#and while the idea that the cw just wanted him to “stay bi” is hilarious

[geekthefreakout]

Also, here's your yearly reminder that no one owes you their sexuality and that actors as just as human as you are. When in doubt, choose kindness.

[clearsky]

My Top Comfort Characters/Kins and My Main HCs For Them

(Note, not all my kins/comfort characters are on here, just the ones I have more than 5 hcs for)

CW: Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3), Himiko Yumeno (DRV3), Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA), Kyoko Kirigiri (THH), Tsuyu Asui (BNHA), Entrapta (Spop), Ibuki Mioda (SDR2), Celestia Ludenberg (THH), Funtime Foxy (FNAF), Peril (WOF)

Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3)

Nonbinary

He/They pronouns

Autistic

Chains and loose accessories are for stimming

Likes the feeling of silk and cotton

Can't stand the feeling of anything rough or bumpy

He likes collecting small trinkets and the bones of small mammals

Can't stand anything salty. He'll eat it but he certainly won't enjoy it

Dating Rantaro

Can flirt, but only if he doesn't try

Petnames are a hell yea

Gets sunburnt really easily

Group dates with Celesnaegiri and Ikuzono

Can't cook for s h i t

Had a scene kid phase in middle school

Went to the same middle school as Celeste and Maki

Knew them when Celeste went through her "I'm not like other girls" phase and Maki was a Band Kid™

Himiko Yumeno (DRV3)

Female

She/Her pronouns

Lesbian

Can force herself to fall asleep within seconds regardless of where she is

100% forces herself to fall asleep when she doesn't wanna listen/talk to someone

Himiko/Angie/Tenko relationship. I'm calling them the Traffic Light Trio

She likes taking naps in the forest

She prefers enclosed/tight spaces more than open ones

Has several hundred stress balls and squishies laying around

She overheats easy

Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA)

Questioning his gender, but goes by any pronouns

Knows he's Asexual, at least

Has no clue what his romantic orientation is though

The kind of person to carry treats in his pocket just in case he runs into a cat

Will stop to pet literally every cat he comes across

Great at reading people

Doesn't talk unless it's 100% needed

Hangs with Tokoyami, Jirou, and Denki most often

Aizawa has 100% unofficially adopted him

Fosters kittens

Not a big fan of physical touch

He is 100% in the bakusquad. Anyone who says he's in the Dekusquad is a c o w a r d

He and Tsuyu vibe

Knows a bunch of random facts

Dark humour? Dark humour

*skates backwards into his therapist's room slowly sipping from an absurdly huge cup of coffee* Candice you're not gonna BELIEVE the shit I just went through

In case I forgot to mention it, he skates

Kyoko Kirigiri (THH)

Mtf

She/Her

Bi with female preference

Burns go up to her shoulders/collarbone/chest

Prefers to just listen as opposed to saying anything

Knows a ton of random trivia about everyone else in her class

She keeps a notebook she fills with all the trivia

Doesn't celebrate her birthday. She just doesn't see the point of it

Doesn't hate sugar/sweets, but if given the choice she would choose literally everything else

Cuts her own hair

A cat person

Permanent dark circles

T-Tall 😳

Like,,, 6'1 at LEAST

Only person taller than her is Yasuhiro (6'3)

Canon no longer exist

Ahahaha healthy life habits? What are those?

Can't handle horror games

She's the kind of person you'd go to if you needed to rant but didn't want any advice

Polyamourous yo

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

She's a dom yall are just scared to admit it

Tsuyu Asui (BNHA)

They go by They/Them

Lesbian

They and Ochaco are dating

They like to hang with Shinsou

Which mainly just means the two sitting in one of their dorms in near total silence doing whatever

Can speak English and French as well as Japanese

Learned English from cartoons

Picked up French bc they thought it'd be fun

Prefers to stay neutral in the whole Bakusquad / Dekusquad thing

They're invited to all outings/events by/for both squads

They like puns

They're a dumbass but willingly, and for fun

Like "someone says they like dark humour and they'll turn off the lights before telling a joke" kind dumbass for fun

Great at poker

Likes Disney Movies

Very touchy once you get close enough

Not in a sexual way, just likes physical contact

Especially fond of piggyback rides and cuddles

Extreme fear of needles

Entrapta (She-Ra)

She/Her or It/Its

Doesn't bother trying to figure out whether she's cis, trans, nonbinary, or what

Was AMAB though

Short as fuck (4'7)

