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ok i wanna yap abt WL ep 4 specifically abt scarian so im gonna
i know scar never plays into the "angry revenge skeeker" type character in the life series and even when he has targets he always keep his character light hearted and straight forward, which i appreciate! but it's so silly that after grian blows up his rep board and says to his face that they're enemies and he will kill him and Jimmy when he gets the chance all he has to respond with is pretty much "nah u love me too much to rly hate me :J"
like this feels so much like some silly couple banter over actual scarian angst BECAUSE scar remembers everything since he won SL it's less off "Oh scar really just thinks grian couldn't hate him so much" it's "we've been through this before we've danced this dance i know grian more than I know myself" and I LOVE IT
grian claims their enemies and while yes I fully believe grian will forever hold that grudge against Jimmy at the very least I don't think he truly means that he'll ever target scar unless fully prompted to
and! if he did end up targeting scar! I really feel like Scar would brush it off like he has been and just smile his silly smirk
plus how many times already this season has it seemed like the bamboozlers and sub oners were gonna become enemies?? and technically haven't? they live right on top/underneath one another itd be pretty tricky staying enemies with someone who lives in your basement
then again if I'm being honest it doesn't really seem like anyone's made true enemies (yet) so who knows maybe next week's episode will make me eat my words
anyways tldr I'm still crazy about scarian i never left that desert
#wildlife#wild life smp#grian#goodtimeswithscar#scarian#desert duo#life series#trafficblr#xp says#I will always go nuts over the scarian interactions we get guys#im not well
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strangler fig
cw: mildly dubious consent
Thatās how little that reputation board meant.Ā Grianās fingers curl around the flint and steel.Ā He lights sparks absently, watching as they char small holes into the already flimsy bridge heās sitting on.Ā The moon rises, slow and languorous, washing the server in shades of pale gray.Ā He kicks his feet over the edge.Ā
Itās what heās been wanting to say to Scar sinceā¦ since.Ā Well, heās said it now, and thatās all that really matters.Ā Grian shakes his head, clearing the thought from his mind.Ā Sparks jump as he drags the flint and steel together.Ā One lands on his hand, burning into his skin.Ā Grian winces, half-hearted.
āCareful,ā a voice chides.Ā Danger flashes in his mind faster than he can think, and heās already on his feet, whirling to point his sword towards the intruder.Ā Ā
Scar grins back at him from the shadows, green eyes flashing.Ā āWouldnāt want you getting hurt.āĀ He raises a hand, dotted with pale scars across the knuckles, as an example.
It takes a moment for Grianās brain to catch up with everything.Ā He doesnāt lower his sword, even though his wrist aches and he knows the point is trembling.
āLike youād care about me getting hurt,ā he grits.Ā āGo away, Scar.Ā Itās the middle of the night.āĀ He canāt deal with this right now.
āWhat, I canāt make a friendly visit to my neighbors?āĀ Scarās using that smooth, salesmanās voice, the one that always makes Grian wrinkle his nose.Ā He steps down from where heās been sitting on the railing, not unlike a cat, and smiles even wider like he thinks Grian will fall for it.
āYou have to schedule an appointment,ā he tells Scar flatly, waving his hand in the direction of the top of the mountain.Ā āWeāre not available.Ā Go home.ā
āAw, canāt you make an exception?ā
āNo,ā Grian snaps, this time gesturing with the point of the sword.Ā Scar pouts, but moves closer anyways.
āHey,ā he says, āI mean it.Ā Leave.āĀ This should be the part where Scar goes.Ā Sometimes with head hanging, sometimes with tight, angry shoulders, sometimes with someone else, but he always listens.Ā Grian can count on him for that much.
Scar does not listen.Ā He tries to skirt the edge of Grianās blade, but he turns the point back on him.Ā Heās seething now, and has half a mind to plunge the sword into Scarās heart, green name be damned.
Still, he gets closer, until Grianās sword is hovering above the fragile skin of his throat.Ā Itās too much, and he shuffles a half-step back, only for Scar to keep following, to deliberately press the underside of his chin into the sharp point.Ā A thin rivulet of blood, dark in the night, spills down Scarās collarbone, soaks into the edges of his vest.Ā It makes Grian feel a little dizzy.
āWhatās your game?ā he hisses, like heās the one in control of where the sword ends up.Ā āOr do you just have a death wish?ā
Grian can deal with Scar on the other side of a blade.Ā He can hurt him on the other side of a blade.Ā Any closer, and he starts remembering bruised knuckles and blood at the corners of his mouth.Ā Any closer, and Grian starts wanting to touch him.Ā So he holds Scar at swordpoint.Ā Whatever mind game Scar thinks heās playing, he wonāt back down for a little blood.
