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sorry to be astrology posting on main but I miss being part of a majority fire and air sign group. the majority water and air group I'm part of now is not as fun n chill. there's so much drama that I'm still not used to after being back here for almost 4 years now. there's so many factors in play ofc but honestly there's a pattern. at least two of them are coming down at the end of the month. and hopefully i can go up there in may.
#personal#dom gjorde en gruppchat och kallade den amanda himmelsfärd#för att jag ska dit kristi himmelsfärd fkgjn#vi ska upp till en stuga i dalarna...#ser fram emot d såå mkt#anyway im so tired lmao
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doing something unholy
#cult of the lamb#void of sin au#my art#cotl lamb#digital art#cotl#cotl narinder#narilamb#im so fucking tired#November sucked ass lmao#anyways theyre both freaks
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really quick messy doodle bc im on a bus rn and this has been in my head all day lol
based on my own suffering and smthn i said today bc i was in pain </3
might post some more silly stuff bc im stuck here for the next?? 5 ish hours
#alex arts#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#tmnt donnie#tmnt leo#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt leo#yes we love trans leo in this household <3#did you know turtles cycle is only once a year#god i wish#anyway i am losing my mind a little bc this bus was supposed to arrive at 215pm#then was delayed to 412pm#and only arrived at almost 9 pm#im so tired guys#but we ball#my travels#i think that was the tag i used like?? 8 years ago lmao???? when i was also travelling by bus and was drawing on it too#do kids still say yeet
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omg my greatest contribution to this site is the sesbian lex scene of caitvi LMFAOOOO WONDERFUL
#personal tag#i just found out how many notes it had bc i dont look at it......#because im ngl the set was rushed LMFAO and im so doodoo head i made it play faster oops#it ugly imo..... but it is done i cant turn it back#anyways i suppose this is my legacy now lmao#if im not tired i'll continue making another set of their fight in ep 8 but idk we'll see
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way back in like. march?? I took a stab at writing some kind of kabitserye type of story but it was a mess: it kept veering off into murder mystery drama territory because I was reading a lot of murder mystery novels around then and it Wasn't Good because I hadn't tried writing mysteries, let alone murder mysteries, before lmao
I did write a handful of short mystery stories since then, so next year I might take a stab at this idea again now that I'm no longer jumping head first into a genre pool I don't know how to swim in :)
#now for the part where i have to fight off the impulse to write in some b movie horror elements because ive been thinking about#reanimator a lot lately. ehghghh. thank god for the editing process. to wrangle my thoughts into a linear state of creating#anyway i read an article. interview? on the popularity of infidelity dramas in the philippines and it was poetry to me#and i also enjoy the really intense social melodrama in lino brocka's films. specifically the appearance of morality to cover up/justify#ugly behavior. or like. man i'm tired. whatever was going on in murder by tsismis. that's the thing. someday i'll get more into it#and post excerpts from the actual analysis of the film that actually explains the dynamic im talking around here#komiks tag#original tag#also there's some. vague lingering thought about ikaw lamang in here. not in a way that matters#but in a 'the first episode that i saw was not the first episode of the drama itself and it made me go. oh everyone has rotten vibes'#which is not. well. if you saw ikaw lamang then you know the characters. this is not the takeaway from the show. HOWEVER#i did invent a whole different show in my head between that and when the next episode aired. so.#fake ikaw lamang. ikaw lamang if it wasn't even remotely like ikaw lamang. on the topic of ikaw lamang here's a cringe story for you#still following along. BEFORE i had watched the show. i saw a notebook with franco on it but i didn't recognize the character#i just saw jake in a suit and went oh! cool! i will now Buy This!#anyway i still have the notebook lmao
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fuck it we dragon ball
#these r so stupid im sorry LMAO#my art#fanart#digital art#sketch#dragon ball#dragon ball fanart#son goku#krillin#yamcha#chi chi#krillin has such a fun design i love drawing him#i miss goku's tail. it made him really cute :(#anyway im tired; i think im gonna go to bed early. night
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if anybody is still into bmc in this good year of 2024 please interact with this post in some way i need mutuals who share my hyperfixation of getting back into it
#be more chill#i remade my tumblr just for bmc content#hoping to post some art soon#anyway please interact and i will check you out#ill revive the fandom myself if i have to so fucking help me#i need more people to scream about it to because im pretty sure my gf is tired about me talking about it unprompted lmao#maru rambles
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Hey I'm Panic, and it's time to Gay!
