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🧽💭 trope: break up and make up fic for landoscar (or ur choice!)
sorry i got sooooo sidetracked on nye and never finished these, but we're locked back in....
-> assign me a chore
break up and make up would be so hard for me because resolving conflict in my writing makes me want to shake cry & throw up. it is so hARD to have characters fight/disagree and then get past it in a way that feels both authentic and genuinely better or resolved. so i think if i was going to write break up and make up, the break up would have to be far enough in the past that a lot of the character development could have already been started before the make up. like... college exes who broke up bc they didn't know how to be with each other yet. teammates-with-benefits who went up in flames bc of on-track conflicts but reunite when lando's on sky sports and oscar is finishing his career at red bull or ferrari or something. (typing that intrigued me.... the less toxic brocedes dupe calls to me....)
anyway! i'd probably do it in a similar way to dad lando, where i'd reveal parts of the past as the present progresses. so like we encounter lando and osc at the first race of the season in like 2035. lando's first day with sky after taking a necessary few-years gap after retiring, hadn't thought about what it would be like to talk to oscar until oscar is next to him with a microphone looking at him with those carefully impassive eyes. lando remembering how oscar looked that way in 2023, too, and how he stopped looking that way little by little, how disorienting it is to be on the other side of it, feeling just as desperate to crack him as he was back then, but now he's the rookie, and oscar's the one who knows his way around. anyway. reveal mid-fic about how they parted, lando requisite bitterness that oscar is still achieving the way lando couldn't down the stretch of his own career, stubbornly clinging to mclaren as they backslid more and more, while oscar got himself out and up. the way oscar's always been better at that - at letting go. at moving on.
so yeah! that's how i'd write it. lots of lando reminiscing on the past for multiple reasons until he learns how to accept that they're both different, now, and maybe every version of them has always had ways of making it work, they just have to work for it. to want it more than other things. happy ending obviously bc i'm incapable of anything else.
thx for your ask <3
#answered#chore time#this could realistically exist in the 'even if it ends' universe actually#which would be intriguing bc that oscar is soooo. intriguing.#lando desperately clinging on... willing to take risks and throw them full-throttle into corners knowing they might crash out#and then it's rlly only him who ever crashed out.#or so he THINKS#anyway. thoughts for later perhaps.#(ex post facto tagging):#sky sports lando fic
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ep 43 had me tearing up in a fucking shopping centre ‼️‼️
b+w alt version that I truly couldn't decide if I liked it more . Also I included a lot of thoughts in the tags but they're somewhat incoherent<3
#i dont know what i expected but i was waiting for a friend and too excited to wait until later#malevolent podcast#john doe#john doe malevolent#john malevolent#malevolent fanart#grimm art#ep 43#ep 43 left me with a lot of thoughts ... i didnt quite like how much of a recap it felt like at times but that might#be because ive been relistening and like yeah everyone knows that john 🙄 but that's not the case for everyone and with monthly uploads#things get forgotten easily#i find the discussion of “humanity” so interesting because John has shown that without someone that he has forcibly grown to value as an#equal... something he cannot do as the king of yellow as he is superior to all of his realm and presumably stays out of other elder god's#anyway. without that equality and enviroment to grow he fails to reach his goal of compassion and falls onto old ways.#John. The King in Yellow. shown by both times each has found themselves in human form do not just crave power and influence!!!#THEY CRAVE COMMUNITY!!! an endrich being not born or raised with nothing but power and ego#CRAVES COMMUNITY.#His goal of “humanity” is not a selfless goal like John projects - it is ultimately somewhat selfish as he does not want to be alone!!#which makes this desire so much more human#i don't know maybe this is just me spelling out whats already there but the way john and the witch argued about humanity frustrated me#it felt like they were missing the point or that perhaps the “good/evil” “black/white” retoric was already realised by me and john needed#realise it himself . which is fair !!!#i dont know!!!!#the witch was talking about how bad everyone was and how humanity is cruel and john was talking about Lily (#who also frustrates me how shes used in the plot somewhat she was literally just a nurse doing her job bro#) but to John - yes internally he is struggling with his moral greyness and im so proud of him for growing being himself SO PROUD#JUST.!!! he wants community. he needs community. he loves his friend. 'humanity' at its core does not matter as long as you try to be bette#and i think thats awesome and i really enjoyed the episode#guhh im rambling enjoy my tag rambling i dont know i want john to have more friends :(#yorrick can be another friend godd i love you yorrick so silly
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Do you think Yesod has ever taken refuge on Netzach's floor.. he hates the ticking of his own floor .. and he's a homosexual.. maybe Chesed visits too .... holy trinity of bad coping mechanisms or something ..
