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[selfcarecap]

The group photos in dating apps make me so mad I can’t even explain it. Why do men think that’s a good idea ???? 😭😭 why are men so….men (I fear I still love them 🤭)

I really don’t know, the worst is when they exclusively have group pics because how do I know he’s not the ugliest one? I wonder if they get anyy matches lol. I have one group pic on my profile too but I’ve covered my friends faces like it’s my profile 😭 (I fear still love them too🤭😭)

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Y'all what the freak :D

UH OHH

I don't like those looks guys o.o

HE BETTER BE ALIVE

Okay phew I can take a ventilator 😭😭

Maddiee 😭😭❤️

UUAGH HE BETTER BE

AWWWW y'alllll 😭😭😭💔

UAAAAGHHHHH I DON'T DESERVE THISSSS

DON'T DO THIS TO HER 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔🥺❤️❤️

OR ME 😭😭😭😭🥺💔💔❤️

OR ANY OF THE REST OF THEM!!! 😭😭😭💔🥺❤️

NOOOOOOO

He's gonna be fine o.o

I DO. NOT. LIKE. THOSE EXPRESSIONS

UAAGHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😳😳😬😬😬😬💔💔

NOT OKAY Y'ALL. O.O 😭😭

AAAAHHHHHHH

Guys it's gonna be fine 😌😌😌

I'm not gonna make it guys xdd xD

Well, that's the last of my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I absolutely LOOOVED this episode!! It was SO GOOD!! Even though I hated most of the stuff that happened xdd. It's just so good story wise and so emotional and dramatic 😭😭❤️ xd.

Also I forgot to say this earlier but as a commercial started (I believe right after the last Wilson family scene - not last as in last, last in the episode 😭😭) I was like: "I shouldn't beat up mentally ill people. It's wrong. Eddie 😌😑😐" XDD don't remember exactly but it was something along those lines and I was real for it xdd

Also I might go back and add some more specific reactions at some points when I rewatch bits, I just forgot specific words or orders of things because I was so behind lol. And because everything was so emotional constantly xdd it was always the drama 😭😭 xD. Loved it though lol.

I did often talk loudly about killing people though xD

Anyway!! I'm gonna head off now, see you later :DD. Add more before this in the main section as well by the way lol. Bye for now!!

Okay, I'm back (a week later) lol! Now it's time for the individual parts :).

Buck and Tommy! Once again thriving, in their lane, living their best lives 😌😌😌🥰. They're so cute y'all <3. Anyway Buck was an ICON with that look to Gerrard lol, and he slayed with he cooking :D! Also UAGH HIM AND BOBBY'S CONVERSATION 😭😭😭❤️ THE SEVEN YEARS THE TELLING EACH OTHER HOW PROUD AND GRATEFUL THEY ARE FOR EACH OTHER THE TALK ABOUT TOMMY AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! I love them so much guys 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️🥺🥰. Also Buck dealing with the whole Kim thing xD. Bro was baffled, as he should be lol. But genuinely his conversation with Eddie was really good, and I'm glad he didn't back off and just let Eddie get away with it <3. And the "I'm worried about you" OUAGH I'm still not over it guys 😭😭❤️. More on that later. Anyway, I love them (Buck and Eddie, and Buck and Tommy) so much <33.

Ravi! He was such a mood with that food thing lol. An icon, we stan (and agree) <333. I love him ❤️🥰 <33.

Hen and Karen! WHEN I TELL YOU I'M READY TO B E A T THIS LADY-

Listen okay xD. I get why she's doing what she's doing, but she's insane. Like girl. Also I knew she would pull out the ambulance in that conversation and so then when she didn't I was confused but NAH she was just saving it for extra emotional damage 😭. Girl was waiting for a double points square xdd. Anyway, the scene where they were taking Mara away was genuinely so heartbreaking D:. And like y'all ik you have to take her but you can give them 30 seconds, my gosh!! Anyway they are a family 😭😭😭😭🥺💔❤️❤️, and they better get her back <33. I love them so much <33 :').

Maddie and Chimney! Once again, living their best life, thriving, doing great 😌😌🥰. Once again as in I said that earlier, they rarely are lol. Anyway, they're icons and STOPPP THE ROSEEE :'DDD. They're so cute y'all I can't even <33. AND AAAUAGH THEY'RE MARRIEDDD!!! Y'all I still can't believe it :'D. Also Chimney talking to and about Gerrard absolutely slayed 💀 xD. He was an icon for that o.o <333. They were great this episode (though I realized afterwards - no calls :O), I love them so much <33.

Eddie!

😐

Sir xd. Let's talk lol.

Okay, listen. I'm glad he told Kim, and I'm glad he finally got some form of closure on Shannon. And that scene was absolutely heartbreaking, by the way, Ryan ate this episode up. But MY GOSH 😭😭😭😤😤. THE WAY I WANTED TO KILL THIS MAN (EDDIE)!!! LIKE, SIR!! I know he's going through it but my gosh 😭. Bro was killing me xD. Genuinely though, I really loved his and Buck's conversation, I thought it was really great. And I'm glad he finally admitted it (even if he was forced to) - if there's anyone it would be to, it would be Buck :'D. My lovelies <33. Eddie saying he was worried about himself broke me 😭😭😭🥺💔💔❤️. And then yes, I'm SO glad he told Kim right after that (and I felt really awful for her :((), but that ending scene of them o.o. A, girly, why? I- you are so gone on him. It's a nice thing to do (try and give him closure), but just- what. And I'm glad Eddie tried to not because that's WEIRD y'all, but then that whole monologue broke me again 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺💔💔💔💔❤️. Like SIR!!! The "I'm broken" bit my GOSH 😭😭😭💔💔🥺❤️. The acting was seriously amazing. And then OOUGH CHRIS AND MARISOL COMING IN AT THE END O.O Y'all I assumed Chris was like in bed or something xD. Why would Eddie do this ESPECIALLY knowing they were going to be coming home soon xdd. Anyway, it looked like it was just a hug but in post episode stills I think there was a kiss? So I don't even know what's going on there xd. But oh my gosh poor Chris 😭. Boy must've been so confused :((. Rough on him, definitely <33. Anyway, I just hope everything works out xdd.

