#angel's late night thoughts

[theorphicangel]

NO WAITTTTTT okay LISTEN

yuji being caught in writing a plan to cheer sukuna up and get him and the reader back together!!!

sukuna finds yuji being quiet...too quiet and when kids are quiet that's when you know SOMETHING is wrong.

sukuna searches the house top to bottom before finding yuji in the storage closet scribbling on paper on the floor.

'what the hell do you think you're doing?'

yuji jumps up in surprise, clutching the paper to his chest. immediately in suspicion Sukuna snatches the paper away from yuji before he gets the chance to defend himself.

in messy handwriting your name is next to sukuna's paired with stick figures of each other. the titles reads 'plan to unbreak up'

sukuna can't make out the rest of yuji's writing, the scribbling on the paper all sideways and impossible for anyone but the six year old to differentiate.

yuji looks down, his chubby cheeks turning red. 'i just wanted to make you happy, papa said you've been more sad recently.'

sukuna says nothing more, staring at the paper. yuji created a whole plan to get you back, to win you back all for him. sukuna lets out a sigh and for the second time in his life sukuna feels his heart swell with what some might call affection.

(the first this happened was when sukuna held his nephew after he was born)

'yuji...' sukuna kneels down to his level forcing yuji to maintain eye contact.

'i just miss her.' he mumbles, hands clasped behind his back.

sukuna's eyes soften. 'i miss her too, brat.'

there's a minute that passes for sukuna to think of ways to cheer yuji up and most importantly distract him from you. maybe sukuna has to move on earlier than he thought, it's not just for him now but for the sake of his nephew too.

sukuna rises and ruffles yuji's pink strands. 'let's go watch your favourite movie, i think your dad has popcorn in the cupboard or some shit.'

[twipsai]

was thinking about Sonic and Shadow having their fucked up forms, and it made me sad that Silver was left out so here!!! he gets to be an angel <3

i was inspired to act on this idea and got some of the design ideas from this post by @kosmic-neptune !!

(dont mind the little guy in the top left, thats my friend he wanted to be in the drawing)

[harmfulb1tch]

This is a late night Hazbin Hotel thought. What if now in the show Alastor’s story gets changed. What if we all know him to be this New Orleans serial killer when in reality he was just the sweetest. Imagine he killed someone without truly meaning to and panicked, so he went to bury them in the woods. Then, in an unlucky moment he gets shot by a hunter and ends up in hell. After that, the guilt drives him crazy and that is when he starts eating human flesh, killing demons and overlords, playing the role of the horrible serial killer that everyone thought he was. I know this is probably not canon but just imagine.

[flowersforfrancis]

Remind me why we exist?

[wist3r1a]

don’t rlly know him but I love who I think he is

[errollfzc]

Hollywood Dreaming//

[carefulfears]

what's your favorite line from californication?

"i said i never read your books but i lied, i read them all. i just didn't know how to talk about them with you. i didn't like the fathers in them." is one that just knocks me in the gut every time and that i think about so often because it touches on something very personal that's hard to articulate. on that note, "to my son, the writer. something i never said too much: i love you. my father never said it much either and i thought i would be different but i guess i'm not." -> "i love you. i didn't say it to hear it back." -> "to my dear, beautiful daughter...loving you has been the most profound, intense, painful experience of my life. in fact, it's been almost too much to bear." is a progression so meaningful to me. one thing that always stands out to me about this show is that loving and being loved is painful. is too much. is unbearable.. and is still frontrunner and the leading motivator most of the time.

some more that i love....when carrie died and hank couldn't stop drinking, said that he didn't know if he could make it back, and karen said "in the meantime, i'll just dream for the both of us, i guess."

when marcy said "they fucking love you to pieces, you dumb shit. we all do." & in the pilot when hank is mean and runs off their friend and marcy just says "go home, honey. sleep it off. tomorrow's another day." and the fact that in the original script he told her to go off on him and punish him and she wouldn't.

when mia left town and hugged hank goodbye and he said "you be good out there, psycho." i just love that line. (& "aside from the fact that you're mad as a hatter, you're a good kid.")

"now there's this feeling in my gut. she might be the one. she's completely nuts, in a way that makes me smile." hank's first letter to karen, 1994

before trial: becca saying "i don't want you to be guilty. i don't want people to look at you that way. i want them to know how great you can be." and hank replying "you shouldn't be thinking about that. that's too much for your brain."

