#too much WORSD

[roxyzwritez]

au writing shit idk

heres the Rough Plan for my first few eps:

ep1: the au branches off of canon in the final SU ep, Change Your Mind. renamed to Change Your World. when white yoinks the gem out of steven and pinksteven reforms and whiteasks W H E R E I S P I N K the response is something along the lines of "i am right here, but fuck you im not talking to you." (girlboss) and white gets the "im a child, what's your problem" and has the perfectionist meltdown, then steven's like "sorry but we gotta head out" and they're like "PINK WHAT THE FUCK?" steven goes "im not pink just leave earth alone" the gems agree and give steven The Legs™️.

pearl latches onto the idea that rose is still alive in there. (didn't write that tho just had it cut to this next bit oops) her and greg build a thing to connect to the gem that will essentially connect to pink/rose im just gonna call her rose damnit and allow her to communicate w everyone. shes like "...hey guys. uh. sorry for trying to kill myself i guess that didn't work but i have been minecraft spectating steven for the entirety of his existence with no ability to do anything but think and watch" pearl has a lesbian implosion, everyone's all happy n shit. steven eventually asks about the lying and she's like "yeag i done bad there. i just wanted to keep you guys together" (now that i think abt it there was no mention of bismuth here.. oops,) garnet gives her a Garnet Specil motivational speech and she's like "i missed you too garnet" (i forgot to mention, garnet violently explode-unfuses and ruby+sapphire are just bumbling with happy when rose spoke) amethyst has her own moment (she thought this was all bullshit and started playing fortnite upstairs but between games she heard rose and a p p e a r e d)

anyway rose then is thinking "oh man i gotta talk to so many ppl" and realizes eh guys nothing to worry abt just a HAPPY TO LISTEN, HAPPY TO STAY, HAPPILY WATCHING HER DR- but we should go there NOW" so they do, spinel is understandably distraught and breaks the gemspeaker in half but feels bad about it. she comes with the gang to earth, they show her around, a new gemspeaker is made and they reconcile. yippy! also spinel ate one of ALL. big donut flavors. sadie allowed this just for on e because steven is the LORD AND SAVIOR OF THE STEVEN UNIVERSE haha funny.

anyway she and bismuth talk. bis is kinda like "yeah i wasnt very gamer sorry about that herhee" again ignoring that SHE lied about the bubbling, conveniently forgot to explore that conversation for ease of writing and so i didn't need to go "how do i utilize my 2 iq points to channel these characters and get them to have a coherent, consistent to character conversation about this situation"

peri and lapis are called over by bismuth who doesn't say shit to them for the surprise. lapis is like "yeah ok hit me" peri is more curious. rose speaks, peridot fangirls and lapis is like "oh shit that's historically significant " peri is like "I NEED TO RESEARCH:)))" and runs off. spoiler: gem cloning

bis brings up the idea. rose is like "yeah that sounds legit" (the gem cloning conundrum took me way too long to understand. i drove my friend crazy. "hey can u explain every single quantum detail of this in the most verbose way i dont understand" but eventually i understood it JUUUUST enough to write it lmao i still don't get it)

rose n steven talk in roses room. all happy n shit. greg is told abt the plan and hes like oh shit i gotta clean up and steven is like "you know her standards. she don't give a shit" hes like "yeag"

peri makes progress! she made a little clump!! (explaining the gem cloning: theyre making essentially an empty gem with the powers but no consciousness inside. when its ready, white will take steven's gem out again, rose reforms, and the new gem gets ever so graciously stabbed into his belly where the old one was.)

peri tells steven its gonna take a year. he's like "well okay better than like hundreds of years" then he goes off to talk to the diamonds. he brings the speaker with. rose lets out the thousands of years of distrust and anger at the dismonds and they are humbled even more than when they got pinkd and rose is like "you WILL heal all the shattered ones i don't give a shit" and theyre like "whatever you say little one" (yes they do indeed heal the fallen. probably with regular shipments of steven fluid. that sounded wrong but im not a freak like that hes still 14)

also they go back home and steven talks to rose abt "you told the diamonds you literally wanted to die are you fr?" she explains and hes like YOU FATHERFUCKER, YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU CAN'T DO THAT (crying)"

next episode is just year-long filler but i made it actually good by making it essentially a montage of lapis and peri in the barn becoming lesbian for eachother. finally, a controversial move on my part, they decide to overcome lapis's fear of fusion and fuse for stevens birthday. their fusion is turquoise (took way too long coming up with a fucking name) and can corrode (water + metal) and can morph/control metal (liquify n stuff. definitely not taken from a lapidot fusion concept i found on google images.) garnet is like "hey pearl look at these silly lesbians " pearls like "damn relatable" garnets like "yeag"

a week or a few after the bday, the gem is finally ready. everyone is excited until steven asks how this is gonna work. peri is like UHHHHH... 😊 and lapis is just "eh just take that one out, stick this one in!" peri goes NNNO- but after some damage control and telling everyone steven will be fine hes like "well i better get some good sleep then. big day!"

there's more but im done typing my fingers are about to go peridot and fuckin fly away let me know if you want the like 1other episode and the minisode after that

[crystalmagpie447]

hello um

just wanted to let yuo know that i htink your art is delightful

that is all

have a nice (time zone accurate phrase) :)

okay actually i'm not done talking bc i have a physical (and somewhat violent) need to RANT about COOL ART I SEE

okay so i LOVE the way you use color. it makes my brain go woAHGGG like. idk something abt the way you do the. i can't talk im tired u get what i'm saying

and the lines. THE LINES. AARTTHRGRGRGARRAGRGRGHAHGRGRGR that one drawing with like eclipse (i think) and like the second "layer" of hands i LOVE the composition and the lines. and just. AAGRGHRGGAHRGHAGRGHAGGRHHG i love ur lines so much

I JUST LOVE THE WAY U DRAW THE DCA TOO

ugh i don't have good enough words right now to describe why i relly like ur art >:( i'll be back. i'll be back with better worsd.

sincerely,

HA i distracted you with an outro i have TAKEN YOUR ART FROM YOUR WALLS (blog) I AM RUNNING I AM RUNNING I AM CONSUMING YOUR ART YOULL NEVER CATCH ME

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THANKYOU SO MUCH!!!!

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THAEANS SO MUCH

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IM GLAD YOU LIKE MYART!!!!!!!!! (HEELPP I AM JOT GOODWITH WORDS EITHER BUTTHANKYOU THANKYOU!!?!? I AM RUNNING AROUBD)

ah yess now time togo back to my wall of ar-

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[favorite-lie]

i cant even. i can't make myself reply to anything. it is genuinely stressful to just know there is somethimg to reply to

it is absolutely okay to dm me about your commission though..... i must give you all at least a thing at least a message back, barely a minimum, below a minimum even

its just. im sorry

people often say i should just make a break, but i cant allow myself one, since i literally dont do almoat anything at all for the most time as if. every day was a break. i just dont do much. i dont think a break will help.. they are waiting for too long, for some it's been more than half a year. that is a ridiculous amount of time. i cant just let myself rest, yet i cant make myself do anything.. i-

i cant do anythinf i cant . i promised to make a simple minecraft skin almost a week ago. they dont take more than an hour i still dodnt do it. i promise to take care of the dishes and then i cant. i promise so much i promise to deliver somwthing and then i forget about it.. i promise so much to my partner yet i just cant do anything. i promised them a million times, i will teach you english. tomorrow. i will begin. tomorrow begins, nothing happens. a week later ill be ready. im not. please dont cry i promise i will teach you soon. in 2 weeks i promise. i did not. hey i made a list of worsd to teach you with. i did not i fuCKING FORGOT I FUCK8BF FOROGOT FAINA I CHNWNR GN O I KEEP FORGETTING but 8t crawls my mind and drives me insane i fucking cant

and it happens with eceeythibg i just i cant. everything feels so stressful andtiring. i just want to hide and do my little things. my mind doesnt want any of this so it makes me forget .but it mames it worse. i just want to go keep playing or make a model or work on my project ideas. but i cant i must keep going i must do it but i i i cant i

i msorry .. . i would say idtry my best with all of the commissions but now i know its gonna be a lie. i dont know if i can do my best. i dont know if i xan do anythibg

im so stressed and burnt out and worried and feeling and things about commissions im so sorry if i sady i will do something and then not do it im so sorry i just cant anymore this was so much i was not ready but i didnt have a choice im sorry

i say ill try my best but im not sure if i can even do my best i cant do anything at this point even remember to reply im im so sorry

[embryonicjourney]

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[cartoonfangirl1218]

Sick Days

Obviously before Mon el admits his feelings.

So how do you feel?" Mon-el asked when he entered Kara's room.

"Sick, so so very sick. I want to die" Kara sniffled.

