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eyneyke · 1 day ago

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Mad Max

Pairing: Max Verstappen x PewDiePie!sibling Summary: What if Felix had a genius brother who works as a RedBull's engineer and is also secretly dating Max part 38 of A Calm to my Storm Masterlist

Max gets hate

Max playing with fans that Sam’s "boyfriend" is the worst guy ever while he's secretly talking about himself. Here’s how it went down in interviews, with Max just throwing out ridiculous comments as fans don’t realise are about himself:

Video 1: Max Being Asked If He Knows Sam’s Boyfriend

In a post-quali interview, a journalist casually asks Max if he knows anything about Sam’s mysterious partner, and Max goes all in.

Max (sighing dramatically): "Oh, yeah. I know who is his boyfriend. Absolute bore of the guy. I mean, who dates someone and just, like, smiles all day at work? It's super annoying, honestly. Bet he leaves dishes everywhere. But Sam seems happy I guess."

Fans’ Comments:

User 415: "MAX! He called Sam’s boyfriend a douchebag, I’m dead😂"

User 416: "The shade! lmao But now we at least know it's a boyfriend"

User 417: "It’s so weird that Max dislikes Sam’s boyfriend so much. Maybe he’s jealous?"

User 418: "Max throwing shade like he doesn’t care at all, but lowkey I bet he’s just protective of Sam."

Video 2: Max Going Overboard About Sam’s Boyfriend

After the race, Max is being interviewed again, and the journalist mentions Sam’s boyfriend, asking Max what he thinks about him. Max rolls his eyes and goes full throttle on the sarcasm.

Max (mock serious): "Oh, Sam’s boyfriend? Total nightmare. He’s always trying to keep him away from work, texting all the time, sending these stupid, sappy messages. I mean, seriously? It’s embarrassing. And don’t get me started on his sense of humor. It’s awful. Just terrible. I mean, Sam says he is happy but he could do so much better." (Max smirks, clearly having fun with it.)

Fans' Comments:

User 419: "Max is being brutal. Sam’s boyfriend must’ve really done something to piss him off! 😂"

User 420: "‘He could do so much better’ – Max is not holding back at all. Damn."

User 421: "Max: ‘Sappy messages are embarrassing. He is trying to keep him off work.’ Also Sam during one of Pewdiepie's streams: 'Max is spamming me because he is bored and I'm not giving him attention.'"

User 422: "Imagine if Sam’s boyfriend sees this interview, Max is gonna get in trouble for sure, lol."

Video 3: Max Chatting With Daniel Ricciardo About Sam’s Boyfriend

In the paddock, a fan caught Max and Daniel chatting during a break in the background of their video. Daniel brings up Sam’s boyfriend, and Max just unleashes his sarcasm.

Daniel (laughing, sees the fans and cameras on them): "So, Sam’s boyfriend... What’s he like?"

Max (grinning): "Oh, you wouldn’t believe it, Dan. He’s just the worst. Always interrupting Sam as he's working at the garage, thinking he’s super important. Like, dude, nobody cares! He’s one of those guys who thinks he’s really smart but can’t even remember to charge his phone before it's at 1%. And don’t even mention how clingy he is. He’s always blowing up Sam’s phone. It’s honestly pathetic."

Daniel (snickering): "Sounds like a real catch."

Max (deadpan): "Oh, yeah. Sam really hit the jackpot with this one."

Fans’ Comments:

User 423: "Max out here tearing Sam’s boyfriend to pieces, and Daniel just losing it in the background😂"

User 424: "‘Thinks he’s important but has to be reminded to charge his phone’ – Max’s insults are on another level!"

User 425: "Max is really out here hating this guy like it’s personal. I love it."

Video 4: Max Getting Questioned by Lando Norris About Sam’s Boyfriend

During a playful exchange between Max and Lando, the subject of Sam’s boyfriend comes up again, and Max wastes no time.