thats funny that he does actually... perhaps
#library of ruina#yesod#yesod lor#chesed#chesed lor#netzach#netzach lor#I AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK FOREVER it was also originally going to be longer... probably will do those ideas later as well but i didnt want to#put this off any longer. i got rather anxious from the attention so i ran for a bit. again im sorry... i hope these are good enough#anyways the thoughts. i want thinking abt it because yesod already is the orderly type and netzachs floor is a MESS DAMN girl you live like#this. or whatever the sort. but it being messy might be an excuse to do something w hands and physically move and do something and still#feel productive somewhat while also doing something less energy intensive. perhaps. for yesod. the other ideas were like.. chesed going dow#to the lower floors and bringing coffee with a cup so that itd be an excuse to either have them come return it and visit or go back down to#get ot later. as an excuse again of course.#there is a lot of little critters on netzs floor actually... little thangs.#i dont think ill have enough room. anyways again SORRY!!! its done.... somewhat
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More Pink Bunny Stuff!
Warriors learns not to touch Bunny without permission the hard way. His response catches Bunny off guard
(AKA the scene I thought I’d already shared and had promised @thatonecrazysidekick (oops!). @tiredgaytheatrekid more Bunny stuff!!)
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Wind began to hum absentmindedly as Warriors towelled off his hair, cheerful despite his earlier complaints, and Warriors couldn’t help the smile that lifted the corners of his lips. He took more care with drying his young friend’s hair, pulling the damp strands out of Wind’s face, tucking a lock behind his ear.
Wind groaned. “Wars, you’re babying me again.”
“I would never.” Warriors definitely was. How could he not, when Wind was like the little brother he never got to have? When Wind reminded him of his boisterous little sister back home.
“You are. We should start calling you Ma.”
“If that would make you happy,” Warriors said, smile turning into a smirk as he finished off drying Wind’s hair. “Done. Was that so bad?”
Wind scoffed, but when he stood, he leaned into Warriors’ side, a brief moment of affection to show his appreciation. “Terrible,” he said.
“Truly terrible,” Warriors agreed. “And you are welcome.”
“Thanks, Wars.” Wind smiled at him, that toothy grin that made Warriors think so much of his little sister, and he couldn’t help but pinch Wind’s cheek. “Ah—don’t!” He shoved Warriors’ hand away, cheeks aflame.
“Alright. Go have your dinner now.”
“Yes, ma.” For that, Wind earned Warriors’ hand ruffling his hair, messing it up even more. “Ugh, Wars.”
“Wind.”
“You need to eat too.”
“I will once you have all eaten.”
Wind, more than used to his idiosyncrasies by now, nodded, grabbing his arm and dragging him closer to the fire, where Twilight was dishing out the soup he and Time had prepared. He shared a nod with Warriors, ladling out a bowl for Wind and passing it over before moving on to the next hungry mouth. Only once they had all eaten their fill could Warriors pick up spoon and bowl and dig in himself, once he was certain they were all fed and not going hungry. They all knew that well by now, didn’t try and push him before he was ready.
While Wind had his dinner served, Warriors let him go, moving over to sit alongside Hyrule closer to the fire, where warmth pressed against his chest and legs as he sat on the log left behind by the lizalfos.
“You smell better,” Warriors commented.
“Likewise,” Hyrule said, and they shared a grin. It was then Warriors noticed the little rabbit—Bunny, as Hyrule and Twilight had taken to calling it—nestled in Hyrule’s lap, clean and fluffier than ever. And pink.
“Huh,” Warriors commented, his eyes on Bunny.
“Yeah,” Hyrule agreed. “We think it must be an era-specific thing. I’ve never seen a rabbit this colour in my era.”
