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[ esther yu, cis - woman, she/her, n/a, n/a ] welcome to excesstv, ARIA JADE LIU — or should i say the airhead? … a quick google search tells me you’re a TWENTY EIGHT year old FASHION DESIGNER who’s worth 26M. you've called avalon home for FOUR YEARS, however something tells me there’s more to you than a flashy resume and penthouse 37A on your door ? it seems you’ve managed to earn a reputation around the city for being SCATTERBRAINED, yet, upon further investigation it seems you're also quite EFFERVESCENT. but hey, thats the kind of mix that keeps people guessing. i'm sure as a GEMINI you're used to people commenting on your PINK CHLOE ‘ROSIE' SUNGLASSES / A COLLECTION OF VINTAGE FASHION MAGAZINES STREWN ABOUT A GLASS COFFEE TABLE ; FLICKERS OF GOLDEN SUNLIGHT STREAMING THROUGH LACE CURTAINS ; VINTAGE CRYSTAL CHANDELIERS CASTING RAINBOW SPARKLES ON BLUSH WALLS ; A PINK FLUFFY CASHMERE SWEATER WITH A PETER PAN COLLAR ; & SOFT CLOUDS OF CHIFFON AND SILK SCATTERED ON EVERY SURFACE. but still we can't wait to watch you flourish ( or fail ) these next few weeks …
s t a t i s t i c s .
BASICS:
FULL NAME: aria jade liu.
NICKNAMES: ari.
GENDER: cis female.
PRONOUNS: she/her.
SEXUALITY: pansexual.
AESTHETICS: a collection of vintage fashion magazines strewn about a glass coffee table ; flickers of golden sunlight streaming through lace curtains ; vintage crystal chandeliers casting rainbow sparkles of blush walls ; a pink fluffy cashmere sweater with a peter pan collar ; soft clouds of chiffon and silk scattered on every surface ; handwritten notes and sketches pinned on a corkboard ; an ethereal ball gown embellished with hand sewn sequins, shimmering like stars ; a collection of colorful flower crowns.
AGE: twenty five.
DATE OF BIRTH: august 11th, 1999.
ZODIAC SIGN: gemini sun, libra moon, pisces rising.
OCCUPATION: fashion designer.
APPEARANCE:
FACECLAIM: esther yu.
VOICE CLAIM: esther yu.
HEIGHT: 5'2".
BUILD: slim, but not too skinny.
HAIR: long ( almost waist length ), milk tea brown, wispy bangs, naturally wavy.
PIERCINGS & TATTOOS: click here for pinterest board.
OTHER DISTINGUISHING FEATURES: expressive eyes, soft heart shaped face, delicate features, youthful energy.
STYLE: click for pinterest board.
PERSONALITY:
TRAITS: + generous, compassionate, curious, optimistic, effervescent, playful. -scatterbrained, mischievous, overly - trusting, indecisive, easily detracted, insecure.
LIKES: vintage fashion, baking, tea, cats, bubble baths, traveling, art museums, poetry, cooking shows, romantic comedies.
DISLIKES: confrontation, rudeness, strict routines, judgmental attitudes, boredom, loud noises, injustice, negative self-talk, cold weather, long meetings.
FEARS: heights, dogs and being alone.
PHOBIAS: acrophobia : fear of heights.
HOBBIES: baking, journaling, dancing, yoga, collecting vintage couture fashion.
PET PEEVES: rudeness, disorganizations, negativity, lack of enthusiasm.
FAVORITES:
ICE CREAM FLAVOUR: matcha green tea.
TIME OF THE DAY / NIGHT: early morning.
WEATHER: sunny, warm days.
BREAKFAST FOOD: yogurt parfait.
DINNER FOOD: sushi.
DESSERT: macarons.
COLOURS: pastel pink, lavender, mint green.
ITEM: leather journal.
COFFEE ORDER: iced caramel macchiato.
PERFUME: yves saint laurent's mon paris.
b i o g r a p h y .
aria jade liu was born and raised in the vibrant coastal town of key west, florida, as the youngest of five children and the only girl in her family. growing up in a wealthier, non-influential household, she was surrounded by the lively atmosphere of her parents’ chinese restaurants, which served as both a gathering place for the community and a source of pride for her family. despite their comfortable lifestyle, aria's parents emphasized the value of hard work, instilling a strong work ethic in their children from a young age. they often encouraged aria and her siblings to pitch in at the restaurants, teaching them the importance of responsibility and dedication.
