#if u read this far I am giving a big hug

[campirebitesarchive]

yea sure ok everything sucks but I just made myself a little lunch for tomorrow in my little bento box sooo… checkmate

[anakinstwinklebunny]

hey queen i love ur writing!!! i was just wondering if you’d be down to write anymore dad!sam monroe stuff? i read ur last one and i loved it! it’s so rare to find sam stuff, let alone him as a dad el oh el 🙋‍♀️ if not it’s rlly cool ! i’m a big fan of u diva 💜

Author's note: now that's a really sweet message. I HAVE FANS OH MY AND I AM A DIVAAAAAA (instantly have Beyonce song in mind that existence i found out from tik tok)

TW: sam being a dad (lmao)

Dad!Sam who definitely got at least (and at frist) being yelled at by his mother after she found out you're pregnant and sam's going to be a father! But from the beginning she was all supportive and willing to help you

Dad!Sam who got that hardened, sometimes distant look, but when it comes to his kid? Pure, over-the-top, protective dad mode. He might be rough around the edges but the second his baby is involved, you and everyone can see this warmth in his eyes.

Dad!Sam who's definitely the kind of dad to insult every other kid but not his cute angel. He'd also give this pure 'dad look' whenever someone wants to mess with his kid

Dad!Sam who's the type to stay up late, laying on his son's bed, the little one cuddled to his side and (depends on the age) babbling/lisping about his day or anything he has in mind. Although Sam is not great with giving adive, hell, he often doesn't want to do this (out of his experience in life - or his lack of confidence to be in position to give such) yet he'll try to be honest, in the kidness way possible for SAM MONROE, saying something like - "life's tough, but you're tougher than anything out there" in such gentle whisper

Dad!Sam who became such a cuddly bear with his son. Often he'll just scoop him up and hug him close, inhaling the toddler's soft hair and pressing a light kiss there. Or sometimes he forgets to tuck his baby boy in his bed because bed time is already over and his mother (or you) have to wake him up, the teenager that's all cudled under a blanket with his twin, only for sam to blink blindly as curse under his nose without thinking

Dad!Sam who, after building a house with his father, started loving those little projects for his kid - whenever it was fixing a bike, or building a treehouse, a swing in the garden, he cherished it.

Dad!Sam who definitely called his son "kid"/"kiddo"/"buddy"/"little man"/"little guy"/"sam junior" (although your son was far from being named sam)

Dad!Sam who may seem like a guy who won't take responsibilty for his child, especially in that young age and with problems he had dealt with, but sam wasn't such bastard. He was extremely present in his son's life and wouldn't miss any of his big or little achievements, So, your pregnancy really did mature him

Dad!Sam who has no idea how to cook but tries his damn best, especially when his mother tried to teach him some recipes. But, Sam being Sam, burns most of the food - especially pancakes that your son loves. "this can't be that hard, right?" he'll mumble under his breath when yet another pancake turned out to be crispy

Dad!Sam who's not exactly 'the father of the year' material but he swears he's doing his best. He might not know how to do all the "kid" stuff, but he'll squat down to his son's eye level, ruffle his hair and try to figure things out on the spot. There's this tough softness to him, the way he tries to talk to his son seriously, like the little guy gets it all, even if half the time he's just babbling back at him

Dad!Sam who isn't one for lullabies, but he'll sit by his son's bed in the middle of the night and again sam being sam, humming soft rock tunes while letting the boy hold onto his hand if he can't sleep or had a nightmare

Dad!Sam who doesn't mind his boy clinging to his leg or, when sam's sitting on the floor, the little guy clambering all over him, especially pushing himself under sam's arm so he'd hug him

Dad!Sam who tries to hide this gentlesness he has but it's clear it doesn't work whenever he'll fix the boy's shirt, or very gently dress him up, softly talking to the boy random things or when he brushes crumbs off his son's chubby cheeks

Dad!Sam who's obviously having this proud dad face when he sees his boy taking first steps with you. And when the giggling toddler will land on him, he'll just catch him, murmuring "now look at you, becoming a big guy already..wow"

Dad!Sam who's natural when it comes to showing his son simple things, like picking up sticks or skipping rocks. It's quiet, no big lessons needed, just Sam kneeling down, guiding his son's tiny hands and watching with that rare grin when he actually gets it right "just like that buddy" he'll say, pride in his voice as he watches his kid grope all over the tecture of rock. It's just two of them sitting by the lake like it's the most important thing in the world, while you are in the background with both his family and yours

Dad!Sam who every night, does that little routine, where he tucks his boy in, his big hands gently patting the blanket down. He'll smooth back his kid's hair, fingers lingering just a second longer, and whisper "goodnight, pal" his son reaches up, as usually, fingers trying to grab at his dad's shirt. So sam stays till those cute little fingers go slack, and when the little guy is all asleep, sam will kiss his forehead a few times

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[000-pawz]

I NEEEED MORE DAD BONEDO HEADCANONS THEY ARE SO SILLY

OKAY OKAY (more under the cut cause i got carried away HELP) also this is my new universe guys so if u see more dad bnd posts, THIS IS THE REFERENCE I LOVE DAD BND

sungho

⭐ sungho girl dad agenda! no arguments!!! i also think sungho would have the most kids for some reason??? maybe 3? elementary age twins and then a baby (i will hold on to this for as long as i live)

⭐ he always wears the baby harness everywhere he goes

⭐ brings all the snacks to every single game. he's the cooler dad with all the caprisuns and cheese sticks

⭐ wakes up super early to make breakfast for everyone and pack lunches

⭐ helps his kids with all their homework and art projects. if his daughter shows up in your doorway in the middle of the night saying they forgot they had a project due tomorrow, he will run to the store at 1 am to buy glue sticks and cardstock to make sure his baby has a project to show for tomorrow

⭐ can be a little overprotective, but he just wants his babies to be safe!!! always reminds his kids that he'll come running whenever they need him

riwoo

⭐ i think riwoo would be a toddler boy dad!!! literally like an even minier riwoo

⭐ when his son was a newborn, he spent most of his time doing skin to skin contact, just soaking up the new feelings of being a father

⭐ supports his kid through EVERYTHING like if he wants to dress up as a pretty princess, he'd buying two tutus on his way home

⭐ very gentle with his disciplining. if his son draws on the wall, he'll show him how to clean it up and then softly explain why it's bad!

⭐ has a hard time saying no and WILL give his kid cake for breakfast if he asks

⭐ loves loves loves cuddling while watching animated movies, sharing a big blanket and snacks with his baby <333

jaehyun

⭐ girl dad to two girls!!! they're a year or two apart

⭐ #1 family guy and the leader of the neighborhood dad group chat

⭐ spoils them so so so so much!!! you literally have to tell him to stop buying them new clothes every other day because you're running out of closet space ><

⭐ shows off his kids to EVERYONE and always adds "they look just like their mama <3" with the biggest smile on his face

⭐ organizes all the barbeques and picnics, invites all the kids in the neighborhood (yes, even sungho's gremlin twins)

⭐ cries every time his kids make him a gift and gives them the biggest hug ever

⭐ also cries on every single birthday because why are they growing up so fast!!!!

taesan

⭐ i see taesan as a girl dad tbh </3 he'd probably only have one daughter too

⭐ reads his kid the most outrageous bedtime stories like why are you reading "1984" by george orwell to a four-year-old

⭐ would let his daughter record a silly intro for one of his songs and show her how he makes music

⭐ takes soooo many pictures of his daughter, like half of his camera roll is his daughter and the other half is you

⭐ his daughter always has the best outfits!!! would love matching outfits too

⭐ i think his daughter would subtly adopt his opinionated nature and then he would be confused as to why she's so sassy and opinionated >< the apple doesn't fall far from the tree taesan

leehan

⭐ boy and girl dada!!! <333 i think the girl would be older too?

