#and to top it off he was being ableist

[ripplestitchskein]

I find the general idea of Stolitz being “toxic” to be fucking hilarious. It’s thrown around so easily like it should be accepted that they fit this definition and….they really, really don’t lol. Like they have a pretty chill and common miscommunication and personal issues interfering with wants and desires conflict. Like I cannot stress how fucking chill it is. They don’t actively hurt one another intentionally, neither are trying to murder the other directly or indirectly, they are not on opposing sides of a larger external conflict save for inherent world class dynamics, they don’t manipulate each other or work against each other, etc. They say hurtful things and argue and are oblivious to the other’s issues but like, in a fairly normal neurodivergence and historical trauma driven way.

They do begin with a mutually agreed upon transactional sexual dynamic, which is often the crux of these “Stolitz is soooo toxic” arguments to the point the really intense anti’s cry SA. A transactional sexual dynamic Blitz was so okay with when it is no longer agreeable to the other party, and they communicate that and change the parameters in a way that gives him full autonomy, he spends half an episode trying to return to that dynamic. Much trauma. Very coerced. 🙄

There is a power imbalance but it only exists in the sense that one person is societally more powerful by nature of his birth and ignorant to it by nature of his upbringing. Stolas does not force Blitz into said transactional sex dynamic by exerting his power or influence so it’s largely irrelevant save for how it impacts Blitz’s personal self worth issues and it is never from a place of malicious intent. Which is what matters in media? Character intent and decisions are literally the crux of the narrative?? Stolas figures out it’s a problem for the type of relationship he really wants to have and corrects it and even goes above and beyond to ensure that Blitz will suffer no fall out from his choice if he decides to not pursue their romantic relationship further. Like, toxic WHOMST? Just, don’t talk to me about toxic until they get hot and bothered about how well the other tried to actively murder them. We have had zero poisonings or major betrayals in this ship and ya’ll throwing around toxic like words have no meaning.

“But he called Blitz his impish little plaything! He thinks of Blitz as a toy! As a sub-species!” Or maybe, just maaaaybe the sexually inexperienced character who is making shit up as he goes along based on his canonically identified incorrect perceptions of what the other wants/likes as well as ignorance of his own power and position thought he was just being sexy and cute? Just maybe? Like can we apply a smidgeon of deductive reasoning based on the sum rather than the parts? As a treat.

It just speaks to what I have observed as probable immaturity/lack of life experience driving a lot of the criticism or straight up vitriol regarding the show’s major conflicts. A very black and white application of moral purity that deems anything not rainbows and sunshine as toxic and where the ultimate goal is some nebulous and frankly hella ableist concept of “healthy”.

A similar thing plays out with regards to Octavia and the classification of Stolas as a “bad parent” because he is pursuing a relationship and has issues of his own to deal with on top of parenting. Heaven forbid a closeted gay man raised in isolation going through some late in life awakenings is not perfectly navigating an ill defined relationship and a divorce and raising a child on top of his myriad of mental health issues. What gets me the most is she’s not even a young child, she’s 17 possibly even 18 at this point in the timeline but the way people act he abandoned an infant at a flophouse to get his rocks off with someone who fears he will smite them down with his incredible Goetian might and if they refuse they’ll be living out of a gutter eating dirt because they wouldn’t perform sexually for him. Instead of the in-universe reality where the most egregious thing Stolas has done is fail to consider his daughters perspective and how this impacts her, made some inappropriate sexual comments really early on in front of her when he was still excited, and forgot, during a major life upheaval, a promise to watch a meteor shower he made to her like a decade ago. He didn’t even forget the promise itself, he just forgot what day it was. Like I forget shit I promised my kids last week much less when they were like 5.

Like there is such a huge disconnect between actual toxic behavior portrayals in media with regards to relationships and parenting, or hell toxic relationships and parents in real life, and what is going on in Helluva Boss. This is ignoring the fact that the actual universe of the show, which is what should be the metric when examining character dynamics not reality, has established real toxicity in both relationships and behavior, and has shown us time and time again how that toxicity contrasts with our characters and their relationships, be it Stolitz or Fizzmodeous or Moxxie/Millie or the parenting dynamics of Blitz & Loona and Stolas & Octavia. We have examples of toxic relationships, and we have examples of toxic parents in this world and we’ve been shown that the relationships of the main characters is in opposition to them.

But even if you were to take the, imo incorrect, position of applying real world considerations to fictional worlds it still doesn’t track as toxic.

Do you realize how many sexual transactions and power imbalances occur in relationships everyday as just a matter of course?

Like “I’ll wear that outfit you like if you do this for me?” Normal, Transactional. Accepted straight couple in a sitcom premise. I would wager “I’ll preform this sex act if you do X” is said in one way or another without anyone batting an eye a hundred times a day. And that’s ignoring the implication that transactional sex is inherently problematic. It isn’t, it’s the coercive aspect that is an issue and even then we get real handwavey about it in reality when the situation isn’t explicitly coercive.

“I’m a police officer/government agent/politician/media influencer/sole household income earner that has the ability to fuck up your entire life/reputation/financial stability just by nature of my job and how well we are getting along” is perfectly fine and normal. No one would suggest that a police office or government agent can only be involved with someone of equal systemic or social power in reality. Do my partner and I have a toxic power imbalance because I am the sole working person in our household and they are a stay at home parent and I hold all the financial power? No, that’s fucking silly.

Not to be all “sweet summer children I grew up in the trenches of toxic” about it but it’s the most baffling part of this fandom that a pretty low key conflict and relationship dynamic, where neither party is actively trying to hurt the other and has approached the entire thing from a place of earnest confusion and ignorance and is working through it in a pretty normal way is classified as “toxic”. Get back to me when they are poisoning each other, have killed several of each other’s loved ones and there is necromancy involved.

[the-cockroach-that-survived]

NOT MY POST

Bro this is exactly the hypocrisy I’m talking about

Because I know damn well they ACTUALLY WOULD

They did when Cantu did it

I can even name multiple other creators off the top of my head who have said slurs and most gave them the pass because they’re so well liked (and usually apologized)

Jacksepticeye, Markipler, W*lbur, etc.

They were forgiven when they apologized, and most of them said it in the first place because either they didn’t know what it meant/how bad it was, or the exact same reason as Dream, that being that he didn’t understand the “rules” of reclaiming slurs, and this is BECAUSE of the people who were hypocritical and PRAISED Cantu when HE called Dream slurs (and that Uber driver but no one EVER wants to talk about that part)

The fact that everyone’s main point of Dream being in the wrong when showing proof of stuff is always saying that he is/was “being manipulative” just shows that it doesn’t matter WHAT he does or says, you will always see it in a bad light

Saying you think he’s manipulative means that you think he’s being nice for the wrong reasons. You THINK he’s presenting himself as doing nice things for some sort of gain

Which means overall you still see most of his actions and communications as positive on the surface, you just think he’s lying

I think this is another reason people keep bringing up the fact he’s autistic as a GENUINE explanation for why he gets treated like this

Autistic people, majority of the time, do not mean ANYTHING past the surface

We say what we mean, and how we mean it, and if it doesn’t come across, we try again until you get it

Allistic people have the tendency to read more into what is there because that’s how THEY communicate. Autistic people (generally) don’t.

They see bluntness, directness, and total mental and emotional honesty (telling them how you feel and think and why) is either rude or irritating or there must be some motive behind it

But that’s NOT what autistic people are trying to do. We’re actually trying to do the exact OPPOSITE. We try to be honest and direct so you get exactly what we mean and DONT take it the wrong way, and then you go and take it the wrong way anyways, especially if we try harder to explain ourselves, because that just gets seen as stubborn/argumentative/aggressive/etc.

