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in my trans grief hours *autism yippee*
#tw vent#i never got to have the right childhood#i never got to just be a little kid#that little boy was never allowed to be a little boy#and there's just so much happening now that makes me think about that#like. nex benedict was sixteen#they didn't get to be a sixteen year old kid#did they even know how to drive yet? did they want to go to prom?#they were sixteen years old. they were a CHILD#and they weren't allowed to be one#trans youth aren't allowed to just live and be kids#we have to grow up so fucking fast#and just live every day knowing that something might happen to them#i might go to work tomorrow and someone will see my pronoun pin and decide that because of that pin I'm not allowed to be alive#it's just so terrifying all of the time and it's so exhausting#trans rights#trans grief#protect trans youth
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Man, it's cool and all if you see a metaphor for marginalisation in the monstrous, and if you want the power fantasy of 'what if you could just eat anybody who threatened you/pissed you off'. Me too.
However, as soon as you start saying 'no, these monsters are a 1:1 on Specific Marginalised Group, and you have to treat them in the fiction like they are directly representative of real human members of the marginalised group', BUT you also, in the fiction, make them hurt/kill/eat humans? And then try to shame me, your audience, for noticing or engaging with the bit where they kill people, because you made them directly representative of a real-world marginalised group? You have lost me, and also, I think, the plot.
#hear yourself. for the love of whatever you cherish.#'but they only kill bigots so ACTUALLY they're the GOOD GUYS -' your metaphor of monstrosity is entirely premised on the question of#'what if what you went around righteously killing; believing your actions to be justified;#were actually people and it was not in fact righteous or justified to just kill them'#'what if the world isn't neatly split into 'good guys' and 'bad guys'#who gets to decide who or what is 'bad'? because that's the original problem of monstrosity-as-metaphor-for-marginalisation#(if as a creator you say 'oh my intention with this was X' cool!#if instead you go with something like. well.#'well in this setting monsters are so rare it doesn't matter that they kill people and you'd have to be a homicidal sadistic psychopath >#< to hunt them; but sure I guess if you want to play a Bad Person' well I might have#but if you're going to explicitly judge me for wanting to engage with the moral question of 'how justified is this and who would do it#versus how justified are these monsters if they do have to harm or kill people to continue to exist'#then maybe I just don't want to play your game at all)#anyway I'm sick to death of poor uwu cozy vampires who are SO marginalised so I'm not Allowed to care about all the people they murder#it being fucked up is what's fun about it! do all the other shit but let me take the murders seriously!#and inb4 someone accuses me of being a bigot for saying 'actually I don't think you get a free pass to kill and eat people if you're gay'#remember when the CW's famously reactionary and conservative Supernatural tried to just gloss over the part where every time its heroes >#< killed a demon with a magic knife it also killed the person the demon was possessing#and say 'oh no it's fine we don't care about those killings; they don't matter; don't bother caring about them either'#but they were doing it to glorify exactly the kind of people that these 'monster as metaphor' stories are trying to cast as expendable?#I have other examples that are like. real dramas. but That Paranormal Show is the one that's in the same niche that I'm talking about here#it feels more insidious when it comes through a fantasy show where there are monsters involved#so you can say 'no it's not real so it doesn't matter'#but then ALL of it is equally not real. and vampires are not actually an oppressed group. because they don't exist.#you can say 'these vampires are a metaphor for an oppressed group so this fiction matters in real life'#or you can say 'don't care about the murders because they weren't actually real'#but you can't say both and then get mad at ME for treating the murders as seriously as the vampires#let me engage with your premise and don't waste my fucking time#or just set your fluff in the Sesame Street universe where vampires drink cherry Kool-Aid and help kids learn to count
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Don't get me wrong, I love painland because they're the land of pain payneland dearly & I'm currently writing *multiple* fics about them.
But if I hear one more person saying shit about Crystal and saying she was gross for what she had with Charles I'll fucking scream.