Mon-el patted her shoulder, and pulled the blanket over her curled up body again.

"I hope Snapper undersdands. Ugh! I forgod to dell her!" Kara cried, she struggled to get up and rush to the phone but Mon el forced her to lie down again.

"It's okay. James already made an excuse as to why you're not going." Mon el assured her

"An excuse! Bud... I'm just sick, Dan excuse wilb ondly make id worsde." Kara whined as she tried to reach for the phone again.

"No it won't. We just told him that you have wild food poisoning and are throwing up as we speak. It sounds a lot better than just a cold."

"Jusb a cold. This a Krypdoniand cold, dose are mega worsde. It's den million colds at once." Kara groaned, swiveling her head dramatically. Then she sat up.

"Whab about you! Your fake job," She cried.

Mon-el brushed a stray hair out of her face, a smile creeping on his face as he looked at her. Even though her skin was ashen, her usually bouncy blonde curls were limp and stringy and her eyes were bloodshot and her nose was as stuffed up as a Build a Bear, she was cute.

She cared about his job, she cared what her boss would think. That was true determination and loyalty. Just generally niceness. That was Kara. She may be an alien, but she could fit as the girl next door any day of the week. She was just so optimistic and cheerful, it was one of the best things he liked about her.

In fact that was why he volunteered to help stay with her today. He didn't really know how to take care of a sick person but he googled it so it seemed easy.

Now Kara was a grown woman, but she was practically useless when she was sick, physically not able to get out of bed useless, and that usually put a damper on getting lunch herself or getting dress or getting tissues when she ran out.

Alex was going to do it, but once Mon-el heard he volunteered. And insisted that Alex go do her job and he would take care of her.

Lately Mon-el had been thinking a lot about Kara. A lot. She would creep up into his mind and random parts of the day even if she wasn't in the room.

He would stare at daffodils and think "Kara would love those. The first sign of spring. What did she call them? Oh right, cups of sunshine in bloom."

To a regular person that would be cheesy but that was just Kara.

He would watch tv shows and suddenly a particular line would pop up and he would be tempted to write it down so he could tell her later.

Yeah, he had to admit it. He got it bad for the Kryptonian.

But he couldn't admit it TO her.

She was just so strong and caring and yes, that might be her point of weakness. She would care too much. And when people fell in love, those feelings only amplify and then she would be protective of him this way and that and then there would be the whole "it's not you, it's my enemies." He was aware of the danger. It still didn't mean he could get over his feelings just like that.

Especially when she sounded like that.

"I'm gonna make you some food. You stay here and start getting better." Mon-el told her. Kara did what she was told and buried her head under the pillow without a second thought.

When Mon-el came back from the kitchen, Kara had fallen off the bed, and was staring dazedly at the wall.

"Mon-el. Fuddy ting. I can'd ged up." Kara said. He could swear the stuffiness was getting worse.

He placed the bowl of piping chicken soap on the dresser and swept her up in an army lift. He gently placed her into bed, rearranged the pillows, and pulled the blanket over her again, and made sure the tissue box was close by.

"Here some soup." He handed the bowl to her and she grinned happily.

"Danks" She took a slurp of it and spewed it across the bed, coughing violently.

"Sorry! I didn'd mean do!" Kara cried, she got off the bed and was about to start wiping the blanket when she dizzily fell again.

"Kara, you rest, I got it." Mon-el said, he lifted her again and walked her to the couch in the living room.

"Sorry," she muttered again.

"No it's not your fault. Your sick. Just relax, watch some tv"

He went back to the room, stripped the sheets and managed to wrangle up some new blankets in the back of her closet.

"Danks for all dis. Really. You could be doing domthing more udful or fun than be with me." Kara blew her nose in a tissue when he handed her the box

"It's my pleasure. You do so much for everyone, and for me. It's not a big deal to care for you" Mon el replied

"Dupergirl does do a lot of duff for everyone," Kara said.

"And Kara Danvers does too." Mon-el said as he sat next to her "She makes me happy, she brightens the workroom everyday and tries to see the best in things. I really like her."

Kara blushed, and hid her face behind her blanket. James froze, did he just admit his crush? More importantly, one of the most dreaded scenarios of this whole conversation was that she was just being Kara. She was nice to everyone including him. He was no different than Winn or Cat to her. Okay maybe he was step up from being Cat in her eyes but still.

"I really like you doo," Kara mumbled shyly. Mon el' heart skipped a beat.

Mon-el put his arm around her to adjust the blanket, and she leaned his head on his shoulder.

Soon she fell asleep but he just sat there contently and grinned like an idiot.

"She likes me. "Mon-el thought "She said she REALLY likes me. She'll probably be sick tomorrow so I should probably bring her daffodils just to cheer up. Oh and I could rent a movie. Has she seen that ER show yet? Oh and some super hot fudge. Yeah, tomorrow's sick is gonna be great!"

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No way had Mon-el thought that in his days of taking care of a sick Kara that he would get sick himself.

But here he was, in bed, freezing, his throat burning me nose so clogged up that everything he said was filled with ds and his hearing felt like he was underwater the whole time.

In Daxam the closest thing to this was the daily headache of a hangover from the late night parties. In all honesty he was pretty sure his parents wouldn't allow him to be sick on account of being ruler and all that.

He wished he could just have those hangovers now. Actually he wished for some water because his threat was not only burning but felt like a little porcupine was scratching it as well.

Then he heard the door bell ring.

"Mon-el can I come in?" A sweet voice that reminded Mon el of a angel in his sick state.

"Yeuhh" Mon-el managed to cough out.

Kara walked in. Pristine and near as usual in her cardigan and glasses. Her hair perfectly curl and seemed so soft. Mon el really liked the smell of her hair. Well, if he could smell. He remembered what it smelled like though. Like fresh apples. Wholesome and good like Kara.

"Jew divil women. Jour are dill tryin' do kill me" Mon-el mock glared when he was seized by another harsh sneeze making his threat burn more.

Kara simply shook her head as she started to take out a soup container from her bag.

"We don't know how colds affects Dazims" Mon-el groaned "Dis could kill me."

"I'm here to make sure that doesn't happen." Kara said as she opened the container, "So I made this for you."

Mon-el gave hr an genuine smile. This was the Kara he admired. Someone so willing to do things for others from saving the world to giving soup to him.

Mon-el eagerly grabbed the container, but another sneeze took him and he spill some of the hot soup on his sweat pants.

Mon-el barely concealed how much he wanted to scream with what he hoped was a manly grunt.

"Oh oh I'll take care of that" Kara quickly grabbed the tissues and dabbed at the spill. "I'll just give it you."

Mon-el cocked his head questioningly until he realized that she meant to spoon feed him.

He didn't understand why he felt so nervous about it. Maybe it was the way Kara looked at him as she put the warm soup in his mouth. Caring, focused only on him wth those piercing, kind grey eyes.

"Tank you" he croaked

Kara put a finger to his lips and Mon-el noticed even though most of his senses were dulled he could feel how smooth her skin was.

"Rest your voice."

"Bud I like talkging with jew. Jour indersing,” He smiled.

Kara turned away but Mon-el could see her bite her lips as the end of her lip curled into a half-smile.

Mon-el smiled to himself. He still had his charm. Plus he had meant what he said. She was interesting. She was bubbly, and entertaining. But she also wasn't afraid to tell him he was wrong. While that was infuriating and annoying, it also intrigued him. Years of being with complimentary bimbos made him forget that some girls were headstrong.

And Kara was plenty headstrong. She had personality. That personality made her seem full of life and vigor. And he wanted to have her next to him and feel that vigor. She was so..so complex. As Supergirl she seemed industrictable, almost unattainable but here right now. She was pure and genuine. He wanted all of it.

"You're interesting too," Kara replied.

With those words, Mon-el felt like he had been given the greatest compliment. She thought he was interesting! No one at home ever thought he was interesting. Pretty, hot, fun usually came up. But interesting never.

Mon-el finished his soup so Kara started arranging his blankets, and started a movie. "Hope you don't mind, but I thought you need to see the greatest movie of all time."

"Stard Ward" Mon-el guessed. Winn kept going on and on about how awesome Star Wars was. And it was. It had so much action and drama and even some of the planets were realistic for a human movie.

"No." Kara chirped, “The Princess Bride. I think you'll really like Ingio."

Mon-el shrugged and settled closer to the blonde. He felt hotter with her body heat next to him. It was tempting to move away but he didn't want to. She may be hot as hell but her prescnce was also comforting and warm and soft.

Mon-el dazedly opened his eyes to see moon light streaming through his windows and that the night sky was alight with the flashing lights of buildings.

"Whad happened?"

Kara leaned over him, her blonde hair brushing against his cheek. "You conked out during the commercials and it's eleven."

