#anyway i actually feel like thats worse 💀

[writing-for-marvel]

Alright, so I know what kind of pain I’m in for with this first part, I’ve prepared myself as best I can but something tells me that I still won’t be able to handle it without sobbing my eyes out

“I only scream when there’s good reason.”

This feels like foreshadowing and if she ends up screaming it *will* be the end of me

“You’re hovering again, Barnes,” you say without looking up, and feel his gaze move away from you. Even after all this time, he still doesn’t trust you one bit.

“Show-off,” you mumble as you slip past Bucky and his smugly raised eyebrow.

Eeeeeep it’s the start of their journey and I cannot wait to see them eventually so mushy in love 🥰

Then, there’s a sickening cracking noise, and the pressure is gone from your throat. You stumble forwards, coughing, before you’re pulled back to your feet, fast but not roughly. Blue eyes find yours, a look almost like concern in them.

I know they’re teammates, and I know he’d want to save her anyway, but that *concern* ahhh I just sense he’s already got a soft spot for her

“Well—it’s—tradition!” Each of your words is punctuated by a punch. “And why are you looking at my thigh, Bucky?”

Yes sir exactly whatcha eyes doing gazing down there hmmm

He looks like he’s going to kill you himself. “Geez, I hate you.”

Yeah I *totally* believe you Buck

He catches you by the elbows and shoves you to the side in one fluid motion the same moment another shot sounds.

IM NOT READY

You fall to your knees next to Bucky, frantically pressing your hands on the wound in his chest. There’s so much blood. How is there so much blood?

WHY MUST THIS BE SO PAINFULLL

His blue eyes find yours. They’re impossibly wide. “So—so stupid,” he pants and his face distorts in pain.

HE IS ON THE BRINK OF DEATH AND HE IS STILL TEASING HER IM SOBBING BUT THEYRE STILL SO CUTE

You scream.

I KNEW IT

You scream because nothing is okay, because you’re useless, because none of this should have happened and it’s all your fault, and you’re clutching Bucky’s hand in yours because maybe if you hold onto him tightly enough, he’ll come back and all of this will seem like a bad dream.

THATS IT IM DEAD NIKA YOUVE KILLED ME ALONGSIDE BUCKY 💀💀

Okay I needed to take time to calm down… even though I knew what was going to happen, I couldn’t handle all the emotions.

You swallow down the bile that rises in your stomach and carefully twist your rings around on your fingers, one after the other. All of them are completely pitch black, darker than you’ve ever seen them.

Why is it that even though I’m in the comfort of my own bedroom that I need to actively remind myself that this isn’t actually happening to me… the emotions are just so vivid

Still, you’ve never gone this far back. And isn’t this about making today a better day, really?

Mmmm something in my gut is telling me she’ll somehow find a way to make this day worse if that’s even possible

Damn those dopamines your therapist keeps telling you about.

lol this made me laugh, just hits a little close to home

“You used that one earlier,” you say, shaking your head in faux disappointment. “Are you running out of nicknames, Sammy?”

Their banter is EVERYTHING 🥰

You turn, surprised at the question, to find Bucky’s gaze lingering on your hands. Not for the first time, you silently curse his perceptiveness. “Yeah,” you say, crossing your arms.

Just his perceptiveness… or perhaps it’s his interest in you 👀

AHH AND THE ENDING!!!! I’m so excited to drive back into this series Nika, I know it’s your baby and I can’t wait to read all the love and care you’ve put into creating such a unique story, you’re fucking brilliant

My favourite thing about how you write is just how many emotions you can make me feel in such a short span, and this chapter is the best example of this, how you give a snippet of hope only to crush it each time (you’re so cruel for that but it makes me love you even more)

time after time [1]

series summary: After what starts out as a fairly normal mission, you find yourself stuck in a time loop. Which would already be bad enough in itself if it didn’t also mean having to watch Bucky die over and over again.

pairing: bucky barnes x f!reader

word count: 6.0k

chapter warnings: canon-typical violence, accidentally starting a time loop, banter, pretty angsty to start us off with ngl, reminder to read the fic premise. please note that my blog is rated 18+. minors dni. ageless/empty blogs will be blocked without warning.

a/n: happy groundhog day and welcome to the first instalment of the series i’ve been sitting on since july. i’ve always loved time loop storylines, so i thought, why not indulge myself and put my own twist on it?

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one: turn back the clock

Your mother used to call it a gift, but for most of your life, your powers had felt more like a curse.

It began when you were a toddler; small hops backwards through time barely noticeable to anyone but yourself, or an afternoon lost to everything speeding up around you. Sometimes, the world would just stop spinning for an hour or two and you would wander between the frozen people, crying and confused, until things finally picked up speed again and your parents would shout your name because you’d simply disappeared before their very eyes.

When you got older, you found out that this little quirk of yours could be useful every now and then. If a teacher asked a question you didn’t know the answer to, you learned to will yourself back just enough to keep up your participation score. It didn’t particularly feel right, but it was one of the few benefits your strange powers provided, then.

For the most part, you couldn’t control it, though. For the most part, it meant having to relive painful moments and rush through the good ones. It meant screaming into people’s unmoving faces until your voice got hoarse because you couldn’t figure out how to get time to move again.

You assumed what you were going through was what everyone was talking about when they spoke of déjà-vu, until you mentioned it to your mother one day and she sighed deeply and said, “oh honey, I thought it had stopped.”

Maybe your family had more secrets than you’d given them credit for.

“You’re such a special girl,” they would tell you later. Such a special, clever girl. This is a great thing, you know. It’s your talent to make things right, make them the way they should be.

It was your own mistake that you started to believe their lies.

*****

“Something is very, very wrong here,” you say quietly.

“You always say that,” Sam says, securing the room ahead and then nodding for you to follow him.

“Yeah, and I’m usually right.” Your fingers are itching for you to flick them and speed up this terrible silence so that you can at least know what’s going on. You ignore the urge, but keep one hand held out in front of you, your thumb and first two fingers pointing upwards. The other hand grips tightly around your automatic.

The hallway doesn’t stretch out very far, but what little of the low sunlight makes it in through the dirty windows gives it a strange, eerie atmosphere. Maybe that’s what you’re picking up on, you try to tell yourself. The air is thick with a stench you can’t identify.

“Lovely interior design,” Sam mumbles. You follow his gaze to a pile of bones that lie scattered in one of the rudimentary holding cells you’re walking past. A spider runs from his flashlight and you grimace.

“Sam,” you say, focusing on the half-extended wings on his back again. “Did you invent this mission to get us to go to a haunted house with you?”

He snorts lightly as he pulls the cloth off the crates that are stacked alongside the wall. There’s a single red handprint near the bottom right of each of them. You almost sigh.

“Do you think I’d pass up the opportunity to hear the two of you scream in terror when the vampire puppets creep up on you?”

“Gotta disappoint you, cap,” you grin and wait for him to check the map. “I only scream when there’s good reason.”

“I don’t wanna interrupt,” Bucky interrupts over the intercom, “but they’re heading your way now, so get a move on.”

“You’re no fun, Bucky.” Still, your eyes flick to your rings. Almost all of them have turned a deep black, with specks of emerald few and far between. Useless. “I probably only have one reset left. Two, if we’re lucky and you two aren’t being stupid again.”

“I prefer heroic,” Sam says and turns back to you, a concerned look on his face. “You alright?”

You nod. “Just haven’t gotten a lot of sleep since London.” Between Sam’s snoring on the plane ride back and the early mornings, you are currently running mostly on strong coffee and lots of sugar. “It’s gonna be fine. Just try not to get killed.”

“Good old-fashioned survival. Reminds me of old times.” Sam’s voice might be light, but you know him well enough by now to tell he’s still worried. Your stomach twists with it.

“Can’t say that, bud,” Bucky says. “Twenty seconds.”

“You need to repair Redwing,” you tell Sam. “Being the lookout makes Barnes cranky.”

“You forget that he’s always cranky.”

While you’re still bantering, you place the explosives you’ve brought next to the wall Sam has pointed out. It’s not the most elegant way, but there hasn’t been time to research key codes or break in quietly, so you’re going in with a bang.

Sam and you take cover behind the shield. The little timer starts counting down from ten.

“Any time, Buck,” Sam says. “Five. Four.”

Two shots find their marks outside. You turn your head to see one of the people in white fall through the far entrance of the hallway, holding their knee in pain.

“One.”

You shut your eyes just in time before the door gets blasted off its hidden hinges. A cloud of dust hits your face and you start coughing violently.

“Everyone alright?” Bucky shouts and you grimace at the volume of his voice in your ear.

“Yeah,” Sam answers. “Our wrinkle in time here just decided to inhale some metal.” He claps you on the back a few times until the grime has finally cleared from your lungs. “You good?”

“All good,” you rasp, roughly drying your eyes with your sleeve.

It’s times like this, you think, that your powers are truly the most useless. There’s no way for you to go back and unclog your lungs of whatever atrocities you just inhaled. You’re cursed to always stay exactly as you are.

“Are you guys waiting for a formal invite?” Bucky asks, walking past you without a single glance in your direction.

“Any more comin’?” Sam looks down the now opened entryway. Just like you expected, the lab on the other side seems empty.

“Doesn’t look like it,” Bucky answers, “but I’d rather not stick around to find out.”

You take a look over your shoulder back down the hall at where the white jacket is still lying, unconscious. In the gloomy light, there are strange reflections moving across their goggles, and you can’t help but frown as the uneasy feeling sinks deeper into your bones. Like a tingle that claws its way down your spine to settle in your fingertips. You pull your gun out of the holster.

“Don’t you feel like this is way too easy?” you say quietly, reassuming your position between the two of them.

“Yup,” Sam says, shield still held up in front of him. He keeps moving forward.

The lab is smaller than you expected, crammed with tables that are overflowing with strangely colored concoctions and stacks upon stacks of papers. You take a step closer, trying to make sense of the strange chemical formulas scribbled next to a bunch of tables and graphs. It’s not exactly your strong subject, though, and you can’t really concentrate with someone else breathing down your neck.

“You’re hovering again, Barnes,” you say without looking up, and feel his gaze move away from you. Even after all this time, he still doesn’t trust you one bit.

“This isn’t it,” Sam says, closing the last of the filing cabinets with a bang. “They must’ve cleared out before we got—here. Alright.”

Bucky makes him take a step to the side before hooking his metal arm into the cabinet and pulling. With a screech of protest, the entire thing slowly moves open to reveal a broad winding staircase leading downwards. Another wave of the horrid smell hits you, even stronger now, like something metallic that’s being set on fire.

“Show-off,” you mumble as you slip past Bucky and his smugly raised eyebrow.

The stairs go down deeper and deeper for a lot longer than you'd expected, lit by motion detector lights that turn your shadows into overly large figures on the opposite wall. It doesn’t ease your premonition in the slightest. Finally, everything opens up and you look down into a large, almost cave-like room. It extends pretty far backwards before it splits into several tunnels that remind you of the one you spotted when you got out of the quinjet earlier.

But despite the stone walls and your being several feet underground, it is surprisingly warm down here, probably due to the several giant containers placed along one of the walls that seem to be the source of the atrocious smell. They are also faintly glowing.

“Are we gonna get radiation poisoning?” you ask. “Because you definitely don’t pay me enough for that.”

“I doubt they’d send their own people ‘round the perimeter with nothing more than a face mask if those things were radioactive,” Sam says. “And you’re here voluntarily.”

“That’s a nice way of putting it,” you mumble, but you follow him anyway.

Unlike the lab upstairs, everything here looks orderly, almost pristine. Not a single sheet of paper is unfiled, the metal tables are empty and wiped clean. There’s a gentle whirring sound that leads your gaze to several monitors, some of which are showing different maps and security camera footage while others seem to be tracking the progress of some sort of test.

“Look at that,” Sam says, stepping closer to the containers. “What is that?”

A dark blue liquid is slowly dropping out of a hole near the bottom of one of the containers. Bucky kneels down next to it.

“Don’t touch that!” you say quickly and he rolls his eyes.

“I wasn’t going to.” Sam hands him a little glass vial and Bucky carefully scoops up some of the liquid with his left hand.

“Maybe we can send that to Banner, have him take a look.” Sam walks over to the computers and plugs in a drive. “We’ll make a copy of that for Torres and then get out of here.”

“What do you think that is?” you wonder, crossing your arms in front of your chest. Once again, this mission has you feeling unbelievably superfluous.

“Not the serum. Wrong color,” Bucky answers as if he could read your thoughts. He pockets the vial in his jacket and stands up. “You’re hovering again, Y/L/N.”

You’d roll your eyes, too, if you didn’t know that’d only make that stupid smirk reappear. “Can we leave before I do something he’ll regret?” you shout at Sam.

“That’s sweet,” Bucky smirks anyway.

“I think we have another problem right now,” Sam says, looking up from the monitors. “We’re getting company.”

Only a moment later there’s a thunderous crash and the table to your far left bursts into flames. You stumble backwards. Right overhead, there’s a large round hole where the floor of the small lab on the first floor used to be.

All of a sudden, dozens of people descend upon you from all directions, swarming the lab and surrounding you within seconds. They’re all dressed exactly the same, white jackets over their black overalls, identical white face masks and goggles, and matching black berets.

“Oh, this is like a nightmare flash mob,” you shout as you avoid the first kick to your face. “They must’ve sounded a silent alarm!”

“D’you think?” Bucky huffs, punching another white jacket in the jaw.

You aim your gun just as Sam flings his wings out, swishing your target off their feet. Behind them, another group closes in. You fire without a second thought, and three of them drop to the ground.

Just as you try to reload your weapon, someone rips it out of your hand and hits you across the face with it. You stumble, eyes welling up, as they grab you around the neck, dragging you backwards with such strength you are forced to the tips of your toes. Your heart is thundering with panic, unbidden mental images threatening to come back to the surface as you try to pry their hands loose to no avail. Black dots are starting to dance across your vision.

Then, there’s a sickening cracking noise, and the pressure is gone from your throat. You stumble forwards, coughing, before you’re pulled back to your feet, fast but not roughly. Blue eyes find yours, a look almost like concern in them.

“I’m fine, Bucky,” you gasp. “Thanks.”

“You tryin’ to suffocate today?” He hands you your gun back and you shrug, pressing the memories all the way back down again.

“Sam might give me a day off if I faint.”

Another explosion has both of you turn your heads up. A shower of glass splinters and burning pieces of paper rains down through the hole on the first floor, taking bits of the ceiling down with it.

“We better get moving,” Sam shouts. “If you take care of the drive and these idiots, I’ll clear the tunnels for a way out of here!”

Wordlessly, Bucky holds up his arm. Sam throws the shield, hitting two more white jackets in the face before Bucky catches it with ease. You kick another one of them in the groin, wrangling the weapon out of their grasp.

