#and thot id share (:

[rowarn]

Thank you for standing up for people who write/read dark fics. I personally read CNC because it helps me work through my traumas. Some people don’t realize it becomes a coping mechanism, and it’s honestly a really shitty feeling seeing so many people kink shame and the like on here :/

mwah, i'm always on ur side babie !! i just don't think fiction is that serious at the end of the day. the dark genre has always existed and i truly believe anyone should be allowed to express themselves as they please. writing is a perfectly normal and fine outlet for coping.

when i was a child i was in an abusive household and i actually started writing because i discovered it felt really good to write all these dark thoughts down into a fantasy universe that i could curate and control. i used to have notebooks filled with it, im talkin like i was 10, 11, 12 years old writing it. and as i got older i brought it up to a therapist i had been seeing and i said like hey ive got these notebooks and i write some pretty fucked up dark shit in them is that like ??? normal??? why do i like doing that??? and she told me that exploring trauma thru fiction is a great outlet, it's in a controlled, safe format and no one is getting hurt. if it makes you feel good and helps you work through your emotions and your feelings and makes things feel less bad then that's all that matters. she wasn't in any way going to dissuade me from using these topics as 'fantasy' because it was good for me!!!

and i stand by that, i truly believe that if darkfic helps you feel better and you enjoy it and it doesn't harm you...then do it. don't listen to people who have no idea what your experiences are, how you feel, or what you need. only you can dictate that, not people who just think it's "icky" or that you need to be "fixed" because you're a "degenerate/freak" because it's not true. you're just human, working thru things in a human way!!! i discovered darkfic completely on my own 0 internet 0 books i just opened a notebook and started writing and i filled NUMEROUS notebooks with it (i'm pretty sure i still have them LMAO) !!! all on my own as a child!!! and i'm in my 20s now and i can confidently say i have not been harmed by my own coping.

so !!!! i am always on ur side, my love. even if others aren't, i know you're just doing the best you can and coping in a perfect fine, normal way!! <3 MWAH

[eldritchqueerture]

psychological fun fact: if you praise someone for an achievement or a finished task, refer to the effort they put in instead of to the traits of them as a person. meaning instead of saying "wow, you're so smart", say "wow, you must have worked hard"

this is especially important with kids because it influences how they stay motivated. if they receive praise for their efforts they're more eager to try and make errors on their way to learning while kids who are told they are smart assume that making errors and needing to put in more effort could mean they aren't as smart as they were told. so they react with fear and perform worse overall

[starlightxsvt]

Just wrote the first seggs scene of Bloodily Safe and psycho Wonwoo is so hawt 🫦🤧

[nuntears]

i just want to let you know that your "day 5: cannibalism" fic with fox from tpof changed me as a person i think about that fic literally like once a week since i first read it like 6 months ago it is so good

this makes me so happy to hear cry sob cry i get giddy hearing ppl say they think of my fics even once after reading them but once a week ???? i need to be put down like a horse omg

[maroonsweetpea]

Yeah, I knew it was wrong all along.

I seem to have problems 

Choosing alarm

Over pleasurable thoughts

Of which wires get crossed

I'm exactly what my mother

Wish she would've lost.

Deem me many labels

I'll find myself unable

To agree

Perhaps Im contrary in nature

But, still correct.

And critiques favor delusion

Tastefully sang

I gave up the needle cause it

Didn't prove me evil

And I find myself confused

Amongst the shame.

Bring back my youth when

I didn't see the truth in

Whatever bloody thought was sent my way.

In times past I have been

Feeble, weak, and too loud speaking 

Careful not to mix the hearing

Crowd who walked paths 

That those others may cross.

Gave up one half of my gossipy nature

When I gave up spirits too…

I reach for Christ and he don't answer

But I keep close the angels my grandmother prayed for and

Remain lucky through and through.

Big headed special creature,

My soul demands

The touch of nature

I fear I'll never reach again.

Freedom has a greenish pasture 

Away from peers and chatter

Away from money, men, and needless flattery.

And, truthfully, I knew it was wrong all along.