"Oh sstorry?" Mon-el murmeered

"It's fine." Kara smiled at him, "We can see it another time. You looked cute asleep." Then she paused and blushed as if she hadn't meant to say that last part.

Mon-el was too happy about that to tease her. "Jou lookd cute lasd week doo."

Kara put her hand to his forehead and smiled at him once more. "You're less hot. So you're probably be better soon. And not going to die." Kara added

"Good." Mon-el said "But I'm glad jou were here with me if I did."

"Me too." Kara whispered softly, "I better go now. But I'll stop by tomorrow."

"Okday" Mon-el waved as Kara left his room.

He settled himself to sleeping position once more, utterly beaming with happiness at spending an afternoon with Kara and being called cute by Kara. Kara, Kara, Kara. That was all he could think of. He never felt this way about a women before. Then again, he never met a women like her before.

The door cracked open and Kara scutler back in adorably. "Sorry just wanted to make sure you had all the blankets on you. Okay, good. Sorry. Go back to sleep, I'll see you tomorrow."

Mon-el managed to wave goodbye as the mild manner reporter went away, "I'll be waiting."

[dangan-happy]

(Mom said it's my turn to steal the ahoges) (tw: abuse)

To taka,

Hello, this is tbe anon who wss talking abour ghier brother abd father fightibh. Sprry abour ny spellinh, ny hands arw shakinh again. So, tpday tge fighting judt got worsd. My father gpt mad at me, he wss yellinh and hittinh me, so ny brother stepped in. He trird tp calm dpwn ny dad bexauwe he didmt want me gwttinh hurt anymore, but ny dad started yellinh ar him fpr dwfendibg me. My dad stwrted beating him instred and i gpt really scared. I wss tryinh tp stpp ny dad frpm hudting hin but ny mum wss holdinh me back sp i couldnt dp anything, abd she was jusr laughinh ar him. Sprry if thst wss too much, i juss hsd tp gwt it out somewhere. Im realky scared abour alk of this, i don't wsnt ny brother grttinh hurt anymire. Can i havw a hug please?

Yes of course you may get another hug, but I really have to tell you anon, you need to reach out to authorities or something, your father getting psychical is not ok. No one should ever harm their child psychically.

Like before, don’t worry about your typing! The way your hands are shaking is justified by all the violence that is going around you. Please, I really can’t stress enough, that you or even your brother, reach out to someone in law enforcement. There is a lot wrong with the way your father treats you.

Now for the hug, I absolutely will give you one. I really hope something gets done anon, I have a strong dislike towards how afraid you are.

[micurian]

Namu's head tilted, looking much like a curious animal unsure of quite what was happening. And in a way, he wasn't - but not because of Hymnis. No, he could work that part out well enough with the explanations given, for the most part. What didn't make sense in any way was the fact that the... light fae had been after him? He'd heard that some of the fae tended to break the laws and the rules, go out and hunt creatures for food or for pelt, but they were often swiftly dealt with by whichever guardian was in charge of the area. That was their whole point, after all. But to be using hexes? And something to truly nasty as to drain the other of everything he had, knowing full well it killed most it hit? It made Namu sick to his stomach.

"It wouldn't have been the court, no.." he agreed softly, nodding a little as he turned to create a little strip of woven dried grass to create a bandage for the wound, but immediately stopped when he felt that hand back on his shirt and... Oh. Oh, he did remember...

"I... I found you. You were close to dead, but you're a strong, stubborn little thing," he smiled, warm and as careful as he could be. He didn't want to scare the other off, or spook him, after all. Not after so much progress had been made. Besides, Namu was... lonely. The forest made perfect company, but sometimes having someone to talk to was nice too. "You fought off a hex that most would succumb to in seconds flat. And in a stunning, beautiful fox form. You are... a shifter, I assume?" Again, he was smiling, but his curiosity was quickly winning out against all sense.

And yet, even though his worsd were warm and calm, he had a sneaking suspicion that maybe they weren't enough. And he didn't want to make light of a serious situation by any means. And so a hand, regretfully a little coverd with blood, came up to the other's hair, brushing palm carefully over the strands as reassuringly, as comfortingly, as he could, "I built this place for you... They won't find you. From the outside it just looks like another cliff face, and they wouldn't dare touch something I created, anyway. They know better. Though, apparently they don't if they think it's appropriate or even morally right to hunt an innocent. They won't know what hit them when I get my hands on them, I promise you that."

For all of Namu's reassurances and the comfort he'd tried to give the other, he knew that nothing would dull this pain completely. No amount of plants or medicinal magics would stop the sting of the needle, not entirely anyway, but he hoped it was enough. Just enough that it was bearable at the very least. A foolish hope, perhaps, because he heard those breaths. Every shaky little noise that slipped free of a tense jaw. He could feel the tension in the other's body where he touched, where he tried to sew as neatly as possible to give the best possible chance that the scar would be minimal.

His words were failing him now. His lips had parted to reassure, to tell Hymnis that it would only be a few more stitches and he'd be done, but that nose pressed to his neck at that exact moment, and he felt the slow shift of relaxation and oh. How that made his heart flutter just that little bit more. Or a lot bit. Truly, Namu didn't know enough about his own anatomy to know whether this was a normal amount of fluttering. It was truly only the fact he knew butterflies couldn't survive inside a body that he knew that, despite it feeling like they were in there, he didn't actually have butterflies in his chest.

"You're doing so well, little fox... Just a couple more, I promise." he finally managed out with a quiet clear of his throat, fingers getting a little too slick with the blood but there was less of it pouring out of the little fox's side now and for Namu, that was a win. He would bandage it up afterwards to really give him his best fighting chance...

He tried to make quicker work of it, though part of him really didn't want that proximity to end. It was so unusual, so strange, and something about the other felt familiar and like... home, almost, in a way he couldn't quite pinpoint. Like the answer was right there on the tip of his tongue but far, far beyond his reach at the same time. "I'll finish off and clear some of this blood, and then we'll get you some water, and I collected some food for you. You should eat something, get some of your strength back up, give yourself a fighting chance with the last of that nasty little hex. Maybe you could... could tell me what happened? What you remember?"

[higuchimon]

[fanfic] Pieces of Belief:  1/1

Juudai rolled the maps up and tossed them back into their storage case before he threw himself into his chair and stared balefully at the tent opening.

“What’s taking so long?” He grumbled, leaning his head back. It should have been here by now. Was he going to have to kill more people to get taken seriously around here?

It wouldn’t be the first time that he’d killed without mercy. He didn’t think it would be the last.

Truth to tell, he thought it would be the fifteenth or so. He hadn’t made a specific count, but he’d only begun his plans less than two months earlier. That hadn’t led to a lot of opportunities for vicious, savage murder.

Yubel brushed one hand against the side of his neck. “Your lunch will be here soon.”

Juudai leaned against their touch. “It had better be.” He hadn’t ever had to wait for meals when he’d lived in the palace. They came whenever he wanted them.

That was one of the issues with having fled those lies and deceptions. There were plenty of things that weren’t the same. Some of them he favored. Not having to deal with people who pretended to care about him and then …

He held back a snarl, the Light’s anger boiling up inside of him.

They didn’t deserve to live. None of them, not for a single moment. Whatever it took, he would see to it that they didn’t live.

Again Yubel touched him and he breathed out silently, trying to get himself under control. Yubel’s touch always steadied him. He leaned his head against their touch yet again.

“They don’t deserve it,” Yubel murmured. As always, they followed his thoughts effortlessly. “And we won’t allow it to happen. We will destroy them all.”

Juudai smiled at that. Yubel knew just what to say to calm him even more. Such a lovely image they posited as well. He’d admired the beauty of the world once before but no more. All of this creation deserved death.

“When?” He could feel the Light’s power within him stirring at the thought of mass destruction, chaos, and endless screams of pain.

One person’s screams of pain in particular. He did so hope they could lay hands on him before too much longer. All of his spies – and he had so many, it was so easy to persuade people to see things his way with the Light’s support – and yet they still couldn’t tell him where his target hid.

Those who could have weren’t there any more. Though if they’d been there, would he even be here now?

Juudai’s eyes glazed for a few heartbeats. His hands dropped to grip at the arms of his chair. He breathed faster, but not nearly enough air made it into him.

They’re gone. They’re gone and it’s my fault, my fault, I never should have trusted him and I did, and they’re not here anymore, and it’s because of me!

Hot, harsh tears pricked at his eyes and dripped down his cheeks, brushed away a moment later by Yubel’s gentle touch.

“Beloved, it isn’t your fault. It’s his.” Yubel reminded him. “We know what he’s like. We’ve seen it.” Their voice remained gentle but compassionate and strong. “He wanted what you’ve had all of your lives. He took that chance to rip it all away from you.”

Juudai pulled in a staggered breath. He closed his eyes and tried to get himself calm and centered, focusing on Yubel’s bolstering presence.

