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You know, occasionally you might be struggling with a particular scene, trying to figure out how to get over that bump, and then A Certain Someone drops seven DELIGHTFULLY LENGTHY COMMENTS on back then, i was dauntless and you manage to hammer out 300 words over your lunch break and then that same person hits you with AN EIGHTH LOVELY AND THOUGHTFUL COMMENT on the same fic and suddenly the way through the thicket of a scene becomes visible-
Anyway, have a section of that scene, spoiler alert for a plot point in the next chapter- I'd appreciate any feedback!
Eventually, Quinlanâs shoulders steady and still. He pulls back just enough to make eye contact.
He does not let go.
âObi-Wan,â he says. âFocus on me, please. Okay?â
Fear is not helpful here, present though it may be. Obi-Wan breathes in, breathes out, and listens. He drops his hand, squeezes Quinlanâs, feels the tendons stretch and flex as Quinlan mirrors his grip. He notes the tickle of hair on the back of his neck, the ever-present ache in his chest, the way his boots scuff against the pockmarked concrete. The acrid smell of fuel is a constant companion in this district, and not even the pollutant disposal system is enough to completely disperse the settled smog that casts a yellow pall over the surrounding structures.
âOkay,â he says, and then again, firmer this timeâ âOkay. Tell me?â
Quinlan closes his eyes. Leans forward. Presses their foreheads together.Â
And does.
Footage.
The footage.
Discovered in Palpatineâsâ the Sithâsâ files.
Theyâd called Mace to deal with it. As soon as heâd realized what it was.
Copies of the footage may have been savedâ elsewhere.
Theyâre searching, now. Poring over lines and lines of code.
For a dead manâs switch. Release onto the holonet.
Irretrievable. Inescapable.
Obi-Wan sets the words aside. A safe distance away. Picks them up, one by one. Studying them.
They.
âWho else saw?â
âJust me.â
âTell me.â
âI was the only one looking at the screen. I was the only one who saw it. No one went further, after I realizedââ
âTell me who else was there.â
Yaddle, as it turns out. Tholme. Names Obi-Wan doesnât recognize.
Too many.
âAs soon as. You said. How long didâ how much did youââ
âFour seconds.â
Too much. Too long.
âI didnâtâ recognize you. At first.â
âNo.â
Metal in his mouth. Prying open. Jaw popping, dislocatingâ no breath leftâ
(The pain had ceased to matter, after a bit. Meaningless next to the supreme and unmatched agony of being bent out of shape.)
âI donât think I would have, either.â
Yellow sky. Sour bile. Warm hands.
Shaking. Disbelieving. Fingers at his pulse point.
Bare hands.
Psychometry is a powerful tool. Furniture. Flimsiwork.
Data chips.
âWhat did it feel like?â
A breath. Two breaths. The two of them, matching.
âBloated,â Quinlan whispers. âLike an infection. Septic joy.â
Obi-Wan nods.
Yes.
That tracks.
#shoulder the sky#ohh babes we are CHURNING HERE#writing every night#so nice actually settling in and having TIME AGAIN#anyway THANK YOU DEE I OWE YOU MY LIFE#(is dee okay? saw it in the bumbledees bio)
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I love writing characters I hate !!! :D
Simon POV
Camilla half-sat on the table in front of him and began uncorking a bottle. âWine?â âNo thank you.â âOh, come off it,â she dismissed him, pouring two glasses anyway. âThis is a nineteen sixty six Bordeaux, itâs a two hundred dollar bottle.â âI drink wine when Iâm enjoying myself around people I feel comfortable with,â he told her steadily. âSo, no thank you.â She tsked at him. âWhat happens when you say no to me, Simon?â He clenched his jaw. âYou torture children.â She laughed like heâd said something terribly witty. âYou canât say I didnât give you every chance in the world to play nice. And this,â she gestured to his plate, âWagyu tenderloin, butter-seared, sous vide.â He didnât like steak or know what half of those words meant. âThe Lyonall students and their families are scheduled to arrive at ten oâclock tomorrow morning,â he said, refusing to allow the conversation to stray any further. âFrom the time they arrive on the grounds through their intake at the gates and entry into the castle, Iâd very much appreciate it if you let my guards do their jobs.â Camilla seated herself at the opposite end of the table, nursing her refilled glass. âJust a thought, but you ever consider the radically simple approach of bringing them through the back door instead of past the angry mob?â âYes, and they wonât do it. Theyâre from Lyonall. They consider it a humiliating concession to come here in the first place, they refuse to slink in unseen. And I have to say, I agree with them. They shouldnât have to hide.â âI think you could find it in your heart to agree with just about anybody but me, couldnât you?â She posed the question with such a distinct twinkle in her eye that it occurred to him for the first time this might be about more than business. He stopped to consider what she actually looked like for the first time since he entered the room. She wasnât dressed in anything nearly as salacious as heâd gotten used to seeing Callie in, but the leopard-printed dress showed her shoulders - no jacket like she wore in the day. Her dark-rooted curls were tighter than before, as if sheâd just done her hair. He hadnât imagined he could want to be any less until now.
Wherever the real-life inspiration for Camilla Price is, I hope she's well these days, and I owe her a debt for inspiring this wretched character that gives my beloved mains as much grief as she gave me once upon a time. đ
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OKAY SO
(spoilers for workinâ boys under the cut)
When Hidgens shoots Ted?! And the Hatchet Town motif plays?! losing every marble iâve ever clutched
Fuckin transcendent
The spooky version of show stoppin number when he is killing? itâs so good hello? they took his ass OUT of swing and things got serious
EVERY TIME RUTH IS THERE JUST FOR ONCE PLAYS UNDER THE DIALOGUE. UNWELL. SHE DID GET TO ACT BUT IT WAS. JUST FOR ONCE
FUCKIN RAISINS CALLBACK WOOHOO!!!
half of the score is just show stoppin number and i am HERE for it-the triumphant version when hidgens dies? spooky piano version of âbusiness callsâ in the opening? the title music kinda jazzy thing? i see you
when officer bailey is hiding bc he forgot he has a gun and richie is talking to him show me ur hands playsâŚtop ten hatchetfeild motifs its in all three of the stage shows too
MARY KATE WILES IN HATCHETFEILD REAL?!
WHEN HIDGENS TELLS RUTH TO STICK TO THE SCRIPT I THINK THAT THE OPENING TO INEVITABLE PLAYS OHH MY GOD (not so sure but that was my first thought. only reader response analysis in my house) (it also plays under when they say âchadâs comingâ so i think itâs something else im missing)
lah dee dah dah day under when the audience is talking to each other! okay!
NOOO WHEN IT SWITCHES TO RICHIE AND GRACE TALKING THE SCORE GOES TO THE IM NOT A LOSER MOTIF SOBBING
megâŚand eveâŚand sueâŚand margeâŚand leahâŚand chad
the piano intro to the song they play over the credits almost sounds like the beginning of tgwdlmâŚsame tune also shows up in yellow jacket
matt dahan i owe you my life
PLAYBILLS:
ZOEY CHAMBERS (Henrietta) is humbled beyond words to be a part of this groundbreaking production. Zoey has been enchanting audiences for years with her portrayal of badass girl-bosses like Sandy from Grease and Fantine from Les Miserables. Zoey would like to thank her brother, Zack, for giving her the acting bug all the way back in the third grade! Itâs ironic that Zack thought he was the actor of the family but Zoey would go on to completely overshadow him in every way. Sucks to suck, doesnât it, Zachary? Zoey would also like to thank her roommate and fellow cast member Hailey! Hailey is perfectly cast in her very small and inconsequential part. The role of Marge is just so uninteresting and one dimensional that it helps mask Haileyâs limited range as an actress, as well as other flaws, such as not being pretty enough to pull off an ingenue. Enjoy the show and be sure to check out (canât read due to finger covering it sorry :{) for spicy pics.
RUTH FLEMING (Secretary #4) is so fucking stoked for her acting debut! This is the best thing thatâs ever happened to me, I mean, her. Ruth ran the lights for her schoolâs shitty production of The Barbeque Monologues and was also the Assistant Stage Manager for The Wizard of OzâŚit sucked. She got bullied and excluded by the whole cast even though her job was just as important as theirs. More important actually! Being in the cast is way better. You donât even have to think of an excuse to barge into the dressing rooms you can just walk right in! Everybody takes off their shirts and lets their titties tumble free! Itâs the most awesome thing Iâve ever seenâŚI mean sheâs ever seen. Anyways, Ruth doesnât want to thank anybody because nobody did anything for her.
CASSANDRA KING (Eve) is elated to be present with you fellow vessels in these fleeting moments. Everything has transpired exactly as the lights in the sky foretold. Cassie had never been a believer in prophecy or the ethereal spaces betweenâŚbut sheâs seen too much to deny the truth now. She no longer fears the visions, or the pain that comes along with their descent. Pain is the price of knowledge. Pain is the language that unites the children of Azathoth, no matter which star they may hail from. Cassie wants to see what lies at the end of the cold hall. Sheâs ready to see the face of the girl screaming in the dark. How did she find herself aboard? And what is the destination of such a magnificent she? Is tonight the night Cassie departs? The lights give no answer. And so she waits for deliverance. Cassie would also like to thank her boyfriend Chris.
HAILEY DILMORE (Marge) is so lucky to be a part of the best cast in the world! She has no idea how she managed to worm her way into this talented group of ladies! You may recognize Hailey as a Pink Lady from Grease or Disciple #3 from Godspell. Hailey would like to thank her fellow cast member, Zoey Chambers. Zoey has been an inspiration, a mentor, and, above all, a friend. Sheâd also like to thank her parents and her dog, Walter. Also, sheâd like to apologize to the cast once again for blowing up the bathroom every single day during rehearsal. Sheâs so sorry she made it stink so bad that everybody had to cross the street to use the toilet in Bank of America. She really doesnât know whatâs happening to her bowels. She will be going to the doctor after the show closes and get everything sorted out. Enjoy the show!
okay my main takeaway from these is that zoeyâs the worst and there is a Bank of America across the street from the Starlight Theatre which means i have to update my hatchetfeild map
MORE PLAYBILL!!
THE BARBEQUE MONOLOGUES
The Tony-award winning musical serves up a well done tale of one typical American suburb. When folks gather around the grill, they share so much more than a dug out and a cold one. Secrets, obsession(?), dreams and betrayal, these are some of the entrees at the barbeque.
BLINKYâS WATCH PARTY
A musical extravaganza through Drowseytown! It will be oh so wonderful to see you again, Bill! Yes Bill, Iâm talking to you. Donât bother showing this to Ted. No one else will able to see it. But I can see you, Bill. Iâve been watching you, with Nine-Hundred and Ninety Nine Eyes. One short, thanks to your little twist(?). Itâs time I get you back, Bill. Whatâs the old expression? âAn eye for an eyeâ Hahahahahahahahahaha!
MAMMA MIA!
A terrible show about sad women singing ABBA. A truly miserable experience, I canât stress that enough. This show will make you hate ABBA as well as all musicals. Youâll never want to listen to ABBAâs two good songs ever again. Beware, friend. Beware. Abandon all hope ye who enter here.
SANTA CLAUS IS GOING TO HIGH SCHOOL!
i canât read it at all sorry :{
JUST GOT THE CHANCE TO WATCH WORKIN BOYS AND AS WITH EVERY HATCHETFEILD PRODUCTION I AM AMAZED BY THE CALLBACKS IN THE SCORE AND DIALOGUE
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In the Dead of Night
banner courtesy of the wonderfully talented @dee-ehnâ !
Word Count: 14.5k
Pairing: Vampire!Jin x Reader
Genre: Vampire!AU, friends to lovers, smut, fluff
Warnings: dom!Jin, sub!Reader, non-gory blood and knife injury (itâs there, but mostly humorous and/or with very little specific description), biting (like actual biting), vampire compulsion (nothing concerning consent-wise), marking, hair pulling, grinding, size kink, spanking (hand), fingering, praise, oral (f receiving), unprotected sex, creampie, aftercare
Rating: 18+
Summary: Courtesy of my roommate, who summarized my story much better than I ever could:
A/N: Itâs finally here! I meant for this to be about half the length and be released more than a week or 2 ago, but as you very well know, things donât exactly go as planned in 2020. Regardless, I enjoyed writing this fic a lot, so please let me know what you think!
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Saturdays at 3 am were supposed to be peaceful.
Well â at your apartment, that is. You couldnât account for whoever elected to roam the streets of downtown at night.
But what was definitely not supposed to be happening was being awoken from your deep slumber by furious pounding on your front door.
Oh, for fuckâs sake.
When you glanced groggily over at your alarm clock and saw the time, you could have screamed.
Just as you reached for your phone to call the cops on whatever psychopath was probably waking up your entire floor, your screen lit up with a text.
Suckjin [03:19]: plz open ur door
Oh, for fuckâs sake.
Sliding out of bed, you hissed as your bare feet hit the cold hardwood.
This had better be fucking worth it.
Plodding out of your bedroom on tiptoes to avoid as much contact with the floor as possible, you made your way to the front door without even bothering to throw on shorts under your oversized t-shirt.
Whatever. You were sure that brat has seen thighs before.
While the knocks had thankfully quieted for a moment, he started up again just as you reached the door.
Before he could even dare bang his fist against the wood again, you were turning the deadbolt and whipping the door open, readying your fiercest glare for the broad man standing before you.
Right as you opened your mouth to start cussing him out, he sprung towards you, hands pushing you further inside your apartment and shutting the door before you could even blink.
When he turned to face you again, hands on his stomach, you prepared for the verbal onslaught you were about to send his way.
âJust what in the absolute hell do you think youâre-â
When your eyes naturally followed the path of his arms down to his stomach, what you saw there shut you up immediately.
Wide-eyed, you took a step back, eyes never leaving the sight before you. He-
As your breath quickened, a (miraculously clean) hand shot out to cover your mouth gently, though you were sure he was ready to clamp down at a momentâs notice.
âPlease donât scream.â
When you were finally able to break your gaze from his abdomen and look at his face instead, pleading eyes locked with yours, his skin paler than usual.
As frightened as you were, you calmed some when you processed the fact that he seemed to be standing before you just fine, albeit the fact that his eyes appeared somewhat unfocused.
You nodded, reaching a shaky hand up to remove his from your face, shivering at how cold and clammy he felt.
When you could speak again, you spent a few moments collecting your thoughts before you opened your mouth again.
âYou - you have a knife in you!â you hissed, stepping closer to move his jacket aside to get a better look.
It wasnât that gruesome a sight, especially not when he was wearing a black t-shirt, but it was no less jarring to have your friend show up in the middle of the night after seemingly being stabbed.
âI know that!â he hissed back, slightly exasperated, muffling a groan when you tried to inch his shirt up to glance at the skin beneath.
âWhy the hell do you have a knife in you?â you whispered furiously, pulling him by the arm to settle down onto your couch.
He plopped down with a sigh of relief, his head lolling back momentarily. You hoped he knew that he was paying your cleaning bills if he bled all over your loveseat.
âNow, now, didnât anyone ever tell you not to remove the knife if you get stabbed?â he said with a pained chuckle, sucking in a breath at the movement it caused.
âSeokjin, now is not the time to joke around,â you said, panic rising in you because you had absolutely no clue what you were supposed to do with a vampire who had a knife embedded in him. âWhy did you come here?â
âWell you were the only person I could think of who would answer their door at 3 am-â
âSeokjin!â
âSorry, sorry.â You didnât tend to call him that unless you were genuinely annoyed, and he seemed to drop the humorous demeanor immediately.
âWhy didnât you go to a hospital?â
âI canât go to a hospital.â
âWhat?! Why not?â
âOkay, correction â I didnât want to go to a hospital.â
You let out a groan of frustration, fingers rubbing circles into your temples. This man was going to be the death of you. You had no idea why vampires seemed to have such an aversion to hospitals, but you supposed you could never understand. Despite their existence being generally accepted in society so long as they didnât leave trails of bodies in their wake, there must have been some other reason nobody had ever shared with you.
âSeokjin, I really donât know what to do here,â you whispered, an ounce of desperation and unease making its way into your tone. His expression softened at the sound, reaching for your hand. As much as he might have been trying to comfort you, the feeling of his hand unusually icy against yours only scared you more.
âI...â he trailed off, trying to figure out a good way to phrase this before settling on being straightforward. â...need blood.â
âHuh?â You furrowed your brow. âYou literally have blood at home.â
âNo, I, uhh...â he paused. âI need fresh blood to heal something like this.â
You froze. He needed fresh blood? He showed up here because he wanted... your blood?
âArenât there places you can go for blood?â you asked, tensing up at the notion of being bitten. It wasnât that you were so totally opposed â it was no secret that people said it felt good. But you had never been bitten before, and you didnât know what to think about Seokjin showing up here for that reason.
âI came here because I trust you the most,â he said, squeezing your hand. âPlease. I promise I would never do this unless I had to. But please â you can say no, but tell me right now, because this hurts so much.â
Seeing his pained expression and feeling the way his fingers gripped yours like a lifeline, there was absolutely no way you were letting him back outside to roam the streets. You had no idea how this really happened to him, but despite their general acceptance, vampire hunters still existed. Like hell you were going to let easy bait walk right into their hands.
Especially not Seokjin.
âI â okay, I just â I donât know why Iâm nervous.â Biting was a pretty private, intimate thing. Most vampires drank bagged blood, with live donors only in carefully-controlled emergency clinics or heavily guarded clubs.
There was, of course, the cases of vampire-human relationships or hookups, but most people didnât tend to share the ultra-specific details of their sex life.
Not that you had never attempted research on your own, but anecdotes you found on the internet varied so wildly that you had to wonder whether they were even telling the truth.
âI promise I can control myself. I would never put you in danger.â
âNo, I know, itâs not that,â you mumbled. âJust... will it hurt?â
âOh. No, it shouldnât.â
âIt shouldnât? I donât know how reassuring that is,â you chuckled nervously. You werenât about to back out now, but you had at least hoped that he would have a straight answer for you.
He took a shaky breath, and a pang of guilt went through you for asking so many questions.
âThe more attracted a vampire and donor are to each other, emotionally and physically, the better itâll feel for you.â
âAnd you?â
He smirked, and curse him for making it look good despite his unfortunate... situation. âMe? Iâm a vampire, it always feels good.â
Right. You might have facepalmed at the stupid question that left your own lips, but his voice momentarily distracted you from doing so.
âAnyway, I know my face isnât a problem, so unless you secretly hate me or something, youâll be okay,â he grinned.
âIâm so glad you can joke around right now,â you snorted derisively. âIf I secretly hated you, you wouldnât be here, would you?â
âFair.â
âAnyway, Iâll do it, just,â you winced. âDonât call me a donor. It feels weird.â
âDeal,â he said quickly, pulling you closer to him. âThank you for this. Really, I owe you.â
You sighed. âI canât just let you bleed out somewhere in the world, can I?â You allowed him to pull you close enough that you were hovering over him with your legs touching his, and you stood awkwardly in silence. âUhh, what should I do?â
He patted his lap in invitation and your face warmed at the notion, but you straddled his legs before your brain had time to dwell on it.
He raised a hand to nudge the collar of your shirt away from your neck, his icy fingers and the sensation of his nails on your skin sending a shiver down your spine. When his thumb rubbed gently against the warmth of your neck, you had to suppress a gasp at the surprisingly intimate touch.
When you focused your gaze on his face, his eyes were not fixed on your own, but rather on the movements of his own hand, his pupils obscenely dilated. Youâd never seen him look so lustful, so hungry.
Heat undeniably flared in your core (much without your consent), and it was wishful thinking to hope that Seokjin didnât pick up on your quickening breath or rapid heartbeat.
âI...â he whispered, trailing off before heâd even begun.
âHm?â you answered, already feeling dazed before his fangs had even touched you.
âI need you to pull the knife out.â
Well, that certainly broke you free of your trance.
âWhat!? Me? You â I â me?â you stuttered in a very flattering display of eloquence.
âIâm... not sure I have the strength right now,â he admitted ruefully, and you could tell that if it were really up to him, he would be doing it himself.
Just what have you gotten yourself into?
âFine,â you murmured, raising both hands to grip firmly at the handle of the blade. âJust â donât bite me until I put this knife down, okay? We donât need any more... accidents.â
He failed to hold back a laugh at that, and you managed to crack a grin in response. âOkay, okay.â
To think he had you so utterly flustered and at his whim only moments ago.
âOn the count of three,â you breathed, bracing yourself for something you certainly never expected anyone to ask of you. âOne... two... three.â
When you reached three, you flinched your eyes shut, pulling as hard as you could in one quick burst, desperate to have this all over before it started.
The sensation was something odd and unspeakable, and you turned to toss the knife on the table behind you before you could register the uncomfortable warmth on your hands.
But the exact moment the sound of metal clattering on glass reached your ears, your head was being wrenched back by large hands, plump lips and hot breath coming into contact with your neck before you realized heâd moved.
You could barely suck in a gasp before a hand moved to grip tightly at your waist, and fangs sunk into your skin.
White-hot pain lanced through your body like electricity, and for a moment you were thinking you were done for. Seokjin was wrong, maybe he lied, and you definitely lacked the strength to push off a dying vampire determined to drink.
But just as you opened your mouth, whether to scream or cry or whatever else, you were immediately silenced, a breathy groan soon pulled from your throat.
The sudden onslaught of pleasure flowing through your limbs had you weak, your body falling limp into sensation immediately.
Clearly prepared for this outcome, Seokjin only pulled you closer to him, the hand on your waist supporting your body, a hand fisted near your scalp keeping your head back. The casual display of strength pulled a whimper from you, your body feeling hot all over.
Your eyelids fluttered closed, and you had to wonder when you had opened them at all, because you couldnât recall processing a single thing visually since his fangs touched you.
You thought that would be as good as it gets, but the pleasure only kept building and building. It rendered you almost completely immobile, your world reduced to Seokjin at your neck, the broad planes of his body below yours, and the myriad of bliss flooding your veins. Heat was throbbing in your cunt, your nipples hard and almost pained as they rubbed against the roughness of your t-shirt.
You raised your hands that were sitting idle at your sides to fist into Seokjinâs shirt, giving no thought to the fact that he was gravely injured in that spot only minutes ago, fingers feeling almost numb and not registering the wetness that was there either.
âAh - Jin,â you cried loudly as the bliss only built, tossing your head back to bare more of your neck.
He growled ferally into your skin, the sound going straight to your core. He pulled you closer still, enough that your breasts pressed harshly into his chest, your hips slotted together.
Sighing happily at the pressure right where you needed it most, you ground desperately against whatever you could feel against you. When you felt the undeniable hardness of Seokjinâs cock against your cunt and its delicious friction against your soaked-through panties, you moaned obscenely.
You felt rather than heard his gasp in response, his grip around you tightening even further, enough that you felt out of breath.
You whimpered at the restriction, his strength keeping you from grinding against him no matter how hard you tried.
You cursed him internally, but there was no way you were going to formulate words at this point, your mind completely lost to euphoric delirium.
It felt as though you were floating, head thrown back as sparks flew up your spine relentlessly.
Despite the lack of proper friction against your cunt, you could feel pressure building in your abdomen. You were close, so close, so undeniably close-
Fangs retracted from your neck, and the sudden loss was like ice water being thrown over your head. You shivered.
The tight grip on you loosened, Seokjin leaning into the back of the couch and groaning.
When you opened your eyes you almost fell over at the way the world spun, dizziness and blurry vision almost distracting you from the orgasm that seemed only moments away.
Almost.
Blinking furiously until you managed to fix your gaze onto Seokjinâs face, you sucked in a harsh breath at the sight before you.
Irises swimming with crimson, pupils blown out, chest heaving, dark hair mussed, lips painted red, fangs still visible past his parted lips â he looked the very picture of sin.
Fuck.
Though if you had a mirror, you would see that you looked just as ruined â eyes wanton and desperate, teeth gnawing into your bottom lip, dark bruises colouring your neck. If temptation were a person, it would be you, sitting in Seokjinâs lap with your soaked panties still pressed against the bulge in his pants.
As you stared at each other, it was as though time froze. Neither of you moved an inch, seemingly content to remain in some kind of intense, sensual staredown for the rest of time.
But youâd never claimed to be a patient person, and when you finally felt confident that your body was yours again, you acted.
If he wanted to push you away, he could have. His reflexes always seemed to almost predict the future, and you were positive that if he didnât want this, he would have stopped you. He was never one to avoid voicing his discontent, even if it was masked as a self-deprecating joke. Some part of you deep down expected him to end this before it had even begun.
He didnât.
Your lips met his in a depraved frenzy, too far gone to make any attempt at starting slow. It was rough, and it was messy, and it was desperate, and you loved it. His fangs scraped at your bottom lip and you gasped, fisting your hands into his hair as your body remembered how it felt the last time those fangs breached your skin. But as you ground your clit into the sizeable bulge in his pants again, he froze.
Just as you were about to pull away to see what caught his attention, he pushed you away first, hands firmly on your shoulders.
âWait, wait, wait,â he gasped, and it very much looked like it took all of his willpower to break away.
âWhatâs wrong?â you asked weakly, your head still spinning, body absolutely overcome by lust. In fact, he was looking a bit blurry again with how fast he moved you, and it took several moments of rapid blinking before you met his very concerned gaze. Nothing ever escaped him, and you were sure that your semi-weak state was very obvious to him right now.
Not that it affected how much you wanted his touch, his cock.
âYou donât know what youâre doing.â
Your brow furrowed. âI do know what Iâm doing,â you said firmly â or at least, you tried, but it took far too much effort to wrap your tongue around the syllables, almost as if you were drunk.
âY/N-â
âWhy donât you believe me?â you whined, this time sounding a bit more coherent. You tried to push toward him, but his hold was too strong. âYou want it too, look at your face.â
He sighed, looking to the ceiling as though it held some answer on how to make this easier. âItâs not about whether I want it or not. Youâre not thinking straight.â
âJinnie,â you whimpered needily, reaching your hands toward the waistband of his pants. If he didnât touch you soon, you swore that you would scream. âPlease. I want it. I want you. I promise-â
He moved to snatch your hands before you could touch him, and your mouth clamped shut at the grip. His expression was almost pained for a moment before his eyes glazed over with a look that would have had you on your knees immediately.
His hand shot up to grip your chin firmly, ensuring that you couldnât look away. Though, you didnât think you could look away if you tried, drawn to the unspeakable darkness you found there, crimson still invading the rich brown.
