#and they both know that sorta but every time he does it it freaks them both out

[tulsaspubliclibrarian]

HC that sometimes when Pony’s not thinking he’ll call Darry ‘sir’ and the two of them will just stare at each other for a while cause neither of them can figure out when Darry started seeming old enough to be called ‘sir’

[redr0sewrites]

🪻A/n: general black sapphire x reader hcs ! i have a few black sapphire asks, but i wanted to do this 1st so i could figure out his characterization

🪻 Cw: fluff, smut, mentions of possessiveness and jealousy, exhibitionism, roleplay, dirty talk

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Black Sapphire Cookie is, if anything, a flamboyant lover. he's very theatrical and always looking to impress you, and truly doesn't care if he receives good or bad attention from you. however, it does take a lot of effort for him to truly be in a relationship with you. getting him to be honest, open, and loving with you is certainly a feat, and i think any sort of relationship with him takes a lot of time. he's used to deceit after all, and is not so familiar with romance. sure, he knows the performative side of being a couple, such as expensive dates and flashy gifts, but the intimacy part? yeaaa it takes him a while.

i think he'd be a bit of a bully when he first met you- ESPECIALLY if you're favored by Shadow Milk Cookie. he's not used to having to vie for his leader's attention, and can be very intense in trying to almost humiliate you? but what he doesn't realize is that this strange and very unusual and almost fun wait what obsession is also simultaneously fueled by him wanting your attention all to himself..,,,,

he's pulling every trick in the book to piss you off. from pranks to stealing your items or spreading rumors, he's very adamant about making it verrrrryyyyy obvious that he absolutely totally hates your guts and feels no other feelings towards you ! yup! does the fact that he finds it absolutely disgustingly attractive when you get mad at him have anything to do with it? the world will never know ! (Shadow Milk and Caramel Apple Cookie are pleading with him to grow a spine and realize his feelings.)

over time you start to see through his act though. i think that, no matter how hard he tries, Black Sapphire just Cannot hide that he does actually care for you and soon he sorta switches from wanting your negative attention to wanting your positive attention

you'd probably get whiplash ngl, like all of a sudden he went from trying to make you MISERABLE and/or being a freak to complimenting you and spreading rumors that you're both together??? sorry???? did you hit your head and die???? bc who r u and what have you done to Black Sapphire Cookie???

i think Black Sapphire Cookie would be the one to confess, but i do also think that you'd have to do some prying first. like you ask him "heyyy did you start that rumor that we're dating....?" and he'd just be like. "yes. we are now." and then confess

when it comes to the actual relationship, he has an idea on how romance works, but he hasn't gotten much actual soulful relationship experience and can be a bit unconventional at first- not cruel or anything, but almost awkward in a sense ?

Black Sapphire would not want to screw this up. your genuinely very important to him and, even though he doesn't like to admit it, he does care for you- he just can't express it very well. one thing that he does have going for him is his charm, so he'd try to be very superficial and flirtatious in the beginning of the relationship. however, if you see through his facade, while at first i think he'd be caught off guard, i do think that he would in turn start to (try to) be more genuine

its a slow process, but dramatic pda and overzealous compliments slowly start to turn into something else- something a bit softer. not that he doesn't adore showering you in affection, he still has a theatrical flair after all, but it becomes more tailored to your preferences. Black Sapphire would start paying more attention and begin appreciating you more, not just for your entertainment value but for you as a whole.

not only does he become more loving, but i also think that Black Sapphire would become a bit more possessive as well. witches forbid some cookie tries to do you wrong, because not only is he going to beat them up, but he will also proceed to belittle them and spread the most horrendous rumors on his radio show. he has a bit of a jealousy streak, and if you start spending too much time with others he'll definitely get a bit pouty

speaking of, i think quality time would be very important to him in a relationship. he quite enjoys just following you around while you do your daily tasks, almost like a guard dog. he likes when you turn to him for help, relishes being useful for you- and you can use this to your advantage. he loves it. whats in it for you? well, in turn, you get one of the most dramatic and powerful cookies to be comically miffed about carrying around your egregious amount of shopping bags while trailing behind you with an irritated expression on his face. (he's carrying too much to be able to hold hands with you, and now his feelings are hurt. he will not admit this.)

however, as much as he loves spending time with you, this isn't the thing he values the most- i actually think he'd hold words of affirmation to a very high importance. now, you may be thinking, isn't he like, very big on lying and not being true to his word? yes. does he expect that of others? yes! which is why he believes words of affirmation to be so important!!! while he may not admit it, just a few truthful words of affection means more to him than you will ever know. the truth is hard to find in his world, and i think that once he realizes you deeply, truly mean what you say, Black Sapphire craves your praise like an addictive drug he just can't get off of

when it comes to dates, i think that Black Sapphire Cookie would prefer elegant dates, usually with some sort of theatrical twist or dramatic flair. maybe some sort of party or gala, where he can parade around and show you off while simultaneously spreading his infectious gossip !

ultimately, while a relationship with him can take a lot of work, i do think that Black Sapphire Cookie can grow to be almost normal and loving. he is still a follower of deceit after all, and i think he'd thrive best in a relationship with someone who is more than willing to let him be as freaky and fucked up as he is without trying to change him <3

do not (PLEASE DO) get me started on yandere Black Sapphire Cookie DONT DO NOT DONT LET ME BC I WONT SHUT UP PLEEEEEASEEE

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definitely a switch. i actually do think Black Sapphire would have a slight preference for being more dominant though, simply because he can be a bit of a control freak

he is a very versatile switch though. he can be a controlling heavy dom or the brattiest sub you've ever seen. he LOVES being put in his place, but is also big on the reverse

before you both even officially get together, Black Sapphire already fantasizes about you a lot. you're the subject of his admiration, and also his lust, and he spends a lot of time imagining not only what he'd like to do to you, but what you'd be into. would you be quiet or loud in bed? squirmy or still? would you cry if he degrades you, would you let him tie you down? the list is endless. he's definitely spent more than a few late nights pathetically fisting his twitching cock to the thought of you, fantasizing about his deepest and darkest desires.

when it comes to kinks, Black Sapphire Cookie has a lot. exhibitionism is definitely the first one that comes to mind, he loves showing you off and doesn't mind fucking you with his microphone in hearing distance, mocking you and forcing you to be quiet lest his microphone pick up the audio and broadcast your moans across all of Earthbread. also doesn't mind bottoming in situations such as this, the thrill of being caught just turns him on 10 times more

also big on roleplay, especially in this sort of scenario. loves roleplay scenarios that involve you both getting caught, or follow the premise of him taking you in front of a crowd or something of the like. he gets super into character when it comes to roleplay, and his radio show persona will almost certainly make an appearance.

degrading and praise is HUGE for him, both giving and receiving. he can be a little mean during sex, but that doesn't indicate that Black Sapphire Cookie doesn't like to reward you as well. it can give you whiplash just how quickly he can swing from taunting you and belittling you mercilessly while you gush and moan to suddenly praising you and peppering you with kisses- it truly depends on his mood

the majority of his dirty talk is degradation, even when he's subbing, Black Sapphire Cookie always has something nasty to say. he just can't resist teasing you, and lovessss fighting for dominance when it comes to dirty talk

edging and overstimulation are yet another favorite of his, as he just loves to see you squirm. theres nothing more pleasing to Black Sapphire Cookie than to make you beg for pleasure, and he also finds it hot when you cry- probably tying into some sort of dacryphilia kink,,,

as previously mentioned, he's a pretty big fan of roleplay, and most of the time its very gameshow/radio host-esque, as he looovesss playing into his own professional persona. however, i do think Black Sapphire Cookie would be into some costume play, specifically on you, like dollification and something of the like. at the very least, he just finds it very attractive to see you dressed up, and loves going to events with you where you're both dressed fancy.

super into shibari or any sort of instances in which you or himself are tied up. he can be quite creative with it too, with tons of different positions and the addition of many different toys always making it to be an exciting experience. sometimes, when he wants to punish you, he'll tie you up with a vibrator with a vibrator attached to your cunt/cock and see just how many orgasms he can wring from you

Black Sapphire Cookie has a pretty high libido, and so he definitely masturbates a lot. as previously stated, he is incredibly into exhibitionism, and looovessss orchestrating scenarios in which you catch him masturbating. he's a bit pathetic when he masturbates in my mind, he has a bit of a high stress job and i think he'd be super pent up a lot. sometimes, when his hand just isn't working for him, he'll turn to humping a pillow and pretending it's you just to reach some sort of release. this is the only time he'll ever be a little embarrassed if you catch him, but the embarrassment only turns him on more.

overall, Black Sapphire Cookie is a pretty experimental lover in bed, and has a lot of characteristic charm that makes him a great partner

this is basically like. character development via me forcing him into a relationship. this took way too long to write omfg. i am still STRUGGLING with his characterization and wanted like. a reference to look back to for when i complete the rest of my requests ! hes soo fine but also. so nuanced. ANYWAYS HOPE U ENJOYED SEND IN MORE ASKS >:)

[evilminji]

Okay! Back with THIS Because it hasn't left me alone!

I can? So clearly see it?

The System, arbiter of what Is and Is Not narratively satisfying. Watching through the back of OCs eyes, as it has been, the entire fucking time. Rarely chiming in. Because they, The System (both plural and the Organization), have been running different scenarios with this particular Story. Different Transmigrators and set ups.

Because of the wildly unusual... success? Outlier? The freak Event™ with that Shen Qingqui stand in. (It was CRAZY, man.)

Whole thing got bumped over to R&D, which is here, for Professional Poking At™. And let me TELL ya! There has been some WILD reactions! Half these characters go "hmmm... I have decided to BURN THE WORLD DOWN" at the drop of a hat!

Fascinating~! ( o O-O)c/ *scribbles notes*

Which? Leads to That Moment™. The Moment Luo Binghe goes Too Far, narratively, to retain his Hero title. Even within the loose bounds of a Stalion Protagonist. All? WHILE THE SYSTEM IS WATCHING.

Because it's ONE thing? To return "a hundred fold" an ill done against you. Even if, in reality, that is WILDLY disproportionate. Horrifically so. It breaks hands for minor bruises. Burns homes, for insults payed by children. Creates ugliness in a world that desperately does not need more of it.

However? Oc? Narratively? Was off on her Peak. Nothing but KIND every time they crossed paths. A distant, coveted, elder sister like figure. Stopped bullies, healed wounds, hurt no one. By his own Narrative "rules"? She should be untouchable.

If he was acting like a Protagonist.

But a fall from grace? The tragedy of a good man, corrupted by the cycle of abuse and the legendary Heart Demon Sword Xin Mo? A VILLIAN made of "what could have been" and "our sins come back to haunt us"? Oh~ how the world was Never FAIR! Never KIND! Look how he lashes out!!

Better reassign him. How INTERESTING.

Good thing there's always a BACK UP. All they got to do? Is pop Gongyi Xiao into the Role! And there we go! Huh. Would you look at that. Whole thing got so much more stable. Bit more generic, yes, but he IS an everyman sort. And the supporting cast makes up for it! Look how much MORE can be supported! Fascinating~

Like? Suddenly Tianlang-jun is getting out from under that mountain. Because he's no longer blocked by the "we can't have someone Stronger then the Protagonist"! Cause there's LOTS of cultivators stronger then Gongyi! He's still learning! Growing! That's not the POINT of his journey.

And? Gongyi? Looks a hell of a lot like Binghe. Who? Looks damn near identical?? To his mom. It's one of the horrifying Truth's Gongyi will discover about his Sect and Sect Leader! The man's sick obsession with the honorable Miss Su Xiyan. Whom he resembles.

Imagine.

Being Tianlang-jun. And the boy who helps frees you? Not the sick dog that is your son. A living manifestation of everything that went wrong, there at the end. But... a boy. Proud and honorable. With his vicious little girlfriend. Like all the parts of Su Xiyan you fell in love with, before it all fell apart.

That vicious little thing, the daughter of the man who coveted your wife. So sickened by him, she proclaims she HAS no father. Ha ha... well, now. You know what? Can't have a wedding without someone to give such a vicious little princess away! Call me, father, brat. For I have no son. Just a nephew.

Cause? Little palace mistress? Spending this whole ass time? Learning to be Less Of A Bitch... An Asshole... uuuuh, mean. She's... working on it! Okay!? It's... it's a LOT to unlearn. Her first instinct is to hit people! Sneer and insult the "rabble". She... she KNOWS better. Intellectually. But it's... it's so ingrained.

Gongyi helps. A LOT. And maybe? She makes... friends? Like... not "oh you follow me because you fear me or want Fathers power/money" but like? Actually LIKE me as a person friends! It's wild! She learns to cook... a few things.... sorta...

They didn't burn.

Gongyi ate them! So it couldn't have been THAT bad! She Cooked!! Shut UP!!!!!

She even touched a snake! And DIDN'T kill it! Even though it was gross and scared her! Gongyi caught it. And held it very still. So she could touch it with just one finger. And? Not AS gross as she thought. Not slimy at all! In fact? Surprisingly sweet. She bravely put it back in the bushes. Because they are more scared of us then we are of them!

Turns out it was a Demon, though. Who is now her brother.

Who is FAR to soft. Honestly! How he survived without her to protect him? A miracle. Surely bullied every day. General, her ASS. Hmmph! *proceeds to lovingly bully her new family, much to the approval of demons everywhere*

And like? With the lose of Protagonist statue? Comes the lose of the aura that protected him. Binghe goes FULL Bingge. Xin Mo has a FEILD DAY. It's the God damn SHINING up in this palace. Wakin up to that man standing over OC with his FUCKIN CURSED SWORD and glowing eyes in the dark, despite the fact that she barred and sealed the door with like fifteen different arrays. Not even blinking. Just... a set of red, glowing, eyes and that fucking mark.

Sweet Merciful FUCK™

Could... could you NOT? This is horrifying, dude. She'd ask if you were GOOD but... like... you're clearly NOT. Please Cease at once.

Like? Mobei-jun is regretting everything. Barely holding his lands together under this mad man. Shang Qinghua is too busy using his actually relevant "how to keep yourself alive under an unstable Demon far stronger then you" expertise for the good of his King to... you know... escape. Not that any of them COULD.

Crazy pants over here would fucking FIND them.

Ha ha.... oh god, this is hell, isn't it?

But hey! At least Mobei-jun, who isn't an idiot, is like "waaaait a second. This advice is familiar... was... was I the unstable demon?" *customer service smile* "fuck™. No Wonder you keep trying to leave and betray me. This is awful. I was a paranoid little shit of a child, I will try to do better." "I accept bribes?" "I can do bribes." "Deal, my king."

All while? Cang Qiong Mountain Sect is LOSING THEIR SHIT. Their Talismans (etc) Peak Lord? Feral. Foaming at the mouth. Where??! Is his BABY!? His PRIZED Disciple!? His PRIDE AND JOY!? Off being MOLESTED by some DEMON SCUM! Kidnapped! Absconded with!! Look at his Head Disciple! They are IN TEARS!

Shen Jiu? Seething. Should have killed the little fucker when he HAD THE CHANCE. Did he KNOW he was a demon? No. But that irrelevant! He actually LIKED that Disciple! And the beast STOLE her to do gods only knows WHAT sort of depraved things to her! We should kill him. We should kill EVERYTHING.

(He is SO CALM.)

Old Palace Master probably dragging his feet. Making this about him. Other Sect quibbling. No doubt there's a ballad about the Noble Sacrifice of Maiden Oc to stop the Dread Demon Binghe (who tricked us all). She's gonna hate it. Never be able to escape it. Everyone and their brother is gonna ASSUME shit. Where the fuck is that virginity testing sword?! He was creepy AF and trapped me in his castle! He didn't-!