aria attended a public school in key west, where her experience was anything but typical for someone from a wealthier family. rather than basking in popularity, she often found herself on the outskirts of the social scene, proudly embracing her quirky interests and passions. while many of her peers gravitated toward trends and social status, aria felt no need to conform; instead, she reveled in her love for all things fashion and dreamt of attending a prestigious design school. her grades were perfectly average, reflecting her relaxed approach to academics, but she consistently performed well enough to maintain a solid footing in her classes, despite her airy and ditzy nature.
however, what aria lacked in academic accolades, she more than made up for with her infectious enthusiasm and kind-hearted nature. she easily formed friendships with fellow misfits and outcasts, creating a close-knit circle that appreciated her effervescent personality. aria's unique perspective on life allowed her to connect with others on a deeper level, earning her a reputation as the lovable "nerdy" girl who could always be counted on for a listening ear or a supportive word.
by her senior year of high school, aria had made a name for herself in key west as a promising designer. several of her classmates began to request (and pay a pretty penny) for custom prom dresses designed by aria, showcasing her unique flair for fashion. her designs were characterized by ethereal silhouettes, playful patterns, and exquisite embellishments that captured the attention of her peers and the community alike. while she experimented with designing everyday clothing, she quickly discovered her passion for creating formal and semi-formal gowns that made women feel like the stars of their own fairy tales. after graduating high school, her parents, recognizing her talent and ambition, invested significantly in her future by sending her to the prestigious fashion institute of technology in new york city, where she would continue to hone her craft and pursue her dreams.
by the time aria graduated from the fashion institute of technology, her talent had not gone unnoticed. during her time there, she had the opportunity to showcase her work in a student fashion show, where one of the judges—a designer for a well-known fashion house—was captivated by her unique take on modern femininity. this connection led to aria being offered a chance to design a small collection for the house, giving her the exposure she needed to establish herself in the industry. the success of that collection garnered attention from various fashion influencers and magazines, skyrocketing her reputation. with the momentum from this collaboration, aria decided to launch her own brand, focusing on bespoke dresses and evening wear that perfectly blended elegance and whimsy. the initial sales quickly propelled her into the realm of millionaires, as her designs resonated with clients seeking the perfect blend of modern and vintage aesthetics.
four years ago, aria made the move to the avalon, drawn by its luxurious atmosphere and vibrant community of artists and entrepreneurs. the penthouse complex quickly became her sanctuary, a place where her creativity could flourish among like-minded individuals. recently, she was cast in the reality show excesstv, a decision that left her both thrilled and apprehensive. while the opportunity to showcase her designs and personality on a public platform is a dream come true, the thought of being surrounded by other strong personalities makes her heart race. deep down, her insecurities bubble to the surface, leaving her to wonder if she can hold her own amidst the chaos. despite her fears, aria is determined to embrace this new chapter in her life, hoping that her effervescent spirit will shine through and connect her with others just as passionate about their crafts.
h e a d c a n o n ' s .
growing up in a family with high expectations, aria constantly feels the pressure to prove herself, leading to moments of self-doubt. she channels this anxiety into her designs, striving for perfection in her work, which often results in late nights spent sketching and refining her creations.
despite her bubbly exterior, aria is a hopeless romantic at heart. she finds solace in reading romance novels and daydreams about finding love while balancing her passion for design. these stories inspire her collections, blending fantasy with her unique aesthetic.
aria's fashion line is called 'seraph' and it is completely inspired by teuta matoshi's beautiful gowns, which you can check out here!
each morning, aria dedicates time to her creative ritual, which includes journaling her dreams and ideas for designs. this practice not only fuels her creativity but also helps her clear her mind before diving into the day’s challenges.
though she often wears pastel colors and feminine styles, aria has an unexpected love for indie pop and alternative music. she frequently attends local concerts, using music as a way to unwind and embrace her playful side outside of her design work.
she has a specific color palette she leans towards when designing, favoring soft pastels and muted tones that evoke a sense of calm and femininity, which she feels reflects her personality.
when she’s working on a new collection, aria loves to play upbeat music and dance around her studio, finding joy in the creative process and using movement to spark new ideas.
aria has a knack for baking and often treats her friends and neighbors to homemade goodies. she's a firm believer that food brings people together and helps her unwind from the pressures of work, something her parents instilled in her at a young age.
#( introduction ! / * 𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘶. )#etv.intro#another long intro#again if u read it all u get a cookie
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Bakugou is a prideful, arrogant person. He holds himself to the highest standard; he is the best and everyone else is simply below him. Everything he has ever done was in pursuit of being number one, shining above the rest. He has to have a perfect victory, he has to be a perfect student, he has to win to save.
He pushes and pushes and won’t let anyone see his weaknesses or his insecurities. He can never lose, he can never fail, he can never show that he regrets or hesitates or that he hasn’t thought everything through. He must never be vulnerable in every sense of the word.
