#anxieteandbiscuits

[diazly]

love that they had the two canon straight couples solving a crime meanwhile buck and eddie were out here committing misdemeanors to feed their son: homosexual privilege 😌🏳️‍🌈

so real i would also commit many crimes to make christopher diaz happy what can i say

[shitouttabuck]

i genuinely don't think there's a better compliment out there than "leading authority on soggy pathetic men" giving u my heart 🤲🫀

🫡 resident expert on them!!! also I SLEPT A FULL SEVEN HOURS AND THE SITE IS STILL DOWN. AT WHAT POINT CAN I BEG YOU TO EMAIL ME A PDF. I NEED TO HOLD YOUR DROWNED CAT MAN IN MY HANDS AND GIVE HIM A LITTLE SHAKE I KNOW IT WILL BRING ME SUCH JOY

[henswilsons]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! was gonna say hope you have a great day but you just got THEE buddie scene of all time so i hope your day gets even better somehow if thats even possible but u deserve it 💕

AHH THANK U SO MUCH DARLING SAMI 💕💕💕 that buddie scene both killed and revived me. no better way to celebrate another year around the sun to be honest

[daniclaytcn]

the montage gif in your eddie begins set is fucking stunning its made me feral. i stared at it for like five full minutes before reblogging holy shit

thank you so much 🤧 it was a pretty difficult gif to make so i really appreciate this ask! 💞

[ladydorian05]

To any Buddie shippers out there that haven't yet read this one.

Please, please, please, go read it.

Like holy shit, seriously, go read it

tomorrow will always and forever now be today (tomorrow is our always and forever) | 43k

"Think I can get a hug from my best man on my wedding day?" he asks, quietly hopeful in a way that makes Eddie want to tear off his skin.

"Sure," Chris replies with a shrug, turning to throw Eddie a cheeky grin. "Dad, Buck needs a hug."

Two things happen at once then: Eddie has to plaster on a smile authentic enough to convince the one person on this planet that knows him inside out—except he doesn't really have to fake his smile, not at first, because of number two—he sees groom-Buck for the first time. And groom-Buck is every bit as beautiful as Eddie might have imagined him over the years. Happy eyes bright and blue, pink lips stretched wide in a beaming smile, cheeks flushed pink with joy, hair carefully styled and stunningly golden in the morning sunlight. He's half-dressed too, tux jacket still on the hanger on the back of the chair, so Eddie gets an unbarred view of Buck's white shirt stretched taut over his biceps, shoulders, abs.

For a moment, Eddie falls into the greatest betrayal his brain has ever laid out for him, imagining that he might have got to see Buck like this for the first time from the other end of the aisle if he'd just been brave enough to—

"I think he meant you, kid," Eddie teases as he drops their suits to the couch. He widens his stance, so Jee can run through his legs and evade another of Chimney's grab attempts, then he ruffles Christopher's curls as a steadying act before he's suddenly in front of Buck. And he tries not to think about the pathway cleared through the living room by Jee's chase, or the fact that they're under the archway between the kitchen and the dining table, or the knowledge that Bobby is an ordained officiant where he stands behind them. "Hey, Buck," he says softly, smiling genuinely now because this is Buck.

"Hey, Eds," Buck murmurs back, and it's the first time since they'd promised to have each other's backs that Eddie can't quite decipher the emotions making Buck's voice thick.

Eddie wraps him in a hug then, careful and detached as he can manage, but it's Buck in his arms, warm and alive and his for just a few more hours. He doesn't let himself hold Buck's hips like he used to before—before he'd realised why he'd wanted to hold Buck's hips so tightly—just splays his fingers over Buck's back and tries to focus on the soft cotton under his palms rather than the way Buck's temple rests so perfectly against his. Eddie stays there, for too long probably, fingers digging in too tight possibly, and squeezes his eyes shut when they start to water. He's clinging, and he tries not to think about how it feels a little like Buck is clinging to him too.

"Ah," Eddie huffs as he pulls away, taking two steps back just to be safe. He catches Maddie's eyes on him then, sadder than they should be for the happy tears she'd been crying just before he'd got here, and Eddie wonders if her big sister omniscience is working on him too. "Come on, Buckley. Got to make an honest man out of you sooner rather than later."

"Whilst we're on the topic," Chim intervenes, a wriggly Jee on his hips with two shoes on—finally. "Are we sure he should be wearing white?"