Don't worry! Says local Troll, Tianlang-jun. I will take responsibility for my son's terrible, terrible crimes! By killing him and marrying you! Thus making you an honest and honorable woman! >:3 *can legit tell nothing has happened, but lives for The Drama and has over a decade to make up for*

MOTHER FUCKER!

*everyone else is losing their minds, insisting that NO, it should be one of the present Honored Cultivators. Don't Worry Oc! It's gonna be okay!* (why the FUCK do ya'll even assume she...! *Sigh* you know what? Fine. Sure. I'll deal with this later...)

@mayfay @legitimatesatanspawn @babbling-babull @spidori @hdgnj @leftnotright

[ambrosialdesire]

OMG i would like to request yandere bertolt x paradis reader.you can pick whatever part of the timeline you want, maybe he managed to survive to take her to marly, or maybe she just tried to escape on marly or paradis, or maybe he just kidnapped her I don't really care

Thank you

desiderate

18+ DARK CONTENT BELOW, MINORS AND BLANK BLOGS DNI

pairing: s4 bertolt x fem!reader word count: 9.5k warnings + tags: general yandere and obsessive themes, unhealthy relationships, some explicit sexual content, s4 bertolt au, implied non-con, violence, kidnapping mention, stalking, forced kissing (kinda dubcon), slight groping, kinda masochistic bertolt, cigarette usage/smoking, blood kink, knife kink, slight voyeurism, male masturbation mention, panty jerking off mention (?), slight body mutilation, scarification implications, all characters are 18+ synopsis: they've brought you here on this foreign land, a land that was once believed to be completely overrun with monsters. you've been living pretty easy with this new life of yours but it's hard to forget about what he's done to your old home. this singular man, capable of complete destruction despite his nervous demeanor. there may be humans here but the true monster still remained, watching your every move until he was ready to strike. a/n: IM NGL IVE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO REQUEST BERTOLT LMFAO i made bro a creep cause i feel like between bertie and reiner, bertie definitely has the tendency to be lurking and stalking behind corners and constantly following you and finding to opportunity to snatch your underwear to jerk off into LOL the reference that i used for s4 bertolt is this fanart that was used in a tiktok edit but i have no idea who made the art and it's making me scream bc it's definitely how i imagine what he looks like (but with thicker chin stubble) and i want to give the right creds (if you look up s4 bertolt/bertholdt fanart on google and see a tiktok image of him smoking, that's what i'm talking about but i want to give actual creds to the artist) also mb on the smoking scenes idk how it feels to smoke but i do sorta know the distinct smell of it this is also in no way connected to the cacoëthes series just to let yall know hehe i hope you enjoy this anon! thank sm for your request!! and sorry for the wait LOL note: please keep in mind of the tags above and do not proceed if triggering or uncomfortable, especially if you are a minor!! do not read my or any other writers' dark content if you are underaged. this is a fictional work and does not reflect irl morals, do not believe this is how a real romance works or functions.

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"Call off your damn hound Reiner, I'm getting sick of his shit."

Pushing past the blond as you entered his home, you made your way to his dining table. You huffed as you sat down, leaning back against the chair as your boot-covered legs kicked up on the wooden table. Reiner rolled his eyes, pushing them back down to the ground with a heavy thud. He crossed his arms, leaning on the wall adjacent from where you sat.

"A hello first would suffice. What's Bertolt getting himself into again?"

"My business!" Exasperated, you threw your hands over your face. "He keeps fucking following me and it's starting to freak me out. You guys know I'm not suspicious anymore, there's no way for me to be able to contact Paradis Island at all."

Saying your old home's name had started to feel foreign on your tongue unfortunately. It's been over four years since you've been whisked away by these two assholes and living here has been nothing but a thorn on your side. You worked under the Warrior Unit, mostly a simple soldier for both Bertolt and Reiner to boss around for basic things. It's nothing different from your time as a scout but it's frustrating working for them instead of with them.

You don't know why they took you away with them instead of breaking out their other accomplice, Annie, but after a handful of screaming, punching, kicking, and biting from you, they managed to drag you off to the boat. You stayed there for an estimated week or so with random strangers coming and going, poking and prodding at you as if you were one of Hange's experiments on Eren and randomly caught Titans.

The two of them finally came back one random night unconscious, battered and beaten to the point where their Titan healing powers couldn't even help them fast enough. You needed them alive — how else were you going to manage escaping this unknown place of theirs — so you helped tend to their wounds, staying at their sides until they were finally awake.

Once they were conscious enough, you punched Reiner square on the nose, spinning around to smash your knuckles right into Bertolt's cheek. Your hand was throbbing in pain but the burning fury you felt was stronger. By the time they woke up, the boat already was leaving the docks, and now you were most likely already miles away from home.

"You fucking assholes."

Blood was dripping down his nose, while a cut just barely formed on the bruised skin of the other. It was in vain however. Steam was steadily coming out of the two of them, meaning that the healing was back in working condition.

"FUCK! I didn't even say anything yet!" Reiner scowled as he placed his hands around his nose, snapping it back in place with a nauseating crack.

Bertolt laid there quietly however, lanky fingers brushing against the welt on his face but he was unable to meet your stare. Tears started streaming down your face, your body crumpling to the floor. You were completely hurt, you trusted these two like they were family, especially Bertolt. Was he really who you thought he was? How could they do this to you? To everyone back in Paradis?

"Why? Why me?"

The two of them fell even more silent, Reiner looking up at the ceiling while Bertolt closed his eyes shut as if he was the one that was currently going through it.

"Well say something goddamnit! Why am I here?" You were beyond angry, voice crackling from how loud you were screaming at them. "Tell me!"

Bertolt finally opened his eyes, pale green staring into yours. You couldn't see him. There was only the Colossal Titan looking down at you as if you were nothing but an insignificant speck on the wall. He opened his mouth, uttering remorselessly one phrase that made you even more resentful of their entire beings.

"I'm sorry."

Now you were here after long months of being processed and interviewed over and over by many Marleyan higher-ups, eventually and finally gaining their trust. You knew they still didn't like you but who really gives a shit, they left you alive and that's all you could be grateful for.

Since you directly worked underneath the two Titan shifters, they were able to get you housing and some basic supplies for you to be able to function properly in their society, as well as a good amount of pocket money to buy whatever you needed. You didn't go out of the house for a month though, still horribly and rightfully angry at them. You were also afraid of the idea that you'd get mobbed immediately once you stepped out and killed on sight by the locals.

Bertolt was the one that finally knocked on your door, tired and baggy eyes focused on the peephole. Part of you wanted to keep the door closed and ignore his presence, but he might report you or something stupidly petty. When you opened it up, the faint waft of bitter tobacco invaded your senses, nose wrinkling at the unfamiliar smell.

As you looked up at him, he felt and looked even more like a stranger than a past friend. It's only been a month but it looked like he had gotten broader at the shoulders and taller. He was wearing a beige uniform, a white undershirt and black tie peeking out of the chest of the long, belted trench coat. His black hair was partially pushed back with gel, slightly being more grown out from the last time you saw him. The way he held himself now in Marley was completely different from Paradis, an eerie calmness surrounding his person. He used to hunch into himself when he was a trainee and a soldier, but now his back was rigid and straight, arms hidden neatly behind his back. The posture reminded you of the utmost dedicated soldiers in the Scout Regiment.

"You haven't been going to work." He softly spoke, his head slightly tilting to the side.

"So?"

"Failure to comply means termination. Termination means you'll get kicked out of Marley. Getting kicked out of Marley means death." Alright, straight to the point. Even the way he was speaking sounded different, as if he had suddenly gained a newfound confidence that was only present here in his homeland.

"You guys really thought I was able to function properly in a new continent where everything is different in a few months? Not to mention, I'm still pissed off at the two of you but fine. I'll come in tomorrow. Goodbye." You proceeded to close the door on him but he stopped it with his boot. Groaning under your breath, you tried pushing at the door so he could back off, but it was to no avail.

His hand grabbed the side of the door and heaved it open with little struggle, letting himself in as you toppled back into the ground from the force.

"You haven't been going out at all. When's the last time you bought groceries?" You flinched, avoiding his judging gaze. How did he know?

"Last month." You muttered as you got up from the ground, brushing yourself off.

Bertolt sighed, glancing off to the side. "Okay. I'll wait here for 15 minutes. Go get dressed and get your money, I'll help you navigate the markets."

You didn't want to but food was definitely running low, and you don't know how long the canned meat in your pantry was going to last in your anger-riddled protest. You made your way upstairs, rummaging through the closet and grabbing the cleanest clothes you were able to find and put on within the time limit he gave. Making your way back down, you found him in the exact same spot, his eyes glancing around the living room.

"Alright. Let's go and we're going to make it quick. I don't think I can stomach standing next to you for this long." You bitterly grumbled, moodily pulling the door open. Bertolt followed after, closing the door for you and taking the lead. What sucked even more was how quickly you had to dash after him, his steps being too large for you to have a steady pace next to him. Maybe him being a near giant compared to a normal person — you noticed as the two of you walked through crowds of people — was thanks to the Titan DNA.

Each passerby gave you a look as you walked on through but never spared a second glance, which was good. You knew that you were an unfamiliar being, a foreigner that was never supposed to be here in the first place. The farmer's market was still open, vegetables and fruits neatly lined up in each stall. He did most of the talking, being able to haggle easier due to his status and the blaring armband that wrapped around his upper arm. You didn't like having to be publicly labeled, it felt like you were merely a product rather than a person.

You were focusing on a stall with jars of honey and jams when some person suddenly shoved you aside with their shoulder, body suddenly losing its balance due to the amount of groceries you were holding on one arm. You prepared for the impact of the cobbled ground but never felt it, instead feeling a firm hand snug in-between your curve of your side and another on your shoulder.

"Careful now." You opened your eyes, meeting his in shock once he steadied you back on your feet. Bertolt's face soon turned to a bright red, his hands quickly leaving you, and his gaze glancing away. Perhaps there really is still some semblance of the man you knew in your homeland.

"Th-thanks..." Adjusting the bag stiffly back up your arms, you proceeded forwards without him, leaving him behind at the stall. It became a usual thing eventually, he'd come over every two weeks to make sure you were fine and the two of you would go out buying your necessities for an hour or two. It didn't erase the fact that you still hated them, but at least he was helping you get comfortable in this strange new world.

You finally started going to work as promised, wearing an awkward and stuffy white uniform that made even the tangling straps of the cadet uniform pale in comparison. According to the paper that came with the uniform, you were to report to Reiner and Bertolt in one of the headquarters' rooms. However, the details were so vague that you were completely lost in the beginning, roaming the hallways without a clue where you were heading.

"Soldier. Face me."

You stiffened, turning around and straightening up. The tall man was vaguely familiar, a full blond beard lining his face and round spectacles hiding his eyes. His right hand raised up as if he was saying hello and you quickly returned the gesture, somewhat remembering that it was their version of a salute.

"Name and ranking?"

"Y/N L/N, er... I'm not sure of my ranking sir. I just know I'm assigned to work for the Vice Captain and one of the Warriors?" You shuffled your feet awkwardly and he nodded, gesturing his hand for you to follow him. He started scratching his ear as he walked, as if he was in thought. To you, he really felt familiar but you couldn't quite place where the feeling belonged.

"Ah yes," His eyes glanced at you, the blue color peeking out from behind the glasses. "Now I remember. You're Reiner and Bertolt's human souvenir from the devil island, aren't you?"

Is that what they called you? And how dare he call your home a devil island! A bubble of anger was rising within you, but you didn't want to take it out on the older man that was helping you find your way. He had to be a higher-up based on his demeanor and you'd rather not get in more trouble.

"...Yes sir, I am."

"You were supposed to be here a month ago." You cringed internally but nodded slowly.

"It's my fault sir. I've only been here for a few months and everything is too... new. I hope my absence didn't affect anything." The man simply hummed, stopping at a door with the words 'WARRIORS UNIT' neatly carved into the wood. You pulled the door for him, letting him saunter in before you entered.

"I found your little pet, you two." His hand pressed against the small of your back, pushing you forwards towards a table where the two of them sat. They looked completely exhausted and were partially bandaged up, quietly sparing a glance at you with a short wave.

You settled yourself in-between them, about to thank the man for helping you but he was already stepping away, going outside to light up a cigarette.

"Don't mind Zeke, he's just... eccentric like that. Hope he didn't offend you." Reiner pushed a pile of papers towards you to sort once you turned back to them, saying something about piling them from who sent them; the important files being from the commander and the Marleyan superiors and the unimportant files being from other soldiers. It slowly dawned on you that you became some sort of assistant to them, a glorified secretary for their war schemes.

"It's nothing too difficult, you're lucky to get this kind of work compared to us and the other Eldian soldiers." Bertolt slightly smiled, continuing to read a paper in his hands and you sighed quietly, beginning to sort. Part of you was grateful you didn't have to face war anymore, but the other part didn't want to be treated differently. Maybe the Marleyans thought that you'd defect once you were on the field or kill as many as you can with a weapon in your hands, going out in a blaze of glory. You never held a gun before though and it was most likely that everyone in this military could shoot you down before you could aim it at one person.

An hour or two passed by and you finished up the sorting, neatly tapping them together. It really wasn't a difficult task at all, were they going to make you do something else for today? You quietly waited for any orders, the two focused on their own thing until Reiner suddenly got up.

"I'll go get lunch for us. Y/N, you can relax for now, there's nothing else we need from you today. Good work." He ruffled the top of your head playfully, just like he did before after a training session in the corps. The blond soon left the room, leaving only Bertolt and you alone.

The two of you sat in silence, your hands fiddling with the seams of your uniform. Was sorting the only thing you're going to be doing during your time here? You'd quit within the month if that was the case but if not, maybe in due time you'll save enough money to open up your own shop. You've always wanted to sell clothing back in Paradis, just like your mother and father.

"You look good in the uniform." Bertolt finally mumbled out, the sound of a paper flipping over barely making it audible. You slightly flushed at the comment, diverting your attention to the closest wall in sight.

"Really? I feel like a wet cotton ball, it's so uncomfortable. The scouts uniform is way better." You grumbled, tugging at the cloth around your legs.

He slightly laughed at that, shaking his head. "No way. The scouts uniform was too tight, not to mention the straps were always so difficult to put on."

"Maybe it's cause you're a literal giant compared to everyone there. I just know they had to customize a whole other set for your ass." He snorted and started laughing, dropping the paper in his hand. You couldn't help but let out a few chuckles as well, crossing your arms together. The two of you bantered for a little bit longer and just for a second, it felt like you were right back home in the training corps canteen.

Everything fuzzed out in your hearing and you soon found yourself comparing home to here. The smells were different, not quite fresh as the countryside air and had a more smoky tone with every breath you took. The sights were different, more machinery was seen rather than grassy fields and trees. The people were different, there was no one recognizable to chat with besides your kidnappers. Everything here had entirely evolved and you were being forced to adapt to it. The realization made you feel a drop in your stomach, tears beginning to form in the corners of your eyes.

"Bertolt."

"Hm?"

"I want to go back home." Your voice was meek, heavy droplets falling down and staining the white fabric beneath you. His body stiffened and he got up from his chair, almost slamming it into the table when he pushed it in.

"This is your home." He responded coldly, a singe of irritation trailing off his words as he left the room, slamming the heavy door shut. You started to sob quietly, tightly holding onto the sides of your sleeved arms.

No it wasn't, and Bertolt knew it too.

