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hwangsies · 4 years ago

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(n) the state of becoming infatuated with another person

pairing: hyunjin x female reader

summary: you haven’t spoken a word to hyunjin since he ghosted you after a fun new years eve together, so what’s the worst that could happen when fate (or chaeryong,...well, same thing) pairs you up for a road trip across the country?

warnings: e2l (ish), university student!au, non idol!au ,a lot of swearing. alcohol consumption,long flashback, mentions of infidelity, hyunjin is a giggly sweetheart, smut as in: dom!hyunjin, unprotected sex (wrap it up luvs),fingering, oral (f recieving), slight choking, praise kink, hand & strenght kink (manhandleing oopsie), slight overstimulation, hyunjin is really enthusiastic about consent (as you should be, periodt), reader is nervous and scared of hyunjins big pickle (ew i hate myself), motel sex (but it’s not trashy i promise!)

8.6 k words ,meaning grab a snack and a drink,

and enjoy!<3

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"alright everyone" your professor rubs his hands together "that was it for today... i hope you all have a great break and i'm very exited to see all of you again next semester. hopefully in person again" he chuckles.

You and your classmates exchange goodbyes with him before one after the other exits the zoom call.

"fuck" you sigh after closing your laptop and lean back on your bed.

"you did it girl" your dormmate chaeryong claps, at which you giggle before shifting your eyes to her on the other side of the room.

She's sitting on her bed, folding her clothes before putting it in her suitcase thats placed in front of her.

"finally" you sit up and watch her roll up a pair of socks.

"my last class was yesterday and mrs kim teared up" she giggles "it was kinda cute not gonna lie"

"oh god" you snicker.

"hey did you find someone to take to yongin?" you ask, remebering chearyong talking about wanting to find someone to share gas expenses with in exchange for a ride to her hometown.

"oh yea, i did" she turn to you "i think you know him, seo changbin?"

You furrow your brows in thought, you feel like you've heard of the name.

"he's a music major, one year above us, hes also from yongin" she continues folding a pair of jeans "funny you'd ask actually cause he told me one of his friends was looking for a ride to seoul, isn't that where you're going?"

"Yea i was thinking about finding someone honestly because gas is really fucking expensive if you aint rich" you say, placing your laptop onto your nightstand.

"Mm you aint gotta tell me girl" chaeryong mumbles, folding a sweatshirt.

"so who's that friend?" you ask, stretching out on your bed.

"he's in his grade, hyunjin"

Your neck almost cracks from how fats you whip your head “hwang hyunjin?”

"Oh yea" she points at you "you know him?"

"unfortunately" you huff.

"o-oh, what"s the tea?" your roommate wiggles her brows at which you shake your head.

"nothing much really" you sigh, leaning back again "he's just like the most arrogant and stuck up fuckboy ever"

"wow, well thats not nothing" chaeryong laughs "any reason as to why you think that?"

"you could probably ask any girl on campus and she'll tell you the same" you scoff.

"really girl?" chaeryong squints an eye at you playfully "cause i've only heard of him being hot but never of him being a hoe. And you know i'm the first to know the hot gossip" she winks.

Laughing defeatedly, running your hand through your hair.

"it's just- we hit it off at the campus' new years eve party, like really hit it off- at least thats what i thought"

"oooh spill it spill it" chaeryong leaps over to your bed to sit at the end of it.

"well there's really not much to spill, i gave him my number and he was talking all that smack about taking me out and stuff aaand to make a long story short i never heard from him again"

"well" chaeryong speaks slowly, biting her lip guiltily "i dont think you'll be very happy about me giving changbin your number for him, then?"

"you did what???" your eyes almost pop out of your head.

"sooorryy" she jumps up from your bed, clutching her hands apologetically "i didnt know"

"aaaaarghh" you whine, burying your face in your pillow.

"maybe he won't even text you though" chaeryong tries to console you, but the damage is already done...

unknown number - hey i got this number from changbin, i heard you're driving up to seoul, i'd love to tag along if you're looking for someone to share expenses with -recieved at 9:12 am

You huff looking at the message on your phone.

After chaeryong had left last night you really convinced yourself that he couldn't possibly dare to reach out to you.

But here you are reading his message after just waking up, and your day is already ruined.

you - who is this? - sent at 9:56 am

You know who it is, but you're not going to give him the satisfaction of thinking that you do.

Scoffing when he answers almost immediately.

unknown number - this is hyunjin, did i reach the right person? - recieved at 9:57 am

You have two choices at this point.

1. be petty and bitter about a boy who probably doesn't even remember you.

Or 2. move on and help someone who is also just trying to get home and also maybe get some closure.

So you curse your mother for rasing you so well and suck it up.

you - yea sure, i planned on leaving tomorrow at around 6 pm - sent at 10:02 am

Damn you and your common human decency.

he sus - oh okay great :) i only have one suitcase and a backpack btw so i wont take up alot of space or anything - recieved at 10:05 am

he sus - also i feel weird bc i dont know ur name or anything changbin literally just sent me the number and nothing else lol, also 6 sounds good should we meet at the main building then? -sent at 10:06 am

You're quite honestly not shocked that he seems nice over text because he was the same when you met on new years eve.

you - sure lets meet at the main building, my car is white and my name is y/n - sent at 10:09 am

Cringing as you press the send button because you are 99% certain he won't answer anymore; not that you'd care, obviously.

he sus - alright y/n see you tomorrow at 6 then :) - recieved at 10:14 am

You raise your brows when your phone lights up with his message, does he really not remember you?

Was he that drunk?

Well, it doesnt matter because you don't want to pay for all this gas alone and he seems to be the next best option to fix that.

So you shrug it off and get out off bed to run some last errands and start packing.

Your heart is beating unreasonably fast when you take a turn towards the main building at 5:55 pm the next day.

Calm down y/n it’ll just be 5 hours and who says you have to talk to him?

However you do know deep in your heart that you only wanted to arrive just a little early so you could complain about him being late.

That plan got cut short because your eyes fall on him as you pull up to the main building.

He’s- oh my god he’s blonde. You stop your car and he looks up at you.

“it is you!” hyunjin smiles at you when you step out of the car.

“who else would it be?” you ask, a little irritated at his reaction.

His face drops a bit when he sees you clearly annoyed by him, but the doesn’t blame you; he’d be mad too.

You open your trunk for him to put his weirdly small suitcase into, looking him up and down as he lifts it inside.

He’s wearing dark baggy pants and a windbreaker jacket, the top part of his chin-length blonde hair is pulled back into a messy ponytail.

He seemed to have bulked up as well, shoulders looking broader than what you remember.

The hair is different than the jet black hair that you remember on him, but it suits him very well; to be honest he would look good in any hair colour, not that you’d care though.

The first thirty minutes of the ride go by agonizingly slow and in complete silence.

When you drive onto the freeway you can’t take it anymore and mumble something among the lines of ‘wanna listen to some music?’.

You don’t wait for an answer, pressing the radio button right as you finish your sentence.

“uh, actually” hyunjin starts, his hand lifting to turn the radio back off, your eyes snap towards him, is he serious? Turning off your radio in your car?

“I wanted to address this situation” he says rather quietly.

You scoff “what? You realized that this is awkward just now?”

“no- I mean- yes I understand why you would think that but I just really want a chance to explain myself” he stutters.

“explain yourself” you repeat after him before mumbling “sure because there’s so much to explain”

“listen, I know you think I’m an asshole who just ghosted you b-“

“listen, I can handle rejection, you could’ve just said that you weren’t looking for something serious and I would’ve accepted that. The thing I’m mad about though is you literally making false promises and shit”

Hyunjin blinks at you “can I please just explain to you what happened?”

You let out a long huff “sure” you wave your hand “go ahead”

“when you and your friends left at around 4, you wrote your number on my arm with your eyeliner, correct?” he asks.

Glancing over at him, you nod.

“after you where gone, I was already pretty drunk but then my friends decided to drag me with them to a different party that was still going” you see him fiddling with his hands in your peripheral “well I got super fucking shitfaced at that party and ended up puking on this one guys shoes”

You raise your eyebrows and hold back a laugh, which he notices.

“its okay you can laugh” he chuckles as well.

“anyways that guy was not very happy about it and busted my lip before kicking me and my friends out, so then back in the dorm my roommate sat me in the shower because I was full of alcohol, blood and puke”

“ew” you chime in.

“and when I woke up the next morning your number was gone” hyunjin looks over at you “we don’t have any mutual friends, I didn’t know what your major is so I couldn’t even asks for you in the administrating office, and then the covid lockdown happened and here we are”

“you called the administrating office?” you look over at him, he nods a little smile on his stupid pretty lips.

“yep, so, sorry to tell you but your eyeliner is not waterproof” he jokes at which you playfully knit your brows at him.

“believe me, I wanted to text you. I really wanted to take you out; and when you sent me your name yesterday I didn’t know if this was a lucky coincidence or if you’re a different y/n, that’s why I didn’t say anything” he explains.

You take a deep breath as you realize you have to apologize for going off on him just now, you believe him but you hate apologizing.

“well, I feel like an ass for going off on you like that after hearing all this” you chuckle “I’m sorry” you eye him shortly before looking back on the road.

“it’s okay, you don’t have to apologize I get how it looked, very much sus” he laughs with you.

Coming back to your car after you took a bathroom break on a highway rest-stop, you see hyunjin sitting in the drivers seat.

“what do you think you’re doing?” you smile as you sit down on the passenger seat.

“I thought maybe you’d like to sleep since its dark already and you’ve been driving for almost 3 hours” he suggests while putting on his seatbelt.

“well, I wont say no to that” you shrug and put your seatbelt on as well.

“so when did you go blonde?” you ask curiously.

“uh- around end of june” hyunjin chuckles “it was a dare if I’m being honest but I ended up liking it and got it redone”

“oh okay” you check out his profile once more and follow his hair with your eyes “I like it”

“yea?”

“yea, which is weird cause I’m usually not into blondes at all” you wonder.

“hm” he grins “must be me then” he says before winking at you.

“pfff, in your dreams” you rebuttal playfully, at which he laughs and mumbles a ‘true’.

You don’t react to it because you think your ears are playing tricks on you.

“hey I have a question too” hyunjin says.

“what’s up” you lean your arm against the window as you look over at him.

His face is slightly lit by the lights of the other cars, no seriously, how can a side profile be so perfect?

“why did you even agree to take me with you if you thought I ghosted you?” he grins.

You laugh “well, I’m a nice person and I know not a lot of people there are from seoul and my mom raised me right, okay?”

“okay okay” he giggles, the way his eyes crinkle when he does makes you smile everytime.

“or…did you have such a good time with me on new years that you just had to jump on this opportunity?” he quips, carefully stealing a peek at you.

“sure, why do you think I was so upset when you didn’t text” you feign sadness.

The both of you laugh before falling into comfortable silence.

When looking outside your window, you think back to said new years eve.

-(flashback)

“oh my god” you said, stepping into the big hall that usually is the universities gym. But whoever planned this outdid themselves.

A dj was placed on one of the tribunes and a whole buffet of drinks and punches on the other, as well as a big disco ball hanging from the ceiling, making the room shimmery and shiny.

You could see people coming out of the doors that connected into the universities hall on one side and into the locker rooms on the others, as if it wasn’t already packed.

“this is fucking insane” lia, your roommate from last semester, squeaked while grabbing your arm and jumping a little, her voice overpowering the blasting music..

“I wanna get fucking hammered tonight” you turned to her.

“oh babe don’t worry, we didn’t come here to drink soda” she laughed before spotting some of your other friends.

About five minutes before midnight you and some more girls gathered at the buffet of drinks and started doing shots.

You all had decided that instead of kissing someone at 12 o’clock you’d ring in 2020 with a shot, because alcohol can’t cheat on you.

You were laughing at something when some people started the countdown.

10!

“HAPPY NEW YEAR”

Every one shouted and celebrated in union as you downed your shot.

“happy new year babe” lia hugged you after downing hers.

“happy new year!” you shouted into her ear, full of relief that this stressful year was over.

“lets do another one” she grinned widely after your whole friend group had shared their wishes with each other.

A girl you didn’t know very well handed you another shot, just as you emptied your glass you heard a guy yell something before stumbling into your back.

“jesus” you stumbled forward a bit before turning around, ready to throw someone a dirty look.

“I’m so sorry, are you okay?” in front of you suddenly stood a tall dark haired young man with almost too perfect facial features, frowning a little out of concern.

“nothing happened” you smiled, taking a step towards him so he’d hear you better.

“I’m glad” he replied, a grin slowly stretched across his handsome face

“I’m y/n” you giggled as you held out your hand.

His eyes crinkled with his smile as he took your hand in his “I’m hyunjin” he said before pressing a kiss to the back of your hand.

“okay guys let her have her fun lets go over there” you hear lia usher your friends away from behind you.

“happy new year y/n” he said before instinctively pulling you a little closer to him when a group of people passed behind you.

“happy new year hyunjin” you replied, a slow blush creeping on your face from how intensely he was taking in your appearance.

“well yea happy fucking new years to me for running into you” he joked before taking a sip, your brain wasn’t able to function anymore so you just giggled and nervously pushed your hair behind your ear.

It had been way too long since you’d talked to a guy, especially someone as attractive as him

“you’re fucking stunning” hyunjin complimented you and lifted your hand with his to make you spin for him, to which you complied because you took a long time getting ready and always appreciate being appreciated.

“thank you” you were crimson red by now but hoped he wouldn’t see because of the dimmed lights.

“how come I’ve never seen you around? I would’ve remembered you” he tilted his head.

“oh this was my first year here and I live on the other side of campus so…” you nodded slowly “but yea I would’ve remembered you too”

He grinned before downing his drink and putting on the table next to the both of you.

“wanna dance?”

That’s how you found yourself on the dance floor with hyunjin pressed against your back.

Slowly but surely the alcohol made you braver; and it didn’t take long for the dj to play perfect songs to grind yourself against his toned body to.

His reaction was instant, hands gripping even harder at your waist and his own movements matching your own.

You looked back at him just to have the air knocked out of your lungs, a barely there sheen of sweat was covering his forehead; his pupils were dilated and his lips were slightly parted before his tongue swiftly swept over his lower lip.

He looked like sex on legs and moved like it too.

His plump lips formed into a grin when he noticed you staring, you didn’t know if it was the alcohol running through your system but you so desperately wanted to kiss him.

“can’t stop looking at you either, pretty” he lowered his head to mumble against your cheek before pressing a kiss there.

“you’re so goddamn sexy” you blurted out as you turned around to face him, running one of your hands through his dark hair before positioning them on his firm chest.

He threw back his head as his chest vibrated with laughter.

“don’t laugh at me” you laughed as you locked eyes again.