Lando (curious): "So, what’s the deal with Sam’s boyfriend? Is he cool?"

Max (overly dramatic): "Cool? No way. He’s clingy, needy, and always acting like he’s so funny when he has a really weird sense of humor. Absolute nightmare. And the worst part is that Sam seems to actually, genuinely like him. Like, he can do so much better."

Lando (laughing): "Sounds rough."

Max (with a grin): "Oh, you have no idea. I wouldn’t wish that guy on anyone."

Fans' Comments:

User 426: "Max really said Sam’s boyfriend has a weird sense of humor. 😂 Savage!"

User 427: "Max’s sarcasm is next level, I’m dying. He’s roasting this guy so bad!"

User 428: "Max is so protective of Sam, it’s actually adorable."

User 429: "I swear Max is sooo jealous. There’s no way he is okay with losing all the Sam-time he was used to!"

Video 5: Max Being Extra Dramatic About Sam’s Boyfriend to the Media

During another interview, Max was asked if he had any idea why Sam liked this “boyfriend” of his so much, as Max apparently hates him, and Max decided to just run with the joke.

Max (fake thinking): "Honestly? No clue. I mean, the guy’s a disaster. I mean he got lost in the garage a few days ago and ended up in Aston Martin. But Sam? Oh, Sam’s all about him. It’s confusing, really. But hey, love is blind, right?"

Journalist (laughing): "Really? Is he that bad?"

Max (nodding seriously): "Absolutely. Sam deserves so much better. I’ve tried to talk sense into him, but what can you do? Some people are just into lost causes."

Fans’ Comments:

User 430: "MAX. Just when I thought he couldn’t go harder. ‘Got lost in the garage and ended up in AM garage’? This man’s on a mission to ruin this guy’s reputation."

User 431: "Max is roasting the boyfriend so hard, I’m almost starting to feel bad for him."

User 432: "The sarcasm is too real. Sam’s boyfriend is either the worst or Max is trolling us all."

User 433: "Love how Max cares so much about Sam’s relationship, like he’s Sam’s bestie, haha"

User 434: “Max here trying to make us hate this guy before we even know who he is.”

Max clearly enjoyed running with the joke, and the fans ate it up. Every interview where he described this “terrible boyfriend,” he was just taking shots at himself, knowing that what he is speaking is the truth. Sam loved talking with Max at the end of the day about what Max now said online. Meanwhile, Christian and Newey are just smirking behind the scenes, amused by how long Max can keep this act going. Fans were none the wiser, and Max’s exaggerated, sarcastic digs only fueled the mystery further, making everyone even more desperate to figure out who Sam’s “boyfriend” really was.

#fanfic #writing #max verstappen x male reader #max verstappen x reader #max verstappen #funny #max verstappen x male oc

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stupidlittlespirit · 1 day ago

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Can you give me more examples of Alex disliking Ford? I’ve always kinda felt it, but I never really had much of a real grasp on it.

Okay so this is the part where I look crazy because I can't give you specific examples LMAO but I'll try to explain what I mean. It's more in what he doesn't say than what he does.

Alex doesn't ever come right out and state 'I hate Ford', but he implies his distaste for him through his treatment of him. The way he hasn't gone harder/more explicit on drawing lines about Ford's abuse, or talking about how Ford suffered terribly during the time he was alone, for example. The way he blames Ford inherently for a lot of stuff that Ford, while not blameless, isn't fully at fault for. It's little things, and I'll detail them below.

TW below: Abuse, discussions of victimhood and irl consequences.

He extends more sympathy to other characters whereas Ford is sort of an afterthought. I don't actually think Alex has fleshed Ford out very well in his own head. Remember when he said that he didn't even know that Bill was going to be the main villain? They were flying by the seat of their pants for a lot of the series and it's quite clear in some elements. Obviously, the series is wonderful, I love it, it's one of my favourite shows of all time and Alex is a true talent, but it's obvious which characters are more important to him. He favours Bill a lot, too, so when his disliking of Ford/being ambivalent about him meets his enjoyment of Bill, only one of those dogs is coming out of the fight alive and it ain't Ford.