"it's last call, pal. you should get out while the getting's good." "what if it's already too late?" "could be. i don't know. doesn't mean you shouldn't try."

there are so many lines in this show that are so simple and uniquely articulate that really just mean something to me.

my favorite reactions ever: "you're such a dirty old man." "no, i'm not."

&

"you'd look at the ocean and count the mermaids." "i did do that."

my favorite duchovny line delivery ever: when becca sobbed that she's just a kid and she's tired of parenting him and before she went off to see her boyfriend he said "you have fun, okay?" and his voice cracked

[caregivingchrysalises]

oh beloved, i’m here, papa’s here, *softly cups your cheek with my hand* starlight hey, we’re alright, we’re going to get through this, i know it feels icky right now, but it won’t feel this way forever~ buba also knows how silly that sounds as you’re sitting in that sadness, i promise i do~ you’re doing the best you can i know you are love. *taking your hand and holding it* expressing your feelings is something to be proud of blossom, your feelings don’t make you weak~ and they certainly don’t change the way i love you. i will always be here to dry your tears or quell your fears my love, ‘tala isn’t going anywhere angel, i’ll be right here when you need me sweetheart.

[loregoddess]

some rambling thoughts about Unicorn Overlord and the angels and how they're written under the cut (lots of endgame spoilers), because I haven't been able to stop thinking about some things since finishing the game

So, I've been watching some of the other maiden rite dialogue and endings for UO, and some of them are insane. Like. Alain can marry Dinah--their paired ending says she becomes the new queen, so he definitely marries her, and presents to all of Cornia he beautiful wife, who is also Literally A Fox.

But! despite having very romantic rites with say, Raenys or Umerus, he does not marry them in his paired ending (they both return to Albion and just. Live their lives. no marriage implied, like, Alain's got more romantic "but not married" endings with some of the male characters than he does any of the angels).

Fascinating implications honestly. I had suspected that the bestrals were willing to live in family units with humans (as implied by Ramona, Morard, and Yunifi being a family unit, batshit backstories aside; and also the entire orphanage side quest). Like sure, there aren't any like, half-bestral half-human offspring in the game unlike the confirmed "half-elves exist, and a lot of humans are hot for elves", but the bestrals are shown to live in family units with human members. And while no one (aside? from? Alain? sir?) is hot for the bestrals (at least I didn't find any NPCs who were like, "hot damn" about the bestrals), we also don't see any human characters fawning over the angels (whatever Sharon and Ochlys have aside, I'll get to them in a sec).

And like, in-game the angels (technically "the winged", I know angel is a specific term but bear with me here) are all religiously and culturally treated as like, literal divine messengers of the heavens. But we also learn from the sage in Albion that they aren't divine in any way, they're literally just humans with wings, the result of an ancient magical lab experiment that apparently went wrong.

So it's like? The idea that they're divine messengers was definitely made-up, probably by the first pontifex, to give the winged a place to exist safely in society, but! But also this ends up getting warped in the most fascinating ways bc it leads to the "present day" culture(s) in the game, where other races are jealous of the angels but generally get along with them, but also, most importantly, view them as divine. Even though there are like, winged children and families, and they're clearly just people with wings, no one treats them that way, and while this leads to some of the angels being really arrogant (Ochlys's parents thinking humans are lesser beings), it also puts all the angels in a really weird spot.

Like, Ochlys loves Sharon bc Sharon treats her like a person, and doesn't revere her with reverence to the point of isolation (which seems to be how most humans treat angels), and so we get the idea that generally, a lot of angels are isolated from all the other races because they are viewed as divine. And this also places some absolutely insane expectations on the angels themselves, like, if they're divine messengers of the heavens, then they're supposed to be perfect, they're supposed to embody and represent everything that is the heavenly divine, they're not allowed to be people.

But the thing is, Baltro knows damned well (as do all the ancient Zenoiran souls) that the angels aren't divine anything, they're a failed magical experiment that got propped up on an isolated pedestal, who've have been acting the part of divine messengers bc that's what's expected of them, that's all they've ever know, it's so ingrained in the culture after 800 years that no one even questions it. But the angels are people with flaws and emotions that can be manipulated, and that is exactly what Baltro and the other Zenoiran forces do. Baltro doesn't even need the mind-control magic, because the way the culture of Fevrith treats the angels makes them extremely easy to manipulate by toying with their emotions and how they view themselves and how humans view them.

Take Umerus for example. Umerus throws aside all her values in a desperate attempt to save her brother's life, because she loves him, he's the last family she has left, and she'd even turn her blade on her oldest friend and anyone else if it meant a chance at saving him. And when Alain and Scarlett are able to save her brother for her and free her from Zenoiran influence, she ends up so guilt-ridden over her actions because she went against everything that her culture and everyone in the world has told her she is--divine and perfect and holy--because she's failed at being "an angel", so she's wracked with immense guilt that she can't escape.