Biblically accurate gay people jumpscare
#This#took way longer than I expected dear g o d#It looks a lil rushed at the end Ngl I got really tired LMAOOO#I got so tired of not liking how I draw Wally I just said “F it” and made him biblically accurate#I can’t even tell how accurate this is or not my eyes and hands hurt JDHFHDH#T h o u s o u l h ur. T s#I hate coloring smh#Anyway#welcome home#welcome home wally#welcome home howdy#wally darling#howdy pillar#do I tag this as ship-?#Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm#im not sure actually LMAO#I will just because I can#Wallypillar#howdydarling#Howdy is#very weird with his head anatomy#Like bbgrl why ur ears so hIGH-
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watched a really fun stream and instead of going to bed like i should have i suddendly wanted to doodle demise and hylia like my life depended on it so heres a quick past 1am doodle that i might regret posting when i wake up tomorrow ._.
#ganondoodles#zelda#art#tloz#demise#hylia#i am .. so tired#shitty sleep depreived doodles is surely what everyone wants to see lmao#not meant as hate for myself but like#when im really tired i tend to draw not well and can only see it after i got sleep ndfjkgnfjkngvjkld#............also took pain killers so thats that#anyway goodnight
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everlasting trio redesign
check out my commissions
#danny phantom#everlasting trio#danny fenton#sam manson#tucker foley#hi im tired af but i made myself draw SOMETHING#particularly bc i've been wanting to draw this for about a month???#i had a much easier time doing this with the three of them at the same time than doing it one by one#might do more later but dont hold me up to that im busy af lmao#anyway im proud of these#sam with her space buns and rose design on the shirt#danny with the space themed embroidery done by sam on his dysphoria hoodie#and i had to do research on how to do tucker's hair but i like what's supposed to be under the beanie but also the ankh necklace#also i decided the only reason tucker's beanie is red is as a reference to danny#so are sam's space buns#and the colors on danny's embroidery are references to sam (purple moon) and tucker (stars) and phantom (planet)#i was also thinking the guys are also wearing piercings by sam's influence#and i was originally going to give sam a different more distressed skirt but i also wanted her and tucker to have matching patterns
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the kids being cute on it's LIVE ✧ "chk chk boom" band live concert ☆ ᵎᵎ
?:')
#stray kids#skz#ot8#bang chan#lee know#changbin#hyunjin#han#felix#seungmin#i.n#staydaily#bystay#:mine#t:gif#t:other#userlau#usersun#e01o#mimotag#this goddamn red background LMAO#my eyes are burning#anyway hope u guys like pink!#mino in the first gif pretending to shoot chan#love hyunjins need to just start dancing everywhere#theyre all just a lil silly#was gonna gif today's video but im so tired im gonna pass out. this has been in my drafts since the weekend
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hey guys i don't know if you know this but focusing on a disabled character's fragility and weakness as something sexy is kind of ableist. it's incredibly ableist actually. especially when you have a weird emphasis on how helpless he is and how his love interest could so easily do anything they wanted to him. did you know this. It's important to me that you know this
#chattering#dungeon meshi#mithrun#this one is coming out of the drafts actually bc im tired#im so tired of all of the squabbling over which joke is more ableist#or if people are ableist because they dont want to fuck him#when there is HORRIBLE ableism i see every single goddamn day when it comes to mithrun#from the people who claim to love him#and who say theyre the ones actually treating him right#anyway. rare angry post from me lmao#fandom wank
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The year is 2038 and we're still suffering bisexual erasure.