“Who the fuck brings a knife to a fight like this?” you shout.

“And what’s that thing on your thigh, you planning a picnic?” Bucky replies, holding up the shield to protect both of you from hailing gunshots.

“Well—it’s—tradition!” Each of your words is punctuated by a punch. “And why are you looking at my thigh, Bucky?”

Before he can answer, there’s a string of curses and the sound of breaking metal directly in your ear. You let go of your weapon as your hands move up, and it stops its fall in mid air as time screeches to a stop.

The sudden silence in the middle of everything that’s been going on would be disconcerting if you weren’t so used to it by now. Everyone is frozen around you as you turn and take a step from behind the shield to see what’s happening on the other side of the room.

Sam is still up in the air, and even from a distance you can see the grimace on his face and the splotches of red on his stomach. One of his wings is at a strange angle, and you look around quickly to find the white jacket still aiming the blaster that must’ve hit him.

You take a deep breath and reach backwards until you feel the old familiar tingling between your fingers. It’s fickle, like it always is, and all the more unpredictable because you’re tired. Still, you force it to wind back, if only a little.

Time resets with a start.

“—on your thigh, you planning a picnic?”

“Two o’clock,” you gasp.

Bucky reacts almost on instinct, taking out the shooter before they can do any harm while you punch your opponent in the face again. It takes you two more blows than last time to take them down. When you look at your hands, they’re shaking. There’s nothing but the slightest wisp of green left swimming in the black of your rings.

“I’m really gonna need you to not be stupid from now on,” you shout as soon as you catch your breath again.

Bucky curses. “Sam, we’re coming now. There’s too many of ‘em to wait ‘round for this stupid thing to copy.”

“Do you need me to come get you?”

“No.” He bashes a white jacket on the head with the shield and throws it against the last one that’s still standing. It doesn’t fly quite in the same elegant way as when Sam does it, toppling over itself and landing on the ground next to the unconscious guard. “Just get the jet started. Can you walk?” he asks you.

“‘Course I can walk,” you say, slightly annoyed, but your eyes are fixed on the monitors on the far side of the room. “I think it’s done.”

“Just get out of there,” Sam says through the comms. “I can see at least another dozen heading in up here.”

You look at Bucky and his eyes narrow at the resolute look on your face. It’s your fault you’re even here in the first place, though. You might as well fix it. It’s only going to take a second, anyway.

“No—” Time glitches. “—thing—” Time stumbles over itself. “—stupid, damnit!” Time moves at an unsteady pace and then moves again as you almost trip over your own feet, pulling the drive out of the computer and holding it up triumphantly just as Bucky reaches you.

“See?” you grin. “All good.”

And then the computer explodes.

You’re thrown against Bucky, who catches your fall somewhat, rolling both of you over and out of harm’s way. Your ears are ringing, and you can tell by the buzzing that your intercom is probably broken. Surprisingly, you both seem unharmed apart from that.

Bucky stares at you, face only a few inches from yours and fury still blazing in his eyes. It almost makes you want to laugh. In fact, it’s exhilarating.

“Do you wanna get out of here or what?”

He looks like he’s going to kill you himself. “Geez, I hate you.”

You get to your feet with a low snort, the adrenaline making you strangely giddy as you catch up with Bucky, who is already stomping back in the direction of the tunnels. “I think this was a great success,” you say lightly, stepping over another body. “If Sam hurries up, we might even make it in time for the fireworks—”

He catches you by the elbows and shoves you to the side in one fluid motion the same moment another shot sounds.

Your head whips around and you throw your knife without hesitation. The assailant slumps backwards. There’s still steam coming out of the blaster that never hit Sam, but you barely notice it. You fall to your knees next to Bucky, frantically pressing your hands on the wound in his chest. There’s so much blood. How is there so much blood?

“No, no no no, this isn’t happening. Bucky!” Your head is empty of coherent thought. There’s just panic. “Sam!”

“Ther—half a—”

You tear the broken intercom out of your ear. “Buck, you have to stay with me. We’re, we’re going to get you home, okay?”

His blue eyes find yours. They’re impossibly wide. “So—so stupid,” he pants and his face distorts in pain.

You feel sick to your stomach. “I know. I know, I’m so—I’m so sorry, I’m gonna fix this.”

You flick your fingers, again and again, but there’s nothing. There’s absolutely nothing. You don’t feel the pull, not even the tiniest bit of a quiver. You’re just grasping at air, your powers betraying you once again. A curse.

Bucky starts blurring in front of you and you blink the tears away, refusing to let him out of focus. “Please.”

With concerted effort, he raises his hand to lie on top of yours. “S’okay, doll,” he gets out, his mouth contorting a little. “Y/N. S’okay.”

And then his eyes glaze over.

You scream.

You scream because nothing is okay, because you’re useless, because none of this should have happened and it’s all your fault, and you’re clutching Bucky’s hand in yours because maybe if you hold onto him tightly enough, he’ll come back and all of this will seem like a bad dream. Maybe if you try again, and again, and again, you can make this go away, make it actually okay again, because you don’t know how you’re going to live with yourself if you can’t do the one fucking thing you were supposed to do.

Useless.

You don’t let go of his hand as you press your eyes shut and try to grasp at the edges of your power, try to feel the ridges and flickers in the fabric of everything, reaching out for something, anything, any point in time or space that they can connect to and drag you out of here.

And then they do.

It’s tiny at first, a miniscule spec of something, and you cry out again as you reach out. You feel like your soul is being stripped bare by the effort alone.

Then, it crashes over you like a tidal wave, knocking you forward into Bucky once again. You feel yourself covering his head, cradling it as if that would make a difference. It’s an almost automatic reaction.

Your self seems to expand further and further and shrink at the same time, way worse than it ever has when you’re using your powers, and you feel almost seasick. You press your forehead against Bucky’s.

“I’ve got you,” you whisper. “It’s going to be okay.”

There is an explosion of green light all around you that lifts you up into the air, and then nothing but darkness as you fade out of consciousness.

***

You wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume.

For a moment, you’re completely disoriented, staring at your surroundings in confusion. You’re in your own bedroom back at the Tower, your feet tangled in the sheets and eyes still bleary. You almost let yourself believe that it was all just a nightmare, another horrible dream conjured up by some subconscious remnants of the past, although even the worst of your dreams haven’t felt as real as what you just went through.

The idea is short-lived, anyway.

Your hands are still shaking when you lift them to your face. There’s blood all over your palms and stuck under your fingernails, leaving crimson stains on your bedding. Bucky’s blood.

You swallow down the bile that rises in your stomach and carefully twist your rings around on your fingers, one after the other. All of them are completely pitch black, darker than you’ve ever seen them.

Then again, you’ve never tried anything like this.

You clear your throat and take a deep breath. “FRIDAY?” you say cautiously. The music quietens as the A.I. comes to attention with a gentle tinkle. “What day is it?”

“Today is Friday, July 4th,” FRIDAY tells you.

You huff incredulously, your heart still pounding wildly. Somehow, you did it. It’s yesterday morning again. You actually did it.

Stumbling, you reach your tiny bathroom and stare at yourself in the mirror. There’s a tiny nick on your left cheek from where the white jacket hit you with your gun last night, but you couldn’t care less because you’re back. It worked.

You scrub your hands under the hot water until it runs clear again, still stunned. You can’t remember ever jumping backwards that far, not without feeling completely exhausted anyway, but right now, you’re strangely alright, even though the adrenaline is still rushing through your veins.

The mix of emotions running through your head is so confusing that you don’t notice the band around your wrist until you’re drying off your hands.

It’s so close to your skin it almost looks like a tattoo, partially translucent and glowing dimly emerald. Instinctively, you try to rub at it, but your fingers go straight through it and you feel a tiny spark of electricity. When you hold out your hand at the right angle, you can see it’s made up of tiny symbols forming geometric shapes, moving around your arm in a slow, seamless circle. The longer you stare at it, the more hairs stand up on the back of your neck.

There’s a pounding at your door, followed immediately by Sam’s voice. “Rise and shine, McFly! Time to get your ass kicked!”

You look at the clock on your bedroom wall. It’s shortly before 8 a.m., which gives you almost the entire day before you’re called on that mission. More than enough time to recuperate your powers and figure out a plan to make sure everything goes smoothly this time.

Until then, you just have to act normally.

“Not gonna happen, birdbrain!” you shout back, just like you did yesterday, and go through the pile of semi-clean gym clothes by the foot of your bed. As you get changed, you take another second to look at the strange emerald band around your wrist. Then, you pull a sweatband over it to camouflage it. You’ll deal with this later. For now, it’s training with Sam, a shower and breakfast.

And discreetly checking up on Bucky in a normal, non I Just Watched You Die kind of way. You can totally manage that.

“Don’t ever wake me up like that again!” you call out to Sam, closing the door to your room behind you.

He pushes away from the wall and falls into step next to you, grinning. “Sweet white teenage angst not your style?”

“You’re the worst.” The song is stuck in your head now, too, just like yesterday, but unlike then, you can’t find it in you to be mad about that fact. You did it.

“You’re in a good mood,” Sam remarks as you’re climbing up the stairs and you look at him in surprise. This is new.

Yester-today you didn’t talk at all on your way to the gym, what with you being both tired and annoyed at him. You’re usually wary about changing details during your redos, because the tiniest things can make the outcome of a situation unpredictable.

Still, you’ve never gone this far back. And isn’t this about making today a better day, really?

So you smile. “And that’s a bad thing?”

“Not bad,” Sam says, eyebrow still raised. “Suspicious, maybe. Are you gonna salt someone’s coffee again?”

“I did that one time.” You roll your eyes as you push open the door to the gym. It’s a lot smaller than the one at the Compound was, and you particularly miss the swimming pool, but the view from the Tower is without compare. Midtown looks magnificent in the early sunlight.

You drop your rings into the little metal bowl you keep next to the window and climb into the boxing ring after Sam, stretching your back.

“Let’s get this over with, then.”

Before Sam and Bucky found you, you hadn’t sparred for months and not exactly missed it. Training with soldiers and former assassins who held back every single punch and still managed to drop you on the mat with infuriating ease had never been very fun for you, and what with the universe saved and all, you hadn’t really seen the point in keeping up the practice once the dust blew over. Now that you’re regularly going on missions again, though, you have to stay in shape.

And although you hate to admit it even to yourself, there is something calming about being back in a routine like this. It keeps your head from getting stuck in the fuzzy grayness of it all. Damn those dopamines your therapist keeps telling you about.

Today, though, this today, your eyes are continually drawn to the door while you’re dodging and blocking Sam. It makes you sloppy even by your standards, which are mediocre at best thanks to your impatience. Of course it doesn’t escape his notice.

“What is up with you today?” he asks when he helps you get back to your feet for the third time this morning.

You dab the sweat off your face, hissing when you accidentally rub the cut on your cheek. At least Sam hasn’t said anything about that. “Slept weird,” you say evasively.

“Nightmare?” he offers with a compassionate look.

“Sort of,” you answer. “Feels a little … déjà-vu-y.”

“I know the type,” Sam says. “Wanna talk about it?”

You do. But the time stuff is your problem to deal with, and so you shake your head.

“Alright,” he says, rolling his shoulders back and raising an eyebrow. “Come on, then. You gotta get one kick in, at least, and hurry up, because I’m starving.”

“You could stop moving, then we’re done faster,” you grin. Your stomach is growling, too.

“Nice try, McFly.”

“You used that one earlier,” you say, shaking your head in faux disappointment. “Are you running out of nicknames, Sammy?”

“I’m not gonna be creative for someone who can’t kick above their waistline.”

“How dare you!”

You lose that round, too, but Sam deems you motivated enough to call it a day. He throws his towel over his shoulder and heads to the showers while you lay your head down on the mat and close your eyes for a moment. Waiting.

Yester-today, you didn’t hear Bucky come in, either. He was just sitting next to the ring when you looked to your side, hair sticking to his forehead and shirt clinging to his muscles, still a little damp after his shower. Then, you felt a slight rush of embarrassment at how much of a sweaty mess you were.

Now, you couldn’t care less.

“You look like shit.”

You turn your head and there he is. Living, breathing proof that you actually did do it. And for the first time in a long while, you feel nothing but gratitude for your powers.

Oh, fuck you, Barnes. If you’re sticking to the rules you’ve set for yourself long ago, that’s what you’re supposed to say, because that’s what you said the first time. Change as little as possible.

But even if you hadn’t broken them earlier, you couldn’t do it now. Not when you’re feeling this happy to see Bucky alive again. Alive and well, and slightly grumpy as ever.

So what falls out of your mouth instead is, “You’re looking good.”

Bucky squints at you and you smile at the way his cheeks are still slightly pink from his morning run, proof of his heart still beating. “Did Sam hit you in the head?”

You laugh. “Why, can’t I say that you look good and mean it?”

Bucky tilts his head slightly, but then shakes it. “Nah. You’re messin’ with me.”

“No, I’m not,” you tell him earnestly, sitting up to look at him properly. At his chest, solid and whole and moving calmly. “I’m just … glad you’re okay.”

“Why wouldn’t I be?” he frowns.

“I don’t know,” you say, tugging at your sweatband. “It’s been a weird couple of days.”

“Yeah.” He looks at you for another beat, then he shakes his head again and gets up. “Take the towel on the right, I already used the other one.”

“Thanks, Bucky.” You smile at him again, but he averts his eyes.

***

“I probably only have one reset left,” you say, trying to ignore the chill that goes down your spine. “Two, if we’re lucky and you two aren’t being stupid again.”

“I prefer heroic. You alright?”

And for a moment, you hesitate. Because even though the rest of the day has passed pretty much exactly the same as it did the first time up until this point, you’ve felt the doubts creeping in ever since you laid down for a nap in the early afternoon, tossing and turning for the better part of an hour, only to find your rings hadn’t regained even the slightest speck of green.

You’re terrified of the moment you’re going to have to use your powers, because what if with this large jump, you overdid it? What if this time, there won’t be any redos?

No. You’re made of stronger stuff than your doubts, you know that. Things are going to be okay.

You nod with newfound determination. “‘Course I am. It’s gonna be fine.” You flex your fingers to reassure yourself. “Just try not to get killed.”

It’s a plea more than anything else, but of course Bucky doesn’t respond, not to you. Not to it.

“Can’t say that, bud,” he says instead. “Twenty seconds.”

But who’s counting? You close your eyes and hold your breath, balling your hands into fists so tightly it hurts.

“I don’t wanna complain,” Sam says as the dust settles. “But I did expect this to be more difficult.”

“Don’t jinx it, Sam,” you say wrily.

“You’re such a pessimist.” He still raises his shield a bit higher. “Any more comin’, Bucky?”