Bobby and Athena! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Listen y'all 😭😭😭. They are it up this episode but they killed me doing it xd. Bobby how DARE YOU RESIGN, AND THEN HAVE AN EMOTIONAL MONTAGE OF GROWTH ON ME!!! RUDE!!! STOP IT!!!! And I am SO glad Athena didn't just stand by and let it happen (a theme this episode, it seems - good on her and Buck) when she knew it was out of character. And her going to find Amir to try and help Bobby :')). I really wish he would/could've after coming that far though 😭. Especially because.him being there and leaving surely pushed Bobby farther, though that conversation did need to happen. And that conversation 😭😭🥺. Dude it killed me. I'm so glad they brought up the rooftop in season 2, didn't just brush over it and revealed how Athena felt about it. It's understandable, and it's one of those things people want you to sweep under the rug :'((. I'm glad she kept an eye out for it again, because it was needed here 😭. I don't know that it would go that far, hit Bobby's in a seriously dark place. And that DREAM, UAOAUAGHH!!! The way Bobby seemed kind of childlike, back to his old self when he would've been having that conversation 😭😭, and the fact that he still refused a drink!! I'm not okay guys 😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺. I am glad his dad dream version did kind of support him though lol xD, like it wasn't an evil vision it was one telling him to wake up, trying to help him. AND MY GOSH THAT WAKING UP O.O. AND, MY GOSH DID IT HLEP XDD. But y'all 😳. I'm so glad they both got out, and I am SO happy that Athena is okay 😭😭❤️, and I was stressing, BUT MY GOSH BOBBY!!! I was like "noo he's gonna disregard himself and be injured" BUT NOPE STRAIGHT UP HEART ATTACK O.O 😭😭😭😳🥺🥺💔. Bro I'm not okay <333. HE JUST BETTER BE ALRIGHT GUYS I CAN'T TAKE THIS 😳😳😭😭😭💔💔🥺❤️. Also, I know they're trying to paint it is Amir, but I just don't think it was him. I do think it was probably intentionally set (though they could do something really interesting with everyone thinking it was, trying to investigate, and then in the end having to accept that it just happens), but I don't think it was him. He wants to leave them behind, more than anything, and that doesn't fit with burning down their house as revenge. I hope he can help figure it out though <33. Honestly if it were the cartel I wouldn't be too surprised xD. Anyway, Bobby and Athena absolutely ate <333. And they better be okay xdd 😭🥺❤️. I love them so much <333.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode! It had some phenomenal emotional moments, and even a few great funny ones :D. It was pretty wild, and verrry intense o.o (even if some of it was Eddie pining for his ex wife and not like, someone being murdered - not pining for the victim btw xd). But I had a really good time :D. Even if I wanted to kill people a lot of the time xD. I'm terrified for the next episode lol xd . Everything better end up okay. More okay than this episode xD. It was genuinely a good episode though, with some good moments for everyone.

So yeah! I loved the episode, I thought it was great. There were a ton of great emotional moments. I'm excited and scared for the next one. This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 7, Episode 9: Ashes, Ashes

It was so amazing! I'm really excited for the next one, but I'm so terrified at the same time. They better end up okay. I'll be back next week with my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 7, Episode 10: All Fall Down

See you then!

[piastri-fvx]

Love hate. Lando Norris.

Pairing: Lando Norris x f1driver!ferraridriver!reader, smau, one-sided enemies to lovers (inspired by Na Na Na by One Direction)

Summary: When she doesn't like him and he's in love with her.

Word Count:

Face claim: Sabrina Carpenter and girls from pinterestttt!!

Disclaimer/s: None!! Just fluff and bickering/teasing

A/N: i basically had no time to write anything because i had a lotttt to do!! anyways, i hope u enjoy!! lmk if u have requests or want to be on my permanent tag list <333 also i wrote this before lando changed his instagram @ so i had to go back and change emmmm!!

♡ Masterlist ♡

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@yourusername

liked by lando, alexandrasaintmleux, ferrari, charles_leclerc, maxfewtrell and 2.484.916 others

yourusername starting the 2025 season like thisssss

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user1 every model should thank y/n for choosing this career path, they wouldn't stand a chance against her 🙏

user2 THE QUEEN IS BACK YALL

-> user3 manifesting another y/n season

charles_leclerc favorite teammate 😁 liked by author

-> yourusername tyyyy!! you're my favorite too

-> user4 oh to be friends with y/n or charles

oscarpiastri good luck on the first race! liked by author

ferrari our girl ❤️🫶 liked by author

-> yourusername forza ferrari sempre!!

-> user5 y/n was meant to be a ferrari driver, no one can convince me otherwise

-> user6 real, if you don't agree, argue with the wall

alexandrasaintmleux 🥰🥰🥰 liked by author

-> yourusername 🫶🫶🫶

-> user7 y/n basically being charles's sister atp 🛐

-> user8 and alex's sister lmao

-> user9 y/n leclerc from now on 🙏

user10 SHE IS GLOWINGGGG

user11 pookie is backkkk!!

-> user12 y/n we need all of the tea

-> user13 real, how was break, y/n?

lando 😍

-> yourusername no.

-> user14 humbled him real fast 😭

-> user15 is he just silent or was he silenced 🛐

-> user16 lando got gagged lol

@lando

liked by yourusername, oscarpiastri, mclaren, maxfewtrell, joaofelix79 and 3.483.294 others

lando new year, new @ 😁

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oscarpiastri 👍 liked by author

-> user1 typical Oscar behaviour

-> user2 fr the response is soooo oscar

user3 should've been landgoat yk 😝

user4 just a chill guy

-> user5 just a chill guy named lando

-> user6 who drives cars in weird shaped circles for a living

-> user7 and has no rizz (iykyk)

mclarenauto short and sweet. We love it 🧡 liked by author

-> user8 okay sabrina carpenter.

user9 still our goat 🤪🎀

user10 i'm sorry, the old lando can't come to the phone right now ✨

-> taylorswift 😙

user11 y/n being in his likes tho...

-> user12 real, because what about lando's lack of rizz?

@yourusername

liked by lando, oscarpiastri, lilymhe, flavy.barla, jade_distinguinn and 5.385.495 others

yourusername sooooo happy with p1!! congrats to osc on p2, well deserved

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lando what about my p3???

-> yourusername go oscar!!!

