#anger and in a bad mood.

[dummerjan]

Pride is full of evangelicals that tell queer they want to save us. I know we have plenty of those idiots around these parts but they usually don't talk to you. And this is the first time I see them at a Pride event. There were so many, I kept being offered pamplets and chick tracks. I wish I could stay calm but I told several people to fuck off.

[theacademiccottage]

You believe me like a god

I'll betray you like a man

— Mitski

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Charbee Prompts Part 9

(inspired by a Barn Husbands Earthspark post by @sonderblade)

Charlie drives to Witwicky when she sees the beam that shut down all the cybertronians temporarily. She assumes that’s where Bee, her old best friend went. So she roommates with Tess Yeager, who’s attending Indiana Pennsylvania College, and takes up an automechanic job to investigate.

She stays for a couple months but is stuck with nothing since everyone in town is oddly secretive about Transformers and she's always prevented from reaching the rural areas by some accident or bad luck (or is it??"

After months of no luck or sign of any Autobot, she ends up meeting Twitch. Twitch was severely damaged while trying to train by herself and out of desperation to maintain her pride, she went to Charlie's autoshop as she was closing. Charlie was disappointed when Twitch states that she's not an Autobot but an Earth-born Transformer (plus Twitch refuses to expose any of the identities of her family and friends) but helps regardless. She’s not allowed to go out by herself so Charlie decides to be her personal medic when she gets hurt to drive off suspicion about her secret training sessions.

One day, Charlie decides to give up the search for Bee when her mom calls that she misses her. She goes to pack but Twitch comes crying to her because she got into an argument with her family. Tess catches Charlie comforting the sobbing Transformer and promises to keep her a secret and, ever the rebellious young adult, offers to drive her far away from Witwicky, taking a road trip to Texas to stay at Cade’s farmhouse for a while. Cade often drives to Witwicky to sell some of his inventions to an online buyer by the name of D.E Malto. He's quick to take Twitch in as a single father and a fan of the Transformers, especially Optimus which Tess teases that he has a celebrity crush on him.

Twitch finds Cade's father's presence comforting and talks about her stresses and learns that there’s a chance she might be the next prime. Charlie says that she needs to learn to appreciate her childhood and talk to her elders. Twitch is ready to go home but asks Charlie to come with her for support. Cade drives Charlie and follows Twitch.

They arrive at the farm and while Cade is parked from afar, Charlie and Tess walks with Twitch, who trusts the humans enough to introduce them to her family. The Maltos were all worried for Twitch since she was missing for five days with her location turned off, instantly hugging and crying when Twitch arrives and apologizing. Twitch introduces her family to the girls, assuring that they are nice and kept her safe. Alex and Dot are thankful that the girls kept their daughter safe and embraces them as family as well.

Charlie is happy that they know each other but her mood instantly shifts when Optimus, Elita and Megatron arrive, relieved and apologizing to Twitch. Charlie is in shock that Twitch is being trained by the Autobot. Twitch is afraid that Charlie would have a changed opinion on her.

"Charlie? Is something wrong? I promise I didn't lie to you. I really am not an Autobot. Are you mad?" "No, of course not. I just-" "Is that Twitch?! Oh thank Primus. You really scared us... Charlie?"

Bee arrives at the sound of Twitch's voice and is frozen when he sees Charlie standing next to her.

The two don't say anything but just stare. Everyone around them are confused and concerned, especially Twitch, until Bee breaks the silence.

"It's you. You're here and alive! I can't-" "B-127! WHAT ON EARTH WERE YOU THINKING! MAKING A CHILD A PRIME?? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND??"

Everyone is left shocked as a complete stranger scolds a 16-foot Autobot like he's a guilty husband who left the toilet seat up again. Bee tries to calm her down by crouching to her level but Charlie storms towards him and slaps him in the face, scolding him about putting pressure on young kids. (at this point, everyone is slowly backing away, afraid of witnessing a murder while Alex watches the one-sided argument with terrified recognition in his eye. "Godspeed Bee.")