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Your work schedule was simple: Monday to Wednesday from 9:30 am to 6 pm, you served the Warrior Unit. Every other day, you could do whatever you wanted and that was that. The pay was pretty good for a livable wage, but nothing special. No task you were given from Reiner or Zeke was too difficult either, it was usually just sending out letters to their superiors or sorting anything they wanted you to sort. To be honest, it felt like they were just tolerating you since the Marley government didn't want to deal with you anymore. It sucked but it's better than being belly-up in the ocean.

You haven't tried to make amends with Bertolt after that day because one, it was his fault so why would you apologize anyways and two, he hasn't been around that often in the office space. Reiner explained to you that there will be days, sometimes weeks or months where some or none of them will be here. Apparently when they came back with the failure to retrieve the Founding Titan, the loss of Annie and her Titan, and the inability to capture Eren's special Titan, some nations came together and declared war on Marley.

"Hopefully it won't be so often that we're going to be gone for long. Wouldn't want to have you sit at home and do nothing." Reiner teased with a slight nudge against your arm before downing his glass of liquor.

"I do nothing even when working. Maybe I'll pick up some new hobbies when you guys are gone, like knitting or cross-stitching."

Maybe you can give the creations to your neighbors since you were just doing it for fun. One of them is an expectant mother and since you had moved in, she had been nothing but kind to you. It would be nice to give something to her in return.

"Alright grandma." You elbowed his side hard, rolling your eyes. He grunted and started rubbing the affected area, grumbling under his breath about your temper.

"Where's Bertolt? Aren't you guys inseparable?" He suddenly cleared his throat, adjusting himself in his seat. Back in the training corps and the short time in the Survey Corps, you've rarely seen the two separated. Wherever Reiner went, Bertolt followed suit.

"Probably caught up in something. He'll be here soon, he never cancels without notice." He waved his hand dismissively and you thought none the wiser, tracing your finger around the rim of your glass before taking a swig.

"Already missing him?" You suddenly choked on the liquor, throat burning at the sensation. No way. No way in hell, you'd ever miss him. He could get swallowed up by another Pure Titan and you wouldn't even bat an eye. You'd laugh instead, basking in the blood that would gush out of his torn corpse.

Before you could even say anything back, a soft voice popped into the conversation. "Missing who?"

The two of you turned and there stood Marley's behemoth, still dressed to the nines in his uniform. Reiner greeted him happily, ignoring the question completely, turning towards the bartender and ordering another scotch for his friend. Bertolt settled right next to you, taking the glass in his hand and drinking up the entire thing in one go, some liquid spilling out of the corner of his lips. He quickly wiped it up with his thumb, his tongue peeking out and licking the remnants away. His cold green eyes glanced down at you suddenly, catching you staring at him.

A flush of heat went through your skin, quickly looking away to stare into your partially-full glass. The drinks kept on coming, the haze of alcohol filling everyone's systems. You were the least intoxicated, slowly taking in the new attitudes and information from your drunk companions. It wasn't much but they became more chatty, opening up about their lives before Paradis.

"I joined because of my mother." Reiner moved his glass towards the bartender, his head leaned up against his arm as he watched the brown liquid fill up his cup.

"Oh yeah?" He nodded, taking a sip from the newly refilled glass before speaking once more.

"She had high hopes that our family would've been whole again. Me, her, and my father. He's, uh—" He cleared his throat, turning his attention towards you. A faint dust of pink rested on his cheeks, a cheeky smile growing. "He's a Marley-blooded man, so y'know... I'm not really supposed to..."

"Exist." You muttered as you finished his sentence and he let out a soft laugh, nodding lightly before downing his drink again.

"Harsh, but more or less, you could say that's it. Compared to me though," The black-haired man closed his eyes, huffing softly. "Bertolt here is more tragic."

Curious but puzzled, you turned your attention towards him, his hand running through his gelled locks and he mumbled something under his breath before taking a shot. You did wonder a bit about how this man turned out to be the worst attacker on Paradis Island's humanity, it felt sickening thinking about a sweet little boy being trained into a horrid monster.

"You know I hate talking about it Reiner." The blond snorted, turning on his chair and leaning back on the bar's counter.

"C'mon. Let her in on your situation, after all—" He stood up, walking over to him and placing his hand over his shoulder, leaning in close to his ear that you almost barely caught what he said.

"You owe her that much."

Reiner made his way to the bathroom, leaving the two of you alone once more together. The thought of trying to decipher what he meant flew past your inebriated mind and so you sat in silence, instead thinking that you might as well make your way home now. It was probably already past midnight, and you were sure that you were waking up late with a massive headache. As you finalized your decision, turning in your stool and towards the door without a goodbye, the thump of glass hitting wood snapped you out of it.

"I was raised only by my dad." Bertolt started and you slowly turned back towards the counter, your full attention on him.

"Don't know what happened to my mom, he never really told me and I was never curious enough to ask. It was just the two of us for as long as I knew but even as a kid that could barely read, I knew that he wasn't... okay." His fists clenched together and you could hear the cracks of his joints from how tightly he was gripping.

"When you're born an Eldian and live in the farthest parts of the internment camps, medicine is hard to get by and treatment is even more difficult to obtain. The minute I became eligible to join, I took the opportunity." You don't know what compelled you in the moment, but you placed a hand on one of his fists. He started relaxing once he realized that you were touching him, still stiff as he reminisced further.

"Did they give him the meds?" Bertolt nodded, taking in a shallow breath.

"A few days right after I inherited the Colossal, they started giving him everything they promised and he was getting better day by day. It wasn't until I left for our mission in Paradis that his condition evolved into something worse." You swallowed nervously, slipping your fingers into his and holding his massive hand gently. His head turned towards you, his eyes soft as he looked into your gaze.

You've never seen or heard him be so vulnerable before, guilt forming in the pit of your stomach. For him, he was fighting a one-sided war against your home, all because he wanted to take care of his dad. Yet in return, he caused the displacement of so many from their families, ripping them apart with a few kicks into the walls.

"When Zeke came on Paradis and we finally met up, I asked him about my dad and he told me that despite all the medicine and treatment that he's been getting, he wasn't getting any better. I had to see him again, no matter if I had failed the original mission or not. I couldn't die on that island without being able to see him again and I just barely made it. Sometimes the way we escaped made me wonder how I even made it out of there. It was only for a few months that I got to spend with him once we came back, but he passed away in his sleep last month."

His hand tightened around yours, though not enough to break it. No wonder he started to look more disheveled and exhausted recently, his whole reason for getting where he is was now gone. You pitied him but that didn't excuse the murders of thousands he did in your homeland. At the same time, it didn't mean that you should bring that major fact up, not when he was currently grieving.

"I'm sorry Bertolt."

"It's alright, you don't have to pity me. I have more to be sorry about towards you and the others. I'll never be able to properly make it up, nothing I'll ever do will be enough to wash away the blood on my hands."

The two of you sat there in silence, a warm hand around one cold hand. You really should leave now, before Reiner comes back and you'll be stuck drinking even more than you wanted to. You attempted to finally slide off the wooden seat, but he clenched your hand gently and tugged you towards him instead. Your eyes fluttered in both confusion and tiredness as you stood in front of his sitting frame. Blinking once, his face appeared right in front of yours. His free hand slid behind and rested against the nape of your neck, feeling thin but calloused fingertips tenderly brush against the skin as he pulled you even closer.

Okay... this was getting a little too weird for your liking. Beginning to open your mouth to verbalize your annoyance and trying to move back, he then took the opportunity to press his lips against yours.

You could taste the alcohol that the three of you had been previously been consuming intertwine with the tobacco's bitterness of the cigarettes he used, a vagueness of something sweet brushing up against your tongue as he tried to coax you into returning the action. His stubble was rough against your skin the more he moved, digging deeper as he pressed further into your mouth.

You had half the mind to bite that damn muscle of his, but the warmth of both the alcohol and him was stupefying, hypnotizing. It felt like you were melting against him, a warmth pooling in your stomach and in-between your thighs. Slowly, you convinced yourself to return the kiss, gravitating into his embrace. It was stupid of you to do considering you hate the guy but hey, who doesn't do stupid shit every now and then? Fuck, you even started wrapping your arms around his neck and shoulders.

There wasn't much people in the bar anyways, either too drunk off their minds to care or simply ignoring the disgusting couple intertwining themselves in the public space. The bartender was off chatting with another patron, most likely used to the sight of a couple making their passion uncomfortably known to others. It's the Colossal Titan user, who on Marley dared tried to say something about it?

The hand that once was holding yours, grabbed at the crook of your back to draw you even more impossibly near him, then sliding down towards the curve of your ass. To your utmost surprise, he clutched and squeezed at the flesh firmly, feeling you up with this sudden confidence that you would never thought of him having before.

"Annie."

Sobriety hit you like a cold bucket of water splashing onto you once you heard her name slip through his swollen lips, taking no time to immediately shove the man right off of you. He just told you his story, that his dad had just died last month, and here he was, kissing and groping you and then suddenly calling out Annie's name. You were breathing hard, eyes wide as saucers as you stared down at him in shock.

"What the fuck? What the fuck!?"

Bertolt's hand reached out to you, as if he was trying to make you lift him back up. You've never felt so nauseated to hear those very words come out of his lips as a valid apology, like it was no big deal.

"I love you."

You ran.

You ran out of the bar, into the blackened sea of night, never once looking back. If you did, you were afraid of what you might see in his eyes or if he was chasing after you. With tears lingering in the corners of your eyes, one single thought remained.

Out of everyone in the squadron, why did it have to be him?

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For a month and a half the day after what happened, you never saw Bertolt in the office or around the internment zone.

It was probably the first time him and Reiner were ever separated for this long, the blond telling you that it was his own decision to be sent off into the battlefield alone. You wondered if he told him what he did to you after he came back from the bathroom, or excused why he was on the floor and why you were gone. Reiner never said anything about the incident, so it soon faded in the back of your mind into obscurity.

He wasn't your first kiss anyways, some now-dead nobody trainee back in the day was, and the two of you were drunk, stupid shit happens. Part of you also somewhat knew about Bertolt's fondness for the Female Titan user, originally not knowing about how close they were previously, but damn it. For a heated moment to be ruined like that left a sour taste in your mouth, and you couldn't help but hate him even more for it.

"He's back."

"Who?" Reiner's fist came down on the top of your head playfully, catching your attention from the paperwork.

"Y'know who. Better talk to him now before he passes out from exhaustion from the looks of it. Also, because I know you miss him~" He teased and you swatted his fist off of you, watching him as he walked off towards the main room laughing, leaving you with a pit in your stomach. You really didn't want to talk to him, even if a month had passed on by, but legally, he was your superior. Professionalism before personal feelings unfortunately.

You finally got up, walking slowly to the destination before taking in a deep breath and entering the medical unit. Bertolt was near an open window, a lit cigarette lazily nestled in-between his fingers as he stared out of it. He was the only person there and you swore that every time you saw him, he started to look more unrecognizable from his previous cadet days. His hair wasn't slicked back anymore, falling at the front of his eyes; in fact, you thought it might've grown out a little more from the last time you saw him. The Titan marks were still prominent on his face, like he had just transformed not long ago.

Wiping your clammy hands on your puffy uniform, you approached him, pulling up a chair nearby the bed and sitting down stiffly.

"Welcome back sir."

His head turned towards you and you swore that you felt the room grow colder as he gazed into you through the black strands of his messy hair. Maybe you were the only one that noticed, but his eyes were dead, hollow but still held some sharpness in those pale green irises. This was no longer the Bertolt you knew, this was a numbed man that got mentally thrown and torn apart in the arms of the constant war, the constant transforming, and the constant murder of many.

"Hit me."

"E-excuse me?" He must’ve gotten faster because you didn't realize how quickly he grabbed you until he pushed the palm against his healing skin. It was burning to the touch, as if you were right next to a blazing bonfire. Instinctively, you started to try and wiggle out of his grip but he held steady.

"Hit. Me." Bertolt's grip grew stronger around your wrist, fear creeping in through every cell in your body as you watched the surrounding skin pale from how hard he was holding. "That's an order."

You swallowed but nodded quickly in agreement, just so he can let go of you before any bones shatter. He immediately released you straight away, the action as fast as he previously took ahold of you and took a hit of the nearly burnt out stick. You had to hype yourself up for it, thinking back on every rotten memory you’ve had with him, balling up your fist and striking him as hard as possible where he originally placed your hand. The force made his head swing the other way, the cigarette butt dropping on the ground as your knuckles throbbed in agony. It was like directly punching a stony wall, not like the previous time you punched him on the boat to Marley.

You let go of the breath you didn’t even know you were holding, straightening back up as you held onto your wounded hand. "And how do you feel, Bertolt?"

Bertolt’s body didn’t move, but his hand began to slowly trailing up to the injury, pressing his fingers against the forming bruise. You flinched as he pushed his hair back to where you could finally see his eyes, exhaling the smoke that he previously took in through his nostrils. He glanced over in your direction and let out a soft chuckle, although you noticed that it didn't quite reach those dull eyes of his. There was one thought that lingered in your mind as you stared back into his gaze, that he must've gone crazy fighting in the frontlines.

"Good hit, make me bleed next time." ...What? "Though, I'm surprised that you decided to visit after... what we did the last time we saw each other."

Recovering quickly from trying to process what he just said at first, you cleared your throat, crossing your arms. "The Vice Captain requested me to visit his right hand man, who am I to refuse his wishes?"

He simply hummed in response, reaching for another cigarette in his pocket and his lighter. Placing the unlit stick at the side of his mouth, his eyes caught yours once more, a slight smirk forming. "When'd you start talking like the soldiers? You forget the years we've spent together already since I've been gone, or did you finally get in trouble for treating us like equals?"

You scoffed, pulling your lips in a thin line. "You're the one that gave me an order earlier, and I've had a recent revelation that I had to start acting like a subordinate rather your friend or buddy or whatever the fuck we are, so yeah, I guess it's the latter."

"Ahh, better watch your language then or I'll have to report you for profanity against a superior." Bertolt was of course joking, the mocking tone intertwining with his words. As you felt your eyebrow twitch in annoyance, the sound of lighter clicked and ignited, your eyes watching him pull the flame near.

"Y'know..." He started as he took in a drag, leaning his head back towards the ceiling and soon exhaling the smoke out slowly. "I've been thinking about you the entire time I was gone."

A heaviness plopped itself back on your shoulders, and you wanted nothing more but to excuse yourself out of his premises. You were about to say something to leave him alone, but he kept on talking, droning on and on about how he was counting down the days when he could finally see your face again. Bertolt mentioned that you were the only reason he kept on fighting, why he kept on killing so his commanders could see that he was doing such a swell job as their loyal Titan holder and let him leave early. What a horrible ideology, most of those people could've been innocents.

"And another thing, I kept thinking back on the kiss we shared that month ago." All the color drained from your face, turning and taking a step back to try and run, but felt his hand grasp onto the fabric right against your back. His voice had the same disdainfulness as before, a demandingness that you didn't even know he had in himself to project.

"Don't leave and turn back around. That is an order."

You grit your teeth, finally turning back around once he let go of your uniform and find him standing, his tall stature hovering over you. Nervousness crawled up your spine, flinching once you felt his cold fingers reach over to caress your jaw, tilting your head up to look at him. His eyes scanned your face, inspecting your features quietly before taking another drag of his cigarette. He then neared your face and press his lips against yours.

Recoiling at the abrupt kiss, you tried to push him away but the grip on your face was painfully tight, almost akin to the hold on your wrist earlier. You could do nothing but endure this assault, a slight whimper slipping out as the soreness of your face grew.

