#and wish me all the luck you have xddd

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Y'all what the freak :D

UH OHH

I don't like those looks guys o.o

HE BETTER BE ALIVE

Okay phew I can take a ventilator 😭😭

Maddiee 😭😭❤️

UUAGH HE BETTER BE

AWWWW y'alllll 😭😭😭💔

UAAAAGHHHHH I DON'T DESERVE THISSSS

DON'T DO THIS TO HER 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔🥺❤️❤️

OR ME 😭😭😭😭🥺💔💔❤️

OR ANY OF THE REST OF THEM!!! 😭😭😭💔🥺❤️

NOOOOOOO

He's gonna be fine o.o

I DO. NOT. LIKE. THOSE EXPRESSIONS

UAAGHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😳😳😬😬😬😬💔💔

NOT OKAY Y'ALL. O.O 😭😭

AAAAHHHHHHH

Guys it's gonna be fine 😌😌😌

I'm not gonna make it guys xdd xD

Well, that's the last of my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I absolutely LOOOVED this episode!! It was SO GOOD!! Even though I hated most of the stuff that happened xdd. It's just so good story wise and so emotional and dramatic 😭😭❤️ xd.

Also I forgot to say this earlier but as a commercial started (I believe right after the last Wilson family scene - not last as in last, last in the episode 😭😭) I was like: "I shouldn't beat up mentally ill people. It's wrong. Eddie 😌😑😐" XDD don't remember exactly but it was something along those lines and I was real for it xdd

Also I might go back and add some more specific reactions at some points when I rewatch bits, I just forgot specific words or orders of things because I was so behind lol. And because everything was so emotional constantly xdd it was always the drama 😭😭 xD. Loved it though lol.

I did often talk loudly about killing people though xD

Anyway!! I'm gonna head off now, see you later :DD. Add more before this in the main section as well by the way lol. Bye for now!!

Okay, I'm back (a week later) lol! Now it's time for the individual parts :).

Buck and Tommy! Once again thriving, in their lane, living their best lives 😌😌😌🥰. They're so cute y'all <3. Anyway Buck was an ICON with that look to Gerrard lol, and he slayed with he cooking :D! Also UAGH HIM AND BOBBY'S CONVERSATION 😭😭😭❤️ THE SEVEN YEARS THE TELLING EACH OTHER HOW PROUD AND GRATEFUL THEY ARE FOR EACH OTHER THE TALK ABOUT TOMMY AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! I love them so much guys 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️🥺🥰. Also Buck dealing with the whole Kim thing xD. Bro was baffled, as he should be lol. But genuinely his conversation with Eddie was really good, and I'm glad he didn't back off and just let Eddie get away with it <3. And the "I'm worried about you" OUAGH I'm still not over it guys 😭😭❤️. More on that later. Anyway, I love them (Buck and Eddie, and Buck and Tommy) so much <33.

Ravi! He was such a mood with that food thing lol. An icon, we stan (and agree) <333. I love him ❤️🥰 <33.

Hen and Karen! WHEN I TELL YOU I'M READY TO B E A T THIS LADY-

Listen okay xD. I get why she's doing what she's doing, but she's insane. Like girl. Also I knew she would pull out the ambulance in that conversation and so then when she didn't I was confused but NAH she was just saving it for extra emotional damage 😭. Girl was waiting for a double points square xdd. Anyway, the scene where they were taking Mara away was genuinely so heartbreaking D:. And like y'all ik you have to take her but you can give them 30 seconds, my gosh!! Anyway they are a family 😭😭😭😭🥺💔❤️❤️, and they better get her back <33. I love them so much <33 :').

Maddie and Chimney! Once again, living their best life, thriving, doing great 😌😌🥰. Once again as in I said that earlier, they rarely are lol. Anyway, they're icons and STOPPP THE ROSEEE :'DDD. They're so cute y'all I can't even <33. AND AAAUAGH THEY'RE MARRIEDDD!!! Y'all I still can't believe it :'D. Also Chimney talking to and about Gerrard absolutely slayed 💀 xD. He was an icon for that o.o <333. They were great this episode (though I realized afterwards - no calls :O), I love them so much <33.

Eddie!

😐

Sir xd. Let's talk lol.

Okay, listen. I'm glad he told Kim, and I'm glad he finally got some form of closure on Shannon. And that scene was absolutely heartbreaking, by the way, Ryan ate this episode up. But MY GOSH 😭😭😭😤😤. THE WAY I WANTED TO KILL THIS MAN (EDDIE)!!! LIKE, SIR!! I know he's going through it but my gosh 😭. Bro was killing me xD. Genuinely though, I really loved his and Buck's conversation, I thought it was really great. And I'm glad he finally admitted it (even if he was forced to) - if there's anyone it would be to, it would be Buck :'D. My lovelies <33. Eddie saying he was worried about himself broke me 😭😭😭🥺💔💔❤️. And then yes, I'm SO glad he told Kim right after that (and I felt really awful for her :((), but that ending scene of them o.o. A, girly, why? I- you are so gone on him. It's a nice thing to do (try and give him closure), but just- what. And I'm glad Eddie tried to not because that's WEIRD y'all, but then that whole monologue broke me again 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺💔💔💔💔❤️. Like SIR!!! The "I'm broken" bit my GOSH 😭😭😭💔💔🥺❤️. The acting was seriously amazing. And then OOUGH CHRIS AND MARISOL COMING IN AT THE END O.O Y'all I assumed Chris was like in bed or something xD. Why would Eddie do this ESPECIALLY knowing they were going to be coming home soon xdd. Anyway, it looked like it was just a hug but in post episode stills I think there was a kiss? So I don't even know what's going on there xd. But oh my gosh poor Chris 😭. Boy must've been so confused :((. Rough on him, definitely <33. Anyway, I just hope everything works out xdd.

Bobby and Athena! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Listen y'all 😭😭😭. They are it up this episode but they killed me doing it xd. Bobby how DARE YOU RESIGN, AND THEN HAVE AN EMOTIONAL MONTAGE OF GROWTH ON ME!!! RUDE!!! STOP IT!!!! And I am SO glad Athena didn't just stand by and let it happen (a theme this episode, it seems - good on her and Buck) when she knew it was out of character. And her going to find Amir to try and help Bobby :')). I really wish he would/could've after coming that far though 😭. Especially because.him being there and leaving surely pushed Bobby farther, though that conversation did need to happen. And that conversation 😭😭🥺. Dude it killed me. I'm so glad they brought up the rooftop in season 2, didn't just brush over it and revealed how Athena felt about it. It's understandable, and it's one of those things people want you to sweep under the rug :'((. I'm glad she kept an eye out for it again, because it was needed here 😭. I don't know that it would go that far, hit Bobby's in a seriously dark place. And that DREAM, UAOAUAGHH!!! The way Bobby seemed kind of childlike, back to his old self when he would've been having that conversation 😭😭, and the fact that he still refused a drink!! I'm not okay guys 😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺. I am glad his dad dream version did kind of support him though lol xD, like it wasn't an evil vision it was one telling him to wake up, trying to help him. AND MY GOSH THAT WAKING UP O.O. AND, MY GOSH DID IT HLEP XDD. But y'all 😳. I'm so glad they both got out, and I am SO happy that Athena is okay 😭😭❤️, and I was stressing, BUT MY GOSH BOBBY!!! I was like "noo he's gonna disregard himself and be injured" BUT NOPE STRAIGHT UP HEART ATTACK O.O 😭😭😭😳🥺🥺💔. Bro I'm not okay <333. HE JUST BETTER BE ALRIGHT GUYS I CAN'T TAKE THIS 😳😳😭😭😭💔💔🥺❤️. Also, I know they're trying to paint it is Amir, but I just don't think it was him. I do think it was probably intentionally set (though they could do something really interesting with everyone thinking it was, trying to investigate, and then in the end having to accept that it just happens), but I don't think it was him. He wants to leave them behind, more than anything, and that doesn't fit with burning down their house as revenge. I hope he can help figure it out though <33. Honestly if it were the cartel I wouldn't be too surprised xD. Anyway, Bobby and Athena absolutely ate <333. And they better be okay xdd 😭🥺❤️. I love them so much <333.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode! It had some phenomenal emotional moments, and even a few great funny ones :D. It was pretty wild, and verrry intense o.o (even if some of it was Eddie pining for his ex wife and not like, someone being murdered - not pining for the victim btw xd). But I had a really good time :D. Even if I wanted to kill people a lot of the time xD. I'm terrified for the next episode lol xd . Everything better end up okay. More okay than this episode xD. It was genuinely a good episode though, with some good moments for everyone.

So yeah! I loved the episode, I thought it was great. There were a ton of great emotional moments. I'm excited and scared for the next one. This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 7, Episode 9: Ashes, Ashes

It was so amazing! I'm really excited for the next one, but I'm so terrified at the same time. They better end up okay. I'll be back next week with my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 7, Episode 10: All Fall Down

See you then!

[mgarmagedon]

How are you and your au co-maker friend doing? Any new ideas?

She is fine, for now she is really busy and has really hard time, so she wouldn't have time to even make anything with me. Wish her luck guys, because she is doing her best ❤️❤️❤️

And she isn't exactly co-maker, because she is from time to time making random content about transformers prime or rid15, I'm mainly creating content here, but thank to her Sideswipe is tampon now. :D

But i can tell off what we were talking about last time:

Like lately we chosen to add that after Starscream almost died in explosion, when he was still mainly into scientific stuff, not only making Megan angry (when war was still active conflict and 90% of the population weren't dead), he met that time KO (when he was still teenager) and without getting licences, because how he could get his licence while the war, when practically all schools were in ruins XD So they met that time, KO helped him in coming back to better shape. This is why KO came to Nemesis in TFP with his husband Breakdown, because Starscream saw him as a trustworthy doctor. I don't need to add that they fucked AS ADULTS ON NEMESIS, when Breakdown was still around, because he was fine that KO wants to life in open relationship. They were still happy together :DD

We talked about the fact that Bee couldn't look at Sideswipe optics at the beginning, because he has Smokescreens optics and after all this shit that happened, it was really painful for him. He drank himself into unconsciousness, Ofc Grimlock and Danny were trying to comfort him as much he could (at that time Drift wasn't around yet, he joined with his sons team after 8-9 months Bee, Strongarm and Sides came to earth). He felt terrible, because it wasn't Sides fault that he born or that his best friend, which he treated like his older brother and first love in his life, made children when both of them was drunk. He didn't won't to hurt him or take revenge on the poor teen, which also had hard childhood like Bee and slowly but surly start to get close with. Sometimes he even thought of if he didn't leave him that day they told him about the protoforms, he would be now Sideswipe and Sunstreaker's father and maybe even marry KO. But those are only his thoughts. I was thinking of making black and while comic of it, but in his bot form not human. XDDD

We also lately write A LOT about Ultra Magnus and Wheeljack. Mainly we was thinking what Magnus was doing after the war and becasue he was like this big badass judge, he could just become the guy how almost rule Cybertron. I mean by it, that Cybertron came back to the almost state after the war and that is not a good news XD. "And what about Ratchet?" nothing, he doesn't give a fuck about him. After all, he himself as a guy in new created council vote to send Ratchet on Earth as his retirement and still explain himself by saying " this is last wish of Optimus Prime". I just like the idea that right hand of Prime, makes Cybertron great again, causing fulling prisons by ex cons and not happy with his decisions war veterans. It would also explain WHY FUCKING CYCLONUS WAS IN THE FUCKING FINAL, because he would be rebeliant that wants freedom for his ppl. He also created slums :), idk I think it's cool idea that Ultra Magnus was a villain of the series And I think Arcee would see sense in that and after all those years and ptsd, also got mature, she would fine peace in new worlds order. But she would still take back her father and brother back on Cybetron... at least be too kick his fucking ass. XDD And practically nobody can do anything with, only Bulkhead is living his best life as a worker, it doesn't mean that he is now fighting, he is just tired and like Arcee wants some peace in his life. After they banned contacting with earth and he could talk with Miko, he needed finally some peace. The same with KO and Smoke. He is living now with Wheeljack AS A FRIENDS!!! But from time to time, Wheeljack is showing up at Magnus mantion to fuck him, say hey to his daughter and then disappear for next 9 months. I'm just seeing NeoCybertron as a Gotham City but as a planet XDDD

I can't write more words, so do you have any more question? XD

[tealenko]

The Three Letters (Chapter 9)

Chapter 9: Close Enough to Touch

Holy shit, I've made it. yayyyyy~~~ You're gonna love this one (I do, at least XD) next chapter won't be so long, so it will take less than usual (sorry... I know, I been writing this for 2 years and I'm only halfway there... You can blame my job XDDD) Go to AO3 for more footnotes, I'll tell you more there! ~tea

Summary: Lara and Jacob spend some time alone while everyone else is asleep, having to navigate their own expectations after being apart for almost 4 years.

Words: 6226 Rating: Teens and Up (Mature~ish) Warnings: smooches and lots of tension (we're here for the slow burn)

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The orange-lit valley of Lara’s memories fades little by little to become the present, thanks in part to the crackling sound of the bonfires as their lives come to an end, finding in them a similar tone of color to the sky she was remembering so vividly only a few seconds ago.

Once her journey is done, she realizes that most of the people have disappeared, already back to their cabins to get some sleep before the sun is up again, and the few left, are way too busy to pay attention to the fact that she’s been frozen in the same spot for a while now.

Her mind had also been too occupied, filling every little fragment of Jacob’s story with the unspoken details only known by the two of them, to realize that he was no longer there either.

Lara’s eyes search for him for a few more seconds but, instead, they find Sofia, who has already finished redistributing tasks and is eager to go rest a little.

“Here everything is taken care of, Lara, stop looking for things to do or people to help.”

“What…?” She’s confused for a moment until she understands what she’s implaying. “Ah, yeah… You know me.” She replies, hiding her true motives to be scouring the area. “I cannot stay still and do nothing.”

“Well, I think you should really go and rest… But something tells me you won’t take my advice.”

“Is that so?” She asks, not really paying much attention to her, still trying to see if she’s able to find Jacob among the people that are cleaning and rearranging the whole place back to normal.

“Yes, I’m an expert in the matter. I grew up with my father, afterall.” Sofia laughs a little at her own thoughts. “You two are too much alike when it comes to things like this.”

Lara’s head turns quickly to look back at her, instantly regaining all her interest in record time.

“Perhaps… I don’t see him helping now, though.” She tries her best to hide the true meaning of her words, hoping that Sofia will answer her question without having to ask directly.

And so she does.

“Ah yeah, he offered, of course, but Levi insisted on taking care of everything and extinguishing the bonfires in his place.” She replies, unaware she’s about to tell Lara what she was too afraid to ask. “After some hesitation he agreed. Told us he was going to take a walk, that he needed to reflect on today’s events or something of sorts.”

“I see…” Lara smiles softly at her, with her mind working as fast as usual, as she tries her best to come up with an excuse that helps her to go see Jacob without having to explain it to anyone, especially to Sofia.

For once, despite what she thinks at the beginning, the universe seems to agree with her wishes and, before she’s able to come up with something on her own, grants her the perfect opportunity she was looking for.

“Lara…” Levi yells from afar, cutting her line of thoughts with the sudden interruption. “Need some help here, mind to lend a hand?”

She curses her luck for a second, knowing it’s more important to aid the village than to go look for Jacob but, just as she’s about to comply with his request, she sees Sofia’s expression out of the corner of her eye.

Interesting. Lara thinks, surprised at her own perception abilities, which usually don’t help her too much when it comes to processing other people's feelings.

“One sec!” She decides to yell at Levi, raising her index finger in the air to accompany her answer.

She then spends the next three looking for a way to approach the situation as gently as possible but, to her surprise, Sofia decides to take the first step.

“Erm… Lara…” There’s hesitation on her voice and, for the first time ever, Lara seems to notice her friend’s cheeks blushing a little. “Would you mind if I… I…”

She doesn’t need more than that to be sure of what she's trying to do and, seeing that both of their goals can be achieved at the same time, she decides to spare her friend’s agony and give her exactly what she wants while pretending she is unaware of her feelings.

“Sorry, Sofia.” Lara cuts her mid sentence. “It’s been a long day… And I know it’s too much to ask…” She takes a small pause, giving her the opportunity to understand what she’s trying to do. “But, would you mind taking my place to help Levi? I… I really need to put my thoughts into order.”

Sofia smiles from ear to ear and nods, giving a hug to her friend while mumbling something about her last statement and how it confirms yet again how similar Lara and her father truly are.

She is gone before Lara can add anything else, so she takes a deep breath and starts walking without a set course.

Her original plan to search for Jacob dilutes with the first few steps, knowing it will be close to impossible to find him in the valley without having any hint of his whereabouts. 