He just smiles again, the scars on his face rippling silver, and Grian wants to scream.Ā Heās not sure why he doesnāt really; Mumbo and Skizz would be awake in seconds, and Grian wouldnāt have to deal with the danger that is Scar in the moonlight.
āWhat if,ā Scar says slowly, āI said I was apologizing?ā
āThen you can do it in the morning.Ā But youāre not here to apologize.āĀ That much is obvious by the way Scar continues to grin, like itās all some massive joke.
It does stop him continuing to inch towards Grian, though, and he looks like heās contemplating for a moment.
āYouāre right.ā
āHn?āĀ Heās distracted by another bead of blood tracing the hollow of Scarās throat.Ā Remembering what itās like to wrap his fingers around it.
āIām not here to apologize,ā Scar tells him cheerily, and thereās something in his eyes that stops Grian short, struggling for something to say.Ā He places two gentle fingers on top of Grianās sword, pushing it down, away from his neck.Ā Grianās hands are shaking.Ā He offers no resistance.Ā Scar presses forwards.
āStop,ā Grian says.Ā He doesnāt beg.Ā He doesnāt.Ā āStop.ā
āBut you donāt really want me to, do you.āĀ Scar takes another step closer, something intent in his eyes.Ā Grian moves backwards in tandem, until thereās nowhere else to go, just the two of them on an unsteady bridge, his heart pounding in his throat.
āI donāt think you really even care that I killed you,ā he continues, and Grian presses his hands against the wooden railing, desperate for something to ground him.Ā He doesnāt know when he dropped his sword, only that itās shimmering on the ground far away from him and far too close to Scar.
āI hate you,ā he says.Ā āI hate you.āĀ Itās something not unlike a prayer, something that he wants to be true so very badly.
With a careless movement, Scar kicks the sword off the bridge.Ā He stares in dismay as he watches it hit the ground far below, then realizes too late heās taken his eyes off Scar.
āI think I know exactly what you want.āĀ And then heās too close, armorless and throat bared, blood still running, and Grian wants to kill him.Ā He wants to run away.Ā Heās pinned down by green eyes, too knowing.
āDonāt,ā and itās barely a shaky breath.Ā He canāt muster up the force to say anything else, to want anything else.Ā Scar leans close, intent as ever.Ā Ā
Scarās lips are still soft.Ā It feels awful.Ā Grian hates it, even as he returns the kiss, heartbeat staccato.Ā The wooden edge of the railing digs into the small of his back.Ā Heās never felt so trapped.Ā He presses his thumbs into the divot of Scarās collarbone, settles his fingers around his neck, tries to feel in control.Ā Itās even worse that Scar lets him, humming against his mouth.Ā Grian doesnāt know why heās doing this.Ā He doesnāt know why heās letting Scar do this.
Scar tilts his head against Grianās hands, brings his own down to settle on his waist.Ā Itās this touch, somehow, that jolts Grian out of whatever fugue heās in.Ā He presses harder into Scarās throat, forces him away from his lips.
āWhat the hell do you want, Scar,ā he says, voice rough from kissing.Ā His mind still swims a little bit, but heās aware enough to recognize the fact that Scar is trying to seduce him and desperate enough to want to fall for it.Ā He wonders, vaguely, if this is Scarās way of convincing him not to hunt him down the moment he goes red.
Scar just swoops in again, even though Grian bites sharply at his bottom lip.Ā He doesnāt want thisānot right now, not like this, not here, whatever it takes to make him go away and let Grian lick his wounds.Ā Scarās fingers curl, near-possessive, into his waist.
When they finally come back up for air, Grian takes his chance and shoves Scar away from him, immediately moving a few steps away.Ā Scarās hand goes to his throat, smeared with blood and already darkening fingerprint-shaped bruises.Ā Grian steadfastly ignores the way that makes him feel, the twist in his stomach and the nonexistent matching bruises on his knuckles.
āGo,ā he says, trying to minimize the shaking of his voice.Ā āI donāt care what you want.Ā Just leave me alone.āĀ Scar opens his mouth.Ā Stops.Ā His lips are reddened, probably from when Grian bit him.Ā He doesnāt look like Grian thought he would, like the cat who got the cream.Ā He just looks a little lost, as if heād expected something more.Ā Too bad for him.Ā Grian can admit to Scar being a damn good kisser, but he still remembers hitting the ground, the pain that still lingered in his jaw as it fractured.