The Maltobots are all concerned and asks what's going on since they never seen Bee being scolded like this before, not even from Optimus. "YOU FAKE YOUR DEATH AND THIS IS WHAT I HEAR?? YOU TRAINING A CHILD- A CHILD! TO BECOME A SOLDIER! I FIXED YOUR VOICE BOX WHEN IT GOT RIPPED OUT OF YOUR WHEN YOU WERE A FEW CENTURIES OLD! YOU HYPOCRITE!" At those words, Optimus, Elite and Megatron to recognize her as Charlie Watson, Bee’s first human friend and savior when he crashed onto Earth after holding back the Decepticons.

Charlie finally stops yelling when she sees that Bee hasn't said anything since she slapped him. "What?? Say something, you-" Bee just stares at her lovingly, mumbling, “You’re as beautiful as the day I left.”

Everyone on the farm freezes, shocked by Bee's words except for the Autobots. The Maltos and Tess on the other hand are appalled. "THEY KNOW EACH OTHER??" "Go get it girl! Dad is gonna flip!" Bee has a girlfriend?" "And she's human!" "Are they dating or married or-" "I never heard of Bumblebee having a partner or losing his voice box in any of the history books." "Well there's no true info on what happened after he held back the Decepticons." "I have so many questions." "Bee is going to have to explain this." But Bee doesn't care. It's only him and her, the girl who held his spark with the same hands that brought him back to life.

Charlie is frozen at the declaration, scanning the familiar lovesick face on Bee's faceplate staring at her like she hung the stars. Suddenly the two are in 1984, hours before the Autobots and the military arrive at her doorstep to take him away from her to fight in a never-ending war. Charlie is a depressed 18-year-old slow dancing to the 80's music playing in Bee's new radio, back when he was a small yellow beetle she bought at her uncle's junkyard. Both not saying word as they soak in the giddiness of the other reciprocating their feelings.

Back in the present, Charlie (now in her mid-50s) smiles out of exasperation, "You can't just say sh- stuff like that and get away with it. Absolute idiot." The two laugh and Charlie pulls him by the faceplate into a kiss. Everyone was rampaged.

After the loud clambering of questions and a quick minute of calming everyone down (plus the kids groaning at seeing two adults, including their mentor/uncle-figure, kiss), the couple is given a chance to explain.

Charlie has housing him for the past few years during his “death”. Charlie explains that she saw the beacon and knew it was Bumblebee so she has been staying with Tess, who weakly says hello and is outraged that Charlie had the ability to bagged such a handsome Transformer. Charlie and Tess explain and apologize to taking Twitch away on a trip. Alex and Dot are oddly forgiving since they suspect that Charlie is the reason for Twitch's sudden upbeat attitude.

Cade then arrives, asking what's taking Tess and Charlie so long since Charlie is going to miss her flight home. Tess and Charlie try to stop him before he sees the Transformers but Cade sees them anyways, absolutely stunned that Twitch knows the Autobots. Twitch explains that they went to Cade's barn at Texas for the trip and that he was very comforting when she needed it. The Maltos welcome him with open arms. Twitch goes to introduce Cade to everyone, including Bee, who is thankful for keeping his trainee and sparkmate safe, and Nightshade, who is revealed to be the secret buyer. Twitch goes to introduce him to the older Autobots but it turns out that Megatron, Elita and Optimus already knows him.

Seeing how flustered Optimus is and how softspoken Cade is, the Maltos scheme to have the three new humans stay for dinner but Charlie declines since she plans on going home but Bee and Twitch convince her to stay. Tess allows Charlie to stay as roommates as long as she wants. Charlie says yes which Bee happily cheers and grabs her to show her around the farm with the Maltobots excitedly following behind.

