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beansnpeets · 3 days ago

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I have been trying to get Echo comfortable with the crate slowly. I have been trying to prepare her for me being away from the house for work during the day eventually. Unfortunately, it's not going well at all, and I am gonna have to just start crating her when I am gone for more than an hour. I can't let her keep destroying stuff. I know she is scared of being in the crate. But this is not gonna work. I do not have the ability to keep doing this slowly. Not when she does things like this. I was only gone for less than 6 hours. And it's not like she's destroying the whole house. She also doesn't do this every time I leave. It seems arbitrary. One time, she even did it when I was gone for 10 minutes, and literally right before I had left, we had gone for a run. And it's always small, inexpensive things. But the muzzle was the last straw. That's a major inconvenience for me now.

#barkin up some trees #i feel like i cannot go anywhere #like at all #i am basically trapped at home or i have to take my dog with me #and like she is mostly fine when i leave!!!!#sometimes she just picks something small to chew up and leave by the front door #i cant spend evenings with my boyfriend at his house because of thus #*this #and i feel bad because we are ALWAYS at my house #my dogs dictate literally everything #i am going to spend christmas alone for the first time this year because i have no family and my boyfriends family is out of town #so he will be away and i will be here alone because i cant take the dogs along and i have nobody to take care of them for me #i had such an awful fucking day at work today #and this just really isnt what i needed #i cant deal with this properly when i am stressed and upset #i am mad at her rn #i am really mad at her #and she knows it #shes super sensitive to my emotions #i cannot hide it from her #its also hard to hide it when i was already so over my own threshold for the day #i feel so fucking awful today #and boyfriend made a nice supper and we watched a movie and cuddled and it was so nice and i was able to relax #but then the moment i come in the door its all ruined #if it had been something else i wouldnt have been as upset #this sucks

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adriles · 1 year ago

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when we’re done with our overwhelming grief we’ll eat i guess

#book 22 #im verh drunk #hi #greatest hits #not really sure why this one resonated. are u all ok #is everyone just at the shiva #yall need to stop saying you arent gonna eat then in the tags #i love that a lot of you are getting beautiful things out of this #but some of yall need to know i wrote this while incredibly drunk #this isnt meant to be all that deep this is just shitty iliad posting #more comments like this is just judaism. surprise surprise im jewish #but again this isnt about sitting shiva #this is me drunk talking about the last 3 books of the iliad #idk what to tell u man #legendary warrior

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heartorbit · 11 days ago

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make a wish! 🍃

happy 1st anniversary, in stars and time 🤍

#ok hold on #isat #in stars and time #siffrin #isat siffrin #Okay. WAAAAH WAUUUUUGHWAYUUAU T_T.. HAPPY BIRTHDYS IN STARS ANDB TIMEEEE #i need that FAWKING ARTBOOOOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#idk where else to get sappy about it but tmblr tags are probably the best spot i'll get. isat is very dear to me ..#i played it when i was going through a lot of terrible grief and it really hit home for me #and as i still navigate this terrible grief it gives me a reminder that there are people out there feeling just like me #and even peolle who might not understand still care and love and cherish you. and youre loved way beyond what you really know #the art of losing isnt hard to master .. etc etc #also its nice to see a character who cant remember basic shit all the time. my personal siffrinism #siffrin is like the kim dokja of your computer. The ones who know know.#sniffle. thanks isat. thanks dev.

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bluebelledmoon · 7 months ago

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love how the botw fandom went fucking wild when age of calamity came out in 2020. and no one talks about it anymore. don’t you remember HIM?????

and THEM??.

and all of THIS????

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idolomantises · 7 months ago

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I'm ngl i kinda wish people wouldn't look at a character I create, see that they're mean, and then immediately assume by default they're actually super tragic and a sad woobie. And I'm not even saying this to be like "people need to appreciate 2-dimensional villains!" because I don't agree with those people either.

It's like if a character is a jerk, it either needs to be justified with a sad backstory, or they need to be a saturday morning cartoon villain. it can't just be a part of their personality.