āIā Grianāā
āI really donāt know what youāre not getting,ā he spits.Ā Scar stares for one more second, eyes brilliant in silver etching.Ā And then he turns away.Ā Grian does his best not to watch him go.Ā He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, and tastes a hint of coppery blood.Ā It makes him grit his teeth.
He canāt help remembering the way his hands fit around Scarās throat as he starts the trek down to recover his sword.Ā Next timeāthere wouldnāt be a next time.Ā Grian had hated it, every moment of it and the way it made him feel.Ā The copper in the back of his mouth stings.
Heād show him.Ā Heād show him what itās like to fill his mouth with blood, to get stabbed in the back.Ā What it was like to feel helpless. Next time, he thinks, staring at where Scarās back had vanished.Ā Next time.
#scarian#wild life#wild life spoilers#life series spoilers#trafficshipping#well i'm. not sure about this one#it's basically hate sex without the sex#and the ending's... something#but i don't hate it enough not to post it#so here we are
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Canāt even lie man Iāve been offline all day and i immediately went to your blog to read your takes on the session and Pearl n gem n co. after watching some wild life. Thanks for having the best takes lol
genuinely, itās an honour. crazy to me that anyone would come to this blog for good takes, they never make any sense and iām always suspiciously resentful towards c!scott. iāll take this opportunity to lay out my gempearl thoughts as well
first of all, it drives me insane the way pearl usually goes along with whatever scott and cleo says, but the only thing she consistently, and has repeatedly, contradicted them on is that sheās been antagonising gem. in fact at the start of the session scott poked her about it again and she laid out a short monologue to assert that his claims were invalid. funnily enough she goes back on this a few seconds later saying that āiāll make her have a reason to hold that grudgeā which honestly is not helping her case. however if gem can make vague threats about impulse i donāt see why pearl canāt do the same. womenās wrongs and all that.
and then after that scott tells impulse and pearl to apologise to gem and joel. again, itās a bit odd to me how they keep harping on this bit, but every time they do, all they do is scold impulse for rightfully constantly accusing gem over the cows, and then impulse apologises, yet pearl is still implicated (for NOTHING). pearl did protest this point earlier that she was ājust existingā, scott counters that āi donāt know what youāve done but youāve annoyed herā, so ākeep your distanceā.
and to think that the argument only happened because scott made a throwaway comment about a ārequestā he had for pearl if she wanted a life from him. i feel like he meant it as a funny aside and expected pearl to just shut up and take it, but pearl never shuts up and takes it so thatās the problem there.
also, on secret life: pearl argues that she was right to ally with scar, which like, okay, fair enough, but scott says that āit takes timeā and that ālook weāre togetherā iām not sure why heās under the perception that GGG is in anyway functional or healthy considering he himself is trashtalking impulse and pearl with gem geminitay (ok sorry iām just salty over him being buddy buddy with gem). at one point cleo goes āwe have to be enablersā (lowkey incorrect because pearl hasnāt done anything, you canāt enable someone to just do nothing, but i appreciate the sentiment) and pearl just starts. throwing eggs at the ground. really funny out of context.
now for the actual gempearl interaction (we get like one and a half per episode iām actually starving). theyāre so obsessed with each other. trust me i said so. pearl beelining to gem to say āhi gem! :Dā and gem beelining to pearl to punch her and say āgo home pearlā oh they make me ill i feel like theyāre just constantly on each otherās minds. the problem is that we havenāt gotten a good gempearl interaction because when theyāre near each other their allies are also hanging around, so it always ends up with gem getting glazed by scott or pearl getting distracted by bigb or something like that. itās such a pity because gem specifically went to find the 4Gsā base but she went to the old one instead of the new one where pearl was hanging around so we could have potentially gotten a 1 on 1 shiny duo interaction this session (iām not sure about the timeline there) but we DIDNāT because gemās not talked to the 4Gs enough to know that they moved bases. grrr.
and then gem drops the anger for a bit to encourage pearl to kill grian. i have NO idea what thatās about, i feel like sheās just into bloodthirst in general but what it does remind me of is her trying to convince pearl to kill the ender dragon in SL, coincidentally, when pearl was impulseās butler. and now sheās encouraging pearl to carry out what impulse wants. i donāt know. maybe her type is murderers and sheās trying to give pearl a chance. or something
anyway as for the other half an interaction where gem finds etho pearl and cleo at her base, gem reverts back to loudly disparaging pearl within earshot. i feel like sheās nailed āex who really wants you to know that youāre exesā, and pearl getting so indignant about it she canāt even form a sentence for a few seconds is great actually. might be a reach but whether on hermitcraft or life series, pearl tends to stumble over her words a lot when directly challenged by gem, which is probably just because sheās thinking hard on what to say and is sleep deprived half the time. but i find it pretty telling that pearl doesnāt say anything back to gem and just. leaves. itās very obvious sheās still down bad for gem in a way but gem is intentionally making it very hard for pearl to remain so.