Tess then asks Optimus if he could show him around, Megatron and Elita playing along and encouraging the idea. Optimus tries to say no, afraid of imposing in Cade's time. "You're not imposing anything, don't worry. I would like to know the kind of stuff my inventions are being used for and... get to know you too." "Really?" "Yeah, you're really cool guy but that's all history books and news. I'd like to know you. The real Optimus." "Oh... I'd...like to get to know you too." "Smooth." "ELITA!" "I knew you liked humans but I didn't think it would be this much." "Megatron, I will cut you." "Have fun you crazy kids." "But not too much!" "ALEX! DOT! YOU TOO??"

(here's the link to the post I was talking about)

[5hrignold]

i really want a scene where pim is angry at someone him and charlie are talking to and charlie keeps looking between the person and pim who is just staring at them with the most enraged expression you can imagine and his face grows more grotesque and contorted and less human looking and he’s like shaking and digging a hole in the ground with how hard his feet are digging into the ground but everytime charlie looks back at him he goes completely back to normal smiling and nodding but the second charlie looks away he starts all over again

[ruthlesslistener]

Something that I rlly don't get about my dad is that he can go from tearing you a new one about being 'disrespectful/ungrateful/cold/your mother's disgrace' at the top of his lungs for asking an innocent question and then 30 minutes later flip his mood entirely and be like 'my love, give me hugs and kisses' and then get all upset at you for not being snuggly as if he didn't just call you the scum of the earth half an hour ago. Like. What the hell.

[oatm3al-c00kies]

/// OFMD SEASON 2 FINALE SPOILERS!

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THE WAY THAT IZZY'S DEATH WAS FORESHADOWED FROM THE START. THE WAY THAT THE FIRST SCENE WE SAW THIS SEASON WAS IZZY HANDS DYING AND THE LAST EPISODE ENDED WITH HIS ACTUAL DEATH. THE WAY THAT WE SHOULD HAVE SEEN THIS COMING BECAUSE WHY ELSE WOULD THEY GIVE HIM A REDEMPTION ARC AND LET HIM HEAL AND FIND HIMSELF AND BE COMFORTABLE BEING OPEN AND MORE AFFECTIONATE WITH THE CREW AND ACTUALLY FEELING LIKE A PART OF THE FOUND FAMILY. THEY WERE SPELLING THIS SHIT OUT FOR US FROM THE START AND GETTING US ATTACHED AND SOMEHOW I STILL DIDN'T SEE IT COMING.

[n4talia-chaparro]

hey umm, I remember seeing use the r slur, have you stopped using it, if not please do

It's a very hurtful word

Erm Sorta????? Yeah, I did stop using it for a while but kinda wish people understood that I don't use it in a bad way. I'm trying my best NOT to but people will purposely piss me off to the point I will say it without realizing it 😭

(I reclaim it btw)

[elecmon]

i think the reason your thinking about this person you haven't vaguely talked about in years is because of odiba day turning into one for nostalgia & that person is (currently) hitting that box for you.

Ultimately chalked it up to a few other factors I can't/won't openly talk about in public here bc it'll narrow down who that was all about, but a bit of midnight emotional vulnerability also didn't help if I'm being real

[wanderingmind867]

Hank Pym has taught me one lesson: Size-Changing powers suck. It messes with your mind and probably with your physical body too. Being Ant-Man or Giant-Man or Yellowjacket or Goliath sounds impossible. Also, Hank Pym is probably the superhero I would be. I think if I were a hero, I'd get so stressed I'd snap all the time too. His many mental breaks are not a bad thing. They're realistic and relatable and beautiful.

Honestly, I think I even see myself in his domestic abuse charge. I mean, I'm 19 and I don't even know if I'll ever a wife. But...I have anger issues and I have hit my father before in fits of rage. So I understand stress making you hurt the people you care about. And I can't hate him for any of it. I just hate how it seems the poor man gets dealt such a bad hand.

[itspileofgoodthings]

So sorry if this is bothering you but so curious as well... why do you hate Guts?

Thanks for your time ❤

you’re not bothering me!

