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Also I’m soft for a man who loves his wife and family and Odysseus just talking about how much he wants his wife and to be a father was soooo good.
IKR I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
Him saying they’re what he lives and fights for and that Penelope is his everything ALDJDKDJDKDN
The poor man just wants to get home so he can be with his wife and kid 🥺
#he gushes about how much he loves them and misses them like in EVERY OTHER SONG#and I adore him for it#he’s so soft for his family#lovely smilesrobotlover#trin answers#also also in that same vein#him screaming WHO when the prophet told him another man was with his wife#BROKE ME#like I know the prophet was just saying Ody’s changed as a person#after all the trauma that he’s endured#and the trauma to come#but STILL#the brokenness and fury in that one word#and then him crying Penelope’s name at the end of Monster#AAAAAHHHH
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i truly cannot stress how much of a fucking freak ghost is. he is a fucking weirdo. he is so fucking strange. mask? always on. 90% of cutscenes are happening and the man looming in the back, staring off into the middle distance. he speaks a max of, like, six words per interaction. he does not make eye contact or — worse — he makes extremely prolonged eye contact. he is a fucking freak. he is a deranged weirdo. i know we like to gas him up and make him all hot n horny but he is a fucking freak and it's time we start championing him as such
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I really wonder if trauma theorists who say things like "Humans are the only animal that will be in a fright state when physically safe" or "the rest of the animal kingdom doesn't get PTSD" have ever, like
Do you think they've actually ever met an animal?
#staranise original#psychology#child abuse tw#ptsd tw#animal cruelty tw#so much of what we know about the nervous system and behaviour comes from animal studies!!!#the physiological toll of even fairly brief upsetting events on baby rats is evident for the rest of their lives#my cat has been spoiled like a princess for a decade straight#and if you reach out to pet the top of her head with your hand palm-down she WILL smack you#no matter how happy she is with the rest of the interaction#she LOVES being petted on the head if you approach with your hand behind her ears#seeing that A L W A Y S causes her to react out of sheer reflex#even with me#tell me that's not a trauma response#actually don't#I need to go wrap presents
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it's very important to understand how a personality disorder diagnosis functions in the psychiatric system, even if you identify with the diagnosis or find it useful.
personality disorders on your medical record will be used to discredit anything you say or do. they indicate "don't bother listening to this person; apply treatment regardless of their wishes but also they're probably manipulating/attention-seeking so maybe don't bother treating them". needing support becomes attention-seeking. behaviors that would be treated + supported in someone without this diagnosis are ignored or treated as manipulative. providers are instructed to "withdraw warmth" (a real thing in the DBT provider's manual, btw) in response to self-injury or suicidal ideation.
if you have been dx'd with a personality disorder professionally, you likely understand this.
now, here's the important part: this is not an issue of 'stigma' against a politically neutral, pre-discursive True Disease which is being Unfairly Maligned. these diagnoses were formulated based on the idea that some patients cannot be trusted, that some patients seek care too much. they are applied to patient charts as a justification for withdrawing care or as a dismissal of someone "not getting better" fast enough. in the uk, they are often employed by the nhs to shame or problematize people who use large amounts of nhs resources, arguing that receiving a lot of care through the nhs is a negative behavior stemming from a disordered personality.
there are elements of personality disorders which resonate strongly with many people, including myself, but you need to be clear-eyed about the origins + functions of this diagnosis. as a whole, they were created + function as ways to discredit + mistreat noncompliant or "difficult" patients. 'reclaiming' them is not going to change how they function systematically- it is going to make it easier to engage in this systematic neglect by evoking 'ableism' or 'stigma!' when people question the utility or application of the diagnosis.
#psychiatric abolition#before ppl come for my throat#know that i was prof dx'd with bpd + ocpd + both of those dx's were used to neglect + abuse me#but the doctors kindly reminded me not to Stigmatize Myself :) it's Okay To Have Noncompliant Brat Disease Charlie <3#but anyway we will be withdrawing care + writing about u being manipulative for advocating for yourself#but that's Not Your Fault :) You Have A Disease#these were doctors at some of the best hospitals in the country so do with that what u will#not to mention the pathologization of trauma inherent to this but anywayyy#this post brought to you by buy one get one free monster energy
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Dc au- felt like being goofy
…but since Shadow is raising these plants i think we can classify this as a case of passing on generational trauma.
