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I think walking directly into the ocean would fix me
#personal#ocean tag#I'm having. a time#I DONT WANNA DO MY IGCSES#WHY DID I TAKE TWO SCIENCES#anyway. I'm fine. I'm regular#studying hell. what the fuck is a circle theorem#I wanna be on tumblr more often tho I feel like I'll reblog like 7 things a month and then vanish for weeks#BACK TO THE OCEAN THO. IT WOULD FIX ME I KNOW IT#can I just walk directly into a sea storm. is that too much to ask#when is it my turn to be happy.
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ORIGAMI NORIAKI KAKYOIN, designed+folded by me. One uncut square of roughly 60 cm home-prepared double tissue. Natural color changes (green for one side of the paper, peach on the other). Long post incoming!!















This project began a bit over a week ago, when the inspiration struck me, and I simply had to create him. My starting paper was super wrinkly! It got warped when I left it to dry overnight!! So it was very uneven. But! I took inspiration from a post I once saw about a tissue foil Ryujin that said “See this post as a reason to create something stupid, because it might actually turn out great.” So despite the flaws, I decided “I am going to fold this paper anyway”. And I’m glad I did. Shaping the face especially took a lot of trusting in the process. While I believe there is still room for future improvement, I also think it’s the best origamiyoin I’ve created so far.
Much of this folding process was spent shaping him. I spent an evening impulsively drafting the structure in Box Pleating Studio and then getting paper prepared. Precreasing and collapse was spread out over 2 days, and everything else was shaping.
Including image with side by side comparison of the first Kakyoin vs the latest below. While the old fold absolutely does not meet my standard now, it was an important part of this journey as well. Other miscellaneous process images included. (I do not claim the crease pattern to be perfect)






#origami#paper folding#paper art#paper#origami art#art#kakyoin fanart#noriaki kakyoin#jjba kakyoin#jojo kakyoin#jjba part 3#jjba stardust crusaders#jjba#jjba fanart#jojo stardust crusaders#jojos bizarre adventure#kakyoin noriaki#jojo part 3#note that the hair is on the less usual side due to a design oversight#the head gets a twist around#so if you want it on its more regular side of his head#just flip the pattern#long post#but I'm excited#the opening on his backside is not intended to mean anything tragic I promise#origamiyoin lives. he's fine. he survives...origami part 3?#I mean I do want to create the rest of the part 3 crew#but I cannot guarantee specific characters at this time#anyway he was a joy to fold!#yayyy
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[I.D. Two drawings of Baxter Stockman from TMNT 2003. He wears a yellow v neck sweater and has orange glasses frames in both. In the first drawing he frowns with concentration, sticking out his tongue as he stares at a purple seed in his palm (the kind that Draxum uses to create vines) and gestures with his other hand. A small purple vine stems from the seed. In the second drawing, he moves his arm outward and the vine shoots up, curling over his head. He looks at it excitedly and says "Yes, yes!!" End I.D.]
I've decided, building on this post, after Stockman is told that manipulating vines is really hard and takes a super long time to learn that he decides to teach himself how to do it out of spite. Man is about 3 seconds away from losing control and sending that vine through his ceiling <3
#image described#tmnt 2003#2003 baxter stockman#tmnt 2k3#tmnt baxter stockman#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt#scientists testing evil mutagens#stem au#tag ramble time: i cant figure out how to draw his actual canon glasses and make them look nice so i went with orange frames#idk i like giving him bright colors (and it fits better with the energy of the rise universe i feel like)#but also. they were so annoying to draw. because i accidentally drew them on the regular lineart layer#well i drew one pair on the wrong layer and then went 'screw it i'm just merging the glasses down' Bad Decision#cause when i had to recolor them to make sure they actually stood out against his skin i couldnt do my normal 'recolor the whole layer'#(hit protect alpha and fill tool the whole layer so it takes like 3 seconds)#no i had to go in and carefully reline them. it wasnt that long but it was way longer than it wouldve taken if i hadnt messed up my layers#anyway his glasses are awful and i hate them (affectionate) (they're fine they're just tricky to draw)#and that's my tag ramble ig hope you enjoyed if you actually read it for some reason lmao
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say what u will about barry allen but no other superhero has had a worse time. you come in, take up another heros mantle, be a hero for however many years, DIE!!! actually die not comic death but die to the point you are functionally irrelevant for 20 years you completely cease to be that character and the vast majority of people grew up with a different flash, get resurrected you're back now (yay?), writers don't know what to do with you because there's already another flash and there has been for the past two decades so the entire universe kinda hems and haws about what to do with you until they take you out of your main comics and just have you chill in the justice league, then you lose your powers and are once again no longer the flash.