I seem to have problems 

Choosing alarm

Over pleasurable thoughts

Of which wires get crossed

Making me even at my brightest

Exactly what my mother

Wish she would've lost

[joltionizagamrr]

DMMD - Koujaku Route

My thots :)

To begin:

Character Design and first impressions: I LOVE Koujaku's character design- he's HOT. He's honestly so my type- a perfect blend of pretty and strongly masculine. His reputation as a ladykiller makes sense- honestly, his swag was so strong, it made me wonder if DMMD was made by a woman, lol. The game wrote him perfectly I feel like- he defintiley gave that strong impression of his authority as a gang leader, while also showcasing that side of him that is vulnerable and careful in his personal life. It was a very realistic portrayal of what he was meant to be.

First impression in hindsight to Aoba's POV: At first, I didn't understand why Aoba was honestly so weird about being around Koujaku. The fact that he would try to skeddadle at the sight of him, or would be so STRESSED having to talk to him-- I thought that might have been weirdly uncharacteristic. However, I couldn't be further from wrong. Aoba's reactions weren't THAT extreme, and were honestly kind of relateable (which is why I love aoba as a character so much) given the circumstances. This is his childhood best friend we're talking about- someone he shared a CLOSE tie to his whole childhood, he lost contact from him for a time period, and dude comes back to be a total hottie with the ladies AND a gang leader. Like, I wouldn't know how to act around him either LOL. I feel like sometimes when you have an extensive history with someone, relearning how to be around them after you have both changed is SO weird. It's not that Aoba didn't like him or hated him all of a sudden, he just needed a push to not resist that change. Obviously spending more time with each other, when choosing Koujaku's route, will easily help. Also, if you notice, Aoba mainly feels so resistant when Koujaku is out in public, around the ladies-- this is just an awkward situation for anyone.

Koujaku route scenes:

His scenes are SO realistic and honestly wholesome. He has a very positive bearing on his attitude, and playing his route realistically feels like someone id date.....except for *that* scene lol. The one problematic scene in the main storyline was a bit shocking for me, considering it wasn't even a bad ending or anything like that. It's kinda wild how aoba just KEEPS IT MOVIN after experiencing the most traumatic things in his entire life LOL. The way they wrapped up that scene and bounced back from it was well enough for me, considering I love everything else about his route :3

Character design:

Koujaku was one of the characters that strongly catched my eye, which got me interested in the DMMD series in the first place. He's very attractive, and i'm also biased because I like dark hair and tattoos lol. The way he smiles too is attractive as well- I love a fun upbeat type character!

Is he my FAV OTP?

NO! He's soooo close tho. Ideally, I want him, aoba, and ren to be in a threeway relationship ;w;!

[merakiui]

Where are you in Penacony? Id love to share my Sunday thots but don’t want to spoil anything for you

I’m currently at the part in which Firefly and the Astral Express (minus Welt) are confronted by Sunday, and he goes through three pivotal moments in his life in which he had to make a choice. And then he quizzes the group on what they’d do if they were faced with the same dilemma.

Thank you very much for your consideration in regards to spoilers. (*´꒳`*)❤︎ there’s so much I want to write for Mr. Sunday, but I hope to first finish Penacony before outlining any stories. Although my first Sunday fic will likely be guardian angel!Sunday or a Sunday in captivity…….. so much is cooking for that chicken wing guy. <3

[skincareroutine]

btw, as a jew, this idea that nothing should be compared to the holocaust harms us, too. ur right to be mad.

it is anti-solidarity and obscures the shared forces, tactics, and realities of why we’ve all been targeted by white supremacy across history (in different ways).

this “no comparison” push comes from a shitty side of jewish studies + politics, steered by really nasty and well-funded reform insitutions / “experts” who mostly seek to spin antisemitism as a unique evil unparalleled by any other thing and (often) use that to uplift zionism.

antisemitism should be taken seriously, but their work clouds our historical understanding and is sooooo horribly racist, beyond bad for normal jews. thanks for reading all that! just thot id share a perspective<3

you're very right and thank u for sharing yr perspective it makes my blood boil less cus of how many white ppl (jewish n non-jewish) were mad at her for saying that when they took it out of context and then to say lets not compare but then to go on comparing ugh. you wrote this out very well and that's just not something i can do when ppl push my buttons like idk how ppl dont clock how dehumanizing it is to mention the slave trade as an offhand remark when it changed the ENTIRE WORLDS ECONOMY.

