#anyway if u don't see me it's bc i'm feeling insane . and if u DO see me you'll know i'm feeling insane

[crossbackpoke-check]

blessed be (lorscher bienensegen) | telling the bees (wiþ ymbe)

"Bees" [remixed, abridged], Claudia Emerson // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed. abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "Letter to my Great, Great Grandchild" [remixed, abridged], J.P. Grasser | Len Redkole, Nina Weiss, Brian Babineau, Christian Peterson, Mitchell Leff, Dave Isaac, Megan DeRuchie

[thelilylav]

Crashed out about the Prime Minister calling a snap election in the reblogs and ended up getting blocked LMAOOO

[sungtaro]

stalking r/passnclex like a little gremlin and repeating the affirmation 'i'm a baddie with an attitude' (allen ma, 2023) for the next 38 hours everyone please keep me in your thoughts and prayers

[docmerlin]

glances between people who only care about romantic ships and people who feel the need to loudly complain about romantic ships

lays down

[cringe6fail6star6]

Some devils(kings n nobles) turn into a plushie n MC finds out thing about themselves. Self indulgent as fuck bc I love this trope

MC: I knew i had something wrong with me. But ur just so cutteeeee ;(((

Mammon, sitting on their lap, weighing MC down so they cant stop petting him: I don't see how this can be wrong

MC: Mammon ur guts gonna spill out, I'm not doing thisss

Beelzebub, on their shoulder: Grinding it is!!!

MC, dying inside: I cant survive this

Satan, can't bite, can't scratch, his punches r soft: u won't

....

Strangling Leviathan is even easier, but it doesn't give the same effect.

Carrying Belphegor is also easier, too much, u forgot him in ur pocket at least 3 times n he didn't even say anything.

Asmo is... Charm still works. His plush guts doo spill out. But damn being a sexless plush does NOT stop him from being a whore. (ITS UR OPPORTUNITY TO BATHE HIM, PUT HIM IN THE DISHWASHER)

Lucifer is chilling. Maybe more than others actually. Gamigin took him in and just carrying him around and treating him well bc he was raised well :) He was forgotten I flower pot 15 different times.

....

Gehhenna camp

Paimon, I think, can sew, so he makes new clothes for himself constantly n makes MC do photoshoots together. How he operates the machine in this form so well? Wouldn't u want to know. :)

Leraye n Zagan hate NOT being carried. They will full on whine if u don't hold them. Talisman r attached to u more easily n u still have no idea when he did that. Ripping cloth sounds the same as thunder if u do it fast enough, pls keep an eye on Leraye.

Astaroths snake carries him in its mouth and stares at u to fix him. He narrates his writings n makes u write for him bc, turns out, having stumps for hands fucks up ur motor skills.

Jjuy looks normal in Belials hands now! He looks like little tsum in his arms. :3

Ppyong is bigger tsum, but still a tsum. He can fly. Surprisingly. Imagine him pulling out that cum bottle from his stomach like normally, but he doesn't have a neck.

Sitri... gets punted out of the window.

Amy... also gets punted out of the window.

Watching the two fight is fun! As always! But stitching them back up, literally, becomes kinda annoying.

.....

Tartaros camp

Valefor tries to protect u from a stray devil cat. But u pick him up and protect him instead bc that cat was ready to kill him. The plushie is heavier than others.

Eligos - the cutiepie got even cuter. MC almost dies from a heart attack. Gets pampered even more than usual, which is... INSANE. But he deserves it.

Bimet... He's so loud. He finds ur wallet n scoffs bc there's not enough money. Steals it anyway. Hides in his small plushie robe and ur wallet pokes out of it.

"Oh so thats whos been stealing my wallet."

"It wasnt hard because ur wallet so thin."

"Give it back."

"No."

....

Hades camp

Glasyabolas hides in his plushies n jumps cares u constantly. He hides in darker parts of the castle making u literally hunt him down n tries to bite ur ankles. (Pretends to be dead well, no blinking or anything, he looks terrifying n gets mad when u dont act out on ur urges)

Badbatos, *sigh*, ull have to bathe him so many times bc he keeps hiding in the flowers n getting dirty. LOVES drying under the sun still, I think that's half the reason why he gets dirty in the first place.

Foras... Also hides. And prefers to stay hidden. Made u trip at least 3, first time it was accidental, every other bc he wanted to feel ur weight on him. Became a pancake.

Orias, ull be lucky if he doesn't stab anyone. Melts in ur hands. Absorbs all the compliments n goes to be a menace to others, be they're a plushie or not. He hunted down devils while in this form. Humorous to anyone who isn't hinted down.

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Abbyssos/Avissos

Amon - asleep for most time. Sleeps in ur pillow so check before going to sleep. Curls up like a kitten occasionally.

Naberius has two more heads permanently now with dog ears n a tail. He needs to find new glasses bc plushie-ness changed his prescription n glasses became fake.

Stolas is so loud, and so so so so annoying to listen to. He has a lot to say, n u can't even be mad at him bc he's so cute. Denies it bc his pride depends on it. Melts anyway.

Bael sighs bc u have to force him to take a break. It's ur vacation now.

"Im sorry." He says while sitting on the desk with u doing documents for him

"Its okay." Pat his head.

....

Nifleheim camp

Gusion finds new glasses faster than Naberius did n helps him find glasses for him. Actually not chill at all, has no control over his voice n good cranky bc he can't write down his calculations well enough n ure too slow for him.

Bathin stays on ur head. For wherether reason. He just likes being tall. U stuck a star sticker on his forehead bc he misbehaved less than others.

Agares n Vassago stay together in a corner scheming the whole curse duration. Harumon stayed the same n helps u wrangle the plushie in needed places, but refuses to touch Vassago, actively hides behind u when plushie moves towards him. Teach Agares some tricks by throwing orange pieces his way.

Beleth can't smoke, has to go cold turkey for the curses duration n is STRUGGLING. He can't do his job, he drags Belphegor around for u. If u smoke asks u to shotgun him every time u take out a cigarette.

....

Paradise Lost camp

Marbas. U need two arms to hold him in place. Weirdly chill about the whole situation. The blood packets became fake, n he hid it for a few days from u.

Morax, stays on ur shoulder and looks around for u to keep an eye on people. His powers didn't die, but u need fix him together constantly so he's not allowed to heal while he's like this.

Buer is... asleep? Meditating? Smelling the incense? Fuck if u know. But he stays in one place so ure not scared for him. U will pluck him with u if Bimet starts acting out tho. Besties reunite n now scheme together.