⭐ is super annoying during drop-off and probably yells out the window how much he loves them just to embarrass them a bit

⭐ lets his kids do the most random things to his hair... you'll come home and leehan will have a head full of bows, cars, and stickers (you have to help him get the knots out later that night)

⭐ the easiest dad to talk to ever. never gets upset at his kids for confiding in him and always gives them the best advice

⭐ falls asleep in one of the kid's beds every night because putting them to bed is the most exhausting task ever

⭐ teaches his kids how to care for fish and lets them redecorate the take every now and then

⭐ takes his kids on random trips to aquariums, parks, museums (and no, he never asks for permission from you so you always find out in the most random ways, like your son showing you his new shark plushie from the gift shop)

[raz-writes-the-thing]

sir i require

more crowley reader fLUFF

FROM U

please

try this on for size

Paper Boat

Crowley x reader fluff

"My, you do look absolutely ravishing, my dear," Crowley smirks, eyeing you up and down.

You blink, looking down at your ratty slippers and half-worn-to-death robe. "I am?"

Crowley crinkles his nose, yellow snake eyes peeking over the rim of his sunglasses. "Would I... lie... to you?"

You think you'll just skip over the fact that he's a demon who most definitely, by nature, lie to you. You wrap the robe around you a little tighter, suddenly aware of how underdressed you are in comparison. Always slathered in style, Crowley was.

"What do you want, Crowley?"

"Oh, don't be like that, darling-" he rocks back on his heels, eyes sliding back behind the frames. "I can't compliment my favourite mortal?"

You squint your eyes at him as his grin grows wider. When Crowley gives nothing away except a widening of that wicked smile, you plant your hands on your hips.

"Spit it out, Wicked. What do you want?"

Crowley sucks on his teeth for another second before sighing. He always broke for you eventually.

"Ohhh, alright, you minx," he waves his hand at you begrudgingly. "I need you to.. you know."

He was clearly struggling here, but you'd give him no leeway. No help is to be found here. And the longer this went on, the more awkward it was to be, you were sure.

"No, I don't actually." You arched a brow, waiting.

"I need your help," he responds, popping the 'p' exasperatedly. "With..." He waves his hand as if he can't remember the words. You continue to watch this little display. Whatever he wanted, it must be something big.

"Would you spit it out, Crowley. I don't have all day."

This was not in fact true. You had all day for Crowley, but he didn't need to know that. His ego was big enough as it was already. It's barely another second before-

"Just, come here," he yanks you by the hand to pull you into an embrace. You stiffen at the surprise, letting out a little startled yelp.

Crowley was not a physical person. He wasn't someone who hugged people. In fact, you didn't think you'd ever seen Crowley hug anyone. Not even Aziraphale.

Crowley held tight around you, and you thought to yourself how you'd never actually been this close to him before. This close, you were able to smell his cologne. Spicy, old. Must be one of his older favourites from the 1800s or earlier.

You raised your arms up around him and flattened your palms against his back. If you didn't know him so well, you may not have noticed the way he let out an almost imperceptible sigh of relief, nuzzling just a fraction closer into your neck.

You knew better than to ask if he was okay. He'd never tell you anyway. So, you wait another minute or two, holding him tight and waiting for him to let go, not willing to part from him first.

Once he does, he avoids eye contact as you part. You softly touch his chin, bringing his gaze back to your own, hidden as it were behind those shades you liked so much.

"Come sit down, Demon. I'll read to you for a little while." You pause for a second, thinking it over. "Something horrible." He wouldn't care for something joyful. Too unrealistic, he'd say.

Crowley grumbles his ascent and follows you to the chaise, letting you plop down first before he follows, settling down with his head in your lap.

You pick the book up from the side table, flipping back to the front page, hiding the cover from him so it would be a surprise.

"The terror, which would not end for another twenty-eight years—if it ever did end— began, so far as I know or can tell, with a boat made from a sheet of newspaper floating down a gutter swollen with rain..."

[nervouswhizkid]

alright, u know what time it is. i've finished season 3 of voltron, so here's a whole dump of all my thoughts :o]

it was so weird starting out this season with no shiro. i felt so bad for keith, he was struggling so much without him and you could tell. it did throw me off that everyone was acting semi-normal even though shiro was missing?? like lance was so Lance (especially in the first episode) if that makes sense (which, like, if i think about it that's pretty on brand for him. i feel like he's the type to hide behind that flirty easygoing attitude when shit's going down.) i was freaking out when the lion swap happened ohmygod. i still have mixed feelings about it?? like i can kinda get used to keith in the black lion, but lance being in the red is so strange to me. they're just so red & blue coded, it's weird to put them in lions that don't match that. my heart was breaking when lance was begging black to let him be the new leader, you can tell he wants to prove himself so bad. and when blue wouldn't let lance in and he was having a mental crisis over it, i was genuinely in tears. he's got so much insecurity hidden behind that carefree mask and it makes me so sad i just wanna hug him😭 even though i'm not entirely on board with the lion swap, i did like the way it was executed. everyone gets in their lions to go fight, except oh wait! lance isn't following, where is he?? his lion is refusing him?? what! (i'll be completely honest though, i feel like i've read fics that have had something like this play out and they STILL did it better than the show did LMAO)

i also loved that it was LANCE out of all the paladins that became the new red pilot. he was worthy enough to be keith's right hand🥹 i feel like there was such a big emphasis on klance this season, there were so many important moments for their development.

key moment one:

the way EVERYONE was looking at lance to comfort keith??? and lance wasn't even thrown by it, didn't even seem to notice them staring at him. he was only focused on keith. he doubts himself in so many other areas, but when it comes to being there for keith there was no hesitation. he would have done it whether the others were there or not.

key moment two:

when keith came out of the black lion clearly upset and tried turning down the leadership position. again, everyone is chiming in and telling him that black has chosen him, he's their new leader, he has to do this. but he brushes them off, he's adamant in his decison. only when lance steps forward and tells him that he accepts his new authority, keith was willing to give it a shot. what if i scream

key moment THREE:

when lotor lured team voltron to planet thayserix and keith went a little cuckoo trying to catch him, he and lance end up having a moment where keith admits he's taken it too far, putting the team in jeopardy in his rush to capture lotor. and in perfect lance fashion, he agrees with keith. and then he supports him and says let's go fix it together.

this doesn't mean anything, he's just so prettyboy in this scene i had to add

moving on. lotor's character has me conflicted. his introduction had me thinking he was different from his father, and then it swaps to him talking shit with this inner group and sounding like he IS just like his father, he just presents a different front to the general public. but then a few episodes later, his plans are conflicting with what the witch (sorry i literally cannot ever remember her name) wants, and she's supposedly zarkon's right hand, so by that logic lotor is going against his father's plans?? and i think it's in episode 5 where he says "i am the leader! but i am not my father." so what is it really huh. i can't figure this guy out, i don't know whether to root for him or not

i'll tell you who i'm not rooting for though. lotor's group of misfits, that's who. i literally cannot stand them for some reason. that creepy blind person with the cat ANNOYS ME. they're so op it's actually crazy. i definitely dislike the lot of them because they're capable adversaries, which i know is the whole point, but also i just love these characters so much and i want them to be happy and win 😾 is that too much to ask???

i'm also a little bit of an allura hater...i'm still unaware of how that opinion is received in the fandom, so pls don't crucify me. i still have a bad taste in my mouth from her treatment of keith when the team found out he was galra, okay? i'm sure someday i'll get over it. or maybe i won't. we'll see. it was also frustrating to watch her try and pilot the blue lion. you're telling me this girl's dad is the creator of voltron, she was the one who instructed the paladins on how to connect with their lions, stressed the importance of teamwork, and she STILL thought she could boss blue around?? i'm sure it was purely to provide conflict for the story and deliver that payoff when she finally figures out how to work with her lion, but imo it was a little unrealistic for her character. yes, she's royalty and most people defer to her authority, but i just feel like she would have known better, especially considering most of the time she seems uncomfortable by people worshipping her. and episode 4?? her weak spot seems to be anything connecting back to her altean heritage, because she almost let the totalitarian alternate universe versions of her people into their universe simply because they were altean. yes, she quickly realized what was going on and switched sides, but i can't get over how easily she trusts anything altean, meanwhile she's skeptical of everything else. i know that's how bias works, but i can't standdddd hypocrisy it gets on my nerves like nothing else!!