âWhy donât you be a good girl and sleep for me?â
âWh-what?â you choked out, but it was as though youâd lost control of your body, feeling as though youâd been awake for days without sleep. Your eyelids fluttered shut, but you forced them back open, groaning weakly when your vision fell upon Seokjin, his expression still dark and hungry.
You were about to open your mouth again, but something about his eyes was so captivating. Something about the red pulled you in, left you unable to think. Were his eyes always this beautiful? You wracked your brain, but came up blank. You wanted to open your mouth and ask him, but you couldnât move a muscle. Even still, your face drew closer to his as though pulled in by a magnet.
His eyes roved over your face before meeting your gaze once more, and you missed the flash of sympathy that was present for only a moment. You were relieved when he looked at you again, fingers twitching with the urge to cup his face. You were content to look at him for the rest of time â if there was anything Seokjin had, it was time, right?
Attention focused on each other, he parted his lips, and you could have sworn your ears buzzed, desperate to hold on to every word.
âSleep.â
Your vision went black.
--
You awoke to a hand scratching gently at your scalp, a great contrast to the relentless hammering of your head. You groaned, shoving your face further into your pillow, blocking out the light that was already worsening the ache of your skull, even with your eyes closed.
You were so comfy, so relaxed at the touch that you almost drifted right back to sleep.
Wait.
You lived alone.
Sitting up all in a rush, you gasped as the world spun. It only got worse when you forced your eyes open, a pained whine leaving your lips as even the limited light in the room only introduced more pain behind your eyes.
âWoah! Itâs just me, itâs just me.â Seokjinâs voice came out in a rush, sturdy arms lowering you back to your pillow as he pulled the sheets up to shadow your face.
Right. Seokjin.
Your heartbeat calmed, recalling his arrival late last night. Though, what came next was all a blur you couldnât bother trying to remember right now.
You heard him step away quickly, the sound of your curtains drawing completely closed having you let out a sigh of relief. His footsteps neared you again, his cool touch returning to stroke gently at your face, before moving to massage at the base of your skull.
His touch was so delicate it almost baffled you. You didnât think heâd touch anyone like this, his displays of affection more inclined to loud compliments and playful roughhousing.
But you couldnât deny that it felt incredible, your neck arching almost imperceptively as you leaned into his touch. The chill of his skin against yours sent a shiver through you, and you tried to ignore the fluttering in your chest.
âAre you cold?â
Blood rushed to your face at the observation, though you only gave a noncommittal noise in return. He didnât need to know what was going on in your mind.
âMy head hurts,â you mumbled quietly, a pout overtaking your lips. Seokjin had to force himself not to laugh at how cute you looked then.
âI know, Iâm sorry,â he replied softly, lulling you back into a half-asleep state with the gentle motions of his hand on you.
You couldnât tell how long it was before you opened your eyes again â it could have been 2 minutes or it could have been two hours. You couldnât even tell whether youâd drifted off or not.
It was fortunately much darker than the first time you opened your eyes, much to the relief of your headache that had faded some, but was still thudding away.
What you didnât expect, however, was to be greeted by the golden skin of Seokjinâs chest, the shadows of the room only making it look more unreal.
You blearily blinked several times before determining that yes, that was Seokjin half-naked and perched on a kitchen chair. You tried to get words out and failed, clearing your throat before trying again.
âWhere are your clothes?â
He grinned. âA bit ruined, if you recall.â
Right.
At least his pants were still on. That was best for your sanity.
âWhy does my head hurt so much?â you asked, luckily able to keep your eyes open now to look at him without the pain multiplying tenfold.
He winced, his chest aching at the pained expression on your face. âIâm sorry. Thatâs my fault.â
âWhat do you mean? Because you bit me?â
âNo, not that.â He raised his free hand to scratch awkwardly at his ear.
âHuh? Why then?â All of this was so confusing. Maybe you should have done more research on vampires in your life, though you never expected to be in this sort of situation.
âI, uhh... compelled you.â He gnawed nervously at his lip, but rather than the lashing out he might have expected, you only looked at him in confusion.
âYou what? Why?â
âWhat do you remember from last night?â he posed to you instead.
As much as you tried to recall, you couldnât focus on anything with the state your head was in. You remembered him arriving at your house, a bit of stupid banter, getting on the couch, sitting in his lap. Then, he bit you.
Then what?
You honestly didnât know, and you couldnât help the fear that crept its way through you at that realization.
âYou bit me...â you trailed off, looking away from his face and instead staring into the sheets near where your hands laid.
He hummed in affirmation, clearly urging you to continue.
âAnd then, I donât really know,â you whispered, an edge of panic in your voice.
He sighed. âThatâs what I thought. Donât worry, itâll come back.â
âDid something bad happen?â You tried to wrack your brain for possible scenarios where he would have had to compel you to do something, and you came up blank every time. What could you have done? Attacked him? Or did he go crazy at the taste of your blood and attack you? No, that didnât make any sense â you were lying in bed feeling perfectly normal besides the headache.
What the hell happened?
âNothing bad happened. I just... made you sleep before we did something stupid.â
It felt like the more he told you, the less you knew. Before you did something stupid? As in, did something stupid together?
There was something about the way he was choosing his words that led you to only one conclusion â in fact, he sounded an awful lot like Taehyung bemoaning his drunken hookups.
There was no way you almost fucked... right?
Youâd have to know, right? There was no way you would have gone along with that... right?
It wasnât as though youâd never had a spur of the moment one-night stand, but with Seokjin? There was absolutely no way you wouldâve let that happen. A person had to protect their heart, after all.
âStop overthinking right now, youâll just make the pain worse.â
âIâm not,â you protested, though you didnât know why you even tried lying. It was a bit hard to trick someone who was both a vampire and your friend.
âI can literally hear you freaking out. Please just try to rest, youâll remember when the headache goes away.â
You sighed, trying to ease the tension in your body you didnât even realize you had. âAre you sure?â
âPositive,â he said confidently, his hand trailing away to rub firm circles into your shoulder instead.
âMm.â You might have said something, but proper words evaded you at his touch. You tried focusing on him rather than the thrum of your skull, and you had to force yourself to keep your eyes open.
The expression on Seokjinâs face was one you hadnât seen before. His eyes looked into yours with a softness that felt unfamiliar, a soft smile overtaking his lips when he saw how exhausted you looked.
âSleep if youâre tired, princess,â he murmured, pulling the sheets up higher to cover you more. âDo you want another blanket?â
You could feel your heart speed up in your chest at the pet name and his tenderness, and you cursed the fact that there was no way to hide anything from him. At least he was polite enough not to tease you like he did your other friends.
You were so momentarily flustered that you almost forgot to respond, only nodding in response as you curled further into yourself. If you were any braver, maybe you would have asked him to join you instead.
It was only moments before he was tossing the throw from your living room over you, and it almost startled you. Sometimes you forgot how eerily fast he could move, considering he usually slowed himself to your pace whenever you were together.
You let out a contented sigh as you snuggled into the additional warmth, already feeling only half-conscious. You had just enough energy to let out a mumbled âthanksâ before you were drifting off again.
--
When you awoke this time, it felt as though you were an entirely new person. For starters, your head felt blissfully quiet. You were sure you would have cried if you woke up to just as much pain. There was only so much you could take in one 24-hour period. Seokjin had really done a number on your weekend, hadnât he?
Speaking of Seokjin, he was nowhere to be seen in your bedroom. Though you were sure he was still somewhere. It wasnât quite his style to disappear without saying goodbye, and you were even more doubtful that he would just leave after biting you.
Biting you.
At the thought, images flooded your mind faster than you could process them.
His fangs at your neck.
The relentless pleasure that invaded every fibre of your being.
Your lips on his.
Your brazen grinding against him.
And, your refusal to stop despite his words.
Holy fuck.
Was it possible to go back to when you didnât remember and you could ignorantly lay in bed with Seokjin stroking your head?
You sat up only to bury your head in your hands, letting out a loud, embarrassed, frustrated groan while you were at it. If Seokjin didnât know you were awake before, he surely did now. But merciful as ever, he allowed you to wallow in your mortification alone.
Was there anything worse than trying to mindlessly and basically drunkenly make your way into your friendâs pants and get denied? Your friend who you maybe found a little bit (extremely) attractive in every way, shape, and form?
Well, of course there were worse things, but to you in this moment, it certainly felt like a new low.
It took you a moment to find your footing once youâd hopped out of bed, but luckily you felt good as new otherwise. If you stayed in here alone too much longer you would certainly lose the minimal nerve you had and never leave.
In your rush to make use of your bravery, you remembered at the last moment that you were still in just your panties and shirt with no bra.
When you made it to your dresser, you paused at your reflection.
It was almost... startling how normal you looked. Though, what should you have looked like?
Baring your neck and squinting at the image in front of you, you had to scratch at your neck yourself to verify whether you were imagining it.
Aside from bruises that already seemed to be fading, there were no marks on your neck. Did it really heal that fast?
Maybe you should have been a bit embarrassed that you were so clueless on the whole subject. But in your defense, information on the internet didnât seem to be very reliable, and vampires, for some reason, seemed to love their air of mystery. Based on the few you knew well, you were pretty sure they got a fair amount of amusement out of the misconceptions flying around.
Finally fully dressed for the first time since Seokjin showed up unannounced, you flung your door open with all the confidence you could muster.
Which is to say, you cracked your door open just enough for you to stick your head out. Much to your dismay, your eyes met Seokjinâs on the couch almost immediately, your face ducked toward the floor as you slinked your way over to the living room.
You stopped on the opposite side of the table, the sight of the stained knife there definitely not helping in your hope to distract yourself from what a fool youâd made of yourself the night before.
Out of curiosity, your gaze shot up to examine his abdomen.
You didnât know why the perfectly smooth and unblemished muscle you found there was of any surprise to you after the night youâve had, but it was. There wasnât a single trace of any injury or blood on him â in fact, he looked much cleaner than when he got here. Did he use your shower?
A throat clearing had your eyes instinctively locking with his, an amused smile playing over his features that shot embarrassment through your veins. Of course the one time your ogling was purely scientific, he had to catch you and make fun of you.
You couldnât stop your sight from drifting back down, the concept of there being absolutely no trace of anything happening to him boggling your mind.
âYou really...â you trailed off, eyes darting back and forth across his bare skin one last time just to be sure. âYou really healed, just like that?â
He only nodded, tapping the unbroken skin for emphasis. âYou can heal me, I can heal you. Convenient, isnât it?â
You nodded back in response, silence taking over the room quickly. You didnât know what you were supposed to do to fill it. Youâve never experienced an awkward silence with Seokjin before, his charming nature always keeping everyone around him comfortable. This sort of energy in the room with him... it was unsettling.
âY/N,â Seokjin called out once the silence went on a moment too long for his liking. âCan you come sit with me?â
He scooted over to make plenty of room for you, but you felt almost frozen in place. Did he really want your company after youâd pretty much jumped him? Was he sitting you down so he could let you down easy, tell you that this has been real, but he refused to associate with someone with so little self-control?
You must have stood there staring for longer than you thought, because an unreadable expression crossed his face before he spoke up again.
âAre you scared of me?â
Huh?
âNo!â you blurted out, your volume clearly surprising him. âWell, a little?â
âOh.â If you werenât paying such close attention to him, you would have missed the hurt that flashed in his eyes. But you didnât.
âWait, thatâs not what I meant,â you said hurriedly. You wanted to smack yourself for being such a blatant mess. âIâm just... scared,â you finished weakly.
His gaze softened immediately, and he had to restrain himself from hopping over the table between you to pull you into his arms. You looked like you were trying to shrink into yourself, your shoulders pulled towards your chest, hands wringing nervously in front of you.
âDid you think I would be upset?â he asked softly. He leaned forward, earnest expression on his face.
That was an understatement. You could live with âdrunkenlyâ coming onto someone, but you didnât know what you would do if it ended up costing you your friendship. Maybe you were being overly dramatic, but you never claimed to be the most rational person.
You nodded slowly, your vision dropping to stare at the floor, hands wrapped around your middle, squeezing as you struggled to maintain composure. You didnât know why your heart was beating a mile a minute, your palms uncomfortably sweaty. You usually didnât feel this level of fear when confronting a mistake that, to a normal person, shouldnât be such an obscenely big deal as you were making it. But Seokjin was certainly not a normal person to you, and any situation that lowered his opinion of you was one you would do anything to avoid.
âHey.â The sudden gentle hand on your chin made you squeak, and you would have stumbled in your rush to step backward if not for the steadying hand on your shoulder.
You always seemed to forget that he could move so quickly and silently. Your heart might stop at this rate if he wasnât careful.
His thumb stroked at your jaw as if he hadnât just seen you nearly fall flat on your ass, softly tapping under your chin until you met his gaze.
âI promise Iâm the furthest thing from mad right now. Nothing is even your fault, okay?â
âBut-â
âNo buts. Letâs talk, but Iâm not upset. Okay?â he urged, eyes not leaving yours until you nodded. The smile he gave in return made you feel warm, the tenderness in his gaze doing things to your heart, the hint of a smile ghosting your lips.
The hand on your shoulder nudged you toward him, the other opening wide to welcome you into a hug.
You went easily, your arms wrapping around his bare waist as you tucked your face into his chest. The relief you felt at his reassurance was immense, and you melted into his touch. It was almost strange how well you fit together.
âLetâs sit,â he said, kind yet firm. He led you over to the couch, settling himself down into the spot where he seemed to have spent much of the past day in.
You didnât know what possessed you to straddle his lap in the way you did last night. Maybe it was the way he looked at you warmly without judgment, or the way your body craved his nearness after getting a taste of his touch. But whatever it was, he didnât push you away â rather, he reached for your hands, interlacing his fingers with your own.
This position wasnât the most âinnocentâ to begin with, but with the memories of last night rushing through your head, of his teeth at your neck and the pleasure you felt, your breath sped up.
With the expression on Seokjinâs face, you were sure he must have been thinking the same thing, hungry eyes flickering from your lips back up to your waiting gaze. Unlike you, however, he didnât seem at all embarrassed.
âAre you confused?â he asked suddenly.
Caught off guard by the sudden question, your brows furrowed. Though you didnât know just exactly what he was referring to, what will all that happened, but your answer was still the same regardless.
You nodded hesitantly, but he didnât speak, your puzzled expression telling him that you were still working things out in your head. The silence stretched on until you finally spoke up again.
âYou didnât tell me it would be like... that.â Euphoric. Dreamlike. Intense. No matter what word you used, it still didnât feel enough to encompass what you experienced the night before. Youâd never experienced white-hot physical and even emotional pleasure like that, not in all your years of life.
You dropped your gaze down to your joined hands, watching the way he fiddled with your fingers as he pondered his next words. It felt unusual to have a conversation with him in this way â you both tended to be people who said what they thought without thinking on it too much, with friends at least. But it was reassuring to see him so serious, to see that he really did care.
âI didnât tell you because I didnât think it was a possibility,â he finally said. He sounded confident in his words, but you found it odd that he was fidgeting so much. He hadnât stopped moving his hands since taking hold of yours, and even his legs were starting to shift beneath yours. Why did he seem so nervous?
âWhat does that mean?â
âIs there anything you want to tell me?â he responded instead, leaving you staring at him, baffled.
âHuh?â you replied, immediately defensive.
You didnât have the smallest idea of what that question meant, but he fixed his gaze on you inquisitively. Did he think you had some big secret or something? Sure, he didnât know everything about your life, but there was nothing so exceptional about you that not mentioning it would be some sort of betrayal.
âUhh, never mind.â
âWhat do you mean, never mind? You canât just ask me something like then and then say that,â you huffed, lips forming a thin line.
âSorry I just thought â do you remember what I told you when you asked if it would hurt?â
You swore he was going to give you whiplash with his questions, but at least this one was easy to answer.
âSure, you said the closer two people are the better it feels. Something like that, right?â
âRight, so, uhh, it wouldnât normally feel that intense, you know?â
The fact that he definitely seemed to know exactly what was going on and kept beating around the bush was more than a little bit frustrating. Considering he was normally as straightforward as a person could get, though, you opted to simple stare expectantly at him. But if he didnât cut to the point in approximately 20 seconds, your annoyance would just about outweigh your concern.
âIt shouldnât feel that way unless you liked me back,â he finally said, all in one breath.
You could only blink blankly as you processed his words, but when it clicked, you went from mildly annoyed to incredibly flustered all in the same second.
âHUH?! Wait, back?â You could almost feel your headache coming back with how many directions this conversation has taken in less than 15 minutes. Your hands were starting to feel disgustingly clammy in his, but neither of you moved to separate them.
âI know this is so sudden, and I didnât expect to be outed like this either and it doesnât have to mean anything, like I know I like you a lot, like a lot a lot, but I donât really know how much you feel about me or if itâs even that significant or just a passing attraction because either is possible and Iâm really sorry if this made everything awkward-â
His ridiculously fast words were cut off by your newly-free hand clamping down over his mouth, plump lips tickling your skin as he stared at you, wide-eyed. You were sure if you tried this any other time he would (playfully) smack you, but he only stared.
âReally?â you whispered. To be completely honest, you never realistically considered a relationship, or even just a hook-up with Seokjin. You found him wholly and insanely attractive, but didnât everyone? And it wasnât that he was a vampire and you were a human â it was laughable to believe that youâd think that long-term anyway.
No, you just never saw him being that into you. He was almost ethereally beautiful, got along well with everyone, and had one of the most charming personalities youâd ever seen. His physique wasnât even something that needed to be mentioned. With all that considered, all you ever cared to do was admire him from afar, content to have him as a close friend. It wasnât as though heâd ever sent you hints that he wanted otherwise, either.
So to hear that your stupid little harmless crush could actually amount to anything?
You thought things couldnât get any more unexpected.
When he nodded his confirmation, you couldnât keep the grin from overtaking your face.
The giddiness clear on your face and the adorable sparkle in your eye sent unquantifiable relief through him, and the second you removed your hand, he opened his mouth to speak.
But somehow you were quicker than him, your lips meeting his before a single syllable could be uttered.
Unlike last night, you didnât kiss him like you wanted to devour him, or like your body would light on fire if you couldnât get as close as possible. This was calmer, slower, but it didnât take long for that to change.
His fangs werenât out this time, but that didnât change the fact that you gasped as soon as his teeth dug into your bottom lip. Sparks shot up your spine at the sensation, your mind unable to stop thinking about what you felt the last time you were in this same position. How good it felt to be helpless to the pleasure battering down on you, held in place by strong hands and strong arms.
Heâd probably ruined teeth for you for the rest of your life.
You let him do whatever he wanted, and he groaned into your mouth when you tangled your hands in his hair. Hands gripped your ass tightly and squeezed, pulling you in closer to him.
His hands didnât even wander much further than that, but heat flared in your core regardless. When he raised his hips to brush the bulge in his pants against your aching centre, you could only moan and grind down onto him.
The pressure against your clit through the thin material of your shorts cut off every possible train of thought, and you were pretty sure that after all this, these panties would never recover.
You felt goosebumps raise on your flesh when a hand rose, nails scraping against your scalp. You arched your neck back ever-so-slightly, and Seokjin didnât miss a beat in detaching from your lips to mouth at the skin above your collarbone instead.
He wasnât gentle in the way he sucked bruises into your skin, a firm hand holding your head in place while the other held your thigh, his confined length rubbing languidly into your core. You whined and tightened your grip in his hair at the brush of teeth against skin, but much to your displeasure, he pulled away from you before clothes even started coming off.
âWait.â
âWhyyyy?â you whined petulantly. Was he really going to do this to you again? You knew he was definitely in the right to stop things last night, but there was only so much you could take.
He bit back a smirk at your neediness, thumbing gently at your protruding bottom lip as he resisted the urge to tease you for your cuteness. This soft and pouty side of you was new to him, and he swore something fluttered in his chest.
âYou should eat something, princess.â
âHuh?â you blinked, confused. You were about to protest when he spoke up again.
âWhenâs the last time you ate?â
âUhh... dinner last night? Maybe 7? 8?â
He leaned in toward you, but rather than kiss you again, he reached for the table behind you. You craned your neck to see what he was doing, and frowned when he grabbed for his phone. Your bewilderment at what he was doing didnât last long, however, his phone screen displaying the time for you in large, white font.
5:32 pm.
âHoly shit, I slept for that long?â You stared at him wide-eyed. No wonder he took a shower and everything. You were surprised he was sat there waiting for you for all those hours without complaint.
He looked a bit sheepish, tossing his phone to the side and leaning back into the couch, tugging you with him comfortably. At this point the fire you felt had been dimmed, but that didnât mean you werenât still a bit irritated at being denied twice in a row.
âAh, that would be my fault... the compulsion really gave you hell,â he winced, stroking gently at your cheek with the back of his fingers.
âItâs fine, I feel okay. Wasnât that my fault anyway?â Your face felt hot thinking back to your behaviour and the lack of restraint you showed, hand rubbing nervously at the back of your neck.
âOf course not,â he assured quickly. âItâs not exactly something easy to resist. But if you regret it, Iâm really sor-â
âI donât regret it!â you cut him off, immediately wanting to pinch yourself for being so loud. And hasty. And embarrassing. And horny. âIâm... Iâm happy right now.â Your volume seemed to die as confidence left you, but Seokjin only beamed.
âIâm happy too,â he said simply, tone laced with sincerity. âBut you need to eat, I can practically hear your intestines screaming from here.â
âWhat?!â Strange tension successfully killed, your hands covered your abdomen instinctively as though you could shield yourself from his vampire ears. âCan you actually?â
He let you stare at him in alarm for only a few seconds before he couldnât hold his giggles back anymore.
âNot really, but you should have seen your face. Why are you so worried about it?â
You huffed, shoulders deflating at his teasing. âI donât know! That has to be a breach of privacy or something. Who gave you the right to listen to my intestines?â
âI can already hear your heart just fine, would it really matter so much?â
The smile dropped from his lips within a second, and the sudden intensity in his gaze had you frozen. The energy in the room shifted in an instant, and you were at a complete loss for words.
You thought he was going in for a kiss when he leaned closer, but instead his nose went to nuzzle at your neck, trailing up into your hairline. The warm air he exhaled into your ear made you shiver, pressing yourself ever so closer to his bare chest. You didnât know how he managed to work you up within seconds, but you felt so hot despite his cool touch, baring your neck for him.
âI can hear the way your heart speeds up when I get close...â he whispered, mouthing lazily at your soft skin before sucking harshly. Unsure of what to do with yourself, your nails dug into his biceps, breath unsteady.
âI can hear the way the blood rushes through your veins, the sweetest thing Iâve ever tasted.â A hand rose to palm at your breast, bare beneath the worn cotton of your shirt. You arched your back as he harshly rolled a hard nipple between his fingers.
âI can hear the way you lose your breath, your tiny little gasps...â You couldnât hide the way you twitched when sharp fangs scraped against your skin, a whimper nearly making its way from your throat. âJust like that.â
âAnd just so you know...â His voice was like honey, warm and smooth and sweet, and you hung onto his every word. âI can hear the way your stomach is growling right now too.â
The noise you let out that moment was inhumane, somewhere between a squeak and a scream of disbelief.
He broke away from you with a blaring laugh, shoulders bouncing beneath your grip.
You moved to slap at his chest, but your hand was caught easily, and his laughter only continued. God, you were going to kill this man. Again.
Your face felt obscenely hot, and you could feel a pout overtaking your lips at the sight of him still giggling away in front of you.
âJinnie,â you whined, choosing to display your discontent by breaking free of his grip and hopping up out of his lap.
Which was definitely not the correct choice, because you swore you could feel the rush of blood through your ears before a strong sense of vertigo washed over you, groan escaping your lips. You were sure you would have fallen face first into the floor if not for Seokjinâs steadying.
âWoah, do you feel okay? This is why I told you to eat,â he sighed, maneuvering you to lay down comfortably on the couch, sticking pillows under your head. âJust stay here and Iâll make food, okay?â
âNo, wait, I can make it-â
As you attempted to push back up off the couch, he only gently pushed down with a quiet âtskâ and shake of his head. As you opened your mouth to further protest, he leaned in close, the softness of his lips brushing against the shell of your ear.
âBe a good girl and let me take care of you, hm?â
Your breath hitched at his sudden words, only able to stare wide-eyed when he pulled away from you enough to take in your face. The look in his eyes could only be described as devious â amused yet hardened, and you didnât know if you were imagining the crimson bleeding into the brown of his irises.
âThere goes that heartbeat again,â he murmured as though sharing a secret, the tender motion of his hand on your cheek in stark contrast to the want etched into his expression. âYouâre going to be so much fun to ruin.â
--
For someone who didnât really need to eat food to survive (though youâd been told time and time again that eating was fun), Seokjin made one hell of a good cook. Granted, egg fried rice wasnât the most difficult nor time-consuming dish to make, but that didnât make it any less tasty. In fact, you were grateful for such a simple and light dish, because you learned quite quickly that after an entire day without food, rushing to eat only brought nausea and discomfort.
Leaning against the armrest of the couch, the inside of your bowl was all you could see with how close you were holding it to your face. In your defence, though, you were greatly disinterested in the possibility of needing to clean a stain from your cushions.
As you took your time eating, Seokjin opted to tidy up a bit, dishes clanging in the kitchen before you heard him rearranging his shoes at the front door.
Thankfully, his efforts included removing the knife from your table and putting it god-knows-where, but you were just glad it was out of your line of sight. Maybe he thought that it was better for your appetite to remove the thing youâd literally pulled out of him.
You tried not to let your mind linger on just how... strange that felt.
He somehow managed to clean up before youâd even finished eating, the couch dipping beside you as he settled into his spot. Vampire speed truly was startling.
If you didnât have your entire field of vision blocked, you might have noticed Seokjinâs fond look as you ate your meal at what could only be described as a forced snailâs pace. He had to suppress a chuckle at how antsy you seemed to be, clearly wanting to just shovel food into your mouth, but knowing you would only suffer for it. How did one person manage to be so cute and yet so seductive?
When you were done, you set the bowl down on the table with a satisfied sigh, jumping in surprise when a glass of water was placed into your newly-emptied hands almost immediately.
âThanks,â you smiled shyly, face feeling hot at his attentiveness. You didnât know how to react at having a man like Kim Seokjin doting on you. It was almost â no, it was â unbelievable, and your poor heart didnât know how to act. It was one thing to have him kiss you like he was going to devour you, and another to be this sweet and this caring and this soft.
