#anon this is so sweet thank you again

[typingatlightspeed]

hi! i've been reading through a lot of your not-smut content lately (it's all really super good, all your fics entrance me) and i just wanted to say i really like how you write soldier. i really enjoyed reading "all saints' day" and "sarcasm", and i hope you have a nice day!! :)

Thank you so much, Anon! Soldier's really hard for me to write, because I tend to try and write the mercs a little bit more like real people than canon, and Soldier is just SO gonzo in canon that he's hard to get a handle on in my style. And he deserves a lot of consideration because he's such a great, fun character, that I always worry about doing him justice. <3 So I REALLY appreciate your kind words; they mean a lot to me. And I'm glad you enjoy my work so much! :D

[somegrumpynerd]

Aww 🥺💘 dadmare taking care of his sons overgrown hamsters is just the most adorable thing ever! And your Art is so very lovely too!! 🥰 thank you for such cuteness. 💕

Ahskbdkbgkjdbkj thank you!!! <3

I'm pretty sure this is in reference to this (sorry it took so long to answer) and here's another doodle since you're so sweet and kind

Doesn't know how to be affectionate with a parental figure VS doesn't know how to be affectionate at all FIGHT

[basketobread]

You’re genuinely so funny. You should seriously make some kind of comic

omg this is such a late response but i hope you know that i made this EXACT face when reading this. thank you SO much!!! i really would love to make a comic soon featuring my oc's or something... maybe i'll get around to planning one eventually. but comics aside, your words mean SOOO much. THANK YOU AGAIN!!!! 😭😭😭❤❤❤❤

[grumpyghostdoodles]

thank you for your comics and your cool comics!! yyaayayaya and the hot starlo

[javierduffy]

Just got struck with a thought for a mildly canon au: what if after saving Kieran from the O'Driscolls in ch4 Javier sleeps with his head on Kieran's chest so the first thing he hears when he wakes up is his heartbeat, reassuring him that Kieran is alive and they got to him in time

oooyuggg oooohhh …. oouuhhh … this is so sweet … oouuhh javi absolutely would be petrified to lose kieran after already having nearly done so once … not like they don’t both know that this lifestyle means that they could lose each other at any given moment, but to be directly confronted by the rush of wind on your face from a right hook from grief that just barely missed your skin … javier feels a little more emboldened in his endeavors regarding protecting and generally indulging in kieran and his wellbeing.

he’d be like “dutch, i’ll protect him. i’ll watch him. i have time, the others are working on something big, they don’t need me. let me take care of him. (not gay. no homo.)” and since kieran sleeps on the floor of shady belle, they both move in there to try and stave infection off and every morning the girls have to shuffle around them while they’re intertwined together on the floor. it’s like javier is a coat that kieran can’t shirk— he keeps the fever down. and javi always wakes up first. it’s like he’s got a sixth sense for when kieran is about to wake up, and he always wakes up first, even by mere moments. which is funny because up until then, kieran would be up before the sunrise and that be about the time that javier was laying down to sleep. love affects you down to your biology 💔 anyway yes and javi always always always lays there, opens his eyes, sees kieran’s resting face, will sometimes raise a hand to smooth a worried crease off of kieran’s dreaming face, and then will indulge himself in laying back down and listening to kieran’s strong heartbeat. for however long it takes for kieran to wake up, or at least indicate to javier that he’s awake. sometimes he knows javi is awake and will sit very still for a while, just because he wants to stay like that just a little longer. (sometimes, especially later into these endeavors, javier can tell by the way kieran’s breathing changes. but he will never let kieran know that.) i think there have even been times where kieran would sleep too deep and his heartbeat would get softer and javier would suddenly hear gunfire and smell blood and hear the lap of the water against the wood of a boat like he’s losing it all all over again and he’d end up shaking kieran awake just to make sure his eyelids weren’t meant to home coins just yet. kieran knows he would do the same and also be 10x worse so he doesn’t really mind but this isn’t to say that sometimes he’s not like “javier. my sweet lover. my desert sun. i am going to be okay. please let me rest. go rob somebody or something before dutch kicks us both out for being useless.” just so he can get some peace LOL ouugghh they’re so sweet i got off topic but yes this idea is SO good and i agree so bad and also i think that they were already obsessively tactile prior, just behind closed doors, so now, it’s just … embarrassing how touchy javi is. not that the rest of the gang doesn’t understand, like they haven’t clung to a body and basked in it’s warmth because they knew it could very well be cold tomorrow, but … man. he’s very. brazen with it. LOL ohh i lov them ok ill be quiet but thank u so much for sharing that with me i adore the idea. i would love to expand sometime on javier’s thoughts and fears in an au where kieran lives … and kieran’s thoughts and feelings as well ….. as well as draw them all cuddled up with javi listening to the steady tempo of kieran’s heartbeat and how it sounds like a song that he only wishes he could play on guitar because it sounds like the greatest love song ever written uughhh ok ok ok thank u i have to leave or i’ll cry

