous of his health.”

“Has aught unfortunate befallen the King? An ailment, or a misadventure, Valar preserve?" asked Boromir. He had long harbored filial sentiments towards Theoden King, and was now struck with guilt. I ought to have at least written to him and inquired about his health once in all those years, he thought with self-recrimination.

"I wish I knew," said Eomer, leaving Boromir still somewhat puzzled and very worried. "Come, Boromir,” he said, aiming to change the topic. “We ought to stand vigil by Reinmar's bier tonight."

Boromir felt tired and discouraged after the day's adventures, but he wouldn't disrespect the Rider who gave his life to liberate the orc camp. Together with Eomer they left the stronghold and passed through the evening streets of Aldburg. Reinmar’s home was lit and its door opened wide, inviting any who wanted to pay their respects to the fallen warrior. Several men were standing vigil out on the street, and once Boromir and Eomer entered the house they saw even more mourners crowded inside. The body of young Reinmar, already cleansed and dressed in finery, was laid out on a makeshift bier. By it stood a young woman, her cheeks tear-stricken, but her head held proudly up. She carried a tyke on her hip, who was also crying and clutching her neck. On the other side of the bier, a young lad lamented the departed by intoning a sad dirge.

"Lord Eomer!" exclaimed the grieving woman, interrupting the chant.

"Hail, Léofdis" said Eomer. "We are come to honor your departed husband. May he ride in Bema's hunt."

"Lord Boromir," said Leofdis, turning to him. “Yours was the hand that killed the one who took my Reinmar's life, as I was told. That is a kindness you did to my son, as his would now be the duty to avenge his father, despite his young age. I thank you."

Boromir was moved by this display of magnanimity. Truly the people of Rohan are pure of heart, to greet death itself with such grace and dignity, he thought.

"May your noble husband rest in peace and with honor," said Boromir. “He died bravely, and may have very well saved my life.”

"I shall take solace in that, when there is little to be had," said Léofdis.

She intoned another dirge, pathetic and heart-wrenching. Boromir listened to her hypnotizing song. It appeared to him as if even the flames of the numerous candles lit by the bier flickered to its rhythm, casting long, trembling shadows of the gathered mourners on the chamber’s walls. After the sad song, Léofdis opened a cask of mead, and everyone present drank of it, toasting the departed - only then did Boromir finally get that cup that Eomer had promised on the road. The vigil lasted for hours afterwards; Eomer and Boromir stood by the bier with the others and listened to the tales and the singing, and once the midnight oil had been burned, they returned to the Keep in sombre silence.

A sturdy bed with fresh linens had been prepared for Boromir in the Keep’s barracks. Going to sleep next to the other warriors would be a comfort, he decided, as he would not relish solitude on such a night. The kinship felt with the Riders of Rohan contented his spirit.

"I will see you in the morning," said Eomer. "We will go to the Golden Hall together. I must report to the King about our recent battle, and you should seek out Theodred. He and Elfhelm have been battling Dunlendings in the Gap of Rohan for some time now and I imagine he has much to tell you.”

***

On the next day, Boromir and Eomer left Aldburg early. They were traveling with several of Eomer’s men, Eothain among them. The White Mountains towered on their left, and the seemingly unending meadow and the open sky of the Folde enveloped them. Here and there, they would pass farmhouses and hamlets - they were now approaching the very heart of Rohan, and Boromir suspected that, here at least, his journey would be safer than on the borderlands of the Eastmark.

Eomer was in a better mood than on the day before and considerably more chatty.

“Tell me, Boromir, what do you seek in Edoras?” he asked, as they rode on. “If you’ve come to seek allies, to recruit men to fight the Enemy in the East, I fear you will not win them easily.”

“Why?” asked Boromir, incredulous. “Have the Men of Rohan forgotten their friends in Gondor?” He would sooner believe in Mordor freezing over than in the Sons of Eorl forsaking their oaths.

“Friends to Gondor we remain,” said Eomer, not a little indignant at the accusation, “and yet we have to first and foremost protect what is ours. Uneasy times for Rohan are coming.” The Marshal’s face darkened.

“Aye, you do not have to tell me,” said Boromir. “It is the same in my homeland. Goblins on the prowl, towns and farmlands abandoned… Even Aldburg, the seat of your House, I have found much changed - once a place of bustling commerce, now more akin to a military base.”

"I have been fortifying the whole of Eastmarch,” Eomer admitted. ��It's all we can do to weed out the orcs and the bandits from Dunland, but they keep appearing like mushrooms after an autumn rain. Most of the farmers have evacuated."

"To where?" asked Boromir “To the Folde? Or to Edoras?”

“To Dunharrow,” said Eomer.

“To the mountain fortress?” Boromir exclaimed. “Is it truly so dire? Surely while Minas Tirith and Cair Andros yet stand, Edoras cannot fall?”

"You are thinking of the threat of Mordor, like many with you," said Eomer with pain in his eyes. "Yet it is not Barad Dur that has me worried - it is Orthanc.”

"Orthanc!?" exclaimed Boromir. "It cannot be! Though I harbor no great love for the White Wizard, long has he been a friend to Gondor and other tribes of the Men of Numenor."

Eomer scowled.

"Yes, I have heard that already, from my uncle and cousin alike. We have had no overt signs of hostility from Isengrad so far, they say. And yet, in my very bones I feel it, the tides have changed.” Boromir noticed Eomer’s fists tightening about the reigns. “Saruman the White is arming for some secret ill-doings. The weapons that the goblins lug on their carts are Orthanc-forged.” He sighed. “Theoden King will sadly not heed my counsel in this. And you know how Theodred is."

“Aye.” Boromir knew Prince Theodred and his constant nature. In contrast to the hot-blooded Eomer, Theodred, with his diplomatic inclinations, was unlikely to throw accusations or see hostility where there had been none previously.

“I am hoping the news from Gondor that you bear shall serve to open their eyes to the direness of our situation,” said Eomer. “And about that, you never answered my first question - what is it you came here seeking?” he turned on his horse to regard Boromir with renewed curiosity.

“I seek only a safe passage through the Gap of Rohan,” said Boromir. “The Lord Steward entrusted me with a mission, and for this reason I must reach the Old Arnor.”

Eomer looked like he wanted to ask more questions about this secret quest, but he must have sensed that its nature was delicate, and, perhaps for the presence of Eothain and the other men, he refrained from further inquiries. Instead, another matter captured his focus.

“You mean to climb the hills of Dunland and traverse the ancient woods of Edenwaith with Bathor as your steed?” he asked.

“Of course,” said Boromir. “Why should I not? You said it yourself, yesterday: Bathor is valiant and has ever served me well!”

“Aye, that may be - during grand battles! As a cavalry horse, part of an entire rank of other riders,” said Eomer. “To brave the wilds, you need a steed that isn’t easily provoked, that is cunning and effortless to guide.”

Boromir knew that when a Man of Rohan offered advice on horses, a wise Man of Gondor listened. Bathor, on the other hand, yanked his reins and stomped his hoof, neighing in indignation at Eomer’s words.

“Peace, Bathor!” said Boromir. “Let it be known far and wide that you are plenty cunning and stout of heart!” he declared.

Eomer laughed at the horse’s antics.

“Nay, Bathor,” he said. “None would ever dare to suggest that you are slow-witted,” he amended, which served to appease the proud stallion.

“'Tis true what Eomer said, that you love the open fields much more than woodland paths and rocky passages,” said Boromir. “Though, I am loath to part with Bathor.”

Such was their chatter for most of the way. They dined in one of the roadside taverns, then admired the view of Edoras, as it first appeared from behind the Ironsaw Mountain, and as it grew bigger and more splendid with their approach. Boromir let Bathor drink from the Snowburn. Must be like tasting mother’s milk again for him, he thought, for he knew that Bathor would graze on the grasslands surrounding Edoras and drink from the icy river in his foal years.

