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#my characters#mmofail#HIS name is Beta Burst but he is played by a woman named Haley#and shes chill correcting people that hes a she irl but also just doesnt mind which pronouns people use online#irl though shes a she/her through and through#also she tells one of her employees at work (shes a manager at a convenience store) to get a hobby or find a fun online game#cause he always looks super tired and he tells her he doesnt wanna socialize out of work in person people are tiring#and then hes like hmmmm a hobby or game hmmm#and then he gets the same game and goes on the same server and lets his sister design his character#while he naps then he just picks a name and chooses ETA 1400 bc he works overnight and if he logs in#he plans to log in at like 2pm so why not make that his name#however there is a guild owner who wants to collect all the greek letters (her own name in game is Omega Rising)#so she makes the executive decision to include eta 1400 and when he and beta are talking one day in game#hes like oh yeah im just playing cause my boss at work told me i needed a hobby#and beta is like oh shit thats me im the boss who told him he needs a hobby#so eta starts calling beta boss in game just like he calls her irl#and its just a nice lil friendship and shes happy when eta starts to make friends in the guild#he still has a lost lil puppy like following vibe when hes around boss but eta does do some growing socially#mostly with betas friends in the guild which are: a guy with no backbone and a guy playing a girl who doesnt tell anyone shes a he#anyway thank you thats my oc essay tags and i love beta and shes just really funny to me#bc she just is there to vibe and play pvp#which the horn lore is those are high ranking pvp rewards for heavy blade users#and when eta finds out the pvp reward for a healer is a bloodied crown#hes like please please please help me learn pvp that sounds really cool ill do my best boss
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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!
#probably the nerdiest thing i will ever read in my entire life but I AM SO HAPPY#Its the unabridged and corrected 1992 republication btw. if you wanna get specific#the only book in which i have actually decided to read the introductory notes and i do NOT regret it because the editor's one IMMEDIATELY#brought up the “oh but surely the second dimension has thickness how else would flatlanders see anything” AND GAVE A REALLY GOOD ANSWER.#which i cannot tell you here. bc it is several paragraphs long and idk how i would shorten it. i would hit tag limit. if thats a thing.#anyways. I'm only a little bit into the first part which basically explains how Flatland works as a society so i haven't even gotten to the#sphere yet but OH MAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED ABOUT A ROUND OBJECT IN MY LIFE#IM LOSING IT OVER THIS BOOK AAAA :D#me: im so glad i dont have a math class during my senior year! now i dont have to learn anything math-related!#also me: but what if i started studying a complex and almost entirely theoretical part of geometry#bc YEAH i didn't just buy this book bc of gravity falls. I BOUGHT IT BC IVE BEEN RESEARCHING THE 4TH DIMENSION WOOOOOOO!!!!!#one thing i will say i dont like. introductory note suggests the the 4th dimension might be time. this is ok tho bc its followed up with#also saying that time is not a spatial dimension and exist across the 0 1st 2nd and 3rd dimensions which. that epuld mean we live in 4d#already. so. i was worried for a second but THANK YOU THANK YOU OH MY GOD PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY “OH THE 4TH DIMENSION IS TIME” I HATE THAT SO#MUCH AAAAGGHHHH AT LEAST RECOGNIZE ITS NOT SPATIAL!!! TIME IS NOT A SPATIAL DIMENSION!!!!!!! IF IT WAS THEN 4D TRAVEL AND TIME TRAVEL WPULD#BE FHE SAME THING AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUCH COOLER POSSIBILITIES WPULD BE THROWN AWAY IF THAT WAS THAT CASE!!!!! AND. AND. IF THE 4TH#DIMENSION IS TIME. THEN WHATS THE 5TH?? 6TH?? YPU CANT KEEP GOINF ON FOREVER LIKE THAT. YPURE JUST MAKEING MORE 3D WORLSS WITH STUFF IN#ADDITION TO TIME. INTERESTING BUT THAY IS NOT ABOHT HIGHRER DIEMSBSJSNSBAKAJSHDHDHHDHDHDJ#sorry for the rant. jsut. agh i want a spatial 4th dimension. i dont think tesseracts exist through time that would just be an aged cube#anyways yeahhh i love the 4th dimension. new hyperfixation or new special interest? ill have to wait and see. anyways i have done it i have#an oc whos 4 dimensional now and she is the coolest ever i love her#but yeah this book is sosososo good i am literally gonna bring it to school to read instead of draw bc i would lose it if i didn't#10/10 would recommend to anyone who wants to Think
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long exasperated sigh
#a nyx original#rant in tags ignore this#im genuinely convinced sometimes that people do not see me as anything other than a girl#i am genderqueer i do not present myself as a girl online but when i start talking to people#theres this feeling deep inside me that they see me as a girl that theyll always see me as a girl and treat me differently because im#the “girl” of the group#this fear is irrational i do not tell everyone what i was assigned at birth#i dont even use my voice around anyone who isnt a friend#but im just. i dont know it really hurts because im scared of being seen as someone im not#im not a girl i am not a girl i do not want to be a girl#but no matter how many times i say that to myself im scared#do i see MYSELF as a girl? obviously i dont because well#im not! im not!#im transMASC ffs#but when i try to lean into that identity it feels like im just#“pretending” to be a boy#or “cosplaying” as one instead of actually being one#and being seen as a guy#(or anything other than a girl for that matter) makes me feel. happy#but im scared that everyone sees me as a girl and that ill never be able to get that joy#out of being seen as a guy yk#whatever this is pointless rambling ill be fine
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#im bout to be whiny before getting nauseated at being kimda vulnerable and end up deleting this but just#shoutout to my friend (who was the only person i ever shared my writing with for over a year)#just telling me they've always just skimmed my fics AND infodumps because they dont care. like has read at most a handful of me talking &#usually skips any rare audio message that i sent when SUPER excited and made up drama to have an excuse to change topics#again. for over a year.#then getting guilt trippy when i was hurt by it until i apologize instead which !! lmao fuck ok !#its just... very hmpth :/ bc it eas already a shitty night and week of nonstop migraine. and then this#and taking into account im someone who NEVER blocks any of my friends tags or doesnt read and invest myself in their interests#even if i dont like it; i love seeing people (even strangers) excited and talking about what they like so of course im going to#at least watch them talk on it and/or actually research into it because i want to be able to understand their happiness!#and because its whats important to them !! i dont expect the same and im not shaming anyone for not doing the same its fine I guess#but to tell me? and to say they dont read my writing or give a single shit about me talking about something#when i always put 100% into their interests? am i that shitty of a writer and that obnoxious to listen to lmao#like i feel shitty for even being hurt over it and even venting because you guys arent here for that and its mean to force it on ur dash#and i dont want to be too whiny but also. jfc man#ill stay silly starting tomorrow and post about batmans balls or whatever. sorry for the vent just. bleh.#that ‘december please bro please im begging just a break please man’ post but its me throughout this February too apparently
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christ, do i actually feel bad for wesley ?? what is going on
#astro watches#angel#if u havent been abel to tell im back in my buffy era. and that includes watching angel for the first time#and im havign a lot of fun !!! it took a bit to get into but im like halfway through s3 and v much attached to everyone#but ofc wesley has the massive disadvantage of me having a grudge from btvs#very much mostly jst bc of teh cordelia kiss. but also he annoyed me in general on that show#but his growth has been in interesting and good here. and watchign him watch fred and gunn have their first kiss#actually made me hurt for him.#tbh i didnt rly have any shipping preferance at all. but i vieb with fred/gunn. but tbh also teh ot3 with wesley would fuck#idk. its rly not a shippy show which im rly enjoying lol. and just mostly i want fred to be happy. thats all that matters rly#and god the angel/cordelia thing..... i just dont know.. maybe qpr ?? i just. idk. idk. i havent rly ever shipped either with anyone#except cordy with buffy kinda lol. idk. im open to it. but i idna hate all of the sudden it being a ship heavy show#but im enthralled ofc. i love all the enemies. and just the vibes#im not much of a detective show person. but idk#anyways. sry for teh rambly tags. ive just been watching and haign thoughts. if i finish the show. ill make some mbs.#and if i dont ill at elats make some for fred. my love. and maybe angel. who i unexpectadly also love lmfao
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does anyone know her dad? daniel ricciardo smau (part 1)
pairing: daniel ricciardo x toto's secret child!reader / daniel ricciardo x schumacher and wolff!reader warnings: cursing and some general fandom hate wags get note: first time doing this i dont know if this right but lets go! part 2, part 3 and part 4
mickschumacher happy birthday to @ynquads !! sorry for crashing into the cake! mama said she'll make you another
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gina_schumacher thanks for almost cropping me out of the picture
mickschumacher it's about yn!! ynquads i though i was you favourite cousin gigi :( why u being so mean to me :( i'll go tell my parents micschumacher ill tell mama you're being mean to yn username123 always love seeing mick and yn be annoying little siblings
maxverstappen1 congrats! is it enough to say it here or do i have to make my own post? ive given you a present
ynquads bring me cowboy boots from austin and you dont have to
username cute cute cute cute cute cute
username honestly schumacher genes dont even feel real anymore
username right!?!?! i want yn to win the figure skating grand prix but then i remember that video where she went karting with max username like a billion drivers and a skater and the good looks in ONE family? god really does have favourites
lewishamilton happy birthday! it's been great seeing you grow up
username excuse me sir? what do you mean grow up?
ynquads visited japan for a wedding and now i'm all ready for skate america!! let's gooo cricket club!!