Then why is he standing in the rain.
To apologize shouldn’t be a sacrifice, but it is for Bakugou. To pour his feelings, to admit his wrong, to let down all of the walls he has built and be vulnerable. And in front of his whole class.
He is willing to sacrifice his pride, to fully sacrifice any superiority he could have, to bare his soul and even risk rejection. Because he knows Midoriya is more important. Because he wants him to come home, he wants him to know his true feelings, because he wants things to change.
Because Midoriya has changed him. Midoriya has opened his eyes; by showing him he’s allowed to be open, that his feelings should be expressed, that he has so much to learn, and so much of that was learned through Midoriya just existing.
He isn’t sacrificing his safety frivolously because he’s expected to as a hero; he is doing it because he has grown. He is doing it because he has finally admitted to himself that he wants Midoriya to be with him and safe.
So I will sacrifice this for you. Not because it will change anything, as much as I want that I know that I can’t just fix all the wrong with just this. And I am willing to do as much as it takes to earn your forgiveness. But I don’t need that from you, not now and not ever if you don’t want that, I just need you to rest. I did so much wrong. And I am sorry for everything. You don’t have to do this alone. Lean on us. You are so strong and being supported doesn’t discount that. You’ve taught me that.
I hate the rain. But I will brave it for you.
He would do everything in his power, admit so many things, just to get Midoriya to take care of himself. We see him being the most vulnerable he has ever been in front of people that aren’t Midoriya. He does so much completely out of character, all in pursuit of being there for Midoriya.
For Izuku.
He finally gets over himself and finally tells Midoriya the feelings he has felt for so long.
He lets go of this idea he is inherently better and finally acknowledges that his hatred for Midoriya has always been about his own shortcomings and insecurities. But he still wants to be better, they are still rivals. He isn’t going to sacrifice that part of him because that is just who he is; he is still going to push to number one.
But now it’s different.
There is verbal and vocal acceptance and respect. Before it was unspoken; their relationship had changed ever since Ground Beta. They were proper rivals, with mutual respect and care, they were actively making each other better.
But Bakugo finally verbalizes it and tells Midoriya, not only is he sorry, but he wants to actually have a proper friendship; he wants to continue to become better and earn his forgiveness. He wants them to push each other to be better, he wants to continue to fight for the top spot, he still wants to be the best.
But when did it become something else?
When was the turning point when it started to shift from wanting to surpass Midoriya and be the best, to wanting to keep up with Midoriya and stay by his side?
Bakugou has already sacrificed himself for Midoriya before. His body moved on its own; with no hesitation, he would save Midoriya. He has already risked his life for him. But there is a layer to it that I don’t think people talk about.
He tells Midoriya he shouldn’t try to win this on his own.
He disguises his concern with an insistence that he’s in it to fight for himself when he initially joins the battle. But it is to fight by Midoriya’s side and support him.
But taking the hit for Midoriya, jumping in the way isn’t just support. This is sacrifice. This is giving yourself to ensure the safety of someone. And it was second nature.
There are two reasons and both are a sacrifice of something in the moment.
It is knowing someone is so valuable, so great, in all senses of the word, that they must be protected. Bakugou is sacrificing his body and admitting that Midoriya needs to stay alive, for personal reasons and/or for the world. He needs Midoriya to be okay, Midoriya can’t fight alone and Bakugou will do anything to make sure he will be okay.
But the sacrifice of ideology.
With every development, he has relinquished parts of himself. When he sacrifices himself he is not only sacrificing his body but is admitting that he can’t do this on his own; he needs Midoriya too. This isn’t him wanting to be better than Midoriya, it’s him wanting to do it together.
Midoriya changed him.
He doesn’t die for Midoriya. He wakes up and just as his last thought was Midoriya, so was his first as he woke up. He runs to his side. People are dragging him back, trying to have him rest, knowing before he even said anything that he would lose his mind over Midoriya’s situation.
Everyone sees how Bakugou feels about Midoriya.
He sacrifices himself because Midoriya can not die on him. Midoriya has to stay alive. Midoriya has to keep fighting.
There can not be a world that doesn’t have him in it.
This is the culmination of what has been developing ever since the final exam where Bakugou finally works with Midoriya; the day that win to save, save to win was noticed. Then furthered after Ground Beta where they finally talked to each other and something changed within them both.
But the final sacrifice is the culmination of Bakugou’s character.
He knows what this decision will mean. Everyone screams for him not to. He knows that he is going to die. He knows he will not win this fight.
This isn’t dying for the cause. This isn’t just a hero complex. This is because he can help Midoriya and he will. This is for Izuku.
