#and working thru it with this hand but 😎

[wolfpawzjakey]

Prompt - It Was All a Dream.

Jercy.

Brief description - Percy wakes up in the infirmary of Camp Jupiter and thinks that he dreamed of Jason's death and funeral, but Reyna and Annabeth, who were next to him, tell him that it was real... And Jason is really dead.

I will be very glad if you answer :)

Thank you thank you 🤲🏻

So, I wrote this without editing and rereading it. Writing ideas vs actually writing is hard. I’m working thru a writing block so thank you for sending this to me because maybe I’ll actually write something in full again one day 😎 (im crying under the shades)

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Percy wasn’t unused to death. He was well accustomed to it in fact. He’d neared it himself on many occasions. He’d killed others with him own hands and actions. Death weighed on him, but living his life meant he had no other choice but to deal. Death wasn’t a friend or an enemy, he’d always fear it but knowing its certainty had made it a more comfortable burden to have.

But this death, this death had his system on high alarm. It was too soon, too much of a surprise for him to be able to process what was happening but it was right in front of him. Here he was, watching the life drain from the eyes of his boyfriend, the person he loved the most. It was not meant to happen right now, it couldn’t be happening right now.

But now? He could feel the blood between his fingers mixed with the gritty texture of the dirt from the ground as he tried so hardly to stop it from seeping out as fast as it did. His throat and chest is filled with cement and razors as his voice reaches his own ears like he’s underwater. He can feel the blood seeping into his keens from where he kneels aside Jason’s fading body while Jason’s eyes fight to focus on Percy or anything actually. His words are distorted, he can’t even make out what he’s saying to Jason but he knows it’s filled with dead end attempts as reassurance (both directed at Jason and himself… mostly himself). And gods, the thing he feels the most is Jason’s breathing coming to a slow stop, he feels as his chest starts to shake and stutter, and how each breath becomes less frequent and more spaced apart. How his last few breaths make his chest rise so high before falling like there’s a weight holding his lungs down. Then he sees his eyes dull entirely, no longer that human like glistening that reminds you someone’s alive. He looks silently at Jason’s still body, a body that is so familiar but now so pale and dead eyed. It’s like he’s somehow looking at a stranger now, because there’s just no way that Jason would leave him like this. There’s no way. So, he just sits, hands still pressed over the no longer bleeding wound. Jason’s still warm, he couldn’t possibly be gone.

When he’s shaken from the trance he’s fallen into, all hell breaks loose. He screams and sobs, holding on as his friends desperately try to pull him off. His hands slip away from Jason’s body… and then he’s sat up, eyes frantically searching the new surroundings for the horrific scene he’d just been in. His hands are clean, he’s not wearing the clothes he was in, there’s no blood anywhere on him. And then there’s Annabeth and Reyna, they’re looking at him with concern which means he must’ve been the one in danger right? Because Jason couldn’t be dead, right?

No, no, Jason wasn’t dead. That had just been a dream, it was easy to convince himself that he’d just be able to get up and go into another room of the medical bay and Jason would be there, healing just like him if he wasn’t just out elsewhere. Of course, Jason was fine. Relief flooded his body and coursed through his veins because of course Jason couldn’t be dead. Percy has had these types of dreams again, why wouldn’t it happen now too?

“Percy?” That was Annabeth’s voice, “Perce, are you okay?”

“I think so.” He says, sigh heavy as it leaves his lungs. “I don’t feel that much pain anywhere, I think I’m okay.”

“That’s… good.” She says back, but her smile stays sad, and that’s never a good side. Reyna looks closed off too, which is also not a good sign, but he just couldn’t understand why? Had he been injured that bad? Had something gone wrong when he was?

“Percy,” Annabeth starts again, her voice is guarded and gentle, it’s not unlike Annabeth but again, it’s not usually a good sign. “I’m asking more so… are you okay? After what happened?”

What happened? Panic flashes through him, fast paced images of Jason’s lifeless body and his body all over Percy, but that, it was just a dream right? “What do you mean ‘after what happened’? Annabeth, what happened?”

Her face falls and Reyna’s darkens more than he thought it could. “Percy, I’m sorry but Jason’s dead. You were inconsolable, you fainted after we’d tried to take you away. But… he’s gone.” And Percy’s world shatters again.

He doesn’t yell and cry this time, he doesn’t struggle and nor does he get up to leave the room, he just sits there. Annabeth wouldn’t lie about this, Reyna wouldn’t let anyone lie about this. It was real. The dream in its entirety was real. The grit and slide of blood and dirt between his fingers. The iron scent of the blood that soaked into his jeans. The harsh and slowing breathing echoing through the room. It was all real.

[webslingingslasher]

heyyy J, HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎆🎊 !!! I already turned in my 2 week notice at work and can’t wait to leave cuz the past few shifts just haven’t been it sis 😒 Anyways I was wondering how frat!peter would comfort trouble after a bad shift and she just needs to rant (both in boyfriend and situationship status). Also, did u receive my coquette send in (Just curious ☺️ no pressure)? HAVE AN AWESOME 2024, sending all good vibes 😎 - 👹

situationship:

you let out another sigh, 'it was just so terrible.' it's the third time you've tried to capture his attention, it's not working. 'and it was super busy for no reason.' still nothing, it's fine, you just want to vent to someone.

'plus my boss was screaming at me because someone else fucked up.' peter boots up his playsation, you want to scream. he pats the space next to him on the couch, 'talk to me all you want, but i'm playing madden while you do it.'

boyfriend:

'it was awful, petey. i mean it. i lost it today, i really did.'

you don't know how he did it, but peter has you laying next to him in bed, tucked against his side in a second. 'what happened?' you groan, 'i think you mean, what didn't?'

a soothing hand up and down your back, 'i did something bad, i think. you're gonna be mad.' a deep hum, you snuggle in further, 'i put in my two weeks.'

peter's hand stops, you hold your breath when you're pushed onto your back, a smile explodes over his face. 'about fucking time!'

(happy new year! i went thru my inbox and i didn't see one & it doesn't sound familiar. send it again?)