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username YOU GOT INVITED TO YUZURU'S WEDDING
ynquads i even got to bring daniel🤭
danielricciardo it was a lovely wedding❤️❤️(ours is gonna be better)
username excuse what the fuck lewishamilton actually you're not allowed to marry her without our permission danielricciardo whose permission would i even ask? lewishamilton every german speaking driver and like three team bosses good luck
username ARIANA (our queen & god susie wolff) WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE
maxverstappen1 daniel's being gross make him stop
danielricciardo am not! ynquads lmao throw bread at him danielricciardo all the love ive given you and this is how you repay me? ynquads ooh i'll repay you 😏 maxverstappen1 dont be weird under my comment
username oh she has time to fly to japan but not go to a single race ever
username babes danny has not been in the since zandvoort. theres been no race to go see him username they've been together for like three years and she's only been to less than ten races username like seriously cant she ever be supportive username you people do realize she's an athlete too?
ynquads we got silver!!!💪🥈🥈🥈congrats to kaori sakamoto 🥇 and isabeau levito🥉 (also thanks uncle lewis for dinner)
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nicorosberg he gave you alcohol?
ynquads i have never actually drank alcohol at all in my entire life (also dad was there i was not even allowed to get food that had rum in the sauce) maxverstappen1 oh yeah we did not at all just get drunk ynquads shut up before nico goes to talk to my DAD
username are we all just gonna ignore that she calls lewis "uncle" like seriously how disrespectful is that
username calm the fuck down she calls him and all the older grid (especially sebastian) uncle so it is not new
danielricciardo why you holding your head like that? is it heavy from all the pretty? i can hold it for you
nicorosberg this is who you choose @ynquads danielricciardo why are you bullying me too??? ynquads hes funny onkel nico (uncle) username how is nico rosberg here dragging danny ric? you dont even follow him?
username EVERYBODY CALM DOWN THIS IS NOT A DRILL WE HAVE A CHANCE TO HAVE YN WIN THIS YEAR'S GRAND PRIX PLEASE BE ON EVERY PODIUM
susie_wolff congrats honey! we're really proud!
username i still think it's so damn weird she just hangs out with the older grid. how does she even know then to go on dinners
username okay but when the hell did this even happen? i follow yn and she trains in toronto and during summer is in germany or england. she doesnt attend the races? how the fuck is she and DANIEL RICCIARDO together babes
username i bet my life that max introduced them i can feel it in my bones that he planned this username "oh sorry i won by 30 secs and you have a shitbox to drive, wanna meet my friend she's great gf material? you have no chance without help" ynquads i mean.... username OH MY GOD
username she's such a shit girlfriend honestly. she dates daniel for publicity and then drags lewis down too
username what the fuck are you smoking??
username how the FUCK did daniel ricciardo bag the talented pretty QUAD QUEEN MISS YN SCHUMACHER!!! thats my wife actually! what about our kids and three lambs??
f1wagsupdates paparazzi has released a video of mercedes team boss toto wolff exiting a restaurant and driving off with a young woman. even though she tried to cover herself, the woman was quicky identified as yn schumacher. she is a figure skater and 20+ years younger. in an interview from home yn can be seen walking around the wolff kitchen in little clothing. is this the ending to toto's perfect looking marriage with fellow motorsport boss susie wolff?
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username if i dont read it, it doesnt exist. no one's cheating ever
username toto and susie's kid is like 5 how could he throw that away??
username its always the goddamn family men fucking over their wives and kids
username this is such bullshit. toto and susie have been together since like 2011 this is so horrible
username little clothing? she's wearing like pajamas
#formula 1#formula 1 x reader#daniel ricciardo x reader#daniel ricciardo insta au#formula 1 social media au#daniel ricciardo#toto wolff
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ੈ♡˳·˖✶ — GOJO x FEM READER
Gojo's a brat.
wc — 1k
tags — been reading a lot of shoujo manga lately which is its own warning, jealous Gojo spoiling reader
Snap.
You hiss between your teeth, annoyed and barely restraining yourself from murder. The sting of the elastic jolts you out of your studies, but after a quick break to glare at the headache sitting next to you, you dive right back into your work. Patience is one of your strong suits. It’s why Yaga worked so hard to steal - in his words, ‘recruit’ - you from the Kyoto campus. Someone has to set a good example for the kids. He knows it’s not going to be Gojo.
Speaking of-
Snap.
This time, you feel the brush of his cold fingers against your skin as well. You yelp in shock, both at the sudden change in temperature and at the way your skin smarts. Gojo takes a break from his triple sized blue raspberry slushee to laugh at you hysterically, clutching his sides. It’s not even that funny. You wish all kinds of illnesses on him with fervor.
One more time. Just one more time, you promise yourself, and you’ll-
Snap goes the hair tie on your wrist against your skin.
You don’t even let him withdraw his fingers before you leap over the chair to punish him.
“You little punk,” you snarl, catching his collar in your hand and throttling him with it. It’s a rare day where he’s wearing business casual, which he doesn’t even do for meetings with the elders.
“I’m older than you,” he says. “Gotta respect your elders.”
“Yeah? I’ll show you respect!”
You’re already reaching out to pinch his cheek, only to come into contact with infinity. This comes with the realization that he must have had it turned off earlier, if you could have choked him. Why does the thought make you happy?
“Men don’t like women who are so high strung,” he teases.
“Tell that to my roster of Hinge dates,” you snort (lying through your teeth). You’re admittedly popular, but you’ve stopped seeing anyone in recent months for a reason you don’t want to explore further. That’s a stone you’re willing to leave unturned.
“Oh, yeah?” You can only tell his voice is just slightly huskier because you spend so much time with him these days that you can catch the slight changes in his mood. It’s for lesson plans, of course.
That doesn’t stop you from swallowing hard. Jealousy looks good on him. He had the kind of looks that could drive women crazy, but combined with his unfiltered attention on you? It was a difficult to fight the urge to provoke him further.
“Yeah. As for me, I don’t like men who are a pain in the ass,” you smooth down his collar once you realize you’ve still been holding it.
The tension breaks. Gojo never stays serious for long. You’ve only caught fleeting glimpses of the god that lurks within his skin, trapped and turbulent.
“Aw, come on. I’m not so bad, am I? Can I make it up to you?”
“Depends,” you sniff, highlighting a important sentence in your textbook. You’ll have to remember that for class later. Nobara had asked about it. You should really tell him to go away, he’s distracting you so much, but you rarely do tell him off no matter what he does.
“I happen to have a reservation-“
So that explains why he’s dressed so nicely, though you wouldn’t put it past him to show up to Michelin star restaurants in sweatpants and get his way. You have to remind yourself not to get excited that he’s doing this for you. If you do, you lose.
“Happen to, is it? What if I don’t want your leftovers?”
“Don’t be that way,” he wheedles. “I’ll pay for everything.”
“As if I was going to.”
“I’ll pick you up.”
“You can do better than that,” you retort. This is almost fun, like negotiating with Yaga to raise your salary. Utahime thinks there’s something wrong with you for enjoying workplace politics so much, but maybe that’s why you can tolerate Gojo’s company so well when no one else can. You have to be a little crazy to put up with him.
“Hmm,” he says. You see right through him. He’s only pretending to think. In fact, every second of this conversation was predetermined. It’s all part of a bit you’ve done before. “Last offer, then. You can max out my card getting ready.”
And your answer, therefore, is also already prepared. You don’t even deign to give him one, simply holding out your hand.
“Who says I’m giving it to you?” Gojo’s eyes sparkle. He’s being particularly difficult today, so much so you’re tempted to just slap him across his pretty face so you can kiss the hurt away afterwards. He’d like that, though. “Don’t you need someone to carry your bags?”
This is the game he likes to play, messing with you so he can apologize with extravagant gifts. Just once, you wish he could be straightforward about it. You’re not bragging, but everyone knows he likes you. It would make everyone’s life easier if he could just be mature about it, but instead, Gojo insists on acting like a teenager with a crush.
