#anyway i'll shut up now
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I truly wonder if white fans are even capable of understanding how hard it is just being in a fandom space when you're not white. How alienated you feel every other day. How often you're told "it's not that big a deal" or "it's just a fantasy game get over it" or "it doesn't matter" or "go save the rainforest instead of crying over a game" or etc. etc. etc. to the point where you yourself start to question if there's something wrong with you... that it's your fault for being hurt all the time. Because it's never just about one racist mod, or one piece of whitewashed art, or one offensive post... it's all of it. Together. All the time. It's so fucking exhausting and it's why POC quit fandom spaces a lot.
#had a hard time deciding if i should post this on my main or here#ended up with this one cause i'm specifically thinking about bg3 fandom at this time#but it's certainly not unique to bg3#anyway i'll shut up now
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telepathic conversation between melly and alice as orpheus wages psychological warfare on frederick at the breakfast table
original from @outofcontextdiscord
#idv#identity v#rambling#melly plinius#idv entomologist#alice deross#idv journalist#frederick kreiburg#idv composer#unrelated but frederick is so pretty you guys#his survivor model looks goofy#but in aom he's absolutely stunning#my friend says it's the eyelashes and i'm inclined to agree#his eyes are narrower in aom and not these big round buttons#so his lashes frame them better#among other things ofc#anyway i'll shut up now#enjoy the meme
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Is the scene in the new snippet taken from the Maria/grief fic? :P
You absolutely caught me. It is! I don't know, there's something about that moment in time for me that compels me to write it over and over again. I keep going back to it because I remember that first time we saw the picture of Charles and Carlos driving out of Maranello and to see Charles there-- they already knew, you know? And they couldn't say because there wasn't anything official. But there's this whole headcanon in my head that Charles didn't, couldn't, let Carlos go through this alone because the announcement wasn't supposed to come this early, right. So when Carlos called he picked up. When Carlos needed him, he went. I don't know. Anyway! I did say you'd win another snippet so this is another one for clingy!charles. Enjoy! Carlos was sure that nothing was amiss. He was sure that Roberto just got in his head, but—as he stumbled out of his car in FP2, Charles was the one to grab his arm to stop him from falling. Why was Charles there?
“Hello, mate!” Charles says; a light tone to his voice, cheerful and sweet. Almost too light, like it was forced gentleness. Carlos would be suspicious if he didn’t feel like he was about to hurl.
“Care to hand me over to Gigi? I’m not feeling too well.” Carlos declares, a bit of his polite front waning when another roll of nausea hits him as Charles removes his hands from his back. Carlos starts to take off his helmet and balaclava, hating the sensation of the fabric dragging against his sensitive skin.
“Fred told me this.” Charles sounded… admonishing, like he wanted to make Carlos feel bad for not telling him he’d been having a hard time keeping his food down since yesterday. “You guys heard him, where’s Gigi?” Charles gets something in his eyes when he turns serious. Carlos has seen it a couple of times before, even directed at himself, but his garage—well. It’d come alive with his instructions, with Charles’ tone.
Two mechanics scrambled out of his seat to look for Pierluigi as Charles grabbed Carlos’ arm again and made him sit in a corner. When Carlos felt he wasn’t about to keel over, he let his body fold into himself and his back curved. Carlos just wanted to sleep. The pounding in his head was worsening, the nausea came back with a vengeance, and Charles was looking for—his isotonic drink, of course. That would help a little with the nausea.
“It’s behind you.” Carlos said, and Charles turns sharply and grabs the drink, offering him the straw between pinched-tight fingers. Carlos doesn’t hesitate, but Charles seems to notice the gesture—his fingers a little too close to Carlos’ lips and mouth, so he recoils, albeit gently.
“Thanks.” Carlos murmurs, and Charles nods. He looks fidgety, like he wants to help more but he doesn’t know how. Pierluigi must be looking for medicine to stop the nausea, that’s probably why he wasn’t close, maybe he went to the Ferrari hospitality for his medikit. Charles seems to get an idea and looks for a wet towel, and hands it to Carlos. The heat is stifling and it’s making everything worse, his mouth fills with liquid and Carlos feels like he���s about to throw up in front of the whole garage, when he feels Charles’ gentle hands press the ice-cold towel to his forehead.
“They told me you had a fever?” Charles asks, sheepish. He removes the towel for a second and replaces it with his hand, looking for the pulse point right behind his eyebrows and using his wrists to gauge the temperature. “I shouldn’t have put the towel before, I don’t know if you’re still—”
“I think I am, yeah.” Carlos says. Charles is using both his wrists to gauge his temperature, now, he’s basically cradling Carlos’ head between them. And Carlos gets a good look at Charles; the frown, the pursed lips, the demeanor, and Teto’s voice echoes through his head.
“He’s clingy.” He remembers. But this is not clingy, this is just worried. Right? Just worried.