Had any other character (human, elf, or bestral) been in Umerus's position, their actions wouldn't have been questioned, others would have been like "well, of course you'd act that way in that situation, that makes sense" and all would be forgiven, and while Alain and Scarlett are able to forgive Umerus (bc they treat and see her as a person), Umerus can't forgive herself, because she doesn't seem to see herself as a person, only as an angel who failed at being an angel.

And like, it's like this for almost all the angels in the Albion section. Fodoquia is ready to die fighting Zenoira right up till his own people make a sacrifice of his son, and then Zenoira uses his grief and rage to control him until Alain shows up (Fodoquia's admittedly faster to forgive himself, but he never truly bent to Zenoira's will and it seems he felt justified in a lot of his resentment towards the people who killed his son, even if he also feels guilt in his lost faith in them).

Sanatio is presented with a dead pontifex and the promise that all of Albion and the theocracy that upholds it will fall into utter chaos if he ever lets people know that the pontifex is dead. Baltro uses Sanatio's faith like puppet strings to make Sanatio mislead all of the orthodoxy, and Sanatio hates himself for it afterwards because he's not only an angel, but one of the highest ranking angels in the orthodoxy, he's supposed to be divine, to be above being manipulated and toyed with, and he failed that. And all the reasons why he failed are totally understandable and would have been forgiven so quickly had he been literally anything except an angel (and again, Alain and Scarlett don't hold any of Baltro's manipulation against Sanatio), but Sanatio can't forgive himself, he can't see his actions as anything outside of horrific and sinful bc that's all the culture around the angels has taught him.

And on the flipside we get Raenys, who is so devoted to trying to be the paragon of an angel, to protect others and uphold what is right, that her actions are nearly self-destructive, because she would die rather than fail.

Ochlys is the only angel in the entire game who seems even remotely well-adjusted, and that seems to be because she cut ties with her parents and their ideals, and also decided she was going to do whatever she pleased in her job rather than listen to her boss. And she met and spent an immense amount of time with Sharon, who treated her like a person from the start and gave Ochlys a chance to see herself as a person, rather than just as a divine angel.

And yet! Alain can't marry any of them. He can marry elves and bestrals, and of course other humans, but not the angels. The culture around the angels is such that even though his rite dialogue with Raenys ends with them kissing, he can't marry her, bc she is an angel, she is the divine, and I honestly don't know if a marriage between an angel and someone of literally any other race would be allowed, because it'd probably be viewed as sacrilege of some sort, because people aren't supposed to fall in love with something divine, they're supposed to revere it, but never bring it down to their level, because the angels--to what seems to be the cultural norms of all Fevrith--aren't people in their own right.

And I dunno, I got off topic, I was just gonna make a joke post about the fact that Alain could take a fox-woman as his queen, but not a human woman with some wings. But the fact is I've had a lot of thoughts about Albion and the angels, and how subtly the writing shows the culture around them, and like. It's so interesting, but also tragic, and hrm, the writing in the game, man. The writing gets me.

[yourdeliciouspoison]

She was my guardian angel

Her angel eyes saw the good in many devils, Too good to be mere words, her light turned my chaos into a gentle whisper Even the demon inside me sits in silence when she’s around, my sins felt like forgotten tales, washed away by the purity in her gaze. Reminding even the darkest hearts that love can cast out fear.

She dances with my darkness, transforming it into a symphony of hope and redemption With every smile, she paints over my imperfections, turning monsters inside me into memories Her spirit whispers of possibility, guiding lost souls back homes

[theorphicangel]

if you left the house without saying I love you to gojo… you have ruined his entire day btw .

he sulks and he’s quiet…and it’s exceptionally weird when he walks by nanami and says nothing.not even a teasing word. that’s how you know something was wrong with him.

he sulks and completes his missions with no excitement or enthusiasm that he usually has, pouring over the last twenty four hours with you and wondering if he’s done something wrong.

he’s pouting when asking you his sin, wanting to make it up to you. when you reply that he did nothing and you had just left the house in a rush, a weight is lifted off his shoulders

but as a punishment you have to give him many many many many kisses and tell him you love him every 20 minutes

and since that day you have never left the house without telling him those three little words

[youloveangshiann]

Tacos Errrrdayy🌮

[twistedglass]

Alice in Wonderland (1991 VHS)

Adventures in Wonderland (1992 Disney Channel show)

Alice in Wonderland (2010 live action film)

Alice Through the Looking Glass (2016 sequel)

Twisted Wonderland (2020 mobile game)

I’ve been stuck in Wonderland for 30+ years, and I don’t think Disney wants me to escape.

