#anyway thanks for reading :hug:

[youredyingthatsallthereis]

frenzy

t4t roachghost, bloodborne au, roach sits on ghosts face, face fucking, tdick fucking, roach puts ghost in a mating press and leaves it in, porn with absolute zero plot, this was just an excuse to write t4t sex

also posted on my AO3 <3

word count: 1480

roach had barely been home for thirty seconds before the front door suddenly flew open and slammed shut again, announcing ghosts abrupt return home. roach had been just about to start cleaning the blood and viscera out of the serrated edges of his threaded cane but one look at ghosts face told him that that was going to have to wait.

"back already?" roach questioned, knowing that he wasnt going to get a real answer. he could see in ghosts eyes that he was too distracted and focused on one thing; he practically threw his tonitrus and pistol onto the table and put his newly freed hands on roach's bare chest, gloved fingertips leaving contrastingly clean streaks in the gore and filth all over roach's exposed torso.

"killed one too many again, have you?" he asked softly, carefully removing ghost's hat and gently placing it next to his weapons. ghost had been getting like this more and more lately; overly vicious and murderous during hunts and leaving himself half cut and almost crazed after, coming home needy and wanting wanting /wanting/ -

"please," was all ghost said, voice low and quietly desperate. roach pulled down his mask before delicately pulling off his own blood-caked gloves and tossing them to the side, starkly clean hands moving to cup ghosts red-stained cheeks and tilting his face up for a soft kiss.

roach kept it sweet for a moment, wanting to test ghost's patience a little; the other hunter's fingertips digging into his exposed shoulders almost immediately indicated that it was already worn very, very thin.

"nasty," he chuckled as ghost pulled back just enough to start licking and kissing at the blood and filth on his upper chest. "you want me to fuck you right here on the kitchen table? or shall i be a gentleman and take you to bed?"

ghost kissed him hard and hungry in response, licking the taste of the hunt into his mouth. "we haven't been gentleman for a long, long time gary," he barely managed to get out between kisses. roach had to chuckle.

"be that as it may, your back will thank me tomorrow for insisting," he countered, stepping backwards towards their bedroom and pulling ghost along by the lapels of his jacket. "we aren't beasts."

he led ghost to their slightly-too-small-for-two-grown-men bed and gently pushed him back to sit down on it, watching as his lover frantically shucked off his filthy coat and gloves before practically tearing off his stained shirt. roach unlaced his boots and kicked them off as he undid his belt, letting his trousers and pants fall to his ankles.

ghost barely gave him a chance to spread himself open before he had roach by the hips, fingers just straddling the line where the violence spattered across roach's torso had been stopped by the waistband of his trousers, and was pulling him to hastily sit on his face as he threw himself back onto the bed.

roach wanted to take it slow but ghost's feral enthusiasm made it feel impossible; he had roach's tdick wrapped up in his lips and tongue so quickly that roach could barely control this hips rocking forward to push it in deeper as fast as possible. ghost was always like this when he wanted to be facefucked; fast and desperate and demanding and roach always loved every second of it.

he snaked one hand under ghosts head and braced the other against the wall, rutting hard and fast against his tongue until he could see stars when he closed his eyes. he let out a whiny gasp when ghost grabbed his ass, hard and tight, to keep him fucked deep enough into his mouth that he could slide his tongue down towards roach's hole, the tip just swiping over the top edge of it. roach felt a peak coming on way too quickly, the latent frenzied tension that had been building in him all night while he hunted ready to burst out of him already -

"that's it, fuck that's it, don't stop, fuck i can't hold it - "

with a few more shallow thrusts he was cumming, ghost moaning into his cunt and sucking up as much as he could while roach shook and throbbed, hand still gripping ghost's head tightly up against him. when he finally let go to let ghost catch his breath, the other hunter barely paused for a second before sucking roach's oversensitive dick back into his mouth.