Strong as fuck though

Cuddle game strong

Physical touch is a fuck yes

Cuddles

Piggyback rides

Hugs

Anything where she's touching someone is wonderful in her book

As long as she's the one that initiates it

Anyone else touching her without her permission makes her freak

Prefers being high up

Makes it harder for anyone to sneak up on her

An ace at video games

When it comes to sexuality she just says she's Questioning

Ibuki Mioda (SDR2)

Any pronouns + Pup/Pupself + It/Its

No idea what their gender is otherwise

Biromantic Asexual

Just likes sexual jokes

Gets distracted easily

Has severe hearing problems

She's plays her instruments as loud as possible, with the amp right next to her, without ANY ear protection

It's caused some damage

She talks so loud bc she has no idea how loud is considered acceptable

Wears hearings aids most of the time

Several piercings and tattoos

Likes hearing things jingle

She has a bracelet with a few bells hanging from it

She'll shake it whenever she's bored

LOVES hair accessories

Ribbons are a particular favourite

Occasionally she'll hang little charms from her hair "horns"

The kind of person who never takes any pills/medicine bc she keeps forgetting she has to

Frequently uses emojis

Skates everywhere but she isn't very good at it

She keeps crashing into everything

Has broken every bone in her body at least 3 times

Most of which was bc she keeps trying to kick in doors and skating down the stairs

Celestia Ludenberg (THH)

Nonbinary

Any pronouns, mainly goes by She/They

Bi, 70:30

Collects mini hand sanitizers and can tabs

Has single handedly gotten Mario Kart, Mario Party, Monopoly, Uno, and Clue banned a grand total of 17 times (and counting)

The kind of person to purposefully target someone regardless of what game was being played

Favourite victim is Byakuya (bc he gets so upset about it and she finds that hilarious)

Mains Waluigi

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

Has several banned Twitter accounts bc whenever she's bored she'll start discourse on purpose

Hangs with Korekiyo, Ibuki, Byakuya, Yasuhiro, and Leon most often

It's a weird friend group but everyone's sorta gotten used to it

She and Byakuya gamble together occasionally

She tries to avoid it bc he'll willingly blow his entire fortune in an attempt to beat her

Autustic

Can't stand the feeling of water

Mainly bc she can't swim for shit

Horror movies? Hates them

Gets flustered super easily

Taka is her twin brother

Kotoko, Kokichi, and Gundham are their half siblings (Same father)

Peko and Toko are their cousins

She sucks ass at go fish

Fuck canon she's 4'11 now

C h u b b y

Freckles

Once she gets comfortable enough with herself she dyes her hair in the peekaboo style

Either black and red or black and blonde

Haven't decided yet

I'll be doing Celesnaegiri hcs as a seperate post but I just feel it's important for you to know that she expresses her affection verbally and is a very touchy person

Went to middle school with Maki and Korekiyo

Has horrible eyesight

She wears contacts most of the time but she always puts off buying more

After the 5th or so time she ended up blindly stumbling around a week after her contacts ran out Kyoko convinced her to buy glasses as well

Religious accessories yo

Like chokers and dangly earrings with crosses and pentagrams and shit

Likes wearing wacky earrings

Can run and do all sorts of tricks in heels

She and Mukuro are exes yo

Keeps her hair short so it's easier to manage

Hair never gets longer than her shoulders if she can help it

She seems like the kind of person who'd keep her bangs grown past her eyes regardless of how frustrating or inconvenient it is

She's a sub yall just don't wanna admit it

Funtime Foxy (FNAF)

I'm going on the record to say this

Funtime Foxy is genderfluid and that is that

Goes by Funtime

Any pronouns, They/Them most commonly

Plays music (keyboard and guitar mainly)

They and Funtime Freddy (Freds) mainly play with the kids

Freds mainly tells stories with Bonbon while Funtime more so plays one-on-one

Has nicknames for everyone

Circus Baby - Ringleader

Ballora - Bells

Funtime Freddy - Partner

Bon Bon - Bun

Peril (WOF)

I like both Nonbinary She/They Peril and Mtf She/Her Peril

They're both such good concepts

She's a lesbian, Harold

She only had a crush on Clay bc he was pretty much everything she was supposed to like in a guy

Gimme a moment while I force all my mental disorders onto this poor child

Autistic, Anxiety (Social anxiety, mainly, but she has most types), Adhd, PTSD

I'd like to reiterate yet again that She's a lesbian

Sunny and Glory were her gay awakening

Peril in Book 1: Damn, Sunny and Glory sure are pretty. Anyone would be lucky to date them. Clay would probably go for them over me. He would be stupid if he didn't. I myself would willingly date them over someone like me. They're just so pretty :(