Bertolt's tongue brushed against your lips, trying to coax you into opening them. You might as well obey, just to get this over with and the fact that you were running out of oxygen at an alarming rate. Once you did, he pushed the smoke in your mouth as he deepened the kiss, the burn in your lungs and in your throat getting worse. In a panic, you bit down as hard as possible to free yourself, the taste of iron combining with the bitter nicotine. You quickly doubled over and started coughing, watching in tears as vague smoke came out of your mouth with every heave and breath.

"Ah." You peered up at Bertolt from within your teary vision, the tips of his fingers on his lips and pressing against the wound you inflicted. It was deep from what you're able to see, but already started to heal itself. Yet, that's not what at all made you run out the room in distress, almost vomiting into the bushes once you stepped foot out of the building.

You watched in mortified horror as he smeared the crimson around his lips and chin, a seemingly euphoric and satisfied expression reflecting on those pale green eyes of his. He looked down at your frozen form, crouching down and reaching over to your face with his bloodied fingers. A small whimper slipped out as he smeared the substance on your mouth, a hungry grin forming.

"Isn't this a beautiful sight? My blood on your lips, I wonder if I can make you bleed for me soon." It felt like he wasn't supposed to say it aloud, but maybe he wanted you to hear, to have a taste of what his true self was like. That thought alone made you run out, leaving him on the ground once again.

This time, you had to make sure you'd never see the sick fuck ever again.

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And this brings you back to the beginning, in Reiner's home completely agitated and frightened for your life.

The past few months, Bertolt resumed his normal duties along Reiner and you; although you limited your interactions with one another, you can’t help but notice that he was following you everywhere. Not just at work, but the times where you were on your breaks, going out to eat, shopping for groceries or clothes, even in your own home; you saw him. You barely caught him sometimes, he'd disappear in a blink once you tried to get in a second glance to confirm who you saw.

He lingered behind corners, staring at you with such a frightening glimmer in those dull eyes of his. He was usually expressionless as he stared into your very soul, not a single crooked smile or the usual slight upwards curve of his eyes. Nothing, absolutely nothing. And the strangest part was that he never said a word, just... stared. Sometimes he just stood there right in the public's view, crowds of people passing besides him without a single glance towards the weirdo in their way.

There was nothing you could do about it, he wasn't technically bothering anyone and due to the internment zone being rather small, they already knew that he was associated with you. How unfair it was. You wished you could live like them, ignorant and dismissive of the monster that stood right next to them.

Him being right outside of your window was your final straw, the lamplight just barely highlighting his features as he stood in your backyard. You screamed and backed up into your dining room table once you realized that he was right against your window, pressing his hand against the glass as his breath began to fog it up. His eyes were crazed, the first time you ever saw anything in them after weeks of ignoring him. You flung the drapes over the window — as if it could do anything to protect you — before running upstairs and hiding in your closet for the rest of the night.

If he was able to sneak up on you, to be that close without you noticing… what else has he done?

"He's being a fucking creep, Reiner. If it's not him trying to figure out that I'm some kind of double-crosser, it's him being some kind of perverted stalker." He snorted at your remark and you could tell that he was not entirely convinced. You took in a shaky breath, finally putting down your foot.

"Then I would like to request that I leave the Warriors unit and work somewhere else. I don't care where and if I have to move, all I want is to never see Bertolt ever again." Reiner's expression suddenly hardened and he pushed himself off the wall, leaning on the table opposite of you. You've never seen him quite as serious until now, unease filling your stomach.

"You do realize that we cannot protect you once you leave the unit, right? The only reason you're alive still is because of us, Y/N. Anywhere else in the other units, the generals and commanders will watch you like hawks for any mistake you make, minor or not. They would use any excuse to have your head." His hand rested on your shoulder and squeezed it firmly, checking his surroundings before leaning close into your ear.

"Look. I know about Bertolt's strange behavior, trust me, I've already noticed he's been off ever since he came back from that recent excursion. I don't know if I can convince him to stop doing this to you, but I mean it when I say that you're better off staying in our unit." He then leaned back and lightly smiled for more reassurance; a part of you felt that it was the scout in him that was talking and that made you feel a little better.

"We're all you got in this world and your best chance for living. C'mon, just give him one more shot." This wouldn't be happening in the first place if you left me back in Paradis, you thought bitterly but hesitantly nodded your head.

"Okay, fine. But you better get it in his head that I don’t want him stalking me anymore or I’ll report him to General Magath and leave the unit, no matter what the consequences are." You got up and headed towards the exit, turning your head to see him slowly push in your seat. He noticed that you didn't leave yet and lifted his hand up, almost waving goodbye.

"No promises," Reiner held up his pinky, slightly wiggling it. "But I'll do my best."

You scoffed, but smiled regardless.

"Then whatever happens, it'll be on you."

The next day continued on as usual, something normal for once as both Reiner and Bertolt weren't in today. You thought that they must've gotten deployed to another war since you hadn't seen any of the other Warriors either, but you continued work as usual for your shift. Even if you weren't required to, you might as well lighten the load for you the next time around.

By the time you were done with half of the stack, you finally called it quits, seeing that the sun had began to slowly set behind the towering buildings right outside of the windows. Clocking out, you slung your satchel over your shoulder and pushed past the doors, quietly walking back to your home. Now that you started to think further during your trek, it's strange that you didn't get any notification from Reiner about their sudden leave. He'd always gave you some kind of heads-up even if you didn't ask, either through a note or in person.

Was this something so serious that not even you can know about? That would make more sense, you're technically just an underling to them, you didn't need to know more confidential information from the Marleyans as a Paradisian; not like you wanted it or had any use for it anyways. The orange glow of the sun began to fade, the sky slowly turning darker by the minute as lamplights started to flicker on right on cue.

You were so close to home that you started to pick up the pace, a feeling of anticipation running through you. It's not like you felt scared, no. This was the first time in days that you finally felt like you didn't have to look over your shoulder, the first time in months where you didn't feel like you were being watched.

In a matter of minutes, you finally reached the front door of your home. You rummaged through your bag for the keys, taking your time as you pushed through the unfortunately crowded mess. There was no need to rush anymore, not until they come back, and hopefully Reiner was able to talk Bertolt out of his abhorrent, unprofessional behavior. Letting out a happy hum as you finally found what you were looking for, you pushed in the key and turned it open, only to be greeted with a gut feeling that caused goosebumps to immediately form on your skin.

Something was wrong. Despite everything being in their right and respective places, there was something... off. Standing still at the entrance way, you scanned the environment slowly, a lump forming in your throat as they darted to-and-fro nervously. The windows were locked, you knew they were, and none of the drapes seemed to be moved or altered from their original places. There was only one entrance and to get to the backyard, you would have to take the side fence door at the outside of the resident. You almost were tempted to back out of your own house, the one place where you've considered as the safest haven from the outside. This feeling, it had to just be that you were unused to being finally left alone... right?

You finally took a step inwards, the wood creaking underneath your boot. Mentally, it felt like excruciatingly long hours had just passed by for you to get another step, internally praying that your mind won't play tricks on you from the various sounds that were occurring in the considerably old home. There's nothing or no one here, you're just being a paranoid baby.

Exhaling slowly, you finally shut and locked the front door behind you. Repeating the phrase over and over gave you confidence to continue forwards, determination in your eyes. You'd be damned if Bertolt thinks he could scare you out of your own home, you'd rather go to prison than try to stay at his home for temporary shelter.

You lost your appetite to prepare a simple dinner, now knowing that you'd prefer not to try cooking something when you've just arrived in fear for your life. However, you carefully made your way towards the kitchen, grabbing a knife out of the wooden block. The sound of the metal sliding out of its sheath may have been the loudest thing you've been currently hearing. You gripped onto the handle tightly, turning towards the stairs.

You knew you weren't alone here, the house may settle now and then, but this felt different. This was different. No matter what your brain was telling you, your gut was telling you otherwise.

Crrreeeaaakkkk...

You froze, feeling suddenly out of breath as you stared at the ceiling with wide eyes. The sound came from your room, there was no doubt about it. A memory of Bertolt trying to secretly make breakfast for you flashed into view, the sounds of pans clashing below waking you up. You should've questioned how he gotten in the house in the first place during the earlier stages of this thing of his, but you were far too hungry and tired to even notice until now.

In meticulous steps, you made your way to the staircase, trying to make sure you didn't step on the wrong board and alert the intruder of your presence. Hell, he might've already known since you unlocked the door. The hallway never felt longer than it was before as you approached the room, the moonlight shining down on you and the weapon held in your dominant hand. There was more creaking the more you came towards the door, your heart pounding in your chest in the rhythm of a thousand Abnormals sprinting towards their next delectable meal.

The door was slightly ajar, alarms ringing in your head. You never have left the doors in your room open in your life, especially when sleeping and even when you left the premises. Someone is in there and you know who it is. Taking in a deep breath, you leaned in gradually towards the crack in the door, trying to control the trembling in your hands as you peeked through.

The stench of blood first hit your nose, then the sight within nearly made you scream in horror. Bertolt was in your room, sitting on the middle edge of your bed, all bloodied from head-to-toe what you were able to tell from the street's lamps dully illuminating the surrounding room. Though that was stomach-churning in itself, the action he was performing on your bed made everything even more heinously depraved.

The bastard was fucking his fist with your panties wrapped around his cock, his pelvis erratically jutting into the tight hold he put around it. His lips were slightly parted, almost barely audible groans slipping out with every stroke. Even worse, you could hear just the cusp of your name with it, your own face growing warm.

You had to report this to General Magath, now. Burn your bed and used underwear once you got the chance to second on the list. Reiner failed, maybe even never went up to him, and now you had to take the drastic way out of this. He finally took things way too far; if not your underwear, it might’ve been you.

You took a step backwards, immediately paling as the floorboard behind you squeaked loudly under the weight. The movement from within your room paused abruptly, anxiety and dread crawling up your veins with every passing moment. The sound of the bed springs being relieved of any weight on them immediately alerted you that you needed to start running or hide until he leaves. It was too late, the door opening with a grinding, crackling noise.

"Welcome home, Y/N."

Bertolt lunged at you, instincts kicking in as you swung the knife, aiming for his throat. You knew it wouldn’t kill him, you’ve seen Mikasa do it years ago and he healed without any trace of the injury left, but it would give you enough time to get to Magath’s residence. At least, that’s what you tried to do, but he moved last minute, the blade only digging into the side of his face towards his mouth.

He was stunned by it at first, a nauseating feeling permeating within your stomach as you watched the skin and muscle separate as he opened his mouth, blood streaming down his jawline in thick streams. Then he started chuckling, pressing his hand against the wound roughly and almost pulling it apart. This was no time to stay shocked however. You took this final opportunity to run, carefully trying not to cut yourself as you made your way down the stairs.

"Y/N!!!" Oh god, oh god, oh god. You reached the entrance, turning the lock and pulling it open, the cold air of the night blasting in your face. Freedom was right there in your grasp — just right there — before a thickly drenched hand from behind grabbed ahold of you from the mouth and pulled you back inside.

You couldn’t scream as his bloodied palm held firmly down onto your mouth, tears streaming down your face as he lodged himself right between your legs. He was crazed, his pupils dilated with excitement as he stared down at your quivering form. You could the hardness straining against your uniform pants, a sob stuck in your throat. The inflicted wound on his face was obviously starting to heal, steam coming off of it.

"Good try, too bad you aren’t strong enough to even try to finish the job." He took the knife out of your hold, his blood still staining the edges. Bertolt neared it towards your throat, your body fighting back as it approached closer and closer.

"Hey, you’re gonna hurt yourself if you keep moving like that." He scolded, as if he wasn’t the one with the weapon, the cold blade right against your jugular. You froze on cue, taking in sharp breaths with your nose to try and not to panic even more.

"You weren’t meant to see me uh—" His face flushed pink, scratching his uninjured cheek with his pointer bashfully. This bitch was acting like he didn’t just break in your home, committed a perverse act on your bed, and about cut your throat open. Bertolt slightly adjusted himself, rubbing his still-hard cock against you. "But it was pretty exciting, how long were you watching? Did you get excited?"

You wanted to shake your head, only flinching as you felt him unbuckle the belt, nimble fingers unbuttoning and zipping down your pants. You had no choice but to feel him slip his dirtied hand into your underwear, his fingertips pressing against your hole. A proud smile grew on his face, a vast contrast to your horrified expression as the two of you made the same realization. You’re wet.

Bertolt pulled the knife away from your neck, short relief coming out of you in waves, but he didn’t drop it or throw it aside. No. He used it to tear your uniform shirt open, a muffled yelp escaping you as the cool air made contact with your bare skin.

"We’re going to have some fun together, okay?" You felt like throwing up in his hand, hoping that you’d asphyxiate from it. Your heart stopped as you realized that he was nearing the tip of the blade on your lower stomach, right below your belly button.

"Right after I carve my name into you."

[psilliguykai]

And now I present to you…. The power hour OC absolutely nobody asked for…. Chonny Superstar !!

[general + character info under the cut]

I’ve been completely hyperfixated on Jesus Christ Superstar for the past few days [I think I’ve looped the album like . 7 times by now ??] BUT !! still got my CJ fixation going on in the background too so here’s the product of that lol.

Chonny Superstar is his name for now because honestly I’m not great at naming characters and have no other great ideas 😭 if anybody has suggestions feel free to put them in the comments :3

Info !! [putting it in the post rather than the sheet so I can change it later if I need to 👍] [WARNING: long. Also very mild mentions of death I guess??]

Character/story-related notes:

- Chonny Superstar

- He/Him [Bi, cis man]

- 28

- Hair is messy and greasy. Probably hasn’t been washed in months lol.

- Partially based on Tim Minchin’s Judas from the 2012 UK Arena tour [both in design and personality]

- I hate this guy so much /aff

- Very independent/sticking to his personal mission [whatever that is in the moment] but overall well intentioned and a good person in the end. He wants the best and is sometimes just shitty about it 👍 somewhat social, but mostly when he has a purpose (which could just be that he hasn’t talked to anyone in a while or wants to make some he knows happy !! Just doesn’t really like . Hang around people). also a cunt. Very important

- Doesn’t actually play a particular role in JCS, nor do I have a solid story for him at the moment. I’ve got this loose idea that he just kind of lives in an endlessly looping production of JCS which has gone on for so long that the people involved switch and meld roles with each loop or smth ?? But I might change this later we’ll see …

- Some thought was put into the order, but there really isn’t that much rhyme or reason to the tracklist apart from “I like it” and ���it fits his vibe”. That said I want to make it known that “Hosanna” and “Gethsemane” would both be the 2000 movie lyrics and not the original concept album - as much as I love the originals “hey JC, JC, won’t you DIE for me?” and “thy will is hard, but you hold every card” hit hard imo [and fit Chonny Superstar better]

- Would probably never meet the other canon jashlings but would totally either get along very well or have massive beef with Ego [bc Tim Minchin and all that]. He’d get on fairly well with Devil [they share the “fuck you all” and “society is messed up” energies]. Jouse/Mori would probably freak him out but I could see him chilling with CJPH.

- lives/is from the sorta vague anachronistic time period most productions of JCS take place in. No phones for him.

- Has never heard a song apart from the ones in JCS and would probably be really freaked out by anything else lol

- Has probably died multiple times and will die many more 👍

Design-related notes:

- Scarf patterns can be inconsistent and aren’t required. Based on the thing Minchin wears in his performance 👍

- He can and does take the scarf off, just not during musical numbers since it’s a little awkward to deal with on stage lol

- Heavy eyeliner + some eyeshadow

- Crop top and netted shirt are from the Laplaces’s Angel video

- Jacket and jeans are based on the ones CJ wears as “Green” in TFFTT.