"fuck, simon," roach breathed, lids fluttering shut while he full-body shivered at the overstimulation. "starvin' for it, huh?"

he got a long, greedy lick from his hole to the tip of his cock in response, and when he finally managed to look back down found ghost looking back up at him with feverish intensity.

"get your bottoms off then," roach said, shuffling back down from ghost's face to his waist. ghost wiggled and shimmied his trousers and pants off while roach backed up enough to give him more space, taking a moment to look down at the blood smeared on the inside of his thighs from ghost's cheeks.

"roach," ghost whined, pulling the hunter out of his imaginings of how brutally ghost must have been killing for his face to have gotten so dirty. he looked at ghosts spread legs and traced two fingers along his cunt, letting saliva pool in his mouth for a moment before leaning down for an open mouthed, sloppy kiss to get his pussy good and wet. ghost writhed and scrabbled at the pillow on either side of his head, impatient for roach to keep going.

roach let him buck his hips up into his mouth for a moment, savoring the taste of ghost's ardent hard work, moaning into his cunt as it mixed with the filthy flavor his kisses had left behind earlier. he got lost in it for a moment, head spinning as ghost's unrestrained lust seeped into him, until ghost was grabbing him by the scalp and pulling him up into a harsh kiss, wrapping his legs around roach's waist and gasping into his mouth as their cocks frotted together.

"you really aren't a gentleman, are you" roach said between frantic kisses. "so shameless and beautiful in all your wanting."

ghost's legs tightened around his hips at the sweet talking and praise, pushing his pelvis up harder to get more friction between them.

"go on then, love, take it. take what you want. don't be ashamed." he knew ghost never was, but couldn't resist giving him the extra nudge.

he was glad for it; ghost took the words and with a deep drag along roach's torso, gathered up the blood and gore off him and rubbed it slow and hard over their cocks, throwing back his head and moaning hard at the extra slickness. roach groaned and rocked his tcock, now extra slippery, along the bottom of ghosts, reaching down and spreading his pussy wider to get himself deeper into his hole.

"fuck me, please please fuck me, pleeeease - "

roach quickly got his hands on the backs of ghosts thighs and shoved them back, leaning forward to fold him in half and get his hands under ghost's lower back, pussy totally exposed to grind against.

"FUCK, just like that," ghost shouted, death gripping the pillow and rocking up against roach for more.

"anything," roach panted into his mouth, letting their lips brush over each others with every thrust. "you know its always anything you want."

ghost's whining steadily increased in volume as roach started to move faster, fucking into him as hard as he could, ghost barely above a whisper saying "that's it, come on bug i know you can get off inside me, come on leave it in, leave it all inside me - "

roach choked out a gasp while ghost licked over his tongue, closing his eyes to better take in every bit of sensation, the wet heat of their tongues together, the blood slick slide of their cocks together, electricity building up sharp and fast in his lower abdomen with every syllable ghost let roll off his tongue onto roach's -

he thrust in and held it there, a clipped howl wrung out of his chest as he climaxed, ghost inhaling every desperate sound like it was bringing him back to life, back to his sanity, hand on his own cock to work himself up until he was biting down hard on roach's lower lip and cumming, long and steady, pulsing against roach while he continued to weakly frot their oversensitive cocks together as much as he could stand to.

finally, ghost loosed his jaws and let roach go, licking the bit of blood he'd drawn.

"even *my* blood, hm?" roach said softly, giving him a gentle kiss.

"the taste of you," ghost managed between heaving, steadying inhales, "is the closest to heaven i'm ever gonna get."

[waterfallofspace]

Feeling sad and lonely? Like you don't have a purpose in life, and no one cares about you?

No more! Starting today, instead of sitting around feeling sad, try Thinking About Your Favourite Fictional Characters Sneezing!

Not sure what to do with your life? Your blorbo stifling an allergy fit!

Lonely and craving human connection? Your lil guy getting induced by a kink!partner!

The days and nights seem to move by in an ever-flowing passage of time that you're just swept along in? They have a sneezy cold and need to be taken care of!