last paragraph. when joel visits pearl at their new base, joel is happy that pearl called his build a car and said she liked it (pearl likes cars fork found in kitchen). so joel and pearl are on good terms, which i expect would lead to interesting dynamics but at the same time joel would definitely follow gemās lead over maintain that friendship but still his perception of pearl now is positive. so thatās intriguing
song of the day is down bad by taylor swift. trust me guys they want each other so bad
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Wild Life Session 4 smallidarity thoughts (+ some Scar and Lizzie)
See it was all fine, nothing to worry about!! Joel couldn't bring himself to kill Jimmy, he barely even harmed him. I'm pretty sure he shot him just once (after Jimmy trampled their crops so. fair)? Joel calmed down, he rebuilt his car, everything is fine. He says at the start that he's wary of Jimmy because of him going after Joel last time, and that's about it for the time being
Jimmy dies and Joel makes a deal out of it and calls him a muppet. As per usual. Meanwhile Jimmy is still adamant to get at Joel whilst Scar tries to deter him because they want to be an alliance
He and Jimmy meet up at some point after their brief interaction at the start where Joel shot him, and they just banter. And Gem and Scar are just standing there like "guyss we're a family come on" meanwhile Joel and Jimmy's exchange goes as follows: Jimmy: "you're the ones with tasty lives!" Joel: "yeah bet you wish you could have a chunk of me!" "Oh I'm having a chunk out of you!" "Yeah and you know where to take that chunk out of!" "Oh I'm gonna take it! I'm taking it!" "You should!" And then Gem and Scar tell them to break it up and Joel goes "we're just flirting!!" ? what the fuck? Genuinely WHAT are they talking about. is this an innuendo of some sort. is this another ambiguous smallidarity sex scene sorry who said that
Jimmy gets a double kill (in the most adorable way btw. The way he weasels his way in there and backs off and comes back to try again all crouched. animal) and goddd people hyping him up is so so sweet. He deserves this. He's also a little bit evil, he's getting the murder rush but I'm happy for him. He needs to kill more people, he needs to get this out of his system, he deserves this, things need to get worse before they get better. ANYWAY Scar all "that was the greatest kill ever on the life series" is so cute. And man I gotta agree. There's more unique and funny and impressive kills but I would not mind calling this the best just for the fact that it's Jimmy. He's competent, he can do shit like this, but it feels like most everyone and the world is continuously against his survival, but here he is... my son...
And then Joel coming up to congratulate him... Really blummin cute. In Joel's POV also, he says "I went to congratulate Jimmy and we had a moment" which I wager he might be referring to the creeper incident as 'the moment' but that'd make no sense to call it that. With that tonation. Why did he say it like that. Stop being cute
But yeah Scar tries to blow Joel up with creepers only for Joel to save him from his own creeper and he's so casual about it. He is incredibly kind to the bamboozlers, it's really cute...
And then Jimmy does it!! He gets Joel!! And he gets him real good!! And can you believe that the first person to kill either of the family duo is Jimmy, of all people. Scott has died by this point too and Jimmy is the one to make a dent in the full 6-life alliance. Crazy. I'm so proud of him. It was seriously really good too, see, when Jimmy puts his mind to something and is able to focus he excels, he really does. And Joel, oh Joel is such a good sport about it. He keeps saying how it was good and fair and that he still wants an allyship with him. Tells him "welcome back to green" aww. And they make a truce, Jimmy got it out of his system and now they can be friends and go kill other people instead and Joel is proud of him... Jimmy "Joel, I finally got you, so I will stop now, so let's do the perfect dap" and then they both count down and clap their hands to simulate slapping palms. Awesome. All of Joel and Jimmy is just really cute this time around. Very happy about them being a more proper alliance now, but we'll see if it sticks... Joel can only be so mean to Jimmy at this point though I don't think he has it in him to betray him or anything lol. Can't speak for the rest of them but not too worried for the smallidarity, it's a plentiful crop...
Also a very important exchange between Lizzie and Jimmy at some point: "I just finangled a load of diamonds off of Joel" "Oh? How did you do that?" "I asked him just really nicely" (lie btw she was moreso extorting Joel) "Oh, that doesn't work when I... I guess... you are his wife, I guess..." "Yeah..." "Lucky for some I guess- right (unrelated topic)" I'm not 100% confident that's what Jimmy said at the end, it's a bit hard to make out but. what? Hello?