“Doesn’t look like it.” Your heart twinges slightly, but you bite your lip. Your job is to make sure the mission gets done and everyone stays alive. Both of those things, not just one. “I’m right behind you.”

The lab looks exactly the same as it did the first time, small and crammed and somehow even gloomier today, though that’s probably just your imagination. Now that you know to look for it, you can tell the file cabinet on the far side of the wall doesn’t quite touch the floor, something that Bucky must’ve picked up on immediately.

You feign interest in the papers on the table again, shuffling them to keep your hands occupied. “You’re hovering again, Barnes.”

“You sure you’re alright?”

You turn, surprised at the question, to find Bucky’s gaze lingering on your hands. Not for the first time, you silently curse his perceptiveness. “Yeah,” you say, crossing your arms.

His jaw sets, but he doesn’t comment on your dismissiveness. He just moves to open the cabinet. You don’t find it in you to say anything, and so he doesn’t look quite as happy with himself. It doesn’t give you any pleasure.

When the downstairs lab fills with white jackets, your stomach is still threatening to drop, but you grit your teeth. This is exactly the kind of situation you’ve trained for; the most important thing now is remembering the order of things. Like a dance recital.

Duck to the side. Bucky steps right. Wait for Sam’s move. Shoot. You take another step back before the white jacket can drag you away by the throat again and kick them in the stomach until they stay on the ground, which is a way kinder fate than yesterday’d brought them. You shudder slightly as you turn to look at the hole in the ceiling. Three. Two. One.

The second explosion goes off at the same time as someone shouts your name, and you whip your head around only to be roughly shoved to the side and fall the ground. A large piece of ceiling lands right where you’d just been standing. Which is obviously a different place than yesterday because you knocked that white jacket unconscious. Wow, you’re an idiot.

Bucky seems to agree. “Whatever’s happening right now, you gotta snap out of it.” There’s something about the look on his face that makes your blood boil.

“What’s happening is that I’m trying to fix this,” you say sharply.

“By getting yourself killed?!”

“We need to get moving,” Sam’s voice says on the intercom before you have time to reply. “If you take care of the drive and these idiots, I’ll clear the tunnels for a way out of here!”

Bucky stares at you for another second as if he’s trying to decide on the thing that’s most wrong with you right now. You shove him off you.

He rolls his eyes and gets back on his feet, holding up his arm for Sam to throw the shield his way. By the time you see the white jacket aiming their gun, they’re already pulling the trigger. You throw up your hands.

A surge of emptiness goes through you, unlike anything you’ve ever felt before. Time seems to still for just the blink of an eye as Bucky’s head is thrown forwards.

And then you wake up with a start to the sun in your face and FRIDAY blasting The All-American Rejects at full volume. The room seems to wobble in front of you as you scramble to your hands and knees in bed, trying to get a proper breath of air.

“FRIDAY.” You almost flinch at the panic in your own voice. “FRIDAY, what day is it?”

“Today is Friday, July 4th.”

chapter two

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[butchlifeguard]

primrose's ch3 is GOOD btw

[emilicious0]

okay, so, im finding myself more and more attracted to Valentino. I mean im starting to simp 😵‍💫💀

so i'd love to see some gen sfw (and nsfw if you can but dont have to)

Maybe he started to like one of his workers or something (fem if possible but gn is fine)

He could like, work her with clients less and stuff, less videos, maybe less drugs 💀 anyway imma hop off now 😩

f!reader x valentino sfw and nsfw headcanons

TW: VALENTINO, abusive behavior, mdni

SFW

□ he really thinks he treats all of his workers good, which is kinda true (I strongly headcanon that v's may be a band of psychos, but they appreciate hard work and always offer good salaries)

□ you get a good amount of money and thats the reason you work so good as his assistant

□ he notices the hard work and slowly starts to treat you more like a friend (in his own way, like slapping your butt or whistling whenever you are passing by)

□ that behavior lasts for some time, until he sees you on your day off in a club with some other demon (who was your friend)

□ the two of you seem close and youre hugging each other, which made valentino see red

□ he was ready to jump inside and kill the bitch who dared to touch you, but vox called in asking him to be immeadiatly back in their tower for a meeting

□ after that valentino realises his feelings for you

□ the butt-slapping, cat-calling didnt stop and only became worse

□ he would call you nicknames now, the most used one is "baby"

□ you would get a lot more money than anyone else

□ also loves when you praise him

□ a drama queen, who loves when you take care of him (buying ice cream)

□ would try to trick you into making a deal with him (but he would eventually give up on that idea, since he wants you, to want him too)

□ actually tells you everyday how he loves you, or how beautiful you are, only to yell at you next moment for not loving him back

□ he would come to you drunk crying and you have to take him to bed and tuck him in

□ if you accept his feelings and you become a couple, he immediately fires you

□ becomes your sugar daddy, who asks for every second of your time in return

□ carries you around like a treasure, showing you off to everyone

□ gives you small gifts everyday, and not so small gifts too

□ he is the type to forget about the anniversary, but feel bad about it later

□ despite him being still physically active with his workers and vox, he is romantically absolutely yours

□ he has hard time listening for your problems, but he comforts you wrapping his wings around you and kissing you

□ he has hard times understanding a lot of things about your problems (hard for him to be there for you), but he tries to do it in his own way (physical affection)

□ valentino has his episodes when he bursts and shouts at you and everything, apologizing afterwards, but they will happen again

□ kinda enjoys scaring you, but with you it's never about physical abuse, more like teasing

□ sleeps more calmly next to you

□ doesn't allow you to leave him (it will crash him in every possible way if you do, resulting him to become obsessive and start stalking you)

NSFW

□ has any possible kink in existence

□ inpatient, rough

□ loves edging, into degrading (loves to degrade and wants to degrade you)

□ public sex is his favorite one (as well as group one)

□ roleplays with you a lot of his crazy scenarios

□ makes you watch him fuck with others (doesn't let you do the same)

□ but your sessions with him are super private bc they are different

□ switch (hard dom/top, soft sub/bottom)

□ loves seeing you on your knees for him

□ seeing you cry is his favorite turn on

□ threesome with vox✌️

[fictionfixations]

....playing cold front for the first time

actually getting into other racheldrawsthis games then just dead plate 💀

im bad with horror wish me luck.. hauaidhaud i dont know anything about this

if its really too much ill just watch someone else play it

okay holy fuck i did not know like the loud sound of a shit ton of snow and wind terrified me what the fuck i swear im scared of everything

also oh my god i hated that sound it played (bruh it was just showing the buttons) crying crying im not ready for this babys first actually playing the entirety of a horror game (i mean ive played ddlc and like fnaf sim but i was streaming to friends and i knew what happened i just forgor how much horror was in ddlc 😭😭😭)

i dont usually play these kinds of games so i gotta get used to the control of like z to talk, x can speed it up and x is also pause

i thought it might be similar to dead plate with like a top down view? is that what theyre called? ..i feel like im gonna get chased and its gonna be terrifying

i have the volume really low because i swear to god im scared more of the music then anything

ayo im liking winnie's fit

...blonde guy is winnie right?

im getting omori vibes and i think its just because of the moving away soon thing

also

praying winnie isnt a bad guy

i feel so anxious playing games without knowing what happens. is it weird? i usually play games after knowing like the twist and everything. but i feel like theres a beauty in going into things blind. like for example not knowing about the pacifist route or genocide route in undertale, just doing what you feel like doing instead of trying to get the best ending or something (same for detroit become human that game has a shit ton of endings. like did you know theres an ending where markus sets himself on fire)

anyway if this follows how dead plate does it it should be one ending and then going back through it you can do another ending? i think theres only two endings (update: its more of a choice you do.)

maybe if i can stomach this ill try to replay yttd cause its been awhile, but that shit scares me man. i think i made a post when i first played through it but agh... (..i thought i made a post but i cant find it)

this guy reminds me of that one guy in how i attended an all-guys mixer

what if we're being chased by the bad guy and winnies leg acts up im hadwuiahd if he dies im going to explode not literally

this is why im so bad at reading dialogue bruh i read the line, went past it and immediately forgot what it said where is the log 😭

also im stalling like so much ghauidhwaiudh

also i feel like any prediction i try to make gets thrown out of the window

they sit in silence and then i speak and then winnie is pretty cheerful tbh? i wouldve thought itd be more tense or awkward since they hadn't talked in a bit, and also werent talking in the car but huh

im going to fucking kcry what teh fuckw as that im iosehdfuiahsdijds

i muted this i hate this oh my god oh my god oh my god is there possession im going to cry

thats like such a little thing but i hated that so much imf aiudhsauihdauidhwuahd THIS IS AN HOUR LONG IM ONLY A FEW MINUTES IN I NEED TO NOT DRAG THIS OUT OR ITLL BE WORSE AGHHHH

i dont know why kicking the doors open is starting to become my thing LMFAO it just feels right

why is it frozen im scared im scared im scare dhelp

is ist stuck??? im pressing everything i can think of im gonna close and reopen

yeah it was stuck LMFAO

had to replay scary bit haduiwahidahdhadhadahdahd

no no he doesnt think youre an embarrassment :(( hes prob just hanging with cool kids either because he doesnt have you or because he wants you to worry about him some more maybe?/ i dont know why they havent been talking tho :(

STOP JUMPSCARING ME WITH SUDDEN Z'S TO PRESS IM SO ASS AT THIS CRYING CRYING IM BAD AT QUICK TIME EVENTS ive been reading it out loud so then i suddenly just let a 'ah' like a loud squeak because i realize oh theres probably something behind us then i see it and then i see the quick time event and im too late

what the fuck did i press what the

...that might be the inventory? i was spamming z and x and was scared i got stuck for a sec

i have it set to 2 percent volume LMFAO i dont think i could play with properly hearing the sound

okay this is unfair it keeps lagging when the monster spawns which makes me lag but the guy keeps moving so then i get caught D: is this my fault for saving immediately on the save where u quick time event the monster so its delayed

i dont wanna replay to see scary bit though but i dont have the previous save anymore i saved over it

also sometimes it just immediately kills me the second i load it

???

LET ME OUT LET ME OUT this is the farthest ive gotten past two obstacles

does the monster walk faster then me

wait is there a sprint button LMFAO

like okay it still got me at the beginning when i lag and it continues moving as normal or killing me the second i spawn in but LMFAOO MY DUMBASS WALKING DURING A CHASE SCENE

IM NOT READY FOR QUICK TIME EVENTS STOP GIVING IT TO ME GAME

i swear to god if i failed that and had to redo the chase scene AGAIN im going to explode not literally i will just be very very cross

i was so fucking scared whatever was 'winnie' earlier the scary one would be there and drop him or something oh my god but oh no precious :((

i fucking hate myself fuck fuck why did i call it why the fuck did i call it what the fuck

i feel like im better at voicing winnie tbh but to be fair augustine seems very loud and im not good with being loud

...?

i was boutta say what if its some weird time fuckery and augustine of the future or something pushed down winnie last winter

i dont want to know what happens if you push him :(

what? what??? this is scaring me its like hypnosis or something like that but its probably just his mental state or something

i was so scared this line would be meaning something more depressing or trauma like idfk maybe augustine pushed him but winnie still wanted to be his friend or something the sticky note scared me

what if i cry

...should i try the other ending then? thats if i push him is it?

...

..thats so fucked up man.

[codajaiden]

I don't get the gist of Nightbow (Rainbow Steve x Nightmare) like, how does that work??

(warning I might rant so much y'all would explode, correct me if I'm wrong tho)

"enemies to lovers!" No. Lemme clear this up for you

Nightmare and Rainbow were created to kill each other, hate each other's guts, there is no conversation or part in SS or RQ where they went and be normal people talking to each other and stuff (not that I can think of anyways)

"for fun" I don't care if it's for fun, sure it's funny but like????? How is it y'all's favourite????

I'm someone who likes to go insane just watching plot, WHILE YES, STEVE SAGA WAS JUST A RANDOM STEVE SERIES AND WAS VERY RANDOM WHEN IT COMES TO PLOT, ITS SILLY, ITS RANDOM

But y'all are like "I can fix them", there is nothing to fix???? they are literally people wanting to kill each other and that is their goal.

Oh and let's not forget, I have my eyes on the people who write in Wattpad, don't think I have not seen their "freaky" writing at all.

It's not only Nightbow at least, I see the people here who ship Rainbow and Void together, same thing, but if we're talking SS then there was still no good interaction of them both to be on the level of actually being good friends. Still, Wattpad people are freaky about them too.

This can be implied to Favremyrainbow ig, but to me it's very bland and boring. I admit I did in fact ship them, but as time passed I just stopped because it was so cringe 💀💀

I don't want to be mean and rude when it comes to this but it bugs me every time.

Okay the only thing I can counter this is Alux x Petro.

Petro and Alux are basically Anna and Hanz in Frozen, gaslighting and manipulation exist but dynamic and trust are important. There is communication towards the two that leads into something in the plot.

Nightbow has none of that, they hate each other's guts. People say they can fix them, nah, with Palux you can make them worse (/j) HEJWJEJWJSJA

"Petro and Alux's entire dynamic is mainly built off of manipulation" YES but thats on Petro's side. Most people ship it due to it being tragic on Alux's side because everyone in this fandom likes doomed mlm i guess (I'm one of those people but again the plot reasons goes on for both of their dynamic)

"But he stabbed him" YES. I have not seen a single person who ships them currently its mainly a one sided ship. For alux its built off genuine love and care for Petro, knowing he's the only REAL connection in his life. The people who ship them (from what I've seen) mainly do it for tragedy and narrative purposes. no one is actually here WANTING alux to be stabbed and abused

And for Petro it adds much more conflict to his character if you add like any romance to him. like, loving the person your meant to kill and killing them anyways is a really interesting narrative plot idea. Its also really funny tbh but oh well.

Narratively it adds more to their characters as long as you dont romantize it and treat it like it'd be healthy especially at this point in the story.

This is literally doomed Yaoi (it's funny I wanna say that) and it works so well because of how they were narratively written this way towards each other. This cooked better than some enemy wanting to, excuse my language, have freaky SHIZ going on with the Hero 💀

Okay I'm done with my ranting I'm sorry for the people who like Nightbow but I'm sharing what I'm saying and y'all are gonna respect it and not be problematic. I feel like I should not be on the internet for a good while late and night this is how freaky I get when it's past midnight lmao

[sea-lanterns]

my girlfriend has actually been seeing your blog pop up on her fyp for blogs to follow so she kinda knew who you were from before 😅 I glanced at her phone when we were ordering take out and she was on tumblr, thats when I saw she was scrolling through your posts. I was like “hey I know that blog” and she was like “You do?” 💀 (she doesn’t want to admit that she reads smut lol)

-🏎️

NADKOAKDOEJE

I don’t know what to feel because that means she’s seen some unhinged posts from me. 😨

Anyways, this makes me wonder if she knows that you’re 🏎️ anon. Are you living a secret double life? Does she know you’re a famous fishy in the aquarium? 🤨

So many questions, but feel no need to respond. 🏎️ anon’s girlfriend if you’re reading this, no need to feel embarrassed about reading smut. I write it, so therefore that makes me even worse :)

[ccrisntok]

Heathers au part 2 💀

Okay, off the bat, this one is worse. this post is much sadder than the first one.