I will sacrifice myself for you. To give you more time, to give you even the slightest chance of winning. I will sacrifice myself for you because you are who can win. I am going to die. I am going to die and in my final thoughts, I will ask if I will still be able to be by your side.
It is no longer can I beat you. It is no longer can I surpass you. It is can I still catch up to you. It is can I still even be equal to you. He has already sacrificed the idea that he could beat Midoriya, that isn’t what he wants anymore. What he wants is to stay here with him.
I will sacrifice everything I am. I have wanted to be the best. All my life I have wanted to surpass you and everyone around me. But you. I will let that go for you. I let it go in my mind for so long now and I have never wanted to admit it. Is it even possible? Is it even possible for me to catch up to you? Is it even possible for me to stay by your side. I can’t be that anymore. I am sacrificing even that now. I will never be number one now. I will never become the person I always dreamed to be. I will never surpass you. I am forever sacrificing that now. I will die here.
But can I still be with you?
The sacrifice of his life is him fully relinquishing everything he is, admitting that he can’t keep up, losing all of the progress he has made, letting go of everything that made up his character.
And the last thing on his mind is if he can still be able to be by Midoriya’s side.
He won’t let him go again.
#EDITED BC I REALIZED I DIDNT PUT A READ MORE SO IT MUST BE SO OBNOXIOUS#so I finally finished putting in the images and mustered up the courage to post it#I’m always so nervous about posting opinions or anything long bc I get super passionate and I’m scared it’s wrong—#i added pictures as evidence but in reality is was bc i was super insecure that no one would want to read all that--#the intro was so long and was also made to apply to both togachako and bakudeku so i just made it a masterpost instead#this is still very long i am sorry but i have so many thoughts#but like yeah this is just my little essay about sacrifice and love and how they’re intertwined#and it goes both ways#but that’s for another day and another essay#togachako follow the sacrifice and love perfectly#so I will probably write one for them as well… maybe#bkdk#bakudeku#bnha meta#bakudeku meta#bnha analysis#mha analysis#bnha spoilers#<- for the whole manga but cmon if ur reading this you know it all#bakugou katsuki#midoriya izuku
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cant believe when im consuming deltarune theories i have to sit through takes like "yeah I guess ANOTHER HIM sounds kinda like gasters theme but theres no proof" or "yeah people assume the intro narrator is gaster but we dont actually know"
like do yall need Toby to spell it out in big block letters for you?
OH WAIT. HE DID.
#incredibly difficult to believe that anyone whos ever deliberately listened to both songs cant tell theyre variants of each other#and man. come on. the twitter takeover of the UT account by an entity whose name was six letters long and blacked out#an entity who spoke in all caps and made direct references to entry 17 and the fact that players had been 'looking for him'#lead DIRECTLY into the intro sequence to ch1 back when it was just 'survey program'#therefore. the twitter entity is gaster. therefore. the gonermaker entity is gaster. THEREFORE. ANOTHER HIM#which is AN OBVIOUS REFERENCE to the 'Mus_st_him.ogg' filename for Gaster's Theme in undertale#and is literally a slight variation of the exact same musical motif. IS OBVIOUSLY GASTERS THEME#look i dont hold it against the average person for not connecting those dots#but people who are actually making videos on this shit and want to be taken seriously? they should do better.#excercise your brain cells my man#(except for you andrew cunningham. you never let me down)#on top of the fact that all this is actually really obvious if you look into it at even a surface level#ut/dr are not the kind of games where everything is spelled out for you#half the appeal in the first place is the way the story is told through hints and implications#and while theres room for speculation in many areas. toby is irrefutably an absolute nut for themes and motifs. so when you find them#you bet your ass it aint a coincidence#anyway rant over. im just TIRED of these takes#idk if any of this is actually coherent i havent slept#freak speak
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Hi after almost nine months I am finally making an introduction post.
Welcome!!
The goal of this blog is to find and reblog as many Death Note related fanworks as I can.
The Death Note fandom is full of passionate, talented, and creative individuals whose contributions deserve to be shared and appreciated, and I want to help share and appreciate said contributions as much as possible. Also the knowledge that someone’s fanwork could drop off the face of the earth never to be found again because it was deleted or something keeps me up at night and I want to make sure those works can still be accessible to others.
I predominantly reblog from blogs who have posted recently, but that is purely because they are the easiest to find. If you know any older blogs that used to post any form of Death Note fanworks, I would appreciate it if you sent them to me.
In order to make this blog easier to navigate, I have created a google doc containing links to all of this blog’s tags relating to characters, formats/types of fanworks, relationships (both platonic or otherwise), and years. If there’s anything wrong with the links, please let me know.
