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bf-rally · 6 months ago

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im getting ready to start the database setup 🫡

#this is like a drafting thing u do before actually making the tables so u dont get confused #the stuff in grey im not gonna worry about for now #but later on might need it #if i ever try to figure out the whole dress up situation #for now #i wanna just get a first usuable version of the site up (hopefully without spending money)#and then find ppl to test it #its gonna be very barebones at first but this like a project im just doing longterm #like the comic im doing #so no worries #also why i need to keep costs to zero as long as possible lol #but yea i have other stuff i wanna do outside just collecting #like if i could figure out how to have short vn moments with the different bfs that would be sick!#i wanna do so many romantic things 😭#tho this is just me spouting off things #lots of ideas but one person so we will see #web development

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amarriageoftrueminds · 5 months ago

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cannot stop thinking about an AU where Bucky gets the same treatment as Steve (ie. serumed and vitarayed.)

So he shoots up to 6' 8" or something ridiculous and is built like a brick shithouse. To everyone else he's almost Too Big, but to Steve it's just like being small again while Bucky is ...Large, and Steve is permanently flustered about it. 😳🥺

#bucky: hey stevie you're not unnerved by how big I am now are ya?#steve: *sweating* n- nO #bucky: *casually leaning giant forearm on steve's shoulder* hey is your asthma coming back??#steve: *panting/wheezing* I'M FINE 🥵#bucky: heheh I'm so big now I bet I could pick you up and spin you around like we used to-#steve: bUCK PLS 😭#bucky barnes #steve rogers #stucky #fic idea #see also: ppl meeting giant bucky and being like 'oh they called those toys bucky BEARS? 😨 yh. yh makes sense'#bucky being self-conscious about his new size finding a dance class full of other non-skinny/average ppl to blend in #(discovering he is now catnip to dancers who want to be made to look teeny & delicate and also flung about like hula-hoops)#steve's extreme protectiveness of bucky being IN NO WAY diminished...#...by the fact that bucky is now a head taller and wider than steve in every direction #alpine looks like a tiny fluffy kitten in his giant hands and ppl are like '???' when she comes closer and is a full grown maine coon #bucky volunteering to test extra-stretchy pants designs for bruce for when he hulks out #being like 'damnit I ripped them right up the crotch again these ones are a wash out' while steve is like 'ohhh nooo. that is. terrible.' 👀

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lord-squiggletits · 1 year ago

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I think the key component to my personal reading of post-Delphi Pharma is that he's trying to be a horrible person on purpose. Not "on purpose" in the way that people have free will to exercise their own choices, but in that Pharma's "mad doctor" persona is a performance he puts on to deliberately embrace how much everyone else hates him. Basically, if people already think you're a "bad Autobot" and a horrible doctor who just kills his patients for fun, why try to prove otherwise to people who have already made up their minds about you? Just fully embrace the fact that people see you as an asshole. Don't try to change their minds. Don't plead for their forgiveness or understanding. Just stop caring. If you're going to be remembered as a monster, you might as well be a memorable monster, and eke as much pleasure and hedonism as you can out of it before karma catches up to you and you inevitably crash and burn.

I mean, I guess you could just go the route of "Oh, Pharma was always a fucked up creepy guy and Delphi was just him taking the mask off," but I really don't like that interpretation because, for one, it feels really wrong to take a character like Pharma becoming evil under duress and going, "Oh well clearly he did the things he did because he was evil all along," as if somehow Pharma breaking under blackmail/torture/threat of horrible death was a sign of him having poor moral character. As opposed to, you know, suffering under the very real threat of horrible death for himself and everyone he cares about while being manipulated by a guy who specializes in psychological torture.

The second reason is that it just doesn't make sense to write Pharma as having been evil all along. I mean...

Occam's Razor says that the best argument is the one with the simplest explanation. Doesn't it make way more sense to take Pharma's appearances in flashbacks, his friendship with Ratchet, his stunning medical accomplishments, and the few we see of him speaking kindly/sympathetically (or in the least charitable interpretation, at least professionally) towards his patients and conclude "This guy was just a normal person, if exceptionally talented." Taking all of these flashback appearances at face value and assuming Pharma was being genuine/honest is a way simpler and more logical explanation than trying to argue that Pharma for the past 4 million years was just faking being a good doctor/person. I mean, it's possible within the realm of headcanon, but the fact is Pharma's appearances in the story are so brief that there simply wasn't room in the story for there to be some sort of secret conspiracy/hidden manipulation behind why Pharma acted the way he did in the past.