“It could be dye,” Warriors offered.
“We thought that too, but I’ve checked and the colour goes right down to the roots. If he’s been out in the wild for weeks, then his natural colour would have started to grow back by now. So… pink fur it is.”
“Pink fur it is,” Warriors agreed, and when Hyrule hummed, beginning to run his hand down Bunny’s back, smoothing out the fur, that warm affection leftover from his time with Wind swelled in his chest. He reached out to pet Bunny’s fluffy pink head as Hyrule was doing. It happened fast, a blur of pink and then sharp, fiery pain along the back of his hand.
“Ow!” Warriors tore his hand back, inspecting the little bite mark, lazily weeping ruby red. “Did he bite me?”
“Oh my—Bunny!” Hyrule began to chastise the rabbit, but Bunny only had eyes for Warriors. Violet narrowed at him, watching him with suspicion, and Warriors found all frustration dissipate.
“It is okay,” he assured Hyrule. “I should not have tried to touch him without permission.”
Violet eyes widened slightly. Warriors thought back to Twilight’s comment of Bunny being a lot smarter than the average rabbit. Wondered if Bunny could understand him—perhaps not his words, but the meaning behind them, his tone of voice.
“I am sorry,” he spoke to Bunny this time and not Hyrule. “I should not have tried to touch you without permission, and I swear I will not do it again.”
Bunny watched him for a long moment, curious. He blinked slowly. Then he dipped his head, the gesture far more Hylian than Warriors anticipated from the rabbit.
#I shared this with C already and for some reason my brain thought that meant I had shared it publicly too#oops!#anyway I hope you enjoy Wars getting bitten by Bunny snsnsn#Bunny wasn’t expecting an apology and respect for his boundaries#he starts to like Wars a little after this and when Wars saves him during a fight and patches him up#he starts to really like Wars (and flops against him!)#he only lets three people touch him#(excluding Ravio of course. Ravio… isn’t here)#I also have Wolfie and Bunny snuggling to share#I might do that later today or tomorrow… but get excited for it!!#I also included Wind and Wars being brothers because I love them so much#perhaps you can forgive me for injuring Bunny when I share snuggles…#(the snuggles happen only a few hours after this scene)#okay I think that’s all from me for now snsksn BYE#lu#loz#linked universe#lu fic#linked universe fanfic#lu pink bunny au#lu Bunny#(changed the tag bc I keep getting weird recommendations in my For You page…)#lu warriors#lu hyrule#lu wind#lu legend#faye writes
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You strike that pose, Miss Cackle!
#the worst witch#tww98#miss cackle#amelia cackle#miss hardbroom#constance hardbroom#i LOVE this shot#idk it's just so cute to me and i wanna draw ada doing it too xD#constance's expressions are ALWAYS on point#BUT ALSO this is right before hb brings up that she thought they could go to miss cosie's to check on the girls working there#miss cackle doesn't want to intimidate or make the girls nervous with the two of them showing up#and hb uses miss cackle's love for cheesecake to get her to go with her!!! their expressions get me every time!#constance is like maybe some tea and perhaps some delicious cheesecake? 👀#and amelia looks like well... let me get my cloak...#THEY WALKED ALL THE WAY THERE BTW! you know how HB prefers popping about!#also im just saying Hb says later:#isn't it reasonable to assume that the combinations of friends and scrumptious cakes might have proved too much of a temptation?#and amelia says i see what you mean very seriously but smiles at hb!!!!#like i'm sure hb could've gone alone and she's scary enough to the girls without amelia being there and also if she went alone#miss cackle wouldn't be there to show mercy upon these poor girls if HB finds them in a pickle!#and i know it's because i've watched tww17 because when i originally watched tww98 i was more of a hb/drill fan! still am actually#listen if you could see the multi-ship pie graphs in my brain?!#i believe i was truly born to be a fangirl at times like this!#toad rambles#anyway sorry im a bit hyped today... doggo had a better vet trip today so i'm in better spirits#also i'm like actually watching the show rn and hb and cackle used the bench to climb over the fence!! and constance let amelia go first!#AND AMELIA DID A LITTLE SCURRY WHILE SMILING BEHIND HB AND I WAS FREAKIN ROBBEDDD#if ada cackle did some of these things#i would've been a goner!#i'm talking 'cordelia! petula! you're back! kinda fan-sobbing!!! lol
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not to be disabled on main but disabled edwin courcey means so much to me personally. if i were in this world i too would have difficulty cradling! i too would have to use string as a guide because my hemiplegia means that i don't have enough dexterity to do that! i too would find cradling with one hand infinitely easier and more effective! i too would learn everything i can to make up for not being able to physically do magic as well as everyone else!