-> oscarpiastri go mclaren

-> lando go lando!! 😁

-> yourusername ...

oscarpiastri thanks mate liked by author

-> yourusername you're welcomeeee, osc

-> user1 😁😁😁

user2 cutieeeeee 🫶🫶🫶

user3 i think i'm lesbian now 😍

-> user4 *bi, lando norris exists

-> user5 omg right

user6 oh how i love y/n photo dumps

-> user7 her aesthetic is literally what i wanh mine to be like

lilymhe angel 🫶💗 liked by author

-> yourusername getting ready to get down on one knee right now ☺️

-> user8 lando, alex????

-> user9 y/n is stealing albono's girl 😭

user10 beautifullll 🤍

user11 queen of pinteresty photos liked by author

user12 girly we miss you on tiktok

-> user13 real, i miss y/n's influencer era

-> user14 yeah!! come back, y/n

user15 i wanna eat these pics liked by author

lando i agree with @user15

-> yourusername respectfully, get out of my comments

-> lando awwwwww 😫

-> user16 lando got rejected

-> user17 AGAIN

@lando

liked by olliebearman, oscarpiastri, charles_leclerc, maxfewtrell, flavy.barla and 3.399.492 others

lando she lost a bet

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yourusername i don't support this

-> lando why didn't you at least like the post, baby 😩

-> user1 BABY??????

-> user2 SCREENSHOT SCREENSHOT

-> user3 I'M FRAMING THIS ON MY WALL WTF

user4 CAN WE TALK ABOUT LANDO CALLING HER BABY?????

-> user5 REAL BECAUSE IS THAT A HARD LAUNCH

user6 can we talk about how STUNNING she looks?

-> user7 real!! like damnnnn

user8 why is she so prettyyyyy 😭

oscarpiastri lol

-> yourusername 🙄

-> user9 oscar is having so much fun with this lmao

user10 lando entering his aesthetic arc???

user11 y/n pookie is such a good influence on lando

-> user12 especially on his insta feed

-> user13 "thank you y/n" we all chant in unison 🛐🛐🛐

user14 y/n looking like a goddess as always 😫

-> lando yeah she does that 😣

-> user15 LANDO WDYM

user16 guys i think lando's trying to tell us something

user17 lando trying to hard launch and y/n refusing 😫

-> user18 it's giving mixed signals

@yourusername

liked by lando, oscarpiastri, mclaren, scuderiaferrari, alexandrasaintmleux and 10.382.283 others

yourusername hard launch or whatever

tagged: @lando

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user1 favorite enemies to lovers 🛐🛐🛐

oscarpiastri finally liked by author

-> user2 OSCAR 😭

user3 so invested in this

-> user4 same

-> user5 finally something interesting lmao

user6 i smell something

-> user7 a love story 🥰

user8 lethal face cards belong together

-> user9 real

-> user10 the proof is literally RIGHT HERE

user11 this post just validated everything we've been praying for. thank you for your service liked by author

-> yourusername you're welcome, darling 💗

-> user12 i would faint if she called me darling

-> user13 @user11 got so lucky wtf

user14 i guess being a ferrari fan, this is the only win we can get

-> user15 #depressedemo

-> user16 there is not one ferrari fan that is mentally stable

-> user17 can't even protest tbh

-> charles_leclerc me neither

user18 lando, please give me y/n

-> lando never.

-> user19 mama a lando behind you

user20 we may call ourselves lando fans, but we are really just y/n fans liked by author

@lando

liked by yourusername, mclaren, oscarpiastri, alexandrasaintmleux, f1 and 6.484.185 others

lando MY WOMAN 😍😍😍

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user1 do you guys perhaps need a dog?

-> user2 i can bark

-> user3 woof woof woof

user4 meow meow meow

user5 sometimes babygirl is lando norris

-> user6 sometimes babygirl is a 24 year old man

-> user7 who drives cars for a living

-> user8 and has a stunning gf

user9 i'm only here for the y/n pictures

-> user10 same it's what we deserve

user11 lando i only follow you for the y/n pictures, more content please

-> lando as you wish

-> user12 YAYYYYYYY

user13 my day just got brighter after seeing this GORGEOUS WOMAN

user14 lando can you fight?

-> user15 i guess lando has to fight now

-> user16 he can't take all of us at once

user17 they look so cute 💗

-> user18 y/n is stunning and so is lando 😭

-> user19 no but they are

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A/N: i'm soooo tired but wanted to get this out of my drafts lollll!! feel free to request and please comment (if u want), i would love to get some feedback, lmao! love u all and hope u enjoyed this

tags!

@freyathehuntress

[odyssean-flower]

Bouncing off of anon’s prior ask… I have a few questions of my own bc I’m curious about people’s take on his character. Also because I’m down tremendously for him but shhh—

What do you think dragon man is like when he’s in love? How does he treat them before and after relationship? Like is it a sudden realization, is he romantic? Hmmm many thoughts—

Ideal traits for a partner/mate?

For Yan Neuv, (because your yandere lil fic with him was lovely!!), do you have any headcanons on that aside from what was written?

Sorry if anything has been asked before as I’m rather new to your blog :)

But yeah anyways I hope that’s not too rambl-y! Ty for sharing your lovely stories and thoughts :333 I’m so excited for him in 4.1 and if you roll for him, I wish you luck in getting him! ❤️

Hi~~ thank you so much for reading my fics! Don't worry about being too rambly or repeating stuff, this is actually very helpful for me as it helps me flesh out my ideas as well 🤗 i apologize if any of this stuff isn't very creative lol

May we all get neuvillette and his weapon (and constellations) 🙏

When Neuvillette is in love (before relationship)

So I think Neuvillette would just be A Mess

He's not very good at figuring out emotions, particularly feelings of romance and love, because he always assumed that he would never fall in love

so when he does fall in love, it takes him a while to understand what he's actually feeling (probably after much studying and discussion with the melusines)

imo i feel like he'd be a bit conflicted bc as the chief justice, he feels like he shouldn't have such personal feelings for anyone, but on the other hand, even dragons feel lonely and want love, right?

he would observe you (discreetly and probably unconsciously), memorizing everything about you. He might unknowingly let the things he learned slip into conversation, causing much awkwardness

he finds himself thinking of you at random occasions and associating certain things with you

he noticeably softens when he's interacting with you. it's obvious to everyone except you two

would give you the most sincere and heartfelt compliments, but it doesn't even count as flirting for him, it's just him being himself

even though the chief justice is known to be reclusive, for some reason he would suddenly start frequenting the place where you work. He doesn't even stay there that long, but just makes some awkward and extremely polite conversation (doesn't show it on his face but he's super nervous and self-conscious)

speaking of self-consciousness neuvillette is pretty self-aware about the difference between himself and humans in regards to feelings. He's aware that he's not always the most knowledgeable about human emotions and behavior, which can cause misunderstandings between him and others, but he tries his best to make up for it