I need a "where are they now" but for Barry Allen flash. dead for Twenty Real Life Years. come back to life. reset the universe. just to lose your powers and be booted again from the superhero title. God himself hates this man
"Oh wally got erased from existence" "well x happens to Batman" it's not even about what happens in the narrative it's like. you're the only mainstream superhero ever that stopped existing for two decades and when they do decide to bring the character back they have no idea what to do with you so you're eventually forever relegated to the sidelines And also you're not the strongest or the most skilled or the fastest flash and they keep retconning all the special stuff You did in specific and refuse to let your narrative exist beyond Dead Mom. bartholomew baby I'm so sorry
#:v#Barry Allen#DC comics#the flash#It's just like. idk I really like Wally and I grew up with him in the cartoon#wally is what made me love the flash!#but why can't there be space for both of them. there's like 80 different batmen.#and Barry is so different from all the other speedsters you know? hes methodical and stops to think twice and is cautious#everyone else is silly and hot headed and impulsive#not to say Barry isn't silly or impulsive but he's not like. Hal you know?#he's level headed and his jokes are more like Dad puns then anything#idk I just really like Barry and I feel like the comics Don't#Also I forerv have beef with new 52 ENOUGH WITH REBOOTS#new 52 is why we got those dogshit movies idc idc 🙄#Also I'm fine with superheroes going through shit constantly I think especially with like peter parker and barry allen#the appeal there for a lot of people is they're regular nerdy guys who get beat up a lot and constantly fall down#but they always get back up#it's why making Peter a ceo in the comcis didn't work#That's not really what his character is ya know?#he's not a tony he's the down on his luck guy who can't afford eggs this week but he will still save new york#anyway I wish they could just do what marvel did and let there be two spidermen. why not ya know?#im sure the appeal is there. give us them both Please
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Hey if you want to read a character study of BOTW trans girl Link and trans guy Zelda featuring heavy use of suicide/dying metaphors read my fic on AO3.
#tumblr still isn't letting me post regular link posts rip#does it just fine when i try to link the ao3 home page but doesn't process a link to an individual work#wonder what's up with that#botw#totk#botw link#botw zelda#link#zelda#anyway. wasn't kidding when i said i couldn't stop thinking about transfem link this morning#then transmasc zelda happened in the fic also. i'm not complaining#do still want to do a proper longform post-totk character study of zelda through a transmasc lens#but really who knows when/if i finish that one. glad this is here at least
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how are you holding up with the mighty nein teaser being the fjorester meet cute?
I'm obviously so fine about it I'm being so normal in this house right now it's BUSINESS AS USUAL
#yep i'm fine and normal this is just a regular day#anyway they look SO good i'm going to continue to be FINE about this#i hope that answers your question hahaha#fjorester#fairymonk#erin answers things#i have watched it multiple times
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Zelda
She/her, 65 moons, cis molly
#Zelda (cat)#<- so it doesn't go in the fandom tags of the game lmao#Loner#honeyclan#<- the save file she's from. I'm gonna say she lives nearest to them#warrior cats oc#warriors oc#kiri’s clangen#clangen#She also doesn't have the chest spot on her sprite but I thought she looked better with it so. Y'know#I made her fur so massive but I need it to be known that the rest of her is massive as well. She's jut very large#also I HAVE RETURNED TO THIS BLOG!!! Can't say how regular activity here will be but I'm queueing this on thursday to go up on friday#and I've got three more finished cats to go up the three days after that. We'll see how many more I draw before the queue runs out#I'm doing hermit-a-day-may over on my main blog and I'm coming up on the end of the schoolyear so I may be mostly swamped until summerish#but I'd like to pick back up with posting these during the summer. I have some ideas for a comic that I'd like to do but I haven't written-#-it out yet becuase I want to get these designs done first and I think I'm about halfway through all the cats I have? across 5 different-#-clans two of which are very large so. Mass extinction events will be on once I start playing moons again!!#anyways sorry for rambling but I'm very proud of my next few designs. I think I've found a good method for doing them quickly. It involves-#-using actual reference images for the poses lmao#EDIT I lied I'm not even close to halfway#I've got 66 out of 181 done meaning I have 115 left#jesus fucking christ ITS FINE it's fine it's just a lot. not a problem though#I can pick up the pace after this next month or two#it's chill
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Janeway in 'Nothing Human' vs Tuvok in 'Resolutions' There's something here I know there is I can almost wrap my teeth around it.