“Ah, Bathor,” Boromir said when they passed the hallowed Barrowfield, “you are home again and I am among brethren.”

And yet, the ‘brethren’ did not welcome Boromir and Eomer with overmuch cheer at the gate. This was a change from what Boromir remembered from the time of his frequent visits to Edoras in the past, when the guards at the gate would greet him as a celebrated guest. What did you expect, when you have been absent from so many years? he gave himself a light reprimand. But he found it hard to dwell on his disappointment, when the Golden Hall glinted invitingly in the afternoon sun and he was momentarily overcome with a new wave of warm nostalgia.

Together with Eomer they climbed through the meandering street uphill on their horses. Despite Boromir’s cherished memories that readily lent color to all things around, not everything in Edoras was as he had remembered it, either. The burg had lost some of its glow in his absence. The local folk seemed downtrodden and dreary, the houses weren't as clean as they had used to. Could it be that the people of Rohan have lost their pride? His initial enthusiasm at being back gave way to creeping sadness by the time they reached the summit.

The crown jewel of Rohan, Meduseld - the Golden Hall, towered now over them. How many times in his youth had Boromir climbed up the stone steps, only to be met with Theodred’s warm embrace, and greeted as a friend by Theoden King? He would inquire after the health of the Princess; on a good day, he would even be allowed to meet her and escort the Lady on a walk around the Hall. Countless nights had Boromir passed under Meduseld’s golden thatched roof, drinking mead with the King and his family.

And yet the Hall’s doors, with their heavy wrought-iron hinges and weathered wood carvings, that Boromir had always, in the past, found wide open, akin to a mother’s arms beckoning a child, were now closed. In front of them, two guards were stationed, as had ever been the custom. Only this time, the men did not look like they had been put there just for the sake of appearances. An even greater shock came, when Boromir and Eomer approached the door. Boromir had thought they would be readily allowed to enter, and yet the guards made them wait, as one of them went to fetch someone.

“What is the meaning of this?” asked Boromir. “Surely the Marshal of the Mark is allowed to enter the King’s Hall?”

Eomer only shook his head, resigned.

“This is a new edict of the King - all must be first questioned who come knocking, no exceptions,” he said. “Better just wait -” But he was cut off by the door opening, and out came Hama, the captain of Theoden King’s guard. Boromir knew him well, and was pleased to see him in good health, even if the years had sprinkled Hama’s temples with more silver.

“Who comes here?” the doorward asked solemnly.

“Eomer, Third Marshal of the Mark, and Boromir of Gondor, Captain of the White Tower,” Eomer answered. Boromir elected not to comment any further on the new closed door policy. I am a guest here. I would be amiss to put my nose into Rohan’s internal affairs, he thought. Only after hearing their names announced according to the new custom did Hama’s face lighten.

“Lord Eomer! Lord Boromir!” he spoke with candor. “Your arrival gladdens me, as it is sure to gladden the King,”

“We shall see,” Eomer muttered darkly, so quiet that Boromir barely caught it.

“Enter in peace,” said Hama, and pushed the door wider for them, allowing them a passage.

The Golden Hall took its name from its outside appearance - made entirely of Firien Wood’s hallowed oak timber, thatched with the straw mowed from Rohan’s grassy plains, it would blaze golden under the sun’s caress. The Hall’s real treasure lay inside, though. The walls, the wooden supporting beams, the floor, and even the stone fire pit had been decorated over the centuries by the hands of Rohan’s most talented artists and craftsmen. Its carvings, paintings, tapestries and mosaics depicted the history of Eorl’s people and everything they held dear. The silhouettes of the Horse Lords of old would ever dance, and chase, and battle, animated by the flickering flames of the central fire pit and the numerous torches that bathed the Hall in their warm glow. It made for an almost religious experience, and it had never failed to render Boromir awestruck upon entering the chamber. Never until now, it seemed, for this time the Golden Hall did not seem to Boromir all that golden.

The hearth at the center was dead, with only mounds of cold ash remaining where the fire had used to burn. The hall was illuminated only by the bluish light falling through the louver in the roof and the small windows high on the eastern wall. The air was foggy with incense smoke and dust lingering in the air, which completed the eerie, chilling ambiance. The masterpieces of Rohirric arts and crafts remained covered by the heavy shadows lingering about the chamber’s corners. The Hall was empty of people, save three: Theoden King, sitting, or rather - slumping, upon his throne, a tall, handsome Lady clad head to toe in white, and a third man dressed in all black, whom Boromir had never met before.

"Hail, Theoden King," said Eomer as he bowed before the throne. "Your servant Eomer greets you. I bring with me Boromir of Gondor, who is seeking hospitality in your Kingdom."

"Hail, Theoden King," Boromir echoed and bowed before the King as well.

"So you have come to me, at last, Eomer," spoke the King, his voice feeble, but with a stony undertone. "A long time has passed since your prior report,” he remarked.

“I have been keeping busy, Sire, with defending the Eastmarch,” said Eomer and bowed again. The King ignored him.

“Longer still since last the son of Denethor has graced these Halls with his presence,” he said. Boromir perceived the jab and had the conscience to feel sufficiently chastised. “Rohan welcomes you, Captain of the White Tower."

Standing before the throne allowed Boromir to assess the monarch’s health for himself. Theoden King appeared much changed. He was bent and dourly clad, with his once bright face now overshadowed with a frown and obscured by a tangled beard. But the greatest change appeared to be in Theoden's manners. Boromir had always known the King as an energetic, jovial man, generous and kind to all guests, cordial with his family. The cool distance, the underhanded remarks - this did not agree with Theoden King’s character, and yet…

“Theoden King,” Boromir began. “None is more saddened by my long absence from Edoras than I, and none more happy to be standing here again,” he said. “I bring with me dark tidings from Gondor, and I humbly ask for a safe passage through the Gap of Rohan for myself.”

“Aye, aye!” said the King. Ha waved his hand impatiently. “You may respite in our Guest Hall, then pass and be on your way.” This felt an awful lot like a dismissal. Theoden did not appear at all concerned with any news from Gondor that Boromir might relay.

Boromir was shocked. This was the first time that he’d been greeted so curtly in the Golden Hall. In the past, Theoden King would invite him to his private chambers, where they would discuss in detail the state of Gondor's affairs, the Steward's health and Boromir’s present tasks. He would also be given accommodations in Meduseld proper, with the King’s family. Relegating him to the Guest House was a new development, one of which Boromir was hard pressed to figure out the meaning.

“My Lord,” the white Lady spoke out. “Allow me to escort Lord Boromir to his chambers and see to his needs in your name.”

Boromir had guessed the dame’s identity immediately, though reconciling her present image with his memory proved more of a challenge. Young Eowyn, sister to Marshal Eomer, as Boromir had remembered her, had favoured boys’ attire, and would wear her hair tightly pleated around her sun-bronzed, perpetually scrunched visage. Now, standing on the dais tall, in all her womanly glory, with the cascading hair catching any sparse light and creating a halo around her, she made for a study of contrasts. Her skin was clear, and yet unnaturally pale, her face as gentle as it was unresponsive. The youth that adorned her seemed eclipsed by burdens beyond her years. A sad and pathetic image she made, and Boromir's heart was gripped with grief. She had used to be a cheerful child, always so eager to meet and greet him. Now - nothing save the barest nod of her head signified she had even noticed his coming. Boromir was tempted to yank her from the gloomy Hall, which might as well have become her tomb.

“Yes, go, sweet daughter. See to our guest, if it be your will, and return swiftly to me,” the King allowed. “Eomer, you shall stay. There are things we must discuss in private,” he ordered, and Eomer once again bowed in acquiescence.

The Lady moved, yet as she descended the dais, another voice spoke out - an oily, whimpering opposition, the source of which Boromir had at first some trouble placing.

