#and then venting outta nowhere

[van-is-here]

there's nothing like ur mom telling you she doesn't care about u feeling unsafe & terrified of being on the streets at night :)

[codecicle]

been using this to fight most of my anxiety recently. "oh my god the room is spinning my heart is pounding I can't breath" your honor after reviewing the evidence, who gives a fuck lowkey. pop those shock mints and your dick and get on with your day soldier

[gemharvest]

Do you ever feel in a way that is undefinable but the only solution is to rip off your own face. Girl why do I feel like this.

[ya-mi-la]

Everything's been hard recently. I feel suffocated.

[jessiesjaded]

nothing funnier than when someone finds a random, untagged personal post from like 7 months ago and likes it. What were you doing to find that.

[doodlboy]

Having a job fuckin sucks

[tacitusauxilium]

Sorry for the radio silence for like a month or so.

I’ve been trying to catch up with my reading since I went crazy with buying physical books and I got hyper focused on that. And then I forgot about the 15 or so drafts in the drafts. Lol

I’m going to attempt to get to replies this week. Been also busy running my crew since my lead was off all week so energy was nonexistent anyway. But I’m gonna try my best today!

[hunter-sylvester]

Why are homophobic people so fucking confusing?? Just make it clear what you mean, cunt???? HATE ME WITH YOUR WHOLE PUSSY, JUST CALL ME A SLUR AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR FUCKING DAYYYY

Don’t waste my gay ass time by making me solve a riddle to figure out what you fucking mean~

[paradoxgavel]

gah i am. not havin a good mental health day today. it feels like my rejection sensitive dysphoria is just freaking out about every single little thing (moreso than usual anyway) and making me feel real shitty about myself for no real reason. <:\

[thingcom]

MAKE IT STOP

[gemharvest]

Need to eat before I can lay down but it's leftovers and I don't really have a lot of energy to cook and also most of what we have sounds unappealing anyways so instead I sit and stare at the wall trying to convince myself to even bother.

[nnugatoryextravagance]

Do you ever just, think you're finally free, that you'll finally never have to see someone anymore, and that you can live your life again without them around, but it turns out you were wrong.

And you feel like you see nothing but how much people still love them despite what they did to you, but you cant say anything because you already know that won't work because you already tried in the past and it did nothing but make everybody hate you instead of them.

Yeah, it stings.

[cryptidapprentice]

eep!

[geograms]

I am not okay

Irl I'm always either neutral or somewhat happy, and online I'm usually silly/pettily optimistic, but really everything fucking HURTS and I just sit there worrying about it and nothing gets done. I barely ever show any intense emotion and it just happens at inconvenient times, I don't even know when that started happening, and I don't get what actions affect how I'm perceived so I'm left constantly fretting over each and every word, eventually usually not even saying anything because of this. People always tell me "You're so modest!" or "You have such good manners!" and frankly, I'M JUST SCARED OF WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN IF I DON'T! Never have I ever felt like I really "fit in". Like sure I'm on good terms with everybody, but rarely feel personally invested. Which leads me to my last point: I lack initiative. I never feel like I fucking tried! Hardly any progress feels percieved, I procrastinate like fuckall, and have to triple check instructions to follow them. I don't know where the problems started and that scares me the most. It doesn't help that I'm in a Christian family, so the doubt fucking COMPOUNDS because I've been instilled with the idea that "Maybe I'm not faithful enough."

If I had describe my life, it'd be a Soda Bottle. It was probably fine out of the factory, but gor jostled around too much during transport.

Not to mention all the geopolitical problems and everything you see on the news rn. I'm frequently saying "Thank God I left the States" but honestly Korea has stressed me the fuck out. The educational system gave me a gut punch and I STILL haven't adjusted, some old and/or fat guy North, East, South, West of us could bring about absolute annihilation. And there's a bunch of people dying. Fuckin hell.

[spaceysiamese]

Why are older tv shows SO BAD ABOUT THE STROBING LIGHTS

[chaoticbasicallyuselessbisexual]

I'm so damn angry. we're not even dating anymore. and yeah, alright, I get it. you have fucking asthma. but it's my fucking thing if I want to smoke or not. it's not like I ever smoked when I was anywhere near you and it's not like I'm gonna go and start doing that now. but we're not fucking dating anymore you don't get to tell me shit about smoking being bad for me. ✨️oh no, don't smoke🥺... for me...🥺✨️ fucking hate that shit. honestly, after all the shit we went through and now you give me this shit? what the fuck is wrong with you girl. I'm sick of this shit. alright, smoking is not fucking healthy. I don't give a shit. nothing in this hell hole called earth is healthy, what are you gonna do about it. but smoking is my fucking choice and I'm gonna fucking do it if I as much as fucking please. this was my fucking first cigarette this year and the first thing you do is ✨️don't do this for me✨️

girl I never ever smoked in your fucking presence, ever. stop giving me this shit. get the fuck out. honestly