#I can't watch Nothing Human bc the puppet really disconcerts me#but I cannot believe Janeway really came into B'Elanna's room after all that and the FIRST thing she says...her OPENER is#'Wow it smells awful in here~!'#DUDE....................TIME AND PLACE#HEHEHHE#C'MON MAN#B'Elanna: Is [putting it behind us] an order? / Janeway [normal!]: Yes.#'And what emotion is that?' C'MON MAN!!!!!!#Janeway & Tuvok#Kathryn Janeway#Tuvok#I can see why she and Tuvok are friends#'I understand you're upset but fall in line'#You can be upset but not if effects your work#<- Something which would be fine on a regular ship but is very difficult on Voyager#I think Janeway's certain coldness or ruthlessness which can be aimed at either friend or foe is an interesting#aspect of her personality#Ex: She and B'Elanna COULD have feasibly had a more touching scene together to close out the episode but they don't#I don't know if I'm explaining myself well right now I'm a bit ill and more than a bit tired#Something about uhh maybe....people under their command vehemently and emotionally disagreeing with them/their decisions??#you can disagree with me but not if you don't follow me anyway#Voyager a ship full of contradictions#they have to all work together and they are all closer emotionally than any other starship due to their situation#but they are also still 'at work' and are expected to follow orders. It's like a 'casual' hierarchy but it's still a hierarchy#and you can't fall too far out of line bc you're someone dear to me#but you're also a valued cog in the machine#and even though you ARE valued you ARE still a cog in the machine#but you're also my dear friend. and all of these things are true at once.#all of that of course but also Janeway & Tuvok are displaying a very particular kind of shared leadership style in these moments#Janeway is obviously on the whole MUUUCH more charismatic and understanding than Tuvok but still - when push comes to shove...
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migraine has been bestowed upon me
#thumbs down emoji#it's literally sunnyyyyyyyy why must i be the bearer of the curse i could be doing ACTIVITIES!!!#anyway yesterday a family member knocked on my window concerned bc my curtains were closed when they left the house and#i was like *horrified shock* *how do i explain to them that i'm sick as hell but also just living my life regular style to me because this#is regular style to me* so i was like like 'no i'm fine (:'#bc like. idk how to explain it more than i've already explained it. i'm chronically ill and disabled for real u guys :')#it was nice that they checked on me. sucked as a reality check :P#anyway that's unrelated to migraine that's 'needs 10 hours of sleep a night or gets even more sick' type situation.#Please wish me a very 'drs investigate physical uhhh mechanisms of migraine' as i think i've found a contributing factor and i don't#feel like i can get anyone to believe me or investigate.#meeting a new dr in a couple of weeks yaaaaaaay#ANYWAY! it's literally sunny i did my chores i can ferment my brain in peace nbd i guess
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mornin!!!