Setting the empty glass next to your empty bowl, you leaned back, unsure of what to do with yourself now that you were entirely unoccupied. Seokjinâs presence beside you made you increasingly aware of the awkward shifting of your hands and your uneasy breathing. He wasnât that close to you and yet you could smell him â you didnât know how he managed to make your floral scented shampoo smell sexy.
âWhy are you so nervous?â he said lowly, nudging you into his side and tossing an arm around your shoulders. It was a simple move, and yet all you could think was how big he was, how easily he completely enveloped you in his hold.
âI-Iâm not nervous,â you stuttered, and you could feel the blood rush to your face. You wondered if he could hear that, too.
A hand lifted your face in his direction, and you were met with an expression that very clearly read âare you really going to try lying to a vampire?â
âI donât know why Iâm nervous,â you amended, biting into your lower lip. His gaze followed the motion, eyes clouding over.
âCan I kiss you?â he asked softly, his thumb raising to release your lip from your teeth, the movement intimate enough to set your stomach aflutter.
âAre we asking that now?â you responded smartly, grinning when Seokjin only huffed a laugh.
âLet me be clearer then,â he said lowly, the abrupt commanding tone having you sit up straighter. âCan I kiss you, strip you, take you to bed, taste that sweet pussy on my tongue, and then fuck you?â
Heat flared in you at the words, your fingernails scratching against his chest before remembering he wasnât wearing a shirt for you to yank him closer. You settled for making a beeline for his mouth, but a quick movement to grip your hair at the scalp kept you from getting close enough.
âAh, ah,â he tutted, holding you still as he nuzzled his nose against your neck, humming in content when he brushed right against the spot he bit you yesterday. âTell me yes or no, princess.â
You nodded with what freedom you had left â not much, with how tight his hold on you was, tiny pricks of pain sending sparks up and down your spine. His other hand pulled you closer to him, your hips halfway straddling him as he mouthed at your neck, acting as though he hadnât noticed your response. It was clear that he was waiting for you to say something.
âYes,â you said quietly, nearly forgetting what the question was from the way he was sucking softly at your neck. At the scrape of fangs against your skin, you only pushed back against the hand in your hair, exposing more of your neck with a soft sigh.
âYou canât stop thinking about it, can you?â he taunted, pulling you fully on top of him, his hard cock right against your core, and you wished that clothing wasnât separating you.
He pressed those fangs against the soft skin below your ear, hard enough that the pain had you wincing, but not enough to break skin.
He was teasing you, and you were putty in his hands.
âI canât stop thinking about it either,â he breathed, tonguing lazily over the stinging marks he left behind. You could only whimper and squirm in his hold, hands tangling in his silken hair. You didnât know whether you wanted to pull him away or push him closer.
âTo have you moaning in rapture right in my lap, so desperate for my cock, the taste of you on my lips...â His voice was so low you could barely hear it, barely process it, but the absolutely lust in his voice only spurred new waves of arousal in you. âHearing you beg like that, fuck-â
He cut himself off with a sinful moan as he shifted his hips to rub himself right against your cunt, and you shuddered in response.
âI donât think Iâve ever wanted anyone so bad,â he sighed, breathing unsteady as he used his grip on you to rock you in time to his movements. âIâve never had such a test of self-control. Maybe I should punish you.â
This voice was teasing, but your reaction was real, and there was no way to hide the way a moan escaped or the way your nails dug crescents into Seokjinâs smooth skin.
âOh, you like that, do you?â he chuckled darkly as he leaned his head back into the couch, the grip in your hair tightening even more. A helpless whine left your lips, and you became uncomfortably aware of the way your panties were sticking to your folds.
âTell me, do you think I should punish you?â he asked, his honeyed voice lulling you into a state you couldnât even begin to explain with words.
You tried nodding again, hissing at the flash of pain when you tried move your head from his grip.
âPrincess, havenât you learned to use your words? I think Iâll bend you over my knee right here. What do you think about that?â
âPlease,â you gasped without hesitation, freezing when you fluttered your eyelids open to meet his gaze.
If you werenât sure whether his eyes were laced with red before, it was evident now. It only made him all the more enticing, and your vision fell down to his mouth instinctively when he ran his tongue over his teeth. A pang of heat went through you when his fangs bit into his lip, and before you were thinking about it, a hand rose to brush against his mouth.
Your thumb grazed a fang almost reverently, and Seokjin only watched on fondly at the wonderment on your face. You supposed it might have been strange to touch your friendâs â boyfriendâs? â teeth like this, but you had always been curious. Hell, you hadnât even seen fangs in person before last night. As far as you knew, they only extended when feeding or when feeling strong emotions, and neither tended to be something you could casually see on the street.
You bit at your lip when sharpness pushed into the pad of your finger, but his next words broke you free of your reverie.
âBend over then.â
He released you from his grip dizzyingly fast, leaning back to watch you.
You were surprised at yourself with how quickly you situated your ass over his lap, the self-consciousness you wouldâve expected to be feeling wholly absent. Seokjin was just that captivating.
You wiggled your way into a comfortable position, sticking a cushion under your head. Now that your ass was sticking out right into his view, you felt more vulnerable than ever, knowing that his eyes and ears were trained on your every movement and reaction.
Hands pushed your long shirt up over your hips, fingers trailing lightly over the globes of your ass, separated only by the thin fabric of your shorts. But not for long.
Fingers reached under your waistband and tugged down before you could react, yanking your shorts and panties down in one go.
With air suddenly hitting your sodden pussy, you could feel heat rise to your face at how exposed you found yourself. But any thought of shifting and hiding was erased when you heard Seokjinâs loud groan.
âShit, youâre soaked, smell so fucking good,â he hissed, fingers reaching to push messily through your folds.
You couldnât see him putting his fingers in his mouth, but the depraved moan he let out afterward had you squirming in his lap.
After your shorts and panties were pushed onto the floor, a large hand ran tenderly over the skin of your ass, fingers digging in slightly.
âIs ten on each side too much for you?â he asked. There was no hint of teasing in his tone, his voice firm. He continued his soft stroking as he waiting for an answer.
âUhh... I donât really know?â you responded meekly. Sure, you had been spanked before, but it was never this... structured? To be honest, you didnât really know what âa lotâ would be in terms of numbers.
âItâs okay,â he soothed. âWeâll work our way up and see how it feels. Is that okay?â
You nodded at first, but quickly let out an âokayâ when you remembered how firm he was on a proper response.
âThis means Iâm trusting you to be honest and tell me to stop if itâs too much. I want you to feel good.â
âOkay.â
You released tension you didnât realize youâd had at his reassurances, allowing your limbs to loosen as you adjusted to lay more comfortably. The sensation of his hands on you made you feel safe and secure, and you knew for a fact that for all his hard words and cold stares, he was still always searching for your approval.
You twitched in surprise as a few light swats came down on each cheek, almost as though he was testing the motion. But after being briefly taken off guard, you relaxed under his hands, body already warming up at each light blow. You barely felt anything aside from a faint sting, but you could already feel your cunt throbbing, anticipation having you dig your nails into the cushion beneath you.
But even despite his preparation, the first real blow had you gasping. Not because it was overly painful â in fact, those pinpricks of pain were laced with pleasure, radiating outward from where his palm had firmly struck you. No, it was more that with the control and precision he showed, another realization struck you at that moment.
He really knew what he was doing.
This wasnât just a college boyfriend who wanted to experiment with things he saw in porn, or a random bar hookup who thought he was more than he was.
No, Seokjin was the epitome of calculated control, had you eating out of the palm of his hand with one simple word. One look and you were his.
And fuck, if that didnât make you melt.
You sighed happily as a hit came down on your other asscheek, another wave of arousal soaking your cunt.
âDo you want it harder?â he asked, voice low. The tone felt almost like a personal attack, honeyed words piercing your eardrums.
âOkay,â you whispered.
âYes or no. Donât just agree to do things because I suggest it,â he scolded, punishing you with a swat to your upper thigh that stung sharper than his previous blows.
âYes, I want it.â
âHm,â he hummed, nails scratching over your skin, just barely missing the heat of your core. âI think I would be more convinced if you begged.â
As much as most of your embarrassment had already faded, what with being bent over Seokjinâs lap, it took so much more to put your desires verbally out into the world. But the throbbing in your cunt was fierce, and the warmth from his previous strikes was already fading. And you wanted more.
âPlease,â you whined weakly before taking a deep breath to amp yourself up. âPlease, Jinnie, I want it harder.â
You barely had time to process the tiny chuckle he let out before his palm came down on you again, the additional force behind it making you shiver despite the warmth that spread through you.
You didnât know exactly how many more times his hand struck your ass, but your quiet moans were interrupted by his voice once again.
âHarder?â
As much as you felt good, it still wasnât enough. The sting wasnât enough, the heat wasnât enough. You wanted more, needed more.
âYes, please.â
âMm, there you go. Maybe I should do this more often if youâre going to be such a good girl for me after.â
He punctuated his statement with a harsh blow to your ass, the strength of it forcing a moan from your lungs. A hand stroked tenderly over where it had struck, before doing the same to the other cheek. You whimpered as you felt another gush of wetness spill from your cunt, squirming as another strike rained down.
Yes, this is what you wanted.
The feeling was heady, your mouth open and allowing all the sounds to spill from your lips. Every cell in your body felt hot, from your fingertips down to your toes. You were certain you must have been making a mess of his lap with how wet you were.
You didnât realize how heavily you were breathing until the smacks stopped, fingers gently kneading at the raw skin instead. Your skin felt almost burned, but more than anything, you needed those hands to slip between your legs. Now that there was nothing else to distract you, your neglected pussy was desperate for something, anything.
âHow are you?â he asked several moments later.
His continued soothing touch dampened the fire of your skin before long, but that only furthered your arousal, shifting in his lap in search of some relief. You itched for some pressure on your clit, but it wasnât possible in the position he had you in.
âGood,â you breathed, pressing back into his touch.
âGood.â He let his fingers creep ever-so-closer to where you needed him most, rubbing against where your wetness had spread, just beside your outer folds. âI think you deserve a reward. What do you think?â
âPlease,â you whined immediately, but luckily, he didnât seem interested in making you wait any longer. Maybe it was the fact that he had been waiting just as long, or that he was just tired of your constant fidgeting in his lap.
A finger slid in without resistant â unsurprisingly, what with the way you could feel the air hitting your slick skin. Your walls clamped down on the intrusion immediately, and another finger slid down to rub tiny circles onto your clit.
You whined in relief, but Seokjin unfortunately held you down to keep you from thrusting back onto his hand.
âSo fucking wet,â he murmured, slipping another finger in when he felt how easily you took the first.
As much as one didnât feel like enough, two of his fingers was so much bigger than your own. The stretch had you gasping, the friction against your walls and clit making you moan out.
As he scissored his fingers inside of you, the slight burn had you hissing, though the constant ministrations on your clit made sure the pain never became your focus.
âMm, are you sure you can take my cock?â he mused, smirking at the way you were already whimpering, increasing the pace of his thrusts as your moans got more frequent.
âI can!â you blurted out, sounding almost offended. He had to stifle a laugh. You had always been fun to rile up, and sex was no exception.
âHm, okay,â he hummed, amusement colouring his tone. You almost called him out on it before his fingers pulled out of you abruptly.
âJin-â
Before you could question him, beg him to come back, hold him against you â three fingers started easing their way inside of you.
You tensed up almost immediately at the harsher burn at your entrance, the stiffness of your body not doing you much of a favour. He paused all movement at your struggle.
âRelax. Iâll take care of you, okay?â
His words had you feeling more at ease, a reminder that he was here, he wanted you to feel good, and he only kept on making that fact clear.
You made a noise of agreement, forcing your muscles to relax despite how much they wanted to clamp down. You wanted his cock, after all. You could take his fingers.
He took his time with you, slowly easing his fingers in and scissoring them apart, all the while his other hand resting beneath your abdomen, rubbing into your clit. You keened under his continuous murmured praise, moaning as he began to thrust his fingers.
âThatâs it,â he whispered, his own breaths beginning to get heavy as he watched you twitch and whine at his hand.
Once the discomfort passed, your pleasure crested ridiculously fast with how long youâve been waiting to be touched, filled. He stretched you open so wide, and you clenched around his digits at the thought of those fingers being his cock instead.
You were easily giving yourself away with how your walls were clamping down more and more, heavier gasps leaving you. The stroking at your clit wasnât getting any slower, and soon enough you felt like you were going to snap.
âGonna come all over my fingers, princess?â he asked roughly, his voice showing an uncharacteristic lack of control as he spread his fingers wide again.
âPlease,â you said feebly, all other words having left your available vocabulary long ago. âPlease.â
âDonât worry, Iâll give it to you, baby.â The crook of his fingers took you by surprise, and with one, two, strokes against that spongy spot within you, you were gone.
Your orgasm stole the breath from your lungs, your legs going weak as waves of bliss hit you everywhere at once. His hands on you didnât stop their motions, only sending new waves up your spine, shivers wracking your body as you grasped the closest object tightly â your nails digging into the cushion beneath you.
He only stopped when you started to squirm away as pain took over the pleasure, a whimper escaping as his fingers were removed.
If you thought you were getting a moment to breathe, you were wrong.
âFuck, youâre going to be the death of me,â he growled.
Before you could blink, you were on your back, his lips attacking yours in a frenzy.
The grip he had on your thigh was sure to bruise, his still-clothed cock rocking into your sensitive pussy as he consumed your every thought, every desire.
You could taste yourself on his tongue, the realization only building the fire that had already been relit within you.
You allowed him to pull the shirt from your body, your skin left completely bare beneath his.
His gaze was somewhere between reverent and demonic, and he looked almost ready to pounce back on you before he paused.
âBed?â His voice sounded strained, and you thought briefly back to what he said about how much self-control the past day has required from him. You glanced down at the bulge in his pants, and you had to keep yourself from grabbing at it, eager to give him his pleasure the same way heâd done for you.
âOkay.â
You didnât think your lips formed the second syllable before you were being scooped up, your arms looping around his neck to steady yourself from the abrupt movement.
The walk to the bedroom was somewhat of a blur, your stomach lurching at the speed with which he moved. Youâd known the man was quick, but experiencing it firsthand was partly unsettling, and partly... strangely sexy.
Your back hit the sheets with unexpected force, your body bouncing back up from the impact. Youâd never considered strength to be such a significant turn-on, but combined with everything else about him, it seemed to make Seokjin the most dangerously attractive man youâve ever encountered.
You thought you were about to get fucked into the mattress â the hunger in Seokjinâs stare only cementing the thought â but it seemed that he had other ideas.
âJin-â
You were about to beg him to touch you, fuck you, do literally anything â when his hands wrapped around your ankles, spreading your legs apart enough that you could begin to feel the strain in your thighs.
The way he was gazing at your fully exposed core almost made you self-conscious before you took in the way his breathing was heavier than youâd ever seen it, the crimson completely having taken over the brown of his irises.
âI have â I have to taste you,â he groaned.
He sprung on you in an instant, plush lips wrapping around your clit and sucking before his tongue moved down to lap at your arousal.
While you were still a bit sensitive from your last orgasm, the discomfort was nothing in comparison to the bliss lighting up your nerves. You were a slave to pleasure under his tongue, hands holding you down as you attempted to buck up into him instinctively.
His tongue attacked you like a man starved, his unabashed moans into your heat leaving you gasping.
But as much as he was successfully making you lose your mind, you didnât want to cum like this.
âJin, fuck-â you whimpered, body aching to grind up into his face despite your next words.
He only hummed into your pussy at your noises, motions not pausing whatsoever.
âFuck me, please,â you begged, a hand winding into his hair in an attempt to pull him off you.
You almost thought he was pretending not to hear you when he didnât react straightaway, but not long after, he pulled off of you.
He didnât even say a word in response, only shucking off his pants and boxers with a heaving chest.
You swore your pussy throbbed when you saw his cock, only moreso when he fisted it with a hiss, lips that were glistening with your arousal widening to reveal sharp white fangs.
âI have to be inside you right fucking now,â he snarled, dragging your body down by the thighs to meet him where he knelt.
You felt almost feverish, your hands reaching to yank Seokjin by the shoulders, the need to be closer taking over your every thought.
He kissed you frantically as the head of his cock rubbed against your clit, your back arching up into him, his closeness still not close enough for you.
You were so close to pleading with him not to draw this out, but he settled himself against your entrance, his other arm supporting himself by your head. When he started to push in, you could only whimper.
You knew he was big when he grasped himself in his hand only moments before, but for all his preparation, it felt like you were being split open.
You clung onto his biceps as he rocked himself forward at a snailâs pace, nails digging into his skin as you clamped down on him reflexively. It burned, but you wanted it so bad. As much as the discomfort was intense, you could feel yourself getting wetter by the second, unable to stop panting into Seokjinâs mouth.
You whined as he nibbled at your bottom lip, one of his hands rubbing soothing circles into your thigh, the other in your hair. But when you felt fangs puncture your lip ever-so-slightly before he sucked it into his mouth, all breath was stolen from you.
It was only the smallest fraction of the pleasure you felt the night before, but that was enough to have your head thrown back, hips raising to meet Seokjinâs.
It almost seemed that he wasnât expecting you to thrust upward onto him, a strangled groan leaving his throat as you shoved more of him inside you.
The stretch remained overwhelming, but the pain felt like a distant memory, new arousal making the glide smoother.
âGood?â he gasped against your collarbone, hot breaths hitting your skin as his hair brushed against your face. The arm holding him up was trembling at your side, the fingers on your thigh tightening their hold as if to physically hold himself together.
Part of you just wanted him to lose control.
âSo good,â you moaned, shoving your hips up again, volume increasing exponentially when he allowed you to push him in to the hilt.
âFuck,â he growled, arm moving to form a bruising grip on your other thigh, his chest moving away from yours. âAre you that desperate for it?â
The question was accompanied by a sharp snap of his hips that sent you reeling, too breathless for any sound to escape.
He spread your thighs apart even further, a hand beneath your left knee lifting your leg towards his chest.
The next quick thrust hit you even harder at that angle, a choked-out whine escaping you. Your fingers dug into the sheets as he ground himself into you, your pussy feeling split so overwhelmingly wide.
You were wound up so tight, you thought you were going to go crazy. It was impossible to think straight when he only did quick snaps of his hips at random intervals. You didnât think youâd ever been hornier than this moment, and you swore you could feel the arousal leaking from your cunt.
You could see sparks of light behind your eyelids with how tightly you had them shut. You bit down hard on your bottom lip, the flesh still tender from Seokjinâs bite.
His thrusts became slow and deep, tiny gasps leaving your open mouth.
âLook at me,â he snarled suddenly, the sheer command in his voice sending shivers up your spine, gaze snapping onto him immediately. It took a moment for your vision to focus properly, still drowning in the sensation of his cock still moving within you.
If you thought he looked fierce, hungry, dangerous â you were his polar opposite.
To put it simply, you were a mess.
You were too lost in it all to notice the stutter in his hips when he locked eyes with you, but he almost stopped breathing entirely.
Your eyes were glazed over in pleasure, the tears just beginning to gather there only making their colour all the more enticing. Your expression was slack, and it looked like you couldnât decide between clamping down on your bottom lip or leaving your mouth wide-open. You looked so vulnerable, so willing to put all of your trust in him to take care of you, make you feel good.
And fuck, if it wasnât the most beautiful sight heâd ever seen.
His movements after that caught you off guard, his abrupt rough thrusting engulfing your body in flames of bliss, loud moan leaving you. As much as holding his gaze made everything feel so much more intense, you just couldnât. Your head fell back onto the pillow, back arching as much as he would allow you to move in his tight hold.
âYou feel so fucking good,â he groaned, his voice sounding almost helpless and he continued his movements, his arms the only thing keeping you from shifting up the mattress. As his gasps transitioned to groans and then loud moaning, you could feel yourself nearing your peak again.
He slowed his movements, the heavy panting reaching your eardrums and having you clench around him instinctively. The choked-out groan in response told you he was close, too.
âJin,â you called out, the word so breathy that you almost didnât recognize it despite it coming from your own lips.
You raised an arm to weakly grab at his body, hoping he got the message himself. You wanted him close, but highly doubted that you could manage to form the words right now.
Luckily, he seemed to know exactly what you wanted, dropping your leg and moving to hover over you, your breasts brushing his chest. He started thrusting slowly again, his head dropping to your collarbone as a hand wound into the hair at your scalp.
With him right on top of you, his pubic bone was brushing against your clit, the added stimulation having you whine loudly and dig your nails harshly into the skin of his back.
He didnât seem to mind, a loud groan leaving him as he started mouthing at your neck, sucking bruises into the flesh.
But when you felt fangs briefly scrape over your skin, only one thought came to mind and refused to leave.
You wanted it, wanted his fangs to sink into you, wanted to feel that again. Now.
âBite me,â you whimpered, pushing your head into the pillow and arching your back, eager to give him free reign as your orgasm inched closer and closer.
You expected him to protest, expected him to deny you, expected him to pull away.
But he did none of those things.
Instead, fangs sunk deeply into your neck with a feral growl, almost as soon as he heard the words leave your lips.
That same immense burst of pain rendered you motionless for a split second before that all-consuming euphoria descended on you.
You vaguely registered Seokjin moaning loudly above you as his hips stuttered, his lips locked on your neck. But you felt almost disconnected from the world, as though every nerve in your body was firing, your cunt pulsating around him as you reached the strongest high youâd ever felt.
It felt almost instinctual to grip at his back tightly, pulling him close, as if heâd ever want to leave. You didnât even realize how loud you were being, your peak only going higher and higher, to the point of being overwhelming.
Tears streamed from where your eyes were clamped shut, moans turning into sobs as Seokjin ground against your overstimulated clit, your pussy clenched around him tightly.
You were so far gone you didnât even notice the warmth spilling into you as he groaned loudly into your skin, his movements slowing before he pulled his mouth from you.
The crash was almost immediate, exhaustion and soreness taking over your limbs as you gasped for breath, the hands on Seokjinâs back falling limp. It felt like all the strength was sapped from your body, your consciousness half-absent.
You thought you heard Seokjin fussing over you, his hands wiping tears from your face, but to be honest, it was all a blur. He disconnected with you easily despite your mumbled protests, dropping a kiss on your forehead with a soft command not to move. You didnât think you were capable of such a thing anyway.
You hardly registered his absence before he was back with a wet cloth. You didnât know if that was because of his speed or because you were too tired to pay attention.
The next thing you knew, he had rolled you to lay on top of him, your face tucked into his neck as he stroked at your back. Normally, you might have complained about how much colder he was than you, but your skin was still so heated that the coolness was a relief.
You could tell that he was saying something quietly, unsure whether he was asking you something or not. His voice only brought you warm comfort, your arm moving to wrap around his waist.
You honestly werenât too sure how long you laid there until your senses started coming back to you, but the hand on your back never stopped its soothing motions. The realization made you strangely embarrassed, wondering how long youâve been out of it.
âDid I fall asleep?â you mumbled, nuzzling into the softness of Seokjinâs neck.
âNot really, it hasnât been too long,â he responded, though the way he paused made it seem that he had more to say. It took a few moments before he got the words out. âDid I go too hard? Was it too much?â
Despite the low volume of his voice, he sounded almost frantic, and your brows furrowed. Why was he so worried?
âOf course not. I asked you for it, I knew exactly what I was getting into.â
He sighed heavily, his hands on you pausing. âI know, I just â I got worried when you were barely responding to me. I guess I was just afraid that you would be scared of me after.â
You felt a tinge of guilt at his concern, but logically it was nobodyâs fault. As much as you wanted to take his face in your hands and tell him that you donât regret anything and there wasnât a world where you could ever be scared of him, you doubted your ability to do so right now. Instead, you hoped that simple reassurance could be enough.
âI loved it,â you said plainly, sleepiness clear in your voice. You were fighting past the fog in your brain to talk to him, wanting to make sure he knew where you stood.
âI loved it too,â he whispered before bringing up the blanket to cover both of you. âYou sound tired. Why donât we sleep?â
âWait.â
âHm?â he hummed in response, his confused expression hid from your view.
âAre you my boyfriend?â Your words sounded almost slurred with how close you were to unconsciousness, but his chest bouncing as he chuckled told you that he heard you just fine.
You were dangerously close to dreamland, but you caught his answer right before you fell asleep in his arms.
âYeah, Iâm your boyfriend.â
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grand gesture | ksj
⤠ series: sugar free
⤠genre: angst, rich!jin x artist!reader, college au.
⤠rating: PG13
⤠word count: 1.5K
⤠warnings: there arenât any, lmao.
⤠A/N: this is a bit short, but itâs straight to the point and meant to be that way!! just felt like this part worked better written then told through text, so yeah youâll see what i mean! let me know what you think x
A full week passed. A full week of ignored gifts being dumped on your front porch. You were seriously considering selling them, no desire to collect his half ass-ed apology. This was the exact reason why you were hesitant to get involved with him in the first place. He was exactly like how you thought he'd be.
Of course, he'd approach you on a bet. Of course, this would all be about money. It was all that kid cared about. The way he was flaunting it, trying to buy your forgiveness was proof enough. Did he not get it? Was he that dim?
The only thing that bothered you about this whole situation was the time you wasted hanging around him. All that time you could've used working on projects or perfecting your craft... spent and wasted with the hope of trying to get to know the guy. What a waste.
Despite the constant interruption of a knock at your front door, you had decided that you were going to use all this new free time to concentrate on your art. Summoning all the inspiration you could to create... something. It actually was harder than you thought, feeling unbelievably uninspired and a little bit sad.
From your friends, you had requested they didn't pop in whenever they wanted. Felt like you'd work better if you had a chance to be alone. What you didn't realize was that with all this alone time you really had a chance to evaluate your feelings... what you had been suppressing since that night out with Jin.
It had been obvious to the people around you, but you refused to listen. It was hard to ignore now. You were a bit sad, to be honest. It had been a while since you were able to let go and actually enjoy being around someone... romantically, and you hadn't expected it at first but you really were starting to like him.
Things were comfortable around him, he was funny in a nice way, cared a lot about keeping things light, and actually listened when you ranted about whatever was bugging you at the time. It had only been a few weeks spent with him, two dates in that time but you really enjoyed yourself.