#detroit become human#north wr400#simon pl600#i almost had a third part with her ruffling his hair and calling him a loser but im too tired and also#i hate to say it cause it hurts to type but ... its almost bedtime#ouch its not even 6pm but i gotta try getting to bed by 6:30 lmao#anyway i think sure there are lots of headcanons on sexuality for em but like cmon ... they're just so poly coded to me personally#like i do draw them together a lot but they belong with jerichooooo in their heeeaarrtttssss#and you cant convince me north is straight idc if there isnt another woman in the jericrew but she is NOT straight to me#she can like boys as a treat but she isnt solely into guys#again this is just me and my thoughts and you dont have to agree but like... you cant convince me either is straight#and she is just sitting in his lap super content shes like a lap cat#aka once she's done and wants no more she punches his arm and gets up to leave
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(i wrote this while sick before going to the movies and then finished it after watching a movie so forgive me if it's incoherent or whateer im laying down)
do you ever think about how Azure Lion groomed Sun Wukong from a young age into being this perfect people to act as the poster child for the Brotherhood, abandoned him at his worst, was confident he could manipulate him into working for him again and then tried to do the same with Xiaotian and Xiaojiao upon first meeting them? And that, by association, he almost groomed Macaque and you can see how his manipulation affected Macaque even into adulthood when he first met Xiaotian?
No?
Azure Lion groomed Sun Wukong, tried to groom Qi Xiaotian (and Long Xiaojiao) and heavily affected Macaque's world view on Sun Wukong.
EDITOR'S NOTE:: grooming in this case does not mean anything sexual between the characters, grooming is a common trope in media and it's commonly seen as a power imbalance and manipulation tactic (see: when a father grooms his son to take over the company by inflicting him with his own ideals)
Azure Lion has a tendency to display Sun Wukong on this high pedestal and sound very confident in how he describes him. The very first thing he says in his debut is this:
“I'm flattered, truly, but if it were not for Sun Wukong bringing us together, right? Without you, none of this would be possible. Your courage to stand up to the Celestial Host has inspired us to finally take a stand. To make a true difference in the world. And I could think of none other more suitable to lead us on our conquest than you, brother.”
notice how throughout this episode sequence Azure is spoken about like he's the leader and right in every word he says. The other adults at the table (Peng, DBK and Yellow Tusk) smile and turn to him as though he's in the right. They hang on to his every word. something interesting is the fact Macaque and Sun Wukong are talked down to like they're the younger pair of the brotherhood — Peng's insults to Macaque, the way DBK asks SWK to repeat what happened during Havoc in Heaven—
heck even the way they laugh at Sun Wukong when he's being silly is a clear indicator that they see him as... silly.
It isn't until Azure Lion speaks up that they turn to him and start seeing Sun Wukong into a new light.
Not only that but the way that Azure talks to Sun Wukong raises several red flags. He looks at all his brothers the same way (e.g when he's helping Peng during a flashback in Episode 8) but it raises so many red flags when he looks at Wukong like this.
And Wukong hangs on to his every word.
Because Sun Wukong believes in what Azure Lion is saying to him. Everyone believes him in that moment. he sounds so confident in the way he says none of this would be possible without sun wukong. It's a way to manipulate him especially considering Sun Wukong was not the one to form the Brotherhood - Azure was. Azure decided to form this trio after seeing Sun Wukong for the first time according his own flashback:
And guess what? It works. Sun Wukong was minding his own business up until that point, the only thing he'd done (if the timeline matches up correctly) was become immortal and return to Flower Fruit Mountain to train his monkey army. In JTTW at this point he would've turned into a giant version of himself, scaring the other spirit kings into joining alliances with him just from witnessing that—instead we get Azure Lion believing him to be the perfect idol for his plan to come into fruition.