#the last binding#a marvellous light#edwin courcey#i have perhaps MORE THOUGHTS on this that i may come back to later#ANYWAY#widge.txt
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puppy hybrid!Phainon who doesn't know his own strength...
#anyway. i'm going to bed. goodnight!#thoughts of puppy hybrid phainon have taken over but nothing is comprehensible and can't be transcribed it is just vibes right now#if i think of words to say i will say them later#but do you see the vision???? do you get me???#on another note i made a little moodboard for me n ajax for springtime perhaps i will post it in a few days i need to figure out how i want#to format it#misc: zebra speaks#tw: hybrids
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Somebody, help him right away... (^^♪
#mia winters#ethan winters#resident evil#resident evil biohazard#resident evil 7#re7#mesmerizer#This Is My Mithan Mesmerizer#Friend Vio Showed Me Mesmerizer And Said It Was MithanCore And I Once Again Opened CSP#Actually I Started This Before Other Mithan Post But This Took A While Bc Yeah <3#Anyways I Am Now At The Marguerite Section In My First Playthru (Actually Restarted To Play On Normal And I Regret It A Little </3) And bug#I Had Thoughts On How Mesmerizer Is MithanCore But It Is Past 2 AM Rn And I Have Work In About 12 Hours So Perhaps Later HELP#my art
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no tags but it'll end up there anyway because tumblr hates me but this also isn't about anyone in particular, besides like. tiktok in general
i feel like at least a third of the aftg fandom needs to understand or learn that certain questions not being answered blatantly, and/or being pushed off until later to be explained doesn't make it a plot hole?? readers are meant to look deeper into wording and figure out what they mean; authors (nora) cannot answer all questions in black and white wording.
personally, i wanna figure shit out on my own !! I'd tweak if an author was explaining everything through the characters like the readers are children idk
#perhaps im in a bad mood and just mean that people are not as big of readers as i am#idk#anyway enough of that ill post sad elodie thoughts later
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do you want to be correct or do you want to help?
#i was initially thinking about this in relation an explanation of haikus on wikipedia#where it tries to explain how haikus work in japanese#that is to say how it uses morae and not syllables#and nothing it says in that explanation is wrong. but i think it's a garbage way of explaining it#making it seem needlessly complicated#like youre not wrong. but i dont think youre helping anyone understand.#then later regarding like. social issues. there are a lot of people who have the correct opinion#and perhaps their true intent is just to vent and the nature of social media makes their vent circulate#in which they are correct. but by letting the post go around they are not only not helping but the tone of their message might even be#counterproductive. people are incredibly defensive and will yeah have to be coddled at times to be nurtured into your perspective#and if that's your goal. to actually convince people. you *need* to ACT empathetically#tl dr youre not wrong walter youre just an asshole#this is not a new or insightful thought. i will post it anyway.