[xuune]

dropping this here because I kinda wish I'll snap out anytime soon from listening to the playlist you made for your last art, but here I am, booming 8:00, get me some, wyd, wounds will h.eal, and enclosed in my earphones at midnight. i think your music taste is fire, i'll give you that. mygods (ง •_•)ง

anw, I wanted to ask on how you decide and plan expressions/interactions for the characters when you draw your works? I always find your works to be so expressive. thanks in advance if you ever see this :OOO

p.s. I LOVE YOUR OCs, i think i'm in love with rael i genuinely wish they'll give me a headlock or smthn and i'll be happy p.p.s. i would marry your art if I could (i'm this fkn close 🤏 pls dont sue me)

(sorry for taking so long to reply, you'll know why once you read the rest of this lol)

im so glad that you had those as your faves bc those are some of mine too :D i've been seeing a few ppl rly enjoy 8:00, and if it wasn't for my friend recommending me that song, we wouldnt be here, and those drawings wouldnt have existed either, let alone the animatic i did

thank you for thirsting over my ocs, you don't know how much of a compliment that is whenever i see ppl react that way to them LOL. thats how i know i peaked with their design 😎 stay tuned for some other oc art, cuz im currently working on a piece for my friend's ocs. his ocs exist in the same universe as mine :)

i'll answer your question about planning expressions and interactions below, bc i have a lot to say about that:

when planning for expressions and interactions, i'm usually trying to answer a couple of these things:

what moment do i want to highlight

why is this moment significant

how do these characters feel in the moment, how to they react to each other, what's their motivations

what body language best answers the question above ^

basically, i'm asking myself "what's the scene?" -> "what do the characters feel in that moment?" -> "how do they act this out to convey that?" (that's how i was taught to read scripts for plays. you must understand character motivations before you figure out how to act their feelings out)

it's very important to have a good balance of body language and dialogue to convey the mood if/when appropriate, since sometimes strictly relying on dialogue to sell the moment w/o body lang or vice versa can tank the execution

i assume that you're more interested in how i planned the interactions for them sharing music? lmk if there's like specific ones, bc i can explain more for whatever else it may be

anyways, i start off with scripts of some kind. my scripts can be very barebones that just note a specific scene (i.e. "working at desk, listen to music together before class starts"), or that i build a moment based on a piece of dialogue (i.e. "better not queue anything lame"). here's the notes i made when i made the 8:00 animatic, since thats big on body language

i wanted to get down my main ideas first, which was figuring out the the lyrics i wanted to use paired with dialogue to match. i dont show my thinking much on some of my notes, but what i was getting at this:

story moment: dk connecting the context of the song to his intimate moment with bkg

key moments: waking up, playing with hands, eye contact w/ bkg

i didn't expand on the ideas for how those moments would look until i actually started thumbnailing for the animatic, which i showed briefly here. here's what i kept in mind for their expressions/interactions:

dk shies away from directly confronting bkg outwardly expressing his feelings for him via the song. he avoids it and changes the topic verbally to make the conversation lighthearted -> "what expresses avoidance?"

bkg is direct about his feelings, his actions and expressions must convey a direct confrontation, an attempt to make dk acknowledge how he feels about him thru the song and potentially get a response from him -> "what expresses straightforwardness?"

here's what i decided would visually answer those questions

the implications of character's expressions also factors in the circumstances of their situation. without the context, the execution tends to fall flat. if you didn't know that they were listening to a song that's all about romantic pining, then you probably would've been questioning why the fuck are they just staring at each other, or assumed that one is shy of the physical interaction when that's not the point; its the dawned realization and the acknowledgement of the other's feelings.

my other drawings for that thread followed the same kind of planning tbh, lol. all those drawings had the lyrics set the stage for how the characters are feeling, and i'd have to figure out what about their facial expressions and body language best matches the context of the situation. here's this brief example:

but yeah, that's generally how i plan for expressions/interactions. sometimes i just get a rush of interaction ideas that is centered on one specific question i want to explore, like:

what do their mundane parts of life look like?

how do they physically react to realizing their feelings for the other?

how is someone anxious about the other person's perception of them in the comic i'm drawing?

and then build off from there. hope that helped :D

[glass-moss-ivy]

Today was a dope day🌙. I…

Romanticized my morning by doing my “that girl” routine

made sure I practiced some yoga and spent some time really stretching. Of course with the kitty cat by my side.

Ate a protein filled breakfast instead of ✨ oatmeal ✨ (oatmeal makes me so sleepy 💤 but is literally my fav breakfast food.

Made it thru work😮‍💨

Came home and did my nighttime routine.

Did not binge when I got home.

Downsides of the day…

Sadly, was having some anxiety about work. But I was able to kind of refocus and keep my head on what was at hand.

I did got to starbees and spent some money when I probably shouldn’t have but I am working overtime this week so I should be good 😎

Some lady in the parking lot honked at me and made me upset lol

[himaruzblade]

- PONY EXPRESS DR INTRO -

Welcome to my Pony Express/Tulpar DR!

This DR mainly focuses on

Career Success + Accomplishments

Healing + Forming relationships

Having fun in general

Please Note: No way in heaven, hell, or any kinda limbo am I gonna shift to the actual game events, I’d literally end up dead, I’m no Mary Sue.

Basics

Name: Saturn Helios Daniels

Age: 21

Job: Intern - Mechanical Engineering/Ship Maintenance when internship is completed

Face + Voice Claim: (Actress) Savannah Lee Smith

S/O: Daisuke Juarez my beloved <33

Race: African American

Height: 5’3

S-O: Pan

Piercings: right-side nose stud, ears x2, naval eventually

Hair: 3B natural, 2A straightened

Eyes: Dark brown, slightly upturned with long pretty lashes :3

MBTI: INTP-A 5w6 (id be a 5w7 if it was real tbh)

Fun facts about me!

I’m a young millionaire via smart investments + my job (anything i invest in immediately goes up in value, and I have the chance to invest in climate conscious, ethical companies that benefit people and the environment)

My parents both work in the astrophysics field

I have a silly goober boyfriend named Daisuke and i love him assfdgsfsagssdasdsdf-

I can skate really well

I got my own apartment 😎

I snuck a weed pen on board but SHHHHHH dont tell anyone SHHHHH!!!!

I graduated from U of M online school (Digital University of Michigan, or DUM for short lol)

My friend is cat sitting for me while the crew makes our delivery

Some other things to note

The US is not in political conflict and total darkness, my glorious queen Kamala Harris is president and she makes everything right in the world ❤️

By the time I shift there, me and Daisuke will be 5 days into our relationship. Ik this isnt a lot of time but I genuinely wanna develop as a person and go thru the motions of forming a relationship.

J*mmy isnt a fucking asshole and would NEVER put his hands on a woman. He may be a little bitch boy but he’s not that bold. I made EXTRA sure this is how he behaves. Over my dead body would he ever hurt someone on the crew in any way.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask away! Thanks 4 reading!

