#anyways I love being autistic about muppets

[kissformuppet]

The other day I was showing my partner a stupid Christmas show and in it they kept referring to a felt doll (not even a puppet) as a Muppet because it was purple I guess? I didn’t say anything, but at one point my partner said, “that’s not a Muppet, stop calling it a Muppet.”

Thank you, I love you, you understand me

[blood-and-pizza]

I've long since come to the realization that Freddy Fazbear isn't the first bear I was obsessed with in my life. There have been many other bears before him, and I'd like to talk about that if I may.

I was born in 1985, so Care Bears was definitely around then. I mostly watched the cartoons growing up. I didn't own any Care Bear dolls or merch. Instead, my big obsession as a toddler was a different bear.

Teddy Ruxpin was my religion as a toddler. I watched the cartoon and had all the VHS tapes. I had Teddy and his tapes and books, and I even had his best friend, Grubby. The lore of Teddy Ruxpin's world fascinated me. It still does. I genuinely wish I could reboot the cartoon personally so it can finally get more than one season. Oh, and I had a Baby Teddy Ruxpin doll that talked when you squeezed its hand. Dad told me the only way he could tell I was asleep at night was when Baby Teddy stopped talking.

I also watched The Muppets a great deal growing up. Poor Fozzie Bear. I related to him because he tried so hard to please people, and he got heckled and bullied for it. Imagine being an autistic little girl in the 90's, when you were undiagnosed because autism wasn't widely recognized or understood back then, and you're desperately trying to figure out the illogical and insane culture of neurotypicals. You bend over backwards trying to please everyone, but no matter how hard you try, no matter what you say, no matter how desperately you stand up for yourself, everyone sees you as a crybaby, a joke, and a target for abuse. Maybe that sounds really heavy, and it is. The point I'm making is that little me was really going through it, so when I saw Fozzie getting heckled or abused, I saw myself in him and really hated seeing him suffer. Also, I LOVED Muppet Babies and the early Muppet movies as a kid. I had Muppet Babies toys as a child, including a Christmas-themed Baby Fozzie I got from McDonald's.

Yogi Bear was another bear I genuinely liked. I remember the disaster that was "Yo! Yogi". If you don't know what that show is, prepare yourself for the most painfully 90's cashgrab cartoon ever produced. I prefer classic Yogi shorts and any old Hanna Barbera films that feature him. I'm still not sure what the deal is with Boo Boo. Why is he so small? Anyway... I've watched some of the Jellystone series and really like how they treat ALL the characters on that show, including Yogi. I need to catch up on that series...

Being a 90's kid, of COURSE I watched Gummi Bears as a kid. That theme song slapped! And I loved pretending to drink Gummi berry juice and "bouncing" around the room. My favorite character back then was Gruffy. For some reason, he reminded me of my father... or what I wished my father could be. I know that might sound silly. I haven't watched Gummi Bears in a very long time. I don't know how I'd feel about Gruffi now... I do know, however, that even as a child, I found Gusto Gummi very attractive. I have no comments on the others since I can't remember a damn thing.

Another Disney cartoon I was very obsessed with was Darkwing Duck. For a good chunk of my life, I was in the Darkwing Duck fandom. There is a bear character on that show who I'm actually secretly fond of... Vladimir Goudenov Gryzlikoff is a bear with a Russian accent, and the chief agent of SHUSH, personally assisting Chief J. Gander Hooter and even standing in for him when need be. He, as a stickler for proper SHUSH procedure, exists solely to be a pain in the ass for wildcard Darkwing Duck. Darkwing, of course, is a pain in the ass to him in return. BOTH are equally stubborn men who actually make a decent team when they cooperate. They're amazing foils for each other. I guess you could say they're frenemies? Yeah.

Those are all the bears I can think of off the top of my head. If I remember any others, I'll follow up with another post.

[beardedmrbean]

Hey it me, zoomer Huey, I saw the post saying about the young gamers retro revival

But how retro because this book..

https://www.tumblr.com/gsirvitor/742534236498804736

Also yes people halo is going to be 23 this fall so it’s a retro game

Yes, don’t have to deal with horrific live service and micro transactions but the thing is….economic reasons

Like I been getting into kingdoms hearts and final fantasy….but I was a Xbox player so they are new ports in the ecosystem

And like I said, AC red will probably be a huge entry point for a lot of new fans. So it very likely they will be curious what the game Easter eggs are about so I will gladly help them get say get the Ezio Collection if the European Templars have dialogue mentioning they don’t want another Borgia fiasco since the game take places in the 1580’s-90’s and during this time many Templars went to the new world or other places to escape the “Dark Age” of the Templars order where it’s was about gaining power for selfish reasons rather further their causes

And about retro games, um…the same way a adult might want to watch old classic movies

Now I watched Fox’s miracle of 34th street a couple of years ago on Disney plus (actually I often use these streaming services to watch old shit like the muppet show) despite being at my depress state, I couldn’t help but smile at the Santa in it

It like for me, I found the Santa that inspired the ones your generation, my generation, and all those in between the Santa we had when we were kids. I’m glad the actor got the Oscar. And I’m more glad Hollywood graveyard help find his lost vase and people came to celebrate the actor new home. With him Unknowingly inspired the Christmas magic we love

Sorry using that as example

Also a lot of young gamers….were often too poor, too young, didn’t have enough resources when these old games came out. So we are interested in what these games that older gamers talk about even if we don’t have the nostalgia for it

Like Xbox Backwards Compatibility library….can someone please make a deal to bring the one transformers or marvel games back on it? Anyways, I’m 24 now, so there a lot of old 360 and og Xbox games I didn’t okay that I use bc for

And modern gaming, ugh feel like it intentionally designed for Twitch streamers and YouTuber gamers. Ugh halo infinite mp made just drop it all together

Oh gaming companies, a lot of modern gamers have JOBS so we might invest in a 1 or 2 live service games. Hell ac red might have a 3-4 live services era (ac Valhalla had 2 years of support) but I’m mostly invested in single player games

Well I’m autistic and I work 10 hour and 4 days a week work schedule. I am not interested dealing with try hards

Like I don’t understand this shock? Ac red is dead ass the only triple a gaming I’m probably going to be paying at launch at full price while the upcoming Star Wars game I’m probably going to get on sale

I feel like people are so focus on young people who refuse to consume pre 2012 media. There are those with a mentality that can stand old shit.