A little bummed that it had to end this way. Couldn't help but wonder if you had overreacted, if you should have listened when he tried to text you about it. Stopped being so stubborn and forgave him like everyone had said that you should. Maybe then you wouldn't be this miserable, suffering from this horrible artist's block, you didn't even know if you were holding your paintbrush correctly.
The welcomed knock on your door had you standing a little too quickly, ready to ditch this blank canvas and see whatever had been sent your way. Nothing came in yesterday and you had assumed he got the hint... hoped he hadn't.
There's an arch in your brow at the lack of delivery man at your front door. With confusion written in your features, you're putting the front door open; eyes landing on a sad-looking Seokjin. He's dressed casually, opposite of the expensive tops and form-fitting jeans he usually put on. Pair of joggers and a plain t-shirt. The change was nice, made him look younger.
He shifted on his feet, hands behind his back eyes trained on his sneakers. You had to fight the smile that pushed it's way onto your lips, happy to see him standing in front of you â but quickly reminding yourself why he had to show up like this in the first place. Main priority was to be strong in this situation, figure out what he was doing here and deal with it. Not swoon and go all heart-eyed just because he showed up.
He should've shown up before all of this.
âWhat are you doing here? No ridiculously expensive coat to add to the donation pile?â Jin shifts at the sound of your voice, lifting his head to look up at you. He looks sad that you can't help but wonder if you're being a bit mean to him.
Although, him betting on your sex life was pretty mean in itself, right? Getting you to like him just to turn around and make you apart of some sick joke, that's mean.
âN-no, no gifts... they weren't working anyway,â He sighs, arm reaching up to rub at the back of his neck in the awkward way you notice he was always doing. Couldn't believe you had started to find the action cute.
âYeah, sucks. You can't buy someone's forgiveness,â There's bite in your tone but he doesn't flinch, just looks down nodding his head. âYeah, I deserve that. I shouldn't have treated this like some business transaction. I hurt you... I should've manned up and came to you.â
You're reading to rip into him again until his words are registering in your mind. Did he come here to... apologize? Eyes blinking as you stare at him, Jin takes your silence as a sign he should continue.
âYn, I'm sorry. I hate that I fucked with you like that and even more that you're upset. I know you won't forgive me, I'm not expecting you to... I just figured I should at least say it, like for real, you know? We were having a good time together and I really like you, so I owe you at least a proper apology.â
There's a warmth that spreads throughout your body at hearing his words. Not sure if it was from the apology or the fact that he had just told you... to your face, that he liked you. What you had been wanting to hear this entire week was an explanation from him, not through text and not in the form of some designer shoes... like a real explanation. Could see yourself forgiving him if he gave you that.
âWhy'd you do it?â Your voice is quieter than you remember as if you're afraid of the reason. Either way, you don't back down. Staring straight at him as if you're strong, waiting to hear what he has to say. âBecause I liked you. And I know how stupid that sounds, but I was too chicken shit to do something about it... so I just used the bet as an excuse,â
Jin had said that you didn't have to forgive him, but that didn't stop the hopeful look in his eyes. Watching as you tossed his words around in your head, waiting for that smile of yours to appear as you told him that it was all okay. That you forgave him and if he promised he never did something stupid like this again, you two could go back to falling for each other as you had been before.
It didn't come. Instead, you were just nodding, taking a step back into your house. âAlright, well... thanks for coming here and apologizing.â
âSo that's it?â The words are falling from his lips before he has a chance to stop them. Not realizing how expectant they sound, how he had promised himself he wouldn't act that way at this moment because he knew you hated it. âI mean... were you thinking we could, maybe, try again?â You can hear the hope in his voice and you don't miss it.
Did you want to try again? Let him in all over again as he attempted to break down your walls, he had done a pretty good job at it before. Were you ready for all that? All that came with being with him... like actually being with him. Before it had been different, you weren't sure of your feelings then, but now, you knew that you'd want more from him. An actual relationship. Would he even be able to do that?
âWas that what you were hoping for? Why you came by to apologize?â He's shaking his head before the words can fully leave your mouth.
âNo, I came here because you deserved a proper apology because I was sick of being a coward about all of this. I want to be with you because... well because you're amazing and I don't want to miss out on that,â He's offering a small smile up to you, one you're returning almost instantly.
Still, there's something holding you back, but you're unable to place it. Needed to figure out what it was before you were leaping into a relationship with the guy. âCould I...? Could I think about it?â
âYes, yeah!â The smile on his lips grows as he steps off of your porch, mission accomplished. âTake all the time you need to think about it... you can call me when you decide? My numbers the same!â You can't help but laugh at his quick shift of demeanor, the way he basically runs down your driveway before you can change your mind.
You stand and watch the entire time he jogs down the street until he's ducking into his car, and speeding off with a wave out the window. A hand lifts to wave back, heart thudding in your chest as you stepped back into your house. About to give this situation some serious thought... were you really going to be able to handle being with Kim Seokjin?
â rich, spoiled and a bit of a womanizer. but underneath all of that, thereâs a heart of gold. and no matter how determined she is to reject him, he wonât stop trying until she sees heâs kinda sweet.
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Good evening everyone, tis I, your bringer of fun Mandoâa vocabulary for a second time. This language is fuckin wild, guys, and I owe my life to Karen Traviss for letting it exist at the same time as I do. Learned some cool ones today, including:
The fact that Mandalorians will sometimes refer to members of their family as the first two or three letters of their name followed by the suffix â-ika,â which is basically adding â-itoâ or â-itaâ in Spanish, or kinda-sorta â-etteâ in English. It more or less translates to âlittleâ overall. (See also: cyarâika, which means darling or sweetheart)
In that same vein, the word for helmet is âBuyâceâ (pronounce BOO-shay or BOO-chay). The word for cradle is âbuycikaâ (pronounce BOO-she-kah), and while Karen Traviss/mandoa.org donât explicitly state it, that does literally tranlate to âlittle helmetâ which is so heartwarmingly cute for some reason ???
Diâkut (pronounced DEE-koot) means idiot, but literally translates to âsomeone who forgets to put their pants onâ which is good
The phrase âGar taldin ni jaonyc; gar sa buir, oriâwasaasâlaâ means âNobody cares who your father was, only the father youâll be.â Granted, âbuir,â as well as many many many pronouns in the Mandoâa language, is completely gender neutral and can mean either parent. That being said, family and being a good parent is extremely important to these people.
Wanna learn how to curse? Haarâchak means damn it! Usenâye means fuck off! Osik means shit! there are some others but those are the good ones
The phrase âIbâtuur jatne tuur ashâad kyrâamurâ means âtoday is a good day for someone else to dieâ which is a big mood (also, you have to realize this is a warrior culture)
Speaking of warrior culture, there are a lot of words about... war. Go figure. Anyway âoriâbuyce, kihâkovidâ is one of my favorites, too. Literally, âall helmet, no head.â According to the website, itâs a âcommon term of derision for someone with an overdeveloped sense of authority.â
Another way to call someone an idiot is to call them âutreekovâ which means âemptyheadâ
Thanks for coming to my tedtalk about mandoâa, I will probably talk about this more in the future
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Curse of The Fold (5)
Chapter Five: Haunted
Description: The year was 1692, a time where women, children, and men feared for their lives of possibly being accused of witchcraft. Two men though, donât allow this mass hysteria to come between them. Even though the madness Janus and Roman manage to keep their relationship a secretâŚThat is until the summer of 1692.âThe only thing that could hurt us. Is the curse of the fold.â
Characters: Patton Sanders, Roman Sanders, Remus Sanders, Janus Sanders, Logan Sanders, Virgil Sanders, and Thomas Sanders
Relationships: Roman/Janus
TW: Unsympathetic Patton, Unsympathetic Remus, major character death, death by hanging, death by fire, executions, witch trials.
Other(s): Based on Salem Witch Trials and not fully historically accurate.
Chapter TW: attempted drowning, Unsympathetic Remus, forced kissing, non-con touching, knives, and bloodÂ
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March 2nd, 1692 Salem Massachusetts
Roman has to get away, the town was becoming too hectic. Two executions back to back happened, one of them a woman in her early thirties and the other a man who was about Romanâs age.
He rushes through the woods, just desperately trying to get away from it all. The death was taking a toll on him, Roman just knew that it was.
âWould you slow down! I canât keep up!â Virgil yells.
Roman forces himself to come to a halt, he glances back and watches as his skinny friend struggles to catch up, his breath coming out in short puffs.
âApologies, Virgil⌠I just need to get away, that town and my father are running me crazy.â
Virgil nods and takes a moment to catch his breath before walking towards Roman, once the two were side by side Virgil gestures for his friend to continue walking at a slower pace.
âI know what you mean⌠The hangings are haunting me you know, to think I could have been one of them if it hadnât been for that medicine this witch gave you,â Virgil says as he stuffs his hands into the pockets of his black trousers.
Roman glances over and narrows his eyes at Virgil, âFor the last time, Janus is not a witch. You can make medicines and not be a witch, Virgil.â
Virgil shrugs and leans his head back, his dark hair tumbling past his shoulders a bit as he closes his eyes.
âWhatever you say, Roman. He better be as nice as you say he is, or Iâm not going to like him.â
Roman huffs and crosses his arms over his chest, he doesnât understand why everyone accuses Janus of being a witch. They must not be horrible accusations seeing as heâs never been tried, or maybe the others were just too scared to pursue him⌠Even then, Roman knows the man isnât a witch, witches arenât real.
â Or maybe they are, youâve said it yourself. You feel an unnatural pull to this man, the way he's singing has you in a sort of trance whenever you hear it.â
Roman shakes the thoughts away, he didnât fall into a trance whenever he heard Janusâ singing, he just found the man⌠alluring. Â
âI was only five when my father died, and I feel like a part of me lies with him~.â
The two of them stop, Roman canât help but smile. He gestures for Virgil to stay quiet as he pulls his friend to the sound of the singing.
âWith a drink in his hand, he bid the world farewell. Such a waste of life on just a little thrill~.â
The two of them hide behind a set of bushes that were nearby, they peek out and see Janus kneeling by the round lake that was hidden from their original pathâs view. The smaller man was gathering the water in buckets, setting them aside as he did.
âIn my younger days, I never could find a light to guide my way~.â
Roman sighs softly as he stares at Janus, he could never grow tired of looking at this man. Oh, how Roman wishes to one day wake up next to Janus, to one day hold him tight and never let go.
â What the hell are you on about!? You canât hold a man like that!â
Roman smacks the voice down, he was not about to let his fatherâs teachings disrupt the pleasant fantasy that he was having.
âWhy are we hiding here? I thought you wanted to speak to him,â Virgil hisses.
Roman blinks and looks over to his friend, he sighs and goes back to staring at Janus. He should have told Virgil that he could meet Janus another time.
âI know youâre back there, come out and face me like a man you disgusting cretin,â Janus speaks up, not bothering to turn around.
Roman frowns when he notices how tense Janus looks, â Has something happened to you, my sweet angel?â
Both Roman and Virgil move away from the hiding spot, Virgil jumps back when Janus suddenly turns, a knife held tightly in his left hand as his bicolored eyes regard them coldly. Roman frowns as the fight drains from Janusâs body, his shoulders sagging down, the hand holding the knife up drops to his side.
âOh⌠Itâs⌠Itâs just you, Roman. Good⌠Who might you be?â Janus asks as he gestures towards Virgil with his free hand, causing the man to flinch slightly.
When Virgil stays quiet, Roman huffs and nudges him slightly, gesturing for him to speak.
âU-Um⌠Virgil, Mr. Wi- I-I mean, Janus Delvaux,â he stammers, avoiding eye-contact with Janus in fears of the man possibly hypnotizing him.
Roman feels his heart flutter when Janus lets out a chuckle, he watches as the beauty of a man puts his weapon away. Janus offers Virgil a kind smile as he steps forward, his right hand stretched out for him to shake.
âItâs a pleasure to meet you, Virgil. Please, just call me Janus or even Dee, itâs what old friends of mine used to call me. Are you the same Virgil that deals with those agonizing fits?â
Virgil hesitantly takes Janusâs hand and gives it a small shake, he glances up and offers him a small smile in return.
âY-Yes⌠Thank you, by the way for the medicine. Do I⌠Have to repay you in any way?â
âYes, you owe me your firstborn son,â Janus deadpans while staring directly into Virgilâs eyes.
The two friends stare at him in shock before Janus breaks down in hysterics, his laughter was loud and boisterous and honestly, it sounded like music to Romanâs ears.
âIâm kidding! Oh, your faces! Ah⌠No, Virgil, you donât owe me anything. If you ever need any more just let Roman know and he can tell me. Itâs not hard to make so I always have the needed supplies,â Janus explains as he wipes away an imaginary tear.
Virgil laughs nervously and mumbles a thank you before stepping behind Roman, who rolls his eyes at his friend's unnecessary fear.
Roman offers Janus a small smile.
âAnyway, how can I help you fine gentlemen on this beautiful day? Are you in need of something, or did you just fancy a visit to the old witch of the woods?â
Roman frowns.
âYouâre not a witch, I refuse to hear it from everyone else, that includes you too, but no, we donât need anything. We were just on a stroll and we happened to hear your lovely voice,â Roman replies as he tries his best to give his own version of a sauve smirk.
Janus feels his face heat up as he turns away, he kneels back down and returns to filling his last bucket with water.
âHonest, Roman, youâre such a flatterer. Tell me, Virgil, is he always like this, or am I just a lucky man?â
Virgil snorts and shakes his head, âI suppose youâre lucky because usually itâs his brother thatâs trying to lay it on thick.â
Roman canât help but notice how Janus grows tense at the mention of his brother, he frowns.
âWell⌠His brother must be the real cock of the town, hm?â Janus asks, his voice was tight.
âYou could say that, but, Roman we should get going. We had those errands to run for your father remember?â
Roman huffs and rolls his eyes, he looks back at Janus and smiles when he notices the smaller man staring at him with those mismatched eyes.
âIâll return later, we can sit and catch up.â
Janus watches silently as the two of them walk away, he lets out the breath he hadnât realized he was holding. He turns back to his buckets, these should be enough for his new batches of medicine and a rabbit stew he was planning to cook for supper that night.
âMan, I thought they would never leave!â
Janus tenses up when hears that nasally voice speaks from behind him, he quickly turns around and tries to pull his knife from his pants pocket, only to have the air knocked from his lungs as heâs pushed against a tree.
He grimaces in pain as Remus bangs his left wrist against the tree over and over until heâs forced to drop the knife to the ground.
âThere we go! Canât have you going for a blood sacrifice, now can we?â Remus mocks as he pins Janusâs hands behind his back.
Janus bites back a whimper at the force of which his wrists were being held.
âW-What the hell do you want?â Janus stammers, he mentally curses himself for showing his fear.
Remus hums and tilts his head, a grin breaks out across his face as he leans in close, his lips almost brushing against Janusâs.
âSomething I canât have, daddy always said I was a brat.â
Janus opens his mouth as a means to scream only to have Remusâs tongue shoved down his throat, he squeezes his eyes closed tight and does the only thing he can think of, and thatâs to bite down.
Remus pulls back with a yell, blood slipping past his lips, pale green eyes glare at Janus with such an intensity that it causes the smaller man to shudder.
âYouâll fucking pay for that, witch,â Remus hisses as he grabs Janus by his hair causing him to scream out.
âOkay, so maybe heâs not so bad, but that firstborn joke was not funny,â says Virgil as he and Roman make their way back to town.
Roman rolls his eyes and goes to reply, only for a scream to startle them both. He and Virgil turn back and share a look before running towards the scream. They ignore how the low-hanging limbs snatch at them, trying to keep them away from the horrifying sound.
They both come to a stop when they hear the sound of splashing water and sharp gasps for air to their left.
â Thatâs where Janus was!â
Roman is the first to run back to the lake, leaving Virgil there to ponder what was happening before snapping out of it and following his friend.
âOh, would you look at that! The whore of a witch isnât fucking sinking, looks like it's the rope for you! Unless you want to make my wound feel better?â
The both of them stop when they hear a familiar nasally voice, the sound of gasping and coughing sounds along with splashing water.
âP-Please, please just leave me alone!â Janus cries.
The sound of water splashing sounds again, accompanied by a scoff.
âWrong answer, guess Iâll just hold you here until you agree!â Remus exclaims.
Anger courses through Roman as he stomps to where his brother is, he shakes off Virgil when his friend tries to stop him. His anger only burns hotter when he sees the way Janus erratically kicks, hoping to free himself somehow.
Roman rushes over and jerks his brother away, tackling his twin to the ground.
âRo-Ro! I thought you and Virgie had some errands to run!â Remus exclaims, a bloody grin on his face as he stares up at an irate Roman.
A gasp sounds from behind him as Janus pulls himself up and away from the lake, Roman listens as he struggles to catch his breath, coughing the whole time as he does.
âWhat the fuck were you doing, Remus? You could have killed him!â Roman yells as he grabs the front of his brotherâs shirt.
âItâs what the whore deserves! Besides, why do you care? Unless, youâve been sneaking around and getting your dick sucked by this pathetic, witch.â
Roman clenches his jaw, his knuckles going white from how tight he was holding onto his brotherâs shirt. He wanted to hit him, but Roman knew better. If he were to hit Remus, then he would spin it into something ten times worse to their father, which led Roman onto the manâs bad side.
Roman breathes deeply and stands up, he pulls Remus up as he goes and shoves him towards the direction of the path.
âGet out of here, Remus. Donât let me catch you around him ever again, you hear me?â
The two brothers stare each other down before the youngest relents with an angry huff, Roman watches as Remus pushes past Virgil.
âI um⌠Iâm going to make sure he actually goes home, you make sure Janus is okay,â says Virgil, his tone meek as he leaves Roman and Janus alone.
The two of them stay silent save for Janusâs labored breathing, Roman sighs and moves to kneel in front of Janus. He gently tilts the smaller man's head back and gazes into his blue and green eyes.
âAre you alright?â Roman asks.
Tears burn in Janusâs eyes, he tries his hardest to keep them at bay only for them to slip past without his permission. A choked sob leaves his shaking form as he throws himself into Romanâs arms.
Roman holds to Janus tightly, ignoring how the water on his body seeped into his clean shirt. Roman cards his hand through the smaller manâs hair and softly shushes him.
âItâs going to be okay⌠Youâre okay, Iâll protect you from him and everyone elseâŚâ
â I promiseâŚâ
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Feeling the Burn Part 1
Warning: housefire, hospital, burns, cussing, foster care, police, drunk parents
Words: 4300
Summary: YN works at FBBC, and Danneel finds out she could use some support after being in a terrible situation.Â
AN- Thanks to @a-mageyâ and @luci-in-trenchcoatsâ!Â
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YN walked down the stairs. Â She took in the scene before her. Â Her dad threw something across the room in anger. Â Her mom retaliated with yelling at him to keep doing it, and she threw something back, glass breaking across his knee. Â
âOw!â He bent down to cater to his leg. Â When they both realized YN was standing on the stairs. Â
âOh,â Julie scowled. Â âThe princess is here,â she slurred her words. Â YN scrunched up her nose. Â To get out of the house, she told her parents, âIâm going to work. Â Iâll see you later.â
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âHi, YN.â Danneel greeted the girl during her shift at the brewery. Â
âHi Dee. Â How are you?â
âYou okay? Â You look tired.â
âOh,â YN sputtered. âYeah, Iâm great, thanks!â YN tried to hide her nervousness. Â âOh, another kid puked, excuse me,â YN sighed. Â
Later, Danneel pulled YN aside. Â
âI saw your backpack and a blanket on top of the couch. Â Are you- are you spending the night here?â
âOh, no maâam. Â Of course not,â she laughed nervously.
âYNâŚâ
âGino said it was okayâŚâ YN picked at her fingers.  âIâm sorry.â
âIâm not mad, sweetie. Â I just want to make sure that you have people to take care of you.â
âYeah, Iâm fine.â YN shrugged. Â
âHow come you are spending the night here? Â Donât you live with your parents?â
âI need to go,â YN ran off to the game area of the property. Â
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âHey,â Jensen walked through the garage door entrance to greet his wife. Â Danneel stayed quiet. Â âWhatâs wrong?â
âI need to talk to you.â
âUh oh, you breaking up with me?â Jensen laughed. Â His wife gave no reaction. Â
âI canât- I donât know how to explain this. Â Itâs nothing bad.â
âOkay,â Jensen sat down next to her. Â
âI went to the brewery today. You know YN? One of the servers?â
âUmm, the teenager? She oversees the play area, right?â
âYeah. Â She told me something interesting today.â Danneel turned to face her husband.
âSweet kid. Â What happened?â
âI asked her why she was staying late. Â She said she didnât have anywhere else to go to finish her homework.â
âWhat?â
âShe told me she had a deal with Gino so that she could spend the night in the breakroom.â
Jensen was quiet for a moment. Â
âHow long has she been doing that?â Jensen sucked in a breath.
âShe wouldnât tell me.â
âShe doesnât have any type of support or anything?â
âYN wouldnât say. Â She seemed very ashamed.â
âDee, she canât stay there.â Jensen said plainly.
âI know. I want to help her, but I donât know how.  She wouldnât tell me anything.âÂ
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âAm I in trouble?â YN asked. Â She sat on one of the bench tables with Danneel and Jensen after the crowds had gone home.
âOh, no! No. Of course not. Â Youâre one of our best employees.â Danneel smiled. Â âWe just wanted to talk about the conversation that we had yesterday. Â Jensen and I want to help you if we can.â
âIâm okay.â YN rang her hands together. Â
âWe know that,â Jensen said. Â âWe just want to make sure that youâre taken care of and your needs are being met.â
âPlease donât fire me. Â I donât want you to hate me.â YN wiped a tear from her face, feeling as if she had been found out.
âSweetheart, we donât hate you. Â We love that you work here, and we want you to stay.â Danneel offered her a side hug. âOn one condition.â
âWhatâs the condition?â
âTell us what happened? At least some of it. Please?â
âNo thank you. Â Here,â YN slipped off her badge and put it on the table, defensive.
âYN-â
âThank you for the job.â
âWhere are you going to sleep?â Jensen stood to block her path.
âUmm,â YN pursed her lips.
Jensen asked where her parents were. Â YN slowly explained that her parents kicked her out a few weeks ago during a drunken disagreement. Â
âI asked Gino if I could sleep here because my car isnât comfy. Â Iâll just sleep in my car, itâs fine. Â I have some friends who donât know, but maybe they can let me park my car in the driveway. Â Iâll figure it out.â
âHow old are you?â
âSixteen,â YN answered. Â
âYou need a bed, YN.â Danneel pulled the girl to sit back down. Â âGive us a minute. Â Why donât you go grab a soda?â
The teenager moved to the refrigerator and pulled out a vanilla soda before walking to the stockroom. Â
âWhat are we going to do?â
Before they could finish their conversation, YN tried to sneak out the side entrance. Â
âYN, donât even try. Â Come here,â Danneel motioned to the table they were sitting at. Â
YN slumped over and walked to stand across from them. Â
âI donât mean to cause trouble.â
âYouâre not! If anything, youâre helping us.â
âWhat?â
âYouâre an employee. We care about our employees.â
âThank you.â
âCome spend the night tonight. Just so we know that you arenât somewhere where you could get hurt.â
âNo, I canât.â
âYes, come on, we close in five minutes. Â Go do your homework. Â Weâll leave in half an hour.â Jensen told her directly. Â
She gave in.
âYes, sir.â YN threw her backpack over her shoulder and went into the breakroom. Â
âYou ready, YN?â Danneel walked into the break room, finding YN hunched over to work on her homework.
âYeah. Thanks.â
âIf youâre okay with it, Jensen is going to drive your car and Iâll drive you back to our house. That way you wonât have to worry about getting lost.â
âOkay,â she shrugged.
When they got to the Acklesâ, YN was given a key to the guest house. âIf you need anything, text me. Hereâs my number. Drive safe to school tomorrow. Sleep well,â Danneel hugged YN and sent her on her way.
_____
YN drove from the Acklesâ home to school, leaving the key under the mat on the back porch.
YN:
Thanks for letting me spend the night. Â Key is under the mat.
Danneel:
When your shift is over you better come back. Â At least until we can find something for you.
YN:
MaâamâŚ
Danneel:
Donât maâam me. Â Your butt better be in the guest house by 8pm. Â Iâm going to check. Â Iâll take away employee privileges. Â Ya know, like that soda you like. ;)
YN:
Okay. Â Promise. Â Thanks.
______
âNo! Iâm not coming home!â YN slammed her phone down onto the side table. Â She jumped when she heard a knock on the guest house door.
âUh- Am I interrupting something?â Danneel smiled after she stepped inside. Â
âUmm.â
âPrice of admission, remember?â The older female smiled.
âOkay,â YN ducked her head and walked to a couch and practically fell into it. Â âMom is either high or drunk. And angry. Â Sheâs an angry drunk. Â Thatâs why I left. Â Well, and they sorta kicked me out when they blacked out. Â I told them I wasnât coming back.â
âYikes. Â That sounds like a lot.â
âYeah.â
âDo you hear sirens?â Danneel asked, turning away from the girl. Â Her phone dinged, indicating a text. Â
Jensen
Police here, come here. Bring YN.
Danneel
Okay. Â Be right there. Â
âWe need to go into the house. Â Come on.â
The girls entered the main house and met Jensen in the front entry. Â
âMs. YLN?â A police officer stepped toward YN. Â She backed up to stand next to Danneel. Â âYour parents have reported you missing. Â They said that you wonât come home.â
âTheyâre drunks. Â Who wants to live with that?â YN snapped. Â Danneel shushed her. Â âDid you encounter them today? Â Let me guess, they were drunk?â
âPlease come with us,â the detective walked toward the door. Â
âWhy?â YN stood still.
âYou are now in the custody of the state.â
âWhat? Â No, Iâm fine.â
âI can see that youâre fine. Â But there are regulations and procedures when a child is taken out of the family structure. Â Please donât make this difficult.â The detective tried to guide her out. Â
âYouâre telling me I will have to live with other people?â
âIf you donât have anyone else we can place you with, yes.â
YN looked away. Â
âNo one who would care.â
âCan she stay with us?â Danneel chimed in.
âUnfortunately no. Â At least not tonight. Â She has to be with us and we process paperwork.â Â
âCan I go to school tomorrow?â YN looked at the man.
âItâs not-â
âIâll take her. Â Iâll pick her up from wherever. Â She canât miss school, the one constant in her life,â Danneel defended the girl. .