[minniefights]

We’re home!!

After 9 days in the hospital, the doctors have allowed my mom to be discharged and to continue her iv meds via home care.

They have strict regulations though, oxygen on standby and our family doctor visits us often. We also agreed as a family that we will strictly use masks when we enter the room to avoid infection.

You may call it incidental but I consider it God’s providence too that my mom shifted to a hospital bed a few months back even before she got sick. This helps a lot in managing her Compression Fracture pain and movement limitations.

Good morning! Excuse the messy morning hair.

My mom enjoys the visits of our family members in the compound. It cheers her up! And I think my Ama Fe (my mom’s 88 y.o mom) is happy to see her at home as well. Every morning my mom goes on Zoom to call my his brother and best friend who is a priest in the US. So mornings are quite busy for us!

My mom and I have also made a pact that I will really have to honestly tell her about her medical situation. We also promised to be each other’s emotional support, so we try to check in about how we feel and find courage to talk about even the difficult conversations. 🥲

We’re *trying* to get the hang of the many medicines she needs to take in a day and the monitoring that needs to be done daily. I’m lucky I could work from home (and I could temporarily be in Iligan to closely monitor my mom). A few yrs back, my mom also moved back in her family’s home (The Parangan’s) where my uncle nurse oversees us as well, along with our other family members.

My mom’s not yet feeling 100%. She’s still very weak and limited. But this is already a miracle and we’re thankful for the everyday we’re given.

Hospital Bills and God’s Favor Upon Us

Yesterday, when we were about to get discharged, my titas from community encouraged me to try to line up for government aids and though it took a while, we saw God’s favor upon us!

Tita Maal and I were able to get DSWD discounts, after some hours and some runs around the city. Hehe adventure. And side story: another community tita of mine, Tita Hazel didn’t know she had a meeting with DOH that day but she remembered we were going to be discharged. So she just asked if there are medical bills subsidy available, and there was! To cut the long thrilling story, we were able to get a subsidy worth like 75k from DOH alone. All in all, we received very significant financial help for our hospital bill. How significant? Like 200k worth of discounts in total!!! And I only needed to pay for 6 doctors’ professional fee. (Many of our friends and family donated too due to many people’s fundraising efforts!!) Talk about God’s provision 🙌🏼 Thank you Jesus!

Picture with moral support titas while Aiana girl waits on the bill and lines up for offices 😎

Of course, like any other diagnosis, we still have questions as to why God allowed this, but little graces have allowed us to see that His hands are with us even here. Not any less than his hands are with the Israelites as they wandered in the desert towards the Promised Land. They may not have so much, but they had enough. God never failed to pour down manna in the desert daily. God still parts the sea for His chosen people to walk on. God still sends His “pillar of cloud by the day and fire by night” thru the many ways He guides and leads His people.

Personally, I’ve been reflecting more and more about my own pilgrim journey too. Thru this long, arduous journey in the desert of my life, while it may be human to look for “other gods”, other means to satisfy the human longing or to just complain just as how the Israelites’ “patience were worn out by the journey” (And i do complain sometimes), but my prayer is that may He give us the grace to fix our eyes upon Jesus, to put our hope in His word and to fight the good fight of faith.

May the Lord find us faithful in our desert wanderings,

Aiana

[stickyspeckledlight]

Ok for some reason tumblr only let me post this, so I’ll have to answer this ask in a reblog.

Omg anon don’t apologize for yapping literally my inbox is open for yapping of ALL kinds never be afraid to yap here this is a safe space for yappers of all kinds and like. Let’s be honest if you’re a fan of my work and read my posts then I think you’d be accustommed the the sheer amount of unnecessary yap this bitch (me) commits yo. Frankly no one can be a worse yapper than me 😎

Raf is so younger sibling coded. If he were my actual brother I could put up with him but since he isn’t he’ll have to be someone else’s problem. That said even IRL I’d be absolutely down for like, randomly running into him (as in I’m walking and manage to see him) and just watching what sort of shit he does. I think that would be pretty fun

Zayne is the most normal one fr but it’s mostly like. He’s the one who doesn’t enable my bad habits; if anything he fucking REFUSES to. Like he cares sm abt you, and you know what as much as I love staying up late and forgetting to eat I don’t want to worry you too much pookie.

Caleb is…idk man he’s not like going to have you be self destructive or anything, but given like. Everything (and I also just read his Fleeting Taste or whatever memory, and he just straight up goes “yea whenever there’s something I love it really do LOVE it”). If you’re in a relationship with him he’s at a point where he’s just completely enamored and literally the only way he’d leave your side is if 1. He dies 2. He proves to be detrimental to your safety (like with the bad end of the catch 22 memory). So although Caleb is definitely like zayne in the fact you should eat and get sleep, but I feel like he would encourage your…not so great social tendencies in order to spend more time with you. Physically he will do everything in his power to make sure you stay healthy (sleeping well, eating well and getting enough exercise). And although I don’t think he’d go as far as to have you become clingy and absolutely in shambles whenever you’re not in his presence, I feel that, at least without working things out between you two, he would lean into you having the same emotional codependency he does.

Oh no I’m scared for the raf lore even more.

I actually didn’t like touching their torsos that much 😭 idk why but for some reason when it comes to stuff like that I prefer just. Reading abt it. I just feel too voyeuristic when the game is literally letting me drag my sweaty hands over his sweaty chest yknow 😭 (no shame to all the ppl who do they, I totally get it; it’s just that is personally not my cup of tea)

Wdym Sylus dies more what

I’ve been listening to a few and doing some bonds memories etc but not a ton. It’s mostly bc I like having my full focus on something at a time, and since there’s a lot of stuff I wanna get done (I.e writing) haven’t had a ton of opportunity to do them. I find memories easier to do tho bc sinces it’s a VN I feel a lot more active and like I’m actively doing something yknow

