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floorpancakes · 11 months ago

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what was harumakigohan cooking w i cant be a beautiful girl cause on one level it feels like peering deep into his soul and it almost explains exactly why he feels resonance with tales of sapphic youth and beautiful tragic disillusionment but on the other hand my god this song is so trans . its so trans

#either way hes a genius #the song has an underlying melancholy as they tend to do but it also feels hopeful and personal and aaaa #harumakigohan i love u ur everything i strive to be as a creative i preordered the meltychan figure she will b treasured #vocaloid #kINDA #harumakigohan actually captured my childhood so closely to reality it terrified me #i have a bond specifically to futarino that drives me crazy and helps me remember times ive begun to forget #im not sapphic and i was mistaken in my estimations at that age but i definitely experienced the full harumakigohan package in my youth #it was kind of crazy #anyway this song makes me feel a lot #like 'i wonder if you had connections in your past that made you feel this way'#and 'i wonder what stories youve experienced and why if you did feel them deeply in your soul #they became tales of sapphic adolescence and disillusionment and fate and death and love #perhaps im not one to talk as someone whos about to write a whole lot of very gay very personal fiction in my future #but i am non parasocially intrigued as to what hrmkghn experienced to lead him here to tell stories the way he does #cause if it felt visceral and real to me #im sure it felt even more so to him

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benevolenterrancy · 5 months ago

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May your hardened heart be woken By the soft and distant song Of all you left here unspoken All the shards we keep stepping on - Take this body home Take this body home Call the wind, and let her know Take this life outgrown Take this broken soul Call the stars, call them all And take it high, take it far, take it home

#svsss #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #bingqiu #sqq #lbh #scum villain #heard the song Take This Body Home by Rose Betts and it nearly took me out at the knees #it really really suits sqq's self-detonation in hua yue city right? i'm not the only one feeling this?#considered adding some literal shards for them to be stepping on - since sqq's sword explodes - but i couldn't quite make it work #anyway this has been playing like a music video in my head for the past couple days highly recommend listening to the song #if you haven't heard it before #can't get over the absolute dissonance between how sqq views this scene and how everyone else must feel about it #like to him he's just completing his plan - hopefully keeping lbh from destroying a city with energy imbalance and escaping The Plot #nbd! he and sqh have planned it all out it's FINE :) off he goes!#meanwhile everyone who loves him - including lbh who worked years to get back to him and is trying to work through a lot of grief #and resentment and doubt and longing and... - watches him DIE in FRONT OF THEM #just collapse while coughing up blood sword disintegrating energy completely consumed #like holy hell sqq could you traumatize the people around you any more???#no wonder lbh went a little bit crazy after that like my man was already not in a great place but what the fuck #lbh watches his shizun presumably sacrifice himself for him ONCE AGAIN like after he's finally Gotten Strong his shizun is STILL #coming to harm in an effort to make up for his shortcomings #my art #most of the time out here drawing what amounts to muppets and then sometimes i get the urge for this and just need to cover everyone in blo

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shroomerr · 4 months ago

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Oh, help me God, this hellboy got me coming back for more

reblogs super appreciated !!! close-ups under the cut !

#south park #south park fanart #stan marsh #shroomer's art !#shroomer's archives: south park #artists on tumblr #my ramblings + thought process starts here (warning. its a lot) vvvvvvvvvvvvvv #"heyyyyy shadowww. its mee. da devil.#the amount of eyestrain i went through while rendering this #gradient maps!!! are so fun!!! (they are not i hate them so much)#lots to improve on still. but that's for next time!#the process of making this was so arduous.... but i learned a lot i feel #(and also if i had spent any more time working on this i would have actually lost it)#BUT YIPPEEEEE HAPPY BIRTHDAY STAN MARSH THE LOSER BOY I CANT BELIEVE I FINISHED THIS ON TIME #2 days in advance too by the time the queue uploads it #anyways.... stupid loser boy stan marsh..... i found out his birthday was coming up soon #and i had this idea sitting in my head for like.... 2 weeks i think #popped up when i was listening to lexie liu's album the happy star and the song diablo came up #and i thought wait.... doesnt stan get possessed by satan at some point #and so here we are!!#I ACTUALLY RECENTLY WATCHED THE EPISODE TOO AND THE THEME OF THE SONG FIT THE THEME OF THE EPISODE CRAZY WELL AS WELL #sometimes my genius is almost frightening #anyways this emotionally sensitive animal lover boy has really grown on me over the course of the series <3 #i still havent.... finished cartman's sheet.....#the self designated deadline i gave myself of 2 weeks is coming up soon and erm. guh.#dies #this took so much effort and brainpower that needed to be allocated to my assignments.......#but its ok!!! im gonna sell this as a print!!! so its kind of!! productive!!#guh i hope this one performs well sob theres this nagging feeling i have that its not gonna do well at all #try painting some funky lighting + greyscale painting she said. it'll be fun she said.

