#anyway i wasnt happy with canon lmao

[avo-kat]

me: oh i dont care about bnha much at all, its just some manga ive read years ago for a bit but barely had any impact on me

me seeing my avatar:

[flovoid]

an AU where tatsuo didn’t quit the yakuza life and now ming-yue is joining in with her father :3

[sarcasticidi9t]

man so much was cut out :[

i remember eret kept saying how they wanted to do alot of lore stuff but communication was so bad that they never got to do anything much with their character.

it was so frustrating bro. i wish we had the same equality and casualness to everyones lore like we do with the qsmp.

looking back, everyone had really cool lore of their own. i remember i tried to keep up with everything, but things got too serious to the point where a bunch of CCs even started feeling like they cant even break certain BLOCKS because "its apart of history/its important to someone elses lore." i feel like thats why a "main storyline" format developed. everyone got overwhelmed and everything was considered super important, that viewers didnt really have the freedom to choose who to watch anymore because bigger streamers were stealing alot of the spotlight. and thats bound to happen! but my biggest issue is the way how literally everyone was treated about everything.

i recall several times where someone destroyed/lost something considered valuable and would get harassed on twitter. it was ridiculous man.

the popularity of dsmp was absolutely mental looking back. it was far from perfect that server was. but like, again, my biggest issue was how it was handled behind the scenes and how CCs were treated by everyone.

despite everything, i still hold this server close to my heart. i still really love it, but i can still say what went wrong with it yknow?

it had its golden moments, and when it did, it was fuckin awesome. i did really miss the casual laid back silly streams back then, like the ones quackity did. thats something else i wish was brought back.

anything involving emerald duo (technoblade and philza) and the syndicate were the BEST. they do no wrong ever 100% theyre correct in everything they do YEP. /j

i really, really wish we got to see the cyberknife story play out. thats something that ill miss yknow? for obvious reasons. but so many ridiculously talented artists and writers spawned from that fandom! i feel like the stories and lore were all left as an open book. and so many still continue technos character, i couldnt be any more happier :]

im still so amazed by how many talented artists and writers came from the fandom :D

went on a ramble here but as i said before i really do love this server <3

Scrapped lore bits from the Dream SMP I'm still mad we never got:

-Whatever lore Nihachu had planned for the day Doomsday happened

-The Egg finale scheduled for immediately after the Red Banquet

-Jschlatt's Las Nevadas resurrection (heavily implied by Quackity trying to get the Revival Book after gambling with Glatt and cc!Schlatt saying he'd be coming back to the SMP)

-Any further development of Puffychu

-Ranboo getting resurrected (cc!Ran saying he was meant to be revived two weeks after the prison break)

-Hitting on 16 in livestream format. Like I know we still got the lore but cc!Wilbur simply could not fit what the format brings into written form. The long periods of characters just talking to each other, body language, random impromptu moments, etc.

-The Manhunt Arc (slight speculation but the streams where Tommy reinforced Tubbo's old house and convinced Eryn, Sam Nook, and Phil to help him track and kill Dream after the prison break felt like it was setting up something)

-Cyberknife lore (cc!Techno planned on having his character leave and acting as an antagonist for the syndicate)

-Ranboo's ARG (never properly finished)

-Ranboo and Slime in the multiverse (I have no context but I swear cc!Ranboo said something about this and if I had to guess tftsmp!Ran and O!Ranboo could've had something to do with it)

-whatever Connor had going on (I know his SMPLive stuff I'm referring to him knowing Karl could time travel)

-Tubbo's ending of growing old and raising Michael (planned but cut for the nuclear ending)

-Tommy's soft ending which would apparently resemble Jesse Pinkman from Breaking Bad. (this is secondhand information but I've seen people talk about it. I assume this to mean he would escape the SMP and we wouldn't see what happened to him. Cut for the nuclear ending)

-Captain Puffy being the main antagonist of Season 2 (as seen by her being the vessel for the fully powered Egg in the finale and having a skin ready for season 2)

Feel free to add your own!

[luneemeritus]

"pilot Stolas was better!!" no, he wasn't.

"bring pilot Stolas back!!" no ❤️

You want an evil, manipulative, abusive villain with little to no redeeming qualities that is a Goetia and has cool powers? We have two of them: Stella and Andrealphus. If it's only about the 'asthetic', a character doesnt have to be evil to be cool, Stolas's demon form and powerful moments are already amazing, and although he's powerless now, I'm pretty sure he will get his status back at least for a while to make a badass scene.

What the Hellaverse doesnt lack is amazing villains. If critics were so much better and creative than Vivziepop, they wouldn't turn a complex, well written, well designed and well acted character like Stolas into a boring Valentino 2.0 just because the pilot version seemed creepier. Lmao Stella is literally what all of Stolas's haters claim to want, look how well they're handling her. Seriously I've seen people saying that Stella needs a sympathetic reason to be a fucking abuser, but when Stolas (not an abuser) has sympathetic reasons to be who he is and do what he does, it's suddenly not okay.

Stolas is the only character I've ever seen who: sacrifice his life to his lover, and is still called "selfish" and "not enough for Blitz"; is seeing being abused by his wife since EP2-Season 1, even singing about how his life with her was miserable yet he remained strong for his daughter, and people will still claim that Stella turned out to be abusive "out of nowhere"; is forced to marry someone he doesn't love, is abused by said person, spent years alone and enduring that misery, and when he finally chooses to stay with the one person that never abused him, he is an "evil cheater"; sacrifices his own safety and happiness to make his daughter safe and happy, and ALWAYS — always — take accountability when he fails her (or when she thinks he failed her) as any good parent would do, and still be called a bad father (addition: forced to have said child but loves her anyway🤡). Just say yall alergic to character development.

I lost the Tiktok now because I blocked OP, but the big argument about "how much pilot Stolas is better" is a lie basically: canon Stolas, (abuse survivor, has the best development of the show alongside with Blitz, a loving father who remained strong for his daughter), is a "loser" (also a twink in a derogatory way, which is funny like, just say the f slur, we know that's what you mean🤡 specially calling a male abuse survivor "coward" and "loser" lmao like we know), while the pilot Stolas is a "manipulative, inteligent, cold villain" uuuuh no he wasn't lol hate to tell you dude, Pilot Stolas wasnt an evil interesting genius that was sooo intimidating, nah he was just creepy and honestly as funny as the canon one. Yeah you just hate the gay owl being well written. Pilot Stolas has 2 minutes screen. Canon Stolas has two seasons of development, he is the better one, I'm pretty sure people who say this don't even remember half of the pilot.

So it's not really about Stolas's actions, or mistakes, or him being a good or a bad person (he is a good person). He could be the most perfect, excellent, flawless victim, the 'wokest' most self aware pure angel, it's still not enough. Because it's not about him, it's about a version of him that never came to be but haters love to whine about it.