I also extend gratitude towards Lizzie for being so nice and supportive of Jimmy, she was the one to suggest the cobweb creeper trap that ended up taking Joel out, but she also insisted that he drink a health restoration stew beforehand in case anything went wrong. Jimmy didn't end up doing so (he was full) and Lizzie is all "why?" and "something could have gone wrong". man. Nice to him...
#blabber#smallidarity#trafficshipping#The āIm having a chunk out of youā and āI guess you're his wife. lucky for some..." conversations are gonna torment me. hello
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looks @ u like this
using this as an excuse to talk about sirenity because they're easily one of my Guys Of All Time and iiiiii don't get to talk about them a whole lot
- is an excellent musician (virtuoso! but primarily anything with strings!) and artist! he also has synaesthesia (which, like their dyslexia, was less severe before The Benny Incident) and perfect pitch and they're an uncannily good mimic.
- fully knows and understands RobCo Termlink code and can, therefore, talk with the vast majority of robots/androids/computers in the wasteland
- there is not nearly enough time to go into their sex life. they've been around. very casual about sex and relationships to the point where it circles back around to become an intense soul-rending need for People and Connection and then it circles back around AGAIN to being very casual. two things can be true at once
- met and talked with benny -> "well. goddamn that's a lot to think about" -> met with House -> "even more to think about. shit." -> Courier Walking Instinct kicks in -> muscle memory takes them back to Primm -> Johnson Nash knows enough about them to recognize the Walk To Think state they're in, accepts that this is a short meeting -> Sirenity keeps going, still on muscle memory to the entrance to the Divide -> thats the thing that snaps them out of their sorta half-dissociative state -> "fuck i'm hungry" -> back to Primm for Ruby's casserole -> turns around, sees the ruined drive-in -> "y'know what? yeah. a movie sounds good right now." -> OWB (during which their mental state is surprisingly good! a creeping dread of familiarity at the sight of the painted old world flags and the descriptions of the other visitors, but yknow! that's fine! then they have a breakdown upon hearing Ulysses' voice again.)
- indeterminate amount of time and gameplay -> Dead Money -> stick around in the mojave for a bit before finally relenting and admitting that they have to back out and recover from the Cloud for a bit ("i have to go clear my lungs") -> Honest Hearts
- casual friendly situationship/QPR with Arcade, kinda a cool older cousin/sister figure to Veronica, good friends with Cass and Raul, visits Lily as much as they can. i'm not really sure of where they stand with Boone. they very badly want to tell him "i think you can be proud of the work you put into something without being proud of what the thing was or did or became" but like... Boone wants an ending, a neat little all-loose-ends-are-tied finish, and Sirenity is living proof that that sort of thing doesn't just Happen. they never were good at delivering endings, anyway.
- post-game otp is sirenity/ulysses but it's open because they both know that they can't always provide what the other needs/wants and love is more of a verb than a feeling anyway
- good friends with the Khans, Followers, and Kings!
- was genuinely really hoping that Benny would stick around after their conversation. not even mad about getting shot or jumped by his bodyguards.
- uhhhhmmmm OH YEAH Mobius was. such a refreshing presence for them. even if they do have to stand weird to keep eachother out of their blindspots. "crazy fuckers missing an eye who experience more visual inputs than should be there" solidarity. she helps with his messed up sensors :]
- honestly i think Sirenity's VERY very postgame jaunt to the Commonwealth is. just straight up in their canon now.
- scars from the Big Mt Spine Removal and Subsequent Un-Removal look like train tracks :) because i think it's cool
- whenever someone gets incredulous about how much stuff and people and places they know of or about or just straight up know their reply is "i have Lived a Life"
- that post about aragorn son of arathorn being sad(lonely) BECAUSE he knows so many people, not despite knowing so many people or knowing so many people despite being sad(lonely)? yeah that applies here. always missing someone. pulls them in so many different directions and yet! and yet! they wander down a new path. courier walking instinct.
- oh yeah they definitely have something set up so the Followers can use the resources of Big MT. that's probably their most regular delivery
- ANOTHER THING! pre-benny incident, the NCR had put a bounty on one of the Khans (haven't thought of a specific person) and Sirenity just. took the wanted poster and moseyed on over to their camp to warn them ("you...? why would you do this?" - "well, if someone i cared about had a hit put out on them, i'd sure as shit want to know about it") and that's how they meet Jessup and McMurphy
- and then DURING the Benny Incident, during the "maybe the Khans don't look the people they kill in the eye-" line, Sirenity shoots Jessup a Look that says "you work with this guy???"