I just can't help but look at things like Pharma's friendship with Ratchet (himself a good person and usually a fine judge of character) and the fact that even post-Delphi, pretty much every single mention of Pharma comes with some mention of "He was a good doctor for most of his life" or "He was making major headways in research [before he started killing patients]" which implies that even the Autobots themselves see Pharma's villainy as a recent turn in his life compared to how for "most of his life" he "used to be" a good doctor.

And although Pharma doesn't know this, we as the readers (and even other characters like Rung) know about Aequitas technology and the fact that it actually works, so... if Pharma really was an unrepentant murderer, why couldn't he get through the forcefield too? The Aequitas forcefield doesn't require that a person be completely morally pure and free of wrongdoing or else how could Tyrest get through, just that they feel a sense of inner peace and lack feelings of guilt. Pharma has murdered and tortured people by this point, and put on quite a campy and theatrical show of how much he sees it as a fun game, so why then can he not get through?

It circles back to my headcanon at the start of this post that the "mad doctor" persona is just that-- a persona. Delphi/post-Delphi Pharma's laughing madman personality is just so far removed from every flashback we saw of him and everything we can infer based on how other people see/saw him before that, to me, the mad doctor act is (at least in large part, if not fully) a persona that Pharma puts on to put his villainy in the forefront.

To avoid an overly simplistic/ableist take, I don't think Tarn tortured Pharma into turning crazy. To me, it's more like the constant pressure of death by horrific torture, the feeling of martyrdom as Pharma kept secret that he was the only one standing between Delphi and annihilation, the physical isolation of Messatine as well as the emotional separation from Ratchet, being forced to violate his medical oaths (pretty much the only thing Pharma's entire life has been about), etc. All of that combined traumatized Pharma to the point that the only way he could avoid cracking was to just stop caring about all of it. Because at least then, even if he's still murdering patients to save Delphi from a group of sadistic freaks, Pharma doesn't have to feel guilty and sick about doing it. As opposed to the alternatives, which were probably either going off the deep end and killing himself to escape, or confessing to what he did and getting jailed for it.

In that light, Pharma becoming a mad doctor makes sense. It avoids the bad writing tropes of "oh this character who was good his entire life was actually just evil and really good at hiding it" as well as "oh he got tortured and went crazy that's why he's so random and silly and killing people, he's crazy" and instead frames Pharma's evil as something he was forced into, to the point where in order to avoid a full psychological breakdown and keep defending Delphi, he just had to stop caring about the sanctity of life or about what other people might think of him.

Then, of course, the actual Delphi episode happens, and Pharma's own lifelong best friend Ratchet basically spits in his face and sees him as nothing more than a crazy murderer who went rogue from being a good Autobot. Then Pharma gets his hands cut off and left to die on Messatine. At that point, Pharma has not only been mentally/emotionally broken into losing his feelings of compassion, he's received the message loud and clear: He is alone. Everyone hates him. Not even his own best friend likes him any more. No one even cared enough about him to check if he actually died or not. He will only ever be remembered as a doctor who went insane and killed his patients.

So in the light of 1. Having all of your redeeming qualities be squeezed out of you one by one for the sake of survival and 2. Having your reputation and all of your positive relationships be destroyed and 3. People only know/care about you as "that doctor who became evil and killed his patients" rather than the millions of years of good service that came before.

What else is there to do but internalize the fact that you'll forever be seen as a monster and a freak, and embrace it? People already see you as a murderer for that blackmail deal you did, so why not become an actual murderer and just start killing people on a whim? People already see you as an irredeemable monster who puts a stain on the Autobot name, so why beg for their forgiveness when you could just shun them back? You've already become a murderer, a traitor, and a horrible doctor, so what's a few more evil acts added to the pile? It's not like anyone will ever forgive you or love you ever again.

Why care? Why try to hold on to your principles of compassion, kindness, medical ethics, when an entire lifetime of being a good person did nothing to save you from blackmail and then abandonment? Why put yourself through the emotional agony of feeling lonely, guilty, miserable, when you could just... stop caring, and not hurt any more?