Whatever. You can put up with it for a while longer. You’re not particularly opposed to this situation. He spoils you with attention and lavish gifts; you spoil him by being the only one who can tolerate him.
Besides, you’re keeping secrets too, a big one that Utahime had whispered to you the other day over lunch. She had been so excited to have something to hold over Gojo that she hadn’t even registered the look on your face when she told you.
The other reason Yaga tried so hard to steal you from Kyoto?
Gojo asked him for a favor.
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cold nights // part thirty
summary: you were back in the capitol, and you would be damned if you didn't try your hardest to make it worthwhile.
pairing: coriolanus snow x fem!reader
wc: 3.4k
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tags/warnings: tribute!reader and mentor!coriolanus, r is very sweet (too kind for this world. literally.), sunshine x grumpy trope kinda, he falls first, violence typical for the source material, depictions of mental illness, also she's is very smart (as she should), district twelve!reader.
a/n: guys i've been listening to this playlist again and it actually still tears me apart every time i think ab them. anyway lol enjoy!!
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Coryo hadn't seen you in a while, he thought you would be back after going to get water but you never returned. He could only bear Livia and Festus for so long before he couldn't take it anymore, leaving to go look for you.
He's scanning the room for your white dress and your angel wings, the telltale tones of your hair, or any other sign of you when Sejanus walks up, standing next to him. "Looking for your girlfriend?" He asks, leaning close to him to make sure he could be heard in the loud room.
"Do you know where she is?" Coryo asks, not giving him another look.
"Yep." Sejanus nods, lips pressed together in a thin line. "She's in my bedroom bawling her eyes out."
Coryo's head swivels to look at him, eyes wide. "What? What happened?" He frowns, not waiting for Sejanus to answer before he begins striding toward the stairs. "Did someone say something to her?"
"Yeah, you did, actually." Sejanus replies as he follows after him, the bitterness in his tone suddenly obvious to his friend as he stops in his tracks.
"What? No, I-" Coryo stammers, looking down at your friend as he steps in front of him to block his path. "What... what did I do? Did she tell you?"
"Lyssie came and found me, and I went to talk to her. The gist of it is that she's suddenly realizing how you're embarrassed of her."
"What?" Coryo asks again, his anger and confusion shifting into sadness as his eyes soften.
Sejanus shrugs a bit. "That's just what I was told."
"No," Coryo insists. "That's not... That's not what it is, not at all."
"Isn't it?" Your friend asks, raising an eyebrow at him. "That you won't tell anyone, that you're keeping her a secret? That you told people she's nothing more than your tribute? After all this time? I can't think of another reason you would treat her like this."
"Of course you can't!" Coryo spits, anger suddenly returning. "You're so caught up in your rebellious bullshit that you can't think ahead, can you? Sejanus- if anyone finds out they'll crucify her! They'll do the same to me! Our lives will be ruined if that gets out at the wrong time!"
Sejanus rolls his eyes. "Her life, or yours?" He asks. "She'll be sent home. Everyone loves her too much to kill her. The worst case scenario for her is that she gets sent home to live her life as normal- with her family and friends. Happy, back in Twelve. The worst for you is that you'd have to decide whether or not you love her enough to go with her."
Coryo opens his mouth to speak, but quickly closes it when he finds he doesn't have an adequate response.
"You're taking every extra effort to turn her into everything you are. Forcing her to become me- a District kid who had to leave their life behind for nothing more than the money just so you can have her without people looking at you funny, but have you ever asked her what she actually wants? I didn't have a choice, but Y/N does. You just won't give it to her."
He has never seen Sejanus this angry before.
"You know she had to leave. She didn't have a choice." Coryo says through gritted teeth.
Sejanus shakes his head, laughing dryly. "It's not about that, Coriolanus. That didn't mean she had to pack up her life and never return- she never needed to change who she was, but look at her! She's doing everything she can to fit in with you and your life!"
"I did what we had to do because you never can! You only ever think of yourself! The world doesn't work the way you want it to, and you can't stand it. I get that, but we want the same thing. I just know how to get it. She needs people to listen to her- so we can actually stop the games, do you think they'll listen to her if she doesn't play pretend for a while?"
Sejanus huffs in frustration. "If you're not going to listen to me, fine, but don't do this to her." He shakes his head. "At the very least you could have explained why you were lying to her."
"I've never lied to her!" Her answers impulsively- he's sure he has, but not with the intention to hurt you. Never to hurt you. "Look at what happened when she found out, huh?" Coryo gestures vaguely up the hall. "I'm just trying to protect her. That's all I care about! That's it!"
"If you had just told her that from the beginning she wouldn't be hurting like this. You know that, Coryo."
"Okay, and I'm going to explain right now. So leave me alone." He grumbles, moving to push past Sejanus, who quickly stops him, giving him a knowing look.
"Sejanus, get out of my way."
"No," Sejanus states. "Because you're not the only one who cares about her, and right now, I'm the one protecting her."
Coryo grits his teeth together, breathing heavily as he looks at your friend in the quiet hall, music echoing from seemingly everywhere else in the house. He hates considering that Sejanus could be right.
There's a warm breeze that's serving to keep you cool while you walk through the market, dripping wet from head to toe. Your hair is clinging to the skin of your neck and back, allowing you some freedom from the heat as you hold onto Coryo's hand.
With your clothes soaked and stuck to your skin, you could at least convince yourself that was why people were staring.
"So, how often do you do this?" Coryo asks, unable to help but to laugh as he looks down at you.
"Only during a heat wave." You shrug, already scanning the street for the shops you needed to stop at. You had offered to pick up groceries for your Ma, considering the heat and the walk would have made it difficult. At least you could make it fun, and you would have some company.
"Makes sense." He chuckles. He had to admit, the dampness of his clothes was helpful in keeping him cool. It almost made up for the lack of air conditioning in the District.
"The goal is to get home before we dry off." You explain. "Lennox and I play this game sometimes."
Before he can reply, you're dropping his hand and walking over to one of the stalls.
"Y/N, it's been a while." The woman working states, smiling at you somewhat nervously.
"Yes, well, I'm back to business as usual now." You smile, pulling the empty glass bottle from the bag at your side and holding it out to her. "Or at least tryin' my very best."
"I can see that." She chuckles, shaking her head as she takes the bottle. "No Lennox today?" She asks, preparing to fill it up with milk.
"No ma'am." You smile, shaking your head and digging in your pocket for the change you brought and placing it in front of her on the table. "He's off getting into some kind of trouble, I'm sure."
"Take good care of him, will ya? He's a good kid." She hands the now full bottle back to you with a sealed cap.
"Yes, ma'am." You nod, tucking it back into your bag. "Thank you."
She nods at you and you're on your way down again, Coryo allowing you to pull him along as you grab his hand.
You go stall to stall, picking up everything your mother asked for as your shoulder bag steadily fills and Coryo takes it from you to carry instead. He was much stronger now than he was when you first met him- the Plinth Prize had fed him well in every sense of the word.
You look up as you near the end of the street, surrounded by locals who are talking and shouting all the same. The market on a Saturday always was busy, and today was no exception.
"What is it?" Coryo asks, looking at you as you freeze in the street and a smile steadily grows on your face.
"Listen." You tell him, tuning in on the steady clapping coming from the end of the street. When he puts in a little bit of focus, he can just make out the music.
By the time he does, you're grabbing his hand again and pulling him toward the source of the familiar sounds.
The crowd parts around you when you get close enough, and by now Coryo recognizes the band playing as the Covey. There are people dancing in the street despite the heat, sweating and laughing and having fun. It takes a moment for him to notice you being pulled away by little Maude Ivory, who had set down her hip drum to come dance with you.
The smile on your face was simply unmatched, lighting up the shadows cast by the buildings where the sun couldn't quite reach. You hardly even seem to notice when the people dancing around you cleared away, and it was now just you and the little girl who Coryo speculates didn't even know where you had disappeared to for most of July.
You come to a slow stop as you look around, your smile fading as the music continues.
"Thinkin' you're so fine, thinkin' you could have mine..."
Coryo couldn't just watch this. He was far from a dancer himself, but he'd be damned if he let a bunch of idiots dampen your mood because of something you couldn't control.
"Thinkin' you're in control, thinkin' you'll change me, maybe rearrange me,"
You hardly hear your favourite part of the song you loved as you're focussed on Coryo taking the spot of Maude Ivory who's carrying your bag of shopping and placing it down next to their instrument cases and picking her drum back up.
"Think again if that's your goal!"