[astrobei]

DID I JUST READ THAT YOU'RE GOING TO WRITE A CAITVI FIC omg one of my favorite byler writers (i've been out of ST fandom for like over a year now but i still reread some of my favorite fics occasionally) finally getting into Arcane and writing caitvi is the best news for me. I love my girls so much and the world always needs more beautiful caitvi stories from talented writers. Sorry i just got excited lmao

tentative yes! i’m wary of talking about my wips or ideas too much as of late since i’ve Just dug myself out of a creative rut and telling people my ideas is generally the best way to ensure i never actually write them lol. but i’m really enjoying the challenge of new characters and dynamics and i love the little concept i’ve come up with so i’m really hoping to see this through! here’s a little teaser, i give you all permission to clobber me over the head if this one ends up in the wip graveyard 🫡

[oynonrings]

Just when I think you're talented enough you reveal yourself to be a double-threat by also making really good really funny art.

I read the comments on it and now I can't stop thinking about the town assuming Daniil and Artemy have stumbled into a co-parenting situation. Sticky is obviously Artemy's and Murky must be Daniil's because they swear they haven't seen her before he came, they both look the same, and their feral cat temperament must've been handed down.

Daniil's getting asked about his daughter by poor towns people just trying to start small conversation and suddenly he's on them checking them for fever and wondering why *this specific* mass hallucination.

THANK YOU SO MUCH OMG<3<3<3!!! this is so fucking funny to me. burda being assigned Gay Dads Status by everyone except themselves is peak comedy.

murky venturing into town only once daniil arrives and takes her under his wing oh im weak. misophonia daniil and nonverbal murky bonding is so important to me. daniil doesnt mind that she doesnt want to talk because he has a raging migraine and frankly he doesnt want her to talk right now anyway

daniil thinking theyre hallucinating is SO funny. mass hysteria: the little girl following daniil around town when hes not looking

[thevioletcaptain]

I know the ask is about ships but could you make a non ship one with Dean and Carlos from the Winchesters? I can't think of an exact thing for Dean to say, but the first sentence can be what Dean would say for their first meeting. Thank you if you can (*^‿^*)

"I like your hair," Dean says, staring up from where he's clinging to the bottom of Mary's winter coat, and Carlos grins wide when he adds, with all the breathless gravity of a four year old eager to impress their opinions upon a new friend; "It's swooshy and it's pretty like Mommy's hair, and your-- your beads are pretty and shiny and shiny is my favorite color."

"Swooshy and pretty and shiny is exactly what I was going for, so thank you, little buddy."

Even with almost six years between now and the last time he'd seen Mary, Carlos is relieved to find that they still have a good sense of one-another -- can still communicate silently, swiftly, like they used to when it was life or death. He meets her eye, and her face softens, and understanding passes between them before he slides one of his lucky beaded bracelets -- the bloodstone one -- free.

Dean's eyes light up when he takes it.

When he smiles, he looks just like his mother.