âHey,â Jensen butted in. Â She ainât going anywhere,â he looked to his wife. Â She nodded. Â âWeâll take her.â
YNâs eyes went wide.
âNo, you canât. Â You donât have to.â YN gasped at Jensenâs statement.
âWeâll see,â the police officer said. Â âGrab your things for the next few days if you have it.â He exited the house.
âDo you have your phone and charger?â Jensen asked.
She checked her pocket.
âPhone, but not charger. Â Itâs in the guest house.â
âGo get it. Â And your school stuff!â Danneel yelled after her. Â
________
YN was placed in a crisis shelter for the night. Â It was midnight before she could relax enough to fall asleep. Â Somehow, she got her own room for which she was thankful. Â
Her phone beeped her alarm at 5:30am the next day. Â The staff at the shelter showed YN where the cereal was before she got ready for school. Â Danneel picked her up for school an hour and a half later. Â
âHey, YN. Â Tired?â
âYeah,â YN climbed into the SUV. Â
âTake a nap. Â The school is kind of far anyway.â Â Danneel looked over to find YN already leaning against the SUV wall. Â Danneel sighed, sad for the girl. Â
The detective picked YN up from school. Â
âWhere to, homewrecker?â YN stomped toward him. Â
âI got your stuff from the shelter. Â The Ackles family is waiting for you. Â Letâs go,â he said plainly.
YN sighed, relieved.
When they arrived at the house, YN was grateful that her car had not been moved. Â She grabbed the key from under the mat and started to bring her things back into the guest house. Â
âWait,â the officer stopped her. Â
âWhat? Â You already ruined my life. Â What else can I do to make my life worse, huh?â YN smarted off.
âStop. Â Letâs let the Acklesâ know youâre here. Â We have some paperwork to go over.â
YN rolled her eyes. Â He ignored her and knocked on the front door of the main house. Â A maid answered the door. Â She moved out of the way, and she took some of YNâs things out of her hands. Â
âThank you.â
âOf course, Miss,â the maid responded. Â
âHey, YN.â Danneel entered the foyer. Â She wrapped her arms around the girl. âGo get some water, Iâm sure youâre parched. Â Make a sandwich too. Â Or anything you want, kiddo.â
YN dropped her items off to the side next to Danneelâs purse and entered the kitchen. Â
âHi, YN,â Jensen stood up from sitting on a stool at the island. Â
âPlease, no more hugs. Â Can I get some food, please? Â I didnât have lunch.â
âAbsolutely. Â Anything you want thatâs in there.â Jensen made sure to stay still, fighting his instinct to comfort the girl. Â YN found the ingredients to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Â
YNâs eyes went wide. Â
âWhat?â Jensen saw her freeze. Â
âI forgot about work! Iâm so sorry. Â I meant-â
âWith everything you got going on, I think we can work something out,â Jensen chuckled.
âBut if I donât work-â
âIâll make sure you get paid. Â Donât worry.â
YN took a deep breath. Â Danneel walked into the kitchen and motioned for Jensen to come into the living room. Â
âEat your food and hang out for a second,â Jensen walked past YN.
The detective explained that they were considered kinship placement, and that he needed some forms filled out. Â Once that was done, he let them know that child services would be checking in later on. Â YN walked into the room as he left. Â She took a deep breath. Â
âYouâre okay,â Jensen said evenly. Without warning, she ran into his arms. She sucked in a breath and held it without realizing it. Â Freezing, she stood like a statue with her arms around him. Â âIt will be okay,â he whispered into her hairline. Â âThat asshole is gone.â
âWhy donât you stay in the house with us?â Danneel offered. âJensenâa not here half the time, and Iâd like to see you more often to know youâre okay.â
âAre you sure? I donât want to bother-â
âYou wouldnât, sweetie. Trust me. Youâre the least bothersome person on the property!â She laughed. âWhy donât you go do your homework in peace and then Iâll call you for dinner?â
âYeah. Thanks. I might sneak in a nap too. Iâm exhausted.���
âââââ
âHey, YN,â Jensen walked into the brewery while it was closed. Â âHomework?â
âI got used to doing it here,â YN shrugged. Â âDo you want me to leave? Â I can do it back at the house.â
âNo, no. Â Weâre going to have a meeting. Â As long as that doesnât bother you, you can stay.â
âNo, itâs fine. Â Donât mind me.â YN looked down at her work and started writing. Â
âThatâs a lot of writing.â
âDonât have a computer.â
Jensen silently walked away quickly and came back with a laptop. Â
âIâm not using it right now. Â Type your paper. Â Itâs connected to the printer in Ginoâs office.â
âWow. Â Thank you.â She accepted it knowing he wouldnât take a refusal. Â
âNo problem, kid.â
______
âI like the new shirts. Â This graphic is hard to read though,â Danneel picked up one piece of clothing before laying it down on the table to see it better. Â âI donât know,â she sighed. Â
âYN!â Gino called for the teenager across the room. Â She looked up at him. Â âCome here for a minute.â
With wide eyes, she slowly walked toward the group. Â The girl crossed the dining area. Â
âWhich shirt do you like the best?â He motioned to the items on the table. Â She froze out of nervousness. Â âNo need to be scared. Â Which one would you choose for your uniform, letâs say?â
âThat one,â YN said. Â She then recoiled, feeling ashamed of how fast she reacted. Â
âWhy?â
âItâs simple, and you can read it.â YN looked away. Â
âGo put it on real quick.â Â Danneel picked it up and tossed it to her.
âOh, itâs soft.â YN said under her breath. Â She took it and changed in the restroom. Â When she walked out, the team immediately smiled. Â
âAgree, looks good,â Jensen said. Â âYouâre right. Â I like the design and the font too. Â Keep that one. Â We have a few extra for samples.â
âThanks, Jensen.â YN beamed. Â
I love this shirt. Â I love this family. Â They make me feel better.
âYN-â Gino caught her attention. She snapped her eyes to him. Â âYou can go finish your homework. Â I think weâre almost finished anyway.â
YN shyly looked at the floor and shuffled her feet back to her assignment on the table. Â
A few minutes later, YN heard her name again. She peered around the computer screen. Â
âWeâre locking up, come on. Â Itâs getting late.â Danneel smiled. Â âBring the laptop. Â Use it. Â We only use it for random stuff anyway.â
âThanks,â YN pulled it into her chest after throwing her backpack over her shoulder. Â
âSweetie, you look exhausted.â
âGotta study. Â And work. Â Makes a girl sleepy,â YN sighed. Â
âNew rule at our house, you work half the time that you do now,â Danneel guided her out of the building. Â
âWhat?â
âYou work four hours a day during the week, right?â
âYeah.â
They arrived at their vehicles.
âLeave your car here. Weâll stick in one of the garages. Â Youâre too tired. Tomorrow is Saturday anyway.â
âIâm okay-â
âI know your parents didnât do this much. Looking out for you. Â But Iâm telling you, youâre tired and compromised. Â Please just get in the truck,â Danneel said plainly. Â âIâll move your car.â
âOkay.â YN slowly put her things in the truck and climbed in, yawning. Â Jensen took the driverâs seat and waited for Danneel. Â
âYou okay, kiddo?â
âTired,â she yawned again. Â âBut yeah. Ready for bed. Â Busy Friday night. Lots of kids everywhere in the play area tonight.â
âLetâs go home then. Itâs already midnight. Â Sleep in tomorrow, okay?â
âHomework,â YN whined.
âGive me your backpack,â Jensen held his hand out. Â
She raised an eyebrow at him. Â
âYou donât get this back until ten tomorrow morning. Â Get your stuff out of it that you want. Â Computer and your work stay in it and are coming with me.â
The older one waited until she fished out her phone, charger, and headphones before passing it to him. Â
âOkay, Jensen,â she laid her head against the door. Â Before he knew it, Danneel was in the car, and YN was slumped forward, asleep.
âThat kid,â Danneel looked into her visor mirror. Â âShe works herself to the bone.â
âYeah. Â I took that from her. Â She was planning on getting up early, but I told her no. Â That she canât start her work until mid-morning, give her some time to rest.â
âGood. Â Iâm sure she has had plenty of sleepless nights.â
When they arrived home, Danneel shook the girl awake. Â YN jumped, the seatbelt stopping her from going anywhere.
HUH?â
âRelax. Â Itâs just me. Â Weâre back. Â Go inside. Get some sleep, okay?â Danneel slowly hugged YN.
âOkay, she whispered back YN used the key to unlock the front door to the guest house. Â âGood night,â YN waved. Â
________.
Danneel:
GOOD MORNING! Come into the house for some waffles.
YN:
Iâm okay.
Danneel:
I will bring Jensen and we will bring you over here if we donât see you in five minutes. Â Wear your PJs.
YN:
Coming.
YN walked in from the backyard. Â She quietly waved to the family and ran a hand over her hair. Â After using the restroom, she entered the kitchen again. Â A stack of waffles towered on a plate at the table. Â
âThose are for you, eat up.â Jensen followed behind her with his own plate of food. Â
______
Jensen gave YN her backpack to start her homework.
âStay here,â Danneel cleaned off the table. Â âYouâve been on your own for a while. Â Hang out. Â You donât have to be alone all the time. Â And you didnât eat a lot of your food. Â You feeling okay?â
âYes, maâam,â YN sat down after trying to leave the house. Â
âI know youâre lying. Â Youâre only this respectful when you try to hide things. Â Itâs okay.â Realizing again that YN had been neglected by her parents, the mom said, âyouâre not used to breakfast, are you?â
âNo,â YN admitted shyly. Â
âAre you hungry?â
âIâm okay.â
âThatâs not what I asked.â Danneel put down her dish towel and faced the girl. Â âForget about the food. Â Are you hungry?â
âNot really. Â I guess my body got used to not eating this early. Iâll be hungry in about an hour.â
âOkay. Â Go clean up and come back in an hour then,â Danneel smiled and turned back to her dishes. Â
âOkay, be back in a few,â YN gave a relieved sigh. Â Smiling as she exited, she silently thanked whoever was in charge that she knew this family. Â
In just that amount of time, YN stepped foot in the kitchen again. Â A whole new plate of warm waffles were on the table. Â She sat down and ate them. Â The house was quiet, but she knew they were home. Â YN was startled when Jensen walked quickly through the kitchen to their driveway. Â
âSorry, YN. Â There is an emergency at the brewery, and he had to go deal with it,â Danneel entered the room after Jensen slammed the door shut. Â âHe didnât mean to scare you.â
âItâs fine,â she settled back into her seat. Â
âSo, tired?â Danneel sat across from YN to drink her coffee. Â
âYeah. Â Itâs kind of a constant though.â
âNot anymore. Â You need to rest.â
âNo offense, but you already cut my hours. Â Iâll be making less now, and I canât pay for my car without the money, plus pay for gas or anything else I need.â
âJensen didnât tell you?â
âTell me what?â YN put her fork down. Â
âWeâre paying you as if you were working those hours. Â Your paycheck wonât change.â
âWhat? I work for my money. Â I donât get it for doing nothing,â YN sat back in her seat, trying to understand what was happening. Â
âYouâll earn it.â
âIâm so confused.â
âWhen was the last time you did anything as a family? Â Or when they told you to go to bed early, or eat your veggies?â
âA while. Â Why?â
âThatâs how youâll earn the money, then. Â By listening to us and being part of our family. Â Even though itâs just me and him, youâre still allowed to be treated like a family member.â
âUmm. Okay,â YN shrugged. Â She picked up her fork and took a bite of her food. Â âI appreciate it, but I kind of donât understand?â
âYouâll see,â Danneel nodded. Â âNow, I noticed that you get scared when there is a loud noise. Â Is there anything else that makes you nervous?â
âNo..â
âYN,â Danneel sighed, begging for the girl to answer her question. Â
âComing up from behind me and yelling my name. Â My dad does that when Iâm in trouble.â
âOkay, weâll work on that, then.â
âThank you,â YN said with a mouth full of waffle. Â She giggled as a piece of whipped cream slid out of her mouth and dropped onto her plate. Â Danneel laughed. Â
âIn the future, please donât talk with your mouth full.â Danneel winked at the girl and took her coffee cup to rinse it out in the sink. Â âYou doing anything fun today?â
âMy friends kinda ditched me. Â I think I may just take a nap. Â I have homework, but itâs actually all extra credit due at the end of the week.â
âWhy did they ditch you?â Danneel sat back down.
âIâm not cool anymore. Â Iâm a poor kid whose parents canât keep it together. Â I donât go to a rich school or anything where everyone has perfect lives, but they ignore me now. Â No offense.â
Danneel laughed. Â
âNone taken, I get it. It doesnât sound like you have been able to rest in some time now. Â I think a nap is a good idea. Â We have to go to the brewery later. Â Why donât you take a nap and then we can go pick up your car at the brewery after?â
âYeah. Â Was something wrong at the brewery? Â How come he left so fast?â
âSome idiot vandalized a sign. Â Nothing too crazy.â
________
While the girls were talking, Danneelâs rang to the tune of Crazy Love. Â
YN smirked. Jensen.
âWhatâs up, babe?â
âThe garage is burned down! It happened so fast!â Jensen spat out the words quickly.
âWhile you were there?â
YNâs attention snapped to the conversation. Â
âI was moving YNâs car out of the garage so that she could get it later, and then there was this ploom of smoke outta nowhere,â he started coughing.  âIâm safe, but the car is toast, fire and police are here.  So is Gino.  Theyâre making me go to the hospital for precautionary reasons, but Iâm  fine,â Jensen gagged. âIâm fine.â
After Danneel figured out what hospital the emergency crew was taking him to, she and YN drove quickly to see Jensen. Â
âIs he okay? Why would someone do that?â
âNot sure. Â Jensen said he was fine, but he says that all the time,â Danneel shook her head. Â âLetâs go see him.â
When they arrived, the two ladies ran into the hospital lobby. Â
âJensen Ackles, please. Â Iâm his wife, and this is his daughter,â Danneel begged, eyes tearing up. Â âHe was brought here.â
âOne moment, maâam.â The attendant looked for Jensenâs file on the computer. Â Danneel bounced her leg up and down in nervousness with YN by her side. âHe just went into surgery, maâam.
âSurgery?â YN looked at Danneel. Â âHe was fine when we talked to him on the phone, miss. Â He was coughing, but that was it.â Danneel stood there, frozen. Â âDanneel, sit down.â The younger one took her arm as Danneel stared straight ahead in shock.
âSurgery?â Danneel processed. Â
When Danneel was seated, YN walked back over to the lady behind the desk. Â
âWhat happened?â
âI just work the front desk, miss.â
âMy dad is in there. Â I donât know what is going on with him, and I need to so that I can tell my mom, because she is freaking out,â YN growled, faking her relationship with the Acklesâ. Â
âHe was burned in the fire.â
âJensen didnât say anything about that on the phone.â
âHe was probably in shock, miss. Â The doctor will be out to talk with you and your mom when they have an update,â the lady smiled at YN. Â
âOkay,â YN slowly turned around to face Danneel. Â Her expression changed when YN walked toward her. Â âHe got burned, Dee,â YN whispered. Â
_______
âAckles?â
YNâs head turned to see a man in a white coat walking toward her and Danneel. Â
âDee? Â Wake up,â YN tapped her shoulder. Â âDee.â Danneel rubbed her eyes and popped her neck from the uncomfortable position she was in. Â
âHi there, my name is Dr. Jones. Â I wanted to let you know that Mr. Ackles is recovering from his procedure.â
âWhy were you operating on him in the first place?â
âWell, we think he was using his hands to get out of whatever situation he was in, so his arms and hands suffered burns. Â I think he will make a full recovery, but it will take a while.â
Danneel put her head into her hands. Â
âHe is alive, Mrs. Ackles. Â Please try to focus on that.â The doctor quickly walked away to attend to nurses asking for his attention. Â
âJensen will be okay,â YN sighed, talking to herself. Â
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Thunder
Fandom: Sanders Sides
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Warnings: referenced sex but nothing actually included
Pairings: Anxceit
Words: 1,526
Summary: Dee doesnât like thunder, and his boyfriend does, in fact, know that.
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Dee shivered, wrapping his arms around himself. It was freezing, not suitable weather for people to be walking around outside in at all. Sure, maybe it was only fifty degrees, but that was still far too cold for Dee to be wearing anything less than three layers or go outside his house unless it was an emergency.
This wasnât an emergency, so he really should not have so much as opened his door for it, but now heâs walking down the street at ten oâclock at night like an unruly cat being forced on a leash for the first time in its life. He really, really hates that this is what heâs spending his day off doing, but heâs closer to Virgilâs apartment than his own by now, so thereâs no point in turning back either way.
On the other hand, the outside did look pretty today. There was a bright pink flower in full bloom in the window box of a cafe he passed, and there was a beautiful chocolate poodle strutting down the sidewalk. The trees didnât have any leaves left, but they still looked sort of ethereal against the stormy, pregnant gray of the sky.
It wasnât raining yet, and if any god out there had any good sense, it wouldnât start before Dee got inside. He was not ashamed to admit he was not above fighting a god or two.
Ten minutes later found Dee knocking on Virgilâs door. While he did have a key, if he was forced to walk all the way to Virgilâs house for something, then Virgil could very well walk all the way over to the door to let him in. It was only fair.
The door swung open just as a bolt of thunder cracked outside, causing Dee to jump. Virgil loomed, smirking, in the doorway. He didnât bother with a greeting, just stepped back to let Dee bolt in and jerk his curtains shut.
âWhat the hell was such an emergency that I had to come over here in the middle of a goddamn storm!â
âChill, itâs not the middle. Itâs only just starting. Besides, you oughta be outta here before it gets too bad.â Virgil shrugged nonchalantly and crossed to the kitchen.
âOnly just-be out of-no! I am absolutely not leaving until the rain quits!â Dee angrily chased Virgil to the kitchen, taking the steaming mug out of his hand before he could so much as bring it to his lips. âYou owe me this.â
âWhatever,â Virgil snorted, picking up a second and equally steamy mug to drink from. Dee wanted smack that one out of his hands, just to be petty because Virgil had obviously planned for that to happen. Instead, Dee curled around his cup as best he could and took a sip. Slightly bitter hot chocolate. God, it wasnât even the flavor that Virgil liked; it was Deeâs favorite.
âWhy did you need me over here?â he sighed. Virgil motioned toward his couch.
âGo sit down. Iâll be right back.â Dee left the kitchen with a small shove from Virgil and threw himself down on the couch, his hot chocolate nearly flipping over the side of the mug. Itâs not like Virgil would notice another stain on his couch, not after what had happened on it last time Dee was over.
Virgil came back into the room, throwing a screeching black ball onto Deeâs lap and actually causing his drink to spill.
âThanks,â Dee hissed, juggling the now quiet ball and his mug.
âShe wouldnât quit screaming for the last two hours, but you always make her quiet down.â Virgil shrugged and flopped down beside Dee. âI think she can sense when itâs going to rain.â
âSheâs your hell beast, why donât you ever learn how to love her right?â Dee ran his hand over her head eliciting a deep, rumbling purr. She stretched languidly, claws digging past Deeâs pant legs and just barely scratching his skin before she curled back up and looked up at him with her big green eyes. Entirely too trusting and entirely too evil.
âSheâs more your cat than mine, anyway,â Virgil said. He slung an arm up to the back of the couch but kept to his own end. Dee took a sip of his drink while Toothless stared right up at him, totally adoring in a way most people thought was reserved for dogs. It may have been less loud, but it was no less meaningful.
âThat is because you donât treat her right, isnât that right, baby?â Dee asked, scratching her chin. Toothless tilted her head back to allow it, and Dee felt his lips pulling up against his will. It wasnât his fault that cat was so damn perfect.
âSure,â Virgil muttered into his cup, and Dee would have demanded to know what he meant by that except right then a huge bolt of lightning lit up the curtains and barely any time after that the thunder came roaring through. Dee was too dignified to say he screeched, but thatâs certainly the sound the cat made before arching her back and hissing at the window.
âYou really are the pair,â Virgil said, running his hand over Toothless and then Dee, and getting hit by them both for it. âFuckinâ halloween cats.â
âFuck off,â Dee grumbled, petting Toothless to calm them both down and trying to ignore that he had managed to pull his legs onto the couch and ball himself around his little cat. Virgil snorted again and began scrolling through his phone like he didnât have a care in the world.
âCome here,â he said suddenly. Dee glanced at him, arms extended and beckoning, and shook his head. âOh, get over here.â Virgil snatched Deeâs empty mug and dropped it toward the carpet. Then he used his unfair strength to pull Dee across the couch so that he was laying on top of Virgil. âPut these on,â Virgil said, shoving headphones at him.
âWhy?â Dee said suspiciously.
âSo that you canât hear the thunder, jackass.â
âBut what about our little cat?â objected Dee despite really wanting to pull the headphones on and pretend the outside world didnât exist for a while.
âUgh, fine,â Virgil said, dropping the headphones on the floor. A few seconds later and loud music was blaring out of Virgilâs speakers.
âYouâre going to get a noise complaint from the neighbors,â Dee said. âAgain.â
âWorthy cause. And it isnât like I havenât had to report them for three days straight of only blasting Taylor Swift and Seether.â Dee shuddered at even the thought of that. âIâm pretty sure they prefer this to the other kinds of noise weâve made before, though.â Dee didnât have much to say to that.
âWhat are you doing?â he asked when Virgil wrapped his arms around him.
âCould we cuddle, like, platonically?â Virgil said. He didnât seem like he was going to let go, or like he was asking a question.
âWhatâs platonic about cuddling your boyfriend?â Dee demanded.
âOh, so thatâs what we are now?â Dee could hear the deadpan expression on his face.
âWell, I think weâre past fuck buddies.â Virgil snorted at that. They stayed quiet for a while, just enjoying the silence and the music and the little purring cat ball that made its home on top of them. Dee could get used to this. Comfort and cats and - and he didnât want to jinx it, not yet, but something bigger than like. He really, really could one day get used to this sort of set up. Shitty apartment with a person he more than liked and their cat child. An ideal existence.
âYou know, eventually youâre going to have to ask for your own sexless cuddles,â Virgil breathed into the back of Deeâs neck.
âYeah, right,â Dee said.
âEh, still better than last time. You told me to cuddle your dick. And while I would still be happy to do that, we both know that that is not the only kind of touching you like.â Dee grumbled wordlessly at Virgil. âSex is an unhealthy coping mechanism, Dee. You should ask to cuddle with Logan without the sex. Heâll acquiesce, but heâs still awkward as fuck so you wonât feel like he knows what heâs doing and you donât. Plus, heâll also try to tell you every fact in the known universe because he doesnât know what else to do. Itâs pretty settling.â
âYou say it like you know him or something,â Dee muttered.
âNah, heâs only been my best friend since sixth grade. I donât know shite about him.â Virgil pulled Dee a little more against him. âNight, cutie pie.â
âNight, sugar. I like you.â
âLike you more.â
âLike you most,â Dee said, sleepy smile tugging at his lips. Maybe it wasnât quite the bigger word yet, but it was certainly getting there and one day, Dee would tell Virgil that he l-ed him. But until then, theyâd like each other enough for the moon and the stars.
Virgil pressed a kiss against the back of Deeâs neck and Dee fell asleep without having to hear the thunder.
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Pairings: Roman x His Mystery Boyfriend
Word Count: 1,459 Words
Summary:Â Deceit loves his dog, grocery shopping, and the anxiety twins drop off the dark sides something special.
Warnings: Sex Mentions, Cursing, Death Mention, Food Mention, Slight Body Horror Kind Of?, Sick Character, Immunocompromised Character, Aggressive Affection (aka Virgilâs way of showing love), Drug Mention, let me know if I should tag anything else.
Note: This chapter is pre-SvS, by the way. Bolded and blockquoted are actions in their chatroom, not a message.
Usernames, a quick translation guide: Andy: Raccoon Man (the trashiest hero), Dayd: carniverousroomba, Dice: Dr. Bitch, Emile: Thera-pissed, Janus: SnekBoi, Logan: Momgan, October: eatpavementido, Patton: Papa Bear, Pryce: SwEeTvErUcA, Remus: Octopussy, Remy: Coffee Bandit, Roman: waaahluigi, Teal: uwu, Thomas: shrexy, Virgil: spipples
A Very Sanders Group Chat: Chapter 5
8:46AM
SnekBoi: I love Boogey, he's the light of my life and I would kill a man for him if he needed me to.
shrexy: Your dog? What happened?
SnekBoi: My absolute greatest boy ever just helped me get up and I owe him the world and maybe some extra snacks because he's not used to helping me get up anymore but he did it anyway.
Octopussy: you absolute fool, you full well know I would've come up and helped you but you have the dog help?
SnekBoi: I severely doubt you wanted me to wait to get up just so I could puke on you.
Octopussy: fair enough.
spipples: I just can't believe you have to give up another two plus years for this same bullshit again.
SnekBoi: I'll be fine. I've did this before, I can do it again.
spipples: I just hate that you have to do it all over again.
SnekBoi: Well, I did the month's stay in the hospital again right before I started working again and I was on my second stage of treatment, but I'm getting re-admitted for another month tomorrow, since my progress is now going backward ever since my fever and there's no signs yet that the first treatment worked so I'll have to do that stage again.
Dr. Bitch: Yeah, I wanna get you through the treatment again because, otherwise, it won't go away and, as much as I love you, I really don't wanna see you every day if if means I'm seeing you not healthy and I sure as hell don't wanna see you close to your deathbed.
SnekBoi: I know, healthy is the goal, I get it. Anyway, I have some exhaustion to deal with, I feel like a corpse.
Octopussy: cool, can I do an autopsy on you?
SnekBoi: If it means death, I will accept.
Dr. Bitch: There will be no autopsies on my patient, you bone-headed little shit.
Octopussy: fine. but I'm still bringing him breakfast so he might feel better.
SnekBoi: What's breakfast?
Octopussy: well, I got you the ginger candy you like, first of all. and I made you the bagels you like and I might possibly sneak you extra non-dairy cream cheese and I made Boogey a treat bowl since I know you don't keep good boy treats in your room.
SnekBoi: I love you.
Octopussy: I know you do.
SnekBoi and Octopussy are offline
shrexy: I hope whatever that treatment he's having works this time.
spipples: Well, Inny and Dice are doing their best so we just have to trust they know what they're doing. Knowing they've accomplished making him healthy once, makes it easy to believe that they can do it again.
spipples: This time, it just has a lot more stuff because last time his month's hospital stay worked and nothing hitched like his fever last week. Or at least it didn't until he was farther in the treatment when he was starting to push himself again.
waaahluigi: Can we talk about something else?
spipples; Well, I need to go food shopping today, who wants to go with me?