episode 5 was wild. i don't know what they did to shiro, but it's got me so nervous for him and the team. the galra clearly let him escape, it was just too easy. him waking up alone, no guards or anyone to intercept him leaving his chambers? walking around, no sentries anywhere? he witnesses ANOTHER(?) shiro being experimented on before making his way to a pod and zipping away?? and most notably, the "notify command headquarters. operation kuron stage three is underway." to me, there's only one reason why a prisoner would be allowed to return to their group. sabotage. is he some kind of sleeper agent? but like, unknowingly?? and what about the memory that popped up while he was looking at the other shiro? and HOW is there another shiro? this is so fucking confusing. but, and this could also just be a change in artstyle, he looks different to me? why does his face look so weird🧍‍♀️

LOOK AT THIS MAN. THAT IS NOT SHIRO

not to mention, shiro's return causes some issues within the team. for one, there's not enough lions for everyone. i didn't think that was a huge deal, but obviously it's a little strange for someone like shiro to not be doing anything. and if he did get black back, what does that mean for keith? or lance? or allura? they've all been displaced. on top of that, there's now a conflicting power dynamic between shiro and keith since shiro is used to doling out orders, even though keith is the one leading them now.

special mention for another klance moment:

even with all the leadership confusion, i think it's important that lance chose keith to talk to about his concerns for the team. he views keith as their leader, which is insane(!) given that shiro is his personal hero/idol. also the fact that keith has been his rival up to this point, and here lance is offering to step down from the team (which he's obviously fought so hard to be a part of and holds a lot of pride for!!) and better yet, keith thinks this is CRAZY. "what are you talking about?" the inflection in his voice?? he literally can't believe lance would step down. voltron without lance? it's unthinkable. i think it's obvious that lance is still doubtful, so keith connects with him the only way he knows how: by getting on lance's level. "leave the math to pidge."

AND THEN THEY BOTH SMILE AT EACH OTHERBKANJKCLFJLWA

for cohesiveness sake, i'll be referring to honerva as haggar, considering that's what she goes by now.

the finale for this season really surprised me! i wasn't expecting to get a comprehensive history on alfor's era, but i'm not complaining. i can't believe that zarkon and haggar (the witch, that's her name!!) are MARRIED?? that's freaking crazy. and they didn't even remember???

what i found interesting is how their experimentation with quintessence affected them, both after they "died" and came back to life, and even before that. by the second half of the episode, the toll haggar's work had on her was obvious. she was clearly going crazy, suffering from malnutrition, and passed out after alfor argued with them and left. i could be looking into it too much, but i'm wondering if it had been affecting haggar for longer than that. when zarkon first met her, she seemed kind, almost sweet. definitely capable and incredibly smart, but she had a soft disposition. years later, when alfor has allura and zarkon and haggar are married, she's lost any sign of a smile and doesn't seem to care for pleasantries or idle chitchat. her responses are clipped and noncommittal, unless it's pertaining to her work. i think that was the first sign. the whole situation is just so horrific.

i'm also just realizing, does this mean lotor is the son of haggar and zarkon?? IS HE HALF ALTEAN???

another small detail i wanted to mention before i finish this off:

is this the same cat?? it's either the same species or it's the actual same cat from alfor's era. i just thought it was interesting that he was included and, if it is the same cat, he's really fucking old LMFAO

[etheries1015]

BOOK 7 SPOILERS BELOW

I finally decided to suck it up and catch up with twst book 7, I stopped after seeing Silver cry because I'm sCARED OF BEING SAD 😭😭 anyway here's a few reactions I had to it 😭

And hearing about the update coming soon-ish to ENG servers I really need to read up

Lilia pressuring Epel like the old man he is 😭😭 I love the moments that they remind us just how old Lilia actually is and how he sees most if not all the students as if they were his children/grand children, making sure they get the most out of the party and drink...its giving "What do you mean you're not hungry? Absolutely not. Here Is at least 5 servings of whatever dish I made to help u grow big and strong."

Okay I didn't take a screen shot of it but the entire section where Lilia looked kind of guilty with Ortho about exchanging addresses because you just KNOW he probably isn't gonna check in, presumably because he doesn't want anyone to get More attached to him seeing as he is nearing the end of his life span (crying shaking throwing up)

THIS. THIS. THIS INTERACTION HE HAD WITH US. I LOVE HIM. I AM SO SILLY FOR HIM. I totally forgot I changed my in-game name from my nickname to my REAL name and when he said my name I verbally yelled "WHAT THE HELL" before giggling and kicking my feet hehehehe I'm clinically insane for him

But the fact that he acknowledged us as Malleus friend probably means we've spent a lot of time at the dorms or around Lilia for him to see how our friendship and interactions with him work, and it melts my heart hehe. Being part of the diafam fr. But honestly bro back me up, I'm tired of being called a hench-human 😭💀

I wonder just how bad we must look with everyone noticing the strange shift??? Either we REALLY made a scene (tripping over, going pale) or the twst boys are just that attentive to us and I think that is the sweetest thing ever 😭😭 Ace and Deuce is so sweet for thinking of us and trying to get us out while also being polite to the people who kindly held the party. Despite not being there long, ace and deuce is willing to skip out on free food and drinks in order to make sure you're okay and I'm just 😭😭 ANGELS. I LOVE THEM.

But also the way Lilia worries for you is so sweet 😭💜 I should write a fic of sick reader and Lilia, or reader trying to tough it out because I know for a FACT Lilia would not let that slide! (Hypocrite 😐)

I ACTUALLY DROPPED MY JAW WHEN SEBEK SAID THIS SHIT. I WAS. WHAT. WHAT THE HELL LMFAOOOOO 😭 thats fucking insane bro I actually found myself chastising him thru the phone, I would NOT let that discrimination against humans bullshit pass fr 😭 slap him right upside the head and give him a stern talking to. I like seeing Lilia get frustrated, he's so cute and UGH. Although it went in one ear out the other, Seeing Lilia mad is so hot if I'm being real with y'all rn BUAHAHA.

I didnt screen shot this either (and I can't fit anymore photos on this post smh) but Silvers nose being red and obvious he was crying but Lilia confused. DudE OF COURSE he was crying!!! You're his dad!! You raised him since he was a baby, he's just now going into adulthood and doing that WITHOUT HIS DAD who is going to a far away land! Sure, traveling is a thing , but honestly nothing beats having that support just a moments away. Silver is literally the sweetest and wants to support his dad , but who's going to support him????!?! Lilia is putting him in a position where Silver feels the need to be strong and hide his tears for Lilias sake, but of course this is hard on him, its so sudden, too! Being so close to your parent and next thing you know mere days later they are stripped away from your arms?!

I just want to give them all hugs. Lilia obviously has some issues and misconstrued ideas of love (a million people have made posts and comments on this, so I will not repeat it) and I just. Need them to all sit around and be their mediator while we go thru their emotional states.

Ugh. I was in my twst burnout stage and still low key am, but fuck does it spark so much passion in you 😭😭

[lovedumb]

ᡣ𐭩.ᐟ⋆˚࿔ welcome 2 my blog 𝜗𝜚˚ᡣ𐭩.ᐟ

Hulloooooo! my name is lucky ! ok, not actually…. bad start lying to u all.. but thats what u can call me on here! i consider myself to be an exceedingly lucky individual ! :3 this is a little intro post to help you to get to know the dog behind the blog. 🐾🐾

im nineteen years old, but i’ll be twenty in march which is cool and also super scary. i am nonbinary, autistic, and a lesbian (wow tumblr is perfect for me) & i loveeee my girlfriend (chronically offline, no tumblr, sadface) & im from southern california!

ive never really maintained a blog before but it’s been a goal of mine for a long time, and since my goal for 2025 is to try and work towards my most authentic self & pamper myself to the fullest. plus i’ve been wanting new hobbies for quiiiite some time. for the most part i spend most of my time reorganizing my room or hanging out with my girlfriend, and i spend most of my day on my phone since im mid job-hunt right now. i work at a seasonal arts & crafts festival & i love to draw, paint, sculpt, make jewelry, and im learning how to sew!

the plan for this blog is to be a progress tracker, i want to watch myself grow into the person i know i deserve to become. i want to build better habits for myself, adopt new ways of living and rid myself of ways that no longer serve me. i want my twenties to be beautiful, and i want to have a way to look back on these years. and if anyone happens to stumble across my corner of the internet, maybe ill inspire them to want better for themself too.