“Be this strictly wise, my Liege,” questioned the advisor, to whom Boromir paid little attention until now, “to let the sweet Lady go alone with the foreign Lord? Could not some ill fortune befall her, away from our watchful eyes?”

This insinuation outraged Boromir. Beside him, he saw Eomer also bristle, and lay his hand on the pommel of his sword, Guthwine. Boromir’s first impulse was to challenge the impudent to a duel. How dare the lowlife suggest that he, Boromir, Captain of the White Tower, could ever allow, or worse yet - cause any injury to a dame in his presence? This could not stand! Only the advisor’s measly stature and the lack of any weapons on his mean person, which would make for a rather uneven match, stayed Boromir’s hand.

“Mark your words, sir!” he warned instead, but, as it turned out, he need not have worried, for he found an equally staunch defender in the Lady herself.

“A sad day would it be for our Kingdom, indeed, and cause for much shame,” Eowyn declared coldly, not even gracing the advisor with a glance, “on which, instead of a soft bed and a warm meal, our noble guest would be met with cowardly mistrust and discourtesy.” The advisor winced and blanched. The Lady’s disdain wounded him more severely, it seemed, than Boromir’s iron ever might.

“You may leave,” said the King, and that was apparently all he was going to contribute to the matter. Deeply saddened, Boromir bowed.

“Come, my Lord,” said Lady Eowyn and passed him, swishing her white gown. “If you would follow me.”

They came out of Meduseld, into the last light of the day. As they descended the stone steps, the Lady addressed him again.

“I beg you, my Lord, do not take my uncle's manner as a slight meant for you,” she said, and looked to Boromir solemnly. “No one, save for the Crown Prince and I, has been allowed to reside in the Golden Hall for some moons now. The King’s health has unfortunately worsened, of late. It has made him reclusive and less trusting." Lady Eowyn's words were measured but even Boromir could tell her distress ran deep. “Believe it, he is glad for your coming,” she offered.

“Do not trouble yourself on my account, Lady,” Boromir said. “I am, and I shall ever remain, a friend to the King your uncle, and to your people.” Lady Eowyn nodded, thankful. “That advisor, however, is, if you’ll allow it, a right piece of work.”

“Oh, I allow that and much more,” Eowyn bristled. “Grima son of Gutlaf, he calls himself, though good old Gutlaf must be turning in his barrow for all his mischief. Ever since Grima became an advisor, he has sown only discord and worry among the court.” She sighed. “But, he is very attentive towards the King. My uncle came to rely on him greatly in his infirmity, so all of us must suffer the wretch.”

“If I may, Lady,” said Boromir, “you did not strike me as particularly long-suffering when you had told him off.”

Though she made light of it, Boromir marvelled again at the burdens that young Eowyn had to shoulder daily.

The Lady smiled privately, at that.

“I have my ways,” she said.

"I laud your spirit, Lady. I hope it never dims," he offered, and admired the first tinge of colour that dawned on Eowyn’s face in response.

The Guest Hall was a spacious wooden building, with stone foundations and decorative carvings on the walls, erected in the vicinity of Meduseld and the King's Stables. Boromir followed Lady Eowyn through its well lit main chamber with several rows of wooden tables and a big fireplace with a stone chimney, to one of the adjacent suites meant for the guests. The Lady then ordered that a bath be drawn and a meal prepared for Boromir.

"The Prince my cousin should arrive shortly,” she said. “A patrol in the Westfold must have delayed him.” Then she departed, bidding him a good evening.

The legendary hospitality of the Horse Lords did not disappoint. Boromir could not stifle a groan when he entered the steaming bath, feeling the flesh of his back and legs release the tension that had accumulated during the days spent on the road. He washed the highway dust off of his body and hair. Would that I could clear my head of all the worries just as easily, he thought. He realized that this might be the last time he got to enjoy a warm bath and a meal freshly prepared for him. Whatever awaited amidst the treacherous hills of Dunland, and among the ruins of the lost kingdoms of Arnor, he very much doubted scented oils were part of it.

Thoroughly refreshed, Boromir left his clothes to be cleaned and emerged from his assigned chambers. He was unprepared for how the sight of Prince Theodred, who had been sitting by one of the tables in the hall, and now stood up to greet him, would affect him. When the bath had lightened his body, Theodred’s embrace eased his mind.

Boromir and Theodred had been friends since childhood, acquainted at an early age during one of the formerly frequent diplomatic visits between Gondor and Rohan. They weren't exactly kindred spirits. Theodred was a calm and reticent man; he often had a mollifying influence on Boromir. It had been the similarities between their circumstances, and their shared lot in life that had made brothers of them. There used to be a time when they would correspond daily. Now, as statesmen and warriors, they had less time to continue with the frequent letters, but Boromir knew that it had not diminished the honest regard in which they held each other.

"Welcome," said Theodred.

“It has been too long,” said Boromir. Tears nearly choked him, but he managed to keep his voice steady. “I almost forgot how your face looks,” he resorted to humour. “I certainly don’t remember it being so long.”

Theodred released him and frowned, regarding Boromir earnestly.

“Your brow is also marked by worry,” he said. “If the unrest brewing in the East has clouded the sky of Rohan, then Gondor has been weathering violent tempests for years now because of it.”

“I take it you have heard of Osgiliath?” Boromir asked, not really needing a confirmation.

“Aye,” said Theodred. “The waves made by the Great Bridge falling have reached Rohan in the end.” Boromir frowned. Theodred's words and manner seemed to indicate at something hidden.

"The waves? What do you mean?" he asked. He saw Theodred hesitate, as if he were mustering the courage.

"There are tales of frightful Black Riders, among the people," said the Prince finally. "They have passed through the Wold, leaving despair in their wake."

"The Black Riders of Mordor?" Boromir gasped. He trembled even at the mamory of their last encounter. "Whither did they go? Do you know?" he asked urgently.

"They rode to the West," answered Theodred. "Beyond that, none here could tell you aught."

Wonderful, thought Boromir. They rode west, which is, coincidentally, where I am also going. This did not fill Boromir with much confidence. He had hoped that in Osgiliath he had seen the last of the Morgul Knights.

Some of Boromir's morose thoughts must have shown on his face, for Theodred made an attempt to lighten the mood.

“There are no Black Riders here at present, at least," he said. "Come, Boromir, let us sit in peace and dine together.”

Theodred signaled one of the serving girls, and they sat down at the table. Before long, platters laden with fresh bread and roast meat, along with two tall tankards of mead, appeared before them. For a time, they traded news as they ate. Boromir recounted the defense of Osgiliath and Gondor’s fortification plans. In turn, Theodred told him about the heavy trouble that the riders of the Mark were facing on their Eastern and Western borders.

“Of late, it feels as if Rohan was squashed between two hostile forces, Mordor and Dunland,” he said. “The White Wizard has made no move to help us during the last raid, nor have we heard any news from him for some time now.”

"Eomer seems to believe that Saruman broke faith with the race of Men," Boromir ventured.

"Aye, I have heard that," said Theodred. "Eomer has had his hands full, defending our eastern borders. Out of despair he gives way to such dark thoughts."

“You do not suppose there might be some truth to it?” asked Boromir. "You said it yourself, Curunir has allowed the Wildmen to cross the Gap and challenge you in his wake."

“The Eorlingas have never known Saruman to side with evil,” said Theodred. “I only wonder what he is doing, locked up in his tower like that."

"Mayhaps he is pondering his orb, or whatever else the Wizards be doing in their long hours," Boromir said tersely. In truth the situation wasn't funny. It's always something with the Wizards, isn't it, he thought. I sure hope there are no Wizards in Imladris.

"We have to hope Saruman will keep faith," concluded Theodred, "for I do not think we can challenge Mordor without his support. We shall try sending envoys to Orthanc, once the valley is cleared of the Dunland Men.”