[redrandomposts]

hi it's me again from the luka vs ivan r7 ask, and claiming the 🌦️ emoji :>

for their song i wanna go w something like nightglow by tanya chua from the hi3 game. it's THE year ender event for the segyein and the entire city is packed into the arena.

i can see the producers dressing them up in complementary styles. luka wld have elements of ivan's signature style and vice versa.

imagine the entire time ivan and luka ARE in equal footing. luka has the fanbase power and experience ivan cant match, but ivan has a type of completely human showmanship that luka cant replicate. imagine them dancing during their round too and they keep on switching back and forth on who gets the lead !!

luka can see that ivan is singing the song for SOMEONE but he cant pinpoint who and it's throwing him off just a bit. it's one of those rare rounds where luka doesnt have any immediate upper hand on his opponent and the aliens are eating it up !! a dark knight to go up against their brilliant prince ? absolute genius.

but also consider : the producers dont want anyone else but luka to win. so they rig it :> the final score is a tie, but a gun is shot and ivan falls...

... just in time for the rebels to barge in :>

(so similar to canon!r7 ending except ivan wasnt reaching out for someone in the crowd and no one is cradling his head on their lap lmao)

why are alien stage fans allergic to happy endings? you guys arent vivinos, you can do what you can to give them happy endings...

i think unsha's coming in clutch and preventing this. that, or the show gets boycotted because they decide to off ivan. you know how rii7e's whole situation had the entire company boycotted by nations and people from other fandoms? that is happening.

the whole show would plummet in stocks, aliens pulling out their human pets from the program, protests and rallies ongoing.

im projecting my love for ivan, but also, i 100% believe this would happen.

its not like ivan can be brought back to life. till visits his grave, where fans constantly leave flowers; monuments are brought up to support ivan, flowers flooding each and every one. till remembers, quite clearly, how ivan died alone on the stage, reaching out for something. ivan looked lost, sorrowful, somehow relieved, and he hates it.

anyway, that's what's happening guys!!! ivan dies, aliens boycott alien stage and whatever else, and everyone is happy and alive.

[roxyzwritez]

au writing shit idk

heres the Rough Plan for my first few eps:

ep1: the au branches off of canon in the final SU ep, Change Your Mind. renamed to Change Your World. when white yoinks the gem out of steven and pinksteven reforms and whiteasks W H E R E I S P I N K the response is something along the lines of "i am right here, but fuck you im not talking to you." (girlboss) and white gets the "im a child, what's your problem" and has the perfectionist meltdown, then steven's like "sorry but we gotta head out" and they're like "PINK WHAT THE FUCK?" steven goes "im not pink just leave earth alone" the gems agree and give steven The Legs™️.

pearl latches onto the idea that rose is still alive in there. (didn't write that tho just had it cut to this next bit oops) her and greg build a thing to connect to the gem that will essentially connect to pink/rose im just gonna call her rose damnit and allow her to communicate w everyone. shes like "...hey guys. uh. sorry for trying to kill myself i guess that didn't work but i have been minecraft spectating steven for the entirety of his existence with no ability to do anything but think and watch" pearl has a lesbian implosion, everyone's all happy n shit. steven eventually asks about the lying and she's like "yeag i done bad there. i just wanted to keep you guys together" (now that i think abt it there was no mention of bismuth here.. oops,) garnet gives her a Garnet Specil motivational speech and she's like "i missed you too garnet" (i forgot to mention, garnet violently explode-unfuses and ruby+sapphire are just bumbling with happy when rose spoke) amethyst has her own moment (she thought this was all bullshit and started playing fortnite upstairs but between games she heard rose and a p p e a r e d)

anyway rose then is thinking "oh man i gotta talk to so many ppl" and realizes eh guys nothing to worry abt just a HAPPY TO LISTEN, HAPPY TO STAY, HAPPILY WATCHING HER DR- but we should go there NOW" so they do, spinel is understandably distraught and breaks the gemspeaker in half but feels bad about it. she comes with the gang to earth, they show her around, a new gemspeaker is made and they reconcile. yippy! also spinel ate one of ALL. big donut flavors. sadie allowed this just for on e because steven is the LORD AND SAVIOR OF THE STEVEN UNIVERSE haha funny.

anyway she and bismuth talk. bis is kinda like "yeah i wasnt very gamer sorry about that herhee" again ignoring that SHE lied about the bubbling, conveniently forgot to explore that conversation for ease of writing and so i didn't need to go "how do i utilize my 2 iq points to channel these characters and get them to have a coherent, consistent to character conversation about this situation"

peri and lapis are called over by bismuth who doesn't say shit to them for the surprise. lapis is like "yeah ok hit me" peri is more curious. rose speaks, peridot fangirls and lapis is like "oh shit that's historically significant " peri is like "I NEED TO RESEARCH:)))" and runs off. spoiler: gem cloning

bis brings up the idea. rose is like "yeah that sounds legit" (the gem cloning conundrum took me way too long to understand. i drove my friend crazy. "hey can u explain every single quantum detail of this in the most verbose way i dont understand" but eventually i understood it JUUUUST enough to write it lmao i still don't get it)

rose n steven talk in roses room. all happy n shit. greg is told abt the plan and hes like oh shit i gotta clean up and steven is like "you know her standards. she don't give a shit" hes like "yeag"

peri makes progress! she made a little clump!! (explaining the gem cloning: theyre making essentially an empty gem with the powers but no consciousness inside. when its ready, white will take steven's gem out again, rose reforms, and the new gem gets ever so graciously stabbed into his belly where the old one was.)

peri tells steven its gonna take a year. he's like "well okay better than like hundreds of years" then he goes off to talk to the diamonds. he brings the speaker with. rose lets out the thousands of years of distrust and anger at the dismonds and they are humbled even more than when they got pinkd and rose is like "you WILL heal all the shattered ones i don't give a shit" and theyre like "whatever you say little one" (yes they do indeed heal the fallen. probably with regular shipments of steven fluid. that sounded wrong but im not a freak like that hes still 14)

also they go back home and steven talks to rose abt "you told the diamonds you literally wanted to die are you fr?" she explains and hes like YOU FATHERFUCKER, YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU CAN'T DO THAT (crying)"

next episode is just year-long filler but i made it actually good by making it essentially a montage of lapis and peri in the barn becoming lesbian for eachother. finally, a controversial move on my part, they decide to overcome lapis's fear of fusion and fuse for stevens birthday. their fusion is turquoise (took way too long coming up with a fucking name) and can corrode (water + metal) and can morph/control metal (liquify n stuff. definitely not taken from a lapidot fusion concept i found on google images.) garnet is like "hey pearl look at these silly lesbians " pearls like "damn relatable" garnets like "yeag"

a week or a few after the bday, the gem is finally ready. everyone is excited until steven asks how this is gonna work. peri is like UHHHHH... 😊 and lapis is just "eh just take that one out, stick this one in!" peri goes NNNO- but after some damage control and telling everyone steven will be fine hes like "well i better get some good sleep then. big day!"

there's more but im done typing my fingers are about to go peridot and fuckin fly away let me know if you want the like 1other episode and the minisode after that

[roseworth]

You are both an Arrowfamily and Jason Todd fan account so I thought you would be the best person to ask this but: What do you think the Arrowfamily members opinion on Jason are?