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dizzybizz · 2 years ago

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obligatory ch40 fanart

#ollys hat didnt go with the comp :((((#i wanted to add it #i -like everyone else- have a lot of feelings about ch40 #witch hat atelier #wha #tongari boushi no atelier #tbna #qifrey #olruggio #orufrey #fanart #my art #this one reminds me of like an album cover or something- i cant remember!!! but the blackwhiteblue is reminding me of something #iirc its a jpop song?? help???#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAUURGGGh #anyways i love LOVE when yall point out details n stuff in the tags of rbs <333 #makes my entire day <333333

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lonelyzarquon · 2 months ago

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A thousand bodies piled up I never thought would be enough To show you just what I've been thinking

#a ship so good it made me edit to mcr lyrics. save me #i thought i was cooking while making the gifs but now however i have no idea what i birthed #so i send this out into the world and let you kind ppl in my phone interpret it as you wish #agatha all along #agathario #aaaedit #tvedit #marveledit #marvelgifs #agatha harkness #rio vidal #kathryn hahn #aubrey plaza #agatha x rio #mcuedit #mine #my gifs #it was the total absence of sound in agatha's death scene that brought this on btw. and ''kiss goodbye'' ofc #and i'm in a phase where i listen to bullets A LOT lately #any song is sort of a puzzle where you can take bits and read diff meanings into them i love the way it's constructed man #the text in the post i threw in the last second in relation to agatha #i mean she did send thousands of bodies rio's way... what a way to show your love girl! romance!#the hug in ep4 did feel like a goodbye actually. a sweet tender one. and then in ep8 the dramatic its-over-forever one #UGHHHH anyways #reliving-the-death-of-your-loved-one angst hits Hard when death is an entity that can manipulate time/percieves it differently #how long was the kiss + the aftermath of it in her perspective?#''i stared as this moment was held for me'' fr #(i am not okay i am rambling)#ik rice is wedding imagery but like. if you can have the kiss of death why not have the wedding of death while you're at it #ANYWAYS. UUUGHHHHHHHHHH

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wrongcaitlyn · 3 months ago

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hey guys! so. i really really really hate to do this, but i've been thinking it over for the past few weeks and i've decided that i'm going to take a short hiatus from tyt. and by SHORT i mean that i will 100% no doubt be returning to this on the first sunday of january (jan 5), and will only be taking november and december off!!

reasons for this are quite a lot, both for the benefit of the dear reader verse and my personal life! just to briefly summarize:

college app's. i really need to prioritize these, and though i'll definitely be finished by early november, it will be taking up a lot of my time

arcane. this seems like a silly reason, but i'm an editor as well as a fic writer, and i just know that the arcane s2 release will consume my brain. i want to allow myself to fully enjoy the season release and not stress about also writing a fic so that i can edit to my heart's content :)

both of those are happening in november, but in december i will be having finals and will leave for a trip for two weeks!! as we all know (*cough* my summer vacation) i am not the best at balancing both writing and vacation, and again, i don't want to stress myself out too much on what is meant to be a vacation

other fics! i still have two unfinished fics, and i'd like to finally get those done instead of having them lingering over my head for another five months lmao

but the main reason is for the overall quality of dear reader and its upcoming one-shots!!! a whole lot of stuff is about to go down in the upcoming chapters, including several one-shots that detail other parts of the universe. according to my outline, in the next five chapters of tgol, i will also be posting 4-5 one-shots in the dear reader series (yes, two of those include the pollen lore!). i want to be able to do those stories justice, and the one-shots do tend to take a longer time to write than the tgol chapters just because i'm usually writing from new pov's and outlining a whole lot of extra plot (especially in those pollen one-shots - they're going into a completely different time period and i want to be able to confidently say i've put enough time and effort into them to be proud of them! i've been hyping the pollen lore up for quite a while now and i want to do them justice!!)

so yes. that's quite a lengthy explanation lmao but i'm justifying it to myself as well because of how much i adore tgol and don't ever want to accidentally abandon it <3 rest assured that i will be using the two months to hopefully get ahead of my outline and ensure a concrete posting schedule when i return! but for now, i will obvi still be active on here (as well as insta and tiktok, if you guys are interested in arcane content) to answer asks and ramble about tyt!!!