“you’re cute when you’re drunk” hyunjin brought one hand to your face to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

“you dont even know me sober” you giggle “also i’m not drunk!” you protested playfully, his hands found your waist in the meantime to pull you flush to his body; at which you gasped almost inaudibly.

“oh really?” he looked down at you, clearly amused “didn’t you drink like 5 shots half an hour ago?”

“well well well, I didn’t know I had an audience” you countered, looping your arms around his neck.

Hyunjin prodded at the inside of his cheek with his tongue before looking away for a swift second, slightly embarrassed because he just exposed himself.

You felt yourself gush a little when he licked his lips again after bringing his gaze back to you.

“so you almost knocked me over on purpose?” you grinned even bigger when he shook his head laughingly.

“listen” he chuckled, leaning down unnecessarily close because you could hear him perfectly fine but you weren’t going to complain.

“I actually didn’t run into you on purpose, that was my friends doing after he saw me notice you” he said.

You mouthed an ‘ahh’ while nodding, feigning disbelief.

“I’m serious” hyunjin laughed “I still have to thank him later; I would’ve probably chickened out”

He got quieter at the end of his sentence, his eyes jumping to your lips when you wet your lower lip with your tongue quickly.

“i-m glad he pushed you then” you replied, trying to hide the fact that your heart was pumping your blood in record time.

“yea” he inched his face closer to yours as you tilted your chin up to meet him in the middle “me too”

His eyes switched from your lips to your eyes one more time before closing the gap between the both of you.

His lips were firm but soft at the same time in the way they moulded against yours, you swore you could hear lia squealing from somewhere but maybe you were just hearing things.

But when his tongue touched yours in the most tentative way you lost contact to what was going on around you, slinging your arms tighter around his neck and deepening the kiss.

A tiny groan escaped hyunjins throat when you carded your fingers through his hair to tug on it and release some of the adrenalin that rushed through you.

He was slow and explorative and let you take control from time to time before sucking on your lower lip and making you loose it.

You didn’t know how many songs had passed; to be honest you didn’t even remember what song was playing when you started kissing.

All you knew in that moment was hyunjins lightly flushed cheeks, swollen lips and dark glistening eyes.

“let’s go somewhere else?” he questioned in a whisper when you bit your lip, nodding at his question.

He grabbed your hand in his before manoeuvring the both of you through the dancing and celebrating crowd.

Before you knew it, hyunjin pulled you into the entrance hall of the university where multiple people had the same idea as you.

Couples scattered across the big room, some just talking, most of them however making out heavily.

“come on” he softly tugged at your hand, smiling when your gaze falls on him.

He lead you up the big flight of stairs onto a floor of the building you’ve never been to, stopping in front of a random room before pulling a small set of keys out of his back pocket.

After unlocking the door, he opened it to let you step inside.

It was a dance studio, the wall right across from you was just one huge mirror through which you could see the big couch in the back of the room and the water dispensers next to it.

“why do you have the keys for this room?” you asked, giggling.

Hyunjin grinned as he closed the door “I’m a dance major, we all have keys for the practice rooms”

“that’s so cool” you beamed “I wish I could dance” you looked around the room, walking towards the mirrored wall a little bit.

“you were moving just fine earlier” hyunjin came up behind you, nimble hands finding your waist as he looked you up and down through the mirror intensely, now that you were under the bright lights of the room.

You couldn’t help but to smile a little at that, the tight little glitter dress that you had chosen really did accentuate your curves in the best way possible, paired with the cute black heels which made your legs look way longer than they actually are.

“but that was like club sexy dancing, you know?” you elaborated.

“hm” he hummed amusedly “whats wrong with sexy club dancing?” you turned around to him.

He didn’t look to shabby himself, all in black, a chic button up with some jeans and a belt; accessorized with rings on his pretty fingers, a dainty silver necklace and some small earrings.

Some might say he was underdressed, but the way he carried himself with such confidence, and that face of his must for sure be a panty dropper, you thought.

“nothing but… I don’t know, teach me something” you pleaded.

“what do you want me to teach you?” he laughed.

“I don’t know a pirouette or something” you suggested, laughing as well.

“okay” he grinned “this is like the base stance” he positioned himself correctly before looking at you to see if you were following his instructions.

“mhm” you hummed, replicating what he was doing.

“and then you get momentum with one leg to be able to swing yourself around, like this” hyunjin explained before executing a perfect pirouette and ending it back in the base stance.

“that was fast” you chuckled.

“your turn” he grins before moving behind you “try to keep your eyes on yourself in the mirror otherwise you’ll loose balance”

“okay” you said unsurely.

“I’ll catch you if you fall” he winked at you, at which you scoff playfully before carefully swinging yourself into a pirouette.

You landed on wobbly legs but before you could tip over hyunjin stabilized you with a firm grip on your hips.

“you’re a natural” he grinned at you through the mirror.

“well thank you” you playfully feigned cockiness before he spun you around himself.

A few seconds pass of the both of you taking in each others features in silence, the only thing you could hear was the faint music of the party downstairs, before hyunjin spoke up.

“can I kiss you?”

You fell into giggles again as you let your forehead rest against his collarbone before looking up again “we’ve kissed before”

“yea but that was like a moment and I don’t want to catch you off guard or anything” he mumbles cutely.

“mm” you nod “ you can kiss me”

And with a smile, he does.

You weren’t surprised when his first gentle ministrations turned into more desperate ones rather quickly because you could feel the warmth spread in your lower regions as well.

He walked the both of you over to the couch, only parting from your lips when he sat down on the black leather material of the couch.

“come here, pretty girl” he took your hand to help you straddle him, your dress riding up but you couldn’t care less if he saw your safety shorts, and he didn’t seem to care either by the way he feverishly connected your lips again.

His hands travelled down to squeeze at your waist before smoothing over your ass and grabbing a handful of each cheek, you moaned into the kiss when you realized how big his hands were.

Your own hands were squeezing at his shoulders before one moved into his soft hair while the other softly rested on his cheek.

The kiss was messy and desperate, teeth clinking together and tongues licking at each other.

The things that riled you up the most however were his groans and praises.

“you’re so fucking sexy” he groaned before moving down to kiss at your jaw and down your neck.

A needy whimper escaped from your throat when he started suckling the sensitive skin at the base of your throat.

“fuck-hyunjin” you moaned when his teeth grazed over your clavicle.

Your hands fumbled before landing on his belt, at which he pulled away from your skin, gently taking your hands off of his belt.

“I’d love to take you out first, actually” his pretty kiss swollen lips twitched up into a shy smile as he pants.

“oh” you were taken aback, you were almost certain that this was something regular for him “I thought-“

“I mean if you just want to fuck we can fuck of course” he chuckled “but- I actually think you’re really cute and fun and I’d love to get to know you better”

Your mouth stood a little agape “uh- I mean-I” you stuttered, your brain not functioning properly because of the alcohol running through your veins but also him!

“its okay if you just want, you know-“

“no!” you blurted out all over sudden, making him flinch a little “sorry, uhm- its just been a while since I had a date” you smile apologetically.

His expression visibly brightens “that’s okay” he giggled “so is that a yes?”

You grinned, leaning in to just barely brush your lips with his, his head twitching upwards in an attempt to connect them fully.

“yes” you whispered, at which he smiled brightly before pulling your in for a kiss by your neck.

-(flashback end)

“y/n”

“hey, y/n” you grumble when you feel someone gently rocking your shulder.

“mmm-what?” you peek your eyes open just to see hyunjin smile at you.

“good morning sunshine” he teases as you sit up in your seat when you realize you aren’t driving anymore.

“just kidding its not morning” he says as you look around your car, realizing your on a parking lot.

“where the fuck are we?” you whip your head towards him “did you bring me here to kill me? kidnap me?”

“wha?- no” he laughs “no, I’m sorry. Right after you fell asleep there was this huge traffic jam because of an accident and we stood there for almost 3 hours so I drove off and found this” he points out the rear window, where you see a small motel building.

You look back at him before checking the time on your phone, seeing it was indeed almost midnight.

“fuck” you swear to yourself.

“I didn’t know if you wanted to keep driving because I was getting tired so I thought maybe-“ hyunjin starts rambling guiltily, not wanting you to thing that this was an attempt to get in your pants.

“hey” you put your hand on his shoulder after taking off your seatbelt “this is good, you made the right decision I think we both could use some sleep” you say.

You each take your suitcases and walk inside, it’s an old building but it looks pretty clean for a motel off of the highway.

“good evening you two” an old lady sits behind the, probably just as old, reception.

“good evening, could we get 2 single rooms, please” hyunjin speaks up politely.

“I’m afraid we only have 2 double bed rooms available, if you’d like to take them, they will however be more expensive than the rooms for one” she explains politely.

“its okay, we’ll take one of those, please” you decide, hyunjins head snapping towards you.

“is that okay?” you ask him.

“yea- sure” he nods.

“alright, room 301 it is” she hands you the key before stating that you’ll have to checkout before 12 pm and what the room costs.

“do you accept card?” hyunjin asks at which the friendly old lady nods before taking his card and swiping it through her little machine.

“I’ll venmo you half of what you paid” you say after unlocking room 301.

He tsk’s at you before shaking his head “don’t, it was my idea so I’ll pay”

“are you sure?” you ask closing the door behind you when he turns on the lights.

“yup-oh” he exclaims.

“this room is cute” you say, it’s small but the walls are a soft sunflower yellow, decorated with paintings of autumn leaves .

The bed looks clean, and when you smell the mouse gray blankets and pillows, they smell fresh as well.

“stop smelling the pillows” hyunjin laughs.

“I’ve never been to a motel, I thought everything would be dirty or ancient” you confess comically.

He chuckles as he comes out of the small bathroom “the bathroom is clean too, don’t worry” he says when you look at him expectantly.

“I’ll sleep on the floor if you want” he offers as you open your suitcase to get out your toothbrush and pj’s.

“it’s fine, hyunjin I’ve slept in the same bed as a male before” you joke.

“well how am I supposed to know that?” he counters, at which you throw your pj shorts at him out of reflex.

When you realize what you had done it was too late, he was already holding them out in front of him before giggling.

“very cute choice” he mocks the small white shorts with red hearts all over it.

“stoop” you whine, trying to fish it out of his hands but he holds them over his head like a kindergartener.

“I remember why I don’t like you” you pout, crossing your arms.

His face drops alongside with his arms “I thought we were past that”

You use his moment of weakness to snatch your shorts out of his hands “gotcha”

“see I told you I was gonna take you out” hyunjin beams at you before looking down at the various snacks he took from the motels vending machine, which were laying in between the both of you on the bed.

“and so luxurious too” you joke, crossing your legs.

“only the best for you” he grins when you open a pack of fruit jellies.

“you know, I was thinking about new years” you say “ and I realized that it was your fault!”

Hyunjin throws his head back as he groans playfully “why?”

“if you hadn’t lost your phone when we got back downstairs, I wouldn’t have had to write my number on your arm; or you could’ve just given me your number and I could’ve text you. But you didn’t even know your own number!” you laugh in reminiscence.

“listen” he laughs “I was drunk and you’re hot! I couldn’t think” he defends himself before taking a bite off a chocolate bar.

You blush a little but play it off with a laugh.

“but yes, I admit, it was indeed my fault” he dramatically holds his hand in front of his eyes.

“yeeees!” you exclaim victoriously.

“I’m kidding though” you pat his knee “I forgive you”

“I’m glad” he smiles.

After the both of you are done eating way too many sweets, you find yourself being really comfortable when talking to hyunjin.

He’s funny, doesn’t seem like he’s full of himself and just in general seems like a very kind person.

“I thought you were a fuckboy when me met” you confess, looking at him.

Propped on one elbow looking down at you, while you lay on your side towards him, his face illuminated only by the little lights on each of your nightstands.

“you did?” he asks confusedly.

“yea” you chuckle “you were so confident and…sexy I don’t know” you place your hand over your face in embarrassment.

“oh that was the liquid courage talking, I’m usually pretty shy” he shakes his head smilingly when you peek through your fingers.

“don’t lie” you push his shoulder softly.

“I’m serious!” he laughs.

“you were the first guy to approach me at a party” you pause “like ever”

“no way, you’re lying now” he furrows his brows.

“nope” you shake your head.

“but I was really close to not talking to you as well, I’m sure there were many guys before me that just didn’t have the liquid courage, like I did” he speculates.

“maybe” you say.

“have any exes?” he asks after a few seconds.

“yea, one”

“well how did you meet him?”

“he showed me around on my first day of freshman year, I transferred like in the middle of the first semester so I wasn’t with any other freshmen” you tell him.

“why’d you break up if I may ask?” hyunjin asks carefully.

“oh we were only together for like three weeks, you can’t even call I relationship. He used me to make his hot ex jealous and cheated on me with her” you say “but hey they’re back together at least” you scoff.

“i’m sorry” he mumbles at which you look up at him.

“it’s not your fault” you chuckle.

“well, still no one should feel that way” he says “you know that you were way too good for him right?”

You nod.

“what about you? Have any exes?” you ask back.

He snickers “only one in seoul”

“why didn’t you last?”

“it was a long distance situation, she was super jealous and couldn’t trust me. which I can understand to a certain degree but everytime I went out she wanted me to facetime her and show her what kinds of people were there with me. That was just too much” he explains.

“wow” you chuckle “that doesn’t sound fun either”

Hyunjin shakes his head “nope, but hey we got rid of ‘em, didn’t we?”

“yea” you giggle “plus if I hadn’t broken up with him I would’ve probably never gone to the new years eve party”

“I guess I owe him something then” he grins as you scooch up on the bed.

“can I kiss you?” you ask after a few seconds of silence.

“hm?” hyunjins eyes almost spring out of his head.

“I don’t want to catch you off guard” you grin as you repeat his words from the night you met, sitting up.

He licks his lower lip as a grin stretches over his face as he sits up as well “do your worst”

You get up on your knees to shuffle over to him, when you get close enough hyunjin grabs one of your thighs and lifts it over his legs so you’re straddling him.

Once you sit down on his lap, your eyes lock again and you’re once again baffled as to how someone can be so god damn attractive.

His eyes flicker from your eyes to your lips expectantly, a shaky breath leaving his lips when you lean in.

Your lips connect and it feels like all the pent up energy of liking him since that night finally gets set free, sparks glowing behind your lit and his hands leaving a trail of fire where ever they go.

They squeeze at your thighs and waist, pulling you impossibly close to himself.

A whimper tears from your throat when his tongue licks at yours, he tastes like chocolate and what could only be described as him.

He moans into the kiss when you tug at the blonde locks that weren’t pulled back into the ponytail; before pulling the hair tie out of his hair to free it and finally card your fingers through all of the blonde glory.

Before you realize what’s going on, hyunjin lifts the both of you before dropping you on your back and crawling above you.

The fact that he just lifted the both of you from a sitting position as if you weigh nothing makes you feel all types of hot.