Pierluigi arrives at that moment and sees Charles cradling Carlos’ head. He raises an eyebrow, a silent question, and Carlos just shrugs as Charles makes space for Pierluigi to lean down and ask him about his symptoms.
As Carlos is trying to recall what’s causing him discomfort he feels how his mouth fills with liquid again, he starts slurring his words, the world turns on its axis and he feels as he’s fading slowly away, the last thing in his vision Charles’ expression of utter worry.
#poor baby getting ambulanced' out of FP2 or that's what I remember was being said around the paddock right?#charlos#fic snippet#good thing they got him out of there fast it was so serious and he had like fever nausea and his stomach was upset#i always think back to Australia so fondly but I remember the discomfort he should've felt when the appendicitis was letting itself be KNOW#and I get so emotional#so some hurt!comfort for y'all because Charles wAS WORRIED SICK like can you guys remember the way he was speaking about carlos my god#anyway I'll shut up now#enjoy and happy reading!
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#bvkazlendar#metal gear#metal gear solid#mgs#kazuhira miller#big boss#bbkaz#venom snake#vkaz#i saw u could get msf soldiers to wear swimsuits? but apparently venom can't. so now he does#kaz's dressed bc ion think he'd feel comfortable showing his body anymore (at least for a really long time)#so. beach day w venom went bad#he needs comfort#anyway i'll shut up now
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me watching starscream ONCE AGAIN get the 'bad guy who does bad things because he is bad' treatment in earthspark s2 🧍♀️
the first show since armada (that i've watched) where he actually got depth other than just being evil and his abuse isn't made a complete joke for laughs, but instead of building upon it in s2 u just... toss it out the window like it never happened???
okay then! 😀👍
i'm sure future eps will rectify it? but it still sucks that we got this crazy jump from point a to point b with a poor excuse of a time skip. also pretty hard to redeem what he's done in these last 10...
don't get me wrong, i love when starscream is being a devious little shit and i don't expect him to turn good overnight. but if i wanted to watch starscream doing bad guy things i can go watch literally ANY OTHER TF SHOW 😭 earthspark was a nice change of pace and now we don't even have that anymore (at least right now anyway).
i'm not even mad. honestly just a little disappointed. one of the things that made me love earthspark is how they wrote starscream but nvm i guess. was nice while it lasted. :')
#anyway i'll shut up now#prowl is my one last hope for s2#i still enjoyed it but man was it hard to get through#gonna go watch armada again i think#starscream#transformers#earthspark#transformers earthspark
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Neil would like The Neighbourhood. Like if they were a thing, during/after the series (I think the band started in 2011..?) But Neil is so The Neighbourhood coded to me.
I just feel like he would listen to them for the beats and vibes, and everyone *else* would hear the lyrics and go "oh Neil :/" but he doesn't even listen to the words he's singing along to KSBFJSBFIDJFJF
I was driving and listening to them and they're so Neil!!! And then I realized that they wouldn't really canonically intersect???
But I just like to imagine that, if there was a world where The Neighbourhood and Neil Josten existed at the same time, he would be blasting that shit in the fancy car on road trips.
#aftg#all for the game#character playlist#neil josten#the brainrot is real#i have so many thoughts#im hyperfixating again#Andrew would like the band for the first like month#And then he would wait a month before asking neil to pick a new band#And neil would say sure#And then change the playlist halfway through the drive#With the biggest shit eating grin#Anyway I'll shut up now
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i need someone to love me the way doctor john watson loves mr sherlock holmes
#to be clear i am holmes#just no watson#and a holmes without his watson is no holmes at all#y'know#I NEED MY WATSON#dying over here in my pit of depression and lonliness#hot soldier man come save me#come take care of me and love me for who i am#:( sigh#love sad trans autism boi#yeah i ain't getting a watson but i guess i'm chill with it#have to be#i'm that pre-watson sherlock#fucking walking sadness#anyway i'll shut up now#sherlock holmes#acd holmes#acd watson#acd canon#acd johnlock#he is me
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Is there a fandom word for a supporting character that is rarely if ever a topic for fandom but that you are absolutely obsessed with?
I'm not talking about a glup shitto. I mean a character that everyone knows about but who isn't really anyone's favorite character. Fics centered on them are rare and ones that actually explore them in an interesting way are even rarer. No one really kins them or draws them. No one brings them up outside of discussing other characters.
Yeah, whatever that is.
But then...
A piece of media comes out that heavily features that character... and people finally talk about them.... you are in heaven for a few short months... and then it goes back to how it was.
Oh, sure, maybe there will be more people who like that character now. Maybe there will be an uptick in fics that give you a small backlog to read. Maybe you'll even get a nice catalog of fanart that will fuel your imagination for a little while.
But no matter what; that character won't get as much attention as you think they deserve.
Anyway that's how I feel about Count Fanon-first-name-Yan Dooku.