- Temperature-confused apparel. What are you wearing a crop top and netted shirt with a massive coat for?? Are you cold or not boy tell me???? /silly

- clothes are worn but not super dirty apart from mild food/drink stains. The result of living on a stage in a time loop 👍

[insaincat]

Family Trauma CRK Fic

New CRK Au! I'm calling it 'Family Trauma' AU. Might make it a partner au to the 'Extract' AU, to sorta explain the absolute insanity that PV's mental illness stems from.

This is also what happens when you put a person whose stressed TF out and keeps having insomnia on workdays (I went to do the doctors today hopefully the new meds will help).

Maybe I'll make a part 2 with SMilk telling the beasts about it and a story about how Recluse would have viewed Beast-Yeast 7/8 with this au.

Warnings about au: Dead Dove for the fact that it's about severe child abuse with the ancients' childhoods. It does end well!

Please do not read if you are triggered by any of the following:

-Sexual Truama

-Physical Abuse

-Child Abuse

-A combination of those three things

-Self Harm

-Slavery

-S*icide attempt(s)

-Murder

-Eating Disorder

-Body Dysmorphia

-Heavy mentions of Grooming

-Transphobia

We're going off the deep end!

We start off at Pure Vanilla's home. Its clear that White Lily lives with him as a partner and Shadow Milk lives there half of the time, still being a beast and all. They have twins, looking like Vanilla and Shadow as Lily didn't want to mix in her fey cookie dough into the kids. This visibly worried Vanilla but Shadow Milk didn't know why.

Years later, when the kids are in school, they all start to notice them pull away and eat less. Their doctor is concerned, and CPS gets called but everything comes back clear. Vanilla starts freaking out, but Lily calms him down. It could be something, or it could be a kid thing. They look into it and know they will be there for them no matter what. Shadow Milk is still confused, but thinks its kids being brats. That's what he did when he was their age. Refuse to eat when mad, that sort of thing.

Everything comes to a head when the healer twin gets sick from it, and Pure Vanilla (despite promising not to) uses his awakened form to check out their stats, only to quickly flicker out, collapse, and started to breath rapidly while chanting like a mantra "itsmyfaultitsmyfaultitsmyfault". Takes them awhile and an auto-heal (it's in game I'ma just use it) but eventually Vanilla falls asleep clinging to both.

And finally, Lily clears up everything.

Pure Vanilla has anorexia, something he's been taking medication for. He doesn't look it, since he uses medication to help keep the weight on and now eats regularly, but it was a serious problem in his childhood. And it seems it's been passed on to the twins.

All of the ancients have mental issues and past Truama. Some of them are taking medications, some prefer remedies and religion, others decide they can deal with it on their own. But they all have each other, and that's what got them through every day. The Soul Jams helped lessen the burden considerably, but ultimately it was the love and care they held for each other that got them through. Especially when they didn't have their Soul Jams yet, when they had the scare that brought them all to realize how fragile life was.

And she starts the story.

Pure Vanilla Cookie was born to loving parents and lived his youngest childhood as a shepherd. He was a very happy kid, despite the trials of being blind from birth. Kids who disliked different cookies couldn't stay hating him, he was just too kind and sweet. Even wolves that would prey on sheep would give their belly for him. And at this time his little habit of occasionally forgetting to eat was just seen as such. Forgetfulness. Even he saw it as so. Busy tending to sheep and dreaming the day away while practicing magic. He found Vanilla Orchid during this time.

The Blueberry academy is where it started to turn, and where White Lily had met him the first time. It wasn't super noticeable at first, but she had noticed his lack of appetite when no one else did. Though their first bond was of forbidden books, she'd been wanting to reach out to him for weeks. She, herself, would occasionally starve herself but for different reasons. She hoped he was a shy eater. As they spent more time together, she realized this was not the case. Whether he was doing it on purpose or not, she didn't know. She wanted to focus on him, to help him, but she often squirmed in her own skin. Still, she did her best to keep him fed.

As she got older, Pure Vanilla helped her realize that she was a girl, and that there were spells to adjust one's dough just enough to be feminine in detail. Vanilla, by this point, was on the fast track to becoming one of Earth-Bread's most powerful healers, so he was able to help her transition, something her father would not approve of, but he wasn't there right now. They continued their studies like this. Lily would cast a spell to shift her dough a bit more, Vanilla would heal her from any bad effects, and Lily would keep him fed.

After school they separated. She only knew of Pure Vanilla's wondering and teachings to help every cookie he came across from other's accounts.

It's here we separate from her narrative. We see Pure Vanilla staring at himself in a reflective pool using Vanilla Orchid's borrowed sight. His robes were discarded for a bath. He was thin, much thinner than we last saw him. He frowned and placed Orchid by the water's edge. He had been skipping meals, only having a few a week. It was fine though. They didn't have enough rations otherwise. He was the only one who could do this. His healing would keep his body moving and his mind somewhat working. He couldn't die of starvation, likely, his auto-heal would kick in when he was near passing out. He wondered if one day that would make him a walking corpse. He was hungry, but the pain was dull. It was always dull. But these people needed the food more. He'd put his needs aside.

We come back to White Lily's story. She was attending University. Full scholarship thanks to her own hard work. She met Pure Vanilla there again, his cheeks a bit hollow. She knew then she'd have to step in again. He wore more black now, an oversize quilted robe instead of a fit one. His sleeves and pants were puffy, as if to hide him, but he still looked neat so maybe it wasn't too bad. And freshman year passed in a blur. She kept him fed as they both excelled (for her through sheer willpower and for him through being a god damn genius). He started to falter in their second year, accepting her food less, and becoming a bit sluggish. The second semester of their second year Vanilla all but collapsed. like a doll with its strings cut, but standing still. He was moving just fine, but his speech was little and slurred, and his grades tanked. Vanilla Orchid would occasionally freak the fuck out until eventually she insisted, they see a professional.

But the issue here is that at this time, medicine was still a rising practice. Mental illness was a new concept and many were misdiagnosed.

So taking him to a doctor she heard in horror something that Pure Vanilla fully expected. "He's fine. Just a bit Ill, but it'll pass. He'll gain back his appetite." She had seen his BONES during the exam. Pure Vanilla was a walking carcass being kept alive by his own magic. He could hardly function. And she may haven't been giving him full course meals, but it should've been enough to keep something, anything on him! Unless... Unless it was just coming right back up. And he just thanked the doctor. Said he was probably right. He'd rest for a week, and everything would be back to normal.

She realized then, that just like her, no one believed him.

She pulled them through the rest of the semester and dropped out.

It was in search for a healer who would give a shit that they met the others. Holiberry and Golden Cheese had already been working together (they met during a raid to free captives that Golden Cheese was ALREADY DOING when Holiberry just walked RIGHT THE FUCK IN) and then met Dark Cacao soon after. White Lily enlisted their help to find a way to get Pure Vanilla functioning again, as Lily was all but dragging him around at this point (he was too weak to do more than heal despite how that drained him). And they did. They managed to find an herbal remedy that would make one hungry again thanks to Dark Cacao's homeland. And they were able to watch Vanilla regain a part of him that had been missing for several months.

Now, Lily had a massive crush on Vanilla (and vice versa. It's how he found out being Bi isn't something every cookie does), but she only had romantic feelings. She held no sexual attraction for men, much preferring females. So, while seeing the budding romance between Cacao and Vanilla did hurt, she'd rather see them happy and find her own eventual partner than sulk around for something she thought couldn't be (spoiler: it could). Those two seemed to fit right into each other.

The group traveled for a while, half out of concern for Pure Vanilla as he was still at risk, and part because they had become like family. But all things must come to an end. They had to return home. Holi had to check and make sure her estate was still standing, Golden Cheese needed to work more on freeing other slaves and captives, Dark Cacao would see if his kingdom was still functioning despite the corrupt court running it, and White Lily had to go home to see her mother. She'd take Pure Vanilla, of course.

It was only at most two months and they had all regularly checked in with one another at least once a week. Holi had joined Cheese in freeing people, Cacao was secretly planning to tear down his kingdom from the inside out, replacing it with his own in a new part of the country, and Lily and Vanilla had gotten an apartment near the college. She was tutoring while studying witches and pretty much anything she could get her hands on. Vanilla was a healer and a teacher at the local church, despite not sharing any of their faith. Everyone was doing well.

Out of White Lily's narrative once more, we watch Dark Cacao plan to surprise his lover with a gift and an early visit. He had only told White Lily of it, so she left the door unlocked for him. Coming up on the apartment door he sees something odd poking from under the gap. A leaf. The leaf wiggles and nudges at the floor, as if trying to escape. He narrows his eyes suspiciously before recognizing the color and shape belonging to that of Vanilla Orchid. He opens the door cautiously to find the Orchid staff on the floor, trying to wiggle about. He didn't know much about the staff other than its shared sense and history with Pure Vanilla, and the fact that they would wiggle their petals and leaves while snaking vines around Vanilla's wrist when he shares his magic with them. He picks them up and asks "What are you doing on the floor?". Their response is looking back and forth between him and the bedroom door, everything straining in that direction.

Immediately Dark Cacao's alarm bells are going, but he doesn't want to scare Pure Vanilla if it's nothing. He knocks on the door and calls for him as Vanilla Orchid's vines struggle on the door's lock. Why was it locked? There was no response. Those alarm bells are getting louder. The door opens. Pure Vanilla is in bed looking like he's having a pleasant enough dream. He's just asleep, ok. Good. Everything is fine. But a bottle on the desk catches his attention. It's empty.

We come back to White Lily's narrative. She bursts through the hospital room to find an awake Pure Vanilla Cookie. She had been later than she'd like, seeing her mother in another town and messenger birds could only fly so fast, even emergency ones. She had been so very careful, she thought he was getting better! She had kept him on a good diet, made sure he took the herbs that Dark Cacao sent every two weeks, kept him from bringing it all back up (he never did it voluntarily, it just happened). But she had missed something. He nearly died from it. Thankfully his healing factor kicked in, curing him from what his body identified as poison. Was that what had happened? Did his body think the herbs were harming it and started to self-heal? Had he been sneaking away when she wasn't looking to vomit food so she wouldn't know? So, she didn't have to sorry that it wasn't working??

Was he really in so much pain that he tried to stop it the only way he knew how?

He wasn't there sitting on that bed, not really.

She sobbed on him and blamed herself. Because she wasn't there when he needed her most. Because she couldn't help him get better. Because she had failed him.

The other three arrived the next day, they had all planned to get together that week but pushed it when they got the news. They read the letter together and wept.

The letter basically went as such:

I love you all but the pain is too much. I didn't mention it.. ever... But my healing only keeps me alive. It doesn't stop the pain I feel when I walk or talk. It hurts to stand and move and think. I can't continue like this. I seem to flush out anything I'm given, and I can't seem to eat anymore. I may be giving up, but that doesn't mean I don't see what you've done for me. You are all so wonderful and I know you'll do great things. You've all done your best so don't blame yourself.

Love you all,

Pure Vanilla Cookie.

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White Lily heard a shrill scream. It woke her and everyone else up. There was a trill of a whistle and nurses and guards rushed into the room where Pure Vanilla was being held. She pushed past them with great difficulty and aid from Dark Cacao. Two brute looking cookies held Pure Vanilla's small frame on the shoulders who sat and stared dead ahead. His eyes were lifeless. As if there were none to begin with.

When all of the staff left after chaining Pure Vanilla to the bed's rail the doctor came in and looked at the charts. And he said this:

"Sleeping Pills, huh? Your friends say you have an eating disorder, but we both know that only women get those. Probably miscounted." He tossed the papers to the side. "And I'll get you unchained soon. I understand you were just looking for the bathroom, yes? You mistook the open window for it."

White Lily's eyes went white with rage and everyone else just stood back stunned. But then Pure Vanilla said something. Something that made her fall into Holi. The one lie Pure Vanilla had ever told in his entire life.

"Yes. Your right. I mistook the window for the bathroom. As you know, I am blind. I didn't know it was left open. I'm sorry."

The room was stunned into silence. The doctor nodded and turned away, talking about discharge papers until White Lily tackled him with a ear peircing scream that could bring death to the land of the living as she took the end of her staff and rammed the end into the man, over and over, only stopping until Holiberry pulled her off. She nearly killed him with her staff. She was then banned (and later to be sued) from the hospital. But jokes on them, Golden Cheese could fly her around.

The window remained locked for the remainder of his stay, but he never stopped looking in that direction.

When they got home, they knew this wasn't going to get better. Pure Vanilla had gone unresponsive, either just sitting there with no expression and dead eyes or being asleep where he looked a bit more at peace. White Lily stayed with him the entire time, terrified of what would happen if she looked away for even a second. Dark Cacao laid on the other side only switching out with Holi when needed. Vanilla Orchid stayed laid against a corner wall to keep an eye on everything. A place they could easily collapse off of and make the most amount of noise if they saw Pure Vanilla taking a turn for the worst. Vanilla was only keeping small amounts of food down and liquids, so they kept him on that diet while taking turns caring for him.

He didn't want to be a burden.

After weeks of this, they knew something had to change. And it started with Holiberry.

"I used to be a really rowdy kid, when I was real little." She said quietly, the quietest anyone had ever heard her.

"No shit." Golden Cheese rolled her eyes but paused when she saw the tears peaking out.

"They sent me to my uncle, so I could learn from him and his daughter." Her tears rolled down her cheek and Golden Cheese walked over, placing a hand on her back and rubbed to sooth her. "They ignored me for a while and it scared me. I thought I'd been abandoned. But one day.. one day he took me aside and told me if I loved him, he'd love me too. That I'd-id play with him." She tried to wipe tears that wouldn't stop, the room inhaled at the implication. "H-he wouldn't stop. No one believed me. Not even my parents when they visited. My cousin said it was just how he showed he cared. She did it too. That we were... connected because of this. We were family now." She sniffled and decided to let her crocodile tears flow. "He didn't stop." She whispered, barely heard through sniffles and hiccups. "Not until he died." And she fell silent.

Golden Cheese hugged her from behind and White Lily grappled her with a sob. They stayed quiet like that for a moment, her crushing words sinking in. The reality of it all.

"My village was crushed as a child. Couldn't have been any older than three, four? I don't remember." Golden Cheese lifted her head. "All the women and children were sold. Me, included. I was passed around as a shit version of a gift for awhile till I found myself in a brothel. It was great, actually. I didn't need to be the entertainment. Just do my job as an assistant. Get the girls ready, clean up, serve refreshments and what-not. And even though I wasn't part of the attraction, everyone seemed to love me. Workers and customers alike. They'd praise me, give me extra money. I think some thought I'd be going into the business and wanted to help groom me. Would've worked too. I was respected and loved. I had found a home. But then the country was invaded and once again I was the only one left." Her expression changed from longing to anger and hatred. Her teeth clenched and grated as her eyes grew wild and furious, like a goddess who would smite any who dared to look at her wrong. "I vowed to get my vengeance. To create a place where people like me could live free and without care. Where they could indulge in their desires without fear of being trapped and killed or turned into a slave." She growled, looking much like a lioness rather than an eagle her wings perceived her to be.

"That's what we've been doing." Holi said after blowing her nose on a handkerchief Lily had given her. "Working on freeing slaves and building an army."

"That's amazing." Lily marveled before looking down. "My story is nothing like yours." She muttered but Holiberry just placed a large hand on her small shoulder and smiled.

"It's not a competition. We're sharing because we care. We want him to know he's not alone in this fight. He's got family to back him up. He always will."

Lily looked to Vanilla who sat on the bed against it's frame, motionless. She took a breath and started on a story Pure Vanilla knew well, despite having only told him once.

