#and whether it could ever be as impactful as naruto to me.

[calentvre]

i think what i still prefer about naruto compared to most other super popular shounen and why it stuck with me is that its villains are human. they aren't supernatural beings with incomprehensible evil motives and aims! their reasoning can be traced to history and the systemic failures of the shinobi world. kishimoto is a poor plotter & eventually chickened out bc it got too complicated, but i still think in its essence naruto felt more impactful bc of this - most of the bad stuff that happens is directly caused by structural injustice and the inherently violent nature of shinobi society. while the tailed beasts, alien and dangerous, are arguably also villains, the tragedy they cause results more often than not from humans using their power for destruction. this is ultimately why the war arc and the ending with the deus ex machina -esque introduction of zetsu and kaguya is so disappointing; the series really did have something to say in its conception about the cycles of violence, the various consequences of war, and what society organized around army/police states results in, but all this is thrown out the window in favor of hand-wavey explanations excusing the characters' actions with fate and divine plans. in this essay

[exo-raskreia]

U being anti IH what if the same thing happens to gjhm and they become canon but don't have as much material as other ship?

I'm not sure if you're asking this with malicious intent or if it's a genuine question from a fellow shipper, but here we go.

(Oncoming lengthy response)

I've actually had this thought before. What if despite his different writing style, the general hate the Bleach ED got, & just how ridiculous it sounds, Gege pulled a Kubo? After all, he's a fanboy of the man (I wonder what he thinks of the Bleach ED? Is he aware of how it was received?).

I would be shocked, conflicted, & worried.

To start with, while neither ship should be compared due to how fundamentally different they are, I will say this. Despite several interactions, IH severely lacked chemistry, trust, & meaningful moments. Meanwhile, GojoHime with less on-screen interactions & a playful dynamic, have shown us a deep trust for each other & have worked together to achieve their shared goals. Despite being a minor side character, Utahime is one of the few people Gojo trusts & one of the three adults he calls by first name with no honorific. This already puts them leagues above IH, who were barely friends at best & acquaintances at worst.

So, I wouldn't want GjHm to somehow get the IH treatment in the end. I wouldn't wish that on any shipper, heck, I even feel sort of bad for the IH's, cuz despite becoming "canon" out of nowhere 7 years ago, they still. don't. have. content (especially from the author himself, who has shown no particular interest in his endgames. They don't even have a family sketch 🫢). Makes you wonder who really lost here (as IchiRuki has still gotten some content over the years post-ED...).

GjHm already gets enough hate for simply existing, despite it being a smaller ship with a smaller fanbase in the JJK fandom (the antis are threatened by the potential it has, not to mention it's the most popular JJK straight ship in Japan), so if Gege were to pull a Kubo, the hate would increase, especially towards Utahime, who of course would amass the most hate from this freakin' fandom that's obsessed with Gojo. It'd be a tough time for us fans of the ship & Utahime.

After dealing with the aftermath of the Naruto Shipping Wars as a soldier in the NaruHina army lol (don't even get me started on why NH is NOT like IH, plus we actually have content 🤪), & then witnessing the disastrous Bleach ED & the general hate it got, I do NOT wish to go thru this again. Whether you win or lose, if it isn't done properly, you'll still deal with criticism left & right... (why can't more battle shounens be like Fairy Tail when it comes to slowly developing the ships throughout the story? There'd be less drama...)

Gege keeps saying the manga will end soon, so that means if he wants to make anyone canon by the end, he'll have to start now. JJK is a battle shounen with no romance, but if despite this, GjHm are to be canon, then their moments leading up to it will have to be quality > quantity. Is there enough room/time to develop them the way we would wish? Doubt it, so we'll need at least a couple flashbacks to further justify them (and boy, we're still waiting for their flashback after Gojo's unsealing, if that ever comes...).

Basically, even if it's a few moments, they need to be impactful enough to make even the casual readers/viewers think, "I could see them ending up together." Subtlety & slow burn are usually the best fit for battle shounens, after all, &/or maybe a little further (once again, like Fairy Tail). With that said, out of all the potential ships in the series, I personally view YutaMaki as the most likely to become canon by the end; their moments, far & few in between, are enough to convince me that they could be endgame (that is, if the capricious Gege so wished 😓).

So far, we've seen nothing of what Gojo & Utahime truly think of each other. To reiterate, they have a silly dynamic but have shown to trust each other implicitly. Why this is, we can only guess. I mean, Utahime has risked her life for Gojo twice already (investigating the mole & buffing him against Sukuna). Where is this supposed "hate" she holds for him? It's stated in the databook that she hates him most of the time, so how does she feel at other times? 🤔 And Gojo, despite his teasing, has shown he cares for her, saved her, & obviously trusted her with the aforementioned important & risky tasks.

Just what is going on with these two? Is it really so impossible that there could be something more here? Whether now or later? Gege would just need to give us a little more... Though at this point, there's only so much we can hope for, considering his writing style & how things have been seemingly going... Gotta keep our expectations low...

(What if—delulu plot twist—GjHm are already together, either secretly this whole time—like some ppl have wondered, as this could further explain the immense trust in each other—or got together during the timeskip, & all we need now is the big reveal with a/some proper flashback(s) to explain it? LOL. Just a silly idea 😜).

Anyway, in general, I wouldn't want GjHm becoming canon at the cost of its beautiful potential. We'd need some more moments to justify it, or else I'd have to put back on my old "army uniform" to defend my ship if need be. So, despite how unlikely it would be, I can only hope Gege does NOT pull a Kubo (well, he's more likely to kill everyone off or something like that 🙄).

I'd rather he pulled a Sorachi (author of Gintama) & left things open-ended, keeping the fandom from turning into utter chaos...

(Maybe only that side might lose it, tho, lol. They get bothered by anything that doesn't adhere to their ship despite them being down here with us in Delulu Land, oop-).

[kazelvr]

.. mei navigation -> about me !

!! who is mei?

- me!! i’m meilin, the owner of this blog. people usually call me mei, but you can call me whatever you want! i love nicknames, so go ahead.

- my pronouns are she/her, and i am bisexual. i’m asian + latina, my mom is asian and my dad is latino. i’m also a minor (16). my birthday is on feb 17 ! i have diagnosed adhd, so please be patient with me!

- im not so fluent in english, so if i say something that doesn’t make sense, you know why now lmao

!! things i like!

- anime. blue lock, chainsaw man, blue period, jujutsu kaisen, one piece, tokyo ghoul, spy x family, one punch man, naruto, evangelion, fruits basket, kimi ni todoke, nanbaka

- manhwa. lookism, noblesse, true love operation.

- movies. edward scissorhands, any tim burton movie, white chicks, mean girls, you are so not invited to my bat mitzvah, everything everywhere all at once, 20th century girl, any studio ghibli movie

- games. genshin impact, honkai star rail, persona 5, resident evil, final fantasy, zelda, splatoon

- kpop. bts, stray kids, new jeans, twice, enhypen, le sserafim, tomorrow x together, red velvet, aespa, xdinary heroes (krock), blackpink

- shows. victorious, sam & cat, the summer i turned pretty, the umbrella academy, full house, shameless, never have i ever, ginny & georgia, jane the virgin, you, manifest, any k-drama tbh, stranger things, i am not okay with this

- others. key and peele, autumn & winter, any type of art, writing, social media, talking to people, music, sleeping, messaging, my fam, school (sometimes), rambling, all animals, shifting, poetry, romance, long car rides, listening to people talk, food, acting, psychology

!! favs

- megumi, geto, choso, nanami, yuuta (jjk)

- aki, denji, angel devil, quanxi (csm)

- rin, shidou (blue lock)

- diluc, alhaitham, neuvillette (genshin impact)

- jing yuan, blade, sampo (honkai star rail)

!! talk to me

- you can talk to me about anything, idm! whether it could be about something that’s going on in your life, or just random things in general. i will definitely respond 100%! i also yap a lot…

- you don’t have to use tone tags around me, i understand when something is satire or platonic

- i might be a slow responder, especially if it’s on a weekday. but i’ll do my best to respond fast !!

!! my works

- it takes me a while to write especially now when school started. of course i’ll get them done, it may just take me a few days or a week to do so. please be patient !!

- i write about whatever is on my mind, and usually if i’m really do fixated on a fandom, you’re going to see me write about that fandom a lot.

[animeyanderelover]

Sorry, sorry for a second request! Do you think you could do Prompt 9 or 17 with Shisui Uchiha?

I recently got so many requests about him which is kind of funny since he was a minor character in Naruto. But he is an Uchiha so I guess that explains it.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, kidnapping, manipulation, sabotage, intimidation, Shisui revealing his dark side, threatening, mentioning of killing

Prompt 9: “Do you want me to break your legs or lock you in a cage to prevent you from running away?”

Would you kill for love? Would you be ready to go as far as hurting, threatening and manipulating everyone in your way just to be able to know that the person you were madly in love with would return the favor and love you back? And would you feel guilty if you did so? Or would you tell yourself that this was necessary? Would you even feel ashamed of it in the first place?

Maybe it was sometimes easier to be obvious and more naive, maybe being blind was sometimes a good thing. Because seeing things very clearly and remembering whatever he did took it's psycological impact on Shisui, a lot more than he let others see. He was sure that he had every time be lenient with people which had saved a lot of stupid asses from him. He had been careful with whatever he had done, be that stalking, killing or other things he had done due to his obsession.

Everything had been hidden under multiple layers of friendliness, charm and intelligence, a nice guy act he had put on so he wouldn't scare you away and make you suspect him. Shisui had been rather determined to make you fall naturally for him without having to rely on anything else besides his natural charm and maybe a few threats here and there to scare potential rivals away. He had worked hard for all of this, having invested months to bring you to confess your love to him and a few other years just to keep a strong relationship with you. There were imperfect times as well, but that was normal and both of you had always been able to discuss it out. Shisui had been proud of this, that both of you were able to always talk about things and find a solution.

But even the sweetest lie must find it's end and looking back on it, he should have seen it coming. Love was in the end the strongest yet most fragile thing in this world. It could either go through the toughest of times or shatter with the slightest breeze of the wind. Truly ironic. Only one small mistake had been all that was needed to expose him to you, though many things were still in the dark for you and Shisui was not willing to tell you detailed everything he had ever done.

And now you were afraid of him, something he had never wanted. Instead of a smile you wore a mask of horror, instead of leaning into his touch you flinched away, instead of warmth and trust there were pain and tears in your eyes.

It was distraughting to see for the Uchiha, to know that the person he had planned on loving and protecting with all he had was now afraid of him. Life didn't go always his way and it was something normal, but even he had been mad at no one in particular because he hadn't had someone to blame except the person who had tattled too much and they had gone silent already, Shisui had guaranteed this to happen. But now he had been left with the knowledge that you knew the truth, wanted to break up with him, wanted to let others know the truth about the golden boy who was together with Itachi one of the most talented Uchiha.

How could he ever let that happen? He had a reputation and didn't want to disappoint his friend, his Kage, his village. Much less could he imagine a life without you on his side, he had never felt that desperate before like when he had seen you in such a devastated state, crying and shouting at him to leave, to go away, to never show his face in front of you again.

What other choice had he left except not only having to use his Sharingan on you and to make sure that you wouldn't be under too much humans for a while? You would have ruined everything he had worked on. Shisui had quickly thought about all sorts of excuses to why you would be gone for a long time, why you wouldn't be able to see friends and family for a while anymore. He knew that this wouldn't work for forever, even he was not allmighty. But he had been able to buy more time to think of something better because controlling you with his Sharingan for the rest of his life was tiring even for him and he disliked the thought of forcing you to love him. It didn't feel right to do. Not like anything he had done so far had been right.

But recently there had been something that had unnerved him a lot, managing to make him question his sanity. The way he had suddenly turned so much more threatening and intimidating on you. The first time he had done it, it had been quite surprising and he had paused when he had noticed what he had done. Never before had he been forced to do this, using threats on you. But now he had to, a new and frightening thing for you to witness, making you understand just why he was so feared by rival villages. Shisui had a cold and rational side to him, only doing what was best for his village and his comrades.

But being so selfish over it was something you weren't used to see, Shisui always made sure to be fair. But what had you known about him anyways? All you had known was his one side, the other side of him had always been a mystery to you. And you knew why. Now you knew why.

"Do you want me to break your legs or lock you in a cage to prevent you from running away?"

Because no one wanted to be near a cold killer like him, someone who kept all his emotions hidden under a perfect poker face with the red eyes that reminded you of a demon gazing at you. There was nothing on his face, no sympathy, no guilt, no nothing. It was probably best to not let emotions get the better of him, not when he was being assigned to kill people without hesitation.