The extent of Coryo's dance experience was limited to ballroom, and that showed as he quickly raised your hand to spin you. The sunshine smile that finds its way back onto your face while you twirl around under his hand makes his fears of being a bad dancer disappear in an instant, and others must be feeling the same way as the crowd begins to clap and cheer for the two of you.
It was only another beat before others were dancing again, and someone had taken the liberty of breaking a nearby fire hydrant to spray everyone on the street. Now, your clothes were freshly wet and you didn't stand out so much anymore as Coriolanus took a hold of your waist and dipped you just as the music came to a halt.
He smiled as he looked down at you, frozen in the moment with your wet hair hanging down toward the street and your chest rising and falling quickly. Your eyes were closed, cheeks rosy and flushed, and Coriolanus Snow felt like he was on top of the world.
You wake up in Sejanus's bed in the morning, the satin dress that was part of your costume clinging uncomfortably to your skin under his blankets to accompany the horrible plague of sadness that didn't even give you a moment to breathe. Staring at the ceiling and processing your consciousness, you were disappointed with the memory that presented itself as a dream.
Disappointed in yourself for thinking you could have him, really have him, and foolish for thinking he was actually looking past where you were from. But you had made him a promise that was haunting you.
"Deny thy father and refuse thy name. Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love; and I'll no longer be a Capulet."
He would not give up who he was, but he claimed to love you. His stance was clear, and now it was your turn. Give up the District, or give up him.
When the buzzer rings signifying there is someone at the door in the afternoon, Coryo is flying to the receiver and praying it's you. "Hello?"
He's extremely disappointed when it's Sejanus Plinth's voice that he hears instead. "I'm here for the cat."
Coryo sighs, knocking the side of his fist against the wall as a quiet way to vent his frustration. "No."
"What do you mean, 'no'?" Sejanus spits, voice crackling through the speaker. "He's Y/N's cat-"
"I mean, no. I'm not giving you her cat. He lives here. She lives here. She'll come back." Coriolanus interrupts him, and he's met by deafening silence.
"Coryo-" He sighs, and the pity traveling with his tone up through the walls onto the twelfth floor is what sets him off.
"If she wants her damn cat she can come get him herself." The cat in question is purring and brushing up against his leg as he practically shouts into the wall, letting go of the button before scooping Tybalt up and walking back to his room.
He wasn't angry at you, he knew that much. He was angry at the world for forcing him to make the decisions he did- he was angry at Sejanus for not letting him speak to you last night, and more than anything, he was angry at himself.
Coriolanus Snow was never one to admit when he was feeling afraid. He had never been very good with feelings outside of the basics. He knew he loved Tigris, and now you, and he knew anger and frustration like the back of his hand, but fear- fear was a whole new beast. When it came to recognizing and acknowledging it, anyway.
When it came to you, you were everything to him. Since the moment Coryo first laid his eyes on you, you occupied every ounce of his thoughts. You and your astonishing mind, your body, your everything was like a chronic illness that he never wanted to be cured of, an illness that shamelessly followed him around- gnawing at any other area of his brain that wasn't you until you fully dominated his thoughts altogether. He had never craved anything more, no amount of power could ever make him as satisfied as he is when looking at you.
And that is what terrified him. That losing you meant so much more than losing his path to the presidency. As he places Tybalt on his bed and crawls back under the covers with your cat to rot in his own regrets, he realizes he doesn't give the slightest fuck about his future. Not if it doesn't include you.
So why had he done this at all?
You couldn't call home. You wanted to, you were supposed to, but you couldn't talk to your parents. Put on a smile and tell them everything is fine even when you were calling from the Plinth mansion and you hadn't been back at the Snow's in a day. God forbid this is the day Lennox decides to speak to you again- you couldn't lie to him, and he wouldn't be pleased.
When Sejanus comes back to the large homey mansion empty-handed, you couldn't say you were surprised.
"I'm sorry, Y/N. He's holding Tybs hostage." He tells you, attempting a lighthearted joke while he watches you clean up cups and decorations.
"That's alright." You reply quietly. "He's happy there, they're good friends."
"No, he's being childish. He can't leverage your cat against you."
"Well, it doesn't matter much. I will go back tonight." Sej's eyes go wide at your statement.
"You're kidding." Is all he can offer in response as you casually continue to take down decorations, piling them on the coffee table to dispose of all at once.
You shake your head, turning to look at him fully with a reassuring smile. "Yes, it is totally fine. I'll just help clean up before I go."
"No!" Your friend protests. "Are you not angry? He's been lying to you- he's embarrassed of us, is what it seems like to me. That's not fair to you. Not one bit, Y/N."
He had seen your pain last night. Felt it, even, and he knows that even a good night's sleep could not have solved that- but he also knew that you were a preacher of forgiveness and clung to it like a vice. You would forgive Coriolanus whether you really should or not.
"Never anger made good guard for itself."
"Y/N... Please." Sejanus replies, shaking his head at your saddened smile. "Stay here. Just for a couple of days. I am begging you to think about yourself and what you need for once."
You sigh, giving him a slight nod. If you were being totally honest, you did not want to go back yet. You just needed time.
It was such a relief to be able to finally relax, even if it was just for a few days. You lounged around in Sej's spare pyjamas, curled up in his Ma's library while she and her husband were back in District Two on some alleged business that your friend did not care to know much about. It was very much not your concern anyway.
The point of your couple days off was to not care about others, not care about the problems of the world and the mistakes you have made but instead to just enjoy the company of the books stacked high on shelves in the Plinth's mansion.
So far, a dusty book in surprisingly incredible condition had been keeping you company for the better part of the morning. Little Women. It was captivating- far from the love stories that typically drew your attention, but you couldn't tear your nose from between the pages.
You had to, eventually, when you heard your name being shouted by your best friend from downstairs. You tuck an envelope from the table next to you in between the pages and make your way down the long hall, already excited to tell him about what may very well be your new favourite book.
"Sej?" You call out, having lost track of where the voice had come from as you head for the front hall. You were aware he was leaving only to go pick up something for breakfast at a bakery he said was his favourite, one you had never been to, but that had been quite some time ago. As you walk toward the foyer assuming that's where you would find him, you guess there must have been a long lineup. "Sej, I have to tell you about the book I found!"
You couldn't keep your raving in as you round the corner, already flipping once more through the pages in preparation for citing to him some of your favourite parts while you ate breakfast.
You look up when you sense the shadow of more than one person at the door, expecting to see his parents, having returned early from their trip. Instead, your heart stops in your chest. It's Lennox. Rigid, nothing but a backpack slung over his shoulder as he stares at you. You hadn't heard from him in months, despite all your best efforts.
The book in your hand clatters to the floor and before you know it your arms are around your brother's neck, holding onto him for dear life. You hear his bag drop to the ground beside you before his arms are around your waist, firm as he pulls you as close as he possibly can.
"When I am from thee every place is distant..." You say into his shirt, gripping the back of it in your hands.
"I missed you too." Lennox mumbles.
"I'm sorry... I am so sorry." You tell him quietly and you feel him shake his head before he pulls back just to look at you.
"Don't you apologize to me." He says strictly. "Don't you dare." The tears pooling on his lash line make yours spill over again. "I'm sorry. I should be sorry."
You hug him again, and now it is your turn to shake your head. "Let's just agree to forgive each other so we can just be happy we're together..."
"Deal." He sniffs, patting your back before letting you go again to pick his bag up off the floor.
"What... what are you doing here?" You ask with a slight laugh, wiping your eyes quickly. "Howdid you get here?"
Your brother nods toward Sejanus, who you now realize was just forced to watch the whole exchange. "Sejanus called the house the other night." He explains. "Said you were havin' a real rough time, so I hopped on the freight car of the peacekeeper's train first thing in the morning."
Which means he would be here for the month- and immediately you couldn't be more relieved or excited.
"Thank you." You nod at him, turning now to give your best friend a hug. "Thank you for doing that..." You whisper and he nods, gently rubbing your back.
"Of course, Y/N/N."
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[Ghost with a reader who is mentally ill/neurodivergent]
[could be considered part of gen z! teddy]
▪︎ Disclaimer/A/N: this is my personal take on Ghost and how he’d be in this scenario and my personal experiences with my mental illness. This may not line up to your experience and that’s ok! I encourage you to write your own and share it <3
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Hot take, Ghost may at first may not be able to handle it but the people who say he would leave you alone and let you fend for yourself? Wrong. Look at that man’s home life and growing up, he knows how bad it can get and will never let you slip that far down. He loves you and he’s gonna put in effort.
Ghost isn’t a stranger to mental illness, he’s in the military and has his own that he would never admit openly. However, sprinkle in neurodivergence and he’s kinda stumped.
You infodump him alot about your interests, like a ridiculous amount but he genuinely enjoys it and finds it relaxing to see you so passionate about something.