"My father used to beat me and my mother. Ever since I can remember, he'd come home drunk and throw things at us. Sometimes he'd drink at home, but then he'd have a bottle to use and mom would always end up bloody." Her face felt hot and cold all at once. She was admitting to a close guarded secret that she only told one person since she started at the academy, all those years ago. "When he wasnt drunk, he was the most wonderful man we'd ever know. During those times I could see why she married him. But as I got older, it got worse. I um... I.." She sniffled and scratched at the wrappings on her arms, gaining Holi's attention who whispered "Oh, love" and took her into her arms.

Lily tried not to cry again, she really did. She didn't want to make this all about her, especially after hearing what both Holiberry and Golden Cheese had gone through, but her hug reminded her of her mother's when she'd come into her room with a bleeding head and several cuts and hugged her while singing a broken song until she fell asleep. Her mother supported her when she came home from four years at the academy as a woman, while her father dragged her by the hair and threw her out. Her mother tried to come for her, but the man just threw her back like a rag doll and slammed the door closed. She was alone for a long time after, having to stay at an orphanage kind enough to keep her despite her age. Only at the University did she find her mother again, the women now in prison for killing her husband and was claimed as a psychotic killer, despite the obvious signs of abuse. "They never believed me." She couldn't help but sob, voice heavy as was her heart. "They never believed me when I told them it was him. And they locked mom away for defending herself. A-and she-" she buried her head into Holi's neck. "-she blames herself!"

Holiberry rocked her as she whispered sweet nothing's with wet cheeks. Cheese reached over and ran a hand through her hair and hummed. By the Witches did she love them so much!

Once she had managed to leave her sobbing behind, she curled into Holi who continued to rock her. The point that this woman continued to love despite the abusive 'love' she endured for who knows how long was awe inspiring. She was truly the heart of them. Dark Cacao waited for her to settle before speaking.

"You know I'm the Tenno of a corrupt system. My mother had me and placed me there to puppet. Didn't have my own life or my own will. Didn't even notice it until I read The Art of War, of all things. Started to make me think about how we were treating our army, our people. When I tried to use what I learned, I noticed I had no say. My mother would scold me like a child and tell me she knew better. That I was just a child." He said calmly, as if being born into being used without any thoughts was something he had made peace with. "I started to realize I couldn't do anything, that I was a toy on a high seat." He looked down and sighed. "I gave up. My life was not mine. I would be used until I was no longer useful. My bride would be my mother's choice, and my child would be taken from me to be raised as her next king on the throne. One day I decided I would not let her do as she wished. She held no love for me, nor anyone. Only the throne. She wasn't my mother, and I wasn't her son." He looked up again, eyes closed and relaxed, as if reliving the day he spoke of and finding acceptance in his actions, no regret. "I found myself on the tip of my sword, at peace." He opened his eyes, "Then I realized I was chicken shit and backed out."

Holi gasped and Lily gaped. Cheese only blinked and smirked, asking what the all wanted to know. "What did you do then?"

Eyes half lidded, brow furrowed and a devilish smirk on his lips he said in a low base tone, "I killed her."

There was a bark of laughter and everyone turned to see Pure Vanilla rolling to his side, clutching his stomach laughing, eyes peaked with tears. "You killed her-!! Said it so simply!!" He clutched his stomach tighter as he tried not to laugh only to fail horrifically and then gasp in pain only to start all over again. "Oh, witches! Laughing hurts!!" Dark Cacao's smirk grew as he leaned against the wall, satisfied that he had been the one to bring his lover out of his trance, even if it technically was a group effort.

The women blinked before letting their laughter burst forth. Because yeah. Dark Cacao said one of the most gruesome things in the most plain and silly manner. Then Holi dropped Lily into Vanilla and tackled them with ticklish fingers, refusing to let go of the renewed atmosphere after weeks of being scared of the next day. They would be ok. As long as they were together.

From the corner we see separate from White Lily's vision, Vanilla Orchid finally resting their eyes. They would be fine.

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Shadow Milk Cookie had schooled his face long ago to complete neutrality as White Lily Cookie told her tale. They sensed no lies in her words. Had they been unable to feel lies being told his way, they'd just assume as such. But she wasn't. Or at least she believed them to be the truth. But also, WHEN THE FUCK DID THAT HAPPEN?!?!?! They were watching the entire time!! (Answer: when They were making DCPV fanart in his cell)

"Once we got our SoulJams, everything seemed to settle. Medication started working again, and when I returned to Crispia for the first time since... I was made to take a mental and physical test. It was long and... weirdly not as violating as I thought, but by the end of it they had plenty of results that helped me." She continued. "I started taking medication for my depression and even started therapy! It took a while to breach the subject of my father, but we got there, and she believed me!" She smiled brightly. "I'd have never thought things would progress so far in so little time. I mean... It's been awhile. But not really, in the grand scheme of things." She smiled brightly, her eyes squinting up as her cheeks became round like apples. "Things have improved so much, Shadow Milk! Its truly amazing!"

It was, and honestly, sometimes it scared them sometimes. The cookies of today were growing too fast.

"When he came to the Holiberry kingdom with Ginger Brave and his friends, they got him the help he needed right away. Holi said he was starting to visibly spiral, but they managed to get him medication to at least regulate his appetite until they could find better medication that fit him. I heard he was trying something when he found me. "

Shadow Milk thought for a moment, then remembered Recluse and how easily he fell into despair. They had thought, at the time, that they had been the cause. What if it wasn't them. What if it had always been there, just kept locked away with a poorly made chain and a flimsy key? What if being in their presence just made the despair resurface faster? And didn't that mean he had the medication when they met? They paused and paled.

"That medicine you said they had... It wouldn't happen to be the one he had when we met and after, did it?"

Lily looked away for a moment before turning back to smile at them. "The one you threw away. Yes." HE TOLD HER?!?!

"THATS WHY HE KEEPS BRINGING IT UP?!" the cookie in her lap winced and she shushed him. WITCHES FUCKING DAMN IT. HE DIDNT DO SHIT AFTER ALL!!! Their street cred!!!

"That was Candy Apple! I didn't know nutthen about no pills!" They defended with a finger at her chest.

"Would've died if not for that, though." Vanilla muttered; face full of Lily's hair he'd been clutching when he fell asleep. "Was able to float cuz of it." he let go of her hair and snuggled into her stomach which made her giggle.

"Ok, ok. It worked out, that's nice and all" NO ITS NOT THEIR STREET CRED!!! "But what does that have to do with the girls?"

"Recent studies show that mental illnesses can be passed down through generations. Its.. quite possibly literally baked into their dough."

Shadow Milk frowned. "Bull."

Vanilla sat up and stared at the wall with a look they hadn't seen in some years. It was the look Truthless Recluse would wear day in and day out. They had fallen in love with that face, but they had also fallen in love with the original and the new. Seeing this again... it hurt, and Shadow Milk didnt know what to do about that.

"I saw it in their status, it said [inherited]. I did this."

White Lily opened her mouth to protest before closing it to reconsider her words. She then wrapped her arms around him and lay her head on his shoulder. "We'll figure this out." Pure Vanilla did not acknowledge her, his spiral into despair growing more and more.

"I think this is all bullshit. Buuuttt. I guess it wouldn't hurt to try this... medicine thing you were talking about." Both looked to them in surprise as they glided back through the room, lounging with their arms crossed to hold his head. Shadow Milk cookie both liked and hated the new ways. They liked the freedom cookies had now, the new advances and new ways to lie and cheat. But they also hated it. Part of them was stuck in the past and getting it's foot out of there was going to be a grueling task.

But if they were willing to try, for their children, then maybe it would be ok.

Pure Vanilla's face softened.

[toffeebrews]

Any errink headcanons? :D

Tumblr hates me so I had to rewrite this, anyway... [Note: all my hcs ofc nothing is canon but some may be based of canon information! Sometimes I may refer to non-canon past rps :P]

Error and ink do dumb rps with his puppets together, they've made a super dramatic soap opera plot.

I think Ink realizes Error would never change and he's content with that (sigh as much as I would love to say he would).

Ink finds error's six tongues fascinating, rather than gross. In a similar way, error is fascinated by ink's star eyes (I wonder what that hc came from).

If they ever kissed it would be the most disgusting revoltingly thing ever because error doesn't know how to kiss at all and he also has 6 tongues.

If you asked them how they became friends they would just look at you and shrug. Not even they know how to happened. All they can say is they "get eachother." Error deep down has always wanted a friend and Ink gives him that. Ink is willing to deal with error's bs and error is willing to deal with ink's. Ink can feel a little lonely in his own role and among a world that is fake and Error being an outcode like hin understands him a way others wouldn't. Not even mentioning their story parallels but I gotta stop my self before I start rambling. They're some of the only people who know some of other's deep insecurities.

Ink found Error's crashes funny before he knew how absolutely painful they were. Although not sure if he would ever trigger them on purpose even before he knew ngl.

more yapping under the cut

I would define them as whatever happens when you cross a friend an enemy and a partner.

Ink loves all of his shipkids and error... feels very conflicted about all of them.

They also think the other is a freaky than them when in reality they're both freaks.

Error still thinks about when Ink proposed to him at loveball, ink doesn't think about it at all. Ink also proposed to him with a ring pop that he found in the candy bowl in my head LOL.

Ink doesn't mention his dads to him .. maybe out of fear

Other people still make fun of Ink for proposing to error at loveball and ink always goes "IT WAS ONE TIME!"

Error and Ink are both quite short, Error is only a few inches taller than Ink.

Due to loveball, Error is always scared (in a playful way) when Ink starts drinking.

Error does feel guilty for the time he left ink in the antivoid. Not all of the time, but at times when hes sitting with Ink in the anti-void he can't help but reflect on it. If he would ever admit it? Probably not.

Error and ink's dancing at loveball was a beautiful disaster. Ink is actually an okay dancer but because Error was really nervous it threw him off and it was so off beat. It was really cute though, regardless.

Ink finds errorink ship art very amusing and he shows it to error just to freak him out sometimes.

Error always kills ink first in among us. Error also always blames ink as the imposter even if he isn't.

They have a "close but not too close" rule just close enough to feel the warmth of the other person but not enough to touch. (do skeletons give off warmth?). They do hold pinkies though fr fr. Also Error does lay his head in Ink's lap sometimes, typically when they're watching something. Ink may also give Error forehead or hand kisses.

I like to think Error runs quite hot, because he crashes all the time, so hes warm like a computer LOL. Ink who in my hc has a lessen sense of touch and runs sorta cold due to be soulless lovess sitting around him because of it.

Crack headcanon, when error's eyes glitch up or hes about to crash if you really listen you can hear the sound of computer fans going ham.

Ink will often just... walk up to error and put him a different outfit. Something about his being "too basic" and "his outfit has an ugly color palette".

If you know my pinkie sense ink hc Error doesn't know HOW it works but he fully believes him every single time. Even when ink is trolling, LOL!

Error and Ink call eachother "Ruru" and "Kiki" but only to annoy the other. Specifically if ink is pleading for something he'll do it to annoy him "please ruru :(" They also call eachother glitch and squid in a movking as well LOL.

They have friendship rings? platonic rings? idk if those are a thing made from blue string.

In my own error design, he has a big tooth. Because of it ink calls him a "big kitty" to make fun of him.

[bogbees]

my current plan for drift au is like

Iruka: so here's the training room— oh, pardon us Hatake-san. I thought it'd be empty this time of day

Kakashi: fancy that, so did I

Iruka: ah, well, we'll be leaving then, sorry for the intrusion—

Naruto: hey, hey, what does sparring look like? can you show us? you n Kakashi-sensei

Iruka: i don't know... maybe not today—

Kakashi: ah, why not sensei, let's teach em what disappointment looks like

Iruka: *thousand yard stare* *removes knit sweater to reveal a nearly too tight button up* if you insist

Kakashi obviously gets a bit embarrassed by how hot Iruka looks. mostly the transformation fr goofy pencil pusher to the front page cover for every gay porno mag ever made. plus maybe idk a past infatuation that won't die?

Iruka just wants a chance to smack him upside the head for his rudeness.

whoops. turns out they're extremely drift compatible based off their quick spar. neither have any words. Kakashi is low-key upset he's gonna have to pilot again and kill Iruka this time. Iruka's just surprised by how... right it felt. he tries to cool his nerves, Kakashi interpts it as "oh no the grim reaper is coming for me next" fear, bc he's not aware Iruka might just be genuinely kinda amped up ab being toe-to-toe with a renowned pilot with a lot of kaiju kills. so Kakashi storms off. Iruka tries to calm his brain and his class.

he's ultimately hoping nobody finds out. he won't do well as a pilot, just let him do the paperwork for the base PLEASE.

now. they get hooked up with the actual machine to drift. it's stellar. until Kakashi starts freaking out ab how good it's going. Iruka tries to help but they're already fucked it up a bit.

now I'm thinking. Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura end up taking the new mech. bc their drift results turned out better than Iruka and Kakashi's, but mostly bc they have less opportunity for failure; they're not riddled with depression and chronic illness.

so. Kakashi and Iruka get benched and become newt and herman without intention. like. idk. they finally go insane, try to hide away in a broom closet to make out, only it's the research lab, and with Iruka's book smarts and Kakashi's physical smarts (as in he knows kaiju patterns fr dealing with so many) (and Iruka's hobby is studying up on them in his spare time) they figure out the breech.

im imagining Kakashi trying to fuck Iruka senseless on some desk, only for Iruka to get distracted by the papers and he's like "wait, wait, look at this," effectively killing the mood by distracting the both of them.

i want iruka to be the one to drift with the kaiju??? idk fuuinjutsu feels like a mad scientist sorta deal

Mizuki still attacks Naruto and Iruka still saves his life by offering his own

Ramen. Dandelion yellow hair. Summer. Okinawa beach. Onsen. Bath. Ramen. Ma, Pa. Auntie Kushina. Ramen. School.

???

[severus-snape-apreciation-blog]

Had a weird idea for a fic idea. Percy Adopted AU

So. Imagine if James and Lily were a little older and had a 5y when Harry was born,

Percival (named after Dumbledore), middle name one of his Grandfathers who recently died Potter born August 22,

when they die because he knows about magic Dumbledore places him with the Weasleys.

Tells them that he found the child in a destroyed family and he was worried someone would come after him cause of who his parents were. They should tell people he was theirs biologically

The kids all know he is adopted but Ron literally forgets and they honestly kind of forgot.

This could also move into more of how Percy doesn’t feel like he’s part of his family.

Most 6y don’t know anything other then parents are Mom and Dad. He doesn’t know who they were and not helped by the fact no one called them James and Lily but Prongs and whatever nickname for her and since he was so young the memories are fuzzy af he is very confused. He does know he has a baby brother and thought he died in the “fire/attack on his muggleborn parents” as he was told

This could also explain why Peter came to him. Guilt and felt he had to look out for him,

What he does remember is the feeling of being loved, laughter, one of the paintings he loved to stare at. The stars on his rooms roof. Having a giant fluffy dog he would cuddle with. A sorta rough voice reading to him. Maybe a Deer that would break in, red hair and the sound of laughter.

If he tries harder to remember his nightmares get worse. He was there when it happened. Watched his parents killed and his brother almost killed. Trauma also one of the reasons he doesn’t remember his family,

Things that happened living with his parents that he doesn’t remember

Knowing Snape and McGonagall. He and Lily reconciled and she introduced them when he was a baby and he used to call Snape Sevy and McGonagall Granny. She was not pleased

Would visit his grandparents - his Moms Dad who passed right before he was born.