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Me when Anton turns out to be Charles Knight’s son: …
#old comics sure were something weren’t they?#*laughs uncomfortably*#I think this is perhaps an interesting look into how family was viewed at the time#the fact that this was presented as a redeeming factor if anything is a sharp contrast to how it would just. not be portrayed in the present#especially not in present day Batman comic#so yeah I’m not really sure what to make of this other than that I guess society’s norms have changed significantly in 40 years#anyway vagueblogging about precrisis comics. I’ll explain later#sorry.#this is what I get for reading old comics. hasn’t dissuaded me though.#obviously#like I’m not giving up because it got a bit weird#I will read every pre and post crisis Jaybin comic#but just. excuse me while I consider sociology for a bit.#actually it got a bit weird long ago this is just not ignorably weird#pre crisis#guide to jaybin#this isn’t getting real tags for obvious reasons#it’s not much of a post just me logging my thoughts so I can study my reaction later#and sharing this awkward moment with people who are also very much modern fans who have decided to read older comics#because it requires a lot of either ignoring stuff or just accepting that this is what was written#I choose the secret third option: vagueblog on Tumblr and analyze the sociological context#a learning experience for sure#not really sure where I’m going with this but I’m sleep deprived so please forgive me
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Thoughts on why the main relationship in TGCF manages to be full of tropes that are trash-associated but is also deeply compelling:
There are SO MANY nuances of the complicated power dynamics and self-sacrifice in Hualian’s relationship that could’ve been cringily unhealthy at so many points and THEN they just WEREN’T. Not ever. Not once
Every time I revisit this novel, I remain so impressed with MXTX’s capacity for nuance. These two are so gone on each other. Hua Cheng literally worships Xie Lian like a god. They would commit atrocities for each other. There are literally characters in the novel who worry about the sheer, unconditional trust Xie Lian gives to Hua Cheng no matter how many secrets he has. In a lesser writer’s hands, this exact dynamic is unhealthy to the point of atrocity: one becoming an unmoored monster and the other both enabler and victim. The shadow of this dynamic is hinted at in the book 4 flashback but it is specifically not allowed to actually become that. Never do we see even a shade of that relationship slip into the book itself, because that’s not how it really is for these two, not even in the darkest flashback moments.
Many narratives in which this level of devotion is present, it would be accurate to call it blind devotion, which becomes uncomfortable for the sake of the follower and unhealthy for the development of their love interest, but here the devotion is so continuously and unfailingly anchored not in looking the other way (the damaging nature of doing so being one of the core themes of the novel) but is conversely about seeing clearly and understanding fully.
So when Hua Cheng does things like offering to take the plague sword and release the disease on Yong’an himself, it actually has the effect of letting Xie Lian see the effect these choices are having on himself more clearly. It was absolutely necessary that Wu Ming not say “let me do this because you want it done” but instead say “I would do this if you needed me to and you didn’t want to because I independently understand why you want this”, because then, refusing him is a real reflection for Xie Lian on himself. There is self-sacrificing devotion in the relationship, but only for the sake of their actual wellbeing, never just while following a blind desire to do what they say.
Like, Hua Cheng can refuse Xie Lian. That’s a pretty foundational thing that happened. He does refuse him things from the beginning, even in the most basic, relationship-defining things. Xie Lian asked him to forget him after the burning of his temples and he refused, and here we are now. It’s a devotion to each other’s wellbeing, that also manages to be so without either of them assuming they know better than the other what that person needs or wants. The only time Hua Cheng actively sacrifices himself (which Xie Lian definitely wouldn’t want if asked) it’s in pursuit of the goal/outcome that XL wanted/needed to happen.
There manages to be complete devotion to each other, and also deep respect for each other’s choices and judgement, and those things…. often don’t coexist in fiction. Like, Hua Cheng introduced nothing if not agency to Xie Lian’s life. In the grand majority of the side arcs, often the “twist” in the mystery we’re exploring is some variation on “was someone forced to do something? No, they had agency!” And whether what they did with it was bad is also very much up for debate. The backstories and current stories of our protags were often journeys in recognizing that they’re not absolved of personal responsibility for lack of easy options, and show them winning by choosing to wrest back agency instead, even to their own detriment. “Take the third path”, “no paths are bound” etc. are catchphrases of our main character for a reason. Sometimes the best option still ended in tragedy, but it didn’t compromise their integrity. I LOVE “no paths are bound” as a tagline for this book and a catchphrase for Xie Lian, because it ALSO ties the good things about the main relationship into the main themes of the book. Hua Cheng’s goal is not just to be able to protect, which he probably could have done as an ordinary super ghost, but to be powerful enough to put every single possibility on the table for Xie Lian. Hua Cheng needed to be the Most Powerful, because he decided that if Xie Lian wants to do something, Hua Cheng needs to be strong enough to make it happen, needs to make it so that that every option, every path, is always under serious consideration. He literally made it so that any roll of the dice was an equally good outcome (Which is the best rationale for designing an OP character I’ve ever heard in my life). He’s not preventing danger, but instead increasing his agency in the face of it. Essentially “If what you end up choosing is MORE DANGER then I’ll be unhappy about it but I won’t stop you, I will work to make that path walkable too. I’m not here to keep you on a path, I’m here to open and smooth the one you most want to use.”