So, instead, she engages in what, at the beginning, was only an excuse and starts to reflect on everything that’s happened to her in just one day, letting her feet guide her without a fixed route.

And there goes another thing that she shares with Jacob.

Completely unaware, her body follows the same path he did, finding herself near the peak of the mountain in record time.

She takes the right trail once the observatory is on sight, not even remembering it’s the one that ends at the top of the waterfall, the one that he took only a few minutes ago, the one he takes almost every night.

“...”

Lara is a bit surprised, at first, to find him there. 

With the darkness of the night enveloping them, the stars and the moon are the only sources of light illuminating the enchanted scenery. However, the sound of water flowing to crash in the distance, quickly lets her know where both Jacob’s and her own feet had decided to lead them, and suddenly, she understands.

I think it may be my favorite place in the entire world.

His words echo in her mind as she gazes at him, tracing his features as the light of the moon unveils every single detail on his face.

“Should’ve known you’d be here…” She smiles a little when she observes him getting startled, snappin back from his inner thoughts in record time before standing up to face her.

“Lara…” Jacob blinks a couple of times, almost as if he’s making sure that her presence there isn’t just a figment of his own imagination.

“Sorry,” she’s still smiling as she says this, “I didn’t mean to scare you.”

“Oh, please, don’t worry about it.” He’s the one smiling now, pleased to see her now that he’s sure she’s real. “Come, sit with me.”

Jacob offers her a hand and Lara takes it without hesitation, walking next to him for a few steps before they sit right where he was a few seconds ago, letting their legs hang on the cliff as they face the dark view of the waterfall.

They shouldn’t be able to see it, with the sun gone for many hours now, but the water cascades so swiftly and tumultuously that it’s able to trap the subtle glow of the night sky and create a light of its own.

“Long day?”

The subtle roar of the water fills the background of their conversation, creating a soothing melody to accompany their words.

“Yeah…” She laughs a little. “In a good way… But yes.”

She lowers her head a little, moving her upper body forward just an inch, to have a better view of how the water splashes against the river so many feet below them.

“Almost seems like this morning started a couple years ago…” Lara stares at the distant riverscape, starting to understand the love that Jacob holds in his heart for this place. “But, somehow, it also feels like the day has gone by in just a second.”

Her head moves slowly before she shrugs her shoulders.

“I’m not making any sense, right?”

Lara chuckles, and he follows her right away, letting their eyes meet each other in the process.

“More than you can imagine, believe me.”

The gentle light of the crescent moon may not be strong enough to illuminate the whole valley, nor even the small section they find themselves sitting at, but it lets them see each other and, whatever is left, is rebuild in their minds using both their hearing and memory to fill whatever their eyes cannot picture on their own.

Jacob scoots closer to her and points at something, she doesn’t recall what, too busy taming her heart, which seems to want to exit her chest, completely overwhelmed by the sudden proximity between them.

Thankfully, there’s no need to hear him for, what she assumes must be the depiction of something that cannot be witnessed in the dark of the night, turns out to be a mere excuse his mind has found to get closer to her.

Their arms are now glued, one next to the other and, with a cold air flow coming from her left, Lara shivers and, despite not knowing if the cause of it it’s the temperature or having Jacob right next to her, this one doesn’t let the opportunity pass, quickly grabbing her hand to shelter it in between his own.

The clear difference in their temperature alarms him for a moment and, what usually would’ve cost him a lot of fortitude and hesitation, suddenly comes out as a gesture of endearment, quickly moving even closer to grab her left hand to keep it right next to the other.

“You’re freezing, Lara.”

“Just a bit…” She glances at what she's wearing for a second. “This type of clothing worked just fine last time I was here. Then again, I guess I never stopped and sat down… Kinda spent most of my time here running, which would explain a lot, actually.”

Jacob looks at her clothes too, shaking his head a couple of times.

“It also doesn’t help that your coat it’s worn-out to the point where every inch of it is either paper thin and about to be torn into pieces or already stitched back together.”

Lara blushes a little, regaining the control of her hands before hugging herself and the jacket in question, almost as if she's trying to protect it both from the air and from his comments.

“Well, I happen to like it.” She tells him using a tone of voice that’s very close to defensive. 

“I can tell.” He adds in between giggles, finding her reaction very endearing, teasing her about the whole topic.

She frowns but is unable to hold her smile and, with her right arm, she nudges him with her elbow, punching him a little to the side.

“Shut up.”

Jacob breaks instantly into laughter, scooting back a little after recovering his initial posture, and bringing her back to sit on top of him, using his arms to embrace her whole body before covering her hands once again.

His initial movement is born from a place of concern, wanting to shelter her from the cold air as much as possible but, no matter what his motives were at the beginning, once his pose is locked in, his mind starts to travel to other places, almost forgetting the chivalry that brought him to that posture on the first place.

Lara starts talking, but he’s unable to hear her.

Despite trying his best, his whole body is way too focused on his own selfish reasons to hear what she says, for almost a minute.

“... and it has kept me warm in countless situations.” That’s the only piece of her sentence that manages to win back his attention, regaining his focus on what she’s telling him. “And… And…”

Jacob laughs and relaxes a little, letting a deep breath out before resting his head on top of her shoulder.

“And…?”

“Well…” She looks up for a few seconds before setting her eyes back again on the dark valley, letting a big breath out in the process. “And I guess… I like it too much to get rid of it.”

Lara lets her weight rest onto him even more, getting comfortable in his arms.

“There, I said it.” She adds, a bit amused by her own shyness. “Happy now?”

He smiles, indeed happy, not only about her comment, but also because of their current situation and her overall presence back in his life.

“Quite a lot…”

His arms strengthen their hold around her even more and he plants a soft kiss on the top of her head, lowering his head right after to whisper next to her ear.

“You have no idea… How happy I am right now.”

Jacob’s voice hits her neck in a way that it almost seems like a caress, a shiver slithering through her entire body all the way down to her feet.

His right hand betrays his will and, before he’s even aware that it's moving, quickly wraps around her waist, holding her close to him. 

By the time he realizes where his hand it’s placed, Lara has already taken the movement as an invitation, turning around, still on top of him, while moving her hands to the back of his neck, staring at his eyes while her fingers entertaining themselves with his hair.

“I…” He doesn’t even know what he wants to say when he starts talking, but it doesn’t really matter, for “I” is the only word he’s able to portray before his lips are quickly sealed by hers.

There’s a second of hesitation on his part, followed by another one of inner fight. But, after the third, he knows he’s completely lost to her.

The night is at its darkest now, letting the stars glow brighter than ever, becoming the sole witness to the scenery displayed below them, as the only two people that remain awake are way too busy to focus on anything other than each other. 

Despite the darkness, and having his eyes closed, he can feel her smiling as she kisses him, way too happy to control the corner of her lips as she lets all her weight rest against him.

Jacob mimics her expression as he allows gravity to do its job little by little, until his back is in full contact with the ground, tangling his arms around Lara to keep her glued to him.

There’s a giggle or two before the kisses resume again.

Nothing desperate or out of control. There aren’t rushed hands, scratches nor sultry words.

Neither of them knew what would really happen the first time they were alone like this but, what they had pictured in their heads over the years, looked way too different from the  unfolding reality of their current situation.

Or at least it is for Lara.

She always thought there would be an element of desperation, after being apart for so long before they even had the chance to formalize their feelings, but instead, everything seems quite the opposite of what she pictured.

Kind kisses and soft smiles, tender and unhurried, interrupted now and then by deep breaths, not the ones where you come back to the surface for some air, but the ones where you have to stop so your whole being can process everything it’s feeling.

There are light touches here and there, but they aren’t rushed either, a nice walk to warm up to their relationship instead of a full-on sprint and, being completely alone for the first time ever, except for said the shimmering stars above, they continue traveling through that path for longer than any of them can really recall, taking their time to taste the waters with the distant waterfall splashes as their main background music.

The rhythm of their exchange seems to stay the same for a long time but, little by little, the pace accelerates to something closer to the level of intimacy that she had imagined for the many years they spent apart.

Lara’s hands, feeling a sense of security after the extended warm up, start to travel under his coat, looking for a way to get in contact with his skin.

They seem to be welcomed at first, sending a shiver through Jacob’s body before he lets out a subtle giggle. Nevertheless, the moment she starts to move them, aiming to trace little by little his upper body, the cheerful expression disappears right away.

“Lara…”

She freezes and, after looking at his face for a second, retreats to a safe position, with her heart twisting inside of her for letting the whole situation reach a point where she did something she shouldn't have.

“Sorry.” She states, trying her best to get out a smile before planting a soft kiss on his forehead.

Lara turns to her left and lays next to him, thanking the night for being able to conceal all the blush of her face with its darkness.  

Jacob, on the other side, remains silent for a few seconds, with his eyes glued to the glowing stars as his breathing comes back to normal.

The silence doesn’t last for long but for Lara seems closer to an eternity, waiting patiently as she traces his features in search for a clue that tells her what she should say next.

Said clue is not needed.

Before her mind can overanalyze everything that’s happened, he rises right arm and points upwards, quickly gaining all her attention as he rescues her from her internal downward spiral.

“See that group of stars there?” Jacob moves his hands, indicating the area of the sky he’s talking about. “Three whites in a triangle form, next to one that glows somewhat bluer…”

Lara does her best to locate the stars he’s talking about.

“Errmm… ” She frowns for a second until she finally sees them. “Oh, I think I got it. In between Orion and Hydra?”

His mouth opens a little but words don’t come up. Instead, he just turns his head and stares at her, half fascinated, half enchanted, and gives her the most discernible sound he’s able to produce to confirm her statement.

“Hum…”

For a moment she forgets about everything, happy to have found the set of stars and proud of her memory for remembering something she wasn’t sure was still stored in her mind.

“So you know astronomy too.” Jacob can’t avoid laughing a little as he says this, wondering how it’s possible for someone like Lara to exist.

“Roth insisted, so I could guide myself at night if something ever happened… And I came to like it.” She replies, with a warm smile on her face. “Never used it for that purpose, but I must admit that it came in handy last time I was here though.”

She makes a spinning motion with her hand.

“Ah, yeah… The orrery.” He completes the thought for her, letting out a sight.

“Seems you like astronomy too.”

“Yeah.” 

Jacob is now feeling a bit embarrassed, picturing what she must really think of everything she discovered about him years ago in the buried lost city, but his line of thoughts is quickly cut by her next comment.

“What about them?” He is confused for a second until she specifies her question. “The stars you pointed at.”

“Ah.” Jacob replies with a tired tone of voice. “Nothing important. Some elaborated comment meant to ease your mind while you were preoccupied about the way our, erm, exchange, ended, I guess.”

Lara turns on her side to look at him, sensing, only after an instant, that he may be now the one in need of saving.

“I should’ve said it directly…” He sighs, with his eyes still lost in the sky. “But I tend to overcomplicate everything: my actions, my words… Even my past is way too tangled and surreal to be remotely believable.”

“Neither is mine.” She replies right away, winning his attention back from the heavens. “And sure, I’m not gonna say that having someone build you a gigantic orrery is something normal people do every tuesday...”

Lara laughs at her own comment, taking the opportunity to scoot a little closer to him in the meantime.

“But…” She puts emphasis on the word, letting him know her previous comment was just there to ease the tension and that she’s about to talk about what really matters to her. “You see… I happen to love the way you, how did you say it?” Lara makes a humming noise as she thinks. “Ah, yeah, the way you overcomplicate your words.”

Her words strike against his heart with accuracy. The little hesitation left, is quickly vanished as she quickly proves her point.

“Your smile, your mind, your soul… Every single part of your being seems to be designed to allure me, to control me. To leave me out of breath. Every little part of you enchants me out of reason, making the silence my only partner when, in reality, all of my heart squeals whenever you are near me and weeps upon the idea of you going away.”

Jacob listens with care to his own words from the past as she recites them, feeling his soul twisting inside his body with every metaphor that comes out of her mouth.

Once she finishes, she gets even closer to him, leaving no room left in between them.

“Cannot believe you know that from memory…”

She clears her throat to interrupt him, not needing to put into words the correction of his comment.

“I see.” He’s now the one smiling a little. “You really do know the entire thing, right?”

She nods, seeing his smile and deeping hers even more.

“So, if you don’t mind, I’d like to hear what you were going to say.” She turns to lie on her back, fixing her eyes back to the group of stars he pinpointed before, not giving him the chance to refuse her petition. “Go ahead.”

He laughs a little before giving up, planting a soft kiss on her cheek before mirroring her position to have a clear sight of the sky.

“You win…” 

His right hand rises once again, to aid him with the explanation, while the left one moves with great care to grab hers as he begins to talk. 

“You can tell, just by their colors, that those nine stars, in between the two constellations you mentioned before, have always been there.” His right arm moves a little, as he points at one of them. “Nevertheless, that one, more blue than white, right in the middle, has not been visible for most of my existence.”

Lara waits patiently, as she lets the information sink, looking for a deeper meaning to his facts until it suddenly hits her.

“Wait… Without the middle one, you would not group that as a constellation, right?”

“Right.” He laughs a little at the thought of it. “Imagine it. Spent hundreds of years learning about the webbed starry sky and one day, or better said night, I looked up and a never seen before figure was there. As if that had always been its place, for it really was… I just couldn’t see it until then.” 

He readjusts his hand to let his fingers tangle in between hers.

“I see.” Lara’s eyes are now glued to the star in question, imagining what it was like for him to discover its presence. “Made you wait a long time…”

“Best things in life… Are the ones you have to wait for.”

Her eyes travel slowly away from the topic of their conversation in search of his own, allowing his last sentence to melt into the air as she processes the true meaning behind it.

Lara smiles a little at him, comprehending now why he wanted to tell her that story in the first place.

“I loved studying the stars.” He starts saying to her, using the same tone of voice she pictured for years to reread his letter. “Knew every single constellation as if the night sky were a burned map inside my memory.” 

Jacob makes a pause there, analyzing his own past before exposing the obvious conclusion.

“Without that knowledge, well… Who would’ve noticed a new light amidst the sea of glowing creatures that inhabit our darkest hours?”

He smiles a little, still surprised with the hundreds of things that had to happen to reach this point in his life.

“But it took its time. It waited until my passion and knowledge were at their highest and, after more than seven hundred years of life, when there wasn’t anything else to learn, there it was, finally visible to my eyes, challenging everything that I considered true throughout my existence.”

The grip on her hand tightens even more, fingers pressing firmly around hers.

“Just as today, the night needed to be at its darkest, and the sky had to be completely clear for the entire system to be visible. It’s almost as if, for the first time in many centuries, everything in existence had decided to work in perfect harmony just to bewitch me with a new marvel.” 

Jacob takes a moment to breathe but, instead of continuing to talk, he decides to turn to his side, facing her, waiting patiently for a few seconds until she follows his movement and mirrors it.

“You can imagine my glee, witnessing what felt so close to a miracle, after so many years of thinking that I already knew everything there is to see about the universe.”

Lara tries to pretend that she doesn’t understand the hidden meaning behind his words, but her blood doesn’t waste time to betray her, rushing in record time to conquer her face, painting her cheeks with so much blush that, this time around, the darkness of the night is not enough to be able to conceal it.

She hides her face in his chest for a few seconds, depleted of any strength to meet his eyes, and he isn’t surprised when it takes her way longer than usual to muster the courage to resurface. 

When she eventually raises her head, in a very slow and controlled motion, her sight is quickly welcomed with a deep and radiant smile, powerful enough to dispel most of her shyness away.

Jacob’s mind scours a few new topics of conversation in an attempt to find something to ease her way back into their almost whispered dialogue but, to his surprise, she’s the one to break the silence first, making a triumphant recovery in no time.

“And you wanted to keep all that to yourself…” Lara half-mumbles as she levels the playing field a bit, making Jacob blush a little too. “Shameful.”

He laughs at her comment, nodding his head a couple of times as he surrenders to her argument.

“Thanks…” He adds, almost a murmur, seeing right through her joke to treasure the true meaning of the words inside his heart. “Thanks.”

“It’s okay.” She adds, laying on her back once again to have another look at the constellation. “More than okay…”

Jacob sits up a bit, propping himself up on his elbows and looking up too to gaze at the sky.

“Mesmerizing, if you ask me.” He starts saying, eyes still glued to the stars, oblivious to anything else as she turns her head a little to look at him. “They don’t glow as much as many of their companions in this starry night, but I find them way more magical than any of them.”

“Oh, of course.” She lets out a couple of giggles, anticipating the effect of her next words on her target. “But I was actually talking about the analogy, not the constellation in question.”

Jacob’s smile freezes momentarily. 

He does his best to control his expectations, desperately trying to avoid disappointment, wondering if he hasn’t fully grasped the true meaning of her words.