SwEeTvErUcA: I'll go, I need a few things for dinner.
carniverousroomba: Yeah sure, I need to get me some good candy for my Netflix binge tonight.
Papa Bear: I can't to go because I'm busy at work but if you guys can pick me up a loaf of bread and just have someone bring it to me, I'll pay you back.
spipples: If you can make me a decent meal for work when cooking is hard for you, Pat, I think I can buy you a loaf of bread and deliver it to my hard-working dad.
Papa Bear: Oh, it's okay, I want to pay you back! Virge, you always get stuck bringing me food or picking me up things, I feel bad!
spipples: Did I ask you to pay me back?
Papa Bear: No, but I want to!
spipples: I didn't ask you to because money isn't a factor, Patton, You need to eat at work. I won't have you pulling a 12 hour shift without food because Nathaniel isn't there anymore. You need to get some food in your system, feeding yourself is important, Patton. And, if you try to sneak money into my wallet, pockets, or otherwise, I can and will put it back.
Dr. Bitch: Virgil's really out here screaming that food is important. I love that your brand of aggressive affection is still going.
spipples: It never stopped being aggressively affectionate, Dice.
waaahluigi: I need some things, I'll go.
eatpavementido: Please pick me up exactly four tiny pumpkins and a tbe of black paint for them.
spipples: Alrighty there cryptid.
10:10 AM
Momgan: If you're currently at the store, please bring me home coffee before I die from lack of caffeine.
spipples: hey, you, you're finally awake!
waaahluigi: Quick question, what aisle are you in? Because I'm going to come over there and punch you.
spipples: Wouldn't you like to know, weather boy?
shrexy: Oh no, he's in meme mode today.
spipples: Maybe.
Momgan: Please. Just pick up coffee, any form of coffee and I swear  to god, I'll make you whatever you want for dinner.
spipples: Pizza and nuggets.
Momgan: Done.
Thera-pissed: I feel like I just witnessed a drug deal.
Coffee Bandit: You did. But it's a drug deal for food.
Thera-pissed: Yeah, I figured that out.
12:17PM
Momgan: I have caffeine, I am now human again.
uwu: Good because I'm lonely, come cuddle.
Momgan: Ah, drawn back into the hell of a day off in bed by my own brother. What treachery is this?
uwu: The good kind, now come cuddle me, I'm cold, goddammit.
Momgan: Fine.
shrexy: Wait, you have a brother?
Momgan: Yes, Teal, your teacher character from your short videos is my brother. He may not be a side, but, since our function initially was similar, your mind connected us as brothers just as it has with Virgil and Andy, Roman and Pryce, and Patton and Dayd.
shrexy: Huh, learning something new about you guys every day.
Momgan: I know, I find it rather fun that you're learning so easily.
2:43PM
Raccoon Man (the trashiest hero): Thought I'd share my dumbass little brother being cute because why not die today.
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Octopussy: are you outside our house.
Raccoon Man (the trashiest hero): Delivering food.
SnekBoi: Aw, you two are so thoughtful!
spipples: Well, we gotta help you two somehow and your garden won't sustain two weeks isolation. We've tried that, remember? The week of potatoes?
Octopussy: I know. I just don't have the heart to go because it's always so crowded and I can't risk getting Dee sick.
spipples: And now you don't have to, And we washed everything once, just in case so there's no germs coming into the house.
SnekBoi: I wish I could hug you two.
Raccoon Man (the trashiest hero): Don't, focus on yourself.
SnekBoi: I know. But still, thank you.
spipples: And no going off on a "you'll pay me back" spiel, I already did that with Patton and the answer is no, you cannot pay me back because I'm trying to help you get better and I don't want to be repaid for helping you out when you definitely need it.
SnekBoi: You little shit, I love you.
spipples: The feeling is mutual, you funky little snake.
3:01PM
Octopussy: is this half pre-cooked food, half stuff from the store? why?
spipples: Well, we know that you're both really busy right now so we made you food like you used to make us food when we were really busy.
Raccoon Man (the trashiest hero): And don't worry, we made sure it was all healthy for Dee.
Octopussy: how long did this take you and how much did this cost you!? this is like an entire fridge and freezer of food!
spipples: Let's just say I took the last couple days off and I worked really late last week.
Octopussy: you didn't need to do that.
spipples: You're right, I wanted to.
Octopussy: you're so lucky Dee's asleep or he'd be telling you off for pulling a stunt like this.
spipples: I fully expect to be chewed out later, don't worry.
spipples: Just let me do something while you guys need it, you didn't have this kind of help the first time and I don't want to let this time be like that again, especially when I can help you.
Octopussy: I'd have hugged you if I wasn't isolating, you lovable little shit.
spipple: Love you too, Inny, you amazing jackass.
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Virgilâs Guide to Avoid Accidentally Falling In Love With Your Bossâ Boss: Step Three
Virgilâs just trying to fake his way through life, but when he finds it hard to shake his hot bossâ bossâs attention- on account of their adopted sons being twins- things get complicated.
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Step Three: Do Not Let Him Know Your Car Broke Down
The silence which echoed around the office gave Dee away before Virgil could see him. So when Virgil got to his cubicle, and was horribly unsurprised to find the man sitting at his desk.
âYou donât have enough decorations in here,â he commented.Â
Virgil raised an eyebrow amused, âYour office is pretty bare.â
âWe have different roles, and Iâm surprised drawings arenât covering this whole thing.âÂ
âI used to hang up Romanâs stuff, but then he claimed only the best ones were allowed to be in my office. And given that his opinion on his best drawing changes daily it turned into a lot of putting up and taking down. So I leave them at home.â
 âThatâs adorable.â
âDid you need something?â Virgil asked him.Â
He looked at Virgil like he was stupid, âYou promised me cupcakes, so I am here to collect.â
Virgil rolled his eyes and moved towards his desk and reached into the bottom drawer before pulling out a container. âThere you go.â
 âYou are wonderful human Virgil.â
âAnd youâre crazy.â
If Dee heard him, he paid the words no mind as he stood and exited the cubicle examining the cupcakes through the plastic as he did.Â
âThose are for your sons too. Not just you,â Virgil called as he did.
âSame thing.âÂ
âGoodbye Dee!â
 When he was gone Virgil sunk into chair and clicked on his computer to resume his work when suddenly peering eyes appeared over his cubicle.Â
âYes?â
âYou call the boss by a nickname?â Sharie asked in surprise.
Virgil nodded, âHe asked me to.â
 âAnd you bake for him?â John asked.Â
Another nod, âI had a lot.â
âYou didnât offer us any sweets,â Liam threw in. Â
âYou never asked. Would you like some next time?â
âDefinitely.â
âCan I go back to what I was doing now? Or...?â
There was a pause before the eyes met one another before each of them sunk back behind a cubicle wall. Â
~~~~
It had taken a while- a long while- but after all that time Virgil was finally feeling not freaked out and amazed by everything Dee did (now it was only most things and that was an improvement). But still there were things about Dee which came as a complete surprise.Â
âNo no no! Come on baby, come back to me... You canât give up on me now.âÂ
âDoes talking to the car make it start?â Roman chimed in.Â
Virgil gave a groan and kicked his tire, âLet me call someone and see if someone can drop you at school. Iâll have to take the bus to work. For now letâs go back in the house.âÂ
Virgil was in the midst of calling his third person to ask to drive Roman, when his doorbell rang.Â
âHold on Sarah,â he told her going to answer it. And he froze in surprise at Dee and the boys standing outside his door.Â
He gave a slight wave, âReady to go?â
âWhat?â Virgil asked in surprise.Â
âRoman texted me saying you guys needed rides.â
Virgilâs eyebrows knit as he tried to process, âNevermind Sarah... uh thanks anyway.â
With that Virgil stepped inside and after a moment, the family followed.Â
âYou guys came!â Roman cheered.Â
âOf course!â Remus responded. âWe get to go together!â
Virgil gave a sigh, âRoman, the emergency phone is for emergencies.â
âIt was an emergency.â
Virgil turned to Dee to thank him, and found the manâs eyes scanning his home. He tried to ignore the embarrassment he felt as the man looked at Virgilâs âmodestâ home. It was clearly small, with a small kitchen and living room connected. Down the hall was the two bedrooms, the bathroom and that was it.Â
It was nothing in comparison to Deeâs.Â
âThank you,â Virgil forced out. Â
Dee nodded, âWeâre going to the same place and this isnât really out of shall way, I just had to switch my bigger car. But shall we get going?â
âPlease.â
âI can drive you back too,â Dee told Virgil later as they stood in the elevator. âPicking up the kids is included in that.â
 âI appreciate it, but Iâd feel bad.â
âDonât. Consider it me repaying you for all the cooking and baking I get out of you.âÂ
Virgil chuckled as the elevator reached his floor, âAlright, text me when youâre heading out.â
âWill do.â
~~~~
âHey Virgil? Can I ask you something?â
Virgil paused at the elevator as Jeff called for his attention, quite frankly he was surprised the man even knew his name. âSomething wrong?â
He shook his head and moved closer, âJust a question.âÂ
âOkay...â
âYou and Mr. Ekans... are pretty close right?âÂ
âI guess?â
âItâs just kind of surprising. He doesnât usually talk to any of us. Or seem to even notice any of us.â
âOh. Well, I know he gets very serious about work things.â
âStill... I mean youâve been here a few months and youâre already cozied up. Itâs just... a lot of us have been really vying for that promotion and well it wouldnât exactly be fair if the needy-new guy got it.â
Virgil nodded and gave a swallow as understanding of the situation sunk in, âI donât want-âÂ
He was cut off as the elevator dinged open to reveal Dee, âPerfect timing, I was just coming to get you. Letâs go.âÂ
Virgil nodded and gave Jeff a look before stepping into the elevator.Â
âWas I interrupting something?â Dee asked as they descended. âHe looked serious, he hit on you or something?â
Virgil shook his head quickly, âNo no no. Just- just asking me about my piece of my project... And Iâm pretty sure heâs straight and married... And also not my type.â
âOh? What is your type?âÂ
You. âDoes it matter?â
âIâm curious.â
âWell whatâs yours?â
His boss gave him a smirk, âGet me drunk then ask again.â
Virgil shook off all possible meanings of the statement as theyâre exited the elevator. â...Iâm just gonna assume that itâs whatever your partner looks like.âÂ
Dee raised an eyebrow, his scar stretching as he did, âPartner? Iâm single.âÂ
Virgil blinked surprised, âBut- but Remus mentioned two dads before?â
Dee nodded, âIâm divorced.âÂ
âOh...â
âMy ex and I... we saw the world very uh- differently and we didnât end on good terms, so I have the boys.âÂ
âOh... sorry.â
He shrugged it off, but Virgil could tell there was lingering emotion. âYou didnât know. Now letâs get the kids.â
~~~~
âHow was school?âÂ
The boys climbed in the car one by one and Virgil noticed as Remus and Roman immediately began talking excitedly about their days, but he couldnât help but notice as Logan said nothing staring out the window.Â
âHow was your day Logan?â He asked when the twins had paused for air.Â
The boyâs eyes left the window momentarily to look at Virgil, before he looked back out. âFine.â
âAnything fun happen?â Dee asked him.Â
Logan shook his head, âIt was just school.â
âThere has to be something interesting?â
âRemus ate a bug!â Roman tossed in. âThatâs interesting!â
âThatâs disgusting,â Dee disagreed.Â
Virgil went to comment himself when a text came through from Sharie.Â
Youâre going for the promotion????
Virgil grimaced and hurriedly replied: Iâm not
OhÂ
I heard you wereÂ
Iâm not
Then why are you trying to get so close to Ekans?
Iâm not, itâs just because of our kids
 Hmmm I guess
She didnât seem to believe him.Â
And as Virgil learned from the coming week, no one else seemed to either. He was well aware of their disapproving glances as he would pass, and he was very aware that those in his group were suddenly forcing more work upon him.Â
But all his words fell on deaf ears, because Dee had made a new habit of coming to bother Virgil at least twice a day. But Virgil appreciated the distraction from his coworkers even if it meant that he had to listen to Dee drone on about the horrors of something business related that he had no clue what it meant.Â
âYour work is flawless as usual,â Dee commented handing Virgil back his notes. âI think youâre all set for next weekâs presentation.â
Virgil let out a sigh of relief, âThank you for letting me practice on you. I just needed to say it out loud to someone... Are you sure you wonât be there the day of? Youâre pretty calming.â
âI will be gone,â Dee chuckled. âBut this reminds me of something.â
âWhich is?â
âCan you watch the boys stay for the week? Youâre allowed to say no.â
Virgil paused in surprise. âUm, yeah. I can.â
Dee let out a sigh of relief, âYouâre a lifesaver. They were supposed to be with someone else, but sickness is floating 'round her house so itâs probably not good to have them stay there. Logan gets sick easily.â
âUm... yeah I can do it.â
âGreat! Iâll owe you big time.â
âYouâre leaving the day after next right?â
âCorrect. And Iâll be gone for five days.â
âFive days,â Virgil echoed.Â
Five days.Â
It was going to be a long five days. Â
~~~~
Virgil frowned at Romanâs bedroom, it was small on its own but it fit Roman well. But now he had two other kids to worry about.Â
One option was the two slept on the floor- or Logan did while Remus and Roman shared the small bed. Another was that Virgil gave up his own bed and slept on the couch. Â
Neither seemed ideal for two boys used to having their own large rooms to themselves. Â
âWhere would prefer to sleep Logan?â He sighed finally. Â
The child gave him a glare, âAt home.â
Virgil nodded once, Logan could take the floor.Â
They had made it through the first day. Or well most of the first day. He had gotten through it, he had managed to drive Deeâs too nice of a car to shuttle the boys to school, head to work, and get them back to his house. All that was left was dinner, baths, and bed.Â
He could do this.Â
He could do this.Â
âIâm allergic to tomatoes.â
He couldnât do this.
Virgil froze as he stared over the pasta sauce he was cooking before he looked down at Logan beside him. The child bore a serious expression as he crossed his arms and waited. Â
Virgil wasnât sure how to respond. He had questioned Dee for thirty minutes about his boys, health concerns, allergies, likes, dislikes, and not once had tomatoes been mentioned.Â
âUm... do you like something else on your pasta?â Virgil asked awkwardly. âI donât have any other sauce... but I um... I think I have rice?â
The nine year old gave him a slight glare, âI donât want rice.â
âOh, what- what do you want?â Virgil regretted the question as soon as he asked. What if he didnât have something that Logan liked?
Logan opened his mouth to respond, but he was cut off as Virgilâs phone rang. Virgil reached for it and hurriedly answered when he saw Deeâs name.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me Logan has an allergy?â He asked hurriedly as he turned back to the stove to stop the now bubbling sauce.Â
âUh... because he doesnât?â Came Deeâs voice. Â
âHe just said heâs allergic tomatoes.âÂ
âWhat? Are you sure he wasnât just joking?â
âIâm in the middle of making pasta and he comes up and says heâs allergic with a serious expression. So I didnât think he was...â
He heard as the man gave a sigh, âPut him on.â
Virgil turned, but Logan was gone.Â
The boys had talked to Dee before dinner, and with that Logan ate all his pasta without complaint, (he actually seemed to enjoy it slightly before he decided to frown for the rest of dinner).
Following dinner, baths were taken while Virgil did the dishes, and then it was time for a board game to wind down. Or well that was the intentions before the twins started arguing over whoâs turn it was and Logan had walked out of the room. Â
âAlright! If you guys arenât going to share then you can go straight into Romanâs room.â
âBut we want to play this,â Remus whined.Â
Virgil shook his head and began to gather the game pieces. âYou can play quietly in Romanâs room for a half hour and then itâs bedtime. Better yet how about a book? I know you both have reading you're supposed to do for school... If you donât have a book I can pick one?â
The threat of picking a book seemed to be enough to cause them to retreat, but that still left Logan. He found the child in his bedroom sitting on his bed.Â
âThatâs not where youâre sleeping.â
Logan rolled his eyes, âYour house is so small thereâs nowhere else to go.â
Virgil pretended it didnât sting as much as it did, âThose two are unwinding in Romanâs room. If you want we can go back out in the living room and you and I can finish the game?â
âNo. Iâll go to bed.â
âOh, uh okay... goodnight.â
~~~~Â
âWere you driving the bosses car this morning?â
Virgil looked up as his coworkers sat down across from him at the cafeteria. âUh yeah... his sons are with me, and even if my car wasnât at the shop waiting on a part that will never come, Deeâs car is large enough for two car seats and a booster seat. So he gave me the keys while heâs gone.âÂ
âWow, you both got close fast then.â
âI-I guess...â
âHas he said anything about the promotion?â
âNo? I havenât asked... we mainly talk about the boys...â
They didnât look convinced.Â
But itâs not like he expected them to be.Â
~~~~Â
The rest of the days seemed to mimic the first, the twins being the twins, and Logan picking and choosing when to be cooperative. But it was alright regardless, and while he enjoyed the company of the extra children he was silently looking forward to having his small home clean for more than an hour at a time, and a tad more quiet.Â
âReady to pick up your dad you two?â Virgil asked as they all climbed in the car. Â
The two boys nodded eagerly, âIâm glad this trip was short,â Remus commented. âOh what souvenirs do you think he got, Logan?â
âI want another snow globe,â Logan put in.Â
âDoes he go on trips often then?â Virgil asked.Â
Remus nodded, âHe goes lots of times. Sometimes we can even go with him!â
âThatâs only in the summers,â Logan clarified. âOur other Dad would take us to the beach while Dad was in meetings.âÂ
âThen weâd stay longer and have vacations! My favorite was Hawaii.â
âItaly was better,â Logan disagreed. âOr maybe Paris.â
âI wanna go somewhere cool,â Roman complained. âDad, can we go somewhere cool?âÂ
Virgil grimaced, âOne day Ro.â
âHave you not gone any trips?â Logan asked. It was an innocent childâs question, so Virgil wasnât sure why he could hear a smugness to the boys voice.Â
âDad and I only go to amusement parks,â Roman replied albeit sheepishly.Â
âYou would like Paris,â Remus told him. âIt was super cool! Oh and in London there were a ton of castles and stuff!âÂ
âYou like princes right?â Logan asked him. âThen I say London.â
Roman nodded mutely in response, and Virgil gave a sigh.Â
Virgil was more than thankful when Dee walked out of the airport doors and hurriedly pulled his sons in hugs. He climbed into the driver's seat, and Virgil moved to the passenger before they pulled off.Â
âIn the bag I gave you are souvenirs,â he commented with a smile. Â
Virgil glanced back to watch as Remus dove for the bag and bag hurrying through it eagerly.Â
âThey didnât drive you insane?â Dee asked redirecting Virgilâs attention.
Virgil chuckled and looked at his bossâ defined face, he seemed a bit more tanned than when he had left. âStill just as sane.âÂ
âGood-âÂ
âThanks for the snowglobe!â Logan called.Â
âThanks for the shirt and bear,â Remus put in there was the sound of him digging around. âAnd mini cup?â
âOh those are for Virgil and Roman,â Dee explained. âI got Roman the bear, the shirt is yours.âÂ
âMe too?â Roman asked surprised taking the toy.Â
âYou didnât need to get me anything,â Virgil told him quickly.Â
Dee shrugged, âItâs just-â
âI wanted a magnet,â Remus complained.Â
Dee shook his head, âIâm not going to the hospital for you trying to eat one again.âÂ
Virgil had many questions and opened his mouth to ask, but Dee continued.Â
âItâs just a shot glass,â he started again. â...I always buy one on trips. I have no one to give it to, so as they smallest of thank you for watching my kids? A shot glass. Let me know when you think of a way I can really repay you.â
Virgil could tell there was more to it, but he smiled and thanked the man regardless. âYou let me use your car for days, and youâve been driving me around. I think thatâs thanks enough.âÂ
âDid you get any update on your car?â He asked.Â
âThe part was supposed to come today, so hopefully only a week more.â
~~~~
âYouâve been pretty quiet,â Virgil observed as he and Roman sat down for dinner. âMissing Remus and Logan already?â
Roman shook his head and poked a bit at his chicken.Â
âEverything okay?â Virgil asked hesitantly.Â
âI'm fine Virgil.âÂ
Any possible words died in Virgilâs throat. It had been months, possibly an entire year, since Roman had called him by his name. It was something he had grown out of as he had become more comfortable with Virgil. Mr. Storm had become Mr. Virgil, which became Virgil, which had turned into Dad. Â
Virgil still clearly remembered the day, Roman had come to him looking nervous and scared and had asked him to call him Dad. He had pulled the boy into a tight hug and held him as he had cried tears of joy (he had been so shocked and happy that he had forgotten he was cooking and had terribly burned their dinner).Â
Roman now only called him Virgil as a joke, in those moments when he recalled that day.Â
Or when he was truly upset.Â
Truly upset with Virgil himself.Â
Virgil decided to give him a bit of a time and space. They ate their dinner in silence and only exchanged a few words as he got Roman ready for bed. But he chose to say something before Roman went to sleep.Â
The two had discovered early on that reading a book before bed wasnât what worked best for them. Instead Roman would climb into his bed and the two would either take turns to make up a story or simply talk about their days. The past few nights with the other two sleeping over he had left the boys alone and they all had seemed grateful, but tonight was back to the not-routine. Â
âShould we do a story? Or do you wanna talk?â Virgil asked carefully as Roman sat down on his bed.Â
âI dunno.â
âWould you mind telling me whatâs wrong, Ro?â Virgil tried. âDid... did I do something wrong?â
âYou didnât do anything wrong!â Roman shouted suddenly surprising Virgil.Â
âThen... what's up?â Roman sat silently and Virgil gave him a small smile, âWhy don't we do a story instead?âÂ
âItâs just not fair,â Roman said quietly.Â
âWhat isn't?â
Small tears came to Romanâs eyes, but he hurriedly wipes them away. âRemus... Remus and Mr. Dee.â
âWhat about them?â
âItâs not fair!â Roman shouted. âRemus was adopted when he was two! He was two and he gets a rich dad! I had to stay with different people! He left the country while I was stuck with people who hated me!â
Virgil tried not to let his heart break with each word, with each tear his son shed. Â
He tried. Â
And he failed.Â
âIâm sorry,â he replied softly.Â
Roman shook his head and moved closer to wrap his arms around Virgilâs torso and pulled him into a hug. âItâs just not fair,â he cried. âItâs not fair that they separated us!â
Virgil hugged Roman back and pressed a kiss into his hair, âI know... and youâre right, Itâs not fair.â
âIâm sorry,â Roman said after a short silence as he wiped at his eyes. âI love you Dad... Itâs just not fair.âÂ
Virgil nodded and held Roman close as the boy cried, trying not to let the words hurt as much as they did. He knew what had happened to the two wasnât fair. Remus has grown up with a loving family getting anything he could possibly want, and Roman had nothing. Â
He had Virgil.Â
But that was only official for two years of his life. Â
So it wasnât fair.Â
And it wasnât Virgilâs fault. Â
So why did he feel like it was?
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Start of Something: The Pieces Fall Into Place (Pt. 3)
-Writing a little series on here as a warm up! In accordance to @orangelegsâs Hogwarts AU! Updates wonât be on a set time, but theyâll come eventually-
When they finally arrive at the event, Patton and Virgil wink at each other from across the room. Virgil is having his ear talked off by Logan- Patton counts his blessings that no one else has approached them.Â
âHey, Roman, I see Virgil. Iâm going to go send him over to say hi, okay?âÂ
âAlright, my dear friend. Remus appears to be hiding a bar of Frog Spawn Soap behind his back over by the punch, so I will go intercept that-âÂ
âAlright, bye bye!â Patton eagerly departs his friend in favor of dashing over to Logan and Virgil. Theyâre chatting about this or that, and Virgil catches Pattonâs eyes with a smirk.Â
âHey, Logan, hereâs that guy I was talking about. Heâd be the perfect co-commentator!âÂ
And there he is. Logan, the most brilliant Ravenclaw there ever was. Patton waves nervously, an awkward smile adorning his face. A co-commentator? That could work. I could do that. And I would be sitting next to Logan for entire games! Not to mention weâd have to talk outside of class about it. This is bloody fantastic.Â
âH-hi there⌠Iâm Patton,â Patton extends a hand to shake. Logan hums, and takes it.Â
âDo I know you from somewhere?âÂ
âYeah! We sit next to each other in Transfigurations. Youâre the smartest person I know,â Patton compliments him shyly, adoring the light blush that adorns Loganâs cheeks.
âI- uh, why thank you, Patton. Itâs nice to be appreciated. I had no idea you think of me that way⌠to be honest, I was sure you were trying to copy me. Everyone else seems to,â Logan seems sad for a moment, then realizes the mission at hand, âI do need a co-commentator with traits such as but not limited to a wide knowledge of Quidditch, charisma, a proficiency in comedy, as well as the ability to conduct⌠whatâs the word⌠ah yes, banter,â Logan lists off, producing a small notepad from his pocket to make sure he had everything.Â
âI can do that! Iâve seen every single game, for the most part⌠I follow a few of the school players so I like to show my support for them if I can. I think Iâm pretty good with jokes too! Do you want to hear a Quidditch pun?âÂ
Logan nods seriously. Patton feels like heâs sweating under the intense scrutiny, but recalls an easy one he told Roman last week off the top of his head.Â
âHey, did you hear about that new Firebolt broom? Theyâre practically flying off the shelves!â Patton laughs at his own joke a little, and looks up at Virgil and Logan. Virgil snorts a short little chuckle and Logan breaks into an unsure smile.Â
âYouâll be satisfactory. How about you come on⌠say, Fridayâs Gryffindor Friendly? If you show up a little bit earlier I can show you the ropes.âÂ
âJust me and you?âÂ
âIn all likelihood, yes,â Logan shrugs. Patton nearly dies of excitement. This is more than he could have asked for: now not only does Logan know his name, but heâs getting one-on-one time with him and will be with him for hours on end. And, Logan will actually talk to him instead of ignoring him like usual. Blessings upon blessings.Â
Time to fulfill his end of the bargain. Patton glances to Virgil, raising his eyebrows in a way he hopes looks secretive and super-spy like. Itâs go time, shadowling.Â
Is Patton trying to look cool? Or was he struck with some kind of eyebrow jelly-legs jinx from behind? What is happening?Â
Virgil gawks at Patton confusedly, genuinely confused at what heâs trying to convey. Eventually, he sighs and adjusts his glasses.Â
âSuper great to talk to you, Logan! I need to borrow Virgil for a moment, send me an owl, would you?â Patton smiles brightly. Logan meanwhile, makes a noise of agreement while scratching down notes into his pocket notebook. Patton drags Virgil away, and once theyâre out of sight, jumps up and down shrieking in delight.Â
âTHANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! Oh my goodness, this is the best! Thank you, Virgil! I owe you one!âÂ
âActually, you owe me an introduction,â Virgil deadpans, though unable to hide the small half-smile at Pattonâs overexcitement. His eyes widen in realization.Â
âOh yeah! Alright, alright, so I asked him and Roman may have let it slip that he needs some kind of tutor! You know, Quidditch players have to have decent grades or else they canât go to games. So, are you any good at Potions or Charms?âÂ
âHeh, those are my best classes,â Virgil thanks whatever led him to being a loner: when youâre alone most of the time you have a lot of time to study and be really good at class.Â
âOkay! We can go over there and Iâll introduce you and you can help Roman pass his classes! You donât have any other commitments do you? He doesnât like it when people try to rope him into stuffâŚâ Patton bites his lip nervously. Virgil, once again, praises his empty life.Â
âNope. No one really likes me in their groups,â Virgil blows air out of his pursed lips.