I think Alex is a genuine talent, I admire his work and his writing. He seems lovely. But I do also think he lacks in skill when it comes to complex abuse depictions.

I see a running theme that he isn't very good at portraying it specifically via 'unlikeable' characters. I mentioned on a previous post that he did this with Pacifica until people expressed empathy with her, and then he decided to round her out. He stated that himself during an old interview; I can't source it but I remember it vividly because it flagged red in my head that he couldn't see she was just a product of her environment. She's a twelve year old girl, for god's sake, she isn't 'just a horrible person', it makes a person sound like Bill when they beef with kids like that lol.

Another thing is in TBoB, there's a really horrendous page where Ford is tortured. It is visceral and awful, and tbh I wish I'd have been able to ask Alex what his top 5 horror movies were when I saw his talk because the scene is very reminiscent of a lot of my fav horrors.

But anyway, it is literal torture and it is also communicating about how helpless Ford is. He's a victim and a 'weak one' at that. Nothing he can do will stop Bill's abuse, he's stupid for trying, he's pathetic, he deserves it.

Now, that is a take I see with Ford a lot. He deserves it. He's asking for it. And it's a really upsetting one. It's also a common narrative told by people who blame victims for the abuse they suffered.

Not once have I ever seen Alex defend Ford. Not once have I ever heard him say 'Ford didn't deserve this', 'Ford suffered as much as Stan'. Not once.

Considering that he said he took 'inspiration' from his friend's 'toxic' relationships (I also think this is a strange and slightly perverse thing to do btw), I would have thought he might feel more strongly about pushing away this narrative about victims deserving their treatment.

I, obviously, also don't know for sure that he did take inspo from friends; he could well be describing his own experiences and just not feel comfortable saying so because men do suffer a different kind of stigma around being abused. That's fine, he doesn't have to out himself or anything, that would be horrible. But it's just the way he reacts to fans and speaks about the victim (Ford) that makes me think he's a bit more removed from this specific experience than it being personal.

There are many types of abuse. Ford's experience is familial, relationship-wise (platonic, because nothing about his relationship with Bill is romantic in the most basic sense of the term, if anything you can liken that side of things to sexual abuse) and personal. Ford then abuses himself as a reaction to outside abuse. Not his fault, again, but it does happen and it's a common thing for victims to do. I did.

Ford does nothing but suffer.

I truly don't believe that if you loved and cared for your character, you would be willing to watch your audience tear them apart like that after they had already been through so much and were not actually a villain themselves.

Especially if you had, or knew other people who had, experience with that kind of abuse. He doesn't let it happen to Stan, he came down hard on people when they did it to Dipper, and to Mabel, too.

It would kill me to let my OCs be bastardised like that by an audience and I'd be damned if I did a disservice to victims everywhere over something like this.

I think his lack of care is displayed in his treatment of Ford, as opposed to him outright saying he doesn't like him.

I also understand that this analysis also comes from a deeply personal point of view and my own experience with this topic, too.

This is a TV show, it isn't real and I don't need to take it so seriously, but what I do take seriously is seeing the real world reactions of other people. That does hurt. It hurts to see someone who is (very inelegantly and heavy-handedly, btw) depicted as a victim of abuse be laughed at and made into a joke, or flipped on their head and made to be romanticised with their abuser just to make a ship happen.

Fiction doesn't need to be taken seriously except when the lines begin to blur over into real life. We know people are cruel to irl victims and we can see where these lines blur quite obviously.

I think abuse and uncomfortable topics should be depicted, but I also think that as a creator, if you use them, you have a HUGE responsibility to teach and guide your audience into understanding why these things are bad/what makes them so. You shouldn't make jokes about the topic or encourage other people to go off the rails with it.