#suddenly teenagers aren't allowed to experiment???#Charles and Edwin are obviously endgame y'all#her and Charles' dynamic weren't so bad.#y'all just like to fetishize gays and hate stuff that stands in your way#no one hates monty for trying to be with Edwin#just saying#because she's a complex poc female character people don't give her much grace as much as they do to other characters#“oh i just felt yucky about her I'm allowed to feel that way!”#I'll rip your face off#let's take a moment to think about WHY do you feel yucky about her?#what made y'all hate her so much?#let's take a moment to think about stuff okay?#crystal is my queen#crystal palace they could never make me hate you#dead boy detectives#crystal palace surname von hoverkraft#crystal palace#crystal palace von hoverkraft#cryland#painland#payneland#charles x edwin#please don't kill me#dead boy detectives agency#the dead boy detectives#charles dead boy detectives
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Niki Lauda would be so fucking proud of Max, I just know it
#f1#formula 1#formula one#max verstappen#niki lauda#niki 🤝 max 🤝 saying fuck the fia#niki literally just back from retirement organising a boycott because future fia wanted to fuck the drivers over#i say future fia because they weren't called that yet#and all but 1 driver participating#giving us the legendary sleepover/ lock in in their hotel#iconic shit#and they won!#max holding his own press conference#and upon being told by the fia he wasn't allowed to have it where he originally planned#him immediately taking all the gathered press basically like FOLLOW THE LEADER BITCHES#singapore grand prix#singapore gp 2024
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you've been called into his office.
@ nobody 3 - you are much better at cheating than your peers vela and nezumi - they saw answers and still only got 8 correct. @ VELA - EXPELLED. luna too for helping you cheat. @ PERFECTION - then why did you only get 8 !? @ NEZUMI - E X P E L L E D . @ GALE - genuinely impressed by you. the ACTUAL top score. +4 for being on my good side now. @ LUNA BASKERVILLE. - very nice. i see us as equals. @ EMMA - a valiant effort. why do you think i want bitches so badly? @ HANA - you pay more attention than i'd have given you credit for. your wrong answers are inoffensive, also. @ BETTY - you got all the ones that matter correct. well, except one. darling, i'm hurt. you're not still upset, surely... @ oof - this was probably nezumi. @ oh no - or this was ... . . . or was it @bloodtwin ? @ AMAY - attention doesn't matter to me that much, you know ? @ CASSIAN - you got the last one correct. +5 to your score. bravo. @ TARA - your complaining got me in trouble. @ UMBRAL - this isn't a bad score. the final question matters most and you did not hesitate to utter the correct words. +5 for you. @ SIVIR - we've only just met, so this is a sane result. impressed that you guessed my birth city. @ wouldn't you like to know - i need to know who's almost as bad at guessing as i am. are you nobody 3's alter ego ? @ FALL FUCKING ESTO - there are things more important in life than bitches. @ 🥺 - @selunaris, is this you ? you're expelled, luna. understand me, luna? @ RAKATAK - i would have helped you cheat. @ RAPHAEL - it pleases me that you know so little.