“It wasn’t my fault,” he murmured. “It was his. He took away what was mine.”

All of the friends that he’d had. He’d never made them easily but he had a few and then that traitor arranged for their deaths, one and all. Some of them he’d even personally killed.

Against his will, the memories flared back up, bright and shining. Innocent. Trusting. That’s what his friends had been and they’d had every right to be.

Johan was their friend too. Or so they’d always believed. The Knight of Darkness, true companion to the Prince of Light. The two of them grown up together, always at each other’s sides, ready to fight whatever stood against them.

And then a summons came, luring Juudai’s friends into an ambush. A summons from Johan.

Juudai clenched his fists. He didn’t want to think about this but the Light apparently thought that he needed a refresher course.

He didn’t. He never would. He could never, ever forget being shown it for the first time. The way that their bodies fell, the harsh copper reek that filled the air, the glazed eyes that would never open again…

And the evidence of it being Johan’s doing: the knife forged of living darkness. A weapon only he could have forged or used, caught in the bright morning light and fading away.

Yubel still soothed him, still urged him to calm. Yubel ached for the traitor’s blood as much as he did, but held him back for the moment. Mindless raging would do no good, not now.

Something stirred near the tent opening. Juudai forced himself to sit up, eyes open. It became less forced when he realized that it was his servant, bringing in lunch. He set a large silver tray, with several covered dishes, on the table, then quickly started to uncover them.

Everything smelled delicious. He’d brought a few of the palace cooks with him when he’d left the palace, so they knew what he liked best. Their resources here weren’t as good as they’d had back in those days, unfortunately.

But they made do and Juudai remained pleased with their work. Being a double incarnation of Light didn’t mean that he didn’t need to eat. In fact, he’d noticed that he ate a lot more after he’d accepted the second Light.

He started to reach for the first plate, a very finely made steak that sent up a fragrant, delicious aroma. Before he touched the first implement, Yubel’s hand came down on his.

“Yubel?” He waited. Yubel never interrupted his meals without a very good reason.

Yubel stared at the food for a few heartbeats, as the servant started to step back. Juudai turned toward him, eyes narrowed. He could feel Yubel’s rage rising, even before Yubel darted past him, wings spread wide, and slashed at the servant. Liquid splashed, cloth tore, and when Juudai looked again, the servant wasn’t his familiar servant anymore.

He was also within a few moments of dying. Yubel did their work very well and very quickly.

Someone else might have asked questions. He didn’t bother. Instead, he glanced at Yubel. “Poison?” Nothing else made sense.

“Poison,” Yubel agreed, before reaching into the attempted poisoner’s clothes and tearing out a long, sharp knife. Magic dripped off of it; if he’d touched that, or if it touched him, it would have killed him nearly at once. Yubel, unable to be harmed by any attack, stared at it balefully before snapping it in half. “A very foolish attempt at murder.”

“Johan.” Juudai breathed out the name. He stepped aside to call for the captain of his guard. He really needed no guard, but they proved useful in situations like this.

The guard stared at the body on the floor before turning back to him. “Sir?”

“I want the head removed and sent back to the palace. Then I want a replacement meal. No poison this time.” Juudai ordered. He swept the table clean with one swipe of his arm. “Understood?”

The captain swallowed. “As you wish, sir.” He didn’t wait another moment, calling for lesser ranked guards to come dispose of the body.

Juudai flopped back into his chair and sighed. Johan hadn’t ever tried anything like that before. Juudai still couldn’t believe that his former friend sank so low.

He needs to be disposed of. You wish a clean destruction to everything. He will ruin it all, and everyone.

Juudai didn’t deny the Light’s words. He wasn’t at all sure if he knew how, since the Light always told him the truth. Why deny the truth? It would just take time to get everything done, because if he didn’t do it right, then they would just have to start over again. They would be reborn. Somewhere else, sometime else.

He didn’t want that. He wanted to do it once and get it over with, not to have to start from scratch.

“Whatever you have to do, I will be with you,” Yubel assured him with a gentle smile. “You will never be without me, beloved.”

Juudai reached over to take Yubel’s hand and holding it close. Yubel burned warm against him as he pressed his lips against their fingers. “You’re stuck with me, huh?”

“And I would have it no other way.”

Juudai leaned in and pressed his lips against Yubel’s. “Neither would I.”

He’d loved Yubel since before they’d become a demonic dragon. Reality could – and would – burn but that would never change.

Notes: How much do you believe about what was said here?

[nerdwaifuu]

An Untold Story- Chapter 1

It was a quiet and peaceful autumn day in Ninjago. The sun was setting, the sky was turning beautiful colors, and there was a cool breeze as two middle aged men walked side by side, the yellow, orange, anx red leaves crunching under their feet. One was fixing his brown hair, trying to look nice before reaching the other's home, just in case he lived with someone.

"Are you sure it's fine I can stay here? I could probably reach my apartment before it's too la-"

"Don't be silly, it's no problem Dareth. I got enough room..." Ronin trailed off as he reached the front porch of his home. Dareth examined the yard. It was small and the lawn looked like it hasn't been mowed for quite some time. The house was also small, nothing like he has seen in the city. He was confused as why Ronin had such a small house, since he has most likely been getting some of the profit off of the tea shop that Wu once owned and the coffee shop across the street.

"This is the right house... right?" Dareth asked as Ronin pulled out a key and put it into the front door lock. Ronin slowly nodded, unlocking and opening the front door.

"I know, not much, but it's home..." he muttered, motioning Dareth inside. Immediately, three small children rushed over to the two as soon as they took a step inside. All three surrounded Ronin and formed a group hug. At this time, Dareth saw that the group of children consisted of one girl and two boys. From what he could tell, the boys looked older and taller than the girl, possibly by two years. However, all three looked under the age of ten at least.

"Welcome home Papa!" The young girl exclaimed, pulling away from the hug and playing with her long brownish ginger braid. Her eyes resembled Ronin's dark brown eyes, yet her face resembled nothing like Ronin. She wore a cute set of pastel pink pajamas that seemed a bit dirty with dirt and mud, and the pants seemed a bit torn near her bare feet. The two other boys also were in the same condition, but one's sorta short brown hair, the same color as Dareth's hair, was quite messy, as if he just got electrocuted in a cartoon, and the other's ginger hair was pulled back into a bun. Both boys resembled Ronin in some way, the brown haired boy has his facial structure and eyes. The ginger haired boy seemed to have similar hair, but had hazel eyes, unlike Ronin and the other two kids. From what the girl said and how similar the kids were to Ronin, Dareth figured out who they were...

"You have... kids?" He asked, turning to Ronin, who just picked up the girl and was talking to her in a calm and gentle voice.

"Did you and the boys go outside and play today? Y'all got so dirty, my goodness... no way to look in front of a guest..." he set the girl down and turned to the other two boys, still kneeling next to the girl. "...go get yourself's cleaned up before dinner. You guys need to look nice because we're having a special dinner tonight." A gentle smile smiled formed on Ronin's face as the kids nodded.

"Yes dad..." the boys mumbled in unison. They walked away, whispering to each other.

"Yes Papa!" The girl responded, clearly more excited than her brothers. She snatched Ronin's hat before following her brothers. This left the two adults to talk. Ronin sighed happily as he got up, still smiling. It was almost like Dareth was looking at a totally different man.

"So... those are your kids?" Dareth restated his question, getting a nod as a response.

"They're quite adorable." Dareth said, following Ronin into the kitchen.

"Yeah, they are... Jasmine, Edward, and Aaron. Edward, or Eddie, is the one with the manbun. My boy A-A-Ron is the one with brown hair. The boys are supposed to be twins, but didn't come out identical like we thought. As you can tell, Jasmine is the youngest by two years. My sweet lil' 5 year old..." Ronin rambled on about the three kids as he started to cook some dinner. Dareth nodded and listened, but still caught at the 'didn't come out identical like we thought'. Although, once Ronin seemed to be at a stopping point, the old Dojo masted decided to finally ask.

"So, um, Ronin, question. You said how 'we' thought whatever. What did you mean by 'we'?" There wasn't an immediate response. Ronin remained silent for a minute before finally thinking of an answer. He placed a bunch of noodles into a pot of boiling water before answering.

"I... um... didn't have these kids all by myself of course... I used to have a wife..." He finally responded with a sad and quiet tone. He stared at the pot of noodles, not knowing what else to say.

"Used to have... Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry... I didn't know you were once married..." Dareth hesitantly replied, rubbing one of his sort of chubby arms. He heard a sniffle come from Ronin, but he couldn't tell if he was actually crying or not.

"It's fine... I'm not one who tells my life story... but she was a wonderful woman..." Ronin said before his children crashed into the kitchen, marveled by the pot of noodles on the stove.