#txt #like the amount of people who seem to think scylla is going to be revealed as this poor battered puppy who needs love is... a Lot #there's not much to really indicate it. its just expected for some reason.#and to be clear i do really enjoy both interpretations (if handled well).#i definitely think powers fits the former and luvart fits the latter.#but we gotta accept that sometimes a jerk character is just. a jerk. they may have their own reasonings for it. but it doesnt need to be #tragic or unfounded. sometimes people are assholes for cultural reasons or different views. whats cruel to us isnt cruel to them. etc

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eggsploded · 11 months ago

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i never posted this lol

#i wish we got just a little more time before kanaya met rose like she needed to go on a quest for love a soulsearch #not for any deep character fleshing out reasons but because it would be funnie #laying down the schmooves on rose Hey Girl “What?” Um #egg art #homestuck #kanaya maryam #sollux captor #karkat vantas #kanayas isnt really about. the abstract beauty and nuances with courting #but thats ok her peculiar woman swag will carry her to marriage in the future

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medicalunprofessional · 7 months ago

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never change, man !

#phantom of the paradise #potp #swan potp #nightmaretheater #65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp #Look into my beautiful mind boy #Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw #but i had to push a specific look for this piece #hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look #Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan #I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That #as awful as he is he desperately needed help #it might seem like vanity on the surface #but i think its… more than that #long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry #It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again #i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems #he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away #anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal #sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick #i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad #*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha #sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please #adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse #to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like #the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this #sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol

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teshiee · 1 month ago

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the !! them!!! and random serpentine that arent any existing one particular

#ninjago shipping #ninjago cole #ninjago geo #ninjago dragons rising #geodeshipping #lostshipping #i forgot what their other ship name is #need to stare at a pic of their kids because it feels so incomplete drawing just these two without them AGHH #these two look so good together and they are so. so shoujo #yk i wanna brainstorm about geo. he was in the lost realm because literally none of his fellow munce wanted him right #just cuz hes the colour of a geckle #sighh...but we didnt see him in master of the mountain so he was probably already in the lost realm by then!! amd then theres #bonzle and the kids #the kids i cant really assume how long theyve been there...probably post-merge cuz theyre well. kids...unless there are some really #neglectful parents in ninjago...which yk what isnt totally impossible #bonzle had been travelling around realms for a bit so i feel shes definitely been around the longest butttt...aggh idk its 6 am man #i find it a little funny cole ended up in the lost realm ppst-merge because he was quite literally forgotten once T.T destiny!!#teshfarts

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deoidesign · 3 months ago

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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!

Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!

Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.

I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!

#im so frustrated that banner has been gone #and people think the comic is over because of that #which is reasonable to think #but it... idk #its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long #let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated #every day there is something new with them its so exhausting #this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration #i feel like they're not just being unhelpful #at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books #i can't make my links too big so no one can find me #people dont even know i have a patreon #i can't make any announcements on the comic #and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized #and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest #and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job #and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done #cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them #I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj #i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out #text post #update

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aroaceleovaldez · 4 months ago

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i think the thing i'm most disappointed about with riordanverse fandom now versus like 2014 is not only has the fandom not gotten any less racist or queerphobic or ableist (in fact in some regards its gotten worse!) but now it's just boring too. like there's no fandom infrastructure anymore - the community these days is almost entirely source material-driven - and you deviate from canon even slightly people get weird about it. whatever happened to the post-HoO fanon boom. the fandom needs to get weirder again. and self-sufficient. and less offensive.

#pjo #riordanverse #deep and weary sigh. we need to bring back the lower ecosystem rings of fandom #prop up some good ol' community spaces especially since a lot of old ones have totally petered out #< mostly referring to stuff like ye olde ship headcanons blogs #heck even doing a quick search for ''pjo headcanons'' the most recent blog was last active in 2017 and the other two in 2013 #there's an rp community floating around but im keeping tabs on the riordanverse askblog community and its a bit dire #there's been like what - *one?* maybe two major fandom aus that have floated around recently?#one moreso being one person's au that most people dont actually do much with #and the other more being like a half-hearted general concept that got kicked around for a couple of weeks #i am legitimately tempted to just go wild and start planning out and setting up like a hub for trying to revitalize the community #like the community EXISTS. it's THERE. it ebbs and flows! but now it only really does much when there's new official content #and it rarely exists outside of that #and given we are technically in a fandom boom right now with the show now is like. the perfect opportunity to set up fandom infrastructure #so that new fans have a place to go and integrate with the community and start pumping new life back into things #also i think the fandom becoming more self-sufficient could help with the offensive part since Rick sure isnt helping

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skunkes · 6 months ago

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reposting some old doodles i still enjoy a bit