His words had a numbing effect on you, causing you to stop struggling instantly, instead slowly falling down to your knees, trying to get your trembling breath under control. You had troubles to stay the smallest bit calm, not when fear was pumping through every single cell of you and made you flinch by even the smallest noises.

You didn’t know what was even scarier. The words he had just spoken or the person who had said them. Or maybe it was even the fact that you didn’t even know anymore whether to believe he wouldn’t do it or he would. There might have been a time where you would have taken all of this as a joke, but as you felt his cold presence lingering right over you, the glimmering eyes feeling like attempting to drill through your head and the tight grip he had the moment he wrapped his fingers around your arm, the hands with which he had killed and hurt others, made you doubt that he wouldn’t do it.

Still though, you wanted to play with your luck. Maybe you would be able to calm him a bit down and make something more human appear on his face.

Maybe.

“You wouldn’t.”, you stated with a more firm voice than expected, looking him daringly in his eyes. The glimmer of hope in you must have been still there inside of you.

You saw him quirking his eyebrow slightly when being met with the sudden courage of yours despite the fact that you were still shaking like a mice in front of it’s predator.

“What makes you feel so confident?”

“I might not have realized what you’ve been up to. But I’ve known and loved you long enough that you wouldn’t hurt those you cherish and love.”, you replied, continuing to endure his Sharingan despite the knowledge that he might trap you in a genjutsu at any moment.

He stared at you for a while, scanning you up and down in an observing way.

“I wouldn’t be so confident if I were you. You do not know what I am capable off.”

This was discouraging because you couldn’t tell if you had managed to hit a nerve of his or not, Shisui was an excellent actor. He didn’t give anything away.

“That’s true. I don’t know what you’re capable off. But I know that you have your honor and duty as well. So you wouldn’t hurt an innocent citizen, not if you are loyal to the Leaf. Because if you do, you are a terrible person. If you really love me, you won’t hurt me. Otherwise I am just an ignorant fool who still believes in love. In that case I would like you to do what you just threatened me you would do so I can stop seeing you as my love, but as the manipulative and cruel person you are. I won’t sugarcoat anything anymore. However, be aware that I will hate you for eternity afterwards and would rather die than acting like nothing ever happened.”

Your tone sounded warning and he knew that you had just threatened him just as much as he had done. He was a bit surprised that you had still the guts to talk to him like this, but you had always been someone who often managed to feel brave in a tricky situation.

You still had faith in him despite everything he had done? Shisui felt his inner conflict growing more and more, feelings clashing with each other and he maybe felt himself moving his poker face the tiniest bit, though it was too short for you to be sure you had really seen it.

Why had this to happen to you two? You could have been a happy couple. But it was too late to regret this. The past was the past. And Shisui had to focus on the present and the future.

“You think too highly of me.”, he told you, bending down so he didn’t have to stare down at you like this.

“You do not know what I had to do already in my life (y/n). You have no idea what I could do. I don’t want to hurt you, I really don’t want to hurt you. However, I won’t take the risk of you potentially ruining everything I’ve worked on so hard. So do not test me and my patience.”

For a short moment he looked a bit exhausted, though this moment flashed by rather quickly and he went back to his emotionless face.

You felt bitterness stirring up inside of you as well as the feeling of losing hope and disappointment. Did he really mean this?

You jerked away when he suddenly grabbed your shoulders, looking like he wanted to say something else.

“I don’t have a choice (y/n). You left me no other options. I do not expect you to understand why I do what I do. But at the very least please understand that I never wanted this to happen. I still love you.”

The slightest bit of distraught, marking all his actions slightly, specifically the sudden desperate tightening of his grip.

“I’m sorry. But I have to be this way.”

[jostenneil]

how do you feel about people shipping toxic ships?

i think this depends on a few things. primarily, that fandom tends to conflate the terms abusive and toxic with each other. . . a lot. toxicity is inherent to abuse, but the reverse of that isn’t necessarily true. you can have a toxic relationship with someone without it being abusive, esp since, to me at least, abuse specifically arises from a person taking advantage of a power dynamic within what should normally be a mutually supportive relationship to deliberately hurt the other person. an example of an abusive relationship to me would be (from the grisha trilogy) alina and the darkling, who uses alina’s trust and sympathy towards him to manipulate, isolate, and threaten her to the point that it emotionally debilitates her and threatens her other relationships with people. there’s a clear power dynamic being manipulated there to the advantage of one person and to the harm of the other

a toxic relationship to me can involve intentional behavior but it can also involve a lot of unintentional behavior, esp that driven by trauma or a non-ideal upbringing, and then i also think a lot of toxic relationships are simply. . . between people you would never expect to get along to begin with. a lot of enemies to lovers ships have their initial basis in toxicity bc the people involved are enemies. they’re not supposed to actually like each other (or value each other’s lives) in the beginning, and usually if you write such a dynamic well, then certain political events and revelations eventually help those stances evolve to where the toxicity is addressed and overcome (and the same process can apply to rivals to lovers situations as well, albeit along softer parameters usually since politics aren’t necessarily involved). i personally like to see toxicity explored if writers give it direction. toxicity is off-putting if it’s static bc then it serves no other purpose than to scream in big neon letters “omg these ppl are sooo toxic it’s so sexy blah blah blah” and that’s incredibly boring to me. what well explored toxicity does is analyze how the people involved are impacted by that toxicity. whether being toxic invokes remorse, isolation, misery, etc. that’s what interests me

sometimes, it goes the ideal way, wherein characters realize their toxicity only hurts themselves and they express a genuine desire to change and grow. sasuke (from naruto) is a fairly obv example of that phenomenon to me, in that, yes, he’s absolutely right to be distrustful of the villages’ ulterior motives and to want justice for his family’s massacre, but driving away the people he loves and who love him doesn’t ultimately help him in attaining that goal or vision. post canon naruto is an absolute mess, but i think most people would agree on the general premise that in an ideal world, sasuke opening himself back up to naruto, sakura, and kakashi could have helped him enact change bc he would have a support system behind him, and he wouldn’t have to further isolate himself or render himself so prone to manipulation via trauma if he was able to rely on people he genuinely cared about

other times, toxicity can go the tragic route. the characters may be aware of their faults but fail to figure out how to fix them, or they may not be aware of those faults at all and continue to indulge in them until their ultimate downfall. as miserable as that sounds, i think there’s a value in narratives like that, too. it teaches you a lesson, and it can also garner sympathy from you as a reader in some circumstances bc you may realize that some toxic behaviors of a given character were inadvertent and they didn’t have the resources or environment that would make them conducive to change. that’s like the epitome of wuthering heights to me. most of the characters are absolutely terrible to each other, but there’s something to learn from that, and with heathcliff esp, you see that a lot of his toxicity stems from trauma and abuse that he didn’t really have the emotional resources to ever recover from, so you can’t entirely render him into a villain bc it’s a flat reading

toxicity can also exhibit a blend of the two above scenarios. wuthering heights also feels like a good example of that to me. heathcliff and catherine’s ends are tragic, but hareton and cathy junior’s ends are far more hopeful in comparison. some people don’t learn, but others do, and it’s a good insight into the nature of human dichotomy as well as cycles of toxicity and abuse within context of class and race relations

so ultimately, i think i personally find a lot of worth in exploration of toxic relationships bc it can really get to the heart of analysis of the human psyche and how real world relationships are often non ideal. but that being said, how i feel about the phenomenon as it goes in fandom is. . . tricky. i’ll be straight and say i don’t think most people are sensible enough to really get to the root of what makes toxic relationships interesting and are instead content to rely on toxic stasis bc it’s easily marketable and readily appealing. you don’t have to deal with the real questions contending with toxicity demands of you if you don’t care, and that’s unfortunately a mindset that pervades fandom at large

[kohki3325]

Goodbye World (Closing Thoughts)

It's summertime now and the spring 2022 semester has long been over, but I'm bored so I thought I would write some closing words for the sake of finishing up this blog. If anyone else ever logs back on here and sees this post, well cool I guess lol.

To start let's go back all the way to when course registration started, which was around the beginning of November. I knew I was going to take this class the moment I saw the list of Quest 1 courses for the spring no matter what, so I registered as soon as I could.

A few weeks later though, I was sent an email saying that me being able to register for an honors course as a non-honors student was an error in the system, so my seat was taken away (side note: was anyone else in the class a non-honors student besides me?). Luckily Professor Smith was kind enough to put me on the waitlist and so I reclaimed a seat by the second day of classes (looking back I should've just asked if I could come to class on the first day).

On the second day of classes and the first time I went to this class, I was met with a packed classroom, so I just found a seat in the back. Little did I know the people I sat close to be would be who I would be talking to for the rest of the semester. I was a little afraid during this first class that I wouldn't be able to follow the discussion at all because of the unfamiliar philosophical and political concepts that my peers were bringing up, but once we got into the anime part of the class I felt right at home. It felt as if I had joined a club.

I believe I was only in that classroom for that one class before we switched to the bigger classroom. I remember talking about this in class once, but the school desks in that classroom alongside the general vibe of the class contributed to this feeling that we were almost back in high school. Perfect for a class that was robbed of their high school years by the pandemic.

As I said before, I felt right at home when we started discussing the assigned anime. I'm generally not one to speak up in class much (and in general really), but something about this class compelled me to talk as much as I could, even when what I was saying was completely wrong. I loved talking with the small group around me as well as with the entire class, Professor Smith, and Brandon. I loved reading all of my classmates' blog posts so I could take in others' opinions and say something unique in my own posts. I loved watching way beyond the assigned episodes for every single anime (besides Naruto and Gundam) just so I had more material to discuss. I always considered myself as an overachiever in school, but this time I was doing everything out of my personal interest rather than for a higher grade or any sort of affirmation.

Even though I would consider myself as more of a STEM oriented person, this class was genuinely one of the most impactful classes I've taken thus far. I learned what it truly means to be an active member of the classroom. I discovered that thinking about anime critically is a great way to enhance my enjoyment of it. And despite the readings giving me a newfound hatred for French philosophers, they have taught me a great amount about the world, and especially about my cultural heritage of Japan.

I cannot stress it enough that this class singlehandedly saved my otherwise godawful semester. Although I'm not sure whether I'll see some of you guys ever again, thank you all for a memorable spring semester and I hope that we can talk about anime again someday.

[mavda]

Beast Tamers

Ch.1 |  Ch.2 | Ch.3 | Ch.4(1) | Ch.4(2) | Ch.5(1) | Ch.5(2) | Ch.5(3) | Ch.5(4) | Ch.6(1) | Ch.6(2) | Ch.6(3) | Ch.7(1) | Ch.7(2) | Ch.7(3) | Ch.7(4) | Ch.7(5) | Ch.8(1) | Ch.8(2) | Ch.8(3) |

Ch.9: No lies (1)

Naruto’s body gets better with time, but it is a slow process. His father doesn’t show it in front of others, but whenever they are alone, his worry seeps out of him in waves that make Naruto feel guilty. 

But saying sorry only makes his father look more anguished, so he stops soon after. 

“Jiraiya should be arriving soon. The last time he contacted me he was two weeks away from here… that was a while ago, though.”

Naruto nods as his father presses his hand along his bare torso, and thinks of his godfather hurrying but getting distracted along the way. He smirks. His grandfather loves him and cares about him, but he also trusts Minato’s ability and his own research. 

Naruto has long stopped believing an answer will arrive with Jiraiya, nevermind a cure. His father has always been the one with hope, so he always gets disappointed when Jiraiya arrives with research and information that’s helpful but not the end-it-all kind of panacea his father still believes to be out there… waiting to be found.

Naruto trusts his body and his training and the hours he has spent honing his every fiber and being into being resilient. He trusts the hours his father has spent reading every book available and his godfather travelling far and wide to get his hands on any type of knowledge that looks promising. If he has made it this far, it has been thanks to them.

But there is no cure for him. Because he’s not sick. 

And although it has been hard for him to come to terms with it, he understands where he stands in all of this now. What he can and can not do. He wakes and meditates, then meditates again before sleeping, and each time he reminds himself of who he is, of what being himself means. 

He has a duty and a purpose and a debt with his father, with his family, with his clan and with his people. And he will see it through. 

But nowadays, at night, when Hinata makes sure that Neji goes through with the releasing of his chakras and then they cuddle before they go to sleep. Naruto is able to feel a new kind of desperation sitting at the pit of his stomach. 

“Does Hinata know about Neji and… her father?”

“Yes.”

And yet she says nothing. He owes her another apology, and somehow he thinks that she won’t like to hear it. 

“Grandma Mito…”

“Working herself ragged… as well as Shikamaru and everyone else, really.”

“Have they been able to share what I told you about?”

“Yes. Lord Gaara said the same thing, but you know… not much to go off with.”