And, moreover, both people are able to be insanely cool and insanely powerful and be looked up to by the other, because while the power dynamics between them, perceived or real, could’ve been uncomfortable at many points, they WEREN’T. The people involved are on even footing even when they think they’re not. There was never a time when their presence wasn’t good for each other, even before Xie Lian knew to pay attention. Even in Hua Cheng’s very earliest appearances in the book 2 flashbacks, it’s really notable that he had enough effect on Xie Lian and his well-being that he appears multiple times in Xie Lian’s memory of those events, even though he had no idea who he was, or even that all his appearances were the same person.
MXTX really seems to grasp what’s attractive about these protective/super-powerful-boyfriend dynamics in fiction, why they often go badly wrong/make fiction bad rep of healthy relationships, and then SHOWS THEM IN THEIR HEALTHY FUNCTIONAL FORM INSTEAD so we’re free to love what we love about them. At the end of the day, we’re shown the way the best of these things all ideally point to love and concern for the other person as they are, before any considerations of their role in your own life or what they do for you. BUT with the expectation of reciprocal respect and latitude to do what you need to do as well.
I’ve never seen another story do this quite so well with such so-often-abused tropes and dynamics, and it’s one of the reasons that the romance in particular makes this work so near and dear to me.
It kinda reaffirmed my ability to see these things I naturally love seeing in love stories as healthy, reasonable forms of affection and devotion when based in an actual healthy relationship. When much, much fiction that treats similar dynamics badly makes me want to feel bad for enjoying aspects of them.
So seeing THIS relationship be what it is was a validating, freeing, and clarifying experience.It basically explained for me why I like these things, and elucidated why, for me, they fit into my paradigm of ideal romance and devotion, even (especially) when they can be problematic if treated wrong.
In essence, seeing these tropes done well is also an exercise in seeing what was missing in cases where they were damagingly removed from context, and thus understanding their key aspects and the core behind their impact. This book actually literally kinda reframed the way I conceptualize romance by helping me put together how many of the tropes I love in romances actually fit into an ideal relationship.
A spring cleaning of my thoughts if you will.
An ordering of my conceptions.
And I bonded with it deeply for that.
And yet it is also trash, who would’ve thought.
(it is self-aware, culture-savvy, meta-commentary trash for the most part, that clearly leans into it with fond intention, so I really do not mind it. It manages to be genre bending while expressing only love for its own genre and why it is the way it is. No disdain here. Only love for things as they are.)
#wow you can tell I originally wrote this ramble at like 3am RIGHT after my very first reread of the novel way back when#sharing it anyway#I stand by the observations#though I may come back and edit this with more receipts later#during my 5th reread perhaps#tgcf#hua cheng#xie lian#hualian#my pre volume 7 tgcf opinions#tossing my thoughts into the void#long post#tgcf spoilers#just to be safe
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// personal
how strange it is to observe yourself changing
#not snz#delete later#another suddencolds yap post 😭 i apologize#i have been trying to draft a post like this for awhile now... i suppose this is a subset of the many thoughts i've had lately#this year has been so strange??! i joked in january about taking a leave to metamorphose into someone more tolerable but#honestly i am not sure if i am more tolerable now... though i do feel like i've changed. :')#for the better? for the worse? unsure... i feel like i am finding out more and more that#my social battery is unfortunately finite 😭 and that i must be more selective in how i choose to spend my time 🙇♀️#i think all throughout uni the majority of my substantial social interactions happened#over text/online? irl i made a lot of acquaintances via classes and student organizations... but the number of#close friends i had and actively met up with irl was pretty low 😭 and that embarrassed me!! like#how can one 🫵🏼 be surrounded by so many smart people her age and come away with so few in-person friends?? ☹️ skill issue truly!!! 🙄👎#even now i sometimes feel like the need to defend myself from that uncharitable perception of me? as though the idea that#there is/was something wrong with me is something i need to actively disprove 🥲#taken objectively i feel like i'm doing okay socially 😭 i have a decent handful of irl friends that#i meet with pretty regularly and people do seek out my company... but there's this feeling at the back of my mind that#no one will believe me when i say it. perhaps because i am so deeply used to seeing myself as undesirable :')#(^ i think this was all more painful than i am getting across in writing and i am summarizing it all from a point of relative detachment 😶)#but anyways! i am older now and it feels like things are shifting... or that i'm being forced to acknowledge that i have limits socially#in terms of energy rather than capability. which is new :') and i've also been thinking about the feeling of closeness (or lack thereof)#that i feel when it comes to the various friendships in my life. i think i am really fully vulnerable like#kind of seldom actually... but on the rare occasion that i feel sufficiently attached i worry i come across as a little intense 😭#(if i have embarrassed myself in front of you i am very sorry 😭😭 i'm still figuring things out)#(not sure if anyone is still reading this but) these tags are getting long enough 🏃♀️
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Oh what now is the adventure we'll go on Dr. Who? Where I will suffer fatigue at tales conclusion...