#mine#ts4#sims 4#the sims 4#simblr#sims#ofmd#stede#ofmd sims#my therapist suggested doing a regular dose of ativan (1 mg every 4 hours)#for at least the next two weeks#maybe even the entire month of march#and i was reluctant at first because u kno#worries abt dependency and whatnot#but ive done this before!#with higher doses for longer periods of time#and it rly helped and it was fine#i had a rly calm day yesterday and i wanna keep that vibe going overthe weekend#so anyway i'm glad i feel like i have “permission” to use my anxiety meds when i need them#and i know im a Grown Up and should be able to do that on my own but#i have a rly hard time justifying that im anxious enough to myself#i feel like i should save it for when i RLY need it#and my therapist was like uhhh it sounds like u DO rly need it rn????#and i was like yeah.... maybe.....#and she said drew how is ur prescription written?#and i was like........ up to 8mg a day#and she was like TAKE UR DAMN MEDICINE ��#so. i am!!!!#also gonna hit the dispensary this morning because i have not been in a WHILE and i need some supplies 😂#anyway hello!!
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I managed to befriend only one colleague from the day program ( it's someone who I already knew from the trainings, but I always wanted to be friend with him as I thought he was really fun and chill ) and you know what, that's all I care about in terms of "finding my place" in this new staff team for the day program.
#💭#we have one more group home joining the day program next week so I still have a chance of finding new potential friends#but again it's fine if I only end up clicking with one person beside M#I feel like most of these colleagues are the gossipy / serious kind of folks who I don't vibe with at all#( and I sensed my regular colleague - who gossiped shit behind my back last week - was already talking to a coworker about me + M again.. )#so :/#at least this B guy is awesome as fuck#it sounds sort of mean but ngl if M isn't present in shift or we won't work together of the day at least I can likely interact with B#I felt miserable the whole day thinking M wasn't coming tomorrow already because I saw on the schedule he wasn't gonna be in tomorrow shift#but then when I asked if I'll see him tomorrow after he was telling me things that suggested he will so - he was just yes and o+<#anyways though...#B and I clicked SO well it was incredible#the moment I saw him for the first time in training - I thought how much I'd love to be his friend#and I was so delighted to find that he's actually part of this day program#I'm very excited to get to interact with B more he's so much fun!
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Ah, yes, Nelly Furtado's hit song Anteater. In completely unrelated news, several people have told me that I might be slightly dyslexic.
#shitpost hours but also this one's lowkey serious😭#I'm mostly bad with acronyms and double-letters but sometimes regular-ass words trip me up. like maneater apparently.#I can read and write just fine but stuff gets inexplicably mixed up here and there.#The bane of my existence is NDA and DNI though. they're not even that similar. idk.#actually homophones aren't- by jove! I've summoned an ant. there is an ant on my desk.#anyways homophones aren't fun either. I write things as I hear them in my mind and sometimes my brain chooses the wrong one.#I know the difference between them! It's not a lack of understanding. I know my its/it's and to/too/twos etc.#but when I try to get them down on paper something just goes wrong and I end up with the wrong one. and I KNOW it's wrong. alas.#even with super easy ones like flour and flower. obviously I know the difference but there's just a disconnect when I go to write it.#it's never been impactful enough for me to actually get it checked out but it is annoying.#if anything it impairs my ability or total lack thereof to do math over linguistic stuff but that's a whole other thing.#the ONLY way math makes sense to me is the way you'd put it into excel. i can put in horizontal stuff with brackets#but I could never do vertical math like they teach you in school.#even with a calculator. I cannot go downwards with it. my brain just doesn't compute it.#it's like reading other phonetically-similar languages as an english-only speaker.#you can recognize each individual letter (read: number) but putting them together doesn't get you very far.#you might even be able to pick out specific parts but you don't know the grammatical structures behind it.#that's how math has always felt to me.
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ok i was gonna try to write more bc i finally felt kinda motivated again but my mood has crashed fast bc i'm worried about my rat... gonna just dump the two other short things i did manage to finish out there and. idk. dissociate into the void or smth.