I am on the side of the headcannon that Mrs Potter is from India. Idc about Cannon and that he actually visited where he was from when he was 3. He’s still Red Hair and pale, unlike Harry

Was babysat by all three other marauders a lot. Like Fully feel Sirius and Remus lived with them with Peter visiting a lot ( he was offered a room but his Moms health isn’t good) he was just as much a friend as the rest. That’s the tragedy of it all.

Has pulled on Dumbledores beard as a baby. Got a hand in it and wouldn’t let go till it was time to eat. James thought it was Hilarious. Lily not so much.

There is a photo of once when Severus and Sirius were forced to jointly baby sit they bonded over motorcycles ( I HC Snape has one) and they are working on it in Leather jacket and Percy is wearing a tiny leather jacket joining them. Lily came to pick him up.

Also one showing how Snape has no idea how to hold a kid and is legit hold him like a sack of potatoes under his arm,

Cue 1st year and Snape and McGonagall are like 🤨🤨 hmmm and side eyes this little first year and side eye Dumbledore and he eventually tells them but he makes them promise not to reveal it.

Cue 5th year and he meets Harry. Basically like the books where he treats him like family. Cause he did. He’s always been kind to Harry. He feels like he’s familiar but that’s cause he’s famous, right?

But then cue 7th year! Harry’s 3rd

He meets Professor Lupin and. There’s just SOMETHING about him and WHY does he look so darn familiar, and when he reads experts to the class he feels like a kid again,

While Remus is freaking out cause he was told his pseudo God Kid (both he and Harry are technically Sirius’s but if Remus was allowed to be he would be as well) was killed, and here’s a 17y version with Lillys hair and James eyes and Fleamonts face,

Percy would ask Dumbledore if he knew why Professor Lupin looked family and he would shrug at this technically a adult who has every right to know but Dumbledore the anxious king is worried

Later after he leaves cue Remus storming going “bitch what the fuck” okay but going “you told me Percival was dead! He’s not” and Dumbledore goes on a spiel of how it would only put him in danger if anyone else knew, cause he was the only witness to that night and even he himself doesn’t know. And no you can’t tell him.

Remus goes 😑 and comes up with a plan to get the kids to figure it out themselves, cause he was told “tell them and your fired. I’m sorry”

Like asking Harry if he knows he had a brother, and he did but none of the pictures he was given show him/removed from the images, Remus goes “huh I was sure he was in this one” and Hermione uses Revelio and whoa!

And like more shenanigans, Percy eventually figures it out. Remus told him of a way that he could access files about himself cause he’s not legally dead. It’s a rumour Dumbledore spread, cue intense panic and weirdness from him

eventually Peter ends up sorta telling Harry cause the whole Sirius Peter thing happens and Sirius thinks Percy is dead and yelled that Peter might as have killed him and he’s like “he’s not! He was adopted by the Weasleys!” And Ron and Harry are like 👁️👄👁️

Cue more shenanigans and an awkward convo between them, Ron’s like “Harry this means you are technically family!!” And then this is where it would deviate more from cannon cause till this point it’s pretty on point

Thoughts?

[pekoehoneyncream]

Lieutenant Simon Ghost Riley Headcanons

Part One!

Words: 650~

TW: None (sfw)

Part Two

Ghosts Headcanons are the least numerous, but they are the wordiest, so there's that.

Enjoy!

Ghost has like a six step morning skin routine and a fourteen step nightly skin routine. When he first started wearing the mask he wasn't in the right headspace to be taking care of himself. He didn't wash it or himself nearly as much as he should have and his skin SUFFERED for it. He hadn't had that many skin issues when he was in puberty. | The skin routines started with just an acne cleanser he remembered an old ex-girlfriend used to swear by, then a moisturizer because he has naturally dry skin and it was starting to get irritated rubbing against his mask all day, then he sorta just fell down the rabbit-hole when he tried to research good products to use and wound up with his long-ass skin routine.  | He honestly likes getting to have time to wake up in the mornings and wind-down in the evenings as he does his routine. If his thoughts aren't being friendly he'll pop on some music, or an audiobook.

Ghost is one of those freaks that will be working his way through up to five books at a time. This is because he uses books locationally. He has his audiobook, and the book next to his bed, and the book in the breakroom, and the book he keeps in his duffle, and the book he brings on transports, the book he keeps in Price's office, and etc. He just picks up the book that's in the same location he is, flips back a few pages to remember what's going on, then just keeps on reading. He's been asked how he keeps all the plots straight and he vagues his way through answering, but the truth is he doesn't. | How this happened is that he kept getting caught in situations where he'd have a few spare moments and he'd want to read, but he didn't have a book. He tried bringing a book with him, but he was constantly putting it down and forgetting where he'd left it. Wearing a bookbag isn't tactical. So having locational books is his solution. 

Price gets him those cheap mass produced paperbacks that are about the third of the size of a normal book and Ghost loves them. They fit into his pockets or into pouches on his plate carrier, and he can bring them around with him no problem. 

His nose was broken and wasn't set, later it was rebroken to heal properly, but the damage was done. He now snores and sputters in his sleep like an old hand-crank car. Unless he sleeps in the perfect position or he uses nasal strips.  | If he has to sleep on a mission he uses nasal strips. It's a bit embarrassing, but he's reassured by the fact his mask covers it, so no-one can actually see how dumb it looks. Snoring so loud you alert the enemy isn't keeping it tactical. 

He is the friend that carries extra snacks and water-bottles with him because he knows somebody is gonna forget theirs. He’s also memorized everyone’s schedules and how they all overlap. He uses this knowledge for both good and evil.

He insists that everyone messages when they're leaving and when they're headed back and when they're home safe.  | Price is the worst at remembering to message, the Captain has awoken many times to a disapproving Ghost standing over his bed, “You didn't text”. Gaz almost lost his life when Ghost found out that he just guesses how long it'll take and schedules his messages to auto-send. Soap always remembers. He's texting Ghost in his every free moment anyway, so it'd be harder for him to forget than to not to.

Thank You For Reading!

If you have any ideas or prompts that you want to see me write please let me know!

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[creativity-deficient]

Random Tweek Tweak hcs bc im thinking bout him yet again :)))

-Has an undiagnosed anxiety disorder, made worse by the increased use of Methamphetamine over the years and mistaken for adhd (canon/implied canon), which I do like to think DOES have as well. He is also on the autism spectrum.

-Has mild Seborrheic dermatitis, a skin condition that causes red and flaky patches of skin and usually flares up due to stress. It starts mainly on his head/under his hair as a kid but worsens in his teens years. Also has dermatillomania (a skin picking disorder), as well. Both of these become a lot worse in his teen years, with the addition of meth induced skin sores and hormonal acne to boot, but do become a lot more manageable for him as an adult. Still however, he does have some faint scars from all the picking and scratching over the years.

-Small tubby lil guy :) (sorta?? implied canon??), below average in height and considerably pudgy compared to most of his peers (genetics/stress eating). Loses a lot of this weight in his teen years due to health issues, but does gain a lot of it back as an adult. Also has a pudgy baby face that he never quite grows out of, even as an adult.

-His eyes a blue hazel, a rare eye color

-Sometimes snaps and hums to calm himself down.

-Enjoys baking as a casual hobby, though he’s still an amateur and doesn’t know how to make much. (implied canon)

-Once joined every school club because he had an anxiety attack and couldn’t decide what to pick

-Habitual nail chewer, again something he usually does due to stress. Nails are very short and stubby because of this

-Bandages on his fingers due to burns, skin picking, and nail biting

-Chronic ice-chewer

-Never learns to tie his shoes. Kept tripping over his laces before finally taking them out. Untied laces to laceless shoes to crocs to socks with sandals to velcro shoes pipeline

-Also never learns to drive, too much stress. Forever in his passenger princess era ✨

-Lowkey a backseat driver, though not in a “know it all” type of way. He mostly just freaks out the entire time.

-Can not sleep in the car because he’s afraid the second he closes his eyes, they’ll crash.

-Doesn’t know much slang/internet lingo and has absolutely no idea what his peers are talking about half the time (pretends he does and usually just ends up looking stupid 😔)

-Has a fear of rubberhose cartoons, as well as those weird old stop motion Christmas movies (he just finds them unsettling)

-Told about the secret family recipe as a teenager by his father, and is reasonably freaked out about it. Is forced to keep his mouth shut about it and suffers through major withdrawals before his parents are eventually exposed and arrested for the distribution of meth/counts of child abuse. Spends most of his high school years in therapy and rehab, though it’s all made easier with Craig by his side

-He and Craig try breaking up their freshman year of high school, both of them feeling like they need to try new things for a bit. It lasts about a week before they get back together.

-TERRIFIED of scissors and refuses to let anyone come near him with them. Grows his hair out long as a teenager before finally caving in and shaving it off as a young adult. He now keeps it managed, but Craig is the only person he trusts to do so.

-Did once try to cut his own hair in middle school though, and he spent weeks looking like a train-wreck before finally letting his mom fix it.

-His relationship with his mom is considerably better than his relationship with his father, and though he never quite forgives her for what she’s done, the two of them are able to reach some sort of closure with each other in Tweek’s older age

[holy-obsession-batman]

Tim and Steph, two halves of the same Barbara Gordon

So I did Dick and Jason order switch prompt (based on the idea that *if* Jason is Bruce’s first son, becoming the first child vigilante wouldn’t even cross his mind) some time ago, as a sorta reverse Robin thingie, and while I was writing this I was wondering where Tim would fit in all this.

I didn't know how to include him, because there are several factors in his becoming a vigilante, and every single one of them, directly or indirectly, boils down to Dick Grayson/Robin.

the childhood trauma of the Flying Grayson's death lead Tim to an obsession with DG, from which he finds out (by luck) Batman and Robin's identity

same obsession with DG/Robin evolves into hero worship & concern for the Bats' well-being

The death of Robin II, leading to Tim knocking on the Bats' door, wouldn't be if it wasn't for the Robin mantle

and again, like for Jason, without the model figure of the 9 ys old Boy Wonder, fighting right on the streets with the Bat, the idea to become himself a kid vigilante wouldn't have crossed Tim's mind.

Tim in canon is Robin first, and a member of the family second -- without Robin, he's just a smart, nerdy kid with maybe some vague self-defense moves (no world-class detective nor martial artist, which he becomes *after* joining the family), and absolutely nothing to draft him to crime fighting life.

But. Childhood trauma-induced obsession notwithstanding, Tim *is* the thirteen ys old civilian who chose to offer himself for the protection of the city even tho he had parents and a stable life. Of course this selfless little freak will end up in the business of heroics, even without the Bat's business card.

With that out of the way, I can now make this a full-fledged Reverse Robin!

The Spoiler is the first vigilante (other than Batman) to stalk Gotham's rooftops. She first sets out to spoil her father's plans, sending clues about the Cluemaster to the GCPD, but she grows to be the protector of the suburbs which Batman rarely visit.

Of course it doesn't take too long for the Batman to find out about Stephanie Brown. He tries to send her home, because it's too dangerous and crazy for a 16 years old teenager to get into crime fighting but she flips him right the fuck off. (not only without Robin Batman has no experience in teenage vigilante wrangling, but for Steph too, accepting the meddling and supervision of an adult is something she won't even consider, without the Boy Wonder to make 'Batman's partner' something to aspire to)

Since he can't actually force her to do anything, Batman reluctantly allow a team up in dealing with the Cluemaster, and then gives her some training, for both her safety and so she doesn't do damages instead of helping. The mentorship doesn't last because they butt heads to much: Batman is too stubbornly controlling, and Steph too stubbornly allergic to authority figures.

In the end, Batman resignedly leaves the Spoiler to her own device in her turf, the suburbs, on the condition that she respects the no-kill rule (with a comm line for emergencies).

And if a letter finds Stephanie congratulating her for qualifying for the Wayne scholarship, well, what does that have to do with anything?

In brief, Steph's Spoiler begins like Barbara's Batgirl: independent teen vigilante, not that much training in he field, refuses to be B's sidekick.

Tim gets the Oracle bit. Going out in the streets at night to fight crimes? Yikes. Not for him. But like Babs post-Killing Joke, he realizes the potential of the computer world and that he's very good at computers. He's 15 when he starts his hacker vigilante career -- sending his solved cold case to the GCPD, then sending tips and gathered evidences... Because he chose it when he was a 15 years old nerd with archaeologist parents, his moniker is 'Thot' (with a baboon logo).

Next, he becomes Spoiler's 'guy in the chair'. Not really decided how they meet -- do Spoiler attract Thot's attention when she drops her clues at GCPD, and then Thot figured out her identity as Stephanie Brown? Or did Steph and Tim meet at school (since she got Wayne fondation scholarship), and then Tim figured out Steph was Spoiler? Hum...

In any case, Tim get connected to Batman via Spoiler's comm line, and starts coordinating with him too. They don't know each other's identity, tho (at first at least) -- which means Batman let 'Thot' vigilante around as he pleases, because he doesn't *know* that it's a 17 ys old.

Timeline:

12 ys old Jason gets adopted by Bruce Wayne.

15 ys old Tim starts Thot, vigilante hacker (Jason: 13)

16 ys old Steph sets out as the Spoiler (Jason: 14, Tim: 16). During the same year, connection of Spoiler, Thot, and the Bat

9 ys old Dick is adopted by Bruce Wayne (Jason: 15, Tim & Steph: 17)

Next I got planned for this universe: some possible plot lines, Gotham Academy shenanigans, Damian and Cass, and then maybe a look at the next gen with the Huntress, Azrael, Barbara Gordon and Dick Grayson!

(I don't have Duke. I'm sorry. It's not that I dislike his character, but I'm not into the Nu52 --the little I read didn't enthuse me -- and I avoid writing characters for which I haven't read at least a bit of canon)

(Masterpost)

[sincapjelly]

Do you guys thinks the parents of the ninja were also ninja in the movie verse like in the show verse??

If so, I have something to say ✋️...

First off, they are about the same age all but not exactly the same age. Lilly and Libber are in first year, Ray is in the second year, Maya is in third.

I'd like to include Wu and Garmadon but I think they were the way they are in the movie by the time this team was in high school too.

If we also wanna include the non-ninja parents, Lou's in first year too and Cliff is second. Oh also they both are in the drama club at school and Cliff has a beef with Lou because Lou is the unofficial leader of the club but he is younger than Cliff. I don't think Lou is aware though, lmao.

Ed and Edna were graduates at that point I guess. Maybe two or three years ago, I believe only Maya would know them from school, she was in first year when they were last.

Lilly and Libber also DESPISE each other in the beginning. Libber is the popular but genuinely nice girl. She is smart, friendly, pretty and also comes from a rich family. Students, teachers, everyone loves her she is just so lovable, but she tends to look "fake" to some for her flawless image. Not the best but a good student, attentive during classes, attentive to people around her, she does everything right and everyone sees that. Some believe there ain't no way she is this perfect.

Libber likes this image, she likes being nice and loved, but Lilly is a threat to this image because unlike any other Lilly somehow gets on EVERY SINGLE NERVE on Libber and often makes her break her perfect persona by making Libber argue with her.

Lilly is a certified troublemaker, the anarchist of the school in a way. She always has something to say when there is injustice, she can not keep her mouth shut when something is unacceptable which always gets her in trouble. She is also pretty into her own freedom. One thing about her, is that Lilly always does what she wants. She also escapes the school for fun almost often. All her troubles would get her expelled if her grades weren't as high as they were.

Eventually, being part of the same team they develop a better relationship, even sorta becoming friends who have the "only I can beat her ass" dynamic but they often fight and bully each other still.