#probably taking this too seriously lmao i've taken nearly a month off before #but it feels scary bc i've abandoned a lot of other fics due to hiatus #if i ever decide that i won't come back to this in january feel free to bully me to your heart's content i don't ever want to leave this #series abandoned!!!#it is my everything #and im sure that it'll be for the better that i won't keep rushing out chapters and one-shots...#putting enough thought into the pollen one-shot is what really pushed me to take this because i want to make sure that their story #is told as well as it can be!!#anyway i will still have tyt brainrot so send me asks and theories and song recs and everything im still fully invested in this fic #wrongcaitlyn #talk ur talk fic #who knows maybe i'll be able to write enough that i'll be able to get back to the once a week schedule....#that might just be wishful thinking though lmao

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shima-draws · 2 years ago

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Watched the MLB movie and I just. I WANT to gush about it but the fact that Marinette’s regular voice actor and her singing voice actor sound SO different just took me out of it every time and left me feeling very disengaged;; At least Adrien’s singing voice kind of sounds like his speaking voice (and Gabriel’s is 👌 bc my king Keith Silverstein can actually sing and he can sing REALLY fucking well) but Marinette’s. The voices are COMPLETELY different and it threw me off every single time. Like obviously her singing voice is really good and I understand why they picked that person to do her songs but bro you could have at least TRIED to get someone that sounds similar to Cristina Vee. It drove me nuts every time she sang bc I was like “That is CLEARLY a different person entirely!!”

I’m realizing this might have been a dubbing issue but still 😭 I feel like I would have enjoyed the movie way more if it didn’t look like Marinette was lip syncing the entire time bc there was such a huge disconnect between her speaking and singing voice

#Also I can’t fucking believe they did that to my boy Plagg. They RUINED him #He did not deserve that #Miraculous Ladybug #MLB #MLB movie #ALSO. Also. Personally. I don’t think it needed to be a musical #Bc that was very jarring in itself I was not expecting it #Since Miraculous isn’t a musical normally anyway!!#They probably could have fit in a lot more plot and made the story flow better if they took out all the songs #And replaced them with actual character development and stuff.#Idk it just feels like they tried to make it like a Disney film. And it didn’t quite fit with the story #I WILL say tho the character models were top notch. Marinette with FRECKLES?? YES PLEASE #Anyway yeah lots of thoughts but I could not take it seriously bc of the awkward voice casting #It actually ruined a lot of the movie for me :’( Again it drove me nuts lmao #Shima speaks #Idk maybe I'll watch it in French next time. Maybe I'll like it better then lol

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faaun · 6 months ago

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the way that diff languages sound r so fascinating they're all different and all so vivid

#russian is like the surface of a feather like it's light but not exactly “soft” but still very delicate #german is . cute ? i think it's adorable . it has a lot of momentum it makes u wanna talk fast and talk a lot #like it's squishy . sleek surface w a soft inside #thai is like song . it's like interprative dance or maybe a trust-fall . everything follows from the previous thing #it feels like a little fairy flying up and letting itself fall and flying up again and so on (for fun). its so beautiful but also playful #mandarin chinese is like . idk why but it gives me the same vibe the concept of Observation does . like to read and to see and absorb #and then to translate that into smth else . like . imagine a poet people watching or an artist preparing a canvas w practiced hands. thats #the vibe. soft and elegant and musical but like...in a way that feels lived-in. arabic feels wise ? like music or poetry u read #and feel nothing about then years later u stumble on and it applies to everything in ur life. that kind of vibe. like it knows more than u #and itll make sure ur heart and soul grows as big as its lexicon . polish is like snowflakes falling . it has the feeling of complexity and #elegance but it's also so so light and slippery and...maybe not elusive but the feeling of losing a dance partner in a waltz ? like fun and #light but also an underlying elegance and somberness still . turkish is like the feeling when u get a text from ur crush #and your heart tightens and you cant tell if it's really painful or really amazing . it feels like unrequited love . or a caress #or making out with someone when you know its the last time you'll see them. its beautiful in a yearning longing way #korean is like joking around w ur friends and you've stayed up until like almost 5 AM and youre so delirious that everything is funny #and ur speaking kind of lightly and openly and everything you say holds a lot of weight and doesnt matter at all. you laugh at everything #and youre practically talking in inside jokes and watching the sunrise together . one of them hits u on the shoulder lovingly. ur by a fire #yoruba feels like the metatheory of the matatheory . abstraction until it circles back to intuition or maybe #it feels like plotting the route of a comet or maybe like the soft warm whirr of statistics. trying to verbalise beauty somehow #when you know the best thing you can show it is by telling everyone just look!! look at the sky just look!#anyway yh i think i could do this for every language ever tbh