Nevertheless, he has, and far from being disappointing, they’re the exact ones he wanted to hear all this time. 

He wasn’t even aware and he didn’t know how much he needed to hear them, but the moment those few words leave her mouth, he finds himself mesmerized by the effect they cast upon him.

“I meant about waiting.” Lara confirms, letting her hand travel a little and interlocking her pinky finger with his. “I’m more than okay with it.”

“Are you sure…?”

If there was any fear in his voice, it vanishes right away, for her reply is fast and decisive, and with no hint of hesitation on sight.

“Of course.” 

Jacob finds himself lost for words, as he has many times before, but somehow manages to mouth a thank you before looking away for a moment, attempting to compose himself as he’s still not used to experiencing these levels of happiness.

“Also, it makes sense…” Lara sits up, waiting until his eyes are back on her, concluding her argument by echoing his initial metaphor. “One should learn everything there is to know about the exposed sky before venturing into exploring the unseen.”

His silence lingers, but she doesn’t need to hear it out loud to understand how he feels. 

“Besides, there’s plenty of time and…. The stars aren’t going anywhere”

It takes him a couple more seconds but, after processing everything, he’s finally able to, at least, come up with something to say.

“Right… Right.” He’s so overwhelmed with feelings that his mind acts on its own, deciding to steer the conversation away from emotions for the time being. “Wish I knew the name of those ones, though.”

“Name?”

“Yeah, your scholars have surely come up with a name for the constellation.” He fully sits, legs crossed, spending a couple seconds thanking her, in silence, for allowing him to steer their conversation to a more comfortable topic. “They’re often based on mythical creatures, animals… I’ve been wondering what it must be for many years now.”

Lara makes an effort, scouring her memory as she tries to picture her old astronomy book, knowing perfectly which chapter contains the information she needs, but unable to recollect much of the content.

“I’m sorry…” She huffs, a bit mad at herself. “Can’t seem to recall the scientific name of that constellation, wish I did.”

“Oh, it’s okay, I was mostly thinking out l…”

“But I do know it is a unicorn.”

Jacob's eyes open wide, all hesitation and emotions put on hold with this new information, needing to hear her say that last sentence one more time before he fully assimilates it.

“What?”

“The figure it creates.” She confirms, looking up for a second. “It’s supposed to be a unicorn.”

“I… See…” A smile forms little by little on his face, extremely subtle at the beginning, taking its time to eventually develop into a full grin as he stares into the sky. “A unicorn.”

She looks at him for a few seconds, treasuring his happiness deep inside her heart, before starting to sense the weight of her eyelids, realizing how tired she really is now that their conversation has reached an enjoyable conclusion.  

“Glad I could help.” Lara stands up, stretching a little before turning to look at Jacob, offering him a hand to follow her. “But I’m afraid It’s getting late…”

“Or better said, it’s getting too soon, if you think about it... But yeah.” He agrees with the overall meaning, accepting the offer and standing next to her. “Depends on the point of view, I suppose.” 

She laughs while shaking her head a couple times and, still smiling at his comment, Lara locks her arm around Jacob’s and they start walking towards the village.

With the sun about to rise, there’s now light enough to see the path, but they still take their time to get there, walking way slower than usual, none of them really wanting this day to be over.

She almost complains when he insists on walking her to her cabin, but that gives them an extra minute together and that’s more than enough to shift her initial response.

They arrive in no time, his hand holding hers as they get ready to part their ways.

They’ve talked so much through the night that there seem to be no words left. Instead, Jacob just leans forwards, cupping her face with his free hand, and plants a soft kiss on her lips, spending a few seconds there before returning to his initial posture.

“Good night…” She whispers as a goodbye, smiling from ear to ear.

He returns the smile, vowing a bit to say farewell.

“Good morning.”

His last comment gets a tiny laugh out of her, but Lara manages to suppress it fast enough to avoid waking anyone, and heads decisively through the door before she has the chance to change her mind about it.

She enters her cabin with an unseen stealth, which is saying a lot given her background, recalling everything to perfection despite the lack of light and finding her cot in record time, but unfortunately, all her efforts fall in bane, for Sofia it’s not sleeping.

Lara has changed her clothes and is already in bed when her friend decides to speak up.

“Everything okay?” Sofia half whispers from her bed. “Seems quite late.”

Her comment makes her sigh, turning a little in her bed to face the other side of the room, almost as an instinct, despite not being able to see anything in the full darkness of the cabin.

“Yeah…” She replies, choosing her words with care, not ready to share everything yet, but not wanting to lie to her either. “The walk took longer than expected. Got distracted by the views.”

“Views?”

Lara smiles, grateful once again for the lack of light as this one conceals her true feelings.

“Got lost into the stars…” She admits, letting her back rest now against the bed as she stares at the ceiling, painting lights onto it with her imagination for a few seconds. “Sorry, didn’t mean to wake you.”

She hears a subtle laugh from the other side of the room, almost a sound of resignation.

“Oh, don’t worry, it wasn’t your fault… I’ve been awake for a while.” Sofia sighs, moving a little as she tries to find a better posture. “Perhaps I should’ve taken a walk too…”

“Too many things in your mind?”

There’s a few seconds of silence, but after a while, her voice finally forms an answer to Lara’s question.

“Yeah… For too long.” Sofia admits, taking a moment to give another thought to that statement. “Though I think some things will get better now that you’re here.”

“Anything in particular you want to talk about?” Sensing her hesitation Lara decides to step forward. “I can act surprised when you tell me about Levi, if you want to.”

Sofia manages to limit her chuckles to a subtle laughter, a bit surprised that her friend realized her feelings so quickly, needing only one day to understand her situation.

“Aren’t you quick witted.”

“Perks of solving so many puzzles, I guess.” Lara laughs a bit too, happy to see her friends' reactions but understanding way too well why she doesn’t want to talk about it yet. “If you ever need to…”

“I will, don’t worry”. She replies right away, moved by the offering. “And thank you, not only for this, but everything.”

“I thought we agreed four years ago that you’d stop thanking me about what happened…”

“I meant about my father…” 

Before the panic takes over Lara’s body, her friend finishes her sentence, quickly sending a sense of relief though all her body. 

“He hasn’t been the same for way too long and… Well…”

Sofia takes a second, recalling images of Jacob throughout the entire day, almost unrecognizable to the men he’s been since the Divine Source was destroyed.

“For a while now, he almost felt like broken, lost...” Lara’s eyes water a bit, but she is able to control most of her emotions, remaining silent as Sofia finishes her sentence. “But I think your presence does him good.”

“Really?” She manages to ask with a thin voice.

“Yeah…”

“Then I’m glad I’m back.” Her words choke a little on her throat but the emotions are filtered by the whispers and, what would be noticeable in any other contest, is rendered imperceptible.

“Still don’t know for how long?”

“No, there’s no plans…” She smiles, moving her hand slowly to clean a silent tear as it starts streaming down her face. “Just many things to figure out.”

“Well, you can do that here, and stay as much as you like, take your time.”

“I like that.” 

Her mind gets flooded by Jacob’s words as she smiles, picturing their constellation on the ceiling one last time before her eyes succumb to the tiredness. 

“Yes… Yes.” Lara smiles one last time before the darkness surrounds her to guide her into her dreams.“I'm… I’m…” 

She starts to sink into the deep, only one more sentence is said, escaping her mouth almost as a murmur.

“I’m just gonna take my time.”

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So... Here we are!!! Let me apollogize one more time, I should've written this one a month ago, but thanks to Tumblr I discovered Game Changer and, in a day, I had already developed a quite healthy obsession with Brennan Lee Mulligan (That still lasts to this day lol, just finished watching MaM), so yeah... Spent most of my free time watching dropout shows (upssss~~) Anyways, glad to be back, and... Idk, let me know if you're liking the fic, i guess XDDDDD

[lil-melody-moon]

I also have Heaven and Hell on CD! Took me forever to find it since I prefer finding music in physical shops than online. I have been a Sabbath fan since I was 17, and it wasn't until two years later that I finally found Heaven and Hell after searching for it for so long.

I'm actually almost done with completing my Led Zeppelin CD collection. I'm just missing Coda and Presence and I'll be done! It's surprisingly difficult to find those two though. I seem to have very strange luck in that aspect. I can find CDs of the relatively obscure bands I like, but I struggle a lot to find anything for the mainstream bands I enjoy. Led Zep is pretty popular especially around here, so I'm surprised it's taking me years to finish my collection.

And speaking of collections, do you collect anything that's not music related? I have crow instincts so I have a lot of them myself and of all sorts of things.

Hah! I had it easy with "Heave and Hell". Noticed it a few years ago in a shop, recalled that dad was praising this one so I went to him, showed him and he went with "WE'RE BUYING IT" and since then it's on my shelf <3

Surprisingly Led Zeppelin's albums are generally difficult to get. They are too popular, people see them and they are taking the albums. I remember when I was at the record store the first time and the owner literally pulled out the entire collecting when I was standing next to him. I stood for 15 minutes, wondering which one to take XDDD Went back a week later and there was none, everything was bought!

I collect video games, digitally mostly, because most of them doesn't have box releases nowadays. Plus my room is small so it's better that way I think. I also am starting collecting biographies. Have three already: two about John Lennon and one about The Doors. I kind of wish to find one about The Who soon - or most specifically a certain one about Keith Moon - but for that I'll probably need a hell lot of luck because this band is NOT popular in Poland. Also! I know there's John Bonham's biography out there somewhere, Ringo Starr's one as well, so they are a must too. But Moonie is a priority for personal reasons so yeah

[floofypan]

YEAAAA I CAN'T BELIEVE I GOT SICK TWICE IN A MONTH, crazy time that was. GAHHHH, I'm fairly sure it wouldn't take a year to finish it, but you never know, right? 🥹

Thank you for your good luck wishes <3 I will try my best <3333

Oh mmy god, I'm so happy to hear I was able to re-inspire you back to your fic. :,,, D

I have a few more questions for your AU if you don't mind. It's just something that I've realised when planning the storyboard and hoping you'd answer.

But it's also totally fine if you're not able to answer them! They're just thoughts in my head as I plan for my storyboard. :3

🍑 I have no idea how the story would progress in here since Wukong adopts MK, so I have been pondering on how would he meet up with the gang. How would he meet Pigsy, Tang, Sandy, and Mei? Would he still go on to be the Monkie Kid?

Mei, I've already made a headcanon of them meeting up while he's growing up, the others... no ideas yet.

🍑 In canon, I presume he is enamoured by Sun Wukong thanks to Tang's stories. MK in S4 has mentioned he read JTTW, but only where Wukong appears in the story. Which, mood. XDDD And I'm pretty sure MK reading JTTW could be due to Tang's influence anyway, lmaooooo.

I wonder if he would still be enamoured by Wukong when growing up to be his son. I think yes, but in the sense of "Oh my god, dad is so cool! I wanna be just like him when I grow up!" and maybe one day he's wandering around or something, stumbled on the place where he found Wukong's staff sealing DBK with PIF and Red Son trying (failing at first but ultimately succeeding thanks to ✨technology✨) to lift the staff and boom LMK could happen again xDDD

Oh shid I have so much ideas now on the possible ways MK could meet up with the gang when growing up. The brainworms are real.

🍑 And then there's a question of whether MK will become immortal or not as the story progresses. Based on this reddit post https://www.reddit.com/r/MonkieKid/s/dnF5Xqf1wB it says that in JTTW, Wukong likely has a natural long life ahead of him before becoming an immortal due to being born as a stone monkey. So with that in mind, with MK's origins being the same as Wukong's rock (or something), it's probably safe to say he is the same species. Albeit, somehow inheriting all of Wukong's abilities that he earned by studying with Subodhi and due to the Furnace.

I could probably do well to read JTTW and brush up on the events that happened in LMK for more ideas. But, hm. A thought for later. Research is daunting. So, later, later. Fun time headcanons for now.

PS : Not me realising that the majority of LMK's episodes all start with MK at Pigsy's. If canon still happens in this AU, it would need a massive overhaul if they were to happen while he's staying with Wukong. Same principle as before, I'll get there when I get there. Imma just have fun with what we have in the present, baby MK. 💖

Day 1 of Kreate10 : Very rough storyboarding moment

Lego Monkie Kid AU storyboard ideas

⚠️SEASON 4 SPOILERS⚠️

This animatic idea of mine is based on a Lego Monkie Kid AU I found on ao3 by RitzWrites.

The AU is that you can have both platonic and romantic soulmates and Wukong hasn't had one of any for all his life.

This animatic is basically just the reveal of baby MK with the song Mother by PorterRobinson 😭 I was listening to it the other day and got the inspiration to draw them ahahahaha

Link to the fic ♥️

good thing comes to those who wait (1/??) : https://archiveofourown.org/works/48337774/chapters/121913653

[rfaromance]

Hi! :D I just saw that your requests are open again (which is awesome!!) so I was wondering if I can request a (super weird but don't judge me XD) scenario where Ray finds me having a meltdown on my first night at Mint Eye (crying because of feeling overwhelmed) because I really hate new, unfamiliar places, new people, and of course, being kidnapped XDD

...I know it sounds so weird but it sort of makes sense in my head because I have to go away from home for a while really soon and entirely alone, which I've never done before and I'm just....really scared about it

I guess the Mint Eye thing sort of makes sense in that way because you didn't want to go but ended up being there anyway ??

...I don't even know what I'm saying XD

But it'd be so so nice if you could do a scenario where Ray finds me like, hiding under the duvet and blankets and sniffling because I don't wanna be too loud in my sobbing XDDD

And I know even though I'd be teary and totally freaking out on the first few nights there and Ray didn't really gain confidence until much later but

I'd just really love to get some (a lot of...) comfort from him

Like a hug even though he (both of us) are so timid and shy

Or even just a little whisper that I'll be okay

I'd

I'd be okay with anything;; :) XDD

Hi anon! Sorry this took me so long. I hope you're doing well, and I wish you luck on your new adventure!

In hindsight, you might have been a tad too hasty.

You laid on your back, sinking in the soft, fluffy pink duvet as if you were floating on a cloud. The large, elegant windows allowed plenty of natural light to pour in, illuminating the room in a warm, peachy glow as daytime dwindled into twilight. The velvet chairs and elegant paintings surrounding you, combined with the glittering chandelier and walls the color of April, made you feel as though you were royalty in a castle.

This room was your kingdom, and Ray promised himself to be your prince charming.

If that was the case, then why...

Why did your eyes sting and why was your throat choked with stress and strife?

The offer of free room and board in exchange for simply testing a video game was too tempting to resist. If Ray had specifically requested you, then that meant it was a task that was suited to you, right?

But his honey-sweet words and serene seafoam eyes could only keep you placated for so long. Now that you'd had time to be alone and truly think about your situation, you were terrified.

What kind of fool blindly takes an escort to an undisclosed location? By the request of a stranger, no less! Ray had set you up to live lavishly while you assisted him, but his insistence that you follow his script and stay confined to this floor (of how many, you had no clue, because you hadn't been permitted to remove the sleep mask until you were indoors) raised more questions than answers.

Ray was kind and charming, in his bashful way, but you didn't know him. He didn't know you.

You didn't know anyone here, and suddenly you felt hopelessly small, like a silly lamb who'd been rounded up by a wolf adorned in magenta wool.

That was the feeling that was overwhelming your senses, causing you to curse the orange and pink hues of sunset and to loathe the vast expanse of this picturesque room that felt painfully empty. Fear had taken a vice grip on your heart, and as you floundered to catch up with all of the details you could recall and all of the mistakes you'd made, your body found its release in the best way it could.

Tears.

You threw yourself under the layers of bedding until the light was finally blotted out. You needed silence and darkness if you were to calm yourself, but as you gasped for air between sobs, you found yourself heaving like a fish out of water. Every breath in this room felt thick, dangerous, suffocating. You hugged your knees into your chest, making no effort to wipe the saltwater or the snot dribbling all over your face. You were spending all your effort on keeping yourself conscious as your sobs became louder, your wails choppier, and your sniffles more frantic. You tried to grab a few layers of sheets in your hand to muffle your sobs, but the way that your entire body trembled with each cry, you couldn't be sure that the sound was any quieter.

You were absolutely terrified, and you had nobody to blame but yourself. You chose this, didn't you? What an idiot.

You were an idiot who was all alone on what you thought was cloud nine, but instead was a delusional mirage.

The last thing you wanted was to draw attention to yourself, as pathetic and vulnerable as you felt right now. So when you heard soft footsteps and saw light beginning to peek into your cave as your comforter was pulled back, you almost passed out from shock.

Cautiously pinching your blankets and gazing at you with minty blue eyes that pierced the darkness of the room, now only illuminated by starlight, was none other than Ray.

Was he angry? Disappointed? What would he do if you expressed your doubts? Would he resent you? You didn't even need to say a word; surely the sniveling, shivering mess in front of him would be enough for Ray to figure out your feelings.