i want a consistent routine. ive never had the discipline for it but discipline is a choice not a feeling and i have to choose to want better for myself if i want to break the cycles i was born into. skincare and shower routine and haircare and cleaning my space and eating better and sleeping well. ive been working on a lot of these habits already for a few months now and im really proud of how far ive come from when i was in highschool. since im not in college yet i want to ensure i keep myself learning.

i love learning and reading. i have a small collection of books on lesbianism and kink from the late 1980s-early 2000s that are my pride and joy. i also really want to document the process of me trying to get back on HRT & back into therapy this year. all things self improvement you catch my drift.

skincare & self care in general has also been a recent obsession, i grew up never being taught how to show myself love and ive realized nothing makes me feel better than a clean body, clean outfit, and a clean mind. living on my own and having to take care of myself for the first time, i want to make my life softer than its ever been before.

something i wish to achieve with this blog includes inevitably moving this to my own website rather than something hosted by tumblr, i have a longstanding passion for web design and it would be really fun to document the journey on here alongside building a blog creating a website for!!! though this is an exceedingly longterm goal, i think it is worth putting it to paper (ive heard this makes things real faster.. i think if something’s gonna hapen its gonna happen, wether its on paper or not, but i like the idea nonetheless…)

ok ive been typing so long my paws are starting to hurt, thank u for reading this longwided introduction to me, some stranger on the internet who u know slightly more about than u did a few minutes ago. i hope you are well, give urself a big hug for me, and go eat a snack if you’re able to.

tags i use: love lucky 🍀, la la lucky

ੈ✩‧₊˚ love, lucky 🫖

[clancykisser]

I know this is a big ask but...for ALL your romantic fos, 🫂 - How does your F/O comfort you when you're upset? How would you comfort them?

@soulnottainted -grips my 20 f/os tightly- I AM TAKING THIS CHALLENGE KELS WE ARE RUNNING WITH IT

How does your F/O comfort you when you're upset? How would you comfort them?

CLANCY + TORCH - Clancy holds me in his arms and kisses my forehead, rocking me back and forth and humming a song in my ears so I can calm down. Torch would try to find me little trinkets around camp to cheer me up and just be at my side in solidarity.

I comfort them BOTH by providing a lot of physical touch/affection they're not used to having. It's reassuring for them to be able to keep me in their arms to stay grounded.

CLARK + BRUCE - Bruce buys me things he knows I like. My favorite meal, a cute little trinket of a show I'm into, or anything similar! He's bad at comforting but he'll at least try to cheer me up. Clark is a lot more 'we'll sit down and talk this out' because he values open communication and is kind of the messenger of our relationship. He likes to hear my feelings and talk it out so it seems less intimidating to me and I appreciate him for it!

I comfort Bruce with lots of hugs and I just let him shower me with kisses and hold me close on bad nights. Clark likes to go out with me to a coffee shop to distract us with positive memories instead. Kill it with Kindness and whatnot u//w//u

DANNY - Doesn't. Just makes fun of me and then tries to get me to forget about it by stabbing me or something. We don't TALK about our feelings we just make each other worse 😔

JAX - He'd tease me about what makes me upset/tries to make me laugh but if it fails he just gives up and sits at my side and begrudgingly is like 'if you...want to talk about something...i guess i'll listen.' (He does listen, though, and it helps <3)

Jax doesn't like it when I comfort him too much, but when we do its in private in one of our rooms, and he likes to hug me and let me play with his ears so he can feel safe.

HUGHIE - SO BAD SO AWKWARD but does his 100% best! Puts his whole Hugh-ussy into it!!! He just sits with me, rubs my back, and tries to say things that usually come out 10x worse but eventually gets there.

I try to help him talk things out when he's upset. He's very spazzy/impulsive so I usually ask him about things and help connect the dots as to WHY he's upset so we can figure stuff out.

GALINDA - My girl buys me new art supplies and books but doesn't read the labels or titles when she does she just shows up in my dorm one day with handfuls of pink wrapped presents like 'YOU WERE SAD SO I BOUGHT YOU THE ART ROOM'

I offer to go shopping and spend time with her when she's upset in return! I carry all of her bags and tell her how beautiful she looks in clothes that she tries on and float behind her like a lovesick puppy to fuel her ego ;//v//;

ELPHABA - A bit worse than Galinda, especially when my s/i for her is more quiet/reserved. I think she'd give me head pets tho :3

For her I would find her poppies and build a beautiful boquet for her with colors representing different meanings of flower and offer them to her in a cute black parchment paper with green bow

RAY - The only way he knows how to comfort me is if he offers to let me beat him for 5 minutes with a baseball bat this man doesn't know how to do feelings.

Same for the other way around. He's sad I'm still going to beat him with a baseball bat (me and ray have a very strange relationship)

DIRK - OH MY SWEET KING OF AVOIDING EMOTIONS he will listen to me talk about my problems ALL DAY and while he's not great at giving advice/sounding empathetic he really does try to listen and just let me get stuff out! Sometimes he builds little robots for me and sends them through time/space as little gifts with love letters telling me to keep on trucking.

If I can wiggle his emotions out of him though I usually go on video call with him if we're far away and just sit there quietly and parallel play w him. If we're in person, same thing but our shoulders are touching uwu

MICHAEL - He doesn't understand human emotions well, but if I am upset for whatever reason he doesn't necessarily HAVE an interest in it? He'll just try to find something new to cheer me up. Maybe even sit and watch my favorite movie with me!

He genuinley doesn't get upset I think and if he does its just a pout that I can pat away with my hand on his cheek hehe

SAM - Buys me my favorite gas station food on the road :3

I just f*ck him

DAMIAN - He makes bone necklaces for me out of my favorite types of teeth. Sometimes he engraves them with our names and hearts!

I spend time with him in his mortuary helping him label dead bodies sometimes and just spending time in the same room makes him happier when he's upest

ELEVEN - We go on an adventure to a planet he KNOWS I'll love and that will help me forget about what made me upset. He loves to surprise me with events or hobbies in time and space he knows I'll thrive in.

I make him fishfingers and custard and we eat it together while I let him infodump about his complaints about human history (he has a lot of them)

CHROLLO - 'You wanna go kill someone?' is his usually suggestion (it helps)

(I suggest the same thing)

ROSEMARY - My poor baby girl gets so nervous when she sees me upset :(. She offers to play board games with me while we put on some records and a fire and we just relax together.

She likes it when I let her cry on my shoulder and get her emotions out. I wrap her in my arms and let her cry while kissing her head.

LEONE + BRUNO - We all drink limoncello and go on a relaxing date at a little cafe somewhere in Italy! We don't like to stress about things so any upset any of us get we try to relax it off whenever we can and just remember that we're together and happy uwu

WRECKER - He's scoopin Rowin up in his big ol' arms and twirling him around like no tomorrow! Smothering him in kisses and making SURE he only focuses on how loved he is with his family!

Rowin in return gives Wrecker a lot of kisses and really pretty rocks he finds on random planets.

[astralwaifu]

Hi! Hi! Hi!!!

Remember me? It's the one who encouraged to do the genshin character compatibility trend i have been dying to do! Unfortunately, i couldn't find the person who i saw started this trend so here i am in your ask box doing this. So i guess you know how this thing works- like you send three characters to see your compatibility with, and then you send a little bit of info about yourself such as personality and hobbies. I love that trend so much and as much as i wanna stay sane, i wanna know if my favorites will actually match or vibe with me ehehehehe-

So anyways! Let's start!!!

Characters : Pantalone, Venti, and Diluc!!! My favorites!!!