[for this askbox game if anyone else wants to send me a prompt]

[somegrumpynerd]

i keep thinking about the post you made about nightmare accidently outing every member WITH OUT EVEN KNOWING that they were trans to cross because of his old english

(The post, for context)

Ahdkjvkshvhkd anon I had forgotten about that and I'm so happy you reminded me

I think at one point I started trying to write something for it but it didn't get very far because I'm busy and lazy and also writing is hard. But my ideas for what their misunderstandings would be, so far, were:

-Dust would think he was talking about smoking (this one is 100% from Wick's tags because she's a genius) -Horror would think they were talking about working for Nightmare -And Killer I haven't decided about yet, needs to be something ridiculous and silly that I can bend a conversation around

I just love it when old outdated language causes comedic misunderstandings and I think Nightmare and Dream are perfect candidates for it. Like!!!! Just imagine while all this is going on at the castle, in the stars base they're having the opposite problem because Dream off-handedly mentioned "when Nightmare and I were girls" and now Blue and his Papyrus and Ink are under the impression these two immortal beings are trans and are all trying to let Dream know how supportive they are and he has no idea why everybody is being so weird all of a sudden

[deftinesia]

Hello deft! I'm glad your procedure went smoothly and I hope you are currently doing well!

I wanted to say I LOVE RISK, like genuinely its the most well written, best, interesting fanfic I have ever read. And I absolutely LOVE your rambles about it, I go back every once in a while just to read them and find out little details and extra info regarding it <3

And yes I DO have a question. I wanted to ask about the interrogation scene in Diego’s mansion, and, does Reader herself even know what happened or did she just “disassociate” during the entire scene? That’s what I initially thought due to her bad psychology trauma and how everything around her was *silently* affecting her, but I started considering that maybe it was just one of those things that she decided to push to the back of her mind and not acknowledge it. Like she’s done many other times (*Ahem* Hassan’s interrogation) So does she know what happened, and just chooses not to think about it?

Please do bare with me though, sometimes my reading comprehension drops to zero, so this could be a question with an answer implied right in the fic.

That’s it! Again, I hope you’re well, remember to not push yourself! <3

hello luv ! thank u <3 i’m still slightly bruised and tender, but overall quite well !!!

i love writing rambles. not only do i get to expand upon the characters and overall story, but they’re a good writing exercise haha. CW psychological trauma and dissociation for the long ramble below *⁀➷

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the answer to your question is no ! she doesn’t remember anything that happened after corporal núñez was shot by diego and before she was patted down by the cartel guard aka alejandro outside the elevator. however, she is an extremely unreliable narrator (as is ghost, but he is less so) she also has things she needs to hide from herself and others. i’ll dive into this more in a bit.

the line does blur, but i hope writing reader as a simultaneously intentional and unintentional unreliable narrator doesn’t perpetrate harmful misconceptions about dissociation. i don’t want to portray that it’s purposeful, turned off and on, that it isn’t a genuine involuntary response to trauma, etc. there is a distinction between reader intentionally misleading the audience & distorting the narrative versus her suffering from trauma and experiencing dissociation as a result (and mental health issues) which are an undeniable part of her life, how she sees the world, and how she’s survived this long. a tangent / side note, but i just had to put that disclaimer out there !!!!!

depending on the level of stress, violence, and/or trauma, reader may experience dissociation: depersonalization, derealization, and or localized amnesia-like symptoms. memories may be fragmented. there could be bits and pieces of conversation she remembers. vague impressions of her surroundings. a fog, or a distant awareness of memories in the distance but she can’t quite reach out and grab them. sometimes it’s her on “autopilot” and sometimes it’s a short-term lapse of time of minutes or hours. seldom longer.

leading up to the interrogation scene in diego’s mansion, she was already experiencing some level of dissociation. this, plus the extreme violence witnessed, and the overall stress of her situation (needing to provide valeria more intel in order to get out of there alive) compounded with the triggering thought of a certain individual resulted in a gap in her memory. she has no control over this as it’s a defense mechanism she developed due to severe and repeated trauma. it’s her brain protecting itself. it’s important to note dissociation in general isn’t always caused by trauma, but we’re talking about her specifically.