Anywho, will defo have more LaDs time next week (and then i will have to gear up for finals…🥲), but once I am finished with my current writing project (not for this blog; I do work on some other personal stuff lol) I have like…some sylus thoughts I wanna get outta the way. Ik for a fact it’ll be a little OOC bc he reads to me as someone who likes a girl who can just go and kill him and be feisty and stuff and also I’m not actually that into him but like. Idk man I can’t stop thinking abt like…sylus, taking in some linkon girl who fell into the zone thru a series of unfortunate events. And like, he offers you his protection, and you accept at first bc like you’ll die. But then there’s no way to escape since his base is at the very heart of the zone, and if you take even a step outside you’re just going to die. So you have no choice but to stay inside, and play the violin or piano whenever Sylus bids you do so (my fav idea of this is like, where you’re playing he music as he kills that one guy in the dining room during the main story, early on in his chapter teehee)

rafayel anon..... again.... sorry for spam... glub glub glubb.... 😔

>"he's so silly and like, bratty, but in a cute sort of way yknow. if i met him irl i would probably get impatient and pissed off with him, but through the screen? hell yea" i feel the same way bcus hes such a cutie and hes literally my fav but i would NOT be able to put up with him irl 💔 hes still pookie tho

>"i've been pretty focused on caleb stuff...and zayne, surprisingly (mostly because he's like. most of what he says like "why are you up so late at night get some sleep" is like a snap back to reality moment for me and I'm like, bro, zayne, you're so good at making me put my phone down, that is why he is the goat, but also zayne is very silly but this post is abt rafayel not zayne)" ZAYNE ZAYNEE hes such husband material tbh like hes so marriable,, very down-to-earth very caring,,, him and caleb are def who i'd go for irl because zayne is the most normal and, caleb is. caleb 😁

>"LIKE BRO. HE DID NOT JUST LIKE. FORCIBLY ADMIT HIMSELF INTO A HOSPITAL OVER LIKE, TRIPPING OVER A PAINTBRUSH, CALLING MC TO COME TO HIM BECAUSE HE'S MOPING THAT SHE HASN'T COME TO SEE HIM LATELY, AND GOES "OH GOD ITS BEEN 800 YEARS" AFTER GIVING YOU THE SILENCE TREATMENT" coughs coughs..... once u read more abt his lore and play thru this bond you'll see that his drama queen speech has some sad truth to it 😔

>"i also was able to get caleb's catch-22 card-" CONGRATS ON GETTING HIS CARD, i managed to get both his and rafayel's and i love both of them sm

"-and read that memory, and like...no, i wouldn't say it's dark and grungey or anything, but hello??? that ending stretch??? that shit was kinda dark ig." UGHH the bad ending is sk sad i almost cried caleb why did u leave 💔 but also the kindled is so hot (both his and the others) like we get to feel up their whole torso?? hello? im gonna go into heat

>"and then there's the sylus bad ending where he just FUCKIGN DIES. WHAT. WHAT THE FUCK BRO." Yeah he kinda does that sometimes 🙁

>"now that you've warned me i will be scared of raf lore in particular. broskis what kinda emotional trauma am i gonna get sent on" dont worry they all have deeply tragic pasts full of yearning and heartbreak 😎 (its just that i just like rafayel more than the othees thats why i asked u abt him specifically- (but ID LOVE to hear abt ur thoughts on the others too),,, -maybe i have a type for bratty purple haired men bcs scaramouche has been a 4 year long fav of mine) people dont meme abt "love and deepspace? more like love and depression" for nothing

id say if you wanna learn abt the lore specifically (from other than playing through the main storyline) then the best to get it from is (in my opinion)..

• World Underneath (Its the little circle on the bottom left where there are readables,, they are full of lore stuff and it's a shame that it's hidden behind long text)

• Myths (Only unlockable after you get at least one of solar pair cards for it 💔 unfortunately some of the pairs were in limited banners so now we have to wait for potential news of reruns (which, if u didnt know, they havent done a single rerun ever since the launch of the game a year ago))

• Anecdotes

• Bonds (Unlocked as affinity progresses so you don't need cards to play through these)

The other stuff like Secret Times, Tender Moments and Memoria dont rlly give like super lore packed stuff but theyre still super fun to listen to/play through, and even if its not lore heavy stuff u actually still find out small stuff about the characters through them

ANYWAYS enough yapping from me because this all the self-control i had to not spoil anything (too much) and also it turned out WAY too long

BUT one last question

How would you rank them based on who you like more with all you know so far, and why

IF ACTUALLY U READ ALL THIS THANK U.,, IK IT WAS LONG IM SORRY

[gettinshiggywithit]

!Dating Tenya Iida HCs!

Scenario:-what would dating tenya iida be like?

Pairing:-Iida x gn!Reader

Genre:- fluff

Type:-headcanons

A/N:- for @tooloudarts I hope u like it bestie!

{look for the moot mayham masterlist in the fanfics masteistlink for the rest of the requests!}

Dating tenya is kinda different

Not in a bad way ofc

Hes just kinda awkward at first!

You two had been besties for your 1st and 2nd years and you could definitely say you’d grown close as close could be

Seeing tenya without you and vice versa was always a little odd.

And everyone could tell that you had a thing for eachother!

So in your 3rd year,you bit the bullet,thanks to courage bestowed upon you by denki sero and mina, and asked him out on a date.

And later that day he asked you to be his s/o!

He was sweating bullets lemme tell ya! And although ppl woulda thought yall went from 0-100 REAL Fast,you knew that goin thru the talkin phase would be kinda stupid,especially when you already knew everything abt eachother!

Datee nights are always perfect.thoughtful and well executed

This man is basically the kunikida of MHA he has a plan for almost anything and mann will he execute it to a T!

Iida isnt really big on pda but if he knows you are ,he tries his best to be okay with it.if you initiate it hes mostly okay but he wouldn’t really do anything other than a little hand squeeze on his own.

The iida family aren’t particularly judgy or concerned about your family back ground(they know that if someone managed to make tenya fall in love,really in love,they were the right choice) but they were however adamant on the fact that he treat you right

Tensei himself gave tenya a good talking to the day they had you over for dinner,and even though you were having a nice chat with his mum,you caught a few words of tenseis lecture.

When it comes to gifts they arent really big or flashy. Flowers he saw out in the school garden or just little things that remind you of him are his little gifts to you

Tiny trinkets that mean a lot!

And if anyone ever even triesss to mess with you,this man will defeat them WITH THE POWER OF LOGIC AND FACTS HE WILL REASON UNTIL HE HAS DEFENDED YOUR HONOUR!

And honestly it gets you kinda flustered to see him so worked up,you had the situation under control but he really wanted to help you,so you just watched from the sidelines as his hand kept cutting through the air as he made his point,and I think we all know he wan that argument 😎

Dating tenya iida is a unique experience and honestly he makes your life just a little bit sweeter just by being HIM.

please dont repost my work here as your own on any platform all rights belong to me except that of the characters used,their right belong to their respective owners.but these stories? mine.

feedback,likes,reblogs and comments are so very appreciated tbh :’)i hope you enjoyed and ill catch ya next time!