TW// Blood, Death, Corpses, Suicidal thoughts/actions, Guns, Homophobia, Violence, Eating Disorders (Again, basically anything that happens in Heathers: The Musical.)

Also, spoilers for Heathers, and DRDT!!!

As I said, this post is a bit more serious than the first one. You need to read the first part to really understand this one btw. sorry. I'm too lazy to explain things again hdafkjlds

This post will have the sad parts of the au, since it's basically a story run-down, but imma still try and keep it a little silly at least.

But there will be a part 3, since I literally can't post all of the images (I have over 30.) And part three will be a lot more light-hearted (just fun doodles, and some cut images from this post), so if this ones too intense, just wait for that one <3 or. dont. thats cool too. Btw I'm gonna re-use a few drawings from the last post for story progression <3

Again, credit to @another-danganronpa-fan for the original au concept!

(First off, a better rendition of the Heathers + Xander. I didn't make any other full body refs because I got lazy. Anyway, I wanted to talk about these guys a lil more in this post. Character relationships and whatever.)

I feel like the Heathers as a unit all fucking hate each other. David guilt trips Arei into staying and threatens to reveal that shes queer if she argues with him, Arei makes fun of him for having severe mental health issues, and Arturo belittles both Arei and David, constantly commenting on their appearances, which he considers "Barely acceptable", basically its a cesspool of toxicity.

Xander, your average, emotional totally not British boy, doesn't really see any of this and thinks the Heathers have it so easy, and even idolizes them a little, especially David. Or rather, whatever persona David gives off to others.

This leads to him being recruited, in combo with his forgery skills, and his British accent. Cuz, yk, British accents are hot to some people.

So Xandy gets to be an honorary Heather. This is fine for like, 5 minutes before he is immediately asked to humiliate the shit out of Eden, which he does, begrudgingly. He does this by forging a note to Eden from her crush, Arei, inviting her to a party Ace was hosting that night. Arei doesn't know about this plan until it happens.

at some point between this and the party, Xander sees Teruko beat the ever-loving shit out of Levi and Ace, and he's like "oh wow 😳", which is the first time he ever notices her.

As the party starts, Xander starts getting drunk as hell, and during so, makes some kind of jab at Ace in relation to his ED (I couldn't really find a way to incorporate Heather Duke's bulimia into David, so, sorry Ace.) This leads to Ace fucking hating him with a passion.

this does not end well btw

Xander parties rlly hard, and that ends up escalating to him accidentally publically outing Eden at the party (while wasted & high), which leads to Eden being humiliated by the partygoers. Arei, who does actually like Eden as well, obviously doesn't out herself and helps in Eden's humiliation for the sake of self-preservation.

Eden's like "wha" bc she still thinks the note was real, and is super confused and hurt by Arei's reaction.

I don't believe the two would be childhood friends, like cannon Heathers, I feel like they would just. Like each other. Steal glances occasionally, wave, and smile. Stuff like that from someone like Arei would mean something, at least to Eden. And seeing what she thought was so clear shatter would hurt her a lot.

After this, Xander fucks off because him and the Heathers get in a huge fight, and he finds Teruko like. In the bathroom or something hiding from the party. I didn't really want to make him break into her house so. I didn't :) they uh. hold hands or something, and then they fall in love wooooahhhh whoda guessed

So Xander vents about his imminent death bc Art's mad at him, and Terukos like, "yeah... lets go apologize....." (she does not want to apologize). so they pull up and Xander's like "I'm sowwy Art i wont do it again" or something and then uh.

(why is the family guy death pose so hard to draw) Art drinks some Kool-aid or something that Teruko mixed with drain cleaner and dies.

Xanders like, "NOOOO WAHT THE FUCK" and Teruko, who obviously wanted him to die, is like "oh. we need to cover this up as a suicide". They do just that, and in the wake of his death, Arturo is seen as even more of an icon than he was in life, since the fake note portrayed him as an actually kind, tortured soul.

Arturo's ghost haunts Xander from this point on, basically just calling him stupid the whole time.

so after this, David and Arei are like, "Aye uh. Art's dead. You wanna hang out in the woods with us and Levi and Ace?" And Xander, desperately trying to not seem suspicious, says yes. Arei didn't really want to do this, but David forced her, and brought tons of alcohol with the intention of getting Levi and Ace drunk so they would fight and it'd be funny. He hasn't taken up Art's spot yet, so he's still kinda chill.

they. do fight, and Xander's kinda like "oop", but David's hoping it gets violent, for funnies.

it gets kinda personal..

Then it gets REALLY personal 💀

And Levi ends up beating the shit out of Ace.

Now, not unlike canon, I don't know what circumstances got Levi disowned by his parents. I feel like in this au, he probably moved in with Ace and his folks, which would give him another reason to put up with Ace's shit. Out of literal necessity. And like, they are probably friends to an extent.

Anyway, after this, rumors spread that Xander was actually the one who beat the fuck out of Ace, unprovoked. Since Ace is like 3'2 or some shit, people think Xander just beat him up bc he was an easy target without Levi around or something.

This happens because of a combo of Ace not really remembering what happened, his spite towards Xander, Levi lying about it, and David agreeing with the story (again, for his own amusement.) Arei doesn't really care enough to speak out, and Xander's reputation goes from already dead, to decomposed.

He vents to Teruko about this, cuz that went soo well last time, who makes up a plan. She tells him to tell Ace and Levi that he really wanted to fight them, and she would bring a "fake" gun to scare them with. (btw shirtless levi just to warn you) (and a dead body. and blood.) (prob shoulda put those first)

This goes about how you would expect (can you tell I gave a bit more of a shit about these guy's deaths than I did Art's....sorry homie). Instead of doing what Kurt cannonically does (hauling ass in the opposite direction), Levi actually tries to help Ace, with no luck.

I made a longer version of this but Im trynna stay in the image limit so. Anyway, Teruko is like "look what you diiidd Levi he trusted what you said and now he's dead! Ok bye" and then shoots Levi too.

Xander is losing his fucking mind, and really upset, obviously. But Teruko is like "I did it because I love you...." and manipulates him into really believing they did somewhat the right thing, because Ace and Levi were bullies, and ruining ppls lives.

They frame Levi and Ace's deaths as a double suicide. Teruko convinces Xander to portray Levi and Ace as gay lovers who, "killed themselves to escape an unaccepting world", since they contributed to Eden's harassment over her sexuality.

This leads to Ms. Hu publicly speaking up in support of queerness, which leads to the harassment following Eden, and the fear holding Arei back to subside a little, as the student body is moved by Levi and Ace's super real emotional romance.

Ace and Levi's ghosts join Arturo in haunting Xandy, and Xander regrets like. Every choice he's ever made.

Xander and Teruko's relationship is kinda deteriorating, and David decides to take officially take the mantle in the aftermath of Arturo, Levi, and Ace's deaths.

He gets kinda goofy, and starts harassing Arei more severely. This takes a head at an assembly Ms. Hu throws for teenage mental health, where she encourages the kids to vent their frustrations and grievances, which would "set them free."

Arei finally takes the opportunity, and confesses about her turbulent home life, David and Arturo's harassment, and that she struggles with suicidal thoughts. David takes this as a personal attack on his reputation since she mentioned him, and berates her, until she decides to try and end her own life in the school bathroom.

Xander stops her, and tells David to fuck off.

This ends with Arei and Xander becoming better friends, and they start to bond over their shared care for Eden. This reminds Xander how bad he fucked up with his best friend, and reminds Arei that she really does care a lot about Eden, even if she wishes she didn't.

Speaking of Eden, after everything that had happened, the deaths, the harassment, and what she thinks is the loss of the two most important people in her life (Xander and Arei), she also decides to take her own life, Ace and Levi's suicides nailing it into her head that she didn't belong. She wanted to escape to a world that wouldn't judge her, like Martha, and death was the only way she felt she could do that.

She jumps off of a bridge, but ends up surviving.

Xander, obviously fucking horrified, rushes to her side. After seeing how hurt she was, he kinda realizes how serious death is.

He killed people, all because Teruko felt they needed to. He realizes his relationship is toxic (only took a kill count of 3), and decides he can't do it anymore.

He ends things with Teruko, and goes home. He figures this is the end of it, but the ghosts haunting him tell him that Teruko was coming back, and she was mad. Oh no!

After Teruko breaks into his house, Xander locks himself in his closet and listens to her mad ramblings.

She says she's going to bomb the school, killing everyone inside, and she wants to do it with him. The whole school was basically in the building for a pep-rally, and she wanted to frame it as a school-wide suicide pact, with a signed "suicide note", a fake petition she'd passed around the school during the mental health assembly.

Xander, out of options, ties himself to the ceiling and pretends as if he has hung himself, which he hopes will stop Teruko's rampage.

Instead, Teruko decides even if Xander was dead, she was going to kill everyone anyway.

After Teruko leaves, Xander chases after her, grabbing a kitchen knife as protection, with the intention of killing Teruko, and probably himself, for the sake of the school.

After realizing Xander is alive, Teruko doesn't stop her plan. She's even more dedicated to it, and Xander is dedicated to stopping her.

The two physically fight for the bomb, and in the scuffle, Xander ends up stabbing Teruko in the stomach. He takes the bomb, and begins to leave with it, with the intention of using his body as a shield so that the school wouldn't be damaged if he ran out of time.

Teruko stops him, and in one more act of weird, toxic, love takes the bomb from him, and says she will blow up herself, and only herself.

Xander lets her take the bomb, and Teruko walks out to the front of the school. Xander watches as she lets it go off, killing her instantly, and tells her to say hello to God, having faith that maybe her death could grant her forgiveness, if there was a higher power out there to forgive her at all.

........

annnnndddddd I'll draw the aftermath in part three!

Holy fucking shit, I HAVE BEEN TYPING THIS UP FOR LIKE 5 HOURSS AAHH

I'm proud of it, though! There are quite a few images I had to cut, since Tumblr has an image limit and I made way too much, but that's what part three is for, in combo with a little of the aftermath! I just didn't want to split up the story into two parts, since I wanted it to flow well. I hope I managed to do just that.

Hope you enjoyed this fucking roller coaster, and I hope to see you back again for the DRDT Heathers finale! Which... wont be that epic, or anything, but hopefully fun!

[uglyduckling339]

KY'S LIFE IS STRANGE DOUBLE EXPOSURE NONSENSE LIVEBLOG: Episode 5

(spoiler warning OBVIOUSLY)

tutorial episode 1 episode 2 episode 3 episode 4

So i took a minor (like a week long) break after ep 4 bc ugh but im back now :D

highkey after that SHITSHOW of an ep (4), i dont even remember what the plot is nomo

max jumped into the storm ! okay girl yodo

chat im gonna be so fr this entire ep was hella confusing. it was a nightmare but not? it was real but not? what the fuck happened

anyways 2 moons 😍 it's to signify that the universes are indecipherable rn

HER JOURNAL ENTRY AW :( "i'm playing it with somebody new now"

i'm lowkey scared of this nightmare scene. LiS' scene was literally HORRIFYING

wait is safi like in a diff world from us

okay yes rhis is 100% a nightmare jesus fuck

pompedo text but cat is so cutesy

WARREN?? OH MY GOD

another glitch lmao, mose's cig is puncturing through the ash tray

YO HE GOT SAFI'S LINES.

POSSESSED MOSES??

Okay this is highkey cool

OH MY GOD IT'S SAFI NOW?? WOAH

OH. SHES IN OUR MIND TOO ! DUH

max take a selfie quick get her out

BLUE BUTTERFLY?? DONT FUCK W ME RN.

dog is this real or fake. im so lost.

WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES 🗣

oh my god

oh my god

oh

my

god

BLACKWELL

um. why is it max and safi 😭 thats so random

it's giving me and my mutuals when we quote LiS ngl

highkey this is funny to watch

i'm so using this scene for a tiktok

oop girl u dont got no power nomo

OH ALSO !! TRAUMA YIPPIE

i feel like this would've hit better if they js redid the og scene w nathan and chloe but wtvr

JOYCE KATE AND VICTORIA??? OH MY GOD

i bet chloe's gonna be the last text in this

guys i forgot how to universe hop lmao

GO FUCK YOUR SELFIE??? THE BINDERS??

for yalls info, jeffershit got to 24 girls according to the binders on the table

WOAH RACHEL ON THE WALL

more trauma yay

"he is selling you for parts" ?

OH MY FUCK. THE SEAT.

OH MY GOD

"I'm not 18 anymore" YES !! YES MAX ILYSM

yeah okay so lucas is violently compared jefferson. broski one is WAY worse n it's not lucas i fear

the camera shaking was crazy omg

YESS FREE URSELF MAX !!

why's there a giant ass tree here lmao

MORE SITS 🗣

yall know damn well how much i fw these sits

apparently safi spoke but i couldn't hear the audio for her, i could only read the subtites ?

also the music has gotten highkey fire tbh.

it's giving Before The Storm vibes

one huge complaint about this game is the lack of dialogue between characters. in LiS u could spend ages talking to every single minor character and now beyond cut scenes theres like. reggie diamond vinh and loretta n thats it.