To that, Boromir said nothing. He had his own matter to bring to the Wizard, as per the Lord Steward's instructions. And yet, could the old Curumo be trusted? The riddle of Saruman's alegiance rattled Boromir's mind in vain.

They finished the repast and then raised their tankards.

"Your arrival here gladdens my heart, Boromir," said Theodred and they drank together. "Only looking upon you brings to mind a happier time. I dearly hope it will serve to cheer up my Lord father, as well. Say, Boromir, will you stay for longer?”

"You mean to go into the land of the Dunlendings? Now, so soon after the raid? Whatever for?" asked Theodred, mighty surprised.

At that, Boromir grew wistful.

"Would that I could,” he said with genuine regret. “Alas, I have to push on to the West as soon as I am able."

Theodred agreed easily and the two ended their meal. They went outside, enjoying the warm air of summer night and full stomachs. Boromir afforded himself a minute to forestall his awesome tale and simply walk with Theodred. Edoras, the Golden Hall surrounded from all sides by golden fields, would during the warm months erupt after dark in cricket song so loud, that Boromir often wondered how the dead could slumber in the barrows amidst such clamour. The chirping of insects now served to cover Boromir's secrets, so that none save for Theodred could learn about the sword that was broken, his quest for Imladris, nor about Isildur's Bane. He recounted the dream and the riddle in full to his friend.

Boromir looked around the crowded Guest Hall, which afforded for excellent company, but very little privacy.

"I shall tell you, but not here,” he said. “Let us walk to the stables, if you will. There is a thing I wanted to ask of you, anyway.”

"Why would you need a sword that was broken?" asked Theodred soberly. "Wouldn't it be a disadvantage in a battle?"

"Doesn't sound very helpful, does it?" Boromir grimaced. "These visions are filled with such nonsense. Though, Faramir says it could be the lost sword of Elendil, if you can even imagine it. I suppose I won't know until I find this land of Imladris."

"I've never heard of it," said Theodred. The whole thing clearly perplexed him. "And what about the so-called Halfling? There are songs of Halflings from ages past, but I do not think anyone has seen a proper gnome in hundreds of years, if indeed they ever existed," the Prince mused.

"Let there be a Halfling, or even a flock of them, I care not," Boromir bristled. "It is the part about Isildur's Bane that has me worried the most. The lore is forgotten, the ancient scrolls misplaced or stolen. I find myself venturing in search of the Bane, not even knowing what it might truly be." Boromir fell silent for a while and felt Theodred's eyes on him in the darkness. "Do you suppose it is some terrible weapon?" he asked quietly, dreading the answer. "It must be, to have felled so mighty a King. Who will I have to fight for it? To what lengths will I myself have to go to secure it?"

"Very well," said Boromir. "Thank you for the advice and for your company." The words failed to encompass the depth of gratitude that he currently felt, but they would have to do. Their walk had taken them to the King's Stables. The light of torches spilled out from its open gate. The musty smell of animals that wafted from it had a calming quality.

The welcome weight of Theodred's hand settled on Boromir's shoulder, anchoring him to the present.

"Nothing good comes of guessing. Venture out, see the Bane for yourself, and only then decide the course of action," Theodred said, ever the voice of reason. "Tomorrow, I will see you off with my men. I have cleared the path west with Elfhelm's Eored, yet I cannot in good conscience let you travel through the Westfold alone, so soon after the raid."

"Let us go inside," said Theodred, "and make sure our horses are ready for the journey."

"Ah!" said Boromir, entering the stables after Theodred. "That is the very thing I wanted to ask you." They passed along the row of stalls, that housed the horses in the whole of Middle Earth. Boromir halted in front of Bathor's cubicle and opened it for Theodred's appraisal. "Behold my steed. What do you make of him?"

Theodred approached. Bathor snorted in way of friendly greeting and let the Prince pat his head.

"That is the horse you mean to take with you to Arnor?" Theodred wondered.

"His name is Bathor. He was a gift from your father," Boromir said defensively.

"Aye, I recall," Theodred nodded. "And do not mistake me; he is a fine steed, picked especially for you. But - a war destrier? In the wilderness?"

Boromir sighed.

"Eomer advised against it," he admitted.

"As he should!” exclaimed the Prince. Horses were the sole topic that could get him excited in no time at all. “Bathor can push through and trample, but will he find his way alone, in the wilds?” Throdred tutted and shook his head. “A lone rider on a treacherous terrain, with some need for stealth, as you will be, shall have more help from a lighter steed, with a shorter back and surer hoofs.”

Theodred beckoned him and they passed onto another stall.

"Here. Felar has been uneasy to venture forth for some time now,” he patted the horse’s neck. “He is nimble, wicked smart and easy to reign in. Should you get lost in the wilds, he can find his way home without mistake.”

Boromir heard the wisdom in Theodred's words. He knew better than to argue with the Prince of Rohan about horses. But Bathor was his friend, the only friend he had thought he'd be allowed to take with him to Imladris... Was he to part with all that were dear to him after all?

As if reading his mind, Theodred spoke further.

"Unused as he is to braving the wilderness, he might come to harm on steep mountain paths, or drown in a bog," he warned.

Sooner will I leave him behind than let any ill-adventure befall my friend in the Wild West, Boromir thought, and his mind was made.

"And what will become of Bathor?" he asked.

"I will take care of him personally,” offered Theodred. “When you come back, you can claim him again."

"Nay," Said Boromir. “Better you send him to Minas Tirith, with a rider and a missive for the Steward. I am not sure when I shall return, or indeed if I shall pass through Rohan on my way." He did not mention the possibility of him not coming back at all, because that in Boromir's mind wasn't a viable option - he was under oath. He had to keep it, or else Gondor would perish, and with her - dearest Faramir, and the Steward, and Derufin, and the beloved White City, and Rohan, and Theodred...

***

Despite the long journey that awaited him, sleep eluded Boromir that night. Ere the first rays of dawn he rose, got dressed and left the Guest Hall. His feet took him down, and down, seemingly of their own accord, through the languidly rousing city, through the gate, towards the Barrowfield that stretched outside of it. Covered in mist, the meadow appeared to him akin to the Sea, as it had been on calm summer mornings he’d spent in Belfalas as a child - with an archipelago of burial mounds of the Eorlingas covered in white bloom. Though the barrows looked nearly identical, even after all the years, Boromir had no difficulty seeking out the one that he had come to find. He waded in the mist until he stood before the sealed entrance to Princess Idis’s* tomb.

Not for the first time he wondered how his life would have been, had fair Idis had survived her illness and had they wedded. Would she have stayed in Minas Tirith, while he had gone off in search of Imlardis? Would he have left a child in Minas Tirith, as well? Or several small ones? He could hardly wrap his mind about the idea. Going to war would have been much harder, had he had a family of his own to orphan. Aye, but returning might be easier, he thought, remembering Celeg, so eager to be with his young wife again, and Reinmar, whose body had been washed, and dressed, and looked after by his kin. I should be glad, he thought, to one day return here, to Idis's barrow. It was easy to lay down his life for an entire nation - had something happened to Boromir, someone, likely his brother, would readily take over his duties. But who would have been a father to his children and a husband to his wife, in case of his untimely death? Do not think along those lines, Boromir, he told himself. First, you do not have a wife. And second, even now, there are people that would grieve you. His thoughts went once again to Faramir. Would they yet have a chance reconcile their wounded hearts?

Right then, Boromir felt a presence near him and turned around to see who had come. He blinked, wanting to dispel the remnants of sleep clouding his sight still, for the vision before him appeared taken straight from one of Faramir’s prophetic dreams. Here, among the buried bones of the Eorlingas, one of the great Kings of Rohan from yonder days marched through the mists - his brow solemn, his back straight and his step plenty spry. Boromir knelt before the Lord of the Mark.