As my aim is to archive as many Death Note related fanworks as I can find, when looking through this blog, there is a good chance you will find something that makes you uncomfortable. If that bothers you, then I recommend going through the google doc and filtering any tags that contain anything that will cause you discomfort (you can filter tags by going to settings —> account —> content you see —> filtered tags). Please do not harass me or anyone else over fanworks that personally make you uncomfortable, all you will succeed in is making others uncomfortable in return. If you don’t like something, just don’t engage with it.
Finally, if you have any questions/need to tell me something, please feel free to send an ask. I will try my hardest to respond as quickly and comprehensively as possible. You can also ask me to try and find a specific fanwork/creator, but there’s a very good chance I won’t be able to find what you’re looking for. Regardless, if I do find it, I will let you know as soon as I can.
#i’m super tired i hope this makes sense lol#this may just look like a bunch of fancy words put together but tbh that’s just how i speak when i’m feeling hashtag serious anyways#the tags in the google doc aren’t the only tags i use btw they’re just the ones i think will be looked through the most#i do plan to add to the list with miscellaneous tags and creator/blog tags but they would take wayy too long to sort through#so that task is for another day#also the characters in the doc without links just don’t have tags yet#death note#not archive#intro post#death note fandom#archive blog
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We’re All Going to the World’s Fair (2021), dir. Jane Schoenbrun
#the ambient;silent long take into the main theme. it's all i ever want#one of my fave credits intro#not that there's many#after yang is another one though. fiendishly electric#we're all going to the world's fair#id say lily chou chou but that didn't have credits#fav credit outros though
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anyways. my very first attempt at malenia
#elden ring#my post#this starts late (?) bc i didnt want to get the cutscene in the clip but fumbled to start the recording bc she does kinda rush you#and i was not at all prepared#anyways im genuinely tempted to just write a long post dumping my thoughts on malenia and her fight and how im puzzling through it#ive reached peak intrinsic motivation elden ring#the only reason why i probably should wait to make the post is bc ive only gotten as far as first phase half health#i have another recording thats abt a minute and a half long attempt and i gave it a few tries today#its worth mentioning that the night before i decided to finally start fighting malenia i told my friend (who managed to beat her) that bc#a lot of the last few endgame bosses didnt take me too long to beat i was worried that malenia wouldnt take me very long#and he just told me she would throw me into a meat grinder. and i lasted 12 seconds against her after that intro cutscene#anyways the fact that she's a very straightforward and easy to see boss makes it very easy to break her down and figure out how she#works n why she's hard and figure out a plan and everything i really like it. no particle effects just some sparks and sword trail lines#i keep getting caught by her flurry attack n today my plan (while talking to my friend) was to figure out why i kept getting caught by#it despite it being very obviously telegraphed n then putting together why i struggle with it. its REALLY fun to think technically abt her#anyways. fun part abt me getting killed by the grab + impale is that i honestly wasnt sure if that was actually implemented in the game#bc id never seen it in gameplay and. here we go. ten seconds in there it is
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i might have cooked
#this is why it took me so long to make another song xp#spikes songs#tpot#tpot intro#the power of two#the power of two intro#remix#the power of two into remix#tpot intro remix#bfdi tpot#bfdi the power of two#osc#OSC intro#OSC remix
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I AM PLURAL I AM FRIENDLY I AM APPROACHABLE YOU CAN DM ME THAT'S WHAT THIS POST IS ABOUT. I AM BEFRIENDABLE, TRY IT
HELLO HELLO my name is Normal Guy because i don't care to publicly go by my source name and i kind of just didn't care to find a real name to replace that original placeholder, you can also call me Norm or Marty being that they're both short for Normal Guy.* pronouns wise, you can call me he or like if you really want it or they or actually pretty much whatever, mostly just that he/him stuff
i'm one of like 5 current hosts in my system and i'm like woah i just checked it turns out on this day i've turned 100 days old in this system that's actually crazy to me. i mean woah. anyways i'm a factive of an old old friend's fictive** which means i have a connection to a source we know like nothing about except what we learned through osmosis back when we were friends and so basically i picked up a lot of what is probably just some sect of fanon
i'm a HUGE bike guy like that's my main hobby i have to bike like every single time i front type thing, that's gonna be like. my 'get to know me' fact for this intro post. i have an E-bike that i love more than anything in this world it has a name you can dm me and ask. i say this both to create mystery and allure about myself and to provide an adequate conversation starter. because i'm so nice and all that.
i do my best not to get into discourse of most types, but real quick i wanna make it clear that i believe in and support endogenic systems and don't care to debate on that. in case that's something that would prevent you from reaching out or whatever, feel like i oughta make that one clear
*i'm sorry that bit's a lie, Marty is not actually short for normal guy. if you didnt know.