Naruto remembers the red eyes staring back at him and the black dots around the pupil. The sharingan. A technique unique to the Uchiha, a terribly powerful clan that threatened the world with their ability to control the Beasts without the need for a vessel… which meant their demise at the hands of every other clan alive that saw them as a threat. 

A murdered clan that had been lost to history. A power that meant their complete destruction… or so they thought. 

What do you look for when the records have no more information about their abilities or their history?

The only thing they can know for sure is that they have a motive for wanting the Beast Tamers dead. But now they can only wait for whatever these remnants of the past have planned for them. 

At least until they regain their footing and start the hunt back. 

So a truce is in place and like never before, the Beast Tamers’ clans seem to be working together. And this seeming camaraderie only makes Naruto shudder with unease.

Minato rises before the door opens and Hinata stands there, looking at Naruto like he could be gone any second now. He smiles. 

His father walks to Hinata and whispers things Naruto can’t catch, but by the time he has put his kimono back on Hinata is by his side. 

Neji is not with her today and Sai sits outside their room, Minato exchanges whispers with him, too. 

“Ready for our walk?” Naruto asks with a tone dripping with energy, but his body is slow, and although he is now able to move on his own, he still has to mask the pain that courses through him. 

“Yes.” And Hinata is next to him, supporting him as he stands.

He has been regaining his strength and he has been adamant on moving his muscles on his own. Sakura shrugged at his request and told everyone that Naruto had always been the person that knew himself best. Everyone still worries over him, and having Hinata by his side, anxiously glancing towards him does make him feel somewhat guilty of forcing himself to get better at an accelerated rate, but…

Shikamaru has shared with him the current state of affairs and now is the prime time for the Beast Tamers’ clans to be attacked. Naruto and Shikamaru can only hope that the first clans to be targeted are those worse than them, but there are little guarantees of anything at this point. 

So he bites down the pain. He has felt worse, that’s for sure, and that’s the energy he tries to channel through him. He hasn’t tried to use the Beast’s chakra yet, but he knows his body wouldn't be able to channel the energy correctly anyways. He needs to reach a point in which using that is an option, an option that will not leave him on the ground gasping for air and writhing in pain. 

Hinata always accompanies him with the calmest of airs, although her eyes washing over Naruto every once in a while are enough to give her away. What else has Naruto lost thinking that her body language is enough of a tell tale? 

“Hey,” she knows and she hasn’t talked to him about her father, and he wonders… whether she would rather not talk about it to spare him the worry. Much like himself when he tried to deal with this without her knowledge. “I’m sorry about the letters with your father.”

Hinata stops for a second and then keeps on walking as if nothing happened, “Please, d-don’t worry about it.”

But he does. “I wanted to tell you, but… have you read them?”

Hinata nods her head once, a short movement that Naruto can tell comes from her being embarrassed about the contents of said letters. It’s not like she wrote them, though. 

Hiashi just wanted a source of information and since his own daughter was in the heart of a clan that prized privacy over many other things… it stood to reason that he would want to get something out of this. But Naruto couldn’t bring himself to put Hinata in such a position, even less as he got to know her and realized that she was not like her father at all. 

So Neji took over with only a nod. Nothing ever got out of that room and Neji listened and shared all he knew without reservation. Naruto had to say he had been surprised at his attitude. 

“I know it would put you in a tight spot, so that’s why… well, I got help from Neji. He wrote the letters in your stead, the same way you would with your own penmanship. I… wavered about this whole thing once, shared with him my insecurities about hiding this from you, but he told me that I was right in doing this and that he thought you would be better off without contacting your father again, and well, seeing as he never contacted you to know about… you, made it feel like he was right. If he would have ever asked about you or made an attempt to talk to you, I would have told you immediately, I want you to know that.”

Hinata stares at their intertwined arms and then looks up at him. “I know,” she whispers. She also knows her father wouldn’t do that. Neji was right- is right, she is better off not knowing about her father, and if Neji is the one writing the letters, then at least, “Neji d-doesn’t give him any v-vital i-information, right?”

“No. He does a pretty good job with the reports Shikamaru gives him regarding the clan’s standing with the outside, so- well, no, there is nothing in the letters that your father couldn’t know just poking his nose around.”

“Good.”

“I don’t want to lie to you ever again- rather, I don’t want to hide things from you ever again. I promise that. I owe you that.”

There is a strained silence before Hinata asks, with a tremble in her voice, “Will you be a-all right?” 

And Naruto’s first reaction is to smile and nod, reassure her that he will be fine and this is only temporary. But he senses her question is a little more nuanced than that. “I will. I will recover from this, it hurts and it sucks but it has improved greatly and we are already making preparations to prevent this from ever happening again, so yes, I will be all right.”

“H-how will this a-affect you?”

“We don’t know yet. It most likely had an impact on my body. None of the seals and training I go through are made to withstand a forceful tearing of the Beast, but they did help me withstand this whole thing. If I am here now it’s because of my dad and my training… as for what comes after this, well, we are waiting for me to recover and be able to perform as usual before my dad performs a deeper check on the seal. He’s actually hoping my godfather brings some sort of help that will enhance my seal or whatever, but…” Naruto sighs and battles with himself whether he should even share this with Hinata, seeing as he can’t even bring himself to discuss this sort of thing with his own father. But he did just tell her he didn’t want to hide anything from her, so. “I don’t think my godfather will bring anything that could change my current situation, Hinata. I don’t think there is anything out there that can give me a normal life span.”

Naruto feels himself be dragged to a stop, and Hinata doesn’t look him in the eyes, “What does th-that mean?”

“It means… I don't think there is a cure to having the Nine-Tails inside of me.”

She says nothing, but this time her eyes find his and she stares, something bubbling up inside her.

And somehow Naruto panics, “That- That doesn’t mean I will give up on trying any new thing that comes to my attention. Nor does it mean I will, I don’t know, stop undergoing my chakra release sessions, or doing my meditations or anything like that, okay? I will still try to-”

“I’m pregnant.”

It takes him a moment to process the words that leave his wife’s mouth. His eyes seem unable to tear themselves from her face, trying to make sense of her words. 

"Excuse me?"

"I'm p-pregnant."

There is a rush of feelings Naruto can't seem to recognize. There is the strangled feeling of desperation first, overwhelmed after by anxiousness and worry, but they all disappear in an instant as he realizes that he is going to be a father. 

A father. Him. 

His child. 

His arms find Hinata's waist and he envelops her in a tight hug, buries his face in her hair and breathes her in. 

Their child. 

"Congratulations," he says, voice full of emotion, and Hinata's arms find his body and slowly hugs him back. 

"Congratulations," he says again, and his chest starts to rumble, as a laugh starts to find its way outside. He puts distance between them and cups Hinata's face with his hands. Her eyes shine under the setting sun and Naruto can't control the smile on his face. 

He forgets everything in that moment.

His struggles, the future, his anxiousness, his role as clan leader, his role as vessel. For the first time in forever, his brain forgets to remind him that his body hurts, the pain fog that floats around him disappears. 

He is just a soon to be father with the woman he loves in his arms and the news of a baby coming is all he can think about. 

And this moment he treasures. Even after they reach their room, even after he presses his ear to Hinata’s stomach -who laughs at his antics-, even after they go to sleep and Hinata's soft breath washes over his chest. 

The room gets dark and his mind reels everything he dared to forget in a rush. His smile doesn't falter, and his heart still feels full of happiness. But he cries. 

He is euphoric at the news, and can now gather what all those whispered conversations were about. He brings Hinata closer to him, kisses the top of her head. 

He smiles still, but his eyes are wide open, and he just stares into the darkness of their room. 

[phlebaswrites]

Rivals Reconciled

Summary:

The Russo-Japanese War.

(With shinobi.)

Takes place in 1871.

Rating: Explicit Fandom: Naruto Relationship: Mū (Nidaime Tsuchikage) & Hōzuki Gengetsu (Nidaime Mizukage) Word Count: 5967 (Complete) Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death

My thanks to @junsui4089​ for the fantastic art!

Mū stares out over the open ocean and misses the feel of solid earth under him.

Oh, the ship is made out of iron, a solid material, but it's floating on the largest body of water that he's ever seen. It feels... treacherous.

He is, quite literally, out of his element here.

It only adds to his discomfort with the entire situation.

Ōnoki did the best that he could, there's no question about that, and it was absolutely necessary for both of them to be here. Without message boxes of their own, Iwa needed to have its Tsuchikage at the centre of the wheel, making sure that their voice is heard when the Kage are making decisions that will impact all of them.

Even now, his successor is high up in the rigging with the other Kage, conferring on their next move now that they have confirmed that the Uzumaki night raid was successful.

There is still work to do.

The Uzumaki confirmed that their original count of seven ships was correct and they managed to disable one completely. They killed several people on another two ships, many of whom they believed to be commanders, but those ships still set sail with the rest of the group the next morning.

So Mū will be facing a group of six ships.

No, he needs to call it by the name the the Russians use for it. It is the Siberian Military Flotilla, and not just a group of ships. He must remember that this 'Flotilla' represents a country far larger than his own, and that he is a small pebble next to a boulder by comparison.

The Russians are vulnerable because they are far away from their home and have no knowledge of what they face.

All shinobi know this tactic. Draw your enemy out, isolate them in terrain that is to your advantage, and then kill them. But, at the same time, he is also isolated and vulnerable, forced to rely on the good will and guidance of a people who he has always considered enemies at worst and rivals at best.

The man beside him is a case in point.

Hōzuki Gengetsu.

Though he is Mizukage no longer, Gengetsu has lost none of his skill, and he was always a formidable opponent. That Mū must rely on him, and potentially even follow his orders...

It's not the most comfortable of situations.

"So, looking forward to killing some Russians?" Gengetsu's voice is jovial.

"No. I'd rather not kill anyone, but I doubt that I will be afforded the luxury of that choice. As such, I will simply do what I must." Now that he is no longer Tsuchikage and no longer represents Iwa, Mū can make bald statements like this about his personal beliefs.

It must come as a surprise, for Gengetsu eyes him curiously. "Of all the people that I thought would show mercy to a bunch of foreigners, I never thought that you'd be one of them."

Mū shakes his head. "Not mercy. Practicality. They are men, sent to do work by another man. Who answers to another man in his turn, and so on. I cannot lay my hands on the decision makers, and so I must take what actions I can. Whether I wish to do them or not makes no difference at all."

"Huh." Gengetsu appears to think on this for a while. "Did you used to think about me this way?"

Mū eyes him with surprise. "Of course not.”

Gengetsu huffs. "And why not?!”

"Because you were not just a man. You were the decision maker." Mū smirks behind his bandages. "And I could lay hands on you."

Gengetsu bursts out laughing but says nothing more, and so neither does he. Silently, they stare into the wind.

It's.... surprisingly comfortable.

Maybe, just maybe, this venture will work after all.

Read the rest on AO3!

[peepingtoad]

grim headcanon that nobody asked for:-

Sometimes I just get thinking about my headcanon for Jiraiya’s mama (that she worked hard to get herself welcomed into Konoha in its early days, that her niche was intel gathering, that she was a single mother and never really at home, that Jiraiya knew her mostly through letters, that she spoilt him when she came home and yet is implied to have chosen to die in the field rather than fail a mission/reveal intel), and because I clearly enjoy pain I start to think about how that really impacted him in regards to how he grows up and handles his own life and relationships.

For a start, I don’t think he really holds any of it against her (on a conscious level at least), whether it’s not being there for him very much, or not coming home to him before it was too late. It definitely hurts, but when the news of her death is at its most raw, he reminds himself constantly of the fact that she sacrificed so much for him--so that he could grow up somewhere safe (safer than not living in a Hidden Village, at least), somewhere with the resources to make him strong and educated and able to have some control over his life. He embeds it firmly into his head that you can definitely love and look out for someone from afar, doing the things that aren’t necessarily glamorous or pleasant for anyone involved but doing it for them. 

We see how this even becomes how he handles his own relationships, with Naruto being the primary example of someone he’s striving to protect not by being physically there, but by chasing down the Big Bads that threaten him, using the information gleaned by Minato before he died. We see it in the fact that he generally martyrs his entire personal life for the sake of duty (usually to the Prophecy, to the village, or whatever else it is he feels he must do at any given time), and that he just ups and leaves his team in the middle of the Second War to train some kids.

Genuinely, he thinks that ‘from afar’ is a Fine way to be ‘there’ for someone, and yet it could well be that this way of thinking is the only way he can reconcile the horrible possibility that his own mother just didn’t ever love him that much. Or didn’t love him enough. Not compared to... what? Her freedom? Her adventures? Her job? The village? He doesn’t even know, really. All he knows is that he practically raised himself (save for the kindly old baachan that lived next door to him), and that his mother was always excited to see him when she came home... but still, in the end, always left again without fail. 