Gamigin runs behind u so u either pick him up n suffer consequences of that (he moves too much n smack u a lot with his smaller, still metal, staff) or suffer consequences of letting him fall face first (Lucifer is glaring u down, + ur heart is breaking bc come on its Gamigin, be nice to him.).

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Abbadon camp

Phenix calms down. Mild calm. He's still horny but almost all plushie follow the same mold so he ACTUALLY feels his brain working! He's so weirdly damp tho...

Ronove is so cute, nuzzles into ur leg, n u get the strong urge to punt him into a window with other annoying plushies. But u control urself. For now. Ronove meets Glasyabolas n now both of them attack ur ankles. Or both of them bully Dantalion n now u have a completely different damp toy to bathe.

N while we talk about Dantalion, use him as ur stress relief, throw him against a wall. He won't die from that N he doesn't have bones! He'll moan a lot but look it's just a side effect for ur stress reliever. Look at the bright side, If he spills a few plushie insides, both of u will enjoy it :)

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Heaven camp, only seraphim

Micheal hisses at u when u find his new hiding spot, but u pull him out n he melts bc he's so touch starved since Lucifer left. Baby him for a bit n he won't leave u alone. Probably will call u his sibling?? Probably he's a bit out of it.

Raphael can't eat weaker angels, he became the weaker angel, tries to feed himself to u. Fails. Tries to bite u but he's a plushie so it doesn't work either. Throws a tantrum. Second later, nuzzles into ur chest n almost purrs.

Gabriel bites ankles. He tries to slash them too, but fails bc he's weapon is fake. If u pick him up he tries to punch u in the face. He's punches aren't that painful n really ticklish. He gets pissed odd if u laugh.

[seokjinsonlyone]

mostest to leastest down bad members over their partner go!

tae: he'd wear a collar with your name on it if you let him like he couldn't possibly be anymore yours than he already is; willing to do any and everything for you frfr; and if u remember on jinny’s kitchen there’s this one point where seojin did like an employee evaluation for each of them and for tae he was like he’s very diligent and never complains about his work and that just made me think like if you were with him he’d do/go/wear whatever you asked no complaints all you gotta do is love him in return

jk: he's next in line bc i have him on the record saying 📋 🤨👓🤏 "i give my all to those i love until they break my heart" so it's safe to say that if you're his partner there's nothing he wouldn't do for you; like we've seen the work he's done with bangtan it don't matter how many times each of them call his name and ask him to help with something even if it exasperates him at times he always show up; so we know he's on the submissive side; also we know that he's a little brat that likes to play hard to get but a hopeless romantic at the same time so if you managed to get him he's bound to be head over heels

yoongi: next is our former tiktok star min “i do whatever they ask me to do” yoongi; like he did all the challenges his hoobaes asked him to do, he complained to iu face about her not inviting her to do eight on tour, whenever there was a ridiculous request from armys on live like show me your teeth or your hands or play us a song he always did it; he just really likes to be wanted so if you want him you have him and i'm pretty sure he'd be wrapped around your finger while he's at it

jin: i'm placing jin right in the middle bc we see just how much he's been on his i love army i live for army ever since he's been back and he does whatever we tell him for the most part so i do believe he'd have a good measure of down badness; however he is still very much an autonomous individual so like you'd have his heart in your hand but sometimes you'd have to squeeze it a little to get what you want LOL

jimin: this man is a baby and he enjoys being a baby so i feel like on the spectrum of down badness i think he'd more enjoy the feeling of you being down bad for him; he loves the power he'd have over you he'd relish in it giggle over it plot evilly over it get his rocks off to it fr; but honestly he's got that dominant protective nature running through him too and he likes to make other people his babies; so he'd definitely adore you as well you'd probably be equally down bad over each other but he'd try his hardest not to let it show (it'd be obvious to everyone)

hobi: second to last is mr i smile while i'm correcting; now he loves you for sure no doubt about that but he is nawt about to let you get away with any and everything LOL; he gives very much 50/50 in a partnership; a very balanced give and take; a very controlled push and pull; he seems like he'd thrive with someone very cool and independent who doesn't need or want him to primp and preen and fawn over them all the time; he'd still do it tho bc that's just who he is but it wouldn't be an excessive amount and like you got it but not too much now not too much

joon: i'm surprisingly putting joon last; it really is surprising bc he has all the makings to be at the top of this list; the loving, the longing, and the desperation; however it's all that that leads me to believe he would end up with someone who could ground him completely; like he frfr needs to be taken care of bc bro can be emotionally volatile; have you listened to rpwp????? like i know you've heard it but did you LISTEN???????; so anyway it is my prognosis that joon would end up with a partner that is all about him like they would go together real bad and they would not play about him; and it goes without saying that he would appreciate that immensely and at times he would probably literally kiss the ground you walk on (sex life would be insane); however i just believe he got a lot going on personally to be excessively down bad over his partner at all times

[cowboyjen68]

Hi!!

I just wanted to ask some advice from one butch to another.

I recently got my dream job of being a warden on a nature reserve (and i love it!), while interacting with people there I get called a young man very often (i am 18 lol) and it gives me euphoria to know im masculine enough to even pass as a man. I've also had some volunteers ask if I was a man or not (despite my feminine name).

But recently I got called a "lady" outside while out with my mother. It drove me INSANE I cried alot.

Don't get me wrong I do identify as a woman but I hate being seen as a lady.

I've even thought about using he/him pronouns recently and changing my name but i'm too scared to as most people won't understand bc im still a lesbian.

Is this strange?

ps love u and ur blog lots xx

This is an easy answer because I was 18 once and looked enough like a teenage boy that I got "hey sport" and "hey young man" all the time, especially when in my work clothes. I worked for The Mayor's Youth Corp in Iowa City in the summers of my 15th and 16th year. Mom and Dad let me get a work permit AND bought me a used Datsun Pickup so I could drive myself the 20 miles there and back each day.

I was a volunteer with the Corp of Engineers youth from 14 to 16 and Dad knew I was super excited about this job. Mom was not thrilled that I wanted to cut my hair but my "grand mullet" was really hot under the hard hat in the summer heat of Iowa. (in the 1980's boys and girls had the short in front long and permed in back look) We compromised and I cut the sides really short. (photo of my me at 16 in my uniform for reference)

Using "he" would never have occurred to me because "EWWW Boys". This is not to say, however, that I hated being mistaken for a boy, on the contrary, it felt good. When someone thought I was a young man it meant they treated me as such. They didn't talk down to me, I knew they assumed I was capable and willing to get dirty. I knew unconsiously that along with the mistaken identity came many perks. This was nothing I analyzed but little girls see very early on the difference in treatment they recieve from their brothers, male cousins and neighborhood boys. This difference leads us to become negotiators to control our circumstances and not entittled to treatment based on our skills and actual personalies.