#Sonic always gets woken up by him traumatising the next generation of tomatoes and he’s so sick of him dtyfytfy#the next morning Sonic tells him to write his thoughts down instead of trauma dumping on plants#(shadow’s offended cuz paper comes from TREES-)#sonic au#sonic fanart#sonic fandom#sonic the hedgehog#sonic the hedghog fanart#sth au#sonic the hedgehog au#sonic#art#drawing#sth#doodles#digital art#sonic the hedgehog fanart#sth art#digital aritst#sth fanart#sonadow harlivy au#sonic art#sonadow fanart#shadow sonic#sonadow#shadow the hedghog fanart#shadow the ultimate lifeform#shadow fanart#shadow the hedgehog#sonic x shadow
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No one talks about how michael shelley was angry. no one talks about how michael distortion was murderous. helen barely got that bad and she was the distortion during the apocalypse. michael was quiet with his anger but it ran free when he had the power to hurt people. he wanted to, somewhere deep down. that is before we get to the revenge aspect. he never grew out of his thirst for revenge towards the archives and the institute and gertrude more than anything, the one he trusted and loved like a parent who abandoned him, left him for bait. michael wanted someone dead for his pain, he wanted to hurt someone like he had been hurt.
#michael shelley#michael distortion#the spiral#the magnus archives#tma#tma podcast#i love michael so so so much#he was so sweet and pathetic but he was so angry#im so glad he got to kill someone about his trauma#im so pissed that helen killed michael about it though#he was such an insteresting character and maybe i just didnt really like helen but she seemed so flat#i like michael so so much better#i hope michael comes back for protocol but ik hes dead
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Okay now I've gotten myself angry again. Every time a medical professional is abusive/neglectful the overwhelming response is "Their job is so stressful and underpaid! They deal with so many rude and abusive patients, of course they're like that!!"
You know who else has stressful, underpaid jobs and deal with rude and abusive customers a lot? Retail workers. But if a retail worker started assaulting all of their customers you'd hear all about it, wouldn't you? The consequences would be enormous, and there would be an overwhelmingly negative response, even if it was exclusive to rude customers.
Now imagine this was the norm, and it was socially acceptable, encouraged even, in retail jobs to abuse and assault your customers whenever you feel like it, for any perceived sleight, just because they need to buy groceries and you have to serve them. It would be all over the news, it would be an international scandal with arrests all over the place, there would be exposés of the secret culture of abuse and assault in retail workplaces on every channel and news source with interviews with the victims. Everyone would know about it and everyone would care, because of course that's fucked up.
So why is it different when your victims are sick and rely on you to survive?
#yes this does also double as a cop analogy like many MANY things when it comes to medical professionals#cripplepunk#cripple punk#disability#actually disabled#uk nhs#ableism#medical abuse#medical trauma#Only a matter of time before I get cussed out by a nurse for this. Nurses really are the cops of healthcare#PS. retail workers would be FAR more justified imo#100#500#1k
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holding back (part 2)
early access + nsfw on patreon
#just captain/lieutenant things#ghost and price are an on-and-off-again thing#they take care of each other when it comes up#and sometimes to just relieve stress#they have shared trauma from the loss of price's wing#and simon's whole...wraith business#they've known each other for a long time#and were getting closer before simon's incident but afterwards sort of hurtled into each other#it was really intense and co-dependent for a while but it's levelled out now#one day i will do an explanation post on all the dynamics of poly 141 in this au#in the meantime just enjoy price taking care of his hoard#monster 141 au#ghostprice#captain john price#simon ghost riley#cod mw2#giragi art
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Put that thing back or so help me.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#wen qing#a-yuan#I had a few different ideas for what do for 'JC visits WWX in the burial mounds' but I must say...#JC's genuine baffled outburst at why the hell WWX has a child running around really took me out.#WWX for his credit isn't much of a fatherly figure. More of a 'cool uncle that occasionally plays but has work to do.'#I know it is a common fan headcanon to put WWX as a surrogate parent to A-yuan. It's cute though I don't really see it!#All the Wen remnants and WWX have something a lot more complex than a straightforward found family thing going on.#It certainly isn't a little western nuclear family unit. They are bound by trauma and guilt and they will *not* talk about it.#A-Yuan is the representation of all the children lost to the war. He is also a little seedling that there is hope for the future.#And he is an opportunity for WWX to reconnect with his own displaced childhood.#Right now his rather dismissive of him but we'll get there. Wei Wuxian will have his unhealthy coping mechanism moment with this child.#I sure hope nothing bad happens to them! I hope Jiang Cheng just comes by for a nice visit!