[eldritchmochi]

I am re reading coping skills and just needed to say thankyou for the food once again because omfg my lil cane user heart is so full, I cant stop imagining the rest of the nein meeting coping!essek and like how they all react to him both in kink and outside, and like how they react to caleb having a partner, many brainworms. Thanks for writing and sharing!!

okay listen, i am *also* excited for the rest of the nein to meet essek in coping skills. its going to be a ton of fun even if i really hate writing things with the full ensemble cast 🥲🥲

a lil teaser of THOTS on how it's gonna go for ur lov and patience:

- jester: absolutely decides shes esseks new bff (shes not wrong). does in fact offer to peg essek, but not the first time they meet she has manners caleb!! (its the second time they meet, and even tho essek expects it he still chokes on his spit and how forward she is). shes also incredibly nosey about esseks health, given she is in the medical field directly herself, which essek both hates and finds refreshing (its so much easier to explain his health to someone who has the bg knowledge)

- veth: immediately shovel talks essek, then basically adopts him when essek gets all prim and proper and politely mean "id like to see you try" and veth is like okay youve got teeth you can protect my boy too im counting on you heres a toddler (luc is delighted by esseks ability to make things float and essek is delighted by the fond looks he gets from caleb over veths shoulder)

- fjord: dubious at first but warms up to essek when essek relaxes enough to join razzing caleb. definitely warns essek about the impending pegging offer from jester, promises to distract her if shes overwhelming

- caduceus: is the one to spot essek flagging at the neins holiday party, sits with essek as caleb is distracted catching up with the rest of his friends as quiet company "its good to see him happy"

[popcornfairy28]

Writing patterns ✨

rules: share the first line of your last ten published works or as many as you are able and see if there are any patterns!

Tagged by @ligercat, thanks for that! I will also be doing the last line, but a few of these are still ongoing fics so I've just got the current last line lol.

50 Ways to Not Die

First line: Arthur was dead.

Last line *(so far): Well, that went easier than expected. Now just to reveal his magic.

Best Secret Keeper Ever

First line:

(Happy Birthday, Isabella)

Unknown number

hi Stacy, it's me, P the #[ ]"> just thot Id text & see if u had any ?s about what happened

Last line:

Stacy

I guess since Vanessa figured out the accounting error, MM no longer knows the meaning of a budget?

Never Really Fit In

First line: Ealdor was a small, simple farming village nestled along the border of the kingdoms of Camelot and Essetir, where life was interminably consistent. Even when going through tumultuous times, it was predictable.

Last line: They left again after a couple days. The village had well grown accustomed to it. Some people never really fit in, after all.

***This is where I'm skipping over The Crystal of Neahtid because it's first line is from 2020 lol and I'm taking last ten to mean most recent, which this is not I just happened to update it this summer (I say that while being pretty sure that the previous fic's first line was also written in like 2020 😂)***

Perry the Teenage Spy: Extra Scenes

First line: SLAM!

Last line *(so far cuz ho boy this is by no means gonna be the last line lol): Well, Candace better not go into nursing. Limping from the bandage being wrapped so tightly, he hobbled over to the nearest lair entrance and struggled into it. Time to do it properly .

Lightsaber Golf

First line: Perry really should have seen this coming, after he'd started taking Phineas and Ferb to Ben Kenobi's for weekly "Jedi" lessons. He knew they wouldn't quite understand the gravity of the situation, and while they would take it seriously, they were still very young at 7 years of age and utterly innocent. They actually liked living on Tatooine, and nobody liked that! Well, at least nobody that Perry hung around.

Last line: “Oh, yeah, right,” Stacy said sheepishly. They walked back to where their siblings and their friends were waiting and continued playing, but Perry stayed alert. It would only take one slip-up, and Perry wouldn’t be able to make good on his promise should Candace ever return.

The Chesterton Challenge Prompts

First line: It was the anniversary since the old king and queen of Vesulia had both tragically passed, several years ago, and their children Queen Bridgette, Prince Aden, and Princess Sasha had a tradition to remember their parents. It wasn't a sad tradition, as they didn't want to remember their parents only in their grief, but instead it was a light-hearted one.

Last line *(so far): “Not the kind you're supposed to brag about, apparently,” Sasha laughed at her brother. He scowled back at her. 