ooooh i love this question.. i think a lot of people jump straight to "they would hate him" because of his fight with mia but!!! i don't think thats entirely true!!!!! some of them would hate him but not all of them </3 i feel like the people that claim they would all hate him have a fundamental misunderstanding of the arrows and what they stand for, not to mention deliberately misconstruing what the the jason & mia fight actually was and pretending it was a lot worse than what actually happened. but thats just my opinion

ollie absolutely would hate him though lmao. he would never get over the fact that jason kidnapped, fought, & tried to blow up his daughter. no forgiveness ever. if jason HADNT fought mia though i think ollie would like him or at the very least tolerate him. ollie very clearly has no issue with murdering bad guys (as seen in ga88) and would be completely on board with anyone who goes out of his way to fuck with batman constantly <3 also in my humble opinion ollie shouldve been a cosmic mistake in countdown due to him coming back to life because parallax put him back together, which would have been hilarious and would absolutely have ended in them getting along (until jason goes through like his fifth breakdown in that book, because he would absolutely lash out at ollie after watching that one version of bruce die. but thats a whole separate tangent)

dinah also would hate him for trying to kill mia, but probably not as intensely as ollie. but even without that issue i dont think dinah would like him, mostly because hes the worst and i dont think dinah would have the patience to put up with him. she wouldnt have a huge problem with the killing (she wouldnt NOT have a problem with it but i really dont think it would be an unforgivable issue for her), but she would just think hes kind of an asshole about it and she wouldnt like him at all. i also think theres a panel somewhere where jason says that dinah told him she hates him personally?? idk ive only seen screenshots of it but i think its funny so im incorporating it into my belief system

with roy... i feel like there are so many people that see rhato and swing to the opposite side of the pendulum and say that roy would hate jason but i dont think thats true at all. im a rhato hater because that is Not Roy so we're disregarding that, but i still think they would get along tbh! given that roy is deeply in love with a serial killer i think that the people who say he would hate jason are misunderstanding who roy is. i think when theyre both in character they actually have personalities that would mesh well together and they COULD get along really well. i dont see roy having a Big Problem with jason killing people (he would try to stop him from doing it but murder wouldnt be a dealbreaker for roy) so i think its fair to say they would actually get along!!! but i bitch and complain every time they show up in the same panel because now the damage has been done from rhato so i dont want them to interact in canon. only in the secret world in my head. in regards to jason fighting mia, i dont know how to say it but,,, i dont think roy would have a huge issue with it. he certainly wouldnt be happy about it but also he wasnt there so i feel like all he would know about it was that jason kidnapped mia one time but mia was fine. honestly i think that he would be more interested in brothers in blood bc dick would def mention that jason murdered people in a nightwing costume then turned into a tentacle monster and tried to eat someone but dick forgave him anyway. and once he hears that suddenly the mia thing seems inconsequential in comparison

with connor... i cant lie im a little biased because connor is a member of my dream outlaws team but i really think they would at least kind of get along! connor is not the type of person to hold a grudge at all so once mia forgives him (which ill get into in a sec) connor wouldnt have a problem with him. he WOULD have a problem with jason killing people but he's close with eddie so clearly he doesnt have that much of an issue with working with people who have killed before as long as they dont kill in front of him. and i think that jason has a healthy respect for anyone who can beat him in a fight and because of that he would not kill anyone when hes around connor. i also think that connor and jason would never fight because connor would never throw the first punch and jason would never start a fight that he knows he cant win (but thats once again a whole separate tangent). basically i dont think they'd be besties or anything, i dont think theres a world where they'd ever even consider themselves friends. but i do think they'd get along well enough to not hate each other

okay now finally mia. kind of a controversial take but i really think she'd forgive him for kidnapping her! she absolutely would not forgive him IMMEDIATELY because it fucked her up so she would be pissed about it for a while, but also? i think she completely understood what he was trying to do. he wasnt really hurting her specifically (like yeah he hurt her but he made it a fair fight and he wasnt beating down on her or anything. she also hit him so it evens out) and he was actually trying to talk TO her and relate to her. and it was working!!! he didnt force her to do anything except fight (in a fight where he untied her and gave her her weapons), so once she got some distance from the event i think she'd forgive him. it would take a while for her to actually forgive him enough for them to actually get along, but i genuinely think they would. theyre extremely similar people and i think they would really be good friends if given the chance, but it would take a looooong time for mia to be comfortable enough to be around him enough to consider him a friend since the fight definitely fucked her up. but it is possible for them to eventually be close, and i think they could be really good friends

honorable mentions: - i dont know emiko well enough to know for sure (i havent read new52 or rebirth green arrow so i havent read much with her </3) but from what i know i think they would get along - lian would have no opinion of him whatsoever. at most she sees him as her uncle's brother. i truly dont think she'd care enough about him to form a positive or negative opinion about him - i dont like sienna so i dont want to acknowledge her but for the sake of the post. she doesnt like jason because dinah doesnt like jason and she says "i hate everyone that black canary hates <3" - cissie is not a member of the arrowfamily but she wouldnt like him because she absolutely would have an issue with any murderous vigilante given that she almost killed someone one time and had a huge breakdown, so anyone that kills people for the Greater Good and continues to do so would not sit right with her - i have absolutely no basis for this but shado would hate him for no reason. no specific beef with him about his morals or his actions, she just wouldnt like his vibes. sorry to talk about rose (no im not) but she would see rose hanging out with jason and go "im so happy for you and your ugly fucking boyfriend im serious" - eddie and jason would get along like a housefire. there is not a doubt in my mind that they would bond instantly (ok not instantly because they both hate everyone and would probably start with trying fight each other. THEN they would bond) and it would be catastrophic for everyone involved 🫶

ok i think thats everyone. or at least everyone that matters. never forget that all my opinions are 100% correct at all times

[melloneah]

mello and/or megumi for the character ask :)

HOLY SHIT THIS HAS BEEN STEWING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LMAO SORRY BESTIE (i didnt have enough megumi insight to comfortably answer back then but ive been STUDYING FOR MONTHS >:3) THANK U FOR THE ASK LETS GET INTO IT

MELLO

favourite thing about them

i have to say his cunty-ass fashion style bc that alone dragged me into loving him in the first place<333

least favorite thing about them

he just needs to chill fr

favorite line

"i'll be waiting" <33333

brOTP

MATTTTTT obvi

ОТР

i HAVE to say meronia since it's my main ship, but i love M2 too. honestly id say theyre equal in my eyes

nОТР

uhmmmmmm takada probably? besides that, im happy to ship anything tbh jfhsdjhf i aint one to have a nOTP WHATEVER MAKES BRO HAPPY

random headcanon

the answer i had in my drafts was extreme lmfaoooo ill stick to saying: cokehead

unpopular opinion

i personally think he wasnt a bully at wammy's. i dont mean that he was nice lmao but he just didnt waste his time on picking on others

song i associate with them

surfacing by slipknot

favorite picture of them

his wide ass eyes of course always and forever

MEGUMI

favourite thing about them

his entire philosophy - i feel like in anime we often see this black and white perspective on saving people and purpose, but jjk took a far more human route imo with characters such as megumi and geto, and i loooooove it so much. megumi's entire 'picking who he wants to save' attitude is so unique to him in his environment and i feel like it truly shows how strong his personality and values are :3 i love that little guy i could yap for hours

least favorite thing about them

them shoes. WHAT R U THINKING MEGUMI GET THEM UGLY THINGS OFF OF U

favorite line

"I've had enough" IM SORRY BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL SO INTENSELY. I HAD TO PICK IT AS A FAVOURITE. i love to suffer :3

brOTP

i wanna say yuuta bc he's probably the only person in that school that megumi truly respects lmaooo