This idea of never being her top priority has threatened to creep up on him at many points, but he always swats it away at every turn because why the hell would he want to think about that? She totally loved him (and spoiler tbh: she really, really did... he just had no closure and really, not much of a developed bond with her to speak of in the end which planted seeds of Doubt), right?

Of course, whether he allows himself to think about the possibility doesn’t mean it doesn’t manifest in how he conducts himself nonetheless. In chasing fleeting love, chasing the close second to love that is sex (which is further compounded by a very real need to feel human again when the wars come along and he has to kill so frequently), self-sabotaging himself in romance to give the excuse of ‘just bad luck’, never considering kids of his own as a possibility, and never perceiving anything longer-lasting as being ‘for him’ (he says this to Tsunade before his death, that he isn’t supposed to be happy).

((As an aside, it also reminds me of this dash game which was such a read; he wants love so much, is starving for it, and yet it only comes to him in fleeting moments to consume greedily until there’s nothing left... or it’s just taken away from him.))

At best, he is a fleeting passion. Basically, he doesn’t feel worth the long-term. Which isn’t to say he has no sense of self-worth in general, because he does in his own special way, is remarkably resilient and optimistic and self-assured by nature... and yet there’s something in him that feels as if nobody can really love him. His sense of being ‘someone that can be loved’ is so very low (even if he doesn’t realise it, being so effortlessly confident and all) that he would never have dreamed Tsunade and Orochimaru would fall apart after their split in Ame. He never grew up believing that his presence was something that could have a positive impact on people all on its own, and thinks that the only real impact he can make is to go far away and do things in the interest of others, whether it’s fighting enemies, finding information to help them--or whatever other crazy little thing he thinks of. 

In a perfect world where the war didn’t push them all to their limits, his team might have saved him from this subconscious line of thinking, but as it stands they really weren’t in a position to be soft and nurturing of each other once they hit adulthood and were thrown into wars (instances of giving into passion aside, which I most definitely think happened). It wasn’t on either of them, with all their problems and traumas, to make him feel valued enough to realise that him leaving would make any difference, and yet off he cluelessly goes because he didn’t believe it was the case--he thought that everything would be just fine without him. 

Of course, he comes back to find both of those relationships very much on the rocks, only to eventually lose them both because his love for them isn’t enough to steer them from their grief or ambition... so that’s a little more fuel for the subconscious ‘I’m so not worth it’ fire.

And really, he never fully recovers from that.

But while it all sounds pretty hopeless, saying that on a deep subconscious level he perceives himself as fundamentally unlovable, or like he’ll never be the most important thing to anyone or enough for anyone... I promise it’s not. 

Because the day someone shows real, unbridled love for him and makes it indisputably known he is truly important to them... it’ll all click. I think it even started to click on a platonic level the more time he spent with Naruto, given he seems to do such a turnaround from being an abrasive jaded bastard when he first meets the kid, to becoming the ridiculously soft dad that confides in Naruto about things in his life that he’s shared with nobody else (Orochimaru’s defection and how it impacted him, mainly).

It’s just a shame that he dies so shortly after beginning to have these epiphanies that see old bonds returning to him and new ones being forged, really :)

[seoafin]

BYE I WAS IMMERSED WITH GENSHIN’s STORY PLOT (AND THE FANARTS ON MY TL) WHICH WAS ALSO DROPPED EARLIER THIS MORNING AND FORGOT ABT JJK FOR A SPLIT SEVONDSJJSJEJ

but anyways ,, jjk 145// the more i write abt it, the more i’ll sound incoherent, this is ur last warning to ignore this 🧍‍♂️(1)

the one who is based on avalokitesvara (i’ll start calling it them as kannon from now) that i mentioned was actually brain (out of ppl) 😭😭

kenjaku (羂索) is shorten from "不空羂索観音 (fukukenjakukannon)" ,, they existed b4 the heian period... older then sukuna ?? suggested that brain is at least 1k years old... hsjsjjsjs

fukukenjakukannon, a manifestation of the buddhist god of mercy and compassion,, perhaps of some interest is that the fukukenjaku shares some kanji with gojou's infinite void followed by kanjis for trap & rope, with kannon directly referring to an all-knowing/overseeing divine existence. it rly does seem that kenjaku, tengen, and gojou's fates have all been strongly interwined throughout history,, kannon has been perceived as both male and female depending on the portrayal and the region, not unlike jjk's kenjaku switching bodies and genders over the course of time (kamo vs kaori vs getou)

some associations with kannon may be relevant to jjk. namely, as yuki mentions, salvation ,, kannon is a deity to serve his subjects, and resolve their suffering by eliminating its source,,, in which case, i think kenjaku's goal may possibly not be too far off from geto’s ,,,,, he may think that he is saving a group that is enduring greater suffering than any other. whether that is shamans, cursed spirits, or sth else entirely is up for debate. given his persistence over the millenia, and the likelihood of spreading suffering worldwide through a universal tengen merger, it's more than likely that he has a very personal motive. note that under his plan it is specifically the evil of a human that would spread and destroy all of humankind connected through tengen

this is an interesting contrast to sukuna, who is much more whimsical and far less calculated. i think the clash between these 2 in the past will have strong relevance for the future,,, on the other hand, since kannon has historically manifested in response to the suffering of various beings, it may be that the feelings of cursed spirits as a whole have led to kenjaku's existence. he could very well be a curse born from curses, instead of from humans.

okay now what i'm really excited abt: the relationship between kenjaku and the 6 eyes. 1 of the functions of kannon is to protect the 6 realms of rebirth/the 6 paths. u may already be familiar with this buddhist concept as it has been referenced in a variety of animanga (notably it is a major plot point of naruto, it's mukuro's ability in KHR, etc.). there's strong reason to believe this concept also has connections to the gojou 6 eyes ability. i think if we get to learn more abt the 6 eyes, i may be able to speak more on this point.

(as a side note here, i’ll mention that there’s an association between kannon and the protection of aborted children, perhaps relating to og kamo and the death paintings)

at the very least, we know that kenjaku and the 6 eyes are in opposition, and i'm speculating that the gojou bloodline is the true manifestation of a protective deity, at least for the humans, and kenjaku's goals are antithetical to that,,, perhaps, as yuki kind of suggested, taking the name kenjaku is a joke of sorts. if sukuna is malevolence incarnate, kenjaku is mercilesness,,

i think some of the core concepts being explored by the tengen storyline are that of form and existence. gojou satoru, tengen, kenjaku, and eventually the star plasma vessels are existences that transcend the norm,,, toji on the other hand, is the only example of the opposite. an existence that shouldn't have ever existed, in a sense. kenjaku seemed to have used that to his advantage in his manipulation of the events in hidden inventory,,, but it also leads me to believe that only a similar anomaly could undo the new destiny he's setting up for himself.

geto was the perfect piece to set kenjaku up for success in conducting a merger and putting this culling game into motion. geto's path has led to this outcome,,, in which case, an apt parallel as we have known all along is that gojou's path should lead to the counter-outcome: megumi, yuuta, and especially yuuji— these 3 will be the key to unravelling kenjaku's plan.

also tengen said that kenjaku’s objective is to send all the ppl in jpn to higan or turning all non shamans into one but he doesnt have enough cursed energy to do that,,, i did say that yuuji’s birthday took place in the 4th solar term where a part of a week long celebration haru no higan (higan 彼岸→other shore, buddhist pārāmitā), when ppl would honour the dead and sweep ancestral tombs took place,,,

so theres this buddhist mantra, called the “heart sutra” and the last verse of the sutra is,,

there are many sutras in buddhism, but the most well-known among them is probably the Heart Sutra,, altho it depends on the sect (of buddhism), the heart sutra is often read at funerals and memorial services, so even if,, and for some reason the sutra is often associated to kannon even in the utube thumbnail 👁👁 if u search up prajnaparamita sutra,,

heart sutra has the meaning of "an important teaching to reach the state of enlightenment by the power to see through the truth and essence." which is based on the idea of ​​"void" as this important teaching,, the sutra tells us what we shld do to be free from the suffering of this world and live in peace,, in the heart sutra, the idea of ​​"void" is especially important.

buddhism can be broadly divided into theravada and mahayana buddhism,,,,

theravada is a teaching that only some ppl (those who practice buddhism with strict lifestyle like the monks) reach the state of enlightenment, while mahayana is a teaching that all ppl (some who practice Buddhism) can reach enlightment even if u dont practice anything related to the religion,,, the idea of ​​the void has the idea of ​​not being caught up in individual things and not being obsessed with it, and the idea of ​​heart sutra belongs to the category of mahayana buddhism

"void" does not mean "empty" but "no substance (no fixed shape)". the sutra also states that "everything keeps changing" and "although it keeps changing, the essence (core) of things remains the same."

for eg, the idea is, "i am me, no matter how old i am,, my appearance and various abilities deteriorate, how I am evaluated by others, whether i feel good or bad."

in other words,,, it’s a teaching to be aware of the essence without being caught up in the phenomenon of change.

"void" means "no substance (no fixed shape)", which means that u don't have to be obsessed with things or get caught up in one value.

eg, the reason why diamonds are beautiful is that diamonds arent beautiful from the beginning, but that humans decide that they’re beautiful,,, and that each person has a fixed evaluation of the movement of their hearts that they feel is beautiful. but thats not always the case right?

the last verse goes like this :

“Therefore, Prajna Paramita is known as the most divine mantra,

the great enlightening mantra,

the utmost mantra,

the incomparable mantra,

destroyer of all suffering!

Since what is true is not in vain, listen to the mantra of the Prajna Paramita– it goes like this:

GATE GATE PARA GATE PARASAM GATE BODHI SVAHA!”

the translation of the last line is: “going, going, going on beyond, always going on beyond, always becoming buddha.”

quoted from a web here : “it suggests movement toward awakening. It expresses the enlightenment of a buddha as an unfolding process, rather than a steady state. It puts us in the hopeful position of one who may not have arrived, but who may be on the way. The destination may not be an end, but the journey itself.

As appealing as this translation is, it is by no means the only one. When you do an Internet search for the terms “Heart Sutra” or “Prajna Paramita” you get numerous references. At these various pages you will find several different translations of the mantra. These include:

* Gone, gone, gone beyond, gone altogether beyond. Oh what an awakening! All hail!

* Gone, gone, gone beyond altogether beyond, Awakening, fulfilled!

* Gone, gone, gone to the Other Shore, attained the Other Shore having never left.

* Gone, gone, totally gone, totally completely gone, enlightened, so be it.

* “Oh, you have done! You have done! You have completely crossed the margin. This is Enlightenment! Congratulations!” “

the irony though of toji dying thinking that he should've stuck his principles but actually having ridiculous impact on the world,, this also puts a new spin on the "look upon the flesh of one who is free" (afaik it was left untranslated on his cover page when he invade dagon’s domain) and the implication is imo,,, the more cursed energy, the more restrictions and so in a way humanity goes into a devolution the more cursed energy there is because they will be bound even more tightly to the cycle than before,, which is the irony of the kenjaku & bodhisattva linkage

toji had a heavenly restriction and has zero cursed energy, which is an anomaly that is his own, which makes me wonder what he would've been like if he had an expressed technique,,, but it's the zero cursed energy part, that uniqueness, that makes him powerful in canon

im rly curious how having cursed power automatically seems to lock u into a binding,,, which is seemingly fate. the shaman world rly operates entirely on rules,, where this is because of tengen's barriers or the origin of techniques being more commonplace im not sure

i used to think CTs came abt when individual sorcerers made pacts with supernatural beings etc but now im not sure,, despite leaning hard on shinto and buddhist frameworks there isnt much overt indication over what is and is not a real power in canon,,, like we have mahoraga but are bodhisattvas assumed to be real and exist? or as figures of belief, are they and other figures of shinto mythology, all just cursed spirits in the end?

but that tengen is linked with the proliferation of 6 eyes and star plasma vessel, makes me start wondering how and why tengen started this whole barrier thing,, like yes jpn has a ton of cursed spirits but was it before or after the barrier i can't remember now

maybe Kenjaku was messing around too much back then,, i like how sukuna also maybe had very lil to do with this and is possibly going to interfere as a wild card once more. is the idea to use him as a hail mary so u convey more ppl to the other side all at once? unless kenjaku thinks sukuna is the person who got closest to the next evolution of humankind and is actually a fan 🥴

but yeah if sukuna and megumi can remake the world together can they just hit the reset button so tengen isn't somehow this massive jungian collective unconscious? is sukuna going to accidentally save the world lol,,, i didn't care for fate themes before since it felt like akutami hadn't wholly committed to it as a theme,,, but fate and collective responsibility/influence on the individual just became a much bigger theme

also the mind/body/soul thing with tengen,,, when is that idea coming back

so tengen and sukuna are so far the only ppl who have said to have evolved into curses, whereas kenjaku still seems to be a shaman, as well as angel. what catalyzes that??