#she has just really suddenly lost a lot of her energy... been struggling with her balance#and now she's only really using one paw to eat and it's. distressing.#i'm afraid she might have a pituitary tumor like her sister had#things aren't as severe as suddenly as it was with her sister but it's. yeah. i'm worried.#not havin a good time rn!!!!! and sure can't afford an emergency vet visit!!!!#still gonna try bc we couldn't get her a regular appointment until next friday but akjfhds#god but i'm dreading it bc i'm so sure it'll be the same as last time. i'll have to walk out of there without her.#...i'm trying to not be so pessimistic about it but it's v hard.#idk maybe i'll feel like distracting myself w writing again later but it's been a fucking mess of a day and rn i want to just not exist#i'm fine. i'll be fine. my focus is just shot but i also didn't take my adhd meds this morning so that's sure not helping#anyway. idk. stay hydrated. look after urselves. i'm gonna probs tear my fingers further to shreds while watching yt to cope lmao#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.#i feel like i should add a cw tag but idk what so
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in a cafe rn. this place is nice :>
#just me hi#they have a lot of random old stuff in here it's fun :D#tons of books too; though most of them seem to be romance and unfortunately i've come to terms w/ the fact i'm a hater gfhsfh </3#oh and not that the old stuff is random in a new place; it's an old-looking place with a lot of old stuff that doesn't match anything else#lol ! there are some spots that are Almost uhh- the word is not coherent but it's something like it hfhvs#i've had a bisquit sanmich and a lemonade which was pretty fine. i liked the sandwich though it was a bit greasy bfsh :>#idk i'm just comfortable here. the guy running the counter might be gay and there's a bathroom sign that jokes abt gender n creatures for#them lol - it's relatively quiet too n i have a chair that's pressed against the wall w/ no windows so i don't feel like i can be snuck up#on ghfhsv. i like it here so far :D#//anywho i think i'm gonna get on my ar.ft attacks now hfhsvh#i didn't bother posting my first one this year but i'll get to that rn!! :3#i have 1 + 1/2 i gotta do - i say a half because it doesn't Technically count as an attack due to the System but ehe :33#//btw this place has a thing going on where it's Nearly symmetrical#every table is missing at least 1 chair that would make it so and if there Is an even amount of chairs they aren't the same kind#though they Are matching in colour if they aren't the same type! i like that. dunno why hfbvs#also i like how oddly everything has been placed. tables placed in a diamond form compared to the room and then others are situated like#regular tables ; i just think it's interesting lol :33#//oh and i've finished another chapter of my book ; it's taking me forever because i actually came to like it a lot n i don't want it to en#a common habit of mine hfhfsh <3#though ik it's hard to tell from the outside if i'm not doing it cuz i hate it or cuz i love it. fun for Me though hfhbshvs#//yea anyway. i like this place lol :>#gonna wander around prolly. n work on stuff hopefully :>>#i have a ~+~root beer~+~ so here i go !! toodles :D
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getting ready to leave a job and intensely regretful that I can't bring the team with me or express my feelings in any articulate way: I am....going to bake you guys so many treats.
#if you think I'm kidding you have not seen the nine tabs I have open for this weekend#I am making vegan brownies peanut butter cookies and chocolate chips.#I am making 3 regular kinds of cookies#(m&m; nutella chocolate swirl; strawberry & white chocolate)#plus s'more bars and lemon blueberry bars because that's fun#and writing everybody a nice note about how awesome they are and what they've meant to me#anyway it's fine!!! it's fine.#no wonder the company has to secretly manipulate you#tw food
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The insomnia sure is insomniaing
#text post#it's fine. I'll nap later today. this is fine#eventually I'll fix the eating and sleep schedules again#the depression pit will throw me back out again and I'll get it all fixed up#in the meantime one of the neighbours have this? device? that seems to only beep at night#at fairly regular intervals#unfortunately for them it's the most irritating selection of beeps ever and it makes my eye twitch#beep beep beep beep in ascending notes#like every three to five minutes#and it's super quiet rn so i jump whenever it goes off#it's also got that sound of. you know when ppl play the rims of water glasses?#and the sound has that particular round almost eerie tone to it?#these beeps have that too and my god it's appropriate for the Halloween month#if this was the twilight zone I'd find out it was morse code for something terrifying#like let me out or I'm in your walls or#if we get nautical with it some sort of sos like signal#bc the one going rn isn't so I'm p sure of that#anyway i need to sleep and this beeping is going to drive me mad 💚
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