#star wars#star wars prequels#the clone wars#count dooku#grandpa dooku#master dooku#yan dooku#dooku jedi lost#tales of the jedi#star wars the clone wars#i dont want to fuck him i just want to talk to him and be snarky together#i want to make him cry#“pathetic evil old man hiding behind refined stature realizes he was wrong and dumb”#i love him i hope we see him suffer more from his own hubris#also i like his feral murder children#he's kinda meh in tcw tbh#i love the show but cmon ya did my mans dirty at least give him a little DEPTH filoni#anyway i'll shut up now#Toad lectures
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hey mutuals how did you start using tumblr i am curious /genq, curious tone, nf
for me, i just wanted to share my watership down uquiz that took me forever to make XD then i just happened to realise “oh! there's so much warrior cats content! and i can reblog stuff!” so my blog was purely warrior cats until i fell face first into my tlg hyperfix which. clears throat . Uh hasn't gone away 😭
#i would like to know your origin stories >:3 /silly#i am fully convinced that if nikki wasn't posting her own outlanders stuff i wouldn't have at all#all it took was the courage to start commenting on her posts and boom i posted my mjuzi nduli au#where it all started... 🥹 /pos#if you look back far enough in nikki's blog you can see our first comments#it's insane how far this has come /vpos#just realised it will be december in a couple months which will be the anniversary of my first tlg post#i'll do something for it! :}#anyway i'll shut up now#spinny rambles#spinny stuff#mutuals#friends
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Hearing 'I Don't Wanna Be Angry' live has fixed me
#I don't even have words it was a fucking incredible show#ranks very high in the bears in trees live show experince#also got my record signed and a photo#which I'm gonna print and stick with my other one#ughhhhhh I'm just so happy rn#anyway I'll shut up now#bears in trees
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ben whishaw. ben whishaw. i cannot and will never be able to articulate my feelings about him. he is so obscenely talented and so intelligent and so principled and so thoughtful and recently he's started wearing that earring which drives me insane. i just look at him and see the pinnacle of creative fulfillment, you know? we are so lucky to witness him.
#ben whishaw#every time i try to explain this it comes out as a strangled dying noise#the bond franchise was SO lucky to get him#because i look at all his other work and then the bond material he was given and i'm like “he deserved more than this”#anyway i'll shut up now#god i haven't been this obsessed with him since i was about 19 this is wild
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#im overemotional at work rn and need to vent so ill probably delete this later#but i got a migraine again today and im close to tears rn at work bc i wanted to come in and i wanted to do my job well but my frigging head#wont stop hurting and it's making my eyes sensitive to light and just making me overwhelmed by the crowds#I'm lucky i got a super easy position tonight and my partner told our lead and she's gonna send me home early#but im just tired of my body not working right#it's probably bc of all my screentime that im getting these migraines#and stress about some things#but its so infuriating#im lucky it's not a chronic problem but its just annoying#maybe i need to take better care of myself idk#anyway I'll shut up now
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OC Request Batch 2/10 - Artemis
Owned by: @jelliclekay
#CATS Musical#CATS OC#fanart#my art#ocrequests2023#my hand hurts#but anyway so artemis is an archivist yeah? so knowing the archivists i know i thought you know what would be cute#if their fingers were sort of grey gradiented like there was ink permanently in their fur there#i added some artistic liberty here and there with their design i hope that's okay#a few more stripes some hatching the works#they seem a little more on the quiet and reserved side so i thought yeah they'd be in that little sit ball snickering quietly to themselves#anyway i'll shut up now#i hope you like it ^^
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that moment when you unfollow someone but they still constantly pop up on your dash....
#🙄🙄🙄🙄#I guess I could block them but idk if I can still look at the blog then?#I'm sorry I'm a stalker lmao#Anyway I'll shut up now#julia talks
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#strangest start to a route: silvio ricci#but also how we expected nokto's to start at some point...right?#ikepri silvio#silvio ricci#silvio route#ikepri silvio route#my post 📫#aerin.jpg#l'hôtel.ikepri#ikepri.silvio#'i hate women' is always around em and sleeps around......... traumatized incel whomst fucks? idk intro silvio was fuckin wildin 💀#im just glad he went through sm fuckin growth by the end of things#still hoping he doesn't just see her in that way bc like i get the ppl in high society were def a bunch of assholes to you but damn 😩#anyway I'll shut up now
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some of yall would make the acronym "lgt and the b's we deem queer enough" and its incredibly obvious
#yall wont let us exist and be acknowledged like ever#the concept of a bi girl's bf being in a ''queer space'' horrifies yall so much for literally no reason#and thats about the only thing yall will bring us up for#any time we're visible whatsoever mfs will immediately shit all over us and/or try to cover us up as a unique group#anyway i'll shut up now#im just angry because i keep seeing recommended posts shitting on multisexuals#anticipating rude anons once again because i get them every time i make a post like this#ghoul groans
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