Comments & Reblogs w/ tags >>>>>>>>>>>likes please

Taglist open for anyone interested!

[sugar-omi]

oh no derek is a mess too. you and baxter are the only composed ones. but if you turn around you'll see baxter wiping a few tears too

mmm I think baxter wouldn't mind a big family if it's all of you raising them. it said he wanted 0 or 2 kids, n derek wanted 3, and cove prefers 1 at first at least. now a baby does shake up the whole house so it's not just BAM 5 kids. but I think baxter n cove would agree "well.. I think 2 is okay at least." bc it's easier to raise kids in a village yk?

ahhh I think it would totally work out too, bc there's 4 of you and 1 or 2-3(+) of them so as long as they're not all infant or toddler age, yall got this 💪

omg yall look even wilder when you sleep though.... everyone is just conked out and drooling n wayyy off in dream land. until you hear the baby monitor then it's get up n go time

oooo actually I imagine you probably end up sleeping in different bedrooms for a moment. first it's all of you in the room w the baby, but when that proves difficult bc all of you can't get enough sleep, 1 or 2 of you sleep in another room w the baby or baby monitor and the other 2 or 3 will sleep in the main bed, snoozing thru the night. n ofc you rotate like cove, this day, baxter that day, etc etc...

OMG THE HOUSE IS IN AN UPROAR WHE. SMTH HAPPENS

derek: *playing w baby*

baby: da *babbles* dada

derek would JUMP UP n throw his hands in the air then COVE would jump up!!! and baxter is in shock bc they're screaming n crying and he's literally on a video call for work but omg fuck it his baby just said a word he'll see you motherfuckers later!!!

omg imagine if the baby said a word to baxter or started walking towards him...

baxter would be so shocked bc huh?!,!, baby is tryna walk and to HIM? he'd be all soft w encouragement and would let them fall into his arms and he'd be crying bc omg why was that so cute and MOVING...

pls he's the cutest dad omfg

he'd also stay up if you're on baby duty. like sometimes you sleep thru the night and that's bc baxter has decided to take up post

"baxter you don't have to do that, there's a routine for a reason, you should sleep."

baxter, looking all dreamy at the baby: yeah but I wanted to...

good luck tryna keep baxter from spoiling the baby. you thought cove n derek were the problem NOPE its b-man😎🎉🎉🎉

Thinking about the fruity four, but if the MC is sub-leaning instead of dom-leaning. Like I know most of us subconsciously were like "the MC is definitely in charge/running the show since they're kinda the focal point keeping everyone together..."

So what would happen?

Also thinking about the fruity four if the MC didn't realize it was an option at 18 and initially proposed to Cove during the end of Step 3. Amatonormativity at its finest.

(This MC was in love with both Cove and Derek, but also had a crush on Baxter at the time. They obviously stayed in contact with Derek as well.)(I wonder if they would of proposed if Derek was around that summer. 🤔))

(This MC would of been happy with just Cove, they didn't want to seem selfish plus they were too nervous to put feelers out towards Cove after how badly Cove reacted to Baxter.) They don't end up getting married in the in between of Step 3 and 4 and this MC ends up experiencing all of the boys' Step 4s.

(I can definitely see at this point Cove and the MC have talked about at least being in love with Derek and it turns out it's mutual, so the MC carefully pursues Derek during his Step 4 at least.)

omg imagine cove and mc visiting derek, and you're having fun, maybe even laugh off the get-married-in-10-years deal you made with derek. and you're enjoying your time together again, going to the water park and stuff

and by the end of the trip the tension is a bit high, some subtle flirty comments n touches thrown between you and cove towards derek. and when you finally have him in the ferris wheel, maybe its the melancholy look on his face or your feelings wound up after a intense but lovely trip, and you end up telling derek how much you love him, and want him to be apart of your relationship..

mmm now how do we bring in baxter.

maybe it's way after step 4, and with baxter coming around more (and maybe even planning your wedding after his step 4 ending, n coming to understand a bit abt your relationship as it is, n is abt to be)

derek and baxter getting close, which I think is so easy bc it's a black cat-golden retriever situation w them lol

n it's so nice to come home n see the two of them laughing and baxter trying to lead derek (the size different is funny, especially when he tries to dip derek since he's heavier than baxter is prepared for) and them knocked out on the couch, or seeing derek let loose when baxter pulls him into some mischief...

everything just falls into place by itself

[theeclecticwitchblog240]

Cleansing Tools & Spaces

Cleansing is the act of removing negative or unwanted energy from yourself, your space and the tools you use within your workings.

When should you do a cleanse?

A) when you get a new tool or alter item

😎 in a funk; having a bad day? Negative energy in your home may be the culprit; might be time for a cleanse

C) overcoming a cold or other illness? Along with the physical stress of fealing icky, the physical illness can often create its own negative energy that wll make matters feel way worse

D) going thru a breakup or the death of a loved one or pet? This is the perfect time for a cleanse to get rid of unwanted feelings and help you overcome your grief and process your pain of your loss in a more productive way.

E) going thru a major life transition? Whatever it may be, clearing out the old energy creates a new path for new energy to generate and manifest for you.

F) move into a new home? Doing a cleanse of the new home is very beneficial of clearing out the previous tenants energy and introducing your own into your new home.

Here are some common methods you can try out for yourself:

1) smudging or burning incense.

For ages, burning herbs has been a great way to do a cleanse to clear negative energy.

2) setting a new intention for your home.

Set a specific intention for your home. What do you wanna have your space help you release? How do you want your home to feel? Whatever you decide on make that be your intentions for your cleanse.

3) setting out crystals in strategic places within your home

Crystals are natural gifts from Mother Earth that carry natural vibrational properties. Use at least three crystals such as black tourmaline or Hematite to place around your home to clear our the unwanted and negative energy that may be lingering in your home.

4) making noise as you walk around your space or entire home

The sound of drums, gongs, bells, and even clapping your hands can break up negative energy around you or in your home.

For an at-home sound ritual, start at your front door and in a clock-wise direction, move through the perimeter of your home, all the while playing your chosen sound instrument or clapping your hands towards the walls until you've made a full loop.

5) using visualization techniques

Imagine a glowing golden light inside your heart space, as you breathe in deeply, expand that light until its outside of your body. Now spread that light into your living space and with the intention that all of the energetic congestion clears out.

So how do you cleanse, you ask??