Apperance (ft. Picrew) :

About me : So technically, i am currently a drained out student (and help me school starts soon), but i am studious and hardworking! My problem is, i cannot seem to focus on one topic at a time and i ended up forgetting things. I don't socialize much, yet i would always greet people with a smile. But i never had anyone else to share what i have on my mind (usually books and my own ideas) and i tend to overshare and sometimes change the topic that it gets all too confusing. I only have two hobbies, reading and listening to music. And i pretty much wanna stay indoors all the time and then be alone in a pretty, fairy-tale like place in nature sometimes. I am very much clingy, and somewhat get attached way too easily. And yes i do require headpats and cuddles because i never got any affection. And i get easily irritated and when i am pissed i get too far, sometimes. Yet i just want cuddles and affection because i am lonely, lol. Oh and i love stuffed animals and books and sweet-scented perfume as an addition. Also i have a fear of spiders, i pray at least someone can get rid of them for me. That is all ✨️✨️✨️

Author’s note: Heyya! Sorry it took a couple days, I got my nails done and can’t type as fast as before! We changed Pantalone with Welt from HSR, because for some unknown reason I can’t write him. Anywaaay, I hope you’ll enjoy this! Sending all my hugs to u. <3

Venti

I have a strong feeling that his outer persona is your inner one, so you sort of complete eachother in a way none of you really expected.

Although it would take a while to get used to his extrovert self, since you seem to be pretty much introvert, the moment you decide you are comfortable enough you’ll see a big change. Meaning - EXPECT UNENDING AFFECTION AND CUDDLES!!!

I swear Venti wouldn’t be able to keep his hands off of you - always needs to give you reassurance and to have you close to him. Would totally do the thing where he squeezes your hand three times to silently tell you he loves you.

Would show you the most beautiful views in Mondstadt, he knows every place worth seeing and knows which one will leave you absolutely breathless.

Whether you like it or not, he will sing to you all the time. You like a certain song? Expect to hear to it singed by Venti for the next two weeks, until you physically can’t listen to it anymore.

A small issue would be that he constantly need to be around people, to interact and be present, which you’ll find a little tiring. Loves to annoy you too so he could get a reaction out of you. Don’t worry tho, he will never cross your boundaries!

Overall, on a scale from one to ten, I’d give your compatibility an 8.5 .

Diluc

The moment I finished reading about you I immediately thought that Diluc is the one.

It’s just that the two of you are fairly similar, both in the way you are around others (although you are quite a pleasant presence, Diluc is just more grumpy) and in the way you share the same wish in your heart - to be loved by someone, held amd cherished despite your flaws.

And I can say that the two of you do a pretty good job at that. Main love language between you is physical touch, since both of you are touch starved. When you are around others PDA is kept to the minimum, but when the two of you are alone HE WILL BE ON YOU ALWAYS! Holding your hand absolutely everywhere you go in the Dawn Winery and around its domain, random back hugs and normal hugs, headpats whenever he sees you around the house.

Also kisses on the crown of your head and forehead (they are Diluc’s favourite form of intimacy), which make you feel so special and seen.

He will always find time for you despite his busy schedule. His favourite activity together is reading in silence next to eachother, shoulders touching, but each doinh his own thing. He is the type of person that would put your legs over his during this to help you sitt mor comfortable. You will absolutely fall asleep in his lap like that.

Carries you to bed when that happens - no one can change my mind !!!

The two of you strike me as that couple that doesn’t really fight and not because you ignore your problems. You really don’t have reasons to fight.

Did I mention you will never have to worry about bugs again? :)

He is THE MAN - 10/10 compatibility.

Welt

Loves to take care of you in any possible way he can. Mans just trying to make you feel as safe and as comfortable as he can. He loves you too much to have you feeling bad about yourself or lonely.

Indulges in all your little habits such as going rants whenever you find something you love. He’s listening to every word carefully, absorbing information. You will maybe think he doesn’t care, but in the next couple days you will find a lot of things related to your new book or idea in your room on the Astral Express.

He’s more mature and a big stand-offish, so expect cuddles only when you request them or really really need them. Doesn’t really initiate this kind of things. You will however have your hand held and head pat by him at all times.

Saved you more than once from Himeko’s bad tasting coffee.

His main love language would be quality time, you will find yourself sitting next to him anytime, anywhere, each doing his own thing.

Whenever the Astral Express stops on a new planet for a trailblazing expedition, he will take you on cute dates and a walk in the nature.

He gives me a 7 vibe. Maybe 7.5-8.

And little note to u : all of them would find you absolutely beautiful because, honestly, who wouldn’t?

[divinemissem13]

Happy DALentine's Day, friends! 😘

At the end of his first week aboard the USS Voyager-A, Dal R’El decided that it was a lot more exhausting being an actual Starfleet warrant officer than it was being a fake Starfleet captain. There were a lot more people on a ship this size (many of whom wouldn’t give the ‘weird augment kid’ the time of day), and so much for him to learn, and way less time for fun… and, he had to admit to himself, no Gwyn.

He was used to back-breaking physical labor from his time on Tars Lamora, but he was unaccustomed to standing up so straight all the time. His back and neck were sore from upholding proper Starfleet posture all day long and it was with a profound sense of relief that he finally slumped into his desk chair at the end of the day. Lying down on his bed would result in his missing dinner, as Dal had learned earlier in the week. So he leaned back in the chair, threw his feet up on the desk, and stretched his arms into the air before settling them behind his head as a sort of pillow.

He gazed into the near distance as he started to daydream about what Gwyn might be doing at that moment when something on the desk caught his eye. Something small, yellow, and shaped like a heart. “Hey, Z!” Dal called to his roommate who was busily writing something at their own desk, “where did this come from?”

“Where did what come from?” Zero asked without looking up from their work.

Dal’s feet swung back to the floor and he leaned in to get a closer look. “This little heart thingy. Hey, it has writing on it… ‘U R COOL’,” he read slowly. “I am cool,” Dal said confidently, “but what’s with the tiny message?”

Intrigued by the mystery, Zero had abandoned their work to come in for a closer look. They picked up the little yellow heart and examined it carefully before handing it back to Dal and declaring: “It’s just candy.”

“But where did it come from? Why the message?” Dal asked, exasperated.

“I don’t know, Murf was here earlier - maybe he dropped it,” Zero said with a shrug and went back to their desk.

“Candy, huh?” Dal pondered it for another moment. It didn’t smell sweet, but it’s not like he had a whole lot of experience with candy, so he popped it in his mouth and bit down. The candy crunched between his teeth like chalk and didn’t taste much better. “Yech,” Dal spat it back into his hand. “I don’t think this is candy, Z.”

“I don’t know, why don’t you go find Murf and ask him?” Zero said with an annoyed sigh.

“Maybe I will!” Dal said petulantly, standing up from his chair. “I have to go wash this junk off my hands anyway,” he grumbled to himself.

Dal never made it to the washroom though, because he found another tiny heart on the floor right outside of his quarters. He knew better than to try eating it this time, but he picked it up to get a closer look. This one was orange and said BE MINE. “Huh? Be whose?” Dal asked, searching up and down the empty hallway.

A few feet away was another heart — pink: MY STAR.

“OK, what’s the big idea? Murf are you hiding somewhere?” Dal looked all around, even checked the ceiling, but there was no Murf to be found nor anyone else for that matter.

Only… another heart. And another. And another. U GOT THIS, XOXO, CALL ME.

It was beginning to feel like someone was sending him a message, but who? Literally everyone he knew in this universe was on this ship except for Gwyn, and she was way far out of communication range… wasn’t she? Still, the thought caused Dal to pick up speed as he continued to follow the trail of tiny hearts.

Some of the messages were vague, others seemed very specific, but each one drove him forward…

MISS YOU

MY HERO

HUGS

PURR FECT

until finally, he stood in front of the holodeck with a pocketful of hearts, looking at the last two, sitting on the floor next to each other.

Dal’s stomach flipped as he bent down to pick them up. One was purple and had the phrase IN CAT BOOTS etched into it. The other was a light blue that reminded him of Gwyn’s eyes and it simply said ENTER.

Dal walked through the doors and into a planetarium, much like the one he and Gwyn had spent so much time in on Earth. And there she was, standing in the middle of the room waiting for him.

“Gwyn!” Dal cried, his voice cracking with excitement as he ran up to embrace her. Of course, it wasn’t really her. He knew that. The real Gwyn was off on another ship trying to save her world. But she looked real and she felt real and at that moment, Dal was more than happy to have even a holographic version of her.

HoloGwyn returned the hug and giggled lightly. “I see the others gave you my messages,” she said, smiling into Dal’s neck. She pulled away and took his hand, leading him to sit on their favorite bench.