When an adult recognized me as a boy, even for a second at first glance, I knew I didn't have to prove myself. They, for an instant, assigned to me words like "strong, capable, demanding etc". No negotations required.

When someone realized I was a girl they literally had a change in their face. They smiled at me, softened their voice. When I was called "young lady" or "Miss" it always seemed to be backed my the worst assumptions (in my mind anyway). Lady is steeped in all kinds of traits I didnt want assigned to me. "quiet, weak, likes to dress pretty"OR "motherly, submissive, meek" Nothing good in my teen brain, that is for sure. Lady felt so OLD, so married to a man and reliant on him for survival, so polyster pants and ugly flats and scratchy blouses with a flower imprint. NONE of these things are inherent to being a woman or even socially forced on us but that is not how things work sometimes. Words that describe people get stereotypes and myths and traits attached to them all the time. Woman and girl are no different.

I can tell you, the best feeling in the world when I was in that job was when my supervisor, who damn well knew I was a young woman, trusted me with all the same tasks as the boys. Who valued my opinions and abilities equally to the young men. He took time to teach me what I didn't know, just like with them and didn't assume I couldn't or didn't want to learn things on the job. He didn't shame ANYONE for not being strong enough or for getting tired or needing a break.

Don't let the assumptions of others force you into another box of conformity. You don't need a boys name or to use any pronouns you don't feel connected to just to please others. In fact, none of that effort will change perceptions of those around you. I can promise that one day being called Lady will just be another word that you can hear and know it does not change your personality or your interests or control the hope you have for your future. What does waste a lot of time and energy is trying to adjust things in your life to fit incorrect or snap assumptions about you as a person. You can never control the thoughts of those around you but what you can do is stop worrying about it and enjoy YOU.

You have a job you love and are sure to thrive in. You are solid in your sexuality and love of women, you are in a unique position to possibly change the perceptions of others when they think of "young women". Your interactions with the public are sure to effect the assumpions of at least some people when they think of young women and their roles in our society.

Congratulations on your new career and I bet you rock that uniform.

[geppettospuppet]

pino affection hcs<3

a/n: two hc posts in a day bc i'm insane I JUST LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! ok hope u sillies enjoy

ok remember how i said in my last post pinocchio would be gentle?

OWIRJALDJJRAAAAHAHAHHEJAJAJA *EATING SHEETMETAL*

yeah so anyway that 100% includes how he interacts with his lover

actually, pino would go out of his way to learn to become more gentle and empathetic for the person he developes feelings for (once he learns what empathy is ofc)

because he isn't very vocal, don't expect him to say "i love you" too often

i mean HE WILL!! but with the way his mind works, he'd rather just show you that he loves you through actions

one of the biggest things for p is quality time

i've seen some people on here have the reader read stories to pino and oh my gosh i absolutely love the idea

not only would he listen to you read stories to him, but he would also just be a great listener in general

whether you're telling him about your day or ranting about a pet peeve

he will always listen to you intently because well!!! he loves you and you could never annoy him

not that pino gets annoyed often... unless it's at gemini...

another thing i can see that pretty boy doing is kiss his partner periodically without warning

and he will do it EVERYWHERE

be prepared for surprise kisses

but pino isn't the type to be aggressive about it at all. it's more like... you'll be doing something mundane and p will just come up and kiss you softly on your head/hand/cheek/lips/ect

tbh this is giving me a oneshot idea

he also loves to cuddle, but was super hesitant to do it at first because he's so heavy that he's nervous you'll just feel uncomfortable:(

but over time i can def see him crawling into bed with you and snuggling after you gave him a talk about it

"pino you never make me uncomfortable when you cuddle with me!!! now get in bed!!!" and he just obeys and the topic never gets brought up again

also, i hope you're not freaked out by people staring at you

because tbh... pino would absolutely stare at you intently over everything you do

but the boy is just so enamored by you and your beauty HE JUST NEEDS TO LOOK AT YOU ALL THE TIME!!!!

im sorry he's kind of a weirdo </3

also? because he's learning what it means to be human what better way to do it than to just watch it happen in real time!! and from his favorite person at that!!!

another thing i can see p doing is giving you random things he finds while adventuring

sometimes they're really cool things like extra parts from a giant puppet he fought!!

other times... it would be trash

but nevertheless, you still accept it because it truly is the thought that counts

and if it's cool to him and brings him joy, it brings you joy too!!

overall this boy just adores you and and would give you the world if he could. you're just so delicate and precious to him💞

[willmiwi]

I'm gonna drop this out there. Buddie being endgame just. Makes sense. The series being on season 8 and having already major relationships Bobby/Athena Maddie/chimney Hen/Karen and Buck and Eddie being the only ones that still seem to struggle finding the right person is not a coincidence. We're supposed to get to this point and think to ourselves "Hey man ... Everyone's happy and in a relationship but these two... I want them to be happy too, they deserve it" and it's supposed to hit hard being as we've seen throughout the show how much Buck and Eddie have struggled in their lives but also bc having a significant other is something both Eddie and Buck crave like nothing else in the world (if them looking for the right person non stop throughout the seasons is anything to go by). They want to find that person so badly and they always try. So so hard. So why aren't they getting that? Bc it's supposed to feel as even a sweeter victory once they finally get it.

Eddie on one side, doesn't seem to click with any woman he's ever dated and feels like he's failing somehow bc it's what he's supposed to have. He's supposed to be happily married to a woman and have christoper by his side. Being a happy little traditional family. But every time, no matter how much he tries, it still feels wrong. He even admits he dated a woman bc his son loved her and he was hoping he could too at some point.

And then there's buck, that has spent 8 seasons on and off relationships, but it's different this time. It's not like Eddie. He creates an actual bond w these women. He sees a future w them. But again they're not right. Not because he's not trying but bc he does and they don't try hard enough. Or think he's too much. There's always an imbalance of some sort.

And before any of u come at me saying how bucks dating t*mmy now, i just want to point out he's very obviously a plot device sent in to introduce buck's bisexuality (and even possibly, buddie's feelings realization arc). And it will be over soon enough too, like all the other romantic relationships bucks had so far, bc it's not supposed to last.