Fun Fact: Macaque is the only one who looks at Sun Wukong like this during Azure Lion's little speech about him and being the rightful leader of the brotherhood.
He seems more confused and shocked than the rest of them are. Mind you, he's known Sun Wukong longer than the rest of them have.
He hears Azure Lion, a veteran celestial warrior, praise his best friend and put him up on a pedestal and it confuses him. because his best friend is not like that. at least, he thinks so—but Azure sounds confident, right? he's speaking so confidently about this, so he must be right... right?
It will, eventually, lead to Macaque changing his view on Sun Wukong entirely. this is why we have shadowplay.
"That's what I believed. What Azure would have you believe."
Azure Lion affected not only Sun Wukong but Macaque in his manipulation — the timeline does not show us where Macaque went after his fall out with Wukong but the theory that he ran into the Camel Ridge Trio before fighting Wukong again works considering that line.
(Not only that but Macaque also tries to do this with Xiaotian: he introduces himself in a easily approachable way and trains him, takes him under his wing, then stomps on him the moment he stops being useful to him. he uses him to get to Sun Wukong. Xiaotian reminds Macaque of Sun Wukong and he uses similar tactics that Azure Lion used to get to Xiaotian — and it isn't until the Samadhi Fire Ritual that he realizes what he's done by being reminded of his and Wukong's fallout. He, a bystander, was also affected and influenced by Azure's manipulation.)
Additionally, Sun Wukong defends Azure Lion. He justifies attacking Heaven during Havoc in Heaven, he justifies the brotherhood's plan to go to war against Heaven—none of these plans are Sun Wukong's ideas. They are Azure's influence. In the original book, the reason why Wukong attacks Heaven in the first place is because they refuse to grant him the respect he wishes and thus Heaven is angry at him for dubbing himself the Great Sage Equal to Heaven. They ask the Jade Emperor to take care of Sun Wukong and he does—which, y'know, ends up with Wukong imprisoned afterwards. But in Monkie Kid it's all because of Azure's influence on Wukong.
Because he groomed him into being a faithful right hand man. And he is so confident in that that he gives these grand speeches and pep talks and says every perfect little line to make Sun Wukong want to follow him to Hell and back.
"When we triumph in this rebellion, the people will never live in fear. We're about to change everything. It's all because of you, brother!"
And, of course, he tries this on Xiaotian and Xiaojiao, too, when he first meets them.
When he presents himself to Xiaotian and Xiaojiao, he comes to their rescue. He already introduces himself as a savior and protagonist because he saves them from the scroll—even seemingly displaying himself as non-threatening because, while he laughs at them, he does so in a manner that's sincere and genuine. It's a goofy laugh. He's being goofy. He's playing to their good side.
It's the way he talks to them and laughs, introduces himself with such flamboyance and loudness that he mirrors Sun Wukong himself. He is such a direct influence to Sun Wukong that it carries throughout the few scenes we see of him that resemble what Sun Wukong has done with Xiaotian: the astral projection, the goofy displays of excitement, the sarcastic tones when talking about Tang, the way he greats his brothers when they are freed as old friends and all cheery and genuine.
He allows himself to be called uncy lion and romanticizes the past of the brotherhood while not elaborating on the fact he lead Sun Wukong and his brothers to a war while still blaming the aftermath and defeat of their party on Sun Wukong.
"Ah, well. The Sun Wukong isn't exactly the easiest person to get along with. He has quite a habit of keeping people at arm's length. We were young, mistakes were made... and some mistakes can't be undone."
He speaks of him in a way to spark doubt between Xiaotian and Xiaojiao and it works in the way they react to what he says. They are disheartened and Xiaojiao even mentions, later, how Sun Wukong has had a habit of keeping things to himself. I wonder why that is.