when she’s “pushing things to the back of her mind” it’s not dissociation. it may seem somewhat similar, however, this is reader knowingly blocking out or detaching herself from unwanted thoughts and the emotions stemming from them. i’ve described it in chapter 20: “promises” as her forcing unpleasant feelings into a box smothered by a pretty bow, shoved somewhere to be forgotten. this requires a level of awareness about what she’s avoiding. circling back to her intentionally misleading the audience & distorting the narrative, it’s precisely what i mentioned above. it’s her knowingly detaching, lying, misconstruing, blocking out, or not acknowledging certain things to herself and others for whatever reason (we’ll eventually find out). one reason being the obvious: she’s unable to handle it.

don’t worry, it’s not your reading comprehension luv ! this is kinda meant to make you ask these questions and even second guess yourself. as with pretty much everything in this fic, it’s up for interpretation. i do hope i explained this well enough !!! (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) y’all know i tend to ramble on and on and go on tangents [sigh] </3 pls excuse any possible spelling errors !

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[crystallizsch]

I hope you're doing good! Glad you're back! ❤

AWW HELLO HI NON-NON thank you so much 🥺🫶!! i’m definitely feeling better!! 💞

and i miss doing stuff for twst 😭 february should be a good comeback 💥💥💥

especially since it’s valentines month and my primary victim is jamil as usual (+ that WHOLE tangled-inspired event over on twst jp)

[stellewriites]

not to make a huge thing about a still joke or anything, but cats usually aren't showing you their tummy because they want you to pay it, they're showing you their tummy to tell you that they feel comfortable enough with you to expose the most vulnerable part of their body. it's the same reason cats turn their back on you. they're telling you they feel safe with you and trust you 🩷

hi anon!! dw about it i love learning more about cats to make me a better cat owner 🙂‍↕️

my girl is a trouble maker however so you’ll see me talk about petting her belly a lot bc she actually paws at me/drags my hand to her tummy as a way to play? like she has me pet her tum once and then in return she gets to have a little (gentle) nibble of my hand before letting me go, rinse, repeat. it’s like equivalent exchange lmao

but!! i will add that i don’t pet her tummy at any other time otherwise, despite how soft it is 😪

[ask-team-donum]

this might be a lil weird but I wanted to say I really appreciate ur aroace characters!! it feels kinda rare to see that at all let alone in a PMD setting and it sparks joy for me :) ty!! and ofc I love Phoebe & Scout as characters and will be following their story as long as it takes

ANON. LOOKING AT YE LIKE THIS FHSBXB <3333333333

Not weird at all!!!! You made my day!!!! Imight cry this made me so so happyy fjsgsbfhfh EEHEHE <333

I AM. SO SO HAPPY THAT THEY SPARK JOY FOR YE THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME YE'RE SO SWEET AA 💙💙💙💙💙

Thank you so much for these kind words <333333

[mueritos]

omg im shy to send non-anon but would it be okay to draw you some fanart of your sona or your ocs? i have an artist crush on u, you're super awesome!! :3

of course you can!!!! wtf!!!! i'd be so honored to have art made for me :3 and thank you!!! <3333

[pynkhues]

Hi sophie! I hate to be the person who brings bad vibes your way, but I keep seeing ppl twisting your arguments in the worst way possible and it’s honestly bumming me out. The latest vaguepost claims that saying Louis is traditionally masculine or a patriarch is antiblack (this is the post btw in case your curious: https://www.tumblr.com/nashvillethotchicken/770055675307065344/a-lot-of-people-in-the-iwtv-fandom-regurgitate?source=share). It made me wonder whether this pushback against Louis’ masculinity has something to do with a narrow concept of gender roles in general. Because there always seems to be this idea that being masculine equals being a hyperviolent abuser, while any gentle or submissive trait immediately gets interpreted as “feminine” (and overall I see a very strong correlation between femininity and victimhood -especially in the context of domestic abuse -which is understandable but not necessarily helpful when talking abt a gay couple). I agree a lot with your interpretation of Louis as a Byronic hero and the points you’ve made about his and Lestat’s gender presentation, so it sort of surprises me to see so many people believe that recognizing Louis’ masculinity somehow negates his sensibility and his capacity for tenderness (not to mention the assumption that we are trying to defend Lestat and make him into a victim, which is a wild leap and a very bad faith reading of the whole argument imo)