Instead of Sad, try Sneeze instead!

[Available wherever your brain will be merciful and let you dissociate, results may vary, use with caution, side effects may include: h*rny thoughts, snz headcanons, craving more canon snz, and the eventual & inevitable loneliness returning as you realize they are still fictional]

[bangchansbackohmygod]

MTL for Dry Humping: SKZ Edition

-Most-

Han: Nasty Boy. Freak in the sheets. Desperate slut. "Hannie, not when other people can see!" "Han, wait until the movie is over-" "JISUNG. GIVE ME TWO SECONDS TO GET OFF MY PANTS" He ain't listening, babygirl! He wants you bad and he wants you now, so unless you're gonna use a judo move to swing him over your shoulder, the first time the two of you orgasm per sexy time is dry humping without fail. He's still a nice boy so if you were ever actually upset he'd let you go without hesitation, but let's be honest, your complaints don't hold much weight when you start panting as soon as he starts grinding his hips against you.

Changbin: Post gym sex! Post gym sex! He's sweaty and he's full of adrenaline and he isn't gonna try and pull off his sticky gear when he can get some relief from your supple curves right now! You should start working out with him because otherwise he'll be coming home and getting sweat (and drool and ***) all over your cute pajamas. Bucks against you extra hard if you stroke his muscles and praise him for how hard he's been working. Worship all of him because he's going to be doing the same to you.

Lee Know: His favorite thing- withholding as much as he can while giving you just enough to make sure you fall over the edge. He wants to hear you whimper and cry about how much you want him to touch you, how much you want him inside you, while all he does is drag your hips up and down his lap. Coos sweet poison in your ear as he feels your dampness growing, his glittering eyes betraying none of the frenzy he feels underneath. The act itself doesn't do much for him, it just turns him on like nothing else to watch you shudder through a climax that he barely put in work to give you. He's mean and he's going to make sure you enjoy every second of it.

Jeongin: Cute little puppy boy, so embarrassed at how often he wants you. Like I’ve previously stated, I feel like his mind gets a bit fuzzy when he’s in the throes of passion. That sweet, fumbling, wonderful personal time that he wants to give his best for you in. Of course, when he trips on his way to the bed, pinning you down with his full weight and failing to unbutton your jeans, his plans to bring you to deliberate ecstasy with his fingers is traded for rutting against you like a beast without a thought. It’s how you like your baby best, eyes watery and cheeks red as he apologizes for taking what he wanted (which, of course, is what you wanted)

Felix: Our gentle jack-of-all-trades, he's much more dependent on your preferences and so he'll be doing this only upon request. When he does, he prefers to have you perched on his lap. His princess, all pretty in your lacy little negligee. He wants to be strong for you in a way that he doesn’t usually show. His forehead resting against yours as he softly talks you through it between his own low groans, his hands alternating between your thighs, hips, and waist as he finds the perfect pace. Kiss him slow and kiss him deep, in this moment he is completely and utterly yours.

Chan: He may like to tease, but he likes giving you what you want even more. You're so good to him, and he just wants to reward that goodness, yeah? So it’s not like he doesn’t enjoy…*ahem* holding himself against you, he just has trouble keeping himself from doing more. That whine you make when you can feel his excitement against your thigh, it just makes him want to dip his fingers inside you as a taste of what’s to come. Or to hook your legs over his shoulders so he can literally taste the nectar flowing out of you. He’s not an impatient man, but for you? Anything short of ravishing you is a waste of his time.

Seungmin: With a mix of a lower libido and a general air that he's used to the finer things, I just feel like it'd be rare for him. He likes his privacy and he likes getting his way, so despite his age he isn't gonna act like some horny teenager when it comes to sex. When it's time, it's time, and while he won't be mean about it like Minho, he won't budge an inch on getting you both your full satisfaction. Funnily enough, the only times he'll offer it up is when you least expect it. He thinks it's funny to catch you off your guard, pressing you against an alleyway wall and asking if you want to get off on his thigh now or not get off that way for the rest of the year.