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trashcanwithsprinkles · 2 months ago

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hihi! not to pressurize you into giving it away 😭😭 but I have my curiosity about how long of a fic is jadeite ginkgo exactly. ITS NOT LIKE IM READY FOR IT TO BE FINISHED ANY TIME LONGER!!! i absolutely love and adore that fic 🫶🏽 I'm just shooked by how you plan out these long fics oml

also I would love to draw something related to jg again soon if I get the chance and time !! <33

i can only give you a rough estimate honestly bc it is a known fact that I Do Not Control The Fic Length. it just happens. so uh- i'd say at the very least ten more chapters, probably more. most likely more. watch it be longer than cyanide. i don't know man (gn)

#i hope this doesn't sound like a werid response it's just i genuinelly have no clue hahaha #believe you me i'd love to!!! i think it was in a similar ask that i mentioned the power i'd have if i could actually know like #how many chapters a fic would have with certainty #because then i could coordinate chapter titles #which i wanted to do for jadeite but i think that ship's long since sailed #once the fic is over i'll tell y'all what song i wanted the chapter titles to follow #still feels kinda spoiler-y to mention it rn #maybe it isn't but idk #anyway #the use of pressurize here instead of pressure is absolutely sending me. ik it's probably a mistake i know i make those a lot #but still. hilarious mental picture thank you #anyway aaaa sorry i can't give an actually good answer. it always happens when ppl come asking for fic lenght lmao #thank you <3 <3 <3 #ily <3

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andoutofharm · 2 years ago

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you might be thinking ‘wow you always have a lot to say about what every single song and every single album Means To You’ and the response to that is that i listen to a LOT of fall out boy and i take ALL of it personally

hope that helps

#looking back i realized i do this a lot like saying omg im an abap girl AND a mania girl AND a srar girl #or just. idk having random shit to say about what all of the 8ball songs mean To Me and .#i promise im not trying to make things About Me or whatever #i just have never been normal about anything in my life least of all fall out boy and their music #no idea if anyone actually was bothered by this but i dont want to be annoying i just Feel a lot of things about All of their music. ALL #ANYWAY. 27. what thee fuck

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snake-berry · 1 year ago

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Brienne of Tarth

ughh idk if im satisfied with how i drew this but there is a softness in her big blue eyes that i like

requests for my asoiaf portrait series r still open btw ;) i already have another portrait in the works rn bc im feeling semi motivated so yay

#brienne of tarth #lady brienne #ser brienne #valyrianscrolls #valyrian scrolls #asoiaf fanart #a song of ice and fire #house tarth #asoiaf art #asoiaf #well yeah my winter break just ended but for some reason i finally have motivation to draw again so eff uni and SEND ME REQUESTS<3 #i srsly want to drop out #anyways ignore that #brienne is another one of my gals #not sure if i made her “unattractive” enough but like tahts so subjective idk so i just tried to make her “masculine” i guess?#i feel like ive seen a lot of discourse on her appearance so im not trying to get flamed if i didnt portray her right

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deadrlngers · 29 days ago

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turns out my best friend had no idea nine inch nails existed so he listened to pretty hate machine bc of that silly video i did yesterday and his first comment after listening to the album was "i feel like the singer fucked a lot"