"Oh, we're finally having something other than microwave dinner." Eddie said with a bit more enthusiasm in his voice than when he went to wash up with his two other siblings. With that in mind, Dareth noticed the kids were all cleaned up and were in comfy looking, but oversized, pajamas. However, hair was neater and there was no dirt or mud what so ever.

"Go sit down you three, dinner's almost done. A-A-Ron, can you set up the table? Eddie, get the drinks. Dareth, we can talk later." Ronin told the kids, and they immediately obeyed. They reminded Dareth a bit like some of the kids at his Dojo, when they actually chose to listen to him.

Once the noodles were done and the table was set, everyone sat in one of six wooden chairs at the wooden table. Dareth sat silently as Eddie filled each blue plastic cup with water and Ronin put noodles into the matching plastic bowl, which sat upon a plastic blue plate. The bowl, plate, and cups looked like they came in a set that parents could buy for their kids, however the forks, spoons, and butter knifes were similar to the silver ones that Dareth has back at his apartment.

"The plastic stuff is because I don't want them to break the few nice plates that we have, but the nice ones aren't washed..." Ronin told Dareth as he passed by, sitting down in the seat next to him. Everyone ate silently until Ronin finally asked the kids a question.

"So... how was Mrs. Goodwin? What did you guys do with her? By the way, she's our neighbor." Ronin whispered the last sentence to Dareth. All three kids sighed, looking at one another. They were waiting for one of them to gain the courage to talk.

"Bad. I hate her so much..." Aaron mumbled, taking a sip of water. Jasmine and Eddie nodded.

"Yeah! She was so strict! She made us go to school again yesterday! I hated it so much, I need a year break from it. Plus, she got so mad and made us go to our rooms after we came inside from playing out back. It's not our fault that there was mud on the ground and we slip and fall. Then-" Ronin raised his hand, stopping Eddie from rambling on.

"She was such an asshole..." Jasmine muttered, making everyone stare at her with a surprised look.

"Sweetheart, where did you hear that word?" Ronin calmly asked. Jasmine twisted a strand of her now wet hair, hesitant to answer.

"From you...and some people at school..." she said quietly, her gaze on her food instead of her father's eyes.

"Jasmine, look at me when speaking to me..." Willow immediately looked up, her eyes wide. She was biting her lip. "...And, you know words like that are not allowed in this hou-"

"But you talk that way. We heard you saying worsd stuff than that the other day." Eddie interrupted, getting worried looks from his siblings. Ronin began to shake his head, and Dareth began to wonder what was about to happen. He knew Eddie was speaking the truth. Ronin didn't have much of a filter when he was with Dareth and the ninja.

"You know you shouldn't interrupt people, especially anyone in this house. Now, I only talk like that in the house when I'm really angry..." Ronin began to say, before Dareth said something.

"As Jay once said, swearing is a sign of weak verbal skills." The three kids looked at Dareth with strange looks. They sat and stared at him silently until Aaron said something.

"Huh, he actually talks." Ronin chuckled and nodded.

"Yeah, he does. I nearly forgot to introduce him to you three. This is Dareth, a person I know from New Ninjago City." The kids' faces lit up with enlightenment.

"Woah... like from the New Ninjago City. That's so cool!" Eddie exclaimed, raising his arms in the air and nearly knocking his cup of water over. Both Dareth and Ronin nodded.

"Oh my first spinjiztu master that's so awesome! Is the city really big? Is it really filled with technological stuff? Is Cyrus Borg nice? Do you know the ninja?" Eddie began spitting out a million questions at once, making Dareth chuckle a bit.

"Woah, one question at a time. But, the city is quite big. It is filled with tech stuff. I haven't really got a chance to meet Borg, but the ninja say he's chill. And finally, I do know the ninja. I actually helped them on a couple missions." Dareth answered a few questions that he actually heard. At that moment, Jasmine's face lit up even more.

"Wait, you're the Dareth! The one who took that one helmet... the um..."

"Helmet of Shadows..." Aaron whispered to Jasmine.

"Yeah, Helmet of Shadows! The one that took control of the Stone Army!" Dareth chuckled, being quite flattered from the recognition.

"Well, I'm flattered." He responded, noticing from the corner of his eye that Ronin was smiling a bit as he silently listened to the conversation. For the rest of the meal, the kids asked Dareth questions about the Helmet of Shadows, the ninja, and other missions that Dareth was present for. Unfortunately, the conversion ended once everyone was full or done with their dinner.

"Alright kiddos, time for bed." Ronin told the three children, getting groans as a response. The kids went upstairs and Ronin followed, leaving Dareth alone down in the empty dining room. Dareth decided to clean up the table, setting all the plates, bowls, cups, and silverware in the sink. Once done with that, he explored the living room.

It wasn't that big. It had a old looking couch and a small tv. Along the wall was a fireplace that held a couple picture frames. The shelve that had the frames was quite dusty, but that didn't bother Dareth at the moment. His attention was on the pictures. There was one with a younger looking Ronin with his family, then another where it looked like he was apart of some sort of armed force. In both pictures, Ronin seemed like he wasn't that happy. He had what seemed to be a forced smile.

Another frame held a wedding picture. Within the picture, it had the young Ronin locking lips with a woman with a similar colored hair as Dareth, but it was in braid with a flower crown. Her white wedding dress was quite beautiful, with long sleeves that had a sort of flower design and a dress that seemed to fit her nearly slim figure, yet there seemed to be a slight baby bump from what Dareth could see. In the next picture, it looked like a baby shower. Within this photo, he could see both Ronin and the woman from the wedding photo was enjoying themselves. Big smiles were plastered on their faces as they revealed the genders of their twins, both being boys. In the next picture was in the hospital. A baby Aaron and baby Eddie were in the arms of a clearly tired woman. Dareth was guessing Ronin was taking the photo this time. The next two were the same as the last two, except the gender was revealed to be a girl, there was a girl in the woman's arms, and a two year old Eddie and Aaron appeared in the photos. A small smile was on Dareth's face, a warm feeling was in his heart from seeing the family being happy together. The smile and warm feeling soon disappeared however. His eyes glaced at the last and final picture frame, which held a photo of Ronin in front of his first shop in Stixx, now with his recognizable fake smile. The picture was in black and white, and looked like it was cut out of a newspaper.

"I know... those two years with her was the best two years of my life..." Dareth jumped from the the monotoned voice he just heard. He turned to see Ronin. The smile that he saw was now replaced with a frown, and his eyes looked empty. A sigh escaped Ronin's lips as he walked over to the photos, his eyes locked on the wedding photo.

"She felt like my soulmate... she was perfect... she still had her flaws, but she was like a gift from the gods... she was my key to happiness..." Ronin muttered, his hand wrapped around the dusty wooden picture frame. Another sigh escaped his lips.

"She was everything to you... wasn't she..." Ronin nodded, taking a deep breath.

"If you don't mind..." Dareth trailed off. Ronin looked up from the photo, motioning for Dareth to finish.

"...I'm interested in hearing more about her..."

-A/N: Wooooooo, I'm actually proud of this. So, if you Ninjago fans don't know, there was a little thing on Twitter where Tommy Andreason said they were considering on making Ronin have kids and a wife. So yeah, that was a perfect fanfic opportunity tbh.

[doggonneit]

The Last Red Scribble | Part 1/2

Fandom: Haikyuu!!

Pairing/Characters: Kuroo/Tsukishima

Rating: T for Teen

Warnings: Single Parent AU

A.N. This is a part of the KuroTsuki Gift Exchange 2017, written for @moonislander on Tumblr. Hope you enjoy!

Italics is Tsukishima. Bold is Kuroo.

[Read on AO3]

Monday PM

(2:33) I’m about to slam my head into the wall. (2:33) Tobio got into another fight. (2:34) He’s fucking five, how does he keep picking fights.  

(2:35) what a champ

(2:35) What the fuck, Akiteru. (2:35) You’re not supposed to say that.

(2:36) wrong number bud but legit (2:36) tobios got a future in cage fighting (2:36) whos tobio

(2:38) Oh, sorry. Wrong number.

(2:40) well dont leave me hanging (2:40) i need to know who to put my money on in the future

(2:41) Don’t make this weirder than it already is.

(2:41) :)))))

(2:42) Tobio’s my son.

(2:43) are you an old man (2:43) is that why you started texting me (2:44) STRANGER DANGER STRANGER DANGER

(2:45) What the fuck, no. (2:46) I messed up my brother’s new number. (2:46) Evidently.  

(2:46) eviDENTly (2:47) arent you all smart and proper (2:47) thats how i like em

(2:49) Are you seriously flirting with me over text? (2:49) You don’t know stranger danger at all. (2:50) I don’t have time for this.  

(2:53) :((((( (2:55) come back

(2:56) I have to deal with my son.