You can tell that much by the fact that they were never off to a great start, their relationship is literally a result of buck reflecting his feelings for Eddie (we get an entire episode of Buck going insane from jealousy being desperate for Eddie's attention, him telling Maddie about it. And then the last minute change of course w buck saying "trying to get your attention has been kind of exhausting." "My attention?" "Yeah, I guess so")

well bud, you've evidently guessed wrong, that's what we were told the entire episode, he made a wrong guess.

And things don't do so great after that either. What with t*mmy almost outing him to Eddie on their first date, dumping him on the side of the road after said date (if you can even call it that). The calling Buck "Evan" thing, after we've explicitly been told that people that truly know him call him Buck. Not having his back on things aka the refusal to dress up for the bachelor party (isn't that what truly matters though? Having a partner and knowing that they have your back?).

Anyway ! Fear not buddie enthusiasts ! whatever this season brings us, know that these guys are definitely getting their much deserved happy ending <3

[lactoseintolerentswag]

when they've got interpreting spiderman noir under a specific cultural lens at the function [picture of me going insane]

I cant help myself.. what can i say. And since you've mentioned some research going on behind the scenes.. do you have any fun interpretations? Or even anything fun about the 1800s!

OH HI

Hm. I don't have anything as fun as historical dancing, but I suppose this does give me the excuse (thabk u) to blab about Noir's childishness.

(wow putting this under the cut bc it got longer than I thought it would LMAO)

I think what a lot of people (including Noir's contemporary writers and yes even the spiderverse interpretation) fall for when trying to read Noir's character is the imitation of his idea of what an adult is, that he hides behind. Like Noir's persona is incredibly exaggerated. He's playing pretend. Look here, he's practicing.

A lot of his persona as Noir is imitation! Imitation of his uncle, of Urich, of the violence he's been exposed to. He's running around in his uncle's old uniform. Fundamentally misunderstanding WHY his uncle had been ashamed of it and his role in the war.

And then he goes ahead and steals Urich's alias because it sounds Cool (which is such a teenage thing to do jesus christ).

But like that imitation of The Adult isn't something that's limited to that exaggerated persona that Noir encapsulates. Peter himself is trying So Hard to be grown up and tough and responsible that it loops back around to him being a brat who would try the three guys in a trench coat trick. He even gets beat up for it when trying to defend his aunt. And I mean I've posted about him being a brat.

About how he looks at Urich as a Prime Example of what a strong and knowledgeable adult is (which is part of why he reacts so volatile in response to Urich showing he's not exactly as morally righteous as himself, he's wounded and let down). Whiskey? Whiskey sounds like someone Mature and Cool would drink, I'll have it too. And then proceeds to throw his drink at Osborn and laugh about it. The illusion was broken for me then.

But well it's not broken for everyone. I mean like obviously I poked at the contemporary writers, but I'm more talking about the other characters in the narrative. Mainly Urich and Felicia.

Urich taking Peter under his wing isn't entirely under the motivation to nurture Peter. I think it Becomes that, but he's really envious of that kid. He wants to see him lose that hope that he once had (ruh roh the opposite thing happened, being around the kid made YOU more hopeful Ben. Guess you gotta be good. Hope you don't die now).

Urich really is exposing him to an extremely harsh reality, and taking him places where adults are typically only allowed. He's letting Peter get a glimpse into what it's like, which will eventually enable Noir's tool of violence. All these tests will accumulate into what Peter thinks someone powerful and strong can be and do.

Then his problematic relationship with Felicia (writers I'm malleting you for this). He's clinging to her adulthood and the safety she represents, and he's young but she sees some adult strength in him. I mean she trusts him with the blackmail Urich gave her, which she really. Shouldn't, even if that's what Urich wanted.

Anyway, strength is something she's been consistently drawn to her in her partners. Strength to feel as her own. Even if it's to hers and others' detriment. There's also a part of Peter that's drawn to Felicia because Urich was. He's still honing in the good parts of Urich he wants to be.

I think the one person in the narrative who doesn't fall for it? Is Aunt May. You could argue it's just her being naturally motherly, but for someone who was about to be eaten alive she's pretty frank with Noir. I think she can see that that violence and exaggerated grittiness comes from someone inexperienced and young. Even if she can't consciously recognize the similarities between Noir's persona and Peter's protectiveness of her. I don't think she wants to see that. I actually have a short comic script about that, but it probably will never see the light of day.

Ugh he's like a cat puffing up to scare away a predator. It's fake!!!!! It's all fake!!!!!! He gets intimidated by JJ, he never ties his shoes, gets powers and then immediately guns to beat the shit out of Osborn, sings about the sandman when he's getting his face bashed in, crawls to Felicia all pathetic and sad, and he made a costume to run over roofs at night in.

And it's funny how he's forcing himself to grow up, but also really sad because all the things he's being exposed to is already forcing him to grow up. He's witnessing things no kid should ever see or experience.

Then there's the time period to consider. The aftermath of WWI, being in the midst of the Great Depression, and WWII just around the corner. He's faced incredible hardship and is going to continue to face so much hardship, and he's going to mature faster than he ever should have. It should have made him crash and burn Hard when he became an adult, and to me he still does because I'm ignoring everyone after ewaof LMAO.

As for my research on the 1800s NY that's for my own spider iteration run I'm working on, so not too related to Noir until I reach the 30's :3

Hope that was satisfying!!

[macknshift]

[ ☀️ 🗺️ 🪼&👙 ] for your marauders reality pleasseee 🥺🙏

YIPPEEEEEE THE DR I LIVE MY MERMAID PRINCESS FANTASY IN!!!! (thank u for the ask pooks)

𐔌 . ☀️ ⋮ DAYS OF SUN ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are your go-to summertime activities? do you and your friends plan big garden parties with all the fruits and snacks? maybe a charcuterie board? possibly a water balloon tournament?

day-to-day, i do three things; swim (in a lake near my house. it's enchanted to not have any creatures or illnesses in it, Thank God!) read, and tan. i lay out in the sun for so long every day. i know that logically i don't have to care about tanning bc i'm a metamorphagus and i can change my skin color at whim (which i don't do?? btw??? i've seen ppl say that they do and i am NAWT a race changer good lord) and also the sun is not that strong in my hometown, but i just like laying in the sun and getting a nice bit of outside time. i usually bring an enchanted mp3 player so i don't have to bring any electronics with me lol

otherwise, i just like popping in and visiting my friends where they live. i think i visit remus the most (mainly bc we're bffs but also his family is so sweet (his younger sister adores me, i'm like her idol or smth lol)) but i go see james specifically a lot too. (euphemia hooks me up w some of the best food i've ever had in my entire life LMFAO) my friends obviously come and visit me too, so it's not like i'm the one travelling to them 24/7, but it is a really fun activity to just go floo-ing around the greater UK area lol