You can't control people, of course you can't, but you can hold their hand a bit and show them towards the light. If they choose not to follow it then they're probably not bright enough to pick up what you're putting down and that's on them, but you have to try.

Maybe if I hadn't (and my friends and other victims hadn't) been subjected to exactly the same reaction, we wouldn't feel so strongly about this, but it really does feel like a kick in the teeth to see a large number of people behave so grotesquely about abuse.

And just as an aside: I am a victim, I have been/am an unlikeable one, but it does not mean that I deserved what I got and that goes the same for every other 'unlikeable' victim out there.

*deep breath* but other than that I'm totally normal about Ford and not at all mentally ill :)

#asks #anon #ford asks #on a normal one tonight lads you know how it is

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blaithnne · 3 months ago

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Fuck it the second I get my iPad back and my period ends I’m just doing my own sketchbook week (it’s the exact same as normal sketchbook week but it’s a week later and the universe stops trying to kill me)

#I cannot. do an entry today because #and this is going to sound so pathetic LMAO #I do not have the strength in my fingers to draw on my phone #and I can’t hold the thought required ?? like it makes me focus on the pain too much #and I can’t sit at my desk to draw on paper #because pain #and I can’t write because to write I need silence and when there’s silence all I can focus on is the pain #it is not my week!!!#I’m hoping my iPad will be back by the end of this week though #and then I want to go back and do the prompts the next week #because I had so many ideas!#so yeah it won’t be official hashtag branded sketchbook week but imma try and do it anyways #textpost #blethering #sketchbook week 2024 #will still try and participate this week if I’m feeling better before it ends though!#but I won’t be able to the prompts to the best of my ability regardless #so I want to try again when my old is better and I actually can lol

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dazais-guardian-angel · 1 month ago

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Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3

#bungou stray dogs #bsd spoilers #bsd 120.5 #please laugh i know i made myself laugh.... if only to keep from crying lol #the oocification of Fukuzawa will be studied in the history books for years to come #that's not my fukuzawa...... that's his discount twin fucksack #because his dick is so far up the ass of his dead pathetic dumbass crusty ex boyfriend it's not even funny #he is dickriding that fucker HARD #and here i thought the FANDOM woobified fukuchi out the wazoo. but oh my god no fukuzawa himself has them all beat this chapter #man is coco for cocopuffs and babying that grown-ass man like he's 5 #it's truly pathetic and depressing to see i'm just beyond words #'you deceived him by keeping quiet the issues that would plague a union of mankind' NO??? LITERALLY ANYONE WITH A BRAIN WOULD KNOW #THAT THAT WOULD NEVER FUCKING WORK???? THAT IT'S THE STUPIDEST MOST NAIVE PLAN AND VIEW OF THE WORLD IMAGINABLE????#WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS A TODDLER INSTEAD OF A GROWN-ASS SOLDIER WITH YEARS OF MILITARY EXPERIENCE #Fyodor feels like the only one at this point that hasn't truly lost the plot in all this...... the only one with a goddamn brain #I HATE THAT I HAVE TO AGREE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT IT FELT SO CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!#and i hate even more that the series clearly doesn't want us to agree with him and instead believe that fukuzawa is still right #even though he was spouting the most naive braindead bullshit imaginable that early series Fukuzawa would NEVER SAY #WHAT ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN BRO??? WHY DO YOU CARE MORE ABOUT DEFENDING THE HONOR OF THAT CRUSTY MF THAN #THE SAFETY OF YOUR KIDS????#WHERE DID ALL YOUR INTELLIGENCE GO #i fucking hated the writing ever since fukuchi's plan/motives were first revealed and it was played completely straight (and gay lol)#but to hear fukuzawa actually come out and defend that ridiculous bs is just.......... again i have no words #it's insane. what happened. what happened to you fukuzawa. all i can do is laugh it's so sad it's so stupid. I WAS CRINGING SO BAD.#and was so glad when he finally died so he finally SHUT THE FUCK UP. i hate it here. i miss when BSD was good so bad man 😭😭😭#it would be one thing if it felt like he's so deep in grief that he's completely deluded himself that fukuchi was right and had pure motive #and wasn't an idiotic piece of shit himself just like fyodor #but nah again it just feels like we're supposed to side with him lmao even though fyodor was exactly right in everything he said #when your villain sounds more intelligent/correct than your hero and that's not an intentional writing choice..... that's not good bros!!!#anyway may your stupidity be purified in the soul of your dead bf fukuzawa 🙏 and we get the true you back