#' gale tops all of you in canon ; also he's the only one who understands how to find answers ... '#' perhaps betty too. if she weren't holding grudges. '#( ghost tags btw bc it wouldn't allow more than than 5 at once sdfsfds )#.crack#.shitpost#.bgu
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Copper Phuriwat as JIN in Episode 11 DEAD FRIEND FOREVER (2023-2024)
#copper phuriwat#jin jinnaphat#dff jin#jin dff#dead friend forever#dead friend forever the series#dff#dff the series#thai series#thai bl#thai actors#lana.gifs#dff.gifs#this is shorter than usual i know#jin didn't have enough moments this episode to allow me to choose and the rest of the gifs i tried to make weren't as good as these#i'm not particularly proud of this one but after 2 days of unsatisfying results i'm just releasing it into the wild the way it is#userbon#userbeoncloud#uservix#userpharawee
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Enecomimi Banzaiiii (Patreon)
#Doodles#Pokemon#Firebland#Silverstreakshipping#Kabu#Larry#Gintama references lol#And translation jokes! Very fun#I like how my reaction to these two is a fairly level ''Oh I like them but it's not all That serious really'' and then my headcanons pft#They're easy to like and think about! What am I to do about that#So the headcanons lol - I like to think that since Kabu was recruited from Hoenn that he sometimes calls Pokemon by their Japanese names#Which allowed for this very fun joke :) I was So hoping that one of the Normal cats would be a basic pun on ''Neko'' and I was right hehehe#Since Gintama has been moved into my breakfast rotation - I've read enough djs not fully appreciating the context! It was time!#I've gotten the opportunity to enjoy some of the references pulled from the anime itself into the fanwork hehe <3 Nekomimi banzaiiii!#Once I heard Shinpachi call it moe* that was it I was done I could go on no longer without making the joke#*As in cute/endearing/exciting - but its homophone refers to ''burning''! Kabu is both hehe#He's so confused - isn't Eneco a Normal type? Better go ask the resident expert#As if they weren't already planning to hang out at Kabu's place haha ♪ Just going through his fanmail while Larry spectates casually#That second Kabu is probably the cutest one I've drawn so far!! Couldn't recapture for the rest of the comic that's for sure hwegh#Gotta study what does and doesn't work with his design hm hm#Larry's still much easier to draw which is clearly why he features for only two panels here lol#At least he's enjoying himself#Kabu + Cute Normal Type Pokemon = 😳 Haha ♪#You're being very subtle Larry I'm sure he won't notice your reaction at all you're holding it together great#頑張れ アオキさん
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some doodles for @sunnyys-jarss roommate au that were done over the course of the month...
(if you see inconsistencies in art style or mistakes hush no you don't these were done over the course of several different lunch breaks-)
edit: I WAS GONNA POST THIS NEXT WEEK BUT THIS IS FOR THE LOVELY FANART THEY MADE ME SO- aherm
anyways
(hush they're watchin a movie)
anyways yea just a couple quick things cuz their au is great! if you haven't checked it out already do so, they've got a cool ask blog at @ask-the-atwr-au!
#crappy doodles#not my au#ahaha#these are really badly done sorry#as you can see i did nothing about backgrounds or shoes because i was tired and details are always inconsistent with me#but anyways yea here's the guys for ya!#sorry if they came out a lil wonky i'm still tryna figure out how to draw them#(the way i drew ruin in the second one doesn't sit right with me...)#(and i know it's probably not cannon but i just like drawing sun looking absolutely dead and eclipse just LIVID)#(pov you weren't allowed to drive to the store and the driver is abt to crash into a tree or smthn)#anyways uhh#yea!
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yesterday we went to IKEA and we found it.
THE MOTHERLOAD OF BLAHAJ!!!!
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I wanna know ur Fontaine msq criticisms 👁️👁️👂I’m all ears
I'm not sure if you wanted me to talk about this secretly or publicly but! Here I go!
The TLDR: Fontaine MSQ aestheticised prison, poverty, child abuse, the justice system/court and didn't properly address any of it.
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Focalors/Furina has way too much of a sympathetic angle for a dictator who's lets people drown with her inaction.
Neuvillette feels Bad for sentencing some people to death/prison, but that's it. He's one of the most powerful people in Fontaine. If he felt like there are systemic injustices, I.E sending an abused Child to prison, he should be the first person to DO something about it, not just cry and be sad so the audience can be like aw, that's complex character writing isn't it? No it's not! And guilt doesn't absolve you!!!!!!! (These are stuff we deal with in OTCOJ read my fic now /j)
Meropide has children in it, both Sentenced there (Wriothesley) and BORN THERE (Lanoire), and this is just a quirk of the place. Not only that, Meropide accepts prisoners of all genders and crimes. There are abusers and abuse victims in one place. Do you know how bad that is? How much potential for crimes to happen in a place like that— oh wait, Meropide isn't under Fontaine's jurisdiction. If you are assaulted as an inmate it literally means nothing to the court.