also how tf are the cursed weapons made i have questions,, just putting it out here but i actually thought that if toji, presumably, didnt rebel and defected from the clan,,, what are the chances of zenin thinking of turning him into a cursed weapon lol

,,, does being a cursed spirit mean u are bound even more tightly to fate? or do u escape because u are no longer a human bound by ur technique and u are instead just energy that keeps cycling over and over.....cursed energy rly just karma with strength mechanics???

why did gojou get rid of the black rope only for yuuta go to find more??? seems contradictory,, like...did he exorcise sth in that couple years gap?? or were there other reasons? or is HE the one scared since he also hid the inverted spear of heaven,,, makes me wonder how common knowledge all these mechanics actually are

trying to wrap my head around potential megumi learned helplessness or not being able to work through his own problems, or if it's this weird backward wishing that he didn't HAVE to deal with problems if he didn't HAVE to do these things and there were simple solutions,,, like i don't think he's exactly lazy bc he seems to do a lot of work behind the scenes, but there's a certain stasis to him, a wishing not to know. i wonder if he was ever given the "u are a child and I'm the adult" speech nanami gave yuuji

nanami, qifrey and maybe reigen are the adult/ mentor figures i wish was/ is in my life orz

i think it's kind of funny how 145 is like suddenly christianity! this manga is just abt the many ways people seek freedom and want to be delivered,,,

but im not going to talk abt it 😔 — i only have lil to no knowledge abt it other than the lil trivias my friends dropped time to time whenever we’re having a discourse abt religion suddenly lmao and im not a big fan of talking abt things idk abt bc i’ll just look stupid otherwise LMAO

its interesting to note that christian have this uh for a lack of better way to describe it, higher power which can grant u eternal salvation or damnation while buddhism is just fending for urself in pursuit of enlightment ,,, while buddhism also have beings like devas/ deities it just means that 1) if ur born as one, u must have done a good deed sometime in one of ur previous lives,, 2) u just have a ridiculous long life span but yes u’ll eventually die again and rebirth as sth depending on ur actions,,, that goes for living in gods, demi-gods, humans, animals, hungry ghosts or hells realms

this is completely unrelated but,, my mother used to blast the heart sutra frequently in my house back then and the only thing i catch is the “gate gate parasamgate bodhi svaha” which i used ,, whenever i see sth..that is supposed to be unseen

theres this time i stayed behind in cram school for an exam,, i purposely took a another path from my usual one to clear my head (but im still familiar) and i saw this guy standing on the side road and the only thing that went thru my mind back them was “why is he not moving? is he waiting for someone? is he lost or sth,, the main road is just 6 foot away tho lol”

it was until i keep looking at each house that i finally notice that the spot he stood on is not even a ground lvl asphalt,, it’s a fucking sewer which means that he’s actually floating 😭😭 i just jogged and say sth along the line “wow today, ma is cooking hotpot for dinner (i actually have no idea what she plans to cook everyday) i dont want to eat it cold,, so i better hurry up” out loud while chanting the verse in my head

theres also this time me and a friend were sitting on my motorcycle after getting our late night food run until a particular smell and when we stay silent, a woman is singing on the branch right above us that we dipped right away and i almost catch a ticket for speeding all the while thinking abt that verse💀

i dont mind seeing one of “them” but i do have a problem with them following me back home and end up haunting my house for some period of time,, that one or sth ghost who slam things around and giggle in the middle of the night is enough for me to deal with 😀

now im off crying abt genshin (again) now and i’ll go back to sleep afterwards,,, ALSO I LOVE WITCH HATE ATALIERJSJEJEJ- 🐱 (2)

you literally brought up THE SAME EXACT QUESTIONS I HAVE!!! like why would gojo send yuuta to find more of the rope if he destroyed it in the first place?? unless he destroyed it in the heat of the battle with miguel during the prequel but it didn’t look like that. also i saw on twitter kenjaku might not even be a male?? apparently when referring to kenjaku, tengen didn’t use gendered pronouns. im also super curious as to how the six eyes, star plasma vessel (riko...), tengen, and kenjaku are all entwined because kenjaku’s plan was a long time coming, even though he was foiled two times already.

this reminds me of the heavenly restrictions because im still so confused about what exactly it is!! is it something a person is born with or is it something that is placed on a baby by another person??

you brought up fate too and i think that’s such an interesting concept like with akutami making more and more references to the heian era and the “golden age of sorcery” in the end I feel like everything led up to this moment. the existence of cursed energy too just feels like this “endless cycle of fate” which makes sense considering this theme also kinda aligns with yuuji’s birth which was pre planned. idk...this whole thing is suddenly feeling so much more insidious than we may have originally thought.

the sudden christianity mention is a pretty odd choice on akutami’s part but a lot of ppl (including me) are speculating that hana is going to be a harbinger of doom or something. once again is she even japanese?? the western concept of angels have never been particularly altruistic either.

unfortunately gojo has always been treating megumi like an adult so i don’t think he was ever given the “you are a child” talk from gojo. we can see it in their first meeting too. when their conversation takes a turn to serious, it becomes a conversation is from one adult to another. gojo also seems like the type to pile even more responsibility onto megumi because gojo isn’t responsible, so megumi had to pick up that slack.

i agree with you. i think sukuna is literally a wild card LMAO he does what he wants when he wants and that’s in. i don’t even think you can have a contingency plan for sukuna because he’s just that unpredictable!!!

nanami, qifrey and MAYBE reigen LSDNFKJFKN....reigen beats gojo by far though so i’ll give reigen that (that's not saying much tho tbh 😭) reigen's still sexy as hell tho 😁

also you mentioned khr!! khr is one of my favorite mangas of all time....although amano akira cannot write women despite being one khr still holds a very special place in my heart. i had no idea mukuro was influenced by kannon (to be fair i was like 14) but then again...mukuro’s eyes....i can’t believe our tastes in animanga are the same....bestie our taste>>>

HELLO???? YOU’RE RUNNING INTO SUPERNATURAL CREATURES LIKE THAT??? also motorcycles!! now im like 80% sure you're in SEA somewhere, bc as someone who lived in a SEA country for 3 years and went to school in a haunted building I feel you LMAO

[koorinohebi]

@super-kame-love

Continued From:

I am curious: how would you describe Kiomi's relationship with Jiraiya? And with Koji Kashin? What you've shared about them so far seems very interesting and I must know more!

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Sorry for breaking it into two different posts, Kame-san. The other one felt so long already.

Quick note: IF you haven't read or watched Boruto, this will definitely contain spoilers.

So for this second one, we have...

Kashin Koji

So the main reason I was interested in him was when rumors were floating around that Jiraiya or someone that resembles him is back in Boruto. One look at his design and I was like, yeah. Unmistakably related in one way or another. Lo and behold my friend, lo and behold.

I have 2 verses for Kashin Koji. One is the one where you often see me mention Takeda. That one is an on going RP with @ambitiousparagon, and the other one is a verse where I pen Koji myself. The one with Takeda is still in the works and currently still very unpredictable, so for this instance I'll talk about my own version of Kashin Koji, which actually...more than Kiomi being the main focus, I tend to lean more towards the man himself. This is heavily influenced by headcanons that are based on what I noticed his personality being based on what we know so far.

So when I first encountered Kashin Koji there was hardly anything on him, which is to say, still very true currently. He hasn't been seen in the manga after his crushing defeat against Isshiki, and in the anime, they've given him a voice, and we see how he acts, but ultimately it doesn't differ from what we've already read in the manga (if you or any of the ones reading this have read it).

So Kashin Koji is, despite being quite whimsical, a no nonsense kinda guy. So he is very...well, I wouldn't call it by the book, but as a shinobi, he chooses the most efficient way to carry out the mission, which is...by default, how Amado had initially programed him-- Not as a perfectionist, no, but as Isshiki would say it, Amado's programming of Kashin Koji rode on his maker clinging onto Jiraiya's mighty fate. However, with Jiraiya being the template, it's not a surprise if Koji would inherit the man's sentiments, principles, and even slight eccentricities as a Shinobi (which I believe Amado had predicted and saw as a weakness. He needs and creates tools as he sees fit, and he'll use whatever he can to further his agenda). Amado strives to emulate within Kashin Koji the "star of change" which Jiraiya possessed. As we know, thanks not only to the prophecy, but also due to Jiraiya's diligence in searching for that revolutionary that could change the world, he was able to bring together (in one way or another) three of the most powerful game changers that we have who affected the course of the current History. If they wanted to defeat Isshiki, he needed that kind of trick up his sleeve. Because however, Kashin Koji has imperfections, and someone Jigen had deemed weaker than he is (because Jigen told Amado to dispose of clones more powerful than he was), our good professor faces a setback and thus needs to come up with a new plan (going to the Hokage, and asking them to kill Isshiki instead while having Kashin Koji show them the "ropes" on how it's done).

My take on him stems from this human weakness. Kashin Koji is aware of who he's supposed to be a clone of. We see this when he comments on his fate being tied to Konoha and the like. And admittedly, knowing your predecessor's legacy, not to mention having been able to perfect something that the original couldn't gives him a bit of an ability to brag, and believe that he can be just as great or even greater than Jiraiya.

But the question is how convinced he is of this himself. I do believe that Kashin Koji wants to be a person of his own, and in being the perfect heroic shinobi tool, even if he dies, it wouldn't be for naught so long as he brings down his target (which happens to be the biggest threat since Madara, Tobi, and Kaguya). Believing that Amadao was entrusting the fate of the world in his hands bolstered his confidence. However, when Isshiki pointed out the painful truth of Amado's betrayal and deception, he internally refuses to accept it. That he was just a pawn, and that he'd never break free from being nothing but Jiraiya's shadow. I always felt that if at the baseness of Jiraiya's personality, you have a decent grasp of his shortcomings, regrets, and insecurities, you'll get a good grasp of Kashin Koji too. Although it's just my headcanon (and people dont really have to abide by it), Koji too, is plagued by this ever looming sense of not being good enough, as well as not living up to the name of his original (very much like how Jiraiya felt his accomplishments dont match that of Sandaime or Minato).

So after this long explanation on my take on Kashin Koji, you may ask where Kiomi comes in. Well, she comes in as a form of support.

Just as with Naruto's unreasonable worry, the first time that Kiomi sees Kashin Koji, she's instantly unreasonably bothered by him as well. Worse, when the mask comes off, and she sees his face she is instantly appalled and angry because everything that she's been keeping inside is dragged to the surface. Of course, none of this was Kashin Koji's fault. It was more of Kiomi's own regret, and seeing him was like opening a can of worms for her, reminding her of all the things she wanted to do and say had her teacher been alive. At the same time, she's very irked that someone was running around with his face, because someone had the gall to deliberately make a "knock off" as she calls it, of the man she respects the most.

With this much animosity, one would wonder how Kiomi becomes his support. While Kiomi and Kashin Koji initially dislikes each other, the woman rejects the fact that he's just "some clone", as he is also a person who deserves to live his life as himself regardless of whether he was created as a tool or as a clone. If you remember from my first post about Kiomi and Jiraiya's relationship, this was exactly the same kind of treatment that Jiraiya gave Kiomi when she viewed herself as nothing more than a disposable chess piece. She doesn't say this outright to Kashin Koji though. He learns this on his own. Seeing that someone believed in his own possibilities gave him a little peace of mind, just a little. In effect, this draws his curiosity. Kashin Koji being an Inner of Kara does his assignment pretty well, so he would by effect, know who she was as too. He believed she would be one of those who would constantly see him as a glorified Kagebunshin, but surprisingly she didn't. In fact, seeing as he was who he was, it would make him a perfect replacement, but she didn't treat him like that. This makes him loosen up around her, enough that his usually snide and sarcastic remarks are now laced with a hint of fond teasing. Ironically, she hates it when he does this, as it reminds her of Jiraiya. (Because Jiraiya often teases her about one thing or another.)

One of my favorite interactions of them is probably this one, just because it shows a little bit of both their internal struggles and how they deal with each other.

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“Tell me,” Instead of standing to leave, he remained seated opposite from her. Kashin Koji removed the mask which barred a portion of his face that she was surely uncomfortable seeing. And he was right. She averted her eyes briefly, before putting up a look of feigned indifference once their optics finally met.

There was relative distress in her features, that much he could tell while staring at her…curiously, seriously. “Do I resemble him? This Jiraiya of yours.”