Hyunjin: What's that you say? Hyunjin can't possibly be the least? What about his signature elegant laziness in his dance style? What about the Red Lights MV? Surely he's kinky enough for this?! Well guess what, you're wrong! I consulted the cards and they told me he'd absolutely never dry hump you because he's too much of a brat. He's not gonna settle for your shorts when he could be buried in your tight hot wetness. He's gonna throw a very pretty tantrum if you grind on him for more than thirty seconds without moving to undress. He's poetry in motion, all limbs and lips and sensuality- what makes you think he's gonna waste his lovemaking time on anything other than direct contact?

-Least-

(Anyway hi kids I'm back from the dead have a post I love you all)

[jackslocket]

I GUESS THAT'S HOW ITS DONE!

[elizakai]

do you guys ever have multiple projects or tasks you need to finish and have been putting off but the demotivation/depressive wave hits like a truck whenever you think about it? so you either can’t work on anything else out of stress, or you work on everything else out of a need to justify your own inability to do the original task?

ANYONE??? SOBBBBBB

[froggieco]

Some controversial thoughts about the Peachyville Horror

I've been seeing how everyone is reacting to Francis's moment in the bathroom in this latest episode (episode 7) and I thought I might as well add one more.

Francis is someone who is mentally unstable, yes. I think this is something we can all agree with. He's surrounded by people who seem to either enable his actions in one way or another or they're on a list of people he keeps which we can only assume is something like a hit list. He's been looked down on by his parents, bullied by his peers, and generally just beat down by everyone around him including himself at this point. Then he won that trophy. That's where everything shifts. He's the one to take it home and it's obvious that by how Will was describing that trophy, something about it had negative energy.

⚠️Now I get into some gory details in this next part so fair warning ⚠️

Now, Francis had his dream and suddenly became violent to an extent that he would joke about it and people would feel threatened. Relistening to episode 5, he threatened a man after scooping his eyes out with an ice cream scoop by kicking him in the balls and then grabbing his eyeballs and threatening to squeeze them. Now, I get it this is a horror comedy podcast but if we are gonna analyze a character I'm taking everything into account and really this is the first and really an extremely violent thing for a person to do, especially when this is the first actions he's been known to take.

Getting the gun and instantly he seemed to know exactly what he "needed" to do. On a dime, the Francis we knew just a few episodes ago was already so different.

Now that brings us to the bathroom scene. People have been saying it was a mental "snap" or "break" which doesn't line up, like how most others have pointed out that this was something that was premeditated. He planned out this whole thing and followed through with it. And to those who think he did this so Shane wouldn't bother him anymore, he didn't see Francis at all through the whole attack, which yes, Francis could go back and claim he did it but I still this it's important to note we don't know if Shane will believe him.

That being said, with every increasingly violent act that Francis had done up to that point it made sense within the confines of his world. It was in his character that things have played out this way so far. And really I think it's going to make for a really interesting character arc. He isn't going to to be a character that we have seen before, which when we just had a season of teens that were just coming into themselves Anthony is getting his chance to get his character in, and it is a horror series. This doesn't make any of the actions acceptable by any means and this should not encourage people to romanticize any of the actions he does. There is a way to like a character and not romanticize their actions, some of these posts remind me of posts of people romanticizing real murderers and shooters, which is rather disturbing.

TLDR

Francis suddenly got violent after bringing the trophy home, having a dream after being under his teacher's bed for 4 hours, and now he's suddenly he's on a bloody rampage and those around him are either enablers or in his line of fire and that's an interesting new character to think about. But don't romanticize that shit.

Extra

• Another idea I saw floating around was that Francis got switched with his reflection in the trophy, which I love the idea of this one. It can keep the idea of mental health slightly but it brings the story back into it. But, I understand that even without evil trophies, people like Francis exist in our world.