[moistvonlipwig]

Cordelia's Black-And-White Thinking

A post by @kyliafanfiction got me thinking about this but I didn't want to derail her Xandelia post since these thoughts are purely Cordelia-related.

I think Cordelia is actually a very black-and-white thinker but a lot of people don't conceptualize her that way because fandom tends to equate 'black-and-white thinking' with 'thinking killing is always wrong'. I've talked before about how Cordelia is an extremely pragmatic person in a lot of ways who is very much willing to kill humans and to support Angel in killing humans, even in AtS S3 when certain fans claim she's too 'soft' and 'nice' (*eyeroll*). So some people may interpret that as her being a less black-and-white thinker than, say, Buffy, who has an ironclad rule about killing humans being always wrong.

However, I think that's a misunderstanding of what it means to be a black-and-white thinker. Black-and-white thinking is not about not being willing to compromise on general, widely-held principles; it is about not being willing to compromise on your own principles, and often extends to judging harshly those who betray those principles. By these standards, yes, Buffy is a black-and-white thinker, but so is Cordelia; it's just that 'don't kill humans' is not one of Cordelia's core principles. Her core principles, instead, are that Lying Is Bad and, consequently, Betrayal Is Bad.

Cordelia has always held that the truth is better than a lie even if the lie would be nicer. In Buffy, this tends to manifest as her being brutally honest to the point of tactlessness and sometimes outright cruelty (as she would say, "tact is just not saying true stuff"). In Angel, she grows out of some of her crueler instincts but retains the role as truth-teller of the group who says what the others don't want to hear and, importantly to this discussion, clashes with her friends when they choose a nice lie over the harsh truth. In S3, while she shrugs off the possibility of Angel killing Holtz with the equivalent of "whatevs, kill him, I hate that guy," Cordelia objects quite strongly to Angel's plan to lie to Connor about going to see Holtz. She ends up being right, largely because Connor is also a black-and-white thinker who is also triggered by lying, but no one ever said black-and-white thinking was mutually exclusive with being correct. And in early S4, even without her memories, amnesiac Cordelia would rather hang out with Connor who admitted that he tried to murder her than with the Fang Gang and their wacky dishonest hijinks.

Cordelia also reacts very negatively to betrayal, more so than other characters do. She doesn't forgive Xander for cheating on her until he buys her the prom dress she coveted, while Oz forgives Willow and even starts dating her again. She doesn't forgive Angel for firing the team and his various other S2 sins until he buys her clothes to make up for the ones he gave away, while Wesley and Gunn forgive him much more easily. She doesn't forgive Harmony for trying to kill her, while Wesley happily hires her in S5 and Angel preemptively forgives Harmony's final betrayal in "Not Fade Away". Her feelings on Wesley in late S3 are a little unclear (my kingdom for a scene between them during this time period!) but she does make it clear that she is at least uninterested in his feelings while Angel still needs her help, while Gunn and Fred are more open to the idea of reaching out to him. She doesn't forgive Wolfram & Hart for any of the things they've done to her and her friends and finds the Fang Gang's decision to join them baffling, while the Fang Gang, minus her influence, were willing to give them a chance.

In fact there is only one person who Cordelia never seems to judge for their betrayal of her and/or her friends and that's Connor. He is the only person that she never speaks negatively of after a betrayal. After he tries to kill her, after he tosses Angel in the ocean, after witnessing all of his actions in S4 including the murder of the virgin girl in "Inside Out", she still wants to see him in "You're Welcome" and appears to hold no grudge against him. In fact, in yet another moment that demonstrates her black-and-white view of honesty, she reacts quite harshly to the news of what Angel did to Connor with the mind-wipe, even though Connor himself comes to see it as a kindness. Why does Connor get her endless forgiveness? Well, because he's her son. Or surrogate son. However you want to put it. She loves him like a mother and plays a motherly role in his life. She may not necessarily have thought of herself as his mother in S3, but that's what she was. And even the most black-and-white thinkers can learn to see in shades of gray for their children.

[dariasonlinedairy]

I just drank my coffee (it is almost midnight) and it was so delicious i love life now again I'm not depressive anymore (at least not now) 🤍���

[errollfzc]

and the lights will lead you home

but you still have to follow//