ОТР

ITAFUSHIITAHDIUDIFHWIOUYDHIWUEDFH YUUJI AND MEGUMI IN LOVE ITAFUSHITUIATHSIFO

nОТР

in canon? anyone who is over the age 18 bro

random headcanon

very random hc not even just megumi related but. yuuji jumps out of the shower soaking wet and immediately gets dressed while megumi has to be bone dry to have any fabric on him. idk how why or when i came up with that one but like. idk. make sense in my little head. they would b like that. to me.

unpopular opinion

he deserves a villain arc n im kinda sad we now know for a fact he wont get one </33

song i associate with them

HGHHGHGH i wrote a whole song inspired by him but it's not coming out for a While </333 so im gonna link another song that had me SHOCKED at how megumi it was (and it broke my heart)

down in a hole by alice in chains

favorite picture of them

hehehehe 😀

sorry uhm. anyway

ask me abt whatever

[blessedshortcake]

My opinion on the finale episodes below the cut. Obviously spoiler warning lol

First of all. I see people say it was really underwhelming and i kinda have to agree? It wasnt a Bad ending or a lazy one or whatever words have been thrown around tho imo. I feel like with all the hype about how "painful" and emotional itll be from the VA and from everyone, we all just expected more tragic outcomes or something.

I am dissappointed because of that as well. I liked how Simon finally reflected a bit and had some self awareness about their situation with Betty. I loved that he didnt become Ice King again or that they didnt do some actual time travel to "fix" stuff. I also liked that they didnt necessarily made him a bad husband (?/boyfriend?) he kinda just never realised that Betty has been putting more into their duo than he was.

That doesnt make him innocent tho b4 someone comes at me. He was a bit too self absorbed but i dont think he was entirely selfish either. He was a person who made mistakes and didnt realise them. The line where he said smt like "i wish we could have talked like this before" also makes it pretty clear to me that Betty never really spoke up about these things either. Golbetty had to make him aware and tbh? I think that was more Golb than Betty.

The whole Scarab ordeal felt a bit. Ehhhhhh I dont know. His anger reaction to things suddenly becoming "canon" (lmao) was very nice to see but him being allowed to wreck havoc like that for a good while felt more like an excuse to bring the others into this world. I dont have a problem with it btw i just dont see the point why we need Farmwold Jay and Little... I forgot her name damn. Also whys Babyworld Finn here 😭 (i get it, he was in the tank, i dont mean literally i mean Why)

As much as i was soooo mad when LSP freed the scarabs it was very in character. I like how it was a thing that he likes animals from the start so it wasnt senseless stupidity, it was something he would do even tho it was the wrong thing to do. Made me pause and lay down to stare at the ceiling in frustration for a solid minute i cant lie, still in chacter tho.

But alas. I like how in the end it all didnt turn magical (completely since ig its partially magical with Cake and everything else) and how Cake finally cooled down about the crown. IM ALSO SO HAPPY THEY KEEP IN TOUCH WITH SIMON OVER THE PHONEEE!! But yea him wanting to move was so real and I hope he does lmao he deserves it.

I only kinda wish they made him reconnect with Marcy a bit more. I am actually pretty dissappointed that we dont know if he ended up reaching out to her more or not. I understand his situation with not wanting to spook her, i actually feel that bit in a soul connecting level good god, but idk. Im at least happy he is Literally in therapy now

(Kinda makes me wonder tho if he spent the time between the end of AT and the start of FC with no like therapist or psychologist. Just rawdogging his mental illness about everything. Mood tbh but like did he? Did he??)

Anyway despite my slight dissappointment i am actually pretty happy with the outcome. I really liked the theories and the ideas of how Simon may make FC magical or what he will become but tbh this is probably the best outcome. Everyone got a happy/hopeful ending (minus Farmwold Finn ig who im atp assuming is dead. Also Star Marceline and PB) which i am really REALLY happy about.

I gotta say I already wanna write fanfic about these guys so inspirational effect granted. Woooo.

Tldr

I was kinda dissappointed because it was overhyped about how emotional it will be when it really wasnt but other than that I am really happy about how the ending turned out save for the alternatives staying in FC

Edit: I SEE PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THE WHOLE SHOW DONT TELL THING AND TBHHH??? TTTTBBBHHHH??? YEAH. IT WAS ALL JUST TALKED ABOUT LIKE WHAT ABOUT SYMBOLISM? MY GOD.

Also Simon had like 10 minutes to get closure with Betty which was horrifically rushed but again, when your wife turns into Basically God you kinda dont really have a choice to chit chat. Still not happy about it but again, could have been worse. Could have been much worse.

[leafcabbage]

If everyone got really chill abt a bunch of stuff really fast, what would benchtrio first kisses be like? 👀

wow anon i cant believe you would send me this. something so controversial. dont you know kissing is evil and the devil is on his way right now to get me just because i read these words? wow

anyway if you dont want to read about kissing stop reading under this keep reading its that easy.

so first of all tommy and tubbo's first kiss was each other when they were like 13 so write that down LMAO. like it wasnt a romantic thing it was just two guys who were talking about first kisses and how tubbo had no plans to ever kiss anyone while tommy was all worried about being a TERRIBLE kisser and scaring all the women off, so what better way to alleviate some anxiety than just get it over with? no like... huge revelation from that or anything, just happened and then they went and like... watched breaking bad or something i dont know.

beyond that, im not sure tubbo really would be inclined to do much kissing in his life. he just doesnt strike me as the kinda guy who is really into it. like if ranboo wanted a smooch sure he'd do it, hes not repulsed, he just doesnt really seek it out either. its a pretty neutral thing, something hes happy to do to show affection if asked, but not something that necessarily means much for him

ranboo ALSO isnt super into the idea with just anyone, but tommys their exception LMAO. those two are. disgustingly in love. a QPR to end all QPRs those guys. its kind of cringe to be honest. imagine falling in love with a blonde guy. anyway... im not sure about firsts, though. i meant it when i said "crazy they didnt just kiss" in my last authors note because that moment truly had all the traditional buildup to a first kiss but... well for one i do not think tommy would have felt good about kissing them when ranboo was that out of it, and for two i think the scene genuinely ended better without it, and for three im not quite at the level of fuck it where i can just drop stuff like that in. i wish i had a better answer for ya anon but the truth is it could happen at any moment... theres no one thing i imagine to be canon though, not yet....

thank you for the ask it made me laugh a lot , the way you phrased it was fantastic

[kebarney]

@tigreblvnc FINE THEN this response took longer than i expected my fault i was thinking

merry christmas happy new year i wasnt planning on finishing this but you explained and i pinky promised so..