“Rise, Boromir of Gondor,” said Theoden King. For it was Theoden King, and not Eorl the Young himself, as Boromir had at first guessed in his awestruck wonder. The proud, noble Lord that Boromir remembered from his youth, and that now stood before him, was an image so far removed from the dotard that had greeted him on the day before in the Golden Hall, that it left Boromir disoriented, with a vague sense of his mind reeling. “Though you already have a father to claim you, in my heart I still name you my son,” the King spoke further, unheeding of Boromir's inner turmoil. “And even so, even for all the love I bore for you, Death became my daughter’s groom before Boromir did, and this cold tomb became her alcove. A shroud in place of a gown. A dirge for a hymn. Where are Boromir and Theoden to find consolation, when all hope appears lost with the Ladies that we have loved?” Though the King’s face was clear again, his speech remained mournful and marred with despair.

“In the memory of their goodness and in the service of our Kingdoms, Valar permit,” said Boromir, his voice raspy from unshed tears. The deaths of Queen Elfhild and Princess Idis, while tragic, had fallen on the House of Earl years ago. And yet it appeared that to Theoden’s heart these wounds were as if fresh, opened anew and bleeding.

“Ha!” Theoden uttered a mirthless chuckle. “That was rightly spoken indeed,” he said. “The Steward has taught you well. Is that what you have come here seeking? The solace of her memory?” To that, Boromir said nothing, feeling his supply of wit depleted for the moment. “Tell me this, Boromir. Why is Gondor’s most valiant protector leaving her fields on the eve of a great battle?”

And Boromir almost told the King about Isildur’s Bane. Almost, for he saw in that moment, over the King’s shoulder, another figure approaching. A thin, mean silhouette, that appeared to be skulking even when traversing an open field on a bright morning. Boromir knew him - it was the advisor, Grima, that had offended him yesterday in the Throne Hall. A strange feeling of suspicion and ominous foreboding seized him. Do not reveal your true purpose, the spirits of the barrows whispered in the wind.

“In search of allies beyond Gondor and Rohan,” Boromir answered instead, which was true, but vague enough to conceal his quest for Isildur’s Bane. One day I shall tell Theoden King all about it. I shall tell him when my purpose is fulfilled, when he is himself again, and this dark malady of the spirit has abated in him, Boromir vowed.

"No harm done, my Lord," Boromir rushed to reassure the King. "I harbor only gratitude for you and yours." The King smiled. Over his shoulder, Boromir could see the advisor steadily clearing the field, heading in their direction.

Theoden sighed and his shoulders rounded.

“You will have to forgive this old man for not having been a better host yesterday," he said, regretful. "I lose my temper easily these days, it seems.”

"Thank you for not forgetting about her," said Theoden. "One child I have lost already. If aught happens to Theodred..."

Boromir almost choked on his own tongue, hearing that.

"My Lord!" he objected. "The Prince is in good health. Why say so?"

"My heart grows heavy with worries sometimes," said Theoden King. It seemed that his strenght was leaving him again. “Every time the Rohirrim ride out to battle, I get this vision of another burial mound sprouting from this hallowed ground…” Theoden’s eyes became glassy, as if he bore witness to some yet unheard of grim future, that only he could see.

"My Liege!" sounded an oily voice from behind the King. It was the man, Grima, who had finally reached them. "My Liege, you shall surely catch a cold if you are out this early! Be this Lord Boromir's doing?" he asked, throwing an accusing glance Boromir's way.

"I do not recall that we've been introduced," said Boromir coldly, indignant at Grima's continued impudence.

"Ah," Theoden sighed. "A more concerned advisor than Grima I could not have hoped for. But hold Lord Boromir blameless for my escapade - the thought was independent; I see it's folly now," the King rambled on, in every way now the dotard that he'd appeared yesterday. "A chill has overtaken my bones, indeed, I must hurry inside."

Was this how the mighty Theoden King spent his days, then? Cowering inside the golden walls, behind the closed doors? Boromir wondered this, as he watched the King and the advisor retreat towards the gate. I must allow an old man his eccentricities, he decided finally, more to reassure himself. Seeing what had become of Rohan, he felt all the stronger the import of his mission. Once again he made a vow to himself, to his father, and to the bones of Princess Idis, that he would not fail. Wherever you are, Lady, please, guide me and watch over the success of my quest, for much depends upon it, he prayed.

Trust your heart, and do not give in to despair, the ghosts of the barrows answered, or mayhaps it was just the wind. With a heavier heart, Boromir returned to Meduseld. Theodred awaited him by the stables.

***

Boromir and Theodred made good progress through the Westfold. It took them near to two days to reach the Fords of Isen - they sheltered for the night at a small riders' outpost, in one of the farming villages surrounding Hornburg. They whiled away the hours spent on horseback with idle banter, talking about this and that, just like they would in the old, much simpler times. It would be hard for Boromir to express how much that camaraderie meant to him, how blissful was it to hide in the illusion that nothing had changed, that this was just one of his many friendly visits to the Land of the Horse Lords.

And yet so many things were different. Theodred, for one, had ever been a solemn, thoughtful man, but now he came across as downright broody. In those moments when the Prince thought Boromir wasn’t paying attention, his face would become drawn and his eyes downcast, as if he were shedding a mask of good humour he only kept up for his friend’s sake. The March seemed eerily silent - abandoned in the wake of recent raids, as if the land itself held its breath.

And finally, the fantasy of a carefree country ride shattered completely, for when they reached the Fords and looked upstream, through the Wizard’s Vale, the sight of Orthanc, that stood proudly erect and seemed to dwarf even the mist-clad Methedras itself, made Boromir remember the Steward’s parting words. Seek out the Wizard Saruman on your way to the West. His father’s charge had weighed heavily on him even before, and caused some inner confusion, so he had not mentioned this design to Theodred on their way through the Fold. And now that he beheld the sight of Isengard’s walls glistening in the distance, a heavy and bitter dread entered Boromir's heart. He remembered the strange feeling that had seized him upon beloved Idis's grave, the bone-penetrating, ominous foreboding that nothing was in truth as it presented itself.

He decided then and there not to go to the White Wizard and to forgo his counsel entirely. He had promised his father he'd bring the Bane back to Gondor - and he would. However, how he went about it remained his concern. Boromir might not have been a strategist like the Steward, nor a clairvoyant like his brother, nor a wise man like Saruman, but even he could tell, after nigh to ten days of his journey so far, that some unforeseen powers were at play in this entire quest for Imladris, and he would do well not to tempt them. The Wizard's betrayal was unthinkable. And yet, to trust him fully was also an impossibility. He could not, he would not in good conscience appeal to Curumo as a friend. Ignoring his father’s advice sat ill with him, as it ever had in the rare cases where he had not heeded the Steward’s word in the past. Yet, a strange thought occurred to him: Perhaps by not going to Saruman when his allegiance remains untested, I am indeed protecting my father, and Gondor as well. But protecting from what? That, he did not know.

Theodred must have guessed that Boromir’s thoughts were heavy, for he had not intruded upon Boromir’s brooding and only spoke up once Boromir looked to him, his dilemma finally resolved.

"This Ford is the limit of the Westfold,” said Theodred. “You are leaving the King’s Land behind and entering the Great Wilds. The Valar avail you, for none else will."

“What of Felar?” Boromir asked, rubbing the horse’s neck affectionately.

Boromir dismounted and took Felar’s reigns. Slowly, solemnly, he approached the Ford. He would not go to the Wizard, but neither would he cower from Orthanc’s sight. Nor from anyone or anything that might meet him in the Wilds. He unfastened the Horn of Gondor, inhaled a lungful of fresh mountain air and blew with all his might.

A rare glimpse of mirth chased through Theodred’s face.

“Aye, Felar shall aid you, so long as you do not slack off with his care.”

To Felar and Brego’s credit, the horses did not spook, though their ears twitched and Brego snorted loudly, clearly offended. Theodred, who had also dismounted, only shook his head, but knew better than to tell Boromir off for blowing the Horn.