“you’re so hot holy shit” you pant as you push his long hair out of his face.

“ditto” he only grins before attaching his lips to your exposed collarbone and sucking a bruise into the skin.

“take it off” you moan as you tug on the dark blue calvin klein shirt he’s wearing.

His lips release the skin of your collarbone before sitting up to pull the shirt over his head.

If your mouth wasn’t already open from your heavy breathing, you would’ve opened it now because his body is more sculpted and toned than you had expected.

Your hand lifts to smooth over his abs, muscles flexing as he connects your lips again.

His one hand slides from your waist up to cup one of your breasts, gently palming the soft flesh.

“I know I said I wanted to take you out first but-“ he mumbles against your lips.

“you bought me a lovely dinner” you interrupt him, threading your fingers through the hair that’s falling down into his vision.

He grins, dropping a short peck to your lips before his the grin gets wiped off his face “I don’t have a condom with me”

“I’m on the pill” you let him know “I got tested before the lockdown and I haven’t been with anyone since soo…”

“yea, me too, I was tested a few months ago” he nods.

You nod back, biting your lip as you absently play with his hair.

“do you trust me?” hyunjin asks, observing your demeanour.

“yea- yea I do I’m just nervous” you smile awkwardly.

“no” he coos before kissing you “why are you nervous?”

“just haven’t been with anyone for a while” you confess.

Hyunjin nods understandingly “if you don’t want to do this we’ll stop”

“no I really want to” you look into his eyes as confidently as you can.

“okay” he smiles, planting his lips on yours again.

“can i?” his voice gives you goosebumps when he mumbles against the sensitive skin under your ear, his fingers slowy undoing the loose knot of your heart shorts.

“yes” you say when he locks eyes with you.

“I love these shorts” he softly presses a kiss to your knee, trying to calm your nerves a little, before he gently rocks your hips to pull them off of you.

You blush a little out of embarrassment but smile when you lift your hips to help him.

“cute” he whispers when he see’s your panties have a little bow on the front.

He chuckles when you hide your face in embarrassment, pulling you closer to him again by your thighs before you let him kiss you again.

“can I take this off too?” hyunjin whispers, softly pulling at the fabric of the tank top you’re wearing, at which you nod.

You are still wearing a bra when he pulls it off so you take it into your own hands and unclasp your bra.

Your nipples stiffen a little at the sudden exposure to air, as well as to hyunjin’s admiring gaze.

“fuck” he muses when palming your breasts in his big hands, gently pushing them together an running his thumbs over your nipples.

A whimper involuntarily leaves your lips when he wraps his plump lips around one of the perked up nubs and sucks gently.

“so fucking pretty, princess” you feel yourself pathetically clench around nothing at his praise.

You feel one of his hands wander downwards to provide some friction for you, he slots his lips against yours when you tentatively roll your hips against his hand.

Hyunjin feels his cock get even harder when an almost desperate moan tumbles from your lips against his. So he ads a little more pressure and starts circling your clit with two fingers, your sighs of pleasure mixing into the kiss.

“you’re so sensitive baby” he whispers as he parts his lips from yours “can I go down on you?” he grazes his lips over your chest, looking up at you seductively.

You nod as you bite your lip, hyunjin placing a few kisses on your tummy before shortly sitting up to also free you from your soaked panties.

The first stripe he licks up your slit, and how he swirls the tip of his tongue around your clit expertly sends you to heaven.

His hands are gripping your thighs to prevent you from closing your legs, your hands are tangled in his hair and the sheets.

“hyunj-fuck” you cry out when his tongue enters you.

He carefully prods one finger at your entrance “is that okay?” he asks, his voice hoarse and dripping with lust.

“yea” you sigh.

Once you adjust to one finger, he adds a second one, curling them upwards to search for that specific patch inside of you.

“yes-fuck right there” you moan when his fingers press onto the sweetest spot inside of you, tugging at his hair a little harshly. But you feel him moan against you, getting lost in your taste as he sucks your clit in between his soft lips.

Your hips buckle against his mouth as your eyes roll backwards, feeling the warmth of your orgasm approach rapidly.

“fuck fuck yes-hyunjin” you cry out just before he tipped you over the edge with his skillful ministration, your orgasm rushing up your spine and into your head, endorphins spreading everywhere.

A cry of pleasure fills the room as your thighs starts trembling with the aftershocks, clamping around his head when he drives you into overstimulation.

“oh-shit-“ you pant as you softly pushed on his forehead to get him away from your clit, his fingers still inside you, guiding you through your high.

He nibbles on your inner thigh apologetically. You can still hear your heartbeat in your ears after hyunjin removes his fingers from you and sits up, gently holding your legs together to help you calm down.

“fuck” you mewl, a soft smile tugging at his lips.

He’s wanted to do this for so long and there you are, with all of your naked glory in front of him.

While he’s daydreaming about you, you sit up and start fiddling with his sweatpants.

“you want more?” he quips, once he realises what you’re doing, leaning in to kiss you.

“mhm” you humm into the kiss affirmitavely when his hand holds you close to him by your jaw.

With a quick last peck to your lips he simultaneously shimmies the soft black sweats and his boxers off of himself.

You apparently visibly gulp at the sight of his cock because hyunjin smirks cockily “like what you see?” as he crawls above you again, his lips finding yours again and not waiting for an answer.

“I don’t know if you’ll fit” you mumble when he suckles at the soft nook of skin under your ear.

“we can stop here” he offers softly before locking eyes again.

You shake your head as you reach down to fist his length, slowly pumping it and smearing the few drops of precum around.

“no, you’re just really big” you huff with a shy smile on your lips at which hyunjin groans.

“you’re gonna be the death of me, you know?” he mutters against your lips before kissing you deeply, his hand smoothing over the slope of your waist before coming up to gently pinch at one of your nipples.

Eliciting a soft high pitched moan from you, this only spurs him on.

Rolling his tongue against yours desperately and making you taste yourself before sinfully sucking at the wet muscle.

All the while you’re stroking him with your small hand before cupping his balls, as if he didn’t already feel like he’s gonna blow his load way too early.

“please” you whine, guiding his reddened tip towards your entrance.

Hyunjin releases a shaky breath before replacing your hand with his, rutting his hips against yours a few times, coating his length in your wetness.

This already had your toes curling, suppressing a whine as you lock your legs around his waist.

“tell me if it hurts, yea?” he breathes, only pressing inside you after you nod, dropping a kiss to your swollen lips.

“fuck” he swears softly, tucking his face in the crook of your neck when he breaches your tight walls for the first time.

Your fingers tighten in his hair at the back of his neck when a subtle sting flares up inside of you.

“ah-“ your body flinches a little when he presses further inside, hyunjin notices, observing your expression before kissing your cheek and sitting up slowly.

“you’re doing so good, baby” he lifts his thumb to his lips, swiftly kitten-licking the digit before bringing it to where your bodies join.

Gently rolling your clit under his thumb to distract you from the pain.

“you look so perfect like this” his other hand travels over your stomach to gently squeeze at your breasts “all spread out for me”

You whimper, arching your back when hyunjin thrusts into you carefully; the pain slowly subsiding and the ache to be fully filled up by him growing exponentially when his cock rubs against your g spot.

“hyunjin” you moan, gripping onto his hand, which is resting atop your breast.

“yes baby, I’m here” he groans at how tight you feel once he’s balls deep inside of you, abandoning your clit to grab you by the hips for leverage.

His other hand resting on your cheek now, after a few trusts you moan “harder, please”

Hyunjin groans and fulfils your wish, at one particularly harsh thrust, you latch your lips around his pointer and middle finger, sucking at them.

“oh my god-that’s so fucking hot” he grunts through clenched teeth.

His cock dragging along your walls deliciously, filling you up to the brim as you hum around his slender fingers in pleasure.

“you like my hands that much baby?” his jaw is clenched and the grip on your waist is rough , the contrast to how sweet he was just a few minutes earlier had you clench around him furiously.

“fuck-“ he breathes when you nod to the best of your abilities, eyes wide open and holding his gaze.

You only release his fingers from in between your lips in favour for a loud high pitched moan when his other hand finds your clit again, rubbing harsh circles into the bud.

“-gonna cum-huynjin” you dig your nails into his biceps, eyes squeezing shut.

“yea?” he grits through his teeth the fingers that were previously trapped in your mouth now wrapping around your bared throat.

Not squeezing tightly, just resting there as if to show you that you’re his now.

Your thought gets confirmed when he rasps “you’re gonna date me after this, right pretty girl?”

You do look so pretty right now, tits bouncing and skin slapping because of the fast rhythm that he’s snapping his hips into yours, not to mention the subtle sheen of sweat that’s coating the both of you.

A desperate breathy chuckle tumbles from your lips “ yes-yes fuck” you feel your second orgasm creeping up on you.

“cum for me princess, all over my cock” he urges you on, his tip hammering into the sweet spot inside of you repeatedly before you crash into your second high of the night.

Your body convulses in pleasure as you call out his name mixed with profanities, your toes curling so hard you’re not sure if you can ever uncurl them again, and your nails probably leaving painful indents in his skin.

His thumb on your clit slows down until you grab his hand for him to stop, his hand around your neck grabs your free one, holding both of your hands over your head now.

“so good, baby” he mumbles, kissing your lips; mostly just breathing into each other as he rocks you through every wave of your orgasm.

Hyunjin looses himself in you not long after with a guttural moan and his eyes squeezing shut.

You coax him through it when he rests his face against your neck again, running your fingertips through his damp hair and over his broad back, muscles tensing under your gentle touch.

i“don’t fall asleep on me” you whisper sneakily, grinning when he chuckles against your neck, tickling the soft skin there.

He props himself up again to scan over your features, pushing some hair out of your face before kissing you tenderly.

“you okay?” his hand resting at your temple as he gently runs his thumb over your hairline.

“more than” you assure him, cupping his cheeks to pull his lips onto yours again.You think you can never get enough of his lips, anything about him for that matter; not when he makes you feel so cared about and safe.

“so does this mean we’re dating now?” he whispers after he has cleaned you up and tucked the both of you in bed.

“hmh” you nod your head sleepily, positioned on his bare chest.

“so I can spoon you once we fall asleep?” he asks, grin evident in his voice.

“you can spoon me but you can’t wake me up in the middle of the night if you get horny” you mumble jokingly, enjoying his fingers running down your spine as your eyelids get heavier.

“okay” he giggles softly, pressing a kiss to the crown of your head before you whisper your good nights to each other.

And as promised, he doesn’t wake you up in the middle of the night because he’s horny.

It’s you who wakes him, because after 10 months of wasted time, you have a lot of catching up to do.

a/n: oml this is my first ever long fic so pls pls pls give me feedback, i had so much fun writing his even though it made me feel even more single but hey :))))

allsooo i waited til after work to publish this and i just saw i hit 500 followers?!?!?! thats crazy to me omg i started this like 2 months ago and so many ppl liked my stuff so much that they decided to follow me?? so i just wanna say thank u thank u thank u for hitting the follow button even though im very unorganized and everything i do is spontaneaous and not thought out well. but hey i guess there is a reason that u followed me so thank u!

(i’d love if u sent me an ask with the first one of my writings that u stumbled across, and how <3 ...only if u want tho no pressure)

anyways thank u so much for reading if you’ve made it this far! i hope you have a great day/ night! much love

-aj

(this is a work of fiction and does not represent the real actions of stray kids or hwang hyunjin)

#omgaaaaa im finally done writing this oof it took forever but it was so much fun #thank u for reading my loves #and dont forget ur beautiful and loved and drink water #ily #hwang hyunjin #hwang hyunjin smut #hyunjin smut #hyunjin oneshot #straykids smut #stray kids #stray kids hyunjin #hyunjin e2l #hyunjin fluff #hyunjin college!au #big dick hyunjin #skskksks im sorry #i guess this is my 500 followers special lol #idk ahh ill add more tags later my brain be empty its late okay hahajajss

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radiorenjun · 4 years ago

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do ignore i just wanna rant bout my teacher hehe. have a great day!

SiR WE DONT CARE IF YOUR ZOOM ISNT POINTING TO YOUR FACE, IF YOU DO SO WE DONT GIVE A SINGLE DAMN FUCK. WE DONT CARE WE HAVE 0 EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENTS TO TEACHERS BECAUSE WHATS THE POINT WHEN WE’RE GOING TO GRADUATE NEXT YEAR AND FORGET BOUT EACH OTHER WHEN WE’RE OFF TO COLLEGE.

FOR FUCKS SAKES I GET THAT YOU’RE COMPLAINING BECAUSE WE DIDN’T SAY THANK YOU WHEN YOU SENT US OUR REPORT CARDS, THATS ON US, THATS UNDERSTANDABLE BECAUSE ITS BASIC MANNERS AND WE WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE IF WE DIDNT HAVE ANXIETY THAT YOU’RE GOING TO YELL AT US. BUT COMPLAINING BOUT US LYING BOUT OUR SHITTY WIFI CONNECTION?

YOU DO REALISE THAT EVERYONE IN THE WORLD IS USING WIFI FOR SCHOOL RIGHT? MY WIFI WENT DOWN FOR TWO DAYS YESTERDAY AFTER SCHOOL BECAUSE IT BROKE DOWN ON ME AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT IF I WAS STILL IN CLASS, NONE OF THE TEACHERS WOULD BELIEVE US. YOU’RE TELLING US TO TELL THE TRUTH BOUT OUR CONNECTIONS? WE DID TELL THE TRUTH, YOU JUST WONT BELIEVE US.

WE JUST BREATHED STOP COMPLAINING BOUT SOMETHING SO MINOR, WE AREN’T COMPLAINING BOUT OUR PERSONAL ISSUES WITH THE CLASS WITH YOU TOO ARE WE? “STOP REBELLING” WE AREN’T REBELLING WE JUST GIVE LESS OF A FUCK BOUT SCHOOL SINCE QUARANTINE. PLUS WHY WOULD WE WANNA INTERACT WHEN WE ALL DESPISE EACH OTHER.