content warning uhh not proofread because i don’t care enough to read everything i said 3948928493 times

sae:

ok idk how to start this but the typing style is ofc more of a headcanon than actually canon but lets be so serious we both know he wouldnt go “GIRLBYEHAHAHHAHAHAH PLS URE SO FUNNY” and use actual grammar and punctuation when texting….. WHICH MATCHES YOU 😊😊 i mean unless you start typing like that whenever you start talking to someone in dms then i wouldnt know but whatever

sae would probably use autocaps, proper punctuation/grammar, and be somewhat dry (??) IM NOT CALLING YOU DRY TEXTER SINCE REALLY YOU ARENT BUT youre like borderline dry if that makes any sense (in the nicest way possible) so you and sae would definitely have a similar typing style.

might i add that you saying "you are so emotional and immature" is very sae coded if you ask me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ sounds like smth he would tell rin tbh LMFAO

anyways to the actual canon parts of sae, he has a set routine and a good??? work ethic. yadada im sure you know his morning routine but if you don't it goes: open the window to let in some fresh air → take deep breaths → stretching → morning yoga → meditate -> drink salted kombucha → start the day. if im being so serious this seems like a very you thing to do and i have little to no information on your actual morning routine so i cant provide proof of anything, ure just gonna have to confirm if im right or not LMAO you genuinely seem like the type of guy to wake up before sunrise, do some stretching, shower, and then eat a balanced healthy meal while reading an article/book to get your brain working or something like that..!! obviously isn't exact to sae and i could also be completely wrong but again this is just the vibe you give off ..! dont blame me for accuracy.

now for work ethic erm sae obviously trains a lot and prioritizes soccer over everything else which isnt EXACTLY good work ethic because work and life stuff should be balanced BUUUTTTT he gets things done and of course this is the same for you as well! you said before “12 hours of work per day for three weeks, December was a challenge in terms of workload.” and you managed to finish everything you needed to do (goodjob btw)! you and sae are lowkey matchy matchy!!

ok this might be a stretch but i saw something about you going to a prestigious school in brussels or.. idk maybe im hallucinating again but sae left japan to go to spain and be the best striker and you left france or something to go to brussels and something something about art! HELP I DONT KNOW DONT TRUST THIS SECTION ITS A STRETCH IDONT EVEN KNOW IF WHAT I SAW BEFORE IS REAL IM JUST TYPING FROM MEMORY. i have another stretch but idk how to word so we’re gonna forget that exists

yay ok kaiser section!!!

the most obvious parts are your interests and how they relate to kaiser or are very kaiser coded ykwim! you’re interested in psychology + mbti and it’s canon that kaiser is interested in psychology so!!! i also feel like kaiser would be into mbti because he did say "I'm interested in what makes humans tick" (or something idk he said something like that..) ANYWAYS this one is kinda self explanatory i dont know how to expand on this but you + your interests = MICHAEL KAISER!!!

now ok i did some digging (stalked your blog.) andddd

okay i don’t wanna go too deep on this part because i don’t know what you’ve actually gone through and i don’t wanna make you uncomfortable by speaking too much about it + i don’t really know you like that but i’m sorry if this part does make you feel iffy, just ignore this part if you don’t wanna read !

(skip to the red divider)

FIRST IMAGE: we focus on the highlighted portions OKAY so im gonna assume you and soleil are really close and she knows everything about you or something ok.

obviously certain moderator = you, so she says you and kaiser share a similar past yeah im just repeating what she said because i dont know how to word this but she says it herself, you two (+ ash ig he’s included idk we cant leave that blondie out!) share a similar past.

SECOND IMAGE: now kaiser grew up without a mother and id assume he wishes for a mother as well. i don’t have any proof that i can think of but it would be the normal for him to wish for a mother since he didn’t have one growing up.

THIRD IMAGE: “to be drowned by a parent” ok i don’t know if you’ve actually been drowned by a parent because you use “to be” meaning it hasn’t happened and is a hypothetical situation or at least thats how i understood it. if you have been drowned by a parent, kaiser has been through something of the same extent. he got beat by his father, and uh yeah i don’t wanna type it out i feel weird 😭 you get it

okay this also connects to the second image which is just the “three things you wish for - freedom” and I ACTUALLY HAVE PROOF THIS TIME SO YAY

in these panels kaiser is wishing to be free (connects to you and wanting freedom) and in the second image/panel or whatever he’s reaching up to the sky! (ignore the dialogue for now)

typically (from what i noticed at least) people reach up to the sky when talking about freedom since its like limitless and like past the sky (earth i guess) is space and space is always expanding therefore limitless and WOO FREEDOM OR SOMETHING OK IM RAMBLING AT THIS POINT BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN RIGHT 👍👍👍 he wishes for freedom just like you!

okay we acknowledge the dialogue this time where he says “loved… i want to be loved.” i think this is a stretch and im hallucinating again but i was scrolling on soleil’s blog before and i saw something about you and wanting to be loved??? it was really late at night so idk what i actually read and if it was related to you but im gonna pretend it is for the sake of this analysis or whatever idk! IF WHAT I READ IS TRUE ON HER BLOG THEN YOU AND KAISER ARE THE SAME FOR THAT AS WELL

ok next point!

okay we will focus on the yellow and deal with purple later!

kaiser is controlling (as seen with ness i dont really wanna expand on this part because im sure you know) and can be intolerant! (i think..)

kaiser is individualistic and can be intolerant (heh i used the word!) to team play stuff. now ofc this is probably because of the ego stuff and you must do everything yourself!!! but we’re gonna pretend it isn’t and even if it is THEN ITS FINE IT STILL APPLIES. im also pretty sure kaiser gets frustrated when people cant keep up with him (i think??????) he’s also dismissive over other players and think no one is worth his time ykwim idk where im going with this i hope it makes sense…

LIKE OKAY he mocked isagi and didn’t consider him like a threat or enemy during earlier interactions (???? i kinda forgot what happened at the start of the nel arc but i think thats how it was) so its like yk! intolerant! idk what the word means at this point i give up!

but those two traits that you apparently have, kaiser also has them!!

okay to the purple part UHH it’s just more kaiser coded and in my head kaiser doesn’t know how to deal with anger so it’s hashtag headcanon but yeah it still works i guess

to be fair i feel like you talk about kaiser a lot on your blog so that probably influenced why i also chose kaiser for your vibes thing so thats like another reason idk

okay i hope this satisfies you enough because at this point i dont know what i wrote. i genuinely don’t know what words are at this point i will go reconnect with the outside world after this. i also do not know why i did this and i forgot the reason why i made this. ENJOY I HIPE THIS IS GOOD ENOUGJ FOR YOU..!!!!