Hey it me, zoomer Huey, I saw the post saying about the young gamers retro revival But how retro because this book. gsirvitor/742534236498804736 Also yes people halo is going to be 23 this fall so it’s a retro game

I think the first post your talking about was one I put up, I go with most anything PS2 on down for consoles, some PS2 aren't really "retro" but the divide for me is mostly based on hotfixes and micro-transactions so like Sims2 is the right age but i shift round on the retro bit since you could buy skins and such still gonna be retro I think.

Online games you could play for free online are retro too, but everyone will define it in their own way too so no hard and fast rules for me.

Like I been getting into kingdoms hearts and final fantasy….but I was a Xbox player so they are new ports in the ecosystem And like I said, AC red will probably be a huge entry point for a lot of new fans. So it very likely they will be curious what the game Easter eggs are about......... And about retro games, um…the same way a adult might want to watch old classic movies

Classic and retro work together in tandem a lot, there is a difference but I don't want to tangent too far into that.

Now I watched Fox’s miracle of 34th street a couple of years ago on Disney plus (actually I often use these streaming services to watch old shit like the muppet show) despite being at my depress state, I couldn’t help but smile at the Santa in it

Watch some Mr Rogers, it's a soothing balm on depression, won't make it go away but at the end of a episode or two you'll feel loved, man you've never met in your life but you know he loved you, just the way you are.

Also a lot of young gamers….were often too poor, too young, didn’t have enough resources when these old games came out. So we are interested in what these games that older gamers talk about even if we don’t have the nostalgia for it

Nostalgia isn't required for retro, good games are good games.

Like Xbox Backwards Compatibility library….can someone please make a deal to bring the one transformers or marvel games back on it? Anyways, I’m 24 now, so there a lot of old 360 and og Xbox games I didn’t okay that I use bc for

If I'd had the money to get one of the first gen PS3's I'd have gotten one since they were built to still run PS1&2 games as well, once they took that away I had no desire to get the thing. Wii was great because you had the Wii shop for the older games and it also played GC games, Wii shop games weren't too pricey either.

And modern gaming, ugh feel like it intentionally designed for Twitch streamers and YouTuber gamers. Ugh halo infinite mp made just drop it all together

I've noticed that with some, they dial back the graphics and all that good stuff so they stream well, or at least leave the option of that. I figure as long as everyone is happy.

Oh gaming companies, a lot of modern gamers have JOBS so we might invest in a 1 or 2 live service games. Hell ac red might have a 3-4 live services era (ac Valhalla had 2 years of support) but I’m mostly invested in single player games

That's really all I do, even when battle net was going strong I still didn't sign up for D2 on there except rarely.

Like I don’t understand this shock? Ac red is dead ass the only triple a gaming I’m probably going to be paying at launch at full price while the upcoming Star Wars game I’m probably going to get on sale

Blizard had it right with World of Warcraft, at least at one point. The were selling the game disc for like $5 with a 2 week subscription make their money in the long game, not sure if anyone is doing that kind of thing anymore but they should be.

I feel like people are so focus on young people who refuse to consume pre 2012 media. There are those with a mentality that can stand old shit.

I love seeing people get into the games and stuff I enjoyed when I was younger, watching through the X-Files with a friend who's never seen it before and it's great seeing it through the eyes of someone who hasn't watched it.

Same with nerding out about games, as you've seen me do with FFVI here previously.

Most people that matter feel the same, so don't worry about any haters, they aren't worth your time or thought.

[ammonti]

OMG....

so bugsnax is this game about these bugs that are. snacks!! they're all these kinds of food. strawby and bunger are their main marketer snaxs, however there are sooo many bugsnax. my favorite is the noodler and the sandopede, and the spicy bunger but i love them all so much so those are just a few. but i do like the spicy bunger the most....

regardless regardless!!they all reside on this island, snaxburg, and you're a journalist sent to investigate the island. because a research team was sent off to investigate and havent gotten back and itll be good press + you might loose your job.

now thats how we get to floofty... you see bugsnax is primarly marketed towards kids and teenagers. meaning its pretty child friendly while dipping into serious themes, but handling them respectfully. and because of this instead of humans, they got grumpuses!! they're all muppet looking little furry creatures and i love them dearly. just like me frfr.

floofty is one of these grumpuses!! they're one of the characters you meet on the island, however they're further fleshed out later on in the game. they seem very mean, pushy and condesencing at first, but that's because they're used to their accomplishments and scientific endeavors being ignored, shunned and discouraged. once people actually show that they find interest, they can in fact be rather sweet!!! they've built up this protective shield because they have raelly macabre scientitic persuits. like... canonically chopping off their leg to study bugsnax and eating a little bit of that leg... but again once they find people who get it they can be rather nice.

and... floofty is literally so cute they're my favorite i wanna MWAH MWHA MHWA MHAW. in the dlc you literally blow dust at them and they start screaming "the goggles do nothing!!!" tghey're canonically nonbinary and nobody misgenders them or brings their gender up even though no one really likes them. <- and thats actually a really interesting look on grump society showing that unfortunately ableism towards the weird or the unconvential amongst us is still present, despite it seeming like queerness seems like a norm amongst the society.

they also sound so cute when they're excited ITS ADOORAABLEEE. also here's a clip of floofty getting dusted and... some funny aftermath... both of these are about three minutes + include some gameplay footage that you can easily skip and u dont have to watch them if you cant/dont want to :-3

anyway :-3 floofty my autistic babygrill <333333 i love byugsnax

I love when you randomly dump stuff on me.. SO SILLY!!