𐔌 . 🗺️ ⋮ WORLD WIDE MAP ֹ ₊ ꒱ if you could have one fantastic trip where would you go? why would you go there? what intrigues you about that place? are there certain activities there that have attracted you there?

i would LOVE to visit japan. japan is overall a bucket list country for me anyway, but i can imagine that the magic system there is probably pretty different. besides that, i just really want to go to the studio ghibli museum y’all 🙏🏻🙏🏻 like PLEAK just once and i will be a happy clam i promise i will be!!!!!! i honestly don't know who would come with me tee bee h. i feel like logically i could drag remus with me he would basically go anywhere w me and probably (weirdly) alice fortescue? she's japanese (adopted by the fortescues!) and i know that she likes to travel based on her and frank planning on taking a gap year once they graduate (they graduate 2 years before i do!) so maybe? mayhaps? alice would come along? i think i could also convince marlene too. she's on a "my parents want me to stay inside SO I MUST TRAVEL!" kick rn (which like, good for her tbh)

𐔌 . 🪼 ⋮ COLORFUL JELLYFISH ֹ ₊ ꒱ okay, we're going to the biggest aquarium in the world. where are you dragging me first? to the large sharks? the exotic fish? fish tank tunnel to watch the fish above us? or are you mad at me because you wanted to go get ice cream instead?

on top of the whole. u know. mermaid fairy princess vibe i try to have, i deadass think i can talk to fish. like, not shitting you, i think i can. or at least like. dolphins. (they’re kind of terrifying but my mom’s patronus is one so i’ve learned to appreciate them LMFAO)

personally i looove just running around and seeing all the little guys. like the tiny ones that get overlooked for the Big Kahunas™️ bc that’s just how i am as a person i think??? idk i’m just a “look out for the little guy” type ig. besides that! however! as i mentioned in the marvel dr answer, i do tend to go insane for the fish tank tunnels. in my cobra kai dr i’m sooo excited to go to the sekai taikai solely for that aquarium i’m so srs LMFAOOO obvi barcelona *said in the voice of that kid from booksmart that says s-es as ‘th’* will be super fun but like!!! aquarium!!!!!! i am getting off track lol

𐔌 . 👙 ⋮ DOTTED BIKINI ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are your dearest summer pieces? a swimsuit that highlights the color of your eyes and makes you feel good? an old band tee you put on after you're done swimming? a new top with pretty flowers on it?

*kim crawford dance* THIS MY JAM!!!!!! the little collage i made above is pretty much the vibe for my summer clothing! i'm ngl, i dress pretty much the same every single season, just varying amounts of skin showing 😭😭 i'm a metamorphagus as well, so i change my hair color based on whatever i'm wearing that day too. i normally stick to those same pastels & everything, and of course the vibe is pastel mermaid princess, so my hair is either the typical pastel pink (what i make my 'default') OR a bright blonde with streaks of whatever color i'm wearing that day (usually pink, purple, or blue streaks!) which i think is super fun.

jewelry wise, i stick to the same jewelry i wear all year (i have a heart-shaped locket necklace from my parents that has a photo of me and my family & a photo of my nuna and bamp (my grandparents) and another necklace that has a sea star pendant from my mom. i wear a crap ton of rings, with various jewels and things and a few separate bracelets, including a charm bracelet with a charm for each year i complete of school, which is super fun. kind-of pjo vibes a bit?) BUT! i wear a lot of arm cuffs? i think they look super cool, and it kind of adds to the whole beach-y vibe. it's kind of ironic that my ass lives in (lowkey) dreary belfast, ireland, but it's alright!!! i travel a bunch!!!

[facefullofsadness]

THAT SAKURA FIC…. was so good omfg.. do you by chance have any sub ish/switch yunjin thoughts bouncing around because i will die on the switch!yunjin hill as a soft!dom/switch reader….

tysm for liking the kkura fic!!! and YES OMG, love to headcanon basically every idol as a switch bc I am one LMAO

content - me rambling ab how obsessed I am w yunjin, ig smut? I mean I'm just sharing my thoughts lol

wc - 685

yunjin is such an auditory person.

I feel like regardless of taking on a dom/sub role, she lovesssss sound. so like I just imagine if she's topping, she'll moan with you as she slides her slick pussy against yours.

she's all, "fuck y/n, your pussy feels so good. can you feel it too? can you feel how fucking wet I am for you? you're driving me insane." GRRR SHE'S SO HOT !!

like even if she's in a dom situation, she'll BEG YOU to let her fuck you. and when you do, she'll be all whiney and desperate in your ear, saying how badly she missed how warm and dripping your hole is around her fingers. giving service top energy I suppose.

"god how I missed this pussy. you just take my fingers so well and feel fucking incredible around me. more baby? do you need more? don't hold back on me now."

IMAGINE IMAGINE she wakes you up at night, deep voice all low and croaky, and she rasps out so sexily in your ear, "babe, please please let me eat you out. you don't even have to stay awake, I just need to taste you." LIKE??!??!

and all of that ^^ already rides the fine line of her being a switch on her (kinda) dom side. just imagine her subby.

bc on the flip side, instead of fucking your pussy with her own, her holding you by your thighs and grinding, you're instead guiding her hips while she's on top of you.

"that's it baby, you can do it. grind against me just like that," you say, kissing her neck as she's clutching onto your shoulders and eyes squinted shut.