He reached out with his other hand, and you winced as you braced for impact.

But all Ray did was simply pat you on the head, his gloved fingers gently stroking through your hair.

You couldn't see his face too well in the dark, but you could have sworn that his gentle smile looked... sorrowful.

"Does this help?" he murmured, and his hand stopped moving as he waited for your response. When you nodded in affirmation, he then resumed, stroking your head rhythmically. "May I ask..." He paused, as if uncertain how to proceed, or whether he should proceed at all.

Tentatively you crawled further out of the blankets, until you were sitting at the edge of the bed with the messy heap of duvet and sheets wrapped around you like a cloak. Ray lowered himself onto his knee in front of you, and with a pang of guilt you realized his eyes were fretful, not furious. Was he worried about you?

Could you be bold enough to assume he was worried about you?

"Change can be scary," he said suddenly, his voice light but strained. "The world is full of darkness and evil, of liars and traitors, and that makes change scary. You never know what to expect." He lifted his hand for a moment, but quickly he lowered it back by his side. "I want to be happy, to be free of pain. And..." His hand came up again, and this time he brought it towards you. It hovered above your knee for a moment, and you realized that he was quivering. "I want you to have peace and joy, as well. You deserve an eternal paradise."

He moved to take his hand away again, but before he could, you reached a hand towards him, grabbing his fingers before he could withdraw completely.

Even you were taken aback by that sudden, brash display, but... something about the way Ray spoke encouraged you. He made you want to believe in kindness, in wonder, in paradise.

"I'm scared," you confessed at last, hoping the tremors in your chest didn't reflect too heavily in your voice. "New situations overwhelm me. But... I'll do my best to help you." You slid your palm into his and gave his hand a firm squeeze. "I don't want to let you down."

Even in the faint light of only moon and stars, you could have sworn you saw a flash of crimson flush across Ray's pale cheeks. He smiled, more warmly this time, as he whispered,

"I promise you won't, my prince(ss)."

[exalted-dawn-drabbles]

Happy Friday and welcome!! For DADWC: "someone pulling away from a hug you wish would last longer" for Talenna/Calder?

Thank you so much @oxygenforthewicked and @dadrunkwriting for the prompt! TBH not even sure if this is good as my mind went numb halfway through writing it but hopefully you enjoy nonetheless XDDD

Rated T: for horny thoughts

Wins and Losses | Exalted_Dawn

Tangled arms and mingled breath. The press of body against body. Heat into heat. A dangerous meeting between moments, where what was meant to last a beat stretched into a song. 

Talenna… didn’t want to pull away. Of that much she was certain. His hands, pressed tight against the curve of her hip and flat of her back, were blessedly warm against the rain-chill that had settled into her bones, chasing away her shivers with the barest brush of his thumb into her skin. His whole body was a furnace. A fever pitch. And it was only too easy– too tempting– to lean in and melt. 

She breathed him in a final time and stepped back. 

“Ma serannas, Rogelin, for escorting me again,” she breathed, her voice quiet and head bowed to disguise her disappointment. Her longing. Such meetings never lasted long enough, and she already hated goodbyes. “I am sorry, though, that we ended up getting caught in the rain.”

Calder, in spite of looking more drenched than a wet dog, smiled widely. “Think nothing of it, Wolf Queen. After all, I consider getting caught anywhere with you to be good luck on my part. There is hardly anything bad about spending more time with so splendid a woman.” 

A slight smile twitched to her lips. “Charming words for a soggy bear. Though-”

She paused, eyes flicking across his rain-soaked linens with admittedly genuine admiration of how the shirt seemed to hug to his muscles and chest. She herself was well protected and dry beneath the cloak Calder had let her as soon as the storm had started in earnest– citing something about his Fereldan blood being more than capable of handling the cold. Though she wasn’t sure how much of that was pageantry and how much he actually believed that, it wasn’t as though she was about to complain.

“Between the two of us, I am quite certain that I am the more fortunate,” she finished, satisfaction clinging to her words just as stubbornly as Calder’s shirt to his biceps. 

Seemingly emboldened by her words, Calder closed much of the distance she had put between them, until they were standing nearly a hair's width apart. In simultaneous dissonance, warning bells and joy like wind chimes tolled in the back of her head at the reclaimed proximity. 

A large hand came up to cup her cheek, lingering for long enough to warm the skin, before it fell along the curve of her throat. With the calloused fingers and scarred knuckles, he tenderly brushed away a few strands of hair that had laid plastered against her skin, leaving goosebumps in their wake. His eyes followed each gesture with a quiet intensity, his eyes downcast. Focused. 

He chuckled– the sound more a deep-reaching rumble than a laugh– and ducked his head to catch her gaze. His pupils were wide and the amber of his eyes near burnt. “I would not be so sure.”

A small flick of her ears was the only tell Talenna allowed to slip– certain, at least, that Calder wasn’t yet so keen to notice such a subtle break in composure. It took more of an effort than she’d like to admit to keep her gaze steady and her breath even in that moment; his touch lingering on her skin even still, as if demanding to be acknowledged. She would not. 

“Oh?” she breathed, the quiet acknowledgement stretching in the space between them. “And what reason do you have to doubt me, Rogelin?”

Echoed in his eyes was a familiar hesitation– the look someone wears when staring down their opponent from over a chess board. An eager fascination. The flicker of challenge and excitement. He was trying to figure her out. 

Another thing she would not allow. Not yet. 

She raised a questioning brow, and the look soon passed, hidden behind an impish grin. It would seem he found his answer. “You would not be asking such an obvious question if you had the same view that I do right now.” 

“And you would not be so confident if you had my view,” she countered easily, reaching up to pluck at Calder’s half-translucent shirt, as if to prove a point. “Though even if I did share your sight, I am not so enamored with myself to ever agree with you. That sort of behavior is best left to showboating blondes who think themselves clever and silver-tongued.” 

Bishop takes Knight.

His smile broadened, lopsided and tipsy in a way that could make fainter hearts falter. His hand, the one that had only just kissed her neck, fell to her shoulder, following the slope of it until it came to rest lightly on her cloak-covered arm, and he squeezed. “You know, if you find me so cocky, maybe it isn’t the best idea to continue to stroke my ego.”

Rook takes Bishop. 

“Maybe not, but just because it isn’t smart doesn’t make it any less truthful,” she hummed, leaning ever so slightly into the pull of his grip. 

Queen takes Rook. 

He leaned less slightly, his head bowing until flax blonde hair, darkened with rain, brushed against her forehead. A low noise of disbelief– something like a huff but fonder– curled around them both. The sound was swear and a secret. “And this is precisely what I mean when I say I am a lucky man. You, Talenna, are spoiling me. How am I supposed to return to the loneliness of my tent if you make parting so difficult?”

Queen takes Queen. Threatens King.  

The weight of Talenna’s own far-too-empty tent at her back– the invitation of it– tugged sharply at her resolve. The night would be cold, and the storm-chill would make it even more so. Her standard issue bedroll, lacking the thick furs she had grown accustomed to using when with her clan, would provide little refuge against it. Not as much as the heady warmth of his hand on her arm, and certainly not even close to that of the memory of his embrace, now scorched into her mind.

It would be all too easy. Already, the words played along her tongue like wildfire. 

‘You’re not,’ she wanted to say. ‘Stay.’

Fenedhis lasa. It would be too easy, and yet it was far too difficult. She couldn’t.

“With fond thoughts and a yearning for more,” she answered instead, soft and teasing. Before she could think twice, she closed what little space remained between them and pulled him close. It was a brief hug– too shy to linger like the first they had shared– and she quickly stepped away before his arms could find her again. This only made the evening’s cold more evident, but Talenna simply couldn’t risk a checkmate. In the end, it was safer just to forfeit. “Which would be only fair, as you often leave me with the same. It would seem neither of us are very good at this ‘parting’ business, are we?”

For a moment, Talenna could have sworn she saw disappointment in Calder’s eye as she secured her retreat, but she hastily disregarded it. She couldn’t allow herself to hope it was anything more than him mourning a game ended. And just as quickly, the moment had passed. 

“It would seem so,” he agreed. His hands fidgeted for a second before falling flat to his sides. “But I am a fair bit better at taking instructions. If fond thoughts and yearning are all that’s required of me, Wolf Queen, then it should be an easy order to follow. Even if it is a terribly sadistic one.”

The joke coaxed an honest laugh out of her, and she felt just a bit of her unease fade. She smiled in return. “Ir abelas, Rogelin, but I have faith that you will pull through in the end.”

“Then I will do my best to honor it in the meantime. But for now, you should probably get inside and warm up before you catch your death. Wouldn’t want to upset that delicate constitution of yours,” he teased, bowing low with the ghost of a smile still tilting his lips. “Until next time, Talenna.”

“Until next time,” she chuckled, letting the ‘delicate constitution’ comment slide with little more than an exasperated huff. She’d have plenty of time to get back at him later. But tonight was undeniably his win, so for now she would swallow her pride.

Until next time.

Until next time.

[pillowxtalk]

I SHIP YOU WITH ME BECAUSE I'M BACK, BISH! xDDD

MATCHMAKER! Go on anon and tell my muse who you ship them with!

(( First of all welcome back. I'm really happy to see you back around I wish you from the bottom of my heart the best of luck with the new start of your blog. You can interact with any of my muses you want to interact with and you can also choose as many as you want. Also my IM is open if you just wanna chat. Secondly I think it should be alright to have answered this out of character. xD

[danhoemei]

Thank you so much, for answering my asks. If you don't mind me asking, who are your favorite MXTX characters (top 5 from each novel)? And why? I'm sorry if you've answered this question before.

Gosh 5 each novel. You really like fives huh

[SPOILERS ahead]

MDZS

1. wei wuxian

A ray of sunshine with a noble heart; smart and witty, wild and bold, not afraid to reach for what he wants and not afraid to fight for what he believes in.

2. a qing

I was immensely impressed by her wit and creativity. Her sharp mind and sharp eyes and an even sharper tongue could utterly destroy others lmao. I am WEAK for smart characters and she rocks it. If only she had more luck...

3. jiang cheng

He has a lot to work on and can be unbearable but no matter how much he tries he can’t hide the softness in him. I know many people don’t like him and I understand, but I have a soft spot for characters who try too hard and constantly feel inadequate, who don’t believe in themselves, who are hard to approach and bottling their feelings and thoughts up, but given love and understanding they can bloom and be fiercely loyal to those who are precious to them.

4. wen qing

Tough, brave, ready to fight, smart and unyielding. Inspiring. I am also often fond of medics, I almost always play rpgs as the team’s badass medic xd

5. meng yao

He suffered a lot and never gave up, constantly cornered and made to fight for survival in a world which repeatedly rejected him. He committed awful crimes, but many other people in mdzs did, and I kind of can’t blame only him without blaming society and others as well. There is a good post that puts to words my saltiness for this character.

TGCF

1-2. xie lian & hua cheng 💕

xl impressed me for his wit and calmness. Cheerful and accepting of whatever was to come, but at the same time ready to give his all in literally anything, no matter if it was an important matter or a small task he was given. I liked to see him grow and mature, then find his happy place surrounded by his friends he cared about and fought for 😭

hc similarly to xl, impressed me in his own ways. He was pretty much a mary sue, to a kinda ridiculous degree at some points, and I regret that we couldn’t see more of his background and know him solely as xl’s sidekick, when there could be so much more content. But anyway, his sheer devotion still sends be flying. He suffered so much and should have disappeared so many times, but every time his love and need for xl’s protection held him in this world. Ghost king created of love. I am on my knees.

3. pei ming

Lmfao enjoyed his every appearance. He has his flaws but his core is kind and honest, and I respect him for that.

4. yin yu

I do have a thing for sad loyal and hardworking characters xd Thinking about his story twists my insides because of the amount of powerlessness and slow descending to despair that I felt. I respect how hard he tries, even while being aware of his shortcomings or lack of “talent”. He’s sad and I wish for him to be happy ;___;

5. he xuan

Another person who suffered a lot yet wasn’t destroyed by their misfortune and injustice, rather rose as a different person filled with determination, persistent in their goals.

Svsss

1. shang qinghua

Best hamster character lmfao. Chaotic, full of memes, just trying to survive and live by. Forgetful but smart and creative. Made me laugh many times and he has a comfy nest in my heart.

2. liu qingge

Hah, another grumpy and awkward character who has problems expressing themselves. I’m soft for him and I want happiness for him ;___; Qingge my boi ;____; Svsss should have been a harem story change my mind you won’t.

3. shen jiu

Another unhappy character with a shitty life huh. I am once again impressed by wit and strong survival instincts. Can’t get too deep into him because, I must confess, I haven’t been able to read his extras... If something is too painful I feel it physically and I’m afraid that I wouldn’t be able to handle the amount of powerlessness, anger at the world, and regret for what could have been. I know enough from the fandom tho :’) Anyway, I like this poor bastard despite his shortcomings and I dwell on the idea of AUs where he and qi-ge can open up to each other and be happy ;___;

4. shen yuan

Awkward millennials constantly screaming inside, what’s there not to relate to lmao

5. mu qingfang

Again, soft spot for medics xd Also pretty related to his #done attitude towards his friends going around doing stupid shit and getting hurt. Had so many situations like that in rpgs I played with my friends xddd *flashbacks to ridiculous stunts my friends pulled*

[kanene-yaaay-o-retorno]

How To Catch a Friend

Kanene’s note: Heyaaa!  Well, this is a very late fanfic written due @kieraelieson‘s Make This In Your Only Style Contest. I choose prompt one because it was the one that most inspired me, and I really like the result!

Warnings, fun facts, random things and stuff:

* That is an Alternative Universe with Fairy!Patton, Magic!Logan, Witch!Virgil and Magic!Roman

* This characters do not belongs to me. They all belongs to Thomas Sanders in his series of Sanders Sides.

* Warning for Angst (but only a bit), cursing, fighting, mention of explosions, slightly hurt/comfort and brief shouting.  This has about 7.000 words because I got hella inspired due this very good prompt. Kiera, I am looking directly at you XDDD <333. Thankys for the inspiration!

* I didn’t proof read it very well, so I am sorry for any spelling, pontuation and grammar mistakes! Any advice is very very welcome!

* Want to know more about this AU? Here is a post for ya! They’re precious and I will fight for them. Thankys for reading, my lollipops! Stay calm, take a time to yourself, remember to eat today, hug asoft thing, make a wish, drink water and sleep well! Byeioo!~

[~*~]

“I can’t do anything right!” The tiny fairy cried, crumpling forlornly onto the stump.

Logan realized then that the dare to keep walking had not been intended to be possible. He frowned slightly, wondering if it was even possible to comfort the little thing when he was the one to upset him.

“Please don’t cry. I can step back and you can try again to trap me.”

The fairy sniffed, wiping his eyes. “You would do that?”

“Certainly. I’ve tried enough difficult things to know that it sometimes it takes several attempts to get it right.”

“Ohh, okay!” His tiny head nodded thoughtfully, the hair strands bouncing a bit with the movements, which made Logan wonder how the gravity influenced the little being and if he could bring up this discussion in his school.

Definitely not during class, the other kids didn’t like when he talked a lot, especially about things that weren’t in the book and ‘therefore’ - Logan didn’t grasp the logic in this. Books are great, however can’t contain all the knowledge that existed about the subject and most of the time their approach wasn't nearly as interesting as it should be. - weren’t important to say.

Logan couldn’t understand how could exist something that wasn’t worth being said or asked.

“How do gravity work on you?” He blurted out, looking behind, the tip of his tongue out matching with the frown on his face as the boy tried to step on his exact footsteps previously left on the dry dirt.

The fairy hummed, the movements of his wings making him to go slowly up and down, up and down, up and down. Like a seesaw, Logan would point, if he wasn’t so concentrated on the task of retreating and re-doing his previous steps very carefully. A funny image of himself and the fairy playing on the toy would also pop on his mind, perhaps making a giggle bubble on his chest.

The small magical being, in other hand, would think it was more like a leaf swinging back and forth on their branch before falling, the actual image of him and a very small human swinging and holding a branch as they smiled shining among his thoughts for three pieces of time, leading a giggle to escape and shake the tip of his wings. But he quickly tapped his temple a few times, attempting to poke that thought away.

The other fairies said he got attached too much easily.

“I don’t know.” The human seemed flatter his shoulders with a ‘oh’ and the winged being couldn’t help but continue his sentence, hurried “But I know how to sing in bee! Ah, please stop right there!”

The boy did as requested, his left hand running on the spine of his book back and forth, making the other wonder if the letters inside it were bigger than his – comparatively – tiny hands. His gaze fled until it met with the bigger being sparkled eyes. “Do you? Really? Why do I need to stop here?”