God help the asshole who interrupts you and asks “who cares?” Bc ghost is gonna stand up quicker than anyone realizes and fucking grabs the dude by the collar and shakes him around. He is extremely protective already but any blatant disrespect??? He absolutely will not stand for it.
Stimming is fun because he lets you grab his hands and mess with his fingers, tracing your fingers across his along with tracing his tattoo. He finds it soothing and will glare at anyone who side eyes you.
He likes when you both lay in bed, with you playing with his dog tags when you lay on his chest. It’s his favorite thing in the entire world and will blush if you bring it up.
He finds himself repeating back your phrases that you take from the internet, he doesn’t even realize he’s quoting some trend bc he doesn’t use social media.
In return you start to repeat HIM and now it’s an echo chamber. Why the fuck are you developing the Manchester accent now and why does it sound so authentic-
One of the best people to be around when you’re having a depressive episode, while he won’t make you talk, he won’t let you wallow by yourself. It isn’t a strange sight for Ghost to be in your room and just sit in your proximity. He’ll hold you if you want and tell you shitty puns but if not, that’s fine.
He knows your tells and when you start to get anxious or overwhelmed and will subtly press some kind of body part of his to yours, helping you ground yourself. It’s not strange to see him sit next to you everywhere with his legs spread out, his thigh up against yours while he talks to Soap.
He doesn’t take it to heart when you start to get snappy or bitter, he acknowledges that it’s the illness and will stare at you til you’re done and then ask if you want to go somewhere.
On days where you won’t leave your bed, he’ll make sure to bring you easy meals and water to make sure you’re at least taken care of before he leaves for the gym. Kissing you on your forehead and telling you to call if you need anything.
Ghost fucking spoils you, will buy you anything your little heart desires even if you have the money yourself. Bro will go on Etsy and find things he think you’d like and will buy it for you
He doesn’t understand the obsession with these fictional characters but hey if they make you happy
Ghost is your person, the one you go to when you’re feeling good and the one you go to when you’re at your lowest and he doesn’t care which one you’re feeling, he loves being that person for you. It makes him feel loved and important in ways he hasn’t felt in a very long time, if not ever.
You apologize so often about being a burden and he’ll always gently shake you by your shoulders and will remind you that “I would not be doing this if I didn’t want to, yeah? You’re my partner. We’re a team sweetheart. You’ll never be too much for me.”
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Happiness is a Foreign Concept
Day 2: Legacy @erisweekofficial
Word Count: 1637 | Rating: T | Genre: Gen.
Characters: Eris, LOA, Male OC (Rowen), Elain, Lucien, Elain/Lucien’s children
Warnings: Contemplating the future, feelings of melancholy, talk of marriage and children | Read on AO3 | Masterlist 2024
Summary: Eris is feeling the pressures to marry and have an heir.
A/N: I fully admit I projected onto Eris in this. This fic about the struggle of uncertainty and the pressure to fit into expectations. Emotions are complex, and while a lot of people find peace quickly in choices they make, sometimes others don’t.
Gen Tag: @hieragalbatorixdottir @mybestfriendmademe @ninthcircleofprythian dividers by @tsunami-of-tears
The invitation laid in front of him on his desk unopened. Eris knew what it was at first glance. Elain’s famous loopy handwriting was on top, addressing the letter to him. Yet he couldn’t stomach the thought of opening it. It was no doubt another invitation to meet his new niece, Elain and Lucien’s third youngling but first girl. He should be happy for them. Instead he got up and poured himself a drink.
His whole life, all nearly seven hundred years of it, he told himself he was fine without a spouse, or a mate, or younglings. A spouse was a liability during his father’s reign. A mate was a death sentence. Younglings were out of the question. And his mother- he loved her dearly. But now with father gone and her newfound happiness in Day Court, she would not stop asking him if he had found someone. Or if, by luck, there was a babe on the way.
“I’m only asking because your brothers are so happy. I want that for you.”
He walked over to the window and nursed the glass of fire whiskey in his hand, shoving down his feelings. He was High Lord. He didn’t have time for romance. He was too busy fixing the wrongs of his father. His duty was to the court. And yet… He stared out into the jewel-toned leaves in the trees, his mind wandering. If his life had been different, if his father was kinder, would he have a spouse and younglings by now?
Melancholy settled in him and he shoved it down. He didn’t have time for ‘what ifs’. They only slowed him down though it didn’t help his mood. Later when he was sword fighting with Rowen, his mood had not changed. And it was showing. Rowen nicked his side, tearing his shirt. Eris stumbled and Rowen grabbed him by his arm.
“Are you ill or something? You never let me get that close to you,” his eyes dropped to the tear in Eris’s shirt.
“I’m fine.” He pulled his arm back. “Just having a hard time focusing.”
“Finally get yourself a lady friend?” Rowen grinned, his deep brown eyes looking his friend over and wiggling his brows.
“No,” Eris glared and he could feel the heat rise up in his body.
“Sorry,” Rowen threw his hands up. “I just haven’t seen you. Governors been talking and-“
“What did they say?” Eris held back his power enough to not command him, but his rage was increasing.
Rowen studied his friend again, frowning. “You’ve been High Lord now for a few decades. Things have settled. They talked like you were looking for a Lady.”
“Well I’m not.” Eris gripped his sword tightly.
“A Lord then?” Rowen asked softly.
Eris let out a growl. Eris had male and female lovers- a secret only Rowen knew as he was his look out for half of them. And while the governors would simply have to deal with it if he chose a male as his partner- it wasn’t the point.
“I’m not looking for anyone. Next time you hear talk, you tell me who it is and I will deal with them accordingly.” Rowen nodded, still eyeing him cautiously. Eris ignored the twist in his gut and put himself into a stance. “Let’s go again.”
A week later his mother came to the Forest house under the guise of spending tea time together. He should have known she only came to pester him. The moment she sat down she began to babble about Elain and Lucien’s newest youngling.
“Azalea is starting to crawl. Oh Eris, she’s so precious. First girl in a millenia. She reminds me of you when you were little. Curious about everything.” She looked off to the window, a whimsy glaze to her eyes. “The boys adore her. You should really come and-“
“I do not have time, mother.” Eris said sternly.
She was silent for a moment. “Surely High Lord duties are not so strenuous now. Unless you have other reasons-“
“Enough!” His mother froze and guilt washed over him. He sighed. “Mother. Please do not start with me.”
She finally exhaled heavily. “I just want you to be happy.”
“I am happy, mother.” Eris retorted, not looking at her.
“Are you?”
He truly didn’t know. Happiness was a foreign concept to someone who lived and breathed torment for centuries.
“I am.” A slight lie. “If this is about me not going to see Azalea, I will make plans this afternoon.”
He finally looked his mother in the eyes again. She knew he wasn’t being fully truthful, he could see it in the way she stared right through him.
“You should stay for dinner.” He added. “Piran is coming. Asher, Rowen, Claudia, and Celeste will also be there.”
His mother smiled. “I would enjoy that.”
Visiting the Day Court was always a tumultuous affair. Helion still gave him a weary look when he was present, despite having warmed up to him more over the decades. Thankfully it was his brother who greeted him, clad in his Day Court attire.
“I’ll never get used to seeing you in this.” Eris wrinkled his nose, looking his brother over. Day Court was always too simple for his tastes.
“Says the male buttoned up to his neck in this heat,” Lucien shot back. “Come meet the babe before I change my mind and send you home.”
On the way to their chambers, Lucien lamented that once Azalea was old enough, they would go back to the border of Spring and the Human Lands. Eris wrinkled his nose again but kept his mouth shut. He knew they stayed in Day so Elain could be close to her sisters and Lucien, to mother. He never understood their love of living so close to a land with no magic.
Eris’s expression softened once they entered the sitting area where Elain was holding up her new babe in her lap. She was already old enough to sit up without much help. Eris ignored the twinge of regret for waiting so long.
“Elain, beautiful as ever.” He walked up to her. “Motherhood has been much kinder to you than fatherhood has my brother.”
“Good to see you Eris,” Elain laughed and Eris could hear his brother grumbling behind him.
“You must be Azalea. Hello, sweet girl,” he crouched so he was eye level with the babe sitting in her mothers lap.
She was beautiful. Unlike her brothers, she inherited the Autumn red hair from Lucien. Her eyes were like her mother’s, wide and the color of a fawn. She was adorable in her little white floral dress. She grinned at him and when he smiled back, she waved her arms about.
“I think she likes you,” Elain said, watching her daughter.
“All babies love me. May I?” He stood and held out his hands questionably.
Elain didn’t hesitate to hand off Azalea. Eris ignored the ache in his heart as he took her, that momentary thought of how he didn’t have one of these to hold and cherish. He instead proceeded to coo at her and make her giggle. When the door opened, she squealed. He looked over to see two younglings rushing to him.