"ah y/n! please please, fuck it feels so good, fuck me harder please baby..." yunjin moans out.

you flip her onto her back where ur now on top of her, your guys' legs intertwined, and you hug her leg that's up in the air, fucking your cunt hard against her clit.

she pathetically moans your name and throws her head back, her hands clawing at the sheets and it worries you that she might actually rip them. and she's sooo vocal.

it gets you off to hear how good you fuck her and it only increases the sheer amount of arousal coursing through your body. she loves it just as much. in both dom and sub situations, yunjin gets hornier at your moans, her own moans, the wet squelching of fingers fucking each other's holes, the slurping lewd loudness of giving head, the slippery mess of grinding pussies with one another. she's so obsessed with it (she is a producer and composer after all yk yk).

also in my mind, although I don't think she's sensitive, as opposed to someone like chaewon or winter who in my mind, you trail your fingertips against their abdomen and they shiver. yunjin's not like that, but I do see her feeling ignited when you're direct.

say you come up behind her while she's playing guitar sitting down, wrapping ur arms around her waist and kissing her neck while you moan with every mark. oh, the way she'd throw her head back and give you more space, her breathing immediately getting heavier.

or even imagine sitting on her lap while ur at the lsfm dorm for a movie night (how many fucking "movie night at their dorm" fanfics have you read? add +1 to ur list!), or vice versa, and leaning in to her ear and let out an orgasmic moan. just for fun! just for shits and giggles!

the way her body would tense up and thighs would clench. she'd look at you in the eyes and you would chuckle at how much lust immediately filled her's.

anyway to conclude, both of you being switches would curate a dynamic where you could both play either role you wanted when either of you wanted it. if one day u wanted to bottom, she'd top you. if one day she wanted to bottom, you'd top her. yunjin just loves fucking you and loves being fucked by you.

a/n - I feel like my headcanon that she loves sound during sex was purely self indulgent and not a part of what anon was asking but HEY! this is my blog shhhh, let me have my fun! anon, idek if this is what you wanted, I feel like this isn't even that LMAO, she's barely even a sub in this DDD:

[mi-spark]

3, 8, 10 for pmd ask game :3

HI RUPI!!! :D YAAaay

3. fave partner character? RAAAHH IT'S A TOUGH CHOICE i truly love them all ;v; but if we're going off solely the game's characterization of them instead of my own interpretations, it's gotta be psmd partner!!! just the fact that they're a kiddo already makes me soft, but also the way they're so silly goofy and passionate and ND-coded makes me go feral noises bitebitebite scampering off the walls CRAZY!!! and don't even get me STARTED on their backstory at the end of the game... OAUUGHRRRRRGGHHGGHHHHHHH blows up

8. if you're an artist, how do you draw grovyle? same for dusknoir too. and why? since i haven't shared very many of my drawings of those characters here yet, i will sketch something right meow ^_^

ok i kinda cheated and grabbed a grovyle from my sketchbook but I'M DONE

oh i have to say Why i draw them this way... idk LOL i just draw what looks good to me. though i'd like to note that these drawings aren't to scale, dusknoir would be way bigger if it were up to me, and it Was up to me BUT I STOOPY <3 anyway i do need to draw future trio more, i’d like to refine how i draw them and u can only do that by doodling them endlessly

10. opinion on nuzleaf's character? also were you surprised by that twist? the moment i found out nuzleaf was a father figure i had high hopes because i'm fucking insane about father figures in media, BUT after playing Super i ended up not caring much about him... AT FIRST. NOWADAYS he and partner are my reasons why i would play through that game again !!!! ***also if there is anyone who hasn't played Super yet and wants to stay spoiler-free SKIP THIS NEXT PART

sadly i was spoiled about nuzleaf before playing the game, but seeing his actions leading up to the reveal (my personal favorite being his frequent "outings" and i have a comic idea related to that) was fun. i need to stop yapping soon BUT i also enjoy how his character never feels like it's fully dishonest. even while under yveltal's influence, he takes you in and puts a roof over your head, yes to keep an eye on you bc you’re a threat to his plans, but also bc he still has a good heart deep down. but he also undeniably has darkness within him– it was just amplified by yveltal. his efforts to redeem himself to hero and maintain a relationship with them at the end of the game make his expressions of affection in the main story feel like they were real all along rather than just a facade 🥺

RUPI THANK YOU FOR YOUR ASK seeing it in my inbox helped me get out of bed!!!! sorry these got kinda long tho i swear i’m normal

[maruyaaya]

very close to de-anoning to continue this convo but tumblr intimidates me greatly. but ORPHEUS AND EURYDICE GRIBEANS WOULD BE KILLER. god that would be so good like. bro. tumblr user mitakesgf pls share your thoughts with us pretty please. loove greek myths but underworld myths (orpheus and eurydice esp) are always my bread and butter and jam and toast and like someone in the notes got what i was thinking about with hadestown hades and persephone also. i love love what you’ve come up with too. they are EQUALS they rule TOGETHER!! ooouuhjjgjhg! to go along with how they kind of build the paths underneath the ground in simple life, i think they would build up the underworld, they’d remake their kingdom not from scratch but to be greater and grander (cuz yknow they gotta build the most insane shit that would translate into this). JIZZIE ODYSSEY AU?? incredible. please do tell more if you’re willing... i’ve only skimmed through the odyssey but i’ve been meaning to sit down and finish it for real this time. man i havent written anything substantial in literally years but i fear i am Inspired to give it another shot thank you :D

i hope i'm not intimidating to you anon bc i am literally a 20 y/o who writes fanfiction. that makes me inherently a loser LMFAO but if you dont wanna go off anon and still wanna be recognizable, you could always sign off with an emoji or smth! up to you, anon <3

ORPHEUS AND EURYDICE GRIBEANS IS SOMETHING I'VE BEEN THINKING ABT A LOT RECENTLY. i was thinking of joel orpheus and grian eurydice (but tbh could totally swap them around too. gribeans are versatile like that) and just the idea of it makes me so sick (tbh kinda obsessed with jizzie orpheus and eurydice too??? that would genuinely make me insane i could probably see that more than gribeans). joel trying to save grian, but he looks back because he doesn't trust that grian is still there, because he hears grian begging for him to turn, because he thinks they're both safely out, the reason doesn't matter. he turns around bc he is, at his core, a loyal person and he loves grian too much not to turn around. he turns around because of his love. its sickening to me. i HATE gribeans!!! tumblr user lisa mitakesgf can u reply to this post can we be gay about gribeans rn i forgive you for all your transgressions against me <3

HAHA honestly idk why i didn't think of hadestown hades and persephone first. i'm so nerd brained LMFAO but yes theyre so perfect for hadestown. THEM BUILDING UP FROM THE UNDERWORLD and making their kingdom together as equals. i'm so thinking bout gribeans singing how long? but it's grian as hades saying "you and your pity don't fit in my bed. you just burn like a fire in the pit of my bed and i turn like a bird on a spit in my bed" to joel oh i'm so sick

wait i'm thinking about hadestown again but back on the orpheus and eurydice train and i can't stop thinking abt joel singing wait for me oh my god i'm sick. him going into the underworld for grian because truly, they can't live a life without the other. when one of them dies, the other feels that bond snap. and this is the first time when grian was the one to leave joel because in every other universe, joel dies first and grian is left to grieve him (#widowscurse) but this time, grian dies first and joel can't handle it. he hasn't had the time to prematurely grieve like grian always has to. so he goes down into the underworld because he just can't see any other options