(OR: eddie gets trapped in a time loop on the day buck marries natalia)

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[butchdiaz]

just some buddie / bathena parallels that drive me crazy

inspired by this gifset, watch on youtube

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[katherynefromphilly]

My dash did a thing.

@papysanzo @brighter-side-of-the-coin @anxieteandbiscuits @cabbageheadss

[menace-behaviour]

[try-set-me-on-fire]

pick me, choose me, love me

9,335 words || rated T

Eddie wants to scream. Eddie wants to talk to Buck. There are questions he should ask - Do you know when the bleeding started? How long has it been? How bad does it hurt? Are you injured anywhere else? There is a conversation he wants to have - If I leave you here I don’t know that you’ll be alive when I get back. There are protocols, in disaster situations. If you can only save one person, you save the one most likely to survive. Beyond protocol, you always fucking save the kid. Beyond that, it's our kid. It’s our fucking kid, it’s Christopher, and I am going to get him to the surface and in doing so I am going to leave you for dead. But it’s Buck, and they never really needed words to talk, and Buck is still looking at him, and Eddie knows what he'd say. He'd downplay the injury. He knows the protocol. And he’d already said it, damned him out loud, he’s going to take you back up top and then come back for me.

Tag list under the cut

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[asoftepiloguemylove]

A SIN WORTH HURTING FOR; THE BEAUTY OF QUEER LOVE

Dante Émile ON TRANSFAGGOTRY // Richard Siken Crush // 刻在你心底的名字 Your Name Engraved Herein (2020) dir. Patrick Kuang-Hui Liu // Lev Verlaine Teeth Are Coming In (via @mutualantagonism) // @/stoffberg (instagram) // Danez Smith Recklessly (via @tendermimi) // Moonlight (2016) dir. Barry Jenkins // Natalie Diaz "These Hands, If Not Gods," Post Colonial Love Poem (via @anxieteandbiscuits) // @julykings GAY COWBOY LOVE POEM

[diazly]

you are a medical professional,, , r-right? will you please helpf me?

technically i don’t graduate til april….. but i can still try. but only for evil purposes 😈

[shitouttabuck]

real footage of me reading your comments on ao3 btw... marry me 💍

oh i get to hear all of ur ideas all of the time and hang out with your big beautiful brain??? sick deal 💍💍💍

[henswilsons]

dude i have been meaning to send an ask about your gardener eddie fic for so long but i have a brain made of mush and then i woke up this morning to find out that you (one of my all time favourite 911 writers!!!!!!!!!) has not only read one of my fics, but Thee fic, liked it enough to recommend it AND compliment it in a way that made me tear up (also finding out u liked my shitty 611 spec fic that i wrote in like two hours instead of working on assignments was a lovely little ego boost) so just like thank you!! i cannot tell you how much it means to me to know that you've not only read my work but liked it. anyway enough about me, of course i absolutely adore everything's coming up milhouse but your gardener eddie fic is quite literally everything to me. i just cannot put into words how it made me feel. all i'm gonna say is that i absolutely despise tomatoes (they lure you in by tasting delicious in sauce and looking like that and then they're just filled with slime and seeds) but you made me fall in love with them, cry for them, laugh with them. the garden store girl is my best friend btw. when buck and eddie shared the tomato sandwich i genuinely teared up. christopher comforting eddie after alex and the raccoons yeah. i could list every single thing i love about it but we'd be here forever so just have a great day (thanks for making mine)!!!!

oh sami my love!!!!! <333333333 firstly thank u so so much for ur lovely words about my fic u r the utter SWEETEST but also more importantly ur fic!!! i am The Worst because they have been sat in my marked for later tab so i remember to eventually get around to leaving comments on them (+ your gilmore girls au?????? omfg i read that with the goofiest grin on the train and i remember i literally missed my stop i was so involved) but i adore them so so much. u r such a gem in this fandom with both fic writing and ur tumblr presence too (literally every meta post u make like punches me in the face in the best way) so i just want u to know i am equally as obsessed with u <33333333

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

WIP Wednesday

tagged by @forthewolves @shitouttabuck @jeeyuns @rewritetheending @disasterbuckdiaz @wikiangela @try-set-me-on-fire @wh0re-behavi0r @jesuisici33 @sibylsleaves @eowon

thank you beloveds! <3

been focusing mostly on the calls fic and desperately trying to claw myself out of the scene set during the lightning strike so have some of that

Eddie wraps an arm around his knees, tugging them closer to his chest. Something about being curled up like this makes him feel better, giving him the illusion of being able to protect himself and all of the mess he carries inside.