“Uncle Eris!” The two boys yelled in unison.
Eris braced himself and let them both run into him for a hug.
“Boys. My goodness you’ve gotten taller.”
The eldest, Andre, was at his waist before and now came up to his elbows. The middle boy, Apollo, was now up to his waist. He noted the boys' hair was lighter, more akin to the golden brown of their mothers than the darker locks they were born with originally.
“We want to show you the puzzles Aunt Nesta gave us.”
“I’ve got her,” Elain appeared behind him, taking the babe. She leaned in and whispered, “the boys have been looking forward to seeing you.”
He nodded. “Show me the way.”
With yells they dragged him out of the sitting room and into their rooms. Eris spent the rest of the afternoon putting together puzzles, play fighting, and Eris purposely letting Lucien win while fencing. Lucien finally took the boys to wash up and Eris was left to sit with Elain and Azalea in peace for a moment.
“She is beautiful, Elain.” He held Azalea in his lap, cooing at her and making her giggle. “She’s so happy.”
”She is a lot calmer than the boys were at that age. I fear once she starts crawling and walking, she will catch up to them.” Eris’s face must have faltered. “You seem troubled.”
Eris sighed heavily, gently adjusting the babe in his lap. “Mother is pestering me to marry and have younglings. Which is nothing new, but now the governors are talking. It’s just tiresome.”
Talking with Elain was always easy. He used to hate how loose his lips were around her but now it was a blessing. He didn’t have to mince words. She nodded.
“Is that what you want?”
”I don’t know.” He replied truthfully.
She hummed. “You can always take the boys if you get bored. I’m certain Azalea will also want to spend time with her uncle Eris when she’s older.”
“Thank you.”
The door opened and Apollo appeared around it. “Mama, papa said dinner is ready.”
“Tell him we are on our way.” Elain smiled and he disappeared back into the hall. She turned and took Azalea from Eris. “Happiness comes in all forms, Eris. Never feel like you have to fit into a mold.”
Eris laughed, a sour twinge in his tone. “My whole existence is nothing but fitting into a mold.”
“Then maybe,” She whispered as she stood. “You should break it and make your own.”
Eris gave her a soft smile. Maybe he should.
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i’m gonna be obnoxious about this and people are just going to have to be cool about that. yes? good.
happy birthday to what would you do (if they ever found us out) (affectionately known as wwyd)!!! a year ago today, i posted chapter one and (i’m not being dramatic here) i think it changed my life?
little backstory: i’m a dyke with eyes and a type, so when i watched fran drescher making impassioned speeches about labour rights, i was both smitten and reminded that i’d been meaning to watch the nanny. i was also (mostly unbeknownst to me) about as mentally ill as i’ve ever been in my life. i was halfway through a phd which i loved but it was making me so, so unwell. anyway, i started watching the nanny as some kind of escapism and one night, i was like…has anyone thought of fran and cc kissing on the mouth? and they had (obviously) and so i started thinking about that and how whine cellar is a deeply disappointing episode in so many ways and then i was like ‘i can fix that! with a one shot!’.
fast fwd to april 2024. i’m in my favourite city in the world. i’m posting the 11th chapter of that one shot far too late at night (sorry sara). it’s ended up about 85k words long. i’m no longer a phd candidate. i’m significantly less mentally ill. and i’ve spent the last 8 or so months being held by a group of people i would never have met if i had never started writing again.
i didn't quit my phd to write fan fiction, obviously. but writing fic helped me realise how unhappy i was because it was something that gave me joy in a time that was so fucking bleak. i don't really like thinking about it too much but it wasn't great. and then i had this lifeline. these two idiots (affectionate) falling in love with one another, not only in wwyd but all the other fics i was writing. and talking about with people who were commenting and finding me on tumblr. and then, eventually, we weren't just talking about fran and cc, we were talking about our lives! because we were friends!
people will tell you before you start a phd that it's a lonely experience. i was the only history student in my cohort. i only met one of my supervisors in person at his leaving drinks. i have two friends i met at my uni, one of whom was the first person i told that i had to quit. i had other friends and an incredible, loving, patient partner, and they were amazing. but still, it was lonely.
and then i just fucking wasn't.
january ‘24, the squad evolved from being my stupid tumblr tag to being the most chaotic group chat i have ever been part of (until nic got us nicely organised). a week or so later, i quit the phd. and i told a bunch of people i’d never met that i was dropping out of grad school and they were so fucking kind. i will never forget that. the squad, in all its iterations, will have my heart for my whole life. i will not rest until i have annoyed you all in person. my dream is winning the lottery and flying you all to a villa in spain for a week so i can cook you dinner (and cass can make bread) every night and drink wine and splash about in the sun (or in sara’s case, hide in the shade and probably yell at us to put sun screen on). when i say i love you, i mean it so wholly and truly.
anyway, back to wwyd. it’s not my first fic. i’ve been writing on and off for 15 long, long years. but i hadn't written a ton for a while (other than my aloto fic bc gretson my beloved) and i really kind of expected to get a couple of comments and a few kudos. i just had a story that wanted to get out so i published the first few chapters in really rather quick succession (i’m sorry to anyone who reads my stuff, my adhd is too bad for a posting schedule) and people…loved it? like, really loved it. which was so nice because i’m gonna be honest, there was not an adoring audience for my academic work (perils of being a genocide scholar). and i know it's become quite a few people’s comfort fic. i know people have reread it, more than once in some cases, which feels wild. people have left the most wonderful comments, said the kindest things, drawn gorgeous art, made a fanmix (which is fucking amazing), followed along on this journey which i did not expect them to do.
i don't have favourite children (b&w fans, i promise you, the next chapter is in the works) but if i did, wwyd might be one. sure, she's my difficult eldest child. but she got me into a fandom for the first time in years, she’s given me friends i know I will hold onto for the rest of my life, she reminded me how much fun writing can be. and she’s spawned so much more because she made me so much more confident as a writer.
so i don't think i’m being overdramatic when i say it changed my life. if you’d told me all of this when i hit publish on chapter one last year, i would have told you to fuck off. relatively vehemently. but i’m better now. and i’m so fucking grateful for this fic for being part of what gave me that.
anyway, thanks for letting me be a bit self indulgent - promise you don't have to sit through this ever again (maybe for won't you when i finally get it done. i’m sorry. i’m verbose). and once again, to everyone who has read wwyd, given it kudos, commented, reblogged a chapter on tumblr, all of it, my eternal thanks. i couldn't have done it without you.
finally, because i cannot say it enough, to the squad, you have my whole heart. it’s actually mad to me that this time last year, i had no idea who any of you were. your stamp on the last few chapters of wwyd is indelible. your stamp on my life is somehow more permanent than that. thank you. ilsym 🫶🏻
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you ever think about well.. better than the alternative being a wade song? like,, guy who thinks he's broken wanting to be a good father and someone who can be loved.. like it's him isn't it?
First. This is my 1001th post, and Im up to 506 followers! Thank you, everyone, for everything!
Secondly- Congrats. You made me cry. I litsened to this and thought about it very deeply. Its something thats always resonated with me becuse I KNOW the voices in his head are constantly having anxiety on whether or not Ellie is going to get herititary cancer or not and itll he all his fault. If she'll get herititary mental illness. He worries if HIS own mental illness is going to prevent him from being a father. He spirals in so much worry that shes going to end up thinking hes ugly or gross. That she won't want him as a father, that she would be better off as someone elses kid. But BY GOD if ANYONE tries to take this little girl from his custody theyre going to have to pry her from his cold dead, collared hands.
I actually had a sad idea of Logan helping Wade get his daughter back because they claimed he was a danger to her and that the place they live is unsafe for her. It makes Wade insane. Like actually nuts. It's like he just.. breaks. There's no sympathy, no joking around, constantly crying in pain, no warnings, just plain, quick, silent murder. In this fic I actually had the idea of them getting married "Just to get ellie back" because Logan (as a room mate) can't stand the sight of him absolutely loosing his last purpose of living. So he adopts Ellie legally and shares custody of her, so now hes also her legal guardian and caretaker. "Supervises Wade with his daughter" kind of position and yet he doesn't. Theres no point. He knows Ellie is extremely safe and yes they need to move to a better home, Wade at least wants to live again now that he has Ellie..
The guy holds her so tight every night and plays with her all the spare time he has. Even when hes exhasuted and bloody from work, he still makes time for her. Sure, hes falling asleep at tea parties but at least hes present.
At the time Logan was a single dad of Laura and Gabby too so when they got court house hitched, they didn't tell the girls since yk "Its not like that"
But eventually it DOES become like that and they both have a happy little family of 3 crazy little girls, their crazy dad, and their even crazier papa. Oh and their puppy puppins.