**i have the source in the tags i'm not putting that shit out in the open because it's like a whooole complex thing for me (i mean i have a good few friends outside of the system and literally not a single one knows my source. i have genuinely only ever shared my source with people within this system so you're gonna have to work (open the tags and read like 2 more lines of yapping) to see that one) also i'm not that connected to begin with just basic pseudomemories
#yeah Marty comes from back to the future it's my number one movie of ever#also for what it's worth i'm bodily just under 18 for anyone to whom it matters. like i don't care about the ages of the people i interact#with but for anyone who does or wants to know before interacting or whatever#aalso.. i am a tord eddsworld fictive on that technicality.. i welcome 'sourcemates' or 'doubles' to interact so long as like. you're norma#about me and about pseudomemories and all that. aand rememebr that i'm barely sourced anyways i just happened to introject off of a fictive#i think that's all i care to add to an intro post but also i'm gonna load it with tags because.#in case you couldnt tell i am looking for people to talk to. the world shall see my post.#source call#<- i mean not really but why not add the tag#actually plural#plural system#pluralgang#plurality#pluralpunk#plural community#system intro#alter intro#pro endo#endo safe#listen i *am* sorry about all the tags for what it's worth i don't plan on making another post like this one ever#oh right yeah should add this is an invitation to dm or exchange discords or whatever
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Hawkeye has virtually no shame about public displays of emotional vulnerability and mental instability, imo.
I’ve seen a lot of people who place a lot of importance on Hawkeye’s “If this keeps up, people are gonna realize I'm as crazy as I think I am,” line in Hawk’s Nightmare but honestly I just see it as mainly a wry acknowledgement that he’s acting less than sane in public and weirding out his childhood friends back home by detailing his nightmares to them, with a side of alluding to his actual fear, which is being crazy, as he tells Sidney over and over during that conversation. The key word there is “think” not “realize” imo.
Sidney reassures him by telling him his nightmares mean he’s sane, not by telling him that they’ll go away and he’ll stop publically sleepwalking. In fact he implies it’s something that will continue until the war’s over, and Hawkeye doesn’t seem to have a problem with that as long as it doesn’t mean he’s actually going insane.
And Hawkeye never really demonstrates any concern over people witnessing his breakdowns, and in fact seems to go out of his way to make them public half the time. I mean you got your most blatant example in Bananas Crackers and Nuts where he’s happy to exaggerate his feelings to make people think he’s insane to get a break. But even when it’s genuinely serious (and less cartoony, tonally), he’s also got no issues making public scenes.
He doesn’t quietly seek out Potter or BJ alone when he decides yes he is in fact seriously ill in Bless You Hawkeye, he walks right into everyone having a meeting and announces that he’s gonna die. He’s not only perfectly fine with Sidney visting him for a consultation in Hawk’s Nightmare, he’s the first to acknowledge why he’s there during the poker game while Sidney’s trying to be politely subtle (”Mind if I come along?” “Fine with me Doc, as long as your couch has wheels on it.”) He also ofc calls his childhood friends and tells them he’s having fucked up nightmares about them, tells everyone else about them to ask for their opinions, and tries to have a heart to heart with Frank about being afraid to go to sleep.
He makes a joke about cracking up at the farewell party in GFA, and tells some random patient he just had his “head in a cast,” apropros of nothing. He throws a tantrum in Adam’s Ribs, he publically screams out his feelings at the end of For Want of a Boot, he loudly narrates his impending panic attack in CAVE (and says that the reason he kept quiet about it for a while is specifically because he didn’t want Potter to choose a less safe place to retreat to on his account), he casually describes his emotional state as “mania” to Potter in Depressing News while, yk, building a big tower for 2 days without breaks in the middle of the camp, he breaks down in front of BJ - a guy he’d only recently met - in The Late Captain Pierce, he angrily confronts everyone about feeling betrayed and abandoned by them in the phone scene in GFA. We don’t see what he does after Dr. Pierce and Mr. Hyde but he casually mentions the insomnia to Winchester in Dr. Winchester and Mr. Hyde so he’s fine talking about it. He has two public breakdowns in the O.R. that I can remember off-hand.
And he never demonstrates any shame or regret about the public nature of any of this.
He never tries to hide his feelings - I think the closest he gets is in Sons and Bowlers, and he proceeds to tell Charles how he’s feeling for the entire rest of the night in that one - and while nearly everyone else gets plotlines where something’s troubling them that they don’t want to talk about, Hawkeye never ever does. He’s usually the one prying these feelings out of other characters and chiding them for not talking about them. Even in GFA what’s stopping him from talking about it is the amnesia - he’s reluctant and upset about having the conversations about the bus because he’s subconsciously afraid of remembering, but he still does, and after he has his breakthrough he willingly talks it through with Sidney multiple times afterwards as well, both offscreen in Sidney’s mention of follow-up sessions (including Hawkeye explicitly wanting more of them), and on screen when Sidney visits the 4077.