Maya is the brilliant student and ninja. She is ready for every situation, there is almost no situation she can not get out. She is the perfect example of an ambivert, has the biggest sunshine evergy yet she is the calmest and most unphased during moments of terror. Kind of like the heart of the team, if she was to panic everyone would freak out too. She also keeps everyone together, stops the two youngest girls when they are at each other's throat. A good baker too, she often packs things for her friends, and was the one to say "we are friends" first in the team. In a way the others can not understand, she loves studying and learning, she is the most attentive to the ninja trainings too.

Ray is the jester type of student. He is good enough to pass the class, and he is trying his best and he is good ta heart but his deal is mostly that he is good at sports and has cool hobies like knowing how to fight using swords. He is also the only one that is down to start a school revolution with Lilly willingly. He is not the starter of trouble, but he is down if you're down, you know. He won't hesitate to throw punches when he needs to. He is well known and loved. He is often very forgetful of important stuff, forgets to pack the right stuff for school, forgets to attend extra classes and events, even forgets to bring food to school.

Ray and Maya were already dating when the secret ninja force was formed. They are also the first ones to be recruited. Like I said, Maya loves treating her friends and Ray is often almost careless. He cares about others but when it comes to himself he can be negligent. It's not that Ray is dependent on Maya, or Maya is acting like a mother to him, it's just that Maya likes to remind him that he should be cared well for too. After some time Ray starts helping her in the cooking club to lessen her responsibility and takes the duty of bringing the food to others in school after Maya and others are done cooking their stuff.

Libber meets Cliff in a random day, he is kind of a womanizer as well in this universe, he is often shooting his shot with people. Libber is kinda aware of this, but she is also pretty impressed at how it works. She kinda believes she can change him after he starts to stop hitting on everyone and starts trying his shot almost solely on Libber. Maybe because Libber wasn't all that blown away by him at first, as she is on an equal position at school hierarchy. The school thinks they'd be the perfect match, which they seem to agree.

Lilly and Lou start getting close kinda by accident. They knew each other briefly from some classes they share as they are both on their first year, though they weren't exactly friends. Despite Lilly thinking he is cooler than most "cool kids" for the fact that he just minds his own business and runs the drama club, she never aproached him. That is until she gets seperated from the ninja during an attack and finds herself thrown to the remains of broken buildings. The attack happens during a school trip so students are all around, and Lou happens to see her. He doesn't know who the ninja is, obviously, but he still goes up to her to ask if she is okay and helps her get back up on her feet, being the only one to do so. This makes Lilly realise he is also a good person, and after being friends she reveals her identity to him.

Eh maybe I keep writing this some time, lol.

[sophistired18]

Timeskip Kryk part 2! (Sorta?)

Here's some kryk hc's/random scenarios i have if they didn't make a move in highschool and remained pining idiots :)

One thing for sure, I think they would both know that there was something there, but ofc they never talked about it. Especially bc Yaku was going to Russia. Since they didn't do anything about their feelings earlier they both tried sweeping it under the rug and act like it never happened. And ofc that pining never really goes away, but the distance sorta helps. (Not really they miss each other so much)

Kuroo is going in as an intern for the Japan Volleyball Association and sends a photo of him in his new suit and asking if he looks okay for his first day. Yaku leaves it on seen. Kuroo dies inside bc does he actually look that bad?? It makes him panic alittle, although in the end he does very well on his first day, but he's still butt hurt by Yaku's lack of response. Only until the day after does Yaku respond "You look good" and "Sorry. I was busy". This makes Kuroo get mad but also ashamed at how happy it made him feel for Yaku complimenting him.

On the otherhand, Yaku cannot stop freaking out at how fucking good Kuroo looked in that suit. After a good 10 minutes of just gawking at a poorly taken selfie of his "I'm getting over him" crush, Yaku decides his heart cannot handle this today so he makes the hard choice of ghosting Kuroo so that he doesn't accidentally blurt how hot he thinks Kuroo looks. He feels bad but it was a necessary sacrifice to save himself from falling for him all over again. Although it's too late for that bc that image was ingrained into his mind all day.

Kuroo tries not to, but he stalks Yaku's insta page for "Volleyball Research purposes". Kai tries to remind him "You know that's your friend right? You can literally just ask him how he's doing instead of stalking his story to see if he's eaten dinner yet".

Kai, Kuroo, and Yaku are facetiming and Yaku mentions that his hair is getting long. Kuroo asks if he's gonna get a haircut, but deep down he's crying bc yaku looks so cute with his shaggy bangs, please don't chop them. A week later, Yaku posts on his story his new undercut and re-styled bangs that are swept back in the same way that Kuroo is swept off his feet the moment he sees them. Kuroo realizes it might be too late to get over his best friend bc how is he supposed to when this best friend looks THAT GOOD. He screenshots the photo and has failed many times to delete it.

Kuroo sends treats and trinkets from Japan to Yaku on his birthday, which makes Yaku super happy but also super homesick. And it also makes him feel a bit bad bc he only facetimed for Kuroo's birthday. He tells Kuroo he'll send a gift for the next birthday and Kuroo says he doesn't have to, but he does anyways. So now for every birthday for the past 8 years, they've been doing gift exhanges from Japan and Russia. Yaku likes to send treats he enjoys or thinks Kuroo would like, or he'll send something he hasn't tried yet so that they can both try it and review it together over facetime.

One weekend for a business trip, Kuroo meets a very pretty lady who matches what his type in women was when he was younger. She was interested in him and he thought why not, I'm a grown man I can go on dates. The entire time he was expecting it to go wrong or for her to disagree with him, yet none of that happened. The date actually went smooth, she even shared some interests with him. He was sure that she was exactly the kind of person that he would've wanted as a partner a few years ago. But after he walked her to the train station and wished her a safe trip, he immediately called Yaku on impulse. He told him how he went on a date, which Yaku responded asking how it went. Kuroo tells him it went absolutely smooth and that she seems to really likes him. And when Yaku asks "Do you like her?" Kuroo hesitates, "I think I do?". But he wasn't sure how to answer when Yaku says, "Then why do you sound so upset?". After a while in silence, Kuroo just sighs, "I guess we just got along too well. The entire night I suppose I was searching for something else. Something more." They end the call soon afterwards, in attempt to try not to let the implications of those words sink in.

Yaku flies down to Tokyo to visit family for a few days. Kuroo tries not to freak out. He hasn't seen Yaku in 3 years but it feels like its been a decade. He knew about Yaku's departure 3 weeks in advance, so he planned accordingly to find time to hang out with him, but nothing could've prepared him for all of a sudden 4 big meetings back to back all during the week Yaku would be staying, with one of the meetings, if his presentation went well, potentially granting him a promotion. Even then, he seriously considers calling in sick. Yaku tells him over the phone that he's an absolute idiot and he should not risk a promotion for this. He ends up not being able to see Yaku at all, bummed that he didn't even have the time to take Yaku to the airport. Although based on the photo taken from a lunch that Yaku and Kai had bc they were actually able to meet up, Kuroo thinks that maybe it's a blessing in disguise that he didn't see Yaku in person. Bc now he's certain that he would've folded right then. Bc if Yaku looked that good with udon broth all over his lips in a photo, then Kuroo might just die if he sees Yaku in front of him.

Yaku is at a bar celebrating with some of his teammates when Kuroo calls Yaku to wish him a merry Christmas. Yaku steps out the bar and they talk about nostalgic memories, which gets Yaku teary eyed and he's glad they're not facetiming rn bc one, Kuroo can't see how much of a sap he is rn, and two, if he sees Kuroo's face he might actually bawl. When Kuroo wishes him goodnight, Yaku enters the bar with his heart too full that it might just explode. He tries to stay cheery and hang with his teammates, but at some point he had a bit too much to drink, and he just begins crying. His teammates are shocked and keep asking him what's wrong, but then Yaku sobs, they don't know what to do because he's only speaking in Japanese. The day afterwards, Yaku wakes up with a horrible hangover with no recollection of his sob session at the bar. It's only until years later that its brought up again. It was when Kuroo visits Russia for the first time, Yaku introduces him to some of his teammates, with one of them giving Kuroo a confused look that Kuroo quotes as "a life threatening mafia glare" and "He looks like he wants to skin me". It's only until a few days later when Kuroo has returned to Japan and they are all having lunch where the teammate begins laughing and says Kuroo's name as if he had a revelation. This makes Yaku absolutely confused so he asks whats so funny. His teammate pulls out his phone and presses play on a recorded video and laughs "We never understood what you were saying, but I remember I kept hearing you cry 'Kuroo'. It's only now that I realized what 'Kuroo' meant." Yaku is mortified at the video of him sobbing, and his teammates begin poking at him to translate for them but Yaku only blushes so hard at his own cries in the video. He hopes that Kuroo will never see this video, otherwise it'd be the equivalent of Yaku professing his undying love and how much he is NOT over his highschool crush. Luckily, his teammates can't understand a word he is saying and unfortunately, he can't reach the phone from their hand in the air when he tries to delete the video due to their almost 2 ft height difference.

[z-eusie]

hiii moot <3 do you have any miscellaneous headcanons you wish you got the chance to share, but haven't had a good place to put them? if so, what are they? :D

hello <33333

i do have a few actually!!! one of the ones i've been thinking about recently is that the big six are incredibly close of course, but that their .. friend group? for lack of a better term? extends beyond them. and i don't mean the other olympians necessarily, because while they are all family, i'm not going to go and say that they're all "Friends"

but the group in question i like to dub the "titanomachy" group. because i think that all of their early allies are still quite close. i'm talking the styx kids (kratos, bia, zelos, and nike), i'm talking hekate, i'm even potentially talking epimetheus and prometheus depending on the point in the timeline. i'm also talking their partners, so amphitrite and persephone in particular.

like, if they're having a big get together that's not for political purposes or family obligation, i like to that that's sort of the crew who gets together. they're all really good pals (went through a ten year long war together, after all), and they know how to party when they put their minds to it. i just think they should be besties !!!! (and i also adore au's where metis returns so she can be a part of this group again too). their relationships are more complicated than this but i love the idea of that dynamic.

i have a few other little ones, too!

demeter considered iasion her "soulmate", so to speak. she's never loved anyone as much as she loved him.

because my dash has been full of metis love: i like to think metis was the one who taught hestia to cook, who was the first one to truly get through to hera and get to to talk about her feelings. that she was the first to truly be able to calm poseidon down, and that she was the first one to help hades feel at home in his body (binding, sorta). she was zeus' first everything, of course -

if anyone would give him a chance, poseidon WOULD start a family band. i'm lowkey obsessed with the idea of hera knowing how to play drums, though. a small act of rebellion from her lol.

hades has a very complicated relationship with his daughters, but makaria in particular. i'll maybe write about that more later hehe

i've been thinking about some spicy things too... so see below the cut hehe:

zeus and hera's intimacy is very versatile. they both switch back and forth between being dominant with one another, and they mesh suuuper well, always able to meet the other wherever they are at. zeus has only ever had that level of comfort with her. also... lowkey both freaks for going at it in risky places.

poseidon's not super submissive by any means, but he does like when amphi slaps him around a little. and she does.

hestia is still a virgin goddess of course, but i like to imagine that doesn't necessarily mean she's naive. she loves to throw in a somewhat sexual remark now and again just to get a rise out of her loved ones. it works every time.

lets just say. hades has... quite the collection of spicy items and knows how to use them.

demeter is such a romantic when it comes to relationships, but she's also a girlie with needs, and i don't think she gets enough credit for being an unmarried, sexually liberated woman who sleeps with whomever she chooses. i like to think as the years go on, she branches away from male partners and much prefers female ones.

[for-those-who-wait]

Would love to see more of your android Hunter au! Love the idea it just won’t leave my head…

A question I would have for this is Hunter still like a replica of Caleb? Sorta like an Astro boy type thing going on here or what? If so what’s the story behind that if you are willing to share.

Never played become human, despite years of saying I will bc it looks made for me jksskkm, so sorry if I’m missing something there.

Yes I'm so glad!! I'm a very big fan of it and I am very tempted to write something for it (I too have been possessed)

The short answer is that Hunter was made in Caleb's image—as close as Philip could get! Very much an Astro boy situation where he's made as a sort of replacement that was programmed to experience, interpret, and interact with the world exactly as a human would.

As for the long answer and the story behind it, my thoughts are "take canon and replace witches with androids" and that's your initial argument between Philip and Caleb. I haven't thought about it too much but my initial idea is that before the revolution, they both lived in Detroit and worked with androids, and both worked at CyberLife (Caleb because he's naturally fascinated with them and Philip because he's just following in Caleb's footsteps [call it brotherly bonding or unhealthy obsession, take your pick!]), but it's Caleb that sees the early signs of deviancy and sees something more within androids that Philip just can't fathom (that being the capacity for free thought and will). Philip sees this as a betrayal—How dare you see humanity in these machines! How dare you try and extend the sanctity of the human soul to these inhuman bodies of plastic!—and like in canon, he kills Caleb for that betrayal.

Now this all happened in the late 2010s and early 2020s because for some reason, Detroit: Become Human is in a technologically advanced version of our world where CyberLife was founded and androids were first created in 2018 (the actual game and android revolution take place in 2038). I think it would be a few years until Philip does kill Caleb, let's say 2027 or so (because androids pass the Turing test in 2022 and 2027 is the year that a million androids have been sold, so the concept of deviancy was able to marinate a bit and I think that's enough time for the signs to start popping up and for Elijah Kamski, the CEO of CyberLife, to start being weird and existential about it).

So it's 2027, Caleb is dead, Philip is never considered a suspect, is never tried, and the murder is never solved. He is so incredibly not well (my man needs magical levels of therapy and his ass is not getting it). At this point, Philip has been working at CyberLife long enough to have a pretty high status. He totally has the authority and the power to request a custom android to be built off-the-books, probably because of threats or blackmail or whatever other abusive tactics he can pull as a superior to most employees at the company. Because it's freaking weird to make a child android in the image of your brother that was mysteriously murdered.

But Hunter is made like a regular factory-set android with no personality, no emotions, etc. but Philip of course knows exactly how to fix that (he's been working at CyberLife for nine years, he can do these things). It's his version of a sort of middle finger to Caleb, giving an android emotions and free will. Kind of like "Hey, you know how you thought androids were capable of having human emotional intelligence and conscious individual thought and a soul and humanity? Well actually I'm going to give these 'emotions' and this 'humanity' to your android and show you that they aren't real." And he does this by just being the absolute WORST android/child/whatever caretaker in the existence of the entire world in every single possible way because "See? Its blood is blue and it's not dying when I bloodlet it, it's clearly not human. Ah, see how it's become completely catatonic as a result of repeated trauma? Clearly this is just malfunctioning software. It's obviously just broken. See, Caleb? See how wrong you were about androids having humanity?" This man is evil and stupid

Hunter doesn't have Caleb's memories or anything, and let's call the tooth gap a manufacturing error from doing things under the table that Philip (who doesn't do chassis repairs) can't fix without CyberLife setting off alarm bells. It's probably in 2028 or 2029 that Philip packs up and moves to Gravesfield and that leads to the rest of what I talked about in my other post, where Hunter is completely isolated and kept ignorant of the ongoing revolution come 2038, and still doesn't obtain freedom until a long while after that

Thank you for the ask!! I will happily ramble about this AU whenever somebody asks about it. You should totally play the game if you can. I'll be the first to admit it's got issues as a civil rights allegory (thanks, director David Cage) but it is a fun time and such a cool concept and the characters are great and we love Detroit: Become Human in this house. Sorry if any of the terms weren't explained well, I will happily specify more so if anything is unclear, just let me know! Planning on making more content for it at some point :))