• Also having him practice with his bully's face as the target was really the warning. I personally didn't know the scene was going to be that graphic but now looking back I get the horror side of the podcast now. As someone who lives in America it was something that shocked me the first time listening to it, knowing that the usual stuff that the guys bring up I can laugh off. This scene most definitely felt different and I'm sure that it's going to be a huge turning point for a lot of things.

[murdleandmarot]

lovely flower, slowly bloom, paint yourself with shades of blue 💙💙💙

[youredyingthatsallthereis]

sweet tooth part four is up - JAWBREAKER! come get yalls soapghostroach :* (screenshot is also a link!)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62839348

[apologetic-artist]

HELLO APOLO I'm here to kind of just say "HOW ARE YOU" but also just take a moment to stop by to ask if you'd like to ramble about anything at all? Even if you'd like to talk about a favorite song! Or maybe a favorite tv show! Fandom! ANYTHING THAT MIGHT BE ON YOUR MIND.. I also enjoy learning about hobbies/interests others have! You always make such cool things and post about interesting places you go even if you want to share anything about that I'm all open to hear about it!! Anyways in general I love you VERY MUCH. You mean a lot to me and I hope you're taking very good care of yourself! Remember that self care is very important!

HI DOLL!!!

Sorry it took me a lil to respond. I had to figure out what I wanted to say, plus I was eating. I might as well touch on my trips that I do! A couple of things I've done were the children's museum I did today, a haunted house place, I'm going to a fossil and gem shop next week, and SO many other things. With all these experiences, I feel like I may go towards the path of geology! Since I love both fossils and ROCKS. Maybe even being an educator(?) of some kind.

Okay, now for an actual thing to talk about, again, it's hard to pick what to talk about despite loving to talk. I've already talked about dinos a lot, uhmm, I've mentioned basic premise of my OCs, uhhhhhh, I could talk about my DHMIS AU?? OH!! I KNOW!! I CAN TALK ABOUT THE DEATH SYSTEM IN MY AU!!! Trust, this is actually interesting(in my head) and one of my favorite things I've developed.

So, in the cycle, nobody can actually die. However, during the start of Lesley's Takeover/Midway through Clayhill, the TV teachers were created to spark more life into the town, which includes Corvus(Coffin). Lesley felt like it would give the others an answer of how death works and, I guess?, make a more calming situation. Even if the teachers can't die, they can feel immense amounts of pain. Corvus can take away that pain by just easily taking their hand and leading them to rest. The "Afterlife" is just a separate area closed off to all unless their "dead" or if Corvus allows them to. Everyone has a rest room to themselves, usually based around a calming memory to allow one to relax. For example, Tony's is his childhood bedroom, Shrignold's is modeled off of clouds and a field, any of the Health Band's is modeled off their old kitchen they used to own, so on so forth. Also, I wanna mention a "special case" of the rooms with Colin. He doesn't have a lot of good memories that he can return to to remind himself that everything will be alright so, with some help, he built his own room of his ideal place to relax and reset in. The others can use these rooms after "death" to either fully rest or recollect themselves before moving back to "living". There are also some special occasions where Corvus will allow someone to go rest in one of the rooms depending on the circumstances, like if someone was overwhelmed and can't find another place to hide. I feel like Corvus is a pretty understanding and laid-back person most of the time, being sure to allow anyone to use the rooms as needed or help people through things. I view him as a part of the "Therapist Friends" group. There are many people apart of this, but they all take care of different things and whatnot. Anyways, I feel like with this "death system" that Lesley created, it allows the teachers to feel a bit more human in a sense since their lives were practically taken away from them(again, mentioned this before, specifically the YT series teachers). Lesley is trying to fix what Roy did wrong, even if it isn't a true system. The teachers have tried every way of escape, and just Lesley adding something new there at least brings relief knowing that something is different. WHICH MAKES ME REMEMBER HOW THE MAIN THREE(Duck, Yellow, Red) SOMEWHAT ESCAPED!!! MAYBE LESLEY SET UP A LOOP SYSTEM THAT ESCAPE CAN'T BE TRUE BUT THERE'S AT LEAST SOMETHING THERE!! HOLY SHIT!! Sorry, I apologize, I completely forgot that some form of escape happens in the show and(in my opinion) fits so well.