“IVE BEEN HOLDING MYSELF BACK BOUT THIS ISSUE FOR A WHILE” OH YEAH? WE’LL I’VE BEEN HOLDING MYSELF BACK FROM SNAPPING AT RUDE TEACHERS FOR YEARS, BUT YOU DONT SEE ME OR MY CLASSMATES COMPLAINING ABOUT IT? WE DIDNT ASK TO GET ZOOM CLASSES, WE DIDNT ASK TO HAVE SHITTY WIFI, WE DIDNT ASK TO BE IN THE SAME CLASS AS THE PEOPLE WE DESPISE

LMFAO YOU’RE COMPARING US TO OUR UNDERCLASSMEN BECAUSE THEY’RE WAY MORE POLITE THAN US? PROBABLY BECAUSE THEY’RE HAPPIER MENTALLY THAN WE ARE, PROBABLY BECAUSE THEY HAVEN’T SEEN HOW SHITTY THIS SCHOOL IS. PROBABLY BECAUSE THE TEACHERS DIDN’T CONSTANTLY YELL AND INSULT THEM FOR REASONS WE DIDNT DO WRONG

*AGGRESIVELY THROWS A BOX OF PANTYLINERS*

WE GET IT YOU’RE TIRED OF TEACHING US BUT WE’RE TIRED OF DOING THIS TOO YAKNOW. WE’RE TIRED OF BEING STUCK AT HOME TOO YAKNOW. YOU’RE NOT THE ONE DOING AN ENDLESS PILE OF ASSIGNMENTS AND MONTHLY EXAMS FOR THE SAKE OF HAVING A BRIGHT FUTURE AS WE TRY TO KEEP OURSELVES TOGETHER

“I, AS A TEACHER, DIDN’T SLEEP LAST NIGHT YOU KNOW.” SOME OF US HAVE INSOMNIA?? YOU THINK WE SLEEP? HELL IM NOT ALLOWED TO TAKE NAPS NOW ANYMORE BECAUSE OF IT. WE’RE TIRED OF BEING CONSTANTLY REMINDED OF HOW MUCH WE FAILED BOTH YOU, OURSELVES AND EVERYONE AROUND US SINCE ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, WE G E T IT .

“iF yOu’rE BEiNg SIlENt DUrinG cLaSs, TheN yOu’RE GoING To FaiL beiNg A cItiZEN iN thiS cOUNTry” WELL THEN THATS OUR PROBLEM ISNT IT?? YOU DON’T HAVE TO RUB IT IN. MOST OF US ARE ALREADY GRATEFUL ENOUGH TO LIVE THIS LONG, LAOSHI. “Maybe you aren’t embarrassed of yourselves, but as a Laoshi, i am incredibly embarrassed of you,’ GEE THANKS, TELL ME MORE WOULDJA I THINK I NEED MORE VALIDATION OF HOW MUCH OF A FAILURE I AM

“tAlk. you guys talked during mandarin week didnt you? TALK”

(mandarin week is this annual thing my school has to celebrate Lunar New Years where every class from every grade has to perform something in mandarin)

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? WHY ARE TEACHERS COMPARING US TO THE MANDARIN WEEK PERFORMANCE WHEN THE WHOLE SCHOOL JUST SCREENSHARED THEIR OWN CLASS VIDEOS? WE DIDN’T SAY SHIT. WE DON’T CARE IF YOU JUST SEND US VIDEOS OF YOUR EXPLANATION REGARDING A CERTAIN SUBJECT, WE DONT CARE IF YOU ANGLE YOUR CAMERA AWAY FROM YOUR FACE. AND WE CERTAINLY DONT CARE BOUT HOW OUR JUNIORS ARE BETTER THAN US

THIS ISNT SOME MY LITTLE PONY TYPA SHIT, WE AINT GONNA SETTLE OUR DIFFERENCES AND STOP HATING EACH OTHER AND POWER UP IN THE MAGIC OF FRIENDSHIP TO SET UP A BETTER EXAMPLE FOR OUR JUNIORS. HELL, IF OUR JUNIORS ARE BETTER THAN US THEN THEY SHOULD KNOW THAT THEY SHOULDNT BE LIKE US.

OH MY GOD IM GOING TO FUCKING THROW MY PRECIOUS POT OF YELLOW CARNATIONS OUT OF THE BALCONY FOR FUCKS SAKES IM SO M A D

#tenshi speaks #long ass rants you can just scroll #delete when i calmed down a bit lol #god i miss eighth grade #things were better then

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wolferals · 4 years ago

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🌟LOCKDOWN**🌟

arón piper preference

*sexual content, mentions of sex*

-you had been in lockdown for about 3 months and you became more and more bored being alone at your place

-you tried painting, watching tv and all that but you just felt lonely after all

-after it got a little less strict you hung out with Arón, Miguel and Omar all the time

-at some point Omar suggested you to move in with them because he saw how sad you always looked when you had to go home

-the first week you spent sleeping on the couch in the living room but eventually you and arón got closer over time

-Omar had his boyfriend over quite often as well and they also fought a lot in front of you guys

-so at some point aron and you went to go grocery shopping and then took a walk in the park

-thats when he had first kissed you

-but you both decided not to tell anyone because you were scared of them kicking you out again

-not that you actually think they‘d do that because you were kind of dating arón but if they knew, they‘d be teasing you all the time or be maybe annoyed by you two

-so thats how that went

-you and aron acted like friends around them but secretly you had been sneaking into his room at night to sleep with him instead of the uncomfortable couch

-you‘ve tried your best to keep it a secret even though its hard when aron walks around in his grey sweats all the time

-he sometimes sends you dirty texts when you‘re all sitting on the couch watching a movie

-damn it it was hard not to get wet by his texts

-„i can see how hard your nipples are through your top bebesita.“

-„you look so hot right now.“

-„i wanna fuck you so bad, cant wait for them to leave tomorrow.“

-„im getting hard baby“

-he kept teasing you all the time until one time you snapped when aron told them he was going to bed

-you excused yourself and said you‘d take a shower to catch aron in the hallway

-„come here.“ you had said and pulled him into the bathroom

-you had turned on the water in the shower and then given him a blowjob against the sink

-you know how much he loved you mouth

-and it had surely been hard for him not to moan loudly

-and when no one was watching he gave you quick kisses either on your cheek, forehead or lips

-besides all that, you never dared to have sex at night when omar and miguel were sleeping

-it was too risky

-you only did it when they went grocery shopping or taking a walk with miguels dog who was with his girlfriend mostly

-its crazy how the others havent found out after almost 3 weeks

-one night you snuck back into aróns room where he had already been waiting for you

-„hey.“ he whispered and opened his arms for you to cuddle him

-„omar is still up, i dont know if its such a good thing so sneak around anymore.“ you spoke quietly, slightly concerned

-„i know its shit but yesterday you said yourself that you got no „time“ for a boyfriend. A little controversial dont you think?“ he grinned

-„i mean yeah but cmon, its shit to lie to them.“

-he pulled you closer and then placed his hand on your butt

-that usually was his way to tell you he wanted sex

-but obviously everyone was home

-„aron no, theyre right next door“

-he grinned and spoke:“then i guess you gotta be quiet.“

-before you could complain he hovered over you and pressed your arms against his mattress

-you moaned in complaint but he shushed you and removed your oversized shirt, leaving you only in panties and an almost matching bralette

-„you‘re so damn beautiful do you know that?“ he whispered before placing a wet kiss on your lower stomach

-„aron please dont. They could come in any second.“

-he laughed a little and pulled down your panties

-„thats the point.“

-he started kissing your inner thighs and then left a wet trace up to your stomach

-„you gotta be quiet alright baby?“ he softly rubbed your right thigh before burying his head inbetween your legs

-it was so hard not to moan when his tongue circled around your clit

-meanwhile he was holding both your legs in place that you wouldnt move around

-you ended up biting into a pillow not to let anyone know what he was doing to you in this very moment

-your head kept moving from side to side while aron made it his job to pleasure your clit as much as he possibly could

-suddenly he stopped and came up just to push your bra up to your collarbones and took your left nipple in his mouth

-he started doing the same as he did to your clit

-he circled his tongue around and sucked on your nipple

-occasionally he lightly bit into it making you widen your eyes each times

-he then did the same to your other nipple before bringing his hand to his mouth to wetten it a bit

-eventually he ended up rubbing circles on your clit while licking your nipples and kissing you passionately

-you grabbed the back of his head and dug your nails into his skin

-that was your way of telling him how close you were

-he nodded to show you he understood and he stopped moving his fingers on your clit

-aron then went down on you again and finished his job with his mouth again

-he licked your clit carefully first but then got faster, looking up at you throughout the time he built up to your orgasm

-you placed your hand on his cheek which only encouraged him to go faster

-that eye contact while his tongue was pleasuring you killed you and you came

-he licked you one last time before coming up to you again and kissed you on the lips

-„you actually managed to stay quiet.“ he joked and put his arm around you again while you tried to catch your breath

-you then figured what he just said and replied „it was tough trust me. You‘re fucking good at that“ totally out of breath

-the light peeked through the closed blinds the next morning

-you could hear muffled noises but just figured that aron was up already and had turned on the radio

-so you cuddled up closer to his chest and tried to fall asleep again

-but the noises kept coming closer and closer to your mind and you ended up opening your eyes

-„jesus!“ you spoke while the shock ran through your entire body

-your yelling woke aron and he opened his eyes as well

-omar and miguel were standing in front of your bed, omar had his arms crossed

-miguel was grinning at your half naked bodies tangled together

-aron looked at them for a second before throwing his head back and whispering the word „joder“

-„soo, you guys owe us an explanation.“

#preference #aronpiper #omander #aronxreader #ander #cute #elite #preferences #smut

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cybernightwanderer · 4 years ago

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Off-radar until she had to declare ownership again.

Since the fight the other day, i have been avoiding my mom. My mental health has been getting worse and worse, and yesterday i finally noticed.

I have been sleeping almost 15 hours a day, i wake up so sore and in such pain, my head hurts, my body aches and twitches. My leggs seem out of control. I have no will, and no matter how much i sleep, i still cant get out of my bed. My sleeping schedules have been a mess, it gets changed, i fix it, two days later is back to switched and so on. Im angrier, more distant, less “here”, not even on my own head. Feels like im disapearing. I spend my nights crying, i dont even know why i am crying, i just know it hurts. The days seem longer, every two days seems like one mashed up together, i completly lost track of time. I dont remenber the last time i ate proper food, i have been drinking a glass of milk here and there just to keep hunger at bay. Its my breakfast and my dinner. I cant bring myself to cross paths with her, so i just stay in my room. And luckly she has barely pulled much talk, sometimes she tries to pull a fight but i just ignore and walk away back into my room, other times she plays nice and tries to pull normal conversations, but im just so tired i dont even dare to say anything. I know her too well, and im done fooling myself. If she wants to keep abusing me, then im like just go ahead, but im not gonna forgive and forget and play nice anymore, just do what you want. Yesterday she bursted into my room, telling me to go eat, and i told her i already eaten, she started complaining to a point she started yelling just because i wouldnt even reply to her, or because ive just been drinking milk. She has been insisting day yes and do no for me to eat her food, but im just too scared to, because i know what comes next. I have cans and rice in my room , i just cant make food when shes there, and i cant make food during the night, so im just stuck with milk. A few days ago she asked me to help her go buy groceries, and i explained to her that my sleeping schedule was messed up so i couldnt really go, but when i get up i would get the things she couldnt carry from the car. She grunted at me and said “ fine ill do it myself then “, later on when i woke up she burst into my room , ordering me to do a bunch of chores and all that. And so i did, i barely said a word, i just did it yet she still found reasons to complain, then i went back into my room. A few days pass, today at 6 am, she enters my room without knocking or permission as usual and asked me to go grocery shopping with her because she couldnt carry everything alone. So i told her, i am almost going to bed, but you can leave the dry things in the car and as soon as i get up , ill get everything, bring what you can carry home or the fresh things and ill get the rest. She looked at me in the eyes and started to show her angry expression. Repeating to me that she needs me to go because she isnt gonna take the car, she will go by foot after her jog and she wont have enough strengh to carry everything she wants to carry. And i told her why doenst she go by car? and leave it in the car for me to bring. She turned her back on me without saying a word, so i went back to my room and i closed the door. I didnt even have time to turn around and she calls me again, i open the door and she insists. “I dont want to go by car, and i cant carry everything so i need you to come with me.” And i explained again that i couldnt because i was really sleepy, and my head really hurt. She started complaining and turned around again, while yelling “ ill do it myself then “. Note : this woman can beat the living shit out of a grown adult, can go jogg for one hour and a half, and carry her own grocery baggs. However sometimes yells at me just to carry ONE BAG that only has vegetables and its the weight of one litter of milk only. All my life she used me as a weight carrying dunkey, my back started to get damaged because of that, a small kidd carrying full baggs of grocery shopping 4 times her weight, while she sat at the tv watching her shit and eating. Today my back is beyond repair, and i can barely carry the weight of my own body without getting horrible strikes of pain that incapacitate me from even moving for the rest of the day. And honestly the fridge was full of food, the freezer too, i havent been eating, what is she going to restock? Shes just feeding herself. She just needed to buy veggies and fruit, and that honestly is just ONE bag. Fast forward, i fell asleep around 13pm and woke up at 8 pm. As soon as i get of my room with the intentions of “eating breakfast” she turns to me and starts questioning if i eaten and if i was going to eat. I told her i was on my way to. She then says “ im gonna make stew, dont you want to make some rice?” I explain to her “ no , because im gonna eat my breakfast now “ She then replies “ yeah i dont care, your gonna make rice now , you dont wanna eat fine but your gonna make for me then” i just stood there looking at her, she then with a more agressive tone “ go wash your hands and make that rice right now” I went to the bathroom, i was mad asf, humiliated. I was going to the kitchen and she yelled “ go make the rice now “ So i replied to her “ yes boss, yes owner “ She started yelling all ofended “ its your duty to -” to wich i cut her off and told her “ why are you complaining , thats what you are, you treat me like a dog, so you’re my owner apparently “ She started ranting and ranting, and i just told her i was doing what she wanted, she shouldnt even be complaining. Then she started laughing and just going like “ you’re so spoiled, you’re a brat, your there pouting so shamefull “ “ and while you’re at that wash my carpet, you shouldve done it weeks ago “ Note : HER CARPET, HER FOOD. A full grown ass woman, cant do her own things, and im the spoiled and brat... She started to continue to try yelling at me, and i just yelled until she shut up. And apparently reapeating “ im doing what you ordered me to do , why are you still complaining, you should be happy , im doing your things for you “ She eventually shut up. But as soons as im done with everything, i went back into my room without eating anything, i layed back on my bed, and just layed there, defeated, humiliated, crying. My body is not mine, my will is not mine. She then called her friend to talk trash about me on how spoiled i am right outside my door, how ungratefull i am and what a brat i am, and how she does everything for me. What? letting me stay in a room i pay and have payed every since i got my first job? while my two older brothers never did? letting me stay in a house where i clean what i use? where i buy my own food and things? where i just stay in my roon and barely leave so she doesnt get bothered? WOW so amazing, what a hero. The holy mother.