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glassrunner · 4 months ago

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one of the worst things about concord failing so spectacularly is that all the Cringe Gamer Men are like “HUHUHURHUHUE WHAT DID WE TELL YOU WOKE DEI SHIT WILL ALWAYS FAIL!!!” when that literally is not the case

concord failed because it came out 6 years too late and doesn’t bring anything new to the hero shooter table while also having a hefty price tag, the latter of which even overwatch did away with eventually. take your white man supremacist bullshit elsewhere

#insights #so many white incels going ‘omg… it is Happening… media execs will finally realize pronouns are the root of all evil and destroy media!!!’#when it’s actually just that the content itself doesn’t have a leg to stand on #y’all sound like the manbaby who screamed about starfield having pronouns lmao #with the amount of extraneous narrative content concord has #it should’ve been a singleplayer fun co-op thing but multiplayer gaming really did a number on every game studio ever sadly #anyways the problem is not and never will be diversity. overwatch and valorant both have an extremely diverse cast of characters #and those two are literally the best performing hero shooters #cry about the woke agenda all you want manchildren but the pathetic truth is that you have trouble accepting the world isn’t about you #and you love projecting that onto everything you see

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an-theduckin · 8 months ago

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Wait shit people might actually care about me

#sorryyy for the personal posts lmao just not having a great time lately . ill go back to posting abt fandom stuff soon dw #hopefully the self loathing phase is over now cuz i really didnt enjoy that!#mf got me thinking thay everyone secretly hates me n itd be better if i was dead ahahaha #but like. my friends talk to me daily. my mutuals love me. i didnt go to school for like 3 days and my classmate who im kindaaa friends wit #texted me saying. and i quote “Hi [name]. I know its late but i hope your doing well. Hope to cya tmr.” (the full stops symbolize each text #cuz she sent three seperate texts)#and i was just. so flabbergasted at that #i didnt rlly think anyone would really notice if i was gone #i didnt think anyone cared me enough for that #i thought theyd just be indifferent to it #also i sound pathetic rn but i reread that girl's text over n over again when she sent rhat. was literally on the brink of tears #and i just. wow.#people might actually care for me. they might actuallynotice when im gone. they might actually miss me #ive been so inside my head n thinking allat bad stuff about myself that i. didnt think that people might see me differently than the way #i saw myself #really and truly i love you guys so much #even if we've never talked to each pther before or interact very little. i appreciate all of you. you guys rock #anyways aha i should stop rambling now loll. as for now i think im doing a bit better #life still sucks but hey at least i have my friends. at least i dont hate myself anymore now #at least now i dont believe that everyone was being friends with me out of pity #thank you all for everything :')#man i need a hug rn lmao #tw vent #tw sui implied #tw sui ideation #tw self loathing #tw self destructive behavior #<- dw about the tags i dont feel/do those anymore #if you wanna talk to me abt this or just talk in general hit me up!! i love talking to ppl i dont like being alone xd #love youu <33

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currentlyonstandbi · 6 days ago

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that movie was fucked. i love it