His hand falls across his knee, right where there is the tiniest hole in the fabric, an seemingly inconsequential and unnoticeable tear where the threads are worn and tired. He brushes his fingers across it, shivering when he doesn’t feel anything, so numb from the weight of three day old rain and unending terror and three minutes and seventeen seconds worth of death, both his and Buck’s.

“I don’t really know what I’m doing,” he says mournfully while picking at the tear in his jeans. “I just–I want to talk to you. I want to say so many things but I don’t know the words and the one person that I can go to who can help me figure it all out is you. And you’re–you’re not here. Not really.”

The words taste like a lie.

Eddie picks and picks at the tear until he can fit his finger through, hooking it around the material roughly. He thinks about Chris asking if Buck could hear him. He thinks about being unable to answer because he truly had no idea and couldn’t offer his son something that wasn’t undeniably true. He thinks about wanting Buck to hear every word Chris says. He thinks about being unable to believe they can reach Buck now.

Tears sting and pluck at his eyes, demanding to be felt and released. He lets a few fall, more tracks across his face to add to the collection. He turns his face toward the phone in his hand, allowing himself to imagine that it’s not glass and metal but Buck’s warm, soft palm.

“I want you to talk to me,” Eddie whispers like a confession. “I want you to talk to me even though I can’t bear to go in that room and talk to you. I should be able to. Chris did. He’s so brave, Buck. I know he is scared and hurting, but he was able to stand next to you and look at you and touch you and tell you to come back. And I–” can’t, I can’t, I’m not good enough, I want to tell you everything, I don’t want to tell you anything at all because if I keep it then that means there will be another chance for me to tell you.

tagging @elvensorceress @spaceprincessem @lemonzestywrites @anxieteandbiscuits @diazass @bucks118 @housewifebuck @lover-of-mine @butchdiaz @911onabc @arthursdent @bekkachaos @messyhairdiaz @gayedmundodiaz @folk-fae @giddyupbuck @hippolotamus @shortsighted-owl @spotsandsocks @bvckandeddie @fiona-fififi @devirnis @loserdiaz @monsterrae1 @buddierights @rogerzsteven @prettyboybuckley @paranoidbean and anyone else who wants to do it!

[incorrectbuckandeddie]

I’d like to suggest perhaps that Eddie in danger in this coma world or maybe even dying is what shocks Buck into breaking out of it. The panic and emotions Buck feels is completely incongruent with this world in which they are essentially strangers. Maybe Buck has to throw on his firefighter uniform to save his man???

there's literally no way buck's subconscious could ever craft an intricate believable life for buck that doesn't include eddie diaz though. there's just no way. these two motherfuckers are so intertwined they can understand each other without words, eddie is a part of buck so there's no world in which eddie is entirely absent. and honestly the in another life of it all is making me a little feral because idk what's going to happen. but, god, i think my favourite idea so far is that eddie's just there. there's no explanation for it, he just keeps popping up randomly and buck's like "idk who tf you are and its honestly kind of creepy that you might be stalking me but im too afraid to say anything that would make you go away because it feels like you're supposed to be here with me".

[russellradio]

do you have some happy buddie fic recs for me? can be spicy but no angst please :)

I've read so much angst lately, it was actually good for me to go through my list and find happy ones with fluff and ✨ spice ✨

(tried to find every author on here but let me know if I forgot to tag anyone 🖊 also @ 10k+ fic anon, I haven't forgotten about your ask! long fics are next)

here are some that I love:

🔥 hits like ecstasy by @housewifebuck

🤗 with you is where I wanna be (take me home) by @honestlydarkprincess (so soft I wanna cry)

🥰 the sound of love astounds me by @shitouttabuck

♠️ me and you only equals love by @wikiangela (poker smut!)

⚡ with great power comes great pining by @princessfbi

💕 of bake sales and overdue realizations by @gayhoediaz

😘 you're where I stand, hearing the sea by @carrierofthepaperclips (is it obvious yet how much I love the accidental kiss trope?)

😘 all your ordinary kisses by @gigi-gigi

😘 accidents happen (but I will love you on purpose) by @anxieteandbiscuits

👀 I can see you by @thewolvesof1998 (a treat for all the swifties)

🌈 rainbows have nothing to hide by @hattalove (how did I live so long without the kermit fic?)

🖊️ foolish one (stop checking your mailbox for confessions of love) by @butchdiaz

🤖 on autopilot by indigobaz on ao3

🍆 I love you most in the daylight by notapartytrick on ao3