" [...] If your friendship with Monkey King meant anything to you—" "It meant everything to me." [....] "We're brothers. Nothing could ever change that."
It's the way that Azure talks to them about Sun Wukong. It's the way he still thinks he is close enough to Sun Wukong to say that nothing will change their relationship. It's the way that he tries to plant these ideas into Xiaotian's head when they first meet, because he is the Monkie Kid.
That and the fact that later, when Sun Wukong is bursting through each and every memory, he reaches Xiaotian and goes to him and tries to comfort him and say they'll get to safety soon and they just have to deal with the scroll curse—it's the fact that the moment
that pigsy
mentions Azure Lion
all of that gets paused for a moment
"Oh he says his name like that because he put him in the scroll, he shouldn't be here—" there is also the fact he's not fully blown surprised by this. he's also wary. he's hesitant. sure you can say he's surprised to hear they've met Azure Lion,
but then you get this
this is hatred. this is anger. this is not what Sun Wukong feels towards Macaque during Season 3 — he lunged at Macaque for putting Xiaojiao in danger, for putting Xiaotian in danger, for ruining his plan, and he hesitates to attack him, to deliver that final blow, his fist is shaking and Tang's interuption easily causes him to lose focus and he drops Macaque. He lets go.
THIS? This is him protecting Xiaotian. this is him not wanting Xiaotian near Azure. Xiaotian looks at Azure with wide eyes and a gaping mouth because "oh Azure's here?" but Wukong knows better.
And you cannot tell me Sun Wukong was not heavily hurt by Azure Lion's actions without looking at the way that Sun Wukong puts himself between Azure and Xiaotian immediately, how Sun Wukong tries to be a better person by putting Xiaotian's safety first, always, even if it means he gets possessed or hurt or thrown around.
You cannot tell me Azure Lion wasn't a manipulator or abuser or a person who used Sun Wukong's admiration of him against him, to turn him into an obedient follower and devoted friend, when the very first thing he does when he sees Wukong step between him and Xiaotian is sigh.
Sighs like an older mentor looking at their pupil and going "didn't I teach you better than that?"
And then he imprisons Sun Wukong.
Because he is of no use to him at that moment.
And the fucking kicker: Xiaojiao modeled her new sword after Azure Lion, then is blatantly disgusted by this when she figures out how much of a bastard he is and openly says so. Xiaotian looks distraught and confused. Because Azure admits to being guilty of using them and manipulating them. He aims for sympathy with them.
He aims for sympathy with Xiaotian.
He twists the narrative again when he and Xiaotian are alone.
He's manipulating him. He's using him.
He keeps painting Sun Wukong in this negative light. he keeps putting himself up as the sympathetic victim of it all.
"My former brother was sent to destroy us and all we had built."
and yet he still talks about Wukong as though he has a grasp on their relationship. he calls him brother. he has not abandoned that title. he still thinks of Sun Wukong as his brother and will continue to use him and his name in whatever way possible to get ahead.
Maybe it is not on purpose and Azure thinks he is being true and genuine with Xiaotian but it does not erase the fact he twists the narrative to paint Sun Wukong in a negative light in front of his successor. Because Sun Wukong and Xiaotian have a strong relationship, a bond so strong that Qi Xiaotian bursts with power and strength when he realizes Azure will not give him back to him. It's precision and control and Qi Xiaotian could wreck havoc among everyone for keeping his mentor away from him but he is so controlled and careful with his movements that he manages to not attack Azure, but throw him off balance to get him to release Azure.
All because Sun Wukong is important to him.
Because Sun Wukong was not going to treat his successor as though he were a weapon or a pawn in some major scheme like he was.
Azure Lion showers people with praise that they do not deserve nor want and does so in a way that makes the party feel either delighted to have aided with his success or horrified at the revelation. He does so when Sun Wukong brings the brotherhood together (which wouldn't have happened if Azure Lion hadn't seen Sun Wukong with his subjects that one day) and he does so when Qi Xiaotian for returning his brothers to him (which he didn't know he was doing, because Azure Lion told him he needed to defeat the curse without mentioning his friends would be released too, at least from what I can remember).