When Neuvillette is in love (after relationship)

congratulations for finally reaching this stage

i think neuvillette would be a latent romantic. As in, he has all the potential, but he's never been in a situation where that potential can be explored

but once he's in a relationship...prepare to be swept off your feet

he loves taking you to all the hidden, secret places only he knows about, like an out-of-the-way coffee shop, an inconspicuous nook with a great view of the mountains, maybe even an underwater ruin he really enjoys

will probably take you out on a boating ride

he also enjoys just spending time with you back at his home (hyv please show us where he leaves. i just wanna know)

basically, he'd prefer to spend time with you privately bc he's well aware of the tabloids and paparazzi and doesn't want your life to be ruined by them

does a lot of preparation for your dates. like, an absurd amount, because he would hate it if anything inconveniences you or makes you feel uncomfortable

will continue to say the most romantic and poetic things with the straightest face you've ever seen

not much pda even when it's just you two. a bit of hand-holding (l e w d), brushing his hand against your cheek, maybe even...forehead kisses???

if you are the one who initiates affection with him, his brain would short-circuit, simply because he's not used to having someone do that for him

likes to hear you talk about your day or just anything in general. would also talk about his own day. it makes for some fun lack of congruence

when he's sad, he'll come to you (vice-versa). you two don't talk much, but simply stay by each other's side until you feel better

when you're happy, he feels happy. and when you're sad, he feels sad as well

would be very protective, but would also respect your personal space

melusines will be your biggest supporters. they act as your go-betweens basically

bonus: i feel like furina will be amused by neuvillette's newfound relationship and will probably try to follow you on your dates. she'll attempt to disguise herself but nothing can hide that giant ahoge. and neuvillette can see right through her anyways

Ideal Partner

i think he'd be drawn to someone with a strong sense of justice, someone who has strong beliefs and sticks by them, even if they clash with his own

he would be the type who would welcome being challenged and debated; he would find it refreshing honestly

someone with a similar temperament to him would work, but he'd also find himself unexpectedly attracted to a more fiery, outspoken person

big bonus points if they're nice to the melusines as well

Yandere Mermaid!Neuvillette

i don't know if you're talking about this one but i'll assume you are

hmm i don't know i feel like i put everything i wanted into that fic

so during your weekly meetings, i think neuvi would have moments where he'd imagine himself coming onto land and being with you there, i think he'd also be grudgingly curious about the human world especially after hearing your stories about it, but his sense of responsibility towards his people and his distaste for humans are strong, so his desire to turn you into a mermaid wins out

the underwater garden: he really did believe you'd feel better and that you'd fall in love with him (or at least act warmer towards him) when you saw it

after that fight (?) at the end: i think y/n kinda gave in because they realized that if they didn't accept their new life and the different morals of the mermaids, they would eventually go mad, since they were never escaping. so afterwards, y/n would throw themselves into getting familiar with mermaid customs (aided by neuvi) and just try their best to forget their old life. would probably be very clingy towards him bc ironically, neuvi is a part of their old life

neuvi, for his part, would be happy to see his mate finally accept him, but deep down he knows that it isn't out of real love and that his feelings will probably never be requited in the way he wants them to be. but he decides not to think about that bc having you broken but next to him is better than having you happy but separated from him

so yeah it's a very warped, co-dependent relationship

[hannamoon143]

California Dreamin'- The beach boys

Seo Changbin with California Dreamin from the Beach boys for the fall series

Genre: Angst, hurt/no comfort

Warnings: none really, reader is just a shitty person

Wordcount: 808w

a/n: this req, by @lina-linny as it seems we are getting lot more angst than fluff in the fall series lol. I'm working on it alrrr. I have some fluff in mind too, (hehe spoiler its with lix) So now as always, take ur blanket, a hot cocoa (or a coffee, man i'm craving coffee rn (no i didn't drink two cups just an hour ago)) And have a cozy falll <333

Chills went through Changbins body as he walked on the little side path, the wind seeping into his bones. When he was looking around he saw all the trees, leaves being brown, seemingly lifeless. Just like he felt. And the weather wasn’t the best for a walk either. The sky was grey. Heavy, dark clouds hovering above changbins head. With some luck he could make it home before it would start to rain. He wrapped his jacket around himself a bit tighter, watching his breath come out in little white clouds.

People were passing by, leaves were falling down, and everyone seemed to be distracted from the coldness. But changbin could never ignore it. The heavy, cold air, and his frozen hands were only a sharp reminder to you, and California. Yes, while he was here, freezing in the streets of seoul, you were in the oh so beautiful california.  When he only was thinking of the sunshine and the warm breeze there it was shaking him already. But not only the warmth of sunshine was missing for him. It was your warm hand in his. Your sunny, comforting presence next to him, that made every single day seem less cold. But what could he do? He couldn’t just fly over to california, all his responsibilites were laying on him heavily, and with the comeback album and the upcoming tour he could never leave the boys alone. And even if he’d come, would it change something between you?

But he also couldn’t convince you to come back. Not right now. You hated the cold. And probably him too right now. He didn’t even want to think of your last words before you flew off to your beloved hometown L.A.. It didn’t matter now anyway. What mattered was that you left him, here alone on seouls street in the sharp cold. Without you there to warm him, and giggle about how he would blow warm air into his hands he slowly began to despise the cold just as much as you did.

But all he could do about it was to wait. To wait and hope you would come back. Maybe in spring, when it was getting warmer again. Maybe in summer, or maybe just anytime soon. He never entirely understood why you left. When you announced you would, he was apologizing a thousand times, not even knowing what for. He was making even more time for you, if that was somehow possible, since all his free time was already yours. Could he have done more? He didn’t know. And maybe he never would. All you said was that you „needed space“, right after you complained to him about how he was not giving you enough attention. After that, he knew that all that were just excuses for you to leave, altough never entirely admitting it to himself. He didn’t know if space was for you to stay away for a few days or weeks, or just your way of breaking up with him.

The cold was getting suffocating, and it felt as if it only added to his heavy, anxious thoughts. There was a little church by the sidewalk. He didn’t think much into it and just went in, hoping the cold would be less intese in there.