I think the simplest way to answer this is with one of Olivia’s own lyrics from pretty isn’t pretty when she sings “none of it matters and none of it ends” because. That is kind of her whole ethos about how life works. She believes that! And so her work, to me, is profoundly cynical and self-absorbed because it can’t point to anything bigger (none of it matters) so it revolves purely around her own feelings. It won’t ever situate itself in a wider picture. And I love whining in a song tbh. I love when an artist captures those uglier emotions —the discontent, the restlessness, the irritation, the blandness and staleness of it all and the railing against it—because those are all part of the human experience. I am continually shocked—it is shoCKING—by how many negative emotions I can and do experience over and over again. But it is thankfully against the backdrop of reality. My bad moods are something that can be so unpleasant to feel and so ugly to witness—I wrestle with how ugly and small my suffering is—but there is a way in which, all discourse about the validity of any and all of my feelings accounted for, those aren’t real. Just symptoms of my suffering and sometimes my convalescence (lol, love a symptom of convalescence) but reality is still always so much realer. It’s always ready to break in a million times a day; the beauty and sturdiness of reality, the texture of existence, as Flannery O’Connor once said, is always there and with enough time (and with patience and help and love) I can get back to contact with it. Not just the state of my own mind full of bitterness and worry and pain, endlessly stewing in its own unhappiness.

I am not good at that, it takes a lot to get me there. But I guess my point is—to circle back—Olivia’s music doesn’t try and doesn’t want to. Its scope is so narrow, every song no matter how pleasing at first eventually sours (lololololol) because it’s JUST rooted in her own experience, generally her own suffering. And there’s no sharpness or cleverness in the world (she can be both sharp and clever!) that can hide that lack of range. So you hear a song once—for me, it was brutal—-and you’re like YEAH. I recognize this kind of whininess because I’ve felt it before. There is something true to it! But the more she writes the more you watch her do it over and over again (sonically, too, she loves to speak-talk and tbh they’re just sub-par remixes of brutal) the more you start to be like “oh, is that it? We’re not going anywhere with this? There’s no turn or catharsis or bridge or anything that lifts us out of this even for a second?” and it’s just —blegh.

And the thing is there doesn’t even have to be, like, some triumphant girlboss victory where she feels better. I’m not saying her songs are bad because they’re sad and depressing. It’s that they establish no outside contact with reality. They are, for all her clever little film-noir references or whatever, only ever self-referential. And that gets old so fast no matter who is talking.

[valakiir]

That mood when the mania kicks in and u go from barly making 200 words a day if you write at all to knocking out 2000 words in one sitting...

[blackwaxidol]

Omg Lakshmi-2 hi Lakshmi hi hi hiiii I love you Lakshmi <3

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya wasn’t one to really get angry as a kid, but the very few times when he genuinely did, it was extremely obvious to everyone, in the way he carried himself.

[lesbianfakir]

Been watching several different little mermaid adaptations and I will say the Disney live action is—as Disney live actions go—not bad?? I’d even venture to say good at parts. I genuinely enjoy Halle bailey’s Ariel and tbh the songs I feel suffer mainly from their direction than her performance. The movie actually ventures to do something meaningful with the extra run time and creates some much needed moments of connection between Ariel and Eric. I really enjoyed the change in setting which helped to detract from some of my issues with the overall visuals (though to be fair I was drawing through most of the movie so maybe I missed some bad shots)

That said… then there’s the bad parts. I’m looking at you awkwafina rap. Who let lin Manuel miranda near another Disney movie and WHY

Anyways tldr; little mermaid live action: took some genuine initiative and is good. Except for when it sucks. And oh man can it suck

[freakish-hazzard]

Undertale yellow has earned my

Salty eye fluid "Tears" of approval

I cried :] /pos

[vanweezer]

theres been a scream hidden in my mouth all day. i dont know what it is linked to but everything and every person on thr entire planet has been pissing me off today. its like theres blank spaces in everyone's words and my fucking anger and insecurities are filling in the gaps. i gotta lay off the sugar. and also roll a j