Wriothesley had no qualifications when he took over. Depending on how long he lived on the streets, how old he was when he killed his parents, how old he was when he was first taken in by the orphanage, etc, the man might never have more than 4–5 years of formal education. Sigewinne probably had to teach him how to write reports. And do Meropide's spreadsheets. Edit because I forgot to elaborate on this one: This isn't a point brought up anywhere, which is bad, because when poverty and incarceration robs you of a proper education (and the rights to vote in many places too, too, by the way), it reduces your prospects for jobs, reduces many people's ability to get a home etc etc. Wriothesley was just, narratively, Given his position.
Meropide is an industrialized prison, and they portray this as a good thing. Prisoners are paid in coupons for their labour, and this is also portrayed as a good thing.
The One-Meal-A-Day reform was something Paimon gushed about being so great of a perk, that people might want to go to jail for food (could be interesting and reflective of systemic poverty if MHY had brains, but they don't, so I was just Pissed because essentially all Paimon wanted to say was "Prison isn't so bad, but still don't go to prison guys! Prison labour is really hard!"). By the way, in most real-world prisons they are obligated to feed you three meals a day. Because that's how much food a human needs. MHY went with one meal just so they can say "if you want to eat more, you have to work." And then the welfare meal is a goddamn gacha. So imagine you're a starving child who's too weak to work in the fucking robot assembly line, and you wander up for your first meal in 24 hours, only to luck in with a shit one. I'd kill myself.
They wrote Wriothesley, who's a victim of the system, into a guy who's say shit like "I'm the Duke I can do whatever I want" for a cool moment where he choke-slams an inmate (I know he was a bad guy. But also, in copaganda when cops are violent/disregarding protocols, they are always only portrayed to do that against bad guys, so what does our critical thinking tells us about this one?) They wrote Wriothesley, who was an inmate of a prison so bad, so notorious that it is the literal boogeyman of Fontaine, that has a legal (???) fighting pit, with an administrator who abuses his position to be unreasonable, to willingly stay in the place and become an Administrator who would choke-slam an inmate while saying a cool line about how he has the power to do whatever he wants. They wrote him, the guy who had to be fed on the streets by melusines, to think one-meal-a-day was a good enough reform (while he spends god-knows how much on his boat). This wasn't a victim-turns-into-abuser narrative either, they want all this to be seen as positive character growth.
And then, the final kicker is, they gloss over his entire abuse. You can only read about these shit in his profile, which most people don't because they don't Have Him or doesn't care to unlock it/read it online, and they jammed his entire backstory into a flaccid info-dump at the end of his character story quest. This man isn't Allowed to feel abused and neglected and show any reaction to it within the narrative of Fontaine itself, because if they actually Gave Weight to what happened to him, they'd have to confront THE FUCKING JUSTICE SYSTEM they had NO PLANS on criticising. I don't think they ever explicitly said the fucking Crime-Theatre nonsense was Bad either.
I could go on, but this is already so long. But yeah, I hope this gave you an idea.