#rena.txt #IDK WHY THIS IS SO FUNNY TO MEEEEEEE AKDJAKDKAKDJSKFJAKFJDKF he was like 'sin is the best song i've ever heard' (disappears for an hour)#'i feel like the singer fucked a lot' ???????? IM LAUGHING SO HARD AKSKSKDKSKFKSJFJSJFKD #anyways idk how he didn't know nin since he has a way broader music knowledge than me #i need to make him listen to closer no way he never heard that one even the rocks know about it

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seilon · 10 months ago

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please don’t by k.will did more for the gays back in 2012 than any boy group can possibly do with fan service and crop tops in 2024

#do young kpoppies know about please don’t by k.will. im serious do they know #I think about it a lot #it’s impossible to replicate the feeling of being gay and watching that mv in the 2010s and just getting bodyslammed by the ending.#like he really just dropped that shit in TWENTY TWELVE #kibumblabs #to this day I think that’s the most explicitly gay mv ive seen in kpop by an established artist #(ie not holland. no shade to him but he kinda built his platform on being an openly gay artist and he’s not a big industry name or anything #which makes the impact significantly different. if that makes sense. anyway.)#like think about any other example. almost all of them can be brushed off as fan service or are at least vague enough to be #up for interpretation #please don’t’s ending is nearly fucking impossible to write off as anything but explicitly gay #no fanservice involved. no vague staring in each other’s eyes. just straight up Oh He’s Not Jealous Of His Friend He’s Jealous Of His #Friend’s Fiancé. oh #like that’s the whole point. interpreting it any other way doesn’t make sense with the impact it’s purposefully supposed to make #like seriously try to say ‘he’s just sad he’s losing his friend to marriage :(‘ or something. you have to be REAL fucking stupid or #deeply in denial to make that argument let alone believe it #anyway. I appreciate this mv a lot #k.will the OG of doomed yaoi in kpop #kill me #closest contender off the top of my head is one more day by sistar #also note I am talking about mvs here not songs in general #cause if I were talking about songs in general. key’s out there pretty much writing about gay sex at this point so I mean #k.will #kpop #only adding actual tags because I want you to watch this mv if you haven’t already

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i-dreamed-i-had-a-son · 3 months ago

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I'm sorry I can't take your call right now, I'm becoming unhinged about Transformers again,,,

#i just. man #first of all i was super into it when i was younger. optimus prime has long been a projectable (and ratchet too‚ from tfp)#but even that's like more recent. when i was SEVEN i was running around in circles to the transformers 1980 theme and re-binging the movie #(autism? what? who? where? but fr it was like a daily thing p much where me and my brothers would just lose it to that song. good ol' days)#transformers #for the search function lol. anyways back to the ramble: the obsession started young and continued throughout my teenage years #the transformers prime version was ABSOLUTELY peak and clears every time. still SO good my brothers and i binged the heck out of that too #but i don't think we ever got to watch the movie??? or maybe it was season 3??? either way i remember being like WHAT OPTIMUS IS EVIL???#and never getting resolution which i still need to do (also reminding me of clone wars...never did finish that one and still not spoiled)#anyway yeah the nintendo 3DS transformers prime game was yet another staple of my childhood. fave main was optimus obvs #but it just fills me with joy to see the resurgence in this and also makes me feel some complex emotions because it's a part of little me #and that version of me feels like so long ago...my own orion pax in a way #11-year-old me checking out giant lore books and speeding through them (i need to find this one book!! it's been years!!#it was the first transformers tome i ever read and told the story of orion pax!! and i vaguely remember the cover? but not the title! help!)#ANYway yes just feeling a lot of feelings and. i love transformers #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags #also if you're reading this: i voted and you should too!!!

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bajablast666 · 16 days ago

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Come on slowly Wind me up 'til it's all slow motion Promises for me and me only Turn me into a walking shadow If I ever let go . Getting Stronger I can't see straight, but it's no problem Just sleepwalk 'til I find the daylight Take away all I ever wanted If I ever let go

#songs is Blood's on Fire by VOWWS and it's the vibes #man I have a lot of feelings about Kelrath being daddy's perfect weapon but still falling to madness #And Bhaal just using him and using him until there's quite literally nothing left and then discarding him #makes me go absolutely feral #anyway another excuse to draw messy haired Kelrath #Kelrath #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #durge #durge band au #aster art

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camgoloud · 10 months ago

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you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔#the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’#and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃#i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc.#it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person…#caseyposting

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