Playing Dead

First line: "Okay, so what are we doing?" Stacy asked after Candace dragged her to the living room, where Perry looked like he was trying to take a nap. He must have been tired after his mission. It was sort of hard to reconcile that this adorable napping creature was a butt-kicking sentient secret agent.

Last line: There was her answer.

OWCA's Fools

First line: On April 1st, Perry spied his team loitering about in a random center at HQ, so naturally he had to investigate.

Last line: There was a reason he usually stayed away from HQ, especially on April Fools’.

Baby Brother

First line: On February 29, 2000, it was an overcast day in London, England, and nearly 7 year-old Perry Fletcher was waiting anxiously in his Grandpa and Grandma Fletcher’s cottage. His parents had left him there as his mother was in labor with his baby brother, which was exactly why he was waiting anxiously. He was pretty sure that Grandpa and Grandma were also anxious, but perhaps they were better at masking it. 

Last line: “I think we should call him Ferb.”

The Princess and the Pulverized Pea

First line: Once upon a time there was a princess who had been traveling all over the world, searching for a prince who she could love. She'd met plenty of lovely princes, but none that she could truly love. There was always something about them that was not as it should be.

Last line: Over the next few days, the prince and princess grew rather close as they waited for her company to find her. When she left to return to her kingdom, they started writing letters to each other everyday. Always believing she was a real princess, the prince would eventually take her as his wife, and when they became the king and queen, they swore never to place peas in their guests’ beds.

I guess the common link is that most of the time I like to have boringly informative openers 🤣. And by that I mean I don't usually have dialogue in my openers or endings (with the obvious exception of chat-fics). Idk, you tell me what you feel like the common link is.

6 of them are Phineas and Ferb, 2 are BBC Merlin, one's a fairytale retelling, and one is original work (all on AO3!).

Thanks again for tagging me! Actually kinda encouraging to post this lol, reminding me that I have indeed published things this year haha!

Open tags I guess!

[theropoda]

No one cares but ive always thought of the postal 1 ending (the orignal) to be about what happens when your reality is shattered and shaken. theres a lot of ways to interpret what happens there but to me it feels a bit more metaphorical. under cut cuz this got kinda long Also Feel Free 2 Share Ur Thots As Always

he shows up to a school and decides to do his final task but as we know it doesnt....quite happen. he's shooting every weapon he fucking has at his disposal but those children are fine. they're fine and just unaffected....the disconnect between your actions and what you believe youre doing and what actually happens and what actually is...that's the biggest takeaway from me/what stands out the most tbh. all this time on this journey he's held this strong belief of everyone and everything out to get him but now he's faced with the complete opposite imagery which is children frolicking not giving two shits abt him. they dont gaf!!!!!!!!! he's convinced he's living in a world gone mad but these kids are FINE they dont seem perturbed at all... and it all just sinks in that yeah everything is fine. there were no lunatics there were no madmen Out 2 Get Him ...... the only thing thats gone mad is him

ive seen some people put more focus on the the guilt and horror of what p1's done and realizing HES the monster and stuff which is obviously a big part of it but i guess my takeaway and the taste left in my mouth has always been how quickly your world can just be turned upside down.....how everything you believe in can turn out to be just a lie.....realizing you were wrong...thats horrifying

i feel really ill today so maybe im not being super coherent. maybe i iwill cohere more later. postal 1 has been on me mind a lot recently so its def not the last ull be hearing of it and its ending and so on. why he went postal is a big convo in & of itself innit id love to talk about that

[bobardo]

gentle reminder that requests are open

i’d love it if u guys would share ur thots w me id feel less isolated insane 😁

[taegularities]

im a little late to the 3d discourse but id like to share my opinion on it

i personally liked it, the beat and the lyrics were great, the song is catchy and it gives justin timberlake vibes which i love. i love how jk is exploring himself as an artist and is comfortable showing different sides of him. i read the message of another anon saying that he'd been infantilized and sexualized for the majority of his career, and he's finally taking back the power and creating his own image rather than conforming to whatever box fans or the public want to trap him in. i think that's very empowering and i'm very proud of him for this.