#and then. and im putting my most controversial opinion in the tags bc im scared lmao. but like... then... you have the fans..... doing......#the same fucking thing.#the amount of times I have seen Wriothesley used as just a side prop for Neuvillette to feel bad about shit. While Wriothesley is just.....#portrayed as having the inner peace and acceptance of a fucking monk. I was shocked when I read some fics I swear#they really said this man has no trauma at all! the stuff in his past? he's over it!#i hate that passivity when writing victims. like ok if One is written like that#sure. but MHY write all their victims like this#I mean look at fucking Lanoire#and Neuvillette sentenced him to prison after he killed his parents who were never confronted by the law. That's canon.#that's more canon than WRLT itself.#why weren't they confronted? did wriothesley try to talk to someone about it? why did he feel like killing them is his only option ?????#at least have there be some sort of conflict and friction there. How does Wriothesley feel about the court and Neuvillette when#this is the literal system that allowed all that shit to happen to him in the first place???#are you Sure he won't be at least a little wary? the fact that some people think he's Grateful to Neuvillette or even idolises him is crazy#because the man literally subjected him to prison. and if you want to portray his prison life as easy breezy and trauma free#you undermine his entire shitty little 'prison reform' narrative#and if you think he'd be completely 100% accepting of the justice system. Then why the fuck would he kill his parents himself#don't you see that the whole 'I'll accept whatever sentence in order to kill my parents' thing in itself is an act of defying the system#and I Hate#this idea. about being some of the most powerful men in the nation. and yet they can't fucking TRY to set up a better system or smth#i can't believe I read a fic where leaving starving street kids croissants is the most they (the characters and the writer) want to do#like. what the fuck. the whole point of that scene is just to make neuvillette feel bad and be like aw......... poor people exist.... OK???#this is literally how MHY would portray him though.... tbf..... This is what ppl would argue as 'in character'#I just think the character they're in is bad.#I will say I'm giving the fic a lot of grief. there's more to the scene than that. and. ultimately.....#fanfic is (saying this through gritted teeth) ........ recreational....................and free........... in the end.................#i dont think this is reflective of the writer. I do think it is reflective of the way the canon material (genshin impact)#presents in the audience who consumes it. most fans only want these guys to fuck anyway. not think about systemic injustices#canon doesn't make it about the systemic injustices either so why should we. the aesthetic of slums and prisons are just there for fun guys#IM JUST CRAZY OK. I SHOULDNT EVEN BE HERE THIS IS NOT FOR ME . I DONT CARE THAT MUCH FOR PEOPLE FUCKING AND I CARE TOO MUCH
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no no but the insanity that is showing the narcissus (you can't kiss a reflection) scene between paolo and lucrezia which I'd argue is lucrezia seeing a reflection of her brother in paolo (because he'd taken care of the sforza problem at least temporarily) back to back with cesare convincing a hesitant ursula to sleep with him by telling her she might have both his heart and body at her mercy when he really (perhaps unconsciously) means she's a surrogate for lucrezia and then cutting to lucrezia with her skirts pulled up under paolo asking if a good thing can come from a bad thing and then flipping him over, so it ends with her on top and once again it cuts back to cesare and ursula, also having sex with cesare in the dominate position. LIKE REFLECTIONS OF EACH OTHER.
#text#the borgias#lucrezia x cesare#paolo#ursula bonadeo#I MEAN NEIL IF YOU WERE SO AGAINST GOING INTO INCESTUOUS WATERS WITH LUCREZIA AND CESARE#THEN WHY DID YOU ALLOW SHIT LIKE THIS?!?!??#BACK TO BACK SCENES OF THEM WITH THEIR S1 LOVERS#(well cesare's only other 'lover' beside lucrezia)#anyway this is really me just calling bullshit on neil claiming they weren't gonna go there#you literally wrote one of the best love stories do you not realize that dude?!?#BETWEEN SIBLINGS LMAOOO#I know that man thinks he's going to hell for it too#and you know what he probably should#because what do you mean he made the entire audience have no choice but to ship siblings?#(half joking)
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Cap's got a new voice claim! feat. a tiny bit of Sparrows n her's unchanged vc because 1. it's cute to hear them together and 2. I snorted. The vibes are so different
[songs: So Familiar by Jean Castel and Driving Myself Home by Rose Betts]
#rw#oc tag#oc: caper of euros#oc: three sparrows#philosophy sessions au#ramble time. kai ninyago as Capie of Rossie wasn't Bad but i've been working on him lately- like looking into his faults their causes their#-evolution and what role he's supposed to play beyond Row's death (esp. in Preacher's life (Euros manages to be terrifying for the kid))#n i came to the conclusion that he didn't sound Sharp enough. and bratty but like in a teenager boy band kind of way. oh he'd hate that-#-kinda music </3 fuckin european posh kid#the ''tragedy'' of 'Ros on here is that back when i was answerin questions with the chars 'Ros n 'Row were constantly together and that-#-didn't allow them to really show who they are because they bring out the best in each other. Sparrows is braver with him having her back-#-and he's not a rude fucker (one of the reasons i turned off asks is cuz i figured they weren't actually helpful. only stressed me out n-#-as result the world/character building became lackluster)#Euros is still a silly guy who's scared to hurt someone/thing physically! (his inspos are kai ninyago s0kka and kuzc0 so)#but ill be damned if i let any of my characters be *just* a silly guy that is fucking obnoxious#each of these fuckers is a psychological experiment. also sick shit: new 'Ros vc is french apparently :)#he can sing Zephyr songs in Her Tongue™... get it anime chin boy get that multilinguality
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Frustrating when a VC-funded company gets credit for being the "first" and the "leader," when they had a sub-component demo the same week we had a full-system demo. Like, we are easily 5-10 years ahead of them, it's ridiculous; their approach isn't even yet proven to work. But they get science youtubers talking about them.