Hey, anon, and that's okay. I can appreciate feeling bummed about my words being twisted into a strawman argument - I do sometimes too - but at the end of the day, that's out of my control and I think says a lot more about the people who'd do it than it does about me.

It's actually kind of interesting to me, because I think with a lot of those sorts of posts, the person actually kind of knows they're strawmanning, because they'd address me directly if they actually thought any of what they wrote in that post was what I was saying, and they almost never do. They make these sorts of posts loudly and publicly to turn the argument into one that stokes outrage and becomes something they can adopt a moral highground to and win, and I think in a lot of ways, it becomes an exercise in control. If they can put words in my mouth and not actually engage with me, they can control the environment of the debate, and therefore they can attempt to control the discourse in the fandom i.e. dictate the way Louis is perceived and received as a character by others. They want it to look like they're arguing my points, but they're not.

They're arguing with the points they want me to be making, because if my points are that Louis' a mindless, hypermasculine 'brute' and a 'sexual deviant', they know they're right and they know how to argue against that, but if my argument is what it is - that Louis is pretty traditionally masculine, and in fact that he has almost all of the Byronic masculine traits which includes sensitivity, warmth, depression, egotism, a vengeful streak, and a complex relationship with religion, sexuality, and the self - it becomes a conversation that requires a more nuanced understanding of what masculinity is and has been throughout history and literature, which doesn't work with the TERFy talking points that are, frankly, endemic in fandom spaces broadly right now.

Which yeah, that goes to your second point about gender roles, because I think that you've hit the nail on the head. A lot of people in this fandom seem to view the concept of masculinity as inherently violent or abusive and femininity as - to borrow a phrase I loathe from TikTok, haha - demure and mindful - which is, again, literally TERF rhetoric. This desire to reinforce the gender binary and feel like you're not simply because you're applying reductive and stereotypical female characteristics to a male character is just sort of baffling to me, on so many levels.

And it appears in a lot of their arguments, like, gosh, even the post I was linked to yesterday about Eartha Kitt, David Bowie and Grace Jones being influences for Louis as indicative of his 'feminine divine', which to me - honestly - reads as a pretty homophobic and misogynistic take. Cisgender men can be (and are!) influenced personally, creatively and professionally by women, and the suggestion that to be so negates masculinity and is indicative of femininity feels like a pretty dangerous rhetoric to me.

The funny thing is, I don't actually have an issue with people liking femme!Louis at all. It's not how I see him, no, but I respect the fact that how we interpret characters is subjective, and people bring their own history and interests and yes, kinks to a show, and I actually think that's really cool! That's part of what makes engaging with stories and fandom fun! What I find exhausting is the recurring accusation that anyone who doesn't see Louis as a battered housewife entering his liberated woman era is a racist.

[zeldalizzy]

your art is so cool! I love how you make it look so much like the source material with your own style and vibe woven in. Thanks for making awesome clean content for people like me to enjoy!!!

and good luck on your finals!

AHHH THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU 💕

anon, oh my goodness 🥹 This is so so so sweet, as soon as I saw your message it made me smile and I teared up a little! This is so encouraging to me -- I am SO thankful that you love my art and that you enjoy it!

I have a lot of younger siblings/younger cousins, so making clean, wholesome art is really important to me! I'm so glad you noticed this and that is so kind of you to say 🩵

Thank you so much! I am almost done with my exams, and then I get to go home! 🥳