#depression #suicide #anxienty #mental #mental health #mental illness #domestic violence #domestic abuse #abuse

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bma-2020 · 5 years ago

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Okiedok here’s the delio. I have a list of all the blogs from the last six months who’s actively either responded to a meme i sent, responded to a message ive sent, replied to something regarding mally herself, has actually written with me, written a starter for me from my liking a starter call, has at least liked a starter i wrote for them to awknowedge it exists, all that jazz, i have a lot of open field so it’s not just a possible tumblr didnt let them no option anymore, because i send memes to everyone who posts them that i see. I reply to most peoples ooc posts. I like most starter calls I pass by. I try my darndest to actually interact bc i know how it feels to be ignored and its… i’ve been called one before so i’m using the word, thats fluffing cunty behavior, and honestly if you complain about not being interacted with but never even try when i try with you, ya being cunty, end of. I gotta list. That list only entails Mally because she’s who I care about the most. I’m probably gonna start instilling a new rule in all my blogs that if you ignore Mally and/or Darcy( @tasedandconfused ), since I would say they’re my two main blogs tho darcy gets ignored even more than mally does, probably bc i denied canon and left it entirely we know fandom hates that, if either of them is ignored then… Ya out of luck, I’m gonna unfollow you. I’m debating soft blocking everyone who ignored me on both of them but I don’t want to like be mean and deny the chance to eventually try again but at the same time i shouldnt feel bad for taking a stand and saying this is bullsheet, idk my anxiety says im awful for giving a fluff about myself but also i should give a fluff about myself probably, ive nearly died in the last three months, my brain almost exploded, i just had three root canals on one corner of my face, i have to potentially get surgery on my inner ear which i cant even afford, i dont got time to deal with only being used for like smut memes or like as a resource blog or utter bs like that, i dont got time for it. So new rules here. 1: If Mally or Darcy are not acknowledged, written with, responded to, viewed as more than just their fluffing bodies? ya dropped, im unfollowing, potentially soft blocking, which means blocking and unblocking for those not in the know, on all accounts I follow you on. Every single one. I know most of my muses are on sideblogs but despite not being able to send memes from sideblogs you can block people from sideblogs fun fact, i will do that if i have to. 2: I’m gonna be posting SCs, PCs, memes, etc. I like and respond to plotting calls, starter calls, i send memes, all of that. If I don’t get any response within.. I’m giving one week for people who don’t run on a queue and a month and a half to people on a queue based system, if i dont get anything within that time like at least an im being like ‘its posted’ or ‘its queued i wanted to let you know in case tumblrs a fluffbutt’ (i do this sometimes if i dont get even just a like on the starters i post so i at least know people saw it since i know tumblrs bs, i wait until the day they’re active to do so in case theyre busy yknow) basically i need acknowledgment at all. No you can’t claim this is abt follower count bc when you unfollow someone they inevitably unfollow you too, thats gonna drop my following, not as quickly as soft blocking would but i wanna be fair i guess, which leads to: 3: I’m basing this on your activity too, like if i like a think and you’re gone for a month after that its fine, im not gonna unfollow you unless you never come back or youre online and posting others just not mine because that tells me youre specifically ignoring me and im gonna drop you for that end of. I’m done with the bullsheet im done w the dillish behavior, i love friendship but if im giving and never receiving thats extremely one way and not gonna work. I check through my follow list weekly and i go back about five-10 pages on someones feed before i unfollow them to see their actual activity and see if theyre here or if its a q so. I’m thorough basically. 4: You dont have to be active with me on all your blogs, i mean i’d prefer it but thats hard as fluff so essentially if you have like five blogs and are just like trying w me on two or three thats fine. Ten blogs, four or five with at least a plot formed is cool. Multis just one muse is all I’d need. I’m not gonna unfollow the blogs youre not writing w me on if you at least write w me on some. Again, specifically Mally and/or Darcy. If you ignore both of them, we’re done. I havent been active on darcy because of being ignored and its a huge butt mess and im just tired i wanna use my babies, you don’t get to have my ‘better’ muses like i know a lot of ppl only follow me for my boys or my villains, you don’t get them if you ignore my baby. But, there is a limit there too. 5: If you never respond to a meme or thread even once with Mally or Darcy, or post a starter, i reply, its never replied to again after a month, I’m unfollowing and/or soft blocking for that too. Bc that means youre just raising my hopes to fluff with me or get someone else and honestly, youre even more cunty than than the people just flat out ignoring me if you do that. And this isnt a specific person, this is five of the people actually on my list. Yes, my list is also annotated with specifics again I was very thorough on this yesterday, I hyperfixated I’ll admit it, I’m in a fluffing depressionary bubble and being told to get over it because people want something they dont deserve to have to. I am a believer that people deserve good things but if youre purposefully being cunty… no you dont. 6: No I’m not releasing my list, maybe I will and I’ll omit the urls because I don’t want people being buttholes to each other too but otherwise, yall not seeing it im not giving a callout because… really thats just unnecessary here. I don’t think yall are toxic people or something i just think yall are unintentionally being cunty. And no I don’t mean everyone that follows me i mean the ppl that add up to what i’ve documented so far and fit the bill of butthat that i’ve shown, its behaviors yall gotta check before ya wreck. Yes there will be some people who have priority, everyone has those people, I write w kathryn on other platforms since she doesnt go on here as often but when Kathryn returns from war here (if she does cause she also agrees most ppl on this platform are cunty, i feel really bad saying that word so often but im gonna keep doing it i recently deleted an ask saying I was a huge cunt for not sending someone smut memes when I didn’t even follow them or know they existed so, again the travesty of this place is nutballers) same with owly, alex is here too, my most active partners are always going to be priority because theyre the ones who show the most interest and the most care. I understand that with others as well which is why I have the timeframe set up, because I want to be as open and shizz as possible while atill being firm i guess. I don’t want to have extreme double standards like its impossible for double standards not to exist at least a little bit but I want to avoid a golden chest full of them I guess. 7: I don’t have a seven rn, this was an even number and it bothered me. Seven is nust my warning that I’m bittery writing this on mobile so formatting is not real but i tried my dandest to make this look like something people might actually mind. I dont want to be butty, i dont want to be awful, i dont want to start drama or have drama but that shizz comes around anyways so i might as well make my space as okay for me as i can cause im supposed to avoid stress so my brain doesnt almost explode again, like again i almost fluffing died i dont need ppl fake being my friend or anything, i want stuff to be real and clear. I want to be happy to be on here again and have fun like i used to since my health is plummetting and I’m not allowed to go outside near plants by myself anymore because i welt up. I have plants outside my work place and im surrounded by chemicals all day long I’m welted from here to new york constantly and never comfortable in my own skin because of it and constantly see people online acting like these actual real problems are pretentious because ‘its an excuse’ when, im a fluffing sagittarius, do you know how much i want to magically be a millionaire so i can pay for friends and my own medical stuff and go on traveling and adventures, be outside probably not camping bc as a pagan i know thats a death sentence but like be outside, lay on grass, go back to swimming because i used to swim competitively and due to health reasons i can barely even go in a pool anymore because theres too much sunlight which, bit plot twist i know, im fluffing allergic to vitamin D and the rays of the sun, so go figure, attempts to be healthy kill me more, i also cant eat most plants and am constantly dying from just eating food, they dont know whats wrong with me. i cant fix it by going ve/gan for a month inf act i tried and it almost made my heart stop thanks society. These arent excuses these are the lives of disabled and diseased and to a lesser but still very real point, ethnic lives every fluffing day. This is real shit and its murder and online and gaming? It may be all I have soon since I can’t just go out and make new friends cause, again, I’d fluffing die. I get sick going to the mall or the movie theater, I miss theme parks so much but have to minimize it to weeks i dont have work so i dont get fired for having a welt while working in the beauty industry. I may have to get a degree online and change my field entirely because of my illness that nobody understands. People even make fun of it constantly online and I wish I could just drop online entirely because of how unbelievably ableist the entirety of the world is, i wish i could drop humans in general for their ableism, but i cant. I don’t have choices in most cases, but throwing away people who maybe purposefully maybe unintentionally thats why i’m giving you this warning and will be repeating this warning for awhile, this is where i have choice. I have to use what little choice I have in life while I can since everytime i go to movies or a concert or a theme park i almost die because of not having an immune system that functions or being in certain air qualities pr being near plants or unclean people, I may not have much time and I gotta do whats best for what little mental health I have, and if that means dropping people i care about and really want to write with and do things with but who ignore me then, i guess so be it.

#out.#illness cw #health cw #food mention #ive been writing this since noon and its now two pm so this is great #i’s usually put this under a read more but... maybe most people dont deserve a read more rn lol #their behavior will keep being awful if its not pointed out to them so #im done im gonna go welt up from hugging my cat and cry for a bit because i feel mean

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rubyneo · 4 years ago

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Hey I'm very sorry that I got really heated up on your inbox yesterday when talking about rvvbytw*tt*r. I was just remembering how... rude people can be in that community. And I felt bad about bringing up R*m*n into it b/c since I love him, that's where I would experience whatever discussion goes on about him. I was remembering how last month there were these character polls going around and he was winning/scoring high in some of them and people threw hissy fits b/c of that (1/2)

And it's funny b/c one of the first polls I saw that was a general favorite character poll had most RVVBY characters, even minor characters in it, but R*m*n was excluded, and I barely saw anyone complain about that. But he scores high on SOME polls? "OMG you have NO TASTE!!! HE'S A CLOWN AND STUPID RAT!!! DISGUSTING!!" And people wonder why I'm so sensitive about loving him or making content of him when I see shit like this when on Twitter even when blocking and filtering shit. (2/2)

dont apologize dude i GET IT. twitter is just. so much worse for trying to filter content than tumblr is and thats saying something. like here? i can literally filter out blogs, if i block someone they dont show up on my dash anymore, generally blocking words and tags lets me get away from shit i dont wanna see AND people do generally tag their stuff here too. on twitter tho? i muted b*mble*y and every other version i could think of and i still have to see the content bc. no one bothers to tag it (bc twitters tagging system is shit anyway). im so sorry u had to deal with all that roman hate, i dont even rly get why people act like that ab him. he was a fun character! i liked him! and yet so many people seem to think he's like. trash.

#silly tag #💌.txt #a little more salt here in the tags:#people like cl*ver more even tho he's literally a cop just bc?? they thot he was gay??? lmao????#at least r*man was a pretty boy and for the most part followed c*nder bc she let him know in no uncertain terms that he was expendable to #her. just. ugh #salt tag

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Winston/Monty pt. 11 part 1 out of 2 because its loooong

Scott cleaned the dishes while Winston took his medicine.

"You should visit his grave. You know... I dont think you failed him. He's not disappointed in you- but proud of thta you tried."

"Maybe."

"He really trusted you to do that. Did he told you that?"

Scott nooded.

"Then you already know that he wont be disappointed in you."

"You really think so... right?"

"Yes. He's your friend."

Scott sighed and looked down in the sink.

"Jeff was really a nice guy- he had a huge heart and supported so many. The funeral was the absolute worst. So many people crying, disturbed. He died to young."

"You really liked him."

"Well of course I do."

Winston smiled.

"No."

"'No' What?"

"I didnt mean it like that. Not as your best friend."

Scott didnt responds to that directly.

"He was just a friend. I told you."

"Would you say the same if you'd look at me? Almost everytime you talk about him you won't look at me. You're hiding something."

"Theres nothing to hide."

Winston sighed and stood up.

"Maybe you'll tell me later. I wont pressure you into something you dont want to say. I'll go to sleep now. You can chose one of the quest rooms. One is near mine, the other ones are on the 3rd floor. Good night."

Winston left and leaves Scott alone in the kitchen.

"Fuck it. I wasnt in love with him." He whispered to himself.

"He was my best friend, not my first male crush:"

Why would he even think about that if he wasnt?

He stood there for some seconds more until he decided to go to one of the guest rooms.

He choosed the one near Winstons.

They didnt saw each other until the next day.

Scott checked on Winston- He'ss still asleep- all the stress and probably the medicine knocked him out pretty hard.

He took a shower and got dressed- after that he decided to drive hom to grab some stuff. He left Winston a note in case he would wake up while he was gone.

He took Winstons car to drive home where he packed up some clothes and put on new ones.

Scott looked at he clock. Must be lunchtime at Liberty now. There was still some unfinished business in this school for him. And since he was in town now anyway he could visit this hellhole.

He get back into the car and drove to the school. He went there long enough but after 8 month and the second visit... it still felt weird.

He was the one the school chose to give Montys stuff to since his parents didnt care enough for it.

After he arrived at school he parked his car in a parking lot near by the school, then he stepped out and took a deep breath.

No one was around so he felt at least a bit more comfortable. All that changed after he entered the school building. The halls were filled with students. People he know and some he dont.

But no one seemed to notice him. Luckily. At least he thought so.

Without any further thinking he walked straight towards the principals office- but stopped after someone grabbed his arm and some other called his name.

"Scott!"

He got dragged away by the one who grabbed his arm.

"Long time no hypocrite. Didnt expect to see you around here anymore after you buggered off after the whole Bryce "rape" thing."

Scott tried to stay calm.

"What do you want?"

"We just wonder why you're here and that you still have the courage for it."

"Why? Should I feel afraid of you?"

"Maybe."

"I dont. Let me go, I have somethng to take care of."

"What is it?"

"Non of your business."

"You know whats our business?"

"What?"

"Why are you walking around with a fucking faggot?"

"I dont understand."

"We saw you with hime- the last days. The one guy with pale skin and black hair. The faggot."

He just looked at them.

"The faggot? Yeah?" taking this word in his mouth made him feel disgusted.

"Dont you think its time to stop using thie word? How old are you? 10?"

"Why are you defending him? Are you one of them now too?"

The other guys laughed.

"I mean look at him- hes probably going back to him. Thats why hes wearing his bes clothes."

The guys continued to laugh.

"And even if I am- it not your problem anymore. I'm not your friend anymore. So I can do what ever the fuck I want."

"So youre fucking him. Disgusting. Monty would have beat the shit outta you. Sadly he died because someone rat about what he did."

Scott laughed this time.

"I bet he would have. Totally. Except I was a trued friend of him and he never judged me."

He turned around and pushed past between the other students- he still could hear them shit talking.

Scott didnt glanced over his shoulder and turned left around he almost ran Alex over.

"Scott."

"Alex."

"What are you doing here?"

"Taking care of Montys stuff."

"Hm. Jeard you talk with these guys over there. Are you staying with Winston."

"Maybe."

"How does it feel to be around someone whos fighting against us?"

"I dont care. You did something wrong and have to pay for it. Why are you even so angry about it? At me? You can stop that now. Its getting annoying."

Scott walked down the hall and Alex followed him, he entered an empty room.

"I am because I want to."

Zach appeared behind Alex, out of knowhere. As well as Clay, Justin and the rest of the group.

"So childish. You know I didnt sell out Montys trust so the next moment you could pin the murder of Bryce on him. I'm not your friend- The only one I actually just cared about in thsi whole group was Clay. And because I dont owe you anything I can do what I want. Step up for what you did wrong. You cant serve justice while cobering up a murder."

Alex blood boiled with every word he siad.