Looking at him was like staring into a nightmare, a stark reminder of what she could never hope to have. However, she understood his question. They were past simple notions of physicality. It wasn’t just about his face, nor was it about his origin. It was deeper than that. For Kiomi’s alleged simple-mindedness, this concept was not something so hard to grasp. Not when this was the very base of the learnings she had inherited from the mentor she respected the most. Despite Jiraiya and Kashin Koji’s shared similarities, they were still two very different people, each with their own uniqueness. Besides, denying a man his own identity was probably the cruelest judgment any living being could impose on another.

“You don’t.” The answer came simply; however, he did not miss the semblance of melancholy that lingered upon her visage. To him, it felt indicative of disappointment…such fragile and complicated feelings.

“I see.” Kashin Koji had closed his eyes then, satisfied with the answer. In a sense, he felt his lips curve into a smirk. Two words of reassurance; to think that hearing something so simple had such a significant impact. And as for Kiomi who had only seen the man scowl at her existence, this look on his face for the first time caused her chest to ache. Perhaps in her words, she knew not if a lie existed; if only because such an expression looked frighteningly similar to her teacher’s.

“The two of you must have loved each other very dearly.” At this point, he had refocused his gaze upon the female, only to raise a brow shortly after. He had never seen anyone choke on air before. Her flustered features shouldn’t have been anything extraordinary, but it felt amusing. “Was I mistaken?”

“Yes, you’re wrong! You’re very wrong!” She retorted, her flushed face, easily beating the most crimson of fruits. “Everything, this…my…they’re all just…” She tried to calm down as she explained. “…they’re all just…what I’m trying to say is…whatever they are, they’re all just one-sided emotions…” She looked downtrodden. He recalled Naruto saying that their mentor died while she was away figuring out herself, and had carried a burden none of them could share. Jiraiya had meant everything to them, each within varying degrees unknown just how much to the other.

After learning that all of this was one sided, he looked at her with lethargy. “Are you actually an idiot after all?”

“Oi, you actually dare to call me an idiot in my own house? Besides, it’s not like I stood a chance against the person he sought after.” It wasn’t a secret to her after all, that he had his eyes on Lady Tsunade. What chance did she have against someone who had shared in his losses, successes, strife, and victories?

“Was what you felt actually so flimsy that it lost to someone else’s? Did you confirm it with your own mouth?”

The questions that bombarded her, matched with such an unexpected interrogator threw her off. So much that when she had come to her senses, she found herself face to face with Kashin Koji. If she was distraught earlier, then the ante had been upped then and there. Trapped in between his arms, being stared at, it felt horrible and suffocating for many reasons that she convinced herself that she couldn't understand. “Should I teach you just how lofty your feelings are?” He lingered so close, too close for comfort. But that was where she drew the line. Steeling herself, she pulled her head back just enough to give her some room to drive her forehead down against his. THWACK!

Both of them found themselves clutching their heads, one clicked his tongue and the other was cussing up a storm in her mind--and verbally, apparently.

“Don’t you dare mock me—“

She was on the verge of throwing him out, but there he was, laughing, collapsed on the floor as he held onto his forehead. She stifled her annoyance because she remembered how; pranks of the same nature had been done to her, by none other than her favorite mentor. And he would laugh just the same. At least sensei’s were a little more innocent and subtle. “Don’t laugh at me either!” She demanded with childish vigor, kicking him in the shin repeatedly. He fended them off well enough, which added to her irritation.

“That’s enough out of you.”

“You don’t get to tell me what to do in my own hou—hou—“ That was to say, if she wasn’t going to stop her assault, then he would have to play along. Grabbing her ankle when she struck, he pulled her over; just enough to make her balance crumble, bringing her down effectively.

“What the actual hell is wrong with you?”

“Even now, you’re struggling to protect what’s important to you. You may be a bit weaker than others, but it doesn’t seem like you’re lacking in persistence and perseverance. What are you so afraid of?”

Again with questions and commentaries that she did not ask for…

Her silence was enough of a response. Regrets, apprehensions, guilt, it was painted on her face. Shaking his head, Kashin Koji came to a stand and dusted himself, thereafter extending a hand for her to take.

“At the very least, come up to the starting line and show that mentor of yours your resolve.”

She begrudgingly looked at the hand that was offered to her. She felt ashamed and annoyed at herself because she knew that his point was valid. He wasn’t wrong, and in fact, he made more sense than she had wanted to admit. With an inward sigh, she took that hand and he helped her to her feet.

“…” Their grasp on each other persisted for a while. There was no warmth there; no comfort of a familiar friend, but there was a firmness that was enough to uproot whatever doubt it was that crept within the confines of her mind. She wouldn’t exactly call the other’s presence reassuring, but in a sense it was something close to it.

“Tsk, just who do you think you are? Acting all high and mighty?” Compared to before, the scowl had turned a bit friendly, but a scowl none the less.

“In case you haven’t heard or have been mistaking me for someone else, it’s Kashin Koji.” He replied with a tinge of whimsy in his voice. Matched with that was a tighter grip on the female’s hand which she reciprocated in kind. “Kiomi.” She rebutted against his satirical introduction.

When they at last released each other, there was probably a reddening mark there, but it also seemed like they’ve come to a certain understanding. “With a grip like that, what do you even hope to accomplish?”

Everything that comes out of his mouth is a fucking insult… Kiomi mused, unabashed by such a sentiment. Still, she watched him retrieve his mask only to wear it over his face once more. “I’ve a scouting mission at the Hokage’s behest. Two days time.” He stated out of the blue, walking towards her direction, incidentally near the exit. “Join me.”

“And why exactly, should I do that?” Folding her arms over her chest, she asked.

“Learn something useful rather than wallow in your self-pity.” Just before he could pass her completely, the intruder halted to cup her cheeks, moving it side to side casually.

(I made a thing.Lol Kiomi and her tendency to get manhandled.) There was no tenderness there, rather it seemed like he was inspecting a toy for some kind of defect. “You dont seem outclassed by anyone, not even by the Godaime. Put yourself to good use. You are a Shinobi, after all.”

“What does Lady Tsunade even have to do with this?”

“Who else would you feel so inferior to? It doesn’t take a genius to put two and two together. Besides,”

Finally, he’d relinquish his hold to observe her frame carefully. She was a slender woman, possibly bordering voluptuous underneath all that fabric. From the wrinkles and silhouette of her attire, he could tell that she was filled out in all the right places. Fair skin, a set of apprehensive platinum orbs…among other things. “You have the curves. Maybe not the appeal and self confidence, but you have the curves. You’ll be fine.”

Perhaps it was in that retort that Kiomi ran after Kashin Koji as he left her place, albeit with a senbon or two hurled at the man. “I was wrong; you’re probably just as much of a letch as sensei!”

The projectiles were caught between the fingers and twirled around with ease, no troubles at all. He contemplated for a mere second before deciding to keep them as a souvenir. “You wound me with your presumptuousness. I'm a busy man, and have no time for countless women. Such a disappointing assessment.” He waved her off, walking away and finally disappearing from sight.

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Pardon the length, but this is how they normally interact in my story.

Koji serves as a challenge for Kiomi, while Kiomi serves as a "net" for Koji so that when he falls pray to his feeling of incompetency, he remembers that she expects him to plainly be Kashin Koji, and no one else. Both of them remind each other of something important which they both hope would make them better versions of themselves.

So what kind of relationship do they have? I'm pretty sure it's along the lines of frienemies.

[unwiltingblossom]

Hello, I live in the West and I am an SS shipper, but here they consider that this ship is anti-feminist. I believe that my ships do not make me less feminist. What do you think? Might you help me? please u

First: what you like in fiction does not equal what you believe in reality. You aren’t gay if you like yaoi, nor a homophobe if you don’t. You’re not a murderer if you like a fictional serial killer, or a good person because you like a wholesome and non-problematic couple. Thus, it doesn’t matter if you do ship something that’s anti-feminist, or even if you like anti-feminist content. It has no impact on what you as a person thing about women in reality.

But in case you’re asking about what I feel about the idea that SS is somehow antifeminist, I have a wordier response beneath the cut.

What’s anti-feminist about a woman whose love so strong that she can reach through the fog of hatred and bitter loneliness Sasuke sheathed himself in with nothing more than the raw strength of her feelings not just once, but twice? No one could sway Sasuke from leaving the village, but she made him hesitate. No one could reason with Sasuke to stop with his Lelouch plan, but she made him hesitate. In his darkness in the village, only her feelings ever reached him.

Sakura doesn’t need to be rescued by him, even though his feelings for her are so strong that he’ll drop everything to try to do so if he thinks she needs it, and because of that they develop a bond of trust where Sasuke knows she doesn’t need him to rescue her, and will correct people who say otherwise.

Sakura is strong, her feelings move Sasuke even when the story’s morals say that they shouldn’t - she doesn’t trade blows with him, she doesn’t share the same experiences with him, but their feelings still connect and move him even in his darkest times. Their relationship is a mature one, which took the longest out of all the current canon relationships to blossom, rather than just rashly rushing into a teenage romance. She’s not just some weak waif that passively sits back, but his partner who works as his other half - whether that means raising and protecting Sarada up close while he has to be away to protect her from far away, whether it means fighting alongside him on his missions and searching for the cure to Naruto’s condition, or whether it means anticipating what he’s going to do before anyone else in the world does, and adapting to accommodate that.

It’s also a love that she had from childhood, not one that was given to her. She pursued him, and it was him that eventually reciprocated to her, not her suddenly realizing that some other man had ‘earned’ her affection and turning to them.

I assume if someone calls sasusaku ‘anti-feminist’ they either want her to:

1- give up on her own romantic aspirations and realize it’s ‘for her own good’ to instead go along with another man’s wishes

2- give up on her lifelong desires and live alone under the mistaken impression that a woman is so weak that her strength of character can only be present if she isn’t afflicted by love

or

3- controvert her well established sexual orientation and pursue a female, because a woman can never be as strong as a man, and so a union between a man and a woman can only make her weak and powerless.

It should be easy enough to see why those options aren’t inherently feminist at all. If those aren’t more feminist, then her remaining with Sasuke can’t be less feminist.

tl;dr honestly people call sasusaku antifeminist and abusive for the same reason they say you’re a homophobe if you don’t ship Sasunaru (or any other popular yaoi ship). It’s nothing more than them trying to force people to go along with their ships or preferred headcanon by shaming those who don’t agree with them, and possibly threatening reprisal for it if they can get other people to agree.

[laceymorganwrites]

Outcast pt.2

Word Count: 2,128

Pairing: Sasuke x reader

Warnings: swearing

A/N: happy AU (meaning Itachi is alive and everyone is happy)

Two years have passed and Sasuke still hasn´t come home, you doubted he would at this point.

Honestly you should´ve seen it coming, all the while you comforted him, your mother gave him a home and a family, he never wanted any of that, he was never grateful for anything you gave him.

He just wanted revenge.

But that wasn´t why you were so mad, no, you were mad because you actually believed the vulnerable side he faked.

Most of all you were mad at yourself for still missing him.

You really thought you two had something special.

In those years you tried your best to seek distraction in everything, especially in the missions you went on with Naruto and Sakura.

They really grew up and learned a lot, you felt so weak next to them.

Sakura was so beautiful, she always was.

And that only made you feel inferior.

Yeah it was stupid to feel jealousy, to envy her, but how could you not? After all she and Sasuke always shared a special bond with each other, she always could read him like a book, understood his moods, his ambitions, she always had his back no matter how much of an asshole he was. It was admirable.

Ever since you realized that you too harbored feelings for Sasuke you were angry, infuriated, wrathful beyond belief.

The reason why should be obvious, you had no chance, not against her.

And that was the problem, you didn´t want to fight over some boy with your friend, it was stupid.

But the most prevalent reason for your anger was that you knew how she felt for him, she liked him before you, you had no right to fall for him and yet you did like a dumb little school girl you weren´t anymore.

You craved missions because of that anger Sasuke caused in you, the anger that just hid all the pain and broken trust you felt ever since he left.

It hurt you that he left without saying anything, especially after you thought that he showed vulnerability to you, that you got intimate at least a bit the night before he left.

You felt utterly betrayed.

Naruto tried to cheer you up as much as he could, cracking jokes and doing stupid things to direct your anger at him, but you only gave him halfhearted scolds.

That´s when Sakura noticed something was wrong too and she felt guilt build in her stomach.

Why had she never noticed before that you liked Sasuke? After all he did like you, as he wrote in the letter she was supposed to give you.

Sakura was selfish that night, she didn´t give you the letter because she was angry that Sasuke didn´t like her back.

But she grew up.

“(Y/N), I need to talk to you for a second” she gently touched your arm, frowning slightly.