Because they're VC-funded, they have a marketing/press department.
And because we're an employee-owned company working off of government contracts, well, most government contracts get slapped with an ITAR label (an old Cold-War-era law saying basically sharing scientific information counts as illegally selling arms/munitions). So if you want to publicize your work, including your company's products, you have to appeal that label. (Universities have specifically negotiated a blanket exemption, so if you spend your whole life in academic science you might never even know about this.)
(My previous employer filed those appeals several times a year in order to do press releases and publish journal articles and apply for patents. I think every single information-release appeal they filed went through, because there's no reason any of this stuff should be labeled as arms--it's literally the same stuff universities are doing. My current employer is afraid to, which I think is wrong-headed; at worst they'll just say no, and anyway, our non-restricted competitors are giving fucking lab tours to youtubers.)
#these restrictions mean you also can't have employees on visas working on these projects#my previous employer tried to appeal that too and failed--they were only able to appeal the dissemination of information part#so we had locked labs that my international coworkers weren't allowed in#(one got a green card and was allowed in eventually)#ironically the VC-funded company is doing it the same way I did it in my PhD thesis#two other people at the company did this stuff in their post-docs#all of us are over 40 (one guy is over 50 I'm pretty sure) so this is not a new technique--I got two MINOR papers on it 16 years ago#the MAJOR papers are like 25 years old#and we're all convinced it's NOT the right approach#granted the technique we are using is about 30 years old#in my literal thesis defense one of my committee members asked why I was using the technique the VC companies are now using#and if I had done the math to prove it was superior to the older technique#and I was like--everyone knows the new technique is superior that's why it's trendy#and my advisor (who was a genius) said the same thing and that it wasn't a fair question#but the guy who asked it was an ancient theorist who REALLY knew what he was talking about#and in retrospect he was completely right--I should have done the math comparing the techniques and the older technique IS better#a few weeks into my job here I did the math and found that if you use the BEST version of the new technique--one that only one group#has demonstrated can even be done and they didn't get all the way to the point of demonstrating an application like this#and you assume some generous efficiency numbers#it breaks even with the old technique#that's not what this VC group is doing so... not a chance lol
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bro there's such a dumb argument going on on my bus rn wtf
#this person's like “you can't have bluetooth headphones here they weren't allowed at my old school”#and the other kids are giving dumb excuses#like just say “the rules here aren't the same as the ones at your old school”#omg i hate dumb arguments#/negative#babna 😨
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Sparkstember day 22 & day 23 winning combo: Revenge Of Two Hands One Mouth Excerpts from The Seduction Of Ingmar Bergman:
"I Am Ingmar Bergman"
The Studio Commissary
Limo Driver (sang by Russell)
"Oh My God"
#yeah they did different songs!!! :D The Studio Commissary is my favourite song from The Seduction and#this version of Limo Driver is one of my favourite vocal performances by Russell EVER#(ROTHOM had a different set list and different performances to THOM - but there's less material out there)#(for most of that tour people were not allowed to record - we weren't allowed to make charcoal drawings either (this was on a poster XD))#anway some US audiences did manage to record some stuff and I am grateful for it!!!#no video of nicotina though (that was the best)#katherine hepburn should be out there somewhere too#(anway go and let this stuff blow you away)#(I am way too eager to talk thom all day but it's already so late and i've got stuff left to do today)#the seduction of ingmar bergman#trothom#'i am ingmar bergman'#limo driver#the studio commissary#'oh my god'#2013#10's#sparks#ron mael#russell mael#sparkstember day 22#sparkstember day 23#sparkstember#november 6 2013#beret