"Why do you even care? I mean Monty was a criminal. Murder or not."

"Because- surprise- he was my friend."

"Why are you helping Winston?"

"Because he thinks the same:"

"Yeah? Really?"

Zach grabbed Alex arm ad whispered a silent "Lets go". But Alex didnt want to stop.

"You're just helping him because you think hes hot."

Scott blinked in confusion.

"And I think you just killed Bryce because he wanted to fuck up Zachs life. The person you love so much but wont admit it because you're a coward. Wont even notice hiw much he liked you back."

Alex got furious and shoved Zach away from him, angrily.

"How dare you?"

Scott laughed.

"Thank me later."

Zach looked back and forth between them and started to blush.

"Wha... not true!" and he rushed away.

Alex looked afte him.

"You're gonna pay for this" and then he followed him.

Clay stared at Scott for some seconds.

"What? Do you want to complain too? Because I really dont eanna end up in a fight with you."

"No I .... who told you to look after me?"

Scott rolled his eyes.

"Should be pretty obvious. Dont it? It was Jeff."

"Oh... really...?"

"Yeah."

"Why?"

"I dont know. Maybe bevause he knew you neeede help or something."

"But he was around most of the time."

"He was but it was for the time he couldnt be around."

Clay nooded to that.

"So... do you really think Winston is hot?"

Justin started to laugh.

"Dude dont ask that."

"But..."

"What the fuck Clay?" Scott said in confusion.

"I'm sorry."

"You know..." Scott started. "Everyone finds Winston hot- even the most hetero guys alive."

Clay laughed at this and pat him on the shoulder.

"Good joke man. You looked so serious saying that."

"Thats beause I was being serious.

He shook his head slightly and then walked away. Grabbing Montys stuff from the office.

After that he took the emergrency exit and rushed to the car- with it, he drove home.

He entered the house and went straight to the kitchen- the box with Montys stuff still in his hands. He placed it on the counter.

Scott made some coffee and was about to open up the fridge as he heard steps that stopped right in the doorframe.

Winston stood there- with a bit of a shocked look on his face.

It made him worrying.

"Somethings up?"

Winston just hsook his head, still kinda tired because oth the meds.

"I just..." he rubbed his eyes."

"Its just the... look on you. The clothes. Monty used to ear the m all the time."

"Oh...yeah... I can change it for something else if you want me to. If its more comfortable for you."

"No." Winston shook his head. "Its fine. Really."

He noticed the box on the counter.

"Whats that?"

"Montys last belongings. I thought you might wanna have them. Its not much but enough for you I hope..."

Winston took a seat and grabbed the box.

"You were in school right? How was it?"

"Seems like everyone of my former so called "friends" hate me now. But I dont really care. Met Alex and his friend again to. Had a little fight. But wasnt that bad. Still feels weird going back there..."

"I can imagine that."

"Anyway Winston... how are you feeling?"

"Good. Better than yesterday."

They had breakfast together as Scott received a message.

Sheri. She wanted to meet them.

"Hey Winston?"

"Hm?"

"Gotta problem coming with me to visit Jeffs grave?"

"You really think I should come with you? Why do you even want to visit him now?"

"Sheri just wrote me - she wants to go there. And she invited you."

"Oh really? If she wants me to come I'll say yes."

He wrote her back, that they would meet at 2pm.

Sheri: "It really didnt sound like you want to visit him yesterday.

Scott: "That was yesterday. Now is today and my mood is better too."

Scott took the bag with his clothes out of the car after they finished eating and headed upstairs as Winston stopped him.

"Already feeling like home here dont you?" he siad, pointing at the bag.

"Oh- I just thought that I should stay for some days more. Just in case."

"Right. I know that." Winston smiled.

He carried his bag up the stairs and placed it on the bed, he sat down next to it. He choosed some dark clothes for that occasion even though he knew that Jeff probably wouldnt like that.

Winston watched him from the door frame silently. Scott ddint notice him because he was stcuck in a daydream.

"Are you ready?" Winston said finally and Scott almost jumped.

"I am - I think."

They got into Winstons car and drove the long way to the graveyard.

There he parked the car in an empty spot and togther they walked up the way- Sheri was already waiting for them there.

"Finally here- I think I was to early." She laughed and looked at Winston.

"Nice to see you again- now we'll introcude you to our best friend." she whispered quietly, not to disturb the other visitors.

Together they walked to Jeffs grave - which was decorated with many flowers.

"Looking good." Scott said, after seeing all these flowers.

"Obviously it must be. Jeff was such a sweetie."

Sheri claimed, Scott secretly agreed to it.

"So why'd you chose to come? Yesterday you sounded a bit stressed."

He looked at Winston for some seconds.

"Well... Winston helped me to understand that I shouldnt feel resposible for Montys death."

Sheri tilted her head slightly.

"What does that has to do with Jeff?"

"I...." he looked at Winston again. "I guess... I ahve to tell you something."

And he told her. About everything. About what Jeff told him- what he ased him for. About Monty. About Clay. That Scott flt like the burdern was all on him.

He strayed calm through all of it.

"He had to much hopes in me- Monty and the others dragged me deep into their darkness. That non of theri fault. If only, thene mine. Because I knew what would happen."

"Oh damn... But... he should've never left it all on you. Ther was no chance of you to handle it all alone."

"I did it anyway- I wanted to."

Sheri and Winston both waited for a clear answer.

"I wanted to make him proud. Ther are still things I will always deny. For the fact that its now to late and never was about any relevance."

Sheri laughed.

#13 reasons why #13rw #monty de la cruz #winston williams #13 reasons why fanfic #fanfiction #fanfic #scott reed #winston x monty #sheri holland

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saatanan · 5 years ago

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fuck this

everything fucking sicks i hate this goddamn day nothing is going well

i woke up 2 fucking hours late and all my high waisted jeans are in the wash so i have ti wear my one pair of low waisted lnes that i cant even get the button closed on bc my hips are so fuckibg wide and they give me such a muffin top so that absoluteky fucking destroyed my self confidence so i have to wear baggy fucking shirts that i hate bc they make me into a formeless blob of fat and sweat but i have to hide the jeans and my fuckibg stomach, my mom was really distant so i couldnt go to the first 2 classes today, no big deal i guess but then i have finnish and literatule after that and i have an assignment that i hadnt even started bc i dont know whta the hell i was gonna write about, i got it started but now i have to finish it at home, rly frustrated about that i skipped the break in tge bathroom almost started crying cause this day is going like shit i feel way too fucking emotional my face hurts, lunch break came i didnt eat for the first time in a while.

cried for the rest of the lunchbreak atleast my makeuo isnt running ig

i feel like nobody gives a shit i tried to talk to my friends about it the only one who could care is my gf but i dont wanna concern her too much but none of my friends are responding to anything i say theyre online tho so thats nice :))))))))))))

i hate this goddamn world so much i had a good day yesterday but this day is like the fucking opposite i cabt stop crying and i dont wanna be here

i dont wanna go see my school "friends" i cabt stand them rn i dint wanna talk i hate that they dont actually give a shit if i complain how much i wanna die its just a fucking joke at this point cause i say it too fucking much

i want to get away

i dont want to be here anymore

i want a new life

i want a new body

just give me a fresh start

just let me be

#rant #i just wanna rant rn idk #tw suicide #ig #tw self hatred #tw fat shaming #just myself tho

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squishykpoptummies · 6 years ago

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hey! sorry if you dont write this kinda stuff but would u be able to write a yoonkook fic where jk is very afraid of gaining weight and works out all the time but yoongi really wants to see him become all soft and cute, and eventually jungkook starts growing out his clothes bc yoongis been secretly feeding him and at first jungkook is very insecure but he learns to love his new softer body?