I <3 learning stuff

[1863-project]

Emmet from Pokemon Gen V is Autistic, Fight Me

I wrote this as a thread on Twitter the other day, but I keep thinking about it and I feel the need to put it here, too.

So when you’re on the Battle Subway in Unova, you’ll eventually run into the weird Muppet twins who run the MTA if your win streak is long enough. If you’re doing double battles, you’ll fight the younger twin, Emmet. When you meet him, he’s clearly scripting, but he also infodumps about himself:

If he’s doing a multi battle with his brother Ingo, he’ll actually go through the safety rules for the MTA, just stopping short of that characteristic “Please stand behind the yellow line” and “Stand clear of the closing doors, please!” that every New Yorker knows by heart:

“Follow the rules. Safe driving! Follow the schedule. Everybody smile! Check safety. Everything’s ready! Aim for victory! All aboard!”

Like, if I asked him he’d likely be able to recite all the MTA rules off the top of his head verbatim. (P.S. You’re not allowed to cook on the PATH train. There’s literally a rule about it.)

Emmet’s dialogue is very characteristic of scripting, which is a common strategy for autistic people when we’re interacting with people we don’t know - we’ll plan out a script and use it whenever we’re in that situation. (My common example is when I’m in a store: I’ll blurt out “JUST LOOKING, THANKS!” awkwardly as soon as a store employee asks me anything.) That said, you can also tell he’s barely containing his excitement underneath that script. Autistic folks are notably enthusiastic about the things we love to the point that it seems to overwhelm non-autistic people, and we have trouble keeping that enthusiasm dialed down a lot of the time.

It’s more obvious in the manga: he’s so over the top excited about battling that he actually weirds White out with it multiple times and has to be dragged away by Ingo, and then he does this:

This is not something a neurotypical person does, I’m sorry. Plus he’s doing that big arm-swinging walk, which is actually something I do a lot! It actually feels nice and stimmy, and it’s also just a lot of fun to do if you’re wearing a giant coat anyway.

Here he is weirding someone out with it and being restrained by his brother:

But he’s completely blissfully unaware that people think he’s weird. He doesn’t seem to care. He just keeps going about like this and he’s fine with it.

So, to recap: he infodumps, scripts, clearly lacks social graces and has no filter, is extremely excited about the things he’s passionate about to the point that it scares people...yeah, Emmet’s one of us. Fight me.

(Also, as an autistic person myself I can make the obvious point here: he works with trains. That’s kind of our stereotypical thing, and there’s a lot of reasons why so many of us do like them, but that’s its own discussion and a lot of other autistic people have blogged about it so I won’t go into it here.)

[borisbubbles]

ESC2021: 32. Georgia

Tornike Kipiani - “You”

Semifinal 2, #10

Yeah, I don’t like Tornike this year! Tragique, I knowww! Though we have *already* arrived at that section of the ranking where I’m not per se bored by the songs and can even appreciate certain aspects, but the overall package is a blistering meh.

There was a chance I could have liked him though! I liked “Take me as I am” last year and I was hoping for something... more extreme! Like a deep plunge into a second coming of Kocharov-tinged krazy! Even the description of “a mix of rock, pop rock and blues rock” seemed promising! Tornike being that awkward autistic kid with no friend in the playground who proudly disturbs the other children by showing off his pebble collection. <3 

Anyway, what we got was “You”, which is a mixed bag [of rocks]. On one hand, the trippy, experimental, atmospheric soundtrack . ❤  On the other, the cloying lyrics 💔 and anemic pacing despite being uptempo?? 💔. I care more about [bad] lyrics than the average person does, but what on earth is this “SUNSHINE I WANNA TOUCH YOU” crap?? You can definitely better than “Incel Nursery Rhyme”, Tornike Turnpike, wtf!

I can derive SOME theortical bemusement from “You” however. 

Firstly, the basics  -predictably- absolutely loathed “You” on first impact (I did too btw lmfao <3 Never claimed I wasn’t basic.) and it pissed off Tornike so much he lost his marbles and  went on a facebook tirade about how all the haters should get fucked in the ear, how their mums must’ve already been fucked up the ear during their pregnancy to account for their offpsring’s damaged hearing (or something like that??) EPIC RANT KING coming for YOU *annnnd* UR MUM <3

Which 😍😍😍 The song’s certainly not for me, but MAJOR props to Georgia (um, or just Tornike I guess) owning up to the fact they’re doing their own thing and aren’t placating the fans!! Go be fucked up in the ear elsewhere, cunts!!!

Secondly, I love the pathos of “You” being a Eurovision equivalent of one my fave The Muppets Show sketches:

I love how Tornike manages to emulate both the Hugga Wugga muppet AND the You Are My Sunshine muppet at once <3 and you thought the thumbnail didn’t go beyond a mere skin-deep resemblance. 😏

All in all, “You” not a song I care about at all (I like some aspects, dislike others, what gives?), but I can definitely derive some enjoyment from the extraneous factors at least!  

Predicted Journey - Georgia

Georgia performed 10th in the semi three years ago. They finished dead last then. 🤐

I don’t *think* that will happen this time though - Sabotage Baptiste is doing Tornike’s staging this year (I believe?) and she does not settle for last place. [Watch her give him the same staging she gave Clara Klingenström in Melfest this year as I type this. (lol I totally forgot SJB did Tamara too until now <3 nvm, it may very well suck)]

However, even though Georgia are competent stagers (Lest we forget the near-miracle they pulled on Oto in Tel Aviv), they are often, if not always let down by their, um, esoteric and niche song choices that fail to connect at a broader level. “You” is no different in that regard, and while its qualities hold up in studio (it’s a trippy, immersive track after all), I doubt it can provide similar vibes on a giant ass stage.