AH WHERE DID YALL COME FROM

this gotta be a nightmare bro yall keep jumpscaring me

Reggie !! my fav !!

bro what is a time vortex.

yay that totes made sense ! 10/10 explantion

poor reggie i love him sm :(

VINH !! MY OTHER FAV

Omg wait so they all remember both worlds?

woah okay sick

brother move ONNN. she dont like u

nobody:

max: maybe you should focus on what's in front of you (me) and move on (towards me)

LMFAO GWEN'S JS CHILLING OUTSIDE MID-STORM

ngl that's such a mood. Me too girl.

jesus so like max is gonna have to tell EVERYONE about her powers after this

AHHH CHLOE TEXT

"so tired of being sorry" max :(

LMFAO? VINH/MOSES ROMANCE AU OKAYY

YO WHAT THE HELL

Chloe in the Dark Room core

I HAVE SO MANY COMMENTS BRO WHAT

um okay we're gonna move on from that polaroid but. okay man. enjoy his telescope ig

woah this is a new place

oh my gosh this is a post-storm motel

WAIT OKAY SO i chose bae>bay, what happens in bay>bae for this scene??

this is making me sad guys. chloe come home

oh dear god please not another dorm time loop

bro what is max on abt this is very clearly the same fucking room💀

ohh the painting is diff.

its still the same room tho

FUCK U MEAN THIS IS A DIFF ROOM BRO ITS THE SAME AS THE LAST 2

okay actually i lied. cleveland doesnt have a hot plate

OH MY GOD IS THIS THE FIRST ROOM POST-BREAK UP :(

why is this bitch YAWNING so much. wake up.

woah wheres the color

THE WALLS ARE FAKE?? WOAH

okay yeah girl take a nap. no problem. totes time for a break. right now. mid-storm.

omg it's like her sense of reality is slipping

OHH okay fine. thats why they're the same room. that's kinda chill ig

N E B U L A

baby wake up this is a nightmare

oo double sits !!

fucking bitch ass fuck ass fucking dvsidhjdjd

loading screen.

max not hiding her powers core

this game is SO pretty btw. i love the sky

"i need her" U ALREADY GOT 2 WHOLE ASS LOVE INTERESTS. DOWN GIRL

these doors are so trippy damn

all that for her to be right behind us. cool

okay i like safi now that she's normal again

OKAY CONFIDENT MAX !! ILY

wtf they are soo gay in this ep

i'm genuinely gonna crash out over these loading screens oh my fucking lord

safi is literally chloe w superpowers

yeah okay she kinda got u there max..

oh great Safi's magneto again

oh hell no. max snap on her please. beat her ass into sense

safi out here planning the damn avengers innitive lmfao

what am i even agreeing to.

yes mr nick fury (safi) 🫡 i will be there to join your superpowered team🫡

oh yeah i forgot yasmin is like bleeding out rn

oh my god :( chloe reached out :(

MAX ANSWER HER?? LMAO WHAT

oh fuck yeah guys remind me to watch a video of this part bc i missed what max said abt the text

it's kinda symbolic how in the most peaceful scene we've seen with max, she still hears chloe's voice from likely the worst day of her life. like a symbol for how her trauma will never be fully gone, she's just living around it.

okay ik i was rambling this whole time about wanting her to have a breakdown but honestly this is what i actually wanted :( max healing ily

also tessa rose jackson is an absolute BEAST musically. holy shit

OH so the world's merged? hm

ig it's cool that they remember everything now, max isn't alone w the memories this time.

TIMBID GUY AND GOTH GIRL AW

reggie <3 loretta <3

okay so loretta's grown on me soo much. she's obvi annoying but she doesn't mean actual harm n she's kinda nice

and reggie my fav ! i love him sm

i may have forgotten reggie and vinh fucked (?). yeah my bad man

i'm still so confused. what was real and fake in that storm? what do they specifically remember?

"do u feel 2 ppl fighting in ur mind for the truth" (or whatever tf loretta said) nope ! skill issue on ur part girl

oh wow max asked for consent before snapping pics of every1!! rare sight fr!

that feeling when u post pictures roasting ur students and friends but don't respond to chloe elizabeth price's text

ALSO :( I MISS IRIS :( WHY WOULD U GIVE HIM AWAY :(

is it bc the text. that wasn't real max, i promise ur cat didn't fr send hate to u

good god how does diamond know abt our powers bro

WAIT DO THEY ALL KNOW ABOUT HER POWERS??? HOW DID I MISS THAT?? DID THEY LIKE TELL US THEY ALL KNOW??

max is HARSH with these captions

lmao "Vinh in his natural habitat ; A bar'

bro i love gwen sm. what is that pose😭

NOW HOLD UP MOSES. I DID N O T GIVE MY SEAL OF APPROVAL. ALL I DID WAS LET HER LEAVE TOWN. THAT'S IT.

no hate but why is diamond here and not reggie?? reggie was WAY more involved with this supernatural stuff then her

okay and that's the end of the game !

jk actually there's an end-credit scene (because it's the MCU apparently)

cool so diamond has magic. and safi just happened to know purely bc of a nose bleed. radical 😐👍

guys if u wanted to announce the avengers you could've referenced LiS2 or true colors instead; that's also ok instead of making another character w powers.

IM DYING BRO i've been making avengers jokes and then all i see is a fucking "Max Caulfield Will Return" screen😭😭😭 this is a joke there is no way yall are serious rn😭😭💀

okay um tryna lock back in now, i've got a couple notes:

so overall, this game was VERY if-y. it had some good moments, but the storyline was super unstable and it felt like they didn't really know what they were doing while writing it.

I liked the concept of a multi-versal murder mystery, but once they drifted away from that and started spiralling into the weird Super-Safi storyline it got kinda confusing to follow along

I truly think they had a really great idea with this game, but the weak plot-twists and boring storyline absolutely bombed it. (I guess you could say that the only murderer in this "murder mystery" was the game's plot killing itself)

I also think it had a really lovely messege about overcoming trauma, and I liked how they treated Max's PTSD with the storm (plus her heartbreak from Chloe was actually well handled, which was a huge concern for me when I heard abt it). I think her Dark Room trauma was treated kinda weird bc of the time vortex thing but honestly that was more of a plot-clarity issue over a conceptual problem.

At the beginning, I was HEAVILY judging the music. Maybe my tastes have changed in the past month or sum but now the music isn't that bad (I still HATE the intro song tho) and I actually like the new vibe this game brought to the LiS world. It was def different from the OG LiS game but I feel like thats a good thing since a huge portion of this game is proving that Max isn't that same teenager anymore. She's changed, the world around her changed, and so her new game is a reflection of that.

Also, the cat content... I LOVED customizing the cat, but I thought the add-on was gonna be more obvious and didn't even realize that I had missed the actual content until I went into the trophies menu after playing lmfao😭😭

I have like a million more comments abt this game but I feel like I got all my major stuff out already so I'm gonna stop rambling lol. I still have my pricefield rant/analysis i'm working on and I'll probably make some small comments while I platinum the game but this is it for my live-blogs !! Thank you to my hundreds of adoring fans for sharing these out to world and to the actual 3 people who interacted and decided to try and deciper my insanity ! 🫶

[spacedlexi]

ok i wanna get your opinion on a sort of fan indifferent character, so what do you think about kate garcia?

personally i felt like she was an alright character, but like gabe, she has such stupid moments that are so unnecessary 😭 that whole family is a clusterfuck and then she just makes it worse in the most intense moment. i get u hate ur husband (understandably) and u and javi were stuck together for years, but thats still his brother 💀

kate also gets too much hate. i like her enough. yeah she can be a little annoying but nothing Too bad. the worst thing she does is start the fight in the garage. there are more annoying characters. shes more of a plot device than anything like she exists to create conflict

and i dont care about the david thing. like i'll romance her i dont care. ive done both. my only actual issue with it is that she doesnt break things off with david first. she doesnt even take the ring off until after he dies 💀 but david gets mad anyway even if you dont romance her so why not SHDKJSDK like might as well give him something to get mad at. and her and javi are cute enough. i dont think they Intended to have feelings for each other it just kinda happened naturally and then suddenly david was back in their lives. its messy on purpose. just have fun with it

[short-black-diamond]

HELPPP😭

Today i was at a Popular ( a store w books and etc ) so while looking for some romance books ( because im single and lonely ) i wasnt able to find any books that sounded VERY interesting to me😔

So my brain just decided to open my notes app and starting creating some ideas/ plots for romance books??

AND HELPP- 😭

IDK WTH I WROTE💀

( im tryna get some opinions, i asked my guy fren but he hasn't responded )

AND SINCE UR LIKE MY FAV WRITER ON THIS APP ( and like an actual writer ) IMMA NEED U TO JUDGE MY PLOT IM SORRY😭

imma summarize in a dum way to speed things up-

BASICALLY,

Girl is a happy family and great home :)

Girls parents fight ( AGAIN )

Girl become sad

Girl don't like being at home no more cuz home doesn't feel like home😔 so she tries to avoid going home as much as possible

Girl go party

Girl wake up in mystery guys bed

*ITS THE NICE POPULAR GUY THAT EVERYONE LIKES and wanna gets with🤭😏* ( he was the host btw )

Girl be like : GOTTA GO😅

Guy : NO WAIT! pls stay longer

( he has small crush on her but both of them don't realize it, he develops it when he starts seeing her stayback after school more, he does too- reason is revealed later)

Girl goes home and fighting gets worse

Girl decides : why not, beats being at home. and now lives at boys home ( kinda like a REALLY long sleepover tho-)

As girl continues staying with boy she starts to notice that boy is actually really lonely despite being popular ( his parents were like nagi's and never around, thats why he always throw parties fyi 😮)

As both of them continue living together, they start feeling more and more comfy with each other and soon always want to be tgt

so when their relationship starts getting closer and closer, will they be able to experience the warm feeling of having a home?? ( Metaphorical sense )

( THEY END UP AS COUPLE OBVI )

i got inspo from a quote that says "souls tend to go back to who feel like home"

IM SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG😭🙏

take care, love and kisses 💋

BYEBYE!! ❤️✨💅 :)

okay first off, why did you put nagi in there, like leave that lil guy alone what did he ever do to you 😭😭😭💀💀💀

second, that is a lovely idea actually, bonus points if the boi has fluffy hair

also thank you for keeping it simple with girl and boi because I wouldn't understand the story then

but still, it's a really great and sweet idea in my opinion :}

damn I should read my books....

Also I hope that the parents sort their argument out at the end becuz hello they have a child, and where is she??? Like are we not gon talk about them???

anyways, your idea is cool, but I want the parents to apologize to girl for making her feel uncomfortable with their arguments

and the boy and the girl should have a lil kith at the end..👉🏻👈🏻

that idea you have is overly lovely, my sweet little ghost👻

please tell me more if you want to continue, okay?

-your diamond <3

[toastess-with-the-mostess]

Let's Rewind! Toast watches Voltron: Defender of The Universe (1984)

Season 1, Episode 35: Doom Boycotts the Space Olympics Season 1, Episode 36: Lotor's Clone

Episode 35 Doom Boycotts the Space Olympics I realized the text was hard to read in the long post so here's some color so you can tell which episode is being watched

wild that whoever made the choices for the space Olympics really thought hard and said "yes we're absolutely having it on Arus, where it's currently at war and has a weekly occurrence of giant fucked up robots fighting each other"

Is soccer actually an Olympic sport or is the world cup the biggest even for them?

Oh so doom IS actively boycotting the space olympics, I know It's for evil reasons but i have to agree just based on the fact THAT ITS ON A PLANET IN ACTIVE WAR AND ROUTINELY HAS GIANT MECHA FIGHTS

why are the boys in an army barrack 😭 the castle is right there is it not

Allura this is why you KNOCK walking in on the team showering in only towels is your fault entirely LMAO the boys are ragging on nanny for trying to make it their fault svsiodv woman just sit down and leave the food at this point

"I'm sorry I meant to surprise you!" "You did!" Keith that was adorable omg, I know you guys can't hear it, but his tone was the cutest

I love this show because in every other one it's hunk looking after Pidge, but originally it was Lance instead T-T He's currently very concerned about Pidge eating two kabobs at once, at least he isn't talking with food in his mouth

I'm sorry when did haggar get blueprints to voltrons wiring??

are they about to make a decepticon out of the beefed up bulldozer the team has outside to build the stadium?? Oh my god they are

man the only reason the team finds out about lotors plan is because one of the kids that was tagging along with hunk this entire time needed to take a leak outside 💀

haggar described her weird virus for that bulldozer as like a chip,,, it is not a chip it's a tiny robeast that takes over the entire machine just by standing onto the hardware i know they were making it easier to understand for kids but c'mon that had to be confusing for them, kids are real smart anyway

The boys: kid you were dreaming, nothing attached itself to the bulldozer (bulldozer proceeds to turn on and wreck their barrack) the boys: O-O guys please listen to the children, they're so upfront with everything they see its wild

PIDGE WHY ARE YOU JUMPING STRAIGHT ONTO THE BULLDOZER well at least he found out nobody was driving it UNTIL IT THREW HIM OFF, he's a gymnast (ninja) though so of course he lands on his feet anyway like a goddamn CAT

why do they always make hunk grunt like that? wild somehow they figured out it was lotor, i mean i feel like itd be obvious once they knew nobody was in it but still

OH SO PIDGE DOES ACTUALLY REFER TO HIMSELF AS A GYMNAST, THATS ACTUALLY SUPER COOL still doesnt make it any less insane that pidge LEPT ONTO THE ROOF OF THE BULLDOZER

WHY IS HE SO LONG IN THE DRIVER'S SEAT, IT LOOKS LIKE THE PASTED HIS HEAD OVER LANCES BODY he didnt even stop the thing i think lotor just told it to stop to lull them into a false sense of security

that same kid was yelling about not being listened and immediately punched the control panel with started up the bulldozer again 💀 I think you're old enough to know how to regulate your emotions my dude oh also he and two others are trapped inside now, dire stakes indeed

hunk and pidge got thrown off the bulldozer, how high up were they?? ft older brother lance again because he was making sure pidge was okay in the background

at last a lion comes out to actually do something NOT BEFORE THE BOY GOT BURIED ALIVE THOUGH WHAT THE FUCK THEY SHOULD BE DEAD

I don't think this is the first time lotor has told allura his plans for her, but it's good that he actually tells her so she doesn't get a worse idea

the team is free after allura creates a goddamn tsunami in the stadium ft MORE OLDER BROTHER LANCE BECAUSE HES HOLDING PIDGE NEXT TO HIM IN THE WATER

immediately after being freed the kids just sit there and do nothing UNTIL THEY GET TRAPPED IN IT AGAIN god this show makes so many characters stupid

all-scan?? Are you telling me you fuckers could've done that before, and you just haven't?? I'm gonna say you just recently learned it for my own mental health

the kids are out after Hunk bashed his way inside without a lion i love seeing scenes like these because the pilots are actually skilled outside of being inside the lions!