“Because it’s the closest where my trap is, kiddo! I’m going to redo the magic really quick. Then I can show you a bit of the dance!!” His tune bathed itself in joy, his hair strands looking as if they were floating in the air with how fast he flicked his wings, coming down to grab a brown pot, a silver liquid gleaming inside it. He stepped on the ground, spilling the potion on ten green leaves before going up, the liquid following him on absurdly thin strings that the magic fairy used to tie on the lower branches from the tree shading their forms, intelligible words coming out his mouth during the whole process.

The strings then spiraled before turning invisible.

“There! You can try to pass again, please, please, please!”

“Thank you,” the boy replied, remembering it was polite to reply with a good word when someone used a good word with you.

But it didn’t work. Again. The one who spent hours and hours preparing the potion - not only the simplest spell, but the simplest magic human trap - felt a painful tug on his stomach. The mean thoughts came back one more time, but he was too much distracted looking at the unfazed silver strings to poke them out.

“A-are you really a human?” He sniffed.

“Yes. I believe I am.”

“I can’t even catch the easier prey in the world!”

The young human noticed the distress on the other, this making an unpleasant feeling scratch his chest. He thought about what he could do to help. Usually talking about things he understood helped him. Yes, he really liked to talk. It felt good and very, very warm. Not hot. Hot made him stink and gave a really disgusting feeling on his skin. Talking was warm, different and good. Especially when people paid attention to him.

He could pay attention to the fairy. He also liked to listen.

“Why wouldn’t it work if I was not a human?”

“Humans are too much curio-ous to feel the magic or run away from it. This was the simplest potion to catch you! I spent an entire day preparing it, the ingredients aren’t hard to find, b-but I get very distracted.”

“Do you want me to come back tomorrow so you can try again?”

The tiny fairy blinked, looking at him with awe. “Would you do that?”

“Yes, of course. That is why I offered.”

“Oh, my stars. You’re the best human ever! Thank you, thank you, thank you, kiddo!!”

However, then he remembered a thing about humans. Humans are liars. They’re always busy, full of things to do and words empty of meaning to share. His bright smile fell a bit. 

 Well, at least they had the good luck of spending some time together having fun, right? Something deep down which wasn’t prepared to say goodbye grabbed the first excuse which appeared on his mind, didn’t want it to end just yet. “Do you still wanna see the dance?”

“Yes!” His wide eyes followed as the winged creature danced in loops and shaking his body, a soft buzzing filling the wind along with giggling.

“It can tickle.” It’s the explanation after he is done. Logan nods, making notes on the book he is carrying around, the tip of his tongue showing out again. He suddenly stops.

“What does it mean?”

“What?” The other asks, sitting on the pages and discovering with a joyful couple of clicks that his hands are actually bigger than the letters!

“The dance. Mom says that not everything has a meaning, which is weird but I remember seeing on TV that bee’s dance is commonly used to communicate, share localizations and therefore all their dances mean something. What does it say?”

“Oh,” he traced a letter with his finger, feeling the texture and avoiding the taller one gaze, “goodbye.”

“Thank you.” Logan nodded, circling some symbols and adding more symbols above it “Can you move, please? The Sun is beginning to set, I need to go home.” Both were momentarily embraced by the silence as the fairy moved to sit on a near branch, swinging his legs distractedly as a bird sang near, their attention captured by the melody.

The boy was the first to get out of the trance when the song stopped. “I’m going to be back by the same time tomorrow.” He wondered if fairies had clocks, however something on his mind said ‘no’, probably because the small being wasn’t always looking at his pulse and clicked for an entirely different reason. “Two hours before the sunset.” He provided, his chest for some reason scratching again when he didn’t see the excited flutter of the tip of the other’s wings, or the floating hair, just a smile.

“Okay.” Humans were busy, full of things to do, full of important tasks to attend.

They don’t come back.

“I will wait for you.” Patton - but Logan didn’t know this yet (and would him ever?) - answered with the most truthful sentence he could gather.

“Ok.”

Both waved as the distance between them increased, smiling their own small smiles.

The other fairies said he got attached too easily.

[~*~]

“Good afternoon, fairy.”

“You came back.” Patton’s mouth was wide open, the small pot shaking precariously on his hold, his utensil falling and being forgotten beside the rock where he sat. This couldn’t be true. Was it true? Was the damsels of wind and light pranking him with illusions? 

Humans didn’t come back.

They didn’t care enough to come back.

But not this human.

“You came back!! You really came back!” Suddenly it was like the Sun had set on his stomach, filling his entire body with warmth and rays and sparkles and energy and warmth, warmth, warmth!

“Clearly. Just as I said I would.” The human’s voice sounded a lot more near now, since Patton bust in his direction, flying around the other in a paint of loops, twirls and giddy giggling that didn’t take long before being accompanied by the taller own huffed giggles. “Is it a bee dance again? What does it say?”

“No! It’s a Patton dance and it means ‘Welcome Back’!!”

“Patton?”

“Yes! That is me!” The tiny fairy landed on his hair, gasping a bit, unaware of his wings messing with some hair strands with their incessant, uncontrollable flapping.

“You’re not a specie.”

“Nope! But I’m as special as one! Just like you’re also the only one of your kind!”

“I’m not the only human that exists.”

“Yup! But you're the only one that thinks, feels and lives just like you.” Patton could feel the human frown in confusion. Clicks filled the air as he tried to think in how to explain his thoughts. “Everyone is... special. The Universe will never be able to make another Patton again, that is why I exist and that is why it’s a Patton Dance!”

“Hm.” Logan didn’t actually understand everything, but his mom told him every opinion is important, even if sometimes you think they’re wrong... or weird. The little magical being was a bit weird. Other people said Logan was also weird, usually when he talks a lot about a lot of things.

The boy decided it was a cozy feeling, being weird with Patton.

“My name is Logan.”

[~*~]

Virgil was not worried.

He was a witch. He studied every single spell put in front of him in the most complete way possible. All the weakness, all the dangers, all the consequences, all the afterwards effects, all the ingredients, the necessary rituals... Everything. His full nickname on the academy used to be Thunderstorm of Stormclouds due his habit of knowing all the details, all the books, as if he devoured every bit of information in front of him. His dorm was often full of sounds and explosions of his incessant attempts of replicating all the magic learned.

That is the why of ‘Thunderstorm’.

But never, ever, any accident happened in the classes he one day attended. Because he was careful. He understood the dangers of magic and its instability. He mastered protection spells and charms and it wasn’t before him to wait for all of his classmates to go to sleep to sneak out of the dorms and shove on a big part of the building a bunch of security magic. 

The thought of that, even years later, if the professors searched carefully, they would still find some of his amulets between the walls’ small holes and webs on the ceiling still made a toothless smile cripple on his face.

So, back then, even if people were wary of him most of time, they still felt safe enough around him - and honestly, to Virgil that more than enough - that is why of ‘Stormcloud’.

It wasn’t that Virgil didn’t trust his professors or classmates. He was just prudent.

TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM THOSE TWO KIDS!

Virgil huffed from the shadow he was sat, camouflaging his form as his gaze traveled to the watch on his pulse, confirming that one hour had already passed and the tiny fairy - Patton, as it seems - didn’t come back looking for any forgotten belongings. His form sunk in the darkness, submerging on every tree’s shadow in a ray of thirty meters to check the strong points on the protection spell he casted there on the last week. The tight knot on his stomach loosening with the acknowledgement that his entomagic triggered in the afternoon didn’t affect it, even if the guilt kept the knot firmly where it was.

The witch didn’t expect such a bigger reaction from them, when he first set the spell. It was something simple, really, only a few groups of spiders, ants and caterpillars appearing from a dull thud around the two unsupervised kids playing with magic and trying to crawl on them. A quick, unharmful and scary enough act to make them flee and hopefully go to get an adult next time they desired to practice their spell abilities.

But Virgil should’ve known how much terrifying an army of insects would be to a fairy, who immediately screamed as the scene before him settled and attached himself onto his friend – Logan, I think? – the fear apparently taking over his body, leading him to half fly and half stumble around the human, confusing and startled him enough to fall and kick in despair to get the most away as possible from the animals.

The adult immediately undid the spell, realizing how spectacularly it failed – like most of the things he tried to do, ha – however, he couldn’t just make the small whimpers and tears from the other’s two disappear in a ‘puff’ as well, his heart being squeezed with the scene of Logan trying to clumsily hug an obviously shaken Patton as him himself tried to stop his trembling limbs. And, even if Virgil deposited in a near, visible rock a small chocolate bar with curative properties and whispered soothing, soft words on the wind and made them fly to the others until they both were calm again, he couldn’t bring himself to go away back to his cottage like any other day. 

He quietly accompanied the two as they ate his treat (not after Logan’s analyze and final word that it was safe, of course) and forgot the trap in order to play and have fun a few feet from its original location and then talk about stars and planets, a subject which seemed to interest both parts.

Virgil wasn’t good with social etiquettes, so it took some great days of searching to discover how to apologize in Fairies Language and to find the exact gift he was looking for. 

He put the star map and the small pot of cider inside a trunk, visible enough to be seen only for the younglings when they arrived in the same spot they always met. 

The witch took a deep breath, shaking his head. No. Nope. His work here was done. He put charms and spells around the place. They would be fine. They would be okay and even better as the adult stopped to put his nose on their business. There was absolutely no reason for him to keep extending it. He would go back to his cottage and to his normal life, just like it was and always had been.

Just like it was supposed to be. It had been fun to remember those times from the academy, when people trusted him and actually got a gleam on their eyes when he entered the place. 

But this wasn’t his academy. Virgil had nothing to do with Patton and Logan. He should go.

And that was what he did.

[~*~]

To their and his own credit, it took about one month in its entirety before things came crashing down in an avalanche.

He was quite impressed, when he stopped to think about it. But on the day the events occurred? He was terrified.

And he knew, believe me, Virgil knew very well when the wind got a tad stronger than it usually was, causing the fairy to lose his balance and slightly hit the boy’s hands, not even hard enough to hurt any of them, but enough to cause a distraction and to let an extra drop of Waterfalls Tears – secure, easy to find, easy to lose. Extremely volatile when used together with Aqua Flower’s petals; Used on the Old Era due its beautiful pyrotechnics – on the mix. More specifically, the mix of Dandelions Roars, Rainbow Feathers and Aqua Flowers, that none of them, except for him, would notice the mistake before it was too late. 

Before their eyes got wide as the mix started to spark, air full-filling in clicking sounds as the pot heated on the point its own porcelain almost melted, too much scared and distracted by the louds sounds that grew louder, louder, louder to acknowledge the trepidation of quick, desperate footsteps getting closer and closer of them.

Aqua Flowers and Waterfall Tears. 

Virgil knew the dangers of magic. He knew that he spent hours planting and sneaking protective spells and amulets as well as charms, the exact ones he was trespassing right now, enough to keep them safe especially to moments like that without his help or interference.

Aqua Flowers and Waterfall Tears. 

This is not safe. Run. They need to run.

He knew about explosions and scars and the consequences. He knew about despair, the paralyzing fear taking over their bodies, and yet the witch found himself wishing they would just run, go away, to be safe.

Why was he back? 

Aqua Flowers Waterfall Tears. 

Not safe. Not safe. They need to run, run,

RUN

They were just kids playing with things that they don’t entirely understand. They had nothing to do with him. They would survive. They would be okay, eventually. Things like that took some time, but they eventually heal. Everyone eventually heals. He has nothing to prove, nothing to owe to them. 

Why the fuck was him back?

Patton screamed something he couldn’t understand with his heart beating pulsing on his ears, Logan firmly closed his eyes – so fearful, so wide – and covered his ears, curling on his own form as the sparkles and bolts shouted from the bowl. Virgil got faster, stronger.

He got close enough to involve both with his arms, hugging them close to his chest as his body turned in a dangerous slip, creating a physical barrier between the younglings and the explosion, which hit him more like a hot wave than something actually dangerous. Good. It had worked. He felt trembling forms under his touch, except the witch couldn’t really tell if it was Patton, Logan or his own wobbly hands.

“Shh, shhh. It’s okay. You’re okay.” His gaze, sharp, wary, darted to the ground behind him, looking for any hints of other danger lurking near, signing in relief when found nothing, altered breathing. 

Oh stars, he was getting too old for this shit. “The explosion is over. It can’t hurt you anymore. You’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay.” Only then, after being sure nothing really represented danger anymore, Virgil turned his attention to the kids in his embrace.

He first noticed the boy inside a brown shield, a coat of arms on the necklace hanging on his neck shining brighter or duller as Logan seemed to mumble something to it, small words and nods as he kept his hands firmly pressed on his ears. So the youngling kept an own protective amulet with him? Smart boy.

It was only when the witch stared the fairy glaring at him with gleaming, warm eyes, mouth slightly open that the gears on his mind looked to start functioning again.

‘…the kids on his embrace’

Oh no. No, no, no. He had just jumped on act, taken over by his instincts again and then screwed everything blowing his cover up during the process, hadn’t he?

Fuck.

The realization seemed to just got stronger as Patton open and closed his mouth a bunch of times, the tip of his wings fluttering in a way that probably was terror, leading the fairy to go up and down, up and down in maybe a despair to run away, but too much afraid to actively leave his friend alone with that scary random guy who jumped out a damn shadow and grabbed them out from nowhere.

Well done, Virgil. Well hecking done. Now you terrified those kids out of their mind. They can’t even speak properly anymore. You don’t even know how fairies or kids work! Now look at this, you broke them!

“It’s you!” To the one dressed with the long vestments typical of witches blinked astonished when the first thing to come out from the small being lips wasn’t a scream. Patton only beamed more, his smile increasing as he closed his eyes and concentrated. “It’s really you!!”

“Why did you do that?” Logan, who previously dissolved the magic shield asked, his tune free of discomfort, blank and curious.

“I…”

“Logan, Logan, it’s him!!” and, before any of them could add anything else, Patton continued amidst his clicks “It’s the kind witch!!”

[~*~]

“No.” He said firmly, internally wishing he seemed a whole lot sterner than he sounded.

Virgil was a skilled witch. He knew things enough to be a requested warrior at the beginning of his career, quickly turning on the most feared opponent due his tactics. He was the Stormcloud: fast, wary, unpredictable, soundless, using the environment in his favor with hidden traps and shadows for locomotion. His attacks were restless and never unfair. He was strong, resolute…

And he was NOT going to lose because of Puppy Eyes.

“No,” he repeated, trying to keep his composure when even Logan pouted, “give up, I’m not going to throw Patton in the air, especially just to see how the gravity works on a fairy.”

“But it’s an experiment!”  Logan quickly pointed, frustration painting his tune as if Virgil couldn’t understand the importance of this statement. “This is what science is for!” Virgil sensed a small wave of deja vu, feeling like he had already heard this somewhere else. 

“He can fall and injure himself and I’m not going to spend my ingredients to make a heal potion when I could avoid the injury in the first place.” 

“But, but, but! I’m not going to fall, you're going to catch me. I know it! I trust you!” And then, in a totally unfair move Patton held Virgil’s index finger between his palms, somewhat increasing his pleading eyes, “If something goes wrong, I can fly!! Please, please, kind witch.”

Virgil growled, deviating his eyes to Logan.

“He is correct. This is what science is for. Please.” The boy adjusted his glasses, looking pointedly to him. “Science.”

Virgil growled louder, however extending his hand to the tiny fairy, who excitedly flied around his head a few times before changing his way to hug his left cheek, clicks and fluttering wings materializing his delight while Logan swung back and forth on his feet, fists shaking and a toothy smile painting his expression. 

How Virgil was supposed to say no to that joy? The adult internally signed. These kids were going to be the end of his existence.

“Quick, before I change my mind.” He lied to cover his soft spot for them – not that would ever admit it – snorting as Patton quickly shoved himself on his palm and Logan hurriedly ran to get his notebook and pen from the blue, looking slightly old, backpack.

And, as Patton was thrown, his squeals of excitement along with the fast scribbles of Logan’s pen filled the air Virgil allowed a small grin to wander on his face.

[~*~]

“Mom is in the yard today.” Logan announced as he arrived, accepting the sandwich offered for Virgil, looking at its content and giving a happy hum as he found it had onions on it, picking one ring and eating it apart. 

“Oh, that is fantastic, Lo!” Patton said, had already finished his snack and now taken a few Colorless Petals from his purse. “Will she stay there today?” 

“Yes, I think. She will be waiting for me when I come back.”

“Great! Look, I finally found everything we need! We can start my trap again!”