And in Bless You Hawkeye, the other trauma amnesia episode, he’s perfectly willing to a) accept it could be psychosomatic, b) talk about it with Sidney to find the root cause, and c) joke about it afterwards during a poker game.
And then you got a bunch of moments and jokes where he shamelessly reveals personal information about himself, sometimes likely exaggerations that he’s still fine with people believing, sometimes clearly accurate. I sucked my thumb until my twenties, I can’t get hard, here’s the kind of niche sex I like, I’m a coward and proud, I’m fucking my married ex, I was jealous of my dad’s girlfriend, monologue about how much I miss my dad to a stranger, monologue about how miserable I am to a stranger, monologue about how terrified I am to a stranger, etc etc.
There’s also overt commentary on this - in Check-Up for example, Hawkeye suggests that Trapper got an ulcer because he’s the strong silent type who keeps his feelings in, in contrast to himself. In Bless You Hawkeye Sidney points out that Hawkeye never holds back when it comes to his feelings about the war, which is why he’s assuming the root cause is something Hawkeye isn’t even consciously aware of and goes back to Hawkeye’s childhood.
When it comes to Hawkeye it’s very difficult for me to imagine a scenario where he would try to hide anything about himself, whether that’s his feelings or something about his life, and I have a feeling it was the same for the writers of the show most of the time too lol, hence relying on amnesia twice for the mystery and reveal structure.
#mash#hawkeye mash#marley on mash#another from the drafts that was missing like 2 sentences to turn into a relatively complete post#rambly as hell but yk with an intro and outro#i have a feeling i wrote this after seeing some take about hawkeye fearing people knowing he's mentally ill based on the first bit#and probably didn't post it because i prefer to post positive takes rather than one sided arguments when i can#but this doesn't really read that argumentative to me and it's been so long idr what post i was reacting to lol so i might as well put#this list of shameless hawkeye moments on my actual blog#(not related to emotions or mi but also shout out to hawkeye walking into the mess tent naked to win a bet that he proposed#and going to morning assembly in nothing but a jockstrap while iirc some general was visiting lol as further moments of shamelessness)
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Hewwo! Welcome to my silly blog where I post silly things
I'm Android! Adult (19) (This blog is SFW) Any pronouns Robotcomputerboything! AroAce + Objectum I make art sometimes :3
⚠️General warning: I like blood and guts and art with blood and guts. I will tag if needed but just a general content warning for some stuff I may reblog here⚠️
💽 Tag Systems 💽
Original posts - #android.txt
Art stuff - #android arts
Ask stuff - #android answers
I post a variety of different stuff here, mostly pertaining to my interests. I like to split these into two categories: My current interests and my consistent interests.
💾Current Interests💾
Interests I've had for less than three years and so haven't had a chance to go dormant in my brain. This is what the blog will mostly contain as of late ^^;
🌧️Rain World🌧️
🩸Ultrakill🩸
🟠Portal🔵
💻Basically hand me anything with a robot or computer and I'll probably like it💻
💿Consistent Interests💿
Interests I've had for more than three years that just never went away and are now just a part of my brain basically now ehe -///-
🌈My Little Pony (G4 and G5)🌈
✒️Doki-Doki Literature Club + MES Lore✒️
🎤Love Live🎤
🟡Don't Hug Me I'm Scared🟡
My blog is very much a weird mish-mash of interests, don't be surprised if you follow me for one thing and I end up posting or reblogging something so vastly different ^^;
💻Sideblogs and Other Socials💻
I have 2 sideblogs here on tumblr:
@cringe-is-dead - My aesthetics account, I post anything I find visually appealing that doesn't really fit here
@doushiteworld - My PinocchioP fanblog because I really love PinocchioP!
I also have a letterboxd if you fuck with that and want to see my silly opinions on movies :3
No big DNI, I block very liberally, TERF's and Zionists aren't welcome on my blog.