He got down to his knees pretending to pray. It just didn’t feel right to use the church only to clear his thoughts or make the cold go away. Especially when a preacher was standing in the front oft he church, a few people listening.

But now, without the walking it only got colder. Until now, Changbin still tried to talk your actions and words good, to somehow romanticize everything, but now, as the  cold seeped not only into his bones, also into his mind, he started to see clear. Your words were an excuse to leave. And nothing more. An excuse to maybe come back, or maybe not. It was all in your own hands, and options were open for you, since you could do your job from everywhere too, and your family would surely like if you’d stay in california. But deep inside he probably knew you weren’t gonna come back. And somewhere in him, he promised himself to let you go, to not wait for you forever, with no idea if you’d come back or not.

But in this moment, he could feel the cold stone under his knees, hear the wind howl around the walls of the little church, and smell the cold autumn. In this moment, all he could do was dream of california, of you. If he was there with you right now, he would be way warmer for sure. But this wasn’t going to happen. And sooner or later he had to accept that. He had to stop with the california dreamin someday…

[samsblades]

reposting about my con experience with jared a few months later on here since laila bestie wanted to hear about it lol @rubyvhs <33 and since it was on my previous blog heh. probably more details from before because i was hugely freaking out back then lol

so i had a photo op with him and i did it with my sister!! that was first and then there was a panel with him, mark pellegrino, and alaina huffman!

it was very hot and humid in both places bc his photo op was the biggest so people were waiting outside and the door was open and all that. pretty poor circulation in his area unfortunately :,) and the q&a was in a tent outside thank fuck i brought my little handheld fan LOL anyways

it was hot... so he was all sweaty and flushed LOLLLL but someone on his staff was like wiping some of the sweat on his face in between the last photo ours so he was like "sorry, it's so hot!" and my sister and i were like "nonono take ur time don't worry." but obviously the photo ops are quite rushed so he brushed off the person helping out (politely ofc) very quickly so he could take the picture with us!!

also while i was waiting in line... i was setting my bag on the little table they had for them. and it gave a view of him and i was putting my bag down right as he ended his photo with someone. and when you're done he'll like look after you for a second and obviously i was staring at him. and you walk off i the direction of the table with bags obviously so you can grab it and so i made eye contact with him and he smiled at me before he had to take his next photo and i FREAKED LMAO i think he saw my face go 😳😳😳 shdkfhakjdfl. yeah

anyways back to the photo itself... i blacked out a little bc i don't remember the picture itself HAHA but as we walked up he was like "hi how are you guys :)))" and we were like "hi hi!! we're good thank you how are you??" and he was like "i'm good, thanks :)))" and idk if he said anything else because we took the picture and i blacked out teehee. and the whole time he was making such intense and purposeful eye contact i was like woah woah woah he's really tryna make this personal WOW !!!

but here comes the kicker !!!! basically he says like thank you all sweet and bye and all that but. but oh my god oh my fuck. i'd assume he does this for most folks but before/as we started to walk away he 100% gave each of us a quick but very sweet back rub and it fixed me. it fixed me oh my god. and i freaked out so bad LOLLLL i was like thanks!!! have a good day!!! 😳😳😳😳😳 @_@ kadkjflaskd and my sister and i walked away like... clinging to each other giggling like idiots etc. my knees buckled on several occasions. i sank to my knees in the line to get a second copy of the picture :,) and i need that again SO BADLY OH MY GODDDD it was so comforting and i think about it an unhealthy amount <3333

anyways happy to post the pic if anyone is curious! i look a tiny bit goof because of how hot and nervous if was. he is visibly flushed and sweaty as well though heart eyes heart eyes. anyways you can see his chest hair too <333 gorgeous man

this is getting so long but the panel was lovely!! they were all so cute and funny and he included gen in almost every single answer in at least some way. also i was in line to ask a question.... and the last one they took was the one right before me which was very typical for my luck LOL but honestly it's the last thing that comes to mind when i think about the experience. so overall it was definitely so so amazing <333

[tabsters]

I’m waiting for my mom to come out of the grocery store so with this time I shall give you an anime watching update :3

I finished jjk s1 last night!!! BRO ITS SO GOOODDD I CANT BELIEVE ITS TAKEN ME THIS LONG TO START IT 😭 yuji is my best friend bro I love him so much,, well I love everyone very much but he specifically is so bestie to me 💖 nobara as well lol I’m very non-confrontational so she and I would get along very well bc we’d balance each other out hehe

AAANDD Todo cracks me up so much lmaofjakfb I was cheering for him and itadori the whole time they were fighting the forest spirit hanami ALSO BRO I KINDA THOUGHT PPL WERE EXAGGERATING HOW COOL GOJO WAS THIS WHOLE TIME??? BUT LIKE I KINDA GET IT NOW. I GET IT

My bf and I are gonna watch jjk0 and start s2 sometime next week when he’s not working and I’m soooo excited hehehe I wanna start making ocs very soon… but I’m gonna make myself wait we at least start s2 bc I need a better grasp on how the whole like, curse technique/user power system works lol

anyways I’m very much having a good time <333 have you still been watching haikyuu??

LESGOOOOOOOOO WIN FOR THE JJK COMMUNITY

yuji and nobara my children!!! I love them so much I wish only the best of things upon them

TODO MY GOAT I love him as well his taste in women is impeccable

GOJO THE MAN THE MYTH THE LEGEND (fun fact I accidentally made an oc that had white hair and bright blue eyes and it wasn't I stepped back and looked at her fully that I went "huh. that's just. that's just gojo but as a teenage girl.")