It’s never enough

The reason why I think a LOT of autistic Dream fans are really speaking up about this is because many of us have experienced what he’s experiencing now, just on a much smaller scale

We just had to deal with ableist pricks

HE has to deal with POPULAR ableist pricks and the ENTIRETY of the internet, so much that it has turned into a public smear campaign

When we’ve had friends and family in the past misunderstand us or read into subtext that wasn’t there, that has greatly negatively impacted our relationships and confidence in ourselves and our stances

So we see exactly what is happening with Dream and we feel for him, and it makes us angry and scared us to see him be mistreated like this at such a large scale with so few people seeing the problem with it

[sweetandsavageautistic]

(CW: Cringe, Autism Parents stuff, drunk mention, infantilization)

So I don't have a degree in Graphic Design, but I do have a sense of general aesthetic. I figured that it's April. Let's rate, and potentially verbally tear apart and drag through the mud, some autism shirts and graphic designs, and I'll probably do a part 2, these scores are only semi-arbitrary: First up is this:

Already off the top, I am confusion because it seems to read "I wear puzzle cousin autism awareness". Sounds like whoever made this was drunk.

Puzzle pieces, ew.

The red, yellow, green, and blue look like the shades you'd see in elementary school, so that seems pretty infantilizing.

Autism Awareness, I am very much aware of my existence.

Final Score: 0 out of 10. Designer, go home; you're drunk.

Next we have this:

This one already has a slight advantage over the first because it's at least coherent in terms of the message.

Elementary school colors, but make it extra tacky.

Puzzle pieces; don't try to bullshit me by putting the autism awareness banner over it, I can see the other indents that make them puzzle pieces.

Once again, I am well aware of my own existence.

At least it's a smaller design.

Final Score: 0.5 out of 10, and that's being generous.

Next one's not a shirt, but it still counts:

No blue so thank God for that.

This is up to personal preference, but to me, the person-first language is giving "I need to be reminded that someone is a person."

Puzzle pieces. Ew. Don't BS me, I can see them.

Walk down Autism Lane. (it's right below the word LOVE) Sorry, but we don't allow ableists on Autism Lane; you need to be a premium member and to be a premium member, you need to not be a dick.

The pumpkin disturbs me for some reason, and not in the Halloween way; I mean, it just straight-up disturbs me.

Final Score: 0.5 out of 10. Bury it in a shallow grave.

Just found this one:

It's easy on the eyes at least.

No tacky elementary school colors.

No puzzle pieces.

The bunny's cute, but this also seems very infantilizing.

Person first language is a no for me.

Why are all of the is lowercase, but the others are uppercase?

Final Score: 5 out of 10. Not great, but not terrible.

Here we have simple:

Elementary school colors, but credit where credit's due; it's not terrible on the eyes.

Why is blessed on there three times?

One big-ass puzzle piece.

"Autism blesses" Yes, because being bullied by my peers, being indirectly told who I am is wrong, having the worst time making friends, always feeling like I'm never truly part of a friend group, being confused when some adults got mad at me, not having anyone to play with at 4 years old is an absolute fucking blessing. /s And that's the tip of the iceberg.

"Fun", "Sweet", "Cute".....it's the infantilization for me.

Final Score: 3 out of 10. No further elaboration.

Then there's this monstrosity:

I call this color Patronizing Paraprofessional Blue, aka the tackiest shade of blue ever.

It looks like something one of those older white suburban millennial moms would wear. Like something a Karen would wear to one of those autism walks or one of those social skills teachers who talk in that slowed-down patronizing kindergarten teacher tone with that fake-ass smile, no matter how old you are. You know the one I'm talking about, right? Yeah, they'd wear this.

Puzzle piece. Light It Up Blue. Ew.

We all know what organization this supports.

Final Score: -10 out of 10. Burn it.

Let's get in a good one to counter that abomination of a shirt and end part one on a higher note:

Nice simple design with a black background.

No tacky elementary school colors.

Identity-first language.

Really counters the....what the fuck would it be called? The UwU autism parent thing? ("I am his voice, he is my heart," "See the able, not the label," etc,.) It counters that.

The light sparkle around "a bitch" is chef's kiss.

Final Score: 11 out of 10. Perfection.

[viktorarcanedeservesbetter]

more modern au headcanons for @now-thats-an-oof

first one here

Jayce and Viktor's favorite guilty pleasure is all the crime/science shows like CSI, Bones, X-Files. Stuff that requires a healthy amount of disbelief because it's more entertaining that way, rather than the shows that pretend to know science or are obnoxious about science. They used to have a drinking game, but after one episode of CSI Vegas they were so decidedly intoxicated + the hangover was enough for them to never play it again.

Also, their TV set is a projector against their wall. They also pirate everything, use VPNs. Neither of them pay for any subscriptions, all mooch off of Caitlyn's accounts when they can't find something they want or the quality being pirated isn't good. (Mel and Elora locked them out of their account)

They live in a studio apartment on the first floor right outside their University. It's nice, low-priced and they don't spend a lot of time in it anyways with school and lab work. Jayce's favorite feature is the fireplace, Viktor's is the spacious shower.

They do not use candles: sets off Viktor’s asthma. Instead they have a modified (by them!) diffuser with scents like eucalyptus, peppermint, lavender that helps with breathing + won’t set off an attack. (He still does his treatments, though! Just wants a nice smelling home.)

Ximena lives about forty minutes away; they visit her every weekend. When Jayce and Viktor first got together, Viktor was afraid to meet her (he has no family for Jayce to meet, and never got far enough in other relationships to meet parents) but she took him in instantly.

Now, Ximena insists Viktor come home with Jayce every time. Sometimes she even calls Viktor even when Jayce isn't there. She sends meals (as all moms do!) with them to take, but with the recipe card so they can make it together.

Adding onto that, Jayce cooks, Viktor bakes. Both have used Ximena's recipe cards often, but hers are just better (Jayce thinks she's hiding a secret ingredient, Viktor thinks she's magic) (one of them is right!)

Neither of them are big readers for fun, but both enjoy scientific journals, reports, short stories, as long as they aren't science fiction. Unlike with the TV shows, the bad science just annoys them. For fiction, Jayce enjoys adventure/suspense, Viktor enjoys mystery/suspense. Neither like horror, or romance-only, but enjoy a good slow burn mixed with their preferred genres.

Their greatest achievement was the modern version of whatever the distinguished innovators competition was-they both got to ride in a plane (1st class, paid for by the school!) to present their prototype for a water & air solar powered purifier to the country's top mechanics board. Mel (political science major, business minor (in Masters programs) also helped them register the patents and trademarks for it.

Speaking of Mel, other majors/minors include: Caitlyn (Legal Studies Major, Criminal Justice minor, undergrad) Sky (Environmental Science, Masters) Vi (Exercise Science major, undergrad) Elora (Business Analytics, Masters). Ekko and Powder are taking a gap year.

Jayvik have major beef with the barista at the coffeeshop closest to their apartment. Don't ask them why. (He hit on Vik in front of Jayce while also being ableist. Both of them cursed him out in their respective first languages).

Jayce and Viktor paint and sketch to unwind. Jayce sketches (likes charcoal pencils) Viktor paints (likes watercolors). Favorite subjects? Each other. (yes, they have painted and sketched each other naked.)

Failed hobbies of theirs include: crocheting (Jayce was slightly more successful, though the scarf he made for Vik was a little too long) Photography (somehow Viktor's fingertips make it into his shots, Jayce can never get the focus right) Dance (Jayce stepped on everyone's feet, Viktor only likes to sway and stand on Jayce's feet) Plants (?) (They are only allowed plants that can survive nuclear explosions now. Sky banned anything harder than a spider plant to care for from their home.)

Favorite Bar: The Last Drop (you know I had to do it). They (as well as their small group of friends) are the only academy students yet to be kicked out. Mostly for good behavior, but also because favoritism.

Things they don't fight about: Health, safety, opinions (they share most of the same ones anyways) family, friends.

Things they "fight" about: the right amount of sugar in a coffee, if Viktor needs wool socks, if Jayce needs to replace his work boots, the best kind of cookie (the great double-chocolate chip vs m&m cookie war)

The thing they actually fought about (serious version): Viktor accepting help/Jayce learning the right way to help him that wasn't diminishing Viktor's abilities. They fought for a week-still sharing a bed and eating together, working, but all silent. Finally when they came to an agreement-Viktor would stop ignoring the need for help until it was too painful to ask, Jayce would help by knowing the real signs, or doing just what Viktor asks him to help with, rather than what he assumes Viktor needs.