Okay, that was another long ramble, and I'm glad you don't mind my long rambles bc I can just go on and on with no stop. I feel out of breath lol BUT I'm glad you're curious on what I have to talk about hehehe. I genuinely REALLY enjoy talking and talking about things that I'm interested in while people are also interested! Sometimes I feel like my rambles are a little incoherent because it's a little like how I talk irl by just continuing to speak but back track after to review and refresh. So, having you or anyone ask me to talk about anything I want, it helps me practice regaining my thoughts and make it somewhat followable. Thank you so so so SO much for stopping by and allowing me to speak about whatever. I love ya too Doll!! And I care about you too <3

[katsy-kitty]

I'm having a strong belief based on nothing but my own conviction that this weekend I'll finally respond to everyone here and irl that I've been neglecting because I've been feeling overwhelmed for no particular reason.

Have faith in me, please. I need it.

[catchmewjsn]

i want to wish everyone the best time these left 2024 days, hope you had a good time during Christmas/Holidays and that you have a really really the best 2025 🩷

[campirebitesarchive]

yea sure ok everything sucks but I just made myself a little lunch for tomorrow in my little bento box sooo… checkmate

[depresseddepot]

It's been so long since I've read anything kingkiller chronicles related but the narrow road between desires was so unexpectedly emotional and sweet

[kenobster]

Hey - just wanted to send a note after your last post bc I didn't interact with your Vader mpreg posts and wanted to explain why ,- it's not at all because I find you grotesque or any of those other terrible things!! I love your writing, I'm just in an Obi-Wan whump hyperfixation rn and scroll past anything that doesn't mention him 😭 I'm so sorry, it was never my intention to dig up any bad thoughts!! Sending you hugs ❤️

Hey friendo ❤️ Thanks for the ask and for sharing your feelings with me! I'm super grateful for your reassurance, you are very kind. I also really want you and everyone else to understand that y'all did absolutely nothing wrong. (Radiates huge hug energy for everyone!)

Like, I have scrolled past many a post without interacting with it. Sometimes I've even scrolled past posts that I want to interact with but am simply having a bout of executive dysfunction for whatever reason. There've also been many, many, many times (practically every time honestly) in which I do not reach the end of my dash by the end of the day and countless posts are lost to the whims of time because of it. And yeah, people will try to make us feel guilty for that. People who are hurting will especially try to make us feel guilty for that. There is post after post after post after post on this website demonizing people who don't comment or reblog for "ruining fandom." But those posts aren't being fair. Those posts are just coming from people who are hurting.

The truth is that life just be like this sometimes.

Regarding the other thing you said, I am well aware people follow me for a variety of interests! I know that not everyone shares my interest in horrifying atrocities against trainwreck villains, and that's fabulously okay with me. :) I like having differing dimensions and moods and places to exist. It's good for rainy days like today! And I'm very grateful that my broad spectrum of interests doesn't stop you from enjoying the things I post that you are interested in; that makes me incredibly relieved to hear!!

But yeah, so an interaction with a post about, say, Every Shadow isn't an interaction stolen from Vader's uterus. At least, not in my mind. It's true that I may be having feelings right now that are first affecting my ability to work on tamer/more popular interests -- but that doesn't mean I've forgotten every single wonderful person who has conveyed enjoyment of those interests! To the contrary, those people (you included!) make very happy and will continue to make me happy and have no bearing on my sad feelings in any way whatsoever. I enjoy asks about shadow AU and reblogs of Every Shadow chapters and likes of my dumb hot takes just as much today as I will next week and as I did last year. Yo, yesterday, someone even commented on one of the first Loki fanfics I ever wrote (back in 2014!), and even that gave me pure and utter joy. Believe it or not, there's no possible interaction any single one of you could have with me that could dig up bad thoughts or otherwise hurt me. So please don't ever feel like my sad feelings are reflective of anything anyone did or didn't do. <3