#nosferatu #genuinely did not think i was going to enjoy it that much going in #but cinema is so back baby #only critique is that i did not get to see nicholas hoult tormented anywhere near enough to what i wanted #ngl i've never understood finding him attractive until this film #until the moment i saw him being pathetic and whiny and moaning about it all while trapped in orlock's castle like oh this is IT lmao #friend who went with me was comparing it to 1992 dracula and being like 'at least you had young gary oldman and could understand the appeal #as opposed to nosferatu where its messed up all the time ???? sounds like a you problem cause the appeal is very much so present

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mildmayfoxe · 10 months ago

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not only did a i go to the grocery store after work i also banged out a huge pan of taco filling and made a really great burrito with it even though i forgot to get sour cream and the bag of microwave rice i had banging around actually expired summer last year and i didn't feel committed enough to cooking a pot of regular rice. but overall huge success

#i don't usually feel up to doing 'real cooking' after work so i'm pleased with myself i did a big chore AND cooked a meal #lmao this makes me sound so pathetic but like. you guys know i'm exhausted after work. i'm glad i pushed through #but now i have to go back to the store and get sour cream. but it's ok bc i skipped getting coffee bc i was already getting too much #(size thing more than cost thing) (i can only carry so much home) so i can go get coffee if i go to the store again tomorrow #and it'll be QUICK!#chatpost #i oughtta bake up some potatoes tomorrow if i have time. i love a potato in a burrito. it's just a different starch than rice really

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phagodyke · 1 year ago

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sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests...#theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!)#but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍#anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^)#.vent #.diaries

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blossoms-phan · 6 months ago

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I need to print out or pin that post somewhere about taking breaks from dnp to just like focus on your own life bc they’ll always be there I’ve been an avid viewer since 2014 only taking a small break sometime in between the hiatus but obviously like everyone else my online phannieism has come back full force since the comeback i only started using tumblr again around december but I would use another blog just to lurk and like posts I made this blog less than 2 months ago which is insane to me I feel like I’ve lived a thousand lives since then and it’s been so much fun being able to interact with other phannies and share my thoughts in a way that I haven’t interacted with the phandom since like 2015 but it has also rapidly increased my brainrot i already spent most of my free time just rewatching old videos and edits but I’ve noticed since like gamingmas my mind is constantly occupied with dnp and posting and whether my ask got answered and like I’m unemployed lmao so it’s all fun and games to a certain point but I’m also a student and I genuinely think me being weak and flawed in the brain and getting easily distracted has derailed me in my last semester of uni which is kind of not good I’m like oh lol it’s so funny and relatable I just love dnp!!! but there’s also phannies in med school and other stuff which is great and I genuinely feel like I’m holding myself back personally and professionally with how much time I spend thinking about them again I don’t think it’s a bad thing I just need to train myself into being More Normal and maybe blocking off times for blogging and watching and actually focusing on my life y’know

#this makes me sound so pathetic but I’m being honest a lot of my time revolves around them and thinking about them #I think another thing is that I get a rush from people liking my posts but I’m not in any phannie group chats #or have irl friends I can talk to them about #I think at least that would make it easier to get thoughts out instead of having to consider how I want to write them out for a post #i also only lurk on phannie twit bc some posts are fun but you have to be way too involved on there #any time in my life I’ve been an active twitter user in a fandom has been the worst most unproductive high screen time periods of my life #can’t have that rn tumblr is enough fun and distraction for me #I already know I’m not going to take my own advice lmao it’s not like an addiction I do have a life outside of dnp #they just make me happy and all their content is so comforting #nightly over sharing over sorry to anyone reading this I have enough shit to journal about this blog is my phannie journal #i say all this while knowing I have an assignment due tomorrow but I’m about to make tit tour bracelets #and rewatch massive pizza mukbang 2 for the 4th time #yolo #dnp #my thots

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thecherrygod · 8 months ago

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hauntingblue · 10 months ago