what i had a problem with was jack harlows's verse. not only his part disrupted the flow of the song, the lyrics were also terrible and misogynistic. it's 2023, you can write a verse without degrading women, calling them thots, bashing on monogamy and lining up girls in the music video as if they were dolls to play with. if your artistry depends on all this, then you're not a great artist you're just a fucking misogynist (yes i'm insulting him as an artist, i don't care for his fans, yall can do better). it still surprises me how hybe let this pass this easily, the lyrics of jack's part could've been regulated a bit more. misogynistic lines aside, his rap and flow wasn't that great, he seemed bored and not trying hard enough for the song, and he didn't fit the vibe of the song. I agree that the song needed a rap verse to make it complete, but it could've been any other artist or the lyrics could've been less disgusting. some ppl might say i'm being sensitive or can't handle explicit stuff- there's a difference between singing explicitly and downright degrading women in a song. you can sing about sex and all that without objectifying women (take a look at seven, it was much more explicit and direct and it was very fun and respectful). even jk's parts in 3d were fun and respectful, so jack's part doesn't fit that vibe at all. even the music video was great, everyone's dancing and having fun, until jack's part came and they started lining up girls like toys.

yes everyone has the right to their own opinion, but we should use some critical thinking and basic empathy when it comes to matters like misogyny (which is a huge problem hello, we live in a patriarchy that's been stepping on women's necks since forever). whoever liked jack's part or that type of music in general, great i hope you enjoy the song, however i hope yall also reflect on it, bc subconsciously this type of media affects ppls thoughts and beliefs, and it feeds misogyny and even internalized misogyny. its 2023, we can do better than this, there's plenty of other artists and songs about sex and intimacy and fun times that don't contain misogynistic ideas (you can start with any women artists and go from there). now that i got this out of my chest, i'm gonna pretend the original version doesn't exist and continue listening to the alternate version without jack's part.

p.s. this comment wasn't directed to you or any specific person, just talking in general <3

nothing to add bc you honestly said it all, and i couldn't agree more 👍🏻

[onenicebugperday]

@bgs-cave-o-thots submitted: Hi! This isn't an ID request, I just wanted to talk about a bug phenomenon that happens near where I live. I remember being shocked when I was younger and learned that this doesn't happen everywhere, and I think that's what gave me a fascination for these bugs instead of only seeing them as a nuisance.

I've no clue what the scientific name is, but I see them called the Klamath Midge after where they're primarily found (Klamath County, Oregon). They're small, bright green, non-biting midges, and when they're in season they make dense swarms that can be the size of city blocks. People have to sweep them off windowsills and porches every morning or they'll pile up, because they only live for I think a couple days. Unfortunately I don't have any pictures of my own to demonstrate the sheer amount of the lil guys there are, but if you google "klamath midge" there's plenty of images that give you an idea.

I also have a question about these midges that I was wondering if you or your followers might be able to answer. I've lived with these things coming out every year for most of my life but no one I've ever asked knew the answer for sure: what do these guys eat? Or do they even eat as adults at all??

Hello! Klamath midges are non-biting midges in the genus Chironomus. Sounds like utahensis is the exact species. Midge larvae are aquatic and feed on algae and other organic detritus. The adults were once thought not to eat at all, but apparently newer research says they feed sparingly on things like nectar, pollen, and honeydew. But you're right, they only live a couple of days! Just long enough to mate.

I couldn't find any creative commons photos of the swarms to share, but I do think it's worth googling for those who are curious! That's a lot of bugs.

[bunbunbillion]

not sure if i already did this before here, but consider this a formal introduction to the transfer of my twitter media thread to tumblr. and im starting it with a really special one!!!

Tonight............. i finished Super Lesbian Animal RPG by Bobby Schroeder (@ponett / @slarpg) with my friends. I shared the experience with two who had played the game already, and another who was as blind as me.

i will say without going into at all, but if you are a gay furry (especially trans) and love stuff like sonic, or MLP:FiM, or just gay fantasy in general, go play this game. It's REALLY GOOD! going in blind was a treat. That being said, here's my thots.................. theres a LOT!!!!!

i didn't actually find out about SLARPG until i began reading the sonic archie comics a year or so back. i needed a reading order and by GOD did I find one. not to start this post about slarpg with a ramble about sonic archie, but it was genuinely such a great read, and all the stuff on Thanks, Ken Penders ( @thankskenpenders ), made it all the more enjoyable! that ASIDE it's also how i saw the author of the blog, who i realized i was following already for awhile, was making her own game! and one so shamelessly gay and furry as well! i was INSTANTLY interested...

after the game came out, it took me awhile to get around to it. it wasn't until someone very close to me got really into it that i decided i'd commit the time. it took 20 hours of gay activity, but i started it having silly fun voice acting a bunch of animals with my friends, and ended with tears in my eyes and love in my heart.

the game is written in a way that just gels perfectly with me. everything is both very casual feeling, but also genuine. it's never really ashamed of what it is, and that's all i can ask for from a game with a name like Super Lesbian Animal RPG.