Peril waking up in a cold sweat in the middle of arc 2: WAIT-

Rarepair alert but Peril/Sora

Peril meeting Sora: "Hmmm She's attractive. I would love to date her. Too bad I'm straight and in love with her brother lmao :P"

Peril, a mere month later, waiting for Ruby to leave Jade Mountain, pacing in her cave, running face first into a wall: WAIT-

I remember reading this one amazing story where Sora taught Peril to read/write and Peril found out she set off the bomb and comforted her/convinced her her run so that's canon now

Btw if anyone can remember what that story was called/what platform it was on and could tell me I'd appreciate it very much

I'd even be willing to draw a character of your's or make you an icon or something

I usually don't accept requests bc I get burnt out easy but this is a special case

She runs into Sora again sometime between the beginning of TOP and the end

I like to imagine she just goes wandering around

Anyway she confesses like a mere few minutes after running into her again bc Peril is just subtle like that

The actual confession takes 15 minutes and the entire time Sora is just sitting here like "👁👄👁 sure"

Bam Peril/Sora

Peril plans to keep it a secret for a little while longer but she spends 3 seconds around Clay and pretty much blurts it out

Clay, who wasn't even aware that Peril was a lesbian, is just "👁👄👁"

I wanna say Clay doesn't know what a lesbian is but in my canon Sunny is a lesbian so Starflight has already told him

Anyway he's super supportive

From that point Peril is sorta open about her sexuality?

Like, she gives Clay permission to tell the rest of the D.O.D bc she isn't about to risk being in front of them when they hear the news

(When Sunny starts actively seeking her out as a hang out buddy and Tsunami, Glory, and Starflight appear to tolerate her presence just a bit more afterwards she pretends she isn't confused by the change)

She's pink, white, and blue bc I said so

If you look at a certain angle in the right lighting her eyes, mouth, fire, and under her scales all look purple

But her fire is normally white and blue bc I said so

Also she pale as fuck bc in my canon their fire just sorta burns their colour away

You know how you leave something outside for too long and it gets sunbleached? Where it gets all washed out?

Like that but more extreme

By the age of 10-12 firescale dragons are just white with pale eyes

That's right not even the eyes are safe

Ram horns :P

I'm also fond of Peril/Sunny

Or maybe Peril/Sora/Sunny

But Peril/Sora is the main thing

On the topic of that bringing in my hc that if one sib in a sib group is fire resistant all of them are

She,,, She can change her scale colour

But only slightly and only if her emotions are strong enough

Bc I don't give a fuck about Darkstalker's scroll we were robbed of hybrid Peril

Unfortunately all of Peril's emotions are strong

Rainwing ruff along her head and neck

It's like a hood

It's mainly smoothed to her sides but when she's startled it flares out

RAINWING PUPILS

Y'all will know what those look like as soon as I get off my ass :P

She,,, She can mimic bird cries

Hates the summer

She has more than enough body heat already and the outside is just hot enough to add on and make her feel sick

She can somewhat control her heat but most of the time it's based on her emotions

It can go from standing-in-the-middle-of-a-burning-building-cant-see-your-nose-smoke-is-so-thick heat (Strong emotion) to Hey-thats-a-nice-cozy-campfire heat (Calm/"weak" emotion/Sleeping)

I'm just gonna make a different post with all my Peril hcs cuz there isnt enough room for all of them here

[alexeishostakoff]

What are your top 10 DC characters & why? Maybe favorite fcs/hcs for them too?

ok so! i did this in alphabetical order bc i just can't do them as favorites from one to ten

bruce wayne, aka the batman

why: im gonna be real with you, i ignore 95% of his canon bc my bruce isn't as much as a dick, go away. he's a really interesting, complicated character, and i like writing about his trauma and the different ways he copes with it bc they're all so fucked up. so fucked up. man needs a therapist

fc: david castañeda

hc: he's bi, but not out to Anyone At All bc it took him a long time to come to terms with it and it's very personal to him

bonus! what verse: comics

dinah lance, aka the black canary

why: i want to BE her. she's a badass with a big heart and honestly deserves the entire world. also im generally a fan of strong women who are soft and kind but also take no shit from anyone ever and WILL fuck you up if you mess with their family

fc: jurnee smollett-bell (im really excited to see her take on dinah!)