Either way, I believe Georgia are going NQ regardless of any staging upsets. They have no allies (the country closest to Georgia in that semi might be... Bulgaria? Moldova? Poland? lmfao), no diasporia votes and their standing with the televoters especially is subzero. Georgia take up a comfortable NQ Fodder spot alongside Portugal, Poland and (if there is any justice upon this Earth) Austria. But they may do a little bit better than expected with the juries (as in: qualify with them, and while stranding btm2 in the televote) 

Projected placement > Qualifier Tier: Dead on Arrival > Semifinal: 12th-17th (out of 17)

THE RANKING

01. 02. 03. 04. 05. 06. 07. 08. 09. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. 24. 25. 26. 27. 28. 29. 30. 31. 32. GEORGIA - Tornike Kipiani - “You” 33. PORTUGAL - The Black Mamba - “Love is on my side” 34. SPAIN - Blas Cantó - “Voy a quedarme” 35. NORWAY - Tix - “Fallen Angel” 36. CYPRUS - Elena Tsagrinou - “El Diablo” 37. AUSTRIA - Vincent Bueno - “Amen” 38. NORTH MACEDONIA - Vasil - “Here I stand” 39. GERMANY - Jendrik - “I don’t feel hate”

[christysautismjourney]

Happy 49th Birthday, Sesame Street!

Today is Sesame Street’s birthday. I have been watching Sesame Street all day today to celebrate. I am glad that I did that this year, and last year I didn’t do that. Anyway I’m glad to celebrate the 49th year that Sesame Street is on the air. As an autistic adult, I have enjoyed this TV show for many years. I am a late bloomer when it comes to Sesame Street, though. I was born in 1987, which is a few years before Jim Henson passed away.

I want to be a collector of Sesame Street books, DVDs and paraphernalia. I’m glad that I own a couple of Sesame Street DVDs. I watch them daily nowadays so that I don’t have any meltdowns and feel overstimulated. As an autistic adult, I enjoy watching the DVDs, and watching Sesame Street and its DVDs bring me so much comfort. I love watching them because they give me a sense of comfort that nobody else can. I love Sesame Street so much because it also gives me so much comfort.

I am thankful that the late Jim Henson gave us Sesame Street. I’m thankful for Sesame Street because it gives me a sense of comfort that nobody else can. I buy Sesame Street products with my SSI money. I get the DVDs and women’s apparel. I also get their stuffies. And I do some amazing artwork that’s Sesame Street related. I am looking forward to the rest of this year and the year 2019, because I will be getting more Sesame products for Christmas, and I will be getting Sesame products in 2019 as well. I’m especially excited about getting the Sesame Street pajama pants that I have asked for for Christmas this year.

I love all of the Sesame Street Muppets, but I especially love both Big Bird and Ernie. Big Bird was once played by Carroll Spinney, and Matt Vogel is his new performer. Matt Vogel also performs the Count and Mr. Johnson. Ernie was originally played by Jim Henson, then Steve Whitmire and Billy Barkhurst performed Ernie after that. Peter Linz performs Ernie now, and I really love Peter as Ernie. He does a great job with the part and I am so glad that this year I finally get to watch him perform Ernie on my iPod Touch. 

I love Ernie because he’s so funny, kind and believes in the power of imagination. I love when he does things to tick Bert off, and it makes me laugh because he’s the funniest Sesame Street Muppet there is. I love Bert and Ernie both because they make me laugh. They bring me so much comfort through my autism journey, and I really love that and I love that they give me so much comic relief from the sad stories of autistic/disabled people being killed by caregivers. I love that they bring me both comfort through the meltdowns that I have and the comic relief from all the ableism and the prejudice against us autistic/disabled people.

When I’m upset, agitated, tired or close to having a meltdown, I watch Sesame Street to give me comfort. I love all of the Sesame Street Muppets because they are my friends. I sing along with them, laugh with them, cry with them, and have fun with them. I love responding back to them when they talk to me through my TV and iPod Touch screens. I am also looking forward to watching the new documentary called “Street Gang”

Thank you, Sesame Street, for being such a comfort to me in my autism journey. I am glad to be a fan of Sesame Street. Here’s to 49 more years of laughter, love and all-around awesomeness.

[mr-squiggley-poufs]

Ok so I updated my Haikyuu fanfic that I haven't updated in like a year (link)

And I get this comment:

Now I don't want to dive into the "mom friend" "dad friend" thing, I'm a 17 year old aroace nonbinary kid, and I have no problem with being called a mom or dad friend.

Anyways, explanations on the other things they had issues with:

1. this is a texting fic, so they're in group chats and have comical names. Asahi's is Asajesus, for no reason other than he has long hair, and it's funny. I'm not in any way implying Asahi is Jesus, it's for comedic effect.

2. I do NOT have the innocent Hinata trope, in fact I actually mention the scene they reference in the comment in the first chapter. Additionally, Hinata and Kageyama get caught fucking in the club room by Kinoshita in another chapter, so I have no idea where they got the idea I did the innocent Hinata trope

3. Tsukishima is not 100% asshole, he's in fact incredibly loving towards Yamaguchi. He makes snarky comments in the chat, but you can't tell what he's actually thinking because, again, texting

4. Yamaguchi and Yachi are also not innocent, they call each other out on not being innocent. Yachi curses up a storm to Yamaguchi and Yamaguchi was fairly openly talking about kinks in one of the chapters

There were so many things that this person could have had issues with but didn't, and I will list them:

1. Hinata gets kidnapped first chapter by Bokuto and Kuroo

2. Yamaguchi, Asahi, and Yachi reveal they have panic attacks over intrusive thoughts of their partners not loving them

3. Hinata and Kageyama started dating because of a 3am game of Truth or Dare

4. Hinata gets stuck in a tree at midnight trying to help a cat, Kageyama goes to rescue him

5. Tanaka and Noya simping a lot for Kiyoko, Noya following it up with "not as much as I simp for Asahi tho cause I'm a loyal hoe"

6. Trans Yamaguchi, Trans Kenma, and Trans Akaashi

7. Yamaguchi wanting to become a muppet

8. Everyone unanimously deciding chucking a volleyball at your partner's face is a love language

9. Autistic Asahi asking the team to use tone tags

10. Hinata asking the team several times how to bring a cat (the one he rescued from the tree) to school

11. One bed trope for Narita and Kinoshita

12. Kunimi knowing how to get rid of a body

13. Karasuno writing down Kunimi's body disposal method

14. Kunimi wanting to become a horned lizard to squirt blood from his eyes

15. Bokuto being extra about how much he loves Akaashi

16. All of the managers of the different teams being lesbians and bisexuals and pansexuals

17. Suga saying he's eaten a worm

And they had a problem with Asahi's tag being "Asajesus"

[fanonical]

Private question for an upcoming chapter update for a Ginny/Luna one-shot.... Besides being Autistic (including Evanna Lynch's wonderful take on Luna!)... would she also be canon Ace, too, like I interpret her? I didn't see/read her as Autistic but since you mentioned it, it makes brilliant sense (and I'm mortified that I didn't realize it since one of my sideverse fics is Hermione being Autistic and that could explain how they intellectually knock sparks.) With a casual comorbidity of traits[1]

[2] would that also fit within her personality? I've been hemming and hawing over her being Pan (since she has a love and fascination of all forms of life) or being Aro, too (or Grey) and having your input would greatly assist me in writing her honestly and candidly (since I do write Luna from time to time.) Thanks in advance, if you decide to answer! - DG

first of all, love the URL, but i DID read it as “dva gonzo” so now i’m imagining aforementioned muppet in a mech. make it happen, ghost of jim henson. possess jeff kaplan or something.

as for your question, Luna isn’t canonically asexual, no (not as far as i’m aware anyway. if anybody has any textual evidence for this hmu i’d LOVE to hear it!!!).

lots of fanon interprets her that way for a variety of reasons - because they’re asexual and she’s their favourite character, because she’s autistic-coded and there’s a significant crossover with ace/autistic folks, or because she’s kinda weird and awkward (which, imho, is kind of an aphobic reason to headcanon that? but like whatever)

i like your interpretation of her being pan because she has “a love and fascination of all forms of life“ -- that’s a really interesting way to characterise that, because it links the orientation you’re giving her to a canon characteristic she has. obviously pansexual/panromantic people aren’t any more likely than, say, gay people to love animals and nature and whatnot, but it’s a really good symbolic reason for you to choose that. bravo!

my personal interpretation of Luna is as an autistic lesbian or bi/pan woman (depends what i’m reading/writing -- i’m down for harry/luna sometimes, sue me) but that doesn’t mean there’s no room for her being asexual in there, either. as i’ve said before, i personally don’t feel comfy actively headcanoning her as ace because i think that lots of (but definitely not all, so like, @my followers, dont come for me if you headcanon this lol) people HC her that way because she’s kind of a loner and a weirdo -- same reason there’s lots of ace/aro Neville headcanons; because he’s timid and shy, and i think these perpetuate untrue stereotypes about what it means to be a-spec.if you were to push me for an answer, i’d say panromantic -- again, that’s a phenomenal linking of canon to fanon you’ve done there with taking her omnibenevolent personality and using that as symbolic for how she loves anyone of any gender. if you feel like her being asexual, i say go for it. i usually play by ear with the orientation of characters (both in fanfiction and original content!)

this was a really fun question to answer, thank you! i hope i’ve answered everything you wanted answering :D

[anautisticdragon-blog]

"That's Captain Andy's video, there. Not Noel's. Andy's good people."