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i'm sure the doylist reason for the writing is just that pharma was a designated villain #so since he's a villain and 'crazy' it's fine for everyone even the good guys to treat him like complete trash #i just think from a watsonian perspective taking a sympathetic approach is way more interesting and logically consistent #what i mean is like. from a meta perspective one of the best ways to show that a character is super evil and not worth saving #is when even the good guy heroes. the ones who are supposed to be kind and compassionate and wise. see him as dirt #and this is also kind of a necessity in most plots bc TF is the kind of series that just needs action villains and long-term antagonists #so not every villain is written or has a plot to be made redeemable. and pharma is one of these bc he's not important or a legacy character #so from a doylist (meta) perspective you could read the autobots' disregard of pharma as a sign of #'this guy is not meant to have your sympathy as a reader. pay no attention to him'#but from a watsonian (in universe) perspective it paints a miserable picture of pharma being utterly forsaken by the ppl he served alongsid #and like yeah i'm super autistic about pharma so of course i view him with sympathy but like #the idea of being a loyal and good person for years only to be subjected to a Torment Nexus of #being blackmailed into breaking all of the oaths you held sacred. under threat of you and all your comrades dying horrible torturous deaths #then when your comrades find out about it they focus solely on the 'harvesting organs' and not on the 'blackmail' part #and then you get literally left for dead by your comrades and best friend hating your guts #and then you get rescued by a guy who uses you as a test subject for his evil machine #this is a fucking nightmare scenario like pharma could hardly be suffering more if the author TRIED to make him suffer #and for me it's like. the evil pharma did can't be decontextualized to what drove him to that. as well as the question of like #how easily ppl can write someone off as evil and turn a blind eye to (or even find satisfaction in) their suffering bc theyre evil #and either brought it on themselves or it's just karma paying a visit #like. i feel like if pharma WERE a shitty doctor and a terrible person his whole life then the delphi situation would feel like karma #but the way it's written and the lore retroactively put in makes it feel more pharma getting thrown in a torture carousel #and THEN becoming evil. but then being treated as if he was always evil or was some sort of bad apple #bc like i'm not opposed to LOLing when a villain gets a karmic torture/death related to the wrongs they committed #but in pharma's case it feels less like karma and more like endless torture + being abandoned by ppl who should have been more loyal

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bikefuckersoftheworldunite · 2 months ago

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since sete was still a repsol honda rider back in 2000 vale and him spent the entire pre season testing together. with other senior repsol riders crivillé and okada absent for the better part of pre season for health reasons.

that’s how we get the only somewhat personal anecdote featuring sete in vale’s autobiography:

#obviously most ppl I think know this bit of lore but #they were already friends then btw; vale was also at sete’s house that year (and in 2001) too #and vale’s autobiography is the sole source for this btw he never mentions this again anywhere (bc he doesn’t talk about sete)#I tried to find if some 2000 articles would maybe mention this but no luck so far:((#there’s a bit about vale and sete testing at welkom tho I posted that article on this blog #they were not teammates tho bc honda had set up a one man team for vale that was a satellite team in name alone #bc repsol honda 2000 team already had 3 riders there lmao #vr46 #motogp #valentino rossi #sg15 #sete gibernau

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idontmindifuforgetme · 1 year ago

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how to stop getting fomo?

I just remind myself that w 90% of the social functions I go to, I want to go home like 20 minutes in. If you obsess over not being invited to something, it’s bc you feel it makes a statement on your self-worth—not bc you feel like you’re missing out on anything special.

Tbh I’ve also just outgrown the desire to go where I’m not celebrated. If people don’t fuck w me enough to invite me somewhere, they’ll be missing out on me too. It’s super cliche but if you know what you bring to the table, it starts becoming incredibly hard to feel like stuff like this compromises your inherent worth as a person. I have my moments bc I’m human, but I’m over it in like 20 seconds bc I can’t bring myself to truly and extensively care for people who fail to find the value in my presence. I wouldn’t want to be around them in the first place, so their making it obvious where I stand in their life saves me a lot of trouble in the long term.

You should not feel the compulsion to be around people who don’t want to be around you.

Btw if you feel like you don’t have agency in this situation—you totally do. If people don’t bother to include you, let it be a compass for how much effort and time and energy you pour into them. I think the whole “I’ll just match their energy” thing can get childish if it’s down to literally how they text you… but if someone isn’t willing to invest in you, just pivot your attention elsewhere. There are 8 billion people on this earth, and your friends’ actions aren’t in vacuum. You control how you react to them & how you delegate your time in the wake of their negligence.