#a doodley #guys im having realizations i dont really know what to do with #ive said this tons before but my main issue with art rn is like #i Know anatomy. and what it's Meant to look like. my issue is straying away from Correct and going with Good like how some of my stuff was #before i really started learning. loose and not restricted #but my obstacle is that nobody draws the way i want to draw. and im bad at coming up with my own stuff...i need to copy and osmose off #someone else. well. it turns out there is someone who draws the way i draw. and its cheye of the past.#dont get me wrong if i look thru the rest of the art in the (year) folder these came from; 80% of it sucks #i wish i cld have what past cheye had but with current cheye tweaks and refinement #but idk how to do that. something weird has happened to my mind i really cant envision and make art the same way anymore #idk how he did it back then....i wish i Knew bc current me cant make anything out of sketching or thumbnails or just going at it #arghhh #i try and force myself to draw stuff like this now (interactions) and it looks. so stiff. and bad proportion wise but idk how to fix it #which isnt to say the proportions (for example) in THESE drawings are perfect but they dont scream Wrong or Bad or Incorrect to me ykwim...#idk! idk what to do with this. ive never known how to go back and study my own stuff

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pa-pa-plasma · 1 year ago

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hey i feel like we're really sleeping on that time Danny possessed Vlad & framed him for assaulting a minor

Editing with the clip because people don't believe me. Episode is 41: Eye for an Eye.

#Danny Phantom #i think this ties into my other post i made a long time ago about Danny siccing the GIW on Vlad #like we KNOW in CANON that if Danny was even a tiny bit more like Vlad he would literally become a supervillain #villain is such a stupid word i hate how it's spelled. why is it like that #anyways i need to like. rewatch DP cuz i remember shit & then i'm like #did that actually happen. because that sounds too insane #but like. he Did That. didnt he #i think that's what i love about this character. but a lot of people ignore it #Danny is like. gritting his teeth going ''do good do good'' it isnt effortless it isnt easy he doesnt even want to do it half the time #& sometimes yeah he WILL do crimes or get back at people who've been assholes to him or whatever #he WILL use his powers for bad sometimes #he'll be like ''dont do that it's bad'' but like. he WILL do it himself #the whole ''i'm a hero'' thing he's got going on is like. more of a. how do i put this #it's like when you're drawing or writing & saying ''it doesnt have to be perfect it just has to BE''#like Danny isn't a hero sometimes. he's got morals & has a general understanding of good & bad #but also he's 14 & being attacked every day #i would start saying bad words & threatening people that annoy me too man #okay i glanced over the scene again for the first time in years & Danny was literally in the middle of outing Vlad to the whole town???#hello?? are we really ignoring this?????#VLAD TORNADO VLAD TORNADO VLAD TORNADO #this show is so stupid i love it #love how Sam & Tucker immediately backed him up yeah fuck Vlad all my homies hate Vlad #okay you know what. maybe i will do a DP liveblog. i think it would be fun #on daddyplasmius. only posting this on pa-pa-plasma cuz it's kind of just a. weird rant post? kind of? idk

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vristrogen · 7 months ago

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something about people calling vrisrezi "toxic yuri" always puts me off. i understand the lack of words to really put their dynamic but like you know theyre in a relationship thats largely good for them right. they arent dating because "it sucks but it would be worse without each other" they genuinely really love each other a lot

#just as a baseline understanding here i am outright stating that their moiraillegance is a romantic relationship which includes kissing etc #if u cannot meet me on that level i dont think i really want to discuss vrisrezi with you #anyways its just so weird to me i dont know. i dont have a super great way of articulating it #they do Need each other they are codependent and its not necessarily healthy #but unhealthy does not equal toxic #they dont hurt each other on purpose they make each other so so happy and they do so much for each other and thats what makes them worse #because as much as they are universally destined to be together by the Laws of Paradox Space they are also universally doomed #and i mean straight up like. terezi is vriska's fp i feel like this is a given with the almost unambiguous bpd coding of vriska #and that isnt a type of relationship that vriska serket and terezi pyrope are exactly going to understand or manage well #but i also think that calling a favorite person relationship toxic by the nature of it regardless of who specifically is in it #is really gross? and harmful? and it doesnt make you sound cool when you talk about vrisrezi like that #ok wow this got really really out of hand. vrisrezi isnt really “toxic” if you read the comic thank you good night #vriska #terezi #my posts ::::)

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al-luviec · 4 months ago

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