The characters are easily the highlight of the game, never once feeling like simple cutouts or stereotypes. Everyone is just a delight to read. My favorites were easily Melody, Allison, and the man himself Javis. Being a gay ADHD filled bunny with a love for hitting things with sticks and hammers, Allison especially spoke to me.

The world of SLARPG is only seen through a small vertical slice, with the vastness left to your mind, which works very well in its favor. Slowly as you explore the areas your presented, you learn more and more about the world just through your own intuition. Discover the races that live on the planet, where the characters all came from to get here, the power structures put into place, how magic has effected such a modernized world. It makes you want to learn so much more, really. I found myself really interested in the vague lore we get of the supposed Gods that make up the powers of the world, which I hope can be further expanded on one day.

As a Video Game(tm), id say it does exactly what it sets out to do. I'm an RPG Girl, i love Figuring Shit Out in them. I play them headfirst and love to make strategies for silly bosses especially. SLARPG is a RPGM VX Ace game that doesn't exactly do anything CRAZY, as much as it does use its platform incredibly well. It is a SOLID RPG, it sets out to have a concise and simple battle system, with a lot of fun tools to play with. Even if I recognize all the scripts being used, how they get used always felt great. There were very few slipups in the way the game was put together when i played too, which as an RPGM dev, is always impressive to see. I think my only point of contention while playing was the random encounters getting a bit monotonous near the final stretch of the game, and the bosses being a bit too easy for my liking, but otherwise, mwah great rpg!!

one of the BIGGEST highlights, outside of the writing, is the amazing art, and i really mean it!! EVERY character has an amazingly cute character portrait, and every single sprite is so full of life! the backgrounds/tilesets tend to take the cake though, some of the best I've seen in a game like this personally. The dungeons are incredibly visually striking, and every single character design sticks in my head as memorable. MAJOR props to Javis and all his boys too. god bless those freaks.

and finally, i can talk about the writing in specific. it is... special. and i mean that in the best way i can. the story is pretty simple. Melody Amaranth and her girlfriend Allison Goleta join their friends guild to go on adventures, and are granted magic by their mage using a forbidden ritual. From there, hijinks ensue, involving a sociopathic VHS headed cipher-like individual, the worlds most jerkish butch, and a proclaimed Goddess of Magic coming for YOU!!! Despite all that though, the story to me felt focused much more on the relationship between the protagonists. Especially Melody and Allison.

I'm not sure how much I could go into specifics from memory alone, but it is... really good, what they do with the two main girls. Exploring the ways relationships blossom and mend. It's never all drama, nor is it all flowers. It's very real feeling. I connected to it a lot, in ways I never thought I could. Recently, I've been re-exploring my sexuality, what I want in romance, if I can even FEEL romance. This game helped a lot. It helped me be a lot more honest about my feelings, and let myself open up a lot more.

It wasn't just Melody and Allison either, there's multiple other great relationships in the games story. They're ALL adorable, and ALL amazingly written. We see a perfect mix of childhood love, new love, and trained love, each one shown with both strain, and triumph. As a girl who longingly read countless yuri manga and scoured plenty of garbage yuri anime as a kid desperately looking for something I could see myself in... and then this game comes along not only with that amazing representation, but two of the main characters are like VOCALLY transgender!! they don't play around SHTI!! This game is like a cup of cold, refreshing, root beer. god BLESS!!!!!

im about done rambling now though. if you got this far reading and still havent played slarp, WHATRE U WAITING FOR!!! GO KISS SOME GIRLS!!! GOD BLESS!!!!!!!

ADDENDUM: THE MUSIC FUCKS HARD AND CRAZY STYLE I ALMOST FORGOT EVEN AS THE TUNES PLAY IN MY HEAD!! THIS SHIT IS SOME REAL VGM CLASSICS OF ALL TIME