“Does she like gardening?” Logan hummed in agreement, his eyes fixed on the new ingredients, probably memorizing them to write later. Logan’s mom is still a mystery to Virgil, the most near of a responsible adult in this boy’s life being Remy, a guy who his magic almost danced from his body - leading cold chills to run the witch’s spine - when they first met right after the Aqua and Waterfall accident. The coat of arms Logan used was definitely from him, and by the way Remy’s questions about the accident were precise, it was definitely much more than just an ordinary and simple protection advice. 

The witch would be much more defensive and wary on that day if he hadn't previous Magic checked the amulet and found only protection and kind, lovely feelings involving it. Patton, as a fairy, one of the most sensitive magic beings of the world, also seemed to trust the object, so he did his best to not attack or hiss at the stranger (even though both looked to have come to a silent agreement they didn’t like each other) when he showed up other times.

“We could search for some seed flowers to give her later, then. You think she would like it?” Logan nodded, humming contentedly a ballad about flowers and peaches. Virgil turned to Patton’s direction, frowning as he noticed the purse’s content. “Where are the Dandelions Roars? I thought they were the crucial part of the trap.”

Patton froze for a second, his breathing failing, but he quickly forced himself to act naturally, wishing the perceptive human hadn’t got his mood’s drop, “I, uhh, I found a new receipt of a new trap that I think will work better!” He wasn’t lying, “it’s a harder potion, so I will have to practice a bit more, but I’m sure this time I will succeed!”

“Oh, ok.”

[~*~]

The drop of Wind’s Whispers hit the pot and suddenly Virgil’s soul froze. After weeks of frowning and strange twitches on the pit of his stomach, he recognized the potion, no, the summoning they were doing.

“Patton!!” Loud, harsh tune. The fairy froze in the same place. 

He knew it. He knew it he knew it knewitknewitknewit. 

Virgil discovered everything.

He would try to stop Patton. 

The tiny magic being held the porcelain and, in a flash, hid it in one of the thousands branches above them. “Please, please, don’t!” Virgil’s eyes were traveling from tree to tree, trying to find the object, his heart pounding, his head spinning and the fairy had plenty of knowledge of why. 

It was risky, much riskier than anything anyone could ever try. But it was worth it. It was so worth it. Virgil would have to understand. “V, please, listen to me.”

“No, Patton!! You lied! You lied to me to do… that!” Virgil attempted to even his breathing, he would have to concentrate if he wanted to end this as quickly as possible. Unfinished potions were extremely hard to localize, but being a forbidden magic made it a tad easier. Patton got closer but he refused to deviate his attention. The adult gritted his teeth. He did not understand. “You’re not stupid, Patton. You KNOW what happened to everyone who tried to do that! You know about the rumors, about the marks and especially WHY this is a forbidden trap! You know all of this and don’t you dare to try to fool me again.”

That sentence hurt. It bruised almost as much as the hurt the witch tried to suppress from his glare. The fairy didn’t know he was clicking until this moment but the desperate sound was almost impossible to ignore now. “No, no, Virgil. I didn’t want to… The fairies, we have a new idea, a new way to make it and now it can work, Virgil! It can work and I can finally do something right and I have-”

“You HAVE? Patton? You have what? Put yourself, put me and Logan in danger just because of a dumb bunch of fairies that don’t even care about who you really are? Is it because of that you were trying to kill us all?”

There was a sound banging on the background. It was banging and pleading for attention but Virgil pushed it away.

“It’s not because of them! I don’t want to catch a star for any of them! I just want to-”

STOOOOOOP!

The sound harshly hit them as a strong wave of magic passed all of Virgil’s protection spells, breaking them as if they were made of glass and shoving the other two on the ground, both attention being deviated from the discussion and captured by Logan. A Logan involved by a thundering, navy waves of magic which fled and hit everything on its way. Virgil felt his voice disappear.

Logan wasn’t a human.

“Lo.” Patton was the first to speak, trying to crawl to his friend’s position even being clued on the ground with the waves’ force. “Lo, dear, please, look at me, okay, kiddo? I am sorry we were screaming. Look at me, look at me.”

SHUUUUUT UUUUP!

“Everything is okay.” The pressure on his body made his voice hoarse, however the witch pushed forward, getting on his knees, arms in front of him in a calming gesture, “we’re okay. You’re okay. I need you to take deep breaths, okay? You can do it, I know you can.”

Logan shook his head, gasping. With the corner of his eye the adult realized the pot floating from the second tree on the left, its content starting to gleam in a strong red color, and sudden dizziness took over his body. 

The trap had been activated.

“Of course, you can! You’re so, so strong and brave and really smart and cool. I believe in you, Logan. You can control it.”

The porcelain object slowly floated in Logan’s direction, looking as if it was devouring every bit of magic being thrown at it together with all the remnants of the environment. Virgil got up on his wobbly legs, gathering on his vestments all his attack potions and throwing at it from all the directions, activating on his run his protections charms and directing them to the trap with despair, the feeling only increasing as his efforts were broken by the force without even managing to touch the container. 

The color started to grow brighter and brighter, a portal opening above it, consuming more and more of the uncontrollable magic. If Patton was sensing it, he resolved to ignore, using the opportunity to get closer from his friend, his voice in a constant tune, talking and calming, soothing and warm.

But all the three of them couldn’t ignore the moment everything stopped.

The harsh strong waves ceased its explosion and came back to Logan, who laid with a silent thud on Virgil’s arms. The leaves on the tree stilled, soundless, birds were nowhere to be seen, wind frozen midair, Patton’s voice was muted and even their beating hearts were paralyzed during this piece of time. An horrible ringing exploding in their ears.

The light turned white, stealing their breath.

And then everyone and everything was engulfed by it.

…

..

.

..

…

“Hello?”

Patton was the first to feel his senses come back. His eyelids trembled before opening and he had exactly a second to realize he was laid on Virgil’s coat.

Because on the other tick of the clock, his gaze was captured by the tall, smiling, magic – so, so, so magic. In every atom, every blink, every cosmic dust around him, they all screamed magic, magic, magic! -  creature looking down at him. “What a hello, little fairy!”

And then Patton screamed. Because the last minutes of his life were the most horrible, nerve wrecking moments he ever imagined to feel. Because his friends were unconscious. Because he was scared, and more important than everything else…

Because his trap had worked.

“No, no, no, little nebula, calm down, calm down” The being began to move his hands without any idea of what to do with them, “I’m not going to hurt you, okay? AAAH!”

The star screamed because that sinister thing under the fairy moved, launching to a sitting position while it also screamed, and, on his turn, Virgil screamed because he got up to a big shadow hovering above him and moving closer to the fairy, that is also why his arm shooted to be around Patton, his chest vibrating as he hissed to the other being, eyes sharp and yet trying to focus on its human looking like features.

“Don’t you dare to touch him!”

“No, no, Virgil!” Patton finally saw the one who was captured by the trap, - by their trap – absorbing the way colorful dots shined on the other’s skin, how the eyes staring back at him were deep and antique and yet so joyful. He noticed how the hair floated playfully, as if the being had a kind of its own gravity, reminding the winged fairy of himself when he got really excited. Actually, Patton could feel some light brushes on his neck from his hair moving around. “Virgil, Virgil! It worked!! We did it!! We really did it!! We trapped a shooting star!” Then, his voice came out lower, as if he really acknowledged what this truly meant. “Now I can give Logan a wish.”

“A wish?” 

“A wish, indeed! It’s a pleasure, the bestest of the pleasure, to finally get to know you earthlings! You’re really so cute, makes me want to squeeze your poor soft materialized face! By the way, everything is so soft and light here! No wonders such little gravity is enough to keep everything down. I bet I could carry your all, no, explode that, I can carry you and all the Earth’s content all together! That sounds fun. What is the most heavy thing you have here? I’m going to lift it. Ah, right, I almost forgot” He lightly hit the side of his head, his words coming out non stop, as if he didn’t need to breathe, what, looking at the situation, was much more likely it, “Star Roman Prince, at your service for one wish and one wish only! Even though I was captured by three of you, my power is too much, well,” he laughed, loud and boisterous, “powerful to interfere more than necessary on the planets. So, choose well, little ones.”

“Are you really a star?” and the young bipedal who had just woken up was so full of reverence that Roman felt the magic dance inside him as a lovely breeze. Yes, that was it! That was exactly it he was imagining, – for ages and ages wandering in space. Able to watch and graze at any planet he could ever imagine and desire, but never visit them without being invited – truly dreamed for the moment when he would finally be caught, no, be claimed for a terraqueous.

He was glad he didn’t need oxygen to survive, because the view would absolutely have his breath taken away. There were so much green and vivid colors and things to touch and life! So, so, so much life and companies and being who he could actually talk to.

Oh, my gracious Universe. Roman could talk with them. He could talk, sing, ramble, explain, complain, discuss and be answered.

It made him kind of want they never wished anything in the first place. This way he could stay more.

“Yes, I,” and then he jumped holding the sing-sang word as he took the form of a fairy in mid air, holding the other’s fairy hand and spinning him a few times – smiling wider as the other squealed excitedly – before turning into the height of the second shortest of the group, conjuring a small vision of a particular cozy Universe’s corner before growing to a perfect replicata of the adult there, booping his face and taking steps away as the taller hissed, finally stopping his melody, “am!”

The tiny fairy clapped happily, flying closer, “I am Patton!”

“A pleasure.”

“Stars are loud.” Logan pointed with his usual blank voice, then hummed, a toothless smile painting his features as he went to get his loyal notebook.

“Well, stars got to shine. ~”

“And we are going to have a conversation. A private conversation.” The second sentence came sharp, cutting any remark the cosmic magic being was about to say. Virgil’s eyes seemed to stare deep into his core before gently shoving the younglings aside.

“A star?” It was the first thing that came out from his mouth, directed especially to Patton, since the other boy seemed occupied taking new notes on his book. “You were trying to catch a shooting star for Logan?” 

“He is… my first best friend. Ever. And he loves stars a big lot! And, and, and I thought… I’m not very good or powerful to give him a really great thing like a star, but… If I could catch a shooting star then he could have a wish and ask to see a constellation! Or to have one! Or to visit any planet! I just… wanted to give him something cool.”

“Patton, come here.” The witch extended his palm, carefully ruffling Patton’s hair when he sat there, his voice was soft. “You are a pretty cool guy, okay? Logan thinks that too.”

“Of course I do.” Logan said, yet writing even when a yawn escaped from his lips. Something about how nonchalant and sure he sounded, as if it was silly to doubt about it in the first place made Patton feel like his tiny form was full of Suns, again. 

“And I hope you both use your wish wistfully.” The two kids brightened up right away, the fear hidden deep in their minds that the adult would somewhat forbid them to interact with the new person – kind of – dissolving in pure bouncing excitement. “But never ever again you two dare to ever think about trying to do something dangerous like that without warning me first!” 

They nodded eagerly, bouncing up and down, making Virgil sign loudly, questioning all his life choices and shaking his hands to dismiss them “Go think about what you two want or whatever, your little demons.”

They didn’t take long before losing themselves in a joyful ramble with each other. Virgil took the opportunity to deviate his attention to the older one, who was trying to coach a very suspicious bird to come closer to him, narrowing his eyes. The guy reminded him those geniuses belonged to those old, with yellowish corners, tales where thousands of humans, monsters and magic beings were disgraced as their wishes were evilly twisted to go against them.

Well, he got closer from the other, who turned to him with a charming smile, this guy was about to have a big storm coming if he thought they would be so easily tricked.

“What.” said Roman.

“You…” Virgil started, warningly. 

‘Got it.’ Roman thought, smugly and immediately expanding his brightness to an astonishing level. 

“Done!” He announced, happily “Since you requested so eagerly for my company then that shall be!” He ignored the human irritated shout. “Oh, what an honor! That, of course, means I will stay together with you through your whole journey in this human form and therefore be free from my duty until your wish is fully granted! It will certainly be an awesome experience!”

“Awww, you asked for a new friend, V!” Patton didn’t seem sad for losing his chance, smiling wide and patting one of the human’s red cheeks.

“It was an accident!”

Logan made a low small upset sound on the back of his throat. “I desire to know how to properly set and activate the trap… We did it wrong. We messed up the steps and nearly didn’t put all the ingredients as asked, but it still worked, how?” He turned his head to Roman, who lowered his body a little in order to read the step-to-step spell written on the boy’s calligraph, he tsked in disapproval, taking the object and summoning a feather pen, starting to scratch a bunch of lines from the receipt.

“No, no, that is definitely wrong. That is the magic you were trying to use to get a shooting star? Damn, just don’t. You do this and you’ll definitely get a Supernova.” Then he stopped, his mouth slightly open, a lamp popping above his head, gleaming. “Oooh, that explains why Remus was always being claimed. I just thought earthlings didn’t like me.” For lonely and long thousands of years, “heh, silly me. Aaaand, there you go, kid! A brand new magic to get a brilliant Shooting Star as well as, of course, the wish.”

“Do you know a Supernova? Roman, that is so cool!!” Patton gasped. 

“Of course I do, he is my brother.”

“The astros can be related? I didn’t expect it to be possible. How?” 

Patton’s laughter and Logan’s questions made him smile, not that the witch would ever admit it. Well, maybe... maybe there was nothing more he could do now except keep an eye on them, right? Just because the star- no, Roman, - could turn out being dangerous too, sure. It has nothing to do he got utterly attached to the young ones. No, get off his thoughts, damn!

And, yes, things weren’t fully resolved. They haven’t thought about what to do about Logan’s outburst or how Patton’s managed to get the forbidden trap or to even fully understand what Roman was. However, as questions, answers and warm – that good warmth, which embraces your heart - feelings fled all around them, Virgil felt the anxious knot on stomach to ease a bit, relaxing before the scene of the rays of sunshine dancing with the Damsels of the Wind in between the leaves and trunks from the forest. A calm breeze attempted to carry all the smiles and grand gestures to a faraway land as the reminiscent magic began to disappear, and, along with all of this… 

They were okay.

…

The entire ground trembled when Remy suddenly appeared between them, even if his clothes were a mess, hair uneven and face marked by brown drops which could be just dirt on the best scenario his crossed arms sent shivers down almost everyone's spine – Roman’s ‘nice’ fell on deaf ears – and his voice wasn’t boisterous or even loud, but echoed, cutting the thick silence skillfully. 

“What the HECK happened here?”     

[darkpoisonouslove]

“The Battle for Magix” Thoughts

I am pretty hyped about this because of how good the previous special was and because the events it is supposed to cover are my favorite part of season 1 of Winx Club. This should be intense due to the nature of the events it will have to depict so I am anxious to see how they’ve done. Fingers crossed that this will deliver!

- I am actually pretty glad we didn’t see that conversation between Winx about going to get Bloom because it was annoying to me (and it wouldn’t make sense considering they never got punished for the Day of the Royals). Besides, this works well even without it since Bloom didn’t tell Winx she was leaving so it was only natural for Stella to go look for her.

- I like the lack of dialogue as they enter Alfea. Appropriate with the heaviness of the situation and also removed that line of Stella’s about “this could be the end of the world”. Considering what we’ve seen from the Trix already, I think the threat that they are is coming through even without being spelled out for the audience.

- Well, the conversation with Faragonda was trimmed significantly but I actually don’t mind. It got the important bits in and I think the way Faragonda’s reasoning from keeping this from Bloom was worded a bit better here than in the original. Plus, they already thought of contacting Griffin which nobody thought of in the original. Not that they’ll have the time to do it but still.

- There were some weird pauses in the scene with the Trix fighting Griffin and almost all the dialogue was completely abolished for some reason. Also, I was going to screech at Griffin’s initial reaction to seeing them because they aren’t supposed to be expelled in this but from her words, I guess she was just outraged that they’d been nowhere to be found the last... At least two days? I suppose that could work but the other witches’ reactions didn’t make much sense. I like the way Icy’s ice encased Griffin in this one, though. It looks much more solid than it did in the original. Also, the fact that Icy totally steps on the ice in her heels that almost says “Yeah, she can walk on ice in stilettos and still be regal as fuck.” XD

- “I am not a fairy. I’m not anything anymore.” Aw, baby no! What have these specials done to me? I actually feel pretty bad for Bloom?! Now there’s a surprise. I guess I just feel that the way her guilt is portrayed is realistic to me and I also wish that she wouldn’t dismiss herself like that. She was something before she discovered she has powers so this is not true. But please, tell me they won’t be going to Domino!

- Why did Riven have to go to Cloud Tower if he and Darcy can communicate from afar? But besides that, I LOVE what they have done to this scene! I love how Riven had no idea why they were in Griffin’s office and the way he instantly was like “Well, I’m fucked. Everything is wrong.” This is so much better than the original! And the confrontation was intense even if it was a bit shorter than it was originally.

- Eh, I hope they’re gonna say something more about the Army of Darkness/Decay. They aren’t even calling it that and I will be disappointed if they don’t say it is made up of everything that has rotted in the past 1000 years because that was one of the best ideas I have ever seen.