(2:56) what an adulty adult (2:57) tell tobio hes a fucken champ

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Tuesday AM

(7:22) sooo (7:22) i know your brothers name and your sons name (7:22) but not your name

(7:25) …

(7:25) hint hint

(7:26) Have you seen the latest stranger danger campaign? (7:26) It’s got your face all over it.  

(7:27) you think youre being funny but my mates crack jokes about my ugly mug making children cry (7:28) would tobio cry if he ever saw me

(7:30) He doesn’t even know what you look like.

(7:31) *image attached*

(7:34) I really don’t have time for this. I’m getting Tobio ready for school.

(7:35) if life were a party youd be the clown that sucks all the fun away (7:35) XP

(7:36) Why are you making that face?

(7:36) you hurt my feelings so im sticking my tongue out at you

(7:38) No-one uses that emoji for hurt feelings.

(7:39) i just did (7:39) XP (7:39) oh look i just did it again (7:39) XP (7:39) and again look at me go

(7:42) All right, all right, I’ll ask. (7:44) Tobio says you look like you killed a cat.  

(7:44) how does someone even look like that (7:44) your son needs glasses (7:45) what do you think then (7:45) smouldering eyes wicked grin (7:45) admit it im pretty

(7:46) Yeah, pretty atrocious. (7:46) What’s with that hair?

(7:47) HI THIS IS KUROOS BEST FREIDN FOERVER BOKUTO PLS DONT METNION HIS BEHDEAD IT MAKES HM SELF CONSCOIUS

(7:47) Aww. Is Kuroo sulking now?

(7:47) sajfkdsjp (7:47) asdffhajlkkasdfghijkl

(7:48) I feel like I should be concerned. (7:50) I am actually concerned.  

(7:51) how do i get rid of a body

(7:51) What.

(7:51) how do i (7:51) get rid of (7:51) a body

(7:51) Cook him and serve him to the police who knock on your door asking for his whereabouts.

(7:52) babe thats brilliant (7:52) youre a committed accomplice now

(7:52) On a scale of 1-10, how often do you hit on nameless and faceless strangers over the phone?

(7:52) 1 (7:53) its only ever been you (7:53) *heart emoji*

(7:53) I’m flattered.

(7:53) we have a dilemma (7:54) you know my name and my face (7:54) ive lost the advantage (7:54) who are you o mysterious phone man

(7:54) You really want to know?

(7:55) yes!!

(7:55) Well (7:55) My name is (7:55) *middle finger emoji*  

(7:56) i am (7:56) fucking betrayed (7:56) my own accomplice

(7:57) :)))))

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Wednesday PM

(4:17) *image attached* (4:17) fight gloves for tobio when he grows up lololol

(4:20) Don’t even joke about that.

(4:21) did he get into another fight (4:21) whatd he do steal another kids party pie

(4:22) He ruined someone’s sandcastle.

(4:22) that punk

(4:22) He also threw the bucket at their head and made them cry.

(4:23) holy shit (4:23) i know you cant see but im pissing myself laughing

(4:23) That’s the second time this month. (4:24) Is he going for a new record? How concerned should I be? (4:24) I should ask my brother for advice.  

(4:24) okay but in all seriousness (4:25) dont kids usually act out because theyre upset about things

(4:26) Yep.

(4:26) you sound like you know whats going on

(4:27) Yep.  

(4:27) is the thing not an easy fix

(4:28) Tobio can’t exactly move back into his old neighbourhood and old school.

(4:28) ohhh (4:28) i get that totally been there (4:29) though that happened to me in middle school so i handled it differently

(4:30) You mean you didn’t stomp on sandcastles and throw buckets at people’s heads? (4:30) Shocking.  

(4:31) real mature of me ayy (4:31) but its chill tobio just needs time to adjust

(4:32) He’s been living with me for four months already.

(4:33) hes trying to survive a new environment (4:33) go easy on him

(4:35) All good and well until he accidentally kills one of his classmates.

(4:35) what could he possibly do (4:35) nah dont answer that

(4:36) You’re not inspiring much confidence right now.

(4:37) okay hows this (4:38) the most dangerous thing in a school is a pencil (4:38) if he stabs it through someones eye (4:38) what are the chances of a five year old having that good of an aim

(4:39) We could be surprised.

(4:40) lets give tobio the benefit of the doubt (4:40) have i brought your fears to rest or nah

(4:50) You’re interesting to talk to, I’ll give you that.

(4:50) is that why youve kept talking to me despite the anonymous and rather suspicious nature of our relationship

(4:50) Sure.

(4:51) *heart eyes emoji*

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Thursday PM

(6:44) ive been thinking

(6:46) Make sure you give yourself a break every ten minutes. We wouldn’t want to strain your mental capabilities.

(6:47) hush child i got something to say (6:47) about tobio sort of

(6:48) I’m listening.

(6:49) so yesterdays conversation made me go all introspective (6:49) and if all tobios doing is throwing things (6:50) the lil guy will go far in life (6:50) i mean when i was five i was eating sand

(6:51) Congratulations, you just tripped over the lowest bar society set for its most basic standards.

(6:51) savage i love it (6:52) bokuto just called me a masochist (6:52) he doesnt even know what that means i bet he learned it from akaashi

(6:54) … (6:55) Who’s Akaashi?  

(6:55) the most beautiful man to grace the earth and bokutos boyfriend (6:55) im not even kidding his face was sculpted by gods (6:56) *image attached*

(6:57) Wow.

(6:57) exactly (6:57) no one knows how bokuto snagged him (6:58) my moneys on witchcraft

(6:59) Have a little more faith in your Best Freidn Foerver.

(6:59) hes my best bro but he does NOT have that much game

(6:59) You misspelled Best Freidn Foerver.

(7:00) all right he types like an electrocuted toddler (7:00) hes there for me during the good bad and ugly (7:00) and i support him 100% (7:01) but theres no logical explanation for how he got akaashi

(7:01) Maybe he has charm.

(7:02) gasp (7:02) babe (7:02) did you just imply i dont have any charm

(7:03) I didn’t say anything of the sort but it’s an apt description.

(7:03) you really are a savage (7:04) totally my type just saying

(7:05) For all you know I’m a sixty year old man with whiskers and a pot belly.

(7:05) im a personality kinda guy anyway (7:05) so what do you look like

(7:07) Shh.

(7:07) ?

(7:07) Can you hear that?

(7:07) ??

(7:08) Stranger danger.

(7:08) DUDE COME ON (7:08) or are you actually a sixty year old man with whiskers and a pot belly (7:08) because no judgement if you are

(7:10) *image attached*

(7:11) holy shit (7:11) HOLYS HIT (7:11) AJGSFAJKALHHJKKKLLLL

(7:13) Uh. (7:14) Hello? (7:15) Are you there? (7:18) I’m actually kind of worried now.  

(7:20) Hi, this is Akaashi. Kuroo’s fine; he’s muttering to himself on the floor. (7:21) Something about being sculpted by gods and touched by angels?

(7:22) What the fuck.

(7:22) Nice selfie :)

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Friday PM

(9:28) arms (9:28) abs (9:28) legs (9:28) sore

(9:31) Do I really want to know? (9:31) No, I don’t.  

(9:32) :( (9:32) i experienced life death and hell all in the same day

(9:33) Now I can’t not know.

(9:33) i had vball training for a match next week and it was torture (9:33) and when we thought it was done no (9:34) we had practice matches with alumni and it was torture round two (9:34) then i had coaching which i usually love (9:34) but the kids kept spiking balls at me (9:35) 10 POINTS IF YOU HIT HIS BODY 50 POINTS IF YOU HIT HIS HEAD 100 POINTS IF YOU HIT HIS NOSE

(9:36) You play volleyball?

(9:37) thats all you took from that

(9:37) I used to play volleyball in high school.

(9:37) wait are you serious (9:37) what position??

(9:38) Middle blocker.

(9:38) me too!! (9:38) what are the chances of us both playing vball and being middle blockers (9:39) this is destiny i feel it

(9:40) That was another lifetime ago lol.

(9:40) once a vball player always a vball player (9:40) how tall are you

(9:41) 195cm, why?

(9:43) 195 and yOU DONT PLAY VBALL (9:43) this is a crime (9:44) tell me tobio plays vball

(9:45) I... don’t think he’s ever tried it?

(9:46) the outrage (9:46) how could you (9:47) i just felt my heart crack (9:47) oohhh the pain

(9:47) Poor baby. Want me to kiss it better?

(9:47) i (9:47) ijakl

(9:48) ?? (9:50) Did you disappear on me again. (9:50) This seems to be a growing trend.

(9:51) Hi, this is Akaashi again. Kuroo is currently incapacifjskkl (9:51) WAHT DID U DO TO MY BSET FREIND FOREBER WHYS HE ALL RED N CHOKN ON HIS WORSD

(9:52) Oh. (9:52) Scroll up.