Noel Plum -- Just Another Alt-Right Sociopath

I didn't reach this conclusion easily, I had to swallow back my nausea and force myself to sit through many of his videos and endure the anxiety, just to be sure. It's important to me to not rush to a conclusion like that. What I've noticed as a recurring factor in his videos is that he's truly a masterclass of manipulation. This isn't uncommon in sociopathy, as they are very social creatures and if they're almost entirely devoid of any level of concern, compassion, and care? Well, those social skills will be turned toward getting people to dance to their tune. That's precisely what he does. In his videos, he regularly displays a complete absence of any discernible degree of empathy or conscience. I felt inspired to speak up thanks to his beautifully bigoted video on the constipatedly convoluted construct of 'disability privilege.' A silliness that was admirably, artfully deconstructed by a fellow I'm rather fond of who goes by the moniker of Captain Andy. You can see his video embedded above and it's certainly worth a watch as it really does serve to highlight how manipulative Noel Plum actually is. In this scenario, Noel Plum was having a discussion with Captain Andy about 'disability privilege.' As the discussion went on, the ugly, I'd even say grotesque, levels of confirmation bias present in Noel's words was easily laid bare. Instead of gracefully accepting defeat, Noel rather slyly opted to put together a YouTube video on the topic, one where his alarming hate speech could have an undisturbed platform. And no, he didn't link to the discussion with Captain Andy. He's very manipulative, like I said, which means that he's actually quite clever even though he's an intolerable bag of dicks who's as stark raving crazy as a bag of spanners. Lots of things come in bags. Anyway, his argument is wrong, which he definitely knows but he wants to push it anyway. If you can't achieve a higher ground in a debate, what do you do? A well adjusted person would just admit defeat. If they were intelligent, they might also use the opportunity to be introspective so that they could learn and grow from the experience. Their empathy would give them a primetime reel of how they'd been a right bloody muppet, leading to heartfelt apologies and bridges built between people. It's really not hard to respect your fellow human being as a human being, is it? Well, not unless you're a sociopath. And if you're a sociopath, why admit defeat when you can use your manipulative talents to trick vast numbers of weak-willed sycophants and mendicants who're so unfortunately in need of attention and validation that they'd believe anything? And no, this isn't insensitive, this is concern because think about what I'm saying and then ask yourself this: How do cults happen? Not everyone is strong. In an ideal world I'd want to see everyone built up on a strong foundation so that they wouldn't need to seek attention and validation from others, this isn't a perfect world, is it? This is why, for example, illnesses such as internalised misogyny and stockholm syndrome even exist. It really is very unfortunate, and I know a lot about this myself as a disabled person who has experienced many of these things. I'm not accusing anyone of anything, here. I'm talking from experience. There was a dark period of my life where I was held prisoner. I still have yet to heal from the whole sordid affair as it lasted for years of my life. It's not something you'd wish on your worst enemy. I mentioned prior to this that I'd experienced rape and abuse, I'd been tortured. What happens when your life is nothing but that for so long you lose hope? I'm not going to expect everyone to suddenly understand how PTSD works, but I would use this opportunity to ask you to read up on it and take an opportunity to grow as a person with new knowledge of the kind of suffering I've endured and still endured. Here's an example I can give you, though: If, for example, you're being raped and you hear a train rumble by outside as it's happening? The brain just loves to make connections. I can't ride on trains any more. I used to love trains. An unfortunate factor of autism is that in certain cases of the spectrum (though not all, no aspect of it is Universal as all brains are different) one may be hyper-sensitive. This also means that the autistic mind can be sensitive to trauma, which mine is. Despite efforts made with both CBT and medication, I still can't leave my house. The last time I tried I experienced a seizure. In this sociopath's view, I shouldn't be entitled to any support despite what's happened to me. Noel Plum is telling me that if I can't work, then the government shouldn't provide me with anything. The only reason I have a roof over my head and the small amount of money on which I live is thanks to the charity of the British government and its people. Which weighs on my conscience heavily. Not that Noel would know anything about how that feels. If I could go outside, if I could be around other people enough to work, then I'd do it. I can't interact with people, though, at all. I have to live in isolation. The jobs available to me in this scenario are both simply too scarce and wouldn't provide a high enough pay grade to actually live on. So I'd end up homeless, without a doubt. I wouldn't last long, there. I could see myself having an aneurysm and that would be that. Thanks for helping confirm my fear of sociopaths, though, Noel. I can't ever be around people thanks to monsters like you, just because they're going to share the same kind of face and my mind reacts with such an overpowering, overwhelming, irresistible fear response that I just break. Thanks for confirming my traumas and empowering them. When I was younger, I was incredibly bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, an overly naive and optimistic child whose innocence and hope were stolen by sociopaths. I don't have those any more. I have very little faith in humanity in general, these days, and all I know now is the cynicism I feel for the kind of creatures I know humans can be. I'm jaded, and I often wake up wondering whether it's worth actually going on. Yes. These are feelings. Do they make you feel uncomfortable? Do you want to rush off and create a YouTube video about it? Sure, you certainly could be a massive monument to human indecency, much like our wonderful role model, here. You could. Don't. It's a chance for you to actually be a decent human being and actually listen. In my aforementioned glory days, the halcyon days of my youth, as sepia tinted and nostalgic as they are? I was incredibly bright, my reading age was far beyond the average, almost a decade ahead of where it should have been. I was reading physics books when the other children around me were still preoccupied with fairy tales. I was an artist, a musician, tutors regularly told me that I was quite the talented wunderkind. Can you imagine what it's like to have all of that torn away? I'm certain I would've loved to enter into some scientific field or other, given the opportunity. I wanted that, so badly. In many ways, I still do. I don't know if you can grasp what that's like, to have your potential just ripped away so that all you can do is hide inside a house because you feel so much fear. You can't trust anyone as they look like evil demons, it's lead many to incorrectly assume that I'm a misanthrope, which is in stark opposition to how I actually feel. Yes, people scare me. Do I care about them? Yes. Do I want to try and help them avoid suffering? Yes. It's really difficult to do this. What I see though is that if I don't speak out? The people who're so very easily manipulated by sociopaths like Noel Plum are going to sleepwalk through it and spread his hate speech harmfully throughout the world as unaware proxies. It's a difficult effort for me but this simply has to be challenged so that no one else has to endure what I've had to. Do you think I should be homeless? It's a simple question. It's one I'd ask to that sociopath as well, though he'd likely find some way to worm out of it with fallacious arguments and veiled, passive-aggressive attacks as is the way of sociopaths. And, yes, the alt-right is a movement lead by sociopathic key figures who others are being manipulated by, it's a very real, very harmful problem. Take a look at boogie2988 as an example. I don't think he's a sociopath, I think he's one of the people being manipulated as he's a bit of a pushover. He's being an echo chamber for toxic viewpoints simply because he's just too afraid to challenge the sociopaths who're forcing their toxic ideologies on him. It became obvious to me when he went from saying in one video that his followers shouldn't attack Anita Sarkeesian as she really doesn't deserve the hate, to another where he claimed that Anita deserved whatever came her way. That was fast. And no one changes their tune that fast unless they're scared. The alt-right think that boogie2988 is aligned with them. He's not. He's morbidly fucking terrified of them and I really don't blame him. I bet that he's worried that if he speaks out he'll have more threats of assassination, or boxes of shit mailed to his door. He's admitted that's happened to him, which just makes me feel worse. I won't demonise him for this. I'm going to give boogie2988 the benefit of the doubt. He doesn't ping my sociopath radar at all. Of course, there is a possibility that he's simply a more talented manipulator who manages to be more subtle in his efforts. Not that I believe that, as I don't think that that level of paranoia is necessary or justified. As such, I really want to give him the benefit of the doubt. I'm open to being wrong, though, so tell me if I am. I don't think he's a manipulator, though. He's too wishy-washy. It doesn't fit. No, he's one of those I mentioned who're manipulated by the actual sociopaths out there, the YouTube faces of the alt-right. Individuals who obviously have no capacity for empathy or conscience