[narwhalandchill]

so happy to find someone as intense abt childe as i am. sending love mwah

THANK YOU!!! U TOO

(also i swear i wasnt intending for this to get so long sorry you provoked me HSJAKDKSIFI)

i havent known peace for so long i dont know what it is abt him but he just hacked my brain. its just... hes just a guy. hes everything. hes fucking unhinged hes going to torch celestia and ill kiss him on the mouth for it. hes a complete egomaniac taking massive pride in his own abilities yet somehow also so humble and amicable and easygoing most of the time that its jarring when juxtaposed with his status and ambition. hes a weapon and only finds thrill in the mayhem he sows and reaps. so supernaturally efficient at causing chaos everywhere the harbingers literally try to send him overseas just so he might be someone elses problem. hes so effective at his job its literally described as surgical precision but also working among schemers with no interest in scheming himself and sometimes that ends w him as the tricked one too despite him v much not being stupid. hes objectively a terrible person but with so little of that typical and boring villainous angst and malice to him. choosing violence everyday is simply what he does to stay on that crush and devour everything in his path speedrun any% sigma grindset. bro fishes. he watches and does public performances. he cooks he cleans he doesnt gaf about fitting the basic tropes ppl try to shove him into he has so many facets to himself and whats so wild is that none of them are lies. its all true to himself its all him he simply chooses to display those sides in different manners depending on the situation but its all genuine like Man. the bloodlust is no less authentic than his affection for his family (tho im sorry calling him a particularly good brother is... a stretch. his love for teucer is genuine but the way hes going abt it is incredibly selfish and unsustainable and highkey cruel like lil bro is getting trust issues for life. but selfish in a very human way that just makes him more interesting imo. but hes pretty shitty at it lets be real). theres so much to him its just. theres no one like him. he couldve been so tropey and basic but hes not hes everything. hes just a guy and thats the greatest fucking compliment i can give him hes just So Good.

like i had my big insanity era in 2021 the Initial phase so to speak then for like year n half ish got sorta alienated bc of the general pervasiveness and state of childes.... unsatisfactory fanon imo (still limits my interactions w most content like i Dont trust ppl to get him right and interesting and fun lmao) + lack of canon content + complicated irl reasons no need to elaborate but like the way i took him back Instantly once fontaine happened and its just been vindication after vindication and im so happy like. i was SAYING hed be a massive deal YEARS ago i called it i knew it i am being fed so fucking good. tho i do still worry a bit like Please do him justice. but like god im just so Happy to have this madness abt him infecting my brain again bc i was Genuinely feeling p conflicted and unsure abt stuff n whether hoyo was going anywhere w him and all. but like we are SO back oh my fucking god

anyway hoyo now release the abyssal alt. i Will go full send

[morastfrck]

Imagine if infamous delsin and corrupt Reggie

Reggie being a corrupt cop

And delsin a bio-terrorist

In the infamous route, and both of them are vicious

omfg anon

that would be sick af

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but i mean, reg is already not doing half of his job by letting delsin run around and do literally everything he does

and i suppose since they have good relationship between each other, reggie never gave him any real punishment. even for graffiti before the whole conduit thing, bc i doubt that they would still be good bros after 1 year in jail, a massive fine, or whatever else punishments could apply to delsin

(trespassing, vandalism, possibly some other small crimes before the main story)

(well and straight up murder and terrorism later on)

also like, wouldnt it ruin regs career as well? delsin once mentions that reggie “pays the bills” and i suppose supporting a brother, who commited graffiti related crimes multiple times (even after the hypotetical legal punishment) would count as being associated with him (guess who pays for spraypaint if delsin is unemployed)

i dont really know about the law implications of such cases in the us but i doubt that reg would be able to move up the career ladder and become a sheriff without covering up majority of delsin’s crimes

+reg is legit worried about delsin and cares for him, so that might have stopped him from taking legal actions (that would result in del getting a crime record that could wrong him in that beautiful imaginary future of a lawful sitizen that reg wants for his brother)

so what i suppose happens is that he arrests delsin, scolds him, maybe makes him sit in the police station cell for a few days and thats it. No official records or anything.

also the fact that reg says that he is proud of delsin before his death in any karma route is remarkable, and i feel like he really means it.

The thing about his morals is how ready he was to leave and quit everything throughout the story just for delsin’s safety. In the beginning, when he was doubtful of the whole idea of going against augustine and taking her power (in his mind he apparently already buried their tribe and wasnt going to let his brother die too)

and later on, when delsin thought that he lost his powers. Reg was immideately happy for him and ready to go home. And i feel like the way he is ready to basically sacrifice their only chance for saving their family for delsin connects well with him loving and supporting delsin no matter what he does.

They are the only really close ones left for each other, and this fact really seems to impact reggie’s morals and choices.

and what i mean by all of that is that if reggie lived, he would probably stay beside delsin anyway, even in bad karma. He would find new and new excuses to forgive him anything he would do. (up to some breaking point probably, but still)

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and, if we are talking [your] corrupt cop reggie, he wouldnt even have to make excuses. I imagine he doesnt even care, as long as its delsin. His bro can do whatever he wants and reg will use his legal power to make sure he wont get into trouble.

I suppose that in this scenario none of them would give much fuck about other conduits (similarly to how bad karma delsin puts himself above eugene and fetch, and how he only sees other conduits as free powers)

imagine delsin and fetch terrorising another group of anti-conduit protestants, and they call the police only for reggie to accuse them of uncoordinated rally or smth

also i feel like this is one of those scenarios where rowecest could work (if anyone is into that). Since they both would totally lack any morals (and i guess respect for other people lmao)

In canon, reggie was against conduits at first, but made an exception for delsin (the same way he did it with any other crime, like being agains all vandals, except for delsin, who got a free pass as his brother)

Corrupt cop reggie could behave similarly in the sense that he would make an excuse for himself and del. While all other criminals deserve the punishment, they are fine. How beautifully hypocritical of him would that be.

oh and yk this trope in mafia movies and such, where one of the family members is in the law enforcement, and half of the story we think that he hates the family (and vice versa) but then its revealed that he is still the same part of it all, and all the hate is no more then public facade. I believe that something similar could happen (as delsin’s actions would have to impact reggie’s reputation)

corrupt reggie would definetely make public statements about how he rejects his bioterrorist brother (and uh huh coincedentally would never fulfill his promices of doing at least something about the problem) to keep said reputation.

Also i feel like they would still talk in banter, but instead of bringing up the moral aspects, reggie would scold delsin for the way he is not careful enough, that reg cannot save him from everything and that he needs to be less reckless. (still insufferable lmao)

all of this could happen, if from the very beginning reggie had around the same morals as delsin. Either he became a cop to protect his brother and the tribe, or any other reason, seeing the structure from the inside would make him believe, that yeah, his mindset is completely normal

(maybe as a more responsible one he decided that work in the police would be beneficial for them as he would be able to keep delsin out of trouble)

[wheeboo]

coming here just to blab about 'tell me that you love me' cause appreciation needs to be expressed (things i particularly enjoyed and without any kind of organization HAHA)

wheein and seungkwan? perfect. for some reason i imagined seungkwan in his juice collab outfit the whole time and MAN THE TRIO AS A WHOLE HAS MY HEART and the way you can just feel how much they care for y/n :(( the flashlight thing was so shakhsbs

lemme tell you rn that joshua back-hugging our dead sweet y/n made me want to sob LIKE I GENUINELY FELT SO WARM AND FUZZY READING IT HAKAWIHEHDSJ LIKE TELL ME IT WASNT ME REACHING UNSEEN LEVELS OF DELUSION and more-so ur writing dude <3

the way everyone and their mothers-minus woozi (although if he found out he'd hop on that ship real quick) and that *insert pi-cheolin cussing* a-hole wonsik (i now hc that jeonghan made him clean the whole cafe again before telling him he was fired idc LMAO) was just shipping joshua and y/n like??