(9:52) OHO (9:53) OHOHO

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Saturday AM

(11:10) my mates wont stop laughing at me (11:10) i live in a house of dicks (11:11) cant even escape them theyre on my team (11:11) i blame you

(11:15) Sucks to be you lol.

(11:15) are you taking pleasure in my pain

(11:15) It sounds wrong when you put it that way.

(11:15) ;) (11:16) i’m still upset though (11:16) make me feel better?

(11:17) You seem to think I possess the ability to feel pity. (11:17) I don’t.  

(11:18) you know what you do possess (11:18) the ability to feel annoyance (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) is it annoying yet (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) ! (11:18) !

(11:19) ALL RIGHT, STOP.

(11:19) victory

(11:20) What do you want.

(11:17) whats your name

(11:17) Are you serious.

(11:17) i wanna know

(11:18) You reek of desperation.

(11:18) not gonna change my mind

(11:19) …

(11:19) wanna do the whole !!! thing again

(11:21) Fine. (11:21) You’ll ask politely.

(11:21) dom huh (11:21) im into that (11:22) will you pretty please with a cherry on top tell me what your name is

(11:22) N (11:22) O (11:22) *heart emoji*

(11:24) i cant believe (11:24) how could you (11:24) youre so mean

(11:24) :)))))

(11:25) shouldve expected it (11:25) do you always play with peoples hearts like this

(11:25) I enjoy jerking you around. You make some pretty good entertainment.

(11:26) glad to be of service :’)

(11:26) I suppose I could throw you a bone.

(11:26) im not falling for it this time

(11:26) Tsukishima.

(11:27) …

(11:27) My name is Tsukishima.

(11:27) it is (11:27) up down left right with you

(11:27) Disappointed?

(11:28) NEVER WITH YOU (11:28) TSUKKIIII

(11:28) No. (11:28) Do not.  

(11:28) i love your name its beautiful like you

(11:29) I revoke your right to say my name ever again.

(11:29) TSUKKIIII (11:29) *heart eyes emoji*

(11:32) I have never regretted anything more in my life.

.

Sunday PM

(3:24) You said you have a volleyball match next week, right?

(3:28) is this a dream (3:28) are you actually texting me first

(3:29) Miracles abound today.

(3:29) yeah i have a match next week why

(3:29) I mentioned it to Tobio and he got really excited. (3:30) He made me explain everything. I spent hours talking about rules and moves.  

(3:30) i  knew that kid had the vball genes in him

(3:30) I even dug up some old practice tapes from high school. (3:31) He’s obsessed with setting.  

(3:31) hed get along with my setter (3:31) that arrogant ass (3:31) i love him though

(3:32) *image attached*

(3:33) what… is that

(3:33) Tobio’s lack of artistic talent.

(3:33) i hope you didnt tell him that

(3:34) He said it was you blocking and scoring the winning point.

(3:35) he drew a picture of me?

(3:35) He captured your likeness down to the last red scribble.

(3:35) omg… omg...

(3:37) It’s not that big of a deal.

(3:37) youre not ruining this for me (3:37) this is the best day of my life

(3:37) Remember when we talked about low standards?

(3:37) your son loves me

(3:38) He drew a picture of you.

(3:38) and how many other people has he drawn???

(3:38) …

(3:38) thought so (3:39) tell my biggest fan i said hello and thank you (3:39) its the prettiest picture ive ever gotten

(3:39) Don’t get nudes much, huh.

(3:40) wow (3:40) WOWW (3:40) that went beyond savage (3:40) that was straight up murder

(3:41) You like it.

(3:41) yeah im really wondering about that masochistic streak

(3:41) About that.

(3:42) ??

(3:42) I was thinking (3:42) If you were interested (3:42) I could help you explore that.

(3:44) i just dropped my fuckign phone (3:44) are you fucking with me right now

(3:45) Yes.

(3:46) i fucking hate you

(3:46) No, you don’t.

(3:46) no i don’t

(3:46) Why do you keep falling for these things.

(3:47) actually im falling for you

(3:47) Seriously.

(3:47) hope (3:47) its all i got buddy (3:49) is this going to be like last time when you said no but then changed your mind

(3:50) No.

(3:50) dammit

.

Monday PM

(7:18) happy one week anniversary babe (7:18) do i get a gift (7:18) eyebrow wiggle

(7:21) Did you just type -eyebrow wiggle- at me

(7:22) *video attached*

(7:23) I did not ask for a video of you wiggling your eyebrows.

(7:23) its my gift to you

(7:23) I’m so… grateful.

(7:24) cmon gift gift gift

(7:24) I don’t know, I don’t have anything. (7:24) Actually (7:25) *image attached*  

(7:25) omg is that tobio (7:25) hes so fucken cute wtf (7:26) look at those hamster cheeks (7:26) whats he eating

(7:26) Blueberry cupcake. (7:26) It’s his reward for behaving in school.  

(7:27) aww no fights today?

(7:28) His teacher said he engaged positively with other students. He was trying to play volleyball with them.

(7:28) omg thats adorable (7:28) i see where he gets it from (7:28) are you teaching him how to play

(7:30) I taught him how to receive but I’m rusty. (7:30) I should look into classes for him. (7:30) Do they even have classes for kids that young?  

(7:31) the rec centre where i coach does (7:31) idk about other places though

(7:31) Whereabouts is your rec centre?

(7:32) shh

(7:32) You’re not doing the stranger danger thing on me.

(7:32) do you hear that

(7:32) Can you hear my sigh travelling across the wind.

(7:33) STRANGER DANGER

(7:33) Are you done.

(7:33) my centres in tokyo lol

(7:34) It wouldn’t happen to be the Tokyo Sports and Recreation Centre?

(7:34) how did you know that (7:34) oh my god this is real (7:34) STRANGER DANGER

(7:36) It’s a twenty minute walk from my place.

(7:36) i know i just joked about stranger danger but should you really be telling me that

(7:37) Take it as proof that I don’t think you’re a predatory serial killer.

(7:37) thats the nicest thing youve ever said to me (7:38) *heart emoji* (7:38) well if youre interested the kiddy classes are wed 5pm and sat 10am (7:38) you can go to one or both

(7:40) Hmm.

(7:40) times no good?

(7:42) My brother has Tobio on both those days. (7:42) I’ll have to talk to him about this.  

(7:43) ahh dont wanna encroach on uncle nephew bonding time

(7:43) I don’t think Akiteru will mind-- he used to play volleyball too.

(7:43) how did you ever think tobio wouldnt be a vball player (7:44) its clearly in his genes

(7:44) Wishful thinking. I never really liked volleyball.

(7:45) what no (7:45) why

(7:46) It was just a school club. I only did it because it was something to do.

(7:47) you come into my house

(7:48) Lol.

(7:48) well hey its paying off now (7:48) i bet tobio looks at you like youre a god

(7:49) Yeah. (7:49) It’s the first time he’s really looked at me. (7:50) So thanks. (7:50) :)

[quinintheclouds]

#i hecking love languages#i also hecking love quin XD  WOWIWE WHAT ILY TOO SO HEDCKIN MUCH!!!!

and OOOhhhh I love those worsd that’s so sweet n pure n cute1!!!! makes me wanna give you a hug if u likr hugs and if not them highfive or whartever you like! im L O VE learning and I ALSO LOV E YOU SO MUCH AAAAAH

I love you, schatje!. You make Tumblr gezelligheid, dank u, tot ziens! (Yes, I am using Dutch, I'm sorry, I don't even know if the second one is grammatically correct, but what does it matter)

gpoogle tanslate says you called me baby and then said i “make tumblr fun, thank you, goodbye!” thsnk you for teaching mke a new language words!!!! learning makes ,me HAPPYY[-

soooooo AWWWW what a SWEETHEART!!!! you make tumblr fun ya silly lil saucepan! <3 <3 <3

[megabadbunny]

@lvslie YOUR writing is too lovely for worsd!!! <--so much that my fingers no more word good, apparently!  :D   <3 <3 <3

[intimatevoid]

*casuallys steals yet another one from @notfinlandjosswhedon*

1. Did the last type of shoes you wore have laces? They sure did. 2. How much money did you spend yesterday? None. I’m broke. 3. Are you CPR certified? Used to be, but it expired. 4. What genre is your favorite movie? Hard to say. I don’t really watch many movies. Maybe action, or comedy if it’s genuinely funny. 5. Are you messaging anybody right now? Sorta on and off, one person.