whatsoever. You know how I feel about Noel Plum, though I'd also namedrop the comedy duo of TL;DR and Sargon as obvious candidates as well. As I keep saying: All you have to do is look for the lack of empathy and conscience. A sociopath believes their 'common sense' is the be all and end all, that they can use that to manipulate people as it make them objectively correct. They don't realise that by not having empathy and compassion, there's a lot of nuance and subtext regarding humanity they're never going to understand. So people like Noel Plum, TL;DR, and Sargon wonder why so many react negatively to them, yeah? This is why. They're sociopaths. If you don't have any capacity for empathy, compassion, concern, or care then you'll likely not be well liked, will you? I haven't seen one video where these people have shown any of those traits. Not one. Not. One. As always, I'm happy to be proven wrong. Please note that asinine attacks designed to undermine me based upon my disability aren't evidence that these people aren't sociopaths. I hate that I have to say this. I couldn't hold back the soulful sigh as I wrote those words, but I know all too well how humans can be. Especially when those humans are either sociopaths or the unaware proxies who're acting as their cult of personality. So let's ask another question: Do you think I'm able? The able person has privilege. I wish I did. I had places I used to enjoy going to when I was younger that I no longer can. I, for example, sorely miss video game arcades. There are some left in the UK and I would genuinely love to visit one, I truly would, but I wouldn't be around other people. It isn't fair to expect to have an arcade to myself, either. I am absolutely not the one per cent, nor do I wish to be. I want everyone to enjoy these things. So even if I can't, I can enjoy it vicariously without the guilt of impeding others. I still wish I could go to one, though. I'd like that. It's such a silly, simple thing, isn't it? I want to visit a video game arcade. I don't want a big house, a fast car, or any of that rot, I'd just like to visit a video game arcade as I have some... very fond memories of them from my youth. It was a happier time. I hate that I need to do this. I do. I'm just sick of being victimised by sociopaths like Noel Plum. I'm scared, I'll admit it, this is terrifying to do as I might bring down the wrath of the sociopaths and their proxies on my head. I know that. I live in fear enough and this is likely to make it worse, but I have to be strong enough to try. I have to be bull-headed and give this my all. If I don't, I'm a hypocrite. And as I do have a conscience, unlike Noel Plum, it would just drag me down and burden me further if I didn't make this effort. I am scared, yes, but it has to be done. I think people need to talk about these things. I really believe that's necessary. I'd like to go outside. I can't. I have to pay others to walk my dog for me since I can't do that myself. I thankfully have a back yard with very tall fences and I can play with him there, but I can't walk him. Anyway, I'm registered as having PTSD and autism. The government knows that I'm unable to go outside and I haven't left my house in over two decades. It's like self-imposed stockholm syndrome, in a way. It's why I brought that up. As I said, I wasn't accusing anyone, just speaking from experience. One no one should ever have to have. So, am I able, Noel? Do I enjoy the same privileges as a healthy person who's able to go outdoors and enjoy that kind of life? I'm stuck in a very small house all the time. I use blackout curtains to block out the outside world, I only have one mirror as I can't stand looking at myself due to being physically disfigured. Am I as privileged as you, do you think? Of course I'm not. Noel's a nasty little man as he's fully aware that individuals such as myself exist, though he cares more about the taxes he has to pay than he does about my well being. As I said, he obviously has no capacity for conscience or empathy, he's a sociopath. As is true of every alt-right ringleader I've seen. So let's ask another question: Do you think I deserve support? Noel would say no. I don't deserve that 'privilege.' What's your opinion, though? What do you think? I wish I could go out there and earn money just as you do, that'd be lovely. I don't have that luxury. Yes, working is a luxury as it brings you far more financial stability and peace of mind than I've ever known. Sometimes I'm so strapped for cash I have to choose between electricity, Internet, and food. I would work, if I could. This is why it's important for you to realise that these alt-right ringleaders are sociopaths, and if you buy into their spiel then you've been played. Played like a fiddle, dancing to their tune, obeying their whims like extremely helpful little puppets. Think for yourself. This kind of toxicity is ruining human society, it's degrading the moral values we've all fought for. It's tearing up the fabric of community that would otherwise bind us together. Why? All to benefit the very few -- the sociopaths. I don't blame you for being a pawn, a piece on a chess board. It's easy to be taken in by these people and manipulated, after all. And sadly, there's more of these nasty individuals out there than we realise. Sociopathy is much more commonplace than you might realise. It always has the same hallmarks, though: They're manipulative, they're schemers, and they've absolutely no capacity for conscience, empathy, concern, or care. They're incredibly self-centred, only interested in their own gain, and often extremely narcissistic and overly confident as well. I'm extremely thankful to people like Captain Andy for speaking up for those like myself. And yes, sometimes we do need that. It's unfortunate, but as I said, we are scared. I'm scared. I'm terrified to do this and even as I type I'm debating with myself over whether I'll actually post it... Just look at Anita Sarkeesian, though. I know, I know how the sociopaths want you to think. Instead, take a look at her page on RationalWiki. Not one of the arguments sociopaths make against her is valid, but they're talented and compelling manipulators so they can easily hide their obvious lack of facts, citations, and information, instead opting to use fallacies and manipulative ploys to get people thinking as they want. No matter what you believe Anita Sarkeesian may be guilty of (which, if we're honest, is nothing more than defending a group of humans who've had to endure some terrible shit), the hatred she experiences is entirely disproportionate to any of the crimes she's been accused of. Why do you hate her so much? Do you know? You've been played. This is what sociopaths do, and they're bloody good at it. And what do most humans never want to admit? They don't want to admit that they were wrong. If they're wrong, they look like weak-minded fools who were played (I've been there, that's happened to me). So they will look for information to back up their lack of wrongness, they'll have this confirmation bias that'll turn into something ugly and nasty. The reason they hate Anita is because subconsciously they know. They know they've been played and manipulated by these sociopaths, they're just too ashamed to admit it, so instead they're doubling down on their attacks in the hopes that no one will actually notice. They fear the judgement baggage that'll accompany admitting they were wrong. Guess what, though? I wouldn't blame you. No one would. I think we've all experienced sociopathic manipulation at some point in our lives. There is no judgement, here. I just want people to realise that the reason they listen to people like Sargon and Noel Plum, the reason they hate women, non-whites, disabled people, and so on? It's because on a subconscious level they know they've been played and they're ashamed, so they're just doubling down on this instead of being big, brave, or confident enough to admit they were wrong. And here I am. A person with PTSD who can't leave their house. If I can find strength enough to do this, to stand up for what I believe in and talk to all of you, why can't those of you who're being proxy for this hate speech just be big enough to admit you were wrong? It's okay. We're all wrong sometimes. It happens. In fact, we're often wrong. It's how we learn. I don't see any harm in that. The only bad part is if you can't admit it to yourself, if you don't open up to the experience and learn from it so that you can grow as a person, instead of doubling down and stagnating into something entirely terrible. That's the only horrible thing, here. It's bad for me, sure, but it's also stunting you and that's not great for you. I'm talking to the people here, of course, who sing along to the tune of sociopaths like Noel Plum, TL;DR, and Sargon. This is a chance that I, as a scared, disabled individual who often feels their hate, am offering them to stand up and admit they were wrong. I forgive them. I don't blame any person for being manipulated by a talented manipulator, okay? Life is hard for me, it really is, sometimes I'll lash out just out of the sheer pain and suffering I've endured. I still don't blame those who've been manipulated and played, though. I just blame the sociopaths. They're the only ones who're truly responsible, here. I know I'm going to regret this. I know this is going to add a lot more pain, fear, sadness, and suffering to my life. I'll have people threatening to kill my dog and shit like that, because this is the kind of thing that these monsters pull. I have to do this, though. I hope you can understand. I just can't allow myself to sit by and watch this happen any more. I hope, at least, that this message is received loud and clear by boogie2988, as I genuinely believe he's a good person who's just as very scared as I am, who's been manipulated and pushed around by these sociopaths. I'm hoping he'll understand where I'm coming from. Thank you for reading. And maybe... thank you for understanding?