"Theodred, Prince of the Horse Lords, from the bottom of my heart I thank you. And Gondor thanks you,” Boromir said, clasping the Prince’s arm. “We may not be brothers in blood, but we are brothers in mind and heart."

"So we are. Be safe, brother. And Boromir…" Here Theodred’s voice faltered wetly, so overcome he was with feeling.

"Aye?"

"I pray that you come back bearing hope for our people. It is long since we had any hope."

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* Princess Idis of the House of Eorl is JRRT’s own OC, not mine. In the initial drafts, Theoden King had two natural children: Theodred and Idis. Tolkien later either scrapped her parts or gave them to Eowyn. You can read about her on Tolkien Gateway (they cite Christopher Tolkien’s The Treason of Isengard ). I used the discarded lore to give Boromir a more setting-appropriate backstory. It just didn’t make sense for an heir to the Stewardship, with such a controlling father like Denethor, to never have made even an attempt at courtship and marriage. Their engagement also adds to the reasons why Boromir was so well liked in Rohan.

This part of Boromir's journey ends here. See you in other works!

Cover image gifted by @quillofspirit. Thank you so much! <3

#[arda]#boromir #[wandering birds]#ass deep in demons #theodred #eomer #theoden #grima wormtongue #hama #eowyn

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jouster-ari · 1 month ago

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ok i know this is less than a snowball's chance in hell

I loved this one author's work on ff.net way back in the dark days of 2010's. i read everything they wrote for LOTR, especially focusing on legolas, gimli and aragorn's friendship. their name was MyselfOnly. haven't seen them for 9 years now (fucking christ im old anyway) i wanna see if anyone else knows their stuff and where they might be now :)

here's their profile, nothing else pops up under this name and tumblr search is beyond useless

myselfonly if you're out there, reach out!! i'm the one who read all your stuff in a few sleepless nights and left comments on every chapter. still holding out hope for the last few chapters of The Steward of the Second. Much love.

#lotr fanfic #lotr fandom #lord of the rings fanfiction #archive of our own #ff.net #fanfiction.net #pls reblog for reach lol #AND CHECK OUT THEIR STUFF IT'S STILL UP

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anghraine · 4 months ago

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this is entirely unprompted on your end, but i love your darcy and faramir takes and wanted to get your opinion on aragorn/faramir as a ship.

i'm salivating over it and nobody. cares. but i just love how it can show the possibilities of book faramir being a "threat" to aragorn's kingship in a way that nobody else is...how they can relate through their shared ancestry but the entirely different ways it impacted them in their respective lives - something about aragorn being the heir of isildur, growing up surrounded by elves, arnor. something about faramir being distinctly aware of the legacy of the stewards, his numenorean heritage and how it's fading away in the world of men, gondor (my fav world in lotr, you are so under-appreciated, gondor.) i personally adhere to the stewards-were-most-likely-also-royalty headcanon because of that extra juicy tension. throw in the i-knew-your-father-as-a-young-man aspect, the whole steward-quite-literally-serving-in-wait-of-the-true-king aspect? it's everything.

i dunno. the natural cause and effect of "return of the king" & "departure of the steward" is so interesting to play with in a romantic context, especially if it keeps both of them in the limelight when naturally, it should only be one of them? i think it's the aragorn ship that pushes his character and ambition the most, and in the same way, it can push faramir to show more machiavellian traits, more of him utilizing his political power and/or personal strengths. especially since his canonical fate is extremely satisfying but also...very conclusively an *ending* if that makes sense.

i might just want to see faramir clashing with aragorn wanting to wage more war. let him cook! let the man speak about "queen among other queens: not a mistress of many slaves"!!!!

also must admit that it's my contrarian ass wanting to rebel against the fanon "aragorn never ever wanted to be king" + "faramir is a pathetic meow meow" headcanons. the existing faramir x aragorn fics i've read all adhere to it which is frustrating.

anyways, any thoughts on this ship i randomly latched on to?

Anon, this is my #1 Tolkien ship and actually one of the only m/m ships I've ever been super into. I used to guiltily sneak-read Aragorn/Faramir as a teenager because I grew up in a conservative community and hadn't come to terms with my own queerness at the time, and was still figuring out how to get by in that community just as a Democrat, much less a lesbian.

Anyway, I got a huge kick out of your ask because it's basically point-for-point my own feelings about them. If you haven't seen it, I even wrote a ship manifesto for them over ten years ago.

And unfortunately I do also agree that the (very PJ film-inflected) fanons around both characters have made it very difficult to find fic for the ship that isn't deeply OOC for the original versions of the characters (tbh the last time I looked, it was hard enough to even find F/A fics where Faramir had black hair, much less his deeper canon characteristics). Add in the fanon depictions of Gondor and the Stewardship, and a lot of what appeals about the pairing is lost for me. I read some good ones a longggg time ago, but wouldn't begin to know where to find them now.

(I know I should be the change I want to see and write some myself, but apart from the AU f/f and m/f/f versions, I think the closest I ever came to it was this post about a mostly-the-same-as-LOTR AU only with Faramir/Aragorn and this feeling explosion about "Faramir actually does accepts the dream-visions obviously intending him to be the one going to Rivendell but also it's Faramir/Aragorn.")

And if you haven't found it yet, my ship tag is #otp: love was kindled.

I hope you enjoy <3

#even i was starting to wonder if i somehow ghostwrote this to myself in a different style while sleepwalking or something.#but no there are two of us! good luck anon and thank you for the message! it's a rough week in casa anghraine and it was a nice respite #anon replies #respuestas #long post #legendarium blogging #otp: love was kindled #faramir #aragorn #pj critical #(mostly implicitly but iykyk)#fic talk #faramir goes to rivendell au #aramir au #faragorn is probably a better shipname but is very reminiscent of fangorn lol #legendarium fanwank

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branules · 5 months ago

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Why do you like aeriseph, sorry if this comes off as rude but I'm generally not too involved in any fandoms so I can't figure out for myself why ppl like this that's just my dumbass lmao

ok i've sat on this one for like a week debating if i should answer or not but sure. i'll preface this by saying that there is no canonical basis for aeriseph in ffvii. like i can't stress enough how much i am making shit up because i like to have fun. but anyway.

the short answer is:

1. sephiroth and aerith are my two favorite fictional characters. 2. i like to draw my two favorite characters lezzing out, because i am a lesbian, and because my sephiroth is transfem. it makes me smile.

as for the longer answer:

i like how much aerith and sephiroth parallel and contrast each other. i like the idea of aerith of having a secret affair with the evil dead woman she is duty-bound to save the world from. not to mention this evil dead woman's ties to zack and the incident that took him from her. i like the idea of the planet's steward and calamity's child going against their natures because they can't resist each other, and it becomes haunting and tragic knowing aerith's eventual fate and the sort of eternal damnation that waits for sephiroth afterwards for doing something so unforgivable, considering she goes from godhood to immortal planet parasite unable to pass on. i find it soooo compelling to think that despite their feelings for each other, aerith ultimately loved the planet and her friends more, enough to do everything in her power to stop sephiroth with Holy, and that sephiroth chose an extraterrestrial brainworm masquerading as a mother over a kind-hearted woman who offered her genuine love. i like the idea of aerith drawing out all the human parts of sephiroth that sephiroth tried so hard to exorcise herself of. i could go on about this for forever but basically i just like doomed yuri.

some necessary addendums:

first, a lot of people like to imagine aerith and sephiroth as siblings. that's fine and cute and i totally get it, but that's not what i'm trying to do. i don't interact with a lot of aerith and sephiroth content that views them with that angle, even if it's cute, precisely because i don't want to cross those wires or make anyone uncomfortable thinking i'm trying to come at this from an incest or underage angle.