1) pick the target of your cleanse. this could be an item, a single room within your home or the home in its entiretity, or yourself included.

2) choose your desired method you wish to use. listen to your intuition and of course choose a method that you feel you can easily do without any barriers; if your not musically inclined you may naturally shy away from using instruments...in this case go with what you are comfortable with. if weather permits, make sure you have your windows open at least partly so the energy has a way out.

3) focus on your intention while cleansing. Hold this intention clearly in your mind throughout the whole process. Staying focused and grounded during the cleanse is very important too.

4) after the cleanse, make sure you replace the expelled energy with new positive and uplifting energy. is prevents the negative energy from coming right back. Dont forget to close your windows.

Charging your tool & crystals

charging is the act of filling an object or space with a certain type of energy. Charging has also been known as empowering, programming, or enchanting. Think of charging as giving an object a purpose. The object has its own energy, however you can change or add it is energy. For example: an object like a pin has the energy of being a pin yes, but you can change or charge it to be a specific type of energy that can be used in your working, like changing it from being desiginated as a pin to now being a tool used for carving on candles or to be more creative when using them in sewing.

Some objects already have a specific purpose such as gemstones. When charging these objects, you are basically specifying exactly what you want them to do. A rose quartz crystal is often associated with love therefore you could assign rose quartz crystal a task of attracting new love both romantic and platonic, cultivating lust, building or expanding upon a family members relationship/bond, etc.

when to charge:

1) after doing a cleanse on your tools or items

2) when you start to notice an item or tool once very effective starts to feel dull, weak, or less effective

3) when you feel stagnant energy looming or lingering around

4) when younwantt an item or tool to have a specific intentonor purpose

common methods of charging

1) sun & moonlight

you can always rely on the moon & sun to not only cleanse but to also charge your magickal working items & tools. These two processes can be done simultaniously as well.

2) crystals that have been cleansed & charged can be used to charge other items as well

3) you can use the elements as well

4) you can use visualization techniques

picture your energy or intention flowing into your tool or item & filling it up with your own powerful energy.

5) use sound

just like i mentioned earlier in the cleansing how to, you can again use music or certain musical instruments to charge an item tool or space with energy.

so how do you charge??

its the same process as mentioned above in the cleansing.

1) pick the item, tool, or space you wnt to charge.

2) choose your method

3) focus your intention

4) listen to your intuition. you will know when an iten tool or space has been charged fully and ready to be used in your workings.

any questions, just ask.

blessed be!

[softsnzstuff]

Hi KB! Thank you so much for all you do for the community! You're an amazing writer & I love your work so much.

Here's some questions!

Top 5 Stranger Things Characters

Are you a film buff? If so, have you watched any Old Hollywood films? Do you have any fave actors/actresses/genres?

Are you a Halloween/Christmas person/a combo/or neither?

Best candy?

Are you into zodiac/astrology?

Are you a gamer? If so, what are some of your faves?

Are you a Jane Austen fan? If so, what is your fave book/adaptation of hers?

What has been the best gift you have ever given/or received?

Have you ever met a celebrity? If so, what were they like?

What are your immediate snz turn ons/offs?

❤️

Oh my god hello!! These are the best questions ever????? I’m so excited to answer these.

Eddie Munson, Steve Harrington, Robin Buckley, Jim Hopper, Joyce Byers

I am a film buff!! One of the older Hollywood films I’ve seen is Alfred Hitchcock’s “The Birds” which I love to poke fun at. Fave actors and actresses change pretty often but some classics are Alan Rickman and Emma Thompson.

I LOVE Halloween. I love the warm feeling christmas brings too but something about Halloween just gets me. I used to combine them for the longest time. From September thru Dec 26 was deemed ChristmasO’Ween!

Oh fuck that’s like choosing between children. Strawberry sour punch straws and Twix/Reeses

I find zodiac and astrology interesting but I am by no means an expert or even mediocre at it ahhaha. But I’m a Taurus!

I wouldn’t consider myself a gamer, but I love any Mario games and my fave game series is Professor Layton.

I am a huge Jane Austen fan! Hands down Pride and Prejudice is my favorite. It’s such a funny piece of work, and I’ve always been a Bingley Girl.

Hmmm I’m a big fan of sentimental gifts. One friend got me a plush Dino that I had mentioned liking this one night. We had gone out because my ex cheated on me and my friend came to cheer me up. It was so sweet she remembered. • Best gift given? Got my aunt’s bf a Danny Devito coloring book this year ayyyyy 😎

Fun fact about KB - I’ve met a TON of celebrities. Chris Hemsworth, Sebastian Stan, the BBC Sherlock Cast, some old school YouTubers. ALSO DUH OMG Joseph Quinn, Grace Van Dien, Jamie Campbell Bower. But the best story by far is when I met Rupert Grint

Turn offs are like. When ppl let the mess sit on their face for a long time? But also like. Dad sneezes or scream sneezes. Not a big fan of those. • Turn ons??? Fuck. Big fan of a cute stifle or like. Sometimes when someone tries to talk thru a buildup? Hot.

These were so fun! Thank you so much Anon! Hope you learned a lot about me!

[reachfolk]

I'm goin thru ur blog and found these compliment prompts and UH.

96. "Your makeup looks so good on you." for Lex and Filly and U Know Why 😎

💛 @vilkas

❥ prompt: “your makeup looks so good” (modified to fit the characters a little better but the gist is there!)

✿ tags: pre-relationship, lexlia, light angst at the end, excessive use of italics lol

❥ word count: 1.5k

✿ summary: ophelia shows alexandria a glimpse of the world she was meant for.

❥ author’s note: we all know the image this was inspired by. have some lesbeans <3

✿ taglist: @lookathooves

“You look different today.”

Ophelia’s observation came as she watched Alexandria attempt to carve out a pattern in the hipbone of a deer. It was harder than she’d expected it to be, and had she not wanted to learn the art so desperately, she’d have stopped long ago.

She didn’t look up from her work as she explained, “I’m wearing makeup. Came straight here from lunch with my family and some guests of theirs.”

“Makeup?”

That caught Alexandria’s attention, and she paused her ministrations on the bone. “Yes. You don’t know what it is?”

Ophelia shook her head.

“It’s, uh... a bit like warpaint, I suppose,” Alexandria said. “Paints and powders you use to cover blemishes or add a pop of color to your face. Though, I suppose it’s not the same purpose. Makeup is simply for beautifying.”

Ophelia made a face at the last part. “You’re not the sort to care about that.”