They sat, leaning on one another, while Dal told Gwyn about his week and Gwyn pointed out her approximate location on the starmap above. The hour passed quickly and before he knew it, the computer was warning Dal that his time would be up in two minutes.

HoloGwyn kissed him on the cheek and stood in front of him, her ice-blue eyes piercing right through to his soul. “You’ve got to go now,” she told him. “But this program is yours. I’ll be here waiting, if you need me.”

Dal smiled back at her and stood to wrap his arms around her one more time.

“The program’s name is Cat Boots,’ Gwyn whispered in his ear, and he squeezed her tighter and kissed her softly.

“Thanks, Gwyn. For everything,” Dal whispered as the program began to fade away into the holodeck’s grey, gridded walls.

Dal left the holodeck feeling much lighter and with a bounce in his step. He greeted everyone with a smile on his way to the mess hall and his hands rested casually in his pockets.

He was in such a good mood that he pulled out a candy heart that said QT PIE, and flipped it into the air, catching it in his mouth without thinking. He managed not to spit it out this time (he was in public, after all), but he grimaced as he choked down the dry, chalky candy.

Yep, still gross, he thought. But then he smiled to himself. I’ll have to remember to tell Gwyn next time I see her.

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

My Thoughts About The Lucifer From Hazbin Hotel & The Other Lucifer...(And Devil From Cuphead)

[Note: Reading This Is Optional, plus I know not everyone will be interested in this post and that's okay. Mature Audience Readers Only...also do NOT reblog this without permission. also will talk a little about the multiverse theory. and will get off topic about talking a bit about Toxic-Religious people and the trauma they cause to others...also it's okay that not many end up reading this and some can just ignore this post if they want to...just got to get some feelings and thoughts out.]

anyway I might make this not too long, just get some thoughts out.

Lucifer who is Charlie's Dad from Hazbin Hotel, is the most adorkable apple goober of all time who seems to be a bit of a Himbo who is a bit of a cute idiot who one might want to protect and keep him safe and just want to hug him if the urge to hug him should intensify enough into giving into the temptation of hugging him.

my thoughts of the Other Lucifer that is suppose to be from our universe...well, I kind of want to punch him...

well either that, or give him the cold hands to the face punishment.

because I seriously do NOT want to put up with his Sugar Honey Ice Tea.

and after listening to and watching one of the videos that talks about him that was by "Melinda The Mystic Witch" that is over at Youtube and so far the few videos I seen so far have been interesting.

and I'm going to wait maybe a few days to talk more about the theory that has to do with Adam's Wife Lilith and The Fallen Angel Lilith, being mistaken as being the same but are actually two separate beings...it was one of the videos that made me come to that theory.

but anyway I should make a list of reasons why I can't trust all Masculine Angels when they get all Toxic-Masculine.

I guess it could be possible I might go "Feral Earth Angel" on the Lucifer from our universe, I mean maybe...

even if I want to slap the stupid insensitivity right out of him, I probably wouldn't be allowed to...

for now they are just thoughts, and even if that weird thing that happens with that modern radio still happens at times with me, like maybe once in a while and my spirit animal is suppose to be the deer...

doesn't mean that I am the Lucifer of this universe's "Alastor"...

also the sooner the Divine Feminine gets a bit more stronger, maybe the sooner things could get a bit more better and the Toxic-Masculine damage that has been going on will be cooled off...

there is the Toxic-Feminine as well, but that seems less dangerous than the Toxic-Masculine energy...

both can still be dangerous, but the Toxic-Masculine one is more dangerous because of how long it's been around...

so yeah, when it comes to Charlie's Dad Lucifer from Hazbin Hotel who I wouldn't mind giving a big hug to if I feel like doing so...

but when it comes to the Lucifer that is from our universe but is still in another plane of existence...

I want to punch him, because this "Eveningstar Princess" is not having his Sugar Honey Ice Tea...

but even if I want to punch him, I probably wouldn't be able to anyway....or be allowed to.

and even if you have thoughts of wanting to punch someone, a part of you may not be able to fully go through with it...

so even if I want to punch his pretty boy angel self, I might not be able to fully go through with it.

also with the whole multiverse theory, a counterpart of someone either still living or someone who lived a time ago...

wont always be 100% same as their counterpart, so someone could like the counterpart a bit more than the original or vice-versa.

the Devil from both the Cuphead Game & Cuphead Show's Timelines are the same but also different...

one of the things that make them different, is that Devil from the Cuphead Show seems to be a bit of a Himbo.

there could be different realms of the multiverse and different counterparts of a person, save for maybe a few who might be the only one of their respective universe who don't have a counterpart from another universe...

this could be known as a Anomaly I think.

if almost every person in a different universe has a counterpart that looks like them but may have the same or different personality and could also be very different, then there could be some who might not even have a counterpart and they could be considered a type of Anomaly that is the first to be them in the whole multiverse, who might not end up having different counterparts of themself until they are created or they might stay being the only one not having a counterpart from different universe thought the multiverse.

there might be a universe where some humans didn't cause the imbalance between the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine, and didn't put the Divine Masculine as being MORE important than the Divine Feminine...

though the humans who did that messed up stuff centuries ago, may have only done so because some Masculine Angel or Angels may have influenced them into doing so...

well either them, or the Annunaki...or both.

we were just getting some of the balance back, even if it might not be 100% perfect and there are still some problems.

but with the messed up stuff that is going on, of course I'm gonna have another reason to NOT fully trust some parts of the Masculine energies, maybe only half of it I can trust...

but I could probably make a list as to why I can't trust the toxic half of the masculine.

like one of the reasons being it can be way too violent, I mean it's one thing when some violence is uses for some form of entertainment like when it's used in maybe like a video games or movies or shows or books, but at least there is more to it than just the violence.

plus video games, shows, movies and books weren't the FIRST to have violence...

real life was the first to have that stuff, but at least in fictional work it is not as scary and there can be a chance for a hero to save everyone.

I still think parents should stop scapegoating mature content, because once more it isn't the mature content that is responsible...

it's THEM the parents and anyone else who is suppose to be watching the little kids who aren't suppose to be watching, playing or reading some mature content that is NOT for them...

still not a fan of that Toxic-Religious jerk who called Hazbin Hotel a Kids Cartoon, seriously it is NOT for Kids...

if I remember right, I think that guy may have been called Michael Knowles...not really sure...

I guess it doesn't matter, but I guess sometime I can check to see if I got that name right or not...but just not right now, cause I don't feel like it at the moment.

I don't know if my bitterness to some Toxic-Religious people may have to do with the one from a few years ago who had kept misusing either "may god have mercy on you" or "may the lord have mercy on you" at me or not...I know it was one of those two, and maybe it is part of the reason I'm not a very big fan of Toxic-Religious people.

I mean even if I did point out it was making feel bad and it was making me cry, that insensitive toxic-religious jerk kept throwing one of those two misused sentences at me.

and yeah like I said before, I had cried and felt really bad.

they wouldn't stop it and I had no other choice but to block them.

it happen over at another place, and I'm still gonna hope not to run into them here or any other places I go to...

excuse me if I escaped the indoctrination that purposely doesn't included The Earthly-Mother Goddess and The Divine Feminine.

at least some others who might not believe the same as me, but can respect my different view and new found belief.

I mean what is wrong with some people, when someone says that they "feel bad" or that their feelings are being "hurt" and that they are "crying" because someone who is Toxic-Religious keeps throwing those misused words at them, they should be listen to and not have those feelings ignored.