second, i want to add that i really don't fw the other aeriseph content i've seen out there lol. i just think i'm into aeriseph for fundamentally different reasons, considering i have no desire to depict them as a het pairing or create gooner noncon content and the like. it isn't that i'm better than anyone, i just don't want to be associated with what goes on in that pairing tag on ao3, and i can't blame anyone who doesn't like aeriseph for that very same reason. i have yet to see someone go about aeriseph in the same l way as i do (sighhhhhh </3) so until then i'm just going to continue playing with my barbie dolls in my locked ivory tower. i am delusional but i am free. hope this helps <3

#txt #aeriseph #ffvii #ff7 #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy vii #sephiroth #aerith gainsborough #speaking my truth and my truth is that i like to draw girls kissing

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borom1r · 10 months ago

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WAILING @theshakespearetrash sent me 2 ask memes for Boromir asks (who is very much Not my OC skfhshfjjs but I will Always do character analysis I love character analysis so much. rotating him so fast in my brain. microwaving him on high)

+ not to be a kinnie on main (voice of a man who is always a kinnie on main) but I will be answering these all w/ a sort of Boromir-lives scenario in mind -w-

anyways ask meme 1 + ask meme 2

1. What memory would your OC rather just forget?

ok I feel like it’s the cop-out answer to say “his fall to the ring” but I feel like Boromir is the sort of person to.. not like stew on things but very much takes the stance of “good or bad, all my choices got me to the current moment and made me who I am.” + I feel like there’s so much tangled up in his fall completely beyond his control where that’s the only memory that he’d like. actively want to erase from his mind

2. What's something about your OC that people wouldn't expect just from looking at them?

HM. good with kids. I think unless you’d seen him with Faramir/his cousins when they were younger you wouldn’t guess (he’s a soldier and a very plain man when he’s not putting on a show for his father), but he’s just genuinely great with kids

3. What is your OC's fatal flaw? Are they aware of this flaw?

loves too much + quick to lose hope. painfully aware of this

4. When scared, does your OC fight, flee, freeze or fawn?

fight response. 100% the kind of man who gets kicked out of a haunted house for punching a scareactor even though he knew a scare was coming. Faramir and Aragorn have both almost gotten throttled bc they unintentionally snuck up on him

5. How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

OOO. When He Is Of Sound Mind, not actually very far. he was raised with the knowledge he would be giving his life to Gondor, whether he died in battle or sat on the throne as steward. add to that the act he puts on for Denethor, everything he does to protect Faramir— he’s a man born to serve. his own wants come last

6. How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass?

it would take. a DESPERATELY long time and an almost complete degradation of his mental state. Boromir arrives in Rivendell in October 3018, and the very next day is the Council, at which point he sees the ring and is IMMEDIATELY influenced by it. yet he doesn’t fully fall to it until the end of February 3019. he’d been fighting its pull for almost four whole months by the time he does anything malicious. resisting the One Ring for FOUR MONTHS. <- reasons why if I see someone call Boromir weak for falling to it I will see red.

7. What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

teehee obviously again Boromir is not my OC so I will take this as an excuse to Be A Kinnie + say, I do remember Boromir being returned to us sometime after my coronation. so that’s one way my memories differ from canon, which is sort of an answer to this prompt snfjsjfj

8. Would your OC ostensibly be able to get away with murder?

OH YEAH. I mean yeah if we’re talking like actual criminal murder and not just Slaying People On A Battlefield like. yeah 100% he would IF he was within Minas Tirith. you know Denethor would do everything in his power to cover that up lmfao

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

YEAH YAYYYY I GET TO MAKE MORE PPL LISTEN TO CROM AND BARONESS!!!!

anyways “have you ever seen a man so strong have you ever seen a man so great when he fights time stands still and everything seems so unreal but deep inside of him this man is torn” what if I bit things about this song

+ also listening to Magnolia and Shock Me by Baroness with Aragorn/Boromir in mind makes me ill. im Unwell.

10. What's an AU that would be interesting to explore with your OC?

HMMMMM The Frankenstein Chronicles gave me brain worms so I might write a Frankenstein-inspired thing at some point. sth sth consequences of divine resurrection

11. What is your OC's weapon of choice? Have they ever actually used it?

RAAAAGH. AUTISM TIMEEEEE.

Boromir uses a hand-and-a-half arming sword (meaning it’s balanced for single or double-handed use, with a crossguard). it’s a really elegant sword, very simple and utilitarian. speaks to an adaptable combat style as well. but, interestingly? Boromir carries a Rohirric shield, and if you notice Rohirric swords don’t actually HAVE crossguards the way Gondorian blades do. this tracks, and was common with Roman and early Germanic swords— BECAUSE these cultures were Also relying on shields for blocking.

and an additional note, Faramir’s sword is single-handed. so we’ve got a ranger who prefers the use of a bow and hasn’t experimented much with his sword combat, and his brother who prefers a sword and carries a very versatile blade with 1) a Rohirric shield and 2) a ranger’s vambraces designed to protect his arms from a (nonexistent) bowstring. I just find Boromir’s mix of protective gear so interesting, esp if you consider he and Théodred as at LEAST friends. like Boromir carries so much of the people he cares for with him into strange lands even when he (arguably) has little need for such gear

12. Is your OC self-destructive? In what ways?

yes and no. I think, not consciously? but he absolutely values himself lower than the people he cares for. he goes to Rivendell to keep Faramir out of danger, he takes multiple arrows to the chest and keeps fighting to defend Merry and Pippin. I think if there’s a risk of someone he loves getting hurt, all self-preservation goes out the window

13. If you met your OC, would the two of you get along?

oh I would be staring at him like a predatory animal and trying to psychically convince him to lay on me in full armor

14. How does your OC want to be seen by other characters?

HGH. ok I don’t think he necessarily. does?? and this is generally a Silly Little Headcanon bc of a comment a Most Beloved Friend made abt how everyone gets their autism from their dad (real+true) + now in my head “haha Faramir got his autism from Boromir instead” BUT. like genuinely I don’t think Boromir has an actual image of himself in his head or like processes that ppl perceive him, necessarily. and particularly when his father is holding him up as this aspirational figurehead for Gondor, like… I think he’s just himself, in his head. idk how to describe it well for the neurotypical ppl in the room snfskfjs sorry. like I don’t process myself as having Traits so ppl tell me they think I’m cool or funny or they enjoy being around me and it’s always like “!!! oh!” + I think Boromir is the same way. I think Faramir could describe Boromir to him + Boromir would just be like. “huh.”

15. Does your OC have a faceclaim? If so, who?

it’s Sean Bean + it will always be Sean Bean. sorry other Boromirs you simply pale in comparison

16. What is your OC's pain tolerance like?

VERY high by necessity. he’s a soldier he’s absolutely patched up his own injuries before, at least to hold over until he could see an actual healer

17. What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

ahh. I wrote a very personal fic exploring self harm urges w/ Boromir, so I suppose that

18. Is your OC more cold and detached or up close and personal?

very personable, when he’s of sound mind sndnsj

19. How does your OC behave when enraged?

oh he’s a silent anger type for sure. just seethes quietly. hello, consequences of spending time in an environment where you have no actual outlet for your anger + must simply sit there and Stew.

20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

again, When He’s Of Sound Mind, no. the man’s got a big heart and life’s too short to be petty

21. Does your OC have any illnesses or disorders? How do they handle it?

hitting him with the autism beam bc I can. I do also think he’s lost at least partial use of his arm in a Boromir Lives scenario, considering where the first arrow struck him

22. What character alignment would you consider your OC to be?

HMMM neutral good. he’s not chaotic enough to be.. chaotic (lol), and I think he’s too willing to go against Gondorian Popular Opinion to be lawful.

