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[ani-coolgirl]

Wincest Reverse Bang 2024

I realize I never made a proper post for this to make it easy to find. This isn't an "official" post, but copying the Bang's format makes me feel like in some distant alternate universe, this came together on time.

Title: Where I Lay My Head Artist: deeranger Author: ani_coolgirl Rating: E Warnings/Spoilers: Rape/Non-Con, Torture, Harm to animals (off screen), Suicidal Thoughts (full tags/warnings on Ao3) Summary: After failing to complete the trials and close the gates to Hell, Sam is left in a weakened state, the ritual putting him just shy of death's door. Dean steps up to take care of his ailing brother, but Sam senses there's something off with the whole situation, something he can't quite put his finger on. Sickly and isolated, Sam tugs on the threads of doubt, and soon his life of recovery in the bunker—and his brother's sanity—start unraveling around him.

Art: Tumblr Fic: Ao3

While I'd had this idea kicking around my head for a while, Dee's art it was what really helped it come together. The scene that goes with the art is actually the first thing I wrote. Unfortunately, the fic didn't come together in a timely manner, which is why you won't find the fic listed on the Reverse Bang masterpost. Maybe I'll tell the long, sordid tale of why this was one day, but really it can be summed up thusly: I started late, couldn't keep the word count under control, panicked, had a teeny tiny mental breakdown involving very little sleep, and then eventually vomited the fic onto the screen. Since it was already late, I had the story betaed (it was originally going to be published warts and all, with hasty edits made after the fact), which, along with my decision to post a chapter at a time, made it even later. The extra polish was totally worth it, however.

I intended for this story to be around 10k words at most. It ended up almost four times that, which just goes to show you why planning, scheduling, and commitment is important (and an understanding of your own process and shortcomings). I, of course, haven't learned anything from this whole debacle, but perhaps someone else might. This wasn't my first event, but it was the first time I finished so late, so I'm swearing off events for a while. I love engaging with the fandom, but I hate potentially stressing out/disappointing others because I can't keep to a schedule, which really puts a damper on the whole thing.

Anyhow, I hope you enjoy the fic, the art, and my madness reflected onto Sam and Dean--it's their fault really, when you think about it.

[spnfanficpond]

I'd like to be registered as a guppy and a mutual, please.

Helloo!!!

Welcome to the Pond!!!

I will put you down as a guppy and will slide in your dms in a few!! (Please have them open)

[wincestbigbang]

Title: Presence Author: Ani (ani-coolgirl) Artist: Klau (supklau) Other Pairing: minor Sam/Jessica, minor Sam/OFC Rating: NC-17 Warnings/Spoilers: slash, incest, masturbation, character death (sort of), ghosts, AU, attempted non-con via possession, assisted suicide Summary: Dean dies on a hunt while Sam is at Stanford. Sam mourns by crisscrossing the countryside. Sam has regrets. So does Dean. After all, what is a ghost but the manifestation of regret?

Art: Tumblr Fic: Ao3