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ACT 2 OVER LETSGOOOO

#also so funny if they destroy the island... goodbye plan because there is no island anymore lmao #where is luffys sword.....#you know its actually so good how you can excuse someone robbing graves lmao i mean its for a noble cause #one piece's first vegetarian wolf #omg.... goodbye wolfie.... and they won't even know...#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 953 #episode 954 #HOW DID LAW GET OUT???.#last time i saw him he was bleeding and pathetic chained on the floor.... as he should be...#FUCKING APOO WAS THE TRAITOR??? lmaooo #hawkins talking about how he got betrayed and the hitting law with the 'so how are you and your bestie doing'#AND WHO IS THAT????? LAW NO BETRAYAL LAW....#usopp just on franky's back as he works ajdhsk thats his son fr...#alwo where is nekomamushi..... and who is denjiro...... come on we need the nine samurais man #kaido and mom made up??? apoo you fucking traitor.... enter stage left also his theme sounds like it was made in garage band #WHAT THE FUCK ARE THOSE CREATURES #yonkou alliance this is going down.... its so over #episode 955 #momo missing his anoying sister omg....#zoro is here???? where is hiyori??? did he get her sword??? sanji being nice to momo to get with his sister ajdhsksjsk TO JAIL!!!#wait kiku is here too... did luffy just stay there to train??? luffys sword is fine thank god akdhsk #zoro getting another weird fucked up sword... why zoom in om his nipple also....#hiyori master troll... yeah give us back the nation's sacred sword and you can get the sword that sucks out your soul and spirit in exchange #'once i get used to it' YOU HAVE FIVE DAYS #tama making hats for everyone.... ace.... omg #it is time.... i am so scared.... hiyori HIT IT!!!#WADO AND ENMA SISTERS????? LORE!!!! ORISHI KNOWS!!!! FUCK OFF!!! luffy training looks so cool... where is law.... kid...#episode 956

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bluesquaress · 1 year ago

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i like to think my mental health isn't that bad, and that my disorders haven't impacted me that hard, but then i'll have nights like this where i'll realize just how badly i've fucked myself and it really, really sucks lol.

these past 4 years, can i even call it living? though, i think the worst part is i know it's not gonna stop at 4. i know once this year ends, the next will be just as bad if not worse, and i will have to live through not just that year, but every year after it knowing the only person i can blame for my misery is myself.

#vent #if i had just tried would things have been different?#if i had accepted the help given if i hadn't let my fear control me if i hadn't just given in thinking it would work itself out #would i be happier?#it's all rhetorical. i know the answer is yes lmao #and i know it's no ones fault but my own #no one in my life understands just how bad it is and i don't know how to explain it to them; or if i even want to #because then i'd have to admit i need help. and i know i do. i know something's wrong and i know i can't get better without help #but the thought of actually saying that out loud of actually working through all the things that make me scared and uncomfortable and upset?#it makes me feel sick #this life is all i can really remember. everything before either upsets me and pushes me farther away from the 'real world' or i just don't #remember it anymore.#how could i cope with that? how could i leave this life and...go out..how could i go out and live a real life #when this is the only life i remember anymore?#this sounds pathetic i sound fucking insane lmfao whatever #i don't know if this makes sense #i'm so miserable #i just want to be normal again i want to have friends again i want to be able to go to the store and walk around my neighborhood and #and i don't know #i just want to live

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butchvamp · 2 years ago

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sigh

#night 599859487384730 of laying in bed refreshing apps #this post is going to look especially pathetic bc it's valentines but this is just my usual 'i hate my life' posting #at least i can get chocolate during valentines....#anyways. wish i could just vanish off the face of the earth lol #im really just like. what else is there to do. it's all pointless fr and im never getting out of here #and if it does ever supposedly 'get better' well im tired of fucking waiting #i think it's pretty shit that i have to wait decades for it to 'get better'#this isnt even abt me being sad about aging but i don't like the idea of spending over half my life in absolute fucking misery #just so that i can MAYBE have fun for once in like 50 years #that doesn't sound appealing. i don't think that maybe is good enough but idk ig that's just me #also like i feel like i have tried Everything but. again. nothing matters #like i have tried every stupid shit you can think of to get 'better' but literally none of it does anything for me #there is no change. i dont get better i just keep getting worse. lmao!#well. wish i'd just kms but i cant even manage to find the motivation for that #tfw you're so pathetic you can't even get out of bed long enough to kys <3 LOL