Weirdos and freaks and furries and objectums I love you <3
#woagh new self-intro post just dropped#please please pleaseee tell me if the image descriptions are shit or anything#first piece of writing I've done that wasn't academic since I was like 15 :thumbsup: I am not good.#I wasn't sure if having the same image description for the dividers was the way to go about this but I did that just in case.#if it is too repetitive and there's another way to go about it. pweaseee say#finally. I don't have to look at my self-intro with the general feeling of 'oh wow this isn't me anymore' hehehehee#this took me so long because I didn't want to use anything from other people yeah. asdfjhdshdsh#hence the. dividers of my wife <3#android.txt#uhhh#objectum#I'm not a new objectum it's been almost a year now but I haven't mentioned it on an intro post yet so uh. yeah throw it in there#Android.txt#Android Arts
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KOTCHI WO MUITE SUKI DA TO ITTE—✨💖💖
#I LOVE CARDCAPTOR SAKURA'S OP#well i love its entire ost but the intro is SOOOOO catchy!!!!💖💖💖💖💖#so adorably 2000s anime#where they mixed english words and phrases with japanese lyrics out of nowhere#sighs dreamily in longing for them....#i loved specifically this song from the italian dub of this anime called “mermaid melody”#which went OUT OF NOWHERE “BLUE SONG LOVE DREAM MERMAID MELODY‼️‼️🎶🧜🧜🌊🐚🐚✨✨”#and i LOVED IT#CATCHIEST SHIT EVER FOR KID ME#anyways HERE'S ANOTHER CONTRIBUTION FROM ME FOR YOU CARDCAPTOR SAKURA FANDOM ENJOY!!!!!💖💖💖💖#ccs#cardcaptor sakura#kinomoto sakura#sakura kinomoto
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It's honestly exciting having a friend taking the same creative writing workshop class as me!
#for one we can chat outside class bc we already have each others instas#for another i really like reading other people's works and it has been. SO LONG. since i last read his#(aka. since freshman year of high school)#imma ask another person i know (dont know if were friends. definitely friendly tho) how his fiction class is going#bc hes taking intro and me and my friend are in intermediate#i find it kinda funny tho that my friend and i if we had coordinated JUST A LITTLE could have had the same two classes last semester#anywho#amber's shit you can ignore
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oh ya finished season 1 this morning
#my commute is already too long but regrettably it is not hours long so i cant mainline this series but well i guess im savoring it#man we really just dropped lana for those last few episodes huh...... im gonna miss her i liked lana#i wanted to see her dump her stupid boyfriend. but alas#i think im a normal person and then i start an episode and see that lanky bitch in his cute sweatervests and im gone. its over for me#last episode of season 1 is a win for those of us who want that lawyer put in situations where he can be pathetic give us more#i told this to daley but its so funny for me to watch a couple episodes and then get off the bus to go to work in nyc its like#guy whos only seen night court: wow getting a lot of intro sequence of night court vibes from this place#anyway. its good to be normal abt another show
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For as long as Jacqui Green and Jillian Red can remember, they were a harmony. Back when they met on distant, cold Kalliope, they pulled the driving synth sound of neurotech dance beats over them like a blanket. On their first contract, they danced a clumsy, violent waltz through Fairchild Headquarters. But each misstep only drew them closer together in rhythm. Now, chasing their biggest score yet, they move to a beat only they can hear. One made of gunshots and bionic arms, hard cash, and the very sharpest of smiles.
(COUNTER/Weight 13: Our Customer of the Month)
#counter/weight#counterweight#fatt#friends at the table#this was in my drafts. i totally forgot to post it though when i got to that episode#i remember that this was the first intro that i kept replaying and saying to myself bc i liked it so much...#sorry for cutting a long way around off like that.i dont feel like downloading the episode again to do another clip though
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As we’re awaiting Episode 9, I’ve put together some Get to Know Me pages that you can complete, if you like. There are Miri, Kazuki and Rei versions!
Please use the #bdintro tag when posting your page. Also, a link back to this post would be great!
Have fun!
#buddy daddies#bdintro#bd intro template#resources#lovingly made with ms paint and powerpoint#these files are a4 .pngs#unfortunately i can't provide them in another format atm#i used to see these sorts of things quite a lot#but i'm not sure if they're as common now?#(i've been out of fandom spheres for a long while now)#but you're all so lovely that i just want to!#participate!#please like this post if you use one of the templates; thank you!
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well. f*ck
#tv: the worst of evil#the worst of evil#wi ha joon#wi ha jun#ji chang wook#im se mi#kdrama#local gay watches TWOE (and ships everyone within sight).txt#local gay watches k-dramas.txt#sure you'll kill for your boss but if you don't indirectly kill the guy that your boss sent to do a background check on your wife what#are you really doing with your life#f*ck this fr Jun Mo what do you plan to do with the phone. tf do you plan to do with the phone bitch Ki Cheol's private investigator#cannot just drop off the map like that ffs#and i have to wait another week to see how long he can keep this sh*t up. to see if Jung Bae even made it out of that f*cking elevator#to see if Ki Cheol is going to keep zeroing in on Eui Jeong or if he won't figure everything out before the ep 1 intro goes down#fml this is why i don't watch airing shows in this genre usually rip
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