[cator99]

top 10 long-term psychiatric lockdown facility patients:

#1. "DJ B-Rad": severely hyperactive autistic 11 year old. Looked and acted like some sort of elf. Would only respond to DJ B-Rad. Spoke and conversed pretty much exclusively in outbursts of classic youtube poop quotes. The other kids thought he was schizophrenic but I understood him and appreciated the humor he brought to what was often a quite dour situation. The place held I think 30 kids at a time– 10 per wing, divided by the risk-level associated with their interactions/how much care they needed. I was in the "low risk" section... in a room beside DJ B-Rad. He would frequently beatbox while partaking in the enjoyment of punching or hitting himself. Not in a depressive or self-haming way, nor in a "the voices made me do it" way. He just seemed to genuinely enjoy it. #1 because I have never met someone with such jouissance before or since. (and also because I wanted to start this off on a high note.)

#2. really charismatic stylish fat girl, maybe 15 or 16, who told everyone she was autistic. all professionals dissuaded her from mentioning it since that didn't seem to be her problem and really she didn't seem to have any beyond claiming to be autistic for no appparent reason. It became clear very quickly that she was self diagnosed and had her autism refuted by every professional she had come across. Regardless– she didn't seem to know why she was there either. She genuinely came across as normal, confident, well-adjusted, healthy family life, so why was she there? I had a bit of a crush on her and she had lesbian moms so i kept my fingers crossed that she would self diagnose herself as some flavor of kweer. I didn't think too hard about it back then because in all honesty I hadnt the faintest idea of what autistic even meant and no one seemed able to give me a straight answer. In hindsight... my conspiracy theory is that her moms initially took her to a psychologist because she kept telling people she was super autistic and back then that sort of claim carried massive weight (non zero chance tumblr played a part in her autism proclamation, but she was way ahead of the curve seeing as this was like... early 2012. in canada. I wasnt really online back then so idk when this sort of thing started to pick up steam but judging by how 2013 unfolded im gonna guess that it was right about then...) so maybe they thought she was like having some sort of very pressing identity issues or psychosis maybe muchausen and decided to ship her off without delay... A genuinely normal girl adamant on having a disability that was considered (especially back then. especially after DJ B-Rad.) debilitating must have seemed so insane..... until suddenly it wasn't lol (even normies I know nowadays say things like "everyone is a little autistic") . She arrived a few weeks before my graduation and at that point almost all of the people I spent my time with were gone and the place was full of randos who I otherwise didn't gaf about which meant I was able to spend more time getting to get to know her, trying to understand why she was there and what autism meant. Unfortunately, her timing could not have been worse. No one had time to entertain her autism claims. She had arrived almost immediately after the grand spergfest that was DJ B-Rad's graduation dinner. the bar was high. If you were gonna be calling yourself autistic, you were gonna have to prove it. She didn't seem at all bothered, nor deterred, nor invalidated by the professionals refusing to entertain the idea of her being even slightly on the spectrum... she was certain they were just ableist. During group therapy, when trying to get to the bottom of things, the "why" of her stay here, what issues she may have been dealing with, anything really... There didn't seem to be an answer. She most often took on a supportive role for others that came across as slightly tone deaf because she was trying to tell trauma patients to just keep their chin up and stay positive... which on paper could be possibly bad faith interpreted as "socially autistic" but no it more so came across as out of touch, as one of the rare patients who didnt have a background involving trauma, poverty, neglect, mental illness, etc. But to be honest, most people seemed to appreciate just having a truly unbothered, kind, and optimistic peer around– her intentions were, at the very least, pure. And for someone with low-level munchhausen, it didn't seem as though she was doing it for attention, nor did she fake any symptoms, or do anything really beyond say "i am autistic" and continue on with her day which I'm sure was extra confusing for the professionals dealing with her to wrap their heads around at the time.

#3. The Escape Artist: 14, caring and emotionally intelligent when she let her guard down, but typically quite guarded. Screwed up from her life on the rez. Always kept it real– I had some of my best discussions about life in general with her. By the time I got there, she had taken on a sort of mythical status as the unapproachable girl who had almost escaped the facility, and as a result had her stay extended "indefinitely". The minimum (and typical) stay was 4 months... by the time I arrived, she had been there for over 6 months, and she was still there when I "graduated" 4 months later. The story was that not long into her stay, she was being led back inside with the rest of the herd following a highly-supervised game of soccer in the fenced-off field attached to the back of the facility. To get outside at any time, you have to go through two (or 3) sets of locked doors. Beyond that... I mean, this place is in the middle of nowhere. This isn't some city psych ward shit. But security wasn't as tight as the staff let on. She had been plotting and waiting for a chance to escape for weeks– it was almost all she thought about. As the crowd was ushered along, distractions and misbehaving children were plentiful. While the staff were suddenly very wrapped up in dealing with whatever pressing issue had begun occurring, she realized that the door behind them had not closed properly. She somehow slipped out unseen, and managed to get a 10 minute head start before they realized she had vanished. She had run out the back, climbed the fence, hurt herself in doing so, but booked it down the highway regardless. She was in the middle of attempting to board a bus at one of its very few stops between this nowhere-place and the nearby city, when suddenly she was tackled down by staff who had been frantically driving around looking for her. Every kid there joked about plotting their escape– so of course she was a legend for having gotten that far. However, her response was always to roll her eyes at anyone who even joked about it: "Dont be stupid. Just do your 4 months. It passes like nothing." While she tended to be withdrawn from other patients, she had close relationships with all the staff there- including the ones who caught her- and often admitted that she wasn't sure anymore what she would do if they told her that it was her turn to graduate. Her entire support system was there. She didn't want to leave. At some point the program director decided she was making good progress and tried to push her on the path of the family reintigration stage. First time she went out for a brief day-pass type visit with her family, she stabbed herself in the stomach. Spent some time in an actual hospital. Upon her return, she played it cool and acted like it was no big deal, even tried to warp it into a badass thing while she showed us her stitches. But we all knew it was fucked up and that the next group therapy everyone was gonna have to sit back and give her the front and center even though she wanted to brush it off. She otherwise did seem happy to be back, even as she was placed back on "indefinitely stay" status. She was one of few I kept in touch with... which became very difficult very fast as she proceeded to dissappear for months and then years at a time, with the only indications of what's going on being people posting to her fb page asking if she's out of jail yet.

#4. Future Millenial Cringe Tiktok Star: 17, Baddie of the low-risk wing. She always had the most useful insight to offer during group-therapy (split by sex– sorry4tangent but of course as a fresh ftm I asked to get put into the "boys" group– was talked out of it by a staff member who assured me that it was an absolute shitshow in there and that yeah I could go down that road and maybe succeed but I would 100% regret it. I talked to some of the guys who told me it was just 2 hours of total retardation and anger outbursts often leading to physical fights and restraint-room utilization, all to the soundtrack of DJ B-Rad yelling "Pizza Time!" "PINGAS" "You Must Die" "Sos" etc. lol)... I always admired her maturity, level-headedness, and ability to tell off the dipshit dudes there in such a way that the staff had her back, and I often asked her how tf to handle this shit while maintaining my sanity. She was certain that you don't, but that's alright– comes with the territory– and if your sanity is reliant on being kept in here then you're not going to know how to cope on the ouside– she frequently said that hating it there and wanting to leave was a good thing (as you could imagine, her and Escapee had a strained relationship, and while Escapee would directly bring these things up with her, she saw the topic as dead on arrival since she was there solely for herself and knew it, and kept form boundaries between herself and other patients, which isnt to say she didnt engage with others but I could tell she was... I guess just way more self aware than the rest of us, likely due to her being the oldest one there), but sometimes people challenged this idea by positing that she was just saying that to justify her negativity, since it "wasn't that bad" there. She assured them that it wasn't normal to be locked up in a psychiatric facility, and that not treating it like a vacation wasn't a failure on her part– she was there putting in hard work to sort her shit out, and thought that it was a waste to just sit around waiting for it to be over. Oh also staff low-key knew she had snuck a phone onto the wing but didn't care really, because she was a model patient (phone was snuck in during her "family reintigration" period nearing the end of her stay, where the program gives patient families the opportunity to visit and go out for the day– and more rarely but sometimes even overnight, depending on the patient. All of this was pretty rare tho because kids often came from idgaf-families)... not much else to say except she was dope and it's weird seeing her getting dunked on online for calling herself clumsy in a tiktok. She once ran for some political position while also being open about the fact that she was a stripper. She almost got voted in too (small town politics moment)I honestly wish she had because she has always seemed very intelligent and driven...