Naruto went on ahead, telling you that you should hurry up or else your mother would be worried and the food cold.

“What is it?” you tried to sound nice, to smile at her, but you could barely avoid your voice breaking.

You always got so sad whenever thinking about Sasuke, but you weren´t the only one.

Sakura sighed before pulling out the letter of her bag, facing you with the most sincere look you have ever seen on her.

“I want to apologize. For everything, for behaving so childish… I know that you like Sasuke too and it took me some time to be okay with it, to be honest. But… it´s time to move on from me. When he left, he asked me to give you this letter. But I opened it, read it, I was heartbroken, so I never handed it to you and I´m sorry for that, it was stupid. We´re both grown up now and I don´t want to hate you because my crush likes you. I hope you can forgive me and that we can put this behind us” Sakura looked down on the floor guiltily the entire time she spoke before she handed you the letter.

With shaking hands you took it, but you didn´t read it yet.

Not before you went up to her and gave her a warm hug, embracing her tightly to show her that you too did not have any ill intents for her.

“Sasuke left, Sakura. He forsake everything and everybody, it´s time we get over him” you whispered into her neck, finally letting go the tears you tried to hold in.

“(Y/N)….please read the letter, it´s really important that you know what Sasuke had to say to you” Sakura had an urgency in her voice that you seldom heard from her, it wasn´t like the one where she motherly scolded Naruto for doing stupid stuff, it really had to be important.

You just nodded and she said goodbye, walking home and leaving you in the outskirts of the village where you took in all of the contents of the letter.

Sasuke thoroughly described his reasons for leaving, all about his brother, revenge and… that he held a special place in his heart for you, that he would think of you every day and regret leaving.

How he would apologize when he returned, how you were the reason he would return overall.

It was sweet reading those words and yet at the same time that warmth spread through your chest, so did an ache. Why did he have to be so stupid to chase after ghosts of the past who were so obviously stronger than him?

Oh how you wanted to punch him right now only to kiss it better afterwards.

You didn´t realize how much time has passed when you finished crying your heart out, it was pathetic, Naruto would laugh at you if he saw you like that.

“Shit! Mom´s gonna be worried...” you husked out loud before running home and entering your apartment with red swollen eyes and out of breath.

“Sorry I´m late, mom, Naruto! I forgot time” you breathed out, trying to catch your breath.

It was only after the silence that followed that you dared look up.

And the view brought tears right back to your eyes.

The scene that unfolded before your eyes looked like this: your mother was hugging Itachi, apologizing for the elder´s and the cruelty that he had to go through, Naruto was yelling at Sasuke who yelled back, confirming Naruto´s insults but then stopped in his tracks to look at you.

There was no missing the sorry and hurt and guilt in his eyes.

You didn´t know what to say so you looked to Naruto and your mother for help.

Naruto just snarled at Sasuke again though, grabbing him by his collar and growling how he made you cry again, your mother was too distracted talking to Itachi to notice that you were back.

“You´re an asshole...” you closed the door and stepped inside, shaking.

All of the emotions Sasuke made you feel boiled up again, and every one of them turned to anger.

“I know” Sasuke simply said, not daring to meet your eye.

Why was he here? Why now? Why was his brother with him? All those questions went through your head at the same time, it was too much to take in.

“(Y/N), sit down, I know it´s a lot for you right now, but you need to understand what happened” your mother gently touched your shoulder and you let yourself sink down on one of the chairs next to Naruto.

He still glared at Sasuke but put an arm around you, giving you some sort of comfort. He wasn´t good at comforting people in serious situations like these, but he tried his best.

Then your mother started explaining the story of Itachi, the cruelty he had to experience and that he has been pardoned by the village, of course those who led him to do what he has done were punished.

She didn´t mutter a word about Sasuke, thinking it was better for him to tell you his side.

You just sat there, tired, taking all of the information in. You didn´t know what to say, what to do, if you should cry at Itachi´s past or whether you should hug him in an attempt to comfort him.

But just like your brother you weren´t good at comforting people.

“I´m going to bed” you simply whispered, standing up and walking to your room.

There you sat down next to your window, sighing heavily and letting your clutching heart and the lump in your throat overtake you.

A knock on the door disturbed your agony, though you didn´t say anything, Sasuke still entered your room.

“(Y/N)?” he called softly with an uncertainty in his voice. “I know you don´t want to see me right now, but please let me explain myself...” he pleaded, the moonlight reflecting in his eyes.

You scoffed, sniffing and wiping away your tears angrily before gesturing to sit down with you.

Sasuke sat down in front of you, looking at you like an injured animal begging you to kill it to release it from its agony.

“I´m sorry, for leaving without saying anything… I know I hurt a lot of people in doing so, but I thought it was the right thing at the time” he frowned, looking down and fiddling with his fingers.

“Are you out of your fucking mind?!” you balled your fists, you didn´t want to say anything at first but the anger just swelled up inside of you, making its way outside.

“Yes, yes you hurt us, you hurt Sakura, Naruto, mom and me! All of us, you just turned your back on everything we built, it´s like you spat in our faces, telling us that we weren´t worth anything and the love we gave you was in vain! Of course that hurts… but that´s not the worst thing. No, the worst thing is that you gave in to your vengeance. I told you this before, but revenge isn´t the way to find redemption. And killing your own brother? Not only is that cruel, but it´s also a stupid idea! Do you know how strong he is? What were you thinking, taking him on like that? What got you thinking that you could actually win? You´re an idiot. Making us worry like that, we didn´t know that you´d come back, you might´ve been dead all along. And every day we asked ourselves if you were still alive, if you´d ever come back, if we could save you… we searched for you, you know?” you rambled on and on about the impact Sasuke left after he did.

Sasuke said nothing and the room was filled with silence.

There was nothing that came to his mind that could suffice for an apology, it was already too late for that, he hated himself for inflicting such pain on you, on his new family.

“Did Sakura give you the letter?” he breathed heavily, he felt like absolute shit, yes he deserved it, but he didn´t want to cry in front of you.

“Yes she did, just earlier today. I wish she hadn´t though, it wouldn´t hurt this much this way…” you breathed out.

“I still feel the same, nothing´s changed. All the time I was gone I wished I could return to you, you were the only thing that kept me going. But...you must hate me now” he felt silly for confessing his feelings to you, now that it was too late.

“It´s been two years, Sasuke… I was just starting to get over you and then Sakura gave me your letter and everything went back to zero. It really got my hopes up, but it´s not always this easy. I don´t hate you, I couldn´t. But I´m still angry at you” you told him.

“I know and I´m sorry. I shouldn´t have left, I should´ve stayed with you, I really am stupid” he reminisced, chuckling self pitying.

After a while you finally calmed down, you just couldn´t stay angry at him no matter how hard you tried, the soft spot you had for him ever since he first joined your make shift family has long grew into something more.

Into something greater than the both of you.

“I told you that before, but dwelling on the past doesn´t get us anywhere. You´re back now, that´s all that matters. We´ll make this work, that is if you stay this time...” you bitterly added.

Sasuke smiled at you genuinely, you were always so quick to forgive him, forgiveness wasn´t something he deserved and yet you still embraced him.

Just like back then… damn, he really did miss you.

“I´m not so stupid to leave you again” he husked.

[therainroguefanfiction]

About/Information

I write because I lead a lonely life with very little human interaction.

I write so that I can feel what friendship and love feels like, so that I can feel like I’m a part of something bigger.

I write to escape the problems that plague me in real life, to get to hang out with people and characters that have impacted my life.

I write because it makes me happy and helps me cope with the life I’ve been given.

When I write, I get to insert myself into those worlds and feel a deep connection with its inhabitants, forming bonds of friendship and love that I can’t make in real life.

For me, it’s the same as watching anime or watching a movie and getting engrossed in the story. I’m super sensitive and empathetic, so I can feel what other people experience, whether they be real people or those you find within anime.

You can call it pathetic, and a lot of people don’t understand Fanfiction and find it weird, but for me, it’s part of my life and plays a huge part in my happiness.

I pour my heart and soul into my writing, so sharing it with others is quite nerve-wracking, but at the same time, I couldn’t imagine writing just to keep them on a hard drive somewhere.

I believe that in today’s society, everyone gets triggered over everything because they are bored and have nothing better to do with their lives. While I do my best to label my stories with warnings if I think it might have legit triggering content, if you find something to be triggering and I haven’t labeled it as such, please let me know. I will review it and see if I can agree with it being a genuine concern.

A lot of my writing features subjects that I have experience with. These are the things I consider to require a trigger warning:

Mentions of suicide/suicide attempts.

Self-harm.

Abuse, both mental and physical.

Alternatively, I refuse to write about rape/non-consensual sex.

I rarely write adult content (smut, lemons, etc.) because I feel like I suck at writing them due to the simple fact that I don’t have any experience in that area. I write a lot more suggestive content (16+) which eludes to having sex but never actually states it or adds anything overtly sexual to the story.

However, due to some recent soul searching, I’ve come to realize that I may be a bit uptight when it comes to sexual content because I was raised in a strict Christian environment. I plan to try branching out and try writing some more adult content.

I will NOT write smut for any real persons under the age of eighteen (kpop idols for example).

When it comes to anime, though, I will age them up to at least sixteen. Some people may find some issue with this, but I feel like it’s not that big of a deal because they aren’t real people, they’re just characters and this is just fiction.

From my experience, not too many people like writing in Second Person, and must prefer First or Third. However, a long time ago on Tumblr (yes, I know, the bane of the internet), I saw several posts in the fanfiction tag talking about how they couldn’t relate to most original characters with their fair skin or curly hair. That got me thinking a lot, and I came to realize that I usually skip over descriptive details about original characters simply because I can’t relate to most of them.

Since that day, I decided to write in Second Person so that anyone, no matter their skin color, hair type, body type, etc., can enjoy the fics I write. I avoid adding descriptions of the reader so that anyone can view themselves in that role.

Alternatively, I do my best not to add gender to the reader, as well. At the end of the day, though, I am a female, so it’s natural that my fics will lean more towards a feminine reader, though I’m quite boyish so maybe that will help. I don’t like to label myself, but if I had to choose one, it would probably be straight, so most of my fics are about guys.

However, there are some female characters that I love so damn much that I would happily be with them if given the chance, so I might write about some of them occasionally.

Now, I’ve already stated that Second Person is my main go-to for my fics, but when there’s a fic that’s important to me or with a character/anime that I especially enjoy, I might switch to a different point of view for that specific fic. I usually add it to the pairing at the start of the fic, though.

In case you don’t know what the different points of view are, they are as follows:

First Person; I went to the store today. Second Person; You went to the store today. Third Person; She/He went to the story today.

The story behind my name is quite a simple and boring one, but I thought I would share it anyway.

World of Warcraft and Neverwinter are among some of my top favorite video games, and within them, my favorite class has always been the Rogue. They aren’t easy to play, and I always do them wrong, but it’s my favorite class and I feel so much happiness playing them.

Ever since I was a child, I’ve always been obsessed with rain. When it rains here, I usually drop everything I’m doing and rush outside with some paper and a book. I can’t express how happy I feel when it rains. It calms my soul and washes away everything that troubles me. Thunderstorms are the absolute best!

Actually, I started a fic set all about the rain. At the time of this post, I haven’t added that book yet, but I’ll be adding it soon – it’s called Rain Falls (original, I know).

Over my time across the internet, I have had many names and posted my fics in many different places under different names, so if you find it posted elsewhere under a different name, please let me know.

Currently, I am only posting my fics here and on WordPress under the same name. I’m considering posting them on Deviantart, as well, under the same name but at the current time, I have not done so.

I began my writing journey when I was around twelve years old when I joined a magical little site called Quizilla. If you didn’t get the chance to experience this wonderful site, let me give you a quick rundown of what you could find there. As the name suggests, it was a site where you could make and take lots of different quizzes. The most popular ones were things such as “What anime character are you?” “Who will fall in love with you?” “What animal are you?”, etc.

Most of the stories there at the time were all about emo boys and naruto lol I remember such stories as “Who will you choose? A demon, angel or vampire”. My favorite parts of this site were the challenges and contests, which a lot of my fics are based around. Here are a few examples:

139 Prompts

Here, There, Everywhere

Lights, Camera, Action!

How to Trick Him into Bed in 10 Easy Steps

Love and Other Disasters

I haven’t been able to find a website that offers a good set of prompts like they had on Quizilla, but I still try looking for them. Ever since then, I’ve been writing off and on. I like to believe my writing has gotten better, but I don’t really know for sure. At least a little less cringy, I hope.

I also hold out the hope that, one day, Quizilla will make its return.

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[ramblingguy54]

26, 29, 30, 36?