hc: she's in love w barbara gordon & also mentored stephanie brown you CANNOT take this from me

bonus! what verse: COMICS

donna troy, aka troia

why: im weak for strong women! she's interesting to me bc she's like diana but she doesn't seem to be as untouchable or perfect yknow? she's amazing but still very human n i love that

fc: madeleine madden, laura harrier, conor leslie

hc: diana was always a lovely, supportive mom/sister/whatever relationship they have in dcs current continuity (THEY NEED TO MAKE UP THEIR FUCKING MINDS), but sometimes donna struggles with living up to someone who was just so fucking perfect all the time, which is part of why she quit being wonder girl

bonus! what verse: the titans tv show,,ik it's incredibly edgy but i love it ok. ive also been looking into her comics

hank hall, aka hawk

why: look i. really did not like him at first and then we got to 'hank and dawn' and s2 and jesus CHRIST. JESUS CHRIST. his trauma is very compellingly written and he's like, a white man but with depth?? DEPTH????? his heart is in the right place and he's been through a lot and i love him

fc: alan ritchson

hc: he's been hit so hard so many times that he's starting to reach the point where he physically can't be a vigilante anymore

bonus! what verse: the titans tv show

harvey dent, aka two-face

why: he's actually got, like, a genuinely interesting backstory when it's written properly. and the idea of gotham's savior, "apollo," the perfect, beautiful, good guy becoming a villain is just. poetic cinema. i adore it. @dc hire me to write a two-face movie hes the only male batman rogue i want to see one for. riddler u can stay but you're on thin fucking ice

fc: riz ahmed, austin stowell (specifically his look as larry king in battle of the sexes)

hc: him and bruce are in love and it was soft and then sad and then sadder. it's practically canon leave me alone

bonus! what verse: comics

john constantine, occasionally aka the hellblazer

why: bastard man!!!! bastard!!!!! he's not your typical comics protagonist, & he's an antihero without just being like, a broody murderous dick? hes reflective and self centered but also like. funny. and relatable. and interesting. he fucks up and fails a lot and it's okay. he's the comics representation of the everyman and relies on his wits more than his power and his og comics are SO fucked up and have a lot of political commentary and i Love Them. also hes been canonically bi since the 90s so that's a bonus

fc: riz ahmed (listen,,,), matt ryan

hc: he lets people lie to him too often. he lets them say "i'll be okay, i know what i'm getting into," lets them love him even when he knows he shouldn't. he wants to love & be loved so badly that he always tricks himself into thinking that maybe this time it'll be different, maybe this time it'll end okay. it never does.

bonus! what verse: comics & legends of tomorrow & the constantine tv show

kendra saunders, aka hawkgirl

why: in season one she was very much like, seen as the storybook princess who was so perfect and sweet and needed to be saved, but then she said 'i can handle myself' and slayed her OWN dragon and goddammit it was beautiful

fc: ciara renee

hc: there are some days where she cannot get the feeling of vandal savage off of her skin and she scrubs her arms raw but she just feels his hands and it's a living nightmare for her

bonus! what verse: legends of tomorrow

leonard snart, aka captain cold

why: he's very cold and ruthless and calculating but he'd do anything for his sister and his friends and he cannot live with the thought of anyone controlling him. he makes his own fate, he has to, he has to be able to be more than what he was made to be. he became one of the good guys while still retaining his character and ice and danger and he is also Hilariously snarky at all times

fc: wentworth miller

hc: he's not dead he's just trapped in the time stream seeing thousands of possible futures for all of the people he cares about and not able to do anything about it and it it his own personal hell

bonus! what verse: cw's dctv, but i've been looking into his comics too

stephanie brown, aka the spoiler

why: god. GOD. steph refuses to let anyone define her or stop her from reaching her goals and she has been through so much and stays bright and kind as an act of defiance and she is so quiet and so strong that sometimes you can forget she is hurting but the shit she's been through has given her a steel core and god she just shines, she's so perfect

fc: sydney park

hc: im not sure if this is actually canon or just a frequently used hc but she's a pre-med student

bonus! what verse: comics

zari tomaz

why: snarky hacker babe!! she's been through a lot and isn't afraid to let herself be hurting and angry but at the same time she's so so good and has a kind heart and she's usually the voice of reason and im gay for her

fc: tala ashe

hc: she's a lesbian and still in love with amaya

bonus! what verse: legends of tomorrow

[mysunfreckle]

i don't know if you're taking requests right now, but if you are, would you please write some more ace!enjolras? (i love your writing by the way!)