- needless to say they were. very blasƩ about mortal danger. still is. if there's a multi-perspective story they're really going to try and find the other perspective(s)
yayyyyy okay i think that's it!
Nobody including me posts about their ocs enough so please please please reblog reply or whatever with some oc tidbits!
#HIIIIIIIII TYPOS#thanks for making a post for everyone to infodump on#i love going through the reblogs#courier sirenity#long post
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The cost of freedom
Alternatively, I saw a post talking about Katakuriās tattoo being a birdcage and it made me think about him jamming Mogura through the bars of the tattoo and asking Luffy if he was gonna come back to defeat Big Mom and I got āØemotionalāØ
#one piece#charlotte katakuri#katakuri one piece#blood/#body horror/#just in case#since his mochi is stitching his wound back together yknow#anyways I like thinking about him keeping the scar#both like a badge of honor and a reminder
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invisible scars (referenced previous talkĀ here)
[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."
Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, āDonāt brag. Jeez.ā
Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.
At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.
"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.
Back to present, Vashās head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, āSpikey.ā
Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwoodās sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."
In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping countā" End ID]
Credits for ID here and here
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because#it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has#given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably#since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc#of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:)#in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun#but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots#he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at#the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is.#mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax#but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe#the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww#u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww#ruporas art
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Call me crazy for reading so much into a show like House MD but I think the main theme of House is that despite doing everything perfectly and being a good person, shit happens.
Sickness and pain will be inflicted on you and your loved ones and there's nothing you can do about it, but to persevere, to fight for your life, to keep living despite it all - to love is a part of the human condition; our capability of love is what makes life worth living, despite all the pain that you will inevitably experience.
This show exemplifies the pain of living and the needs and desires of human beings to keep going despite it all
And idk... There's something beautiful about how a show with so many stupid whimsical dumb scenes can impart something so profound in my stupid little brain
#im crying btw#ugly crying thinking about how much i love this show#shit happens and its normal and itll be okay#heph is being sappy again#this show giving house 1000 bad omens and giving him happiness only to rip it away and im just sitting here#house md#malpractice md#hatecrimes md#it is of course not the only theme of this show#but its the main one#theres also everybody lies#and theres also YOU CANT! ALWAYS GET! WHAT YOU WA AAAANT#anyways the yaoi is great but i love the interpersonal relationships between the doctors in my doctor drama show the most#its easy to obsess over hilson but like#its not just about hilson for me#heph.txt#btw im still on s4e13#im scared of the season finale everyone keeps telling me to brace myself#also even from the start this show is very much about pain (house and his physical pain and also his emotional scarring#and every season and episode we watch him cope with his pains with drugs and destroy himself and it hurts so much :[#houseypie
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#soft poolverine my beloved#I contain multitudes as far as trope enjoying goes (Logan likes Wade's yapping AND Logan likes to shut Wade up the old fashioned way)#(aka sticking his tongue down his throat)#(among other things but we're sticking with that for this one lol)#Wade is yapping about something#anything really because he can monologue about anything under the sun#and Logan just reaches over wordlessly and grabs his face and Wade just KEEPS TALKING#and every time Logan comes up for air Wade just starts up again#and Logan just smirks and takes a deep breath and goes back in#he gets some silence for a moment AND gets to feel that endless energy fizzing on his tongue#as Wade focuses his nervous mental energy on exploring Logan's mouth for a bit#you know they are SLOPPY kissers#just drool and teeth and tongues EVERYWHERE#I bet kissing Wade is interesting too because his tongue and lips are all ridged and scarred#anyway I just think Logan would shut him up once in a while for like hours long makeout sessions#and then peacefully go back to listening to him yammer endlessly about the minutiae of the My Little Pony Extended Universe#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#wolverine#deadpool#kinda wip?#are any of these ever really FINISHED or do I just give up on them and move on š« #also dont get me wrong they def fuck nasty too#but I think Logan āTouch Starved As Fuckā Howlett would really revel in just being able to touch him lazily for hours#idk man I'm too far gone I need to be anaesthetized#deadpool & wolverine#deadclaws#wade wilson#poolverine fanart#deadpool x wolverine