You don’t need to worry and obsess and think of what you’ve missed, bc there are tons of other people out there who can give you similar—if not even better—experiences… and they won’t act like it’s a chore to do it. Losing someone doesn’t just mean losing; it means freeing up the space for someone even better. You never lack. You just transition.

#I like the phrase “invest then test” bc it’s so true #If u invest bit by bit and test someone’s reaction and they’re lukewarm ab it it’s like ok… time to pull back #Time to invest in someone else #It doesn’t make sense to obsess over ppl who don’t care for u bc u can easily find someone who does

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fjordfolk · 7 months ago

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the next sheltie/collie breeder i see make grand claims about their dogs' eye health despite only having done DNA and not actual ophtho, I'm going to hit with a shovel

#this has got to be some sort of virus going around #this. my friends. is why breed- and kennel clubs are/were slow to recommend dna testing for disease #because it looks fancy and thorough and ppl think it makes clinical health tests obsolete when they #very much extremely does not #most DNA kits will check for CRD (component of CEA) and one or two relevant mutations connected to PRA #notably the usually-early-onset kind #but we know there are PRA versions that test clear for that mutation #and there's a whole heap of eye disorders that either should rule out a dog by default or should be avoided in combination #that you will only find by going to an opthalmologist #they loosened the requirements for the sheltie club stud list as well recently. stoppp itttt #i swear i see so much of this all over the place now and its driving me fucking insane.#clinically insane.

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clumsypuppy · 1 year ago

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fuck it. plaguesona

#i thought of this a couple weeks ago on the bus a couple seats away from someone loudly coughing into the open air #i think something snapped and i decided to make a fuckin. medieval ass plague sona. horseman of pestilence fursona #this is also why i was asking abt animals with medical symbolism.. originally i wanted a two headed snake like the staff of caduceus #but it turns out thats actually hermes symbol. the real symbol for medicine is the rod of asclepius which looks pretty similar #the difference is that theres only one snake and its twined around a stick. ironically mercy from overwatch's weapons are named after #the caduceus despite the misconception LMAOOO #snakes were the most consistent medicine related animal i could find even across multiple cultures so it couldve really worked #if i could actually draw scalies.. one of my earliest sketches had a cobra with a syringe at the end of its tail like a rattlesnake #and it had markings similar to the syringe tube but i didnt have much else going on so i scrapped it #i was also recommended animals with less obvious ties to medicine like jellyfish and horseshoe crabs and learned something new ^_^#im not confident i could pull off a non-mammal furry but they were really good ideas i might put into smth else.. i also thought of #axolotls bc of their regenerative thing and growing back limbs but i think that would suit smth like a surgeon or amputation...#possums and bats were also an option bc theyre actually really resistant to most diseases like rabies but i feel like ppl wouldnt know that #if they saw it so it looks a little ironic at a glance. rabbits rats and mice were my second option bc of animal testing and lab rats #less obvious reference but the moon rabbit in chinese mythology is loosely connected to medicine bc it makes the elixir of life #otherwise lab mice in a pharmacy / modern medicine setting seemed fitting and jerboa tails remind me of cotton buds #and. ironically. jerboas are more closely related to elephants than rats and mice. can you believe it #my art #myart #my oc #sona #plaguesona #cottonbud #fur #furry art #character design #ref sheet #oc ref sheet

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akkivee · 1 month ago

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kuukou took ichiro (and sasara lol) to an ankake spaghetti restaurant while he was in nagoya during the 1️⃣📿🎋hinamatsuri event and here he is in his ichiro➡️hitoya voice lines excited to go to an ankake spaghetti shop what if i just started bawLING—

#vee queued to fill the void #the arb chronicles #ICHIKUU BONDING WITH FOOD IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS THEY DO LOL #like what specifically fcks me up about it is that ichiro is heavily implied to have shit eating habits!!!!!!!!#like on ichiro’s desk you see he gets by with cup ramen #and in an article in hypster fc ichiro tends to turn down food even after working his ass off UNLESS he can give it to his bros too #but kuukou’s always finding new shops to try and in those nb days wanted to share them with ichiro #(and what if i say kuukou liking big eaters and ichiro passing food by comes from a similar point of poverty—)#anyway new theory lol!!!! kuukou occasionally tests ppl’s mettle by showing them fcked up food #but if he’s trying to win your heart he will do it thru the stomach and will only show you the best of the best #kuukou won’t be steering ichiro down extreme flavours land bc he’s trying to seduce—

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druidonity2 · 2 years ago

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