[gds-daisy]

Jiyong is a spastic and the fact yall find him cute is odd. He acts like one of this special ed kids during fire drills at school

Top is a fucking druggie who couldn't handle mone and fame and tried to kill himself and its a shame he didn't fucking succeed

Taeyang and is homophobic incel and let's not pretend thise articles that came out last month about him abusing his wife doesn't exist because they do

Daesung is a fucking murderer

But you people support thY trash but not seungri who was innocent and PAID OFF by the other members to take the fall?? All proven by Kira Lee?? Disgusting all of you

ah yes this is what i wake up to on a sunday morning.

since you decided to attack my inbox with your hate, i’m gonna help you out and tell you some truths.

tw: mental health issues, substance abuse, s**cide attempt, ableism (by anon), etc.

jiyong

first off, the fact that you used ableist terminology tells me everything about you. jiyong is living his best life after years of being at the lowest points of his life. the motte documentary shows how suicidal and lonely he was. he was severely underweight and was struggling mentally. not to mention, he lost one of his closest friends that he considered a brother. he has finally rebuilt himself and you can see it. for example, during episode 8 of good day, he revealed to kwanhee that since he was a trainee at yg, he didn’t get to experience much of what being a kid was like. why hate on him for trying to heal his inner child even if it’s a bit “childish”?

seunghyun

this part of your ask angered me so fucking much. seunghyun only used marijuana twice and it was because he had fucking mental health issues. he suffers from depression and anxiety ever since he could remember which he said in this interview and you can look at multiple other sources to confirm this. after the news broke out that he used marijuana, he was suspended from his military service and was eventually charged with marijuana use. after seung-hyun was charged, he overdosed on PRESCRIBED tranquilizers that were meant to treat his anxiety and later confirmed that it was in fact a suicide attempt. the reason he overdosed was because he felt like he brought shame to his loved ones when it was discovered he used marijuana which he has said multiple times. even when he was being wheeled out of the icu, the only words he said were “i’m sorry”. when he attended court, he apologized to the press, his fans, and his loved ones for being “selfish” and said he would be willing to take any punishment because he wanted to take accountability. the fact that men’s mental health is so negatively stigmatized especially when you’re in idol is so disheartening. you don’t even have to be an idol to know how draining and consuming it is. just look at how ruthless paparazzi are along with the press and netizens. and the fact that you wish he succeeded in his attempt is such a beyond fucked up thing to wish. seunghyun is a fucking human being. he brings so much positivity to the world and his fans, me included. he has gotten me through some of the hardest times of my life and is one of my comfort people. he still feels immense guilt for what happened and it kills me to know that he will never fully forgive himself no matter how much he’s already healed. clearly you have no empathy for those who struggle with mental health.

taeyang

there is no evidence that i could find of taeyang being homophobic, so i don’t understand where you got this conclusion from. as for the domestic violence allegations if you can even call it that, they were started by an ot5 fan and spread on tiktok. when asked for a source, they avoided the question entirely because there were no articles published other than the one they conveniently found. another ot5 stan later spread this misinformation and then said that they didn’t know the source they were provided was fake. as for your incel claim, that is so fucking easy to put to rest considering that he has a full child with hyo-rin. even with this, their intimate life is none of your concern and shouldn’t be a concern for anybody else because it’s private and it doesn’t affect you.

daesung

for those who aren’t aware of it, daesung was involved in a car accident in 2011. he was driving 20 miles over the speed limit but was not intoxicated. there had been a motorcyclist who was injured on the road after crashing into a lamp post head on. there was also a taxi who had stopped when he saw hyun (the motorcyclist) and flashed his hazards before helping him. there were two other cars involved, including daesung. he was not able to stop in time and did not see hyun on the ground. it was later confirmed that hyun was under the influence and had three times the legal limit of alcohol in his system when he crashed. daesung even confessed to law enforcement that he had been speeding, rather than lying to them. after they had conducted a formal investigation, forensics were unsure whether or not hyun was dead or not, but his injuries pointed to him already being deceased as he had not moved and was bleeding out intensely. the taxi driver was also unsure of this. in daesungs trial, he was found not guilty due to these circumstances. even though he was found not guilty, he was in a very depressed state and even suicidal. he reached out to the victims family and tried making amends. the family later disclosed that they do not hold daesung entirely responsible. do i think he shouldn’t have been driving so fast? absolutely. but at the end of the day, he took accountability for his actions and made amends rather than not feeling any remorse. he’s a person too and all humans make mistakes, whether it’s small or large ones. you can not make a claim like that when even officials weren’t sure of it.

seungri

it’s actually crazy that there are so many seungri stans because he is a disgusting human being. seungri is just as responsible as all the other celebrities and idols involved in the burning sun scandal. let’s not forget his first known scandal where a girl he slept with said he choked her and got extremely violent during intercourse. he was literally part of the group chats and in those group chats he had talked disgustingly about women by objectifying them, talked about selling women to cater to the v.i.p’s needs, which verifies that he was very much aware of everything going down at his club. he also discussed prices for each of the girls which confirms the sex trafficking conducted by him. seungri was also involved in money laundering schemes and also committed tax evasion. he only served 18 months in prison due to his enlistment in the military and now that he’s free, he is still interested in opening up new clubs and getting into new scandals to try and deflect attention from the burning sun scandal. he has not learned anything and he never will.

in conclusion, please do not enter my inbox EVER again.

[cotardspringtrap]

Welcome to Abyss' Caffeine rush Analysis of a William Afton that no one seemingly talks about. Aka The Fourth Closet William Afton. This is also maybe a guide on details if you want to describe or draw him.

Okay so i saw someone draw TFC William again, time to not be normal !!! ( positive / autism ).

But also i realized his design finally.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Body Scars, Self Harm, Torture ( Springlock incidents ), Body Horror, Body Damage and Light Gore. Nothing is Extremely Graphic but still detailed.

I want to be clear, i do not think its mentioned in the book, but the graphic novel is very.. All over the place in all honesty. ( it is anyways, with Elizabeth having the wrong Hair color, and William's robes changing color every page ( its supposed to be the shadows.. but it is not drawn well at all, making the robes look purple or purple and white.. On top of that i know its supposed to be technically *artist/animators black , because in the book its strictly black. )

Actual descriptions here for figuring out what William Afton went through so i can make things a little less complicated design wise.

1. First off, my immediate thought i just realized and why i decided to make this. His secondary scars as Springtrap. In The Twisted Ones, as Springtrap, he is horribly mangled as well as lost some of his teeth.

The implications in the book he also lost his organs, which we will get to later. In The Fourth Closet, its.. less mangled. Still horrible, but not as much. Now this is obviously... probably a confusion on communication like everything else in the graphic novels but also probably to tone it down for kids.

However his teeth are back which is really funny to me. But then again we have learned that Remnant can heal. It wouldn't surprised me if Circus Baby, however and whenever she found him, used so much if it that his skin healed wrong and some things did come come back.

2. Adding onto this, his organs. He clearly still has some of them but.. starts removing them slowly, mainly to produce agony and use remnant, to forever possess himself ( like the games , like Michael Afton ( or so the common theory so far is that Michael possessed himself because of Agony and Remnant ).

I do think that he might briefly be already doing this, but's still more alive than not, hence why he's got an IV and needs mobility aids to get around.

Not to mention the Remnant didn't heal everything. He still has jagged metal bits stuck inside of him. On his neck and eye in the graphic novel, but its more in the book.

I do believe his eye isn't his original as the Springbonnie suit would've probably pushed its own eyes into his skull, or his outside of his skull.