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Damn these twinks built completely identical huh, wonder what thatās about
#cw sh#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat spoilers#isat odile#isat isabeau#anyway I donāt think loop wanted to wear clothes but Bonnie mentioned how weird the fact they were ānakedā#and like idk loop has the most fragile ego and cares so much about the child liking them that this needed to be fixed IMMEDIATELY#they would us the opportunity to request 2 inch heels to be taller than siffren (since sif has like 1 inch heels) and uh itās been a while#their ass keeps like stumbling on rough terrain and REFUSES to acknowledge it or else they get sensitive#anyway unrelated odile clocks the loop siffren thing so fast but sheās never the one discovering information#other party members will accidentally prompt some information out of them and Odile like snaps her neck in the suitable direction to listen#also odile is helping sif either fully remove or swap out their bandages because god am I definitely normal about the act 5 glass dialogue#I thinks odile helps with sifs injuries :) I think she reminds him to like put stuff on his eye scar cause bitches forgetful
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Oh do not seek to know what lies Behind these mild and patient eyes For I have seen the demons power And even let the monster run In certain unforgotten hours
The fire that sleeps within the blood Can waken to a burning flood That sweeps away whatever moves Before the wordless killers eyes
Shiro's time as Champion lives rent free in my head but the show said you get crumbs and nothing more
#shiro#takashi shirogane#voltron#vld#shiro voltron#my art#artists on tumblr#THis is like LATE in his career as Champion like after he gets the arm and face scar and white streak#i have so many questions about his time as a gladiator and they NEVER gave us answers#I will spare you my paragraphs here bc Ive made the same posts so many times but#anyways the inspiration for this was a screenshot from collection and extraction and me thinking i want to do smth with this orange-red col#shamelessly plugging a link to my shiro playlist#i love him so much and yet I keep drawing him in anguish
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actually so evil how much of hal's internal world gets obliterated with the rewriting of his relationships with jessica and martin.
#hal jordan#empyrean posting#ok going in the tags because im not actually v confident in my understanding of his character. i read all of his 80s/90s stuff but forgot#90% of it but ANYWAY.#so much of him just does not make sense with how geoff johns characterises him and his relationships with his parents particularly the#parallax stuff simply because of how much his relationship with the guardians and their apathy/'betrayal' is influenced by hal's original#relationship with his dad. like at its heart it's pretty much the same dynamic in how hal blindly trusts and sort of idolises the guardians#despite their repeated infractions in hope of... something in return just as he had with his father and the abuse he suffered at martin's#hands. that's what makes his anger at the guardians make sense when it does show itself because the relationship parallel didn't stop there.#as with martin hal gets nothing for his devotion. he gets nothing for doing everything that's asked of him and more and it ends the same way#too: with a man in the sky burning like a newborn star. and you lose so much of that nuance and intrigue behind that if you just make#jessica the 'bad one' because!!! you cheapen it!!!!#the whole idea of hal is that he has his father's face but his mother's scars#(to me). in the sense that they both reacted to martin the same way with that cognisance of who he was as a man yet inability to pull away#because... love. both the love they had for him and the conviction that he did or could love them too. and jessica arguably did eventually#but also she didnt did she? because she held onto that notion of love till the very end. the few scraps she had she ballooned outwards until#they became the whole. but hal didnt have even that and he spent his whole life chasing it & running away from wanting it at the same time#like i think there's something so interesting to the fact that he had to be convinced that flying was what he wanted to do. how much of that#was touched by his father? the fear that he was already too much like him than he could bear to be? he already had his face now he had his#dreams and longing for the sky. how much more could he have before he began repeating the cycle?#and at the end he even had his father's death. burning in the clouds. like there's so much there and that's not even touching on how it#impacts his relationships with other heroes. not just in the sense of why did kyle clark and diana get to keep their close yet complex#relationships with their moms when hal had to lose his (although yeah why did they) but also just how he lets himself come across to them.#because it's on purpose right? that he lets them think his reflection of his father is born out of unadulterated love for a man worthy of it#? he has his father's job he wears his father's jacket he smiles his father's smile. what else are they supposed to think.#and isnt that interesting!!! that this man who is so committed to being good & just can lie so casually to people he thinks of as friends!!!#can you see how that might be his mother through and through!!! in how she might have glossed over the abuse to other people and herself!!!#can you see how in spite of it all he might want to be perceived as his father that paragon of masculinity and resent that he is not!!!#do you understand how everything he loves has been poisoned!!! im thinking of that scene where he tells bruce about watching martin die &#wouldnt it have been so much more interesting through this lens. how he is both revealing & obfuscating at once. i hate the change sm