Ooh so I was right, it was a mini robeast who could interact with machines, and then it just combines with it to make it an actual robeast well they could've just said that earlier >:/

voltron is formed and definitely is spewing propaganda for the olympics but at least hes able to damage the robeast LMAO

holy shit easiest fight ever, they barely even did anything to the guy before pulling out blazing sword and skewering it

time to rebuild the stadium and gym using the lions my question is why they only gave one of those beefed up bulldozers to the team

/episode end

Episode 36 Lotor's Clone

Episode opens with Zarkon yelling at Lotor, this oughta be good lol

"quit sending robots to arus and destroy voltron yourself!" my guy how the FUCK is one dude gonna do that, you kind of need another big guy to help weaken him first

"you mean really lead? Like from up front?" "Where else you idiot!" LMAOO

I know they make the doomites robots so the show can skirt past ratings but do not give robots that much sentience and still say they're not people these fuckers were talking about defecting and living on Arus!

oh so this episode's robeast is just another lotor because he doesn't actually want to do the work HAHAHA

"but beware, whatever you know he will know" foreshadowing?

onto planet arus, the team is doing some lion training

Pidge: it feels like my head is on backwards! Keith: I always knew that! THE KID JUST FELL OUT OF THE SKY KEITH BE NICE LMAO

Pidge: did you know your nose wiggles when you're upset Keith: my fist wiggles too! KEITH PLEASE-

mystery power surge huh, at least we can tell that the castle actually has employees since they're running around trying to fix stuff

oh never mind the drules have an actual robeast that's fucking with the castle, the lotor clone is just so lotor doesn't have to do any of the work expected of him LOL

Keith has a plan but i can't remember the sleds/boats he mentions having used before with the team maybe they're just making it up to show that the pilots actually hang out on their off time fnvsdoi

"some of these parts are older than nanny!" GET HER ASS LANCE

it's good to know that the pilots are all slightly mechanically inclined, definitely a skill they gotta have to actually stay alive on Arus

Not lotor complaining that his clone isn't working hard enough for his hero image 💀 no wonder this man always gets his ass kicked

secrets out, keiths been fighting the clone this whole time and because of lotor having a telepathic argument with it, he knows it's not the real him anymore

Damn he was so offended by the clone calling him Lotor used the robeast to blow his ass up 😭 Keith's right, this was his only chance at winning

did they just fix up that sled thing to not actually use it?? What a waste of time oh never mind lance is using it while the others use the lions

"if you're gonna lie around the beach all day I'll come back later" i don't think any other show can replicate the absolute sass dotu lance brings

I like that hunk is the defacto leader when its him pidge and allura, I know allura has no experience so she wouldn't be but i wouldn't be surprised if they tried to pull something like this with pidge lol

voltron is formed, haven't seen lion head attack in a while so it's nice to see it back man that robeast just stoof there and took the beating, are they just giving up at this point soidns

ooh scene reuse, this is definitely from the bridge episode that i cant remember the name of, everyone is joking about how another clone of them would be good for the universe lol

/episode end

[hamausagi]

AHH HI!! im so glad you're happy to see me HDJSJDJ i was worried you'd have forgotten abt me LMAO (no bc why is this giving pick me boy energy... PLSSS) lowk i considered leaving so many times bc im so busy irl but i think i'm just too attached to this site 💀

OMG GIRL congrats on being in your second year!!! that's actually so crazy and quick, i feel like i remember you posting when you were in hs??? (or maybe im delusional 😭) BUT BACHELORS IN FINE ARTS??? THAT'S SO COOL!!!!! are you enjoying it??? and good luck for the sem!! i'm sure you'll be able to ace it even though you're busy 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ but also what are you working as???? :O

AND YES i will definitely update you as i continue playing until then 🫶 i've been quite busy recently, but i'm FINALLY on sem break so hopefully i'll be able to get back on it hehe <3 i'm not from the philippines but i think general SEAsian culture is quite similar, like i was streaming the beginning to my friend and we were talking abt how the high school they're in looks exactly like our primary school 😭🙏

QUILL UPDATE!!! okay honestly the last few years have been a MESS i don't even know where to start 😭 first of all i started my degree last april, i'm doing bachelors of chemical engineering 😧 can u imagine. Me. quill starglitterz, ceo of xiao fanfiction, doing engineering 💀💀💀 HAHAHA idk how to explain but basically my parents put me in this degree (<- most normal asian).

anyways aside from that i've also been working part-time!! i work as a professional dancer hehehe so i perform at events and concerts as stuff w my studio :> also2 i have unfortunately been in and out of hospital for the past 3/4 years? i don't think i mentioned it here but it started getting increasingly worse which also contributed to my inactiveness,,, and in the end i finally got diagnosed w a rare chronic illness after being misdiagnosed for like 2 years 😭😭😭

AHDJSKDK sorry for the sudden lore drop but. Yeah. 🙏 BUT WE BALL!!!!! i'm still living my best life (or trying to) despite the opps being out to get me 🙂‍↕️ the universe knew i'd be too powerful so they had to nerf me with a sickness 😞 BUT ANYWAYS OMG I YAPPED SO MUCH SORRY 😭 i should have been diagnosed w chronic yapper instead LMAO anyways2 yes ilysm i hope you're having a good day!!! please dw abt replying to this, take your time pookie and TAKE CAREEE ILY 🩷🩷🩷

NOOOOO I CLD NEVER OMG ??? LMASO NO dw bb i cld never forget abt the best part of PEAK genshinblr (you ofc 💕) but omg i totally get you bc even tho i left for a good year-ish i just couldnt NOT come back 😭🙏 this site just rlly has that grip on us LOL

THANK YOU !!! yes back in like 2021/2022 i was in my senior year of hs, so its been like 💀a minute LMAO BUT YES YES YES ITS SOOOOO FUNNNNNN im doing so much fun stuff this year, its a lot of 3d modeling and 3d animation n stuff AND im in a big game dev team for the whole semester and we're in the prepro phase of cooking up a pretty cool game so its just been so amazing 😭 but thank you for your encouragement 😌 right now im working as a rental technician at a ski resort about an hour from where i live (i have made some poor choices 💀) but its a relatively fun job and i get a free season pass to ski so 😋😋😋

QUILL CHEMICAL ENGINEERING ARC ???? WOWZA THATS A CRAZY DEGREE GIRL I PRAY FOR YOU 😭😭😭quill starglitterz, CEO of xiao fanfic, and princess of chemical engineering 😌 ↕ (also help is this emoji combo like nodding bc if it is im like actually obsessed with the innovation) honestly that just means ur like super cool and smart and whatever so like 🙄i hope its going well for you 🙏 BUT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE A PROFESSIONAL DANCER ??? THATS SO FUCKING COOL ??? LIKE HELLO ?? you are actually so cool for that, what's it like ??? pls pls tell me abt that bc i think thats actually SO rad and i wanna know more 🙏🙏

omg im so sorry to hear abt your medical trouble, being misdiagnosed for that many years must have been actually SO frustrating and im so sorry 😭i hope things are able to get easier now that you have the proper diagnosis 🙏 AND DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THE LORE IM SO HAPPY TO HEAR HOW YOU'VE BEEN DOING OVER THE YEARS !!! so amazing how you have remained SLAYING despite these opps out to get you.... but you're just cool like that 💪💪ILYT ILYT AND I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD DAY TOO !!!! 💕💕💕

[harryfeatgaga]

omfg Paige ik you and your anons are probably the wrong ppl to ask/tell about this but oh well 💀 so basically i’m following a few new ppl on twitter and i low-key thought these new mutuals were shading me for something that, in my opinion, is not a big deal and a pretty fucking dumb thing to be mad about. i posted a couple of slight thirst tweets about an actor i like which a) were actually VERY tame all things considered.....like i have definitely thought worse tbh and b) it was also kinda about his character (but also the guy himself too cause he’s hot)..........ANYWAYS it was a few hours later that i saw these tweets so it could’ve just been a coincidence and had nothing to do with my tweets but i saw these mutuals saying that they thought it was “weird” to be “sexualizing” this actor and someone else said something about how “there is a difference between sexualizing the character and actor” or whatever like 😭😭 and i knowww it’s not a big deal cause twitter drama is always SO unserious and literally who gives a fuck but idk...........at first it made me feel kinda bad cause i was like “well they are clearly shaming me here” but then afterwards it was just like ???? again WHO GIVES AF i mean i definitely wasn’t trying to make anybody uncomfortable or whatever but there is a reason i don’t interact with or follow ppl under 18 (these mutuals aren’t btw) 😭 also like.....yeah some ppl with their nsfw jokes and thirsting can sometimes get out of hand imo but again i thought my tweets were pretty tame tbh and it’s not like i was commenting all of this shit under the guy’s insta or in his dms or sending it to his gf or whatever 😭😭 also idk how else to word this so i hope nobody takes this the wrong way but ???? the guy is a pretty famous celebrity and a very handsome one at that so like 😭 OFC ppl are gonna notice and point it out like i dont think there’s anything wrong with that at all and besides ppl are always posting crazy shit about his characters like ???? yeah it’s a little different but IT IS STILL THE SAME GUY!!!!!! LIKE.......THATS HIS BODY, THATS HIS FACE, THATS STILL HIM 😭😭😭 idk i just wish twitter could let me live in peace 😭💀💀

Im sorry bestie! I wouldn't let it bother like you said a few times is just twitter and twitter is very unserious lmao just block/mute etc and do your thing!

[kisses4suna]

may i request suna, kita, and osamu with a gender neutral s/o that has a sports related injury, such as a relatively bad sprain (any sport, and it can be a different injury, whatever you prefer !)? i recently messed up my tendons during tkd and it's been a lil rough

WHEN THEIR S/O HAS AN INJURY !

☆ featuring. suna rintarou, kita shinsuke, miya osamu

☆ a/n. i am so sorry.. i have never played any sports in my entire life so correct me if im wrong 😭😭 only sport ive ever played was basketball and i was so bad at that.. also im so sorry you had to get injured like that, youre so strong, i could never 😭💀 anyway im so very sorry this took a long time to post, ive been super busy and my school recently just started so i have 0 time for anything, im super sorry bby!!

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SUNA RINTAROU

- is literally watching you 24/7 because he’s scared you might hurt yourself even more or something like that

- he will give you “massages” and they make it feel worse but you’ll never tell him that..

- he’s always texting you stuff like “does your body hurt?” “are you okay?” “do you need me to come over” “do u need advil” because he just wants to make sure youre okay 😭

- sometimes he could be real mean and decide to say stuff like “thats why your injured rn 🙄🙄” he’d say it as a joke obviously but loves to uses it against u 😭

- he’s very overdramatic, like if he sees you on the couch reaching to get the remote he will be like “nonono!! let me” and even if its the most simplest action ever, he still goes out of his way to do anything for u

- he googles everything and anything that will help your injury like, “does ice help?” “should you start moving more or just stay put?” “ice or heat?” and he’ll continue googling all these questions trying to help you instead of actually calling a doctor or anything 😭

KITA SHINSUKE

- always telling you to rest, he tells you to take naps, go to sleep earlier, and just try to sleep off the pain

- he’s so very much responsible so if he has a question or you about what and what not you should do, he’s already dialing your doctor asking what you should and should not be doing

- would only ever cook healthy stuff from now on… every time you ask him for a candy or something sweet he says that you should regain your strength back before ruining it with sweets

- is by your side 24/7 and has everything prepared for you if you need it

- he’s always blaming the sport you play, saying that you’re overworking yourself and that you should rest a lot more

- he basically is like your mom, he’s always reminding you to take your vitamins and medicine, and to eat healthy, sleep more, and he doesn’t mean to sound so controlling but he can’t help but be worried about you!!

MIYA OSAMU

- cooks you whatever you crave

- your injury is basically a free pass for you to get spoiled by him!!

- he doesn’t really know what to do but at the same time he does, if that makes sense.. he calls kita up when he needs help and wants to know what to do, and plus he always has atsumu too if he needs help!

- doesn’t want to come off as extremely clingy so he lets you do some stuff independently but will keep a watch on you just incase something happens

- his food tastes 10x better because he wants to make sure it tastes good just for you <3

- overall he knows you’re extremely strong and that you’ll overcome it but for the meantime he just wants to take care of you ☺️

[bakidose]

— TOKYO REV ## RANDOM HCS

alternate title: tr men and random headcanons i have abt some of them

characters included: ran haitani / sanzu haruchiyo / hanma shuji / manjiro sano / baji keisuke / takemichi hanagaki

warnings: a bit suggestive / mostly sfw tho / crack cocaine for sanzu / humour / gn! reader / ooc maybe?? idk thats up to u to decide lol

a/n: these were the only characters i could think of hcs for off the top of my head shhh. n e ways weewoo my first official contribution to the tr fandom, enjoy :p

% SHUJI HANMA %

he's the type to fake bang you.

doesn't matter where you are, who you're with or what you're doing– the moment he sees you bent down, hes getting all up behind you and thrusting full force 💀

you've had to start kneeling and squatting down to reach for things instead after one incident. living in fear everyday that hanma may one day pull a bluff on your poor, vulnerable ass right in front of your friends and family 😟

"shuji PLEASE im trying to take this dish out of the oven"

"hm? sorry~. i cant help myself when you're all bent down like that just for me ♡ "

you burned your fingers and almost dropped your lasagna all over the floor

all he did in apology was pat your ass and said "it looks good babe 😘"

you still dont know whether he was talking about your ass– or the lasagna

probably both.

% RAN HAITANI %

he makes deez nuts jokes along with his brother rindou LMAO

thinks they're sooo fuckin funny. oh? your legs are broken? lol deez nuts are next 🤣

and whats worse is that rin backs him up too with a shit eating grin, both giggling like lil kids who just made a joke about poo

has never actually fallen for it whenever someone tries though

and even if it were to happen, you wouldnt know.

given the way he just stands there like 🕺 right after he finishes you off with his baton for humiliating him like that in broad daylight

rin: "🙄 cant believe you fell"

ran: "i didnt fa-"

rin: "for deez nuts."

ran: 😃

not only did he fall for deez nuts twice on that day, but he smacked a hoe with his baton twice too

hurt his ego knowing rindou pulled it on him without missing a beat

if you ever asked, it never happened <3

% SANZU %

ACTUALLY served crack before he served his country.

has definitely snorted cocaine off your ass crack to make things more exciting

though one time, you caught him snorting sugar off the kitchen counter. having temporarily taken away his coke stash after he kept waking up next to you high as hell

a credit card, 10,000¥ bill and nose all lined up to take another hit

"what are you doing?? you know you cant-"

"its not."

"huh? the hell you mean its 'not' 🤨"

"its sugar, princess. here~ try it"

"no thanks-"

told you to shut up as he scooped some up with his finger n stuck them in your mouth anyway

it was sugar.

he was snorting glucose up his nostrils.

"WHAT THE FUCK 😃."

you still think he mightve done it just to spite you since youre so worried about his health

you gave him back his shit after that

so it was either him high off the rocks or...yeah <3 he was definitely in a silly goofy mood that day

manz is actually deranged 🚹 middle child behavior if ive ever seen it

% BAJI KEISUKE %

never make a 'your mom' joke at this guy.

ever.

the first n last time some sleezy highschool kid tried to do it to a pre-k baji, they limped outta there the next day looking like they got mauled by several street cats

just never- dont. dont even utter a word about his mom unless youve been feeling alive'nt recently

you can talk smack about baji but never about his momma :<

ranted to peke j about it that night as he was falling asleep

"and i pummeled that asshole! right in his ugly ass mug 😤"

peke j: mrow

"no one!... can talk shit about my mom like that...*snores*"

peke j: mrow

% MIKEY %

still orders the McDonald's happy meal even as an adult

does NOT eat the apple slices :<

he's also another person who enjoys pulling deez nuts jokes on unsuspecting victims...or at least used to ://

*is busy munching on dorayaki*

"hey you know suna?"