joshua and y/n just being in love and all lovey dovey WAS JUST HDKAIWHE THE BEST LIKE GIRL UR WRITING IS SOOO-😤😤 the more emotional parts were so wonderful too and i just-everytime they're together i wanna melt :(( the fluffiness between them is diff from the fluffiness from like ur other fics like the catnapping one (which is amazing in its own way ily wonu but let josh be my bias for a hot sec) idk it just felt so emotional?? IDK BUT PROPS 👐

i've never read a deaf reader fic before and it was honestly nice getting to understand or at least get a glimpse of the perspective of those who are actually deaf 🙏

anyways, props! was an amazing read and definitely one to obsess over now hehe so pat yourself on the back 🫶🫶 the effort effort'd 😳 (i now want an actual back hug from actual joshua >:( )

crying not to sob rn WAHHSBSBSB stop please thank you so so much for telling me your thoughts and sweet words :((

STOPPPP i don’t blame ur for imagining him in that fit cuz IT FITS SO WELL???? i just HAD to make the 2 ppl who complete my username as yns besties,,,

IEJSN NO CUZ ANHTIME I THINK OF BACKHUGS I THINK OF JOSHUA. like it’s that certain affectionate action that FITS him so well and LET ME TELL U HOW DELULU I WAS FOR THIS MAN WHILE WRITING. he isn’t even in my bias line and istg he is now LMAOO

yess i wasnt kidding when everyone shipped cuz if i was in the story i would be too HAHA and seokmin def told jihoon abt the shua and yn tea fr. he ships them on the side. jeonghan DEF told him to clean the entire cafe from top to bottom before firing him it’s canon now

I LOVED SEEINF TBEM BE ALL LOVEY DOVEY cuz yk how fics most of the time don’t explore the couple being couple… well i wanted to do that AHHA. and really omg?? it’s interesting to see that there’s different fluff between them and catnaps couple omg… i love ur brain (happy to hear u love catnaps too 🥺)

thank u so much for enjoying!! i had a lot of fun exploring this dynamic and writing a deaf reader for the first time :)) i also want a backhug from shua i swear it would make me breakdown fr (in a good way)

[ar1mas]

OMG OMG OK OK ok no wait because. fuck. ok.

YES. THIS. YES.

ok, i gotta say, i got the whole "american dream" thing from this fanfiction (check it out, it’s a 3x22 canon divergence where ed got the virus and ITS SO GOOD) calling the-woman-who-shall-not-be-named that. and its just soo exactly what kristen is. ed fell in love with her (and lee i guess) (and oswald) because in the times he did, she was the only one who was even remotely nice to him. he obsessed with her. another word for it is limerence. she was nice to him, so he had to love her.

"i thought i loved him, because he saw me as no one had since my mother."

he had to love her because she treated him like a human being as no one had before.

now, and bear with me here. onto… the incident, as i call her. you know the one. the blonde one.

honestly idk why they didnt just make her a clone. i wouldnt be so dam mad at her existence if they had. ugh.

anyway. why did ed fall into a relationship with her after meeting her a second ago? because american dream.

hed moved on from kristen at this point. "but when i look at these i dont feel sadness anymore. i feel gratitude." he didnt date her because of his undying love for kristen, not exactly. he dated her because of what kristen represented.

seriously, read that fanfiction. im just gonna quote what they wrote in there.

"[she] was a part of the original plan. smart, beautiful, and in love with me. she was like a switchboard; she returned my attention back to the original pattern i had wished to complete."

he held onto that like crazy, because he wasnt the type of person whod ever get that. he was a freak. and freaks dont get happy endings.

so even if hed may have found love somewhere else, in the unconventional way (i dont mean the gay way lmao. he "fell in love" with lee the unconventional way, too), this voice in the back of his head lingered. youre a freak. youre pathetic. you will never amount to nothing. you will never get a happy ending.

and when he saw her, the american dream, he couldnt help himself. maybe he could be normal. maybe people could see him as a human being and not like dirt. maybe-

but its not real. it was never about her. it was never about kristen. it was about the false believe instilled in him since he was a child.

…

and the only one who could break that spell is oswald.

you dont have to bear with me anymore, im done ranting about the incident. i like kristen, or specifically her relationship with ed, because even though she was kind of a weirdo (shes real for that get you a bad boy girl i support), for eds development she had to happen. him letting go of the american dream, finally being free to be himself unapologetically.

and then the incident ruins everything anD FOR WHAT? WHATS THE POINT OF HER?? WHY ISNT SHE JUST A CLONE WHAT WERE YALL THINKING

sorry, dunno where that came from. feel free to ignore that.

tl;dr: ed loved kristen bc of limerence and the lie of a normal life (plus, he loved blonde kristen because when he got reminded of kristen he immediately reverted back to pre kristen death).

- a rant

no because ive watched this stupid show 5 years ago, and i only noticed this now?? how???

ok. some context first. this is about fox' gotham, a prequel series to batman. or at least a potential one with slight changes. one of those changes is the relationship between oswald cobblepot and edward nygma (spelled with a 'y' for mayhap legal reasons? idfk its silly). whats their relationship like in the show? well...

theyre gay af. idk what to tell you.

okay so oswalds gay as fuck. edwards... ambiguous. totally ambiguous. he had a girlfriend or 2 and a half (kristen kringle, the-woman-who-shall-not-be-named (aka kristen but... blonde? this show is weird), and lee. not comfy counting lee, but technically shes one, hence the 'and a half')! very straight, much hetero (on another side note how tf is oswald the gay one, like i know he wears make-up and shit but eddies all about theatrics and showmanship and flair and hOW IS OSWALD THE GAY ONE NEXT TO HIM?? ok anyway).

so oswald was (is. be real.) canonically in love with ed, ed was.........., and 'penguin in love' is a piece of music composed by david russo for season three in which the whole "im in love with my best friend" thing took place.

that song has been used all over season three, as far as i can tell not once in season four, and once in season five.

.....or so i thought.

because yesterday, while in another obsession phase (of which i get one a few times a year. ive only ever watched the show once, in 2019, when it ended. still dream about nygmobblepot though. i dont dream about media, like ever, but with them, its different), i saw 5x8 to satiate my never satisfied craving of nygmob scenes, obviously skipping the main story bc i dont care about that straight shit. i got to the scene where oswald kills mr. scarface and frees arthur penn from said mr. scarface, after which ed shoots him in the head because thats what one does in such a situation, thought "aw how cute", again, as one does, and then realised.

what was that background music just now? rewinds.... oh. oh haha, its 'penguin in love'. how fun.

WHAT.

WHY IS THAT IN THERE. WHY DID THEY INCLUDE IT.

correction. it wouldve made sense to have it here. they used it in 5x5 for the speech about not backstabbing each other (wedding vows for murderers fr fr), so using it again after their relationship has solidified wouldve made sense.

note how im saying 'would have'.

because it would have made sense, if they used it when ed said "i accept you for the person that you are, just as you accept me for the cold logician that i am. thats why this friendship is great." they didnt, though. they used another equally heartfelt song for that. dunno what its called, it sounds a bit like 'penguin in love' but isnt, not sure if that one has a specific meaning like 'penguin in love' does.

so when was the song used? at 36:08 – 36:17. barely ten seconds, right before eds lines, right before ed kills penn.