I don’tthink I’ve ever written and Enj that wasn’t ace-spec, but I’m guessing youmeant my Modern Means Less Miserable Enjolras, so here you go! ^^

The cocktail party

ExR Pining, Friendship Fluff, 1.7k, cw alcohol.

Enjolras isnot really in the habit of questioning why parties happen. Partly because hegrew up with Courfeyrac, but also because it doesn’t really matter. Not as longas it means that his friends are happy and he gets to be around them.

For thisparty, however, Enjolras is very aware of the reason. The reason is that Jehanand Bahorel are of the opinion that adult life did not include as many cocktailparties a they had been led to believe and this is an attempt to remedy this.

Which iswhy Enjolras is currently drinking third (?) strawberry daiquiri and happilywatching Feuilly teach Bahorel how to juggle with limes.

They’re atBahorel’s house, of course. The only place with enough  actual party space for all of them. There’s noone to bother them here either, since the last of his roommates also seems tohave taken off last month. Weird, that.

Enjolrastakes another sip from the pretty glass.

“Enj! Enj!”

Enjolrassmiles at the sudden presence of Courfeyrac’s arms around his middle.

“Hey Courf,having a good time?”

“The best,”Courfeyrac beams, letting go after one more tight squeeze. “I’m gonna fetchBaz’ guitar.”

He dartsoff again before Enjolras can stop him and that’s really rather disappointingbecause Courfeyrac gives good hugs and hugs are nice and if Courfeyrac couldstay still for more than a minute at the time Enjolras could hug him back. Thatnever happens until much later at the parties though, when Courfeyrac has gonea bit sleepy and feels like leaning on people.

Actually,that sounds like a wonderful idea. Because he’s not sleepy, but he is tired, and he wants another hug.

Enjolrasputs his empty glass down on the nearest flat surface, deciding that he’sdefinitely had enough to drink for tonight. Those were a bit stronger than what he’s used to. He should go get a glass ofwater. And find someone to hug, or lean on, or both. Except Courf is so muchsmaller than him. Too small to comfortably lean against. Or maybe that isn’tright. Because Grantaire is also smaller than him – not that much smaller, but still – and he looks like the perfect sizeto lean against. He certainly does now anyway, sitting hunched over in a cornerwith Musichetta.

Enjolrascan’t quite see what they’re doing, but he cansee Grantaire is wearing one of his soft sweaters. He’s leaning his head closeto Chetta’s and Enjolras can just see the edge of a grin as he talks.

The smileon Enjolras face is as undeliberate as the decision to move towards them.

…

“Honestlythough, Chetta,” Grantaire tuts. “I’m disappointed in you. What is even the point of doing my nails if they don’tglitter.”

“Listen,”Chetta sniffs. “When you boys stop using my purse as a cargo bay, I may haveroom to bring more than three colours.” She traces the edges of Grantaire’sthumb nail with expert precision. “Anyway, you’re getting the bi flag, so don’tcomplain. And stop twitching your fingers!”

Grantairemakes an effort to keep one hand still while snapping the fingers of the otherand Chetta gives him an exasperated look. It’s one of her best, and Grantairemeets it with a grin. There are very few things more comfortable than beingfussed over by Musichetta. Grantaire is low-key convinced that’s the reviewthat all her clients would give her, if they felt like they could get away withit: “A+ wedding planner. 10/10 would be fussed over and shepherded again.”

Before hecan put this into words in an appropriately witty and teasing manner, however,something happens that he isn’t prepared for in any way.

Enjolrascomes out of nowhere, sinks down next to him like the sun setting after atiring day and…drapes himself against Grantaire from behind to look over hisshoulder.

He smellslike strawberries.

That is asfar as Grantaire can get his brain to supply anything even slightly informativebefore he freezes completely.

“What areyou guys doing?” Enjolras asks and Grantaire may not be able to move or thinkright now, but he’s still very awareof the fact that Enjolras’ breath is ghosting past his neck.

The nextthing he’s aware of is that Enj sounds…

“I’mpainting R’s nails,” Musichetta says pleasantly. “You okay there, Enj? Yousound a bit wobbly.”

“I’m fine,”Enjolras mumbles. “I wanted to sit down, and I wanted to sit down here,because…”

There is ashort pause for a deep sigh and Grantaire’s eyes meet Chetta’s for a moment.There is a smile pulling on her mouth that is a few steps ahead of Grantaire’s,he’s still stuck on the simultaneously hilarious and frankly distressing notionthat Enjolras is drunk.

“…because Ilike you both so much,” Enj finisheswith a sigh.