I mean would of hurt that person to say "sorry" and not keep throwing those words at me, despite me pointing out how bad it was making me feel and I wanted them to stop it...

no, because it is possible that some Toxic-Religious people like that think they are doing something "righteous" and think they are "saving someone" when really they are just insensitive jerks who will keep throwing those misused words to someone who doesn't fit their perfection, so they would probably still have a problem with me believing in a Goddess now as well as being one of the Nonbinary types...

it is possible there have been many people who had it worse with some bad experiences with Toxic-Religious people, and it can be that those who do get those kind of bad experiences could be religious as well or not at all.

and at times it wouldn't be just hurtful misused words that can be harmful to someone, some people can have it much worse with some Toxic-Religious people who would cross lines that were never meant to be cross that do not just emotional harm, but also physical harm.

and for some, it can be more than just one type of trauma from Toxic-Religious people that had hurt them in their current life, and they can have another trauma from some Toxic-Religious people from one of their past lives.

maybe I wont stop being bitter about those types any time soon.

plus it's not like I can get fully over what happen, and I don't think I will ever be okay with people like that who would just throw those words at someone so careless like and hurt someone's feelings and ignore their feelings when they point out that their feelings are being hurt.

it's not like the Lucifer from our universe would understand my feelings, to be hurt so badly by a Toxic-Religious person like that.

and even if Lucifer was hurt as well, I'm not sure if I would fully understand his feelings either...

plus I don't want to be told to only worship the Divine Masculine, so why can't I believe in both the Divine Masculine & Divine Feminine...?

what is the problem with having a balance between the Patriarchy and Matriarchy anyway...?

well hopefully there will be more people who will try to stop being so toxic-religious and try to be a bit more better...

and maybe in one of possible worlds in the multiverse, there isn't that many people who are toxic-religious and some do respect the whole Divine Feminine, Goddess and Matriarchy...

we could be living in a type of bubble that holds our dimension that our universe along with other universes are in.

anyway besides the whole my whole feelings of wanting to hug the Apple Goober that is Charlie Morningstar's Dad, but also want to punch and or slap the Lucifer that is from our universe...even if I might not be able to and plus I might be a bit tired at the moment...

my thoughts about the Devil from both the Cuphead Game and Cuphead Show, is that they may be the same but they are still different where one of them is probably a bit more seriously, while the other one is a bit of a Sassy Goober.

and it is the one from the Cuphead Show, that is the Sassy Goober.

I also doubt that the Lucifer from this universe would care how I view him, or the fact that part of myself wants to punch or slap him...

or give the him the cold hands to face punishment...

plus I know that not everyone will get or fully understand why I feel I can't fully trust some Masculine Angels, and some of them will include the Fallen ones.

there might be some percent of Masculine Angels that I could trust, but there will be those trust issues.

also even if we don't know when there will be a new seasons of Cuphead Show or not, but it is possible that it will be not very likely it will mention the Devil from that show having been a angel once...

it could be possible that if a new season does happen, it will just have Cuphead end up driving Devil crazy, and Mugman being the voice of reason, and Chalice being careless and only doing the right thing at the last minute...it's like you can still like her, but she can be a bit...

well she has got the boys into some trouble before, and she has got herself into some trouble...but at least she became less selfish when it came to her new friendship with Cuphead and Mugman.

I also know that I'm not the only one who finds Charlie's Dad Lucifer, to be a Adorkable Apple Goober who is just too precious for his own good, even if he had the misinterpretation that Sinners are the only ones who have done some awful things and are the only ones who can be awful people, because seriously that is bull...

but at least his little rebellion was slightly different from the one we know of that happen with the other Lucifer...

but the story book that Charlie was reading, could still be hiding some truths and hiding some secrets that Charlie is not meant to hear...

maybe I will talk more about this another time...

I might edit this later or in a few days to have it be like a part 1 to my talking about my feelings and thoughts that has to do with different versions of Lucifer, and how one of them makes me want to hug them...

while the other version may make me want to slap him, even if I might not be able to truly bring myself to do so even if I have the thoughts of wanting to do it but once again can't...

anyway I'm a little tired, so I don't think I can think a bit more of what to say about my thoughts and feelings about those different versions of Lucifer anyway...

so I'm just going to just save this talking about my thoughts and feelings about this topic like for another day...

maybe I can include the version from that Lucifer Tv series, maybe...

anyway I'm off to dreamland and might be back later or tomorrow or maybe the day after tomorrow or whenever I'm able to...

and if some ended up reading this anyway, hope some can respect and understand my feelings and thoughts about it even if they don't have to 100% agree with them...

[rollercoasterwords]

oh!!!! happy 100k words wfrau!!!!!!! she's getting bigger (<- like you would speak of a puppy). how long is it supposed to be & how far along are you? and also... would you like to share a snippet you like (from any chapter ofc... no pressure if no it's completely understandable)? what do you enjoy the most about writing it? bc it seems like you're having fun & it's so nice to see someone enjoying a hobby so openly online... especially writing... there's this conception that writers don't actually enjoy writing (the whole 'forcing myself to write' bit) and i'm curious to hear your perspective on it!! also!!!!!! i hope moving will be easy & fun & the world will be kind to you with the change <3 i keep telling myself 2 read marx but i can't find any good translations to my native language and reading it in english is making my brain go grgrgrgrgr like an air conditioner on its last leg so alas it might have to wait... so true for liking iced drinks they're really the best!! i've heard someone say it's childish but i think they just live a very miserable hot life in the august heat drinking their hot coffee instead of putting some ice cubes in it :) it's funny you say that about fav line because it's definitely my fav fic of your writing & the ending of it is soooo beautiful i get back to it every time i need to feel something!!!!! that song line is beautiful too omg... and well the weather is hell everywhere at least the world is all suffering together :( i hope the atmosphere isn't suffering too much :/ honestly i am a big 'i would rather be hot than cold' believer because i am from a hot country so i know how to deal with the heat but you know what i'm sure the chill can also be intriguing to some... not me though... i hope the winter will be kind on you <3 thank u for letting me invade ur ask box i am creating myself a room here for now i think. anyway. love and hugs!!!! <333

hello!! she is indeed getting bigger <3 if i had to guess right now i'd say i'm maybe...possibly nearing the halfway point of the fic, plotwise? but honestly it's really hard to say lol. i've got 2 more story arcs to cover in part 3 (plus finishing the current one), and then part 4 is gonna have like...2 or 3 story arcs as well, plus an epilogue. so it just depends on how long it takes me to cover all that ground!

and yeah i'm having a lot of fun writing!! i know what u mean abt the whole "ugh writing amirite" bit that writers do lol and i'm sure i do it sometimes too...i mean i think tone varies a lot and many people who complain about writing still really enjoy the activity, but i do think there is sometimes this self-flagellating tendency amongst some writers to act like writing is meant to be this strenuous, emotionally draining activity like ur...idk sisyphus w the stone or something, and if you're writing something 'easy' or 'fun' you're somehow a lower caliber of writer than those who Nobly Suffer for their art, etc...which i think is dumb lol. suffering doesn't inherently make art any better or more noble

& thank u 4 the well-wishes w moving!! i'm mostly nervous about getting to my flight on time lol i have to go into work the literal day before i leave and then catch a train across the country at 5am the next morning 2 get 2 the airport...not going 2 be fun so i'll take all the well-wishes i can get !!

sorry 2 hear u can't find marx in ur native language :( it's hard enough 4 me 2 understand reading in my first language i cannot imagine trying 2 parse it in a second language...maybe it might be easier 2 find one of his (or engels') shorter texts 2 read? capital is a monster but i started off with a few shorter pieces ('socialism: utopian and scientific', 'principles of communism', 'wage labour and capital,' 'value price and profit') which i found helpful! also there are lots of secondary resources of other people breaking down + explaining marx's work; maybe there's a good source in your native language that could give a summary/overview of capital? there's no one right way 2 learn, it's just abt finding what works best for u!!

iced drink supremacy 4ever truly <3 me myself & i we can only enjoy a hot beverage if it's very cold outside...otherwise i am simply thinking well why would i do that 2 myself... & thank u!! happy 2 hear u like the lines!! v happy w them v proud <3 & also appreciate the well-wishes re: weather i cannot relate 2 the hot-weather preference i much prefer cold...or at least i used to i grew up in a relatively cold climate but then i moved south 4 university so at this point i'm going on 6 years of living in what is categorized as a "humid subtropical climate" & i think my winter tolerance has been all but destroyed it hardly ever drops below freezing...but hot&humid weather is still my least favorite i think i would prefer icy-cold winter + mild summer but i will be actually putting that theory 2 the test this year so!! who knows maybe my hubris will be my downfall...

& of course!! u are welcome 2 stop by + chat anytime...in my heart we are drinking iced beverages 2gether <3 also as requested here is a snippet from ch 14:

“Don’t,” he tells her, firmly, “Don’t say that. I don’t—want you involved. If they ever did anything to hurt you…I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.” She stares at him, eyes ablaze. “And how do you think I feel? Knowing that they only pick on you because—” her voice falters, cracking, “Because you’re with me?” Her lip is trembling again, tears threatening to spill over from her eyes. Sirius shakes his head, helplessly, at a loss for what to do.