âOh thatâs so sad!! Why wonât everyone include you? Rude!âÂ
âNah, I donât really want to join any stupid clubs. I donât fit in with any groups of people, anyway. Iâm not any sort of prankster like Remus, or super intelligent like Logan, or a social butterfly like you, or a Quidditch aficionado like Roman, or anything like that. Iâm a loner,â Virgil has accepted this fact. He doesnât care about any of that stuff: heâs been alone with the exception of Logan for a while now.Â
âYouâre an artist!â Patton pipes up. Virgil rolls his eyes.Â
âIâm not that good. And any self respecting wizard artist uses enchantments to make them move,âÂ
âYou know, Roman will probably let you paint him and do that enchantment stuff if you said you were an artistâŚâ Patton hints slyly. Virgil narrows his eyes.Â
âDonât patronize me.âÂ
âFine, fine! Ready to go?â Patton asks, clapping his hands together. Virgil runs a hand through his hair, adjusting it so the purple streaks are more apparent, calming his furiously spinning mind. Here we go. Meeting my crush. A hallmark of school. I can do this.Â
âLetâs do this,âÂ
Theyâre walking over⌠theyâre a few feet awayâŚÂ
âHey there Ro-Ro! I want you to meet my friend Virgil and your new best tutor for Charms!âÂ
Roman turns, grins⌠and itâs like all the lights have turned on. This boy, this evanescent star, is looking, really looking at Virgil and itâs like the whole world has been illuminated.Â
âPatton! Thank you, youâre an absolute doll. I needed a tutor for Charms! Virgil, let me introduce myself -though I likely need no introduction-, Iâm Roman King. It would be the greatest honor for your assistance in Charms,â Roman cocks his head and bloody winks suavely at Virgil. On anyone else, Virgil would deem it annoyingly fake: on Roman, it seems like the most natural thing ever.Â
âI- uh, yeah. I watch your games. Youâre real good- um⌠truly an upcoming star-â Virgil stammers through what is likely the most horrifically embarrassing sentence ever uttered.Â
âAha! So youâre a fan, then? Delightful! Donât go falling for me now- we have work to do!â Roman laughs boisterously. Patton looks at Virgil nervously, to which Virgil shakes it off. I knew it wasnât going to be easy. If I can just talk to him, for now, maybe things will change later. I certainly have the time.Â
âIn your dreams, Princey,â Virgil snorts. Patton glances at Virgil, shocked, but Virgil waves him off. Virgil can hide his heart: heâs quite good at hiding. This will be no issue. Heâs getting to spend time with Roman anyways⌠he can swallow his pride. Heâll outlast the other petty girls and boys who gave up after Roman didnât notice them. Virgilâs more than them. Heâs stronger, made of firmer wood than the others.Â
âWhat days work for you for tutoring? If you want, we can do it in the Stands before your practices,â Virgil suggests. Romanâs eyes light up.Â
âYes! Thatâs absolutely perfect,â he takes Virgilâs hands in his excitedly, and Virgil idly thinks that this might just be the best decision of his life, âThank you, Virgil. Iâm in your debt⌠how do I repay you?âÂ
Now, if this was one of those dirty mangas Virgil read once to âresearch the art styleâ, heâd wink and use some innuendos to tell Roman exactly how he could repay him. But itâs not. And Virgilâs much too nervous to try any kind of move like that. After a speechless moment, he settles on:
âAh⌠sure Iâll think of something,â he says lamely. Roman nods sagely.Â
âLet me know! Either way, I think I have to go rein in Remus again- heâs attempting to pour belch powder over the entirety of the snack bar. Iâll see you Friday, okay?âÂ
âSounds good. You bring all the textbooks that you want to review,â Virgil sighs. Roman shoots him a thumbs up and a smile.Â
The second he disappears, Virgil deflates in on himself. Patton pats him on the shoulder.Â
âThat was⌠not great,âÂ
âItâs cool. Iâll sort my own shit out,â Virgil runs a hand through his hair. The consensus he reaches is that any alone time with Roman is positive, and if he never gets to date him it would be sucky but not the worst thing ever. Virgilâs gotten so far: itâs progress.Â
âAnd Iâm commentating for Logan on Friday too! Iâm so excited I could burst!!â Patton squeals happily, a move that would have once made him cringe and shirk away, but instead prompts a small tug of the lips.Â
âVirgil!â Logan calls out to him from the other side of the field. Virgil looks over and waves with a rare smile and looks away.Â
What he doesnât notice, despite being the perceptive person he is, how Logan flushes in the face and carries a mirror smile for the rest of the evening.Â
And even more, what no one at the party, not a single soul notices: the new Slytherin seeker watching all with mild amusement⌠taking in all of the new bonds that form and the relationships that blossom. He can see it all, just as clear as if it were in writing. No one pays him any mind as he chuckles from his spot on the Courtyard pillars. This will be fun to watchâŚÂ
âHey, Dee-Dee, whatcha doing all by your lonesome over here? You want some com-pan-y?â Remus comes out of nowhere, dancing his fingers up his arms.Â
âIâm going to have to take a raincheck on that one, love,â Janus sighs, âAnd frankly, weâve established that âDeceitâ is a cruel and outdated nickname, yes? Thatâs a remnant of a malicious childhood and even more vicious children,âÂ
âYeeeeaaaaah, I knoooooow, but itâs so fun!! Who else can I call Double-D? You know, I gave you that nickname because-â
âBecause snakes have two dicks. Yes, I know. You tell me that delicious little tidbit each and every day, Remus,âÂ
âWell, yeah, maybe, but either way! What are you doing, all here by yourself?âÂ
âIt seems that there are some new developments happening in our favorite little community of friends,â Janus smiles.Â
âLike what?â Remus asks, his morbid curiosity piqued, bumping his head against Janusâs. Janus, to his credit, does not balk whatsoever and rather brushes Remusâs hair back comfortably. His fingers go from the front of his scalp to the back: oddly enough, though it appears unkempt, Remusâs hair is actually maintained to a somewhat hygienic standard. Well, as long as Remusâs pet vermin isnât nesting in it. To pet his hair is a familiar gesture for the both of them- calming Remusâs hyperactivity while helping to hone Janusâs focus. Itâs been a hallmark of their relationship since Year One.Â
âYouâll see, dearest Remus. Youâll see. Things, I feel, are about to get quite messy,â Janus smiles excitedly, âAnd we might just have to be the one cleaning up the messes instead of starting them.âÂ
âAww, but thatâs no fun! What am I going to do with all those Dungbombs? Peeves will be so disappointed,â Remus pouts up at Janus. Remus has always been quite the prankster: constant trips to Zonkoâs, teaming up with Peeves for maximum mischief, going even as far as reading Year 5 textbooks to learn new fun spells. Janus has instead been the voice of reason, matching cunning to his pure madness. They balance each other beautifully, keeping each other afloat because no one else will.Â
âDonât worry, my friend. Youâll still get to do all your fun little pranks and more,â Janus chuckles.Â
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For better or for worse, I have a job that is exempt - to a great degree - from the widespread need for isolation (in the world of news radio, the show must go on). However, I do get days off and thank goodness for that because my brain can only take so much constant pandemic talk.
So! I offer up âthe ultimate music listâ, something I started doing on YouTube last year. Maybe earlier. Itâs a living list, it will never be complete. Anyway, listen to the way my music mind rambles! All songs listed on the other side of the keep reading line (not linked, you gotta do some of the work):
Seinabo Sey - I Owe You Nothing Janelle MonĂĄe â Django Jane Janelle MonĂĄe - PYNK Janelle MonĂĄe â Make Me Feel Sudan Archives - Come Meh Way Sudan Archives - Come Meh Way & Wake Up | A Take Away Show St. Beauty - Not Discuss It Japanese Breakfast - Boyish St. Beauty - Caught Kali Uchis - After The Storm ft. Tyler, The Creator, Bootsy Collins Kali Uchis - Tomorrow (ft. Tame Impala) Kali Uchis - Dead To Me Kali Uchis - Body Language (Intro) Kali Uchis - Just A Stranger Kali Uchis - In My Dreams Kali Uchis - Flight 22 Sigrid - Strangers King Princess - 1950 Sigrid - Donât Kill My Vibe Sigrid - Plot Twist Moonchild - The List Amber Mark - Way Back The Internet - Girl DeJ Loaf - Changes Erykah Badu - Window Seat Erykah Badu - Afro Blue M.I.A. - Matangi M.I.A. - Double Bubble Trouble M.I.A. - Paper Planes A Tribe Called Red - The Light II Ft. Lido Pimienta A Tribe Called Red - Sisters ft Northern Voice PRINCESS NOKIA - BRUJAS PRINCESS NOKIA - TOMBOY Solange - Cranes in the Sky Solange - Don't Touch My Hair ft. Sampha SZA - Broken Clocks SZA - Drew Barrymore SZA - Go Gina SZA - Prom SZA - Pretty Little Birds Sade - Flower of the Universe Sade - The Sweetest Taboo Sade - Paradise Sade - Turn My Back On You Sade - Smooth Operator Sade - Cherish the Day Erykah Badu - On & On Jill Scott - A Long Walk Erykah Badu - Tyrone (Live) Janelle MonĂĄe - I Like That Christine and the Queens - Girlfriend Humble the Poet - H.A.I.R. Lush - Desire Lines Lush - Never-Never Rachel Sermanni 'Take Me Out' - Franz Ferdinand Cover Memory House - When You Sleep (Yours Truly Session) Sumner McKane - The Turncoat Nothing Matters When Weâre Dancing - The Magnetic Fields (Sense8 Remix) (feat. Zoe Wise) Julia Holter - I Shall Love 2 Dua Lipa - New Rules [Initial Talk 80s Rules Remix] Lady Gaga - Venus (80s Synthwave Version) Ruelle - Take It All Kraak & Smaak Ft. Parcels - Stumble Calvin Harris, Dua Lipa - One Kiss Timecop1983 - Girl (feat. SEAWAVES) Aretha Franklin - Mary, Don't You Weep (Live at New Temple Missionary Baptist Church, Los Angeles, January 14, 1972) Sarah Vaughan - Misty (Live from Sweden) Ellie Goulding - My Blood (Kastle Remix) Darksynth Paradise - A NewRetroWave Mix | 1 Hour | Retrowave/ Darkwave/ Electro | Sudan Archives - Nont For Sale Christine and the Queens - 5 dollars Christine and the Queens - Doesnât matter Christine and the Queens - The walker Christine and the Queens - Damn (what must a woman do) Christine and the Queens - Goya soda Christine and the Queens - The stranger Lone - Poltergeist Screaminâ Jay Hawkins - I Hear Voices Lost Years - Pressure Windows 95 Start-up remix Windows 95 Startup Sound (Slowed 4000%) Seoul - Silencer Blackwater Holylight - Willow Her's - Low Beam Here We Go Magic - Alone But Moving John Maus - Bennington AC Temple - Yield Lana del Rey - Summertime Sadness (SxAde Synthwave Version) Ariana Grande - "Into You" 80â˛s Remix Demi Lovato - Cool for the Summer  80â˛s Remix Fifth Harmony - Sledgehammer  80â˛s Remix Lady Gaga - Perfect Illusion  80s Remix Ariana Grande - Greedy [Initial Talk "90s state of mind" Remix] Happy Hippie Presents: Miley Cyrus & Ariana Grande - Don't Dream It's Over Mariah Carey - Touch My Body [Initial Talk 90s Splash! Remix] Dua Lipa - IDGAF (Initial Talk Remix) ć鏹 - Sun Lady Gaga - Joanne (Where Do You Think Youâre Goinâ?) Robyn - Honey Dolly Parton - Here You Come Again Floating Points - Nuits Sonores Sade - The Big Unknown Amanda Shires - Leave It Alone Crockett - City of Ghosts [Full Album] Toni Harper - "The Velvet Hammer" (stereo), 1959 Cristina - "Things Fall Apart" Dexter Gordon - Whatâs New Warren Zevon - Things To Do In Denver When You're Dead - Rochester, 1994 Le1f - Wut Katie Herzig - Sweet Dreams (Are Made of These) Raymond Scott - "Boy Scout In Switzerland" - Quartet San Francisco (arranged by Robert Gilmore) Jan A.P. Kaczmarek - Aimee & Jaguar Main Theme Toni Harper - "The Other Woman" Toni Harper - The meaning of the blues Vanessa - Upside Down Anna Ternheim - Summer Rain feat. Nina Kinert, Ane Brun, First Aid Kit and Ellekari Larsson of The Tiny Ella Fitzgerald & Bill Doggett ~ Rough Ridin' Eraldo Bernocchi, Harold Budd,Robin Guthrie - South Of Heaven (Winter Garden) Slum Village - Fall in Love (Instrumental) Shonen Knife - Twist Barbie Dave Berry - This Strange Effect Sarah Harmer - Basement Apartment The Original Stroll - February 1958 Gertrude Lawrence - My Sweet Gustav HOLST: St. Paul's Suite (III. Intermezzo, IV. Finale) Rumskib - Secrets Caterina Valente - Stranger In Paradise Borodin - Prince Igor - Polovtsian Dances Darshan Ambient - Mirage Girl Crisis - Smooth Operator Girl Crisis - Paranoid Mulatu Astatke's "Mulatu" Vivien Goldman - Launderette Jonatha Brooke - West Point Lesley Gore - You Donât Own Me Matthew Schoening - Emotional Clockwork Molly Nilsson - Hey Moon Kate Bush - Cloudbusting (The Organon Mix re-edit) Stravinsky conducts Stravinsky FIREBIRD COMPLETE The Carter Family - Wildwood Flower Grimes - Vanessa Kenneth Bager Fr. one (...and I kept hearing) Land of Talk - Itâs Okay Nite Jewel - Artificial Intelligence Geneva Jacuzzi - Clothes On the Bed Thom Yorke & Jonny Greenwood - Karma Police | Glastonbury Festival, Pilton UK (8/9) Maps of Norway - Traffic Simian Mobile Disco - Cruel Intentions Aerosmith - Crazy Bruce Kaphan - Undeserved Ending The Pains Of Being Pure At Heart - "Everything With You" Thao with the Get Down Stay Down - Body Janelle Monae - "Tightrope" 5/18 Letterman Simian Mobile Disco - Hustler Ladyhawke - My Delirium Marion Cotillard & Franz Ferdinand - Eyes of Mars Ladytron - Destroy Everything You Touch (live) Kate Bush - Army Dreamers Tegan and Sara - Living Room Kate Bush - Cloudbusting Beatrice Eli - Girls NewRetroWave End of 2017 Mix - (The Future Beckons) - [80s/ Retrowave/ Outrun/ Retro Electro] Vaporwave / Chillwave - Ultimate Mix The Chordettes "Lollipop" & "Mr. Sandman" Sufjan Stevens - Tonya Harding Taylor Davis - Stranger Things Violin Medley STRANGER THINGS MEETS CLASSICAL GUITAR Grace Sings Sludge - Difficult To Love Satchmode - Happiness Part 1 River Whyless - Life Crisis Stefano Barone - Batman - Alexander Supertramp Bebel Gilberto - "AganjĂş"(Ao Vivo) - Bebel Gilberto In Rio Katie Melua - Diamonds are Forever Carly Rae Jepsen - Run Away With Me Beulahbelle - You Only Live Twice (Living Room Version) Grimes - We Appreciate Power Meshell Ndegeocello - Sensitivity Kodacrome - Buckets RĂśyksopp - Remind Me Lizzo - Juice Lizzo - Truth Hurts Lizzo - Good As Hell Electrelane - To the East Electrelane - I only always think Sean Paul - Get Busy ć鏹 - Azure Day (Full EP) ć鏹 - Slow Suzanne Vega - Luka | The story behind the song Seoul - Real June Broken Social Scene on House of Strombo Show Big Boiâs Favorite Verse: Kate Bushâs âRunning Up That Hillâ Cherry Glazerr - Nurse Ratched Jan A.P. Kaczmarek - AimĂŠe & Jaguar Mister Rogers Remixed | Garden of Your Mind Grant Green - Idle Moments Hole Reunion after 15 yrs. Teeth - Care Bear ST. VINCENT covers BIG BLACK at BOWERY BALLROOM NYC May 22 2011 Broadcast - Man is not a bird (Teac A-4010 s Reel to Reel) Billy May - So Nice (Samba De VerĂŁo) Pogo - Mellow Brick Road Anna Calvi - Jezebel (Attic Sessions 5) Anna Calvi - Joan Of Arc (Attic Sessions 4) Anna Calvi - Surrender (Attic Sessions 3) Anna Calvi - Sound & Vision (Attic Sessions 1) Anna Calvi - Wolf Like Me (Attic Sessions 2) Clementine - ALL BLUES Skip James - Hard Time Killinâ Floor Blues Anna Calvi - Suzanne And I Total Slacker - Thyme Traveling High School Dropout Siouxsie & The Banshees- Metal (Elizabethan Suite 1977) Second Chorus (Charlie North Remix) The Castaways - Liar Liar Alex Gaudino Feat. 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Fake best friend me, maybe?
paring: platonic roceit
tw: sympathetic deceit, very brief mentions of past abuse, crack fic
additional note: Deceitâs nameâs Deegan because âDeeâ was too short.
wc: 3.8k
Summary: Deceit needs someone to pretend to be his best friend. His only option is his so-called mortal enemy.
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Door loudly closed behind his back. Dee cringed. The hallway smelt like dirty socks and sweat. He hated college but he hated his asshole ex-friends that were waiting for him outside even more. And above all of that he hated the fact that he had to humble himself in front of someone. Worst day in Deeganâs life.
His golden eyes scanned the nearly empty hallway as he scratched the scar that ran across his cheekbone. Most of people looked away when his eyes met their eyes. Dee was not widely liked in here. Not anywhere to be exact. He didnât bother to change that either.
Only one person seemed to be completely unaffected by Deeâs sudden appearance. The gold sparks in his eyes lightened up. That was the man he was looking for.
Dee took one step forward and then another. Roman was standing just few meters away, clicking something furiously on his phone. His friends flew away as soon as they saw that Dee was approaching them so surely Roman had to be aware of his soon-to-be company. And yet he didnât even bother to look up at Dee.
The audacity of this bitch.
Dee cleared his throat loudly. If it was possible hallway suddenly became even more empty.
âRoman, buddy, I have a favour.â He declared standing right in front of Roman.
The other glanced up from his phone, eyeing Dee suspiciously. Rightfully so. He was unimpressed. He usually was.
âBuddy?â Roman sneered, putting his phone into the pocket, âWeâre not buddies. In fact we technically hate each other.â
âOh come on, donât be dramatic.â Dee clicked his tongue in response. He had to remain calm if it was to work out but then⌠bickering with Roman was always so much fun. The worst thing was that Dee knew that Roman felt the same way. Convincing him to do anything could take ages.
âDramatic? You spat into my lunch yesterday!â roared Roman, âYou spat and grinned right into my face. Thank you very much, buddy-my-ass!â
Fair point.
âI was smiling in general direction, you just happened to be right in front of me!â said Dee innocently.
Roman groaned and raked his hand through his copper hair. Dee could already see the mischievous smile tugging up the corners of his mouth. That was the moment he was waiting for.
The thing with Roman and Deegan was that officially they hated each other but in reality they couldnât live without separately. They were the type of enemies that were going absolutely morbid without each other. It escalated to the point that if Roman was sick - Dee was skipping school, and if Dee had taken a part-time job - Roman made sure to torment him with nasty texts during his shift. And everyone approved that. Because it was simply their dynamics.
Roman was widely liked by the masses while Dee was a freak/loser type of guy. It was only logical for people to label them as enemies. Especially since almost each of their encounters ended up with sharp remarks and angry sneers. Yet somehow they kept coming back to each other, like two magnets. There was no escape from that.
There was however one unspoken rule between them - the rule that Dee was about to break any second soon. Never have they ever met outside of the college. If they saw each other in public, they never made a move to suggest that they know each other. It was their way of keeping balance in the nature.
Not for long.
âI need you to fake-best-friend me.â blurted Dee when Roman finally (finally!) looked at him without the confusion and mockery in his eyes.
Said eyes almost immediately grew wider. Dee was not surprised.
âExcuse me?.â Roman took a step back and put a hand over his heart. Again - not unexpected. âI must be hearing things⌠First of all. Thereâs no such thing as âfake best friendsâ. Second of all⌠You do realize that people usually assume that we are mortal enemies, right? It could ruin our image! Give me one good reason why should I do that.â
Dee sighed. Talking to Roman was one thing (that itself wasnât easy) but convincing him was something completely different. He was stubborn and while Deegan usually didnât mind that (it made his life much more interesting), now he was cursing that very trait of Roman Fucking Fairley. Damn him and his stupid stubborn ass.
âWell this is important to me.â replied Dee and mentally praised himself for very witty response. Great fucking job he should be a mediator truly.
âIs it now?â Roman huffed loudly, mocking smile back on his face as he raised his eyebrow.
âVery.â nodded Dee, trying to ignore the heat tickling his cheeks. It was humiliating but it was also his only shot. The truth was that no one was even willing to normally talk with Dee, not to mention hanging out in any possible way.
âMy answer is still no then.â shrugged Roman and turned around on his heel. Dee nodded thoughtfully before the otherâs words caught up on him.
âWait what. No! Oh for godâs sake, Roman! One small favour for your favourite slimy enemy?â in a spun of a moment Deegan grabbed Romanâs hand, practically launching himself on him. âThis is my dignity that weâre talking about! I canât lose it!â
âYou canât lose something you donât have, dipshit.â replied Roman coolly. Sparks of cold satisfaction were literally glowing in his eyes and Dee mentally groaned.
âYouâre insufferable.â he said instead and let his hand slip off Romanâs wrist.
âIâm just trying to be a worthy match for you.â
âDo you really?â snickered Dee.
âOh shut up. Gimme a secâ snapped Roman and pulled out his phone again. He started typing something furiously with the speed of the light. Before Dee got to ask what he was doing Roman switched his phone off and crossed his arms on the chest. âSo⌠fake best friend? Sounds like a terrible fic trope. Also proves that youâre lame.â
âI disagree and... slightly disagree.â grinned Dee and started walking towards the door, explaining everything vividly âSo basically what I need you to do is pretend that youâre my best friend. Because my friends from the past are waiting for me outside and I donât want to look like a sore loser.â
âYou are sore loser.â Roman said smiling lazily but followed Deeâs steps anyway, âWhy me though?â
âYouâre my enemy.â Dee shrugged, âNo one knows me better than you do. Tell me something nobody knows.â
âPatton didnât threw up on Loganâs couch. It was you.â replied Roman almost immediately.
âSee? Thatâs the spirit! You can totally fake best friend me.â
âYeah⌠Maybe⌠maybe youâre right.â nodded Roman, âYou owe me a pizza afterwards though! Like you know⌠just you buying me pizza and leaving me alone.â he warned raising his finger up as if he wanted to threaten him.
Deegan smiled and hooked his own pinky finger over Romanâs. The atmosphere between them was heavy with challenge which - for once - wasnât held against each other. Seconds later Roman unhooked his finger and pushed the door, letting the fresh air into the building. Dee let himself smile a little bit wider as he padded after Roman. Something warm and fuzzy made itself cozy in his chest and he had no idea what that was but - him be damned - it felt pretty good.
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Turned out that Roman didnât have to do much. Just him being there was more than enough apparently. Except of him and Deegan, there were three of them. Those âex-friendsâ. Roman wasnât the type to overthink so he didnât ask why they werenât friends with Dee anymore. He also didnât ask why they decided to meet up if they werenât friends. It wasnât his business anyway. Also he didnât care.
Just like it wasnât Deeâs business that Roman had cancelled plans for entire afternoon just because Dee asked him for help.
And sure, Roman was fighting against the idea at first. The thought itself - of him and Dee hanging out (even if it was fake hanging out) was actually pretty concerning. But it also took Roman exactly 5 seconds to understand that spending one more evening with Dee was much more fun than spending time with anybody else.
Being around him was like a challenge. And oh boy, Roman did enjoy challenges a lot. Pretending to be Deeâs best friend was a great opportunity not only to work on the acting skills but also gave Roman more occasions to embarrass his self-proclaimed enemy. And that what Roman was always up for.
Everybody claimed that Dee and him were complete opposites but Roman begged to differ. They were actually painfully similar. Itâs just the directions they took were different.
He enviously glanced slushie that Deegan was sipping as they strolled down the street, before his eyes wandered to nameless men that were never skilled enough to be Deeâs friends. Because you see, Roman had this strong belief that it didnât require time or patience to be Deeganâs friend. It required skill. And actually Roman possessed this skill. He just never made a proper use out of it.
âYouâre awfully quiet guy, Roman!â snickered the boy with hair that was dyed green. Roman was pretty sure that his name started with âeâ. Despite the outstanding hair-colour, he was pretty grey.
Dee laughed loudly when he caught Romanâs gaze lingering on him.