*cracks knuckles*Alright, let’s do this.

26: The late Robin Williams & Hayao Miyazaki are two particular people in my life I’ve idolized for what happiness/imagination they’ve brought into others lives. Robin Williams untimely passing still hurts for me to look back on because this man made it his mission to bring so much joy into other peoples lives through his acting on the big screen, whether it was dramatic or comedic. That’s what I found the most impressive about Robin’s range in acting. He could be an over the top funny individual, but Robin’s acting chops were in a league of their own. Whether he was behind the microphone having the time of his life as Genie on Aladdin or giving a powerful dramatic performance on Good Will Hunting as Will’s therapist, I could feel the unconditional kindness. There was something about Robin’s acting power that would usually manage to reel me in. Even if I never knew him in real life, obviously, this man just radiated with so much kindness that I felt from his entire presence on screen. It’s seriously unfortunate what became of Robin Williams in the end with his unexpected death, but his legacy has inspired me to be kinder to others in real life. As for Hayao Miyazaki, this guy is a huge factor in why I got into loving anime related stuff all the more, as his creations in storytelling and the art itself for the movies were beyond unlike anything I still have yet to seen be topped quite frankly. It’s so easy for me to get emotionally lost in his films like My Neighbor Totoro, Princess Mononoke, Castle In The Sky, and Spirited Away. This man never ceases to amaze me with how usually impactful and in depth his films are. They’re so full life that it’s easy to lose sight of whats happening in the actual story at times. Mayazaki understood how to breathe a ton of humanity into creating such resonating works of fiction. Have a much greater appreciation for them in my adult years. There’s a reason why they inspired companies, like Pixar, to create immersive stories of their own.

29: Favorite films range from Zootopia, Wreck It Ralph, M. Night Shyamalan’s Unbreakable, Aladdin (1992), The Secret Of NIMH, The Lion King (1994), The Incredibles, UP, Ratatouille, Wall-E, Finding Nemo, Inside Out, Kung Fu Panda 1 & 2, How To Train Your Dragon Trilogy, Toy Story 1-4, The Great Mouse Detective, Lilo & Stitch, The Emperors New Groove, A Goofy Movie, Good Will Hunting, The Fox And The Hound, The Land Before Time, The Brave Little Toaster, Frozen, Shrek 1 & 2, Coraline, Paranorman, Kubo And The Two Strings, The Muppets (2011), Princess Mononoke, Castle In The Sky, My Neighbor Totoro, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Spirited Away, Porco Rosso, Summer Wars, Beauty and the Beast (1991), Winnie The Pooh (1977 & 2011 iterations.), The Peanuts Movie, The Princess And The Frog, The Jungle Book (2016), Scooby Doo On Zombie Island, Harry Potters’ 1-7, Christopher Nolan’s Batman Trilogy, Wonder Woman, Sam Raimi’s Spiderman 1 & 2, The Black Panther, Thor & Thor Ragnorok, The Avengers, Avengers Infinity War & Endgame, Spiderman Into the Spiderverse, Captain America Trilogy, Iron Man Trilogy, Star Wars Episodes 4-8, and The Breakfast Club to stop this list from getting any longer. =P

30: Favorite TV shows range from Cowboy Bebop, Avatar The Last Airbender, Yu Yu Hakusho, Digimon Adventure 01 & Tamers, Teen Titans (2003), Batman The Animated Series, Ed, Edd,& Eddy, Samurai Jack, Courage The Cowardly Dog, The Powerpuff Girls (Screw that garbage reboot.), Chowder, Bojack Horseman, DuckTales (1987), DuckTales (2017), Gravity Falls, Code Geass (This series has shaky writing in a number of areas, but that ending was beautiful.), Amphibia, Steven Universe, Oban Star Racers, Made In Abyss, Stranger Things, Gargoyles, My Hero Academia, Naruto (I’ve got a soft spot for this series despite my MANY problems with its story later on.), Pokemon (Serious nostalgia overload!), Dragonball Z (My very first anime series I got into through the Toonami block. A real shocker I know. LOL!), Gurren Lagann, Kill la Kill, The Promised Neverland, Death Note, Chip N Dale Rescue Rangers, Sonic SatAM, Talespin, Darkwing Duck, The Grim Adventures Of Billy & Mandy, Robot Chicken, A Pup Named Scooby Doo, Kim Possible, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, and Fullmetal Alchemist (2003).

36: My three dream scenarios I’d like to fulfill? 

1: Become A Voice Actor

Been interested in voice acting since I was a young teen, but have been in a conflicted state over these recent passing years in my life on whether or not I’d like to approach that route. There’s a lot of commitment I’d have to put into auditioning my butt off for roles I may or not get. Then comes the consistent practicing to keep my vocal chords in shape, so I don’t get rusty whatsoever. The industry for this kind of job can be hard to get recognized in too by how many other notable well known VA’s there are already. Not to mention, from what I’ve researched up on being a voice actor doesn’t bring in the money naturally, as it’s more of a passion job which that’s terrific and all, but if I want to partake in this profession I’ll have to juggle a job along with that which putting all those factors in my head honestly makes me intimidated. Ahhh well, it’s just something I’ll have to wait and see on if I can make that idea into a reality or not. No need to rush myself, of course.

2: Taking Up The Mantle Of Reviewing Shows & Films For A Living

Fiction, just like for many people, has been a great deal of helping me in my life moments of stress, solitude, depression, and anger. I’d love nothing more than to further express that to anyone out there in reviewing in great detail certain films or shows that I’ve come to love over these years in my life so far. Mostly for animation though, as its been a gateway for finding many gems of quality films or series. It never ceases to surprise me on how creative and powerful animation can be with its inventive ways of getting me to become an emotional mess. While I do enjoy live action series and films they pale in comparison to the beauty animation has brought into my life, since my early childhood of watching shows on Cartoon Network, Toon Disney, and Nickelodeon to a smaller degree. I’d like to think I’m good enough with how I present my reasons on why I feel so strongly connected to these stories showcasing characters trying to find hope in their own hard times. I try my hardest to take moments of my own life and find ways to connect it with whatever story I’m getting into next, so it can be all the more a special experience for myself. It’s important to put whatever character resonates with you most in their shoes for why you feel their emotional journey connecting with your own life on every conceivable level possible. That will make it when you write these kinds of reviews a very empowering read for others to feel either heard in their own feelings or simply giving others a new perspective to consider on this piece of fiction you’re discussing. Seeing some of my own particular analytical posts in the past here on Tumblr garner some attention from people gives me a boost of feeling better about potentially making this choice.

3: Starting A Family Of My Own…?

I can’t begin to tell ya how many times I’ve gone back and forth for getting married in the distant future to become a father has sped through my mind. On one hand, it scares the crap out of me to be taking up that big of a responsibility. However, on the other hand its deeply fascinated me emotionally of creating life through love for your significant other in starting your own family tree. I’d love to be able to raise kids of my own to pass on the lessons I’ve learned in life to make them become better people in the distant future, while showering them with unconditional love and affection. That would fill me up with such an indescribable joyous feeling to hear their own dreams and desires on what they want to accomplish in life. While I’d be a strict parent, I wouldn’t be a hard headed one quick to dismiss their own complaints if they had problems with how I handled things, once they start to get older. The kind of parent I’d want to be is an understanding open minded one who doesn’t judge their son or daughter for when they have an issue with me. Just because I’m a parent in that scenario doesn’t put me on a pedestal of immunity from criticism. Granted, I certainly don’t want to be a doormat for them to try taking advantage of either, but it’s also important to not let your parental role go to your head, too.

Although, I don’t plan on even trying to make this last dream of mine happen anytime soon. This is something that is MUCH later down the road that I wish to have happen. However, I won’t lie and say that I haven’t considered just staying content as a single guy for the rest of my life relying on close friends to bring me joy equivalent to this dream. While I adore the concept of creating life through love and being a father, there’s a shit ton of responsibility that comes with it. The life of a parent is not just putting your all into it. You gotta give more than just 100% when wanting to be a parent. It’s a serious test of your spiritual endurance, which I’m not sure is something I’ll ever have the courage to do, but then again things can change in life on the flip of a dime, so I’ll see how this all plays out for myself. Maybe I’ll stay happily single or I’ll happily be raising kids.

Gee, I wonder why this dream of being a parent resurfaced in my head recently this year? Oh yeah, it was thanks to this character here.

Seriously, Della Duck holds a real special place in my heart for making me feel these kind of feelings yet again. Darn you space mom! LOL.

Thanks for the ask, man.

[takumocchi]

waaah thank you again @honrupi i’ll do my best!

Rules: Answer the ten questions, write your own ten questions, tag ten people.

What’s the first fandom you can remember being a part of and would you consider yourself still a part of it? - Oh jeez, umm.... I think it might’ve been Naruto? XD Naruto is the first media property I remember getting super into, and it opened me up to a lot of aspects of fandom that I wasn’t aware of at the time (i.e. fanart, fanfiction, doujinshi, etc.) I don’t really think I’m a part of it still, but I do find myself wandering back over and seeing if I can find content once in a while!

What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? Alternatively, what would make you happiest to be complimented about? - Ajkkl;ajfioasjis wow..... ummmmm... I can’t pick out one in particular but I’ve been told “I’m really glad to have met you,” and it just... makes me really happy? I know it’s not good but I get really tense in everyday settings when I interact with people, and I constantly wonder whether or not I make the people around me happy, or if I’m just a bother/a tag-a-long or making things awkward. Hearing someone say that they feel happy that I’m around helps me squash the constant doubt over whether or not I should just keep to myself or try to engage with other people more. (Gah I’m sorry if this sounded incoherent.)

Do you want to be famous? - Sometimes yes, but no. I think ultimately it’s more that I want to have something that I do so well that I’ll be known for it, and or that it benefits other people in some way, and not necessarily that I want fame.

What’s something you always wished you could be good at? - Dancing. I watch way too many dance videos and listen to too much music to not know how to dance worth a damn, but I have no rhythm and am very stiff ;;.

If you were given complete freedom to plan your dream vacation, where would you go and what would you do there? - Hnnnnggg this is hard. I honestly want to just say Akihabara, Japan, because I’ve never gone and it’s been a dream, but now I’m kind of thinking Nepal? Kathmandu has a bunch of temples and I would love to just walk around and.... absorb the atmosphere? Learn about the history and the everyday life? Also Kathmandu, the name alone makes it sound like a cool ass place. I think I would like to just go backpacker-style and take everything in.

How did you first end up on Tumblr? - Oh boo, it was in my first year of college that I made and actively used an account, but I was lurking before that. I don’t know how I first got pointed to it, I think maybe on an internet forum?? Or through tumblr posts pointing me to fan translations etc.

What was the last piece of media you saw/read/played that left a memorable impact on you? - Hahahaha, this is hard. I think My Hero Academia was the last media property that I got obsessed with and had a notable impact on my life. I remember binging the manga after season 1, and jumping straight in to the fandom. People in college knew me as "the girl who likes my hero” and that made me both really happy and really sad lmao. Midoriya was one of very few anime protags that had notable anxiety and he really inspired me, and the show as a whole was just a mixing bowl of everything I wanted.

What are you looking forward to in the foreseeable future? - More reboots/continuations of anime that stopped before their manga ended (looking at you ouran)

What’s a random fun fact that you’ve learned recently? - That apparently in England (and maybe all of Europe), lemonade is sprite?? I feel like this is wrong but I’ve seen several confirmations and I’m so confused....

What’s a piece of advice that you’ve always found useful? Take things a day at a time - my anxiety makes looking in to the future really daunting and often times it just paralyzes me and makes me procrastinate, so while I still try to plan ahead, now I just look at what I have to do for the day and focus on getting it done. It’s helps me make some progress, no matter how small.

mmggmkldmfdio I’m gonna tag some of the same people from my last post ‘m very sorry for the spam: @lightanddarkkh @godkinglogan @mimilovegoodhurts @ane-san22​ @yaun21​ @mashedjagaimo​ @esmechanwantsacookie​ @autumnlovestomatoes​ of course, do it if you want and at your leisure! My questions for y’all are under the cut:

What media properties do you find yourself re-watching or returning to constantly?

What genres of music do you like? Any particular reason?

Do you like pineapples on your pizza or not? Do you have any opinions on people who say the opposite? (lol i’m sorry)

When’s the last time you did something that made you really happy? (i.e. going on a trip, seeing a friend, watching a good movie, etc.)

Are there any characters in media that you really relate to?

What is something that you like seeing in other people (could be an interest, or a quality)?

Are there any habits that you have that you’re thankful for?

If you watch anime, what was your first one and when did you watch it?

What does your url mean, if anything at all?

Is there anything that’s constantly on your mind nowadays?