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Being favored by Viren didn't end so well for Claudia either.
#Viren's love comes with insurmountable amount of trauma it seems#the dragon prince#tdp claudia#tdp soren#tdp art#tdp fan art#the dragon prince fan art#tdp season 5#magefam#cw: blood#alt text
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[Pt 1] [Pt 2] [Pt 3] [Pt 4] [Pt 5] [Pt 6] [PART 7] [Don’t Let it Reach the Heart]
Nobody Anymore Nobody Anymore
[This comic is part of my dbhc au, following the chaos and panic that ensues after Doc and Xisuma try to get Etho back online at the start of s9 after a very rough s8 finale that leaves him a little. broken. It's set to the vibes of Joywave's Destruction. This part concludes this comic, but this moment doesn't end here: Don't Let it Reach the Heart will be the title of the fic that will follow the end of Destruction!]
#dbhc#dbhc art#hermitcraft au#dbhc doc#dbhc xisuma#dbhc etho#ethoslab#xisumavoid#docm77#art escapades#hermitcraft#tw gore#tw death#tw main character death#tw body horror#tw glitch#tw glitching#tw eyestrain#tw robot gore#tw head trauma#tw dark themes#tw limb loss#please let me know if theres anything else I should tag! want to be super safe since this is so dark#very excited (very terrified) for Don't Let it Reach the Heart <3#i wanted to end this with a sense of dreadful silence idk#a shot of the three of them individually with how things end... augh#horrible#horrible i say#thank you everyone for coming along on this journey and for your patience with me <3#i appreciate it more than you know!
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1.02 // 1.06 // 1.08 The Stranger vs. Sol on recognizing and differentiating Osha and Mae
#the acolyte#theacolyteedit#starwarsedit#osha x qimir#oshamir#osha aniseya#qimir the acolyte#sol the acolyte#star wars#mae aniseya#sometimes i make things#the acolyte dragging me back to fandom and gifmaking#i am not back on tumblr except i am just for this#i have a couple other gif ideas we'll see if i end up making them#there's something about sol's paternalistic attachment to osha leading him to tunnel vision when it comes to her#mae as an extension of osha#mae as the version that went wrong; corrupted;#whereas the stranger recognises and treats them as different people almost right away#and there is something so compelling to that#that even the person who claims to love you (and does love you in his own way) struggles to even recognise you#and will always see you as that little girl on brendok who needs saving#the stranger sees the parts of her that were unwanted; acknowledges her grief and anger and trauma#whereas the jedi and by extension sol saw that as a threat#ANYWAY im done i dont know anything about star wars except that i need this to be renewed asap
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ghost who never lets soap reciprocate
he’s happy to use his cock; to push soap onto his back or his stomach or hell against a wall and fuck him through orgasm after orgasm, even lets soap suck him off to satisfy his oral fixation. but he never lets go; never lets himself cum even after fucking soap out of his mind and his body aches with need
soap accepts it as part of who ghost is; chalks it up to intimacy or control issues, maybe something to do with his past trauma. maybe that moment of release, when you’re so blinded by how good you feel that you can’t keep aware of your surroundings, is just too much vulnerability for a man like him
little does he know it’s actually bc ghost immediately falls asleep after he cums and he doesn’t want to miss out on giving soap aftercare and watching him fall asleep in his arms
#soap pathologising ghost when hes just a freak is my favourite thing#like yeah hes right#he definitely has intimacy and control issues that are a 100% bc of his trauma#but this is just bc hes a simp#its almost a mirror of my trans soap post#soap thinks its trauma when its just ghost being weird and ghost thinks its trauma when its just soap being trans#neither of them are able to just talk to each other#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#we’re a team. ghost team#save post
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You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again.Â
Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together.Â
If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it.Â
Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog.Â
You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication.Â
Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars.Â
You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy.Â
It’s not your fault.