23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

HMMMMM pain, actually. or “weakness.” I think if he can quantify it in his head as “showing weakness” then it’s getting stuffed in a mental box and Not Addressed

24. What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

ok well. None. I think with his circumstances he had zero choice in his path. HOWEVER. I am deeply DEEPLY fond of Boromir learning how to play an instrument after the war ends. I STILL struggle to blow my wassail horn that shit takes SKILL that I do not currently have and Boromir was the BEST at blowing his horn?????? I think he deserves to learn how to play an instrument, esp bc Aragorn, Merry and Pippin would ALL be delighted to have Boromir play while they sing. Boromir learning hobbit folk songs????? Rohirric songs, to honor Théodred?? yeagh.

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

HES SO. FUNDAMENTALLY LOVING. love is such a core aspect of his character he is so wholly loving that the ring has NO CHOICE but to try to twist that love. bc it’s all Boromir has. love. im going to throw up abt him.

AAAAAAAAAND:

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

has he ever BEEN completely alone? mm, no. has he ever felt that isolated? I think absolutely, by the time the fellowship leaves Caras Galadhon. obviously he doesn’t deal with it well el oh el.

as for how he acts when no one’s around to see him… I don’t think much changes, tbh. he’s not the kind of man to Perform for anyone except his father, and then with the express purpose of placating the man and keeping his ire towards Faramir to a minimum

betrayal: Has your OC ever been betrayed by someone they thought they could trust? Has your OC ever betrayed someone who trusted them?

been betrayed? hm. truthfully, no, though I’m certain he felt betrayed by Aragorn’s reluctance to be anything resembling a king.

has He betrayed someone? Technically Yes, though again, if we apply the qualifier of “When He’s Of Sound Mind” the answer is no. his betrayal comes under the influence of a Malicious Magical Artifact Which Has Been Fucking With His Mind For Months, so.

bound: Has your OC ever been imprisoned or captured? What happened? How did they get out? Did the experience leave any scars?

ooo, hm. I think not, actually, though it is a fun little idea for angst

break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?

gestures wildly at canon. I mean that’s his lowest. we’ve all seen it.

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

again, canon— to see his people safe. he’s very open with that desire, lol

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

AH. canon again. though what he does to move past it… mm. quite a lot of atonement, I think. perhaps of the self-destructive, working-himself-too-hard variety. I do think speaking with Faramir about *his* experience with the ring would help, because Boromir is the first to hold Faramir up as this sort of paragon of Goodness. so I think to know *Faramir* was tempted would help him better ground his experiences as, like…. Not A Deep Moral Failure Exclusive To Himself

fear: What is your OC's greatest fear? What do they do when confronted with it? Are they open with their fear, or do they hide it away?

ehehe. this is one thing I’ve touched on in a Faramir-centric fic, but the idea that the ring showed Boromir visions of Faramir dying at Denethor’s hand should he fail to return with the ring.

had Boromir lived to discover Denethor had nearly burned Faramir alive…… Mmmm. mmmmmmmm.

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

worst possible? if he’d actually managed to claim the ring. I shan’t elaborate -_-

ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

MM. his own actions. dead friends, dead loved ones. though if you mean literally, haunts him, I do like to think that Théodred’s Oðr pays Boromir a visit every now and again

guilt: What is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

see above. handles it?? mm. atonement, again. direct action. he accepts it and does what he can to make it right

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

HATE? Orcs, probably. Sauron. that tentacle motherfucker outside Moria. he’s not a hateful man, so. shrugs.

heartbreak: Have they ever had a relationship that ended badly? Experienced some other kind of heartbreak? What happened?

that ended badly in the interpersonal sense? mm, unlikely. more ended badly in the “somebody fucking died” sense.

I do think he had One (1) fledgling romance in Dol Amroth that ended with the other squire dying and that was sort of the catalyst for “ah. If I love people they’ll Probably Die, so maybe I won’t do that” baggage that he didn’t really unpack until, I think, Théodred. add the additional layers of Denethor Being Denethor and Boromir having such great standards to live up to…. with all the love in my heart, that relationship only happened bc Théodred saw Boromir, went “I need to fuck that Gondorian so bad it makes me look stupid” and proceeded to work his way through 1700 layers of gondorian mental bullshit just so he could suck some dick (me too bestie)

hide: What does your OC hide? Why do they hide it?

hm. my first instinct is to say “not much” but ultimately I think he’d hide anything he can quantify as “weakness.” his own distress, any physical pain if he needs to be up and moving, etc. he’s only able to share that earnest moment with Aragorn in Caras Galadhon bc of Galadriel’s influence. he’s not used to being seen. so, if there is sth that would hold him back from fulfilling his duty as a soldier it is absolutely getting hidden/ignored.

hunt: Who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

hm. not necessarily Hunted, but I do think he is followed by Denethor’s expectations. it’s sth I’ve talked abt in another ask + that I go into in the costuming doc but such a key element of Denethor’s design is his son’s motifs but Richer, Grander. so… I do think Boromir is constantly alert of, like, how his father will perceive him, bc there is this very insidious sort of competition, this need for Denethor to show his sons up (whether a conscious need or not). and I do think that would weigh on Boromir quite heavily

mask: Does your OC wear a mask, literally or figuratively? What goes on beneath it? Is there anyone in their life who gets to see who they are under the mask?

mm again I think he only really wears a mask/performs for Denethor. anyone else would be too much effort for too little reward. at least if he plays Golden Son for his father, it keeps Faramir from being harassed as much

however, as for who gets to see him when he’s.. not just unmasked but actually RELAXED… Faramir, his uncle and cousins, Théodred, Aragorn, the others in the fellowship but particularly Merry and Pippin

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

does he have nightmares? oh definitely. what he does in the small hours of the night? depends. if he’s on campaign/traveling/otherwise away from Minas Tirith he will either lay there in his bedroll and Think (bad) or get up and write letters. depends entirely on where he’s stationed/who he’s with. if he Is at home in Minas Tirith, I expect he just goes for a walk + looks at the sky

mistake: What's the worst mistake your OC ever made? What led to them making it? Have they been able to fix it? How have they moved on?

I think I’ve pretty much answered all of this above, so skfjsjdh

monster: Is your OC monstrous in any way? Is there something that makes them monstrous? Are they aware of their own monstrosity? Do they accept it or reject it?

nah, he’s not ❤️‍🩹

nightmare: What does your OC have nightmares about? How do they deal with their nightmares? Do they tell people, or keep it to themself?

answered w midnight for the most part— I’ll just add that no, he wouldn’t really talk about his nightmares. that requires showing vulnerability lol. I think Théodred and Aragorn are the only two who could coax him into speaking about his nightmares/fears (he wouldn’t want to burden Faramir with such nonsense)

pain: What's the worst pain your OC has ever felt? Do they have a high pain tolerance?

answered sorta (yes he has a high pain tolerance) but worst pain? gonna go with three orc arrows to the chest

secret: What's one secret your OC never wants anyone to know about them?

HMMMM again I don’t think there are many secrets. I do think if Denethor found out he liked men it would be disastrous

skin: How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they grapple with anything that lives inside them—a beast, a curse, a failure, a monster? How do they face the smallest, weakest, most horrible version of themself? Are they able to acknowledge it at all?

hm. I think he’s generally at ease with himself, or at least content with Not Thinking About These Things. I think, had he directly survived the arrows, he would have to grapple with like. the idea that he did prove Aragorn’s fears about men correct (whether Aragorn would agree with him or not)

torture: Has your OC ever been tortured? Would your OC ever torture someone else?

Four Months Of Slow Mental Degradation Due To An Accursed Magical Artifact!!!!! 🎉🎉🎉

(no he wouldn’t torture anyone else)

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

hm. He would say mostly physical wounds. I’d argue a mix of both. he’ll accept as much care as he needs to stay on his feet and fighting. worst wound is definitely still arrows lol

#THANK UUUUUUUU THIS WAS SO FUN #I love character analysis sooooooooooo much snfjsjfjhd

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