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3l!grian is frequently depicted as a tragic figure and sometimes i wonder if we even watched the same series
#like yes he is tragic. every character in the series is tragic but i think hes easily the least tragic of the winners#(except maybe cleo. i have my own thoughts about how cleos victory plays into her core themes and why its not as joyous or triumphant as#cleo the players and the fandom at large make it seem that i will have to make a real post about at some point)#grian dies Laughing. he smiles and calls it a dual victory before the final fight. his last words are āits been amazing.ā#to me Grians arc is about how he came in with this sense of mirth. had it ripled away by the reality when his joke gets Scar killed.#and then rediscovers it as he learns that the horror of their circumstances doesn't need to keep him from delight#plus also ive never seen a man more delighted to explode three of his friends#ill also bring up that Martyns lore has Grian involved in the games explicitly to COMBAT the angst#that Grians inherent silliness and joy makes the players less hopeless as they meet their endings#and theres obviously parts of martyns lore i can take or leave but this is one area where Eyes and Ears lines up very well with what actions#the characters take and so im happy to bring it up#unlike other parts such as ālimlife pearl and cleo retained more trauma between seasons than any player has beforeā#which i do directly refute as it doesn't seem to line up with the way the characters act and the story plays out#thats for another post though#my point here is 3l grian was having the time of his life and i think there are some fanon interpretationd that disregard that#which theyre free to do im definitely someone who has ignored canon plenty of times in the past (glances at worm)#but i think this is the sort of thing that makes the canon more interesting and compelling#anyway. um. rambled longer than i meant to there#grian#trafficblr#3rd life#3rd life smp#3lsmp
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Spoiling for a fight, spoiled for choice (Patreon)
#Doodles#Damned#Osmosis Jones#Ozzy#Thrax#Starting to move into random vignettes - let's see where I can slot them into place#Starting with pouting Thrax - petulance hardly suits a serial killer pls#He hasn't killed Anyone here yet ugh! Or has he lol he just wasn't happy with how it turned out#I assume a lot happened during Nightshifts but it seemed like the monsters tended to band patients together despite alignment hmm#Not that I'm planning anything different but it does make me curious!#Scribbly Thrax to set up the one of him threatening Oz#What's funny is that initially it was Drix who threw down the gauntlet basically being like ''He can't do anything here''#Drix I hate to tell you this but Yes He Can - and it's still Oz that takes the heat for it haha#Drix is not someone you want to mess with for simultaneously opposite reasons lol - he's a dorky tank it's pretty great#Although here he's just a mild-mannered Everyman - fun to take powers away!#Which of course happens to everyone haha#He can't keep any of his accessories! Naked without them!#One of the things I was the most curious about was piercings! I imagine most ear piercings could stay but others#They could be used as impromptu weapons couldn't they? Curious#Everyone's actual clothes and accessories are taken anyway so The Rest is a moot point but y'know - coping with alternatives#It's black yarn this time you can't prove anything lol#Thrax is constantly messing with his hypothalamus necklace so I imagine not having /anything/ has to feel weird to him#But of course he wouldn't be allowed to carry something that he could use against others with him! Too dangerous!#Haha if only#Really makes me want to think about his possible MU - his hand is already scarred so what's a bit more hmmm
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Last one: A sketchy mangahood Scar, barely handling the situation
#i wasn't originally going to render him but i had some time and decided to keep it basic#sketch-painting is a good exercise tho and i rather like how it came out surprisingly#anyway i imagine mangahood scar being more demure about this situation#and i think that's cute af#nsft#fma#fmab#scar fma#+my art+
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having a normal time this fine morning <- is making up an au for an au
#sorry im currently lying in bed merging the becker siblings with my ādoesnt jump out the window during heartbreakā au and sobbing violently#that was a solo au for just cyrus and that was bad enough but inserting the siblings into it will genuinely be ruining the rest of my day#ok well. its way happier if all the becker siblings survive#but what Im thinking of is just one/two of them surviving#for cyrus specifically if he survived heartbreak he would keep being a hero#his suicidal tendencies would just be going š#god. ortega finding the two of them again#iirc fawn was found first?? hed lose his shit about it#i think hed still have the puppetmaster scar bcs he was still touched by beartbreak#so hed. probably be equally insane about the two of them as ortega is. maybe more#MAN. HE WOULD HATE THE NEW SIDESTEPS WITH A BURNING PASSION#AND THERES TWO OF THEM. THEYRE MOCKING HIM. WHAT HE FAILED TO SAVE#he wouldnt try to kill them(bcs he still has a strong sense of justice in this au) but hes not above beating the living shit out of them#but like. if cyrus was one of the steps that ādiedā? hed still be a villain but i genuinely dont know if hed still be a hero hunter#too much pain attached to actively seek out the other sibling#i think people might be a lot more suspicious than they are currently because of his avoidance of the hero step#anyway. @ gideon and idle if you have any thoughts on this. please#i have to know what revenge scar river and present rivalry fawn would do in these situations#cyrus becker(s)#keeping up with the beckers#pulp speaks
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