JIZZIE ODYSSEY AU i am so willing to talk about bc i love it sm. so like... technically it's more based on epic the musical than it is the odyssey because i was first thinking about it while listening to wyfilwma and thinking about lizzie singing that to joel so it would probably take more inspo from epic than the odyssey BUT SIMILAR ENOUGH ANYWAYS

my cast for it is ofc joel as odysseus and lizzie as penelope. for telemachus, i think it would be really fucking funny to make that jimmy, but i like the idea of it being an oc potentially based off of meri. like i said, grian is athena bc i can literally see grian and joel having the my goodbye argument. like grian telling joel "you were reckless. sentimental at best. that's not a teaching of mine. you've grown soft. your dead friends can attest" and then joel retaliating with "since you claim you're so much wiser, why's your life spent all alone? youre alone!" IS CRAZY TO ME!!!!

gem is circe and etho is calypso and these two are SO real to me i refuse to see any other interpretations. gem turning men into pigs <3 and etho being obsessed with joel like the whole "who's penelope?" "she's my wife" ".......anyways!" is so funny to me

hermes is scar bc you can't tell me he wouldn't EAT up wouldn't you like??? that's the most scar song to have ever scarred. i think martyn is eurylochus and i have two options for polites: if i'm putting jimmy as telemachus then i have mumbo as polites, but if jimmy isn't telemachus, then jimmy is polites.

i haven't quite thought out the other gods yet but i think i'd put ren as zeus (theatre kid tendencies) and if i hadn't pegged martyn as eurylochus, i'd definitely assign him to poseidon but potentially cleo as poseidon? i had a really funny thought about bdubs being poseidon and polyphemus being a horse LMFAO. i also just think scott should be hera bc he'd eat that up!!

the whole thing is also so funny to me bc joel wouldve gone insane sm faster than odysseus did LMFAO he would not have let anything stand in the way of him and lizzie. it'd be like poseidon: ruthless is mercy upon ourselves- joel: yep cheers mate totally agree and then he'd just sail away like joel would DROPKICK that baby NO HESITATION

anyways even tho this whole thing was about epic, i'd totally recommend reading the odyssey. i love greek myths sm theyre genuinely so fun <3

[userarmand]

so since you watched Portofino and I'm currently going through season 2 (I'm on episode 3) (please don't ask why, the pull that man has on me is truly unfathomable, my dick has led me places etc etc ANYWAY) and I need to talk to someone about it bc I feel like I'm going a bit insane, so I thought I could ask your thoughts on this.

so like, season 1 wasn't like... good... right? like we're all aware of that and I'm fully aware the entire series is built on what I'm gonna call at best shoddily constructed narrative cohesion and probably can't be watched without a huge amount of suspension of disbelief, but I simply can't believe they let this insane mess of a storyline just go to production like that. WHY are these people letting a pacifist doctor join in on the assassination??? WHY is Gianluca suddenly so gungho about Nish either joining in his resistance fight OR straight up leaving him for Lucian??? WHAT IS HAPPENING in that goddamn group of resistance fighters??? IS it a group or are those just four guys who don't have anything better to do??? WHY IS THE WEAPON OF CHOICE A HAND GRENADE?? again WHY ARE WE LETTING THE PACIFIST BE PART OF THIS EXTREMELY DANGEROUS, VIOLENT SITUATION?? you don't bring someone to the shooting range unless you KNOW he can pull the trigger!! he's a DOCTOR, he's the guy that stays behind so that when you guys come back from trying to beat up fascist there is someone there who knows how to patch you up!!!

and worse than all of that!!! is that I can't believe they couldn't come up with something better to put Nish out of commission than this bullshit bit of conflict that they literally fabricated out of thin air!!!

also, there is one glaring continuity error during the first scene in Turin where Nish and Gian have their 'fight' about the letter, when Nish comes in from the balcony where he wears his glasses on the balcony and then three seconds later they're nowhere to be seen. which isn't the worst thing in the world, but MAN if that doesn't summarize how invested they were in this goddamn storyline, I don't know what does.

okay, sorry for that, I'm a bit tipsy, anyway: man this shit sucks, but the worst part of all of it is truly that there are like... TRACES of a reasonably interesting story scattered across the show, but every time I think they're getting close to actually properly engaging with one of them they do a hard left and someone commits a micro aggression.

jesus fuck, this show is awful. that said I AM writing a fix it fic, which is less fix-it and more 'let's try and make this less stupid'-fic

anyway sorry for this, I... am going back to watching...

gianluca definitely didn't know what he was doing but idk if that was intentional on the writer’s part or not. his little anarchist faction was very much in its infancy considering it was literally just him, his two mates, and his extremely reluctant boyfriend. gian knew that nish's heart wasn't it, knew he didn't like conflict, literally said that's why he loved him, but basically pouted about it until nish agreed to join, at no point acknowledging the added danger nish was in as an indian national. neat.

so here we are with gian and his merry band of mugs who instead of digesting any actual communist or socialist theory, decide that blowing up some rando fascist would make any sort of difference in mussolini’s italy. nish had to be directly involved in the grenade shit so he'd get injured which would put him back in lucian’s orbit and reconnect him to the 'main' plot in portofino. the show wasn't wiling to delve fully into what exactly gian and the resistance movement were trying to achieve outside of individual terrorism so that storyline didn't really result in anything beyond establishing that fascism = bad, which, yeah we know :/

also i don't disagree that they were half-assing things but regarding the continuity of nish's glasses: he takes them off when the camera's on gian lol u can see them in his hand

[marichild]

for the character opinions meme: mori & fukuzawa perhaps <3

also for the character opinions meme: chuuya!!

hi cio !! sorry for the late reply it's been. hectic . for me. 😭😭🙏 nevertheless let's get into it yuhh. (also if other ppl see this. ur allowed to send me asks abt this...heh...)