And thank you to Captain Andy for making that video. Really, thank you. It gave me the strength to do this. I appreciate that. You are good people.

I'm going to post this thing, now, and then go and hide under my bed because I'm a fucking coward and this was way more difficult to do than it had any right to be. I wish I didn’t have to do this, but my need to stand up, speak, and not be a hypocrite is overpowering my cowardice. Just enough to hit post...

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I’m Baaaaaack!!

It’s been four months since my last blog post. I finally got my New Nintendo 3DS for Christmas. I was so happy and excited that I got it, because I bit my last one and it was completely broken, so I got a new one. I’m glad I now have it because I get to take some sunrise, sunset and cloudscape pictures. I had a four-week internet outage, and I was supposed to write a blog on the second week of February, however, the plans fell through due to the four week internet outage I had. As an autistic adult, it’s hard for me to keep myself calm if an internet outage lasts for four weeks or more than that.

I haven’t been feeling well lately. I’m dehydrated, so I’m supposed to be drinking lots of water. I now take some fish oil and spash only a little bit of juice in my water. I’m no longer allowed to drink any juice. 

Anyway, so much has happened since the last blog post I’ve written. I have just recently made some springtime decorations. It was fun and I enjoyed doing that. I also have been watching Sesame Street late at night to help me go to sleep at nighttime. I started watching international versions of Sesame Street in January, and it was so much fun to watch. I learned different languages, and it was really cool to see Muppets from a different country, especially a foreign country. 

Now that I have my New Nintendo 3DS, I can watch Sesame Street on YouTube every night before I go to sleep, and I also watch Muppets Tonight every Sunday to help me stay calm before I go to church. I love to watch videos on Dailymotion, Vimeo and YouTube. I like watching the Judy videos, the Samika Vlogs and the JakeBoys vlogs. I also like to watch crafting tutorials on YouTube.

I got a Sesame Street DVD that was released in February. I’m happy that I got it too because I really wanted it, so when Mom and I went to WalMart on the last week of February, I got it and watched it twice in a row on the day I got it. I’m really excited to be getting another Sesame Street DVD, which came out a couple of weeks ago.

I had a meltdown one day in either January or February, and my younger brother told me to shut up when I had the meltdown. I was so mad at him for doing that. He could have at least been a little more supportive and asked me what he could have done to help me. It made me sad that he did that. I wish that people would understand me better, but sadly, they don’t. I’m misunderstood by people and it’s really not fair. Whenever I have a meltdown I always get told to shut up, and people dismiss my feelings like I don’t matter to them or something. It hurts. It breaks my heart to have to deal with all the mistreatment and ableism.

But I am so glad that there are some people that understand or are willing to understand what it’s like for me to be autistic. I do wish that people could walk a mile in my shoes while I tell them my story. I’m still here. I’m not “missing,” a tragedy or a burden. I have a voice and a story to tell. Don’t judge, criticize, mistreat, abuse, make fun of or ridicule us autistic/disabled people. We autistic/disabled people are human beings. Walk a mile in our shoes and listen to our stories. Listen to us. Because it is nothing about us without us.