So on top of that he probably is legally blind in both eyes ( not to mention that again the novel depicting something poorly. He doesn't have a robot eye, he has no eye in his right socket. ( though robot eye is kinda fun <3 )

3. Its implied Circus Baby did put him back together. That she did the surgeries and the remnant trials on him. No offense to her, especially because she is a robot / possessed by a minor..........she's probably the reason why he's so fucked up so far.

If William was well enough on his own he probably could have done better. But obviously he wasn't.

In fact as Springtrap in TTO ( the twisted ones ), he was on an Agony/Remnant high. Having "zoomies". I believe this is why Springtrap can chase people whether he is more "alive" like in the books or undead in the games ( and possible movies ). Because otherwise he'd probably just move slowly like a zombie.

4. This is nothing, but even more minor rambling. I always took it as he wore sleep clothes not because he's "grandpa" but because he is ill, as well as that is all that is what is most comfortable.

I do wish people would think things through before being ableist or ageist. William is most likely in his mid 50s in this book series. Which is.. Older, but admittingly at this point in my life i wouldn't say thats old/grandpa. ( i feel like 60 is just on the cusp though ).

I mean think about it. You, are in so much pain, that everything that you touch, hurts. But you obviously have/want to be decent. So you have to be as comfortable as possible.

I can vouch for this as someone with chronic pain, but i cant vouch for ( large body ) scars nor will i speak over people with them.

To end this, I'm not saying all this to have people sympathize or go "aw poor baby" ( if you do this i hope you explode actually . Don't infantalize disabled people ! ).

But because i think its interesting. I also don't think people realize that like.. William self harms, a lot. He doesn't care about his own health too much as long as he knows he won't die ( or at least knows he can come back from it ). He is horribly afraid of his own death.

I am neurodivergent, i love him ( #plurality ), and i had an energy drink

TLDR: I think William's design from TFC is actually way more interesting and way more detailed than people realize.. the Graphic Novel and the Book just don't talk about it too much because well. It is made with kids in mind.

What the text says:

( Red ): Bandage

( Orange ): IV Drip

( Green ): Metal

( Cyan ): Stitches from *CB putting him back together.

( Blue ): Mirror to Watch from certain angles?

( Light Blue ): Scarred / Regrown skin.

( Indigo ): Vocal Cords exposed.

( Purple ): Missing eye + scrap metal.

( Pink ): Wires to Stablize / recharge left over Agony ( or just Life Support ).

Please tag me if you use this for reference!!! I would love to see. ( though no credit is needed of course ! This is just ideas thrown together ) /genuine

*Animators Black is when artists use other dark colors ( usually blue or purple, but sometimes grey ) in place of Black ( example: Nightmare Moon from My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Luna from Sailor Moon, and Hordak's Hair ( Netflix She Ra ).

*CB being short for Circus Baby.

[steddieunderdogfics]

Two more recs for the no UD weekend: Updraft, a fun steampunk steddie with airship racing, by just_my_latest_hyperfixation and Bear Hugs, an AU where Steve and Eddie are former NHL goalies (also works for the Kidfic theme) by steddieas_shegoes

Updraft by Just_my_latest_hyperfixation

@just-my-latest-hyperfixation

Rating: Explicit

39,532 words, 7/7 chapters

Archive Warning: Creator chose Not to Use

Tags: Alternate Universe - Steampunk, Mechanic Eddie Munson, Strangers to Lovers, Sexual Tension, Miscommunication, Eventual Smut, Arranged Marriage, Blood and Violence, Blood and Injury, Intrigue, Action/Adventure, Medical Trauma, Amputation, Prosthetics, Disabled Eddie Munson, Ableist Language, Jason Carver Being an Asshole

Summary:

Eddie used to dream of flying, but that was before the crash. Today, his dreams are full of fire and bursting metal, and when he wakes, it is to ants crawling under scarred skin, his hands clawing at a limb that is long gone. Today, he is content in his mechanic’s shop, looking at aircraft only when they pass him in the sky above. Eddie thought he’d never fly again. Until the day that Steve Harrington, heir to one of the city’s most prodigious entrepreneurs, shows up at his shop, looking for someone to fix his racer for the Starcourt Cup - the airship race that took Eddie’s leg and his dreams four years ago. Eddie knows he should stay out of this. And still, he finds himself dragged into Harrington’s affairs - a gentleman’s agreement involving an arranged marriage and a star-crossed love. With the race one week away and Richard Harrington’s henchmen sabotaging their efforts every step of the way, he ends up getting to know Steve more closely than he ever expected. Eddie thought he’d never fly again. But life has a way of proving you wrong. ------ Or: An action-filled, steampunk-inspired Steddie adventure. Project 030 of the Steddie Big Bang 2024

bear hugs by steddieas_shegoes

@steddieas-shegoes

Rating: Explicit

76,351 words, 12/12 chapters

Archive Warning: No Warnings

Tags: Alternate Universe - Hockey, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Childhood Friends, goalie steve harrington, Goalie Eddie Munson, Injury, Friends to Lovers, Bisexual Steve Harrington, Gay Eddie Munson, Single Parent Steve Harrington, Divorced Steve Harrington, Teacher Steve Harrington, Implied/Referenced Cheating, NOT between Steve and Eddie, Second Chances, Getting Together, hockey coach eddie munson, Good Parent Steve Harrington, Slow Burn, Fluff, Light Angst, First Dates, Dirty Talk, Making Out, Semi-Public Sex, Hand Jobs, Blow Jobs, Rimming, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Overstimulation, Light Dom/sub, Dom Eddie Munson, Sub Steve Harrington, Subspace, Aftercare, Falling In Love, Idiots in Love, Love Confessions, Domestic Fluff, Moving In Together, Marriage Proposal, Top/Bottom Versatile Eddie Munson, Top/Bottom Versatile Steve Harrington, is that really how we tag that on here, someone please change that that looks ridiculous, ANYWAY they both like having a dick in their ass, god put prostates up there for a reason

Summary:

Steve and Eddie were always the perfect goalie tandem. Their friendship on and off the ice made them the best. When Steve suffers a career-ending injury less than a year into their NHL debut, he has to give up more than just his goalie pads. Nine years later, Steve’s daughter, Rory, wants to be a goalie just like he was. He thought the hardest thing he’d have to face was the practice schedule, or the price tag, or missing work for tournaments. None of that was nearly as hard as facing Eddie again.

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[theogonize]

WHERE IS THE LOVE FOR GREGORY HOUSE 😤 WITH WHO I CAN SHARE MY THOUGHTS OTHER THAN YOU.

i mean,,,, he would whisper "don't fall in love with me" mid-thrust, knowing so damn well you are already whipped, thank you very much.

my revolutionary concept??? gregory house weirdly obsessed with how you taste. like clinically obsessed. after going down on you, he’ll lick his fingers and hum like he’s analyzing wine. "elevated sodium content. complex hormonal blend. you been stressed today?" it’s disgusting. it’s hot. he’ll spend hours between your legs under the guise of “data collection,” and you’ll climax so hard you forget your name while he mutters things like, “just verifying results, don’t mind me.” you once caught him smelling your underwear from the laundry. he claimed it was to confirm dehydration. you didn’t buy it—but you let him finish what he was doing anyway.

idc, he only says “i love you” inside you. he’s incapable of saying it sober, in daylight, or without a sharp insult afterward. but sometimes—when you’re kissing like it means something, when you’re holding his face while he’s inside you, when he’s too raw to lie—he’ll whisper it. barely audible. and then he fucks you like he regrets it. the next day, he’s colder. sarcastic. meaner than usual.

jerking off to your voicemails!! you left him one once—accidentally. breathless. laughing. saying you missed him. he saved it. then he saved more. voicemails of you angry, sweet, annoyed, teasing. he doesn’t even touch himself to porn anymore. just puts on your voice and lets himself feel something awful and good. sometimes he imagines you’re on top of him, whispering those exact words into his ear. sometimes he comes just hearing you say his name like you want something. he told you once, casually, “your voice is the only thing that makes me come consistently.” you laughed. he didn’t.

i have so much more oh my god i am not okay 🦚

we are so back 🦚 anon!!!!!!! ALSO YOUR MIND... IT NEEDS TO BE STUDIED

he's sooo fucking annoying (i said with barely concealed lust) when he says don't fall in love with me, hoping, praying you do. because he's basically projecting. this is his fucked up love confession, in the form of a warning because he doesn't trust himself with love. a two person thing.