âRomanâs shy baby at first but believe me you wouldnât want to see him surrounded by his little fans!â he mocked, his lips twisted in a loop-sided grin. It made his sharp cheekbones stand out even more. âOr you know what? You would love to see that, Evan!â
Ah, so it was Evan. Bland name. Actually fits him well.
âWhy?â peeped another guy, the one wearing thick glasses.
âBecause everybody loves our Roman here.â grinned Dee. âIf only they knew that inside heâs not as much of a saint that they think he is.â
âHey!â Romanâs eyebrows furrowed, âExcuse me, I am a model student.â
Apparently those words held some kind of a special meaning because the rest of the boys started laughing as if they heard a good joke.
âWhat?â asked Roman confused, scrunching up his nose.
âYou canât be a model student if youâre friends with Dee. Being friends with Dee is like⌠a major disgrace for any model student.â explained Even, glancing at Dee a little bit waringly.
âYeah,â agreed Thick Glasses, âYou gotta choose! Youâre either perfect or you hang out with Dee!â
The third guy, the one wearing long, orange skirt, leaned closer to Roman, before whispering loudly âI donât think we need to tell you that nobody chooses Dee in this equation, do we?â
Dee quickly took an obnoxiously loud sip of his slushie. Their eyes met for a split of second and Roman couldnât help but notice a shade of shame in Deeâs eyes.
Some would say that at this very moment Roman felt pity. But he knew better. The only emotion in his heart at that time was an overwhelming disgust and sense of unfairness. He instantly straightened his back and snatched the slushie from Deeganâs hand.
âItâs their loss honestly. Deeâs a great guy. Not that you know though. After all you ditched him too, didnât you?â he smiled widely, showing off two perfectly white rows of his teeth.
Orange Skirt cautiously stepped back while Evan and Thick Glasses looked at each other slightly panicked.
âItâs notâŚâ started Evan but just when his tongue started twisting in whatever explanation he had, Dee waved his hand off.
âRomanâs always like that. Always a prince on a white horse.â he joked heavily before looking at the other with a familiar glint of something wild in his eyes. âWhy do you always make everything sound so awfully melodramatic, idiot?â he sneered.
Dee knew what he was doing. Roman could feel in under his skin. It was nothing different from the remarks that Dee sometimes threw at him in the college. He wanted to rile Roman up in the name of good fun. And he knew that Roman wouldnât refuse. He never refused. So when the question tickled Romanâs nerves just like it usually did, he let his lips spread in a merciless smirk.
âIâm just trying to keep up with your terrible sense of fashion, babeâ he replied smoothly, eyeing shimmering with glitter shirt that Dee somehow managed to put into his jeans.
Evan crackled upon hearing that but neither Roman nor Dee cared. The blood was already rushing under their skin. That was their dynamics.
âAt least I donât spend hours in the morning, trying to flawlessly stylize my hair.â hissed Dee, circling Roman, âAnd yet you still wonder why people treat you like a fucking trinket. Try talking to them and they will swoon. Try looking in their direction and they will faint. Wave at them and, Iâm sure, they will be ecstatic.â
Roman only chuckled at this statement, âBold statement considering that it comes from someone who daily waves aside everyone in general.â
âItâs a conscious decision.â
âYou puking at Loganâs couch! That was a conscious decision.â laughed Roman and briefly looked at the others. âBut you barking at people? If itâs a decision of yours, then you are really poor at making them.â
âThe only poor person here is you and itâs because youâre lacking your brainâ retorted Dee, eyes glimmering with excitement. âNitwit.â
âImbecile.â
âMoron.â
âMoron your hair.â
âI think you meant maroon and thatâs hardly an insult,â smiled Deegan widely, âTherefore I win.â
âWin? A freakshow maybe, yes.â replied Roman. He wasnât sure if the sweet taste lingering on his tongue was from the slushie or from the delicious ripost.
At this point Deegan was fuming, eyes glistening in excitement and fury, hands clenched in small fists. Roman smirked even wider. He was enjoying their game today. The outside world had already ceased to exist. It was only him and Deeâs awful attitude.
âJust because you won a battle, doesnât mean that you won the war,â hissed Dee, baring his teeth. Left canine was pricking his lip. Roman knew this sight by heart by now.
âNo, but at the revenge still tastes sweet,â he said, taking a particularly large sip of the blueberry slushies.
Something sparkled in Deeâs eyes and Roman froze with the straw in his mouth.
âYou do know that youâre basically indirectly kissing me, donât you, loser?â stated Dee casually as if he was discussing why itâs light during daytime.
The drops of slushie that was still tingling on Romanâs tongue forcefully made their way to the pavement as he started coughing abruptly, choking on his own saliva and air. Meanwhile Dee started laughing so loudly that the sound was surely to be heard two or even three streets away from there. The cup with the slushie fell on the ground and the liquid spilled across the pavement, creating a blue puddle. Deegan thought that the look on Romanâs face was totally worth the prize of the drink though.
Only when Deeâs lungs started to burn craving for oxygen, did he take a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. Roman finally straightened up but before he could angrily deliver any remark he had on his mind, Dee wheezed again pointing at Romanâs perplexed face.
âYou have fucking blue sprinkles on your chin, genius.â he snorted mercifully.
Fair amount of red blush crawled on Romanâs cheeks. Quickly, he wiped the chin with his hand but instead of getting rid of the blue drops, he smeared them even further.
âWell, great.â he grumbled in reply, looking through his pockets in search of a tissue. âIâm already turning into a snake that you are. Thank you for your slimy gems, Dee.â
âActually, youâve always been a cold-blooded bitch, Roman. So really turning into a snake wouldnât make much of a difference for you anyway.â
Roman prepared himself for the familiar sound of whistling and growling that usually followed sentences like that but this time, all he heard was silence and Deeâs heavy breathing. He looked around. He got so caught up in the game that he forgot where they were. What was even more shocking though was that Dee and him were standing all alone on the empty street. His eyebrows furrowed as he scanned the surroundings. He could have sworn that he had just seen Evan and the rest of the groupâŚ
âThey left the moment I called you ânitwitââ said Deegan noticing Romanâs confusion. âI guess our shenanigans were just too much for them to handle.â he added shrugging.
The sun was slowly disappearing behind the horizon, tinting the sky with the shades of golden specks. For some reason they reminded Roman of the sparks in Deeâs eyes.
âWell, to me they came across as weak from the beginning,â he replied finally, trying to pretend that he didnât see just how much the other was avoiding his gaze. âI guess my mission here is over thenâŚâ he added hopelessly.
As soon as these words left his mouth he felt an unpleasant pain growing in his chest. It wasnât unfamiliar - or at least didnât feel like something strange. Maybe it always was there, but Roman never cared enough to acknowledge it. The realization hit him hard moments later, when Dee sighed loudly. Roman didnât want this day to end. He had fun. Despite all the concerns he had - today he had fun. And it wasnât because of Eran or whatever his name was. It wasnât because of Orange Skirt or Thick Glasses. It wasnât even because of melting slushie on the pavement. It was because of Dee.
He always had lots of fun with Dee.
Those unspoken words were stuck in his throat, bruising his sensitive flesh and ego. Him, Roman, someone who was a man of many words and even more kind smiles, was now standing in front of one of the most important people in his life and he was practically mute.
Dee hummed softly, still avoiding Romanâs eyes. He seemed unbothered and it hurt more than it should.
âText me your address and toppings,â said Dee finally.
âWhat?â asked Roman dumbly, cursing the confusion in his voice.
âThe pizza?â sighed Dee, arching his eyebrow, Â âI promised, I remember. So donât worry. Youâre free now.â he smiled but it was a strained smile. Roman knew all of Deeganâs smiles: from the mocking one through the evil one up to the honest dorky laugh. Over all those years, he learnt to distinguish and love them. This one? It wasnât a smile Roman wanted to see on Deeâs face. Not now nor ever.
âAh, rightâŚâ he mumbled numbly when all he wanted was to ask Dee what was wrong.
They stood in complete silence for a few minutes, Roman unsuccessfully trying to catch Deeâs gaze. It was weird being together without the air filled with fights and insults. It was weird but also surprisingly comfortable. The only thing destroying the moment was tense muscles under Deeâs skin and a certain uneasiness that was radiating from him. Roman could feel that something was wrong but he couldn't bring himself to ask. After all who was Roman to Dee? Nothing more than official enemy and unofficial fake best friend.
The odd silence was broken by a loud tune announcing a new text message. Hesitantly Dee pulled his phone from the pocket of his jeans. Whatever someone texted it apparently was funny because moments later Deeâs lips spread in a shy smile. He glanced at Roman behind his phone, as if he wasnât sure if the latter was still there.
âYonnah, texted me.â he said casually and Roman blinked with surprise.
âSorry, who?â he asked politely.
âYonnah.â repeated Dee, searching for some kind of recognition on Romanâs face. Finding none he sighed, âOne of the guys weâve been hanging out with all day long. The one with specsâŚâ he provided helpfully.
âAh! Thick Glasses!â clapped Roman with understanding.
âThe only thick thing here is your head.â purred Dee and just like that the heavy atmosphere was gone.
âFrom the other side, the only non-thick thing here are your thighs.â grinned Roman.
Dee grimaced. âThat was kinda lame.â
Roman chuckled in response, for the first time not feeling an absolute and overwhelming need to reply with something equally sharp and mean.
âYeah, it wasâŚâ he agreed carefully.
Deegan looked at him visibly stunned. It wasnât just an agreement. Both of them knew that. It was something new, a step forward maybe. Someone could call that a peace offering but they never were at the state of war. Nothing remotely close to hate radiated from golden eyes when Dee was talking to Roman. Ever. For Roman he held only shy kindness mixed with playfulness.
âI was thinking, DeeâŚâ Roman cleared his throat, âMaybe after all we could get that pizza together⌠I mean. We don't have to if you donât want to but⌠God, donât let me ramble, this is terrible,â he hopelessly looked at the other.
If it was possible Deeâs eyes grew even wider and his mouth was hanging open. Then he blinked rapidly few times in a row.
âYou want to hang out⌠With me?â asked Dee carefully as if he wasnât sure if itâs not another joke.
Roman nodded quickly. âPretty much so. I think itâs high time for us to hang out properly don't you agree?â he said, scratching his head. It sounded terribly lame.
And yet somehow Dee was beaming. His eyes were sparkling under the artificial light of the lamp above their heads. The scar running across his cheek seemed to be just another line of his awfully toothy smile. Romanâs heart melted on the spot.
âIâd actually love that.â nodded Dee finally and almost instantly turned on his heel to walk down the street. He stopped however after barely few meters just to glance over his shoulder and wink at Roman, âDonât get me wrong. This is pure business for me. If I go with you, we will split the bill, right?â
Roman laughed under his breath, already setting off in Deeâs direction.
âYeah⌠I guess we will do that.â he said to himself. âI guess, we willâŚâ
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That evening Dee was sitting on his bed waiting for Roman to finish taking a shower. He wasnât sure how or why had he offered Roman to crash over at his place. It was natural. Having Roman around was always natural to Dee. It always had been.
Yet, over all evening long neither of them said the magical word.
Friends.
Maybe they were friends indeed. Maybe they were friends way, way before Dee asked Roman for a favour this morning. Maybe they were yet to become real friends.
Once again, Dee hummed and opened his phone searching for a text from Yonnah. He found it funny how a silly text, pushed him to make a decision that might had been one of the most important decisions of his life.
âIâm glad that you finally got yourself a normal best friend
actually no
scratch ânormalâ
you two are fcking nutsâ
The end.
PS I'm heavily considering writing a sequel to this story in which our lads would become something more than just best friends. If you'd be up for that let me know if you wanna be tagged :)
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Live forever - Ch. 03
(A/N: This chapter involves transphobia, conservative Catholicism and a normally nice character being a dick)
All was well for a while.
He and the Flamels travelled around Europe and it was fun, despite the trouble they ran into from time to time.
Thirty years after meeting, they were in England and staying with the famous alchemist John Dee.
He wasn't an immortal like them and they had no intention of sharing their secrets (or even their real identities) with him.
But he was interested in the Englishman's books, so he copied them, whenever Dee wasn't there.
A lot of it contained knowledge of alchemy as well as black magic. Many of the notes were disturbingly accurate and he made note to seize Dee's books as soon as the man passed away. No one but him should ever see all the dark knowledge hidden in there.
He didn't trust John Dee as far as he could throw him.
That was hypocritical, as he himself was a quite shady figure, but he couldn't help it.
âWhy so glum, young man?â, Dee questioned one morning, as they were having breakfast.
He smiled innocently. âOh, nothing major, Professor. I just have those moods from time to time. Nothing to be concerned about.â
That was a half truth, as he did have mood swings quite often. The fact that they almost always came with intense abdominal pain one week every month didn't exactly help either.
Dee and the Flamels had already begun to suspect things, which made him even more careful than he already was.
Perenelle seemed to be especially suspicious, which made him nervous. After all, she was a very astute woman. But she remained silent, which he was grateful for.
It had taken even himself quite a long time to come to terms with what he was. So long to realise that he wasn't insane (at least not in that regard), not a phony, not possessed by a demon.
And if it had taken him so long, how would the Flamels react, once they actually found out? Sure, they had accepted his practising of black magic and even his preternatural gifts.
However ⌠despite being alchemists (a very unhallowed profession) and comparatively tolerant, they were pious â and very Catholic. In fact, they had already run into a lot of trouble here in England for just that. But that wasn't the problem. Even though the Flamels were far ahead of the times, they were still children of the 14th century and that leaked through from time to time. Especially Nicolas could be rather ⌠judgemental sometimes (Perenelle not so much, she was just a bit prudish).
They were just your average, clean-cut old couple.
An immortal, average, clean-cut old couple practising dark alchemy.
Which made the whole thing even funnier.
Nevertheless, he was determined that they shouldn't find out, lest he'd lose the only friends he'd ever had.
Of course they found out, because that was inevitable, when you spent decades living with two immortal alchemists.
Predictably enough, he had forgot to lock the door one day and even more predictably enough, the Flamels had burst in on him getting dressed.
Just as he was in the process of binding his chest, Nicolas and Perenelle Flamel stumbled in.
âJean, you won't believe what â WHAT THE HECK???â
He hurriedly covered himself, but it was already too late.
Perenelle didn't seem very surprised.
But her husband promptly flipped his wit. Before he could throw a fit, however, she put a hand on his shoulder. âLet us leave, so he can dressed in peace.â
âHe?!?â, Nicolas hissed, but a look from his wife silenced him and she pushed her husband out of the room.
The younger man, now finally alone again, sank onto his knees and ruffled his hair in distress.
âFuck âŚâ
He took longer than usual to get dressed, to buy himself time to come up with the explanation he now had to give them. After a few minutes, he gave up. They probably wouldn't listen to him anyway, so why bother.
At that opportunity, he also began to pack his things.
With the way Nicolas had just reacted âŚ
When he finally came downstairs, the Flamels were sitting at the table, looking at him expectantly.
He sighed and sat down.
âI guess I owe you an explanation.â
âAbsolutelyâ, Nicolas agreed coolly. âWhen were you planning to tell us that you're a woman?â
His eye twitched. âNever, because I'm not a woman!â
The blond opposite him inhaled sharply. âYou're still trying to keep that up, after we have seen it?â
âNicolas, let him explain âŚâ, Perenelle began, but her husband cut her off (which wasn't like him at all): âStop calling her a 'he', Perenelle, when-â
Now it was the German necromancer's turn to cut the other off: âSince when do you snap at your wife for using the correct pronouns? I am not a 'she'! I never was!â
âYes, you are!â, the Frenchman snapped back, âLook, I have no problem with a female alchemist or a witch â I wouldn't be married to Perenelle, if I did â but stop pretending to be a man! You're not one!â
âYes, I am!â, the younger one snarled angrily, âI'm just as much of a man as you are!â
âYou actually believe that?! You're either possessed or confused!â
âNicolas!â, Perenelle protested, but it was too late now.
Both men were blinded by anger and unwilling to listen to her voice of reason.
âSo this is what you think? That I'm a madwoman blinded by the Devil into believing to be a man?! Or that I didn't like the miserable life as a woman and chose to crossdress, so I would finally have rights and male privileges?! Well, I have tidings for you: I am mad, but not in that regard! My mind is perfectly sound! Is it my fault that I was born into the wrong body?!â
Nicolas Flamel's eyes narrowed: âThe Lord doesn't make mistakes. If He chose for you to be a woman, then-â
âWell, if God doesn't make mistakes, then this was a really cruel joke on his part!â
âHow dare you defile the name of the Lord! Speaking of names, what is your real one?!â
âThis is my real one! Johann Georg Faust is my actual name and I don't give a damn, if you like it or not!â
âOh really?! Well, I don't believe you anymore, after you have lied to us for decades!â
âNicolas!â, Perenelle tried again, but was â once again â ignored.
He stood up, furious. âI wasn't lying! I didn't tell you, because I knew you would react like this! Why do you anyway?! You have never minded my sorcery or necromancy or my telepathic or prophetic abilities and you're making a fuss over this?!â He opened his arms wide and gestured at himself. âFine, I have a woman's organs! So what? That doesn't make me any less of a man! Why do you insist that it does, when your wife accepts it, like a reasonable adult?!â
Nicolas took a deep breath: âWell, not everyone can have Perenelle's angelic patience! But it doesn't change the fact that you hid this from us. Speaking of which, how can you be so calm about this, Perenelle?!â
The brown-haired woman shrugged: âI have known. Figured it out decades ago.â
âWhat?!â
âThink about it, mon cher mariš. How skittish he is, that no one should see him naked. The mood swings and abdominal pains he has once a month and how he always washes his clothes himself during that time frame. And how desperately he has been looking for a way to change into another human change too, rather than just into animals. How defensive he is towards ambitious women, crossdressers or effeminate men â basically towards everyone who doesn't act like the broad masses do. How he drinks cold and strong waters to make his voice deeper. I thought it was pretty obvious.â
Her husband's eyes twitched. âSo ⌠everyone but me has known that she is actually-â
âHow many times do I have to tell you, I'm not a she!â
He threw his arms up in frustration. âYou know what, I give up. I'm sick of trying to explain myself to you, if you refuse to listen.â
Angry and upset, he went back upstairs and finished packing his things.
Just as he had finished packing, Perenelle came in. For a few seconds she looked surprised, that the room was suddenly so empty, but then she realised: âYou're leaving?â
âYesâ, he hissed and put his gloves on. âIf your husband won't accept me anymore, I don't see any reason to stay.â
âMy husband will come aroundâ, she tried to placate him.
âNot in the near futureâ, he muttered and slid into his fur cloak.
âPlease don't leaveâ, she pleaded, âIt won't be the same without you. You're like a son to me and once my Nic has calmed down and gets a clear head, he will be more open and accepting, I know it. He always is.â
But the German alchemist shook his head. âHe doesn't want me to hang around anymore and I don't want to deal with his intolerance. I'm returning to Germany.â
The Frenchwoman realised that she wouldn't persuade him to stay and gave him a tight hug.
âI believe that you're a manâ, she told him.
Something about that made his lower lip tremble and his eyes sting. But he composed himself and hugged back.
âHas anyone ever told you, that you're the best of women?â
âMy husband tells me all the timeâ, she chuckled.
He smiled and let go. âWell then. Ă bientĂ´t², for we will meet again someday. Say goodbye to your husband from me. Oh, and if you plan to stay with Dee until he dies â which will be in another ten yearsÂł â please be so kind and burn all of his books on black magic. They mustn't fall in the wrong hands. They're in a hidden chest in his study, under his desk. You'll have to push it away and look under the floorboards.â
She nodded. âWill do.â
âThank you. Good luck, Perenelle.â
Then he left.
It was only weeks later, when he was standing on the rail of the ship from Dover to Calais, that he allowed himself to hurt.
As he looked back to the English shore, something strange happened: he wept.
Huh. I have never cried before.
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1) mon cher mari = French: my dear husband
2) Ă bienĂ´t = French: See you then/see you later.
3) John Dee died in 1608 (or 1609, itâs not quite clear).
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Blooming Hearts - Chapter One
Chapter One | Chapter Two
Pairings : Romantic Roceit
Summary : In this world, it was nearly unheard of for people to not get with their soulmate. It was looked down upon, because why would you not want to be with the person who was absolutely perfect for you? But what if that soulmate wasn't perfect, wasn't the person for you?
Warnings : Deceit(named Damien), Sympathetic Deceit, cursing, name-calling, Roman angst, please tell me if I missed anything
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"How did this happen? Why the fuck are you like this?" Lily Fae snapped at her boyfriend of three years, her soulmate. Fire shown in her eyes as she digested his words.
When she had first heard them, she had been stunned. No words had been able to process through her. But now? Now she was only getting started. "You're going to be seen as a freak! An outcast! A fucking idiot who doesnt even seem to have one braincell. And me! God, what would everyone think? Im soulmates with a dumbass!"
Roman flinched at her tone, shrinking into his jacket. He swallowed thickly. "You think I didn't consider all that? We can both just, just keep this on the down low. Neither of our reputations will be ruined, or anything like that." He tried to reason, he really did. But Lily was having none of that.
"Roman, we are both famous! The press is watching our every move, and it's surprising they haven't broken into our- my, apartment by now. They would find out within the hour."
Roman's eyes widened. "Did you say this was your apartment?"
Lily straightened her back, a glare settling in. "Yeah. I did. So pack your shit."
Roman took a shaky breath. "Wait, I won't have anywhere to go-"
"That's the point, now hurry your ass up and leave."
He couldn't argue. He really couldn't. So, as quickly as he could, Roman packed a small suitcase. He wasn't going to bring a lot, he couldn't, if he needed to find somewhere else to stay at such a short notice. He was out of the apartment in ten minutes.
Roman glared at his knuckles as he walked down the busy street, cursing at himself. He should have just endured it all. He had a good life with his soulmate; Lily was... decent. She had a temper, but Roman could usually deal with it. He could have just... just not even met Damien. Never have even said a word to the soulmateless man with a scar.
The man whom he hadn't seen in weeks, only talking through text because of a vacation Damien was on.
Roman sighed, looking around at where he was. He vaguely remembered the area, it was near the park. It was someplace he didn't visit often, but... The park would allow him some alone time. Before people began to actually pay closer attention to the actor walking down the street. No one suspected him in the park.
Tightening his grip on his suitcase, Roman made his way down a few blocks. It didn't take long to get there, but it would have been much faster if he had taken a few shortcuts that were well known. The park was as breathtaking as ever, leaves the colors of reds and oranges and yellows. Some couples were scattered here and there, enjoying the nice weather that would soon disappear for cold.
It was refreshing.
Roman found a bench with no one near and made himself comfortable, pulling his legs up and taking his phone out of his pocket. He wrapped an arm around his knees and unlocked his phone, immediately opening up his messages. It was only now did the realization that he was officially homeless set in.
Roman took in a shaky breath, and exited messages. Instead, he clicked on the phone icon and dialed Damien's number. He listened to it ring twice, before a smooth and gentle and familiar voice greeted him.
"Roman! What do I owe the pleasure of receiving an actual call?"
Roman swallowed, taking a deep breath and trembling as he exhaled. "Dee... You know how I was um, going to break up with Lily?"
Damien hummed knowingly, and Roman could practically see the concerned expression on his face. "Well... I did."
"How'd it go?" The answer was obvious. If Roman was calling Damien, and not, say, Patton, it couldn't have gone well.
"Swimmingly! I'm officially out of a place to stay and I've no doubt she's gonna tell the media, meaning that any future career choices are probably about to sink out of my grasp."
Damien let out a quiet "oof," making Roman smile just a bit. "Well, um, what do you think you're gonna do about it?"
Roman sighed. "No clue..." He muttered, curling further in on himself. "Any chance you'll be back today? Maybe I can crash at your place- if it's askibg of too much, I totally understand! But it was worth asking."
"I'm coming back tomorrow- but my brother is watching Nova while I'm gone. I can give him a call and tell him you'll be staying."
Roman froze slightly. "Wait, you're actually letting me stay?"
Damien hummed. "Don't see anything wrong with it."
Roman laughed quietly, it was nervous bit filled with so much relief. "Thank you, thank you so much."
"No problem. I need to go, feel free to make yourself at home, and I'll see you tomorrow."
Roman nodded. "Yeah. Yeah. Thanks."
He swallowed as they hung up, and he was greeted with a new notification of the address. Roman picked himself up and opened up an app to hopefully get him there correctly. Knowing Roman's luck though, he'd get lost in ten minutes.
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Damien's house was one to behold; the concrete walls were painted a pale yellow and the house had a black roof. But that wasn't too important; the house seemed huge, too big for someone who typically lived alone. There was a garden leading up to the front door, clearly well-kept and cared for. Flowers of all colors kept catching Roman's eyes and he nearly tripped on the few steps leading to the front door.
Roman was let in by Virgil, a handsome young man with light purple bangs. He wore a simple purple shirt and jeans, currently barefoot, and eyeshadow was smudged underneath his eyes. He smiled warmly at Roman, closing the door behind him.
Around the living space, there seemed to be quite a lot knocked over and moved around. Barking could be heard from one of the rooms upstairs. The walls were covered in paintings and the couches seemed very clean, a dog bed right in front of it. Some of the paintings were of Nova, Roman recognized, others of random people, some Roman knew himself.
"Sorry for the mess- Nova got a bit excited when she heard someone. You're not afraid of dogs, are you?" he asked. Roman shook his head. "Great! I'll let Nova out of the room, then. If you follow me into the kitchen..."
Virgil gave Roman a tour of the entire house. Roman was still in awe at the sheer amount of living space. "You're certain Damien lives here, alone with Nova?" he asked in disbelief.
The other man nodded. "Yeah. He did live here with his soulmate, originally, but um... yeah, things happened." Roman frowned as Virgil quickly changed the subject. "Anyway! I can order a pizza or something while you get settled in. Any particular kind you want?"
Roman shrugged, picking his bag up from the living room floor. "Just pepperoni, if that's alright?" Virgil nodded and picked up his phone, mumbling something to himself. Roman patted Nova's head as he walked to the guest bedroom he had been shown earlier.
It was almost twice as large as his old bedroom, and though these walls were bare, they were painted in pastel reds, oranges, and yellows. The sheets of the bed were a magnificent red; there was a desk against the opposite wall, with a wall light that Roman guessed could be adjusted.
He swallowed and set to work at getting his few things sorted. This, this was going to be an interesting shift in his life.
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