a/n: this got way longer and angstier than i wanted it too oops. but it is possibly the fluffiest angst i have ever written, which shouldn’t be possible but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i like how it came out so that’s something lol. ((alsooo it gets a teeny bit nsfw?? but just for like three sentences and nothing actually happens yoongi just has a very active imagination))

~~~

It was five in the morning, and Yoongi was awake. He didn’t want to be awake, obviously, but his idiot of a boyfriend had very loudly knocked something over. Yoongi groaned.

“Ah! Sorry, hyung,” Jungkook whispered.

“Just get back in bed, Kook.”

There was silence after that, and Yoongi blearily opened an eye to find Jungkook worrying his lip between his teeth, looking intently at the floor. “But I have to go to the gym.”

“No you don’t.”

“Yes, I do. You made me skip yesterday, so I have to go today.”

“Hey, you woke me up, so you come make it up to me. We can fuck later, or something, that’ll be your workout for the day.”

Jungkook flushed brilliantly. “Hyung,” he whined.

Yoongi reached out towards him, making grabby hands, and if he weren’t half-asleep, he’d absolutely hate himself for it. “C’mon. Sleep now.”

Jungkook sighed, but gave a small smile nonetheless as he climbed back in bed.

–

“Whoa, what is all this?”

Yoongi looked up from the book he was reading, dog-eared the page and then got up to greet his boyfriend. “Just got some takeout,” he said, pressing a short kiss to Jungkook’s lips. “How was work?”

Jungkook was still staring at the table, filled with a large array of takeout containers. “But this is enough to feed, like, ten people, how are we supposed to eat of this?”

Yoongi shrugged. “We can have leftovers. I mean, they won’t be as good the next day, but whatever. Go change out of your work clothes and let’s eat; I’m starving.”

Jungkook nodded slowly before making his way to the bedroom. Yoongi watched him go, taking in the amazing view of his ass straining against his work pants. Jungkook had always had a fantastic ass, but in the past few months, it had just gotten even better.

Okay, honestly… that was kind of Yoongi’s doing. He hadn’t been trying to fatten his boyfriend up, per se, he’d just wanted to younger boy to let loose once in a while, and maybe stop going to the gym fucking six days a week. And, to Yoongi’s surprise, it worked.

He’d convinced Jungkook to just go to the gym three times a week instead (though he did insist on having sex more frequently, to “compensate,” as he put it, but hey, Yoongi wasn’t complaining), and also increase the number of cheat days he allowed himself, which Yoongi filled with tons of sweets, chips, ice cream, anything Jungkook wanted, really. And the results were showing.

In the last few months, Jungkook had slowly developed a layer of pudge that covered up his abs, his thighs had gotten thicker, his pecs softer, and his cheeks rounded out adorably. And of course his ass. It was beautiful.

“Hyung?”

Yoongi was jolted back to reality and greeted with the sight of his gorgeous boyfriend, now in pajamas. The same pajamas that, two months ago, had been pretty loose on the younger boy, but now showed off a small but definitely there tummy, clung to love handles when he turned just so, stretched the fabric along his upper thighs. God, he’d never get over how perfect Jungkook was.

“Oh, yeah, hey. Let’s eat.”

–

It was eight-thirty and the food was gone. Yoongi was shocked. Jungkook was shocked, but was also seconds away from slipping into a well-deserved food coma because he ate like six fucking servings of Chinese food.

Yoongi let out a low whistle. “Looks like we finished it.”

“I’m so full I think I’m going to die.”

“Yeah, I can tell,” Yoongi chuckled. Jungkook’s stomach now pressed tightly against his shirt, perfectly round, but definitely painful looking. Yoongi wanted to touch it so bad. Wanted to touch all of Jungkook, feel out his new curves, learn this new body. And he wanted to fuck right now, go over to Jungkook and straddle him, his stuffed tummy pushed against Yoongi’s softer one, touching, feeling, ride him until he can’t see straight, until they both become so undone–

Stop, stop, stop, now was not the time, he needed to be present for Jungkook, get him to bed, probably give him some antacids, etc. And he needed to have a sit-down conversation with Jungkook about this. At some point. Maybe.

“Holy shit,” Jungkook breathed, looking down at his stomach. “I look like I ate a watermelon or something.”

“Pretty small watermelon. Wanna sleep it off?”

“If I move I think I might puke.”

“Well that wouldn’t be good.”

“Mmm. Definitely an undesirable outcome.”

“Wanna belly rub?”

Jungkook gave Yoongi a Look out of the corner of his eye. “That’s kinda weird, hyung.”

Yoongi shrugged. “Just thought it might help. Don’t have to if you don’t want to.”

“Sorry.”

“No ‘sorry’s. I’m getting you antacids and then I’m putting you to bed.”

Jungkook gave a small smile. “Sounds good.”

–

It all came to a head three weeks later.

“I’m back,” Yoongi announced, slipping off his shoes. He placed the groceries on the kitchen counter, looked to the living room, expecting to find Jungkook on the couch, watching TV or something, as he’d been more prone to do lately. He wasn’t there. “Kook?” he called out. No response.

But the door to their bedroom was closed. Maybe he was taking a nap. But when he went to open the door, it was locked. Weird. “Kookie, you in there?”

There was definitely movement from the other side, feet shuffling on carpet, drawers opening and closing.

“Don’t come in!” came Jungkook’s voice. And it sounded… panicked?

“You okay in there?”

“Fine,” Jungkook said, voice strained.

“Will you let me in?”

“…No.”

Yoongi sighed. “Jungkook, I really don’t wanna use the master key, but I will. If I have to. You know I would. There is literally no reason for this door to be locked. Let me in before I start thinking the worst.”

There was silence for a moment, two moments, and Yoongi pinched the bridge of his nose, tried to remember where they last put the key, and then the lock clicked. Yoongi let out a breath he didn’t know he’d been holding and slowly pushed opened the door.

Jungkook was seated on the edge of their bed, head down, body tense, and Yoongi tried to scan him over for any possible injuries, but the large sweatshirt he was wearing did a good job at hiding his body. Yoongi stepped over the piles of clothes strewn about (why were all their clothes on the floor?) and sat down next to Jungkook.

Yoongi looked him over again. “Any injuries.”

Jungkook sighed. “No.” He let out a shaky laugh. “You do always think the worst.”

Yoongi huffed. “Habit. Hey, can you look at me?”

So he did. Yoongi bit his lip at the sight of Jungkook’s red, puffy eyes and flushed cheeks.

“You’ve been crying,” Yoongi stated softly. “Why?”

Jungkook shrugged.

“C’mon. What happened.”

“I dunno. Nothing.”

“Jungkook,” Yoongi said, voice warning.

“It doesn’t matter. It’s stupid. Can we move on?”

“Well, it obviously matters if it’s made you this upset.”

“I just,” Jungkook looked to the ceiling. “I don’t… feel good, about myself, I guess.”

Yoongi stayed quiet. He knew there was more.

“None of my clothes fit.”

Oh. That’s what this was about. “Because you’ve put on weight?”

Jungkook nodded to the ceiling. “It’s… I feel so weird. Like. My body isn’t mine anymore.”

Yoongi considered this. “Well, you’re still you.”

“I know.”

“I think you look really good.”

“You’re my boyfriend, you have to say that.”

Yoongi clucked his tongue. “I don’t lie.”

“You cheat at board games.”

“That’s different.”

Jungkook cracks a smile. “Sure, hyung.”

“Kook-ah. I need you to look me in the eyes when I say this.”

Jungkook turned his gaze to Yoongi, who gently took hold of the younger boy’s hands.

“I love you,” Yoongi said, trying to put as much emphasis behind the words as possible. “I love you so much. You’re on of the best things that’s ever happened to me, and nothing will change that, especially your weight. If you want to lose some, that’s fine. If you want to stay where you are, that’s fine. If you want to gain more, that’s fine. All I want is for you to be healthy, and be happy. And I want you to let me help you. Yeah?”

Jungkook nodded. His eyes had gone glossy, and Yoongi’s own felt suspiciously wet, throat tight, face hot.

“I love you, too,” Jungkook whispered.

The kiss they share is soft, slow, wet with tears– happy tears? relieved tears? Yoongi wasn’t sure, but they didn’t feel like a bad thing. He felt warm, secure in the arms of the person he loved and who loved him back.

They resurfaced after a few minutes. “Do you wanna keep talking about this?” Yoongi asked quietly.

Jungkook took in a deep breath. “I don’t know how I feel about the weight yet. I don’t really wanna think about it that much.”

“Would fucking me make you feel better?”

Jungkook choked, burst into giggles, funnier than it should’ve been, broken tension freeing. “Horny bastard.”

“What can I say?” Yoongi shrugged. “I’m dating the hottest guy on earth.”

Jungkook shook his head, smiling, impossibly cute bunny teeth poking out, and nudged into Yoongi’s shoulder. “We should, like, totally do that at some point tonight, but honestly? Right now I just want to watch some anime and eat a lot of popcorn.”

Yoongi smiled, pressed a kiss to Jungkook’s cheek. “That can definitely be arranged.”

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the-fiction-witch · 7 years ago

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REAL LIFE: COUPLE: TBS X READER RATING: SMUT

MENTIONS OF DRUG USE

Y/N POV:

I dug under my bed looking for my little box I found it opening it up WHAT! its empty! it only filled this up like yesterday so I rush out into my flat

“LILLY? did you by any chance borrow some of my stash?” I ask her very annoyed

“what? Oh yeah me and luke had a little to make brownies for the party” she explains

“Ugh! buy your dam own” I yell grabbing my jacket and my purse leaving the flat going down the stairs calling up ace “hey ace, look lilly stole my stuff again where are you?” I ask him

“sorry Y/n fresh out, not got anymore coming in for a week” he explains

“really? fine, anyone else who might have some?” i ask

“well go see thomas he had a shit tone yesterday when i saw him” he tells me

“cheers” I sigh hanging up and rushing back up the stairs all the way to the top floor of the block of flats and knocking on thomas’ door but nothing “THOMAS! OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR I KNOW YOUR THERE” I yell

“Bugger off Y/n” he yells back

“Open the door thomas” I sigh

“why? what do you want?” he asks

“just to chat” I lie

“fuck off y/n i’m not got any” he sighs as I heard him unlock the door so I quickly go inside locking the door behind me

“Bull shit thomas, ace said he saw you had a tone yesterday” I sigh going into his living room where he now sat on the sofa

“I did, I sold Jack some“ he sighs

“no jack doesn’t smoke anymore, plus you dont sell I know you” I sigh

“I did I sold jack some said he was seeing some girl and wanted some, I made the rest into cookies” He explains

“then can I have a cookie” I ask

“I ate them” he laughs

“you made cookies out your whole stash and then ate all off them?” I ask

“yep” he sighs

“you’d be off your head if you had dont lie to me” I sigh sitting on his sofa with him “Please thomas, Lilly and her boyfriend stole all mine, then make it into brownies which I can assume as I know what she’s like they had one then threw the rest away” I sigh

“then thats your problem” he sighs so I just moved slightly and kicked his coffee table making everything fall out the little secret compartment

“you fucking liar” I laugh trying to grab it but he got there first

“fine I have some, but your not having any” he tells me

“why not?” I ask

“get your own” he tells me

“I did then Lilly stole it, Please thomas just one, please” I beg “Im desperate” I beg

“Ugh…fine, money on the table I’ll roll you one” he says beging to roll

“Ohhh…uhhh I dont have any money” I tell him

“then none for you” he laughs

“Oh thomas come on, I dont get paid till next week, Lilly short me on her half of the rent and I had to pay to get my car fixed” I complain

“fine, you owe me it then the day you get paid” he sighs

“I can’t, I’ve got more rent to pay, and food shopping to do, and I need new clothes…”I begin

“well then you cant have it, how many times have we been though this y/n you cant pay me you dont get any” he sighs

“Oh thomas come on share you frigid bastard!” I yell trying to grab it

“fine, we can share it, but you still owe me” he sighs lighting it up having a smoke off it and collapsing against his sofa blowing the smoke into the air and handing it to me

“how much?” i ask

“about thirty quid” He sighs

“fine, eventually” i sigh smoking it and laying back on the sofa too handing it back to him as I blew out the smoke

“I wont let you forget about it” he laughs “Like last time” he smirked

“Oh shut up that was once” I laugh as he handed it back to me “and it was years ago” I laugh

“I know” he smirks at me….

“Come on one more” i giggle bouncing up and down in thomas’ car we had gone out partying I wasn’t even sure what the day was I think it’s Wednesday? maybe? dont know, the car was sat up the back of a 24 hour Morrisons car park

“y/n we’ve had four already” he laughs at me “you want another one, we have to open mine” he laughs

“then do it” I giggle lightly hitting him

“but then you owe me y/n” he smirked at me

“What I gave you shares on my stash” I sigh

“so what I charge you bloody know that” he laughs at me “you want shares or not?” he asked

“fine” I sigh getting my purse as he rolled but my purse was empty all I had was a Mc-Donalds voucher as he finished rolling “you roll like shit” I laugh

“fuck you, I roll better then you” he laughs “come on cash on the dashboard” he smirks

“I’m skint, I have free food though” I say putting the voucher on the dashboard

“fuck yeah I am hungry, okay fine, you still owe me twenty though” he laughs “I’ll pay for food when we finish this” he smirks

“TWENTY!” I yell

“shhh! yeah this shit is premium grade” he smirks

“you know ace just puts it in a different bag it’s no different” I laugh

“it is, its better, no money that means no smoke for you” he laughs clearing the excises on his car away and bag in the little bag

“come on thomas please “I beg

“y/n you’ve had four I have no sympathy for ya” he laughs

“but I’m not high enough tommy, I wanna touch the stars” I giggle resting my head on his shoulder

“then find a way to pay me” he laughs “SHIT!” he quietly yells hiding everything we had away as a police officer just pulled in not to far away from us “we are fucked…” he sighs

“why…it’s not like the car smells of it” i giggle

“yeah but your off your fucking face! and your not hiding it well” he says as we saw the police officer get out his car leaning on the door so I quickly moved my head from his shoulder resting my head on his thigh slightly moving my head every now and again “what are you doing?” he asks

“pretending to suck you off” I giggle

“why?” he asks still keeping and eye on the police officer

“thomas we are sat in a store car park at 3 am there is only two reasons as far as he thinks a boy and girl in a car would be here, A to get high, B to have car sex and as you clearly dont want him to think we are doing A because…well we are, might as well make him think we are here for B” I explain

“how are so so high and still so smart?” he asks

“tolerance thomas” I laugh “at least play a fucking long” I sigh

“right sorry” he laughs as I move my head more pretending I’m sucking him off and I can tells he’s pretending I am too not doing to bad actually I could tell he was imagining a lot as his cock grew in his jeans and I couldn’t help but smirk at him “he’s gone” he sighs in refile but I didn’t move I just giggle undoing his jeans “what are you doing?” he asks in panic

“all that gave me an idea” I giggle sitting up and kissing his neck a little “how far would I have to get you to clear my debts?” I giggle

“depends how good you are” he smirked so I giggle getting his cock out his pants taking all of him in my mouth and sucking hard “Uhhh Fuck! yeah yeah your good” he groans his head rolling back against the seat as I continued him moaning and screaming like crazy until he came and I swallowed licking him clean and putting his now soft cock back in his pants and smirking as I sat back up and he got the smoke back out and lit it up smoking some off it and handing it to me

“thanks thomas” I smirk leaning back in my seat having a smoke of it and handing it back to him “come on hurry Up…I’m hungry too, I want nuggets” I giggle “and you can buy me a drink because my mouth tastes like you now” i sigh

“deal” he laughs handing it back to me…

“was I the only one you ever did that for?” he asks as I hand it back to him

“yeah why?” I ask

“just curious, if you went around sucking off every guy for shares” he smirked

“nope just you, and one girl once in college” I laugh

“really?” he laughs giving it back to me “who?” he asks

“veronica leni” I laugh smoking

“Veronica….she was queen of pay with for weed with sex” he laughs

“yep…good girl, small boobs” I laugh

“tiny boobs, she was like a minus A cup” he laughs as I give it back to him

“why did you sleep with her?” I ask

“No…I dont think I did, unless I was off my face when I did it, cause I dont remember I did” he laughs as he smokes

“you where off your whole body when i sucked you off tommy, you didn’t forget that” i laugh taking it back form him and smoking a little more myself

“yeah well, you dont tend to forget the day a police officer shows up when your high, and similarity you don tend to forget the day you best mate sucks your dick in your car” he laughs

“thomas?” i ask

“yeah?” he asks

“is sucking your dick still a method of payment you accept?” I ask

“I would count dick sucking among the payment options…for you” he smirks

“for me?” I smirk

“yeah, well clearly, when Dylan owes me he does not have that option neither does Jack” he laughs

“what about other girls?” I ask

“not many girls come to me wanting any” he laughs “only you, sometimes Lilly and sometimes Issy” he explains

“do Lilly and issy have that payment option” I giggle

“nope, Lilly doesn’t because…she kinda creeps me out when she’s sober she came around yesterday asking for some, and Issy doesn’t visit often mostly just to show off her new boyfriend anyway” he sighs

“aww poor tommy” I giggle giving him a cuddle as he finishes off the smoke and puts it out “question?” I ask

“go on?” he laughs

“if sucking you off settles my debts? would letting you fuck me mean you owe me some?” I smirk

“I think so why?” he asks so I smirk sitting on his lap and kissing him hard “Okay okay…lets get to bed then” he smirks lifting me up with him and carrying me to his bedroom with us still kissing….

I laid in thomas’ bed both of us naked under the bed sheet both of us smoking “Pleasure doing business with you thomas” I smirk as I smoke

“like wise darling” he smirks back at me “same time next week?” he smirks turning to face me

“yep” I smirk giving him a little kiss but he held my face deepening our kiss till I pull away getting up and getting my clothes on “see ya” I smile giving him another kiss grabbing my smoke and going off back to my flat

“where were you?” Lilly asked

“somewhere” I smirk

“I can smell it on you where did you get more? ace is sold out, and your skint” she asks

“as your being so dam nosy thomas let me share his okay” I laugh

“thomas doesn’t let anyone share, he makes everyone pay how did you…” she then looks me up and down I can tell she sees the hickey’s on my neck and the very obvious smell of sex on my clothes “YOU SLEPT WITH HIM DIDN’T YOU!” she yells

“why do you care?” I ask

“cause I need to know these things, you get caught it comes back to the house and to me you know” she yells

“Your just mad you didn’t think off it” I sigh “your just mad If I smoke with him you cant steal it!” I yell

“Ohh fuck off, the only reason you went up there was to try and get a smoke off him” she yells

“so! he knows that! I know that whats the problem?” I ask

“the fact your fucking him for drugs” she yells

“like you dont do that with luke” I sigh

“No I love luke” she says back

“yeah and I…Uh…I dont know how I feel about thomas all I know is he has weed and a fucking good cock so you know what fuck it I’m having both” I smirk grabbing my stuff out my room going out the flat going down the the take away at the bottom of the flats and getting a tone off food and going all the way up knocking on thomas’ door

“knowone home” he yells

“It’s me you idiot let me in” i laugh and he opens the door a bit confused still half naked

“has it already been a week?” he asked

“no it’s been a hour thomas” I laugh

“Ohh….okay?” he says back

“I kinda lost it at Lilly, can I stay with you?” I ask

“and how would you be paying for rent, water, heat exceptera for you staying here?” he asks

“I brought take out” I smile

“okay, thats maybe one hour” he laughs

“Uhh I will uhhhh….do your laundry?” I ofer

“your at 24 hours” he shurgs

“when I get paid I’ll go half with you on a bag of premium” I offer

“thats about four days” he shrugs

“Uhh you can fuck me as much as you want? and I’ll suck you off as much as you want?” I offer