ANKJSMNDVFHN OKAYYY PUSSYFREAK HOUSE i very much agree. people like to say house munch propaganda is ableist but like why are you being munchphobic? ofc he loves the smell, the sight, the taste of pussy! he's an old fashioned "dont wash, i'm coming home in three days" typa guy puhleaseee

if you're not a doctor, he'll just be making shit up 100% to be in there for as long as possible. like "i noticed a change in the taste after the hour and a half mark, b. just making sure this time too." like okay freak. and he's so into stealing your panties, especially if you've had an especially long day. he's basically panting on the doorstep when you come home stressed because a) you'll want him to eat you out and b) the smell between your legs <3<3

but i think he would actually develop a mechanism to analyse your mood on the basis of tasting you because he's just... scientific like that (🤤) OR he'll use his perceptiveness to make you feel bad abt doubting his whole theory. he'd be eating you out and he'd stop midway just to say "you've been mad at me the whole day" and get back to work while you are left successfully wondering if your pussy is whispering these things to him. voicemail house will also be expanded upon thank you for reminding me. i think i did put a bit of that in my beating his ass but he likes it post....

house, if he did feel the impulse to tell you that he loves you, would 100% begin crying. or like at the least, tearing up. and he'd say in the most pained, pathetic voice that fills your heart with that maternal kind of awww my baby pity. and then he'd fuck you so hard, so rough you'd forget what just happened moments prior (like he wanted) and he wouldnt be able to sleep the whole night because what if you do remember... and what if it means something, something bad. what if you leave? as he turns his head to look at you fast asleep. his heart aches, it aches so bad he can't breathe. but then he has to act like he doesnt care when you wake up. but it does. he does love you.

whatever lets focus on him being a pervert please so he can feel like he's not losing himself to you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for being upset that my boyfriend of 3 years doesn't remember our anniversary even though i know he has adhd? ☕️☕️

I (26 W) have been dating my partner (32 M) for over 3 years now. He is officially diagnosed with ADHD and I am currently waiting for my own diagnosis for ADHD. He got diagnosed shortly before we got together and he has opened to me about how insecure he is over his disabilities causing a rift between us since all his previous relationships end with his partners leaving after they "get tired of dealing with his issues" because he also has autism and has been rude before in regards to my weight despite knowing that i am recovered from an eating disorder and this is the context in which his insecurities were disclosed to me. I also don't mean rude like accidentally, he literally put his hands on my stomach and said "what is this" after we had already had several Big Fights in regards to his previously rude behavior. For further context, I told him on our second date that I have a strict boundary around food and my weight and would appreciate it if he kept comments about my body weight or how much i eat to himself because it's triggering for me.

I try to be mindful of his limitations but recently, he asked me if he had forgotten our anniversary. This wouldn't bother me as much if it wasn't our third anniversary coming up in a couple of weeks and if I hadn't repeatedly told me over our time together the exact date of our anniversary. Now, I don't expect him to remember dates off the top of his head. I struggle with that information myself but what I DO hold against him is the fact that he KNOWS he forgets things and doesnt make ANY effort to have a failsafe against that. I put everything in my phone and he WORKS in tech so he knows how easy it is to set a repeat event with reminders nowadays so I don't understand why he can't just fucking figure out how to remember our anniversary without constantly making me be the one to remind him. I have told him exactly this and asked him why he didn't write it down over the last 3 years if he knows he's bad with dates. he said "that's a good point" and that was that. Now, he keeps trying to manipulate the information out of me by asking me when I'm like half asleep because he "thought i might slip up and just tell him."

Am I in the wrong for being mad over this? it feels like he doesn't care enough to do the bare minimum of being in a relationship with another person. I've dated others before with ADHD and it's never been a fucking issue before for them to remember our anniversary. I myself put in the effort when I care about someone to do the bare minimum and write down information I want to remember about someone. I just don't understand why I feel so guilty over getting mad about this when I feel like I have every right to be upset because it's not like I haven't been forthcoming before, it's not like i haven't repeatedly told him over the years and he puts in birthdays to his calendar so like why doesn't he care enough to put our anniversary into it? He wants to marry me but I dont want to spend the rest of my life reminding him to care enough about me to remember things like my birthday, our anniversary or my eating disorder.

But I also know that expecting people with ADHD to remember things is kind of an ableist move and I don't want to start an argument where I'm being a dick to his disabilities. So WIBTA if I decided to make this into a big deal because it is for me knowing my partner has ADHD and cannot help being so forgetful all the time?

What are these acronyms?

[the-cockroach-that-survived]

neurodivergence can give context and reasoning for people's actions, yes. it doesn't excuse them, though. it doesn't make the harm done disappear. it doesn't take the need for accountability away. i think it can be even infantilizing to say so, in my opinion.

I just woke up so this isn’t getting the BEST response apologies if it’s half baked or rude I’m just tired of having the same conversation over and over again

I never said that. I never said it excuses the need for accountability. But guess what. Dream takes accountability constantly. Most things I can think of off the top of my head (outside of situations where he was literally just lied about) he has reflected and apologized, or in some cases, he literally just did something some people disagree with and some people don’t so he wouldn’t necessarily have to apologize, it was just his personal decision to do something

Hurting people is not the end of the world, it happens, and for ND people, it happens unintentionally or without understanding the full context/consequences constantly. That doesn’t completely relieve them of responsibility, no, but it does recontextualize things in a way that matters and most people obnoxiously never take into account or will purely say things like “that’s not an excuse” “that’s infantilizing” or whatever else when that’s literally not true and not the point at all

I’m autistic, I have unintentionally and/or unknowingly hurt people before. Not once have I acted like because I’m autistic and didn’t know that what I was doing was wrong, that means it doesn’t matter. I do however explain to people that my autism affects my actions and understandings of things, along with my communication style, and many times with that context, I straight up was arguably not in the wrong at all, because I had no idea what I was doing was hurtful, and despite me communicating multiple times that I need to be told directly if there’s an issue, people never did, and then only did when they were so mad about it that they blew up at me or cut me out, which is entirely unfair

A lot of the mistakes I’ve seen Dream make have been a direct result of how his neurodivergence affects his understanding of certain things AND others’ understanding of him. Many of the issues I’ve seen other creators express having with him have been the results of misunderstandings or blowing things way out of proportion (that is, if they even give any sort of proof to back their claims at all, which they usually don’t. In fact, usually their claims are so vague that it baffles me any fans are so up in arms about it)

I hate that every time I bring this up, this is the response I get. Saying that someone’s neurodivergence matters in the context of things and that it can in fact completely change how certain situations play out or look is not me saying they can’t/shouldnt/don’t need to take accountability when they DO actually hurt people, nor is it remotely infantilizing, it is compassionate and frankly necessary for a full understanding of certain situations, and I would argue it’s more ableist to say otherwise. Autism is a disability with social difficulties being a huge part of it. That IS going to affect things and it NEEDS to be taken into consideration, rather than nearly entirely brushed aside because it’s “not an excuse”

[wolfertinger]

yall need hobbies fr. these people are just expressing themselves. they arent hurting anyone just because you're going into Their Spaces and getting mad at them. literally if you'd just never tried to put their Fucking Lives In Danger, they would not be antagonizing you and your friends. go play dbd or cod if you wanna hunt people, instead of steeping your brain in so much hate. you'd probably be way happier.

porn is ok. women and men can be and wear whatever they want. name one animal they've ACTUALLY harmed by thirsting over fictional anthropomorphic animals.

you know. the topic, is no longer about porn, or fiction. it is about real, actual, abuse, that people have faced, at the hands of wis and salems, "friends"

the topic, is about how both salem and wis, have continued to support ACTUAL, IRL RAPISTS. ACTUAL, IRL GROOMERS. people who have VICTIMIZED OTHERS. and purposely platforming them. it is not just, about sawyer. it is about torin's underaged victims. it is about majora's, victims of harassment. it is about the several people, wis has chased off tumblr, simply for disagreeing, with her. why, do none of you, ever answer that? why do all of you, go for the nothingburgers, rather than the REAL topic being discussed, which is, undeniably, that wis and salem are rape apologists, at BEST.