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sillyfreakx5 · 15 days ago

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chatttt i just had A Conversation with my ex bf *vacant stare*

#silly's ventposting #uhh yeah #tw csa #csa tw #grooming tw #tw grooming #tw suicide mention #tw idealising grooming or something lmao. just stay away if any of that shit isnt good for you to read rn #his relationship with his niece sounds so beautiful #i know she was probably traumatised for life and shit #but god i wish i was her #i mean she reported him. so he might end up in prison or something who knows lmao #but idk the way he talks about her.....#it's so heart wrenchingly beautiful #idk how else to describe it #my dad once said that Beauty is when things feel True #and god yeah that whole thing feels so True #and uhh i got both official confirmation that he did go into this planning to groom me + rape me AND that i did mean something to him #i guess i got to stop SOMEONE from committing suicide #oh and yeah telling someone that they deserve better SUCKS #in hindsight shouldnt have said to my ex gf #i feel so fucking pathetic #i just want that feeling again. that sense of purpose. that EUPHORIA #oh and you know whats funny?#how FUCKED my emotional priorities are?#i was FINE when he told me about how he raped and manipulated a lot of girls #i didnt really care #but then the moment he said he loved someone else #thats when i started feeling sad #oh and i dont have fucking “loyalty”

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nobodybetterlookatme · 2 months ago

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How's it going with your coworker??!!

I'm still so fucking soft and that's really all I've got for today lmao

#not snz #i did the whole 'feel how cold my hands are' thing and it fucking worked like??#but my hands are actual legit always fucking freezing so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#BUT i held his hand half the time and fuck i didn’t know people's hand could feel that nice #like once again I'm touch starved to the point i hardly know how to give a proper hug bc i almost never give/receive them #so anything would probably feel good lmao #but like his hands are so warm and they're not at all soft but they are super gentle?? idk it's weird #i might’ve thought a little too hard about it hskaksk we're gonna have to move on lmao #mainly we just talked a lot as always and he was an asshole but he's also so sweet???? like it's crazy #OH and there was one point he like put his arm on the seat behind me so it wasn’t quite around me but it was a little bit #like please why do i want that so bad lmao normally I'm afraid of people doing anything like that to me #hugged him before we left too and 😩#the way i wanna hold him and pet his hair so bad is wild lmao like i just cannot stop being pathetic #like i fr need to stop thinking about it ahskaksksl that's my coworker #and i was talking to the other girlies while we were walking back to our cars and gossiping and catching up #and i mentioned hanging out with my partner to which they were both like 👀 and i had to convince them that it wasn't a date lmao #but they both agreed with me that it can't be a date if nobody says it's a date so it was still Not A Date #yay for women LMAO #However they did say it didn't sound quite platonic either so they're still 👀 ahskamksla #and they've been joking about me and this guy for a hot minute now so they're double 👀 lmao #the other medic always said he's got a soft spot for me and that just kinda makes me 🥰 ya know #but also why do i lowkey feel sick about the thought of him actually being into me lmao like is thay normal #maybe sick isn't the right word but i feel something and it's not exactly pleasant but it's definitely not bad #maybe it's just the cramps LMAO idk #anyway i just feel kinda weird but it's not a bad weird so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#again it's not like this is ever gonna go anywhere so i don't think i need to try too hard to figure it out lmao #anyway I'm cold and tired and wanna go to bed now lmao i can barely keep my eyes open to make this post #idk how coherent this is gonna be so I'm just gonna hope for the best lmao #partner posting

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