I wont be writing this but if anyone does, tag me!
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Sorry if this seems repetitive but I haven't been active on social media in yearsss
Is it true that there's a lot of lawlu hate on tiktok and Twitter? I'm so confused because there used to be so much love for the ship back in 2017/2018 from my perspective (Amino era).
The short answer: yes and no. Let me start by saying I'm not the best person to answer this since I purely consume on twitter. I made my personal twitter in 2007 like it's everyone I've ever known irl and has nothing to do with shipping or hobbies and I follow approx 0 accounts related to anime, manga, or lawlu. I just looked up lawlu a few times and browsed and suddenly it's my whole fucking timeline and there’s no going back and now I have a lawlu twitter (This makes me very happy).
So if anyone else has an opinion on this that is more in the community, please feel free to comment away. Otherwise, below are my observations.
First off, there IS a ton of love for the ship. Most of what I see is beautiful art (they got the nsfw ayo), memes, fanfics, and headcanons just like tumblr. There are tons of comments of people swooning over these posts, Lawlu IS one of the most popular OP ships after all.
There's just a vocal minority that are very against the concept of shipping and in that subset there are those who are very against Lawlu. There people out there that will literally list accounts to block that ship lawlu or write lawlu DNI in their bios. The same can be said for other ships, it's not just this one it’s any they deem a ‘pro ship’ (problematic ship) and Lawlu is generally considered one of these. Below as is an example:
The biggest issues I’ve seen with Lawlu are the following 1. luffy is aroace and cant be shipped period 2. law groomed luffy and the age gap is gross. IMO I think most of these people are just infantilizing Luffy as some goofy autistic kid that doesn't know what love and sex are when in reality he's very self-aware and happy does not equal stupid. Also he's 19 he’s not underage. He met Law twice when he was 17, one of which was saving his life as a doctor and Luffy was unconscious most of this time. Let's not forget Luffy's a war criminal kicking the asses of people 4x his age in a pirate world, age doesn't really work the same as irl.
BUTTT Not that any of this matters because you can ship whoever the fuck you what because guess what? It's ~fiction~. I could rant about how people can ship whatever the hell they want all day but I'll save my breath for now. (my opinion of course)
Also there are just mentally ill people who enjoy telling others to kys if you like something they like do. Lawlu shippers are just their chosen target demographic. Creators get foul messages in their inboxes, rude comments, just general hater behavior. Twitter is just a firey cesspool and all fandoms have 'fans' who do nothing but hate. We live in an age of negativity where being a hater is the cool thing to do.
HOWEVER, I see more people posting about why those people are wrong and stupid than the actual negative tweets but maybe that's because I actually support the ship and the algorithm sees that. Not sure how twitter works, nor do I want to know about that dumpster fire there's a reason I came over to tumblr.
As for tiktok, I don't really consume a lot of tiktok so I can't speak on it besides seeing cosplayers and cute animations/art. I'll leave that to the tiktok people to look into.
For argument's sake, I went through the lawlu tag and picked some lovely tweets to share with you so you can see the toxicity for yourself. Sadly only 10 images per post but I think you get the point. Thanks for the ask hope this was informative. :)
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!Bakugou with an s/o who is NOT a morning person!
Request:-Can you do baku with a s/o who is like super grumpy in the mornings and how he'd handle them 🛐 • Like I bet he's a morning person bc he goes to bed at 8 30 pm 💀 and like how would he react/handle someone who was the opposite? Goes to bed at like 5 am and sleeps in until 3 or if they do get up before 10 am they're super grumpy and irritable •He gives me "im not dealing with your shit" vibes ♡ like brat tamer( @cloudy-zephyr )
Scenario:- bakugou With a reader who is a night owl~
Pairing:- bakugou x gn!reader
Genre:- fluff
Type:- oneshot
Well i think if you went to bed SIGNIFICANTLY later than him it’d irritate him but if you explain whyy you do he might not be as harsh.
Yh he hates not bein able to hold his s/o close at night but if your happy he learns to bear it.
Now on the subject of getting up late
IT IRRITATES HIM TO NO END
Cos like he wakes up and wants to start his day with you right?
But no
YOURE FAST ASLEEP UNTIL 3 IN THE GODDAM EVENING
But then again,he tries,to bear it to live with it
But eventually even he gets sick of it.
After about four weeks of this he decides
Nope you NEEE to get ur shit togetherrrr
so he’s DETERMINED to fix ur sleep schedule
He starts with waking time
Let me tell you,you went to bed at five thirty that morning
BUT LITTLE DID YOU KNOW THERES BE AN AIRHORN BURSTING YOUR EARS AT 10!
You woke up dazed,confused,scared shitless,and PISSED
and when you looked up,you saw yo mans
A smug smile on his face and the aforementioned airhorn in his hand
“Good morning sleepyhead”
Ohhh no
‘Nah ah’
Were your thoughts in that moment as your head fell back onto your pillow while you covered your ears with it like in the movies
“Piss off boom boom boy” was what came out in that moment and Bakugou kneww you were pissed
But he seriously didnt give a shit
You were gonna get used to waking up early
Whether you liked it or not
You on the other hand had a different plan,
Bakugou had tried this whole thing before but your commitment to not listening eventually made him give up
So you knew all you had to do was wait it out until history repeated itself.
And you did
For four continuous weeks but he wasn’t stopping
And on the first day of the fifth week you found yourself waking up on your own(much to your dismay)
You walked into the kitchen,pissed as ever and and there stood bakugou with a sarcastic smile on his face
As you sat down at the kitchen table he slid you your breakfast and you begrudgingly ate it
Bakugou was an asshole but he was and even better cook
“Well good morning sleepy
Head~”
Were the first words to come out if your mouth
“No,”was your reply,”bad morning”
He scoffed and started on his breakfast too
The next week onwards he started getting you to sleep at a reasonable time
How? Must be your question
Well
Force
He would physically grab you and carry you to bed
Or else the threat of unpluggin your device worked too
This was fairly easy for him to get you used to,because,to be frank,you loved katsu-cuddles
So maybe sleeping just a lil early wasnt so bad
Youd talk and cuddle eachother till you fell asleep and then wake up together the next morning
Even after you got used to this routine you were still no morning person
But hey!
Progress is progress right?
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feedback,likes,reblogs and comments are so very appreciated tbh :’)i hope you enjoyed and ill catch ya next time!
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mike who works at a sex shop + innocent reader who goes in + mike that uses everything he has to help her cum ^3^ love ur writing btwwww
Youve never done anything like this before. Going into a sex shop? You couldnt help but feel so stupid and embarrassed by yourself. You cover your face as you walk into the place you set your gps to take you.
Seeing a man with a light scruff on his face, he looked happy to be there. Why werent you? Was it the bright lighting that wasa long contrast from what the website said? The sign said discreet. This was not that.
The man behind the counter looked at you and smiled, seeing your flushed and embarrassed face. “Whatcha lookin for?” he smiled. His name tag said “Mike” with a smiley face and sloppy handwriting.
"Uh.. I saw online that you—the store—have the magic wands?” You stammer, your face turning red. "Yeah, we got em, $200 for the 10 speed one.” Your eyes widen as he tells you the price. Two hundred fucking bucks just to make you cum? Staying a virgin sounds a helluva lot better than those prices.
“Is there any sample? That I can try out just to see if I like it? That price is just Jesus." You didn't know how these things worked. With the bright ass light blinding you, you weren't even sure this was the right place.
"Well, can you really put a price on your satisfaction?” he says with a smug smile. satisfaction. That word always made you squirm. Like how most people feel about the word "moist." Just sounded gross. You shake your head. How would you even know if you liked that kind of stuff? He notices your discomfort and chuckles. “You don't come to these places, do you?” he smiles. You shake your head no, and he looks at you.
"Well, let's do this... I'll buy it, but it comes with a price,” he says to you with a malicious grin.
“What kinda price?” You tilt your head like a dog being shown a treat. His grin widens, revealing a glint of mischief in his eyes. "Oh, just a little favor for me," he says cryptically, leaving you to wonder what he has in mind. You can't help but feel a mixture of curiosity and apprehension at the unknown bargain he's proposing.
“Ill buy it for you, but you have to let me use it on you.”
You think about it, and after a few moments you nod, looking around, making sure nobody you knew was around. “Yeah, that sounds good.” You say softly, You can’t believe you’re agreeing to this... But hell, you get a free toy out of it.