HOW, are their lives in danger? all people have asked them to do here, is GO OFFLINE. several times now. people have DEFENDED salem, and told bad actors, to fuck off. WE DO NOT WANT TO HURT HIM. but unfortunately, HE wants to hurt his victims. he, wants nothing more, than to permanently silence his victims, because in his head. he is THE victim, of everything. wis, literally, IS DEFENDING KIWIFARMERS, (torin, mari, and lilya), and simply accusing US, of everything she and salem do.

which. by the way. SALEM HIMSELF, HATES TORIN, and claims, torin GROOMED him. so, why does wis, continue defending her, to this day? if not just as an attempt, to bump the numbers, of sawyers supposed "victims".

so, please. explain to me, how wis ADMITTING this person is a rapist, then defending them anyways, and being racist and abusive to her victim, is in any way, ok. go on. i will wait. again. WIS HERSELF ADMITTED, SHE WAS IN THE WRONG. SALEM HIMSELF ADMITTED, HE WAS IN THE WRONG. THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING. they themselves, are attempting to kill sawyer. they fucking hate them.

wis herself, has even said, she is happy their "body is falling apart", just being ableist as fuck. on top, of being racist, and telling them, "ice is coming for them". is that ok, for a white person, to say that to a latino, EVER?

i doubt, you will actually answer this. but, i implore, you at LEAST look at the evidence given, before making a conclusion. wis, has given no evidence. her victims, have given nothing BUT evidence. why, do you believe word of mouth, over solid proof?

[saveahorserideaneddie]

okay no bc i actually need to see abuela having a meaningful talk with christopher about how shannon wasn’t a good mother and that he’s old enough to know the truth rather than eddie just over-romanticizing the whole thing

christopher does not need to be shamed for being upset at his mom leaving. the whole “she didn’t leave, she died 🥺” argument is just factually untrue when she fully intended to leave again before she had her accident

he does not need to be coddled and told about how hard it was for her when she was actively being just as ableist as ramon and helena. he is 13 years old; if he can make a decision on where he lives, he can hear the truth of how awful his mother was so that maybe he can actually provide sufficient context to the actions his dad has taken

yes, she was very young when christopher was born, and no eddie was not a perfect husband/father in the beginning; but the point is she didn’t even give him a chance to even begin processing his PTSD when he cane back, immediately vilifying him for everything before doing the same exact thing as what… petty revenge? giving him a taste of his own medicine? you’re an adult woman with a son who needed you and you walked out on him because you didn’t want the stress. okay, that’s fine, that’s your choice

but don’t show up once he’s older demanding to see him because “he’s my son too” and then proceeding to shame eddie, the one who HAS been there for him after you left, for something he already has made clear he regrets, and has also atoned for by stepping up and actually taking responsibility rather than shirking them the moment it got ‘too hard’ when his parents would have been more than willing to let him do

and then to try and manipulate him with the whole “he’s my son” “we can be a family again” bullshit as a way to get back into his pants— only to dip as soon as things start to get serious again?

and on top of that, the “she was just a girl” argument doesn’t even hold up because yeah, she WAS just a girl. she’s not just a girl anymore. she’s a grown adult woman shirking her responsibility because she doesn’t want to be a mother. That’s all well and good; she doesn’t have to be a mother. But once you make that decision, don’t go crawling back acting like you weren’t the one to actively decide to leave. You’re an adult, making adult decisions, and you need to handle the adult consequences of those adult decisions.

sorry no one will ever be able to convince me to like shannon and im sick of the writers trying to force rose tinted glasses on her existence bc of tim’s obsession with bringing devin back out of nowhere every two seconds

anyway sorry for the shannon rant i saw thay post i reblogged and it just reminded me how much anger i hold towards her for everything she did and how i hate it when people are like “oh she changed she wanted to try again 🥺” when she quite literally didn’t, as is evident by the way she immediately tried to run away again the moment she had to be an adult.

also there is no way buck would EVER look at the way she treated chris and eddie and then actively be friends with her. friend-ly maybe, civil at best, but he would never look at the lasting hurt she caused those two and actively chose to persue a friendship with her.

anyway getting off my anti-shannon soap box and i just needed to get that off my chest lamo

[heavenpierceher]

just played portal 2 for the first time yes somehow ive never played it before. reposting my thoughts as i played here:

I fucking hate wheatley. Little white cuck ball

As i understand it wheatley turns out to be like Secretly Evil later or whatever but like he’s so blatantly passive aggressive and casually shitty to you that i don’t see how anyone didn’t go okay fuck this guy immediately. Like he’s clearly acting as a sort of arm of aperture itself which constantly bombards you with like jokingly ableist/eugenicist/classist/misogynistic shit

like the juxtaposition of him being a huge asshole because he thinks you have brain damage and the announcer being like ‘ok if you’re old or stupid go back to your Primitive Tribe so we can have Good Subjects for Progress’ is 110% deliberate

also him assuming the person who killed glados was male LMAO

I want glados so bad

Some arasaka tower shit is happening to me

My psionic warriors find me art of chell dribbling and dunking wheatley like a basketball

Glados wants me so bad

my coworker losing his mindddddd 😂 😂 😂

I’m finding these puzzles easier than portal 1 but like in a good way. more intuitive

Also this has almost certainly been said before at length but god valve is so so so good at environmental design

HL is really good too obviously but it really shines in portal where they get to play with contrasts

the really harsh visual contrast between all of portal and the escape stages and the fact that you can see hints of it before it happens. chefs kiss

Single biggest visual improvement: the scary fucked up water that kills you

Yeah I do wish id played this earlier LMAO

glados hums me beautiful songs

I’m imagining that literally none of this is landing for chell like she doesn’t care. and/or glados is just making shit up and so chell also doesn’t care

wheres the dev thing where they were like ‘chell doesn’t talk because she’s just fucking pissed’

She's literally obsessed with me

Genuinely why does anyone like wheatley I'm gonna crush this little shit like a soda can

Guy accuses a woman who has literally never spoken to him or responded to a thing hes said of being bossy

At least the ways in which cave johnson sucks are really funny

i was talking about how wheatley is kind of a stand-in for aperture as an entity and i think cj is a continuation of that. like the above screenshot lines up as being an evolution of cj’s distaste for the ‘lab boys’ and ‘bean counters’; a top-down disdain for the people actually making ‘progress’ possible and keeping things running

me when i have 60 dollars

Valve in particular has a way of making its social commentary so pointed and over the top that its funniness almost but not quite overshadows the point it’s making. In a good way let me be clear

Like it’s so ridiculous you almost forget it’s criticizing/interrogating real phenomena that it’s honestly not depicting that absurdly because everything is very very intentional

i like the idea of chell being like. essentially an ordinary uninvolved person as much as she can be just thematically. glados is petty in the way that humans are petty, she chooses insults that are like… low-hanging fruit because of the environment she was cultivated in, so i think it’s both funnier and more thematically resonant if chell is like. Not even a little bit emotionally affected by glados fucking with her she’s just like Get me out of hereeeeee

A lot of people’s theories about this game seem to rely on glados being truthful which is fucking hilarious

woman who is making shit up to fuck with you: I am making shit up to fuck with you gamers: goly FUCK theory #CONFIRMED?????????????

aw hell no not the aperture science ejaculation gel

Wheatley can you quit jacking off over mic. Genuinely discusses me I hope he explodes

I do not want him to experience pleasure in any form much less as a result of my actions

The fucked up turretcubes are very cute though. Like hermitcrabs

Oh hey it’s the part where he kills me

this is a really good visual gag

Genuinely how does anyone admit to wanting to fuck wheatley how is that not an incredibly embarrassing thing to admit to

how sexist the adventure sphere is was funny and again it is not common for me to say that. valve just knows what they're doing

She’s holding my hand…

Rent free in her fucking head

Rent. Free.

Literally obsessed with me.