#felix speaks#trauma#recovery#deconversion#ex cult#ex religious#ptsd#cptsd#healing#disabled#actually traumatized#spoonies#things i need to remind myself with too#it sucks to have to come to terms with the fact#but youll be so much better off once you stop denying yourself the help you need#also re: buying items meant for the disabled#do it!#you are not taking resources away#if you need it you need it#and the more in demand these items are the better theyll be made in the future
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AU based off Nature except I kept thinking about it too hard. Dales not a good dad, but its such an easy problem for him to throw money at, and what do you do when a part is damaged? Well, you replace it.
Basically an AU where Dev gets to experience medical trauma and realizes much sooner how much his dad doesn't love him
#I have IDEASSSS#but only if people are interested#fop#fairly oddparents#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#fop dev#fop dale#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop a new wish#fop nature au#moral orel nature#hurt no comfort#blood#child abuse#child neglect#medical trauma#implied gun violence#Dev only gets a week or two off school because his dad doesn't want people to think anythings wrong#Dale doesn't care thattt much about public optics but people knowing you permanently disabled your son is absolutely not good for business#Dev hates the leg and keeps it as hidden as possible#as far as anyone else knows he just took a week long vacation and came back lazier and crabbier than ever#Dale did it out of his own sick kind of love but to Dev its just a reminder of how replaceable his dad sees him.#just the same as any other of his machines#The doodle in the corner is Dev coming into his own a bit more. He stops trying to look like his dad#Did you know Dev and Dale have naturally curly hair?? They just hair gel it to all hell#I think in this timeline Hazel shows up pretty soon after he returns to school so the accident is pretty fresh#art#digital art#fanart
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If we DO ever get a Good Omens season 3 (and fingers crossed we will) then using the Second Coming as the narrative device to facilitate the final culmination of Good Omens' ideology and message is brilliant, actually.
Because the Second Coming IS NOT another Adam situation. And, contrary to the misconceptions I've seen, It IS NOT about Jesus being born again as a baby, etc, etc.
THE SECOND COMING. QUITE LITERALLY refers to THE LAST JUDGMENT.
As in. The SAME Last Judgment Michelangelo painted on the walls of the Sistine Chapel. As in - THE JUDGMENT of the Living and the Dead. THE LAST, FINAL, ETERNAL JUDGMENT.
It's the WHOLE thing Armageddon was leading towards. Book of Revelation speedrun: the world ends, everyone dies, and then they get resurrected again to be judged by JESUS himself. He will flick through the Book of Life (WINK WINK WINK DO YOU SEE HOW LOUDLY I'M WINKING AT YOU???), and if your name is there he will go "oh nice you deserve eternal paradise! :D" and if your name is ERASED from the Book of Life he will go "oh no, sorry, you go to the lake of fire for eternity now D:" (except apparently in Good Omens lore it'd just DOOM YOU TO NON-EXISTENCE FOREVER???)
And if you THINK about it, The Last Judgment is the ultimate manifestation of moral absolutism. No shades of gray, no chances. Just BLACK, and WHITE. Never mind that you're like Wee Morag and Elspeth, who are forced to do "bad" things because of circumstances. It's either you pass Judgment Day, or you burn (or disappear forever.) And the way THINGS are going in the Good Omens universe? I don't think there's ANYONE "good" enough to be "saved." Not Crowley, not Aziraphale. Hell, not even the Archangels themselves.
So it provides a PERFECT opportunity for Aziraphale and Crowley to UPEND that SYSTEM entirely.
I think that's what Crowley and Aziraphale would do in s3: establish a new kind of system in which angels and demons have free will to determine the right (or wrong) choice.
Giving them the APPLE, so to speak.
And then they'll go off to retire in a cottage, together at last.
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens meta#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#crowley#im sorry but i choke everytime someone refers to a baby jesus for the second coming#like i love yall and parent trapping aziraphale and crowley by the infant son of god would be amusing as heck#but also i rlly think this is about the Last Judgment guys KSLDSKDKLDS#thank you good omens yes this IS in fact how i use my collection of niche trivia on christian eschatology#putting my religious trauma into good use iktr
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