NAKAHARA CHUUYA

favorite thing about them: I think there's a lot of interesting things to be said about chuuya and humanity, majority of which was the main point of stormbringer. comparing him against dazai is something I think about a lot, but also: sigma, adam(!!), etc. his easy acceptance despite his internal conflict that he's happy in the mafia honestly means a lot to me.

least favorite thing about them: nothing could make me dislike this man ever

favorite line:

funny answer, “Haaah… Am I being tested by a damn machine? ’Cause that’s what it sounds like. And ‘Chuuya-sama?’ Seriously?”

serious answer, “Don’t kill…the Sheep… They’re just kids,” he stammered, practically expelling as much air out of his lungs as he could. “They took…good care of me.”

^ that line. god. 15 and sb chuuya make me a little insane. it's just like....they'd just betrayed him but he chose to protect them anyway. he chose to make himself out as a villain to them to keep them safe. chuuya who's forever loyal to those he chooses and is so fiercely protective. he's so. god.

brOTP: skk. actually I do ship them but. see my controversial opinion that courts anon hate here.

OTP: I don't even ship them but I'm always thinking about sigchuu in a genfic sense. greyaspec chuuya and aroace sigma being weird about their humanity at each other....waugh. stream my fic on it.

nOTP: none that I can think of

random headcanon: he's trans and dgaf. bsd is full of people who are weird about gender and make it a Problem (which is a very normal reaction to have) but chuuya to me like. woke up after the lab decided he was a boy and that was that. he has bigger problems. etc.

unpopular opinion: he's not a hotheaded muscle man <3 he's literallyyyyy so calm and rational. he's just a normal guy. he just reverts back to being 15yo when he's with dazai bc that genderfuckthing makes everyone mad.

song i associate with them: probably a cop out but the season 3 ending is sooo. yeah. stream lily by lucklife the chuuya song ever. translation credits

favorite picture of them: I honestly don't have anything particularly intelligent to say here that hasn't been said already lmaoo. the first one is just bc it's so funny that dazai is crashing out and he's just sitting there like. yeah he'll explain what he's doing eventually. fucking mackerel. the second one makes ME FEEL THINGS . god. he's so young and the flags have basically decided that he's their hissy pet cat. their delight vs. how utterly shocked chuuya looks. I think it's really important that the flags truly sincerely just wanted to help their friend out — nothing more, nothing less. just. wails.

MORI OUGAI

favorite thing about them: for all his ruthlessness, he very genuinely cares about the mafia, the city, and his people. there's a reason why they're so loyal to him.

least favorite thing about them: I won't lie what happened during the war. but. it's an interesting point of reference to what we know about him without that, contextualizes so much, and his mental state during those days was beyond fucked. it's so well written and makes me go !! abt what he's doing forever. mori the character u are. they could never make me hate u.

favorite line: “You remind me of someone,” Mori said without a second thought. like OKAY?? JUST DROP THAT. of course it's not hard to figure out what he meant but I remember my reaction to that being ⁉️⁉️ like. damn.

brOTP: I genuinely adore seeing him interact with kouyou and chuuya haha. there's a reason neither of them hate him and them being uniquely comfortable in his presence struck me in a fascinated way tbh.

OTP: none </3

nOTP: ... also none. help.

random headcanon: he probably once restricted the number of firearms skk have access to if it's true that they used to regularly practice shooting dazai in the head. I think he's one plucked a gun out of dazai's hands and taken it to his own room only for dazai to convince chuuya to help him get it back. neither of them are aware that mori Knows and simply chose to let it go. mori vs. his nightmare children /silly

unpopular opinion: he's not a piece of shit ♥️ nor is he a pedophile or child predator ♥️ I'm not going to descend into my rant on this post yeah negativity @ mori does indeed get you blocked <3

song i associate with them: I don't have any rn! rip </3

favorite picture of them: you're actually the one who reminded me that these panels exist cio but I think it's insane that these exist. brother can take a beating and he's a freak about it. love ya mori. wails in he cares so much forever

FUKUZAWA YUKICHI

favorite thing about them: he is nottttt the holy man some people think he is. it's so funny to me that people think he's a dad (true but also ranpo bullied him into him and he keeps adopting stray cats accidentally) and that he's the moral compass or whatever (he truly is not).

least favorite thing about them: I don't think I have a thing I dislike abt him. once I said that I think we as a fandom would heal if we all admitted we ALL think fukuzawa is hot whether on a physical or intellectual level instead of saying he's Dad (trademark) even when it's not true and I'm still correct and right for that tbh (unless of course he's literally Dad to you)

favorite line: literally anything he thinks about ranpo in his internal moologue in untold origins LMAO idk I'm very fond of untold origins fukuzawa being a wet grumpy cat about literally anything ever

brOTP: RANPO !!! that is his kid who bullied him into fathering him. they're amazing together. ranpo vc I will do it if u praise me. fukuzawa vc sighs okay sure. ranpo ur amazing and my baby. (<- oversimplification I'm joking but) seriously though I think about the cannibalism arc and ranpo's absolute terror and panic knocking him into an uncharacteristic kind of action and feel so so ill. don't start on decay of angels arc either. oh god .

OTP: hmmm. fukufuku, I suppose? again I literally do not ship conventionally for bsd I'm a genfic bitch but. yeah I'm weak to fukufuku. it didn't help when they said they were childhood friends like ok make them even more tragic...

nOTP: fukuran </3

random headcanon: ranpo came out to him as nonbinary and he just blinked and offered ranpo candy once. ranpo vc okay ily and all but ur really really bad at this. fukuzawa vc sighing deeply please go do some work for once please.

unpopular opinion: idk if this counts as an unpopular opinion but he doesn't hate mori <3 they're both still so fucking weird about each other. fukuzawa divorcing his rivals left and right be like

song i associate with them: help. also don't have anything in particular in mind

favorite picture of them: hi so the fukuzawa sleeper cell activates in my brain whenever I see this scene. and this isn't about fukufuku its just — he works so hard, you know? there's always so much responsibility on his shoulders, he's been fighting nonstop for the ada for days at that point, and just....he didn't kill his childhood best friend, his oldest friend, but he certainly was fighting to get it to that point. there's something so uniquely haunting about the cheers of you did it again, reliable as always, and you're staring down the body of someone you thought you knew; you're not the reliable president of the armed detective agency anymore but a man hollowed out and shell shocked by everything he's learned in just the last few minutes alone. and the second picture — it's just, how long can you keep fighting? at one point does it become too heavy to carry? losing someone like that and then it becoming fucking redundant, everything he's done and said and just — god. the sheer grief on his face. his words. it's a rare side to fukuzawa that undoubtedly does exist and it drives me fucking insane. god.