“No, but that’s how it’s all done in high society. It’s only proper for a woman to look her best.”

She got a gagging noise in response and laughed.

“I like warpaint better,” Ophelia said. “More bold, and much more meaningful.”

“Yours suits you quite well.”

Her warpaint differed slightly day-to-day, but it was always a deep purple and always in a swirling pattern of some sort. Today, it reminded Alexandria of a gas floating upwards into the air, dissipating as it moved higher up her neck and face, ending in a circular pattern that surrounded her eyes.

“I’ve never seen you in proper paint,” Ophelia observed, confused. “I know Nords use it. I’ve seen my fair share of adventurers come this way, and they often have some marks on their face.”

Alexandria shrugged as she admitted, “I’ve never worn warpaint.”

Her friend must have easily picked up on the disappointment in her tone, as she gave a moment of thought before standing up and walking towards her dresser. “Let’s change that, then. I know just the design for you.”

“I don’t know.” Alexandria hesitated, a frown on her lips despite her intrigue in the prospect. “I’ll have to go home soon.”

“Then we’ll wash it off before you leave,” Ophelia said with a shrug, unconcerned. “You don’t need to sound so scared about it. It’s only paint.”

“You know how my mother is,” Alexandria gave an awkward laugh. “She’ll make a fuss over just about anything that could be improper for a woman of high status.”

When Ophelia turned to face her, she held in her hands a metal canister of paint, a brush, and a wet cloth. She held them up tantalizingly. “Is that a no?”

Alexandria pursed her lips and thought hard, but she found herself shaking her head on instinct. “It’s a yes,” she gave in.

“Lovely!” Ophelia took a seat on the bed, patting the spot beside her.

Alexandria’s uncertainty lingered, but with the gentle smile Ophelia gave her, it was all but quenched as she took a seat beside her.

She began by wiping off the makeup Alexandria wore with the wet cloth. The red tint to her lips and cheeks stained the white fabric, and her face felt lighter without the layers of powder dusting it.

“You said you had a design in mind,” Alexandria said. “What was it?”

“It’s a traditional pattern used by the Boldclaw clan. One of their key deities is the Lady Namira, so it only felt fitting for you. And the yellow is simply because it’s your favorite color.”

Alexandria couldn’t fight back the urge to smile as Ophelia brought her cloth over the apples of her cheeks. Her connection with Namira brought a kind of comfort to her that not a lifetime spent in the Temple of Dibella could ever give her. It was Ophelia that made her realize that, and she encouraged it at every turn. Alexandria loved her for that.

Once the makeup was off her face, Ophelia dipped her brush into the canister of yellow paint. She brought the brush up to Alexandria’s face, drawing a long stripe from between her brows down to her chin. She went over the line a couple of times, then frowned.

“This angle is uncomfortable,” she said. “Sit back a bit.”

Alexandria did as she was asked, shifting back in her seat. She’d expected Ophelia to grab a chair to sit facing her properly, but it seems she found Alexandria’s lap a better seat.

Shifting to straddle her legs around Alexandria, Ophelia gave a smile, fully aware of just the impact it had on the woman beneath her. “Much better, don’t you think?”

Perfect, Alexandria wanted to say, but the lump in her throat blocked the words and she could only give a slight nod.

Ophelia brought the brush back up, gently stroking it over Alexandria’s lips in a downward motion. Alexandria wondered if the way her lips quivered was noticeable, and from the smirk Ophelia bore, the answer was a resounding yes.

She brought the brush higher, drawing a branch moving outwards from the central line. The brush tickled Alexandria’s face as it passed over her skin. But she could hardly pay attention to it.

She was far too distracted by Ophelia’s focused expression. There was something in the way she looked at her that bore into Alexandria’s chest. She felt bare and exposed under the woman’s watchful gaze.

She often hated it—being stared at so intensely left an unease in her stomach as though her every move was somehow wrong. But Ophelia looked at her differently than anyone she’s ever known. As though there were something within Alexandria worth seeing—worth admiring.

Ophelia brought a hand up to Alexandria’s chin, tilting it upwards, ever so slightly closer to her lips.

Alexandria was thoroughly disappointed when she realized Ophelia only intended to get a better angle as she painted one last set of lines at her chin.

With that, she leaned back, examining her handiwork. “It looks nice,” she assessed. Reaching over to her dresser, she grabbed a hand mirror, showing Alexandria the result.

As she’d felt, the paint ran down her face in one large stroke with rigid branches breaking off in other directions. Two were at her forehead, starting between her eyebrows and drawing upwards over her eyes then down toward her temples. Another two branches broke off in the same manner—two at her cheeks just below her eyes and two at her chin drawing over her dimples.

“A spider?” Alexandria asked.

Ophelia nodded. “It suits you quite well, don’t you think?”

It did. It really, really did. Ophelia always did this when they met—showed her little glimpses of a life she could have led, had her parents made different choices. Is this what she would have looked like if she grew up in the Reach as Ophelia did? If she’d been allowed to follow the old gods as she wished?

But that wasn’t the life she led. It wasn’t right for a proper Nord girl to wear the warpaint of a Daedric prince. It wasn’t right for her to be here at all.

“It doesn’t,” she said and got an eye roll in response.

“Alex, I don’t need the vision to see that you’re lying,” she laughed, a gentle airy sound. Alexandria wished she could listen to it forever.

But she couldn’t. Shouldn’t. She pressed her hands against Ophelia’s shoulder and pushed, making her stand and move back. Alexandria stood herself, forcing her legs to carry her to the tent’s exit. On her way out, she grabbed the wet cloth, wiping away at the paint on her face.

“Alex,” Ophelia called. “You can’t keep doing this every time, you know. Your mother’s getting in your head.”

“It’s not just about her,” Alexandria argued, stopping in her tracks and turning to face the other woman. “My sister, my brother, my father—I can’t leave them. Filly, we both know nothing can come of this.”

“Perhaps I wasn’t clear enough,” Ophelia chuckled. “You won’t keep doing this.”

“What, is that a threat?”

“It’s a vision.” Ophelia took both of Alexandria’s hands in her own, pulling her closer. Despite all her efforts, Alexandria gave in. “I’ve seen us. Together. The old gods themselves see a future for us. Why can’t you?”

“How could I?” Alexandria gave a squeeze to Ophelia’s hands before pulling back, bringing them around herself to resist the urge to reach out again. “The old gods don’t know me, and I don’t know them. I am not of your world, don’t you see that?”