OHOHOHOHOHO HAVE FUN WITH SEASON TWO GOOD LUCK (rubs my hands together maliciously)

unfortunately I haven't gotten a chance to watch more insane volleyball anime because of tests and shit :(( hopefully after this week my homework load clears up and I'll be able to watch my son again :D

[stevie-petey]

okay hello hi, took entire 24 hours to process (it's 1am yet again) and now im here for insights !!!

firstly, i LOVE hopper and bug SOOOOO MUCH DUDE. YOU ATE WITH THEIR SCENES, THE CONCERN, THE CONNECTION, THE HUGGGGGGGG I FUCKING LOVE IT !!!! (can u tell i have daddy issues) and just now that their relationship was getting good, he goes & dies (lol) and will come back in the end of s4 ://///

also really wish to see more of murray x bug too, chaotic duo would love it !

the. casual. fucking. intimacy. between stug omg, it was there before too but it just HITS after they've kissed. lovely.

the seperation goodbye, especially with jon & nance <3

mind flayer is such a cockblock bruh, they're at a hill looking over hawkins and talking like screech later bitch.

reaching the mall, her sitting in steve's lap & SINGING NEVER ENDING STORY HELLO?????? kinda rlly wanted a suzie bug interaction (hoping you pull it off somehow)

the fucking mall scene. holy shit i had goosebumps, m. her running down AFTER KISSING STEVEEEEE and shit dude shit your foreshadowing went HARDDDDDDDD. billy saying he tried to find her?!?!?! still hate him but OMG?!?!?!?!

genuinely the foreshadowing is insane, bug already carries so much guilt but now billy AND hopper ON TOP OF will and maybe barb???? wow m wow i cannot fucking wait for s4 im so excited for EVERYTHING !!!!!! the vecna angst is gonna be CRAAAAAZZZZYYYY AND OH EXCITED ESPECIALLY FOR EDDIE X BUG !!!!! pls be a friendship pls be a friendship pls be a friendship pls be a friendship-

okay ANYWAY back to the chapter, steve and bug's conversation about her luck running out THEN THE LOVE CONFESSION !!!! I WENT FUCKING FERAL I TELL YOU LIKE GENUINELY I WAS SCREECHING IN THE DEAD OF THE NIGHT. literally could not be more PERFECT.

ik max and bug in s4 will be closer than ever, cannot wait to see that dynamic <3

okay the LOVERS LAKE SCENE ?????????????????? THE MAKING OUT ???????? THE I LOVE YOUS ???????? THE FUCKING BRACELET ???????? i was literally fanning my eyes trying not to cry because it was just so adorable and wholesome and i was MELTING. couldn't be anymore perfect.

the finding out of jon moving :((((

AND the goodbye scene :(((((

with joyce, with WILL !!!! love how she already knows about him and im sure she will be the first person he'll confide in :'))) i love their relationship so much, i will need some will x bug blurbs pls m.

and the goodbye with jon <!3 it was so emotional, alsoooo FOREHEAD TOUCHES ????? (loved it. adorable.) but nancy you're one STRONG soldier, i would NOT have tolerated lmao

anyway got real teary eyed during the end. and one tear dramatically rolled down my cheek as i finished reading but very grateful we have season 4 coming up next BUT THE BONUS CHAPTER BEFORE THAT I WILL BE WAITING EAGERLY FOR THAT !!!! bonus chapters are literally my favourite since it's completely m original and im a big m fan :3

so yes ! we're done with s3 insights, thanks for tuning in and thanks for DELIVERING. i will see you when the bonus drops, bye goodnight love you <3

TRUST if i ever get a chance to foreshadow ,,, im always taking it <333 i looooove foreshadowing its my drug tbh

and i LIVE for ur insights oh my god i giggled so hard reading everything

the main takeaway here im gonna focus on is jon n bug ,,,, because i really do want yall to know that theyre besties BUT (and i say this lightly) theyre obsessed with one another. nancy is also stronger than me, and i think season 4 will really show how lenient shes been with jon n bug. while theyve done well refraining from how they used to be (reminder they would cuddle and kiss each others cheek every day), theyre still realllllly close in a very uncomfortable way and bug will get a taste of her own medicine when nancy does it with steve lmao. yes, theyre childhood best friends, but christ they can be a lot to be near. bless nancy

AND BONUS CHAPTER !!! i have a few ideas where i want it to go, specifically a scene with bug and all the kids for their first day of high school. besides that: its fair game since we have a good few months to cover between seasons 3 and 4

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

for the title ask game: We Were Gods (we were kids)

I want to hear more about that one, that's a riveting title! :eyes:

Ahhh yes, so originally this fic was inspired by the song Battle Cries by The Amazing Devil. It's a duet and like a divorce song? "This isn't a break-up, dearheart, it's a season finale!" I got the title from the lyrics where one part sings the line "We were gods" and then the other part echoes it with "We were kids" and that's just *chefs kiss* perfect fanfic title thank you TAD <333

The premise was childhood friends to estranged almost lovers to supers fighting on opposite sides to reluctant allies to (finally) lovers. And it was going to be a parkner fic (peter parker/harley keener). It was going to be an epic slow burn spanning nearly their whole lives.

Then I thought why not pry it out of its fanfic foundation and stand it on its own as an original concept? Harley is essentially my OC and Peter could be shaped into an OC too and the plot I had in mind had hardly any of the source material in it so why not? I'd just tweak some names, create my own super powers and aliens and then boom! Book!

Didn't work 🙃 I wrote a 110k draft and got to the end and was like wow this sucks. I half-assed the world building and tried to hang onto plot devices that just don't work outside the mcu (they don't even work within the mcu but I digress) SO now we're back to square one: making it a fanfic. Except it's not really square one because I have 110k that I need to snip and prune and repot back into a fic.

Actually it's more like 85k bc I have to re-write the beginning since I ended up keeping that part for my book, but the rest just needs reworked into something I like with the characters that we know and love plugged back in. It's going to be a massive revision project but not any more difficult than writing the thing lol

But anyway! It's going to feature super villain!Harley which I am very excited about. He is sooooo tortured in this one and Peter has the shittest luck in the whole world <333

I don't have a good excerpt to share so here is the high-level outline for part one!

Part 1: Childhood

Peter’s parents die in a plane crash. He moves to Rose Hill to live with Uncle Ben and Aunt May and meets Harley

Harley has his hands full with… his dad just walked out. He wasn’t abusive. It was just shocking and all at once. They thought something terrible happened, but after they report him missing Scotty at the corner store stops by and says he sold him scratchers. Then a few hours later the sheriff stops over with his hat in his hands and tells them his truck was found in the lot at the airport in Nashville. “Let him go,” Mama says. “Don’t want no man who don’t wanna be around. Let ‘im go.” And that was the end of that.

Peter arrives while Harley is getting used to being the only one home after school. Abbie’s off with Mrs. Farley in town while Mama works, so it’s just him most days ‘til Mama gets home around 5.

Starts hanging out with the Parkers. They keep him ‘round for dinner. Scares Mama the first time bc he didn’t ask ahead and wasn’t home when she got there. She demands to meet them.

They get on great and once they learn of her newly single situation they offer to watch Harley in the afternoons until she gets home from work. No need for payment or thank yous—it just so happens that Peter could really use a friend right now and they’ve been getting along so well.