"whos that? 😐"

"suna or later deez nuts gonna be in ya' mouth"

k.o'ed on sight. absolutely hates deez nuts jokes now after he fell for one.

draken laughs everytime he recalls it, and mikey refuses to answer any random questions since then

% TAKEMICHI HANAGAKI %

asked chifuyu one time after he did the devils tango with hina on their wedding night

if it was gay to think of another man during it.

"hey so i was wondering... is it gay to think of mikey while i was having sex with hina?"

?????

"huhhh 😕 takemitchy, man i– i mean..bros before hoes right? 😄"

"yeah!! youre right!"

both sat there in silence after

then hakkai walked in, holding his phone that still had mitsuya's now updated side profile picture as his lockscreen

takemichi cried that night 👍🏼

taglist: @katsukichu

© bakidose 2021 — all rights reserved. do not modify, claim, distribute, or steal my work.

[filipofmounthonora]

RANDOM SGE REWRITE / AU THINGS

suddenly feeling the ghost of my 14yo self throttling me to be cringe and annoying (debatable) again and me and @evening-blossoms have a Torrent of ideas weve been building up over the years that i HAVE to get out or i will just. idk. start screaming? and never stop??? idk

also disclaimer this is very very tangentially related to any form of arthuriana. at least half of this is incorrect to anyone who has actually read and knows the stories. or sge for that matter lmaooooo

PART ONE: THE DRAGON OF CAMELOT

the pendragons are an absolutely rabid family and it all started with uther. hes the grand old patriarch of this family and by god he is. possibly the sole cause of every single fucking problem ever in the au. at least the ones that arent cause by r*fal

uther pendragon was a general for king gorlois of camelot until uther decided the crown was shiny enough to start a coup over. he was helped by merlin and later nimue and also uh his Epic Cool Fire Powers

he married igraine. not because he believes in marriage or anything this man is Completely sterile. he just thinks her kids are cool. he might be a dragon in human form

their names are morgause and cecilia and while morgause is fucking Rabid (aka your average young girl) cecilia is older and also Actually Cares her dad got butchered by some GUY. uther doesnt seem to register this he just thinks shes shy (even after 20+ years of being her stepfather)

at some point uthers hoarding behavior extends to Collecting behavior and he decides he wants another kid ([igraine voice] like to hang out with?? [uther voice] yeah) anyway here's alessandra of camelot and.

at this point i think its just going to be an entire recap of the pendragons family history in bullet point form. so. find the rest under the cut. if you dont want to its ok ily anyway stay safe 🥰

years go by and the girls grow up and igraine is still longsuffering and uther is still. idk hes weird. hes a weirdo. hes my funny grandpa guy if you know succession hes like logan. with fire powers. anyway morgause marries king lot of orkney (or oakwood. maybe) and alessandra falls in love with one of her father's knights, ector 🥰

storian better write ector a good ending bc hes has to ask uther for his daughter's hand in marriage. (morgause's marriage was a kept arrangement by gorlois) anyway poor guys sweating in his boots ready to be run through with his own sword and turned into a shish kebab. but it works out well bc uther has a Massive soft spot for his kids

morgause and alessandra all have happy(ish, in morgs case) lives with their husbands and have kids etc etc. morgause is also planning lot's death and manipulating the knight (lamorak) shes having an affair with to do the killing but thats neither here nor there and shes a girlboss anyway 🥰

INTERLUDE ONE: WHOSE DAMN BABY IS THIS

in order of uh. whats the word. Birthing theres alessandras first (and arguably Only) son kay. Japeth kay pendragon, to be specific. hes the oldest and hes everyones golden boy hes strong and clever and 🥰🥰🥰 UTHER'S HEIR TO THE THRONE. all caps bc this is a surprise tool that will help us later. or not if you like know whos the next king of camelot 💀

next up, a few months later, is morgauses firstborn, gawain [middle name] pendragon. of orkney. he is as rabid as his mother used to be and also he and kay shared a crib/bedroom/home for basically their entire lives theyre basically like brothers if brothers were Obsessed with you. gawain is kind of. if youve watched hannibal he is like hannibal. but louder and worse. (how is kay so normal genuinely like)

and then Immediately after him (or like. five minutes) heulwen pendragon of orkney. shes more of the brains of the operation. she actually Thinks about things for more than one second before deciding to disembowel the problem away. she isnt opposed to horrific violence though. poison is usually just cleaner.

and immediately after Her is ceridwen pendragon of orkney. a little copy of her mother 🥰 although slightly more impulsive. always trailing behind heulwen, more of the Doer to her sister's Planner

Hell Triplets Hell Triplets Hell Triplets H

theres a lull for a few years, and then agravain pendragon of orkney is born. and he is born rather frail and sickly and honestly king lot is kind of disgusted by it. Eugh how DARE this son be chronically ill!! Stick Him In The Attic Where I Cant See Him!!!! imo morgause shouldve killed lot right then and there but ig shes more patient than i am. puberty will hit ags like a truck tho he'll be Massive. but for now hes mostly [agravain voice] mamMa, why cant i play outside like the other children? 🥺🥺🥺

3 years later and out pops gaheris of orkney. hes a lot more. Abled than agravain,,,,,, at First. heulwen and ceridwen do something Unspeakable to this poor infant and now one of his arms is longer than the other. king lot is disappointed yet again. gaheris doesnt talk much and he greatly prefers trying to burn ants (and small animals. and his siblings) with magnifying glasses. hes awful to be around.

INTERLUDE TWO: THE ARTHUR PROBLEM

so far i have neglected to mention cecilias love life for one reason. she didnt have one. until a handsome young seer from someplaceinthewoods strolls in and storians point if there was ever a time for weirdly ominous music to start playing it would be here and now. this seers name is Arthur (currently the first). he doesn't know it yet but falling in love with cecilia is going to be the Worst Decision Of Their Entire Lives.

shortly after a whirlwind romance they settle down, get married, try for kids, the usual. all this while though good ol arthur 1 has been having some pretty,,,,, Troubling dreams. ones that say cecelia will bear a cursed child who will one day bring ruin to the woods and its very dramatic tbh. arthurs worried, though. very worried. dreams arent just dreams when youre a seer. and cecelias just announced she's pregnant.

[REDACTED]

cecilia is dead, arthur is executed for treason and murder, alessandra adopts her dead sisters newborn but cant even give him cecilias name because uther needs a scapegoat. anyway say hello to arthur proper everyone. the arthur we all know and love(????)

alessandra, ector, and the family move out to nottingham where theres some Nice Peace And Quiet And Zero Gruesome Murder Whatsoever. unfortunately kay is still uthers heir so the old man would like him in camelot. for his education, yknow. teach the boy useful things! like stabbing and maiming.

arthur grows up um. averagely in nottingham. yea his cousins all think hes cursed and stay as Far away from him as possible and/or bully him (without kay getting on their case about it) but at least he's got grisella around! and merlin's new ward, callis,,,, although she doesnt seem to like him that much.

kay goes to sge and all. gawain and his sisters do too. although how on Earth they got into the school for GOOD,,,, idk. [coughcough] king lot [cough]. they have fun, make memories, Dont get horrifically transformed into animals or plants. kays amazing but how in earth did the orkneys survive. beats me

PART TWO: THE CALIBURN DILEMMA

and then uther just fuckin Disappears. is he dead? has he abdicated? is he being imprisoned by nimue at the bottom of the lake for being too old? who knows! but that leaves the throne Wiiiide open for an 18yo kay to move in. the people love him anyway hes nicer than uther and less murderous than uther and is generally more. Good. which is something camelot has been Severely missing for the past,,,,,,, idk 30? years

so the pendragons host this fun cool coronation tournament and kay can have His Special Day and show off his skills🥰🥰 but Uh Oh! someones forgotten his sword on the trip from nottingham! oh Arthur you silly goose [laugh track] now How will kay compete?? you better go find another sword Right Away!

arthur what are you doing. yes that sword in the square is abandoned but. no why are you pulling it from the stone. arthur did you read the plaque under it Arthur No Arthur Stop ARTHUR DONT PRESENT IT TO KAY OH NO

so this is how arthur starts a civil war by running an errand. turns out the sword was caliburn, gorlois's family sword, aaaaand its been enchanted to only be drawn by the legitimate heir of gorlois. And Guess Who That Isn't. so kay is. torn between family loyalty and. Everything He's Been Raised For and the kingdom is about to tear itself apart between supporters of kays reformation and believers in the old rule.

similarly, the pendragons are torn apart. the orkneys already saw arthur as a threat, barely part of the family at all. especially gawain, who loves kay an. unhealthy amount. and basically offers to carve arthur from gut to gullet. this does not help their straining relationship.

kay chooses arthur.

he gives up his claim on the crown and tries to convince himself he did the right thing by giving the throne back to the family his grandfather usurped. but he did saddle a 12 year old with the reign of a kingdom so until he's old enough, arthur needs a regent, and,,,, well,,,,

PART THREE: THE SCHOOL FOR GOOD AND EVIL

so when arthurs 15 he gets shipped off to sge. joining him are callis, gaheris, and gareth

INTERLUDE THREE: GARETH

like two years after arthur is born morgause has her last kid. aka gareth. and then she causes a little battle to happen in which king lot is killed by lamorak and she becomes the sole ruler of. whatever kingdom shes in. probably oakwood.

PART THREE: THE SCHOOL FOR GOOD AND EVIL (cont'd)

and its pretty shit for arthur ngl. hes pathetic. hes also a middle schooler. hes a repressed bisexual with a family history of alcoholism and mental illness. and now hes going to be turned into a newt [stares depressedly out of rainy window]

so he turns to literally the only person who can Probably help him AND doesnt hate his guts. aka callis 🥰 read my fic. do it now. basically she says yes tho. and then they have study group together until callis's roommate evanore (nora for short) gets suspicious and follows cal and finds out and callis convinces nora to blackmail them.

under pretense of getting callis to do her homework for her nora joins the study group (the real reason is arthur is Deeply pathetic and needs to be studied like a bug). their other roommates aleksander and george join the study group. nora's forest group member robin joins the study group. robin's roommates castor and pollux join the study group. gareth joins the study group. gaheris does not.

upon event of trial by tale nora and arthur have festered a rivalry that results in them having a Deeply petty fistfight in the woods and they are Both sent out relatively early. later nora asks him to teach her how to swordfight well. arthur does not know how to swordfight well. they become good friends.

we knows about the lance gwen arthur love triangle thing so ill skip it. snow ball happens. lance dances with gwen. arthur needs to have a cry about it so he runs off into the blue forest to have hysterics. he may or may not make out with aleksander about it (long story). they never speak to or make eye contact with each other again for 20 solid years. aleksander is somehow still tedros's godfather.

the next two years is full of magic and wonder and many many nosebleeds. nora undergoes character growth. arthur degrades. fourth year quests are assigned!!! 🥰 somehow he manages to get gwen to come back with him to camelot. callis is regretting her decision to be his secret wingwoman.

INTERLUDE FOUR: WHAT HAPPENS IN CAMELOT STAYS IN CAMELOT, or EVELYN PART ONE

in the meantime while kays been regent and preparing camelot for arthur's reign, he hires diplomat constantin sader to smooth over remaining resentment, as well as to reestablish ties to (ever) kingdoms gorlois had once allied with. constantin brings along his daughter (because storian knows she needs to learn Something. like responsibility)

this daughter is evelyn sader. and her father was right. she Does learn something. its definitely not responsibility. she takes one look at camelots gilded castle and decides that one day she is going to be queen.

and so begins the most baffling period in kays whole life, when evelyn decides her easiest path to success is to woo him and get him to betray arthur, who he was willing to give up his entire future for. i never said she learned how to be Smart. maybe she shouldve paid more attention to constantin, who knows.

and i Did say kay was clever but also he's been through a lot. the closest thing he has to an actual friend is gawain and. Uh. Yeah. so when evelyn strolls in and tells him hes Working too hard 🙄 Ugh come on we're getting you Out of this stuffy office!! and manic pixie dream girlfailures her way around his life, weeeeellll hes a little bit. 🥺👉👈

odd couple if ive ever seen one. she weasels his way into her life and attaches herself to his family and by the time constantin realizes what shes trying to do shes beloved by the pendragons. constantin shakes his head in disappointment. This Girl. Whatever Will He Do With Her? How Did He Get Here?

PART FOUR: MORGAN LE FAY IS NOT RELATED TO ARTHUR IN THE SLIGHTEST

someone who is Also regretting her life choices is nora, who has just found out shes going to lead her friends to overthrow and/or attempt murder upon dear sweet arthur. this Definitely violates the bro code even more than arthur stealing gwen from lance (although. how weak does your game have to be to lose to ARTHUR.)

nora waffles about for a few weeks while her quest group (alek, george, callis, and castor+pollux) starts to disband. george leaves to be a pirate. callis is [REDACTED]. castor+pollux were ditched Ages ago. nora and aleksander put their big brain heads together and have a Massive thinking session and the best they can come up with to both Not fail And not piss off arthur is to. be in disguise. also it Would help the lil guy out 🥰 make him seem cooler for beating his Big Bad Nemesis

it starts with getting a man on the inside. nora knows something of swordfighting so its up to her to sidle up to arthur and lie through her teeth about why she wants to be his knight. she physically cannot lie. arthur is exceedinly optimistic and has the deepest faith in everyone. nora is introduced as sir lionel, newest knight of the newly formed round table. leo for short.

soon enough, though, leo/nora finds out that theres trouble in paradise for the newly betrothed couple. probably the biggest open secret in camelot. because she's so philanthropic she decides she might as well buy them time to sort it out before they go off and get hitched together for the rest of their lives. its definitely because them being unstable leads to the woods being unstable and its a whole lot of politics she doesnt want to untangle. its definitely not because she wants to be Nice. thats absurd.

so leo is like hey gwen. lance. what the FUCK. and theyre like haha. we dont know :) and leos like well you Better figure SOMETHING out. gwen youre Literally getting married in like a month just tell him before arthur embarrasses himself. and gwen is like ohh well 🥺👉👈 ill Try my best i swear. spoiler she Doesn't. and the wedding is almost upon them and leo just decides Ok You Know What and puts on a veil and wig and dresses up like a cool enchantress tm and crashes the wedding in the middle of the vows

absolute chaos. george got his pirate buddies to raid shit and its fun. and lowkey the orkneys are in on this so they stop/misdirect the guards somehow. aleksander just wanders around in a mask and stares Directly at gwen like :| :/ :\ and shes like I Am Looking Away. arthurs has no idea whats going on or who these people are but he just assumes well. hes got nemeses now! fuck!