[chuuyrr]

send this silly my melody to the inboxes of blogs you wish to give a big large hug and a soft kiss!

ugh niki i’ve been wanting to stop by since valentines but i’ve felt so exhausted :’) anyways here i am now, i am wishing you a HUGE GOODLUCK ON YOUR EXAMS !! i just know you’ve been studying so hard,, all of it is going to pay off !! <3 okay wait wait—

if there was one person chuuya admired in his class, it would be niki. he admired how hardworking and diligent of a she was. moreover, despite how hard and exhausting the classes got, she always kept an uplifting and kind attitude.

he also thought niki was gorgeous. to be intelligent, pretty, and nice—how could he not notice her?

so, when the last exam of the last day was over, chuuya approached her for the first time with a bouquet of flowers and a note.

i think you’re really cute + i admire how hard you work. i got these flowers ‘cause you deserve it. :)

REVERIE !! thank u sm <3

tbh, i've been feeling quite discouraged as of late because the exams (so far) for this second term are so hard and earlier's inorganic chemistry humbled me real bad..

plus our anaphy subject exams yesterday wasn't as great either and i'm breaking out-ish from the stress, ok ok but READING that and that scenario of chuuya?? i can already imagine myself bawling my eyes out !! chuuya's so sweet and definitely bf shaped im gonna aaaaa :(

[millenniumdueled]

A package arrives, inside the cardboard box is another box, this one wrapped in a pretty, holographic wrapping paper that shines beneath dozens of doodles of yugi and his his partner and friends. Inside the present is a ton of tissue paper, all glittery and decorated with confetti.

The contents are:

A black t shirt with the sleeves clipped up, the front printed with a graphic of BunnyBee in a dark magician girl costume

Several phone pics that have been printed on the classic polaroid prints, each a picture of Yugi and Honey from their times hanging out

A selection of hair care products and a note on how and when to use them

A selection of high quality, water/smudge proof eye liner in a variety of colors

And a pair of newly released chunky boots with all hell of buckles and studs

There's also a note at the bottom that reads, "surprise!!!!! im totally bad abt like giving gifts immediately so like, i totes arranged this 2 b delivered on ur birthday, so like i totally hope it like, isn't late or i didn't spoil the surprise lololol. but shyeah i hope like, ur day is totally fabulous and unless i supes messed up my days and am busy 4 some reason, i should b free if u wanna come visit <3 i love u a ton and happy birthday!!!!!"

"just a minute!! i gotta grab something real quick!!" Yugi calls over his shoulder as he runs up the stairs to his attic room. Downstairs, so many of his friends mingle and chat, enjoying the tail end of today's hotpot party before the more fashionable of them excuse themselves to get home and dressed for clubbing later.

The unassuming package on his desk catches his eye, and for a moment, Yugi is hit with curious excitement. Another gift from a tumblr friend? Don't mind if he does!

But as he opens the plain cardboard box, he's met with a more colorful package that makes his stomach drop. He pauses as he appreciates every doodle more than the last. This time, he's so careful as he removes the paper, cursing when his shaking hands betray him and rip even just a tiny tear.

Every one of the contents he removes makes his chest ache. His missing friend smiles up at him from the photos, and his runs his fingers over her image. Even the shirt bares her visage, and in a moment of weakness he hugs the garment, presses his nose against the cloth, hoping to breathe in some hint of her.

But it's the note that really breaks him. He sucks in a sharp sob of a breath as he reads the words over and over and over. Tears sting at his eyes. God, what he wouldn't give to see her now. To hear her laughing downstairs with the rest of his friends.

His name is called from somewhere far away, pulling him from his thoughts, reminding him there's still partying to do. He takes a moment to press his lips against the kiss mark staining the page before he carefully sets the note back into the box, along with the carefully folded wrapping paper.

Now isn't the time to break down crying. It's his birthday, and he has people to keep happy and entertained. For now, he has to set the letter aside, to be strong for their sake, to keep the pain in his heart Silent. He wipes his eyes with the back of his hand and puts on a big smile before bouncing back down the stairs.

[garoujo]

hello hello emmie ! <3 how is ur work going so far for today ?? i hope all is well for u ! i've come to brainrot about nagi again bcs eee i cant help it!

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and this time its florist!nagi who fell in love with his new regular customer who very much loves flowers sm so they keep coming back to buy at his flower shop ˃̵ᴗ˂̵ so what he does to convey his feelings towards them is to give them a flower but with a hidden meaning, every time they stop by his shop! so its more like he is showing his true feelings through the language of flowers <33 i kept thinking about it bcs i own a book about the language of flowers and i cant help thinking about him being a cute florist !! i also wanted to share that im beginning to see a pattern about the characters that i like from diff. shows ! and its all about a certain hair color thats either white/light coloured ! for ex.: inumaki, gojo , kaneki, sessho, nagi , tomoe, decim- the list goes on and i just realized it now ! theres something about white haired men i swear ?! also i just started binge-reading ur one shot series with the jjk men and I AM SO HOOKED i cant wait to read more ! its like everytime i read ur works i always end up either smiling or giggling pls- i hope u always take care emmie ! dont forget to take breaks in between whenever u feel tired <33 wishing u the bestest as always !

hewo lovely nonnie !!! snifle im sorry it took me sooo super long 2 reply 2 this but i wanted 2 be able 2 give u allll of my attention out of work so i’m home now ^_^ work was okie !!! a lil boring but atleast i am home curled up in my bed + playing genshin now <3 u r ofc ofc ofcccc always welcome 2 come brainrot about him !!! i hope you’ve had the best day also o_O !

eeeeee stop flourist!nagi is so cute i can imagine him w a lil apron on + everything ! why is the thought of the big sleepy bbie arranging some flowers so cute <3 he probs has rly super good attention 2 detail also !!! ur ideas are just the sweetest ever istg >///< no cause fr ! ur just like me ! i have such a favouring 4 white hair men i love them i cant help it .. !

also omg super glad ur enjoying my lil series ! i shud hopefully have it finished 2 since i got some sudden ideas 2 finally finish it so hopefully that’ll come soon <33 snifle u are just such a sweetheart ! tht is exactly how i act reading ur asks ^_^ take care of urself bbie !!! sending soooo much hugs rn !!!

[beardedjoel]

dearest julie, i am an admirer from afar but i wanted to say thank you for all the stories you share with us! particular chapters in smother and PLW are big big big time comfort reads for me. i revisit them when i am feeling stressed or down. i was so dead and out of commission on wednesday but yesterday, for instance, i re-read dawning and liberation plus meet cute and crazy 4 u. i just started closer, it has been a busy time for me but i am so so so excited to read it each night before sleep. there is so much negativity and hate in the world and i appreciate you sharing your creative expression—it is a light in the darkness! maybe it’s dramatic but i feel like communities like this little fandom and all the amazing writing output truly give people spaces where, on one hand, we are being entertained and have fun getting horned up lol but it also is a space where people connect and learn and grow. i’m so glad to have found you and a handful of other authors on here. yes, on one hand i live for the smut and that is a big pull, but i am truly moved by the worlds you and others create, they’ve kind of taught me some stuff about myself! hope i do not sound like a crazy person. even if it were all to disappear (which i very very much hope it doesn’t but the vibes are dark right now), i am just so glad to have ever found it all. i am sending you a BIG hug. hope you have a restful and wonderful weekend ahead.

hi friend ❤️ thank you so much for popping into my inbox to send this. and thank you for reading! i promise you don’t sound crazy at all!

i think that for so many of us, writing and reading fic is a light in the darkness like you said, and that’s definitely what it is for me. i love writing, i love coming up with stories or ideas and thinking about the characters i’m writing for. it’s amazing to find like minded people who love the same characters or themes or any of it, and that we are all able to form a community, make friends, and share stories no matter how far apart we are is truly so beautiful! thanks for that reminder of how wonderful it all truly is 🥺 thank you for the love and i hope you’re having a great day/weekend as well!