He restshis chin on Grantaire’s shoulder and it is literal torture to Grantaire that hecan’t move right now. Not to push Enj off, of course, that would be heinous.Probably a crime of the same calibre as moving when a cat has curled up on yourlap. But Musichetta is still stubbornly painting his nails and Grantaire needsto have photographic evidence of what is going on right now, because he’spretty sure that his brain is going to do it’s best to convince him it neverhappened in the morning. Enjolras is mutteringto himself for fuck’s sake.

On the onehand, part of his brain is definitely still malfunctioning at the fact thatEnjolras is literally pressed up against him all of a sudden, but on the other,Enjolras is drunk and mumbly and trying to cuddle him. For lack of a betterword. And that is the strongest proof he’s had so far that at some point,somehow, he has actually managed to convey to Enjolras that he can be trusted.That he can be his friend and nothing else.

“Enj, you’rea treasure,” Musichetta says warmly. “And you’re keeping R still for me, thankyou for that.”

Grantaireis halfway through narrowing his eyes at her, when Enjolras shifts and says:“Oh, should I move? I didn’t–”

“No,”Grantaire stops him hastily, and he adds, quickly switching to his jokingvoice: “By all means, use me as a recliner.”

“I’m not,”Enjolras protests, but he stops pulling away and that’s all Grantaire wantsright now.

“You havenice hands, Chetta,” Enjolras yawns. His hair is tickling Grantaire’s face withthe way it’s nearly leaning against him.

“Thankyou,” Musichetta smiles, and Grantaire makes a mental note to ask her what kindof superpowers she taps into to keep from making the gleeful noises ofamusement he can see in her eyes.

“They’re sosmall compared to R’s.”

This timeMusichetta doesn’t reply, she just bites her lip, and Grantaire takes a fullthirty seconds to curse his former self for not actually taking out his phoneand not just taking a picture, but filming the whole damn thing. Especiallysince Enjolras seems to be trying to hide his face in his hoodie at the moment.

“Enj,” hesays, trying to cover up the fondness in his voice with as mockingly serious atone he can muster. “If you fall asleep on me, I will ruin this nail polish just to take a picture of you and getBossuet to caption it with a pun. This is nothing personal, it is just aninevitability.”

Enjolraschooses not to turn his head before he replies and Grantaire wishes he couldunderstand the indignant answer muttered into his hoodie, he really, reallydoes.

…

The thingwith having a fairly low alcohol tolerance that makes him go very lazy and verycuddly early on, is that Enjolras rarely actually has hangovers. And hecertainly never wakes up the next day with fuzzy gaps in his memory.

So when hedoes wake up the following morning, he gets to remember absolutely everything.Only now, with his sober self present and in a position to re-evaluate everysingle thing he did last night in terribledetail.

Enjolrasgroans and hides his face into his pillow.

He shouldnot have done that to Grantaire. Not after all the effort it took them to getwhere they are today. It’s selfish, and completely inconsiderate of Grantaire’sfeelings. Because Enjolras is awareof Grantaire’s feelings. There’s just a sort of unspoken agreement that theywill both act as if he doesn’t. Because. Well. His feelings are…different.

Outside hisbedroom door Enjolras can hear the sounds of Combeferre having a sternconversation with the coffee maker. They both have work to do today. So thatprobably means Ferre will come wake him up soon.

He rollsover, making a genuine effort to actually wake up. And push those regretfulthoughts from his mind. What’s done is done. He could text Grantaire toapologize, but it wouldn’t do any good. Probably wouldn’t do anything but callattention to it all and what use is that. Maybe Grantaire doesn’t mind as muchas he should. He rarely does…

He canapologize by watching himself more closely next time. And, possibly, watch Jehan a little bit more closely whilethey’re mixing the drinks. So he doesn’t end up doing something like thisagain.

Except, itreally had seemed like Grantaire didn’t mind. He had made jokes like he alwaysdid. He hadn’t laughed that tense, slightly too-harsh laugh he so often used to awhile ago. He had just been the way Enjolras had come to know him lately. JustGrantaire. Not nervous around him or provoking him or upset with him. Just,good. And it’s been like that. Good.

Maybethat’s why he did it. Because Enjolras can’t quite recapture what exactly wasgoing through his head just before he made the decision to slump againstGrantaire and stubbornly refuse to move in favour of warmth and softness, buthe does remember what it felt like. Allof it. And he’s not going to do it again, of course, he shouldn’t. He won’t. But,he kind of wishes he could.