So it begins. No creek. No pokemon. Peter and Aunt May clash like the dickens, but Uncle Ben is always cool and rational and settles things before they go too far. It’s nice.

Peter is obsessed with planes and tracking flights and researching news of lost flights, crashes, etc. Huge fear of flying, but not of heights. This fear stays with him, even when Harley turns into a flying superhero.

EJ is Harley’s bully. Harley is a talkative little nerd with a stutter and a penchant for mathematics. He attracts the mean types and Peter has a loud bark and never has had the good sense to back down from a fight. The shared battles cement them together.

After being blindsided by his dad leaving, Harley had to reevaluate everything he thought about family. Family is no longer who you get along with, despite differences. It’s no longer who you put on a smile for. It’s who you can disagree with and still hug and laugh with at the end of the day. It’s refreshing that he always knows where he stands with the Parkers. They have big feelings and they don’t bury them, but they’re solid. They’re dependable. They’re there.

Then the Parkers move to New York and leave Harley behind and his theory on what makes a family falls apart all over again.

[virtualheartattack]

Aww, I hope you can get some sleep! But fr it's honestly pretty bad- tell me why I get annoyed when other anons give you asks, lol- like that is NOT right just for me, buttttt it should be. in my humble opinion :3 but whatever, bc I can still hope that I'll have the courage to ask to be friends at some point >~<

-V

Hewwo^_^ I got uhhh 6 hrs of sleep that's more than usual lmao

Hvsinxhdskgd:333 that's cute as fuck, dw sweetheart your asks are now my favourite>:D

Good luck!! For me we're friends anyway:›

[4ranghaes]

i’m looking to start up my blog and was curious on any tips u have to make it cute and aesthetic like yours! i love your works btw keep doing what your doing!!!! <333

omg this is so sweet!!! especially cause i have NO idea what i’m doing😭😭😭

basically i’ve run a LOT of blogs on tumblr over the years (i used to have dad!au blogs for skz, ateez, nct, the boyz, treasure – ALL SEPERATE😭) and i’ve also run non-kpop blogs and other fanfic blogs and personal blogs and anyway it’s been a long time coming to have this blog that i feel so happy with, but i really do feel content with this one and i’ll tell you for why so maybe it can help you!!

1. my theme both first time round and this new one have elements of my personal style, regardless of whether it’s kpop themed or not!!!

a lot of the time, kpop blogs will be themed either around the group they stan and their theming, or even around like sanrio characters or other elements of korean/east asian culture and like thats super cute but for me personally i’m just not into any of that and it would feel a bit performative (?) to have that!!! but for me, i’m into vintage, 60s/70s, rock bands, so my first theme was ‘it’s all happening’ from almost famous and then i got the photo for my navi off my pinterest board and my profile pic from my camera roll and just based the colours around there!!! which is also the second thing

2. i usually (happened by accident with the first theme and on purpose with the second lol) choose the profile pic, header and picture for my navi (though you dont need this lol i just like the formatting) and THEN choose the colours

i find this easier for the overall theming, ties everything together quite nicely but also for this current theme it actually all stemmed from the emojis in my bio😭 i saw someone on tiktok with those emojis in their display name and i really loved it so i noted it down and then used it for inspo,, and the 👽 and 🪩 reminded me of 2010s indie sleaze so then i went down the dance yrself clean route but yeah.. i forgot where i was going with this

3. the text is unimportant

whenever i have some student display name or bio its because its the first thing that came to mind it really DOESNT MATTER i mean if you have a theme it’s cool to stick to the theme but like with my first one my bio was 마음데로 해 which like ? has no relevance to vintage or almost famous i just liked it😭😭

4. but there IS important information you need to display on your blog so remember to include it somewhere

i always hate when i have to like chase round a blog to find their request rules or masterlist or whatever😭😭 and i mean REALLY chase cause you have people like @blueberrybeomgyu who has the CUTEST theme and sticks to it to a T and it doesnt hinder your navigation around the blog yk!!! so yeah i think that’s super important but it’s up to you whether you keep it all in a pinned navigation, link it in the bio, whatever!!

note -> when i say important info i mean like name, pronouns, age, request rules, masterlist, wip, purpose of your blog etc but also you can pick and choose which of these to include!! but including your name helps people chat to you, and including your age helps people with mdni !

but anyway none of this really matters but i hope it helped in someway i have NO qualifications so if any other blogs want to chip in with some advice feel free!!!! and good luck with your blog!!

[basketobread]

hello!! im wanting to start up commissions and i was wondering if it would be okay for me to use your commission document as a template for mine, bc it’s really thorough and well organized! if not i totally understand, i thought i’d ask just incase! (also if you are okay with it i will of course credit u!! anyways i hope you have a great day i love your art okay bye mwah)

OH REALLY?? HAHAHA Yeah, go ahead!! I didn't think anything of it when making it so I really appreciate your comment!! 😭❤❤❤ You don't have to credit me lol but it's very sweet of you to ask <333 (ALSO AUGGHHH STOP YOU'RE TOO KIND THANK YOU SO MUCH LOVELY MUAHHH ❤❤❤❤) and good luck with your commissions!! ^_^ <333

[snailstuffies]

Hi Snail! I hope I'm not overstepping here but I saw your tags on the mooncake post and I wanted to ask if you knew about snowskin mooncakes? My family makes them because they're easier to make than the baked ones with egg yolk/lotus that you tend to see in stores. They're not cooked at all and they're pretty different flavour-wise to the other mooncakes but I really like the taste.

I couldn't find the exact recipe I've used in the past but this one looks to have the same ingredients. I would recommend putting filling in the dough because it tends to taste nicer - red bean paste or other similar fillings* are what we tend to use.

If you do use filling, you should roll the dough out on some extra glutinous rice flour** and cut it up into pieces. When you flatten the pieces , you should try and keep them pretty thick so you can keep the outer layer of dough thick enough to hold the filling in. They should flatten out to around the size of the palm of your hand or a little smaller. Get a bit of the filling, roll it into a small-ish ball and then wrap the dough around it so that you trap the filling inside if you know what I mean by that. Roll it again to even it up into another ball. Roll it in the rice flour and if you have a mould*** you can press the mooncake into that to get a nice/shape pattern for it.

I hope that's useful for you! If not feel completely free to disregard lol.