"His betrayal, his brutality. He took the only friends I had from me. I would have done anything in my power to bring them back. But it wasn't in my power, it was in yours. You saved my friends. You returned them to me. And for that, I am eternally grateful."
This is similar to what he says to Sun Wukong when he was thanking him for bringing the brotherhood together.
And then, what happens when all this manipulating and tricking does not work? When Qi Xiaotian teams up with Sun Wukong instead of siding with Azure Lion?
"After all Sun Wukong has put you through, how much he's let you down, you would still meet your fate trying to protect him?! (...) He doesn't deserve such loyalty, yet you insist on learning the hard way, just as I did! I should've never trusted the Monkey King! The False Sage, Equal to Nothing!"
He fucking insults Sun Wukong. Sun Wukong who rushes in to protect Xiaotian, who shoves Azure Lion out of the way, and checks on Qi Xiaotian when he glitches out and starst to lose control of his powers.
And when he's losing against Xiaotian? When he struggles to keep up with him?
"Look what he's done to you! Reduced you to a mindless, savage animal."
Again, Macaque's obsession over Sun Wukong makes sense now. His obsession is a result of Azure Lion's doing. His obsession is what Qi Xiaotian could have been had he not known Sun Wukong for who he really is: his mentor and friend.
What gets to me is what Xiaotian says to him when he's losing:
"That's what you were pretending to be, right? To be my friend? To care about me? When really, you were just using me to get what you wanted! To turn me against my own mentor! Well, put your hand in the monkey cage and expect to get bit, son! Come on! Come on! Come on, Uncy Lion! You're the big hero, right?! Then prove it! Show me!"
It's a perfect way of snapping back at Azure for all his manipulation.
And then Azure dies.
He learns he's being manipulated for someone else. He cries and smiles and dies.
What for?
He doesn't save anybody.
He doesn't suffer consequences of manipulating people. He doesn't do anything heroic and he doesn't even save the world by sacrificing himself because Nezha is the one who seals away the Jade Emperor's powers in the end.
He's a natural manipulator.
He's not a hero.
he's a loser
#analysis#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#azure lion#lmk azure lion#lego monkie kid azure lion#ok idk how else to tag this lmao#its over 2k#i am so fucking tired#anyways#how are you guys?#me? im tried as FUCK
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i can finally say real and sincere words i dedicate my song to you
print on my etsy
#vocaloid#kagamine rin#art#kokoro#vocaloid fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#highlight reel#art prints#if you're seeing this a few hours after posting the print hasn't been listed yet im gonna do that when i wake up and this is queued lmao#so give it a second!!! it'll be there soon. cant take good pictures at 5 AM ;;;;#anyway every 6 years or so i draw kokoro fanart. first in middle school. then to dunk on middle school me. now to dunk on both of them#i got tired of spending days chipping away at pieces i wanted to sit down and make something in one sitting again#and i thought this would make a nice little print too. so i did this in like uhhh six hours#and that was still with distractions. did it all in one day though! yippie !#this prints so beautifully btw. could not believe what came out of my printer. and on matte paper too
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Putting off uploading because I kind of hate this comic right now, lol.
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#ive been forcing myself through burnout to get pages done anyway for MONTHS#maybe its just irl stuff still kickin my butt idk#im just so tired#sorry aaah#anyway#swifthawk's chance#blood and bone#comic pages#swiftpaw lives au#firestar#redtail#brick#scorch#scourge#tawnypaw#swifthawk#tigerstar#redtail was always fire's starclan guide in place of spottedleaf#last we saw mention of it was like 300 pages ago oh my heck#ok shutting up now#sorry#excuse me thats just pages in bab it was more like 500 pages ago lmao
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