“so what like a girlfriend?” he asks and I smirk and nod “your up to the foreseeable future” he laughs “come on” he smirks opening the door more for me

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senpaisatanwolnotimaginepage · 4 years ago

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"okay so where is this hunt?" i asked while in the impala, dean was driving and he didnt like me coming with him, he showed it too, just looking at me once in a while with anger in his eyes

"its not far from where, relax" dean said keeping my eyes on the road, he was a little impatient because he didn't want me to come with him,

"i see, well at least you could talk to me dean" i said rolling my eyes,

he just sat silently, not talking or saying a word, "im just getting quite bored"

he didn't want say anything, he was mad at me cause i shouldnt be on this hunt,

"then do something" he said coldly

"i see, well at least you could talk to me dean" i said rolling my eye

"do what?" i asked annoyed, i had worn his favorite t shirt that he liked to see me in, it was a crop top that showed a bit more skin than usual, and jeans that were tight on me, "im not a fucking baby, i can take care of myself"

"Well, I'm your responsibility, If you get hurt it on me, and I can have that, so yes you should be on this hunt. Now please can we just focus on the road" he was trying not to look at me, I always looks so good in that top, he knows it does things to him, But no, I'm mad at her I'm not gonna look at her I can't, he thought

"whatever..." i said rolling my eyes, then i put my hand on his thigh

"Casey stop, I need to focus" he said with a shake in his voice, not wanting me to know i have an affect on him,

"so focus" i said smiling, and looked at the road

his grip got tighter around the steering wheel. Not wanting me to get the best of him,

'Why are you smiling' he asked trying to keep his eyes from wandering to me, seeing my skin show just a little bit, focus Dean focus he said to himself,

"No reason" i said moving my hand a little bit, "i was just thinking about last night"

he was getting tense but he couldnt show me. "What about last night?" he said trying not to get last feelings of last night get to him,

Oh you know" i said moving my hand on his crotch now,

know what" damn she knows how to play her cards he thought to himself,

"I don't have time for this, focus on the case" he tried to sound serious, but he knew i saw right through him,

"You dont have time? Are you sure? you sure had time yesterday, I know you are angry with me, im just trying to- make it up to you" i said smiling

"yesterday was different" he said shifting in his seat ""I am angry, you shouldn't be on this hunt Casey you can't get hurt" he said relaxing his body a little bit

"Again, im not a baby. I can take care of myself. Daddy" i said in a sexy way

That word, the things it does to him "Casey I'm driving" he tried not to show his smirk,

"I know you dont wanna give in, but thinking about you, makes me wet" i said smiling to myself I just want to make it up to you- daddy" i said moving my hand away

"Did I say you can take your hand away?" he asked, he didn't want to give in, but it felt good having me close,

"What you want my hand on your hard cock?" i asked

"I never said that" he stated,

"Yeah you did, in your commanding voice" i said smiling, knowing this is working

"Baby girl you know what I want" he said smirking, and looked at me straight in the eyes,

"What do you want? "are we close to the case?" i asked

I'm not gonna make it that easy on you" he wanted to give in but he was still mad,

"Almost just a few more miles, why?" he asked curiously,

"Just asking" i said and lowered my t shirt a little bit, "Oh so you are not going to give in? Should i remind you that you gave in yesterday" i said putting my hand on his thigh again

he tilted his head towards me and whispered "Like I said, yesterday was different" Taking a peek at my chest,

"How was it different?"I asked trying to get him to remember it, i remembered that i wore his favorite bra and smiled to myself

"Yesterday I wasn't mad at you" he recognized the smile, i was turned on,

I took the duffle bag in the back and took my shirt off, "kinda love it when you are mad" i said taking a shirt from it

he couldn't help but stare my body so perfect, my breasts so soft, he needed me, but he was not gonna make it easy for me,

"And why is that?" he asked,

"you become sexier" i said taking the shirt and wearing it,

he couldn't help but get turned on with what i just said,

"Oh no sweetheart, don't put that shirt on, "Sit just like that for daddy" he said with a demanding voice

"daddy does love this bra" i said not removing my t shirt just yet,

"You love showing it for me" he said putting his hand on my thigh and pulling me closer,

"I do, i would wear it all the time, but you cant keep your hands off of me" i said with my breath uneven,

"and why would I want to take my hands of such a sexy woman?" he asked while staring me, as he moved his hand up my thighs and inner thigh,

"It gets annoying when you rip my clothes" i said with my breath getting more uneven,

he slowly moved his face towards my ear, touching my earlobe, "I need to get rid of my anger somehow babygirl"

"Love it when you are angry, but dont rip anything. Please" i said really frustrated now

"Then. Take. It. Off." he said with his alpha voice,

"holy shit... you do realize we are close" i said taking the shirt off,

"Hold on" he said to me, he could not focus on the road anymore,

"what?" i asked confused,

"just hold on, patient" he said turning the car around, he needed me, he wanted me

"So we are not hunting anymore" i said turning to him,

"I'll phone someone else to do the hunt" he said ""Baby girl, all I want Is you right now"

"So you gave in" i said getting closer to him,

he couldn't help but only smile at me, he took his hand and slowly stroked it over my body, gently, feeling all my goosebumps, he moved his lips slowly to my neck "Who said I gave in" and slowly kissed it

"You did give in" i said closing my eyes "seems i won"

"Maybe," he said smiling against my neck,

"i did win" i said moaning a little bit

"But who could resist you" his kisses got a little more like soft bites in my neck,

"hmm you certianly cant" i said closing my eyes,

his hands started moving up, towards my breast, slowly circling around the one, while his lips move down towards my pulse point,

"I don't hear you complaining" he said,

"why would i complain?" i asked holding my moans,

"then hush and enjoy this" he moved his hand to my back and unclasped my bra wanting them to roam free, He started kissing my breasts slowly and leaving marks as he did it, i moaned a little bit as he continued,

"fuck" i said and he smiled at me, knowing i wanted more, i got ontop of him and started grinding through his jeans, having him hard made me wet, then i unbuckled his belt and put him inside of me and started going up and down, his hands on my waist as i rode him,

"keep going thats it baby" he said as he kissing my body as i continued, eventually screaming and moaning at the same time,

"make it louder" he said as i kept going, eventually my moans were getting louder, feeling his hard cock inside of me and his lips on my body, made me so fucking wet

"FUCKK DADDY" i moaned really loud eventually cumming three times, i got off of him and put my mouth around his cock, he held my head as i sucked him off and eventually came in my mouth, i swallowed it and licked his chest and kissed his mouth

"thats right baby" he smirked, we then got dressed and went back to the bunker,

#oneshot smut imagines samwinchester pleasefollowit deanwinchester #sexy #hotties

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SWINGS OPEN DOOR FRANTICALLY AND POINTS AT ALL THE EMOJIS: do it

.........................oh boy

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

HMMM most of them id rather not talk about since theyre really personal/a lot of them arent really secrets since i have talked abt them but they can easily go unnoticed sooooo

im confessing to having a thing for gloves i guess??? specifically black cloth gloves (im not a fan of leather, feels Weird) so. ye.

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

All (in the end id probably be getting hugged tho haha im v awkward at hugging vs being hugged)

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

CARBINKS!!! anything that i deem cute is my favourite (ex. r/owlets, m/imikyus, bonus since theyre a dark/fairy >:3c!!, pum/pkaboo, etc)

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

donald trump would be dead and obama can stay president for another 4 years until the world gains potential candidates that arent shitty

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

I Dont Think I Want To Talk About It. ill just link the post. (btw thats my dream journal blog, i should use it more)

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

i have multiple so hmm.....maybe the fact they put up with my gay bullshit

😘 talk about your crush or partner

gay. moving on.

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

ya betch

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

-hair

-singing

-cuteness factor

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

HMM im mainly scared of losing my friends and thatll take more than just mental training to move on, but uhh i DO have a mild fear of getting assaulted..........idk how to fix that bc its actually really bad paired up w paranoia

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

kuro kiryu. he can also easily make me cRY WHEN HES A FUCKING RANKING CARD.

💙 what annoys you about some people?

when they do stuff theyre not asked to do and complain like “oh my GOd [persons name] why cant you do this??? im so tired, i just wanna rest, but i HAVE to do this!!” like shut up no one asked you to do it, if youre so tired to rest first and then do it.

another irritating thing is people who use the term “special snowflake” unironically especially on kids who make edgy/mary sue ocs like shut up ugly let them grow up and regret their choices by themselves, dont teach them its okay to make fun of younger people for their edgy ocs

😤 do you get angry easily?

irritated??? ya, angry??? no

youd have to do some fucked shit to get me angry, but i do get irritated fast

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

I DONT THINK I CAN TALK ABOUT THEM HERE,,,

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

-education system

-change how the U.S. ignores the struggles of third world countries unless it profits them/benefits them

-solar energy

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

“GKL JGAE THE ODDBALLS”

kiss - wataru

befriend - rei

marry - natsume

kill - shu

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

SAN DIEGO!!! its got such a nice vibe, its never too hot there, NATURE!!! I LOVE THE SCENERY THERE EVEN IN THE CITY THERES TREES AND ITS SO NICE!! its just got such a nice vibe to it i havent felt anywhere else and its SO NICE!!

☕️ talk about your ideal day

ideal day, i get to be home alone, play both of AKATSUKI’s albums while talking and playing games with friends without worry ill be too loud to anyone else, i get good food, and i have a nice dream that i remember vividly

alternatively, visiting a bunch of greenhouses/nature filled areas would be Great

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

uhh im gonna go with ambivert/introvert leaning

💧 when was the last time you cried?

crying as in “i feel like Death”, literally a few hours ago because i remember the daikagura kuro.....

as in actually breaking down, yesterday was really bad grhgra

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

1. love letter of the brilliance of cherry blossoms

2. temptation magic

3. ryusei hanabi

4. hinakura to neji ama

5. the living ghost is alive

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

HMMM this is actually hard for me to pick bc ive had multiple kins where i had powers fuc UHHH

its really hard for me to pick just one, so i guess ill just list off top 5 and why

1. teleportation - i could teleport to my friends cities, also i could prob trick people into thinking im running when im just teleporting inch by inch/foot by foot >:3c

2. deceiving ability like kano - ,,,it seems pretty neat

3. the ability to cheer people up - ,,, it seems pre

4. shapeshifting/transformation - theres absolutely no consequences to being able to make myself taller.........

5. weapon/item creation - i could just make headphones instead of buying them AND i can ensure theyll last

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

dont worry about how youre being treated now, itll get better

💚 who are you jealous of and why?

ahh, its hard for me to be jealous uhh

in one aspect, i guess te/tora since hes so energetic and hes paired so often with ku/ro...im pretty jealous

in another aspect, j/acksep/ticeye or th/omas san/ders. id love to be able to make a difference to others like how they do, not to mention id love to be as energetic as them

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

bravery definitely. im fairly kind, i have enough brain power (OOOOO AIEOU JOO-) to get by, im fine with how cute i am >;3c, wealth is good but over bravery which im very much lacking in, id rather be brave so i could do so many things id love to do......

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

in a joking manner: my kink for intimidating characters. @ me chill

in a serious matter: probably the fact im awful at trying to cheer people up and i feel awful fornot even trying anymore

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

i know english, im VERY limited in thai/lao/japanese, and i know next to nothing of spanish/german/french but i did take a few notes about them bc i was bored. i wanna learn thai/lao the most so i can connect with my culture more, but japanese would be nice since a lot of stuff i enjoy is japanese and i dont wanna hastle others to translate stuff for me haha

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

KURO KIRYU I LOVE HIM

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

a universe where im energetic, not lazy, and motivated to continue on in life and make the world just a tad bit better. and i live with my friends in a nice house in san diego!!

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

,,, i really dont know, and thats why im disappointed in myself

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

demon. theres so many types of demons i dont have to be malicious, plus i could blend in fairly well. theres no rly big downside except ill be frowned upon by other divines

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

someone: you hurt my boyfriend you take away his fp you pretty much fuck him over and you proceed to have gross/abusive kinks shut the fuck up ugly i hate you so much and i never even talked to you i never want to see you mention his url or name ever again youre so awful

something: school fucking sucks and i can bring up a lot of reasons for this. 1: some of the teachers hired are only hired to educate, so personality wise they could be oppressive towards their students. 2: while i do feel like having a core lesson plan is okay, FORCING kids into certain core subjects is bad and they end up not learning because they feel like they HAVE to be their best or else theyll fail, and thats awful. the grading system isnt completely awful, since it shows kids areas that need to be improved, but making it some life changing thing is just...bad...because at that point it goes from “well you need to improve in these areas, so why dont we offer you help so theyll be easier!!” to “GET BETTER AT THIS OR BE FOREVER UNEMPLOYED” and i hate it. i could rant about this.

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

ive just been.....depressed bc of low swing my dude. a big issue would be my entire “i want to do good but i suck” thing, and yesterday i had a really bad dream as stated earlier and it made me extremely anxious for the entire day until i finally talked to my friend about it. theres also the fact i have school but theres no way i can finish it now

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

vet, now im like...im unsure... i wanna get into architech/floor planning/house designing and also be sort of like a youtube/internet idol??? if that makes sense......idk

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

ice cream is one of the only ones i can tolerate haha- i LOVE mochi ice cream but i cant get them fresh here since theres no east asian centric stores here (only southeast/hispanic fusion stores) so rip... ia lso like cheesecake a fair bit

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

kur/o kiryu. or e/nstars in general i guess

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

my breathing gets a bit faster, my chest starts vaguely aching and i get nauseous

😪 what are you sick of?

THE COLD. ITS S O C O L D. PLEASE HELP.

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

nope, not really. i do awful at horror games, im terrified of roller coasters, and the thought of jumping out of a plane makes me wanna decay

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

sh/u it/suki is Bad. the y/oi fandom is made up 80% of really bad fuj/oshi who later hopped onto an extremely controversial manhwa. hea/thens wasnt too bad of a song. i still like mi/necraft/happy tr/ee friends. i like rh/ythm games but dont like rh/ythm heaven. mc/a wasnt awful. ut/apri as an anime isnt too bad but definitely doesnt match up to the games quality in both art and story telling. id/olm@st/er is a tad bit over rated. ens/tars should be localized to ENG.

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

haha nope

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

draw/VERY rarely sew/read tarot, which is what im supposed to be doing anyways

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

uhhh it was either te/mptation magic or love letter of the brilliance of cherry blossoms

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

how i cant cheer people up or help people be more positive. ir aelly dont know how i can improve it my dude, but im thinking.

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

usually bunnies, but if im feelin crafty ill doodle an anime char

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

age mostly

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

INTP, and idk its just there

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

“the battle: ra*bits” MMMMMMMMM nito. dgmw i love mits/uru and i loved how energetic he was + i liked mitsuru too but ni/to introduced me to ku/ro in my canon and he was very supporting of me/tried his best to help me

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?

i dont really have a CELEBRITY celebrity fave but itd def be t/homas sanders internet wise

🐴 opinion on __?

“holds up kiibo”

a good boi. i trust him

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

ehh its actually really hard for me to become emotionally unless im deeply attached to something sooo not really

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

ghost girl, maximum ride, and cr*zy

i dont remember any quotes from the first and last books BUT “WE’RE LIKE FREAKIN BALLERINAS AND YOU ARE LIKE A FRIDGE WITH WINGS” will always be my fave

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

listen to music, isolate myself justtt a tad bit, and try to distract myself. it helps to a certain extent, but it wont save my ass

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

k/uro ki

🌍 which country do you live in?

america

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

a fucking asshole

🐵 which quotes changed you?

“you think youre ugly but youre just not your type” -some tumblr post i cant find atm

💭 do you keep a diary?

i keep a dream journal, but i stopped keeping diaries because im wayyy too paranoid someones gonna snoop

💫 who inspires you?

HMMMM chi/aki morisawa, tho/mas sanders, and j/acksepticeye

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

ye, theres no proof that they DONT exist (although you could argue theres also no evidence that they DO exist), PLUS i have had some experiences with ghosts! also itd be fuckin....awkward if id idnt considering i wanna get into s/pirit work

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

ko/toko ut/sugi is the only way i could describe it. kinda gothic-punk??? i used to be into yum/ekawaii and fa/iry kei but i ended up falling out of them.

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

MMM ri/se of the gua/rdians was pretty good, zo/otopia was also good...the book of life was really good and i wanna watch it again now ahhh

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?

idonthaveonemymemorypastsixmonthsisgoneandmychildhoodwasfilledwithmebeinginsulted UHH one time in 6th grade i dated a dude and he gave me a teddybear/candy for valentines day and it was really nice, i felt bad since i didnt get him anything and i feel bad for not even breaking up with him to his face

🐱 what’s your dream pet like?

bunny. thats all

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be?

KURO KI

#long post #VERY Long post #raai.txt #god damn it kennith #kokichinchin

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