...right when penn was sitting in oswalds lap because theyd been fighting for the gun and os fell on the ground.

now. the most obvious answer to "why in the fucking hell" would be because ooh this dudes on his lap so sexy, but no. no. 'penguin in love' is about one specific thing: love. the pure kind. the kind that makes you giddy with butterflies in your stomach, kicking your legs, while youre on your bed, writing in your diary about this guy you have a crush on. and oswald and penn do have history, oswald was more or less fond of penn, but not in love (i mean where would he have found the room in his heart if it was already filled with EDWARD EDWARD EDWARD martin my sweet boy EDWARD EDWARD EDWA-). im also definitely not thinking that penn was so happy about being free from mr. scarfaces influence and not having to kill oswald (oh yeah, the horror. who would wanna kill oswald, the guy with the big ego, who never does anything for anyone without some kind of endgoal- well, unless your name is edward of course) that he instantly fell in love with the guy. i can deal with the homicidal kind of crazy, but that? no. thats where i draw the line.

the next most obvious answer is that it was about oswalds love for ed. more believable, since its what the song was made for, but more believable doesnt mean believable. or likely. because even if i 100% believe that hes been loving this dude for so long its not something he has to think about anymore for it to be true, im pretty sure that itd be very random to suddenly focus on that when oswald was just about to die. so no, even if its what the song is intrinsically about.

so next most obvious answer is- wait. thats it. huh? theres no obvious answer anymore? everything else is brainrot? oh. oh well. its been five years, im sure its too late to worry about it now. what the hell.

im sure you know where im going with this. or maybe not. honestly idk what the fuck im talking about-

youre smart. you know what im about to say. if it wasnt about what oswald was feeling because he was otherwise preoccupied, and it wasnt about penn because that makes no fucking sense, then who was this song used for? who else was in the room?

...oh.

YOU.

YOU FUCKING IMBECILE. YOU STUPID DENSE PIECE OF-

inhale, exhale. no. don’ get mad, you know he cant help it. you know hes totally helpless when it comes to emotions. just breathe. ok.

i hate him. i hate him so much.

if the song wasnt for oswalds sake, it was for his. because i know hes in love with oswald, but does ed? does the producers??

'penguin in love' is about oswalds love. its about his love for edward. its about their love, their relationship. its about edward just as much as it is about oswald.

a-fucking-PPARANTLY, I DIDNT KNOW THAT!! I JUST THOUGHT OH YEAH OZZY BE THE GAY ONE HAHA FUNNY, I DIDNT KNOW IT COULD BE ABOUT ED DIRECTLY!!!

(why am i like this? what is my life? i will never be normal.)

ed has always been the obsessive one. first kristen (and the woman who shall not be named is just an extention of that ofc), then oswald, then lee. and as weve seen with kristen, when hes obsessed with someone, he can become possessive. absolutely not on the scale oswald is on, but still. theres a wee bit of jelly there. oh you have a boyfriend? better get rid of him! oh you wanna run away from me bc i murdered your boyfriend? better keep you right in place and- oh shit did i kill you? ono D:

this is a huge oversimplification, but you get the point. its there. or at least it has to be there because why else do you get so angy that someone is sitting in the lap of your just friend because they were fighting and they ended up in that position totally accidentally? like thats not normal behaviour, for anyone, unless you have possessive tendencies.

i mean its not like penn was a threat in any way. "he wasnt the threat, the dummy was the-" like i understand ed told penn about the submarine which was supposed to be a secret, but come on, like they couldnt make sure penn wouldnt say anything. so why would ed shoot him? its not even like penn was a random dude where that type of thing would be very inconsequential, oswald knew him. hed worked for oswald, and like i said, oswald was more or less fond of the guy. penns just a poor little meow meow, y u kil him eddie? 🥺

unless this fondness was part of the problem. unless ed saw how happy oswald was to see him, got annoyed but let it slide, then used penn attacking os and knowing about the sub as an excuse to kill him. and why would oswald being happy to see penn be a problem to ed? it wouldnt be. it wouldnt be, unless ed thinks oswald is his.

which makes sense. i know im calling him names and calling him out, but like. oswald told him he loved him like 5 times 2 years prior, i dont blame him for believing that maybe theres something to it (especially since that was the point of 3x14, oswald really being in love with him and surprising himself with it). but i thought ed didnt feel the same way? because hes very hetero? because he had a full-on girlfriend before, twice, technically? because-

"the truth is oswald, you would sacrifice anyone to save your own neck. even me."

"like i said! you will always fail, because youll never change."

hm. i know this is a bit off topic, but i just got a war-flashback and... why did ed sound so hurt when he said that? "youll never change." "you would sacrifice anyone. even me." why does he care? they were friends, best friends, yes, but why does he sound like a heartbroken wife who just found out her husband cheated on her again? why does-

"honestly you deserve this. you are opportunistic, your loyalty is.. shaking, at best, and you will hurt anyone, anyone, to get what you want."

"and yes, i was not a good friend. to you or anyone. its why im alone. but i saw you for what you are and i valued that!"

...why would edward nygma, the man who literally said "i dont love you" to oswald, be jealous of even the idea that maybe penn could have something going on with oswald? and why would he act on it if hes usually so careful to not reveal his feelings (unless its about kristen. the original obsession, the american dream, the just be normal, show them you are normal, and people will accept you)? he wouldnt.

unless oswald just told him that he knows he messed up. that hes sorry for it.

and unless that made him think that maybe theres a chance.

"love is about sacrifice. its about putting someone elses needs and happiness before your own."

"you gave up your revenge for me?"

a chance... for what?

"life begins anew."

"shall we get to work?"

and if theres a chance, hes not about to risk losing it. not this time.

so maybe 'penguin in love' is about more than just oswalds feelings. maybe they were trying to tell us that, yes, we see you traumatised gay kid, were sorry this is all we can give you, but here you go, eds in love with him too, but don’t tell the channel. subtlely. just for barely ten seconds. and maybe it can be enough.

nope, it wont be. im gonna sit here crying about the injustice of not having them kiss on screen in the finale as was originally intended for the rest of my life. seriously though, what is this, nbc's hannibal, where im noticing something new details every single time i watch the show, causing me to spiral? no, i was already spiralling. the spiralling was the reason i rewatched the scene. the scene simply made it worse.

so yeah, im done freaking out about a mediocre show that was cancelled 5 years ago and is honestly not worth anyones time (like, its ok. it might even be better than i remember since its been so long. i doubt it. but its ok).

tl;dr: ive only now realised that a specific gay song plays in a specific episode of a show i watched 5 years ago and the only reason theyd include it in the episode is if the dude that was not canonically in love with the other dude was in fact gay, they just werent allowed to make it canon, so they added the gay song to subtlely tell us about it.

have a wonderful day, hellsite. dont do what i did and go crazy about fictional gay people. i know you will though, that’s why im here too. i hate gay people. these two make me homophobic so bad, i wanna gauge my eyes out and skin myself-

[elvesofnoldor]

this is like the best picture i could take of my lavellan when he’s with dorian, but idk what happened to dorian’s skin tone here oh boy it’s so washed out :|