I don’t think it’s supposed to do this but it’s on a black screen with no options and has been for like five minutes and i sat there for the entire five minutes like ‘wow this is so poignant…’

Anyway yeah that kicked ass

[ilikekidsshows]

With Adrien now having lost both his parents (and couldn't even bury them), lost his uncle (yes, that counts), and having gone through Emilie's, Gabriel's, and Nathalie's health going south in front of his eyes, I just... I lost a couple of family members in the last 2 years (two very recently) and our home situation was always very... complicated to say the least on top of our family having quite alot of health issues.

I don't know how sympathetic I can stay with Miraculous and Marinette when they will now clearly make light of being an abused and guilt ridden orphan because Marinette is gonna continue crying whenever she feels the slightest discomfort about everything that isn't about her.

If the show has Marinette now complain about her parents bc of some set up drama to Adrien and he'll be given shit for being "unsupportive" because he tells her that her parents aren't the worst and instead she should talk to them (which was her (awful) advice to him in Risk but it's correct here). I just don't know how I can watch that without going off. No way is Marinette gonna be respectful about Adrien being an orphan the second her parents aren't perfect. She probably won't even remember or simply be dismissive the way she always is when something opposes her opinion.

Marinette is never written to be truly respectful to any kind abuse in the show besides her own and bully victims. She's even written to be a solid bit ableist because once it's not Marinette's problem it ain't real and people "need to be put in place". Marinette not being a raging dick doesn't mean she's respectful. I noticed that her dialogue very rarely actually empathizes with the victims. She just tells them they can try again and change their feelings and situations to what she decided is the correct way to be and think. Marinette doesn't truly help people, she tells them how to best suit herself so they can then help her after they corrected their existence to her liking. That's literally all Marinette did to Shadybug omfg. I hate it here.

If Lila causes trouble in Marinette's family, no way will Marinette be tolerant of Adrien's situation. And I don't know if I can watch that.

And I don't think this is me being too sensitive at all. Just like there are abused children who are constantly getting shit on by Marinette's story, orphans very obviously exist. But Marinette isn't an orphan so now there is a new group of children who need to "learn their lesson" that their problems aren't real because Marinette is upsette.

Sorry for being pessimistic, but it makes me so unbelievably angry that Miraculous has turned into nothing but a kids show that's just for the pretty and privilege Girls who were bullied (or maybe not even that) and now want a power fantasy that validates all their worst emotional cravings of revenge on literally everyone else's expense because SOMETHING didn't went their way and now that's the worst thing ever.

I hate that Miraculous became a show that I don't want children to watch because of how awful the Marinette centric morality is. Every bad message possible is send to children as long as it validates Marinette and her kinnies and it's a prime example of the type of privileged western feminism that gives feminism such a bad name. So forgive me for not believing that Marinette will suddenly be written differently the moment Lila has her parents disagree with her about something (like wanting her to take over the bakery) and Marinette will inevitably be written to stomp her foot, scream, cry, and throw up about how abused, oppressed, and unprivileged she is until she entirely gets her way.

No I don't think Marinette will be understanding of Adrien in that case. She will start crying and pouting about not being validated and Adrien taking her parents side, and say that Adrien's experiences don't count and he just "doesn't get it" until he agrees that his way worse experience isn't worth anything (the way she always makes him as Cat Noir believe taht his feelings, perspective and experiences aren't real. He just "doesn't get" how correct and benevolent she is, until he gives in and accepts that he's irrelevant and worthy of abuse the way she likes it apparently. Or the class not being allowed to have their own opinions on Chloe because Marinette thinks their experiences of being bullied by Chloe aren't "valid" enough to make a judgement call whenever it doesn't validate her, only SHE can have the right opinion)

When has Marinette ever been written to actually respect other victims? The most she does is stop being a dick about it and instead "kindly" wait for the victims to understand taht they are wrong and she's right. They don't have real problems, only HER, so its HER who needs all the effort and support. The others just need to stop and get over it.

I've yet to see anything in Miraculous that gives me a real reason to believe Marinette is not gonna be a shit girlfriend now the moment she isn't getting whatever she wants and Adrien isn't 24/7 validating her. Marinette has become such a privileged character who walks over all kinds of victims but would never take accountability for it because "it's not her fault" and "her feelings are valid, everyone is just so awful and mean to her!"

I pitty every child growing up with Miraculous who doesn't have the privilege of being a Marinette. And now they are gonna drag orphans into that too...

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They don’t even need to give Marinette family problems to make her be insensitive to Adrien, in my opinion. Her most minor grievances are the most important problem for her, no matter what anyone else has going on. Adrien could be going to his father's funeral and Marinette would stalk him there unless he invites her along like it’s a date and she would treat the situation like she was the one facing the hardship of Adrien not inviting her everywhere he goes.

Marinette has been treating Adrien’s worries as unimportant since day one. Adrien being locked up was only bad because he couldn’t come to the trick dates Marinette tried to set up. Adrien has a “perfect life” because he’s rich and famous, because nothing else about his life has worked out for him in any way. But Marinette will only acknowledge something is wrong when he’s being forced to hang out with girls who aren’t Marinette herself, meaning it’s once again about her and how her dream boy/boyfriend is being pushed off on other girls when he should be with her.

So, yeah, I totally don't see the writers allowing Adrien to grieve his parents for more than a second. I can just see it, Adrien with a photo of the family he no longer has, and we instantly cut to Marinette whining about how Adrien has been so distant with her and the fandom instantly cries: "How dare Adrien grieve his supervillain dad (that he doesn't know was a supervillain)! He should be with Marinette because she's upsette!"

[simptasia]

Sooo, I saw that you hc Jack from Lost as autistic and I do too and I love that hc and I would like to know more about it???

Also you look super chill, love your vibe

Yes, I'm so chill that I let this message sit for a damn month.

Sorry about that. And thank you!

Jack is honestly one of my favourite autistic headcanons. It started because I found him weirdly relatable in terms of emotional stability and social... something.

I find going into LOST with the idea that he's autistic really improves the character and makes him more understandable, really. I also find it adds a layer of nastiness to Christian's character, adding ableism too.

I think Jack is a case of an autistic person squeezed into a neurotypical mold and he can't handle it.

Jack is socially inept. His bed side manner is blunt and matter of fact. He's easily overwhelmed. Man, I always find it hard to point to Jack Is Autistic moments because it's just... there, ya know?

Interestingly, he isn't an introvert at all. Jack is decently sociable. Jack doesn't know how to flirt, women just sorta happen to him. Same with friends, really. Because Jack is pretty much the main character, we see him on mostly agreeable terms with most characters. He's certainly the one with the most connections, due to screen time. This has nothing to do with autism, actually, I just found that interesting, that he isn't really withdrawn. He just has no rizz.

I'll list a few moments that stick out to me but yeah, he just gives off an autistic vibe to me over all. i'm paraphrasing:

"why didn't you let me know you had a plan" "i gave you... the wink"

"you're angry" "what makes you think that" "you're frowning"

after staring at kate's ass and she's like "what were you thinking about" he launches into diatribe about how great living in the caves would be, in a way that suggests he was thinking about that too

[sawyer confesses he had sex with ana lucia] "why are you telling me this??"

"you have to give them hope, son" "it's FALSE hope, dad!"

on the verge of tears over every frustrating thing (mood)

i'll take him enjoying oatmeal as a beige food moment

And overall he is a surprisingly awkward and dorky fella, in an endearingly bland way. There's more little moments, I'm sure, but this is just off the top of my head.

Note that autistic people aren't allowed to enter the medical field (still, to this day) so there's no way Jack is diagnosed, and I imagine Christian and Margo know but he doesn't. There are certainly plenty of autistic people in the medical system (like my Mum was), they're just undiagnosed. [seethes] Anyways. Obviously, I'm sure Christian couldn't tolerate his boy, his son, his legacy being Defective, so that adds to the emotional abuse Jack suffered.

I swear to you, doctors tend to be the most ableist people of all.

Personally, I think the way Jack is, makes him a better doctor. He's stated in universe to be an amazing doctor, and I'll believe the show on that one, because I like Jack. And I agree with him, lying to your patients is fucked! He's just treating him like people.

Anyways Jack is autistic because uhhh, I feel it.