He picks out the one you asked for and takes his name tag off, then rings up the toy and pays for it. God, he’s needy. But so are you, so what’s the deal? You’ve never let anyone use a toy on you, not even yourself. But hell, there’s a first for everything, you suppose. He takes you outside, and you point to your car, getting into the backseat. He looks at you with a smirk and unboxes it. “You want this, right?” he asks you as he looks into your eyes. “Yes, I want this. I want you,” you say with complete sincerity.
He brings the toy out and commands you to take your pants off; you nod and strip for him. You’re already glistening with arousal from him. He turns the toy on, placing the head of it onto your thigh so you can get used to the vibration. It’s shocking at first; nothing you’ve experienced before, but you trusted him.
You spread yourself out for him on the seat of your car, rubbing yourself to get ready for him. He smiles and gently leans down and kisses your labia, making you shiver. Fuck, you’re needy for him. He presses the toy just beside your clitoral area, dipping into the waters before giving you exactly what you need. The vibrations send shocks through you, already making you dripping. He slips his thumb into you with ease to feel the progress. fucking soaked.
You let out a soft whimper that sounds like heaven spoke clearly; he places his hand on your stomach and presses down to intensify the feeling. “More,” you mumble. He turns the toy up another and places it directly onto your bud, causing you to shiver with excitement and need.
You roll your eyes back as the electricity surges through you, humping the air to create the much-needed friction. His touch is electric, sending waves of ecstasy coursing through your body. You arch your back, craving more of his expert touch as you feel yourself on the brink of ecstasy.
His fingers expertly find all the right spots, making you gasp with lust as you lose yourself in the moment. The intensity builds, bringing you closer and closer to the edge of release as you surrender to his touch. The anticipation builds as you feel the heat radiating from his body, heightening your senses and deepening the connection between you.
He groans as he sees your face, so needy for you, so lost in the passion he's giving you. With each touch, you feel yourself getting closer to that sweet release, the tension in your body building with each passing moment. Just when you think you can't take it anymore, he whispers in your ear, "Let go," and you finally allow yourself to surrender completely to the overwhelming satisfaction.
With each touch, you feel a sense of liberation and euphoria wash over you, allowing yourself to fully embrace the sensation of the moment. The chemistry between you and him is undeniable, creating a magnetic pull that draws you closer together. As the tension mounts, you can't help but let go of all inhibitions and fully immerse yourself in the passion of the moment. The toy you were playing with falls to the floor, forgotten. You need him. Only him. Fuck the toy; when you're this close, he's the only thing you need. His hands on your skin ignite a fire within you, making you ache for more of his touch. The desire between you intensifies, driving you both to the brink of ecstasy as you lose yourselves in each other's embrace. You give in to the passion, surrendering completely to him.
His pants drop, and he climbs on top of you, ready to take you to greater levels of freedom. The intensity of the moment overwhelms you, as you both become lost in the heat of the passion. Every touch, every kiss, sends shivers down your spine, heightening the satisfaction between you. As you feel his hands exploring your body, a sense of release wash over you, allowing you to fully embrace the moment and let go of all inhibitions. The connection between you deepens.
He lines himself up with you, whispering in your ear sensually, "Are you okay with this?"
"yeah, I'm okay with this. More than okay."
You feel a rush of desire and anticipation as he enters you, sparking a flame within that burns hotter with each thrust. The world fades away as you lose yourself in the ecstasy of the moment, surrendering completely to the passion between you. His thrusts hit your spot each time without fail. The moans escaping your mouth are nothing less than a symphony to his ears, never hearing anything more beautiful, more profound. His groans turn you on like nothing else, which causes you to grow wetter for him.
The rush of the moment is overwhelming; every touch and movement sends shivers down your spine. He thrusts into you with primal intensity, his eyes locked on yours, conveying a depth of emotion that leaves you breathless. You feel alive, connected, and consumed by the fire of desire burning between you. As you both reach the peak of satisfaction, the world around you fades away, leaving only the two of you in a tangled embrace of pure ecstasy. The intensity of the moment is almost too much to bear, but you hold on tight, savoring each moment as if it were your last. And as he whispers sweet nothings in your ear, you realize that this moment, this connection, is something truly special and unforgettable. And you never want it to end.
The drool escaping your mouth turns him on, causing deeper thrusts; his thumb comes and hits your spot so beautifully you gasp for more. His lips graze your ear and softly bite the lobe. You cling to him as he moves with purpose, sending shockwaves of intimacy through your entire body. Every touch, every kiss, and every achingly intimate moment leaves you wanting more. As the intensity builds and your bodies become one, you lose yourself in the overwhelming sensations that only he can provide. This connection, this raw passion, is unlike anything you've ever experienced before. You never want it to end; you never want to let go of this blissful moment in time.
His dick enters you once more and sends you spiraling into ecstasy, pushing you to the edge of satisfaction. Your bodies move in perfect sync, each thrust bringing you closer to a climax that you never knew was possible. The feeling of him inside you, filling you completely, overwhelms your senses and leaves you craving more. As you reach the peak, you let out a moan of pure bliss, lost in the intensity of the moment.
This connection with him is like nothing you've ever felt before—a fierce and fulfilling experience that you never want to end. His touch sends shivers down your spine and electrifies every nerve ending in your body. You're so close, you can taste it. The intensity of the moment is almost overwhelming, but you welcome it with open arms, embracing the ecstasy that washes over you. Every touch, every movement, every sensation is a work of art that leaves you breathless and completely consumed by lust.
You gasp and hold onto his shirt, your body trembling with anticipation as you lose yourself in the moment. You whisper softly, "I'm almost there... Just say it, and I'll cum for you. I need your permission," you say shakily. His eyes lock with yours, a knowing smile playing on his lips as he leans in closer. "loose it," he whispers, his voice sending chills down your spine. With those two words, you surrender to the overwhelming feeling that crashes over you in waves, finally reaching the peak of ecstasy you've been yearning for. As you release yourself to the intense sensations, you feel a sense of liberation and fulfillment wash over you, leaving you in a state of blissful contentment. The connection between you and him deepens as you both share in the intimate moment of pure ecstasy.
You finish, feeling his hips stutter against yours—a sign he's close, about to fill you up with his release. As you both reach the height of bliss together, you realize that this moment of shared intimacy has brought you even closer than before. With a final gasp and shudder, he releases his pent-up desire, filling you with a sense of satisfaction and completion that lingers long after the physical sensations fade.
You both finish, and he pulls out, leaving you soaked in both of your releases. He looks at you, big brown eyes filled with lust and desire. He whispers, "That was incredible." and takes his shirt, placing it between your legs to soak up the mess you made. "That was my first time. Like ever," you whisper with what seems to be embarrassment mixed with pride, knowing you satisfied him to the fullest. He smiles and pulls you close, whispering that he can't wait for the next time.
The duty was definitely completed. You had sex, came, and made a new 'friend'. You let out a happy sigh and stayed in his arms.
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HEY!! ITS ME PEBIE!! LONG STORY SHORT:
My dad took away my iPad and is punishing me for a loooong time, months even!
And I'm so fucking scared since well, I had to make an alt account because I couldn't sign into my main, and because I didn't want to send an email that dad could see
I'm going to try to convince dad to give me my iPad back, other than that, I have nothing to do.
I'm so sorry I can't help you, or anyone else, and I'm so sorry if I never get it back
Ill miss you guys I really REALLY will. I'm praying dad will understand and give it back, otherwise, this could be the last time I'm speaking to you.
I'm probably going to find the people I follow, and tag them to this post when you see it, since I barely remember ANY @s
I'm so sorry, I'll miss you I'll miss you everyone
I shouldve been smarter, I shouldve expected this, I should've listened to my guts
ilygsm and pray that I get access to my main, OR to get my iPad, because rn..
I'm on my grandma's phone. Dad took EVERYTHING, my phone and iPad, my SIBLINGS phones and iPad, and the PC has a time limit
Grandma was just kind enough to let me watch her favorite things and fell asleep, such an angel
Farewell from us all for God knows how long, I don't want you to worry yet, I'll figure it out. Just don't depend on me for now okay? Everything will be fine Aka, and Moon too, everyone will be fine with and without me, and I don't want you to be scared
In fact, be happy I managed to talk to you! And tell you what to expect! Be happy about that, and about our interactions! There's still hope, I promise.
Even if I end up gone for a month or two, I'll try every now and then to come on grandma's phone and tell you everything. Other than that. That's all I have to say.
Goodbye.
-- Ori, Eve, Red, and Pebie
What months!???
Whyd he takes them I can't go months without talking to you ...i can't that was the thing i looked forward too the most
What did you do is this my fault somehow it probably is isn't it
I miss you so much already and I can't wait that long
I hope you get them back I don't know what I'll do if you can't 😭
@ch0cocrave @sk3tchyy42 @trashbins-stuff @sillyosclover @chimroller @anyone else who knew pb
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