- Why were the creatures attacking Knut? Or was it that he was simply in the way? I like that Saladin wasn’t that suspicious of him in this one but they really sped through this scene. There was hardly any room to breathe and the tension could’ve used a few more moments to build. Also, Knut’s sudden change of heart was indeed very sudden since we never saw him past the first special. In s1 there was a bit of a gradual change in him before he decided to leave the Trix. Oh, and the mention of his mother that he wanted to protect wasn’t in this which was sad because it gave him character, some kind of miniature backstory and motivation.

- Oh, they actually kinda prepared for the battle? And Saladin gave a motivational speech that resonated with the Specialists? Instead of, you know, “whoever survives passes the semester”? I am on board with that. But damn, I guess there is no barricading yourself when the things just appear from the ground. Also, I am living for this guy:

- Ah, I see mini Ogron is also here:

- Knut’s save was cool but there is no end to the creatures. I also liked Saladin using his magic but Red Fountain still fell. However, I feel like that will prompt Bloom to go to Cloud Tower to look for her powers so no Domino. Yay!

- *screams* The scene where Diaspro comes to take Sky from Red Fountain was missing! I sure hope that means that she was the one to dump his sorry ass! You go, girl! You deserve better! (I just hope they won’t say something else later on. Leave me in my land of make-believe, will you?)

- Why does everyone have flames in their eyes? I get it that the Trix have the Dragon Fire now but what’s your excuse about Faragonda? I know the situation is dire and they are all “aflame” with both worry and determination but chill with the “Eyes on Fire”.

- “Hey, kiddo”? XDDD I’m dying. I never thought I would hear Griffin say that. I like this scene, though. I like that there was some student-teacher interaction, especially since Riven isn’t Griffin’s student. And him wanting to help her both with getting out and blaming herself was just adorable. They have trimmed this one a bit from its original, too, but I get why that is necessary. And they removed that detail about Griffin using magic to help Riven pick the lock which has always annoyed me so much. Are you seriously telling me that Riven can’t pick a lock on his own?!?!?! Really?

- Well, I’m glad they removed the “Riven is the living Red Fountain manual” part. And they showed him falling from the window? Nice! But omg!!!!!!!!! Are you seriously telling me Sky just sensed that Riven was in trouble?!?!?!?! That is, like, only the basis of the true love/soulmates connection. I said what I said. Or rather the writers said what they said.

- Sky just called Bloom a lunatic. Great! I am a bit sulky about the fact that the tunnels between the schools were only mentioned now (since they cut all the times they were used before). It would have made this smoother and not seeming like it just popped out of nowhere. But awwww! at Stella being so ready to go with Bloom. I just don’t like that we still haven’t seen the rest of Winx this episode.

- I kinda agree with Stella on Knut getting his shit together. 14 near death experiences in 30 minutes is A LOT.

- Bloom’s Earth powers are coming in again! It is said that we won’t have them dubbed as such here (since I think that happened while they were on Domino in s1).

- Okay, but the fact that they skipped the trip to Domino does one big disservice to all this and that is that Bloom and Sky originally reconciled on the way back from Domino and here that never happened.

- Ugh, again with the “we’ve been friends with this person for years but we can’t recognize their voice for some fucking reason”. I hate it when they do that in movies/shows. Unless you have a cognitive condition, you should be able to recognize people’s voices.

- I can’t decide which is dumber - the original s1 “my cape is aerodynamic so I survived the fall’ or this one’s “it was just luck that he didn’t break anything”.

- Prince “I’m glad to have you back” Sky aka Riven’s boyfriend. I don’t make the rules here.

- Didn’t Bloom say that the Trix wouldn’t expect them? Because they sure look like they expected them.

- Riven deliberately went looking for Griffin? I like that change! And it actually makes sense.

- Well, he found her. Three seconds later. This right here doesn’t make sense because she would’ve had to have been very close in order to arrive to the room so soon after Bloom and the rest did. Not to mention that there was none of the dialogue here. They really butchered that scene. And removed some of the next ones. Though, I guess they weren’t that crucial.

- At least they removed the “enter the portal in alphabetical order” part that was just stupid. But I still don’t like the fact that Bloom decided to stay with Sky (it is kinda out of place since they haven’t resolved their relationship drama here but they act like they have and I know that is not the most important thing right now but still) and both Griffin and Stella allowed it. This is stupid from a tactical point of view. If Bloom gets caught, they won’t have a chance to stop the Army of Decay without her to get her powers back. And Stella just left her behind? Yeah, right.

- Where were these magical blasts coming from? The Trix were still back in Cloud Tower but that magic appeared to come from the front. That was kinda nonsensical. But damn, what a crash.

- Wasn’t it dark when the witches entered the portal? Why are they only arriving now? The idea of a portal is to transport you instantly, you know? Bloom and Stella got from Alfea to CT faster on foot.

- Sky even sounds like an asshole. Like, the tone of his voice is asshole-ish. And he called Bloom crazy again. I cannot stand him.

- Why didn’t they bring Mirta to Faragonda or Griselda? I am sure that they could have reversed the spell Icy put on her. She didn’t even have Dragon Fire back then. That spell can’t be so strong.

- “They’re ganging up on us”? You destroyed Red Fountain and took over Cloud Tower. It was only logical that they would all gather at Alfea. What else were they supposed to do?

- At least they got rid of “the Invisible Road” that made no sense at all.

- Am I supposed to root for Sky and even be impressed by him? Yeah, I don’t think so.

- They also removed the first wave of attack against Alfea. I know they don’t have much time but that’s kinda disappointing. Well, nothing to do about it.

- Well, the crown of Domino is not Bloom’s birthright. It is Daphne’s. But now that she’s more or less dead, Bloom is the only living heir of Domino that is left. There is a difference, though.

- I wish Bloom would have left Sky to deal with it on his own. And yes, I know he couldn’t have.

- Darcy and Stormy never gave Icy their Dragon Fire in this one, though. So they should have been able to break out of Griffin and Faragonda’s prison since they still had the most powerful magic in the universe. Come on, people! And Darcy waited until that tornado was right in front of her to start running instead of getting out of its way the moment she saw it was out of control and heading in her direction.

- Oh, damn! There’s some real fury in the battle between Icy and Bloom. From both sides. But it’s obvious that ice can’t defeat fire. As long as Bloom has her flames, Icy can’t defeat her.

- Okay, this was actually more intense than the original. And it was the wave of Dragon Fire energy coming off of Bloom that destroyed the monsters instead of them just disappearing once the Trix were defeated? That was a solid change.

- What are those shackles that Darcy and Stormy are wearing? Those look kinda... painful.

- “Here you go, Miss Faragonda”? Did Bloom just give Icy to Faragonda like “now you can handle this from here”? Omg, what a power move!

- That sentencing them to Lightrock scene was kinda... meh. I mean, I think I prefer the original. This just had a weird feeling to it. Also, why is Icy’s makeup running? Did Bloom’s flames make it melt off or what?

- Bloom and Sky are kissing? Why? They never resolved the Diaspro drama. I hate this part.

- They dropped the part where Bloom was looking for her origins. She still has no idea what happened to her parents and she didn’t even think about it. I get how that went to the background once the Dragon Fire was stolen from her but they should have brought it up in that last part when she was telling Sky that she was thinking about everything. She sure wasn’t thinking about her parents. And it should have occurred to her after meeting with Daphne.

Well, idk if it is the fact that some of the battle scenes were missing or that they really cut down on some of the others, but I didn’t really feel it in this episode. And Musa, Flora and Tecna were barely in it (but they still wasted time on the ugly transformation sequences). Objectively speaking, this had almost all the elements necessary for the plot to come to a logical ending. There were two or three huge things that were left out that really make some of this nonsensical but, overall, I guess it was okay. I didn’t really like it as much as the previous one and I can’t even say why. Some of the original feel of tension was lost to me, I suppose. Let’s see what the last special will deliver.

[crystu-cii]

XDD

I f e e l that pain in my soul-- my older sister uses cologne sometimes and it is sO STRONG AND WILL NOT STAY CONFINED TO HER ROOM-- AMD SOMETIMES SHED DO IT IN THE DOORWAY LIKE HELLO-- XDD

YEAH WH GET SOME SLEEP LEAVE THE STAYING UP TO US-- XDD

YES BABY JAIL, INTO THE UPSIDE DOWN LAUNDRY BASKET YOU KNIFE-WIELDING HEATHEN-- XDD oms XDD well I don't know them but I love them- YESSS THEYRE SO FLUFFY-- I'm actually curious what images pop up first imma check-- FLUFFY PUPPIES-- we've actually never owned ones that fluffy(those actually look more similar to shetland sheepdogs than the shelties we've had so far?? Very similar/similar enough where if someone doesn't know a sheltie we mention shetland sheepdogs), our current one is a purebred that we got for free(she was being given away bc her family never came back for her and the lady taking care of her couldn't afford the time to take care of a second dog long-term think) and she's got pretty short fur in comparison- still fluffy enough, but not quite so long of fur-- she's a blue merle(absolutely gorgeous fur, she's like 8 now with a lot of health problems but she's super loving still 💕💞) anyways about the fur, so long as you brush regularly you should mitigate most of that, and it mostly collects in corners- but like.. be prepared to eat and wear dog fur for the rest of your life-- (actually there's a thing called a fur zapper we bought recent that you put in with your clothes when you wash/dry them(I think it's dry but idk??) that's supposed to get a lot of hair off your clothes in that process? Also lint rollers are your best friend--) AND roombas are really helpful(we bought a knockoff one and rarely have to sweep ever so 👀) XDD WHEEZE I can't even imagine what you did-- but like you could ask for a budgie/parakeet /hj I mean, they aren't very expensive (actually they're pretty cheap) but they're very loud, need a lot of attention(especially if you want them to bond to you!) and you need to research into them a lot to make sure you're doing things right-- loads of vids online!! Loads of websites too!!! I'd know I have one- JUST A WARNING, FEATHERS AND SEED HULLS GET ALL OVER YOUR FLOOR XD p l u s like you have a friend who knows stuff about birbs :3 anyways ENOUGH RAMBLING FROM ME WOW THAT GOT LONG--

💕💕 I feel that XD OMS-- I WISH-- WHAT A D R E A M - s n a k - Awww but what a mood XD

XDDD oms YES-- EXACTLY-- XDDDD another good thing you should try eventually is SWEET POTATO CASSEROLE WHICH IS APPARENTLY DELICIOUS??? I TRIED IT FOR THE FIRST TIME(AT LEAST IN A WHILE) TODAY AND IT WAS SO FUCKIN TASTY????

H E A THEN-- XDD how cool of them to try tho :3 whEEZE Y 'A LL-- XDD

WHEEZE I SUCK WITH INSTRUMENTS SOOOO-- DAMN THA'S SOME BAD LUCK MY DUDE-- MAYBE YOU'RE CURSED DAMN-- oms wOWW--

Yesss-- ooh I've never played 👀 seen some stuff but never played-- (see: my computer sucks XD) I h a v e played Portal 1 and it is SO GOOD and SO SHORT and I WISH I HAD GOTTEN PORTAL 2 INSTEAD BUT THATS OKAY CRIES-- YESSSS THE SONGS SLAP--- ALSO THERE ARE ACTUALLY TWO WHOLE MORE CANON(PROBABLY KINDA MAYBE NOT?? IDK) SONGS, ONE FROM A LEG DIMENSIONS GAME("You Wouldn't Know") AND ONE THAT WAS CUT FROM PORT TWO("Don't Say Goodbye"(Harry101UK made an edit to make it Glados' voice!!)) THERE ARE ALSO A BUNCH OF GOOD FAN SONGS SO YEAH-- ALSO NOT TO BE A SIMP BUT GLADOS' VOICE? PERFECTION. I LOVE HER. ALSO I COULD LITERALLY DETAIL THE PORTAL LORE I AM INCREDIBLY EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN THIS GAME-- ALSO THERES A CLIP THAT SOMEONE MADE USING A (VERY GOOD) GLADOS TTS TO HAVE GLADOS SAY TRANS RIGHTS AND ENBY RIGHTS AND IF I FIND IT AGAIN ILL SEND IT TO YOU-- YOU COULD PROBABLY FIND IT IF YOU LOOM UP GLADOS SAYS TRANS RIGHTS? IT HAS A VIDEO WITH TRANS FLAG COMPANION CUBES ACCOMPANYING IT-- ALSO YES THE PORT MODS(/ADD-ONS? MAYBE? THEY'RE COMMUNITY MADE I THINK BUT IDK ALL I KNOW IS THAT THEYRE COOL AF--) (also I apologize for all the screaming? XD it's like, four am and I was talking about portal so.. whoops?)

Right like wth???? I???? Okay but like December to February babies just fuckin DONT EXIST IN THIS GEN OR SOMETHIN-- CAUSE I FIND N O N E -- Maybe there are more December babies but there are definitely like NO January to February babies it is So Weird--

NEJFQOBGKW WOWW d an g like-p l e a se s t op over sp r aying-- xD and LEGITTTT LIKE- THAT WAS M Y ROLE TO STAY UP LATE- XDD

WHEHEHEZE- LAUNDRY BASKET TIME- G E T I N XDD anD YESS- any doggo is just such a cute doggo 😭💞💞 but for me- fLUFFY ONES ARE WHERE ITS A T- and ohhhh i see- FOR FREE?? W H A T A S T E A L XDD but awwww the poor doggg at least she's with you now ! ;0;; 💞💞😭 aaw such a lovable puppup 😭😭💞 and oHHH i see :00 but oh no- xD i also have a friend that has two dogs and whenever he would give me gifts- there would be dog hair on them no matter what- XDD and ooOhhh those sound really helpful! omg- i swear i dont have to have a pet for the need of a roomba- i already shed so much hair myself its so crazy-- xDD and oH MAN loud animals are really gon get my mom fired up- and OO birds just look so cuteee i always fantasize of having one- but then again- with the noise and all xD the more i think about it i dont think we are prepared to have a pet at all xD but i still dream of at least having one pet in my lifetime!

and OO that sounds awesome!! i have no clue if i even tried casserole before- man- sometimes i just eat food without even knowing wth it is XDDD but THAT SOUNDS so gooodddd :O

and LEGITT LIKE- TF IS HAPPENING WITH MY SCHOOL LIFE- XDD and oh my god- IT GETS WORSE- that year there was a FREAKINGG FIREEEEEEE- it wasnt that dangerous thank god- but it had to get a whole ass room renovated because of it- and guess what room it was- THE ORCHESTRA ROOM- AND GUESS WHAT M A D E I T W OR SE- that year- it was the first time the school replaced those 10+ year old instruments with new ones- NOW THEYRE B U R N T- and mind you that the school's budget isnt so- gr e a t- like oh my god i am still so bewildered over HOW MUCH chaos HAPPENED that year- and i thought that year was gon be the year- yknow? like UGH

and OHH MANN playing portal sounds awesome! but i just dont think the game would be worth my money cause i know the plot- and even with the mods and all my brain would be broken as i would possibly have no clue what to do- xDDD

and HOOOO MANNN game fan songs are just so AWESOMEEE- and those sound pretty cool! :OO and HOLY SHIT FUCK YEAH- GLADOS SAYS TRANS AND ENBY RIGHTS Y A LL- now im gonna look that up and let my ears be blessed by such words- XDDD and DONT WORRY BOUT SCREAMING ALOT- i scream a whole dam lot too XDD

and LEGITTT- finding someone's b-day in january and feb is so rare all of a sudden like wh a t - XDD

[shiro-0197]

Oh I see 😭😭 but that's so cool, you'll be a graduate by then!! Do you have a graduation party, or something like that? For when you graduate? Yes istg they have no chill whatsoever 😬 but I can't wait to go back and see my friends :) just the exam part that bothers me ugh.

you're right! And honestly, as long as you're enjoying yourself, it's worth every second. I wish you all the best, love.

you're right tho hhhh everyone is different 😣😣 what works for one may not work for another, but I think if you're earnest about it, no one is going to think you're a bad teacher. That'd be great. Tips on how to deal with people, and teach, right? If only there were classes on that xD

you're cuter than koalas tho💖💖💖🐨 and oh yes. I've taken to finding it on Twitter but it hasn't popped up. I hope it does.

Headbutt? He's so flustered ekdhwkkssk 😭😭😭💖 cute.