Notes (sorry if these are at all condescending! I'm just going to explain like you don't know any of these things in case there are any you actually don't know):

*you can get this from an asian grocers if you have one nearby you! If you've never had it it looks like this sort of thing:

and you should be able to get other flavours like black sesame or lotus or matcha if you want to try them! A place near me has a chestnut flavoured paste that I really like.

**you can get glutinous rice flour from an asian grocers too. When you're checking the packaging make sure you get stuff that specifically states that it's glutinous. I don't remember why that's important but I know it is.

***I don't remember where we got our moulds, sorry! 😐 Some asian grocers might sell them, or you can check a cooking shop or something like that. If you can't get a mould you can just leave them rolled or flatten them slightly and they should taste the same anyway.

If you do decide to make any, good luck! I know this was a slightly random thing to just drop in your inbox but I hope you can get something out of it. If you have any questions feel free to send them my way!

And have fun with the tanghulu! I'd never heard of it up until now but now I'm very jealous.

NOT OVERSTEPPING AT ALL!!! THANK YOU!!!!

This is so helpful i am noting everything down ✍👀 and don't worry, not condescending at all <333

And thank you, I will have fun with the tánghúlu :>>>> and you should be jealous lol it's so fun and tasty

[storynerd121]

hiii! so I dont know u that well, but I saw in some of your old Tumblr posts that you were questioning being ace/ageosexual. i'm also trying to figure that out rn, so do you have any tips/advice? this is if you have figured your sexuality out ofc. no pressure

i'm so sorry if this sounded rude. im rly new to the queer community (and closeted too lol), and i'm trying to reach out to people on the internet for help. You srsly don't have to answer if you feel uncomfortable!

thank you and have an amazing day!! <333

Hi!!

First of all, thx for reaching out! You dont sound rude at all, and im glad you felt safe enough to ask me for advice! (Also welcome to the queer community!!! I hope you like it here lol) <3

Ok so, while I haven't entirely figured out whether or not I'm ace/aegosexual, I did figure out the other parts of my gender and sexuality so I'll try my best to give u some advice. For me, it helped to do a lot of research on different sexualities and stuff until I found something that might fit. Then I'd try referring to myself as that (in my head bc I wasn't out) to see if I was comfortable with that label. If I wasn't then I'd move on and if I was I'd try it out for a bit! And if I found something that I liked more then I'd try that out. Also I took a lot of online quizzes to try and figure out my feelings (don't rely know the results tho bc the might not be accurate). Reading books/stories abt other questioning or ace ppl helped me too.

Idk how helpful that is for questioning being ace (I mainly used that for my gender crisis as well as my other sexuality crisis lol). I'm still questioning being ace, but as of rn I'm trying to trust myself more with this crisis. Anyway, sorry if this wasn't helpful but I hope you figure it out! And remember that you're amazing as you are and labels can change all the time.

Good luck with figuring it out! And remember that ur awesome no matter what. <3

[sinsandsweetness]

Babeee! I was supposed to tell you yesterday but babess...

I am no longer a virgin! I had sex with Kiwi AND watermelon last night! Yup Ik I took your advice, you can say "I told you so!" haha!

He picked me up, (Watermelon) And took me to the date. Kiwi was in the car and it was giving older brother driving younger brother to his first date considering watermelon is older than kiwi.

So we get to the date and watermelon parks the car and stays in the car. We go to the movies first! They've been listening to everything I tell them I swear!

I've been begging my mom to watch the meg for the longest time and so I told them about how badly I wanted to watch the second movie and They took me yesterday! So, we get into our seats and there like al the way in the back. And it's a Friday so the movie theater is barely packed and we are in the back.

So i'm guessing midway through the movie he fingers me. Like for almost 15 minutes of overstimulating me. I had to be quiet because some scenes were very quiet so... ANYWAY!

We get out the movie and I'm walking a little wobbly whatever. So after that you know we go to dinner and were having a good time and Watermelon is third wheeling lol, but They both are really taking me on this date.

When everything is over, we finally go back to Kiwi's place and its a cool apartment, Like really cool!

And we drink, well they drink, I drunk some juice and that was it really lol

So as i'm about to get ready to hit the bricks at his house, me and watermelon start making out again and Kiwi starts joining in and there both all up on me(not on each other but just pleasing me) and they take me to Kiwi's room and fuck me right there.

They take turns! So I would like to thank you Mrs. T and you bby anon for giving me the luck of a threesome!

Talk about a crazy way to loosing your V-Card.

Anyway, Hope you are good mama and hope you had a good day!

Holy shit. Girl I didn’t realize you were a virgin! Oml that is quite the way to lose it. I’m a little shocked I won’t lie. Flabbergasted even.

I’m glad it was fun though! Wow! <333

[irritablepoe]

i've read 'the human chair' by ranpo edogawa just now and,,,suddenly pulling a chap 115 fyodor at the end, going haha it's just a story i made up was it entertaining?? is so unhinged to me imagine the horror he put the owner of the chair thru am cryinhgfeygfewu i hope bsd ranpo gets the chance to be at least as equally insane as the stories his real life counterpart wrote (omw to find a secondhand copy of his 'japanese tales of mystery and imagination' book hehe it's available here in the ph me thinks)

do you think BSD poe and ranpo would confess base and horrific shit to each other only to go 'i actually just wanted to get a reaction from you hehe'

anyways i hope ur having a fun and gentle day!! ily!!

AHHHHHHHH YOU DID FDSFKFHKDSHKFJHKD i loved that short story a lot tbh, the end also killed me like alright you got me there lol, i'm still never going to sit in that chair again pfffttt, but also the story flow was insanely good i think, horrifying but once i started reading i couldn't stop

literally there's no way bsd ranpo isn't a bit fucked in the head, like surely the time he was in the ada but pre-canon he pissed off a lot of people but like. he had the ada as a protection so he was like "lmao i'm gonna fuck shit up still :3" and no one stopped him. that's also probably how he got his reputation and surely poe isn't the only one that got so into him that he tried to go for revenge - he was just the most dedicated one

oh good luck finding a good copy! :D otherwise there are also pdfs available in the bsd bibliophile, that's how i got some of the short stories at least :3 (but also i prefer having a book in my hand so)

i also think that when they're more comfortable with each other they'd just confess random things at random times and the other wouldn't be horrified but curious like omg you wanted to do what with them? and either of them are just twirling their hair like omg he's so cute when he's absolutely insane FKDHKSFHKSDFDH

thank youuuu i hope you're having a wonderful day too and ily toooo <333