My sad feelings are a Me Problem, not a fandom problem. And sometimes Me Problems are nobody's fault. Sometimes people feel bad or need to take steps to preserve their mental health, and it's only the fault of some stupid brain chemicals trained to cause certain illogical reactions. But I'm gonna be fine, anon, so you keep being you. :)

[halforcdad]

I watched POI when it already finished airing so whenever I see someone said they watched it when it was still airing I went

Oh honey

Oh dear

Oh sweetie

You watched it live?? You watched 5x10 live?? Not knowing whats going to happen??? *Give you a hug*

I already know what was coming and still that episode left me heart broken just shattered emotionally (which is to say, also, that good writing can still make an impact even when the audience knows what's going to happen so take notes Marvel)

On another note, the 4x11 self-sacrifice lives in my head rent-free. "If you die die for something that you love" and "i'm a sociopath i dont have feelings" then she goes and kisses Root and saves them all I am on the floor bawling

the funny part is i saw bts photos from the finale that showed root and reese together and i naively thought, 'ok cool they still might die, but at least they survive until the end' and the writers really said Lol. but considering the type of show it was (and what happened to carter) and how dire things were going in s4-s5 i kinda prepared for character deaths leading up to the season. it left me numb and sad for a while, but i dont remember being extremely devastated about it. all the stuff we got with shaw dealing with it afterwards, however, that shit hurt bad. and unfortunately i love angst a lot (the writers were very good at writing sad stuff!)

my main complaint is that the death was so sudden and kinda anticlimatic (but i guess there has to be one of those to further stress how much their backs were against the wall). everyone else in the show gets a poetic death/sacrifice scene and in carter's case, at least she was killed by a significant villain in her arc and we're allowed to really feel the pain and consequences of her death, root gets taken out by a guy who started the job like two weeks ago and no time to mourn bc we're in a war Lol (and they had to rub salt in the wounds by showing us her for-sure dead body and telling us samaritan dug it up to get her implant, which while realistic, was brutal).

i feel like a lot of people talk about it as one of the worst writing decisions, but i can see why they chose to keep root's fate the same. yes, it sucked to losing a wlw character (especially when that was so close to clexa, if im not getting my times wrong), but i don't believe lgbt media should only be happy, soft stuff and that lgbt characters should be plot armor protected always. i still found a lot of meaning and emotion in the ending we got with shaw carrying on the work her team left behind with the machine and having some small piece of root to hold on to (and shaw being the only one next to fusco who never really had a lot of direct contact with the machine, getting the chance now to work closely with it and understand root more maybe that way). the show was always dealing with death/loss and grief and emphasizing how people still leave significant legacies behind and stay with us even if it's just the influence and impact they left on their surviving loved ones. i would still prefer if it had ended differently, but at least I could understand the message they were going for.

ill never stop loving 4x11 it's genuinely one of my favorite tv episodes ever. poi was very good at normalising shaw's apd and everything they did with shaw and especially what they did in the aftermath of that episode ripped me to shreds (her telling simulation root that she was her safe place and then telling real root she'd rather die than get them all killed, that made me totally normal). shaw getting the big emotional, meaningful moments in 4x11 (in the machine's simulation when she shows root one last act of kindness with 'maybe someday', the subway scene with the bomber, and of course the ending scene) was so important and well done. and root's slow-moed reactions at the end were gut-wrenching i must have rewatched that scene maybe 1000 times.

[reflectionsofgalaxies]

fuck I ran out of space in the tags so now I’m writing up here.

anyway. poem about the feeling of loss that comes with not being able to reminisce about a person, place, or relationship because no one left in your life shares those memories, and sharing it with someone new just isn’t the same.

putting ‘ personal ’ up here in hopes i can find this post again since it won’t fit in the tags