Omigosh yesss that's another thing you like. I can't believe I didn't write that alongside cheese haha >.< but ugh instant ramen is just wonderful. It's so spicy, but so wonderful!!

awww understandable. I low-key feel like skipping school on the days when I don't eat. But gotta go nonetheless. Or Angel might kill me. 😭😭 If I don't come without telling her, she calls me at 6.50 in the morning to find out why. Gotta love friends like that skhdksks 😭😭 but yeah!! I googled it yesterday and that came up somewhere on Google? Wait a sec, let me copy paste it: It consists of meat, rice, and fried vegetables placed in a pot which is flipped upside down when served, hence the name maqluba, which translates literally as "upside-down."

yasss nice :D pls do!! And oh skjdskjsk 😭😭 I wish we had some in common but I'm literally in none of those fandoms grrrr I've always been so bad at video games +_+ my old fandoms were mostly books (like the whole Percy Jackson series, and everything the author had written), Harry Potter, the mortal instruments, etc. Hamilton (the musical), and of course, Voltron, She-Ra, and Avatar (the last airbender. Not the blue people xD). I wish you luck if you do plan on catching up with them!! That's what I'm doing now, so I'm taking a break from anime >.< And don't worry! I'm sure you'll be able to relive your childhood and buy those video games soon. It might be fun to play them, when you couldn't as a kid.

Aww that sounds lovely I hope you had fun!! What'd you have??

yes it was well deserved. I didn't get much done today but I'm well rested for tomorrow. (Finished the latest season of money heist too. It's so good ughhhh) have you been sleeping okay tho?

The meeting went okay. I met with the other tutors and we decided on dates and times for us to hold our sessions. Mine's on the 14th, in the afternoon, after lunch, and I'll have 1 and a half hours to teach however I wish. I'm racking my brains for a lesson plan now, because I've never tutored people my age xD so I hope it'll be alright. that sounds so cool! Anything with anonymity in it is fun, in my opinion. I hope your classmates come up with some real cool stuff :D

and ah, Cookie you have my heart 😭I love you too.

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Yeah we do!! Though this year will probably be a class only party, if we even get to have a party XD yeah, my friends are really the best thing to get out of school. I wouldnt have any otherwise😭

Yeah!!! I'd really just rather die if I went to work as a cashier, or a waiter... not because the jobs are bad but because I have to speak? Say something? AND memorize the prices ????? No thanks. I'd get fired after the first hour😭 hmm, what about you?? What's your hell-no job?

Yeah!!! Literally the most important thing. To be honest, when I explain something, I sound like Hinata. "You know, it goes like this and that, and them whewww and woah and yeahhh you know?"

Yeah, it hurt like a bitch but seeing his red-ass face was the best reward I've ever gotten XD he stuttered!!!! Once, but he did, and that's worth more than a thousand compliments I think

Heheheh, how could you not remember?💔 Slkwkfkskx just kidding xD I can also add something else, for example soup dumplings. I love them so much you know?? Very much

It's nice to have friends like that ngl😭😭 sadly I'm that friend xD others are soooo irresponsible its embarrassing

Ohhh I see!! Makes sense, haha~ thanks!! I really need to start doing proper research.

That's so cool, to be honest. I've never been much of a bookworm... probably because we never could afford books so I was never really interested... so embarrassing😭💔 I actually really want to catch up on all those because I've seen them everywhere, so yeah, hopefully, I will😩

I did!!! I had a cheese sandwich (not surprising), and a strawberry milkshake. It was nice^^

Yeah, I've been sleeping alright! A little more than usual, which made me kinda more dehydrated, so I gotta drink more water~

Ohhh, good luck!! That's so cool tbh, I hope it goes well!! I'm sure itll go well, you can do it<33 I hope so as well, no one has done anything yet so yeah xDDD

I hope your day is going great!!! I really love youu🤍🤍🤍

Edit: I forgot about this wjjdkwkdk

I did it😼

THIS IS THE WORST THING IVE EVER CREATED THIS IS SO CRINGEY AJDJJWJRJ!!!!

[tulipgardens1]

I’m spiraling down towards my Death Note phase againnnnnn. *BREATHES* of all the things i SHOULD be doing right now, i’m mentally plotting a death note fanfic in which it takes place right after (or before) the 2020 one shot. Near and the SPK team have been investigating a cult for some years and they haven’t much luck in tracking them down, but then a witch comes along (yes a witch, almost all of my stories involve witches bc it’s a rule of thumb for me, thank you kindly) and so too a new death note (bc, it’s the death note fic, there’s got to be a death note, bc why not of course) This fic doesn’t even have a structured plot, it’s in its infancy at best, but i have one scene that is clear cut in my head and that is Near, Rester, Halle, and Giovanni dancing to Black Pink’s Kill This Love, 100% dancing along to the routine, they are perfectly in sinc, and they are killing it sjdfgsdfg [dancing is due to reasons that involve mystical magic thingy magigies  that can control people's actions, Near wanted the group (black pink or AU equivalent) to prove it works and that they’re not bluffing [again, this fic idea is in it’s INFANCY so it still needs to brew for a while] tbh that’s the main reason i want to write this fic rn XDDD Also I really wish i had a tablet to draw stuff, bc that is something i would LOVE TO DRAW jdgjksdfg

[inquisitorcastellanos]

So fun thing about me playing AC: Syndicate. So... I did the world completion thing before I even started the actual story quests. As soon as they dropped me into London, I was like “Ok, bye. I’m here to take over the cuty, I guess.” And I did all that, found all the collectables, finished and took over all the areas and got to almost max-level with all the available upgrades. 

Thing is: While my characters and the gang is almost fully upgraded. I just now when I started playing the story got new fun things to play with, like drug darts and such things. (I did already have the grappling hook so I could get around).

BUT and here’s the thing that was weird. When I finished the world completion, I saw on the map that I could “talk to my companions” or associates or whatever, and when I went to do that (because I always do sidequests before mainquest... it’s a red dead 2 kind of thing I guess) and they were like “Oh! Thank you so much for everything you’ve done for me and for us!” “You’re the best, thank you.” “I wish you luck in your future endeavours.” “You’ve truly spent your time here in London well.” “I’m proud of you.” And then the game TELEPORTED me  like far away from the meeting point, to the center of London and I was like “okay... this is probably where they wanted me to END the game...” 

ALSO. I DON’T KNOW THESE CHARACTERS BECAUSE I HAVEN’T PLAYED THE STORY! WHO ARE YOU AND WHY ARE YOU THANKING ME? xDDD

Anyway. I’ve started the story now and I really like it so far. I’m already in love with the game and I can definitely see myself coming back to this like I do with ac2. And when I’m finished this is onto AC: Origins and then Odyssey to catch up on what I’ve missed in the series. I’ve just really forgotten how much I love this series xD

[teddystrap]

[神なる君と] 天津国星縁尊 (Mikoto) + Final thoughts

Finally!!!!!!! I sacrificed one night’s sleep to finish this route, but I did it! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و

I had originally planned to spread it out over a couple of days, but there was a lot of recap of stuff we already know here, so I got kind of impatient and rushed through some of it. So apologies if some of the minor details are off. I got all the important bits I think.

- Amatsu-kunihoshi-en-no-Mikoto -

Is it just me or does his silhouette give off a HAIR METAL / 1970s Alice Cooper vibe???

Mikoto is the former God of Kunihoshi Shrine who gave his position over to Sakuya for some reason. He is kind of a comedic/jokester character, but occasionally reveals a deeper and more serious side, much like Yakumo-nii-san.

His route happens if Sakuya chooses to help him grant his wish instead of investigating the school haunting rumours. Her first task is to time-skip slightly into the future, on hoshimatsuri night, to take a message for future-Mikoto. 

After she arrives she sees her future self running along the river searching for Mikoto and crying. Yorihito stops her from talking to her future self, and tells her that Mikoto is under the tree in the shrine. She finds him and passes along the message, which is to ask him if his wish has been granted.

He replies yes, but he wishes he had done a better job and made ‘her’ understand his actions.

Back in the present, she asks Mikoto what that’s all about but he doesn’t want to tell her. The rest of the route is basically her process of figuring out his secrets.

The side arcs in the other routes are briefly recapped here, except each one now reveals something important about Mikoto’s worldview. Following the order that they appear in:

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I. Yorihito/Nisei

This time Mikoto tells them straightaway that Nisei has travelled here from the past through a time warp, and has to return. Sakuya accepts his views, and he tells her that every beautiful meeting has to eventually end in parting, and that the memories not only tie us to the future, but they also drive us forward... It’s kind of like his ‘going away speech’ in a way, but Sakuya doesn’t know that at this point.

II. The Sanshin incident

‘YOU no DOGEZA = VERY BEAUTIFUL datta-ze!’ #yuri

The Sanshin tell Sakuya that they sympathise with Mikoto, because he has been on the receiving end of much hate and anger from people whose wishes he wasn’t able to grant. 

Later Sakuya asks him if he hates people, and he turns the question back to her. She replies that people come in many different personalities, and he agrees. He thinks that it’s his misdeed that he wasn’t able to save everyone. But Sakuya feels that he has done nothing wrong - to which he thanks her and says that her kindness has saved him time and again.

III. Aki/Kunugi arc

‘You...! Be my grrrl.’ #kunugi

This ends in pretty much the same way as in Yakumo’s route. Aki tells Sakuya that things worked out for the best, because love between a human and a supernatural being is bound to end in tragedy. Sakuya realises that there are other alternative endings besides ‘happily ever after’. She ofc thinks of Mikoto,... and so she goes and asks him if he has ever been in love. He tells her that gods have to love everyone and everything equally (including Yorihito and miscroscopic bacteria lol).

Then he tells her that she is very important to him, and that he prays for her happiness.

IV. Fuu-san

After hearing rumours about evil spirit moaning in the old school building, Sakuya wonders if Rei is having stomachaches XD.

Anyway, here Fuu-san again confides in Sakuya about his friend Yuuya, and she wonders if there’s a way to ease his pain. Mikoto says it’s possible to erase his memories, but Fuu-san would refuse to do so. He believes that there are some painful histories that one just has to live with - and surprisingly Sakuya accepts his view. I feel like she is accepting too much in this route XD.

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.: Going back to Mikoto’s backstory, we already know about the 1000-year-old love story between the miko and the Great Demon from the other routes, but we missed a few key points which are revealed here:

1. The sesshouseki itself is not the Demon’s remains. It’s a fragment of a star that was used to absorb the Demon’s curse/evil energy. And Mikoto is the living embodiment of this stone. 

2. The Demon’s remains are actually buried under the *magical tree* in the yard of the shrine. And his spirit communicates to Sakuya and others through this tree.

3. The 1000-year promise: Before the Demon’s death, Mikoto promised to watch over his remains to prevent the curse from escaping. This would only work for 1000 years, so after that time, Mikoto promised to absorb all the curse energy himself and disappear from the face of the earth.

What actually happened is that 10 years ago on hoshimatsuri night, when Mikoto was supposed fulfil his promise and disappear, he hesitated and started crying under the tree, because he was afraid of death. Child Sakuya came over to comfort him, and ended up in the energy transfer danger zone.

So, to save her from dying from the curse, Mikoto decided to make her a Goddess 10 years later to build ‘immunity’, and then on hoshimatsuri night transfer all her curse energy back onto himself and disappear as promised. At first he didn’t want to tell her all this, but she’s super しつこい so eventually he told her everything.

Sakuya found herself falling for Mikoto and didn’t want him to disappear, so she asked Yorihito how to prevent his plan from working using her Goddess powers. On hoshimatsuri night, she successfully stops Mikoto from fulfilling his promise, and seals it with a kiss.

Because the curse energy remained in her body, she grew weaker and weaker and died three months later. THE END.

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Lol j/k.

Good end: Mikoto can’t get over Sakuya’s death, so 1 year later on hoshimatsuri, he decides to use the same time-travel method (and the power of Sakuya’s amulet) to go back in time and stop her from thwarting his epic disappearance plan. Everyone supports him - except Yakumo, who thinks that Mikoto shouldn’t force his own plan against her will. He wants Mikoto to do what makes them both happy, even if it means defying Fate.

Sooo, Mikoto goes back in time... to 11 years ago, before hoshimatsuri night. He finds child Sakuya on the shrine grounds, and gives her an amulet and sends her away, telling her NOT TO COME HERE TONIGHT. 

...With that taken care of, nighttime comes and he proceeds to fulfil his promise. But to his surprise, Sakuya shows up again - to give him back his amulet and tell him to stop being an #emosadface. He is all like #headpalm #Orz #omgthismustbeFATE.

In that moment he decides that, instead of letting the curse transfer take place this time, he will try to fight it so that no-one has to die. Basically the same thing that Yuzuru did for Yakumo in all his routes = Zzzzzzz (fight the curse while sleeping). At the last moment, he tells Sakuya that he’s going away for a while, but promises to meet again someday.

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Loop back to the beginning of the game, except in this new alternative future, 17-year-old Sakuya has a more enlightened view on religion and shittier luck in omikuji. In the shrine, she meets Mikoto once again - and this time she remembers him from her childhood meeting, and he is willing to tell her the whole Kami Naru Kimi to story, with no secrets.

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[Thoughts] Let me first take a moment to marvel at the coherence of the whole story...... 

...Ok. Moving on.

Mikoto’s route wasn’t as much a tearjerker as I thought it would be. Or maybe I was just too tired/brain-dead to cry at 3am _(:3」∠)_. It also doesn’t feel much like a romance love story. I mean Mikoto was preparing for his *ultimate demise* and in no mood for a relationship for the most part lol. So a lot of Sakuya’s actions/thoughts felt very one-sided.  

It was nice that the recaps of the four side story-arcs were kept short (I guess for the benefit of those who didn’t see all of them? not sure if possible to get to the hidden route without unlocking all four events, but anyway).

Piecing together the info from the other routes, I had some guesses as to what the ‘full picture’ was... but this route totally took it in a different direction than what I was expecting. I kind of figured from Sakuya’s surname (「神」 and 「木」) that she’s the descendant/reincarnate of the spirit who lives in the tree, who must be Mikoto’s old lover from 1000 years ago. Lolol was I wrong about that XDDD - although I think my version would’ve made a more romantic story. ^_~

Overall, I like how the route challenged/changed Mikoto’s views about the impenetrability of Fate. You come away with the feeling of understanding a lot more: why gods exist, the true purpose of prayer, why individual wishes are/aren’t fulfilled, the role of free will, etc.

‘I have come to show you the Truth... with my really nice hair’ ;)

(It does make me sad that in the good ending version of events, some of the characters probably never got a chance to meet - e.g. Narumi & Mikoto, Yuzuru/Rei and everyone else.)

As I feared, there was no clear explanation for Rei’s existence. In the ending it’s revealed that he is/was a 生霊 (a soul that got separated from a living body), and that after Narumi failed to send him off to the other world during hoshimatsuri, he ended up in hospital and was able to recover his body (and some temporary memory loss) with Aki’s help.

...Which STILL doesn’t explain who he is, and how he landed in this condition, AND in his own ending why he disappeared for 10 years and came back as a living human... Unless I missed something in my haste, but I doubt it. Otomate was probably counting on the fact that nobody would fall in love with Rei so nobody cares. But I want some answers damnit!!

Also, Yorihito makes a brief appearance here in his human form. #wtf O_o

...This is probably where Yakumo’s catchphrase ‘細かいことは気にしなくていい’ comes in handy. スルーしようと思います...

IN SUMMARY, ranking of routes from favourite to ...less favourite (there were no bad routes, I honestly enjoyed all of them and I thought all the characters were awesome in their own way ¯\_(ツ)_/¯):

Yuzuru > Yakumo > Mikoto >/≃ Narumi ≃ Rei

Ranking of side arcs from fav to less fav.:

Fuu-san > Aki/Kunugi > Sanshin > Yorihito/Nisei

ハイ終わり― +(人*´∀`)+゜:。*゜+

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[N.B.] I actually started KamiKimi as a break from Diabolik Lovers More Blood - I’m about 3/4 of the way through Mukami Ruki’s route, and can confirm that this guy has no redeeming features whatsoever. It’s doubtful whether I’ll be able to sit through the rest of his story to get to his (hopefully sweet) ending. At least KamiKimi was a nice world where Sakurai Takahiro’s character is actually ahem *NOT AN ASSHOLE*.

(Low bar, I know, but DLMB challenges my view of common decency every time I open it...)

(Also Mikoto cried/had many emotional outbursts towards the end of the route, which is a side of Sakurai-sensei that I have never heard before. Not sure how I feel tbh. Like Sakuya in the game, I actually prefer his funny/lighthearted persona more.)

Also I’ll probably be busy with exams + school stuff for most of this month, so it would be a good idea to go for more fun/relaxing games that are not so heavy and tragic. 

One recent discovery is an old game by Broccoli called 「恋戦隊 LOVE& PEACE the P.S.P」 , which is based on the Power Rangers concept (all my childhood dreams are coming true...! *≧ω≦*) ... I previewed a chapter or so and it seems absolutely hilarious, although it’s not fully voiced so the reading part will be a P in the A but HIT ME UP YO.

And ofc, there will always be drama CDs to save the day...