“But you were meant to be.”

Ophelia took a step closer, and Alexandria stepped back.

“I’m sorry,” she said, “but I have to go home. I know my way out.”

Ophelia sighed, but a smile found its way to her lips, a kind of certainty about her.

“And you know your way back.”

[lawrencedienerthings]

So many plans dissolved by coronavirus. But we gained a gift — adaptability.

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In October of last year, my boyfriend brought me to a beautiful overlook of an aspen grove and asked me to marry him.

By January of this year, we had completed all the necessary paperwork for our summer adventure: hiking the Pacific Crest Trail (PCT), a 2,600-mile thru-hike from Mexico to Canada. By February, we had wrapped up most of the wedding planning. And through it all, we had worked hard in our classes and extracurricular activities as our excitement for graduation grew.

My final year of college was shaping up to be a good one.

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By May, we were scrambling to find a new apartment after cancelling all our PCT preparations, watching our graduation ceremonies online, and worrying that we would have to postpone our fall wedding.

Never in a million years did I expect to graduate in a pandemic – but entering university in the midst of one of the most divisive presidential races in U.S. history should perhaps have been a warning that the Class of 2020 would be in for a ride. 

And that’s the thing, isn’t it? If college taught me anything, it’s that I should never have had expectations to begin with. I expected to work in the finance world and ended up with degrees in film production and public relations. I expected to not date in college and I ended up with a ring on my finger. I expected to suffer from a fear of heights forever and I ended up rock climbing for three days a week in my university’s recreation center, for crying out loud! 

The Class of 2020 faced a lot of unmet expectations in a blink of an eye. We lost the beautiful discussions only in-person classes can foster, and the walk across the stage some of us had envisioned for well over a decade. We faced rushed goodbyes and rescinded job offers. I understand and agree with my college moving to remote learning, but that doesn’t mean the choice wasn’t disappointing. Frustrating. Devastating. 

Humbling.

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I was fortunate to win a full-ride scholarship for college, which gave me financial stability through the pandemic. My fiancé and I decided to postpone our hike to next summer and spend this summer exploring internships and hobbies. 

As a campus tour guide, I was still able to talk to prospective students through the magic of virtual meetings. I found much more time on my hands to dedicate to my coursework. I was able to enjoy virtual graduation ceremonies from the comfort of my own home, a drink in my hand and no fear of tripping in heels while walking across a stage.

The pandemic stopped me in my tracks. It forced me to take a look around and realize how much I had to be grateful for, which allowed me to feel… at peace.

That is truly something I did not expect.

I am a proud member of the Class of 2020. We faced the hardest test we’d ever been given, and it didn’t come from the classroom. The pandemic gave us perhaps the most important skill we needed when entering the real world: adaptability. 

And if we can adapt to graduating during a pandemic – if we can keep our heads held high and accept so many of our expectations not being met – then there’s not much else that will stand in our way.

Leilani Osmundson is a recent CU Boulder graduate who lives in Superior.

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[maybeiamok]

Ohhwhwhwhwheu god! Im gonna snd u the letter sooonishhh thru ask!🙌 Here is my partial feedback! i cant thank u enough for this one😭..awe yes and im proud of being a double capricorn hehe😎Thank you!!👉💜👈💫🥂..hehe yes i agree tht moon vala emoji is supr adorable😂..i didnt knw tht song..i heard it right before readin the letter 💌🥺🦋..the lyrics✨✨..my eyes welled up as well🥺🤍♥️..i already took ss's with an intention of reading it daily! This is nw smthing supr close to my heart♥️! Makes me feel superrrrrr loved ⚡💟

Thank you once again! For Answering my ask in such an ethereal way...it felt as if i really recieved an letter in my hand..tht handwritten one and im reading it..nd its happening irl😿..Keep up wid the amazing work!🙌..You are so hardworking! Take care of yourself!💖🫂 And have a great day/Night ahead🥺

First of allll congratzzz on hitting 100 bub🥺♥️

My big 3's Cancer ⬆️ Capricorn 🌞/🌝

Thankuu so much for readin my ask! 🍒💜

Love n light✨🤍

Alright let's get to it! Double caps are amazing my god that's cool! Ngl the moon emoji got lol🌝 this song played and it kinda hurt me ngl😭

"to my dearest love _______,

You always told me you someday did want a Sappy letter from me, though I knew you'd say something about it, blushing as always. Did you get the new flowers now that you're reading this maybe? I sent some fresh gardenias and hydrangeas with allium on the side for the pest control at the garden.

I'm sorry I can't be there love, I'm sorry I ended up being so emotionally distant lately. You know this sickness can cause that at times. It's taken a toll on your health personally too I know.

Hey, do you remember when we'd just sneak around the neighbors and sometimes play with the dogs in the backyard? They would be such sweethearts with us, I wish the owner would've kept them inside poor things.

I learned a new word lately, 'Metanoia' it's a beautiful thing really, the doctor asked me why I was looking into it when I asked them if they knew or in what ways it came into affect with their lives. When do you think it happened? My hand is starting to hurt along with my head so I'll be retiring soon.

I'll tell you about when it was with me last before leaving. I remember the green of the grass when I saw you. The dazed stare you had on your face from staring off. I believe you even drooled a bit. I remember you had your bag next to you on the bench. I couldn't help but stare at such eyes. As I went to sit next you I wondered on and on about what those eyes saw. What that mind was involved in at the moment. We had so many conversations.

You changed me with your words and choices, your decision making and need to create something in someone. Anyone. I will always be thankful, that it was me you chose. Me, you decided to bloom the greatest yellow flower of your passion in. Where the leave shone as if they were golden.

Thank you. Thank you for being there when I needed you. For holding me at my worst. For never giving up on me. Even now, the sickness comes back and I just still seem to have you here.

Thank you for staying.

I'm finding myself crying partially now, a nurse walked into the room again for the 30th time today.

Sending love and compassion to my dearest flower,

Your lover."

This felt way more personal than I thought it would be starting. Towards the end I actually ended up crying a bit. It screamed "I'm running out of time" writing this as if things would be over and wanting to tell you how much they loved you in Thai lifetime. There are about 5 to 10 letters they'll write in total I feel.

The mains auras were purple, green, and yellow. The yellow was such a joy I felt.

Things to watch for are dragons symbols, coffee stained papers, and cafes. "Oh! Sorry I'ma mess." "Hey, vent to me." "Tell me, what do you see." On the last one I saw a house and them covering you eyes it was so cute💕💕