6. Do you like the picture on your license/I.D. card? It’s not a bad photo, for once.

7. What’s your favorite thing to snack on while watching a movie? I don’t really snack while watching movies. 8. When was the last time somebody hit on you? Oof, it would have been a long time ago. Maybe when Seb and I started getting involved with each other. Not many people hit on me. 9. What was the gender of the last person you met? I met several people together, of at least three different genders. 10. Which one of your friends do you feel most comfortable around? All-time, Dusty and Chloe. IRL, Sage and Ruin. I don’t do “one”s when it comes to friends. 11. Do you own a map of the world? Only on my phone. 12. What brand is your underwear? Just cheap kmart underwear.

13. Is the light on in the room you’re in? Yeah. 14. Who did you last spoon with? That would be Ash. 15. Are you currently watching TV? I don’t own a TV. 16. Have you ever had surgery or stitches? Yeah. Most recently, I had some small benign cysts cut out from my corners of my eyes. The stitches I got from that looked fucking cool. 17. Do you own any clothing that has animal print? Nope.

18. Does your family eat dinner together? Usually Ash and I eat dinner together, but sometimes we fend for ourselves. 19. Where do you work? I don’t work right now. 20. Are you in high school? Hell no, thank the lord. 21. Do you have a TV in your room? I don’t have a TV at all. 22. Are any of your electronics charging right now? My phone.

23. What was the last video game you played? That would be Warframe.

24. What did you last put on a piece of toast? Butter, cheese, and egg.

25. What did you put in your last smoothie? I’ve never, ever made a smoothie.

26. What stores would you say you buy from the most? Probably Aldi. I don’t have a great deal of money to spend.

27. What’re some TV shows that you would like to get into? There are so many things on my netflix list.

28. Is there a movie you’d like to see? The Void. Apparently it’s a fun eldritch horror.

29. What’s the most recent email in your inbox? I keep my inbox clear. Couldn’t tell you what came in last.

30. What’s the last thing you Googled? "how to propagate mint”

31. What was the last thing you watched on Netflix or Hulu? The Good Place.

32. Do you follow any celebrities on Twitter? No, just some friends.

33. What was the last flavor of pudding or yogurt you ate? I legit have no idea. It’s been way too long for me to remember.

34. What color are your shirt and pants? My shirt is red, my trackies are grey.

35. What color were the last pair of shoes you wore? Black and green.

36. Anything exciting coming up? Sage is coming to stay at mine on Tuesday. It’s not for a happy reason, but it’ll be nice to see you.

37. What numbers does your password on here have? How about get fucked

38. This time tomorrow, what will you be doing? Probably sleeping.

39. Would you rather get money or gift cards for your birthday? Money, for sure. 40. Have you ever texted a landline phone by accident? No idea. 41. Have you ever spoken to a detective before? Yeah, briefly, after the 2011 floods. 42. What colour is your garage? I don’t have a garage. 43. Have you ever played laser tag? No, just paintball. 44. Do you pick out your outfits for the next day the night before or the AM? If I’m preparing for something the following morning, then I always lay my clothes out the night before. I’ve been doing it since school. It’s the only thing that helps manage my executive dysfunction. 45. Do you wear earrings? Even better, I wear tunnels. 46. Is your wifi protected? Yes because this is not 2007. 47. What did you have for lunch today? Noodles. 48. Does your phone have a cover on it? Just a thin plastic covers. 49. What colour was your swim suit this year? I don’t own a swim suit. I haven’t ever felt safe owning a swim suit before. Lotta personal history blocking me there. 50. How many bedrooms does your house have? 2. 51. Do you have any pictures of you and your friends in your bedroom? A couple, I think.

52. Did you and your family go on many road trips when you were younger? Not really. Doing anything as a group with a family of 13 is a difficult task, let alone moving them anywhere for a purpose, let alone moving them for its own sake.

53. Do you own any Funko Pop! figurines? Hell fucking no.

54. How many cats and dogs have you had as pets in your lifetime? My family’s owned 3 cats, 1 of which was mine. And 4 dogs, none of which were miine.

55. Can your mom and/or dad play any instruments, or how about anyone else in your family? Nobody in my family has ever been musically inclined. Clare played flute in high school and Tina played a little guitar, but I’m the only person who’s ever stuck with music. And even then, barely.

56. What’s your favorite colour and what items do you own in that colour? My favourite colour is purple and I own no purple clothes. 57. What brand or designer is your purse and/or wallet? It’s just a cheap no-name brand that I got second hand. 58. Can you crack crab legs without a tool? I’ve never eaten crab legs before. 59. How many light sources are in the room you’re in? One lightbulb, my mouse, and my computer screen.

Before (first line) and After (second line), 2 years ago; Today

60. How old is the last person you kissed? 24. 35.

61. What is the last movie you watched? Pfft, as if I remember that. I watched Arrival last night.

62. Are you happy? *noncommittal shrug* With myself, yes. With my world, no.

63. What’s one thing that you really want to do? Continue my transition. Move to a bigger house.

64. Is your cell phone right by you? It usually sat on the arm of my couch. It’s almost always within arm’s reach.

65. What are you wearing on your feet? How fucking good do you think my memory from 2 years ago is? Nothing.

66. Did you ever waste too much time during the day? I get up, I work, I go home, I sleep. No time to waste. Define “waste”. Fuck you.

67. Do you like cuddling? Yes. I need it like I need air.

68. Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers? Depends on the weather Usually, yes

69. Where’d you get the shirt your wearing now? I don’t know what I was wearing 2 years ago. Online from some derby fan store.

70. Did you get at least eight hours of sleep last night? Usually I made sure I did, so that I wasn’t too tired for work. Yes.

71. When is your next long road trip? *shrugs* I have no road trips planned.

72. Ever kissed someone who’s the first name starts with an “A” or “C”? Yes and yes. Still yes and yes. A couple of new A’s but no new C’s.

Just regular questions again:

73. Do you have a common first name? Fairly common.

74. Do you like your middle name or your first name more? I like both equally. ‘S why I picked them. ^_^

75. What year would/did you turn 21? 2013.

76. Can you see your veins through your skin? Yeah, I’m white as they come.

77. Would you rather live in an apartment or a duplex? I’ve only ever lived in apartments. I quite like them.

78. Do you like spicy chips? Not particularly.

79. Do you wear more pink or yellow? I don’t think I own any clothing of either colour.

80. What’s the last thing you bought besides food/drink? I think it would have been some bin bags.

81. Who scheduled your last doctor visit? Me.

82. What’s the last funny movie you watched? Probably the K-On!! movie. Although that was more cute than funny.

83. Can you remember your parents’ birthdays? Pfft, I barely remember my OWN birthday.

84. What is the design on your shirt? A kitty wearing a helmet and roller skates, with the worsds “roller derby cathletes”.

85. What is the origin of your last name? I took it after someone I care dearly about.

86. What piercing do you like most on the people you are attracted to? Tongue for sure. Gods, that one just slays me.

87. What country do you live in? Australia.

88. Did/do you ride the bus to and from school? In high school, yeah.

89. What band would you stand in line for 24 hours to see? Literally none of them.

90. If you were in a band, which role would you be? Probably guitar, but I’d love to learn drums.

91. Would you ever consider prostitution as an occupation? I think I’d be pretty awful at it, since I don’t like sex.

92. If you could relive one year of your life, which would it be? None of them. That’s literally my worst nightmare.

93. What makes your heart beat faster? Attractive people getting close to me

94. Are you a one night stand or serious relationship type person? I’m not really a one night stand person at all, given my disinterest in sex. But my sense of a “seriously relationship” is highly subjective and customisable based on the person it’s with. So, the latter, but it depends.

95. What is the one thing that you need to do to die happy? For me, it’s more something I need to continue doing, and it would be

96. What’s the riskiest thing you’ve ever done? I drove home one morning after a party, and while I didn’t realise it at the time, in hindsight, I think I was still drunk from the night before. That was probably pretty risky.

97. What’s your standard excuse for not doing something? I don’t feel like it. On the other hand, because of my mental illness, there is a major difference between me not wanting to do something and me not being ABLE to do something. Don’t get them confused.

98. What is one moment you wish you could have taken a picture of? Pretty much all the good bruises I got from my time playing roller derby.

99. What place holds the most memories for you? Sadly, my old workplace. And they’re not good memories at all, not in the slightest.

100. Who was your first date? My first actual date was Ash, about two and a half years ago.

101. What’s the best trip you’ve ever been on? Couldn’t tell you. I can’t afford to go on many trips.

102. What languages do you speak? English and Japanese. 英語と日本語。

103. How many ex’s do you have? Anywhere between 2 and 4, depending on what you call “ex”.

104. Do you swear? How much? I swear a great fucking deal.

105. Have you ever had food poisoning? I think I’ve had it once. Not sure if it was actual real food poisoning, but it was still pretty fucking bad.

106. Do you like snakes? I love them with all my heart.

107. Do you gossip? Yeah, though I try to make a point of only gossiping about things which won’t harm people.

108. Do you like to party? With the right people? Hell yes.