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Sometimes I think of Amy Pond, who grew up being called mad by those who wielded the word as a tool of exclusion and shame —
Amy Pond, who though forced into the hands of four psychiatrists, still clung to that which they called madness until those systems which elevate psychosocial conformity above humanity stripped it from her —
Amy Pond, whose imaginary friend reappeared for a single hour after twelve years and reignited that faith before disappearing for two more years —
Amy Pond, who spent those those two years under the same implicit threat ingrained in her through psychiatric violence, and thus began to believe the man who stopped the invasion was “just a madman with a box,” only for him to agree, and to also call her “mad, impossible Amy Pond,” reframing madness as non-negative for the first time in her life —
Amy Pond, who ignored the disembodied voice of her imaginary friend even as she ran away with him for real, who still lived each day with the traumatic internalization of deviancy dictated upon her by the psychiatric-industrial complex that shaped her from childhood —
Amy Pond, who wouldn't acknowledge the Doctor's voice, such that it took an Angel in her eye that was literally killing her to ensure she couldn't reality check herself —
Amy Pond, who stood before a room which muttered about “the psychiatrists we brought her to,” and though afraid, escaped their rigid parameters of acceptable existence.
#I like seeing it as indicating she began hearing his voice when he was gone for all those years! why else wouldn't she say anything?#actually psychotic Amy agenda#Amy Pond#eleventh doctor#reclaimed language#oh look its another antipsychiatry themed doctor who post#sumn abt in Fairies At The Bottom Of The Garden audio AND Imaginary Enemies comic we see Amelia bein called slurs against psychotic people#(shes called psycho in both)#like!!! and SO MUCH OF AMYS STORY is about her claiming her agency in ways that previous companions weren't allowed to-#companions whose status as a Wife was a signifier of an to end of their value individually- 'this is no place for a married woman' etc#in some cases Wife-ness forced upon them *as* a denial of agency 'I spent all that time trying to find you I'm not going back now!' etc#whereas Amys story deconstructs that; Amys “Choice” is an illusion- Amy being a Wife doesn't demote her agency as an companion#anyways I love that aspect of reclaimed agency for Amy but ALSO#“madness” as an expression of agency against systems of oppression is SO relevant. the mind defends itself and the alternative isnt better#the oppressive system in this case being ableist structures and the psychiatric system ITSELF which is a whole other layer#the moral being that even if the Doctor WAS a delusion? he'd still be a needed coping mechanism for a child who says “ppl always leave”#and instead of examining her feelings of abandonment they insist 'aLiENs DoNt ExIsT' as seen in the 'sTaRs DoNt ExIsT' psychiatrist in TBB#they don't care that she's in PAIN- why would they?- they just care that she's 'abnormal' and therefore not deserving of humanity#(eleventh) doctor is neurodivergent tag#I mean technically this is about Amy but I once (twice) used that tag on the post about the Master. its the spirit of it!#and Amy Pond + her Raggedy Doctor as “mad” people is very *chefs kiss*#((you know what im putting the tag on my last Amy post :D ))#Mels experienced this very differently and I'll make a post about her at some point- I just wanna make sure my points are got across better#sumn abt Amelia's “crazy” was Mels' “delinquency.” Amy treated as if she doesn't know her own life while Mels treated as threatening#sumn abt adultification of Black girls while Amy is infantilized#Amy Pond who could rewrite reality in a reborn universe because she grew up with a Crack in her wall that no one believed was special —#ableism#saneism#unreality#because I mean Amy's stand against psychiatric dehumanization was to REWRITE THE UNIVERSE with her Crack powers
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