cue fourish years of arthur holding off the wedding until he can hunt down morgan le fay and her henchman mordred. (and gwen trying to work up the spine to tell him she doesnt and never loved him) but to track down an enchantress he needs a full round table of knights so he goes out and collects a bunch :]

INTERLUDE FIVE: ARTHUR FUNNYMAN AND HIS FRIENDS WHO REALLY AREN'T AROUND FOR HIM

first knight is bedivere 🥰. arthur and kay go riding off in a desert somewhere, find a giant who tries to kill them, almost get killed by said giant, and then are saved when the giant gets a spear through the eye and falls over to dramatically reveal this cool mercenary guy with a metal hand and honestly love at first sight for kay. they become besties 4 lyfe 🥰💗

(evelyn doesnt mind. shes trying to hook up with gawain anyway but (un)luckily gawain is 1) a firm believer in the bro code 2) dense as a brick wall. i dont get it either but i guess theres something in the camelot water. Gawain of All People,,,,,, well i mean she likes R*fal so)

second knight is lucan who is bediveres brother. he sure exists! bootlicker tho. theyve been wandering around as swords for hire ever since they left their home kingdom so when arthur offers them a Stable job lucan jumps at the chance. bedivere too but mostly because kay is hot

third knight is actually gareth, surprisingly. while his older brothers were suffering themselves to be arthurs knights (or rather. doing it because kay told them to), gareth is more of the bootstrap mindset. so hes a kitchen boy in camelot castle for a good while unbeknownst to his brothers. then arthur holds a tournament (great track record with those, huh) to find good knights and gareth signs up under a fake name and quickly beats everyone up and gets to the final round where he has to duel gawain. gareth breaks his brothers nose and arm and wins and gawain is So proud of him 🥰 violence is the only language he speaks and gareth sure became fluent

i mean theres like way more knights they collect like percival and lamorak and dinadan. but the last one i have a story for is galehaut. hes kind of the leader of an army, could be a king but idk, self proclaimed at the very least. anyway he and his bestie/blood brother bertilak decide it would be fun to attack arthur. (bertilak might also be there because leo/morgan paid him to start some trouble. or scare gwen into dying of a heart attack Really that girl is. equally stubborn and spineless at the same time.) anyway they have a big battle but then galehaut sees lance hacking into his soldiers, drenched in blood, and is Immediately overcome with 😳homosexuality😳 to the point where he just surrenders and pledges himself to arthur so he can hang out with lance all the time. go gayboy!!!! 🥰🥰🥰

INTERLUDE SIX: GAWAIN GAWAIN HOMOSEXUAL GAWAIN

while galehaut is falling in love with lancelot (real girl magnet lance is.) bertilak is meanwhile just being a nuisance by Not dying and also blending into the grass. hes green. hes a knight. he cant die. get it. Anyway at some point who interrupts his cloudwatching but our own favorite rabid orkney gawain [boo] to stab him a whole bunch of times. bertie is Also not immune to hot murder man covered in blood 😳 and immediately pretends to die whereupon after the battle he is put on a plank and put in the castle basement i Guess.

like an hour later arthur and co and galehaut are having a feast to celebrate their new partnership. which is Immediately interrupted by bertilak crashing through the door and Demanding someone tries to kill him. well not really he just says a blow for a blow and Arthurs like ugggghhhhhh Fine. ill do it.

and then gawain just shoves the runt aside and blacks out and chops berties head off. dw he gets better 🥰 and bertilak is like omggg 😳🥰 [twirls hair] youre soooo strong sir gawain will you come by my place in a year 🥺👉👈 so i can chop your head off 🤗🤪 (smth smth the rituals are intricate smth)

this post is long enough as is so if you know the story of the green knight its about the same except with more bisexuality. yes i said homosexual in the title but yk its for the joaks tm. if you Dont know the story then. uh.

gawain goes to find bertie. stops by some guys house. guy is like "ill go hunting and bring you whatever i catch and you also have to give whatever you catch". gawain and guys wife immediately try to make out. guy comes home and gawain makes out with him. repeat scenario two more times. gawain receives magic scarf or belt from guys wife that will help him not die. gawain goes to green knight castle, turns out berties been guy the whole time. bertie swings the axe, gawain flinches, bertie laughs and does it again, only to just give him a tiny nick. gawain is kind of disappointed ngl 😔 but hey. free boyfriend!

PART FIVE: SOMETHING HAPPENS AND MORGAN IS GONE AND CONVENIENTLY LEONORA HAS DECIDED TO SETTLE DOWN AND DISAPPEARS

yeah. ill be honest there are still gaps in this post that Would be filled if leo was a pendragon. guess thats a recap for another day. anyway arthur almost marries gwen but then during the whatsit. bachelor party he and grisella have a Moment. thanks robin for chads existence. youre his godfather now. arthur marries gwen two days later so i guess we cant All have good things

whats Also been happening is that evelyns been trying harder to get kay to overthrow arthur. yknow in an omg he messed up so bad with the morgan thing! you should kill him 🥰 omg no im Joking kay ugh lighten Uppp 🤪 but no really you should kill him 💀 im JOKINGGG 🤗

girlfailure. arthur catches wind of this and how kay hasnt really discouraged her or anything (tbf kay hears shit like this All the time from his cousins. literally every day. all the time. everyone just fucking hates arthur.) and arthurs just like What The Hell Man. Its Her Or Me and kay is immediately like well 😬 sorry evie its been fun. and then evelyn goes to sulk with the orkneys and makes out with gawain about it. hell of a rebound choice ig

(she also disappears to foxwood. its actually rather suspicious. i wonder what she could be doing over there wink wink nudge nudge)

but after that it all seems like smooth sailing for arthur. his subjects seem to Finally trust him, hes fresh out of the hot new fairytale, hes proven himself to all the woods, and now hes got a baby girl on the way 🥰

wait. baby girl? hold on that doesn't seem ri

INTERLUDE SEVEN: THE GREAT ROYAL ACCIDENTAL MISGENDERING

so arthur and gwen welcome into the world their new firstborn child, Although theyre keeping any announcement all hushed up until the christening (does sge Have jesus christ? the rhianing. no rhian doesnt resurrect. WELL,)

but i mean the royal rot gets it out that the baby is a girl. this was the point in time when the royal rot actually Had any sort of trustworthiness. people counted on them to tell the whole truth and nothing But the truth but em. well.

constantin's since retired so arthur calls in his son august instead and tells him to paint the kids coronation portrait bc arthurs still hung up on His. august is a little shit about it tho, horribly mysterious and refuses to answer questions, and slowly the portrait turns into that of,,, a Boy??? a bit something like this 🥰. and arthur and gwen are Very confused but august is just like Oh Whatever Could This Mean 🤗 One Hundred Gold Pieces Please (or however much his commission rate is)

[arthur voice] I Guess We Have A Son Now???? and theres a Massive scramble to correct. Everything. birth certificates. the announcements. court gossip. And They Havent Picked Any Boy Names.

so now literally everyone in the family is just lazer eyed (especially gawain. for some reason. he already has his Own kids he couldve named them gawain if he wanted to but Noooo. henec and Gingalain for Them.) and honestly theyre brawling for Their choices to be the new lads name. but for once neither gwen Nor arthur are pushovers and they stand their ground. but to appease the family they Do agree to give him middle names.

the only one keeping a level head is grisella,,,,, who has been suspiciously absent for. oh. about six months. she Says its because her sister was giving birth but um. doesnt ella look a bit exhausted? im sure thats Nothing though 🥰 shes pretty much the Only one who pays gwen any mind and helps her out with dealing with the baby and all of that. Women Support Women 😤😤😤 and she doesnt get kicked out bc thats bullshit ([gwen voice] you really know what you're doing [grisella voice] 👁️_👁️ Uh.)

its actually Grisella who comes up with a Nice name for the lil guy. tedros :] you could call him teddy for short! shortly after arthur and kay Finally manage to wrangle their cousins and decide on middle names. they are um. not as good choices as tedros.

but even so, the christerhianing goes on without a hitch and the whole of camelot gets to meet [deep breath] Tedros Cecil Japeth-Kay Uther Kyduan Lancelot Gareth Pendragon. (teddy really sounds better dont it.)

INTERLUDE EIGHT: WHAT HAPPENS IN FOXWOOD STAYS IN FOXWOOD, or EVELYN PART TWO

so since shes been kicked out and banished from camelot, evelyn decides to take matters into her own(ish) hands and. Sulk in foxwood. really she is a girlfailure. but then she finds out she's pregnant and hatches a devious plan to. spend however many years raising this kid to Eventually overthrow arthur(s kid). shes patient i guess! queen of the long haul. i mean she spent at Least 5 years pestering kay to Maaaybe consider stabbing arthur 🥰 just a Little Bit cmooonn

maybe the mistral sisters are involved. maybe they dont exist. who the fuck knows. what Does happen is evelyn gives birth to a beautiful baby [REDACTED] and a pile of eels. she names the pile of eels after her ex and hates it for the rest of her life. go worstie. the other more normal baby grows up more beloved except for when it sets things on fire sometimes. i dont think evelyn should be a mother.

raising children to one day overthrow their uncle/cousin is tough work. even tougher when one of them is a pile of eels. and it cries and wants to be loved. god how Awful right 🙄 listen if youre going to have a pile of eels you might as well be Prepared to love it. sorry japeth 😔 but eventually evelyn gets so fed up by this (and the whole. other kid setting things on fire) that she decides to dump the twins at arbed house and peaces out to mooch off her brother august

arbed house is also Largely a scam run by a never aka dean brunhilde who just gets rich parents to pay Ludicrous amounts for her to "Make Their Evil Children Good" when all she does is treat them with human decency and teach them how to swear. shes incredible. rhian and japeth are in Great hands

INTERLUDE NINE: KAY PENDRAGON GETS BACK WITH HIS EX DESPITE EVERYONE TELLING HIM IT'S REALLY A TERRIBLE IDEA

exactly what it says on the tin. evelyn gets kicked out from sge by r*fal and shes Blue now. so ofc she goes crawling back to the pendragons because Man. Work??? shes not Meant for this life! shes meant to lounge about all day and be someones hot trophy wife who gets doted on head and foot. as she should ig! somehow she weasels her way back into meeting kay again who is much more suggestible this time. because

its about the time when arthur has grown both More cocky and More insecure. hes close to suspecting gwen of something but currently hes just going on quests to Destroy Evil and erasing any memory of uthers reign and all that. and kay finds it a bit unnerving. arthurs growing rash and swaying to anti-never sentiment, and weeelll. didnt evelyn warn him that arthur wouldnt be a good king?

so when they meet up again its Kay who brings it up and evelyn Immediately pounces on that doubt and starts prying deeper. she also neglects to mention the kids she abandoned. but yk she just like nooo kay Please keep talking about how your brother isnt the best and you were wrong to side with him

they see each other in secret but it really ramps up as arthur gets more. suspicious. he starts doubting gwen, evelyn starts solidifying her relationship with kay. now theyre married and have Another kid, a little girl named katherine. evelyn thinks Finally shes got a hold on kay, all she has to wait is for arthur to make just One mistake. just One more crack in the pillar to make the house fall down,,,,, and well,, doesn't arthur want Proof of gwen's betrayal?

PART SIX: THE HEIRS OF UTHER PENDRAGON

it doesnt take much to tip arthur off the edge. all evelyn needed was an anonymous letter, a little recording marble of gwen sneaking away, and arthur's on the warpath. he grows demanding and paranoid and well. we know how it ends. he disguises himself and finds out it was Lancelot gwen chose over him. and when he gets back gwens Gone and he puts a death warrant on Both their heads.

evelyns plan backfires though. not only does kay Not decide arthurs gone too far, if anything he sticks even Closer by his brothers side. Someone has to take care of him, kay reasons. someone has to look out for him. someone has to Stay.

bedivere doesnt see it that way. he already had waning loyalty towards arthur, but this is the last straw. he asks kay to come with him, but when hes refused bedivere walks out the door and never returns to camelot. arthur puts a warrant on his head.

arthur starts drinking, starts seeing enemies around every corner, in everyones face. he starts to listen to bad advice, people who tell him only what he wants to hear, that it's all because of hidden evil, you see. It Needs To Be Eliminated.

kay watches as his brother starts spiraling and he's Helpless. grisella watches as her friend banishes anyone who argues back and she doesn't know what to do. tedros watches as his father slowly kills himself day after day and he's only a child.

arthur hears word that nevers have set up a base near camelot, that theyre planning an attack. he rallies whatever knights he has that haven't left him yet and rides out under cover of night, ready to defeat his enemies. and he does. he and his knights raze buildings to the ground, torch the land, slaughter the men, and the women,, and,,,,, the children.

this isn't a never army base. this is a Village.

but it's just collateral damage, arthur tells himself. they should've made it more clear who they Weren't. his heart is cold, eyes steeled. a pendragon at last.

kay leaves the moment he hears the news. arthur barely notices his absence. kay goes home to his family, holds his daughter, and while his wife pretends to comfort him she smiles. evelyn is patient, and evelyn has won. all that's left now is for kay to be the Hero, to save camelot, be the king he was Meant to be. but she puts too much faith in him. kay picks up his sword, kisses his girls goodbye, and rides off into the woods.

PART SEVEN: UNREST AND REBELLION

nothing happens in the woods with no consequence. since news of arthur's attack spread, the divide between evers and nevers has only grown wider. evil rallies for morgan le fay to return, the old nemesis of arthur to foil him once more. but morgan never existed, and only one man lives who knows it.

aleksander scourie, now royal advisor to netherwood's (alleged) witch-queen, has long since put his fighting days behind him. but he has never been one to stand by when he is called. he sends aid to a rebellion brewing from the survivors of the village massacre. he gathers up the turncoat knights, anyone still willing to face arthur in battle.

but kay has always been and always will be arthur's only brother. and kay cannot, no matter what, raise his sword against him. he cannot abide arthur's actions. but neither is he brave enough to fight back. use me as a scapegoat if you must, says kay. blame me for whatever happens to him. but i cannot kill my brother.

there is an old title, some say, the mantle of a guardian who keeps the balance in the woods. aleksander finds it darkly fitting when they bestow it upon him. they make their final stand at four point. don't nevers always die at the end of fairytales? mordred aleksander puts on his mask anyway.

arthur doesn't believe he'll die that day. after all, he's on the side of good, and good always triumphs over evil. even so, he keeps his hand on excalibur's hilt as he rides to four point, heart cold. eyes steeled.

it's a bloodbath.

people say no one knows who killed arthur. this is a lie. the real truth is that they don't want to admit that for the first time, an ever Lost.

but the question still lingers. did evil really Win?

PART EIGHT: WHAT NEXT?

who knows, really?

maybe you should find that out yourself :)

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