#I might not watch the special right when it comes out as a break also Disney+ is expensive :(#but the above is a thought I just had#I'm tired#but like the tiredness you feel when you're a kid you're moving slowly and going nowhere but you're growing#I remember watching doctor who at nine yrs old back when it was still on Netflix#I really liked it then but I didn't know how much it would have an affect on my life yrs later#I've just been nostalgic recently#the holidays do that#I've been looking in the mirror and seeing the same but different person#a stronger person#Perhaps a more weary person.#I see all she's learned and is still learning#Not oversharing here just communicating a common feeling#I mean the new years coming soon things will still kick our asses I'll look back on this and cringe but#I think the whole world will take some lessons learned into next year#I just feel it#I only hope#bluh bluh#anyway#gnight yall#mine#text#.
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Torn between "they're woobifying Aventurine too much to appeal to people who can't stand the idea of liking villainous characters" and "they're heathclif.fying Aventurine and that's catnip to me"
#If they do keep heathclif.fying him this is going to suck for me because I would have two Heathclif.f adjacent characters#and one would lean more towards the orphic and Jack side#while the other perhaps more towards the Odysseu.s/all for keeping alive/that other side of Jack/plays with words side#I adore both sides#And I think it's exceedingly interesting what they're doing with those thought experiments/game theory eidolons#What it brings to his characterisation and even the concept of deals/gambling#This game made Divination in the Luofu mainly a thing of analysing patterns and is making gambles so much a thing of game theory#And it fits so much with Aventurine over and over saying he's trustworthy because if you do have trust in the other person in some of those#thoughts experiments‚ then the outcome is often overall more convenient for both parties. It's super super interesting#The fact that it's or can be so closely related to logic is such an interesting choice and yet so fitting#and goes so well with again Penacony and ironically so well with Aventurine's whole deal. I'm so down for it#Anyway... I'm loving him. I only hope they don't make him so much of a sob story he ends up being only a wet dog so to speak#That they don't forget he can also be ruthless and all that. Because I do love that side of him too#And as I said before‚ he can do whatever he wants at this point‚ set on fire the IPC‚ Penacony or the Express for convenience#Or revenge#He has gained the right haha#I talk too much#I should probably delete this later
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sits up straight. UHHh Witch Hat Atelier AU and astarion (unknowing?) has forbidden magic carved into his back. uhhh. and of course the netherese orb is also forbidden magic......... MHMm. yeagh.....
#bg3#bloodweave#apologies im tagging these mostly for myself so i find the post again later#anyways i dont have any further thoughts yet. bc i Just had this First thought. BUT. mhMmm.#gale as a well respected witch who. got a bit overzealous and almost crossed the line to the brimmed hats? perhaps.#astarion who ofc doesn't know how magic works but knows hes been cursed. knows his back is scarred. doesnt know its a spell controlling#him....#secret brim hat wyll? for the good of the people? or as a knight moralis...#shadowheart who had her memories erased once but it Must have been for the greater good. clearly.#karlach and laezel i have no thoughts on yet. Will ponder this at work tomorrow#blabbering
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